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I feel bad, I know I need to make some hat but I haven't had the time nor money to track down that material that I need. They are coming, just after my scholarship get here. That damn scholarship. I need it so I can get my oil changed and so I can buy Christmas presents. I know I have the marks for it. But I'm not the only one still waiting for it. There are still some people in my course who are waiting for it too, so I can only hope it is in the mail box when I get home.

Celebrated Gatobob's birthday yesterday, and had a really good time too. Her parents took us all out to dinner and I had salmon sashimi for the first time. It was actually really good! I also tried a bunch of different kinds of sushi, I gotta do that again.

projects to do, projects to do. So many to do.

I've got:

2 inclass Flash assignments, which I am on top of.
1 Movie Database Site
1 Wordpress Portfolio Site
1 inclass portfolio class assignment
1 photography assignment
1 presentation on search engine optimization due tomorrow.

so much to do~<3

]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/28140305/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/28140305/ Wed, 04 Nov 2009 10:24:56 PST
Now for Php, I'm stuck trying to send a url to the database, the url needs to reflect the tempname of the file. Then after that I need to bring that information back so that I can get it. The whole point is to create a gallery with titles, descriptions, thumbnails, and main pictures.

What I want to so is have the mysql and php work in such a way as I could use light box. So there would be just thumbnails with the title and then when you click on it the lightbox would active and the description would be displayed in the caption. I kinda figured it out in my head, but I don't actually know if it will actually work... sigh.

And then if I can get that to work, I want to see if I could create a way to have the data be compiled into a xml document so I can use this flash gallery that I am working on to handle the visual part of the gallery. Cause flash makes everything pretty.

but that flash thing will be used with another project, hopefully my teacher will let me use it for the dvd database that I want to do. I might do manga, or cds but I'm pretty sure I'm going to do dvds. What I want is that in my dvd database, I have a thing kinda like the itunes coverflow on the front page that would let you see a bunch of the covers that I have in the database, you click on one that is interesting to you and it takes you the that page. I think that would be so awesome!

But in other news, I finished a game called the river king today. The final boss "battle" was super easy, but I'm glad I finished, I think I might do some fan art of it. Now I can go back to playing pokemon, although I do have Science Papa to play.... and a few other games to actually finish...

I'm working on some pokemon art, I would say right now but that isn't true cause I'm at school now...

in other news, I kinda wanna get dj hero. The soundtrack is really good!

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat

Projects:

Web Marketing
Main Project- Recipie Website
Due- December

Portfolio Development
Brand Redesign
Due- End of September ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/28131354/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/28131354/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 18:26:45 PST got the kiriban, screencap and everything. But let me just say Thanks Everyone! 20000 pageviews and I don't plan on leaving!

But it seems that I'm now working on a gigimon hat, I'm pretty sure that is what it was...

Once again, Thank you everyone!

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat

Projects:

Web Marketing
Main Project- Recipie Website
Due- December

Portfolio Development
Brand Redesign
Due- End of September ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/28009801/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/28009801/ Wed, 28 Oct 2009 10:37:57 PDT
I love Halloween, I do, so I'm excited for it!

I just celebrated my birthday, I'm now 21 years old! Legal everywhere!

Lol, I don't really care, I'm not much of a drinker/gambler. Although I wouldn't mind going to vegas so see the strippers! I kid I kid, Vegas is way too hot.

School is fun, I've got various projects working, including a wordpress template, and blueprint grid website, a php/mysql blog, and a flash gallery. and those aare all going well.

You have seen the results of my favorite class, photography. I really want to look for a digital SLR of my own. Taking photos is so... relaxing!

And less then 200 views until my kiriban. I'm noticing a few people a quite frequent viewers of my front page. Lol.

I've also got 3 hats in the works and one shawl. So I hope to have them done before Halloween as 2 of them are part of costumes.

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat

Projects:

Web Marketing
Main Project- Recipie Website
Due- December

Portfolio Development
Brand Redesign
Due- End of September ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/27630046/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/27630046/ Wed, 07 Oct 2009 09:36:02 PDT

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some seriously cool stuff, but not fun if your interwebz is slow

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat

Projects:

Web Marketing
Main Project- Recipie Website
Due- December

Portfolio Development
Brand Redesign
Due- End of September ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/27465609/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/27465609/ Mon, 28 Sep 2009 10:57:58 PDT
My first big beef is with some of the instructors at school. I used to be in 3d but I decided that I didn't want to do it as a job because
1) I enjoyed it as much as I enjoy art and I will not have a job making art. Simply because I don't want to end up hating my job.
2) I probably would have to leave the province to find a job, and I don't want to leave.
3) I enjoy flash and web design, I do. but I'm willing to have it as a job.

BUT my 2 teachers that taught me 3d last year keep bugging me about not being in their class and some times they won't even talk to me. The just don't understand why I'm not taking it. If there was an elective I would take that. But I don't want to major in it. I want to do 3d as a hobby and as something I love doing. Not as a job that I might end up hating.

And the other thing is my friends. Most of the time, I feel like a convenience friend, someone who is considered a friend for as long as it benefits someone else. Then I'm just tossed away. Alternative name, scapegoat. I'm just sick of being blamed for things that I haven't done or that I've done by accident. Maybe I'm just doing a sucky job at keeping friends. I'm not going to say that it is my strong point.

And I am so Fucking sick of people making a huge deal about what I do on the internet. omg I go on facebook! The world is ending. ahhh! I'm on farmville I'm obviously the most evil thing to walk the earth. FUCK THAT. You don't like what I do, stop watching me on my computer. I hate having people always looking at what I am doing. it is the most annoying thing to me. I'm not that interesting.

Maybe I just need to go for a few days, just leave everything behind. Not tell anyone where I'm going and just go. Make some stupid money choices that I'm not going to get chastised for, hang out with people who are a bad influence. Play some fucking farmville. I don't care anymore. I really hate having to be the one who walks the line and plays by everyone elses rules. I understand that I need to respect boundary and all that shit but I am sick of bending over backwards for others so they can be happy. So that they get what they want. I've been doing it for a while and I don't want to anymore.

And Yami, if you actually read this, I don't aim any of this towards you. So don't worry, I'm not mad at you.

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat

Projects:

Web Marketing
Main Project- Recipie Website
Due- December

Portfolio Development
Brand Redesign
Due- End of September ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/27205378/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/27205378/ Mon, 14 Sep 2009 08:29:01 PDT
(Gato, I left some with no icing and very little icing for you. You can enjoy them but with less the calories!)

Right now, I'm really worried about my car, I took it in to get the tires switched, and the tail light fixed and to get the insurance inspection done. And as soon as I got that damn thing home, I noticed it makes a rythmic grinding sound when I am braking. Shit. Now I got to get it looked at because if it is rubbing the tire or if the brake pads were put back on weird then it needs to get fixed ASAP.

Project List time!

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat

Projects:

Web Marketing
Main Project- Recipie Website
Due- December

Portfolio Development
Brand Redesign
Due- End of September ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/27148138/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/27148138/ Fri, 11 Sep 2009 10:50:05 PDT
I'm really excited for this year, Flash and web specialization. But it is interesting be cause I'm being taught PHP and MySQL in both classes, so I am super learning it. And I have digital photography too, that is one of my most looked forward to class.

But i'm not excited for wednesday, all day classes starting at 8:15 ending at 4:10. No breaks, no lunch. It is the gauntlet of school days. And tuesday is all flash, all day.

But I should get back to work. I've still got 20 min left in this class. toodles

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/26826095/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/26826095/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 21:26:03 PDT
No really, I do enjoy moving, It lets me clean house, Clean out, and just all around Cleanse my things. I get rid of anything still in a box from the last move or that I haven't thought about in the last year. Keeps me from being a pack rat.

I'll be sending a bunch of my crap over tomorrow, then packing up the rest on thursday, and once I've come back from camping I'll move the rest on monday. Monday is an exciting day for me, I'll be paying for my car. Oh boy! I can't wait!

Tuesday, I'm getting insurance and registration, then I can drive around. A scary thought I know, but getting to work will be so much easier, and faster, and bad for the environment and my legs! But who cares! I'll be driving!

I thought of a new css to try, I'm going to start working on it soon, after I get some more work on project Cheese done.

Toodles!

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/26494292/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/26494292/ Sun, 09 Aug 2009 22:35:40 PDT ...What it is, but I know that I need it.

A thousand things and a kiss...


I must say, I am in a strange mood once again...

Almost done a picture, half done the shading.

I'm working on a big secret project for my one year anniversary. Anniversaries are to show your special someone how much they mean to you, and as a good start to a new year. And I hope many more after that. But I can't believe how much things have changed in a year. Older, wiser? Naw, probably not. Lol, but that's alright. There is plenty of time for that later. I'm just going to have fun now.

It's strange, All of the girls that I work with see their boyfriends on a daily basis, they keep forgetting that I only see mine once a week. But it is nice, because they are usually willing to help me spend more time with him by switching shifts with me. Like yesterday, I had to work a split but one switched her shifts with me so I could go camping for a night with my love.

It will be interesting in school, we will see each other almost everyday. I can't wait, although I sometimes forget that he will want to make his own friends in his classes. But he has special permission to sit with the 2nd years in our lounge. I'm excited and worried for this next year... I'm worried I'll have forgotten everything. I should brush up on my ActionScript and JavaScript.

And we are moving once again, by our own choice this time. Our landlady has us paying a lot more then what everyone else is paying in this apartment so we are looking for a new place. I'm getting used to this once a year move, but I'm not really looking forward to it.


Only 3 weeks to get my project done! And to relearn flash! Oh noes!

p.s. getting close to the kiriban, and winter! oh my!


I'm wishing you would stay
"I am not far away"
And help me find my way love
"You are not lost my love"
I'm wishing you would stay
"I am not far away"
I'm trying to break the chains of...
"There's no prison here"

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/26244939/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/26244939/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 23:40:38 PDT
Then it was off to the coast. Came super close to the border a few times, You would look to your left and see America. Drove in the Okanagan Valley, Picked up some wine for my aunt (I'm worried that it spoiled because of the heat that we drove in, but it is the thought that counts right?) It was interesting to see the landscape go from lush mountain forest to desert mountains. Got to the coast. Then Vancouver kicked our asses. The hotel was terrible, the beds were in separate parts of the room and once the novelty of that it made having fun harder. The bathroom was separated as well sink and mirror in the open part, and shower plus toilet behind closed doors. THAT SHOWER WAS TERRIBLE! The shower curtain did NOTHING to keep the water in the tub. Needless to say, I soaked a pair of pants and a shirt.

We had one terrible day and one fun day. And much like the photos we took, I'm going to pretend the bad day never happened. On the fun day we went to Stanley park and played on the beaches for a bit. I managed to show my friends some of the tiny crabs that I remember from when I was there when I was little. All you have to do is flip some rocks. Then we went to the aquarium. IT WAS AWESOME. If you ever get the chance, you should go. Seriously.

Then we flew home like a bat outta hell, with a few days of time off to relax at home.

And that is my great story for the summer. I hoped you enjoyed it. I'm done typing now.


:EDIT:

I was working on a CD for a co-worker and this is the list of song titles for part of it:


Long Distance Call
Girl Is on my Mind
Worked Up so Sexual
Dirty Sticky Floors
The Warning


I don't know why but it is telling a story to me.

Gross.

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25869899/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25869899/ Fri, 10 Jul 2009 21:56:36 PDT
I have never before seen this person, and I hope to never see her again. But what happened is these 2 girls come in the one of them orders, so I start making what she asked for. Then the other one says that she wanted a hard taco. So I'm finishing the first girl's order and I start on the taco, and just after I put the meat into it, she says that she want what her friend has but smaller. So a soft taco. I dump the meat back in with the rest and I toss that used shell out. I start making her soft taco, and at the same time I had to deluxe her friend's fries. She says that she wants the same as her but smaller, her friend says "a small fries deluxe" but she is cut short by the other girl who says "no, the burrito", which is a small taco.

I get my boss to start the bill for the girls and as I finish the taco and wrap it up, I slid it over to the waiting bag for my boss to put in. Which is what we always do. Then I hear her muttering under her breath something about being a fat ass bitch, I thought she was talking to her friend so I didn't pay any attention. As I watch them leave, I started talking to my boss about something, I can't really remember what. When the one girl is half way out the door, she wheels around and starts yelling at me about how I was laughing at her and I was tossing her food around. Not that nicely, there was a lot more fucks and bitch in there. I turned and walked into the back, so I wouldn't have to deal with her, she is still screaming "yeah you walk away, just wait until you leave, I'll fucking kill you". Then she left and drove off.

I mean really. I didn't do anything to deserve that. And as I said to my boss later that evening, 'should she have something better to do on a friday night? Like being sodomized by her boyfriend hoping that today would be the day that he finally tells her that he loves her?"

But whatever, its not my life, it actually didn't bug me that much, I've seen behaviour like that a lot.

BUT on to the good customer, this one happened a week or so ago. I have been having really bad luck with customers, most of them are assholes that really seem to have it out for me. And I was having a bad day. But I was serving this one guy, he takes one look at me and says "bad day huh?"

I was blown out of the water. I have forgotten that some customers are actually good people, just looking for a meal. They aren't all out to give me a hard time. It was a revelation that actually made me feel like I used to when I dealt with customers, happy to help them. He basically gave me the strength to keep working. To still be cheerful as someone working in the service industry.

I've been saving up all of my tips, I've got a lot now, I made 8 bucks tonight. All for the road trip.

And I just checked my account, and I have more then I thought. Not a lot, but this close to the road trip, every little bit helps. Plus I should have a gst cheque on its way. I'm not in to bad of shape.


AND I was playing the sims today and I finally found the rainbow butterfly, the rainbow beetle, the pink diamond and the trilobite! All of the little collectibles that I was looking for!


Can you answer 51 questions about just 1 person?
Don’t change the friend half way through .


1) What’s their name?
Joshua Shenfield

2) Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
You know it!

3) Do you get along with this person all the time?
Yeah, we've got a good track record

4) How old is the person?
20

5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?
Yup! Man Slaw!

6) Is this person older than you?
Younger, by one month

7) Have you ever kissed this person?
So much it is almost criminal

9) Are you related to this person?
I consider him part of my family, but not by blood

10) Are you really close to him/her?
yeah

11) Nickname?
Yami

12.) Do they have a nickname for you?
Neko-Chan

13) How many times do you talk to this person in a week?
All the time!

14) Do you think they will repost this?
Probably not, I don't think he will read this journal

15) Could you live with this person?
Not right now, maybe in the future

18) How long have you known this person?
Since grade 10

19) Have you ever been to the mall with this person?
More then I care to remember

20) Have you ever had a sleepover with this person?
Many a times

21) If you ever moved away would you miss this person?
With all of my heart/ I wouldn't move away.

23) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
Nope

24) Do you know everything ab... ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25812556/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25812556/ Wed, 08 Jul 2009 14:27:16 PDT who passed as well today. And now starts the great car search.

...I gotta admit, now that I have my license I just want to buy something that runs so that I can drive... But I still want to get a nice car. So now I am stuck.... I think I am going to keep my eye out, and if I see a good deal, then I will grab it, well, try to grab it. But all the while I will be saving up. Bah! it is so conflicting!

In other news, I think I finally came up with a good idea for my anniversary preset! It might be hard to pull off, but I think it will be worth it.

I've seen Transformers 2 and Ice Age 3 this week, the are both pretty good movies, my brain was numbed by explosions and robot fight scenes. And I had low expectations of Ice Age 3 but it surpassed those expectations. Not bad, not bad


:edit:
I found out today that my Grandpa died last night. I don't know how to feel. I've never actually met him but he was going to try to make it to Alberta to stay with my mom. It's weird... I'm crying for someone I have never met, and I will never will meet. I hope that he is in a better place. There was some crap going on between him and his wife family. Or so I was told. I'm really hoping that his will is carried out, I do.

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25785830/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25785830/ Mon, 06 Jul 2009 23:08:57 PDT
Driver's test, Road Trip, School, anniversary. Well, not really anniversary, but I do want to do something truly special for that.

The Driver's test. I've waited so long, I feel like I can't fail now, that everything has been leading up to this. Yes, if I fail I can always try again. But I don't want to fail, I feel like I need to pass, to finally feel like I am a true adult. That I am finally ready to be on my own.

The road trip, I'll be glad when I am finally ready to set off, but right now, It is hard, 2 weeks to go, and I really want to be able to save enough money to be able to support myself on my own. It's not that I refuse help, but I always feel like I should be able to take care of myself and those I care about. Not should, Have to.

School. Not really my stress actually, but more or less stress on my boyfriend. He is starting this September, and I just want him to have the same positive experience that I did. I want him to find his path. And to have something more then a crappy job with a crappy boss to wake up to everyday.

And I do believe I have already covered the anniversary thing. I want to take other people's advice for it, but I also feel like it is something that I need to come up with on my own, And I've gotten most of it done, just thinking of a gift of some sort. Something that says thanks for putting up with me for a whole year, I don't know how you did it, but I'm glad you did.

But just one thing at a time. First Road test. Tomorrow. I need to focus when practicing tomorrow, and I need to relax about it. I'm sure it will be just like all of the plays that I have done in my past. Nervous until the point of no return then I'm at peace, because there is nothing more that I can do. I've always been like that. I once had a teacher tell me that I looked too peaceful before a mid term, and it was weird. But I guess I am just weird like that.

Like a small bird trapped
Longing to be let go free
All will be at peace

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25685913/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25685913/ Thu, 02 Jul 2009 00:34:20 PDT Sure, but I don't know if you can handle the answers.

2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Shenfield, This should be "if you married the ONLY person you text..."

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
Once I woke up, sure.

4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
My Mom, Sometime yesterday

7. What are you excited for?
Tomorrow... er, today.

8. What were you doing yesterday?
Working, Laughing at a Drunk Jo

9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
My Love! <3!

10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Some Chocolate, I have no control... T_T

11. Have a best friend?
yeah, a few

12. Are you scared to fall in love?
No, cause it is a fun ride

13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Define teenagers. Students? Not really, School gives a skewed view on love, me thinks

14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
The Ford Dodge guys who hit ever single one of my pet peeves in 5 seconds

15. What time is it right this second?
1:12am

16. What do you want right now?
Josh

17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
I don't know, Courtney and Jo?

18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
Taken

19. When was the last time you cried?
Earlier today, or actually yesterday, but I can't remember why

20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
One of them.

21. Do you find it hard to trust other people?
It depends on the person

22. How fast does your mind change?
Depends on what is happening

23. I bet you miss somebody right now.
Yeaaaaaah ^///^

24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
I keep telling myself that

25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
Because they don't know what they want or they don't realize what they have.

26. Tell me what's on your mind?
I'm wondering when things will start to work out for me again.

27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
School! Anniversary! My Birthday!

28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Probably

29. When did you last talk to your best friend from elementary school?
I don't have one

30. When is your next road trip?
July 18th

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
I do, <3

32. How's your heart?
Still beating, Still feeling.

33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Lol, point me to someone who hasn't

34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
I get that feeling sometimes (jk, i know)

35. What are you planning on doing after this?
Brushing mah teeth, reading, sleeping

36. Next time you will kiss someone?
Later today

37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Yeah >///>;

38. Who do you not get along with?
A few people, they know who they are

39. What does you 3rd recent text say?
"I want it to be my graduation present"

40. What are you wearing right now?
Pjs!

41. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
Not bad, I might try for another one :3

42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
A few weeks ago

43. What's your fave boy and girl name right now?
Don't have either.

44. How do you usually feel when you wake up?
groggy

45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Nope, he is asleep right now.

46. Do you crack your knuckles?
Nope.

47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Surfing dA

48. What are your LEGAL initials?
DDm

49. Whos the first B in your contacts?
Blood Clinic (I donate when I can)

50. when was the last time you laughed really hard?
Yesterday(?) when Jo came home.

51. I'M ON A BOAT
in a mansions pool that is on a larger boat in the ocean.

52. Last awkward moment?
Something at work

53. Are you afraid of the dark?
Depends on what my Imagination is doing.

54. Do you have good vision?
To about as far as I can reach.

55. Have you ever tripped someone?
Not on purpose.

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
In a flurry of slapping.

57. Are you Irish?
There is probably some in me.

58. Do you use chap stick?
Nope.

59. Do you have any scars?
Some that I am proud of, some that I am not. =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25618531/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25618531/ Sun, 28 Jun 2009 23:16:05 PDT
I got my student loan approved, so I will be able to live... decently once school come around once again. But I'm going to have to work this year, I gotta save, and get a car. Time to start that old song and dance. Been looking into cars, I'm trying to make my list of potential cars as large as I can so that I can hopefully find a good deal. So far I've got the Ford Focus, Toyota Echo, Chevrolet Aveo, Honda Civic, and the Kia Rio. All basically the same car shape. But I've still got a lot of research to do, and if my plan doesn't work out then it doesn't work out. And I will get what I can, but there is no waste in trying, right?

blah, crappy jobs are crappy.

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25563634/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25563634/ Fri, 26 Jun 2009 10:02:13 PDT
So I had this dream last night, and there were 2 people that I really don't care for in it, it makes me wonder what they were doing in my dreams... a sign maybe? We will see. and I was actually cheered up by the single text message that I got form my boyfriend in the dream, again, I'm hoping it is a sign. I would really like to see him this weekend.

The other day at work, I was not having a good customer day, I kept getting horrible customers all day. And it got to the point when I was livid from hearing the door chime go off. But again, a single message from him cheered me up, and made it so I wasn't arrested for several counts of man-slaughter because of a rage induced blackout.

I'm working on a secret project right now, oh boy, I think some of you might like it

I gotta say, pokemon fan art is really fun, I like how I don't have to think about what I am drawing just how I am doing it. Make it look like it is the actual pokemon. That is all I have to worry about.

I've been playing the sims this month, good game, I will give it that. I had on sims have 2 ghost children, which is interesting, especially with the game sounds, that house is full of spooky sounds, all the time.

Then I just started a new game yesterday, in the other town, looking for a new challenge. I'm glad the patch fixed a few problems I was having, it is nice.


I've been doing some practice driving with the lovely Gatobob, in preparation for my driver's test coming up on the 7th. I am really hoping I pass.

and that is all from me

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25396980/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25396980/ Fri, 19 Jun 2009 22:07:28 PDT
I managed to get 3 different web designs done:

Horizon Express: [link]

All Year Bobcat: [link]

and Pembina River Tubing: [link]

The last one is my favorite, It might be a little tough to code, but it will be worth it. Assume that the clients like the designs. I really hope they do. Although I might tweek them a little still


hmm.... I think I might just make some popcorn, watch the fifth element and play some sudoku.

I decided that I am going to keep the theme of my portfolio site, and just redo the body to include some javascript and fun stuff like that.

busy busy bee, I might actually make enough to go on my road trip after all

*edit* For whoever saw the title before, don't ask. I got distracted partway though the word

*edit x2*

The gato, I fix the few things you pointed out, I think the tubing on looks much better with the time new roman font, it matches the title now.

*edit x3*

Here is a flash animation that I have been working on:

[link]

I hope you enjoy it, don't mind the music, it is crappy.

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25240256/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/25240256/ Wed, 10 Jun 2009 17:03:46 PDT
Ask me anything and I will answer it, and I will try to answer it seriously too.

for real real, not for play play.

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24933571/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24933571/ Sun, 24 May 2009 22:53:09 PDT
blah blah blah, I start my old job again on tuesday, I'm not quite sure how I feel about it yet, I'm going to have to see how it goes...

Ugh, it is already hot out, and it is only may, blarg blarg blarg.


I gotta get my ass moving on them websites, i needs the moneys for the big july trip...


it seems like yami forgot his brush and a pair of pants here, darn you you big silly forgetful man, but he did do something really sweet. For people who don't know macs, they have something called a dashboard, which has little fun widgets that display weather, and other random things, (my favorite on is the sudoku) But I regularly access it to check the weather, and when I did there were post-it notes all over the place that said Love you, I thought that was the sweetest thing ever, and a very nice surprise.

Hmm... I did a test spot for the waxstrips that I bought, I wanted to see how painful it was and to see if I would have a reaction to the wax or anything like that...

looking good so far.

and now to leave you with a lyric:

Oh, there ain't no rest for the wicked,
Money don't grow on trees.
I got bills to pay,
I got mouths to feed,
There ain't nothing in this world for free.
I know I can't slow down,
I can't hold back,
Though you know, I wish I could.
No there ain't no rest for the wicked,
Until we close our eyes for good

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24740734/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24740734/ Wed, 13 May 2009 16:13:52 PDT
well, I used to think that about my art, I had to draw what I thought other people would like, and that it was the only thing I would ever be good at, but Last night I decided to draw something that I wanted to, and I have been going nuts ever since. I mean, 3 pieces of art in a short time? I am having fun, experimenting with textures and different brushes.

I got my grades back today, a 3.7, which I didn't think I would get, I thought that I was going t get mostly Bs, but I only got one, and that is from a really hard marker. BUT I am not going to complain.

Anyways, this is the end of this most riveting journal entry

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24706602/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24706602/ Mon, 11 May 2009 16:15:02 PDT


Rules include :
1) Put Your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle
2) For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3) You must type the song name down no matter how silly it sounds.
4) No cheating please.


If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say :
Road Trippin'

What would best descirbe your personality? :
These Living Arms

What do you like in a guy/girl? :
One More Time

How do you feel today? :
Seven Nation Army

What is your life's purpose? :
Writings on the Wall

What is your motto? :
Royally Fucked

What do your friends think of you? :
Knights of Cydonia

What do you think of your parents? :
Sunday Bloody Sunday

What do you think about very often? :
Alarum

WHAT IS 2+2?
Landing In London

What do you think of your bestfriend? :
Land Of Confusion

What do you think of the person you romantically like? :
Soul Rescuer

What is your life story? :
Levitate Me

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Can't Stop

What do you think when you see the person you romantically like? :
My Best Friend's Girl ( Which is kinda true because I consider him as a best friend)

What do your parents think of you? :
Legion

What will you dance to at your wedding? :
Fire

What song will they play at your funeral? :
Crazy Train

What is your main hobby/interest? :
November Has Come

What is your biggest fear? :
A Passage to Bangkok

What is your biggest secret? :
Hey

What do you think of your friends? :
Sultan's of Swing

What will you post this survey as? :
Slow Country



And a recent quiz said this about me:


You have a need for other people to like and admire you, and yet you tend to be critical of yourself. While you have some personality weaknesses you are generally able to compensate for them. You have considerable unused capacity that you have not turned to your advantage. Disciplined and self-controlled on the outside, you tend to be worrisome and insecure on the inside. At times you have serious doubts as to whether you have made the right decision or done the right thing. You prefer a certain amount of change and variety and become dissatisfied when hemmed in by restrictions and limitations. You also pride yourself as an independent thinker; and do not accept others' statements without satisfactory proof. But you have found it unwise to be too frank in revealing yourself to others. At times you are extroverted, affable, and sociable, while at other times you are introverted, wary, and reserved. Some of your aspirations tend to be rather unrealistic.

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24700330/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24700330/ Mon, 11 May 2009 09:35:02 PDT
But, still lots of work to do, to get more clients, I really don't like e-mailing them, telling them they need a new site, and I should be the one to do it. I'm much more of a meet someone, find out they need a site, and then offer to do it, kind of person.

But oh well...

anyone need a website?


But on to the less interesting part of my journal. I'm still working on this picture of mine, it is going well....





what make a girlfriend into a good girlfriend or a bad one?

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24620134/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24620134/ Wed, 06 May 2009 14:53:25 PDT

dA changed the way that it does journals, I don't know when this happened but it is pretty cool


I've got a few pieces of art in the works, maybe you will actually get some art from me soon


I have been really trying to help out lately, and I have been feeling a little bad because there is so much going on and the only thing that I have been doing is worrying about getting a job and being able to pay rent and all of that. I'm not normally that self-centered, where all that I care about it me getting a job, but I feel that it is the best way for me to help out right now. There really isn't else that I can do.

well, I'm off, I really want to get somewhere on this picture today

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24571679/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24571679/ Sun, 03 May 2009 18:05:50 PDT
I'm sorry splintered, but I never want to do a birthday weekend ever again. A day is fine but a whole weekend is a little crazy...

So the weekend was fun, I ended up drinking waaaaay to much, although I was able to stop myself before I drank myself into a hole. I'm good like that, I had my last drink and I thought to myself "If I have another, it ain't staying down" so I drank water.

Most of the time, when I drink, I just lose my balance, I stay rational and I can still think with some clarity, which is nice I still know my limits when I am drunk. But not this time, my balance wavered in and out so I could still be mobile and we decided that we wanted to go to a&w. I ended up crying in the parking lot with my boyfriend while my friends got their food. Then we walked back, part of the time I didn't have one shoe on because was giving me a blister and it really hurt. Then we got back, ended up going to bed shortly after that, but I didn't actually get to sleep until 5 in the morning. But I did have a good chat with my friend who crashed in my bed.

There were noisy drunk people shouting on their balcony at 5 in the morning. 5 IN THE FUCKING MORNING.

>:C

BUT other than the CRAZY weekend, Gato and I went to the gym for the first time yesterday, as part of MAY FITNESS MADNESS MONTH. We are going to be going again tomorrow too...


ugh. I hate being jobless...




:EDIT:

And I was on the NAIT webpage, checking if the new marks were posted, and it turns out that I had a 3.8 GPA, not 3.7

Maybe not important to you, but it will be important when I tell my parents my delightful news.

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24487656/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24487656/ Tue, 28 Apr 2009 20:05:26 PDT
My boyfriend and my roommates did something super nice for me over the weekend. When I was at the driver's training, they went into halo and played some, then look a bunch of pictures of the match, added some funny achievements to them and put them on my computer as wallpapers. Now you might not think that is that cool but it really is because my boyfriend once told me that he would make me some wallpapers, and everyone ended up helping with it. That was super awesome.

...Ok, this journal has been sitting here, open for a few days now....

it is only half a journal...

THE END

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24393726/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24393726/ Thu, 23 Apr 2009 12:47:38 PDT
I did a PHP demo yesterday, make a login page and a really shitty blog, it sucks but it was fun, I really enjoyed it. Now I just have to render my 3d project, make a few character sheets, and print my final typography poster and mount it, that should be fun, I hope I have enough money to do it, well I do, but it isn't with me right now. I'm thinking it will be under $10.

Apparently, I'm doing a really good job with this one. I hope I can make up for that last project. I can't fail anything now. My 3d render is going to take forever, it is 900 frames long and so far each frame is taking 5 minutes to render. I think I'll turn down the final gather, for time sake, but at least I'm getting it done. I would hate to not get this done. Maybe I will submit it here once it is done. But we will see about that. I might even post my typography poster here too.

3d was fun, but I don't think I will be doing it for a career, I'm going to stick with web and flash, but I'll keep doing it on the side, as a hobby. I do enjoy it.

I'm also going to take digital photography and either illustration or motion graphics as my elective, assuming they don't add some more that I will want to take more then those to.

But we will just have to see what happens, now won't we?

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24344354/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24344354/ Mon, 20 Apr 2009 14:10:38 PDT
Survive this last week,
Survive the summer
Survive my classes

Just survive.


I was talking with my parents and they will lend me enough money to cover my driver's training, I will have to pay them back, but I would have paid them back anyways.


I've got a few people who sound like they would like websites, so I hope those on top of a job that I will hopefully be able to get will allow me to have a fun summer. I am determined to get my driver's license before the end of the summer. In my conversation with my mom, she said that she might be able to teach me how to drive standard, which is something that I have always wanted to do. But in a deserted place, like a parking lot, because it is apparently hard to pick up. But I still want to try.

I painted my nails again last night, I did a better job this time, It is almost decent. I'm not a very good female, I'll tell you that much.

hum dee dum...

I really want to go bra shopping, I went with a friend and I had so much fun but I couldn't get any bras myself, but one day it will.

I've seen a few movies lately that just made me go "...huh."

1) Observe and Report
2) Rocky Horror Picture Show
3) Crank
4) The Wizard of Gore

Observe and report is definitely another Seth Rogen film. But it was the ending that make me not know if I liked it or not.



*spoiler* I didn't really enjoy watching a gross naked man run around for five minutes. It was very gross.*/spoiler*


The Rocky Horror Picture show was a huh because it was Tim Curry singing and dancing in a corset. It freaked me out a little, but I also enjoyed it a little. Much like Gato, it make me feel good, in a sick and twisted way.

Crank is just over the top action that must have been hell or super fun for the editors

And the wizard of gore was so gory that I almost left in the middle of it. But it wasn't a bad movie.

I've got 2 projects left. A 3d animation and a game. blegh. I just want to be done.

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24220913/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24220913/ Mon, 13 Apr 2009 13:33:17 PDT
My entire family, my dad, my brother, my step-brother, my mom, my step-dad, all have the hands of someone who has worked in the trades. They are rough, scared, and the look like they have been put to the test. There is nothing wrong with those hands, really there isn't wrong with them. But they are wrong for me. I remember when I was helping my dad and I was getting blisters on my hands, I was upset. I'm not a pussy, I can handle the pain and keep working, but I don't want to have rough, battered hands.

My hands right now are the hands of someone who has broken free of the family norm. I'm the 'computer person' and everyone comes to me for help (my answer: 'buy a mac'. They experience a different pain, on that only comes from typing for hours on end. I feel that this is important because the only reason that I will have anything to do with the trades is if I am doing a website or a sign for them.

You must think I'm crazy but it is important to me.


Another... defining moment for me happened over the weekend. For the first time, In a really long time, I was able to be myself. I didn't realize it until later, but I knew that I didn't need to keep hiding. And I don't want to, I want to be able to do what I want to do, but I have always felt like I needed to hold back. That I had to be socially acceptable no matter what. I know that sounds crazy, considering some of the people that I know, but I have always felt that I had to stay normal.

I guess the dark neko is winning, finding all of the cracks and trying to escape... hopefully it will be a fun ride.

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24217696/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24217696/ Mon, 13 Apr 2009 10:15:14 PDT

1. Put your songs on random/shuffle.
2. Write them down in the order they come.
3. Don't cheat, that's not funny.
4. It doesn't matter if it hasn't happened yet, or ever will happen.


(intro theme), birth:
All Over You- The Spill Canvas


childhood (preschool):
Save tonight- Eagle Eye Cherry

friends:
Bablyon- The Tea Party

childhood/pre-teens (middleschool/junior high):
Fire- Crazy world of Arthur Brown

first funeral:
Luxuria- The Tea Party

first crush:
Rapture- IIO

first kiss:
Endlessly- Muse

teenage years (high school/college):
Broken Promises for Broken Hearts- She wants Revenge

first boy/girlfriend:
Lift me up- Mody

first sex:
Starshine- Gorillaz

Prom:
It's Just Begun- She Wants Revenge

first day at work:
Rebel yell- Billy Idol

wedding day:
Sister Awake- The Tea Party

pregnancy:
Walking Wounded- The Tea Party

birth of children:
All the love I have inside- Chris deBurgh

mother/fatherhood:
My patch- Jim Noir

child's first day of school:
She will always be a Broken Girl- She Wants Revenge

your child's teens/childhood:
Fire in the Head- The Tea Party

Your divorce:
These living arms- The Tea Party

your mother/father's funeral:
Chrome- VNV Nation

Your child's marrige:
Someone like You- Bang Tango

Your grandchildren:
Come into- Enon

Your death:
Save me- The Tea Party

(outro song)Your funeral:
Team Chaotix- crush 40

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24138032/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24138032/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 21:38:51 PDT
Have you:

Had a boyfriend: Yes.

Had your birthday: No, I'm an October baby.

Been to church: keh.

Had someone close to you pass: No.

Pulled an all nighter: Naw, I'm the zen master.

Drank Tim Horton Soup: soup? no. Coffee, more than likely!

Gone to the movies: At least three or four times.

Been to the beach: Naw, but I might be going this summer!!

Met someone new: Yes, people in my course that I have never seen before

Been out of your home town: I live away from my hometown

Done something crazy: Sure have.

Thought about moving: Nope. I'm perfectly happy

In The Past Month:

Kissed someone: Yes.

Slept in someone else's bed: nope.

Snuck someone over: The one person I would sneak over is always welcome here

Been to a bar: Yes.

Been Bullied: probably by my brother.

Drove somewhere: Not myself, no.

Done something you regret: I never do anything I regret.

Drank alcohol: Yes.

Last:

Thing you bought: coffee?

Person you hugged: Josh

Person to call you: Josh

Person who messαged you: Kyra

Person who saw you cry: Josh

Person who made you cry: a movie.

Person you yelled at: I don't remember

Person to make you smile: Kyra

Song you listened to: Screaming for Vengeance- Judas Priest

Thing you did yesterday: Finished my flash assignment

1) Can you take this without deleting any questions? I think so

2) What's going on between you and the last person you kissed? We're dating.

3) What was your worst mistake in your life? ...hmmm

4) Would you get back with your last ex if they asked you? I don't have an ex

5) What's something you really want right now, be honest: have a shower, do the dishes and have a magical flash fairy give me all of the actionscript knowledge ever.

6) Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? :3 I'm not telling.

7) Does anything on your body hurt right now? my hands, from typing.

8) Who was the last person to disappoint you? probably myself

9) Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? my da journal

10) What are you listening to? the lyrics "don't be aroused by my confession, unless you don't give a good god damn about redemption"

11) Whats a quote from a song that you have listened to?

Well I'm always too fast
They're always too slow
And that I'll make you see
That I'm smart as a cracker
And I crack like a whip
Gonna make you believe
I've lived a million times before
And I've seen a million ways
That psychedelic crap coming through the front door
Gettin' kicked out the back, yeah
Sometimes I get tired and I can not sleep
Sometimes I lose control, it takes control of me
And when I'm fallin' down, down on my knees
Takin' me, takin' me, takin' me


12) Have you ever punched a hole in a wall? Nope, I'm a zen master.

13) Do you know someone in jail? He was in jail once

14) What about in DGA? I honestly don't know what that stands for.

15) Where were you at 4:00am? tossing and turning.

16) Who did you copy this from? Shantel, from facebook

17) Do you know them? Yeah, she is in my course

18) Do you wear glasses? AND I hate it.

19) Anywhere you'd rather be right now? Cuddling with a certain someone

20) Are you going anywhere for the next summer? The coast maybe?

21) Do you have plans today? shower. dishes. sleep

22) Waiting for someone to call? keh, nope

23) Will you call them if they dont call? Depends.

24) What's a fact about the last person who had their arms around you? He loves general grievous

25) Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? Walmart

26) Could you go a day without drinking? liquids? nope, alcohol? yeah.

27) Do you know anyone that smokes weed? Yeah, I know a few people.

28) How was your day today? Eh, so-so

29) Have you ever kissed a stranger? No, gross

30) Do your parents force you to go to church or let you make the decision? When I was younger

31) When it comes to the opposite sex what is your type? the Yami-type? I donno... >_>;;

32) Where is the furthest place you've traveled? Manitoba

34) Can you do splits? OUCH.

35) What was the last alcohol drink you drank? A pornstar

36) What was for dinner tonight? Chef salad

37) Do any of your ex's miss you? don't have one

38) Does anyone love you? Probably my family, my friends,... ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24129623/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24129623/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 13:14:07 PDT
"a bachelor in business eh? what do that do for you?"

In the second semester of a 4 semester course, I am already able to make profit from the skills that i have learned, I have had a few clients and I have made some money, It is really nice for that. I know that one of my classmates is doing the same thing that I am doing and trying to make extra money making websites. Clients aren't really all that hard to find, and I don't charge much. Granted I might not be able to do half of the things that more advanced web developers can do.

I find myself leaning more and more towards web though, the problems are easy for me, I can usually help someone with their site if they need it. My designing could use a little work though... I kinda suck like that, but I was given some good rules to follow by my good friend Gato:

1) STOCK PHOTOS
2) Thin rounded borders
3) gradients
4) gradients over a texture

and I think there is one more, but I can't recall it at the moment.

Now, I have to admit, I was quite shocked when I learned at the end of my first semester that I was worth $42/h or $300/page. Yes, I do feel that my worth is reflected in wages, when I was working at my last job, when I finally got to $12/h, I felt that deserved it because I then I was worth that much in the work area.

It is based on where you work, how long you have worked there, and how good you are at it.

That is just how I think.

Remember neko, you have a javascript assignment due on monday. don't forget.

Kiriban: 20 000
Prize: Hat ]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24037235/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24037235/ Fri, 03 Apr 2009 08:53:24 PDT

(p.s. I found out that I owe$10,500 to the government for my students loans)

AssCo is the industry leader of e-business e-tailers. Quick: do you have a one-to-one strategy for coping with new compelling versioning? A company that can brand correctly will (at some point) be able to repurpose defiantly. We apply the proverb "A bird in the hand is worth two in the bush" not only to our TQC but our ability to monetize. Without well-chosen super-e-tailers, technologies are forced to become back-end. The networks factor is C2C2C. Without appropriate users, e-tailers are forced to become best-of-breed. Do you have a plan to become granular? Without meticulously-planned models, interfaces are forced to become co-branded. Without appropriate synergies, e-markets are forced to become bleeding-edge. What does the jargon-based term "holistic, blog-based process management monitoring" really mean?

]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24001018/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/24001018/ Wed, 01 Apr 2009 08:42:49 PDT

Well I'm always too fast
They're always too slow
And that I'll make you see
That I'm smart as a cracker
And I crack like a whip
Gonna make you believe
I've lived a million times before
And I've seen a million ways
That psychedelic crap coming through the front door
Gettin' kicked out the back, yeah
Sometimes I get tired and I can not sleep
Sometimes I lose control, it takes control of me
And when I'm fallin' down, down on my knees
Takin' me, takin' me, takin' me

I just did my design presentation. It didn't go as badly as I thought it was going to, but it was still pretty bad. I don't really care anymore then, it is over and done with.


speaking of over and done with. I'm so over this cold. I feel you slipping, it is only a matter of time now. A few more day, maybe I'll be able to get it gone by the weekend. That would be nice.

Homework, is getting easier now, I'm getting a lot of work classes so I can do most of my work at school.

The weather really took a toll on me yesterday for a little while, being on my own I've been getting better at preventing of this. It starts off making me feel really lethargic and tired, but then it ramps up the negative thoughts. Seasonal depression, I've heard it called that. I don't think that is what it is, and if it is, I don't want to give it a name, because I can deal with it without having to give it a name. A shower and a nap usually helps. Or something to break the habit.

Well, I'm dancin' on coals
I'm dancin' with the angels
And I'll do anything, just make me get a smile, yeah
I'm dancin' on coals
I'm dancin' with the angels
I'll do anything, just make me crack a smile


Yeah, I'm writing a long journal, it is a long class. suck it up.

Flash has been tough but I know where I am going with it now, so it is getting easier. Instead of doing something that I don't want, I'm going to be doing some tutorials. A hat one, a digital paint one, and a vexeling one. So expect some new stuff because I need to get the content for them. And the flash game that I am making, is going to be jellyfish. And I will be posting it here when I am done.

Grip tight to the things I like
And I always steal away
Well, bless those ones with faceless lies
'Cause they carry such a heavy strain
Don't go lookin' for answers
'Cause the road is always bent
The fools use the system
But I know that it's spent
Ain't no fool, no

Got a good thing goin' in life
God knows I'd give it a try
Got a shot of love and there ain't no hate
Don't you know, I'll make no mistakes?


Don't worry guys, only one more verse, this journal is almost over.

April fools, I was going to pull one on my family, but I have decided against it. I was going to do a facebook post that I found out that I was pregnant. But then everyone would be on my case. So I'm not going to do anything for april fools. oh, and lame dA. A snowman? You can do better then that.

Dancin' all my way through life
I know just what I like
I know just what I want
I know just who I am
I'm dancin' all the way
I'm a modern man
Last night I took a midnight flight
Across the stars
Sat there lookin' down on earth
Straight down from Mars
I know just what I want
I know just who I am
I'm dancin' all the way
Well, I'm back down on earth
And I'm dancin' again

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I'm feeling better today, I can actually inhale and yawn without starting a coughing fit. Although I had a really crappy sleep, and I feel bad cause I'm pretty sure I woke yami up a couple of times with my coughing. Honestly guys, I am feeling better. I'm not lying.

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I just want to start a flame in your heart.
In my heart I have but one desire,
and that one is you, no other will do.

I was playing fallout 3 today, met up with another deathclaw. Oh joy. Thankfully I managed to find the firelance and that does a good job at taking them down.

I don't want to set the world on fire honey
I love you too much
I just want to start a great big flame down in your heart,
you see, way down inside of my, down in there I only have one desire.
and that one desire is you, and I know that nobody else is gonna do.

I have caught a chest cold, I consider myself the lucky one, my room mate gato got pneumonia and she has been having a rough time with it. And Yami has a bronchial infection, so my little chest cough is nothing compared to them. Although my neck and throat are stiff and sore from coughing so much.

NEKO used cough!

The attach was ineffective!

NEKO was hit with recoil.

NEKO fainted!



Speaking of pokemon, I have been playing a lot of platinum lately, it is a wicked awesome game. I mean sure up until level 30 it is pretty much the same pokemon cock-fighting, but the new plot is interesting AND I caught a shiny shinx. Now a Luxio, the bitch kicks ass. I've never gotten a illegitimate shiny pokemon before. I thought the game was glitching at first.



Moving along, I had a really crazy dream thing morning... There was this dock, and this boat that was parked at the end of it, there were a bunch of people who were shooting at the front of the boat, near where it entered the water in an effort to sink it. I was at the end of the dock just watching the whole thing. The boat never shot back. Then suddenly, in a very car like fashion, it backed up and drove over to the shore where it suddenly had a huge halo 3 turret mounted on it, and it started firing at the people. The shells where huge! I was just watching this whole thing happen when suddenly I saw a shell bouncing down the dock at me, I was going to dodge it but I was too slow and it got me on my inner thigh. The damn thing was really hot because it burned me, and I could actually feel the burn, I woke up after that and my leg still felt like it was burning.

Now that I think about it, that isn't the first time that I have a dream of that lake, I can remember one from before. And now for shits and giggle, Lets use on of them online dream translator things.

Boat
To dream that you are in or see a boat, signifies your ability to cope with and express your emotions. Pay particular attention to the condition and state of the waters, whether is is calm or violent, clear or murky, etc. Are you "smooth sailing"? Alternatively, you may be ready to confront your unconscious and unknown aspects of yourself. ( Maybe I should try watching Donnie Darko, frank the rabbit gave me nightmares for months)

Lake
To see a lake in your dream, signifies your emotional state of mind. You feel restricted or that you are unable to express your emotions freely. Alternatively, the lake may provide you with solace, security, and peace of mind. If the lake is clear and calm, then it symbolize your inner peace. If the lake is disturbed, then you may be going through some emotional turmoil.

Shooting
To see a shooting in your dream, indicates that you have a set goal and know what you are aiming for in life. Your plans are right on target!

Burning
To see something burning, indicates that you are experiencing some intense emotions and/or passionate sexual feelings. There is some situation or issue that you can no longer avoid and ignore. Alternatively, it may suggests that you need to take time off for yourself and relax. Consider also how you may be feeling "burned out" or "burned up".


hm... so I'm either content with my progress and I feel passionately about them. Or something is really bugging me and it is driving me nuts.

Good to know

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Holy camoly. I am having one of those days, oh man, blah blah blah.

So I took my taxes to my aunt's place last night, had some awesome greek food. We ended up having some conversations that I really wished we weren't having with my aunt, like the muscles used in jerking off, or how to hide your porn, or handcuffs. Hilarious.

I got a call from my mom last night, the shed in their back yard burnt down, taking with it all of my step-dad's tools and about 30 of the tubes that they use for river tubing. Luckily, the fire didn't spread and they have insurance. That is a little bit of good news.


Pokemon is fun. Homework is hard. I'm switching from doing a comic to doing a personal site with tutorials for making hats and such things like that.

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Other than that, it is definitely crunch time. I'm just going to have to work harder. And help Yami get his portfolio done for Tuesday.


Lots of work, and all I want to do is play pokemon...

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Since it's been a while since you have all had to read about me bitching and whining. It's time for another one.

First topic on the list, I recently went to my old job, I've been avoiding there like the plague and feeling horrible for it, I know that my friends have wanted to eat there, but I'm still not wanting to see my old boss. Once I saw the back of her head in a store and I high-tailed it out of there. I've been wanting to go back, and say hello to all of my old work buddies. So the other day we did, I had a chicken taco. It was awesome.

Bad design is bad. And I am a bad designer. The design project that I have been.... gouging myself over for the last 2 months is due in just a few short days, and during this project I have had no inspiration, no drive to work on it, and no clue. We are supposed to mimic a great designer and do an article about them. I can't be Paula Scher. There is no way. And to make it worse, her philosophy is that all design is mimicking someone else, and a bad design is originality, and really bad design is the start of a personal style. But a good mimicry is bettering the original style.

So if I do a really bad job, then I am being original and I fail at mimicking Paula Scher, and if I do well (HA!) then I'm improving her style. It is fail no matter what! One of the things that we are supposed to do, is come up with a thematic device, the driving force behind the whole design. Mine is



(Copyright Paula Scher)

And the title has to be Influential Properties. So what I was going to do is run a mimic of the 'the public theatre' and have it say influential properties. Another thing that I was going to mimic was the cover of her book, make it bigger, (which I am still looking for IRL) where the cover has a blown-up to the extreme the title. Making it look more like abstract art. I was going to take my mimicked logo and blow it up, cut it into 4s and put on piece on each page (its a 4 page spread)

My actual article will mimic the inside of her book, taking the linespacing, font size, and kerning. While making the first line of each paragraph big and orange, again, taken for her book.

huh. I guess i knew what I was doing after all. Problem solved I guess?

THEN there is this RPG that I am working on with a group of people in one of my classes, my role is the character development lead, meaning that I make all of the characters and what not, But since the environment lead has been sick for a little bit, I had to take on making game tiles, Now I have no problem with this, honestly, it is ok, I hope the guy is taking his time in getting better. But what I want to complain about is the fact that there seems to be no communication in the group. I wanted to get the rest of the group's opinion on the tiles that I had done, but I get no response. It is like my client website. I have some spelling errors and 2, 2 more pieces of content and then it is done! Just e-mail the content to me! It will only take a second!


Well, that is everything right now I guess. I can't think of anything else to bitch about

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1. Josh just got vaporized in a freak accident. Now what?
Cry, and be depressed

2. What advice would you give Jo?
Umm.... kerning makes everything better?

3. What would you do if Courtney and Josh were going out?
Wonder what the hell my lesbian lover(lol, inside joke) and my bf were doing, then try to join them

4. Kyra and Colton are forced to roleplay out a verbal couple fight. Who gets to play the wife?
Hmm.... It would depend on what Kyra wanted, cause she always seems to get her way.

5. Who would you rather get stuck in handcuffs with, Adrianna or Alan?
hmm... Probably Adrianna, cause the whole bathroom thing could get really awkward with Alan.

6. In a race between you, Alan and Josh, who would win?
Not me, I would be last, the winner would depend on whoever's asthma kicks in first.

7. Who is Ashley's best friend?
Me!? I actually don't know

8. Do you love Colton?
Nope

9. In a race between you, Hannah and Colton, who would win?
(What is with all of the race questions?) I don't know, not me for sure XD

10. Who would you rather get stuck in handcuffs with, Jamie or Ashley?
(another handcuff question?)
um... Ashley, I know her better, and then we can finally go out of coffee...



Lol, now that I have wasted your time, have a good day!

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Yami and I had an interesting discussion this morning, it actually it started last night when i was complaining about being cold, and I wanted to make some way to capture his warmth. To which he responded that I would be taking his soul, it was the center of his warmth. Jokingly of course. But that got me to thinking, I could imagine that his soul was this white-hot bright thing. I wondered what my soul would be like. I joking said that maybe I didn't have one because I was so cold all of the time, but really I was thinking that the reason was because mine expressed itself differently... So I'm now wondering... how would my soul look? How does it express itself? Is it really even there or am I just insane?

I had a very weird morning... well just waking up. In the foggy first few seconds, reaching for the alarm, it was like I wasn't alone. I knew that I was but it was weird... A comforting touch in my head maybe, I don't know...

I seem to be in a loopy mood these last few days...


It is really hard to explain

]]> =Nekoyasha- http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/23605794/ http://Nekoyasha-.deviantart.com/journal/23605794/ Mon, 09 Mar 2009 08:52:08 PDT "Lift me up, lift me up
Higher now i'm upper"
"Lift me up, lift me up
Higher now i'm upper"
"Lift me up, lift me up
Higher now i'm upper"

Plain talking (Plain talking)
Making us bold (making us bold)
So strong out and cold (so strong out and cold)
I'm feeling so old (feeling so old)

You wanna know something? Everything in our live are simple choices. booleans if I may. True, false. Yes, no. And complicated decision that we make is really a bunch of smaller simpler choices. It is really strange when you think about it. huh. weird.


But that isn't really all that important.

I have come to realize something, I'm very spoiled. So very very spoiled. I think I have been getting to used to how things are going...


I can feel a change coming, maybe it is this weather but it makes hard for me to concentrate. I get this feeling for constant.... need to move.


The weather is supposed to be nice by the end of the week. I hope so, I am so sick of the cold. And the snow. I want the warmth to come.

I hate being cold all of the time, to have to rely on others for their warmth and light. ugh.

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I'm not really doing a good job paying attention in flash today. I'm just not in the mood to do it right now. blah blah blah.

I'm still having issues remembering what variable do. In both JavaScript and Flash. I kinda know what they mean, how to use them but I'm not 100%. Flash will get better once my brain knows what to do with them. Maybe I will look up an internet article later.

So, wow, six months on thursday. That is pretty crazy. I don't know if I'm going to do anything to mark the occasion. In one hand, it is only six months, whoop-de-doo. But on the other hand. It is six months, that is half a year. That is pretty amazing. And I would want to celebrate how much these last six months have changed my life.

One of the things that really annoys me about having a relationship, is all of the other people who don't have one and are really bitchy about that. It not my fault that you don't have a relationship right now. Stop making me feel like crap. >:C

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So high point of the yesterday: I was in the elevator with someone else, and I had taken my headphones off so cause he asked me a question or something. I listen to my music a little louder than I should so he could hear it clearly. And I was listening to a song that not everyone would appreciate. Including the part where the guy screams 'I know you're fucking someone else" over and over for a while. It was just reaching that part when it started and I somehow managed to get my ipod out of my pocket and unplug the headphone just as the singer was about to say fucking for the first time. I felt quite lucky.

But in other news....

I don't have any other news.

I'm lame.

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It's been a while since my last journal, so I'm going to annoy you all with another one. Aren't you glad you watch me?

Honestly I don't know why anybody watches me. But hey, to each their own, eh?

Things going. I can't really say it is a good or bad thing. I woke up this morning and I didn't dread the day at school. I managed to get my render done, my game assets made, and I learned about game lighting. Did you know that in games, any object will not have more than 8 lights hitting it? Any more that eight and the video card can't handle it. And some of the lights are 'baked' into the objects so that the developers don't actually need to put lights in. The more you know!


Ugh. I can't think of anything interesting to write about. I'm just a boring person I guess.

I should be doing some homework. And I probably will, right as soon as I am done this journal.





which is right about..... now.

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With your arms around me
You're singing softly


These living arms- The Tea Party

I can't seem to stop listening to that song, I just looooove it.

I finally picked a designer for my designer article thingie that I need to write for one of my classes, I thought I was going to do Paula Scher, but I decided to do Maggie Macnab, I really wanted to do a female designer and my list of designers I could pick from were limited, so this is my final choice.

I'm not making very good progress with my reading break homework, but I will finish one thing before I go to sleep. I tried to finish the 2d game I had to make but unfortunately I couldn't get the damn program to work, at all, so I;m just going to have to wait until I am back as school. Looks to be the same with my 3D project. It exploded on the last day of classes and I don't have it on my computers. Oh well.

But I have been doing a lot for this article thing, I've been reading a lot about Maggie, and I'm excited to start writing about her. The title has to be influential properties, which is nice because I really really hate making titles.


But in other news, I got new bedding today, spent to much but my bed looks awesome now. blue and black. I found this great big blanket at IKEA so I will no long have to fight for blankets when Yami comes over.

Alright, enough of that bullcrap.

Lets see.... what can I tell you about myself?

How about what I consider to be a guilty pleasure? I suggest that you not continue if you don't want to know, I've given fair warning.




Hmm... One is texting, well, getting text messages. I love it, I do. I think it has to do with my roots as a child with many siblings. I like that constant conversation, that knowing that someone is there.


Next is having my back scratched, not even in a sexual way, I enjoy it when I have a itch that I can reach and someone scratches it for me. I love it.

Something to do with pain maybe? I know my brother has a thing with pain, I've had some very disturbing conversations with him about the effects that one of his piercing had on him. Trust me, you don't want to know.

One more? Well if you insist.

I love talking to people and trying to understand their views, Colton knows what I mean, I've had a few conversations about spirituality, simply because I want to understand other people's views. That must make me a super canadian or something, I use this knowledge to avoid conflict and what not.

Its why I like the forums so much. Endless opinions that love to talk and talk

Hey! I found a lab sheet! I have one more assignment that I can finish now! I'll call this one the 'Lets see if I can afford it' budget calculator! Boy-o-boy! I love shit like this.

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I don't think that I will be getting any though, I'm content at the moment.

But I do want so say that I am feeling kinda useless right now, my roommate is going through a hard time and not only can I not think of a way to cheer her up, I can't even relate to what she is going through. So I feel super useless. I hope that I can do something though...


But lets see.... Valentines day was super. Yami got me some blue roses which I was NOT expecting. Like, EVER. I couldn't believe that he got them for me, and all that I got him saw some cinnamon hearts in a bag with a letter, It's the thought that counts right?

So Gato, Splintered, Yami and I went to hudson's and we were trying to enjoy our supper when we had not one, but 2 drunk people come and bother us. The first one, it took us a minute or 2 to realize that she was in fact not a manager making sure everything was good, but just some random drunk person, she talked with us for a while then we managed to make her go away then 2 minutes later we had another one show up, lucky for us, Yami was able to dismiss him quickly. Fun.


I really don't like drunk people, you never know what they will do next. >:C


In other news, I saw Coraline on Friday, it was an awesome movie, I will definitely be adding it to my collection when it comes out. I highly suggest it if you like creepy movies done in a Nightmare before Christmas type style.


Other than that, I've got nothing new to report.

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I gotta say dA, I'm loving the fact that headers and footers are now hidden in the journal entry screen, L-O-V-E. Now I only have one box that I can write in without thinking.


but anyways, I wanted to talk about the revelation that I had last night, between trying to get used to having to share the bed, over heating because there was someone else in my bed, kicking off the blankets, then getting cold, then covering up, then over heating all the while considering opening the window a little but remembering it was really cold out, and finally falling asleep at about 3.

There was a time when I stopped thinking, I told myself I needed to stop thinking and to just relax, and in the quiet that was left behind, I felt something amazing.

I can't just give it one word to describe it, but I can't think of any number of words that could describe it. It was this quiet warmth, and the only thing that I can think was the cause of that, would be Yami, you silly kid you. ( :3 (just for you))

Friday the 13th? lame. SUPER lame actually. I don't know why everyone is so superstitious over it. I mean, whoop-di-do.


I have to go shopping tonight, pick up the supplies for the brunch tomorrow. I was looking at the recipe for it the other night,and you can make the batter for crepes the night before, so I get to sleep in a little bit longer.

Speaking of tonight, I'm going to see coraline tonight, I've been looking forward to this alllllllll week. That and seeing Yami. Boy howdy! I'm exciting!


oh! and I'm looking forward to listening to alice cooper on the radio, it will be super fun.

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This is fun to do. Just read the "offense" and if you've done it, you owe that fine. Keep going until you've read each offense and then add up the total fine YOU owe.

You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your
fine. The most you can have is $1205

1. Smoked pot -- $10
2. Did acid -- $5
3. Ever had sex at church -- $25
4. Woke up in the morning and didnt know who was next to you --$40
5. Had sex with someone you met on Internet -- $25
6. Had sex for money -- $100
7. Ever had sex with a lover of different ethnic background -- $20
8. Vandalized something -- $20
9. Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10
10. Beat up someone --$20
11. Been jumped -- $10
12. Crossed dressed -- $10
13. Given money to stripper -- $25
14. Been in love with a stripper -- $20
15. Kissed some one who's name you didn't know -- $10
16. Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15
17. Ever drive drunk -- $20
18. Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk --$50
19. Used toys while having sex -- $30
20. Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20
21. Went skinny dipping -- $5
22. Had sex in a pool -- $20
23. Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10
24. Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20
25. Cheated on your significant other -- $25
26. Masturbated -- $5
27. Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend -$35
28. Done oral -- $15
29. Got oral -- $5
30. Done / got oral in a car while it was moving --$25
31. Stole something -- $10
32. Had sex with someone in jail -- $25
33. Made a naughty home video -- $15
34. Had a threesome -- $50
35. Had sex in the wild -- $20
36. Been in the same room while someone was having sex -- $25
37. Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars -- $20
38. Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20
39. Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 -- $25
40. Been in love with two people or more at the same time -- $50
41. Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- $25
42. Went streaking -- $5
43. Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15
44. Been arrested -- $5
45. Spent time in jail -- $15
46. Peed in the pool -- $50
47. Played spin the bottle -- $5
48. Done something you regret -- $20
49. Had sex with your best friend -- $20
50. Had sex with someone you work with at work --$25
51. Had anal sex -- $80
52. Lied to your mate -- $5
53. Lied to your mate about the sex being good -- $25




My total is: $155

lol, looks like I'm not quite as adventurous as this list.

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Birds flying high you know how I feel
Sun in the sky you know how I feel
Reeds driftin' on by you know how I feel

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good


Well, I got my flash homework to work, it was easy cause I'm an idiot who forgot to name something properly. Now I can make load bars, It is awesome.

I still want to skip a day this week but everyday has ONE thing that I need to do. Like turn in a project, of have a class that I look forward to. It will be alright. I can't wait for reading week, that should be super fun.

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I'm going to write a journal.


LOL to who ever read this crap. Honestly, I don't know why I write journals. But on with the show eh?


so I put a little bit of homework off until tonight, I have 2 1120 errors to fix, but I will do that tomorrow. Cause I'm LAZY. LOL.


I stayed the weekend at Yami's place, I gotta say it has kinda lost its appeal cause I can't sleep in his room anymore. Well, I actually did, but he slept on the couch. I felt bad but he was being nice. I think I might be spending more weekends at home now, I'll have to drag his butt here. I'm not going to complain about the decision. Its not my place to try and change it.


Valentines is just under a week away, I gotta say, I'm looking forward to making brunch for Yami, Gato, and Splintered. It will be fun, and full of fruit. With a delightful slice of cantaloupe at the end.

oh yeah, plus all of the other ooey gooey feeling that come with valentines day.


In other news, I've got a BUTT load of work this week, a 3d composition, a test, a client profile thingy, AND I have to choose a designer to write an article about.

HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY!


I shall now leave you with some lyrics.

So a crowd he gathered round us
I'm pining one last kiss
I'm struggling with this lifeline
In the shadow of this bliss
Patience my love Patience my love it'll all be alright

Ain't it funny how the fates work
I feel cheated by the turn
Still this love it hovers over us
And the lessons that we've learned
Patience my love Patience my love

With your arms around me
You're singing softly
And I fade from memory
And move on

We were lost inside a wasteland
Of fools groping for the gold
I wonder if they'll think of us
While they're still searching for their souls
Patience my love Patience my love

With your arms around me
You're singing softly
And I fade from memory
And move on
May nothing harm you
I'm still inside you
With my wings around you

So never put it out my love
The spirit is the flame that burns within
Hold on to me
And it'll all work out fine

Sleep now is descending like a dream
Still I'm shaking from the softness
Of your skin
Hold on to me love
And it'll all be alright

With your arms around me
You're singing softly
And I fade from memory
And move on
May nothing harm you
I'm still inside you
With my wings around you

With your arms around me
You're singing softly
And I fade from memory
And move on
Sweet lover go on Sweet lover go on
My love be strong

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I've been tagged to do that a few times now, so here it is


Rules:
Once you've been tagged, you are asked to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose at least 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you


1. I really enjoy watching people play video games

2. I talk with my hands when I get really excited

3. I hate being in one place when I have nothing to do

4. The only alcoholic drink I know how to order is a pornstar

5. I don't like eating breakfast foods for breakfast

6. I don't have a clean room, but I still try to keep it tidy-ish

7. I want to see the ocean again

8. The only people who can call me 'neko' are close friends and only Yami is allowed to call me 'neko-chan'

9. My step-mom never answers my calls

10. I try not to burn bridges

11. but sometimes I love it when I do

12. I hate the fact that everyone assumes I'm super innocent

13. I like cats, but I'm glad I don't have one

14. I will go and see a movie even if it is lame, to say that I saw it

15. Somedays, I just want to leave and just keep going

16. I'm no longer interested in japan or japanese, that part of my life is over

17. I love pokemon, and I'm going to get the new one next month

18. I truly regret nothing that I have done in my life

19. I managed to lie to everyone that I know through out highschool, Including myself

20. The thought of going to one of my parent's house depresses me

21. I hate the sound of my voice and my laugh

22. I want to be better at all sorts of homemaking skills

23. I don't know how to do my own taxes

24. I feel like I'm constantly trying to find balance

25. Quit congratulating me for things that shouldn't be congratulated.



and I tag anyone who is really bored. That means you gato.

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I realize now how frustrating my last design project was, now that it is printed and I'm hoping not to present it. I'm feeling better. I tried to mount a half size version last night, and it fucked up real bad, so I skipped my first class to go and get a full size printing of it. Apparently it looks pretty good, maybe I won't fail this project. But I probably will.

I feel terrible, when I was super frustrated this morning, I took some of it out on my roommate, and I am terribly sorry, if I offended you, I'm really sorry.


And I will leave you with that. But first, everyone shuffle your mp3 player forward 4 songs and tell me please!

Mine is Smokin' by Boston

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March to the beat.

left foot.

right foot.

over and over.

on and on.

forward. always forward.


ugh... I can't really describe the mood that I am in, it is a weird one. A super weird one. It is like there is a humming in my head. Right up against the skull... and it is almost like a headache, but not really...

It could be worse, no?

I've been spending a lot of time in the forums lately, I even got Yami to take a look too.


I'm working on some art and stuff.... who know if I will actually finish it though

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I'm in, environmental design I think right now. And I don't know how I'm feeling.

Cramps again today. I can't wait until this whole thing is done, I am sooooo ready to feel like myself, not feel like I 'absolutely must have a shower every night or I feel like crap'

I mean, I like showering, being clean and all that jazz. Don't get me wrong or anything.

I guess i just want the cramps to go away.


My little affair with flash is getting worse. I'm seriously considering becoming a flash developer. And I think that i would want to do some more advance web too. Cause web and flash are lovers, and I know that.


hmmm.... I'm sorry, but I'm not a very interesting internet personality. I consider myself quite boring.... all of the time.

I think I'm going to buy lunch today...



I found out that I got reading week and spring break mixed up. And now I have to move my driver's training to a later date. That really really really reallllllllllly sucks for me, cause I have to wait even longer now.

BUT it is good cause that is $600 more dollars I get to hold on to for a bit. I might even be able to use this website that I am building to pay for it.

I'm kinda looking forward to getting a job this summer. A cashier job or something. It will take my mind off of school. But I might do some websites, I think that I can get some jobs through my mom, cause there is no web designer's out where she lives and apparently there is a need for websites.

hey, as long as I get paid, I don't care what websites I do.

Speaking of my mom, the christmas present that I wanted to get her is finally in the mail, and it should be here in under a week. Hopefully. I know that she has been looking forward to this present for a really really long time now.


But I should get back to class.

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Here is a question for my watchers:

Have you ever made up your mind and stuck to your guns regarding a super difficult decision?



And now for a journal, tag thing:

SAY EXACTLY WHATS ON YOUR MIND & DON'T CHANGE IT.

1. You & your ex – I don't have on
2. I am listening to – Kaufrausch by Wolfsheim
3. Maybe I should – go on the forums
4. I love – Yami
5. I don't understand - why I keep getting the shit end of the stick this month
6. I have lost my respect for – a certain person (not that I had much to begin with)
7. I last ate – bacon
8. The meaning of my display name is – an old high school name for myself.

IS YOUR/ARE YOU:

1. Is your hair wet? quite the opposite
2. Is your cell phone right by you? of course
3. Do you miss someone? Now, because he is within eye shot (doing dishes)
4. Are you wearing chap stick? nope.
5. Are you tired? eternally.
6. Are you wearing PJ's? yeah
7. Are you mad? nope
8. Are you upset? I'm really happy

HAVE YOU:
1. Recently done anything you regret? I don't do things I regret.
2. Ever lied? keh. of course I have lied.
3. Ever kicked someone? oh hell yeah
4. Ever tripped over your own feet? who hasn't?

TODAY HAVE YOU:
1. Have you cursed? lol, i've got such a potty mouth.
2. Have you gotten mad at someone? no.

RANDOM.
Q: Is there someone on your mind right now?
A: You know it.

Q: Do you have any siblings?
A: tons...

Q: Do you want children?
A: I can't say right now.

Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
A: fuck no

Q: Do you like your handwriting?
A: keh. I would call it chicken scratch.

Q: What color shirt are you wearing right now?
A: black

Q: What were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
A: probably sitting on my ass

Q: You can't wait until?
A: my 'girly' time to be over =_=;

Q: What would you rather be called?
A: Neko, by a few select people

Q: When did you cry last?
A: eh, a long time ago

Q. Are you one of those kids that cut their hair by themselves when they were younger?
A: a hair-what now?

Q. What do you think when you see someone trip, and then try and play it off?
A. lol, shit head.

Q. Are you the kind of person who wears GIANT hoop earings?
A. no thanks.

Q. Would you rather work a boring job, or a fast pace exhausting one?
A. Fast pace.

Q. Interested in manga? [Japanese "comic books"]
A. I have a good collection

Q. Ever get poked in the eye?
A. yeah, it was in good fun though.

1. Do you sleep in your bra? Most of the time
2. What is your mood right now? good.
3. Are you happy with your looks? Not really
4. Do you enjoy drama? lol, real life ones? nope.
5. Are you a girly girl? keh, of course not.
6. Who was the last person you hugged? Yami
7. Small or large purses? purses are for pansies. Bags are where it's at.
9. Do you like someone? Yeah... Haven't I made that clear?
10. What would you do if someone smacked your butt? depends on who it is. It ranges from giggling to making them disappear permanently.
11. Do you care if your socks are dirty? yeah, dirty socks are gross.
13. Do you dress up on Halloween? I try to
14. Are you double jointed? nope
15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept? ...in design class
16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours? yeah
17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you? I dunno, hell if I care

In a Your signifigant other...
Funny or Serious? Depends on what's happening
Cute or Hot? both.
Dark Eyes or Light Eyes? Light, blue most of the time, sometimes they seem green
Long Hair or Short Hair? Long
Curly Hair or Straight hair? straight
Good Dancer or Good Singer? I wouldn't say much of a dancer, but what a voice.
Smoker or Non-smoker? non smoker
Drunk or Sober? Sober most of the time.

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HEY FUCK YOU MAN, DON'T NEED NOTHING ANYMORE.


I've been sitting in class, wonder what I should write a journal about. I mean I could write about how grateful I am for all of my friends and watchers and all that shit. Or I could bitch about my life and things like that. OR I could do nothing and not really write a journal at all, leaving the 3 of you who actually read my journal with a sense of... sadness and dejection.

But I'm bored, so I'm going to bitch about my life, cause that is just what I do. L-O-FUCKING-L.


wow, that seems bitter, but for all that I care, I have a right to. I mean I have been having non-stop female issues for this entire month, and I don't see an end any time soon. (Please, don't tell me to go and see a doctor or anything, I don't feel that I need to, the first month is always the hardest)

What else?

I finished my mom's website, and I tried to upload it. And the CSS doesn't work properly. it sucks, I don't know what to do to fix it. hopefully my good friend gato will be able to help me in the least.

...what else...

I'm really grateful that my boyfriend has been so comforting during this last month, I can only hope that I as good to him as he has been to me.

grawww~ I want it to be the weekend again. I've got no drive to be at school. I mean, I've been having a tough time figuring out if what I am doing, is really what I want to do. I was so sure of myself before, but now... I don't know. I guess I will see where I go.

but I've got to do this assignment for class...

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Into that.

Really I'm not.

lolololololol

SO! I've got a minute before class starts, the first class of java script. exciting!

Well, maybe not. I don't know. I guess it will be fun... maybe not. It might turn out like HTML, and I won't be able to read the code. Or maybe it will be like flash.


I'm supposed to show one of my teachers how to make hats, I thought he was just kidding at first, but it seems that he was serious. Weird.

ummm...


I can't really think of anything else to write today. I guess I am as dull as this weather. (which is grey and snowy)

OH! I had to make a version of rock paper scissors for one of my classes today. mine is

t-rex, gun, ninja.

t-rex eats the ninja, the ninja dodges the bullets, and the gun shoots the t-rex.

And as a special rule, if you can make your fist look like chuck norris, you win the game. Because Chuck won the game.

yup. that is exciting.


My hands and my lips are very very dry today. very painful. stupid winter.


and now my eyes are dry.


crycrycrycry.

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A MP3 Quiz thing, you set your mp3 play to shuffle, and without skipping, you write down the song title for each answer:


1) Describe yourself:

Infected - Bad Religion

(you and me, have a disease, you infect me, you infect me!)


2)What do people feel when they're around you?

Carry On My Wayward Son- Kansas

(There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more)


3)How would you describe your previous relationship?

Crash- Methods of Mayhem

(now I have to wonder, which previous relationship? (friend, parent, what?))

4)Describe your current relationship.

Limelight- Rush

(awesome)

5)Where would you want to be now?

Snowblind- System of a Down

(well.... it is snowing out)

6)What would you name your pet?

uncle Jonny- The Killers

(best name for a pet EVAR!)

7)How do you feel about love?

Good Times- Finger Eleven

(thumbs up!)

8)What do you think of your friends?

Hey- Red Hot Chili Peppers

(Won't somebody come along
And teach me how to keep it alive?
To survive.)

9)If you meet a celebrity, what would you say?

Welcome to the Jungle- Guns N' Roses

(If you got the money honey
We got your disease)

10)If you could say anything, what would you say to the teacher(s) you hate?

Ramble On- Led Zeppelin

11)What's your life like?

Fire Coming Out of the Monkey's Head- Gorillaz

12) What would you ask for if you had only one wish?

Shadow Raiders Theme - (artist unknown)

13)Say something wise.

Snuff Out The Light- Eartha Kitt

(take her revenge on the sun

14) What do you want to do/be in the future?

Fly- Sub Dub MicroMachine

(...)

15)Describe your home life.

Bubbly- Colbie Caillat

(awesome, I love this song )

(Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth)

16)What would your last words be?

Meant to Live- Switchfoot

(lol)

17)Describe your car.

Sweet Child O' Mine- Guns N' Roses

(huh, maybe this means my first car will be awesome!)

18)Describe your style.

You've Got Another Thing Comin'- Judas Priest

(One life I'm gonna live it up
I'm takin' flight I said i'll never get enough
Stand tall I'm young and kinda proud
I'm on top as long as the music's loud

If you think I'll sit around as the world goes by
You're thinkin' like a fool cause it's a case of do or die)

19)What is the most romantic phrase you can think of?
Sick Little Suicide- The Matches

(I wouldn't call that romantic, but lets look at the lyrics to see if it is a hidden meaning:

nope. nothing. I guess I'm not really romantic)

20)What do you think of these questions?

Bullet- Infinite Mass

(Load up your bullet, shoot me throught the head)


My personal Soundtrack:

1. OPENING CREDITS: Mien Herz Brennt- Rammstein

2. WAKING UP: Change- Deftones

3. FIRST DAY AT SCHOOL: Gin and Juice- Sublime

4. FALLING IN LOVE: Document- Assemblage 23

5. FIGHT SONG: Can't Stop- Red Hot Chili Peppers

6. BREAKING UP: Pretty Girl (The Way)- Sugarcult

7. PROM: Do the Evolution- Pearl Jam

8. DRIVING: Da Funk- Daft Punk

9. GETTING BACK TOGETHER: Smells Like Teen Spirit- Nirvana

10. FLASHBACK: Frontier Psychiatrist- The Avalanches

11. MENTAL BREAKDOWN: Cold- Static-X

12. WEDDING: Monologue- She Wants Revenge

13. BIRTH OF A CHILD: Kingdom- VNV Nation

14. FINAL BATTLE: Will to Live- Princess Mononoke Soundtrack

15. DEATH SCENE: Precious- Depeche Mode

16. FUNERAL: Slip Away (Freekstyle Version)- Dry Cell

17. CREDITS: Wave of Mutilation- The Pixies


(I'm going to say that it is the MOST AWESOME SOUNDTRACK EVER (other than she wants revenge for a wedding song))


AND one more! Cause I'm that bored:

1. How does the world see me?

I know You're Fucking Someone Else- Type O Negative

(off to a bad start:< )

2. Will I have a happy life?

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And it looks like I am moving to the second semester!

Lets go over them shall we?

DMD 102 Foundation of Visual Design A-
DMD 104 Digital Graphic Design Tools B+
DMD 112 Communication Design in Media A-
DMD 124 Web Design 1 A
DMD 125 Rich Media Design 1 A
DMD 132 Video Editing Fundamentals A
DMD 141 3D Modeling Fundamentals A-

And my GPA is 3.7 or 92.5% depending on how you look at it

I'm happy with it, I wonder what my percent mark in Digital Graphic Design Tools is though, it would have been sweet if I got 'A's across the board...


But oh well, I'm not Complaining, but I am seriously surprised that i did so well in Communication, that was a terrible class.



And a little something extra (and yes, i realize that the cream filling thing is gross, i didn't mean it like that though (you pervs)):



Rules:
Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
Post the first definition it gives you.



1.) Your name?

sexy,good in bed, gangsta,funny
look at that sexy funny gansta fucking the shmo in bed, dana must be good from the way ish's toes curl

2.) Your age?
Bag of Weed, costs $20.00 dollars and is enough to make 4 fat joints.
I know this dealer that sells 20's.

3.) One of your friends?

abbreviation for jack off
"kevin wang is the jo master"

4.) What should you be doing?

A vessel for media available for viewing via the Internet. Programmers, both uber noob and leet, assemble code that ultimately results in at least one page of information. This/these page(s) usually contain words, images, video, sound, and more. Newer websites contain dynamic information that gives users (people viewing the website) access to one or more resources, such as a database. This website, urbandictionary.com, is the perfect example of a website containing dynamic content. This entry was submitted to a database for your review.

Websites can be sweet or they can be the suck. Websites containg porn, forums, shit you can buy, and funny crap are examples of sweet websites. Websites containing static information that does not arouse interest or humor are the suck. This website is sweet.

5.) Favorite color?

The hue of the portion of the visible spectrum lying between green and indigo, evoked in a human observer by radiant energy with wavelengths of approximately 420 to 490 nanometers.

6.) Birthplace?

The capital city of Alberta, Canada

Roughly one million people

It is properly known as the City of Champions because of the five time Stanley Cup champions Edmonton Oilers. and the 11 time Grey Cup Champions Edmonton Eskimos (most in CFL)

Way better than Calgary

7.) Month of your birth?

NUDY MAGAZINE DAY!

8.) Last person you talked to?

Someone who cracks jokes and roasts on people for fun. Someone who will stop whatever they are doing to make fun of somebody.


9.) One of your nicknames?

Japanese for "cat"
things dealing with cats including the whole half-cat/half-human thing
Use your imagination.

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