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Und in meinem Gesicht steht HALT DIE FRESSE


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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/22009883/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/22009883/ Tue, 16 Dec 2008 05:35:04 PST
Many thanks to




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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/21782793/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/21782793/ Tue, 02 Dec 2008 12:30:18 PST So here are the only not thaaat depressing news I've got for you:

Don't laugh at me:
[link]

I won't wear them, I swear.
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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/20903248/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/20903248/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 09:55:00 PDT My mother deleted every single data that was on my computer. Means: All my music is lost, my whole photos are lost, every digital drawing/painting I made is lost, all the programs that were installed on my computer are lost, a.s.o.
There's nothing on PC anymore and I won't get my saved files back.
Lots of my music files were downloaded and I do not have any copies of those downloads.
I saved some of my photos on CD's, but I can't bring like 20 folders with photos back.
It's all gone. That's my mothers fault.
Yeah, she's sorry for that, it wasn't her intention she says.
I don't care.
A lot of things that are very important to me were saved on my computer, and she just deleted them. And now she can't understand why I'm angry.
It would make me happy to take a hammer and destroy some of the things that belong to her.
I might do so.

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/18451570/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/18451570/ Thu, 22 May 2008 17:25:41 PDT When I'm looking at my "new" photos it feels like I'm not photographing things I really like to photograph.
I don't know whether this is just in my mind, because I'm reminded of "good old times" when I'm looking at my old photos...

When I started photographing I loved to take b&w photos of places, architecture, stuff like that. I went outside and took about 100 photos of everything I found interesting. I stopped doing this.
I started telling myself that it's not worth the time. I startet telling myself that the photos won't be looking good anyway. I started caring about people that were looking strangely at me when they saw me walking through town taking photos of buildings.
And I really don't know why I did this, and I don't know whether I'm caring enough about this to change something.

_{This is pathetic, isn't it?}
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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/17147725/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/17147725/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 11:20:43 PST Art Karlsruhe 2008

Photography:
Pavel Banka: [link]
Göran Gnaudschun: [link]

Painting:
Sascha Kürschner: [link]
Maria Temnitschka: [link]
Inna Artemova: [link]
Rosa Lachenmeier: [link]
Serafino Maiorano: [link]
Tina Tahir: [link]
Jan Davidoff: [link]
Alberto Zamboni: [link]
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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/16804248/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/16804248/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 17:02:23 PST Wenn ich mich wegdrehe heißt das, dass ich nicht reden will. Ich dachte das wäre eine verständliche Geste.
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I'm still sorry for not taking/uploading any new photos, creativity has left me...at least when it's about taking photos.
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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/16686294/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/16686294/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 07:21:13 PST


"Tell me 5 Secrets of your life, that has never been told to anyone ^~^

Everytime, you have write your answers, you have to Tag 3 more people and let them write their answers into this Journal!"

1. I'm obsessed with some One Piece characters (and I think that's kind of sick xD).
2. I love to wear grey socks with my black Chucks.
3. I sometimes talk to my food (mainly toast and muffins).
5. I love to make little ships out of paper and write "pirate ship" on them.

I tag:
and
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OMG! Is this really a...?!

]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/16012400/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/16012400/ Thu, 20 Dec 2007 09:57:25 PST [link] + [link] + [link] †

I almost had them...
I have to send them back, they don't fit, they aren't available in my shoe size...yes, I know I'm an asshole because I'm sad cuz I can't have those boots.

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/15663652/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/15663652/ Mon, 03 Dec 2007 07:18:02 PST INTERNET!!

_{[link] = 0}

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/15335424/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/15335424/ Fri, 02 Nov 2007 17:48:31 PDT

[...]

Du warst auch mal verliebt, doch das ist lange her –
heute liebst du keinen mehr.
du wüsstest nicht, warum
Hast dein Gefühl einfach getötet, irgendwann –
damit dich nichts verletzen kann.

[...]

Verdammt dazu, allein zu sein –
ein ganzes Leben lang allein.
Sieh dich doch um, sieh endlich ein:
du bist allein, du bleibst allein!

Allein...

[Die Ärzte - Allein]



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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/15239949/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/15239949/ Sat, 27 Oct 2007 07:47:23 PDT I got a new cam! ---> [link]

_{Birthday + Christmas present in one T__T}

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/14938322/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/14938322/ Sat, 06 Oct 2007 09:01:09 PDT [link] [link] [link]

I guess my mother just loves to buy shoes... xD

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/14759922/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/14759922/ Sun, 23 Sep 2007 14:58:32 PDT Warum sind so viele Menschen so unheimlich dumm?

Warum sind ALLE Menschen so unheimlich dumm?

Wie kann man das ertragen? Kann man das überhaupt? Order wird einfach nur erwartet, dass man es kann?

Wie kann man nicht verstehen, dass irgendwann mal einer ausrastet?

]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/14562350/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/14562350/ Sun, 09 Sep 2007 14:58:52 PDT
I don't want to go to bed... v__v

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<sub>btw, I got a tripod *__*

EDIT: I just deleted some of my scraps and 2 or 3 pictures from my gallery, I also moved some of my photos from my gallery to the scraps.
I guess I'll delete some more scraps soon.</sub>

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/14406219/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/14406219/ Thu, 30 Aug 2007 06:41:17 PDT 2 pair of new Chucks + me =
They are so... *_*

Already exchanged shoelaces

You are so beautiful to meee...!

Grün, grün, grün ist alles was ich habe...

Don't look at my socks

All Stars together

^{just shoelaces...}

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/14210761/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/14210761/ Fri, 17 Aug 2007 12:02:53 PDT 1. Do you like animals?
Some...
2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
No.
3. Are you athletic?
Not at all x__X
4. Are you: thin, fat, athletically built etc:
I'm...normal..?
5. How much do you weigh?
53,3 kg
6. What's your height?
1,63 m
7. Shoe size?
38?
8. Girls - are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
Tomboyish and girly is not normal? wtf?
10.How old are you?
17 X___X
11. When is your birthday?
July 22nd
12. Do you like to receive giftart?
Yes...? o__ö
13. Are you sociable?
Not really
14. Do you have many friends?
No
15. What's your race?
Aryan XD *joke* German
16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
Depends...
17. Are you single or taken?
Single
18. Do you eat meat?
Yes.
19. Are you paranoid?
Not really.
20. Do you read a lot?
Unfortunately not = (
21. Do you listen to music, what kind?
The GOOD kind of music
22. Do you play any instruments?
No.
23. How long have you been drawing?
Since I'm able to hold a pen in my hands oo
24. What's the meaning of life?
There's no meaning...?
25. Tag a bunch of people! They MUST take this quiz and post it in their journal!




(sry, schon wieder xD")

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/13869706/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/13869706/ Wed, 25 Jul 2007 05:51:11 PDT Summer holidays!!

6 weeks of doing nothing at all! And I don't have to go on vacation with my parents


Weißt du noch wie's früher war?
Früher war alles schlecht.
Der Himmel grau, die Menschen mies.
Die Welt war furchtbar ungerecht.
Doch dann, dann kam die Wende - unser Leid war zu Ende.


Hip hip hurra!
Alles ist super. Alles ist wunderbar.
Hip hip hurra!
Alles ist besser als es damals war.

[Die Ärzte - Hurra]





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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/13734890/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/13734890/ Sat, 14 Jul 2007 16:34:50 PDT Janus- Auferstehung

FINALLY!! I've been waiting for this CD for about 6 weeks and now I got it! I'm so happy right now, it's (one of) the best CD(s) I've ever listened to, I really love every single song on it


Das Ende der Welt ist nicht weit fort
von ihrem Zimmer unterm Dach.
Nachts kommt ein harter Wind von dort
der lässt sie frösteln, hält sie wach.

Durch einen Riss am Himmel
sieht sie wie die Zeit vergeht.
Sieht das Chaos, sieht die Sterne
und wie schnell die Welt sich dreht.

Die Tage werden enger
die Wege länger.
Es wird nichts mehr kommen
ihr Abstieg hat begonnen.
Sie sieht nicht mehr hin.

Ein Leben wartet
irgendwo da draußen auf sie.
Eines, das all die Mühen lohnt.
Sie sagt, sie sucht es Morgen
und manchmal glaubt sie, was sie sagt.
Ein Leben wartet
irgendwo da draußen auf sie.
Eines, das über allem thront.
Sie sagt, das nimmt die Sorgen
und manchmal glaubt sie, was sie sagt

[Janus - Die Tage werden enger]



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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/13470685/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/13470685/ Sun, 24 Jun 2007 10:47:42 PDT [Weena Morloch - Kugel im Gesicht (9mm)]

Du willst vor mir verbluten?
Nichts leichteres als das.
Erschießt was euch kaputt macht,
erschießt was euch zerbricht,
Die Lösung aller Fragen ist die Kugel im Gesicht.

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Ich nehme irgendeines von den vielen, ganz egal
Ob es eine liebe Seele hat, ein Mensch ist's allemal.
Es steht mir bis zum Halse, ob ihrs wollt oder nicht
Hat der, der mir zu nahe kommt 10 Kugeln im Gesicht.

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33 Days</sup>

]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/13301741/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/13301741/ Mon, 11 Jun 2007 10:22:46 PDT 5-6

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/13126192/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/13126192/ Mon, 28 May 2007 13:57:04 PDT I actually only want to get rid of my old journal with all this "kill me" stuff in it o___o"

So...vacation! = D but I'm bored, not "= D" :/ and my friends don't have time for me and it's raining and blah so not "= D" either óó
But okay...vacation, at least... = D

I don't want to think of the time after this vacation x___X" I don't want to get all the bad tests back and stuff like that... "=__=


...and I'd like to take photos or draw something but right now I'm not creative at all... v___v


^{Never mind...}

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12966512/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12966512/ Tue, 15 May 2007 14:34:57 PDT I'm too stupid, I'm not good at German, I can't do this shit X___x I don't want to write this test, I'll get a 6 anyway... x__X"""
Damn...

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Wenn das mal alles so einfach wär
Dann hätt ich drei Sorgen weniger
Dann wär die Welt voller Zuversicht
Ja, aber so einfach ist es leider nicht...

[Die Ärzte - Alles So Einfach]


Self-pity, blah blah blah, who cares?
_{Kill me!}

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12840201/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12840201/ Fri, 04 May 2007 13:17:48 PDT
^{[One day I'll marry this emoticon <3 xD]}

I'm bored... [as always? xD]
There's nothing on TV, I'm sick of listening to music, there's no one to talk to [or no one that's interested in talking to me in any way xD], no DVDs, too early to go to bed... b-o-r-e-d : |
Hm...well...I could study Math, or French...

Blah...


I actually only wanted to post these links (lol) :

[link] + [link] + [link] + [link] [= edit]

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12713760/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12713760/ Tue, 24 Apr 2007 05:46:13 PDT
And right now I should be doing my homework and studying Biology, or Math, because on 24th May there will be some kind of exams [Math, German, English] and I haven't started studying yet.

I hate myself. -.-

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12601760/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12601760/ Sun, 15 Apr 2007 06:43:59 PDT When you're on a golden sea
You don't need no memory
Just a place to call your own
As we drift into the zone

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

We'll run away together
We'll spend some time forever
We'll never feel bad anymore

[Weezer - Island In The Sun]


Easter holidays are over...and there are only 103 days till summer holidays Yey...


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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12427999/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12427999/ Mon, 02 Apr 2007 11:53:33 PDT
[link]

---> Lachanfall und die Leute haben mich [mal wieder] komisch angeschaut :/ xD

EDIT: Später am heutigen Tag dann noch das hier: [link] lol

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12323563/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12323563/ Sun, 25 Mar 2007 13:26:01 PDT ...but okay...

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I went to art Karlsruhe today...and of course I forgot to take my cam with me -.- I was 100% sure that I put it in my bag, but nooooooooo... Ihatemyself |:
But I saved some of the artist names I liked the most on my mobile-phone:

Ademaro Bardelli: [link]

Robert Weber: [link]

Ronald Franke: [link]

Clemens Erlenbach: [link]

Sabine Chistmann: [link]

Torsten Ruehle: [link]

Daniel M. Thurau: [link]

Jean Paul Albinet: [link]

Andreas Wachter: [link]

Monika Thiele: [link]

Roland Schauls: [link]

Susanna Storch: [link]

Slava Seidel: [link]

Fabio Calvetti: [link]

[can't find the onthers on the net]
And I was surprised that there were also pictures from Chagall and Picasso o___o

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12232727/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12232727/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 13:00:55 PDT [link]
I've been there last year, and it was great *__* [but after a while I got tired because it was just too much art at the same time x__x xD"]

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12035585/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/12035585/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 04:59:14 PST



The Rules Are As Follows
1. Thou shalt put your music player on shuffle.
2. Thou shalt press forward for each question.
3. Thou shalt use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Thou shalt tag 5 people and rain hell upon humanity.
5. Thou shalt bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.


How are you feeling today?

Die Ärzte - Schunder Song

° "Immer mitten in die Fresse rein" yeah... xD

Will you get far in life?

Ill Nino - When it cuts

° "Though I'm right , I don't think I'll win this fight - But I'm trying though it's ripping me inside"

How do your friends see you?

Linkin Park - Faint

° "I am a little bit insecure , a little unconfident [...]"

What is your best friend's theme song?

Bullet For My Valentine - The Poison

° "Holding on to you…to keep from falling"

What is the story of your life?

Die Ärzte - Red mit mir

° XDDDDDD~

What was high school like?

Seeed - Dancehall Caballeros

° "Hörmal, du hast den Anschluss verlor'n! Dafür bekommst du jetzt´ n Satz warme Ohr'n." lol?

How can you get ahead in life?

Evanescence - Your Star

° "Find your own way out"

What is the best thing about your friends?

Slipknot - (Sic)

° Uhm... oô

What is in store for this weekend?

HIM - Vampire Heart

° ???? x___x

To describe your grandparents?

Billy Talent - Pins And Needles

° I don't like this shuffle thing <<

How is your life going?

Paoa roach - Getting Away With Murder

° "Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness"

What song will they play at your funeral?

Nirvana - About A Girl

° LOL

Will you have a happy life?

Evanescence - I Must Be Dreaming

° =\

What do your friends really think of you?

Bullet for my valentine - Suffocating Under Words Of Sorrow

° wtf?

Do people secretly lust after you?

Scars of life - Shallow

° This is strange... x___X

How can I make myself happy?

Ill Nino - This Time's For Real

° "I don't want to leave my dreams behind"

What should you do with your life?

Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything About You

° ?! Oö

Will you ever have children?

Rise Against - Redy To Fall

° Seems like this means no...? o__ô


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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11998997/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11998997/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 10:47:12 PST



TYPE YOUR FIRST NAME WITH YOUR...

1. FINGERS: Tanja

2. CHIN: tzasnja x__x

3. ONE FINGER, EYES CLOSED: tanza

4. ELBOW: tanja

5. NOSE: tanja

6. PALM: ztanj )=

1.) List Four fandoms you have.

Four what..? ô__ö

2.) Have you ever slept in the back of a car?

Yes...?

3.) Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?

No

4.) List four people that you look up to the most.

1. N
2. O
3.ON
4. E

5.) How many pets do you own as of now?

0 T__T

6.) Which do you prefer white or black?

Black .__.

7.) Who is your most played character?

I don't have a "most played character" o__ö

8.) Choose one or the other, not both:
>Being stuck on an island with your best friend
>Being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances to make friends

Being stuck on an island with my best friend [though I guess I would kill her after a while xD]

9.) Name three aspects that tell who you are.

1. silent
2. aggressive
3. misanthropic

10.) If you could have a power what would it be?

The power to make people disappear! *__*

11.) Who was the last person you talked to?

My brother.

12.) Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?

My mother...when I was 5 or something...

13.) Write down the first five words that pop into your head:

1. Cat
2. Pirate
3. Veronika
4. Josephine [names are words too, aren't they?]
5. Food

14.) What's one thing you wish you could do better?

Drawing :/

15.) Do you like the way you are?

No? ö__ô

16.) Choose, Summer or Winter:

WINTER! = no insects <3

17.) Choose, Rain or snow:

Rain

18.) Water or ice?

Water

19.) List two odd things about yourself

1. I very often think of strange words and sentences that make no sense like "toastcake" or "bloodfoam" or "Our postman is so friendly...but that's his job, he's a doctor." X__x"
2. Dunno...

20.) Now list 6 people who should do this quiz!

No one will read this, but okay:








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... ]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11816406/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11816406/ Wed, 14 Feb 2007 14:28:13 PST 6 weird / random / interesting things about yourself


Tagged by:



1. I like to be alone.

2. Few days ago I bought a pirate-flag in a toyshop and walked through town while carrying it on my shoulder. óO

3. I love almost everything that has to do with pirates.

4. I can't get enough of coloured shoelaces [+Chucks] <3

5. I'm not a "fan" of any band, group or musician (there are bands I like, but I'm not what most people call a "fan").

6. The only thing I'm living for are summer holidays. <3 ;__;


I'll tag:





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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11598225/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11598225/ Sun, 28 Jan 2007 10:32:03 PST Apathy, the lack of emotion, motivation, or enthusiasm; a psychological term for a state of indifference.

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Good morning day
Sorry I'm not there
But all my favorite friends
Vanished in the air
It's hard to fly when you can't even run
Once I had the world, but now I've got no one

If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to push me around
I would change my direction
And save myself before I drown

[Three Days Grace]

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11456486/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11456486/ Tue, 16 Jan 2007 06:18:33 PST
I have some ideas for taking photos, I just can't translate them into action, because there's always someone/something bothering me.
I actually don't have got time because I have to study for a lot of stupid tests...and if theres a bit of free time left there's my family keeping me off from taking photos. I haven't had any good ideas in a long time...so it's just pissing me off that there's ALWAYS someone that has to get on my nerves.
So sorry for uploading crap or nothing. I probably won't get the time to take "good" photos soon...

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11423179/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11423179/ Sat, 13 Jan 2007 14:15:52 PST Drawing-account:

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11385262/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11385262/ Wed, 10 Jan 2007 10:42:36 PST I HATE MATH.

lol x___X"
Tomorrow I'll get a 6 [Germany: grades: 1(best)-6(worst)] I'm the best!

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11304875/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11304875/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 18:08:06 PST Auf einer Brücke ziemlich hoch
Hält ein Mann die Arme auf
Da steht er nun und zögert noch
Die Menschen strömen gleich zu Hauf
Auch ich lass mir das nicht entgehn
Das will ich aus der Nähe sehn
Ich stell mich in die erste Reihe
Und schreie

Der Mann will von der Brücke steigen
Die Menschen fangen an zu hassen
Bilden einen dichten Reigen
Und wolln ihn nicht nach unten lassen
So steigt er nochmal nach oben
Und der Mob fängt an zu toben
Sie wollen seine Innereien
Und schreien

Spring

Ich schleich mich heimlich auf die Brücke
Tret ihm von hinten in den Rücken
Erlöse ihn von dieser Schmach - ja
Und schrei ihm nach

Spring
Erlöse dich
Spring
Enttäusch mich nicht
Spring
Spring für mich
Enttäusch mich nicht

[Rammstein - Spring]

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03:07 alone, I don't want to go to bed, I don't want to wake up.

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11260273/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11260273/ Sun, 31 Dec 2006 15:06:19 PST Happy New Year To Everyone!

I hope my school will start to burn because of the firework o___o

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11172709/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11172709/ Sun, 24 Dec 2006 09:10:17 PST Joyeux Noël!
Buon Natale!
Feliz Navidad!
Frohe Weihnachten!
[...sorry, but there aren't other languages in my dictionary ]

I'm bored... [I hate Christmas!] X___x""

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omg, omg, omg, it's a...!!

The most outstanding...stuff...on earth!

[link] My sense of humour is completely gone...

]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11113316/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11113316/ Tue, 19 Dec 2006 06:28:01 PST Hate ain't enough to describe me
Somewhere between screaming and crying
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supposed to be

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Scream like you never have before,
Scream!
Scream till you cant scream anymore,
Scream!
Scream like your throat is bleeding,
Scream!
Scream till your heart stops beating,
SCREAM FOR ME!

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I'm cold, I'm ugly
I'm always confused by everything
I can stare into a thousand eyes
But every smile hides a bold-faced lie

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The whole world is my enemy - and I'm a walking target
[...]
Let me tell you how it's gonna be
I'm gonna kill anyone who steps up in front of me

[Lyrics By Slipknot]

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Allerdings hat man, wenn man alt ist, nur noch den Tod vor sich, aber wann man jung ist, hat man das Leben vor sich; und es frägt sich, welches von beiden bedenklicher sei, und ob nicht, im ganzen genommen, das Leben eine Sache sei, die es besser ist, hinter sich als vor sich zu haben.

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Die große Mehrzahl der Menschen ist so beschaffen, daß ihrer ganzen Natur nach es ihnen mit nichts ernst sein kann als mit Essen, Trinken und Sichbegatten.

[Arthur Schopenhauer]

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11069309/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11069309/ Fri, 15 Dec 2006 04:32:21 PST [and ]

Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 Weird Habits/Things About Yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 Weird Habits/Things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "You are tagged" in their devPage comments and tell them to read yours...

1. I always have to put creme on my hands after washing them. X__x"

2. I like to batter my French-book when I'm angry. lol

3. I always start thinking of very stupid things when I have to prepare for a test [eg.: there was a heading in my french-book "les annees ado" and I was sitting there and adding an l and an f to the word "ado"...then I started to laugh...and I couldn't stop xDDD~]

3. I want to marry my shoes [All Stars] .

4. I always make a really loud noise when I'm wiping my nose [sounds like an elephant xD].

5. When I'm angry I start making songs out of what makes me angry [like: "I hate school lalala I hate it so much lalala..." xDDD]

6. I ALWAYS blush when a teacher asks me a question [only when didn't put my hand up].

I'll tag...

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When I said good morning,
I was lying,
I was truly thinking of,
How I might quit waking up

[Flyleaf - Much Like Falling]

If I needed someone to control me
If I needed someone to push me around
I would change my direction
And save myself before I drown

[Three Days Grace - Drown]

]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11024706/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/11024706/ Mon, 11 Dec 2006 05:24:21 PST Something was wrong with my internet connection so I wasn't here for about 2 weeks [noticed it? ]. There are 172 deviations I have to take a look at and 41 messages I have to answer...yey... <<" lol
Oh, and I also have to submit a lot of photos
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Soo...what happened during this 2 weeks...?
Nothing...actually
Well...the exhibition was shitty...no one really looked at my photos...but okay... x__o
Theeen some one announced to run amok [at the place where I live] last week on Wednesday...everyone was kind of nervous at school..but actually it was a pretty boring day...because...nothing happened. o__O" My classmates and me were making fun of it, one girl cried, some went home because they were too scared, others did not even go to school because they heard about it on the radio...blah blah blah~ uninteresting -.-

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I deserve to be clicked!

This is how YOU will die! Muhahahahahahaha!!

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Title: My last English teacher [] said this [Apples To Replace German Boys]...I can't remember the context...but it sounds funny

]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10777388/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10777388/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 12:09:15 PST Badischer Kunstverein] and there will be an exhibition of the members art on December 4th aaand my mother wants to submit some of my photos!! There's still a week left till we can submit my work, but I'm already excited X___x xDD ...I'm stupid, I know lol
I was printing a lot of my b/w photos today and I just finished arranging them, but there's still some work left Well...and I actually don't like what I've done because my photos are too amateurish... -.-" My mother says it looks good...but I guess she knows as much as I know about photography [=nothing] lol X___x""

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This contains a lot of great, amazing, cool and very beautiful art!

I'm a cute little animal, give me a cuddle by clicking me!

]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10722994/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10722994/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 12:45:20 PST rainbowlollipoppinkheartfluffycloudkitte nsmilestarsdreamkissteddybearhappycozypu ppywhatever - fuck you" o__o
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I'm tired with being aggressive lol so I'm in the "I want to go to bed" phase. It's always these two phases: aggressive/tired/aggressive/tired/aggressive/tired...sometimes even tired/tired/tired/aggressive/tired[...] xD
(You see I'm also bored lol) so here's my writing attack xD

Got a math test on Thursday [I like to call it Math ERROR, because of my pocket calculator. Yes, I'm even too stupid to calculate by using a pocket calculator, it very often sows me "Math ERROR" instead of a result xDDD], and as always I started studying 7-6 day before the test, and as aaallllwwwwaaayyysss I noticed 2 days before the test that I actually don't know anything. So now there isn't enough time left to try to understand everything...or something...or anything...? but the good thing is I can prepare myself mentally for a bad mark...even if I don't care about numbers written on a piece of paper that want me to show how intelligent/able to learn something/stupid I am.

Math is like listening to a language you don't understand
Math is a bunch of numbers and letters that don't fit together
I studied and studied and tried to understand
But I can't

[spontaneous-mindless-stupid-not/bad-rhyming-poem © NOTspecific]
XDDDDD

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Found this in my book for English classes XD:

Shakespeare: "So what do I do now?
OK, sure, I could,
you know, go on.
But on the other hand,
maybe I should
kind of kill myself."

Editor: Nice, Mr Shakespeare, but maybe a bit long? Now, what about this? "To be or not to be? That is the question."

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Have you seen my sense of humour?? °___°"

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I am a monkey with three eyes

]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10606146/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10606146/ Fri, 03 Nov 2006 16:57:13 PST
I'm in a very strange mood and I want to write something, so you should better stop reading this now.

My parents want me to go to bed but I'm too high-spirited, I feel like I drank 2 liters of coffe xD but it's more a negative sort of mood... lol I feel like screaming at someone...or at myself but who cares...

Classes start again on Monday, I had one week vacation and somehow I only started relaxing yesterday. I need at least one more week vacation. x___X I'm getting aggressive only by thinking of school...by thinking of those stupid ******** I'll have to see again and the tests I'll have to do [and the test I'll get back]...I guess you know where the ideas for those "amok" photos are from. xD <<" I better shouldn't go on writing about this, because if I do you'll start thinking I'm mentally ill... o__ö lol
When I'm thinking about school [okay, not only school...ha ha...] it feels like...I'm looking up and there's a big black rock falling down on me and...I can't run away from it, I just can stand there and wait for it to squash/kill me. And I know it will squash/kill me in the end.
...sounds sad lol but I don't feel sad, I'm not even scared, just despaired...a bit...
And yes, I don't want to believe all this "this is just a phase, it'll get better" shit...because...maybe I'm too stubborn, maybe I like this self-pity, maybe I'm too stupid...or maybe I just don't see any truth in this sentence.

...Damn this sounds so pathetic <<" ...but guess what...I can be happy too...just not now xD

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10560740/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10560740/ Mon, 30 Oct 2006 15:01:51 PST You think that I don`t want to hate you
I know that I never did like you
This is not another passing phase

This is war
And I swear that I`m not
giving up or giving in

[Ill Nino]

Blah blah blah, I know, don't take me seriously, I'm just a teenager...or however you want to call it.

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10442981/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10442981/ Thu, 19 Oct 2006 08:32:56 PDT
I know this sounds like I'm saying education is shit, but I don't think like that. We all need education. And I know there are people that are good at Math and French [just examples]. And they might want to study French/Math or something else at which they need it. The "problem" is that those talents are not supported at school.
[here] We all have to study the same subjects till we can do Abitur [= German school-leaving examination and university entrance qualification], after that there's the possibility to go to the uni and study, study subjects at which the respective persons are good at and like to do. But not everyone gets there. Some people are getting bad marks because they're just too lazy but there are also ones getting bad marks because they're not good at some subjects or because the school is just bad. And because of that they might don't get the chance to do Abitur, to go the uni and do what they're good at. They might get bad school-leaving qualifications and won't be able to get a job they really like to do or even end up being unemployed. And this does not has to be their fault. There are a lot of teachers that don't really care if someone does not understand something they just go on like that and that person has to take extra lessons to understand something he/she should have understood at school, but because of that teacher he/he spends his/her free time on understanding it. At least it's like that on a lot of public schools. The teachers get payed for what they do, they can't be fired because they're civil servants (and at present there are not enough teachers, because the state does not want to spend money on that), so they don't care. Of course not every teacher is like that, but there are enough bad teachers. If your parents have enough money you can go to a private school, there the teachers have to give good lessons, because if the parents are discontented they might let their son/daughter go to another (private) school that means the private school loses someone that pays, they need the money so they can't risk that. Yet you can say that if your parents are "rich" you can have good school-leaving qualifications easier than if your parents don't have that much money. And I think that can't be in a country like Germany.
But it seems like one can't change anything about this.

It's just like that and you have to accept this...accept that you have to spend time on studying stuff you'll never need again, that you have to spend too much time on understanding important things because some people don't care about your future and that "rich" people have better chances in life.

Maybe this is exaggerated, but it's my opinion...

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Wir sind die Bösen

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I bet you have nevhttp://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10370276/ Thu, 12 Oct 2006 14:42:55 PDT
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Ich will in den Himmel fallen...
[I want to fall into the sky...]

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]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10243154/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10243154/ Sun, 01 Oct 2006 02:21:30 PDT http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10152816/ Fri, 22 Sep 2006 14:19:04 PDT )
No, I'm not depressed or sad or anything else...and this is no self-pity.
Just thoughts.

Do you know that feeling? When you just want everything to stop?

To stop time, to stop everything/everyone that's moving, to stop every sound...because you want to hear how silence really sounds, because you want to rest and because...you want to breathe.
...You want to be in this dark, narrow room inside your head..the only shelter you have. Shelter from everything, except yourself. But when there's no one else around you, you don't have to fear yourself. You don't have to fear anything...[but your thoughts.*]

It's a constricting feeling...constricting and freeing at the same time...



*You can't run away from your thoughts, you can't stop them, you just can think of being able to stop thinking [...]


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Wir wollten springen, was ist aus dieser Idee geworden...?

]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10092839/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10092839/ Sat, 16 Sep 2006 16:04:19 PDT My systems down
Got an overload of hate
Got a bad attitude
With no intent to change
I've had my fill
I put my cards on the table
Won't take it back
'Cause today I hate everything

I hate it all, I hate my friends
I hate this song
I hate this bad attitude, I'm sure you hate me too
But I don't care, you know why
When it's over then you die
No making friends today
'Cause I hate everything

I hate everything, f*ck you

I hate the trees
Hate the birds and the bees
Got a sick f*cking mind
And no time for your kind
I'll say again, must I still question my friends
I'll smile tomorrow
'Cause today I hate everything

[The Suicide Machines - I Hate Everything]



Yeah....classes start again tomorrow -.-" and my class will probable be divided, that is: I'm not with one of my best friends in one class anymore. =___=""" T__T ...And then there will be something like "exams" at...about the middle of the year...because...well...I guess there's no logical reason for that... ò__ô
Apart from that I've got no (good) ideas for photos and drawings or anything else that has to do with art...which is a bit depressing...somehow
*whine, whine, whine* blah, blah, blah... who cares? I shouldn't.

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Talented Artists:

http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10042355/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 17:37:02 PDT It came up because of...people, humans...and thinking too much...or not enough.

You Are A Puppet In My Head

A Puppet full of life
a puppet having veins
and I'm having a knife

You are a puppet in my head

I swear you won't survive
I'll cut off all your strings
and take away your life

You are a puppet in my head

One string around your throat
Strangled by your god
that loves to watch you choke

© NOTspecific

Again and again and again... ]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10024894/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/10024894/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 06:16:09 PDT
Tagged by

1. Look at your right side. What did you see the most?

My door oo

2. Look at left. So, what did you see this time?

The left side of my room? x.x

3. What will you do after taking this test?

I'll...keep on sitting here o__ô

4. Describe you in 3 words.

pessimistic, misanthropic and...childish lol

5. About what was your latest dream you remember?

About a friend from the internet...that was strange x___x"

6. What do you think about this test?

It's boring oo"

7. Latest full cd you've listened to?

Hmmm....that was: Die Ärzte - Planet Punk

8. Latest person, who makes you smile

I actually don't know x___x"

9. Latest person, who makes you cry?

Can't remember lol

10. Describe your feelings like a color. What color it will be?

A swirl of all colours that exist [except pink =.=] o__O"

11. Do you remember your latest kiss? And who did you kiss?

I don't give kisses to anyone =___="

12. Do you love someone [without family, parents etc.]?

"without family, parents etc." etc.??? That sounds illogical O.o"""

13. Do you miss people that are so far away from you?

Generally not .__.

14. What's your biggest dream?

I don't have a "biggest dream" oô

15. So this the end. What do you want to say now?

I'm still bored... =.="

I'll tag:

]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/9987049/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/9987049/ Wed, 06 Sep 2006 11:11:51 PDT Do you have the time
to listen to me whine
About nothing and everything
all at once
I am one of those
Melodramatic fools
Neurotic to the bone
No doubt about it


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click the "link" ]]> ~NOTspecific http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/9948254/ http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/9948254/ Sun, 03 Sep 2006 06:26:51 PDT
The only good thing about the whole story is...I took the time to draw some stuff... lol

Oh, and I looked at all of your work, 158 deviations... X____x"""""

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http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/9769105/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 07:55:39 PDT
---> vacation / parents / Lanzarote <<"
Okay I'm also writing this now because I'll be too despaired, depressed and irritated later lol I hope I'll be able to calm down...the whole 2 weeks... [I'm astonished at the fact that I'm so calm right now O___o"]
And if you're interested in it: I'll probable be back at September 3rd/4th ôò [if there's no plain crash x__X"] So you won't be bothered with photos for 2 weeks ...but I bet you'll upload a lot of...great work [not that it bothers me... xD] x.x....I'll try to take at least a look at all of it when [or if x.x] I return

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Ruhig angehn - erst mal schön
Lage peilen - und dann mal sehn.
Stress ist schlecht - jetzt mal in echt.
Die Welt wird sich trotzdem noch drehen.

[Die Ärzte - Ruhig Angehn]


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http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/9678139/ Thu, 10 Aug 2006 13:04:33 PDT Damn, you can't imagine how horrible that will be
x_____X""" It's like my mother is getting on my nerves when my father doesn't and the other way around...and...I'm a impulsive person and more into being alone than with my parents or anybody else from my family, so we will be arguing a lot [or more than "a lot"] x.x" also there won't be anyone I can talk to...I'm already despairing...but there's no way out of this tragedy v____v ...I'll survive...somehow T___T

But there are still 9 days...
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Okay, I'm lying, I won't survive..how can I? 2 weeks with my parents and without Internet...!! T___T How can they do something like that to me?! It's like 2 weeks in hell X____x"""
ARGH! I'm sounding like a rebellious teenager! X__X""
Ok, ok I'm just exaggerating...and I generally hate the expression "teenager", because there are a lot of people that generalize the acting of people at my age =.= and that's just wrong, not everything has to do with the age. :/
...I'm deviating from the subject ---> vacation + perents = I need help! x___o"
Or they will need help, because I have the feeling that I'll run amok O___o
...now I'm asking myself if I'm still exaggerating x_____x" xD

...But it's not exaggerated that those 2 weeks won't be fun... <___<"
but I'll try to return with a lot of photos of Lanzarote [I'll need maaaaaaanyyyyyy batteries o___o]

aaaah....but still there are 9 days!! ...............


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http://NOTspecific.deviantart.com/journal/9577823/ Wed, 02 Aug 2006 13:58:08 PDT Yey! Today was the last day of classes!
And now I'm bored, and I feel like uploading 10000~ of photos x___X" ...but I don't want to spam you. So I hope I won't lose control and upload all the photos I've got on my PC. x.x
...But if I'm bored I always take photos...and if I'm still bored after doing that I edit them...and if I'm still bored after editing them I upload them...but after uploading them I got nothing to do ----> bored...so I'll take new photos...a vicious circle!! x__X"

So I hope I don't bother you with my crappy work. o__o

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