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Anyhow, Simon blurts out "SPIDER!!".. It took me a moment to register what he said, but a few seconds later my peripherals picked up on what he was talking about. I don't think I actually heard what he said at the time, I just heard a noise and then it hit me. I'm not sure how I missed it, but there was this MASSIVE spider crawling around the inside of my windshield... RIGHT INFRONT OF MY FACE!!!
Suddenly driving became a challenge, I could hear them yelling at me to pull over but I insisted it was fine seeing as it was only a Huntsman spider.

Well, I thought it was a Huntsman. I hear this "JOSH! THAT IS NOT A HUNTSMAN". It was funny at the time, I hadn't actually said anything yet somehow they all knew I assumed it was a harmless house spider... Well I was wrong!!! It was like all the blood had rushed out of my face and left this cold lifeless feeling. My security blanket was ripped off and all hell broke loose.

Everyone started to yell and demand that I pull over immediately. I mean, I can understand where they're coming from but there is no chance in hell I'm going to stop my car in the middle of the night with a spider next to my face!! not without a light anyway.
Luckily there was a petrol station not to far from our current possition, so we pulled in. I can't imagine how it must have looked! As soon as the car stopped we bailed and slammed the doors!!!

Cutting a long story short (partly because I need sleep..), we found the spider and sprayed the hell out of it to no avail. In the end, the guy at the station blasted it with fire and then put his cigarette out on it's head. I know, it sounds cruel!!
But keep this in mind, it looked venomous and when you live in Australia (the home of deadly spiders and snakes) you don't want to risk it!!!

Anyway, it is time to sleep!! I know this is poorly written, there are mistakes, bad grammer and I sound very unenthusiastic about it all.... But I'm tired as hell and want to post this while I still remember!!!

NIGHT!

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/20616187/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/20616187/ Mon, 22 Sep 2008 08:58:53 PDT


WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:

» I lived next door to you:

» I started smoking:

» I stole something:

» I was hospitalized:

» I ran away from home:

» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:

» Art:

» Comments:

» Character Designs:

WHAT ABOUT US:

» Who are you?

» Are we friends?

» When and how did we meet?

» How have I affected you?

» What do you think of me?

» What's the fondest memory you have of me?

» How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?

» Have I ever hurt you?

» Would you hug me?

» Are we close?

» Emotionally, what stands out?

» Do you wish I was cooler?

» Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

» Am I lovable?

» How long have you known me?

» Describe me in one word.

» What was your first impression?

» Do you still think that way about me now?

» What do you think my weakness is?

» Do you think I'll get married?

» What about me makes you happy?

» What about me makes you sad?

» What reminds you of me?

» What's something you would change about me?

» How well do you know me?

» Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

» Do you think I would kill someone?

» Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/20032970/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/20032970/ Mon, 18 Aug 2008 23:42:39 PDT I sort of realised why I get no attention on dA. There are a number of reasons... Too many.
The easy way out would be to say "I'm fairly inactive, I don't comment often, check out forums, upload much etc..." thats true and all.. But for the most part It's the fact I have nothing really inspiring in my gallery.

None of my work has any real life to it, I even get bored when looking through it. So in other words, If I can't find anything appealing about my own art, why should others? And well... They don't!
So in any case it all makes sense.

God knows who actually reads this, but tonight (after work) I think I'm going go through all my uploads and work out whats worth actually keeping.
MOST of my stuff is going to be either deleted, moved to scraps and whats in scraps will probably just be deleted as well.

As for a new direction, I have a few ideas. I already know whats wrong with my work, it's just a matter of adopting that mindset into new art and continuing down a new road.
In any case, things need to change big time.

Hopefully for the best

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/18694771/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/18694771/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 10:06:41 PDT
I AM VERY INACTIVE! TIME TO GET BACK INTO DA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


/end of eep

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/17550379/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/17550379/ Thu, 27 Mar 2008 23:47:07 PDT I began to realize how I can use myself as a reference sheet in terms of character design.
As up myself as that sounds, I've found that I can make more use of my personality faults than anything to broaden pre-existing character designs and drafts into something more.

Nothing in cement as of yet and I don't expect anyone to really read this because its more a note to myself to stick with what I'm thinking for now and see where it goes. Hopefully it will give me some depth now and maybe something worth posting up here. Seems all my other attempts end up either in a bin or in numerous paper envelopes under my bed..

So yeah, I'll try and work something out and become more active. I've noticed I'm not going anywhere on dA now and have to start being more social. Its a little naive to expect people to just COME to me.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/16469181/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/16469181/ Sat, 19 Jan 2008 03:42:47 PST
Anyway, I don't want to whine, but I've been going through a crisis of sorts (not the new game Crysis, developed by Crytek... I don't have a machine that can even run that at the moment, I mean, Ash doesn't and his is worth like $4000!. It looks like a decent game but I heard its kinda short, which I guess is a shame for a game with that amount of work put into it. I don't know what the development time was or anything but its been in the works for years. Get this, No current hardware can run it on max!! Don't quote me on that, I heard that about 2 months ago so you can imagine things have changed by now. Thats the pc for ya. Ha, I say it like its one singularity. There is only ONE pc out there. Keep in mind that was sarcastic and there is NOT only one pc out there).

Basically, I feel like I'm in a cage made of decisions and the door is behind just one of those. I know life isn't like that, but thats how it feels. Scared I'm going to make the wrong decision. The current, well.. Sort of current plan was to wait until next year and apply to uni so I can study to be a paramedic. Why a year? Well it turns out that you need to be 21 (which I'm not... I'm twenty. You could probably have read that on my front page though. I think.. They still have the age thing on here right?) and you also need to have your full car license. Incidentally, I'm on my P plates for the majority of the year so I can't even get in on a midyear entrance. That life eh?

Now I know that doesn't sound like a crisis (no that I used the letter 'I' not 'Y' and the first letter is NOT a capitol), but there are so many things I want to do. Recently I've been able to narrow it down to at least 5 paths I really want more than anything to roam down/up (which ever leads to success) but I don't know if they are the most... Financially secure roads to drive down (yeah, I'm not walking it anymore and now its a road). Take Psychology for instance, I wanted to do that for a while (thought I did anyway) but never took it up because it doesn't pay up so well. I feel superficial now that I've dropped an interest just because it wasn't going to pay off, but I think it sort of proves that I was never that intent on pursuing it. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to do it but its just not me.

Then there is nursing. I don't think I even WANT to do that but my parents (Dad) keep telling me that its the way to go if I want to make money. I mean, they're right in some respects but the thing they are forgetting is that money isn't success. I see success as a personal goal that YOU have achieved yourself. I don't want to have to change my life philosophy just for cash. Do you get me so far? Well, not ME specifically, but the point I'm trying to get across. Just want to make sure you follow before I continue.

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brief pause
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See, recently (within the past 2 days) something happened to me. I don't know how to describe it but It gave me a chance to look at myself now and what the future hold. I know this is cliche but the only real path I can see is happiness. Lame eh? Well not really, as long as I'M happy thats all that matters. Money comes and goes.. It's not the end of the world if your broke.
But what it made me realise is that I want to be (and I can say this with complete certainty and confidence now).... How do I say this.. See, I kinda set that up all wrong. Makes it sound like I have one definite field I'm about to unleash to whoever is reading this. I'll say it again then.
There are a FEW things I want to do and all of them are long term and short term goals of mine.
I want to to drama so I can act. Acting has always been an interest of mine. Hate to sound arrogant but I can and am able to completely make up an entire situation out of nowhere and talk about it solidly for 10 minutes if I want.. if you know me then you'll agree.
I know, I know, I sound full of myself..
Anyway, I also want to be a voice actor for animation. There is so much imagination behind those characters just in voice work alone. Well, some characters... I feel sorry for Shenmue fans...
On that not of animation, I DESPERATELY want to be an animator/director/script writer. All the ideas I have always seemed to be geared towards animation rather than comic books. I mean, I still want to be a comic artist but not the same way I want to break into animation. Its something i've (again) wanted to get into but have only come to realise how much in the past few days.

And last but not least, I want to take up singing. I've been saying it for a long time now to the people I know, but I've never gotten up and made it happen. As of Monday, Its time to get this ball rolling (not literally, I don't have a ball here. Well I do but its in Frazers car from when we played grip... ]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/15982722/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/15982722/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 06:22:48 PST
Don't want to say why but yeah... They are (I hope). Hha, Anyway, this is just an update to say i exist and what not.

Add to this tomorrow. Oh by the way, I bought a new sketch book today.. Feels good to be able to draw something DECENT again.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/15413802/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/15413802/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 22:22:13 PST
Thats right, no more broken bones, no more internal bleeding and no shit sleeping patterns.
I feel anew!

Anyway, I'll work on some more drawings soon. I have one under my bed I've been working on, same with this comic I've been redrawing. Only problem with the comic is that I need to revise ALL the dialog.
I was 18 when I wrote it, so you can imagine how sad it was. Its just too... Over the top.
The worst part is all the redundant text. Feels like I'm just stating the obvious again and again.

Oh well, thats why I'm redoing I guess. I'll submit it when I'm finished. I need better/more paper for it before I can continue (I managed to fill up ANOTHER sketch book).

By the way, this is old news now (for me) but I'll get everyone else into it while I'm here.

LISTEN TO SONATA ARCTICA. I've been listening to it way more than I usually do recently.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/15022250/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/15022250/ Thu, 11 Oct 2007 22:03:21 PDT What i'm saying is that I just realised yesterday that a few people may have misinterpreted the meaning behind something I did recently.

Its my fault. I should have been more descriptive about it, but needless to say, I didn't really want to talk about it. Well, not at the time.
Why did I submit it then? I guess its one of the more emotive things in my gallery. I figured It would be a good idea to submit something with say... I don't know.. MEANING.

As surprising as it is, its not about anyone.
Although the title and description may have implyed that it WAS about someone, it wasn't.

I said I didn't really want to talk about it at the time.
To be honest I still don't, but I guess I have to.
Its about life. I got a little worked up about something that has been getting to be recently.
Just a little...
I hate it how people keep implying that your(my) life is meaningless unless your in a relationship.

Oh its great to say that your life is all and good now you have someone to 'share' it with, but don't go out and say its wrong if your on your own.
Apparently is abnormal to NOT go girl hunting every day and go out to looking for something every night.
Slight exageration there...
But do you get what I'm saying. Its almost to say that i'm nothing because I don't try and follow that shallow mentality.
Then there are the other people who don't do that and still end up with someone. GOOD FOR YOU.
Seriously, I'm happy for you. But don't try and force it on me and say *I* have to go and find someone because YOU think its so great.

I'm just sick of people trying to put me down over this.
Its almost like the only meaning to life is to 'couple off' and breed. If your not part of the solution, your part of the problem...
Does anybody actually understand what i'm talking about?
If so, comment NOW.

I'm just over feeling like some kind of monster because i don't agree or don't want to do something.
This is where people tell me 'Whoa! Slow down man, your taking this waaaaay too seriously'

Maybe I am, but when you hear this shit as much as I do, you would understand.

If anyone doesn't know the thing i'm talking about, its in my gallery and its called 'Bitch'.
I'm not goign to link you to it, if you want to see, find it yourself.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/14881934/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/14881934/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 08:09:24 PDT

1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post eight random facts about themselves.
3. Must make a blog/journal about this.
4. Tag eight or more peoples.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment notifying them of their tagging.

8 Facts

1. This is the first time I've actually been tagged! It feels like more of an obligation than fun though...
2. The first cd I ever got was Ugly Kid Joe- America's Least Wanted [link] Could I get any more 90's????
3. Sat down and played Metal Gear Solid from start to finish almost 13 times in my life... Probably closer to 20..
4. I am a Rush Hour addict. I know heaps of quotes and looooooove the second one.
5. Jackie Chan and Arnold Schwarzenegger are my heroes... I got into a lot of trouble back in high school because my heroes were just 'glorified actors'
6. I got stabbed right through my left arm with a pitchfork and spent two weeks in hospital pumped up on god knows what.
7. I have a model motorbike I've been slowly building since I was 12... Still isn't finished either
8. I have an official Punisher belt buckle (wearing now)!!!!

Bonus facts

9. I own all of Transformers G1 as well as the first movies (all legit)
10. My car had a 6 month life span and has lasted me 3 years... Somehow
11. I AM OFFICIALLY GOING TO IRON MAIDEN NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You only get three bonus facts. Be happy you got them! I'll leave messages on peoples pages tomorrow, I'm too tired now... I may have to force myself

I'm tagging:


]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/14808032/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/14808032/ Thu, 27 Sep 2007 00:38:45 PDT See, the idea was that he could buy his AND mine as soon as they go on sale.

Sounds like a plan right? Hhaha, get this... Couldn't even get one ticket! ALL of them sold out within ten minutes of them going on sale!!!!!!!
I guess we're just unlucky. Well, I can't say I'm surprised really... But even the shit tickets sold out too.
I can't get over how fast they sold out. I hope they do what Dragonforce did (play a second show after selling out the first).
Oh well, Always next time... Someday.

BUT AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! TEN MINUTES!!!!!!!!

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/14388177/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/14388177/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 22:33:47 PDT Yeah... It was crazy.

I really feel sorry for that rabbit, well... Whats left of it. We left it on their doorstep for them to find when they get back home. I feel even worse for the people. I mean, imagine coming home to that.
Dad thought it was a stern warning or something to leave it there.
He also thinks they should get rid of their dogs. Personally I think thats a little extreme.

The people next door to them are afraid of them and say the animals are terrifying.
In my opinion, I think thats only because of their sheer size.
The fact that they killed something though... People aren't going to be happy.
I just hope they don't feel pressured into giving up their dogs though. They are beautiful animals.

I can hear my parents talking about how shit the breed is and how stupid they are.
Fucking parents...

Anyway, I'm sort of annoyed at the whole thing. I put myself in their position and can already understand where people are coming from but hate the fact people are going to want these dogs either in a pound or dead.

People are stupid some times. The dogs just need training. Both of them are fairly young too, so there is more than enough time to train them.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/14371296/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/14371296/ Mon, 27 Aug 2007 20:16:13 PDT
]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/14274499/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/14274499/ Tue, 21 Aug 2007 15:14:14 PDT

Anyway, I was thinking about this recently. What kind of animal am I and why?
Anyone who bothers to comment here, I will reply to their post by telling them what animal I think they are and why.
Seems like a good way to see what people think of me and what I think of them.

I'm guessing like 2 people are going to comment on this. I mean, I HAVE watchers, yet none of them really even notice I exist.
Oh well, Question still stands.


PLEASE GIVE ME FEED BACK FOR ONCE!

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/13980476/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/13980476/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 02:33:04 PDT
Basically, I was having a look at my page and decided that my last journal made me look like some kind of pathological pessimist.
Truth is, I'm a pretty positive person. I admit, I'm I listen to metal 90% of the time and watch gory horror movies and violent animated series and find dark humor/cynicism appealing,
But that doesn't mean I have to walk around pissed off all time, complaining at whatever life throws at me... I find that just sad.
For those who don't know me, I'm fairly upbeat. Granted, I get pissed off occasionally and tend to bring a cloud of attitude with me, but who doesn't every now and then???

And before anyone points out that I sound like I'm trying to appeal to all the girls with this.
"oh he is sooooo kind and soft inside!!!"... You can forget it. I DO have a backbone you know?
I'm just trying to throw some information out there about myself so people who don't know me so well on here will have a LITTLE bit of insight into how I am.

And if nobody has figured this out yet, I'm desperately trying to replace my last journal.

This isn't really an update though. Well, it sort of is. Most people would define an update as quick run through of events that have happened since the last journal.
Notice I'm not really doing that? I'd say its an update in its true sense.
I'm updating my dA journal.

Wow, I sound boring don't I? I don't care, It's not like I'm going anywhere with this anyway.
I wonder if anyone is actually reading this... If so, comment and tell me WHY you bothered to read my new journal (this one).

I really can't be bothered Doing anymore on this journal. Seems my brain is shutting off for another night!!!! Stupid brain...
Anyway, I'm going to leave and watch some Rush Hour 3 clips on [link] (youtube).

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/13743735/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/13743735/ Sun, 15 Jul 2007 11:37:43 PDT
Hah, like they say "A dog returns to it's vomit".... Which Is surprisingly accurate considering what its like to study at this place.... It's not so much I don't like the course as I don't like how its being taught (wrong).

I don't know, It seems I have a few driving reasons to go back, but in reality none of them have anything to do with the course itself.... Funny that.
I mean, one of them is purely to go back so I can convince myself I haven't wasted a year of my life.
I've made some pretty good friendships over this course (and the opposite here and there) but overall its been a great social exploration, but as for academic? Hardly.

There is nothing more I would love, than to be able to say I've acquired some new skills that will help me later in life. Besides helping me deal with stress and complete arseholes, I don't think it's really done much else for me. It HAS improved my social life and granted me some friends I really couldn't live without (even if they aren't returning to the course).
But in reality, the things I learned weren't from the teachers.

I learned who to edit video in Adobe Premiere from Tyler (the teachers just EXPECTED I knew how to)...
I learned a lot of flash stuff from Evan, Toby and Ash. Ha, and I even learned some Dreamweaver from Belinda...
Ash and Ben helped me with my 3D and Alex showed me a few things I didn't know about Photoshop.

But the teachers? They taught us nothing. They merely EXPECTED I knew how to do everything straight off the bat.
What I find funny though, is that all the people that I got help from and were coping with some of the excerises, were people who had past experience in these different fields and had been exposed to the programs in their own time and had learned for fun.

I think about it and it really seems redundant doing this course. I always here the teachers saying
"You guys are supposed to be professional designers working at a professional level".
Supposing the teacher was right in what he was talking about and HAD professional students,
There would be almost no point for them attending the classes.

The whole point of doing a course is to LEARN. For people to learn (IN GENERAL) there needs to be TEACHERS.
TEACHERS TEACH. But suppose for a second the teachers DON'T teach, the only supervise the 'students'. What do they become then? They aren't teachers anymore are they?

Okay I'm going somewhere with this now. The point I'm trying to make is, it hardly seems worth while to attend a class (to learn) if all I do is sit there and listen to someone bitch for a few hours about not being professional. The reason I think its redundant is because IF I was professional, I would NOT be attending the class.
I wouldn't NEED to. *IF* I was professional I would have work AND I would be making some decent cash.
So really, the class wouldn't seem worth my time.

I know I know, I've gone off topic a bit and started talking about irrelevant things AND this is all poorly structured, but its nearly 5AM and I'm typing straight out of my head.

I just find it annoying how everything is structured really poorly and a lot of things are either out of date or no longer used OR there is a more efficient way of doing things.
In other words, supposing we do pass, we will be dangerously unqualified to work ANYWHERE unless we choose to forget everything we did at TAFE and learn to do things the RIGHT way.

The last thing I'm going to say, is that I'm kind of annoyed at myself.
When I chose to do this course, I had the option of doing this or IT with my friend.
Had I have chosen IT, I would have learned an absolute shitload by now and would already have a decent chance at getting a job or at least have enough ground work to go out and teach myself the things I want to know....
You know what though? I don't regret this choice in the least.
I wouldn't have the friends I do now if it weren't for this. For that, I'm glad.


Anyway, Class starts in few hours. Might have enough time for 2 hours sleep...

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/13419467/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/13419467/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 12:30:18 PDT

I was fine when Those teachers gave me said I had to do some work over again.
I was fine then I was told I had to repeat a unit again. I just bit my tongue and went with it.
I don't know HOW, but I managed to cope with a teacher giving me condescending trite about one of my assignments and then abusing me over it.
I was OK when I got a parking fine today.
I somehow was able to keep calm when I went to the wrong post office to collect a package I missed earlier in the day.

Now all of a sudden I can't keep my calm because (I KNEW this world happen) Manhunt 2 is DEFINITELY going to get banned.
I loved the first game. That was banned too... But this one is getting banned in a few countries before its been released. which means I may never see it on shelves.
Sure, some guy in Germany will probably upload it to a bit torrent site and I can download it then...
But this was something I wanted to have my own copy of.

Now THAT just made my day... Actually I'm not even angry anymore, I'm beyond that. Silent.
Really though... Talk about a bad day.
Not to mention 'other' things that won't get out of my head right now. I don't really feel like getting into that right now (or ever) but ugh... I assure you it is very stressful and is causing a great deal of anxiety.
I'm sure at least two people know exactly what I'm talking about.... And maybe a third who THINKS they know what I'm talking about but really isn't sure.

Well, I'm going to get some sleep now. It's 5:26AM and I'm in a bad mood.
I should try to sleep this off.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/13324241/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/13324241/ Wed, 13 Jun 2007 01:45:18 PDT
It's only recently that I've come back, but now I've only just remembered why I left in the first place.
My hatred for anime is starting to come back. It left for a while but now its starting to ark up again.

It just annoys me because its so damned generic. Anime itself is ok. I like it, BUT NOT ON DEVIANTART.
It seems like any anime artist with half a brain ends up with over 10,000 page views and like 200 watchers. They ALWAYS get praise and credit regardless of their skill.
It's almost like deviantART happens to be just a breeding ground for anime artists and fan girls/boys.

Ugh... It makes me sick. Thats why I lost motivation a while back. I'm not going to leave now....Maybe... But Yeah, It's just annoying.
Its not that the anime 'community' on here aren't good or anything, it's just that they are so overrated.
SOOOOO many cliche generic ideas, yet tens of thousands of pageviews... Seems people only want to see dragons and bishonen now. Well not now... Since EVER on here.


I'm just over it. I'm sure I've offended at least 3 people I know right now. Well, what I say is true, so you can go to hell if you beg to differ.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/13159193/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/13159193/ Thu, 31 May 2007 03:08:56 PDT
]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/13105778/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/13105778/ Sat, 26 May 2007 20:36:59 PDT I know what I want to say, but I have no idea where to begin.

Uh, well for a almost 2 years now, i haven't been drinking (except for this short interval in between).
ANYWAY! I don't like drinking, I'm not the drinking type. Yet for some reason I get yelled at by my friends over it.
Apparently I'm being selfish for NOT wanting to drink because it makes then feel weird drinking on their own.
Thats not where it ends though.

I used to go out occasionally with my friends to pubs to see bands or just out with them so I could have a chance to catch up with them, but I think I'm going to have to give that up...
I don't want to leave my friends, but I can't stand with them anymore. It's too hard now. They all have this warped (normal apparently) mentality that if you go out to a public location, Its only to 'get some' and to drink as much as you can...
Maybe once I was like that, but that me died years ago.
I was never into 'looking for girls' though. I just hate it how everything is about sex these days.

Believe me, I WANT to see my friends and so on, but right now its beyond me. I get too angry when I look at what is going on around me. Whats more annoying is the fact I'm not 'mature' because I don't want to go around drinking and 'fucking'.
It's not just my friends who say that, its my brothers and parents as well.
Supposedly I'm antisocial because I don't want to go out, and BECAUSE OF THAT, I'm a 'loser'. Which is a GREAT thing to hear...
Then I get told what I do and don't like as well. Can you imagine how annoying that is???

All I want to do is be happy by doing things MY way. I can't STAND being told what to do. I'm not the type to openly force myself to do something just because its the 'done thing'.
Apparently thinking for yourself is unheard of nowadays though.
I'm sick of people telling me to 'cut my hair' and 'buy some good clothes' and 'come out with us, you'll have a good time'.
I DON'T WANT TO.
I'll wear my hair how I damn well want to, I'll dress in what makes me feel good and I am NOT going to be told when I will and wont have a good time.

Ha, don't you hate it when someone you know from somewhere openly snobs you in public? Hahaha, If your reading this, you know who you are. Believe me though, I'm not going to take some bullshit excuse as to why you did it. I know DAMN well why... and so do you.

There is so much more I want to bitch about right now, but I know I can't do it here. I don't feel like making any enemies today.

I'm just annoyed that I'm over this lifestyle I've had forced on me, but I have no idea where to go now...
I still love seeing bands, but I can't hang around afterwards anymore. I don't know, Its just annoying how my 'friends' have a different outlook on life than I.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12972387/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12972387/ Wed, 16 May 2007 00:11:25 PDT I've been waiting all year for this now, I was GOING to see them last year but decided at last minute to save my money....IDIOT.
I regretted that decision for so long, but now I've actually seen them play, I am so relieved.
I'm surprised, they plated really good last night. I think this is the first power metal band I've seen play as well. I know I'm buying a ticket next time they play, for sure.

Well, there isn't really much else I can say. Oh and I just remembered they actually played a poison cover!!!
I'm still excited about it, but my brain is a little.... sleepy... So i probably don't sound too enthusiastic about it now.

But yeah, it was one hell of a good night... besides my overly drunk friend who was incredibly hard to control on the way back...
Oh and lastly, I saw vanishing point play as well.
For some reason i find them depressing to watch. They just lack something. I guess they just don't give off enough energy, or even seem like they enjoy playing.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12882681/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12882681/ Mon, 07 May 2007 23:59:37 PDT i think i have chronic sinusitis.

For the past maybe 6 months to a year, ive had this on going sinus problem where i can only breath through one nostril at a time and i develop way to much mucus which i have to constantly spit out otherwise it keeps building up.
i initially thought it was a blockage or something caused by an ice skating injury i had a long time ago. the thing is, i had an x-ray after that and nothing showed up broken...
anyway, after a while i started to get these skull splitting head aches centred around my eyes and forehead (usually to the right and left sides).
ive always thought about going to a doctor about it, but never bothered because i figured they would just tell me its a passing thing. well, turns out it isnt. the other night, my friend tyler recomended a sinus wash to get rid of all the crap that had built up over the years, but when i when to the chemist and explained what was going on, he immediately advised i see a doctor asap.

that brings me to today. this morning i woke up with this horrible pain accross my face, cold shakes and this terrible raw pain accross my soft pallete and inner sinus area. i went to the bathroom and started to spit some of the stuff out. surprise surprise.... there was blood all through it.
that was the last straw. i decided to bite the bullet (that expression doesnt make ANY sense) and go to the doctor.
well, the news is that i have recurrent sinusitis and i need to get an x-ray. im also on antibiotics as well now.

FUN STUFF.... the annoying part is, accute sinusitis can evolve to chronic sinusitis with no warning and can then spread to the bone and/or brain. so basically, its going to be interesting to hear the x-ray results.

if anyone has any experience with this, please comment!

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12713327/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12713327/ Tue, 24 Apr 2007 04:38:50 PDT
take a look at these:

Carlos Owens, creater of the first real life mecha

(introduction) [link]
(example 1) [link]
(example 2) [link]

here are some web sites if your interested. i sure as hell am. you have NO IDEA how long ive been waiting for this stuff to be created.....
[link]
[link]


oh, and here is an actual WORKING transformer!!!
[link]


words couldnt begin to describe how excited i am right now.
AND i found this kickarse japanese transformers game [link]
i have the australian one (which absolutely kicks arse), but i had no idea there was another one.

*EDIT*
Look, MORE stuff!!!! [link] [link]

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12699610/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12699610/ Mon, 23 Apr 2007 01:58:22 PDT
I was sitting down having tea with my family and this report comes on tv, it pitched it accross like these mislead young teens were helpless to the growing trend and are slowly becoming dangers to themselves and to their parents.
Now wait a second, lets get a few facts out in the open.
Emo is NOT about depression or state of mind, its about attention and its a sad way about getting heard.
Supposedly emo is all about suicide, i guess thats true in parts, but its only the ones who fuck up acually die.
its a cry for attention, they use 'pain' as a way for others feel sorry for them.

suddenly this is the new 'cool' thing. How the HELL did THAT happen? It really shits me, first it was a fad, now its turning into its own fucking culture.
how can we stop it? you tell me... anything you do to stop it, just fuels it and they use the negativity to their advantage to furthur support their own stereotype.

ITS JUST A LABEL. Why can't people realise this????????
If people don't agree with me here, then all hope is lost...
Anyway, tell me what YOU think.

I want responses that aren't one sentence.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12673823/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12673823/ Fri, 20 Apr 2007 22:22:19 PDT
as the journal says, i was in shock.. i still am. i cant believe it still.

NO MORE FROM ME NOW! LOOK FOR YOURSELF!


[link]

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12478417/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12478417/ Fri, 06 Apr 2007 02:16:16 PDT
HOWEVER!!!! this does NOT mean i've been slacking off and doing nothing. i've actually been drawing up new character concepts and refining old ones. i have everything i need to make a comic but im not happy with it all yet.
hopefully i can snap out of this perfectionist streak and bang something up so i can have something solid. THEN i can start to refine it.

anyway, im just adding this to say im still here and im still doing stuff. i'll submit some things when i think its working out.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12164818/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12164818/ Tue, 13 Mar 2007 04:00:50 PDT anyway just an update...

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update
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ive been thinking about doing this for a while, but ive never really been sure about it. so anyway getting to the point, i want to completely redesign characters, backgrounds... everything!
i want it to be the same comic though.
uh what i want though, is if anyone wants to help me by colouring it when its finished, please note me or something.
it probably wont be finished for ages, as i dont have a lot of time right now and will probably be rushed....

anyway thats about it

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12087932/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/12087932/ Tue, 06 Mar 2007 23:16:07 PST
ah, and i thought Fable 2 would be good enough.
If anyone hasnt seen the trailer, look here!

[link]

(the first one was one of my favorite games)

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just adding some more manhunt links (from the first one). if you havent played it, check out these.

[link]

[link]

[link]

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11926402/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11926402/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 19:13:39 PST
ha, if youve been on deviantART a while you'll understand EXACTLY what im talking about.

dont you hate it when your confident with your own style and ability, you start to browse through some deviations on other pages and BAM!!! you see something that makes you feel like crap. its like a bullet hitting you in the chest, all your confidence stripped from you and you suddenly feel like just another crap artist out there.

well i had this happen today IN CLASS!!! it really doesnt help when your overly arrogant and have an inferiority complex either... personanly, i cant stand being second to someone. i absolutely hate it. at the same time, i hate people bowing down and not letting you prove yourself. nomatter what, i know there will always be someone better than me, but when its someone you know... it always burns a little more. i never claim to be better than anyone i know, but i definately know when they are better than me.

im not vengeful and im not an idiot, frankly im proud of them. the part i like about all this, is that i always get this feeling when i suddenly get better over a short period of time. its like i subconsciously switch on and put all my concetration towards improving myself.

anyway.... this is just an insight to how i think. im gunna go do something now.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11792537/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11792537/ Mon, 12 Feb 2007 22:37:07 PST its already started bad for unspecified reasons. im not sure what i can and cant say on here, so ill probably keep it sort of brief.

i guess its just my attitude, but i got really pissed of today. im sure someone would have noticed it too. normally i try and hide it, this time i decided to repress it... you can imagine that didn't go too well. i just hate how things are right now.
its funny when people say 'things never turn out the way you expect' well, right now things are going EXACTLY how i expect and i hate it.

i could lie to myself and say alot of things are annoying me right now (which i guess would be half true) but in reality its only one thing. the hard thing is trying to deal with it. ha, im beginning to sound like my father has died...

things aren't that bleak, just a lot of gray. im not sure what i'm going to do though. really, there is nothing i can do. infact, talking about it like this is pretty much making things worse. it feels good to let it out a little though. i just wish everything would just work itself out. supposing it did though, im sure that would just lead to further frustration.

ahhhh, i know i sound like some annoying school girl talking about how crap her life is... my life is good. i like how its going and i would never take my anger out with razor blades. thats just sad... however i AM in a shit mood right now, so i think i have a reason to bitch about it.

in closing, valentines day is tomorrow.... i think ill * * myself (edited now after finding out something related to it)


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oh and today i broke my old metal dog keyring... ahh, i love that thing..

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to make matters worse, i found out a few hours after writing this journal entry that my cousin had just killed himself..... i only saw him last week as well... so you can imagine how it feels. anyway, thats all i wanted to add.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11705136/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11705136/ Tue, 06 Feb 2007 02:52:13 PST truth is, i've been working on a lot of stuff but just haven't gotten around to actually scanning it.

right now though, i'm working on a bigger piece that seems to be sucking up more time than usual. i want to get it finished, but i'm hardly ever home now.
it's been an interesting though (even though i've accomplished nothing).

hey, on something completely unrelated... i'm going to save up as much cash as possible (after getting a job) and then move out of home. every time i leave the house, i dread the fact that i have to come back. i just want to be on my own for a change.

anyway, i haven't got much to say really. basically, im still here and im still reading and replying to messages. im just not submitting anything until i finish this damned picture.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11639439/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11639439/ Wed, 31 Jan 2007 18:37:43 PST There were so many things i had planned to do, but being me, well... yeah, they were never finished. I have so many half hearted incomplete projects, i mean, the motivation was always there but distractions seemed to throw my concentration (as they tend to do..).

Ah, now i have TAFE to look forward to. I WAS looking forward to it, but now i'm beginning to dread it. sure, its fun to talk to other people there etc... but how many of them do i actually know? or how about i put it this way, how many of them do i know that i actually LIKE?
This is what annoys me, i want to go back but at the same time, there are so many people who piss me off in that class. listen, i'm not bitching about 'oh, i have no friends'. friends? i have friends, but my class is filled with idiots with no life (apart from maybe 2 people).
What i don't understand, is why they are so judgmental. I mean, i get people bitching at me saying things like 'your not normal man', what the hell is that supposed to mean????
I know i'm starting to exaggerate a little, but there are a few things i'm REALLY not looking forward to when i go back.

Then there are these holidays. It seems like everyone accomplished something or even did something amusing. what did i do? i don't know, basically, i've just been writing/drawing and researching. fun stuff.... i have been out of the house, in fact, i've been out heaps... mostly during the night though.

oh and i still have to go to the GORDON and pick up those enrollment forms..... Thats going to be fun......

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11581261/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11581261/ Fri, 26 Jan 2007 21:04:49 PST
firstly, I've been TRYING to change my sleeping patterns to a 'normal' standard.... unfortunately I'm not too good at that. actually, i pretty much did the complete opposite. I'm officially nocturnal now.
by that, i mean I've been going to sleep at around 6am and waking at 4pm.

For some reason I've actually been thinking of myself in terms of everyone else as well. heres the thing, for some reason when i meet new people and they ask what I'm into and what i like, people think I'm 'cool' etc.. i know i shouldn't by complaining about that, but what i don't understand is WHY i give people that impression. a lot of my interests which people like, are almost the same as people they laugh at. by this i mean, comic books, games (or video games as some may say), power metal etc...
people get picked on for that and so on. the only thing i can think of which makes me different is my appearance (i guess i don't have a generic guy look), but are people really THAT superficial? ha, i cant believe i asked that. i know they are, but really..... i think I'm going a little overboard here, but i guess its just on my mind at the moment.

has anyone wanted something so bad it hurts? i have no objection saying what it is, but i get sort of embarrassed by it... its nothing bad or incriminating, its just something i guess i've wanted for a LONG time now but i don't have the spine to go through with it.
i don't know why im so nervous, i mean its not like its a pass/fail situation, just something i dont like talking about. i wouldn't call it a dream, but i suppose it comes close.

by the way, these are only the slight things that bother me, i not sure if ill elaborate on the rest, i think dA is a little too.... 'open' for that.

anyway sorry if im boring anyone, i just needed to say some of that for now...

By the way, i think im obsessed with Sam & Max now... especially Max.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11407579/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11407579/ Fri, 12 Jan 2007 08:33:37 PST I hate going on about myself because I feel a little arrogant, but I guess that hasn't stopped me in the past.

Anyway, I'm not sure as to what order this stuff happened so really, I don't know where to start.

First off (well, at least what I remember was first), I was driving home form movie from Tyler's place (with Tyler) so I could grab some bedding stuff and also continue downloading scarface.
As I past the CSIRO near Belmont (In short, It's some kinda lab thing) and there was this massive dog lying on the road.

I immediately pulled over and jammed the brakes on (not in that order). I got out of the car and ran over to the her.
When looking up close, this horrible feeling hit me. I knew she was going to die and there was nothing I could do about it.
She was bleeding heavily form the left side if her head and had already stopped breathing, however her eyes were moving still.
I couldn't bare to think what kind of pain she was in. The other thing was, she was wearing a collar.

I really wanted to take It off and find out where she lived, but as she was a large (still young) pure bred American pit bull.... Well... As you can imagine, I didn't want to risk her turning on me just in case. Even if she was balancing on the edge of life and death, She could definitely over power me if she wanted to.

Anyway, after calling the operator and asking for the animal welfare line (and getting absolutely nowhere), she soon died. I knew there wasn't much i could do, but i still felt horrible about it.
Tyler and I blocked off the road with some wood we found on the side (which I'm sure the police loved) and headed back to my place.
When we got there, we went straight for the phone book and skimmed through it until we found what we were looking for. Unfortunately though, we only got through to the office as it was 4am at the time. After about 15 minutes listening to machine after machine, we went on the internet to find someone to collect her.
In the end we somehow managed to find someone (after ringing over 20 people!).

We arranged to meet them back at the 'accident'. As we got into the car another horrible feeling hit us. We knew there were trucks going by at the time (the dog was apparently hit head on by one at 120km/h) and we also knew a dog on the road isn't going to stop them. Luckily when we back she was still in one piece.

Long story short, I had to help put her into a body bag so she could be taken back to the vet so they could extract the microchip.

On the brighter side of the week though, I fell off a swing. Normally i wouldn't brag about it, but I still have no idea how it's physically possible to fall out of a swing backwards.
In fact, I pretty much got sucked out of the swing. I'm not even sure how to describe it without a diagram.
It was just.... weird. Luckily I landed on sand, so it wasn't really painful. It was also 4am.

What else interesting happened... I know there was heaps of stuff..

Today I ended up going into town and buying a whole lot of crap. Yup, I got a dvd, Rancid album, ninja mask and over $40 worth of comics.
= Fun day! =

Oh and my friend keeps nagging me to go up to Adelaide. Granted It WOULD be fun to go, but I don't have the money right now.
Oh, and a few other reasons I'm not sure I want to go. However I REALLY want to see that damned Jolt cola factory (hence going up), also get to try out a few ninja missions in another state.

The other reason for going, which I think is the whole point of going, is so my Friend can get a Personalized Liscence plate. Apparently Adelaide plates have 2 extra digits or something.

Oh well, I'm gunna get some sleep. I have to go psp hunting tomorrow (help if i had the money).

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11195933/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11195933/ Tue, 26 Dec 2006 01:23:38 PST
well first off, i went to the geelong races to spend the day with my friend and his parner. intitially i was supposedly meeting them at the gates, but instead had to walk around on my own for an hour or so until i eventually found them.

towards the end of the races some stuff happened that put my friend into a bad mood. anyway, we decided to go for a drive to cool off and somehow ended up in kmart.

when we got there, he collapsed in in the toy isle and then started calling some people on his phone (he was sort of wasted at the time....also pissed off about some other things). basically, from there things got worse.

now the part im annoyed about is that i saw a friend in kmart (you know who you are) and i pushed past my friend, who in turn violently forced me back, causing me to then push him away, who then tripped and knocked down a massive display of cards and then got up and tried to punch me in the face. eventually we worked things out and my friend left kmart to meet me out front.... meanwhile leaving me with the person i was going to say hi to initially and a very arkward moment.

so yeah, if your reading this.... er... im not sure what i can follow that up with.

i guess im sorry if we wierded you out a bit. my friend is over it now, but im just cut that all i wanted to do was say hi then i get pulled into a sudden kmart fight.

anyway, im not sure if i should show my face in kmart for a while. i mean, it was completely not my fault....but i know that the cameras may not look at it that way.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11123105/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/11123105/ Wed, 20 Dec 2006 02:40:01 PST
i was really cut over it because my car is pretty much my only freedom at the moment, without it i feel like im locking in this stupid cage and have to depend on other people.

well now thats all changed, i didnt think it possible considering all the problems it had, but its back. thats right, my dead car has been resurected!

words cant express how excited i am over this, i dont know what im going to do at the moment. i think ill just go for a drive somewhere...anywhere! i have to stretch my wheels again.

hey that reminds me, does anyone remember those stretch-armstrong toys? i used to have one but my cousin somehow ripped its arm off and all the chemicals that make him all stretchy leaked everywhere so he had to get thrown out.....

but back onto the car, im so happy because this means i can do stuff again with my friends. also mean i can go to minitor in melbourne with whoever wants to join me. i already have two people i would like to take but that irrelevant.

anyway, i know ive been innactive and not submitting... ive been working on something since last night and will probably submit it by tommorow.

anyway, i gotta end this now...stuff to do!!!!1

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10967887/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10967887/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 03:35:06 PST

Well for a while now their has been this annoying 'VWHOOP-VWHOOP-VWHOOP' noise coming from my car.
As the sound got worse i found out what it was.

Wheel bearing.

this wasnt a big issue, because its fixable and not too costly. The thing is, thats not the only problem with my car. found some bigger ones.
Much bigger ones.

I kenw that my car had been in an accident before i got it, you can tell by the difference in the paint when you compare the back to the front. Anyway, what i didnt know was that whoever tryed to fix it did a horrible job and has pretty much cost me my car now.

Well a few minor things back when it was 'fixed' were poorly treated wich has lead to oil leaking from the rocket cover, water leaking from god knows where and i found out that the bottom of my engine is rusted through now.

Im not really that phased by it all but i cant help but feel alot of these things really could have been avoided if SOMEBODY had fixed the car properly.

As for me? its safe to drive it, but only short distances now. The part im annoyed about though, is that im pretty much forced into getting a job to buy a new car soon. This thing is only going to last me about a month before it dies...permanently.


Unfortunately, im not the job time person. I guess i see my self as better than that... Ha, thats arrogance for you. So what now?

Im going to whore myself out to a bunch of places around Geelong and try and put some designs into action along with some other creative paths.



So yeah, if anyone knows a decent way to get more money without majorly breaking the law or getting a job, PLEASE TELL ME!
If anoyon

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10829295/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10829295/ Thu, 23 Nov 2006 23:41:00 PST
this comic is driving me insane. i need better fine liners and so on. ill keep this brief.


if anyone has and sugestions on what materials they recomend (for what im doing) speak up. im open to suggestions right now.

im currently using .04 fineliners. they are great for detail but are horrible for shading large areas. i know i shoulndt be using them for that but due to cash related issues i dont think i can finance anything else at the moment.

next week ill be buying more, so basically, if ANYONE has any recomendations, feel free to let me know

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10763729/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10763729/ Sat, 18 Nov 2006 07:05:56 PST
everynight i close my eyes i awake the next morning fearing what ill dream next. this is something i dont think ive told anyone. normally i joke about it, but its starting to get to me. its eating away at me slowly and i can feel it. the other night i thought i had a bad dream...i was wrong.

the dream i had feared the night before was nothing. well more to the point, my dreams have chagned their target.
i used to be the target of my own mind, but now it seems its chosen others. other people i care about to get to me.

im getting somewhat worried about it now. my dreams were never innocent, but they were never this bad. im not sure what it is thats causing them either, i mean, ive not seen anythign like this in a movie or even read about it. its all t hings my brain decides to invent on its own then use it against me.

for instance the other night i had this horrible dream i had this wooden squewer thing driven through my stomach and out my back. that wasnt even the horrible part. things got worse and worse. eventually one of my friends decided he'd help pull it out.

this is where it all started to print itself into my memmory permanently. it wasnt just the idea of it. i could literally feel it. i could feel the course wood slowly pull through my inside and slice open everythign it touched. i could even feel the entry and exit wounds. what amde it worse, was the fact i could control myself in my dream. .. i..i just dont understand WHY though.. what does these horrible feeling achieve? i can still remember the pain as i type this. if i think about it too much i feel like im going to relive it all.

the sad part is, that wasnt the dream that 'hurt me' so to speak.
it was the one i had last night. i only remember fragments, but what i do remember, i can recall in great detail...

im not sure how it all began, but i was in a library. i picked the book 'Gormenghast' of one of the shelves while socialising with a friend. the book was leatherbound and had a blank cover. just brown leather. i began readin a few lines from it then i said something...im not sure what it was but a man in the room looked up. it wasnt just anyman either, he looked creepy. he was in his later years and had a ragety grey beard. he also wore a tattered fishermans hat as well. he repeated what i said, but mistook the book i was reading for a bible. he then said something under his breath then left.

im not sure how, why, or when, but i began to talk to him at a later point in my dream. he began showing me a series photos. the first was of him and his wife or maybe sister...im not sure, and the other person with him, i could only asume was his mother. they were sitting on a green park bench. the pain had peeled away mostly on it, so the cemment was clearly visible underneath.
the one i asumed was his mother, had an ive hooked upto her. she had glasses and looked of some age. the man himself looked younger, i couldnt tell if the photo had been taken 4years or 20 years ago. the mans wife or possibly sister looked younger than him by about 6 or so years. they looked content with eathother but none of them appeared to be smiling. behind them was an old bird avairy i assumed was abandoned quite some time ago. the actual photo i asumed was taken in some ones backyard.

the second photo was almost exactly the same except it looked like it had been taken many years later. the two women in the photo were significantly older looking (or so i thouhght at the time) but the man seemed to be the same age.

the last photo he showed me was taken once again in the same place. the man was not in this photo. he had been sitting between the two women in the others, but in this photo he was not there. where the women once sat, were two rotting skelletons roguhly the same height. i asumed the skelletons were fake. the ive was still hooked into the one representing his mother and it was wearing the same glasses. the one for his sister had a purple band around her wrist.

at this point, i asumed the man was an artist of some kind. i naturally began to ask him questions about his style and what it represented. i cant remember what he replied though.

after a long gap in my memory, i remember letting him into my home to stay with my family. my huose was different though. it was...bigger, and darker. i thoguht the man was down on his luck at the time so i figured he could use a place to stay for the night.

now heres where things began to border on horrifying. im not sure how or what happened but i recall walking into a large drak open room. what was in there didnt scare me and i didnt feel pain. it was different. i felt like my heart had been ripped out though..
the fi... ]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10739334/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10739334/ Wed, 15 Nov 2006 21:36:34 PST
last night i tried to go to sleep at a reasonable hour but failed horribly. i thought i was going to get up at around 2pm at the latest as well....
seems that plan failed too.

looked at the clock this 'morning' and i almost choked. 4:07pm!!!!!!
well, i guess i cant argue with how my body want to live. only thing is, nothing is open during the mnight so it makes living up late that little bit more difficult.

oh well, HOPEFULLY this week i cant turn my sleeping patterns back to front again. may not be easy though. and chances are my digestive system may not like it either.
every time i try get back to sleeping in a normal time frame i feel VERY sick all of a sudden. body doesnt seem to like it at all.

oh well, ill get over it. hey, its not like i have anything planned this week (apart from my comic...wich ive been slacking off on...)


LASTLY, that just reminded me. ANYONE WHO ACTUALLY CARES THAT I GET THIS COMIC FINISHED SPEAK UP NOW!!!!!!!!!
I REALLY NEED SOME SUPPORT HERE!!!!!

its fine doipng it on my own, but when i have no insentive and nobody to strive for it makes the work that little bit ...whats the word... soul-less?

thats how i feel about it anyway. so PLEASE if anyone is readin this TRY and get behind me about finishing the issue ium working on. its not the official comic but its..more of a promotional thing. i know how im going to use it anyway.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10674993/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10674993/ Fri, 10 Nov 2006 00:28:59 PST god, ive been waiting for this for a long time now. its felt even longer than it acutally was though.

its a pity though, i have to go in 2 weeks from now to submit 2 more assignments. oh well, pass is a pass i guess.
but damn was i close.
i guess im happy as long as im there again next year.

well then, thats my story. i have plenty of time to make my comic, so ill at least be able to cool off doing somethign i actually like.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10632463/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10632463/ Mon, 06 Nov 2006 04:12:34 PST For those who know them (and i know who YOU are)
they are:

The Desructo-Bot
The C.E.R.
The B.E.R.
Raven
(guy i havent named yet, previously called dark knight?)
Murder Squad
Myself (heheh)
Cornelius? (fond memories of that character still haunt me)

and more....

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10630896/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10630896/ Sun, 05 Nov 2006 22:23:39 PST
im dreading the day i have to do the director crap...i mean, i can think of one hundred things that id rather be doing.. none of wich are pleasant either.

Buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut i am kinda proud of myself. if i somehow screw mysefl up and fail this year i dont know what ill do...
so basically, failure is NOT an option AT ALL.
there are quite a few reasons i want to pass and all of wich are valid reasons. some more so than others.

regardless, im not looking forward to doing to work, but i am looking forward to handing it all in.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10575361/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10575361/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 19:45:56 PST
Moving on, things are starting to look a little brighter.
i can see the light at the end of the tunnel..but im not sure what kind of 'light'. hope its not one of those anoying ..what am i going on about??

ok that said, i have a lot of luck ive been saving throuhg the year, maybe now will be a good time to use it all

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10563559/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10563559/ Mon, 30 Oct 2006 19:20:09 PST
well thats all im gunna make this short becase i AM doing something kinda important right now.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10550768/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10550768/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 16:33:39 PST well supposed to be anyway.
last night i was all ready to go and then it somewhat changed within an hour. i woke up this morning and had no motivation at all to do anything.
yeah there are reasons for it but id care not to elaborate. maybe in the not to distant future i will, but all i can see is arkward moments arising if i do now.

well hopefully i can get back ontrack. its still early today so things may change. but certain thins this week and last have taken all my concentration away from..well, everything. its not nice and i pretty much hate it.

well im not gunna bitch about this like some lonely emotional 'teenage girl' anymore. im just saying i thnk i need some sort of push in the right direction at the moment.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10521234/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10521234/ Thu, 26 Oct 2006 20:01:19 PDT well that was untill recently.... yesterday i just got some more work that may tip the scale on this whole thing.
i guy from a band has asked me to make a poster for wedensday (yep this coming week) ive already designed it but i have to have it done really soon. at the moment its only a crappy pencil sketch i drew in about 10 minutes. Now i have to turn it into some kickarse digitally coloured image.

normally it wouldnt be an issue but i have alot of work to comlete by what looks like friday.
well, its going to be tough but im sure i can get it all done.
ha, i just have to give up my life from this moment onwards and do notihign except work for the week..
and judging by the work content, its not going to be fun at all.

anyway, odn t expect any new deviations for at elast a week.
ill probably return just to comment and check messages.

oh well, i guess today is my last day to 'relax', and by day im thinking two hours.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10512524/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10512524/ Thu, 26 Oct 2006 00:04:28 PDT i have a fiar bit of work to do(not too much and not unnachievable).
but alot of my work is a prick to finsih due to crap teaching and more to the point crap teachers.
i mean, first of all, who the hell uses director still?? our teacher thats who.
i dont see why we should be ...i could go on for hours about director..

but instead ill make this a brief entry. this week end i want to do something to take my mind of this horrible past week.

any sugestions? feel free to comment

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10496225/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10496225/ Tue, 24 Oct 2006 10:41:15 PDT
ok i dont know how detailed ill go into this, but basically i am down right pissed off at this moment. initially the plan for the day was to go to Gigantour to see Arch enemy and Megadeth play. first off i had to cut a heap of classes wich i really wanted and needed to stay for to finish work. then ontop that im out of fuel and have to fill up. eventually im on the road again.
the plan was to pick up my friend Tom by three o'clock, but that went out the window when i saw the traffic. i finally got there about half past three only to have to fix a few things on my car, setting me back another half hour.
eventually we got out of there and began our journey to melbourne and thus Gigantour. Only Tom had left the tickets back at his house, making us double back to mt dunned.
EVENTUALLY we set off and go to melbourne. things started to look good. i remembered i had my crown card, wich gave me free casino parking.
we quested toward festival hall. unfortunately we only vaguely knew where it was, taking us about half an hour to fourty five minutes to get there.
we ended up getting there and decided the first bad would be crap so we hit a pub to kill some time ( i dont drink but my friend does).
this is where we eventually found out the order of the bands. the band we wanted to miss....well, we missed it. unfortunately we expected the other crap band to play straight after them. we were very worng. turns out arch enemy were played after them.
we raced to the hall and cought the final 15-20 minutes of Arch Enemy followed by a half our break.
then this shicking band called 'Soul Fly' came on...it seemed like hours on end befre they finally quit.
we did get to see Megadeth, and yes it was pretty much the best badn ive ever seen. but after it things turned into complete chaos.

we went to this so called after party at a local club, turns out the people who gave us the pass were bending the truth a little bit. it was a venue no bigger than a classroom and had a bar in the middle making it even smaller. plus the band wasnt there...some after party.
so we decided to turn in and go home, after all we both had classes in the morning.

after a horrible drive through melbourne we reaslised how crap and useless the signs really are. 'westgate bridge this turn'???? ha, i laugh at thee. turns out it made us go into city link on a one way road with cars behind us. we were trapped and now have a $100 fine to pay for not having an e-tag, even though we didnt want to be there.
then things got hell bad. we took the first turn out of there and it pretty much made us drive to hawthorn. i could go on more but there were some really bad road markings and i wouldnt be surprised if i lost my license.

at this point we were dying to get out of melbourne. we reached the bridge, but instead of being able to get out of there and get on with our lives, ROADWORK interferes. this made passing the bridge take about twenty minutes.

now its nearly 3:36am and ive only just got home. i should have been here abuot 12pm or 1am at latest.

well, that was my day. im on breaking point right now so be weary im probably going to snap in class tommorow if anybody pisses me of just a little bit. im going to sleep on this now, and hope my anger dies before i crack. ]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10448963/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10448963/ Thu, 19 Oct 2006 19:07:40 PDT
since my brother cam off his motor bike at that start if it i was relocated to sleeping on the couch in the study and giving him my bed. initially it was thouhgt to be muscle dammage and he'd only be there this week. it turns out after having his x-rays. im going to be on this cursed couch or alot longer than i intially thought.
he ened up fractued fracturing his pelvis wich means that he needs constant rest and my need surgery. dont get me wrong, i care about him but i also care about my bed!!!!

well, i guess if there is nothign i can do about it, why complain. the reason? becaseu i damn well can.

anyway, thats my great life, if you can beat that. let me know

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10440232/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10440232/ Wed, 18 Oct 2006 23:19:21 PDT i know the reasons for a couple but ive pretty much nailed on thing thats been on my mind lately. its been driving me crazy. although i cant exactly talk about it here i may as well use a really vague metaphore and you can make what you will from it.


suppose for a moment your an assasin and you have a designated target to drop. you have a few ideas about how to go about it but you know its not going to be easy and you know that one little screw up is going to throw a spanner or two into the works for you. but in any case you have a few plans.

ok now here is where my problem is

suppose the target is well protected and you can get a shot in at all. eventually time will tell wether you'll be successful or not. you have a few options. you can fire a blind shot at the target but chances are you'll wound thier bodyguard and leave the target left standing and you being unnsuccessfull. another method would be to fire two shots. in that case you may hit the target but the body guard could be wounded for life.

now if things arent bad enough there is one last probelm

there is another assasin who has been in the frontline for alot longer than you and is alot closer to his target but still faces the same fate.

Now im not going to go on any more becasue i think its abvious enogh, if not a little too obvious. thing is though who's the target. that im not at will to say.

as i said make what you will of it. i just need to get this off my chest

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10438748/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10438748/ Wed, 18 Oct 2006 20:03:35 PDT
i feel well rested (which i find odd, seing as ive had to sleep on the couch all week...no thanks to my brother and his motorbike accident) and now many ideas have been spinnign throuhg my head. characters, worlds, plots...its all there, its time to do what ive wanted to do for quite some time now. start a comic book.
This as some of you might know this has been my dream for quite some time but ive never been able to do it. a long while back i created a promo comic but made the dumbarse f**k up of doing it for vce..thats pretty much why im here now not uni too.

the main problem was deadlines in my case. i couldnt work at my own pace and constantly had somebody watching over me, telling me whats over the top or isnt suitable for the school to view. it ended up being half arsed and half finished. there was just too much to do in too little time and ontop of that i found it stressfull having nobody to actually bounce ideas around with (i dont ahve one yet either but i know a few people who are perfect for it). now i can just roll in, write a script and then start story boarding instead of having to force some half arsed plot with half arsed drawings.


so basically my dream is slowly coming into focus. i have a few other dreams but they dont seem to be art related and nor do i want to say a few of them...mainly one (doesnt even seem possible yet, feel free to speculate).
anyway.

this is journal update number two, my first legitimate update, feel free to comment i dont care.
Oh and one last thing, Toby id your reading this, i know what you mean by private in terms of what we were talking about. it seems i have a fe things too.

]]> ~Nano-Tech http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10432422/ http://Nano-Tech.deviantart.com/journal/10432422/ Wed, 18 Oct 2006 09:23:50 PDT when i did, i was shocked to find just how empty and out of date it was (not surprising judging by how long it had been), and then i realised ive never actually made a journal entry before.
i know i know, its been a while but that doesnt mean i havent been putting pen to paper in the interim (or pencil as it may be).

ANYWAY i figured id get my old account rolling again and actually UPDATE it for once. chances are this journal entry will be in vain as ill probably never update my account and stick to my lazy half arsed ways instead.
but having that said, i still feel an obligation to finish at least one journal entry before then.

Onto the reasons for not submitting in so long, i guess i just got pissed off with using the scanner. you know, frequently putting image after image in, pressing the button...too much effort for one man (in my eyes anyway). Now that ive decided to start submitting again there is this unholy boundary that still haunts me, all the drawings ive done in the past year are under my bed, HUNDREDS, if now THOUS....actually its closer to about twoo hundred. Regardless i think its a fair effort.

Im hearing a voice in my head now thats telling me to stop bitching about this and move on.

All that said, life has been good to me, i started this 'advanceed diploma of multimedia' wich i dont think is going to get me anywhere in life besides another course at uni. thats if i decide to pass it. the teachers seem to be out of date along with alot of the software we're using, so things are off to a rocky start (says me near the end of the term).

Anyway, ive got the attention span of a fly right now so im gunna rocket outa here for a while.
Stay cool and see you next entry

]]> ~Nano-Tech