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me:


hope to see you there.

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/26628497/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/26628497/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 12:30:15 PDT Whether to bother with this site anymore. Convince me otherwise?

Reason? - The experts that find it all easy are somewhat overpraised and the amateurs who try their utmost best are underlooked. Sad issue there.

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/26363604/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/26363604/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 16:35:43 PDT Because of your grace I am free
Because of your faithfulness
There's a song that must be sung
And I will sing, I will sing because of You

I will sing, I will sing

You came to save the world
To save the world, to save the world
Your love can change the world
Can change the world, can change the world

Because of Your Love; there's dancing in my heart
Because of your grace I am free
Because of your faithfulness
There's a song that must be sung
And I will sing, I will sing because of You

I will dance, I will dance, because of You
I will dance, because of You




P.S i love Oasis Camp.

xoxox

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/25251949/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/25251949/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 10:22:05 PDT
i wont bore you with details but i finally put something behind me for good and felt amazing for a while when a new something came along. now i have to get over that new something that wasnt even something in the first place. makes me feel inadequate.

i know how i should be feeling. two and a half hours ago i finished my last GCSE exam. i dont think i got a pass grade on it, it was history so i couldnt care less. i understand it, but if i cant remember a date or some blokes name and his fantastic little invention that brought us one step closer to our own demise then im royally fucked and incapable of even getting a pass grade. my twatty teacher hadnt much hope for me anyway. i could tell. but the matter of whether i passed it or not is irrelevant. i have more or less finished school and i'm reasonably confident i have enough pass grades overall (and maybe even an A or A* in Graphic Design) to get myself onto the Art Course at Collage. i should be feeling ecstatic.

and i'm just not



oh, and on another note, i appologise for all th sci-fi crap i keep submitting. i've drawn a few things lately but they're the only ones i'm happy to show :/
they probably arn't to everyones taste.


and i'm also really sorry i've not been online to thank people for faves and comments or reply to any journals. i've just not had the time at all with the exams going on. regretably, i've also become a slave to the monster that is facebook. so if you'd like some more regular updates then you can add me over on there. i would make it public here and add a link but as i'm still only 16 i'd prefer not to out of safety. feel free to note me though or comment on here and i'll send u a link in a note

ew. my teas gone cold.

i've got a busy couple of weeks lined up i think. Art BTEC deadline is next Friday. I have a prom dress to make for the 25th, Q-Fest on the 21st and handing out flyers the day before. which i will inform you all about at a later date because i'd like to share some local Redditch/Birmingham bands with you. just gotta get Dave to hurry up and upload H.O.E's first music video. i was at the filming of it and may be in the crowd shots . ~FREAKIN-InSaNiTy is also coming to the UK next week so i'm off to London to give her hugs one day. (note me if i love you and you live in london by the way hugs all around)
veryyy busy.


anyway this is getting rather long as usual. i must be getting notorious for that. ¬¬


stay safe. love you :3
xoxoxo

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http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/24512155/ Thu, 30 Apr 2009 11:16:26 PDT Wednesday 29th April, 1:45pm GMT: The School Cafe - year 11 and 6th form all have their eyes on the news channel on the TV where there are non stop reports on swine flu reaching the UK.
I turn to Luke, one of the smartest kids in the year who is eating lunch on the same table as me. Being a little smarty pants he calculates that it will be days if not a week or two before the Flu hits our little shithole of Redditch. it'd been confirmed in 3 places which we expected since their citys. Luke was very confident that Redditch was reasonably safe...

2 hours later, Graphics Catchup. We're listening to the radio where a news anouncement reports that there are now 5 cases, one of which is in humble little Redditch.

NEVER LISTEN TO THE GEEKS! O_______O ...-they know nothing!...


F***ING HELL.

Theres so many rumours going around and everyones panicing. I mean, of all places, REDDITCH!
you'd expect all the capital citys or something to get it first, not a 7-mile-across town to get it. Its scary cause its just, right on our doorstep. we didnt expect it at all.
They're not even telling us who the woman whos got it is. for all we know, she could have worked at Morrisons and we could all have picked the flu up along with our weekly shopping.

Personally I'm starting to wonder if we should even be this worried. Maybe the medias just blown it all out of proportion. No ones started wearing masks round the streets here yet but i can see it happening. Every time someones sneezed in school today they've had a good shunning from everyone with a finger pointing and a 'SWINE!' thrown at them. its happened to me twice but i just have a sneeze from the flowery trees in the Quad.

We watched this Docu-Drama in history a few weeks ago about a fictional Smallpox outbreak that spread all over the world. after seeing that, its completely freaked me out. i know theres probably not much to worry about, but its still concerning. especially since ive got my exams within the next 5 weeks and none of our year want the school being closed.

...speaking of which, my Graphics coursework Deadline is tomorrow and i still have 5 A3 pages of work to do... *im so happy, im getting an A on it as long as its finished!... by tomorrow...*
Oh the joys... ¬¬

Artwork, trades and commissions are on hold until i get some free time. sorry folks but coursework and revision is top priority right now.

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http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/24169772/ Fri, 10 Apr 2009 17:55:37 PDT [link] . i must say though it was a pretty educated guess and deffinatly explains alot.

my dad was going to get me tested for dislecsia since my spelling is atrosious. (..oh dear) but it didnt really sound right to me. i have trouble with reading and with maths. the words are perfectly fine and all that im just slow as if something is subconciously distracting me. its only when i was asked 'are the letters or words coloured?' did i realise. every single letter has a specific colour to it.
A is red. B is Orange. C is yellow. D is also red.
and its the same for numbers.
1 is yellow. 2 is Sky Blue. 3 is Orange. 4 is Grass Green.

everything makes sense in maths now. i hate graphs and algebra because they're mixing letters and numbers. x and y on a graph are both yellow and so it confuses me.

and i never really noticed. it was completely normal to me.


and, getting onto the interesting part which involves my artwork;
i see colours when i listen to music.
this explains why i like more complex music i think. slipknot, pendulum and tool for example, theres so much going on in the songs that my headspace is filled with so many colours. i've looked back on my art now and played back the songs i remember listening to for inspiration.
'In Our Heads' for example. i think i even wrote in the artist comment, i was baffled with myself as to why i'd made it so colourful when the song subject is blaitently not. i listened to the song again and heard all the colours in it and spotted them all in that picture. Bullet for my valentine is very colourful

i assumed that every single person in the world got this when they listened to music but my dad found it odd because he didnt.

the condition its apparantly more common in creative people and scientists believe its where creativity origionated in evolution or something. my dad lectured me on it blah blah blah...
he's going to talk to pastoral care at school to see if i can get testing properly and get some much needed extra exam time. i always run out.


something i'd LOVE to know now; Do any of you creative little minds get this or have already been diagnosed?
the whole thing fascinates me



i should be in bed. im the only one still up :/ i think my days have shifted since the start of the holiday...

love you
xoxoxo

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http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/23712278/ Sun, 15 Mar 2009 13:15:56 PDT

erm, what have i been up to lately...

I took my little brother to his first gig which was immense. his favourite band is Rise Against so i got him tickets for christmas bless, you should have seen his little face when we were in the line before the gig. i dont think ive ever seen him smile that wide. we got pretty near the front whilst Flobots were playing, but as soon as Anti Flag came one, the inevitable happened and the crowd went 'wahaaayyy...'. thank God Chris was there to pull him out. we spent the rest of the gig with an awsome view on the balcony so he wouldnt get hurt. some nice guy let us in front of him so we could get a good view.
can you tell i love my little brother to bits? bless...


MCM Expo in Telford was pretty good too. I cosplayed as Ryuk from Deathnote. i'll try and upload the photo of me when Becci gives it me.
for now, you'll have to put up with this: [link] - thanks a bunch to whoever took the photo.
everyone kept giving me apples . dont get me wrong, i love the things but once ive eaten around 9 in one day... they get pretty tiresome. i bought a little Ryuk plushie though for only £8 so that made up for it >< . its so cute i have to squeel and hug it everytime i go in my room and see it on my bed.


ive got tonnes of coursework to do from now on though so i've not been online much at all. i shouldnt really be on now cause ive got Graphics work to do for wednesday and i have Make-up and Hair to do for the school show every night this week. All my teachers have just gone 'right, exams in 10 weeks - i want all your remaining coursework, extra coursework and on top of that, i want maximum revision and textbook reading' ......
ive not got the time. And ive got a Wednesday 13 gig next week, and another Expo in two weeks. acording to school, i probably shouldnt be going to either but to be honest, i need some breaks to look forward to.
I want to make my own prom dress for the year 11 prom aswell. i really hope ive got the time for that cause ive already bought the fabric.
Download festival is probably off now. i dont think i can afford it.


Im so sorry if ive not got to you yet with plushie comissions. i managed to get alot done in the half term holiday but since its been coursework overload. i feel terrible about not getting them done fast. ive not had the right frame of mind since last november either. ive started thinking if everythings worth it, and i hate myself for it but i end up sitting in my PJs all day at weekends and evenings either staring into space or playing video games. its pathestic really.


sorry for the rant :/ i didnt mean to.

just one last thing before i go; Does anyone have Guitar Hero World Tour for Xbox? - if so, note me for my Live tag

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
love you


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Drama lessons are looking brighter. My teacher said she's going to give me a new assignment to do so that i can skip the Musical Theatre section. annnnd shes's given me Set and Costume design I'm so happy i swear! she's also let me do costume and make-up for the school production. we're doing We Wil Rock You and she thinks i'll be great at customising all the Bohemian Costumes and then i'll get to do all the theatre make-up and hair for the shows. im sooo completely in my element here >< glam rock and goth make-up all the way, with backcombs and mohawks! FUCK YES! the girl playing Killer Queen suggested i go and ask because she told me no-one in the cast is going to know how to backcomb their hair or do 80's glam or cat eye makeup. so im gonna have tonnes of fun and get something to put on university and job aplications. and i might just pass this Drama Course. brilliant!


you may have noticed the new avatar too. i'd made that a new years resolution cause the old one was just, old.

I've uploaded some new stuff for you all aswell. please go check em out. especially 'Eyeless' ( [link] ) cause for the first time in ages im actually proud of something ive done. and ive taken quite a shine to Ervin the Eyeless i think he might feature in some more of my stuff in the future. it's about time i had a little character. been about 3 years since i had one ><



FUCKING HELL! KATY PERRY's HOT AND COLD IS CATCHY!!! i'm gonna go soft...


...


love you

Keep it awsome
Stay Sic
xoxoxo

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http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/22522784/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 10:45:46 PST this guy is an absolute legend i swear. darn proud to call him a friend
a little background info before i paste it; its a school mate called Cater (its his surname but hes known as that) and hes in my history class, and we have this massive inside joke from when we were doing about british Agriculture. basicly his alter-ego is Farmer Cater and he married his Sheep daisy and he has shitty sex with her and smokes his bong and we does it all in a Somerset accent other than that i had no idea what the fuck he was on about. i reacon hes been on the Jack Daniels again.

(he's jimmy!!! and im Vermilion Pt.3)

JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
i like space cake
Vermillion Pt. 3 Over and over and under my skin ....real HORRORSHOW like... says:
space cake y'say?
Vermillion Pt. 3 Over and over and under my skin ....real HORRORSHOW like... says:
what is space cake?
JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:

JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:

JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:

JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:

JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
farmer cater is very displeased an very sweaty from daisy
JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
an how could u not no what space cake is oooooo rrrrr
Vermillion Pt. 3 Over and over and under my skin ....real HORRORSHOW like... says:
daisy better lick y' clean then!
Vermillion Pt. 3 Over and over and under my skin ....real HORRORSHOW like... says:
tell me what space cake is then? is it that stuff that comes in tubes?
JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
right then its like from cater special holy frog bong
JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
is where u put cater's special soap in some cookie
JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
an then u iz gettin a real high with toothpaste
Vermillion Pt. 3 Over and over and under my skin ....real HORRORSHOW like... says:
ahahaaaa leg-end...
Vermillion Pt. 3 Over and over and under my skin ....real HORRORSHOW like... says:
caters special soap?
JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
yesss a soap i say
JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
smellls like dandie lions in the cold summers breaze
Vermillion Pt. 3 Over and over and under my skin ....real HORRORSHOW like... says:
you dont get cold breezes in summer
JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
i seen them i seen it were true there
JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
ooooo rrrrr cater's assss is abit sweaty i say
Vermillion Pt. 3 Over and over and under my skin ....real HORRORSHOW like... says:
from daisy be that?
JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
ooooo rrrrr scurvy is what i eat
JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
anyway farmer sarah id must be off to plant me bong pipe
Vermillion Pt. 3 Over and over and under my skin ....real HORRORSHOW like... says:
oh noes i say! i noes!
Vermillion Pt. 3 Over and over and under my skin ....real HORRORSHOW like... says:
scurvy y'say? go suck some sexy lemons
JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
i shalld do me orange alverbet summer pants warmer
JIMMY!!!! Love you Charliey sooo much MACHINE FUCKING HEAD says:
byeee
Vermillion Pt. 3 Over and over and under my skin... ]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/22472437/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/22472437/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 15:21:56 PST

anyways; Happy New Year and Happy Christmas and all that jazz. i sincerly apologise for my absense over the holiday period but i suppose ive not been up to it and ive been busy and shit. i hope u all had a good time tell me all about it, i'd love to hear it ^^ honestly i would.


alot has happened since you last heard from me; i failed half of my GCSE mock exams, most of my target grades are B's apparantly but i think they expect too much of me. i got a fucking 'U' grade. that stands or Unclassified or Ungradable or something. I got 6 marks out of a possible 75. ive got too much stress and too much on my mind right now. I missed one exam because the stress levels had made my period cramps so bad i was nearly sick and went pale and hot and had to be sent home. its rediculous how much stress they think a 16 year old can take. makes me want to kick someone... in the shins... with steel toed Doc's ¬¬

in other news, i suppose i had a reasonably good christmas. i've never liked it really. the best christmas i ever had was when my mum was still around and she'd hung up Thomas The Tank Enginge socks for me and my brother and our teddies. and next morning they were full of sweets and she pretended the teddies were eating them. we stayed in our PJ's all day and we all got lots of cuddles. ever since then ive never really got what i wanted for christmas. but my dad trys to make it a good day, bless him.
he got me and Sibling Guitar Hero World Tour as a joint present since it was expensive and we're still living off single parent allowences or something.

ive gotten quite a bit of art on the go. ive anoyed myself actually, i've started some pieces that i think look pretty good for once. i mean im not often proud or happy with anything i do but these few are looking nice. only i havnt finished them and its pissed me off. i start one, get to the sketch or lineart stage of it and then i leave it a couple of days and then start something else and do the same. so you lot may have to pelt me with rocks or something till i do them. seriously, if i dont get anything up, feel free to pester me with notes or emails or nudge me on msn. anything. i really wont mind at all. in fact i'd be grateful cause im feeling a little lethargic of late and i need a kick up the arse. otherwise i'll just take the hint that no ones bothered whether i submit anything anymore



btw, check out my journal footer thing every now and then an im hopeing to advertise some of the epic talent DA has on there an stuff. i decided my new years resolution would be to feature people on journals regularily so watch out for those.


okays this is getting long. i'll piss off for now.
keep it awsome
stay (sic)
xoxo

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http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/21983019/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 15:08:57 PST
they've put me in for the higher maths paper tomorrow. im shitting myself. why the hell have they done that. i couldnt do maths for beanz ¬¬
seriously, wish me luck

my dad let me bunk off school last wednesday cause i'd got a drama assesment.
hes sick of me hating my drama lessons. its at a point now where i dread it so much that im willing to bunk off and miss vital other lessons. and i have my GCSE exams in may/june. it really isnt good. Dads written an angry letter to my teacher demanding she lets me drop the subject.
i hate it so much. we're doing singing acting and dancing at the moment and on wednesdays lesson we had to give a final performance of We Will Rock You's 'Under Pressure'. that meant a Duet infront of the rest of the class (who are all as up themselves as our teacher) and a video camera. we hadnt had enough rehearsal time and i cant sing or dance at all. basicly, i would have humiliated myself infront of the class and whoever watched the video. no-one should have to be humiliated and i find it cruel that my teacher (who should know alot about psychologie if shes a drama teacher) would still put someone through that. i woke up crying that morning. i felt bullied.
and i have drama straight after my maths exam tomorrow. and shes making us perform. and shes read that angry demanding letter from my dad. HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSE TO CONCENTRATE DURING THAT EXAM WITH THE FEAR OF THAT ON MY MIND?!?!
i hate this.


i should be revising.
but im so bored with it, im going to waste my time on a quiz.
i barely ever do quizzes.


you should actually have a quick look at this. its amusing in places ><
...

fb> Music Survey:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.
No cheating!

What does next year have in store for me?
Eyeless (Slipknot) ... IM GONNA GO BLIND!? O________O NOOOEEESSS

How would I describe everything at the moment?
Rape Me (Nirvana) ...should i laugh at that? o.O

What's my love life like ?
Memory (Sugarcult) i actually do miss him.

What are your feelings about your current fling?
Reason is Treason (kasabian) ...lol

What do I say when life gets hard?
Moan (Cute is what we aim for) - doesnt everyone? ><

What do you think of when waking up?
Anywhere but here (Rise Against) - AHAHAaaaa

What song will I dance to at my wedding?
Im Your Problem Now (Mindless Self Indulgence) ...oh god...

What song will be played at my funeral?
Turn to despair (Bullet For My Valentine) ...and there'll be a moshpit to it or else i'll haunt

How will I be remembered?
Death Of a Martian (Red Hot Chili Peppers)

What do you want as a career?
Adding to the Noise (switchfoot) yehman im gonna be the loudest in the office.

Your favorite saying?
It's Too Late (TheAudition) ...pretty much

Favorite place?
Dont Get Lost In Heaven (Gorillaz) O_O

What do you think of your parents?
A Decade under the Influence (Taking Back Sunday) - ahahaaa love you really dad

What's your Pornstar name?
No Life (Slipknot) ...this is no kind of life

Where would you go on a first date?
In My Place (Coldplay) ...oooo kinky...

... ]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/21834419/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/21834419/ Sat, 06 Dec 2008 13:51:48 PST

- I'm so gutted.
my 'friends' all bought Slipknot tickets without considering to ask if i'd like to join them... FUCK YES I DO! ¬¬
and so now, half of Redditch is going without me on sunday because i have no-one to sit with in the seated area (dont fancy going between a couple of people i dont know..) and the standing area sold out within a week or something ¬¬
and a little bitch decided to tell everyone she was having to sell her ticket because she couldnt go anymore. shes a bullshitter though and didnt even have a ticket in the first place. shes only been saying she was going to try an impress people... she did exactly the same thing for BFMV. so she wasted my time saying i could have it so now i dont even have time to check out the ticket sales on ebay or anything. sucks alot.


i've had some major arguments with Jak too. hes now blocked and deleted on msn cause he cant be arsed to be friends offline now, and freaked out when he saw me in town last week. he even moved on to another girl and messed her about aswell, without even asking her out first. We're pretty good mates now got something in common
yeh so no going off and grassing me up, but... yeh ---> <--- he doesnt use it anyway...

....


on a lighter note though, I'm hoping to get into the Joey Jordison signing tomorrow in birmingham to get my joey-tubbie [link] signed i hope he likes it. :/ really i do...
if you're going and u see me, feel free to come say hi just make sure u tell me who u are or else i'll get freaked out..

EDIT

O.M.F.G.
we went down to PMT where the Joey Jordison signing was, we waited in the queue for about 3 hours in the freezing cold with a deoderant can and a lighter for entertainment. some people kept coming to take photos or laughed at my joey-tubbie. i was thinking 'great, joeys gonna freak and think its so stupid'. then about an hour after the signing started we finally got in and omggggg.... joeys bodyguard asked us all what we were getting signed and as soon as a pulled off my bag, he laughed, took it and went 'oi joey, look at this' -and he fucking looked and smiled! even though we still a few places down the queue. when i got to him, he asked if id made the mask, and said it was awsome and that he liked it loads and it made a change from drumsticks and snare skins. an he joked it'd make a great mascot for his drum kit onstage. but he signed its head anyway and gave it back. then, he stood up (omg hes so tiny!) leaned over the desk and GAVE ME A FUCKING HUG and said thanks for making the little teletubbie mask . when i walked out squeezing my bag with a stupid grin on my face, the staff and people kept coming up to me to say joey-tubbie was awsome
i was so fucking happy i could have died, i swear.

i still cant believe he liked it.
just.. no way..

im still grinning...

tell me how you're all doin an shit love u all

laters!
keep it awsome
xoxo

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Clubs: http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/21632196/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 13:54:26 PST thankyou


ive not had the best of months.
all was going perfect and i was the happiest i've been in years but it ended far too soon and abrubtly. i guess i tripped and fell.
im still down as it where though, but im grateful for those attempting to get me back on my feet.

im on the worst depression of my life. last time, i swore it wouldnt get worse but this time it just did. i stopped eating. i started sleeping for very long periods of time. and eventually i got so down, i think it made me ill. ive just had most of the week off school. and thats coming from someone whos not had a day off school in 2 years because they've got such a good imune system.

hopefully im going to go to the doctors with a friend this week to see if i can get anything for my depression. im sick to death of feeling like this. and right now, its either that or somthing probably very stupid. and i dont want to resort to that. ive had suicidal thoughts since i was about 6 - no joke - and it needs to stop. talking doesnt help.

if you'd like to know why, i loved someone with all my heart and they decided overnight that they didnt anymore and left me two days before we were seeing Bullet For My Valentine together, somehow thinking it was better to leave me to attend the gig myself and make my own way home which included a train journey and a 5 mile walk across town (which i often do anyway, but not in the middle of the night. my town is rough and its not a good idea for a young girl to be out on the streets on her own at midnight) he thought it was better to do that than to string me along. but to be honest if he fell out of love that easy and got a new girl as quick as he has, he'd strung me long from the start and two more days wouldnt have mattered to me if it had meant he'd thought of my safety.
luckily i have two amazing friends. one that decided to come to the gig with me even though they arnt too fond of BFMV, and another that lent the first £30 for a ticket. i dont know where i'd be without you two. thankyou so much


i apologise, this is becoming rant like.

my art never does come fast but lately ive barely felt like it. ive got a few things i could can in perhaps.

the commissions are still in progress. i just havnt worked on them this week incase my illness was contagious an i got it all over the plushies.

thanks for sticking with me.
keep it awsome
xoxo

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please read all this before you note me.

copyright issues?
- since alotplushies are dolls of characters or musicians. please note that unless you own the character, i do not have copyright over the plushie so if i refuse anything, please dont be mad.


What materials will they be made from
- most plushies i make will be out of a felt base doll and will usually have felt hair and cloth clothing. i have a very large range of cloths - everything from metalics to ginghams but different felt colours can be hard for me to get hold of. this may mean it will take me longer to do, or it may push you further down the list. They're stuffed with polyester filling and is very cuddley ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/21438288/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/21438288/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 12:58:41 PST
i wont rant, you dont want to hear it. i could have written a list of everything thats gone shit in my life and i bet it would be longer than the list of good stuff.
but yeh. point said. no rant

hopefully Collage next year will be great. just checked a local(ish) one out and it was marvy. i expect something will happen there though and i'll be unhappy yet again.

fucking bye

-----------Xx

Clubs I own:

Clubs:

PLUSHIE COMMISSION INFO

please read all this before you note me.

copyright issues?
- since alotplushies are dolls of characters or musicians. please note that unless you own the character, i do not have copyright over the plushie so if i refuse anything, please dont be mad.


What materials will they be made from
- most plushies i make will be out of a felt base doll and will usually have felt hair and cloth clothing. i have a very large range of cloths - everything from metalics to ginghams but different felt colours can be hard for me to get hold of. this may mean it will take me longer to do, or it may push you further down the list. They're stuffed with polyester filling and is very cuddley


What do i need to include in my ordering note?
- When telling me what you want you will probably need to give me links to some pictures of the character or band member so that i know exactly what they look like or will wear. please specify whether you would like the facial features painted on, or just felt circle eyes (gives more of a voodoo doll feel)


How long will you take
- bareing in mind i have school work to do as its my final GCSE year, i will spend a few hours a week on plushies. this means it could take me a few weeks. the further down the commissions list you are, the longer it will take :/ sorry


COST, PAYMENT AND SHIPPING
- i ship mainly to the UK and can recieve payment through my dads paypal account if i ask him nicely money or cheques can also be sent in envelopes. i can also ship abroad but i may only do it to deviants who i know reasonably well.
i charge £15 per plushie, including post and packing and material costs. i think thats about $30, (tell me if im wrong) - it may be a little bit more, depending on how much it costs to post.
if you can deffinatly pick it up in person, it'll be a bit less (around £13)
If you want a multiple order i may knock the price down a little and will only give you an approximate price when you note me.
i will expect payment before i send you the plushie. to prove i have it made, i will send photos or post them here on my account. once i have payment, i will send the plushie.



NOTE ME WITH ANY QUESTIONS THAT ARNT EXPLAINED HERE
OR NOTE ME TO ORDER A PLUSHIE.

Once you are on the waiting list, you can change your order at any time as long as there are no stars next to it.
BEFORE I START THE PLUSHIE I WILL NOTE YOU AGAIN TO MAKE SURE YOU DEFFINATLY WANT IT.

CURRENT COMMISSIONS:

1. http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/21318365/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 13:42:22 PST
full stop

end of story




apologies for lack of activity.
i would scan in a few things, but i dont think it'd make much differece. alas, just another shite little corner of the internet.

whatever
xoxo

EDIT. ¬¬ im not talking about my art in particular. 'kay. just leave it

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Clubs I own:

Clubs:

PLUSHIE COMMISSION INFO

please read all this before you note me.

copyright issues?
- since alotplushies are dolls of characters or musicians. please note that unless you own the character, i do not have copyright over the plushie so if i refuse anything, please dont be mad.


What materials will they be made from
- most plushies i make will be out of a felt base doll and will usually have felt hair and cloth clothing. i have a very large range of cloths - everything from metalics to ginghams but different felt colours can be hard for me to get hold of. this may mean it will take me longer to do, or it may push you further down the list. They're stuffed with polyester filling and is very cuddley


What do i need to include in my ordering note?
- When telling me what you want you will probably need to give me links to some pictures of the character or band member so that i know exactly what they look like or will wear. please specify whether you would like the facial features painted on, or just felt circle eyes (gives more of a voodoo doll feel)


How long will you take
- bareing in mind i have school work to do as its my final GCSE year, i will spend a few hours a week on plushies. this means it could take me a few weeks. the further down the commissions list you are, the longer it will take :/ sorry


COST, PAYMENT AND SHIPPING
- i ship mainly to the UK and can recieve payment through my dads paypal account if i ask him nicely money or cheques can also be sent in envelopes. i can also ship abroad but i may only do it to deviants who i know reasonably well.
i charge £15 per plushie, including post and packing and material costs. i think thats about $30, (tell me if im wrong) - it may be a little bit more, depending on how much it costs to post.
if you can deffinatly pick it up in person, it'll be a bit less (around £13)
If you want a multiple order i may knock the price down a little and will only give you an approximate price when you note me.
i will expect payment before i send you the plushie. to prove i have it made, i will send photos or post them here on my account. once i have payment, i will send the plushie.



NOTE ME WITH ANY QUESTIONS THAT ARNT EXPLAINED HERE http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/21155519/ Sat, 25 Oct 2008 12:49:28 PDT
i founds all my old CDs from when i was 10 or younger.
and all i have to say about it is...

THE RASMUS IS STILL AMAZING

oh yes...
the point of this journal is that i dont think that bands getting enough attension anymore. Everyone remembers In The Shadows ( [link] ) and then.. nothing.

no one listens to them any more. i heard apparantly they took too long to bring out Hide From The Sun, and MCR snatched up most of their fans with Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge back in 2005
i find that rather sad, cause The Rasmus really are a great band. In The Shadows has never been knocked off my the top spot of my 'most catchy (yet not anoying) songs ever' list.

GO AND LISTEN TO THEM AGAIN! THEY'RE NEW ALBUM NEEDS SOME LOVE! >
ima getting it this week

they have a new song out too: [link]
go listen to it and be overwhelmed with its catchyness


i apologize if you've never heard of them or infact share the same love for them that i do and this doesnt apply to you in the slightest. :/
just makes me mad though...

keep it awsome
xoxo

-----------Xx



Clubs I own:

Clubs:

PLUSHIE COMMISSION INFO

please read all this before you note me.

copyright issues?
- since alotplushies are dolls of characters or musicians. please note that unless you own the character, i do not have copyright over the plushie so if i refuse anything, please dont be mad.


What materials will they be made from
- most plushies i make will be out of a felt base doll and will usually have felt hair and cloth clothing. i have a very large range of cloths - everything from metalics to ginghams but different felt colours can be hard for me to get hold of. this may mean it will take me longer to do, or it may push you further down the list. They're stuffed with polyester filling and is very cuddley


What do i need to include in my ordering note?
- When telling me what you want you will probably need to give me links to some pictures of the character or band member so that i know exactly what they look like or will wear. please specify whether you would like the facial features painted on, or just felt circle eyes (gives more of a voodoo doll feel)


How long will you take
- bareing in mi... ]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/21111308/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/21111308/ Wed, 22 Oct 2008 14:04:11 PDT
well situations are a little better since my last journal thankfully. i managed to reason with my dad so i could at least get out the house a little, and i got fabric for those commisions.

commissions are still open, if you'd prefer a piece of artwork, then that can be arranged. although ive got no idea what price to charge. note me with suggestions? theres a new commission info thing on the bottom of my journals now. if you've commissioned me already, the progress on your plushie is there too. theres a waiting list though so be patient. its the half term holidays next week so i should be able to get quite a bit done

ahh things i should tell you about life, cannot be bothereded tee-bee-hach.


Bullet For My Valentine tickets came

Jak has a DeviantArt now: our avatars kinda match. go give him some love if u likes


hmm...
ah yes!
my halloween costume!
im to be going as Alex DeLarge, oh my brothers! we shall be going about tolchocking dear old chavs in the yarbles and gullivers

all i need is a bowler hat and some white suspenders ¬¬ you can get em off ebay but i dont have enough for them. and our local Smiffys store just closed down before i had the chance ¬¬
if anyone has any suggestions i'll be happy to hear them. or perhaps if theres a good tutorial to make my own...


hmm okay, i'll be odd now
keep it awsome
xoxo

-----------Xx



Clubs I own:

Clubs:

PLUSHIE COMMISSION INFO

please read all this before you note me.

copyright issues?
- since alotplushies are dolls of characters or musicians. please note that unless you own the character, i do not have copyright over the plushie so if i refuse anything, please dont be mad.


What materials will they be made from
- most plushies i make will be out of a felt base doll and will usually have felt hair and cloth clothing. i have a very large range of cloths - everything from metalics to ginghams but different felt colours can be hard for me to get hold of. this may mean it will take me longer to do, or it may push you further down the list. They're stuffed with polyester filling and is very cuddley ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/20859265/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/20859265/ Mon, 06 Oct 2008 14:10:30 PDT
Grounding for me = Not being able to leave the house until he says so - which is usually after ive done a load of work for him - which could take me weeks to do.

The cause - a fucking plastic cup was on the floor in me and my brothers bedroom, and he stepped on it and broke it, therefore it is my fault? not even my brothers. it could have been him. - but no, apparantly it had to be ME!
a tad bit of an over-reaction not to mention favouritism? i thought parents werent supposed to have favourites

im 16 now. i have friends to commit to. I HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE! SOMETHING HE FUCKING NEEDS! i need to spend time with them or else i go insane but i cant now - because my dad broke a plastic cup! i have fabric to get from birmingham on wednesday, so i can make those plushies for you guys - thats out the fucking window now - because my dad broke a plastic cup! i have a boyfriend i need to see at least twice a week in town because he goes to the local Grammer school and not my shitty school and it makes me feel sick that i cant see him - because my dad broke a plastic cup!

and he KEEPS DOING IT. FOR EVERYTHING I DO WRONG! hes done it for years now. its at a point now where this crap he's giving me is heavily effecting my school work. how can i concentrate when all im thinking about is his bad parenting and whether or not i should just not go home at 3pm
he's doing it so often now its riduculous. he expects me to do work, my school work and be completely happy and mentally okay? i think not.

he wont listen to me, he wont even look at me.
i seriously have the biggest urge ever to pack up some things and get out that front door at the first possible moment.

xoxo

-----------Xx
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Clubs: ]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/20793561/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/20793561/ Thu, 02 Oct 2008 13:38:07 PDT
just two things i wanted to say:

1. anyone got the latest issue of kerrang? okay, well on the album reviews page, where it has recomendations from a K! editor, a band dude and a K! reader; my Mr Jak is the K! Reader seriously - it says Jak Snowdon and has his picture an all so its deffinatly him he sent them a myspace comment about Children of Bodoms new CD and basicly said 'you have to love it, or you're a prick' aparantly he'd said something worse that prick but they changed it ><
we all found it amusing. the guy in WH Smith wouldnt let him have it for free even though he was in it. the bastard.


anyways, amusing thing over...

2. Im opening up for plushie commisions. Some of you may remember the ones from my old account and stuffs. yeh well, ive had a few offers from people for them saying they think they'd be worth around £15 for a 7/8 inch plushie which sounded reasonable since that would cover my labour costs (remember i am in my GSCE year of school and you would be paying me for the time spent on them), the cost of materials and postage (shipping to the US may be a little complicated as im not old enough to have a paypall account. although if theres a demand for US shippings, i could get my dad involved ). larger plushies may cost more

they can be whatever or whoever you want. OC's, band dudes or anime characters. absolutly whatever you want.
they'll be made from felt and hand painted unless you specify otherwise. seriously its all up to you. all you have to do is promise you'll send the money, and then supply me with links to pictures of what you want. i cant make one without a referance. you can order as many as you like and the more you ask for, the lower the price i'd give you, e.g. you wanted plushies of all 4 members of the used, that would cost about £40 - £50 for postage, materials and everything. you'd probably just have to send a check ^^ easy peasy

and on top of that, if you want, i'll sketch up some designs for you so you have a rough idea of what it'll look like
im pretty flexible ^^

so yeh. NOTE ME IF YOU'RE INTERESTED

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Clubs: ]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/20705613/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/20705613/ Sat, 27 Sep 2008 13:07:52 PDT alots happened since my last one;

MCM Expo - that was great the costumes were as amazing as always and we got alot of nice comments from people. i dont think a single person there didnt liek mudkipz
Tom's Ash costume got alot of attension too. he was a little freaked out at first since it was his first expo, but we all had a great time ^^. around 200 people were doing the Caramelldansen and i even shouted over to Mark (bulbasaur) to tell them to stick the pokemon theme tune on for us. so then everyone all sang along to that. pretty epic
and i bought lots of Deathnote goodies; make-up bag, Ryuk phone charm and a Ryuk keychain. He's hanging off my stud belt right now.
I might go as Ryuk next year ^^


Also, i turned 16 last week
Im trying to decided if i should get some New Rocks with the money i got, or if i should save it and put it towards my Reading Festival 09 ticket? :/


i think im going to see Bullet For My Valentine with Jak on November 13th - which will be weird cause it means i'd have been to gigs on that date for two years running aaaand if Steves allowed, we'll be going to Slipknot in December too i just need someone to go in the seated area with me since Jak and Cater and everyone got Standing tickets before they sold out.

On the subject of Slipknot, that new album is quite possibly the best CD i've heard for years.
aaaaand, im planning on setting myself the challenge of making the band in a cuddley form
Slipknot Plushies = WTF?!
go do my poll, i need help with which mask era to do


hmm
i believe that is all...
im too tired to remember, i stayed up with jak all night at becca's sleepover...
i know that sounds dirty but it wasnt m'kay? ><

hope you lot are all okay ^^
feel free to add my new msn by the way. it should be on my front page.

keep it awsome
xoxo

-----------Xx
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Clubs: ]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/20392836/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/20392836/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 14:46:07 PDT

so this was the particular one im gonna do:

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

whoop
*goes and begs for more paper and markers...*

in other news, im back at school. and i have double Drama first thing on a monday ¬¬ and we're doing musicals so i spent the whole 2 hours doing a dance routine to a High School Musical track ¬¬
they've also put my art lessons in double periods instead of spreading them throughout the week and on top of that, ive got all my core subjects (maths english sciences) all day thursday and friday, with no Arts, Historys or Graphics to enjoy myself. so as you can imagine im pretty pissed off at that...

ah, and stop giving me comments on my deviantions with my photos of myself on, saying 'you're hawt' and that kind of stuff please. as of two weeks ago, im taken and im lovin it, or should i say; im lovin him
his names Jak and thats all im saying on that subject or else u might get anoyed with me.

last thing; MCM Expo this weekend, and so far im grounded so ive got to sort out and chuck away 10 years worth of my crap from 10 years worth of my treasures (omg! pokemon tazos and trading cards *geeky snort*) before im allowed to go ¬¬. i believe Rach is going as Mew, Rhians either Pikachu or Goldeen - i keep reminding her she has 4 days to decide and make her costume :sigh:, Mark is a bulbasaur, and Tom and Stephy are Ash and Misty Jak so far is avoiding the questions so i'll end up forcing him to wear a pikachu mask or something

i think you're probably tired of this rant now,
i shall leave you be.

cheeribye

keepitawsome
xoxo

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Clubs: ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/20165831/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/20165831/ Tue, 26 Aug 2008 11:49:41 PDT so i made one

every generation has its toy right? and i know my favourite childhood toy was my gameboy colour. i love it so much i still play it... in IT lessons...when i should be doing coursework... but anyway! ^^'

i needs moderators and i'm advertising it here because i'd rather have someone im friendly with
so if u love your gameboys as much as i do and still play them, then note me

and join the club
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and now, im off to play The Sims2


keep it awsome
xoxo

-----------Xx
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Clubs: ]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19986536/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19986536/ Sat, 16 Aug 2008 11:33:58 PDT

theres everything from Manga and Cosplays to Doctor Who and Startrek and stuff like that.

so far, i have no-one to go with so i'll look pretty stupid on my own in newstreet station dressed as a Mudkip...
either that or Ryuk from Deathnote. ive not decided yet.

the Expos site is here: [link]

but they've not updated it too much since last year ¬¬ - its in the same place though and it gives a general idea of whats gonna be there.

keep it awsome
xoxo


oh and by the way, my alien bags nearly done just the eyes and straps now - when i can get the stuff for them

-----------Xx
Clubs: ]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19881725/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19881725/ Sun, 10 Aug 2008 15:54:01 PDT
BEST WEEK OF MY ENTIRE LIFE BY THE WAY.

- really friendly people, lots of jesus hugs, that sort of thing. it was amazing. you could see God was there...
but i guess you dont wanna know about that because barely anyone seems to care about that sort of thing these days and i get people roll their eyes when i start.

i couldnt be arsed to do a journal because, well if im honest, i doubt many of you actually read them. i only get about 3 people commenting on them and im grateful for those 3, but 3 out of how ever many people there are watching me is really quite depressing. and i dont want to be depressed because last week really mended my broken little (omg emo sounding = quit while you're ahead sarah) heart. and i must have released so much endorphins into my bloodstream by smiling every single minute of the week. that its not all worn off yet.

everyones ditched me actually. the only people who seem to have acknowledged my existance is Mark and Jess...
sarah only bothers with me if we bump into each other.
tom cant be bothered to walk 20 metres down a street and knock my door. rhian went on holiday and never told me. annies too busy splitting couples up and getting pissed with Chelle. and lydia only wants to hang out with me if i promise to dress like a scene kid or something... i dunno. im not good enough for people i reckon ¬¬

why am i even typing this. your not even gonna read it... duurr...

art soon:
-neon decorated g-star cap,
-rainbow tutu's for me an rach's next gig,
-alien backpack, that i still havnt finished cause i need that sewing machine real bad ¬¬
-got a canvas to mess about with
-photo stuff
-manga arts
-idk...

who actually cares? no-one i know obviously.
y'know who cares if i even get round to doing any of those things? you'll just find some other person on here to watch.
deviantart is so boring sometimes.

bye.
dont keep it awsome ¬¬
xoxo

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19608087/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19608087/ Sat, 26 Jul 2008 14:08:12 PDT You're packing to go on holiday or something and you're telling yourself that while trying to get the darn bag to close. ¬¬

it doesnt help that we've finally had some hot weather here and i have this thing about not opening the window in my room to keep the big spiders out, so i was gettin really hot.
... my house thinks its a sauna...

so im off to Oasis camp which is a friendly name for a bible camp. its pretty cool though, its 2 minutes walk from a beach (although its in Norfolk so it'll be the north sea i think, = very chilly water :/
and there be an outdoor pool! and a little theme park! and the team games involve dressing each other up as transformers and throwing baked beans and fishing for rubber ducks so its all really silly fun ^^

although; NO SWEARING FOR A WHOLE WEEK
OMG...
i might just go INSANE
sometimes i just need to swear!
i'll have to be like 'oh fish!' or 'oo off!'

i might get some art done in my spare time though so fingers crossed ^^
and i bought a flippin gangsta chav/scene cap thing to paint on in brum yesterday so expect something neon...

okay so bye ^^

keep it awsome
xoxo

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19522261/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19522261/ Tue, 22 Jul 2008 15:55:34 PDT
so ive been tidying my shit up whilst watching them all back-to-back today ><
darn funny it was

so yeh, had a great time in Cardiff, didnt get to see Torchwood tower and the Doctor Who exibition but oh well ¬¬
and im off to Bible Camp next week so if i dont do a journal before then, then you know where i am . some of you are now gonna be like 'FTW? Bible Camp?!' but yeh, its actually pretty cool. the kids from my church all go. this years my first time but i hear its awsome fun. last year they had a comic book theme so they were doing team games where they taped cardboard boxes to the team leaders so they looked liek Transformers and then pelted wet sponges at each other. another game involved filling a toilet with baked beans? - dont ask ><

and its the summer holidays now (whoop! no more megan for 6 weeks!) so i'll have more free time for art projects and chatting online and that sort of stuff. im a hermit so there ><

ooooh, and i got a nice big canvas the other day! so i'll be doing something with that.

oh and i met this really nice person up town and we randomly started chatting about art and tattoos and hair (her hair is epic - orange and pink - i love it >< and she told me how to make synthetic dreads so ive got some stuff and i made a few. they kinda melted too much though and they look kinda shite. ima going to Birmingham on friday to get some red Kanekalon stuff so it matches the rest of my hair. im only doing half my hair in it cause dads a bit funny about dreads. so if any of u lot have any dread making tips, i'd appreciate that alot ><

another reason for the Brum trip is cause i have this great photo concept art idea that i wanna try out, and i need a fairly familiar place to photograph (otherwise some people wont get it) and Redditch is too unfamiliar (even though its awsome cause we're famous for being the 19th and 20th century needle making capital of the world. if any of u have tattoos, the needle for it could well have been made in my town )

okay, i better leave my ramblings at that...

how've u lot all been? ^^

keep it awsome
xoxoxo


EDIT:
got tagged. i rarely do these but I'm bored stiff and it might be interesting for you.

Rules:
1.Post these rules.

2.People tagged must post 8 things each about themselves in their journals.

3.Tag six people and post their icons on the same journal.

4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.

5. No tag-backs


1) If everyone ditches me, i go out on my own. sometimes ive walked 6 or so miles to town to the library and back because i was that bored.

2) I right poems or random sentances to let things out. other times i let it out slowly in stories. if you carefully analised my characters in most of the writings i do, you would learn ALOT about my mental state.

3) I used to say i wanted to be a pop-star or ballet dancer because when i told people i wanted to be an archeologist (i dont anymore though ) the other little girls laughed and at that age i didnt like not having friends so i lied to fit in. when i got to the age of 10, i decided 'fuck it!' and since then ive been a freak kid and proud

4) I bite my toe-nails if i cant find clippers. grose yeh? >< im not joking either, i can actually get my toes to my mouth -

5) - because i have weird leg joints. from an early age i used to lock my knees when i stood straight so they've grown funny. the can bend back alot further than other peoples so i walk a little odd, and can sit funny, and bend my feet to touch my face. it doesnt really bother me though, its just something my dad noticed when i realised i had better balence than some people.

6) I never grew out of Pokemon, its one of the best shows ever and it got me into anime and manga from the age of 7

7) I'm a complete tomboy and always have been. i used to throw tantrums for my mum when she made me wear dresses and i ended up wearing... ]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19312115/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19312115/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 14:04:58 PDT < Doctor Who and Torchwood or just sci-fi fans in general will love it ----> [link] <----
its an amazing song too. U.S people should go spread them. they're getting huge in the UK now ><

in other news, ive been on work experience this week, which has sucked quite a bit. im working at a First School in a year 3 class. they're cute but really anoying.

good thing about today is that i finially got my own copy of Edward Scissorhands


oh, and im sorry if i dont reply to comments till next monday or maybe even tuesday (im on a school trip monday) cause i'm going away to Cardiff for the weekend tomorrow ive never really been to Wales properly before. ive only ever really been to Ross-On-Wye and 2 castles just inside the border.

so yeh. i wont bore u further
art soon maybe ^^

keep it awsome
xoxo

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19218763/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19218763/ Sat, 05 Jul 2008 12:35:22 PDT HOW AWSOME WAS THAT DOCTOR WHO FINALE!?

i cryed about 4 times ><
Rose + Doctor = WIN!

i swear that was one of the best plots evar!
im having a spaz attack over it now!

And Donna is The Sex. DARLEK MERRY-GO-ROUNDS!!!!
someone better put that on youtube soon. its hilarious

...wow *happy sigh*

seriously, if you dont get Doctor Who in your country and you've got no idea what the hell im on about, YOU NEED TO SPAM YOUR TV STATIONS SO THEY'LL GET IT! ITS FUCKING BRILLIANT. its like Star Trek for awsome people... (im only saying that cause my dads a Treky and hes kinda boring at times so hes not that awsome )


wasnt that little traitor darlek cute? i want a plushie of him...

i still havnt got myself a sonic screwdriver toy yet. that'd be the perfectest Birthday present ever *hinthint*. Tom got me a Darlek Sec last year ^^
whoop! 16 in nearly 2 months!

okay, i wont freak u out anymore...


keep it awsome ^^
xoxo

ohhh myyy gaawd...

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19000096/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/19000096/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 11:19:42 PDT the old Pokemon games just arnt the same on an Advance SP
sibling lent me his (pft! he never uses it - doesnt know what hes missing ¬¬ ) but i want my one cause its lime green and its got a bulbasaur hangin off it!
i turned my room upside down lookin for it. however i did find my Pokemon cards so im happy. i forget how to play them though - its been AGES.

in the meantime, my alien backpack is pissing me off. im taking my time with it so that its all neat but its taking up so much of my time. i REALLY need a sewing machine...
im stitching up his little silver PVC converses now :3
and his little lime velvet hands are so cute. i put wire in them so he can swear at people

also! my latest ImagineFX magazine has a huge feature on HR GIGER!!!
gawd he is a LEGEND!
and it has a tutorial to do artwork in his style using photoshop filters so im gonna try it out (you: OH MY GAWD! YOU'S NOT DOING PWETTY BRIGHT COLOURS!?) it'll be interesting since im into bright colours right now...

hmm...
that is all

keep it awsome
xoxo

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18932421/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18932421/ Fri, 20 Jun 2008 10:25:25 PDT
im completely broke, i cant get some new canvases or cool stuff to play with

i've been sitting ontop of the funny concrete wall thing that connects to the huge highway bridge near my house, with rhian, eating chippy and orangeaid because ive got nothing better to do

school is getting really suckish

i miss megan

i cant be bothered to do anything constructive with my time because i get bored of it after 20 minutes and drop it.

school has now blocked everything un-educational, which means deviantart is under the 'orn and adult material' catagory and therefor forbidden ¬¬

vicky wants to be me
shes replaced me as megans new best friend and shes gotten obsessed with my chem and msi - even though she barely knows anything about either of them. and then she mopes around pretending shes depressed and makeing sure everyone sees. AND she apparantly fancies harley - and she became a christian a while ago (because i am and she didnt want me to 'feel all alone with it' and got christaned - why do i have to follow the bibles rules and go though all this depression and shit and shes allowed to get off scott-free? fucking bull-shit muncher, she does my nut in i swear!

oh and the dude who cut my hair yesterday did it too fucking short. it was too long and thick to backcomb properly so i got it cut, and now its too short and thin and wont even mess without looking shite. i look like a guy in drag with hair extensions in pigtales (even though its actually my real hair), excessive eyemakeup and skirts. and my hair grows too slow. u can see an inch of roots now where my hairs not bright red and thats taken 6 to 8 WEEKS.
i love my hair.
and now its crap

sorry for the venting session.

i think the only good things that have happened this week was the myspaz comment i got from THE USED (omg!) the other day. no joke honest - u can go see it if u dont believe me. i seriously fell off my chair. i commented them the other day when they were online, saying 'Come back to the UK so we can give you Tea and Hugs!' and then they commented me back saying 'we will'. come on, thats pretty awsome.
so i'll have a used gig to look forward to soon
gawd i love that band so much.

the other good thing was todays Social Moral Studies class. we had this person come in to give us a talk about drugs an she was all like "well im from this organisation that gives the info to you honestly. we wont tell u not to do it cause you'll just go 'ft! fuck that!' and do it anyway. so instead im here today to teach you how to do drugs safely". so she told us how to take canabis safely and how to make hash cakes and what to do if your mate has a whitey. she was like "these are magic mushrooms - they'll give you the most amazing high EVER! they're great! just dont go picking them yourselves cause theres one that looks the same thats actually lethal"
best SMS lesson ever - usually their really shite.

anyways, i wont bore u further. hopefully i'll get some instentive to draw stuff again pretty soon.


EDIIIITT!!!

i forgot to name this journal ye... ]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18785849/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18785849/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 14:12:33 PDT
im addicted to the new Weezer tune. if you've not already seen the vid. go do it ( [link] )

okay so im having a sensible journal for once, whilst eating a cheese cake... imma gonna get fat...¬¬

erm yeh, so ive had alot of coursework lately or schools worn me out an then im not in the mood afterwards to do stuffs and just wanna go up town and piss about (oooo there was a powercut on monday at school so we got the day off and went up town to eat Oreo's and be jerks in the Lidl carpark). however! i'm half way through making my alien backpack now. just the legs, silver converses, spacesuit details and inside lineing to do now oh, and the straps and hes done and ready to make me look like a twat up town

its anoying not having a sewing machine. i really need one aswell cause ive got so much fabric and i think i'd be great to make some things and sell them on ebay. but i cant cause it takes too long at the moment. i could really do with the extra money. it's ridiculous cause we live off benefits, and my dad only gives me £10 ($20) a month. i mean im greatful for it an all but £10 doesnt really go a long way. its taken me 6 months to get a new mp3 player and now im broke and in debt - and my phones out of credit. it takes me ages to get CD's and new DVDs...
AND my dad might be letting me go to Reading and Leeds fesival next year since i'll be 16 (i'd be going this year if i was born a month earlier ¬¬ so the tickets cost loads, then theres train tickets and camping gear...
so i need to start earning some money - but theres no good jobs around here unless i want to push a load of trolleys around Morrisons carpark in the rain ¬¬

ive seen people selling some good quality homemade one-offs on ebay for £20 - £30 and that'd be great if i could do it. im not being arogant or anything, but my plushies nd stuff are pretty good quality. most people think ive bought them

so, a question for u lot: if i mangaged to find my mums old thing and go through the trouble of clearing space in my room for it, would any of you buy my plushies or know of anyone that would buy my plushies off ebay?


yeh...
cheesecake gone bye-bye now...

i better go finish my Drama coursework. and then i can get on with some funky journal CSS

keep it awsome
xoxo

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18691495/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18691495/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 05:21:39 PDT omg loool
ik casnt preess shift

lool byee

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18629252/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18629252/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 14:49:29 PDT if u have the time, watch each one after each other. we're in histerics.
really cheers you up hope u havnt had a bad day though ><

1. (I got a jar of dirt song!) [link]

2. (Mighty Boosh live - pies) [link]

3. (L sings a penis song) [link]

4. (Russel Brand on 80's Computers) [link]

5. (birdy feedin prank) http:// www .youtube.com/watch?v= PCtwhaD8G2A (take out spaces on this one)

6. (Deathnote prankcall) [link]

7. (Near calls a gay bar) [link]

8. (Mighty Boosh live - 'Delve deep into the parker!' [link]




xoxo

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18562668/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18562668/ Thu, 29 May 2008 15:39:34 PDT okay so they upset me, but they still shouldnt be being blamed for stuff.
is anyone in england going to it? its that london one outside the Daily Mail thing or something like that?
my dads said if i ask him once more im 'grounded for a thousand years' ¬¬
and i cant afford the train all the way down there anyway
rach's mum wont take us ¬¬

why is everything always in london...

AND, why is Mikey Way in a police lineup thing in this stupid article my dad found today? : [link]
i spotted him the other side of the living room earlier and screamed. did i miss something? like was it just from a photoshoot or something?

this comment on it made me laugh:
'I would have my kid become an emo a thousand times over rather than become beer swilling, "Ingerlund"-chanting skinhead. Look at the statistics of how many emo and Goth kids go on to higher education as opposed to the trackie-bottom wearing potheads who hang around on street corners all over this country. When was the last time anyone saw an emo or a Goth accused of stabbing, robbing or assaulting someone? These kids are the real future of this country.'

- AMEN TO THAT FUCKERS!



yeah so in other news....

MY NEW MP3 PLAYER CAME TODAY!!!!!!!! along with Blaqk Audios CD - FINALLY!
so i think i'll be calling it Vince because Noel Fielding dances real good and hes into music and stuff.... and hes a rather handsome fella...

FUCKING WATCH THIS - HES HILARIOUS! ----> [link]
i think the mighty boosh did a music video for them
noel is in a Robots in Disguise one too. hes so funny...


im working on that Alien Backpack. so far ive worked on it for 2 days straight. and all i got done is his head and arms and part of his body - which isnt really that much. less than half perhaps ¬¬
i need a sewing machine...

anyways, i wont bore u further

keep it awsome
xoxo

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18507289/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18507289/ Mon, 26 May 2008 08:50:14 PDT Rhians gone to wales, Rach cant come down from Sheffield, (although shes in Solihull today?), Annie's pretty much forgot i exist, Tom's round the corner but CBA to come out... yeh so im stuck indoors...

I went to Birmingham with and her friend ross and she took me to... dundunduuuuun! ... THIS AMAZING FABRIC STORE! honestly i know some of you are tempted to click the back button now and go back to your DA mail, but seriously this place was awsome. there we 3 or 4 floors of roles of every single fabric you could ever want. they'd even got magical blue seahorse lookin stuff and pokemon. oh and rainbow furry stuff that i want to make into some of those monster boot leg warmer things...

but anyway, i came out with exactly what i wanted - lime green velvetish stuff and metalic silver PVC for an Alien BackPack im making.
by the way, i need help with some colour variations: [link] please go and leave a comment on which arms look better.

i need some canvases... we've been doing that sort of stuff at school (Futurism - i ended up fingerpainting it cause it wouldnt blend right - an now i wanna finger paint some canvas at home) and slash holes in it and tape them up and what not. im also obsessed with multicoloured rainbow stuff at the moment and human guts so there'll be a few stuffs like that if i can get them done. one of them will be digital, im working on it between typing. and the other, hopefully, will be on a canvas with some ink splats. its inspired by a Pendulum song called Hold Your Colour. (pendulum are completely storming the UK at the moment so go check them out if you're into Drum&Bass/Electronica and Rock crossovers. listen to Propane Nightmare on Youtube - you'll be hooked i promise)

speaking of Pendulum, i got their old album Hold Your Colour (named after that awsome tune ) and their new one In Silico. Im hooked ><

I ALSO (FINALLY!!!!) GOT IF AND ITS ABSOLUTELY INCREDABLE!!!!!!!!!!
so the only stuff i've listened to this week is Mindless Self Indulgence and Pendulum.
For me the difference between an great band and an amazing band is whether they inspire me art wise or not and both MSI and Pendulum have lately. Pendulum make me wanna do multicoloured street art that symbolises the music (the drums and all the electrical bits in it) and MSI make me wanna go crazy with pinks and purples and draw everything from alien squids to... well ... i dunno.

yeh so anyway, you've probably got better things to do that read all my crap.
i'll be off now...

Keep it Awsome
xoxox

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18353712/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18353712/ Fri, 16 May 2008 15:24:38 PDT
Okays so im fresh out of inspiration now ¬¬

i will get that vampire pic up - my dads buried the scanner under his papers again so i cant scan right now. also means i can do anymore work on my Hadouken inspired pic.
and im also working (very slowly ¬¬ on an art trade piece with
its a digital painting of Willy Wonka (Depp style! )


i wanna start photographing my art coursework from school. i did some awsome assesment pieces. at the moment we're doing futurism so ive got a huge wood board covered in newspaper, yellow and blue tissue, corogated card wing shapes and ink splatters. its not finished yet though and we have another 3 or 4 hours on it. its supposed to be a Swallow and im gonna see if i can get away with doing it a bit tattoo styley. if not, i'll have to give it a ribcage and skull with some more card ¬¬ im obsessed with the darn things.


i neeeeed to go to Birmingham because im feeling really creative right now. i feel like making some bags and plushies or awsomifying some clothes. so i need to get some new fabrics. i know ive already got tonnes of fabric but i never quite have what i want and if i want to make some bags, i need the right sort of stuff and the right colours. no-one ever want to go round the rag market with me though. its the same with the comic store unless im with tom - but he gets bored too easily so once hes done in the starwars section, he starts whining.


i might walk down to the art store in Studly tomorrow. i dunno though yet. its quite a walk even with the bus ride to the edge of town. and im not totally sure what i need other than some sort of fabric paint and maybe a copic opaque white marker, oh and some felt. i dunno - i might just browse the place and get some stuff to try out. i also need MSI's new CD. dad said he'd get it me off amazon.com along with the new MP3 player i want and saved up for since february. i asked him 6 weeks ago and i cant see me ever getting either of them so i'm gonna go check one last time in HMV to see if they're stocking any MSI stuff yet.


on another note, would anyone be interested in commitions? i know im not that great and if its traditional, im not sure how much it costs to ship outside the UK but yeh. i dunno how you'd pay me. i'd be happy with anything, wishlist items, subs, buy some prints anything okay? let me know what u think.

im also completely out of inspiration now so i was thinking about doing that 100 things challenge? if anyone knows where the site for it please send me the link. im getting desperate ><


damn. i just remembered Pendulum was playing Birmingham tonight ¬¬ im pissed...


stupid shit time!
Pot Noodle has an amazing new TV ad!
its an epid musical! check it out!!!!!!!
-----> [link] <-----

i want one now...


peace out ><
love u all!
xoxo

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18271830/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18271830/ Sun, 11 May 2008 10:57:26 PDT im so bored stiff you could mistake me for a plank of wood right now.

im supposed to be writing some review for English on two movie trailers (yes u heard right the TRAILERS not the actual movie) and they chose two of the most boringest trailors ever in my view. Gladiator and Lord of the Rings 3. i mean they're great movies but the trailors are kinda crap. id much rather compare Sleepy Hollow with Edward Scissorhands or something - then i wouldnt be bored right now.
damn school

oh yes, about school. they're making me go to counciling sessions and to help me with my lateness, i get to go to the schools Youth Centre and have tea and toast instead of registration as long as i have a chat and let them give me a uniform check - which i will fail everytime with my Fuck You and alien badges and the hazard tape on my blazer. and no all black converses either ¬¬
they'll be confiscating my rainbow jelly bands and used glowstick bracelettes (which i still havnt taken off from the MSI gig cause they have Kitty germs on them...). stuff sucks

the heat isnt making it any better. for once i want our traditional Bristish weather back. FUCKING RAIN DAMMIT!!!

and my gameboy just ran outta charge...
damn.

i gots some art coming me thinks. a bit of hadouken stuff if i can be bothered with it and that vampire pic i promised some of you. it looks a bit too 'warm' though so i dont like it
i need some cute stuffs on my journal. ideas of what i could do anyone? pleeasse? i love you?!!!

i need to pee but theres a spider waiting to eat me in the bathroom...

this journal is getting stupid now


i better go do that essay...
oooorrrr i could go watch some Mighty Boosh..
oh dear! its so hard to pick!!!
*sarcasum* ¬¬

over and out
xoxo

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18226979/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18226979/ Thu, 08 May 2008 13:11:19 PDT LIFE

I wont bore you with a rant. i do that too often and get anoyed with myself for it. so i apologise in advance if it ends up as one.
Basicly im asking for help. Im sick to death of living like this in a permanent depression. its been nearly a year now and if it wasnt for my religion i think i'd be trying to overdose on painkillers or something right now. i hate the feeling. its like my chest feels empty like when u breath out all the air from your lungs. the worst part is knowing that im stuck here. everytime im on a bus or in a car i secretly hope that they'll be a road acident and i'll be the only one killed. that way it wouldnt be suicide so i wont be commiting a sin.

i missed the Hadouken gig on tuesday to go on a stupid Drama trip to see Blood Brothers. that fucking subject is taking over my life. i want to drop it next year cause im embarrasing myself with it. Anyway, at the Blood Brothers production everyone was crying cause its a really sad play. but i didnt cry and i desperatly wanted to, i felt bad for not crying. i ended up crying on the minibus home. i had my hood up and it was dark so no-one noticed. i cryed over other things and we drove through Bromsgrove and the lane that leads to the church where my mums buried. just as we drove past everyone on the bus started singing Amy Winehouse's 'Valerie' which just happens to be my mums name and i burst into tears. no one noticed which i prefered.

i try and do things to cheer myself up. i went tadpole fishing on moday with some people, walked through 2 inches of mud barefoot (i'd lost my shoes) it was fun. as soon as im on my own again though all the high feeling goes. i really could have done with going to that gig on Tuesday cause those highs last longer. im scared i'll turn to drugs. ive gotten pissed before and loved it but then i found out its against some rule in the bible so i cant do it anymore.

They've noticed at school. im getting D grades when im expected to get at least B's. D's class as a fail. i barely ever do all my coursework and have to do catch-ups which still dont work. ive had detensions for being late everyday because i have no insentive to get out of bed because i dont want to see certain people in school (megan mainly) and detension today turned into a sort of counsiling session since i was the only one that turned up (i nearly couldnt be bothered). i usually cover my tracks but i guess some of the teachers studied psychology and know tell tale signs of depression or something. they've said i can have counsiling but how can u tell an adult in school that you're in love with a girl? in Britain or at least my part of the country that sort of thing is seen as shameful by alot of people and i myself am ashamed of it. i know i shouldnt be, im not homophobic but its hard to not think it shameful when the people i admire most see it as filthy

and i've noticed a repeating pattern in my life concerning my best friends. i ALWAYS loose them. i fell out with steph years ago and now she hates me, Becci got a boyfriend in year 8 and forgot me, Rhian likes to pretend she never cares and i cant stand it anymore and then i lost megan. its like im not supposed to have friends. im scared of getting to close to people incase i lose them now.

all of you are the only ones making me feel loved at the moment. i mean that. pretty soon i reckon you'll be my only friends and im so greatful for that. i know i dont know most of you well but you seem like your there for me. thank you all.


shit sorry this is turning into a rant. i'll get on to the art part

ART

my dads given me a load of ink pencils and stuffs to play around with and since im still in an experimenting mood then im eager to do stuff. i even cleared out my storage draws and found my old Blo Pens from when i was 7. suprisingly they still work so i'll be using those soon
while i was looking i also found my Gameboy Colour and SP and all my fave games (Pokemon and Hamtaro!!!! weeeeeeeeeee!!!! http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18040754/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18040754/ Sat, 26 Apr 2008 15:22:21 PDT
MSI were amazing!!!!!
i dunno where to start.

we went in our DayGlow ninja costumes - lookin awsome of course with glowstick juice splattered all up our t-shirts an we smuggled in 40 glowsticks in our boxers and legwarmers. the stupid staff managed to spot some poking out though once we were in the dark inside so we had nearly all of them confiscated ¬¬
i met Jess (( )) (who is awsome and has green skinny jeans that i really badly want now >< and splodged green paint on her face in a Vince Noir tundra style line so she could be a Ninja with us - Ha! in your face, jess! - Quite literally!! ^^

support act were okay i guess. i wasnt really bothered. we went out to the loby to wait for the obsessive retards cause rhian wanted to see how theyd react once inside. it was funny to say the least they'd missed the support band and came in 2 minutes before msi came onstage i saw meg. i hated it, the second she walked through an i saw her smile out the corner of my eye as i splodged green neon paint on rhians face as she squeeled for me to piss off, all the excitement went from me. we were planning to go to that gig together once. the whole gig felt like something was missing.

anyways. they came onstage an me an rachael legged it into the pit leaving the anoying people behind shes a little shorty though so i lifted her a few times.
apparantly at one point Vicky asked someone who 'the hot guitarist (she cant tell the difference between a bass and a guitar) with the long hair' was because she didnt realise it was Lyn-Z i told u she doesnt know a thing about the band let alone all but 1 song which she heard on a mobile phone.

they were awsome though i got Little-Little Jimmy out to hold up with an un-confiscated glow stick round him ^^
at one point i think Jimmy saw him cause he gave a confused 'huh?' sort of look in my direction!!!

he told us to get our phones out and record a youtube message from himself now to himself in the future-ture-ture-ture...
its on youtube of course now: [link]

then he started stripping till he got down to his net top thingy ^^ an then complained he needed a new look an demanded everyone throw clothes onstage. he had a hoodie on each arm, fairy wings on his back and a bra... its all on here [link] - if u wind it to the 2 minute or so u can see Lyn-z crowd surf and knock the camera person over to which jimmy says "turn the house lights on lets see whats going on---oh there she is!........*newcastle turned italian sounding accent*- ohh Lyn-Z, be a dear an get us a bag'a crisps while ya out!"

he started some "Jimmy needs batterys - wind me up!" stuff at some point ><
he also said that our side wasn't hyper enough an that we needed more sugar so he sprayed us with a can of Red Bull before throwing it at the balcony. he missed an it hit one of the obsessors who kept it to obsess over and probably keep on a shelf next to her kingdom hearts figures ¬¬ im probably just jealous, i know.

he brought some kid onstage to 'scream' to faggot with him so she took it quite literally: [link]

he told us to get our phones out and record a youtube message from himself now to himself in the f... ]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18008474/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/18008474/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 14:25:15 PDT ...
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OMG!
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yeh so now im all kitted out with my DAYGLOW NINJAS uniform!!!
we're a not so secret organisation. we'd be more secret if we wore normal black uniforms like normal ninjas but we're DAYGLOW! so for us its neon all the way baby!
so me an Tom went to town, got some pink neon an black armwarmers, yellow neon legwarmers, green neon bracers, and some white strappy tops. oh an some glowsticks. on the train to Birmingham tomorrow, we're gonna squirt some of the glowstick juice onto the tops so that they'll go pretty colours an glow in the dark an we're getting some bandanas with half a neon skull face on to cover the bottom half of our face an neon green face paint to do some patterns
we're gonna be awsome. we're back-combing our hair even more than usual (if thats even possable) so if anyones behind us in the crowd, they're view will be blocked by our hair...
and me an rach are swappin stuffs when we meet up ^^ cant wait to see her again!
this gigs gonna be amazing!


the only thing that could bring down my high is the fact that Megan will be there. shes back. monday morning, came to school; she was the first thing i saw as i walked through the gates. i nearly died. i'd prepared myself for a life of never ever seeing her again. i thought perhaps the end of my depression was in sight, but no. i know it sounds like a horrable and selfish thing to say but i just wish she'd leave forever an never come back cause i cant stand looking at her pretty little face all day.
im gonna die for real if i bump into her in the mosh pit tomorrow, i really am.
shes going with her stupid obsessing possy too. you'll be able to here their fake OTT squeels of 'OHMYGOD OHMYGOD OHMYFUCKINGGOD!!!' at the back of the queue from the front doors. infact, no; you'll be able to hear them from New Street station when we get to Brum - over the top of the anouncements and train engines.


in other news - related to the gig, im gonna be terrified if i loose anyone an get left on my own. currently im trying to get over an experience i feel is almost as terrifing as rape. on monday, some pervert thought it was clever to send me a photo of their erect cock.
i wasnt pleased at all. i actually cryed i was so scared. i was then late for school the next day cause i refused to walk to school on my own cause i though some paedo was after me an was waiting for me in the underpass near school (theres no other way to go. whatever way i go to school theres at least one tunnel under a road) to rape me.
the worst part i think, is that ive been almost completely put off boys. i might as well call myself a full gay now cause no way am i EVER having one of those things shoved up me!!!
no offence to any guys here, but you have desgusting things in your pants.

okay i dont think theres much else to say...
oh wait yes there is.

A QUESTION FOR ANYONE WHO HAS AN EAR STRETCHER!!:

At gigs, my dad wants to know if its safe to wear a spiked stretcher in the mosh pit? or is it better to just stick a plug or tunnel in?
i didnt have one last time i went to a gig so he just wants to know. hes weird like that ^^


yeh so thats it ^^
more art soon hopefully. i have lots of sketches to finish an stuff ^^

byeeeeeee loveeeee yoooooo allll!!!!
xoxoxo

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ISNT HE GORGOUS AND TALENTED!!!!
(skip to about 01:05 and wait for his awsomeness )

YEH HE IS LIKE WELL FIT!!!


*ahem* yeh anyways thats Pendulums latest video.
I'm really into Drum & Bass at the moment. its catchy an i like havin a little rave to it



my last journal was too depressing. thought i'd start this one on a lighter note.
im feeling a little happier today. i had a huge cry last night into my pillow (my family thinks im happy an dont have problems so i daren't them hear me) i got my comfort bag all soggy (my mum knitted it me - its like the rainbow one in Tots TV an i keep the Noddy Jumper an Dolls she also knitted me inside it. i havnt had cry like that for ages. i had to put extra dark grey eyeshadow an eyeliner on today to cover up my puffy eyes.
oh god im sounding so emo. damn steriotypes ¬¬

thank you all for your support on my last journal. i know i didnt reply to most of you, i just didnt really know how to i guess. i really appreciate it though.
an update with that: apparantly i wasnt supposed to know where Meg had gone. she told vicky not to tell me.
Umara (the girl who did tell me) said that vicky was saying to everyone (everyone = the anoying gang of obsessive anoying people - the same lot that pissed me off on my old account - vicky included) that "if sarah asks where Meg is we'll tell her....(umara didnt hear - teacher was talking to her)....how funny is that?! meg came up with it!"
according to vicky, 'Meg doesnt give a flying fuck' about me anymore. so i guess my plan to make her hate me worked.
before i heard that i thought that maybe i could write her a letter or note - one of you lot suggested it. i thought i'd sneak it into my Issue 6 of the Umbrella Academy and then get someone to give it to her. im sure she wont have that issue - i usually get it her. that way i'd have told her but not seen her reaction and it'd be up to her whether she found it or not. but now i guess i'll just leave it. if i talked to her it might make things harder anyway. im just gonna let her go and not say anything. im completely aware that i'll probably never see her again at all but its just something that has to be done i suppose. i'd rather hurt myself than her.


in other news, a friends granddads just offered me a 'buisness oppertunity'. he's asked me to illustrate his childrens books. it feels a bit weird though so i dunno if i'll accept yet. i'll keep you posted. he asked me on the phone and wants me to go to his house tomorrow... im only 15 and i've got no idea who he is other than hes Amys granddad and hes a writer...
yeh its weird. i dont think he realises i do manga, not kids cartoons...


so anyways, i'm off. love u all
laters
xoxo

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i know this looks long but the whole point of this new account is so that i can finally be honest with you.

I thought I'd come clean about something. some of you are asking why ive lost my love for MCR right? but its not as simple as just that.
Something happened today thats just pushed me over the edge. ive got no idea what to do. i'd be crying my eyes out right now if i wasnt so nervous about my GCSE Drama Exam in an hour. I have to keep my emotions in line for it cause im so terrified of crying backstage or even onstage.

its a long story really. i think it started last July. i remember watching the 5th Harry Potter movie before we all went to queue for the Deathly Hallows book. i was with the most amazing person i've ever met. they were my 'fellow my chem fan'. we were sitting too close in the seats with our heads on each others shoulders. they kissed me and only me goodbye on the cheek when we all dropped her home. it carried on like that for months. we held hands round town, hugged for 10 minutes at a time, even slept in each others arms when people threw sleepovers. at least i never admitted i truly loved them and i still havnt because for the last 4 months we havnt spoken a single word to each other.
that person is a girl. her name is megan.

i said in a past journal that im a christian, and the reason why. in church we learnt that God hates same sex couples. i have nothing against them. i always think they're adorable. but in the bible in the book of Leviticus, its in the same paragraph as pig and sheep fucking. it says that all people like that should be killed and sent to hell. seriously i hate that book sometimes. whatever happened to 'love thy neighbour - no matter who or what they are'?

It got to a point at the start of January where i had to make a huge decision. which did i wanted more; Megan or my Mother.

I chose the later. it broke my heart. i also decided that she mustn't ever know how i felt cause that'd be admitting to it. i also hated what it might do to her. shes an insecure little thing. ive never seen her have a boyfriend, she has family problems, she has problems with her appearance an usually just wears boys t-shirts and baggy jeans to cover up the fact that shes rather flat chested. if she found out, it might hurt her more. she'd feel like a freak because a girl had the biggest crush of their life so far on her. she'd feel furtherly insecure. but to me she has the most adorablest little smile and her eyes just make you feel all happy. to me shes just this angel that you want to go and hug every time you look at her.

so i told her 'im sorry, you've not done anything wrong, i have'. it was on MSN (regretfully), cause she confronted me on why i was ignoreing me. i felt like a disgrace. i wanted her to hate me. so i told her a huge lie. i told her that MCR was just a band and that they'll never know i exist and that i was logging off to go and rip down all my posters so i wouldnt hope they'd jump out and hug me.
the last thing she said was 'i hope they give you a paper cut then'
i even find her insults adorable. its so riduclous.

i didnt believe it all that much when i said it. it was to get her off my back.
we havnt spoken, we havn't touched, barely looked each other in the eye since.
i slowly started to believe what i told her about my chem. it didnt feel the same reading something about them or watching youtube vids of them if u hadnt anyone else to talk at school about them to. i barely talk about then offline anymore. everytime i think about them, i think of Megan and how much i miss her and how we spent the most amazing gig together hugging. and that hurts so much i cant even describe it - not even through art or anything.
i count every single day - seriously.

i like holidays even more now, i dont have to see her pretty little face. i came back to school last monday and by wednesday the depression had come back. last friday, they moved me down a set in maths cause of my poor performance in school. im in her class now. luckily shes at the back so i cant see her but i keep having to resist turning my head round to look at her.

last night, i dreamed that she'd died. she was lying dead in my arms in the reckage of some building that had fallen down on her, while i shouted at her that i loved her. i then sat through her funeral, her family glaring at me the whole time with hateful eyes and then i sat beside her grave stone and told her everything, even though she couldnt here me.

today she wasnt in school. when i asked where she was, apparantly i wasnt allowed to know because i was no longer a close friend but someone else told me anyway.
she'd had trouble at home and her dad had taken her to his house. she thinks shes gonna stay there an go to another school.
im to... ]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/17816304/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/17816304/ Sat, 12 Apr 2008 15:20:20 PDT Its too much Mighty Boosh that does it. Damn you Vince Noir! no matter how fuckin sexy you are!

ART NEWS

I thought i'd let you pick what i do - since im doing alot of my art for you guys ^^ anything at all - if u'd like to see me try something, JUST SAY im feelin creative an wanna try new things.
Also, i wanna know if any of you want to see any of my GCSE coursework. we've been doing all sorts of stuff an im quite proud of some of it. we did Russian Constructivism last term an i fussed a bit of Tim Burton and The Mighty Boosh into it ^^ let me know okay? ^^
Life

life is getting shitter since i went back to school actually. my school works still failing. they moved me down a set in maths. which isnt so bad cause its all easy now an everyone just sits there an eats Chocolate Digestives all lesson. i have loads of time to doodle ^^ theres other reasons why that sucks but i wont go into them now.

i actually had some fun today though. i have a Drama Assesment on Tuesday. im playing a 7 year old tomboy an i suck ¬¬ (rehearsals tomorrow too - i gotta go into school on a sunday) so i had to get my costume today. - yellow teesh, green stripey dress and purple tights - oh the joy of it! ¬¬

we also had to get some yellow an black Hazard Zone tape im obsessed with it. dont be suprised if it sneaks its way into my art...
i got a fun version of it too that says IDIOT along it
im an idiot...

got a new ear stretcher too. gone from 5mm to 8mm. - FUCKIN KILLS. seriously...
although its a neon yellow spike an it looks awsome...
hmm.. need to re-dye my hair red. its become a ginger ninja...

oh that reminds me - SEEING MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE IN 2 WEEKS!!! (ooo creepy - just as i typed it, my Media Player switched to them O__O)
my and Rachael ( ) whos comin down from Rotherum are goin as 'DayGlow Ninjas so we'll be covered from head to toe in noen stuffs. oh and Little Little Jimmy Urine will be coming too. i need to take photos of him for you ^^ hes a cute widdle plushiekins :3
he humped Rachaels arm last time we met up. lets hope the real Jimmy doesnt steel him. i heard he did that to Art-munkey...

okay i think that is all...

oh no wait! how many of you are actually aware of The Mighty Boosh? cause i may have to educate you or else u'll have no idea what im ever on about

theres too many '...'s in here.

okay im gonna go smack my brother
hes being a bigger retard than me

byeeeeeeeeeee
xoxo

]]> ~Neon-Skeletons http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/17748152/ http://Neon-Skeletons.deviantart.com/journal/17748152/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 13:20:47 PDT
I LOVE YOU GUYS SO BAD!!!!!


okay, so i took a break an stuffs. when i left the old account and put that journal up (woa i just realised that was a month ago today o.O ) i seriously doubted i'd be back on that account. as alot of you know, i hated the fact that i couldnt be myself because of school 'friends' on there pestering me.

anyways i decided to come back. im gonna be completely open now on this cause i think its important. i came back cause i came to the conclusion that my mum was proud at me for my art. she died when i was 4 (its okay ^^ no sympathy comments please) and then i was told that i'd see her again one day in heaven (which is why im a christian because i wanted and still do want to see her more than anything in the whole world) and that shes watching over me. i know its the classic thing that people say but i dont care - it meant something to me. i feel like my main goal in life is to please my mother - even if shes not around to see it. i want to make her proud of me
in my kitchen we still have a few drawings of mine stuck to the cupboard doors from when my mum was still around and i noticed a couple of weeks ago that they have writing in the corners with my exact age (most are 3 and a quarter years) so i went an pestered my dad about it an he said 'i suppose she was just proud of you and your drawings' we found folders full of my scribbles and box an stick people and Dennis the Menace drawings (she wrote what they were on them ^^). i think that might be why my dads always bought me art stuffs without much of a fuss cause he knew it was probably what my mum wanted ^^. i can actually remember her a bit and nearly all the memories are her watching me scribbling and playing with Lick n' Stick shapes. i've watched the mums at church throwing their 2 year olds scribbles away so im pretty sure its not normal for someone to keep things like that.
so basicly i came back for my mum cause if those crappy scribbles were good enough for her, my shit these days must be just about good enough for DA

okay so im sorry i rambled there - u probably didnt want to know about my personal life but yeh...
its great not having a clogged up inbox again aswell with fangirls having a squeel about something to do with MCR. no offence if you see yourself as a big my chem fan though - i still dont mind it all that much, it just anoyed me when i had over 25 of them a day thats all
i still love them quite alot though. i dont feel like a huge fan of them anymore though mainly because me and my only MCR fan friend at school arnt friends anymore and as soon as i think about my chem it kinda makes me sad and miss her so to me they're just a band that produce amazing music and art cause i block everything else out to stop myself having anymore heartache.
happy birthday to Gerard though for tomorrow


on a lighter note, i feel really creative. im gonna try a load of new things. i love spatting inks at school so i might try using loads of different mediums. its gonna be fun. i just hope u lot like it ^^.

yeh you lot are gonna be bored of reading now...
let me know how you lot have been then ^^
hugs and bat shaped cookies for all!

xoxo

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