http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:NagZul&section=today deviantART RSS for by:NagZul en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 23 Dec 2009 00:26:57 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/13334559/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/13334559/ Wed, 13 Jun 2007 20:03:07 PDT the forked road,
a cross road,

where men given life must take in order to stay alive.

Which ever end they live on,
they lose something.
Which ever end they live on,
they are unable to find happines.

BUT, are there really only 2 paths to a forked road?
No, there are infinite paths we must take.

there IS more than one path.
There's more than one path to the future.


~Vash TheStampede

]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/13258497/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/13258497/ Thu, 07 Jun 2007 22:01:11 PDT
I was outside having an amazing time, there was snow hills and ice structures, and I was with someone, I can't recall now whome, and then my friends, who I can recall some of, came up and we started playing around having a good time.
Untill then I can't remember, all I can remember is I ended up somehow in this building because of an injury or something else.

This Building, as I said, was Castleish themed, very.. Medevil style. Stone walls/floors, carpets, ect. When you come in the very large enormous door, of which I can't recall was made of, (is it just me, or does the word "of" look like a really weird looking word now.. haha ) Anyways, as I was saying, when you walk through this door, there is an enormous foyer, height-wise. I'd say this foyer was about 25feet high, could have been higher. To the left of when you walk in is a long straight flight of stairs going about half way up. And to the right of the door I'm not sure of where it lead, somewhere under the second level.

As you reached the top, you can notice a large chandelier hanging from above. At the very top of the stairs their is a short balcony in front (I'll explain what for later on), when you reach this and take a right you'll run along a balcony to the left of you, this balcony is facing the foyer. On this level we have to our right as you stand where the foyer balcony is, a ramp. The ramp goes down covered in red carpet. Where it leads will be explained further on. if we go straight, there is a small floor area of stone that reaches back to the wall and parallels with the ramp creating a stone wall for the ramp as it leads down. On that floor of stone there's couches and a chair with a coffee table and a fire place, this is where I was at, relaxing on the couch. Then I noticed this door, it was below the other balcony along the wall.

I went down the ramp, which stopped in the middle becoming flat, then on the right of this level was another set of ramp, going down in the oposite direction parallel of it, and at the bottem (adding that at the bottem of this wasn't as deep as the foyer, so this building must have rested on a hill) was a black metal door slightly taller than a normal house entrance door. Lining this door down the center was a crevice filled with hinges. At the top, in the middle of the very top and center was a chain hanging down along the crevice. I looked at the chain, noticing it had one noticible detail. That it needed to be pulled. So I grabbed ahold of this chain and tugged on it, folding the door inside. As I let go of the chain the door automatically swung outside in its folded state.

this door lead back out into the pure white winter wounderland, as I stood there breathing in the suroundings, Noticing my friends passing by, I watched, then took the step down to ground level. I began to walking aimlessly around, heading down the path in the oposite direction that my friends went. As I walked along this path I noticed the only things around were ice, snow, and a type of creature. These creatures were extremely large with fur. They were almost mamoth looking, but not. Just giant clumps of brown fur. But I didn't have a feeling of fear that they were there. My guess is that they were tame and probally plant eating creatures.


And this is as far as my dream went, to the point of when I woke up. I'm sorry I didn't really have a story, as I said, only details.

]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/13244843/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/13244843/ Wed, 06 Jun 2007 20:50:42 PDT and then there's days where I feel nothing in my soul, where does my heart go?
God, is it true?
No mater how hard we try, the souls of the man is cursed with evil, Can we not be free but only in you,
maby your love can pump our dead hearts once again over and over again day after day without tiring,
if only we were to sink ourselfs in you, in your love day after day. Our love without you is limited with charge.
But if it goes to you first we will be filled with an everylasting flow of love. Why is this?
Because our expectations in being loved is met, because you sacraficed your life so that we can love you for
the eternity of your exstence. This is what motivates us to love without anything in return, uncondionaly will our
love be, even if we are failed by other people. We can continue to give it out to them.

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]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/11655131/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/11655131/ Fri, 02 Feb 2007 12:50:16 PST
Here's the deal~ I've had a hip replacment. Recovered faster than average so I'm out and in bed rest, I can move around withsh krutches but my mushles are still healing. I was given 2 types of instructions for 6 weeks untill it heals, 1) 3 rules of which I can not move my leg, or it would dislocate and wuold end up.. screwed .. <.< xD 2) I have to do some exersizes P: but doing routine things turns me off xP it'll be cool though lol my motivation is the outcome of me not doing them is I wouldn't have mutch of a rotation~ xD that would suck <.<
But after 6 weeks I'll be better than normal. love ya guys~


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A letter my mom wrote to update people:

Stephen had his hip replacement yesterday afternoon, hooray. Dr. Attarian said that his hip looked so bad that he wondered how Stephen could even walk on it. The Dr.'s expectation was his hip replacement to last 30 plus years with a titanium/cobalt metal on metal hip. After coming out of recovery, they left the epidural in through the night and took it out this morning. Since then Stephen is having quite a bit of pain and is trying to get a handle on it. Shortly he will have his physical therapy (as soon as his pain level lowers a bit). They are thinking Saturday for releasing him although there is a slight chance that he may go home tomorrow. Please pray for better pain management and a quick recovery.


We feel the Lord's hand upon us and are thankful and blessed for Stephen's new leg (since he was 13!).

Love and Hugs to all!!

Tina

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If I never told you about it, here's an explination why.
Back when I was 13 I had injured my leg and got a rare 3 year lasting desiese ca~lled Perthese.

Basicaly what it is, is, the earea of the injury gets fluid sent to it. This fluid made my hip extremely soft deforming it from weight such as walking. For 3 years.

the bone got so bad but despite that lol I played DDR even though i had pain which probally killed even more, BUT I need this hip replacment anyways~ So why care? xD

So there ya go, one of my big problems~ finaly~ fixed o.o

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]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/11319310/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/11319310/ Thu, 04 Jan 2007 22:24:13 PST but blogs are blogs. xP

I wrote this once P: but I pressed send it didn't work, went back and it was empty.>.< so here goes again.


The first I can remember we (me and my fam) were in some kind of coliseum (for what looked like to be a football game or something) looking for seats. We finally found some right at the top and to the left of some double stairs with a hand rail streaming down to the bottom. I can't remember much of what happened next, just that I said some stuff to my sister and ended up in the bathroom for something.

After I was done using the bathroom and on my way out I could sense something was wrong~ there was a. "disturbance". In the air. -.- So I opened the door to the bathroom which was at the bottom in the center of the coliseum. The whole place was poring with zombies. But oddly enough my reaction wasn't that of a reaction like it rarely happens. So I casually made my way back to the double stairs pushing away any zombie that were to notice me near them.

I made it to the end of the double stairs; with making it to my family in mind (as if I knew they weren't affected). I made my way up, pushing away and using the hand rail to jump over zombies and I think like twice I had to push down a child zombie by their forehead trying to get a piece of me.

I finally made it up to my fam which didn't ask if I was alright but knew what we had to do once I arrived. I quickly whipped out my 2 flat head screw drivers. My sister pulled her chainsaw from her back holster and my bro was already blasting away some nearby zombies with his paintball gun. And actually. jk xD I just made all that up.

We turned around to the left to where a door resided and started making our way down flights of stairs to exit passing little children just standing/laying around on our way down. At first I was hesitant, but they didn't seem to be zombies (yet) I was making my way down and passed a little blond kid just standing there on one of the lowest steps to the next level, just staring blankly with one hand on the railing.

So we found our way to the parking lot which was one of those "underthings" parkinglots. At that time I realized I had forgot my stuff back at me seat. So I told my family I'd be right back and ran back inside. Passing the little blond kid again I went back up and found the "double stairs" again, which seemed to be cleared of the poring of zombies by now. I leaned over and grabbed my stuff from my seat and left back to me fam.

As we were getting in the car one of my little sisters decided to rescue an overweight white cat. <.< And as we were driving threw of what seemed to be a city the cat jumped out of my window of the front passenger seat. I don't know why we were so caught up in rescuing the cat or why we didn't even think about rescuing the little autistic blond kid back at the coliseum. But me, my bro, and my sister all got out to retrieve it. My sister got it back but yet again as we were driving it jumped out a second time. But this time we chased it to a "park". I don't know why we thought it was a park, it was just a big area of brownish stone/clay flooring with a building wrapping around it. But we decided to leave it there for some reason because we saw other animals pacing around in that area. <.<

But this is about the time I woke up xP sorry if my subconscious didn't feel like completing it, <.<

]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/11134528/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/11134528/ Thu, 21 Dec 2006 03:01:21 PST but I made some good points I think xP you should try and read the whole thing, and then comment xD if you want. o.o)


Love is oftenly confused as a greater "like".
But love is a feeling. Feelings are uncontrolable.
just like other feelings you can mask love, and make your heart forget it.
But in doing this is unhealthy to the heart, gradualy making it colder and harder.
If you block one "good" feeling you eventualy end up blocking them all.

Love can also be influenced by "like", but should not be confused with it.
Love is when you care, worry, and bend head over heals to understand the person.

Love should not be manipulated into a greed/selfishness of the other person
(greed/selfishness is not a part of love) love will most likely send you in
the other direction, to losing what you have for the other persons gain,
such as money -to flowers/gifts, ect.
Love will not see this task as a way to win over the other persons love,
but it will seek a smile and happyness from the other person.
Though, just as stated above about manipulation,love should not be expected
to buy gifts/ect. but should be understood with out atachments.

there is no phisical essence to describing love, these are sideffects.
Caring will show the flowers/gifts trait, and hugs and affection.
Worrying will result in vocal contact. and the last one bending head over
heals to understand, results as gracfuly throwing away anger or sadness to
try and understand that there's a reason to everything and that the person
you love has done somthing, they were only stumbling as a human constantly
does and would show forgivness and compassion. But these are side-effects
as I said. Not everyone has every side effect, some more than others.
But just because you don't see any does not mean there is no love.

Love is uncoditional. -
But most of all. Love does not demand or require the other persons love or side-effects.


My question is, do you know this feeling? It's weird but some people don't. o: A real feeling; like happy, sad, and anger.
Actualy Love can be the base of every emotion. Love causes Happyness. love causes sadness and
heartbreak( it dosn't cause anger or hate from making you feel this way though), it might even cause anger
if someone hurts the person vurbaly or phisicaly or talks about the person badly wether it is true or false.

This is not just explaination for an "in love" type love, but is also in general.
A Feeling. -
So the next time some one talks about love for the poor, love for God, love your neighbor, ect.
maby you'll see it a whole new box. Most end up think of compassion, or selfless-and-religious
grace, or just plain religious acts to prove somthing. The side-effects without the condition.


I might have gone a little overboard and got too detailed
but I wrote this at 4am-5am lol just on and off coming up with things.
Also I may not have this down to exact or acurate. It is how I understand it. :3 Also posibly my sleep status might have my mind all weird and so if I said somthing off, then~ ------> please if you disagree with somthing or have somthing to add, don't be afraid to say somthings.

]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/9473903/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/9473903/ Mon, 24 Jul 2006 00:56:49 PDT welcome to my first ever poem/song lyrics or w/e you wanna call it.
Take it seriously or not, opinions are welcome xP



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Poser Human, by Stephen Yantz


Today’s Generation like our words one way.
Words to just get us by. Words of degrading meaning, degrading reality.
Laziness, lack of emphasizing, of no expression.
Sheep clingers, lack of “you”. …and who needs cloning?
People of repeated cursing and addiction. lacking of a lack of previous mentioned.

We pledge allegiance to the flag of Poser Human.
For which we sit in one nation under … nation,
In humility, in lack of identity and judgment for all.
Thus is, this is, thee is the Generation of a crumble.


We’ve been taught, we teach, life is short, life is worthless.
Throw away our feelings. Throw parties. Emotions? For the weaklings.
Strength? Easily obtained. When all’s said and done and the ages become.
Weak gain Experience, Emotion becomes strength.
Deceived strength becomes a life of ruin; life of emptiness, regret, and decay.
These poser humans begin to pay. For all they think and say. Walking zombies till the end of their days. Never learning from their ways.

We pledge allegiance to the flag of Poser Human.
For which we sit in one nation under … nation,
In humility, in lack of identity and judgment for all.
Thus is, this is, thee is the Generation of a crumble.


We the people need to waken. The meaningful life in which was taken.
Look deep inside for wrong and right. And choose to find the selfish and emptiness on which to fight. Express ourselves within originality and bring back love and reality. ]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/9026322/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/9026322/ Sat, 10 Jun 2006 09:57:16 PDT [ ] tall
[x] in between
[ ] short
--
[ ] blonde
[ ] redheaded
[ ] brunette
[x] black-haired (dark brown )
--
[ ] blue-eyed
[ ] brown-eyed
[x] green-eyed
[x] hazel eyed
[ ] gold eyed
[x] grey eyed
[x] with glasses
[ ] with contacts
--
[x] with braces (dosn't count, braces are temporary.. <.<
[ ] with freckles
[ ] with piercings
[ ] with tattoos
[ ] and have long hair
[x] and have short hair
[ ] and have mid-length hair

Your favorite color(s) are?
[ ] red
[x] pink
[ ] yellow
[x] black
[x] green
[ ] blue
[ ] gold
[ ] white
[ ] silver
[ ] purple
[x] brown
[x] orange
[ ] indigo
[ ] grey



Some things you've done/played include...
[x] soccer (death to soccer D: )
[ ] cheerleading
[x] dancing (self taught xP)
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[ ] softball
[ ] wrestling
[ ] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[x] basketball
[x] baseball
[ ] golf
[x] chess
[ ] playing in the mud
[x] playing music
[ ] hiking
[ ] kayaking
[x] camping
[ ] horseback riding
[ ] marching band
[ ]karate


You are sometimes...
[x] annoying
[x] talkative
[x] shy
[x] sweet
[x] funny
[x] mysterious (ties in with shy <.<
[x] serious (usualy when im depressed o.o)
[ ] bubbly (?)
[ ] spazzy
[ ] paranoid
[x] fun-loving
[x] laid back
[x] strict ( rarly xD)
[x] hyper (ties in with fun loving)
[x] nervous
[x] weird (ties in with funloving, hyper, funny, and........ anoying xD)



The music you like is?
[x] rap (not alot, very pickig, hate repetitive songs)
[x] rock
[x] pop (goes along with rap)
[ ] country
[ ] hip hop
[ ] r&b
[ ] slow jams
[x] Christian
[x] classical
[x] techno (yeah xD)
[x] oldies
[ ] the 80s
[x] punk
[x] Metal
[x] reggae
[x] Goth
[x] Latin
[x] 90's Grunge
[ ] musicals
[x] drum and bass
[] IDM (?)
[] goa (?)



The pets you have/had?
[] cat
[] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] snake
[ ] ferret
[ ] spider
[] rabbit
[] fish
[] bird
[] hamster
[x] little brother (o.o Fireflys did you add that xP)
[] other







"OH EM GEE! D: LARGE MASS OF SPACE! I NEED A DARN SUB! <3plzkthxbai"
awsome unmovable quote xD





You're mostly labeled as?
[ ] goth
[] emo
[ ] prep
[ ] punk
[] hippie
[x] nerd
[ ] ditzy
[x] hyper
[x] happy
[x] everything
[x] I hate labels!
[x] I have no idea
[] Bitch

You eat?
[ ] dessert every night
[ ] no meat
[ ] diet stuff
[ ] healthy
[ ] junk foods
[ ] a lot of carbs
[x] ice cream
[x] lots of meat
[] salad
[x] seafood
[x] exotic dishes



A typical friday night...
[ ] mall with your friends
[ ] partying
[ ] doing my homework
[x] watching movies
[ ] going to the club
[] staying home
[] playing videogames
[ ] babysitting and getting $$
[x] hanging out w/ my friends
[ ] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] working while your friends are out having fun T-T
[x]on DA

Currently you are...
[ ] in a relationship
[ ] single and lovin it so back off
[x] crushing
[x] single
[ ] just broke up... and so sad about it
[ ] considering work in a nunnery
[ ] married to the one person who is very special and dear to you heart, and hope nothing ever changes it

Online, you use:
[x] lol
[x] sup
[x] rofl
[x] lmao
[ ] stfu
[x] ty
[x] j/k
[x] <3
[x] ttyl
[x] g2g
[x] XD
[x] ^^
[x] T_T
[x] x_x
[ ] ^_^
[x] O.o
[ ] TOT
[ ] nyaaah

Have you…
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) lied to a close friend
( ) had sex at 16
( ) celebrated mardi-gras
(x) hate certain things about yourself
( ) been overseas
(x) skipped school
( ) be... ]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/8288304/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/8288304/ Thu, 27 Jul 2006 11:50:41 PDT Tell me what you think. (Hellsing)

[link]

Honestly... If I did not so well, leave me a comment on what I should notice next time I make one, or even If you think its perftect leave a comment anyways

Just made another (Outlawstar)

[link]

Woo~ heres another (Wolf's Rain)

[link]

Yep and another, staring (TRIGUN) xP

[link] ]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/7817172/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/7817172/ Mon, 06 Feb 2006 09:20:13 PST The deeper the memory they hold on to, the more beautiful the past will become.

The beautiful memorys will eventualy turn into hate.
Even if they look ahead, they lose the ability to walk.
As long as the heavy chain called revenge continues to bind the heart,
the tears of sadness continue to flow.
Vash TheStampede ]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/7770170/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/7770170/ Wed, 01 Feb 2006 11:05:16 PST I think, it's good if you smile at someone and they smile in return...
Voluntary love, ecourages people to creat a sense of friendliness...

Love that is unconditional gives us respect as people; however, it's wrong to force love to try to keep it alive. If strain goes on, eventualy it will bloom into the flower called, lie, a deceptively thorny flower that hurts people.

~Vash TheStampede ]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/7291295/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/7291295/ Mon, 12 Dec 2005 12:42:36 PST
It's difficult to live after somthing like that.

What is lost will never return, important things, irreplaceable things, what is needed to keep those things, is in the firm will, pact in the one bullet.

Man knows, he knows, that nothing will begin, unless he speaks, and that nothing will change unless he moves.

Vash TheStampde~ ]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/7236455/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/7236455/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 08:41:15 PST
People who sin say this, its too late now to stop.

The shadow called, sin dogs them steadly from behind, silently with out a word. Remorse in agony, or repeated onley to end up at despair in the end.

But the sinners just don't know that if they only turn around, theres a light there, a light which keeps shining on them ever so warmly, a light that will never fade... ~Vash TheStampede ]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/6168835/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/6168835/ Mon, 08 Aug 2005 12:54:49 PDT
but any ways as soon as i feel like drawing again i will post some more.. ]]> ~NagZul http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/5968965/ http://NagZul.deviantart.com/journal/5968965/ Mon, 18 Jul 2005 14:13:46 PDT
i felt like my page seemed bare with out a journal thinging..

so whats up ppl lol..
me and my sis are having a graduation pt this weekend... gonna be big
no i dont have a twin lol, my sis skipped a grade, yeah kinda weired having a sibling in the same grade as you your whole school life.. but shes cool.

sorry i havnt been submiting drawings lately...kinda took a break for awhile.. i think i might submit some old stuff i did when i was younger. maby... ]]> ~NagZul