http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:NakuruAngel&section=today deviantART RSS for by:NakuruAngel en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 22 Nov 2009 12:54:49 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/27103695/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/27103695/ Tue, 08 Sep 2009 20:18:00 PDT
I am going to Instant Imprints tomorrow to get a quote. I estimate that only about six or seven people [if that] will show up to do this fundraiser once it happens and that's how many shirts I'll need. Obviously each pays for his own, but that's why I'm trying to find a cheap place because I am poor and I know I'm not the only one.

If you know of a website or a place here in town that would do them [besides Instant Imprints, I'm already going there lol] please let me know. I think it would be a really good way to advertise and when we wear the shirts around school, people will ask, and that's another advertising technique for our club and for the fundraiser both.

Obviously our club has no money so if I cannot find a cheap place we won't do T-shirts, which is totally fine. I just thought it would be fun. But we can definitely do the event without them too so don't worry!!


Thanks for any and all help. I have a meeting tomorrow with the principal so hopefully next week we will have our first meeting on Thursday [because FCA has Tuesdays and Key Club has Wednesdays and I want to do both, and we'll just have to see about FCCLA].

Looking forward to it.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/27024663/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/27024663/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 21:49:12 PDT
I'm doing a monologue from 'Roulette', the part where he's packing and she's yelling. I'm best on stage when infuriated lol So I chose an angry monologue.

I really wanted to do the part from 'Independence' [by Lee Blessing] where Kess has that monologue in discovering she's a lesbian. THAT PART WOULD HAVE BEEN SO AWESOME but I couldn't find the script for that bit ANYWHERE. Which makes me sad because really. Lesbians. D=


Auditions will be September 22nd - 25th and I'm very excited.

Today I was 'that crazy girl with the yellow shoes' to Mr. Fisher, which...was weird but kind of cool. xD AMAZINGLY most teachers don't refer to me as crazy [except Miller and only because Ray was in class with me lol]. But the meeting was good. I am excited to do pizza hut waiting if I can. I WILL HONOR THIS YEAR OR I WILL DIE TRYING

Excited excited. If I'm not cast then I look forward to hopefully sewing costumes backstage and doing makeup and stuff again. Probably doing more stage than anything else because I have never really been on stage crew, it could be fun. Tech is obviously way out of my league lol but I've done everything else except stage crew, so. NEW EXPERIENCES FTW.

Also Ali ILU and your beacon!Hair and I am drawing you a pinupBricklayer!Bones and failing lmao. BE HAPPY <3 <3 <3 I love you more than AP homework.

I am actually sad that the weekend is here, I want to go back to school. D= I'll just have to do lots of homework instead. And such. [god what is happening agekjsafls]


Watched Quarantine a while ago at Josh's. Shitty movie but I had an interesting zombie dream a week after so. xD

That's all. ILU.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/26401060/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/26401060/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 11:47:16 PDT
Here are the rules:

- Post this rules.
- Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves on their journal.
- At the end you have to choose 8 people to tag, and post their icons on the same journal.
- Go to their page and send a message saying you tagged them.
- NO tag-backs.

1. My poetry is so nonsensical it sometimes confuses me later.
2. I sometimes can't remember if my dreams really happened or not.
3. I believe strongly in true love, God, and tea.
4. My fondest wish is to be able to play an instrument [guitar, cello, piano...]
5. My writing is actually not that good and I am just realizing exactly how bad it really is.
6. I am giving up on fixing my body. :/
7. I need to stop imagining how life could have been.
8. I actually really want to be pregnant someday.

I tag anyone who has nothing to do. <3

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/26233318/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/26233318/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 12:50:42 PDT i'm single.




FMA. :/

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/26116632/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/26116632/ Wed, 22 Jul 2009 20:11:42 PDT
Weird, but they were such a big part of my childhood, lmao.

Also, recently read Fight Club. THAT was an amazing book. Bit depressing, but it hit hard. I had wanted to read it for a long time and finally Salem offered to lend me his copy [to which I refused because I tend to ruin other's books and have finally learned that, Lol] so I went to the library and got theirs and

wow.

Highly recommended if you haven't read it yet. Salem claims the movie is just as good [Helena Bonham Carter is my celebrity WIFE.] but the book seemed like something that would be hard to put into a satisfying movie. We'll see I guess, I hope to watch it with Perry when he starts talking to me again...

I may give up on that endeavor and watch it with Salem and Stephanie, lol.


Anyway.

Mom took the computer away for a while, and by that I mean she unplugged it and sat it on our kitchen counter. This was an awkward thing to witness every time I went in for a drink.

She later made me hook it up again so she could read her email and she finally is letting me on it. Eh.

Tomorrow we have a Homecoming party for our resident veteran, Josh Newebrry. Can't wait to see him again, it's been a month but I miss him like hell.

ALSO found out that Wednesday is Free Pie Night. Buy anything at all and get a free slice of pie. We will have to go sometime.

I lost my train of thought so I guess that's all. Love you guys. Read Fight Club.

<3

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/26042145/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/26042145/ Sun, 19 Jul 2009 10:24:45 PDT
No, before you ask,
I am not suicidal.

You could be with me for five minutes and know that I desperately love the life I live and would never give it up.

Ugh.



For Perry, and for Kc, both of whom are worrywarts and need to calm down and breathe and trust me,

I consented to a therapy session tomorrow.

Wtf.

I swore I would never. :/


Well, I quit the second they suggest pills. Lol
Anyway,

I'm not sure what this will bring, so. Be prepared for whatever.

Home life suddenly got A LOT WORSE. You told me they wouldn't tell my mom about it. So now I'm a little pissed. Now she knows and she's livid. :/ Wants me to tell my dad. Wtf.


Perry still won't talk to me.

Much love, guys. Later.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/24135634/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/24135634/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 19:01:02 PDT


Jenna and Nils are sosocute. D


Also: One thing from my 'List of Things to Do Before I Die' has been crossed off!

That thing is: Make out with a trannie.

Pax is a good kisser LMAO





Nothing else. So tired, so so tired. Getting there. <3<3<3

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/23863366/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/23863366/ Tue, 24 Mar 2009 09:48:33 PDT Art Status


So yesterday I dragged my sick, tired ass out of the house to go to Blockbuster and rent Fire Emblem: Radiant Dawn. I get there. We're looking for it and can't find it so we ask about it, and they tell us

that they SOLD the last copy.


What.

-_-


And I got myself stuck on Pokemon Ranger! I'm not strong enough to move forward in the dungeon and beat the boss [I'm on Dialga], but it's saved where it is so I can't go back either. DDD= Fuckery.

I need to stop drawing Zexion when I have commissions to work on. LMAO [I started one but I can't find it now. D= Have to start over, fuck.]



By the way, does anyone here have a Twitter?

It's my new favorite. ^.^

If you do, you should add me.


ALSO!::[link]
This guy broke into Shia LeBeouf's house and painted a mural on his wall and recorded it. And then Shia LeBeouf came home and flipped his lid and is all "POLICE THERE'S A CAKEFACE BURGLAR IN MY HOUSE" So so funny. Just watch it. [some cursing for those who need to know but not much] [[[don't flip a bitch, he didn't really break in, but god just watch. ]]]

Love you guys.


]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/23590928/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/23590928/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 12:02:26 PDT
Upcoming Personal Art
New Nakuru Ref Sheet
Hael Ref Sheet
Daemein//Gabe Luvs

Writing Status
Outcast [in need of new name] - On Hold
Wild Strawberries - Maybe on hold, I'll work on it as I can. xD

About Trades
I have the right to refuse art trades to anyone I want. I don't mean any disrespect at all, I promise, I may simply not be in the mood to art trade with you at the moment, even if a slot is open. Also, if I feel that what you've asked me to draw is outside my range of ability, I will tell you so. LOL

AVAILABILITY: Open

Trade Status
1. - Shizumi && Nakuru
2. Open
3. Open

Waiting on Their End of Trade


About Requests
You will probably not get one. There is always the chance that I'd be willing to do your request, like if you happen to request something I'd be in the mood to draw. This will probably not happen, but! It's a chance. So if you're determined, go ahead and ask. I'm blunt so I'll turn you down if I don't want to but if I do, by some miracle, I'll tell you so.

AVAILABILITY: Closed

http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/23512578/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 17:57:16 PST 1. Fai x Kurogane [Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle]
2. Touya x Yukito [Cardcaptor Sakura, Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle]
3. Touya x Yue [CCS]
4. Subaru x Kamui [TRC]
5. Demyx x Zexion [Kingdom Hearts]
6. Syaoran x Sakura [CCS, TRC] Clamp overload lately.

Three ships you liked, but don’t like anymore
7. Cloud x Aerith [Final Fantasy VII]
8. Cloud x Sephiroth [FFVII]
9. Tohru x Yuki [Fruits Basket]

Four ships you never liked
10. Vincent x Yuffie [FFVII]
11. Knuckles x Tikal [STH]
12. Cid x Shera [FFVII] Call me an insensitive bitch, but Valenwind just came first.
13. Loz x Tifa [FFVII] Wtf, I ask you. Wtf.

Two ships you're curious about, but don’t actually ship
14. Cloud x Zak [FFVII] Spelling please? LOL
15. Zexion x Marluxia [KH] Mmmmm so much gay in one PLACE! D=

Why do you dislike #11 [Knuckles x Tikal] so much?
It's probably all the yaoi. And back when I first read Knuckles/Tikal, I was someone who only shipped ONE PAIRING PER CHARACTER. I just never considered them I guess. But now it's probably just the yaoi. LOL

Who is someone you know that ships #14 [Axl Cloud x Zak]?
Kc, maybe~?

What would be your ideal scenario for couple #3 [Touya x Yue]?
Hahaaa....Touya kissing Yue and then SUDDENLY YUE IS YUKITO and Yukito's like 'Wtf Touya, were you just sucking face with Yue?' Yay.

Which is your favorite moment for couple #1 [Fai x Kurogane]?
[link]

How long have you been following couple #6 [Syaoran x Sakura]?
Since I was little. Cardcaptors was on Kids WB when I was little and I always used to watch it. That couple is how I found my way to fanfiction.net AND deviantart. LOL

What's the story with #8 [Cloud x Sephiroth]? What made you stop liking them/caring?
I'm not sure. I just somehow can't see them together anymore. :/ Maybe it's the hot Reno/Cloud porn Kc let me read. LOL

You have the power to make one ship non-existent. Choose from #10 [Vincent x Yuffie] or #12 [Cid x Shera].
CIDxSHERA for sure. That makes every Valenwind fic easier to write. xD

Which ship do you prefer #2 [Touya x Yuki] or #4 [Subaru x Kamui]?
That's a hard oooone. D= There's surprisingly little Touya x Yuki around, but it's so cute. But, Subaru x Kamui feeds my twincest fetish AND my vampire fetish [which, if you have never had, you are LYING TO YOURSELF], so that one wins. <3

What interests you about #15 [Zexion x Marluxia]?
It's so PRETTY!!! I'm just not sure it registers in my mind. xD But it makes for some very pretty arts. <3

Why did you stop liking #7 [Cloud x Aerith]?
Cloud x Tifa, I guess. I prefer living characters. xD OH GOD IS THAT A HET COUPLE???? D=

Did your waning interest in #9 [Tohru x Yuki] kill your interest in the show?
Noooo. I just picked a different couple to fanship over. xD

What’s a song that reminds you of #5 [Demyx x Zexion]?
Nine in the Afternoon - Panic at the Disco.
LOOOOLWTF. <3

If you could have any of these two pairings double date, who would it be?
KuroFai and Zemyx.
Hee. ='D

Have #2 [Touya x Yukito] kissed yet?
No.

Did #4 [Subaru x Kamui] have a happy ending? If the show hasn't ended yet, do you think a happy ending is likely?
I don't think they'll have a happy ending because Seishiro is a bitch. Fail to him.

What would make you start shipping #14 [Axl Cloud x Zak]?
I'm not sure. I just need motivation to go look up fanfics and art and such. xD

If only one could happen, which would you prefer, #2 [Touya x Yuki] or #6 [Syaoran x Sakura]?
Touya x Yuki I guess. Since SS has pretty much been made clear in TRC and has already happened in CCS. xD And Touyuki was made apparent in CCS but hasn't happened yet, so I would like to see it in TRC.

You have the power to decide the fate of #10 [Vincent/Yuffie]. What happens to them?
Vincent lives happily ever after with Cid.
Yuffie lives happily ever after with Shera.
EVERYONE WINS

[I kept Rei's answer because...I couldn't have said it better? LOL]

Which of these ships do you dislike the most?
... ]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/23230890/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/23230890/ Tue, 17 Feb 2009 13:34:09 PST
A TEST! <3



TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:

1. Above every other person in existence, I wish fervently that you would accept who, what, and the way I am. Because of you, I have two lives. Two lives with a very, very distinct border separating who I am and who you accept. It's a constant act of Pretend and I wish it didn't have to be. If not for you, it wouldn't be. But every time I try telling you to get a clue, I
Cry.

2. You are possibly the single most amazing person I have ever met. You are leagues deep and every inch of it is art, beauty, passion, thought, and things equally glorious that I don't have a name for. Out of every single one, I think yours is the only that I would do over again. I don't pretend to be glad you left, but we're both content with the absence. And besides that, you left me whole. I wish I could tell you what you did for me. I doubt you could ever really know, even if I put it into words, because you don't feel me anymore. Maybe someday I can try. Maybe you'll listen.

3. Among many other people, you're one whom I always wished I'd gotten to know better. If I had the chance, or knew how, I would love to see inside you, even just a glance, for a moment. When I look at you, I get the distinct feeling that you're more complicated, more tragic, but also more marvelously distinct in who you are than anyone I've ever encountered before. I wish I could see that. Maybe I won't get the chance now, but I'll always wish for it.

4. I almost don't have anything to write to you. You're amazing in a new sense of the word. You put up with me and tolerate me to within an inch of your life, and still hug me and tell me you love me before I go home. At night I lay awake wishing I had patience like yours. You take every one of my mood swings in perfect stride, like you predicted them months ago, like you were built to flow with them. For all I know, you were. We're so conflicted, so broken by ourselves, but together we're perfection in the best way. I'm sure you know I'm talking to you. There are things about me and about my past that you don't know about, but maybe someday I can tell them all to you. Maybe you'll even listen. I love you more than I can say.

5. If every single person in the world was as hopelessly alluring as you are, my heart would be torn in six and a half billion directions. I hope to someday tell you that. I wonder if you realize how even the way you move appeals to me. I wish I knew the extent of what's underneath, and maybe someday I'll know for sure. I'll bet you're beautiful. Is it easy to do what you do? Do you try? I'll bet you don't. I'll bet it's effortless as breathing. I wish I could know. Know you, really. That's all.

6. What happened? Since when do you hate me? Since when do I avoid you out of fear of being hated even more? When, and why? And can it be repaired? And should it?

7. I wish you wouldn't hurt yourself. I wish you could see what I see, because I see someone brilliant like stars. I admire you so, so much, and I wish I could get to know you better but I'm just not sure how. I'm slightly intimidated, I admit. You're just so bright, I don't know how to handle it sometimes. But you're beautiful too, in ways people don't see. Can you even see it? Maybe I can show you.

8. For the love of God, if you don't want to be here, leave. We all love it, and I'm sick of your "I'm a gangsta-gangsta~!" and your ugly black clothes and your coon eyes and your almost physically painful conformity. I'm sick of you, so leave. Thank God there's no way I'll have to speak to you again until next quarter. Once was quite enough.

9. You taught me more about myself than I had ever thought possible to learn. I owe you so much, and I wish there was a different way to pay it back. I love you in ways you can't seem to comprehend, and I want to make you happy. You deserve it, after all of this. You deserve happiness. All the ecstatic euphoria I've had lately belongs to you, or it should, because surely you've done more to deserve it than I have. I hope you get it in the end.

10. Somehow, I'm not sure what to say. But I know that things need to be said. We can talk again, and we can laugh again, and I'm so happy about that. I never understood why we ever couldn't, only that I had to stop. I'm so glad you're back. I missed you, and at the time, it had seemed like you were gone. Perpetually absent until we could cry together again. You've comforted me in the worst of times, and there aren't words to express my gratitude. I owe you so, so much, and I love you.



NINE things about yourself:

1. I'm retarded.

2. I'm simultaneously outgoing and shy all at once.

3. I'm so picky with relationships because they're so fragile.
... ]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/23190558/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/23190558/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 08:18:45 PST
your comment was really nice! ))) could you rate my nude photo art also? :] there it is [link]

This note came to me today from someone with no deviations, journals, or favs.

...I am not THAT stupid.

I don't know what would happen if you clicked the link, but if you get anything like this, I advise you not to do so. Let's not have another "Click Here" fiasco, yes?



]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/23160766/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/23160766/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 17:14:02 PST [link]







Please click on that link and then click on the "vote" button in the post! It's for a scholarship and I really need anything I can get, so please go vote for me as often as you can manage! I need it really badly!! Thanks guys!

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/22808532/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/22808532/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 17:11:12 PST Be honest, people! If you really have never heard of them. Don't mark it. it just makes you look faker.

ALTERNATIVE:
[x] Weezer
[x] Paramore
[x] Panic! At The Disco
[ ] October Fall
[x] The Academy Is...
[x] Coheed And Cambria
[ ] Bayside
[x] Yellowcard
[x] Sugarcult
[x] The Dresden Dolls
TOTAL SO FAR : 8

COUNTRY:
[ ] Rascal Flatts
[x] Carrie Underwood
[ ] Leanne Rhymes
[x] Garth Brooks
[x] Dixie Chicks
[x] Kenny Chesney
[x] Tim McGraw
[x] Faith Hill
[x] Shania Twain
[x] Johnny Cash
TOTAL SO FAR: 16

EMO:
[x] Hawthorne Heights
[ ] Halifax
[ ] Forgive Durden
[ ] Amber Pacific
[x] The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
[x] From First to Last
[x] Senses Fail
[x] Underoath
[x] Something Corporate
[x] Hit the lights
[x] Dear Whoever
TOTAL SO FAR: 24

INDIE:
[x] The Hush Sound
[ ] Eisley
[x] Death Cab for Cutie
[x] Dashboard Confessional
[x] The Killers
[ ] Yeah Yeah Yeahs
[ ] Hot Hot Heat
[x] Gym Class Heroes
[ ] Franz Ferdinand
[x] Modest Mouse
TOTAL SO FAR: 30

METAL:
[x] Slipknot
[x] System of a Down
[x] Disturbed
[x] Metallica
[x] Guns n' Roses
[x] Lamb of God
[x] Slayer
[ ] Hatebreed
[ ] Killswitch Engage
TOTAL SO FAR: 37

POP:
[x] Teddy Geiger
[x] Ashlee Simpson
[x] Kelly Clarkson
[x] Jesse McCartney
[x] Avril Lavigne
[x] Pink
[ ] The Veronicas
[ ] Daniel Powter
[ ] James Blunt
[ ] Natasha Bedingfield
[x] Ryan Cabrera
TOTAL SO FAR: 34

POWERPOP/POP PUNK/PUNK:
[x] hellogoodbye
[x] Cute is What We Aim for
[x] Cartel
[ ] The Click Five
[x] Fall Out boy
[ ] Lucky Boys Confusion
[x] Good Charlotte
[x] Bowling for Soup
[x] Reliant K
[ ] Less Than Jake
[x] Simple Plan
TOTAL SO FAR: 42

RAP:
[x] Ying Yang Twins
[ ] T.I.
[ ] Paul Wall
[ ] Tupac
[ ] Jamie Foxx
[x] Ludacris
[x] Lil' Jon
[x] Outkast
[x] 50 Cent
[x] Kanye West
[ ] Notorious B.I.G
[ ] Young Jeezy
TOTAL SO FAR: 48


SKA:
[ ] Reel Big Fish
[ ] The Specials
[ ] Mad Caddies
[ ] The Aquabats
[x] Sublime
[ ] No Doubt
[ ] Madness
[ ] Operation Ivy
[x] Bob Marley
TOTAL SO FAR: 50

ROCK:
[x] Taking Back Sunday
[x] All American Rejects
[x] Motion City Soundtrack
[x] Avenged Sevenfold
[x] Angels and Airwaves
[x] Evanescence
[x] My Chemical Romance
[x] Green Day
[x] Blink 182
TOTAL SO FAR: 59

CLASSIC ROCK:
[x] The Beatles
[x] Led Zeppelin
[x] The Rolling Stones
[x] The Who
[x] Pink Floyd
[x] The Doors
[x] Jimmy Hendrix
[x] Queen
[x] Van Halen
[ ] Bob Dylan
[ ] Simon & Garfunkel
TOTAL SO FAR: 68

Now multiply by two and put "I Am ___% Obsessed With Music"
136%

Go me. xD I must have no life. But most of the rap section is blank because I hate rap and try very hard to disregard it. xDD Oh well.


So thanks to Richard and Kim my favorite band of the hour is Owl City. They win so much aaaaass. <3<3<3

ALSO::::~ I finally read volume 1 of Hands Off so if anyone has the rest of the series, could I borrow volume 2? And how many does it have total? And, opinions on Juvenile Orion anyone? I dug out all the manga I'd bought at NDK and I'd purchased the first 2 of JO but I haven't started them yet. =3

Maybe some art soon? LOL

I'm in a very Zemyx-y mood lately. But no one seems to want to write good Zemyx that I haven't already read. =< Phailure to the world.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/22744110/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/22744110/ Thu, 22 Jan 2009 18:32:23 PST never get into Tiger Ladies, and Encore! is just one of those dreams I save for especially rainy days when I can dare to bring it back to life. It makes me sad because I didn't get into the fall play this year, and now I'll have to wait until summer or, more probably, next fall to plant my feet on stage again. Aside from drama class, of course.

Simultaneously, I'm starting to build my confidence in my own vocal instrument. A little weird, considering the situation at the moment, but hell. I've decided I'm not a bad singer, I'm just not what broadway [or Mr. A] is looking for. Not now, or ever. But I don't suck. =3 It'll be hard to break all the habits, like how I instinctively insult my singing voice when the subject arises, but I'm going to try. I've made so much progress in my self esteem, I'm not nearly the wreck I was two years ago. I have too many people to thank for that. I you all.


On a side note, I got my permit the other day. On the 21st. In one year I get my license. *sigh* So long to wait. LOL Oh well. I also love Owl City. And my Drama I class. And Richard.


Sorry for the lack of art. I've been failing lately.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/22551537/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/22551537/ Mon, 12 Jan 2009 20:01:37 PST
In other news, my classes have gone fantastically so far. I hate the entire concept of gym, so Body Works is NOT my fav time of the day. But that's okay. LOL

Nothing else I guess. Just Reed-ranting.





]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/22335724/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/22335724/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 15:18:31 PST

2008 Highlights:
Drama Convention
Aaron
Nan Desu Kan
First cell phone~
The Original Spiral, unfinished as it may be.
The Annex melodrama~~
The one-week Colorado road trip. LOL
My miraculous passing of French class~!!!
Squidgasm
Breaking Dawn counts as a highlight for me despite the multitudes of raving fangirls it brought on.

What I'm most proud of this year: I learned a lot. Stupid thing to be proud of, but I really, really did--more than I've ever learned in one year before. I can now put together sentences in French and write speeches and identify mitosis stages. xDD I'll totally never need any of this except maybe the French, but still. I'm proud of myself. =3 I even watched part of a football game last month. LOL Go me~

What I'm least proud of: The number of friends that are no longer as close as they were last January. The ones who don't like me anymore, the ones who don't want to talk to me anymore or hang out with me. I don't know what I've been doing wrong but I know it has to be something. That's what I'm least proud of. Losing people I shouldn't have lost.

What I'm looking forward to this year: SUMMER!!!! I have so many possible summer plans, I'm excited to see which ones actually happen. Part of me really hopes that they ALL can happen somehow, but I sort of doubt that's possible. Either way, it's going to be looots of fun, so. Excitement~~

What I dread this year: Geometry with Ms. Cuppy. Uuugh, I hate retaking math classes. It was bad the first time and I had my favorite teacher. It's gonna be hell this time around. x_x


And last but not least, My 2009 New Year's Resolutions::

I want to lose some goddamn weight. x_x Seriously. It almost hurts to look at myself in the mirror and see all my gross white fat. xD

I want to be there for people in a way I wasn't last year.

This one's a secret.

I want to write a song!!

I want to speak French fluently.

I want to finish the rough draft of my entry for the Dallas Institute of Art Passion for Fashion scholership contest.

I want to write a novel.

I want to sing again.





I love you guys so much~!!! I had such a great year with you all, and I hope we can have another.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/22194015/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/22194015/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 15:33:32 PST
What I Got for Christmas::

3 long-sleeved shirts
2 tank tops
1 pair of rainbow ankle socks
2 pairs of pajama pants
1 DVD, The Dark Knight
1 FABULOUS new bag
3 necklaces
1 art coupon
1 hand-made hat

YAY. ILU guys so hard. You're so nice to me. x3 My fav gift thus far is the Dark Knight DVD. I love that movie hard but I haven't had money to buy it yet. <3<3<3 About half of the gifts listed are from friends, so thank you guys sooo much. I'm sorry I didn't get anything for most of you. When I went Christmas shopping I had a total of $28, so I managed to shop for a grand total of three people. ;_; But ILU all so hard.

So apparently, Dad got me a webcam. WTF? He called today and was all, "I got us webcams~!! When you fly down I'll show you how to install it, then you can take yours home and use it!" and I'm like "Wtf David Blaine." Why do I need a webcam? My computer is being a fucktard and freezing up every time I watch anything on YouTube, and Dad wants me to attempt to install a webcam??? WHAT. THE FUCK.

LMAO but I'll forgive him if he alots Becky and I plenty of time for shopping. Aaah, post-Christmas sales~~ I might finally buy a new sketchbook, thank God. One that actually fits in my bag. xD

So after the whole Steven fiasco, I'm somehow in more of a Christmas spirit than I have been at any other point this December. xD This may be due to the fact that the only thing I have left of his is his overshirt, so after I drop it off on his porch there will be no more reminders. Then I can focus on helping everyone else who's stuck with his goddamn aftereffects. Hopefully this will all smooth over.

Jesus guys, my art's not coming along at ALL. I have commissions due and I can't seem to draw them, and I can't seem to draw anything else either. @_@ Ugh. LOL

Whatever.

Merry Christmas guys~~


List all of your characters. You may choose to list only major characters, or you may list your 'minor' characters as well, but any characters IMPORTANT to you MUST be listed.

- Describe each character in exactly four words, no more, no less.

- When you're finished, tag four people, so that you may impose how much cooler YOUR characters are than theirs.

HYPHENATED WORDS DON'T COUNT LOL?

Nakuru - Strong, cliche, amnesia, fire.

Cadence - Scared, sheltered, musical, hopeless.

Indigo - Fucking crazy incestuous homo.

Auciia - Weak, outcast, self-loathing, struggling.

Cadell - Diverse, musical, chance, necromancy.


Jesus I hate my characters. xD They're so damn cliche. :/ I'll have to work on that. D=

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21734901/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21734901/ Sat, 29 Nov 2008 16:56:52 PST
I finished my biology project, as well as my lovely honors English speech. (best speech I've written this year, I think. Especially considering I didn't start out as very passionate about the subject. LOL) I cleaned my room (it's beautiful you guys, seriously), I started KimKim's X-mas gift and finished Ariel's birthday one, and I went makeup shopping. I walked away from that with fabulous blue eyeshadow (more navy than the true blue I'd been looking for but that's okay, it came with teal also), new eyeliner and the coolest frikkin electric pink lipstick I've ever owned. Yay for Alex. I also saw Hancock.

And I'll be returning to school as a no-longer-single teenager. Glee, because this one seems like he'll be sticking around for a bit. His name is Steven, and I originally met him at Reese's party, but we kept hanging out this past month and it's pointless to even bother denying that we can be counted as "together." LOL I'm a tad bit nervous, I'll admit--he graduated last year, but it's only a 2-year age difference, and when I dated Garrett, back when I was a Freshman, he'd been a senior twice so I don't see how this is any worse. xD; Either way, he's fabulous and definitely not dull to be with. I'm more afraid that I'm the dull one here, since I'm so boring to talk to when it's just me and another person. >_> Agh, we'll figure something out. LMAO~

DRAMA CONVENTION 2008 WILL COMMENCE ON THURSDAY AT LUNCH!!!!!

At lunch this Thursday, myself, along with anyone else who's part of Drama Club and paid to go, will be boarding a bus and driving the three hours to Denver for the amazing Drama Convention. I'm more excited than I can convey~ I'll be rooming with Ariel, Hilary (whom I like well enough, but she wasn't necessarily my first choice to room with), and Jessica (whom I just met this year, she played one of the maids in Pride and Prejudice). Mama Dean promises that we'll spend hardly any time in the room anyway, except for eating, sleeping, and showering, so I'm sure it doesn't actually matter who we room with. LOL. Either way, it's going to be the best weekend of the year--yes, it will be better than NDK. We had too much drama this year (caused by me and my PMS-ing self, in some cases, to which I apologize). But this will be amazing. I plan on going Christmas shopping with the money I've been saving, and in Denver, shopping opportunities soar.

There's apparently a hot topic down the street from our hotel, which we're allowed to go to in groups if we want. I'm SO excited.

I also found out that my friends Garrett and Corey both work at Hastings. I may have to ask if they'd be willing to use their employee's discount for me so I can get someone a gift this year~ That I would normally be too poor to buy. xD Me and my jobless self. LOL

I'm also gonna go to Texas for Christmas Break, which is exciting--MORE SHOPPING OPPORTUNITIES GLEE. And sometime before break we're going to Grandma's to make cookies. It's the only thing I like doing there, but hell. We get a whole day dedicated to it, and I usually give them out for Christmas so.


I AM IN SUCH A DAMN CHRISTMAS MOOD IT IS NOT EVEN FUNNY. D D

So, our car is fucked up. Dunno if we'll ever be able to drive it again, so for the moment we're using the Old Blue Pickup--it's a miracle we were able to drive it from West Cliff to here without it exploding or something. LMAO The thing is, it doesn't have tags so it's illegal to be driving it. Sooo, Mom's gonna go get some on Monday so we can use the truck regularly. LOL.

When she does, I'm going down to the library (cuz it's too damn cold to walk) and getting the book 1984, by George Orwell. I really reeeeealllyyyy wanna read it because, for reasons unknown to me (but that will for the moment be blamed on Ergo Proxy) I'm really interested in philosophy/conspiracy concepts. xD And I randomly want to write a book about it. Oh dear. LOOOLZ.

I'm going to take my test to ge... ]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21499330/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21499330/ Sun, 16 Nov 2008 13:15:38 PST
It's really upsetting, but...I dunno. I just don't know what else to do. I'm not a good writer and I don't think I can do it....not for this month, not for next year, not for a living. Not ever.

I have five days total of NOTHING written. I'm so far behind it isn't even funny and my writer's block has been accumulating since day one.

Jesus...this sucks, you know?

Trying really hard not to make this into a pity-party journal. -_- Sorry if that's what it sounds like, I promise it wasn't intentional.

I'm just really sad that I won't be able to finish this. I'm sad that it isn't worth finishing. I'm worried that I'll never have anything worth finishing.

Well, some other time then, guys.

p.s. Cast party was amazing. We hung out with Steven after Ariel and I left, and I went and spent the night with her. Soooo much fun. LOL And I can't wait to be a senior~ Hell yeah.

Edit:: Now that I'm over the initial depression of being a failure and abandoning my precious Cadence, I'm able to feel much more free to do things like gorge on Ergo Proxy and Bleach, go to concerts with friends (friends who should tell me when they're playing again cuz Patrick wants to know lol), and take four-hour naps in the middle of the day. It's fabulous. LOL

I'm reasonably certain that Cadence will have his story told eventually, but I'm rather resigned to the fact that other things may need to be written first. Other stories might have priority over his, but I still love him and would never forgive myself if I never finished his story.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21312729/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21312729/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 06:45:57 PST
So I came home.

And I'm proooobably not going back. -_-

Even though my stuff is at school. Damn.


Well, at some point I have to go to the drama meeting, but that's besides the point. xD

I guess I'll call Richard and tell him.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21270101/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21270101/ Sat, 01 Nov 2008 18:03:26 PDT
Anyway. Do you guys like the name Ophelia? I love it personally, just wondering how you guys feel. Old lady name? Romantic name? What?

No, the main character's name isn't Ophelia...he's a guy so. That could get weird. LOL I just happen to have a semi-main female character who needs a name and I LOVE Ophelia. xD

So my audition went really well, but I'm nooot sure I got the job, because there were like...more than 10 people auditioning, and only 1 will get hired. ;_; I hope I get it though. Really bad. LOL



So when my hair grows out and the black is gone, I'm gonna dye the bottom layer purple, have one piece that's all striped-y, and have random purple chunks in the layers above. All that isn't purple will be black, and I might have pink in there too. LMAO. I'm excited. x3


No Halloween pic this year I guess. No time. D=


Um, that's all for now. Trick-or-treating was a huge blast, I loved it. Though I did leave my makeup at Richard's house and I neeeeeed it. xD I have NO MONEY left on my phone. I can't answer your call or text you until there is. Sorry!! D=

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21167179/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21167179/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 07:53:35 PDT
My audition is this Saturday at 9:00~~~ Sadly, this IS the day after Halloween, so I'll have to make sure to get home by 10-ish so I can actually sleep. ;__; Meaning we may have to cut things short so we can have our Fabulous Traditional Candy Exchange while watching a horror movie.

....actually, I just added that part on as spurofthemoment. But anyway. Not important~~

I AM NOOOOOT GOING TO GET STREPTHROAT THIS TIME~~!!! AND I AM GOING TO GET HIRED OH YES I AM. YES.

I need a job so, so badly. I spent all my money on Homecoming, so not only do I now have to use last year's Halloween costume because I don't have the money to fix up this year's, but I now have no idea how I'm going to pay for Drama Convention.

I will shank you if you ask me to go to a movie or someshit. I have to hardcore save for this if I want to go, I'm gonna have barely enough for hotel and that's only if Mama Dean lets me turn it in a week late.



Soooooooo yes. I'm excited~!! Wish me luck guys. x3


And if I don't get hired, there's always the March audition~ If they have it this year. LOL

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21068624/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21068624/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 18:12:38 PDT
Yesterday, Aaron came to see me from Pueblo. I was so happy to see him, I didn't care that I was still in my ugliest possible clothes and hadn't shaved my legs in at least four days (though I guess that didn't much matter, since I was in sweatpants lol). We sat and talked about xxxHolic and anime and libraries and such, but it seemed really...eh. I dunno. I miss what we had so, so much.

For some reason, when he asked when Christmas break starts for us, I thought of Will. It almost seems like he never happened, except that the damage last summer had left was gone when Will was.

So this is a pretty irrelevant journal, and no one should bother reading further. xD It's just something for me to use to get stuff off my chest.

I've been really depressed lately. Everything's...changing. Not in a good way, as usual; it's changing in a hideously unfamiliar way, twisting so that I hardly recognize my own life anymore. I don't recognize my friends, I don't recognize my heart, I don't recognize my family.



My family. That's the worst part, almost. Ha...some of my friends think they know soooo much, but there's at least one part of my life that only two people in the world know about: my mom and my brother. How grotesquely ironic.


Along with being depressed, I've practically been worried into an ulcer about Jack. I finally got to talk to him but it didn't accomplish much in the way of decreasing said worry.


Let's go ahead and add isolation to my list, simply because that's what you do when writing pathetic, retarded and pointless emo-rant journals. We should all know this, as I seem to be writing them incessantly lately.

For the most part, my friends (you guys ) have been fantastically supportive and such. And I really do appreciate it. I'm sorry if I've been having a hard time returning it to those of you who actually care. I've been feeling so isolated lately, maybe because I'm still...I dunno. Coping, I guess, with the absence of Aaron and everything that's going on with my goddamn family...and other things. Eh. Some people can be very talented in making me feel like I'm not worthy of the oxygen I breathe or the space I take up (which, admittedly, is quite a lot of space).


So all in all. I've been feeling shitty these past couple weeks, and it just keeps getting worse. It's okay when I'm in French class. LOL. Best class of the day, by far. Or sometimes when I'm in Geometry, since I have the coolest teacher of all time. But mostly....ugh. Depression. Not as bad as last summer...no. Not that bad. This is just...a hopeless kind of feeling. Like nothing will be the same, nor will it ever get better. It sucks, you know?


Okay...so, end emo-rant. I'm getting sick of myself again. That's one thing that's getting worse...that's one thing amongst many that I'm actually rather worried about. I don't know what to do. I need a good book really badly, guys.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21030327/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21030327/ Fri, 17 Oct 2008 11:25:00 PDT It's so pretty, but the waist is like 26 inches (Mom was TINY back then) and mine is 30, so it doesn't fit. I'm gonna fix that with some D-rings and ribbon, and borrow a big hoop from the Drama Wardrobe...I also need a good tutorial for homemade blood, if anyone has one.

I need to find a veil or something too. LOL Or like, a white lolita-ish tophat. But I can't spend too much money on this because DramaCon is coming up. So. Ideas would be helpful.

I'm still grounded by the way, so...I'll do what I can? XD

Now I'm leaving you all for Momo's. Have fun.

Love you~

Alex

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20933708/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20933708/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 08:42:22 PDT

I love you all, and I'll see you whenever.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20763681/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20763681/ Tue, 30 Sep 2008 16:56:18 PDT
I don't really know how to tell you this, but our affair is over. I think I realized it September in womens' clothing when I saw you sit on my mustard souffle. I'm sure you're masochistic enough to understand that we're cousins. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should know that I will always remember to hate the Boston Celtics.

Go burn,
Alex





LOL. [link]
Originally stolen from *Rynies

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20639705/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20639705/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 17:09:32 PDT deleted all the journals and deviations and polls so if anything important was put up that I need to see, SEND IT TO ME PLEASE.

So. Batch 1 of auditions today. I'm excited, I REALLY hope I made Call Backs. [For ye who do not know, the play this year is Pride and Prejudice.]

I wanna be Lydia. She's hilariously fun. xD I don't like her really, as a character, but she'd be SUCH FUN to play. xDD

Anyway.


Have a nice life and stuff.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20268525/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20268525/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 09:41:07 PDT
Well, my last cosplay piece should come in the mail soon and then it's only a matter of altering it.

Rei, yous aid you had an idea on how I can make my rope stiff? Someone said something about crochet wire or something? Anyway, I realized my rope is way too limpy. xD I'll have to thread the wire through the entire bow, or not at all. :/

So art IS coming, I promise. Today I finished inking Aaron's going-away gift...it was probably the most horribly tedious thing I've ever had to do besides read The Grapes of Wrath. But it was worth it, it looks pretty good so far.


I have a drama meeting tomorrow--first one of the year. I'm so excited~!! I heard that the Fall Play will be Alice in Wonderland, so I went and re-watached it on YouTube. I think it would make a better musical, if you ask me, but whatever. So a few of us [Richard and Kim and I and maybe others?] are going to be Punk'd Out Wonderland characters this Halloween. I call dibs on either Alice or the Queen of Hearts...whichever one Kim doesn't want. LOL


Someday I will make an amazing Queen of Hearts costume. But this year it'll just be a roughly thrown-together thing since I can't spare any money for it. LOL not with the DramaCon coming up.


Football game was fun. Ariel gave us details about the convention which I am SO INCREDIBLY PSYCHED FOR OH EHM GEEEEEEE. xD

Anyhow.


I have my NaNoWriMo story aaaaall planned out. Well, I have it summarized. I'm working on a chapter plan and then I can do character planning so that by the time I write it in November I'll be all ready. If I have time, that is. I'm really hoping I can finish it. :/


Um. I don't have much else to say. I desperately need a new school bag. I hate this Old Navy one I'm using right now, but my Green Day one is too small to fit all my stuff in. ;_;

Blah.

Well, whatever. Update over.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20132736/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20132736/ Sun, 24 Aug 2008 15:06:40 PDT
[x] I like skinny jeans.
[x] Music is life.
[x] I write poetry/song lyrics.
[x] My hair covers part of my face
[x] I wear band shirts.
[x] I know who Jeffree Star is. (??)
[x] I wear converse.
[ ] I wear vans.
[x] I wear eyeliner.
[ ] I have/had my lip pierced
[ ] I listen to Saves The Day, Emanual, and Saliva.

Total: 8

[ ] I’m in a band.
[x] My screen name had an x in it.
[x] I know My Chemical Romance isn't an emo band.
[x] I also know Green Day isn't an emo band.
[x] I know what mosh means.
[ ] I sit in corners often.
[x] I hate MTV.
[x] I take pictures of myself a lot.
[x] Especially ones where you can't see my whole face.

Total: 7

[x] I am lost without a cd player/my iPod/mp3/psp
[ ] I have thick rimmed glasses.
[x] I have no issues with bi/gay people.
[x] I hate the president.
[ ] I have/had a Mohawk.
[x] I've worn black nail polish.
[ ] I like slipknot.
[x] I hate where I live.
[x] Black is a great color.
Total: 6

[x] Right now I am listening to music.
[x] I know what hxc and sxc means.
[x] MySpace = love
[x] Hot Topic doesn't scare me.
[x] I wear/wore studded belts.
[x] I’ve cried while listening to Dashboard Confessional.
[x] I wear/have worn skinny jeans.
[x] I have dyed my hair black.
[x] I cry a lot.
[x] I write on myself.
[x] I’ve been called emo before.
Total: 11

Grand Total:32

Add up, then times by three!


I am 96% emo....according to the stereotypes. -_-

I don't think I'm that emo though. xDD Mostly because I think the stereotype of 'emo' is a lot of bullshit. But whatever.


Stolen from ~Knifeshadow.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20049513/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20049513/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 20:52:52 PDT
School's okay. French is amazing. I got transferred to my preferred math teacher for Geometry. My Biology teacher wins. Where the hell is Shayne. Seriously.



7 Things you like the most...

1. Music.
2. Sleep.
3. Chaos and general disorder.
4. Fashion/makeup/hair.
5. Literature.
6. Theatre.
7. Diversity.

7 Important things in your room...

1. My iHome.
2. My fashion magazines. [I love you Vogue]
3. My friend's art.
4. My electric blanket.
5. My bookshelf and all that it contains.
6. My clothes.
7. My...eh. I dunno. xD I don't go there much.

7 Random facts about you...

1. I hate feeling inferior. A lot. But it happens so often that I've grown accustomed to it.
2. I am never satisfied with myself.
3. My inspiration for writing comes and goes like wind.
4. I'm only hygienic because hygiene = pretty skin and hair, and it also = no smell. So. Yes.
5. I hate what scenecore has come to stand for. However, I love the style--I think it's cute and fun.
6. I have random bouts of cravings for classical music.
7. I love love LOVE wearing cute panties. xD However, most of my panties are plain, and generally cut wrongly for my body shape. ;_;

7 Things you plan to do before you die...

1. Publish a series of novels.
2. Become a high couture fashion designer.
3. Going on a world-round [partial] roadtrip to malls, shops and boutiques around the world~
4. Buy at least 10 fast food buildings [McDonald's, Burger King, Taco Bell, etc.] and change them into organic health food markets.
5. Buy 1-10 corporately owned slaughterhouses, pay the fees for the workers to legally go through the Naturalization process, then find jobs for them all. And of course demolish the remaining building and create in its place an orphanage or something that's actually useful to American society. :/
6. Get married and have a family.
7. Do costuming for a big Hollywood movie or design gowns for celebrities.

7 Things that you find attractive...

1. Piercings. Lip, eyebrow, ears [no gauge-ing no], bellybuttons, hips, back of neck...
2. Skinny jeans.
3. Men who wear ACTUAL COLORS.
4. Long hair, preferably layered.
5. Pale skin.
6. Red hair. Meaning: Red, orange, light-orange, auburn, dark red...
7. Green or blue eyes. Preferably green. x3

7 Things you say the most...

1. What the fuck.
2. GOOD SHIT!! D=
3. Goddammit.
4. Buttseks?
5. FAAG. [pronounced 'FAY-g' for those unfamiliar with Rei-and-Alex Slang.]
6. Doubt it.
7. It happens.

7 Favorite drinks...

1. Green tea.
2. Mountain Dew
3. Fruit smoothies.
4. Mug Cream Soda
5. Fruit juice.
6. V8
7. Milk.

7 Favorite Songs...
[note:: These change daily, if not hourly. :/ ]

1. Three Cheers for Five Years [Acoustic-Piano] - Mayday Parade
2. I Constantly Thank God for Estabon - Panic at the Disco
3. Breathe - Paramore
4. Turpentine Chaser - Dashboard Confessional
5. Thunder - Boys Like Girls
5. Who I Am hates Who I've Been - Relient K
6. Black Keys - Andy Davis
7. Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20024867/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20024867/ Mon, 18 Aug 2008 14:54:31 PDT

Because it seems like an appealing thing at the moment, and because I now have inspiration from Rei's and Richard's journals, I guess this will be another Angry Ranting Journal. :/


So, I really hate people who just feel sorry for themselves or whatever for attention. More than anything in that category, I hate hate HATE people who cut for attention--the ones who practically FLAUNT it. God damn, it's not something you ought to be proud of. Injuring yourself is not the best way to get attention. Try not SUCKING so badly, then maybe people would like you. What the hell guys.


I also hate people who attack people who DON'T cut for attention/are actually depressed for no reason. You idiots don't know what they're going through, so don't make fun of them for being 'emo' or whatever. For all you know, they'll come to school tomorrow with a gun at their side because of you. If you can help, help. If you can't, leave them the hell alone, even if YOU think their life is good. It might be hurting them in ways you can't understand, and it's wrong to assume otherwise just because you think they're 'scenecore posers' or whatever. Get a life. Seriously.


Mmm....I hate people who insist that their opinion is fact and vehemently oppose everyone else's opinion. What the hell. If you differ in opinions, it's not the end of the universe. Respect each other's opinions and don't bash them. Not cool. :/


I REALLY hate people who judge people based on their looks and label them. Nobody except the ORIGINAL emo kid fits into that label exactly and perfectly. Okay? Okay. There will without a doubt be SOME facet of their personality that differs from the label you so rudely stamped them with, I promise you. I'm sick of people thinking everyone fits into categories, everyone's all the same, blah blah blah. Fuck you all.


Hm...I hate homophobes. For obvious reasons.



The end. I've decided I love 'Almost Lover' by A Fine Frenzy. Pretty vocals are PRETTY~

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/19959915/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/19959915/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 20:42:35 PDT
This angers me. I thought that, after Will fixed me, [because although he left me, he left me WHOLE]I could be happy. I dunno why I thought that nothing would upset me after that. xD Illogical, but a happy thought.


Aaron is leaving for Pueblo.

Not sound like a problem yet? Well. I can't do long-distance relationships. Why? A number of reasons.

The first and maybe the most important is that I am a person who's very paranoid. As such, I thrive on touch and face-to-face contact with lovers [that could be taken totally literal LMAO]. You can tell so much by how your man/woman touches you [or doesn't touch you] that I can't imagine a relationship without it. Well, I can actually, but it sucks [for me]. I'm not saying it's impossible--loooots of people have found amazing love over the internet and I'm not knocking that at all. I'm just saying that I, personally, can't do it. I can't stay with someone who doesn't live at least as close as Florence. I just can't, because I'd always feel like I was tying them down or something. ;_; Hence the paranoia part.

The other reason is this: I could indeed handle a long-distance relationship comprising entirely of phone calls, letters, emails and occasional visits, but ONLY if there was an undeniable promise of being together after the temporary separation was over. Example: If Boy and Girl went to college in different states but wanted to work through it. That would work fine, if they had promised to be together after college. It would also work if they chose to not be together DURING college simply so that they could maybe get to know other people, but promised to consider it after college. However, neither of those things are happening here. I couldn't do this because there would be no chance of him moving back here, or me moving to Pueblo. We'd get to see each other MAYBE a couple times before Christmas because I'd be so bogged down with homework and Drama and NaNoWrMo. And he graduates a year before me, so he'd be off to college in the Springs and a year later, I'd be off to Texas and we'd never see each other again, PROBABLY. So this wouldn't work, you see?


I would like nothing more than to stay with him. I wish I could, you have no idea. I'm on the verge of tears just writing this [teenage angst lol]. [..okay that made me a little happier. xD] I'm going to miss him so much. After Reese, [even during Will] I hadn't thought I'd love again. I mean, I wasn't totally pessimistic or anything--I was sure I'd find someone I really, REALLY liked, and could spend the rest of my life with, and settle down and have BABIES and shit. But I didn't think I'd fall in love again like I did with Reese.

As it turns out, I was wrong, and I love Aaron in an even more pure and beautiful way than Reese. This is mostly because our relationship is based on a mixture of friendship, attraction and strong feelings of LURV. Reese's relationship started out loosely as love, but as the roots were put down it became based more on a distasteful mix of sorrow, regret, depression, paranoia and tragedy--the love just made it more bittersweet rather than outright rancid. We tried so hard to make it work, but it had gone awry somewhere and couldn't be salvaged.

This, however, is amazing. It's beautiful, and now it's being taken from me, again. This won't be another Reese dilemma--I won't go totally emo/suicidal over it. I've been depressed and anxious [I haven't been this anxious since last summer, about this time, actually] but I'm confident I can recover...eventually. I just needed to vent. A lot. ;_;




Yeah. Sorry for this random outburst of Emo after the like, 7-8 months of Happy [or at least mildly Content]. Hopefully it won't happen again, or if it does, it'll occur in one concentrated spurt of Emo which I can then delete and get over.


Agh. I loved twice--TWICE, how lucky does one person get?--it would be a miracle for me to love a third time. xD







With this news, I've also become a lot more...hm. HOW DO I SAY THIS. My self-esteem has dropped back into the negatives after such a long time of being a comfortable 0-5. [7 and a half months of such, in fact.] Aaron makes me feel content with myself. Like I don't need to change. NO ONE has ever made me feel that way. Not my friends, certainly not my family or my peers. No lover ever before has made me happy with myself. And now the only person to is leaving and suddenly my hate for myself is growing again, when I thought I'd managed to quell it in... ]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/19542205/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/19542205/ Tue, 22 Jul 2008 18:02:02 PDT 1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.

Characters Chosen:
a. Breyai
b. Hael (pronounced as Hail)
c. Vittario (Air)
d. Xia



1) How old are you?
a. Breyai: 23--in my priiiime, baby.
b. Hael: Oh..well...I'm a centaur so...I'm ageless...y-y'know...*blush*
c. Vittario: 19.
d. Xia: I'm eighteen~!

2) Height?
a. Breyai: 5'8". Models gotta be tall...practically a rule...*grumble*
b. Hael: I...don't know. >///<;
c. Vittario: *waves hand in air at head-length* Oh, 'bout 5'7, 5'8-ish? *shrugs*
d. Xia: I'm short. *pout* 5'5". :<


3) You got any bad habits?
a. Breyai: I'm short with people and flirt shamelessly...maybe I lead people on too much, since I rarely follow through with any of these 'invitation's. Hahaha~!
b. Hael: Um...I'm a bit shy...it's hard for me to talk to people I don't know...b-but if I know you, I'm a lot louder! *blush*
d. Xia: *ponder* I guess I'm kind of hyper...and I have a bad habit of attracting strange people~! *grin*

4) You a virgin?
a. Breyai: Oh, the tragedies of women in love! No, not a virgin--thanks to the jackasses known as Man.
b. Hael: *blushblushblush* W-w-well, I-I..._eep. >///>
c. Vittario: Hahaha...let's leave that up to what you choose to make of it, shall we? *grin*
d. Xia: Well, I haven't had a chance to change that...boys don't seem to like me. *sad smile*

5) Who's your mate/spouse?
a. Breyai: Eh, I'm just waiting around right now I guess.
b. Hael: Well...I love him very much, you know and...*blush/stutter/Embarrassed* _Adrian...
c. Vittario: Caelan...I'd say more like 'soulmate' instead of mere 'spouse', though.
d. Xia: *frown* I don't have one...but I hope to someday meet a wonderful man who will love me for who I am...*bliss*

6) Have any kids?
a. Breyai: Ha...as if I would let a man leave me with a KID when I know damn well he wouldn't stay anyway. *bitter and jaded*
b. Hael: N-no! No, it's a bit impossible...
c. Vittario: Mmm...no, I don't think I want children...maybe if Caelan does, later...*ponder*
d. Xia: Silly, I can't have kids if I'm a virgin! *laugh*

7) Favorite food?
a. Breyai: Food? Shit...haven't had any REAL food in a loooong while...damn agent...with all his 'fat-free butter' that doesn't spread, and '0-cal lunchmeat' that tastes like rubber...>_O; *continues to violently cuss out her agent*
b. Hael: Oh...well, I like...all kinds of food...but especially blueberries...and strawberries...and fruit tarts and...well, you know...>///<
c. Vittario: *seductively* Anything at all as long as it's Caelan feeding it to me...
d. Xia: Molasses-covered walnuts~!! A Spring country specialty~!


8) Favorite ice cream flavor?
a. Breyai: Ice cream? No dear, I'm only allowed fat-free frozen vanilla yogurt.
b. Hael: Strawberry-cheesecake! ^.^
c. Vittario: Mmm...any kind, as long as I can share it with him...(God, just answer it blondie.) *glare* Fine. Mocha-raspberry.
d.Xia: Hmm...anything sweet~! Especially cotton-candy flavor!

9) Killed anyone?
a. Breyai: Kill? Only if not eating enough food and therefore leaving it for the morbidly obese who later die of diabetes counts as 'killing'. *skulks off to find something in the way of 'food'*
b. Hael: Kill? *wide-eyed* N-no, never!
c. Vittario: No, but I'm sure I'll have to someday.
d. Xia: Well...no, but...I would if I had to. (And she does have to at plenty of points in her story but..she doesn't know that yet. xD )



10) Hate anyone?
a. Breyai: Everyone in the whole goddamn modeling business who thinks that stick-thin people are the only ' pretty' ones...goddamn. And my agent, who thinks that I should be like that too. Dirty bitches. >_<
b. Hael: I-I...I hate anyone who tries to hurt Adrian...>///<
c.Vittario: I hate everyone. The world has hurt me, and it has hurt Caelan. It cannot be forgiven.
d. Xia: Oh no no no no no, hate does not produce inner zen~!! D= *is very big on peaceful, serene inner-thoughts*


11) Any secrets?
a. Breyai: Oh yeah, I have plenty...like that tiny piece of cheesecake I ate last week, and the small order of fries I ate because I hadn't had anything all day and I was in a hurry....oh! And that packet of instant oatmeal I had for breakfast... ]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/19146538/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/19146538/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 19:21:18 PDT
So please, please buy some arts~~

I will send you your commission when I'm done with it.

;_;

I really need commissions~!!! Badly!! Please help me?

I just recently found out that Janie called off the melodrama. That means no more paycheck for Alex until I audition again for Cold Stone (and hopefully get the job) in March. I have looooots of expenses before then, so PLEASE, if you have extra money, please commission me~!!

...IRL friends should know I don't take money from them so this isn't targeted at you LMAO.

I will do an inked sketch for $5.

I will do a quickly CG'd sketch for $10
or
a quickly Prismamarker'd sketch for $10.

I will do a profile-style drawing for $15.

Additional characters are $5 each.

These are very cheap compared to other people's, so please please come buy something. x3


There will be 10 slots open at a time.
I accept payment through Snail Mail or PayPal.
Please buy arts. xD

On a side note, if you're looking for art but are not interested in mine, go check out *Zachary-Moonlight, as he is opening commissions to pay for a friend's gift and his are as cheap as mine.


SLOTS::

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3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.





]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/19128774/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/19128774/ Mon, 30 Jun 2008 13:42:57 PDT
Is that hard to believe, for you? It is for me.

Is it hard for anyone else?


...


Are you sure?

Is it as hard as it is for me?


To believe, I mean. To believe that everything that happened to me last summer is a year away, and will be longer every day and every minute, and every breath I take is another breath away from the pain.


And to think that, truly, the only ones who know are the ones who were there with me, once. The ones so close to me that, at the time, it had seemed like they were going through it, too.

And I suppose they were. All along, they were, in a different way, not like me and yet the very same.



And this summer feels exactly the same. The closeness, that is. I am at a loss to answer how that is, when the only person I've really seen all summer is Aaron, and he wasn't even there.



I wish to tell you, if you were next to me, walking with me when I struggled, carrying me when I forgot how to walk, and flying for me when I tore off my own wings, that he, Aaron, cannot take the place of you. I love him very, very much, and I always will, but he wasn't there, and there is something we can't share that you and I can, have, and hopefully, will again.



But only if you wish.



The smell of pumpkin-cinnamon spice makes me feel lonely, but the smell of the rain makes me pathetically nostalgic for the best of times, just as I was last summer, wishing for things long past. And now, when finally things can revert, or grow, or be better,


I find myself nearly as alone as I was.


Alone, and surrounded by people who don't share my Story.


And how often do I see the people who did?

It seems I'm lucky to even talk to them. To you, that is. Because really I've been talking to you all along, you aren't a 'them' and the term isn't for this journal, because I'm not talking to anyone else.


I wonder if anyone has any idea what I'm talking about.


Then I wonder if I have any idea.


But now I decide that it doesn't matter anyway, I'm just typing because that's all I've done so far, really, when you think about it.




But you wouldn't think about it, would you? Because it seems--or seemed, more appropriately--that you never cared what I've done so far. It doesn't matter if I haven't done anything at all, because even though I was pathetic, you seemed to still love me.




Is it the same?



More importantly, does it matter?





Love always,

Kuru-chan
-Alex

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18902214/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18902214/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 22:28:49 PDT 1) Are you an Aunt/Uncle
No.

2) Can you do a cartwheel?
No. The most athletic thing I can do is a somersault. Maybe.

3) Any plans for tonight?
I already rehearsed...so the last plan is Sleep.

4) Do you eat vegetables regularly?
I usually eat a salad every day, so yes.

5) If you were going to get a body piercing, where would you get it?
My hips. Or lips or eyebrow or bellybutton. Preferably all of the above.

6) Do you ever hang out with someone of the opposite sex besides family?
Yes.

7)What is the weather like over there?
It's far too cold here for being Summertime.

8) What is something that you can't wait for?
I can't wait to see Aaron.

9) How many times have you been to Canada?
None. It's too cold there.

10) Have you ever had a fish as a pet?
Yes. Five, all dead within a week.

11) What is your favorite fruit?
Bananas or strawberries.

12) What song is on your myspace profile right now?
I think it's 'Nine in the Afternoon' by Panic at the Disco.

13) Where are you most ticklish?
My spine.

14) How many hours a week do you normally work?
One.

16) Do you have deep dark secrets?
I do.

17) When was the last time you were sick?
I'm always sick, damn it.

18) Have you ever gotten caught sneaking out?
I've never snuck out. Thus far I have been lacking in good reason to do so.

19) Have you ever tried running away from home?
Yes. Got caught, of course.

20) What makes you the happiest?
When I am creating, or with people I love.

22) Have you ever finished a Rubik's Cube?
No. Although my friend can finish one in five minutes.

23) What is the last thing you drank?
Arizona Green Tea [diet].

24) When was the last time you rode a bike?
A long time ago. My bicycle has been broken.

25) Do you have any vacation plans for this summer?
Act, work, play, love.

26) Who will be your next kiss?
Aaron.

27) In the past week have you kissed a lot of people?
No, only one.

28) Are you wearing socks right now?
LMAO no, because Richard says socks are for squares.

29) When was the last time you went out of state?
December when I went to Texas for Christmas.

30) Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
No. I'm too poor for the Movies.

31) What were you doing before this?
Getting my mother to let me stay upstairs later.

32) What are you wearing right now?
A black T-shirt with white skulls on it and a pair of pale blue sweatpants [I'm ready for bed.]

33) What was your last purchase?
Pink mascara and a dusty lavender tank top with lightning bolts on it.

34) Last thing you ate?
A sammich from Subway.

35) Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
No.

36) Three words to explain why you last threw up and when?
I don't remember.

37) What is the equation for the Pythagorean theorem?
A-Squared + B-Squared = C-Squared. I hate my math class but I at least picked that up.

38) What was the last movie you watched?
'Secrets of the Summer Home' but I couldn't finish it because I had rehearsal.

39) What kind of car does your sister drive?
She drives a silver...Explorer, maybe? I'm not sure.

40) Do you like scrabble?
I've never played.

41) Favorite scent?
Vanilla, by far.

42) Do you like mornings?
I hate mornings. My morning starts at 1:00 pm.

46) Last television program you watched?
'Hidden Potential' on HGTV.

47) Spell your name with no vowels:
lxndr

48) Does your neighbor have an animal that annoys you?
No.

49) Does your family own any boats?
My dad owns a boat.

50) Something you can't live without?
Expression and Love.

51) Do you wear flip flops constantly?
No, but I do wear them.

52) Do you have air conditioning in your room?
No, but I wouldn't want it. It's far too cold in my basement.

53) Have you ever kissed your dog?
I hate my dog. Answer: No.

54) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
At school, learning like a good boring little girl.

55) How often do you read a book
Often. Currently I'm reading 'The Grapes of Wrath'...by force for my Honors class.

56) What is your favorite shampoo?
I don't remember the name, but we can't afford to buy it anymore.

57) How is your heart?
I'm not sure, we haven't spoken since it got lost in the clouds. Ask Aaron, maybe he knows.

58) Describe the computer you are currently... ]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18774797/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18774797/ Sat, 23 Aug 2008 23:03:58 PDT
And possibly Transvestite!Orochimaru. Maybe. I need an outfit for the Rave, as well. If I decide to go there instead of the Yaoi Panel. We'll see. I missed Yaoi Panel last time for the Rave so I dunno~

EDIT:: When I said Transvestite, I meant Lady. So for the sake of non-confusion and simplicity, we'll change the name to Lady!Orochimaru.

So here's the plans that are very shoddy and not really planned yet. xD
- Completed/Obtained
- In-progress
- Not yet started/obtained



x. Orochimaru Cosplay .x

<sub>1 Black Wig

1 Pale Tan Medium-length Sleeve Tunic Top

1 Olive Turtleneck [none ribbed]

2-4 Yards Halter Rope
1 Large Tin Bucket
1 Bottle Lavender-Violet Fabric Dye

1-3 Rolls White Non-Adhesive Bandage Wrap

1 Liquid Lavender Eyeliner
1 Lavender Eyeliner Stick

1 Pair Orochimaru's Earrings

1 Pair Black Pants

1 Pair Black Ninja Shoes

Overall Progress:: 94%
________________________________________________



x. R A V E Costume .x

1 Black Tanktop

1 Miniskirt

1 Pair Black Fishnet

1 Neon Green Neon Pink Tie

1 Neon Green Fishnet Shirt

1 Neon Green Stud Belt

1 pair Black Shoes

1 Pack Mini Pink/Green Glowsticks

Miscellaneous Glowing/Neon Accessories

1 Headband/Bandana

Overall Progress:: 75%
________________________________________________



x. Lady!Orochimaru Cosplay .x

1 Yard Pale Tan Cotton Fabric http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18664107/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 14:45:01 PDT
Yep. How long has it been since I've submitted Sonic the Hedgehog fanart? Ages. And ages. AND AGES.

But I've been addicted to SA2:B lately (like, BADLY. I'm trying to get A's on all the missions--it's hard, but we're getting there.) and I've also been playing Shadow the Hedgehog more...although really, I suck ASS at that game. The control is way different than on SA2:B so it's weird for me. xD I even played Sonic Heroes the other day. LOL!

ANYWAY.

I remembered what a FANTASTIC COUPLE Sonic and Shadow make. I think I still like Sonuckles or Knuxadow more, but I love Sonadow all the same and I think I'm going to draw a short little doujinshi about them.

I'm not sure what the title will be, and it doesn't have a lot of plot. xD It's basically just two men stumbling over their emotions and such...fluff? Angst? Both???


Tell me what you think. Planning is in progress. I'll start drawing when I have it all thought out.

]]> ~NakuruAngel</sub> http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18627000/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18627000/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 12:43:58 PDT Go to Google and type in your first name and the phrase. Copy and paste the first sentence/phrase you get that makes sense. [Or that is awsome]

Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search.
A: Alex needs more than just a rat trap for this vermin.

Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search.
A: Alex looks like a Babylonian hooker after a busy Saturday.

Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search.
A: Alex Says Rape.

Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search.
A: Alex wants to bring a tray of baked macaroni.

Q: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search.
A: Alex does Galactic Domination with pictures.

Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search.
A: Alex Hates You.

Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search.
A: Alex Asks “Is Street Wear Just A Hype Beast?”

Q: Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search.
A: Alex... goes mellow?

Q: Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search.
A: Alex likes his toast cut into squares.

Q: Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search.
A: Reese comes home... Alex eats in approval

Q: Type in "[your name] wears " in Google search.
A: Alex wears a metal halo

Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search.
A: Alex was arrested for allegedly embezzling two hundred and seventy-three thousand dollars from the post office.



Sounds like I win at life. XD

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18589587/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18589587/ Sat, 31 May 2008 08:15:17 PDT EDIT:: My trial version of SAI Painter ran out! Does anyone know where I can download the full one (english, preferrably) for free? If not, then can anyone tell me how much the license for the full version is to purchase??? PLEASE HELP I'M FRUSTRATED AND BLONDE. Well, mentally. >_<;




So I got my report card in the mail yesterday.

I got two A's and two C's.



One C was really low, one was really high.

THAT AVERAGES OUT TO TWO B'S~!!! D D

I got A's in Literature II and Clothing Concepts, and C's in Intermediate Algebra and Civics.

BUT I PASSED ALGEBRA~!!!

I mean, I already knew that, but I'm so happy I did. x3 LOL

SO ANIWEI.

Opening Night is next Friday for our melodrama. I'm scared. We're not ready. And I missed rehearsal yesterday because nobody called me to tell me where we were rehearsing. We couldn't use the Annex yesterday, so we were supposed to go to Shelby's mom's work building because it has a huge cement lot we could use as a stage. I asked her to call me and give me instructions, and she said she'd get my number from Amy because Amy has the whole cast's number. But I never got any call from anybody and I'm pissed. -_-

We have another rehearsal Monday which will cause me to miss karate, and I have to miss the rehearsal on Thursday for karate anyway....*sigh* And then the next night is Opening.

SCARY! D=

And I don't even know when the show starts on Friday. LMAO~

Oh well. Next Thursday Aaron's taking me to Momo's to eat sushi. x3 I'm excited, I've never had sushi. LOL~

And he might come to see me opening night!! I HAVE TO PRACTIIIIIIICE~ >_>; My accent is so awful and inconsistent, I try but it would be so much better if they'd let me speak normally.

;__;

But yeah, that's how life is lately. xD I haven't drawn Nakuru in FOREVERANDEVER except for her ref, so I drew her at the beach. xD BECAUSE I LUFF HER and for her being my main character, I don't draw her nearly enough. I draw Harmony too much, actually. LOL

Nami needs a new ref...>__>;

And since we finally started sparring with our sparring gear in karate on Thursday, I'm terribly sore and in pain. >_< Being as I haven't been to karate in like, a month or more. And when I get back we spar. T__T The world is unfair.

Anyway, see you guys laterz.

Today I'll be gone all day at Denver with ~DemonRei, so I won't be on msn at all.

JACK. IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING IMPORTANT TO SAY, LEAVE IT ON MY MSN AND I'LL SEE IT WHEN I COME BACK.





Love always,
Kuru-chan
Alex

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18566013/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18566013/ Thu, 29 May 2008 19:03:15 PDT ...block the view of my feet.

2. I've come to realize that when I talk....
... I'm unnecessarily loud.

3. I've come to realize that when I love someone..
... I fear, to some degree, that they'll leave me.

4. I've come to realize that I need..
... both attention and alone time.

5. I've come to realize that I have lost...
... my mental virginity.

6. I've come to realize that I hate ...
... myself.

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk...
... you should keep your pants on.

8. I've come to realize that money...
... isn't as important as people think.

9. I've come to realize that some people...
... are Faags.

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be...
... full of panic and anxiety.

11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on..
... Nick Simmons.

12. I've come to realize that my cell phone is...
...imaginary.

13. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning...
... I expected something worse.

14. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night...
...I thank God for Aaron.

15. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about..
... writing a book.

16. I've come to realize that babies...
... are small, pink, squashy and cry-y.

17. I've come to realize that when I get on Myspace...
... I avoid the fun things in fear of my mom seeing me. D=

18. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will...
... have a picnic with my friends.

19. I've come to realize that tonight I will...
...dream.

20. I've come to realize today that I....
...think about Aaron more than I previously realized.

21. I've come to realize that I really want to..
... get married someday.

22. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this ...
... is as strange as Jack.




]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18468014/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18468014/ Fri, 23 May 2008 18:16:14 PDT
I survived my entire Freshman year, drama and all. I survived through epic homework and near-failing grades and supertight schedules and breakups and hook-ups and accidentally starving myself and gym classes and karate and Choir and Mama Dean and acting and E V E R Y T H I N G ELSE that came with all of thee above.

I did it.

I am so proud.



Not only that, but yesterday was Aaron's and mine 5-month mark.

This thrills me absolutely.



And I passed my math class. I can move on to Geometry and Algebra II next year, and Chemistry the year after that.

Today, everything is perfect.






I will let no one ruin this, if it can be ruined at all. It is a tacit feeling of accomplishment and worth that I myself rarely experience, and this time, I will make it last.

I am burning up inside with a passionate adrenaline that is terrifically beyond life because it's L o v e .









_{Happy Summer.}


]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18256699/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18256699/ Sat, 10 May 2008 11:59:30 PDT
I seriously love that man. He said he'd stop by today and that just made my whole WEEK better.

That, and I just spent 16 dollars on a shirt and a few little accessories.

Shopping always makes me feel better Lol.

Also~

Panic at the Disco has changed a lot. I like their new flavor, but their old one was so unique, and so wonderful, and so hard to find anywhere else that I'm really sad that they abandoned it. This new style is interesting, and makes me think in a different way than their old music did, but I still miss the work of 'A Fever you Can't Sweat Out'. Oh well, it's still nothing but pure and honest Panic, so I'm satisfied enough.

I recommend 'She Had the World', and 'Mad as Rabbits'.

Maybe even 'The Piano Knows Something I Don't Know'. That song is vaguely reminiscent of 'But It's Better if you Do' from A Fever You Can't Sweat Out. x3 I love it.

So yeah.





~Your eyes are the brightest of all colors~
~I don't wanna ever love another~
~You'll always be my thunder~


_{I love Aaron. x3}

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18230979/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18230979/ Thu, 08 May 2008 17:29:33 PDT
How does that work? Let me explain.

First of all, my best friend won't spend any time with me. They know that I have hardly ANY TIME at ALL (for reasons listed below), but they always have plans on the few sparse days that I have free. And you know what I hate? When you ask someone to go somewhere with you and they say no, they can't--then they show up at that same place with someone else.

I'm going to fail my Intermediate Algebra class unless I can somehow grasp what's going on--my amazingsweetfantastic boyfriend has offered to help me with my homework (God knows I need it) but I never have any time to go over to his house for said help!!! I would go in during lunch, but if I don't go into the Clothing Concepts classroom to sew and finish my projects, I'll fail that class. Also, I have an entire PowerPoint presentation to put together before the 20th, using pictures I don't have and can't get and information I also don't have and can't get. I have a million little things to do for my Literature II class that I don't know if I can finish, and I have to be off-book (as in, off-script) for the melodrama by the 15th--and I only have one rehearsal before that, and little to no time to practice except in math when the teacher's reviewing homework!

Adding to the stress pile previously was Karate blue-belt testing, coming up on the 17th--which, joy, is also Senior graduation, which I AM going to because I love my senior friends. T_T But Karate is just adding to the stress and lack of sleep, because right now I really can't afford to dedicate four hours a week to exercise, and I therefore cannot test--I'm not ready, and I don't have time.

So I'm gonna be an orange-belt until the next testing date, which is in September, and I can only pray to GOD that it isn't the weekend of the Nan Desu Kan anime convention. OH yes, and my good friend Mikayla's dad just DIED two weeks ago, and it's very traumatic and I can't keep up.

@_@ Not to mention all the art I owe people.

And the day-job I don't have. ;_;

And I have to go get a root canal tomorrow. >_> Because apparently, twice-a-day brushing isn't enough to prevent cavities. Dammit, I could brush nonstop for a year, and when I went to the dentist he'd still say, 'You don't brush NEARLY enough!'

-_-; And I didn't make Tiger Ladies. Not that I expected to, but it hurts/sucks/blows nontheless.

I feel pretty worthless right now. ;_;

And I have a Key Club (charity) meeting at lunch on Tuesday so I can't spend it sewing. ;_; And the goddamn teacher won't let me take anything home to work on. D:<

Okay...that's all for now.

More ranting later? Maybe.

I need some fucking chocolate.




ALSO:: If anyone watercolors, then someone should tell me what brand to buy, because I'm gonna take it up hopefully.

Thanks.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18168183/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18168183/ Sun, 04 May 2008 16:23:09 PDT
And hate math homework.

And got a sunburn in the shape of my necklace. >_>;

That's all.


1. Do you send chain letters very often?
Ugh, no.
2. What would you change about the past?
Too many things to name here.
3. Where is your favorite place to go on vacation?
Florida.
4. What do you think of reality TV?
Depends. Most of it sucks ass.
5. Do you wear cologne?
I wear perfume, not cologne.
6. Have you ever stolen something over $20?
Does downloading mass amounts of music count?
7. Have you ever been on a snowmobile?
No. I hate snow. -_-;
8. Favorite day of the week?
Friday~
9. Do you like sports?
Karate, Volleyball and Ice Skating.
10. Favorite comic strip?
Dunno.
11. Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
No, but I want to before I die. xD
12. Last hug?
Richard, unless I hugged Rei without realizing it. Which...is totally possible. xD
13. Do you cry a lot?
Waaaaaaay too much. >_<;
14. Where is your favorite place to be?
With Aaron.
15. Do you eat meat?
Yes.
16. Pancakes or waffles?
Waffles~
17. Have you ever left the house naked?
NOT YET.
18. Can you cook?
HA. >_>
19. Do you like dancing?
Depends?
20. Would you kill someone?
I don't know. I might actually be too nice. x(
21. Tofu or bacon?
Bacon flavored tofu.
22. Have you ever been high?
REI I LOVE YOU. xD Anyway, no, never been high on drugs/aerosol/whatever else.
23. Would you pretend to be someone's bf/gf?
I think I've pretended to date Mikayla before, so that these two guys at the skatepark would stop asking us to screw them. ;_; It didn't work--it made them hornier. >_> We ended up running for it while they were busy skating LOL~
24. Do you believe the Bible?
Yes~
25. Where is your favorite place to live?
Anywhere hot, big, modern and busy.
26. Have you ever peed your pants after age 8?
No.
27. Do you like the band Nine Inch Nails?
They're not bad, but they're not on my Favorites playlist.
28. Who is the quietest person you know?
LOL REI. He's not quiet all the time. xD
Anyway, I think the quietest kid I know is....erm. Misty I think. She NEVER talks--she's only said like, three words to me and I've been in her math class all year long. xD
29. What name brand do you wear the most?
I mix brands a lot. xD
30. Have you ever prayed to Buddha?
No. xD
31.Why do you admire people?
For all kinds of reasons, it depends on the person. I admire nearly everyone for something or other.
32. Have you ever committed suicide?
Oh, yeah, six or seven times, that's why I'm sitting here typing this survey. -_-
33.Do you sing?
All the time, except around Aaron.
34. Soup or salad?
Salad.
35. Have you ever sat on a rooftop?
Yes.
36. Would you die for the one you loved?
Absolutely.
37. Are you a health freak?
I don't think so. I hope not. xD My mom is though~
38. Sneakers or flip-flops?
Flip-flops
39. Last time you saw your mom?
Now. xD
40. What's your phone number?
I don't have one. xD I LIVE IN A CARDBOARD BOX LAWLZ.
41. Where did you last go on vacation?
Fort Worth Texas.
42. Right handed? Left handed? Both?
Right handed.
43. What was the last compliment you GAVE?
I told Richard he was really nice. Because he just like, told me I sing like Amy Lee and that curves are hotter than sticks and I was like "THAT WAS LIKE THE NICEST THING I'VE EVER HEARD, YOU'RE REALLY SWEET WHYTHEHELL DON'T YOU HAVE A SUPERSWEET GIRLFRIEND!?!?!?" Because really, he shouldn't be single. He deserves a sweet girl, really.
44. Math or science?
I suck at both.
Science probably.
45. Have you ever been home schooled?
Yes. Don't do it. >_>;
46.Do you know anyone who has never left their home state?
Yes. Those poor people.
47. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
No, sadly.
48. Name 4 things you always have with you?
iPod, hair tie, bra (on me), um....I have no 4 thing... ]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17360220/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17360220/ Sun, 16 Mar 2008 09:34:10 PDT 's journal

The first 10 deviants who post in this journal will be featured. I will go though your gallery and choose 3 of your deviations I like the most and post them in my journal for everyone to see! It's pretty much to show you off. Who doesn't want that?
The catch?

You have to put this in your journal as well if you posted!

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:[link] - Since he explained why he liked everyone's pictures in his journal, I will do the same for him. This one I chose because, simply put, I like roses. XD They're a beautiful flower, and red ones happen to be my very favorite. It was also folded for my dear friend Spencer, making this piece even more touching--to me, at least.
[link] - I like this one EVEN THOUGH I am not familiar with the story of Daedalus--which I'm assuming is Greek? But the wings are beautiful, and I've never seen such a melancholy piece of origami. I didn't even know origami could BE melancholy. XD But, he's proved that it can be. See for yourself.
[link] - There are a few pieces from Mac's gallery that remind me, in a way, of a guy I used to be very close to but eventually--due to communication problems--gave up on. This is one of them. It's a pretty crane in itself, and added to the memories it brings back for me, I liked it even more when I was browsing. Well done, my friend.
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~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17336947/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17336947/ Fri, 14 Mar 2008 19:17:23 PDT 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag three people.


1. How am I feeling today?
Love will Tear Us Apart - Fall Out Boy (o_o; How sad.)

2. Do you want to get married?
False Pretense - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (LOL yes Jack, 'Ready to Fall' does so answer this question. xDD)

3. What is my best friend's theme song?
Learning to Fall - Boys Like Girls (Doubt it, lol)

4. What is high school like?
Yule Shoot Your Eye Out - Fall Out Boy (totally)

5. What is the best thing about me?
Silver Bullet - Hawthorne Heights (Oh yeah, firearms turn me on lol)

6. How is today going to be?
A Decade Under the Influence - Taking Back Sunday (If you say so.)

7. What is in store for this weekend?
The Ghost of a Good Thing - Dashboard Confessional (D= Damn.)

8. What song describes my parents?
There's a Class for This - Cute is What We Aim For (Oh yeah lol)

9. How is my life going?
XO - Fall Out Boy (Hugs ad kisses all the way. )

10. What song will they play at my funeral?
Fallen - 30 Seconds to Mars (Wooo my iTunes loves me.)

11. How does the world see me?
The Patron Saint of Liars and Fakes - Fall Out Boy (...o.o)

12. What do my friends really think of me?
Damn Regret - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (D= I'm hurt. xD )

13. Do people secretly lust after me?
All Around Me - Flyleaf (woot.)

14. How can I make myself happy?
I Miss You - Blink-182

15. What should I do with my life?
Everything We Had - The Academy Is... (Uh, yeah, totally. XD)

16. Will I ever have children?
Finger Twist and Split - Cute is What We Aim For (?? AND JACK, LOL YOURS WAS PERFECT. xDD)

17. What is some good advice?
This Is Who We Are - Hawthorne Heights

18. What do I think my current theme song is?
Black Mamba - The Academy Is... (YAY. I win at life.)

19. What does everyone else think about my current life?
Just Say you're Not Into It - Mayday Parade (Hmm....)

20. What type of women/men do you like?
Sophomore Slump or Comeback of the Year - Fall Out Boy

21. Will you get married?
So I Thought - Flyleaf (DID I THINK YES OR NO?? TELL ME!!! ;_; )

22. What should I do with my love life?
You Be the Anchor that Keeps Me on the Ground, I'll be the Wings that Keep your Heart In the Clouds - Mayday Parade (interesting lol. JACK, ORGY OF CITRIS. xDD)

23. Where will you live?
Wake Me Up when September Ends - Green Day (I'll know later, I guess. xD )

24. What will your dying words be?
Misery Business (acoustic version) - Paramore (Ahaha, I won't regret it.)

25. When I meet a guy/girl for the first time I say...
Chicago is So Two Years Ago - Fall Out Boy (Ha, I smell a conversation starter.)

26. When my parents are angry I say...
The Fantasy - 30 Seconds to Mars ((...er. Yeah sure. o_o))

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17216359/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17216359/ Thu, 06 Mar 2008 20:15:59 PST
I'm going to Spring Fest with my boyfriend and my close friend Mikayla this Saturday~!!! WOOOOOO. And also Koreen and Curtis, whom I also love dearly (well I don't know Curtis that well, but he seems really cool). Yeah.

ALSO HEY,

I have Karate (Shorin-ryu) for two hours on Mondays and Thursdays. I'm an orange belt.

By this fall, I will be a junior-green. Which is two testings away from brown.

Okay so,

This fall, Sensei is adding an Advanced class (there are two hours right now--Beginner and Intermediate) and he's also adding another day--Tuesday.

So come Autumn, I'll have a total of 9 hours of karate every week. IS THAT NOT TOTALLY AMAZING!?!? I'm SO SO excited. I love Karate.

AND HEY, GUESS WHAT AMAZINGTASTICFUL THING HAPPENED TO ME TODAY??

I got a letter during my 3rd Period class (Clothing Concepts) telling me a few very exciting things.

Number One: I was invited to take AP (Advanced Placement) United States History, AND AP English Language Composition next year.

First off, those are classes usually only offered to Juniors because they're college-prep classes. I'm a FRESHMAN. I might be taking these two classes during my Sophomore year.

Number Two: They are year-long classes with exams in May. If I do well on the exams, each class might earn me one COLLEGE credit.

...DO YOU KNOW HOW GOOD THAT IS!?!? That'll look really good on my College Applications, even though the classes will require a lot of work and such. I'm gonna be like, REALLY busy next year, between drama, Geometry, (if I can pass my Intermediate Algebra class. >_>; ) work (if I get the Cold Stone job), and 9 hours of karate a week, plus Art Club on Tuesdays that ends about an hour before karate starts, and Youth Group on Wednesdays and maybe Anime Club on Saturdays, if I can survive that. Not to mention Parkour photoshoots and personal projects.

....lolshit. If I do choir, I might as well call myself ANALLY FUK'D.

But it's going to be OH SO MUCH FUUUUUN~!!!!!

God I can't wait. Seriously. I'm willing to put forth all I have for these classes, because I need all the help I can get to go to either an acting college or an art college....since the ones I'm looking at are expensive to the point of being IMPOSSIBLE to go to without a scholarship (for me, at least).

ANYHOW.

So wish me luck everyone.

I love you all. Your support means the world! <3



]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17161787/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17161787/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 17:39:44 PST I might get to work at Cold Stone Creamery~!!!
I sent in my application, and I just got an email that says they liked it enough to want to audition me. My audition is on March 15th at 8:30!!!

YAY I'M SO EXCITED, I'M PROBABLY GONNA WAKE UP AT LIKE 4 AM THAT MORNING BECAUSE I CAN'T SLEEP LOOOOOL~!!!

xD

ALSO: Today, I find out if I made the summer acting job. I'll edit it when I find out.
Everyone should wish me luck~!!

EDIT:: HEY, I GOT A CAST ROLE IN THE SUMMER MELODRAMA!!! OH MY GOD DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS???
There were only 9 cast parts, and I got casted out of the 30-odd people who tried out.

HOLYFUCK THIS IS EXCITING.

And if I get the Cold Stone job, it'll be EVEN BETTER!!! D D
And,
Aaron called me today and asked me to go to Spring Fest this weekend~!!
I AM PROBABLY THE SINGLE MOST ECSTATIC PERSON IN THE WHOLE CITY RIGHT NOW.

.....YEP. YEP I THINK I AM.

I'll let you guys know how the job audition goes for Cold Stone, but OH MY GOD I GOT THE SUMMER ACTING JOB~!!!!!
The money is going towards art (or acting) college.

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16960937/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16960937/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 11:57:30 PST

IMPORTANT, FOR THIS WAS THE PURPOSE OF THE JOURNAL:
Any suggestions on what I should be aiming towards drawing? I mean, aside from the masses of character sheets and such.
NO, I am not taking requests or trades right now.
I'm up for Chibi suggestions though. xD

Anyway. Again, I'm not taking requests, I'm taking SUGGESTIONS.
Because I'm running out of inspiration that doesn't end in 'Aaron'.
As I cannot draw Aaron, for I am Epic Phailure at realism.
And drawn in anime form, he tends to look like a woman. >_>;

SO!

~AND JUST FOR THE RECORD, THE WEATHER TODAY
IS SLIGHTLY SARCASTIC WITH A GOOD CHANCE OF
A) INDIFFERENCE OR
B) DISINTEREST IN WHAT THE CRITICS SAY~

....sorry, random lyrics. *loves on Panic at the Disco*

SPEAKING OF WHICH.

....OMGOMGOMGWTFBBQPWNLOLROFLLMAO PANIC'S NEW ALBUM IS GOING TO BE RELEASED ON MARCH 25TH OH DEAR GAWD AHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAHFAHHAHAHAKFJdlsjfekslfdjkSLDFJKSL.


...


Of course I'm not excited. HO HO NO SIR, YOU ARE MISTAKEN.

>_<; *shot*


So sadly, I didn't get to hang with Kc and Spencer at all this weekend. *emoKuru* Damn. I love those girls. I LOVE YOU GUYS, YOU HEAR ME!??!?

ANYWHO~

That's all I have to say. SEND ME SUGGESTIONS DEAR GOD PLEASE, I HAVE LIKE NO INSPIRATION TODAY AND I WANT TO DRAW. OH LAWDY.

I love Rei.



....




And I really want some muffins.

always,
Kuru-chan
Alex

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16920783/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16920783/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 21:17:36 PST Thats taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know, whoa
Today I'm on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I don't know

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road
That's taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder


Thunder, by Boys Like Girls.

That song pretty much sums up how I feel about Aaron.

LET ME SPAM YOU ALL WITH LYRICS TO LET YOU KNOW I'M STILL ALIVE.
xDD

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16838777/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16838777/ Mon, 11 Feb 2008 19:15:37 PST Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I

I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
>From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do

In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Till that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all my heart
'Till my dying day

I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I Do



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That's the song that was playing at the dance when Aaron said he loved me. The song itself is by 98 Degrees, and I don't really like it, but the lyrics were perfect. x3 Not super creative, but they were all I needed them to be.

Anyway.

Love that guy~


]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16808301/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16808301/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 22:18:09 PST
So....it was amazing. x3 Aaron is amazing. He's such a sweetheart. And he looks good in a cowboy hat.

Aaaaand he told me he loved me....which at first I wasn't totally sure I'd be ready for, if it happened...but I found that I was. And it came so much more naturally than I had expected it to, and it was terribly sweet and romantic and beautiful. x3

All because of Aaron~ My amazing boyfriend.

I kind of feel like I'm on Cloud 9 or something. It's a cool feeling. My stomach's all butterfly-ee. LOL thanks to Aaron, again. But it's not a bad feeling, so it's okay. And it gives me more of a reason to think about him.

Not that I need any excuse.
BUT STILL!

So anyway, I love you all and I'll update more when I have time.

always,
Kuru-chan
Alex

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16769979/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16769979/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 13:14:18 PST OH MY GOD I AM SOOOO EXCITED
HEEEEE~
72 AMAZINGGLORIOUS COLORS AND THEY'RE SO PRETTY OMGOMGOMGOMG~

~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16725908/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16725908/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 15:45:16 PST No--I'm taken by an amazingtastic boy named Aaron. x3

B]- BIRTHDAY?
September 10, 1992

C] - CRUSHING?
Crushing? I guess, but it's successful crushing, not one-sided crushing. xD

D] - DRINK YOU LAST HAD?
Fat-free milk.

E] - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO?
Depends on the situation and mood. Probably ~Knifeshadow (Kc) or Katie.

F]- FAVORITE COLORS?
Black and purple--though I really really love red, too.

G] - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS?
Bears.

H]-HOMETOWN?
Arlington, Texas

I] ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Ginger wasabi

J] JUST A WORD YOU SAY VERY OFTEN?
Babies.

K] Killed someone?
Pssh no.

L] - Lime or Lemonade?
Lime.

M] - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR?
Chocolate-Raspberry

N] - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS?
1

O] - ONE WISH?
To fall in love and be with that person forever.

P] - PERSON WHO YOU LAST COMMENTED?
Eh...GOOD QUESTION! >_>

Q] - QUIET?
I'm....very seldom ever quiet.

R] Reason you smile?
Because I have a reason left to love.

S] - SONG YOU LAST HEARD?
Silver Bullet by Hawthorne Heights

T] Time you woke up this morning?
6:00

U] - UNDERWEAR COLOR?
White, green and pink.

V]- VEGETABLES?
I love vegetables! Except peppers, avocodo and cooked carrots.

W] - WORST HABIT?
Not eating, or living purely on granola bars and tea.

X] - X-RAYS HAD?
None. Ever. xDD

Y] - YOUR NUMBER OF FRIENDS ON MYSPACE?
37. Not very many, but I'm not on a whole lot so it's okay. xDD

Z]- zodiac sign?
Virgo.

WOOOOOO~
You get cookies and gummi bears if you read all that.
So, my markers got shipped today~!! I'm SO EXCITED!!!
Also. I'm gonna ask Aaron if he'll go to the Sadie Hawkins dance with me--I know, I know, I should have already asked him, considering the fact that he's my boyfriend. But for some reason I keep forgetting. D= What an awful thing to forget! LOL

Anyway, he was back at school today, thank GOD. I missed him. Also, I don't know what to get him for Valentine's Day. xDD Oh well, I'm sure I'll think of something. Hopefully. LOLZ~

Anyway,

I LOVE YOU ALL!!

xoxoxo
Kuru-chan
Alex

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16680143/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16680143/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 19:16:25 PST
MY GOD.

....*ahem* MOVINGONLOL~

So Aaron's had influenza this entire week. THIS. ENTIRE. WEEK. I haven't hardly spoken to him except today, when he came to school for like 10 minutes to get his make-up work and I got to see him for maybe 40 seconds. ;__; I miss him, he really needs to get better.

DAMN FLU SEASON. NOOOOOO. NO.

Anyway, I'm an orange belt now~!! I'msohappy. x3 I didn't get into the Musical, because I am a Manly Singer and couldn't hit the notes. xDD But it's cool, cuz Stage Crew is going to be FUNFUN. <3

Anyway so, I drew a ref for G.S. and will post her bio with it. I'm also working on a new ref for Harmony, and one for Breyai. BE PREPARED. Once I get my markers, I'll be OFF ON ART LOL~

Anywaaay, so I love you people, and I'll talk to you all soon.

always,
Kuru-chan
Alex

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16506383/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16506383/ Mon, 21 Jan 2008 13:39:21 PST
Anyway. Saw Matt and Sam at Wal-mart buying cat-sweaters for her soon-to-be-shaved cat. xDD Needless to say, I found it ultimately amusing.

So, we're getting a Wii as a reward for my and my brother's good grades. I'm excited, but only because this way I can play Sonic and the Secret Rings, and Zelda: Twilight Princess. Lol~

Final Fantasy III for DS is terribly addicting. o__o No, I'm still not done with it yet. I don't constantly play it, so it takes me a little while longer. LOL.

I attempted to dye my hair fuschia today. It didn't work because it wouldn't show up over the black dye I already have in my hair. So, sadly, I have to go strip my hair where I wanted pink (meaning, strips in my bangs and the entire under-layer of my hair) and then chop off the soon-to-be fried ends...which could mean a length loss of anywhere from 3 to 8 inches of hair. I have never had short hair in my entire life--except when I was like 1 and still waiting for my hair to grow. xDD So, it's scary. But we'll see what happens. I'll post pics when it's done. If I can get my camera to not be a douche.

I'm going to see Cloverfield this weekend~ Hopefully, at least.

I'm getting initiated tonight for the Thespian Troupe 981!! I'm SO EXCITED!! AAAAAH~

...*ahem* Tonight, I sell my soul to theatre. I shouldn't be this happy about it. XDD This Friday, I'm auditioning for our school musical, which will be Seussical the Musical. I'm excited because this allows for my pink hair. xDD

THIS SATURDAY I TEST FOR ORANGE BELT IN KARATE. OMG I'M SO EXCITED. *spazzdie*

Aaron's a sweetheart.

...hmm. That's all the updates I have for now, I think. Might come add more later. LOLERZ~

Alex 's you all!!
<3

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I need reassurance.

Someone please share their 'Happily Ever After' story with me...someone let me know that it's possible for two people to fall in love and stay in love.

I hate myself--we all know this. There are so many things about myself that bother me and annoy me and infuriate me.

The thing I fear most in this world....is that the person I most care about finally sees me the way I see myself.

Will did, finally.

And we all know what happened. He left me as soon as he found someone better than me.

That could happen again...some are pretty convinced it will, in fact.

I need someone to come prove their words wrong.

I need something to hope on--a true story that I can look at and say, 'THAT could be us. It happened to them, didn't it?'

I don't have that right now. But it's what I need, more than ever, at this moment.

Everyone is filling my head with awful stories and sadness and a future with my head full of nothing but hopelessness.

'High school relationships never last', they say.

Maybe it's true....maybe it is.

But maybe it isn't.

Is there anyone who can prove those words otherwise?

I need that now.

If you have a story of you, or your parents, or your friends or cousins or whatever, that could do that....

Won't you share it with me?

I just want to know that 'Happily Ever After' exists in this world.

The same one I live in.

always,
Kuru-chan
Alex

]]> ~NakuruAngel http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16143264/ http://NakuruAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16143264/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 18:44:58 PST Friends & Family | Art Status | Commission Info | 100 Theme Challenge


Yes. JUST TO CLARIFY. The Aaron I'm talking about (For those of you who know me in real life) is NOT the tall one with the orange hoodie that makes us all crave pumpkin pie. He's the quiet one with the pretty hair and the lipring. Yes, now you know who I'm dating. xDDD

Anyway, moving on.

I got 12 Prismacolor markers for Christmas, and they are AMAZING. I love them soso much!! The only thing that sucks is the fact that I only have 12, and can therefore only color limited things with them. And there's no skintone so. Yeah. But, I got a lot of money for Christmas, too, so I can go online and buy more. THEY ROCK SO HARDCORE~

I'm in Texas right now, and will be until New Year's Eve, when I fly home. I'm gonna try and spend part of New Year's Day with Aaron, because I miss him and I know my mom won't let me go anywhere on New Year's Eve cuz she's a Nazi like that. LOL

I get to go shopping tomorrow at the Galleria Mall in Dallas, which is exciting because that means I get to spend all my money at Hot Topic. LOL WOOHOO~

I miss everyone but I'm having fun, although I'm still excited to come home and see Aaron and my friends~ I get to go to Six Flags on Sunday so I'll let you know how much fun you're all missing out on. Rofl. <3

always,
Kuru-chan
Alex

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