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<sup>Yo.

No Im Not Gone. And I havent Quit Deviantart, nor Have I quit Drawing.
Just Put everything Away in storage for now.
I need A little Time To myself.

Sorta Feel like Im Losing something or another. I dont know.

In anycase Here I am, at least for the moment.

I've gradually begun drawing again, and Im trying to write more. But still...

So untill further notice Im saying bye to all those I care about.
And Of course to all of you wonderful people who have watched and commented on my art.

Bye for Now

with luck i'll be back soon</sup>


]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/26753124/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/26753124/ Sat, 22 Aug 2009 11:30:15 PDT <sup>I think I've reached that point where im hanging between the realms of life and death. Or rather Im just here and there...and possibly no where at all. But that doesnt really matter. I think Im just living a dream that hasnt ended yet, and realitys going to be a bitch...And well its catching up too. But whatever...I dont feel like making sense right now.

Ya know Art and Writing have been my life since I was little.And for some reason lately I havent done either. Im so out of it. I havent really sat down and taken the time to draw or write at all. I need to practice more. I just never get around to it.

I dont know.
I never know.
Thats just how its always been.
But whatever.
Im going to try and post some new stuff soon.
I have a few Ideas I have in mind.
And I owe a very special friend A picture of his Lover.
Yeah ya know who you are. Try not to get pissed over that new blonde cutie.
Hopefully I can get this picture of this pink haired boy for you.
And of course I have something lined up for my Devious Angel.
Yes Darling Sensei Loves you to. =]

Blah anyway people im back
Sorta...
Not Really.
But Im trying.
well cya.

Talk to you when I get back.

Love Kamui.

-__- to many god damned emotes...blah</sup>


]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/26018787/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/26018787/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 02:37:10 PDT ^{Yo.
Im still alive...but just barely.
And Im still on Hiatus.
So Here I am.
Its 4:32am and I dont want to go to sleep.
Which is just sad cause im so freaking tired.
-sighs- I dont know.
I want to write.
So Here I am.
Writing.
Sort of.
I dont know.
Maybe its just some sort of mini rant?
Who cares.
Anyway no update on my life.
I havent been drawing much lately either.
I havent been writing either.
Pretty much the only damned thing I do.
Is read Manga and Play MMORPG's.
Blah theres so much more i WANTED TO SAY AND HERE i AM WASTING THE TIME I HAVE TO WRITE.
BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH...FUCK
Guess, I'll write more tomorrow.
A better ...Journal.
Bye.}













]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/25154009/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/25154009/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 01:03:22 PDT Though I suppose that was pretty obvious already.
Either way I might as well update the journal.

Anyway Alot of shit has happened in the past few weeks and I was trying to sort my way through everything. Though that in and out of itself has proven to be a difficult task.

Anyway with things piling up and the emotional and psychical stress, I dont I cant really must the ability to draw or write much for that matter.

Either way, Im going on Hiatus for the Time Being.

-Neko Kamui

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/24424918/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/24424918/ Sat, 25 Apr 2009 09:37:34 PDT <sup>Seriously, How freaking childish can people get?
Now I wont go into detail into what happened over the last month or two, That lead up to all of this.

But still, In short our neighbors are assholes and they think its fun to call us all sorts of names and shout all sorts of obscenity's. We moved our trashcans to the gate [our gate mind you] at the side of our house.

So yesterday they decided to build a privacy fence along their side up past the trashcans. In fact their still building it right now.

Which is so stupid. Now heres the other thing. They hate us, they have cameras in their car cause their expecting us to do something to it. And they like parking their cars on our side of the house. But if we were to do the same thing, they would call the cops and towing company. =\ it happened to someone before.

Again their so stupid. Now heres where both of these things come together. My boyfriends mom decided to put our trashcan on the curb a few feet from their driveway, where they like to park, And I wake up this Morning to find, they parked right in front of our house. In front of our Trashcan.

SO BASICALLY. they got mad that they couldn't park their care on our side cause we put the trashcan there. So they decide to park it RIGHT IN FRONT of our house. How childish can you freaking get?

I dont know, a lot of shits been happening between them hating us, and causing us problems. Its so freaking annoying. There so freaking stupid.

I wish I could call the cops and say "Help, there's a suspicious vehicle in front of our house" or something. -sighs-

sorry just wanted to vent a little.

ON ANOTHER NOTE

I haven't drawn anything worth putting up on deviant art. In fact I decided to draw for a while and practice a few of my characters, before putting up any new deviations.

lol i'll write a better journal later. lol Sorry for teh inconvenience. lol</sup>

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/24249505/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/24249505/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 00:51:52 PDT Ah, Hey.
Its been a while Since I've updated. lol.
So here I am.
Not that there's much for me to write about.
Well then again.
Im a bit frustrated. Why? Well my sisters birthday is coming up really soon. And I wanted to make sure I could get her a present. Thing is I never have money for a gift. So I Wanted to draw her a picture. lol but what to draw is proving rather difficult. lol. In the end I decided I would draw the My OC Whom I've named Mizuki[This is the picture] I made to repersent her. Along with my OC Zephyr [The Teal Haired one]. Lol I want to draw them together and have Zephyr wish her a Happy Birthday. Lol. But its a little hard to do when i cant seem to get anything worth mentioning down on paper. Rwar! I dont know, hopefully with luck I'll get the picture done soon. -smiles- I cant wait to scan and color it. I hope she likes it too. <3

On another note. Lol I stayed up all night Roleplaying with one of my best friends. It's been forever since we've roleplayed. I have to say I really missed it. Nush. <3
Lol though I hadnt noticed that we've never rp'd an acutal pairing from an anime. All our rp's consited of Original Characters. So doing it this way is pretty fun as well. Since the characters readily avaliable. XD

What did we rp?

CIEL X SEBASTIAN!

God I love that pairing. Lol And I love my Tenshi to our Yaoi Rp's are always awesome.

Lol maybe I'll do some fanart once im through with my birthday gift to my beloved sister.

well gtg.

Bye~!

ps: Dear tenshi, Sensei loves you. Lol ^_^

Ps #2: Lol sorry dear reader, I just noticed my journal is all over the place. XD

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/23979776/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/23979776/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 03:57:23 PDT <sup>Yo ^w^ Long time no see.
Ha ha, I barely noticed that I haven't really updated my DA account, not to mention my journal. Lol.

Well, its 5:42 am. Its pretty windy outside and it smells like rain, but we can only hope. Though I think the weathers been pretty harsh in other places, I need to pay attention to the news meh. Oh well, I'm just hoping we get really bad rain and lightning. I just Love Thunder Storms. Nyan~ But considering I haven't Slept yet...me and the Fox

_{[ I Love my Fox ]}

Will probably be asleep if it rain's at all. Hopefully not though, .

I posted another picture. Its a picture about Zephyr and Riya, the angel x demon Yaoi in the making. lmao. Since I was writing a story I thought I'd finish it and show my sis Ena 1st. so I ended up dedicating the pictures to her. lol. But I'm looking forward to sticking to my goal of finishing the story. lol for once. So wish me luck lol

Though I still need to draw more of Zeth and his counterpart Seth. I really miss my two OC's infact I suppose you could say they were my Imaginary Friends Since I was small. ^_~ or maybe they are real. either way -wink- Its a secret.

Well I guess I'm heading out, I'm like super tired. Lol bye everyone. And Take Care.


^.~ -Kamui-</sup>

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/23565794/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/23565794/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 22:33:54 PST : ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/23551766/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/23551766/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 04:59:04 PST A Hug. Just a Hug. And He wouldnt Give It To Me.



]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/23227866/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/23227866/ Mon, 16 Feb 2009 03:30:19 PST <sup>Yo~
Kamui here.
Thought I'd Update my journal since I haven't done so since like the 30th or something. -small smile-

Well I finally got around to buying some acrylic paint and a canvas. I haven't really tried painting since like elementary or middle school. Mostly because I was never really good at painting with watercolors. So lets see how this works out. I'm hoping for the best, but who knows. the only real challenge concerning the painting [Besides Painting Itself] is that The commission picture is supposed to be all Tribal. I might be able to pull it off, but so far its a little harder than I actually thought It would be. The plan is to cover the whole square canvas with tribal designs, ink it and paint it. Ha ha.

On another note. I need to take a picture of ''Ghost''. Hes this really big Beige/Brown/Dark Grey mix Cat. With spooky Blue eyes. Hes cute in his own right. Hes either a stray or someones outside pet. But considering that I call this street Cat Street, due to cats being everywhere. He's probably a stray cat. Heh or he escapes to roam the neighborhood. lol And Dont ask me why I call him Ghost. Fox already counted it down to my Weirdness. In fact if he's reading this he's probably thinking "Stupid Kamui" Or something. lol I don't know.

Meh, lets see what else?
I guess that's it.
Yay for Impromptu Journal Entry.</sup>

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22897713/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22897713/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 03:56:05 PST
And the source of this angiuish? the reason behind this cold bitter depression? Losing someone you thought you had forever to be with. For the 1st time I have truely lost someone I loved with all my heart. I turely lost someone I know I'll never see again. And unlike all of those I've lost before, I wont see Him walking down the street years from now, I wont bump into him at the super market. I wont see him at parties, or family reuionions. I wont be able to call him up and ask if he wants to catch a bite to eat before work. Unlike all of those whom I've lost, this boy...This precious person, Will be the one person I will never ever be able to see again.

His funeral was today. And I couldnt go. Maybe I was trying to avoid his death? Maybe it was due to my own selfishness. I dont know...But I didnt go to his funeral. Instead I lay awake crying. And in the comfort of my lovers arms I cried, stained his shirt with tears. In his caring embrace I let lose all the emotions I had bottled up.

You see, Me and Victor. We Grew up together. We played everyday, slept together...you name it. I looked forward to seeing him everyday. Such were those blissful childhood memories. Until the day he moved away, that was when we lost contact. He came over once after that...I think we fought...silly childish fight. And then in that way...or as far as i can remember...We didnt see eachother. The last time i remember seeing him was new years back in 2003 or 2004 i think. I was drinking sprite with alchol...my older couzins gave it to me. we stared at eachother for a moment...as if contemplating whether or not to talk...and someone called him away...and that was it. I saw him again...but we didnt talk. And now...even though we always asked our familys about eachother. even though we loved eachother, and looked back at our childhood memories. We never once got back in contact. I thought I had forever to do so...I thought I could ask for his number one day, or bump into him...see him at a family function or whatever. I thought we had forever to get back in touch. to spend time with eachother again...talk like we used to...and now.

Now its just to fucking late. I cant help regret not trying harder to contact him. I regret it so much....fuck i cant even write anymore...I loved him so much...I missed him so fucking much...and now i cant fucking talk to him ever again....what the hell am i supposed to do now...i want him back...i want us to....

...I just want him to be ok. I just want him to rest in peace...I...i.dont know...

I guess i just needed to vent...and -sighs-

I dont know......and im not writing this for pitty either...i just...needed to write...im probably going to delete this

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22744921/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22744921/ Thu, 22 Jan 2009 19:03:22 PST So I'm trying to guess what Mood I'm in.
But What do you know, I cant figure it out.

Ok so I've been typing different paragraphs worth of nicely written stuff. But in the end I dont know what I want to write. Lol so yeah. Im just gonna get me a and a good book And Jet.

Cya Laterz everybody.

Oh and Elai...Look out for another picture of Muse. -wink wink- I think You'll like it.

Bye Bye~

Kamui

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22670167/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22670167/ Mon, 19 Jan 2009 10:01:30 PST







My Head Is Currently Killing Me. My Eyes burn with Unshed Tears.

I am Once Again Battling against Depression. Of course as per usual most of the reasons behind my Depression are unknown. Hidden behind the veil, within the darkness of my mind. And as I prod for answers, Raise question after question. As I walk further into that cold unbearable darkness, I sink deeper and deeper in misery. How quaint. That I may want to seek out that which pains me, and yet What awaits is more grief, more questions, more uncertainties. Still perhaps I'm a little to curious. Curiosity killed the cat. Maybe I'm next. Ha! Who Knows, Maybe I'm just Emo.

Oh well whatever the case, I doubt I can do anything at the moment. After all thinking is making my headache hurt more than it already does. But then again its probably better to have a headache than to be stressing over whatevers bothering me at the moment. Maybe I just need a mood change? Yeah thats probably what I need, or maybe a little Loving. Or a would work too.

See...Mood changed, though I'm still feeling a little off. Guess I'll stop here, and see how things go. Hopefully better than right now.

Over an Out!

~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22610107/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22610107/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 08:01:06 PST I Feel Lost

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22481934/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22481934/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 04:43:30 PST <sup>Another Journal...

I haven't gone to bed yet. My Fox is Still Playing TWEWY and Our Cat -the murderous feline- is asleep on the wheeled chair with his head hanging over the edge. And I just Remembered I have A Starbucks Vanilla Frappuccino in the fridge. I'll have to make sure I drink it soon.

I was writing. Or At least trying to. You see its rather hard to pick back up on something when you haven't taken the time to use it. It's weird, How I'll be doing something randomly and soon after be hurled into a frenzy of things I should write.

I write storys in my head...I play them out in my mind. Becoming the character I go on adventure after adventure seeing, breathing, living, every little detail. Before sleep I would pick a story and run with it until the sandman whisked me away into the dream scape.

There the story would continue, or another would be born. Later in the day, if I'd be reminded I'd daydream and continue forward eagerly expecting the conclusion.

What ending would come forth? I practically Day Dreamed My way out of High School and ended doing nothing. Sad though...How I could write and live those stories...and Yet the moment my pen touched paper they would disappear.

As if Forbidding me from telling them, showing them. Try as I might Never once was I able to truly pass down a story as accurately and as Right on paper as I had been able to dream them. And that Really bothers me.

I wonder what prompted me to write another journal, and on this topic no less. I suppose my mood is off some. [x]6:30AM[x] the time...I keep using the current time as my journal titles. I wonder why? Lack of creativity? Hmmm.

The silence is broken. The cool crisp air outside stills within the darkness. Some...

My thoughts have taken another turn...I suppose I'll go back and try to write something again.

[x] Kamui [x]</sup>

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22481031/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22481031/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 02:10:04 PST
Bye for now~

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22420535/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22420535/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 18:01:59 PST For all those who dont know yet. ^{DR. HOUSE PWNS!!!}

There's a crap Load of things running rampant through my consciousness. Making me wish I could just flip a switch and enjoy the silence. If only it was that easy. Though For some people it is, I've known a few people who would just completely shut down. But whatever, their just lucky bastards~

Ha~ My life would probably be a lot better if I could just ^SILENCE most of the crap that bothers me and such. So despite all the annoyances in my life, I wonder what there is to talk about? Ya see I don't really feel like boring you all with my troubles. And I'm sure none of you would even want to hear them.

So anyway~ I haven't been drawing much, Sure I've begun random doodles, tiny sketches and writing little things in and around my sketchbook. But I've only managed two actually Draw one or two Full Pictures. Other than that Its just been the doodles and scribbles.
Hopefully I'll produce some nice works and I'll post them up here. But as of yet, I doubt I will.

Well...boring stuff over. I guess I'm taking off for now.

---Kamui---

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22060991/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/22060991/ Fri, 19 Dec 2008 05:48:00 PST ^{[If Your Reading this Jes theres a note for you at the end]}

<sub>Again completely random title.
lol Unless any of you out there know who said it.
Lol me and my beloved laughed so hard when we heard it.

Anyway its 7:15AM and I've resumed my Vampire Life of staying up all night and going to sleep during the day. lol for those of you who knew me during school you'll understand.

Lol and thus me and Hatori rule the darkness as Vampire King and Queen. lmao.

Anyway My dreams have been haunted by an Orange Haired Vampire whose Name is Rory. Lol along with My lovely Zeth and Muse my dreams as of late have been really awesome. Except for some old nightmares I had long forgotten. But then again within those Nightmares I've been able to remember some good things as well. Lol.

So since Rory has been floating around I decided I'd Draw him today. Lol I think He came out rather nicely, except with my camera the picture comes out pretty shady and in poor quality, so I'll just have to wait to get a hold of my scanner till I can put up a better picture. Lol but all in dues time I suppose.

So hopefully I'll be posting more on my deviant art. I need to draw more anyway, I want to improve and practicing is the only way I'll ever get there. ^^ Though I should try and improve my writing as well.

Well I guess thats it for now I dont really know what else to write about. XD so Until we meet again, lol or I post something up. Take care. ^_^

-Kamui



PS: A little Note to my Beloved Sister

and her Husband


Hey! Lol Sorry I havent been able to talk to either of you lately. I really miss ya both. I hope you two are doing well though. Lol but your probably just as awesome as always. ^^ Anyway I hope you two have a Merry Christmas! And a Happy New Year! and Hopefully we'll get to talk soon. lol Meow~ Love ya both! Bye for now.</sub>

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/21923165/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/21923165/ Wed, 10 Dec 2008 21:46:32 PST Hmmm, to be honest this journal probably wont contain much on House other than the title and the possibility that I've had a long standing crush on him. Which is not true...

Anyway I saw the date on my last journal as well as the last time I've posted here on my account. I would have posted sooner, but due to certain circumstances I left my scanner back home, not to mention that my camera isn't very good and taking pictures doesn't yield good results. But maybe I'll take a few shots and see if I can get a nice picture up here.

After all I promised two good friends I'd have a couple picture up for them to look at.
Side Note: Lol sorry it's taking so long Nush, Elai. =]

ON ANOTHER NOTE~

Hows everyone doing? Enjoying December? I know I am. Im spending the month with my Boyfriend of 2 years whom I love dearly.

Not to mention he bought me
PERSONA 4 and the PERSONA 4 Strategy Guide, and Kingdom Hearts: RE Chain of Memories.


we actually bought 2 copies of the game and guide book. Lol, I even bought the original Chain of Memories again. Since the one I bought back when it 1st came out dissappeared from my locker. Meh~
Anyway both games are just awesome. Especially P4, though Persona 3's protagonist is and always will be my Fav. Lol.

Hmmm lets see what else. Other than what I mentioned before, Im still struggling to finish one of my stories. But im getting along ok.

Zeth is still being a pain though. I dug up the old stories I wrote with him and his Counter Part Seth. I laugh at how I used to write. lmao.

Lol good news for you Nush. I was thinking about letting Muse in with Zeth. Lol thank god theres no Sexual Tension between them. lol.

Anyway Im heading out. I need to keep drawing and try to finish my stories. Hope everyone has a Merry Christmas~ and a Happy New Year.
I think I'll procrastinate on my Resolutions. ha!

BYE EVERYONE!
Btw dont kill if he doesnt deliver!
better yet, I got a Price on his head. Anyone up for the job? lol note me if ya do. -wink wink- XD

PS to : I'll talk to ya soon okies. lol I hope your doing well. btw Muse sends his love to Elai.

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/21172367/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/21172367/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 13:50:57 PDT <sup>Hello fellow deviants, and you...poor soul who happened upon this crazy kitty's page. ^^ lol well thanks for coming though, meow.

Anyway, I got tired of the last journal entry, so I decided to update. Meow. Not to mention I'm pretty hyper right now, be it from the soda or lack of sleep. -Laughs- Either way, I'm feeling pretty good right now, and good moods are hard to come by. At least for this kitty cat.

But then again I don't really know what I wanted to write about anymore. But then again I never know what I want to write about. I just sort of come in, click update journal and start writing. Which reminds me of the Journals we had to do as an assignment in my English 4 class back in High School. Ms. Riley just told is to write without going back to correct errors and stuff. She said if we just wrote nonstop we'd get more out of it. Lol do you know what I mean? Lol man but Ms. Riley was fucking crazy. I liked her class. Though I don't see why I had to get in trouble for reading in her class. Lol see I got bored of Beowulf because we had to stop every stanza or so to Explain things. -___- and I don't know about everyone else, but I really freaking hate that. I rather read through it and then go over and explain its dynamics and what not. So I started reading a Vampire Romance novel, when she finally noticed she told me to read Beowulf or rather pay attention since it was read aloud. But whatever I still read my book, after class she told me she'd appreciate it if I follow the book and then asked what I was reading. And when I told her she gasped. It was funny. >.> Meow. How did I get on this topic?

Anyways lol I'm still working on my story. With Zeth and a few others. I'm trying to finish a few things that are bothering me but in the end I'm hoping for the best.

I must admit that I feel like I cant draw right now. Like I'm having more trouble than I usually do. Lol. But maybe I'll finish a script before transforming it into Story format.

Meow. well I guess I just rambled on a bit. I'll probably just update again soon. Hope everyone is doing well. ^^ lol if anyone's reading this. lol. Meow

^_^ -Kamui</sup>

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/21076394/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/21076394/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 09:08:42 PDT Its 10:45am and Kamui-chan is watching her sexy Hatori-chan play kingdom hearts 2. Lol we ended up waking up at 10:00pm yesterday evening too. I'm not that tired yet though, so I can endure the sun just a while longer. ^_^ But anyway, I'll get to the point of this short journal entry. After hours of thinking, reading tons of manga and listening to music I decided that I'm going to work on two of my old characters and give them new life. Like a side project. so I got ZETH back from my novel, that I've been trying to write since like middle school...which is probably more than 6 years ago...and decided that Im going to use him for a while. I added a picture of him from long ago in my gallery. Lol that and my pursuit for a new story, or an idea for one isnt working out to well, besides the idea I got for a potential new story ended up fitting Zeth's personality and background. lol So ZETH will be reborn anew. He'll still be a freaking crazy deranged evil sex machine though. lmao just kidding, though he is crazy and evil. I made a 1 page comic with him to a while back, Nush if your reading this you know what im talking about. and I think I finished his character design so im going to go straight to work on the story. ^^ wish me luck. lol
Meh, I might just get bored and not do it though and write something else. anyway
Hope everyone's doing well. ^^

till tomorrow night
~Kamui

PS: MUAH! I LOVE YOU HATORI!!!!

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/21058595/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/21058595/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 07:01:58 PDT <sup>Sleeping all day and staying up all night has become a daily ..er Nightly -whatever- routine for me and my sweetheart. I don't particularly mind it, to be completely honest I always loved the idea. Its to damn hot during the day anyway, besides I always felt better at night. Though there's things in the shadows every now and then and a few things around the house and such to make you feel on edge. But supernatural stuff is fun isn't it? Lol and its Close to All Hollows Eve...so I just love it. Lol I even have a ghost cat...or something following me around. Which is scary at times, But whatever. I think its a cat....And I am sort of scared too. But anyway, I'm surprised I haven't gotten to the point of "Oh no I'm Dead Tired" yet. Im more like Freezing My Ass Off from the central air, plus its cold at night now. Lol. -YAWN- Besides being tired I feel like writing, obviously since I'm here writing a new journal entry...But still. Even though I have the urge to write I just cant seem to find something to write about. I want to write a story or even a poem, or a script. But I cant find an idea, a topic, a plot or characters. Its so confusing and irritating at the same time. Lol It sorta feels like ^///^ a certain type of Frustration If you catch my drift. Lol
Same with my art...again...lol but I'm sketching more and trying to improve myself. Even if it's just a little at a time. Gr...And even though its pretty frustrating itself. Meh. Lol -winks- Why does everything I Love have to be so difficult. -laughs-

Special Side Note: -Mews- Hey Hatori-chan! Im right next to you ya know, so Kiss me already.^_~

But anyway I guess that's All for now, Kamui just wanted to write for a while, but I'm all out of things to write about for the moment. Meow. Till tomorrow night I suppose. lol.

Bye</sup>

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/20850730/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/20850730/ Sun, 05 Oct 2008 22:19:38 PDT
So Im back, sort of. Or rather I wanted to update the journal since my previous one is pissing me off already.

Im still sort of on Hiatus as far as my original characters and story line's are concerned. Not to mention my current inability to find my artistic spark.

As far as my depressing outlook in my last journal entry and the chaos that in sued within my own heart, I'd have to say that things are looking up and have been for a short while. Though at the moment...-sighs- I feel crappy again, but hopefully it wont last. I hope it doesn't last, Im currently staying with my Boyfriend, and I really want to keep things going well. Lol Well I guess things are looking better than they have in a long time. Being here with Hatori has been great, he bought me OKAMI too,-cries- after two years I finally have the game!
Meh, and I managed to get a picture drawn as well, which turned out pretty awesome! At least to me lol. But I didn't bring my scanner, so I cant put it up. Meh.

Well I just wanted to update real quick, nothing really important to say. But whatever. Im going to try to have some pictures done by the time I go home, so I can scan them and put them up on DeviantArt. Bye for now. ^_~

]]> ~Neko-Kamui http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/20583436/ http://Neko-Kamui.deviantart.com/journal/20583436/ Sat, 20 Sep 2008 10:50:58 PDT
The highlights of the journal were as follows:
My story's and Characters are on Hiatus.
I haven't been able to update due to my computer breaking, software installation for the printer/scanner is missing and Personal reasons.
The realization that I was right about never being meant... Meh~
Im having trouble finding my love for art and writing.

That's basically all that matters. As for the last one. Yeah its true, for the last 6 months I've been doubting myself. Especially my art and writing. I feel like I'm not good enough...blah blah blah. But in all seriousness, although my childhood dream was to be "an artist and writer when I grow up" I'm so afraid that its leaving me. I want to do it, and I just cant. I cant explain it again. I don't even want to try explaining it again.

So I probably wont be submitting anything soon. I mean I even took down my Cloud picture I drew on poster board, and another one also. I put away all my color pencils and drawing pens/pencils. The rulers and circle templates. Almost anything I could think of, so I can take a break. -shrugs- Art and Writing is one of less than 5 things Precious to me. And without it...I'm going to be a little more broken. But I cant even pick up my pencil without getting depressed. So I guess I'm taking a break. Yeah...a break. Lol I might keep my sketch book out though...just in case my love for it returns to me.

That's all I guess, I mean I'm still going to be on here, Just I wont be submitting anything anytime soon. Lol I couldn't leave here anyways, its all I have. Meh, Though I'm not really on the computer anymore. I end up walking around outside, or sitting in the shade all day and night too. I stay outside till 1:00am or later now. Just sitting, thinking, looking at the moon. lmao. I shit you not, in about an hour. I'm going back outside. Maybe I'll walk around the block again. I don't know I guess I dont want to be in my room...

Well Goodbye for now I guess.
Sorry if the Journal was pointless...I wanted to write a new one though...lol its one of the few things I can do on the computer now. Meh.

~Kitty

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