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What AM I thankful for?

Well... I guess I'm thankful that I'm still alive after 22 years. I suppose I'm glad I have fingers, so I can type (I wouldn't have much in the way of friends if not for the keyboard.) I'm thankful that my computer exists and isn't broken.

I'm thankful for Jessie... even though she's not around today, since here parents suck. She's the only person I know that consistently can make me happy. It's good to have a friend like that.

If this were not thanksgiving, this would be a much longer journal... but being the day that it is, it would seem off to list off things I'm not thankful for. Introspection is a bitch guys, don't do it, it's a trap.

Come play me in scrabble or something.

]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/15547777/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/15547777/ Sat, 17 Nov 2007 12:12:26 PST
What's up?

]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/14785053/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/14785053/ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 11:07:57 PDT
Lessee... got dumped, but got over it mostly. Got some decent stuff so far (Thanks Zan!) but most of my gifts don't come until the weekend, because that's when my "party" will be.

We'll see how the rest of the day is going to be.

]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/11879604/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/11879604/ Mon, 19 Feb 2007 09:47:55 PST
I'm uploading more now, and actually doing the flowers that I had mentioned when I was starting this.

]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/11728577/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/11728577/ Wed, 07 Feb 2007 21:37:09 PST
So I've been told that my photography (specifically some old pics I just took in my back yard of flowers and stuff) was pretty kickass. So, I ask you if you read; should I post some?

I'll probably post some anyways, but I want to know if people will look for it, or if people won't care, or if anyone actually still remembers me.

Consider yourself warned?

]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/8282544/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/8282544/ Mon, 27 Mar 2006 08:33:00 PST
The last time I posted here was my birthday, six months ago.

I've been lurking, trolling. Comments fly. I get watches, still. MT Wallpapers still seem popular. Maybe I'll start those back up.

I'm bored and stagnant these days. Should change soon enough. Hope to get a summer job. Hope to go back to WMU. Hope to start on a life I can live.

We'll see how that works out. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/6600308/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/6600308/ Sun, 25 Sep 2005 16:05:30 PDT
Okay, so EVERY day is the first day of the rest of my life, but still. 9/25/1985 at 2:19pm I was born.

Whoo. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/6021660/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/6021660/ Sun, 24 Jul 2005 14:12:22 PDT
What's the point of having this account if I don't use it for anything?

Anyways. Computer troubles recently. Nothing really saved from the laptop yet besides divergence stuff. desktop accessable but iffy, tends to die randomly.

stupid bsod.

so yeah. laptop is dead, with all it's stuff on it still. Hopefully I can get an adapter and fix it. we'll see.

desktop died and came back. added another hard drive for booting, primary hdd set to slave as a data holder. 80 gigs is now 93.

still figuring out things



Alright, here's my idea. Soomeone, anyone, set me some kind of challenge. I can't do graphics at the moment since all my proggies are gone, but at least I can write. I can't even guarantee anything good will come of it, but at least if i get some ideas, maybe i can get dem juices flowin again. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/5416363/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/5416363/ Fri, 20 May 2005 22:18:02 PDT
And this is a body.

Look at that. I'm a subscriber, for a week.

Neat.

Lighteria and I have been working on making pixel-art versions of every last weapon in .hack//quarantine, as well as the customs made for .hack//divergence, our roleplaying forum.

Once I get one of the classes done, I may post them here.

May.

Never know.

Foot! ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/4412589/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/4412589/ Tue, 25 Jan 2005 15:25:12 PST
Did anybody miss me?

Eh... No new deviations, no scraps, nothing like that. You'd think with getting a Wacom I'd have a flood of things, but a myriad of driver problems and frustration later, I've been left completly and utterly devoid of inspiration.

College is a beating, can't forget that. Monday and Wednesday aren't bad, Stellar Astronomy class (and lab on monday) only an hour in class or so. Lab sucks because I already know all this stuff, I can do it all in about ten minutes, but my group just HAVE to discuss everything... No signing my paper and getting out of here, nosiree.

On a side note, I'm not very good at spectroscopy, because my eye doesn't like focusing through the little tube. No biggy, anyways.

Tuesday and Thursday, those are the beatdown days. 10:00am, black american lit. The teacher is insane, she rants, she calls on people at random and verbally beats them if they aren't prepared, and does it all with this huge-ass grin on her face. She scares me in a classroom setting. She's nice enough in person though, one on one. I got a chance to talk a bit before class today. She's just a beast in front of 32 teenagers.

After that class, which pushes all the way up to the limit, i have about five minutes to get to my science fiction class. This one is a study in contrast. Similar nature; both are little more than reading and discussing literature, but where BAL is frantic, loud, and harsh (even down to the room; white walls, hard tile floor, bright lights), SciFi is the opposite. Instead of rigid lines of desks and a crazy teacher, we move all the chairs into a big circle and talk. VERY laid-back, we have yet to go all the way to the end time, and we only read a short story per day so far. Opposed to the 150 page book assigned the first day in the other class. Even the room is contrast; low light, curtains drawn, deep blue carpet and pale blue walls. It's a LOT more fun, but i have a feeling it'll be the BAL I end up remembering.

After all of those, i go right over to Film Music. this class... is BORING. I mean, i can barely stay awake, and after sitting through BAL, that's a FEAT. But it shouldn't be too hard to do. Most of the class is graded on reports from watching movies.

But yeah. All this just sorta sucks the life out of me. The only thing i have room for creativly right now is Divergence. Thank god for that, too, else i'd have nothing.

So yeah. Forgive my mindless self-indulgence, especially with my lack of anything to submit and my bleak outlook of anything coming.

anyways.

Evanescence, My Imaginary Origin:

If you need to leave the world you live in
Lay your head down and stay awhile
Though you may not remember dreaming
Something waits for you to breathe again ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3940075/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3940075/ Sun, 28 Nov 2004 14:13:26 PST
This is basically just going to be a repository for links to all my favorite deviants I've met.

First up is

Great CG artist, fun person, and let me color a sketch! Of course, my color job can't compare to the "official" version... But it can't hurt to try, eh?



Poet extordinaire, generally great free verse and other poetry writer... add in the Angst, depression, and horrid minset/life, and you have the makings for a classic author in 200 years!



Just found her yesterday, and already she's on my watch list. She's "new", I say that because she has little over 200 pageviews yet. But with the amazing talent (with mouse no less) for awesome pictures (LOVE the wings) she was an immediate watch.


That's it for now, though expect more to come as I lurk around here more. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3888603/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3888603/ Sun, 21 Nov 2004 20:51:30 PST
I've logged on just about every day, checked my messages, left a comment or two, but I've severely neglected submitting anything of my own for quite some time. Once I've slapped up this journal I'll add a piece or two; I have a poem I rather mentally stumbled on, a crappy digital photo of the colored version of my current fav (the version I colored, not the spectacular awesome version the original artist did) and maybe I'll fond something else.

For now, Rant.

What's happened since the last time I wrote? Oh, not much... The aforementioned poem... I submitted a few things for scholarships, including a bunch of entries (the max per person, 25) to a $10,000 sweepstakes... Wish me luck on that one. That would help a LOT to win.

Any sort of monetary help would be needed... College sucks majorly like that. I owe money if I attend or not, the degree just varies.

Bought Neverwinter Nights Platinum; that's NWN with Shadows of Undrentide and Hordes of the Underdark, for those two of you who don't know. I can be found playing that solo, or gunbound, most of my waking hours now. Forget life, I have virtual reality.

I keep meaning to go out and apply to jobs again... But every time I've almost worked up the will to go, my mom or someone else comments on it and it makes me not want to. It's completly irrational, I don't know why, but it happens. Wish me luck on that, too.

For those of you who are member's of Gaia Online, I'm questing now. Since I have a Soot Face, a character alteration from april that disappears if i change my avatar, I never wanted to quest for items... So basically I'm questing for gold, items, and anything. I want to eventually become a charity myself. If anyone's interested, here's the link: [link]=216229774#216229774

Any help would be appreciated... Wish me luck! xD

It's almost been three weeks now... Since what, you ask? Since I angereed my dad and he stopped talking to me. Yup, November 3rd. He kept bugging me about who I was IMing every time I typed anything. Now, normall I won't lose my cool over anything, but this just bugged me so much that I said something I don't remember, got up, and left. Since then he hasn't said a word to me, looked at me, or anything else.

Now, for most people this would be an idle gesture, something that would end after a week or so. But my dad... Well, he hasn't spoken to about 90% of his extended family in decades because of things like this... I think he has brothers, but he never mentions them... His brother at one point, way back like, 40 years ago, sold some of his comic books he wanted. He hasn't spoken to HIM since... So yeah. I don't think he's gonna crack any time soon.

Like I care, it's one less asshole to worry about.

Excuse the language.

I've been thinking of buying a Prints account, and selling prints of my fractals and maybe some other stuff later. But I want to know if anyone here would buy anything, or if I'd have to rely on prints surfers. So would any of you buy? I understand if you don't want to, or don't have the money, ability, or anything like that, it's fine... I'm the same way. But it's a question just the same.

On a side note from that I might, through friends of a friend, get such prints, or some of my written stuff that hasn't made it here, on a table at an anime con. That would be neat, not to mention possibly profitable and getting out my name. Thanks Cass.

Even though I'm in a ranting sort of mood... I'm not going to rant about THAT, Tina. I should, I almost have, but I won't.

She knows what I mean, the rest of you don't have to. xD

Uh... What else... I guess that's really just about it.

Wish me luck, friends... ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3599909/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3599909/ Sat, 16 Oct 2004 12:04:49 PDT
Alright... Where to start.

Here I am. Not much more to say on that subject. The last few days have been... odd, to say the least. I feel like I missed a day somewhere along the line. I dunno, could just be one of those random spats of apathy kicking in. (See previous journal)

Havn't been doing much creativity-wise lately. Started work on my new idea, Keystone Paradise, I have a VERY basic map and three pages of history/techinical details of the world written up. By the time it's done, I'm intending novel trilogy, based off the forum RP of it (If I can get enough dedicated players.) a complete Worldbuilder rendition of the world... Yeah. Maybe even some art of the characters. More on this all later.

Some of my favorite Deviants have been doing some nifty things recently. Check out ANYTHING by . Seriously, he's awesome. God in a Box is excellent, that is, if you enjoy novella-length free verse poetry. Which I happen to. But pretty much anything of his is awesome. Oh, and don't mind his self-deprecation, don't listen to him.

Also has some really nice stuff. One of them, his most recent, "Devil - Sketch" I liked enough that I asked if I could color it. Which I got permission to do. So, I printed it off like a lineart and took my colored pencils to it. I think it turned out pretty well, what with it being my first time ever really using colored pencils for something other than coloring maps for high school. The reason I havn't uploaded it is because all I have of the color version in digital format is a pretty terrible digital picture. When I finally up it, I want to have a scan, and maybe add a background of some sort, llikely a simple oval gradient or something. We'll see about that.

As some of you may have noticed, my gallery seems to have been flooded with lack-luster Fractal Art. Though I've recieved some nice praise from them, I'm not going to upload many, if any more. They may look pretty, but they're a total of maybe five to ten minutes of work each. I'd rather glean my praise from hard work on a project than the filler I do overnight because I have nothing better to do.

Have any of you ever heard of a computer downgrading it's hardware because it was running too long? Heh, that's my laptop, right there. After about four solid days of running, I decided to burn a CD. But, alas, my computer failed to realize I had a CD burner. This was with three attempts with Roxio. So, I try nero, since my trial is still going. It, too, decides I don't have a CD burner. So, reboot, and it's fine. Makes me wonder though.

"I wonder how, I wonder why, Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky, and all that I can see, is just a yellow lemon tree..."

My desktop is still sitting dead without a motherboard. Funny how that worked out. Wait, no it's not. It's bad. -drops it-

One of these days I should delete old journals, and deviations, and so forth.

Heh, I got home from class today. My dad, who's usually up by 11:30, was still in bed an hour later. Meh, so, he does things like that. Go about my day... three hours later, he's still not up. Alright. My mom calls. I let her know. "He was in a lot of pain last night." My mom, from the way my dad described it, thinks it's some kind of gall stone/kidney stone problem. She said that he almost had me take him to the hospital, it hurt so bad.

This, coming from a guy who hasn't gone to a doctor in 20 years, because he hate's the system and the waiting and all that.

I found myself thinking again about death. (see last long ranting journal, titled "Patterns in the void") Only this time, not mine. I found myself playing out scenarios if he had died today.

You know... I'm not sure how saddened I would be. For all that we live together, he and I aren't that close. He's a great guy, when he's happy. Angry, though, he makes life hell. He does things I don't like; he changed the password on the router so I couldn't get in, even when he didn't have a computer, or any reason to use one. He turns off the internet every night, sometimes cutting me off in the middle of things. But all that aside... I don't know. Some of the thoughts running through my he... ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3525213/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3525213/ Wed, 06 Oct 2004 08:53:15 PDT
Yeah, I really don't have much to say.

Birthday sucked. Got a hard drive for a computer than now we know for certain needs a motherboard. More money for me to not have.

Got a t-shirt, from Tina, THAT I love. -huggles his Tina-

Got...

Oh.

Right.

That was it.

Playing Lunar silver star story complete. Again. Never beat it the first time, though I had gotten tot he final boss.

Need to get to work on my classes... I have ten days to learn a whole unit in three classes. Not to mention two or three papers.

I submitted a thing. Go me. It's about time I started doing things again.

Off I go, then, I guess. No sense sticking around. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3431092/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3431092/ Thu, 23 Sep 2004 18:03:02 PDT
So, enough about that.

Alright, because I'm bored, I'll give you all a bit of an update on my computer situation. My laptop, dell inspiron 5100, is withering. The DIMM A memory slot has failed, so it's a 2.4 ghz processor operating with 256 memory. To upgrade it to 512 will cost at minimum $85. My dad's giving me the remains of his old desktop. Basically everything but the hard drive. Sounds good, right? Well, I'll want an 80 gig HD, meaning $80-90. The motherboard may or may not be broken, SOMETHING broke on it a while back, but now seems to be operating fine. The graphics card is decent if you like last years games. Doom 3, Halo 2, it probably won't run, at least, nowhere near full capacity. So I might upgrade that, for another however much it is.

Unfortunatly, there's so many variables and so little money, if I make a mistake I'm screwed. My dad decided to tell me to get a job again... Yeah, what he doesn't seem to notice is that if I COULD, I would have by now. But jobs are scarcer than anime at a gas station. And in case you havn't been to one lately, that's pretty damn scarce.

Well, all my projects are sort of on hold while Idecide what I'm going to do next. The current one I'm working on is a series of fractal arts, using the Seven Deadly Sins as titles. Pride is mostly done, I have to decide if I'm going to put titles and borders on them or not. The render took something like ten minutes.

The other six are yet-to-be-rendered.

Well, I've had a bad day and I have a headache, so I'm going to stop talking now.

Oh, yeah, and by the way. Two days until my birthday.

Go me. 19. Congratulations on another year of mediorce boringness, feeble attempts at social life, and general distaste for the human race. Wish me a happy b-day, or don't, I don't care. I'm not getting anything. $50 from my parents, which will sink right into that memory; $20 from a grandma. A gift from the GF. And as far as I know, that's it. I'm not going anywhere, but everyone else is, so it'll be a great day of sitting there doing nothing. -twirls finger in the air- whoo. go me.

Alright, enough of the pity-party. I'm out. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3328656/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3328656/ Thu, 09 Sep 2004 21:45:37 PDT
if you thought i was, move along.

no.. i'm entering the linspire wallpaper contest. expect many many entries from me in the coming weeks. starting tonight, with a slapdash mirrored fractal and pixelated crap i call my first submission. don't worry though. if you think the first one is crap, well, the best is yet to come. and if you think the first one rocks... prepare to be r0xx0red.

-shoots himself for using leet in a non patronizing way- ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3319637/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3319637/ Wed, 08 Sep 2004 17:39:02 PDT
As many of you can see, my gallery has been taking some random turns over the time I've been here. I joined DeviantArt initially to showcase my Megatokyo Wallpapers. They've been a project of mine longer than most things. My writing came next, hesitant, in fits and starts of disjointed snapshots into my literature career. My life has gone up and down, reflected in the care I put into my submissions.

Then I started to try my hand at other forms of art. The hand-drawn megatokyo Kimiko, for one. The "Don't ask" and "Darkshade" submissions, when I finally got hold of a tablet. My art is of varying quality, and varying interest. The wallpapers seemed to get the best response.

Then I decided to try my hand at fractal artwork. They seem a big hit so far, but for the most part they leave me unfulfilled. They need more. Something feels incomplete. Adding the celtic design to "Heart's True Calling" seemed to work, but I wonder, what else can I do?

I just got a program called Worldbuilder. I havn't installed it yet, i'm not sure how well my computer will even deal with it. I'm hoping it'll run fine. For those of you who don't know what the program is, it's a pretty advanced worldbuilding software, on the same order as terragen. The full, up-to-date version costs something like $700 USD. Quite expensive.

Some of you may be wondering, with all my complaining about having no money, how did I manage to get such an expensive piece of software? No, I didn't steal it. My dad for a while was getting a magazine called "Digit". Printed in England, it's a very nice technology magazine. The cost is a bit high, though. Newstand price is $13.50 an issue. But, they come with demos, and full versions, of software. In one issue, yes, you guessed it, Worldbuilder. Now, getting software like this has it's pros and cons.

The pros:
It's the professional version.
It's a full version, not a limited demo. No time limit, no watermark, nothing.

The cons:
It's an outdated version. Instead of 4, which is current, it's 2.3
Since it wasn't bought through the company who makes it, I don't get service if it breaks somehow.

I think the pros win.

So... I may or may not have any works from that soon.

Well, what does any of this have to do with anything, you ask?

Nothing, nothing at all. I just felt like writing a long journal, and my ujournal is down, so... here it is. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3254118/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3254118/ Tue, 31 Aug 2004 10:07:45 PDT
For those of you interested, if any of you are, the book is titles Patterns in the Void by Sten Odenwald. It's about the creation of the universe, the reality behind it, and it's inevitable destruction. The premise is a simple one where it starts; Why are we afraid of the dark?

It's a primal fear, an instinct that there's something there. Perhaps it came from the cave men, building fires and huddling in the faint ring of light it casts, hoping to ward off the predators with a fear of the unknown, controlled. Perhaps it's from an even more primal time, before there was humanity. The pre-human creatures having a glimpse of whence they came, the void from which it all arose.

For a dry, honest, scientific text, this book certainly evokes emotions inside me. I could read an epic sci-fi adventure and glean no more from it than a few words and a brief enjoyment. I could read a long-winded fantasy series, and perhaps have a moment of aghast denial when the main character dies at the end. But in the end, it's a simple science text that evokes the most from me.

In the book's final chapter, it's epilogue, Sten writes:

Despite all ofit's patterns, I sincerely hope there is something unfinished in the universe and it's Void. And I wish things were just a little bit different. Wouldn't it be wonderful if the spirits of the deceased could always be here with us in physical form, if ghosts were real and a dramatic part of our world, like a sunset or a tree? If after their deaths, you could still converse with the spirits of your mother and father? There would be no need for channelers or mediums; you could just call their names and the spirit wold next door would open up to you for a nice Saturday-afternoon chat. I have often imagined such a world, based on slightly different physical laws, in which what we call a spirit is just another special kind of pattern in the shimmering Void. In this world, telepathy and clairvoyance might be possible. It would not be a world so much different from our own, one would hope, but very likely it would be strange, at least to some degree. We know how this story goes in our world. If you introduce a new pattern into the world or change one that already exists to make room for something new, you have to pay a price. A universe where spirits coexisted with physical beings might not have rainbows. It might not have planets with gossamer wings. The color blue might be absent.

Most people are deeply convinced we already live in such a world. They will tell you that we all have an immortal spirit, that death is a transition. they will tell you with conviction about ancient ghosts wandering the grounds of a churchyard or a castle rampart. People of faith will tell you about saviors, and messiahs, and transubstantiation. All science can tell us is that if spirits do share our world, they have never made a detectable impact in laboratory experiments, which can otherwise sense the invisible activity in the Void. Ghosts and spirits, like the Ether, are ingredients we insist have to be a part of the conscious universe, but searching them leads only to contradiction. To quote Sir James Jeans, "There is no conspiracy of concealment because there is nothing to conceal." Even the Void, in its cloaked invisibility and with its hidden particles and patterns, leaves a much larger and more obvious footprint for us to find and uncover in an objective way. We do need Heinrich Hertz's "invisible confederates," but they connect with out physical world in what we now see as obvious and measurable ways, despite their invisibility. This is the paradox of modern science and ancient, traditional ways of thinkingm and it is the paradox that i seem powerless to resolve.

To those people of faith, never lose that. I myself am not of faith, I have no belief in a higher realm. To me, when I lay awake at night, watching the stars move slowly across the sky, I can see no future past the death of my mortal shell. An immortal soul, if it does exist, has shown me no proof. Everything comes to me with it's questions; Am I real? It's only be tricking my mind into some temporary conclusion that there's some possibility of immortality that I can even sleep, some nights.

People argue against immortality, saying "could you sit by and watch as everything you hold dear withers and dies while you stay whole?" I have no reply fo... ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3234782/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3234782/ Sat, 28 Aug 2004 20:37:20 PDT
That's right. whoever got the pageviews I was looking for as a 'contest' didn't care enough to take the pic. Meh. Not that I care.

There's a lot of... stuff going on in my life. And I have no idea where I stand, where I'm headed, and where I've been. If you can find me... Well, good luck.

Nighthand needs a friend. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3049017/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3049017/ Thu, 05 Aug 2004 11:57:16 PDT
heh, as if anyone cares that much.

but yeah. character, theme, color, whatever. their choice. for the 1000th.

and if the 1000th doesn't come through and get me a screenshot, then i'll ask for the 1001th, 1002nd, or 1003rd, so if you're one of those take a shot and have it ready.

again, like anyone cares that much. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3044693/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/3044693/ Wed, 04 Aug 2004 20:20:23 PDT
well, i'm off the job... turning in my uniform in a day or so... paychecks will be mailed the 5th and the 19th... it sucks having it split, but that's the way it fell across the pay periods... oh well, i'm looking forward to having money.

maybe i'll get a sword.

toys r us called me, they wanted an interview... but i was still busy with my job and couldn't go, they said they'd call back... they havn't yet, so i'm gonna give them a call tomorrow, i think.

i got fire emblem... nice game.

as for the two new things i put up... they're pretty self-explanitory.

umm...


yeah, so that's about it. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2915716/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2915716/ Mon, 19 Jul 2004 00:52:12 PDT
when i think in terms of only being there a week or two, i feel fine... but when i think of staying past that, i feel sick, and mortally opposed to it. sometimes it's almost like a premonition, and once i think i almost blacked out from it, it's that strong.

about the job itself though... it's a rent-a-cop job at the buick open. i'd say come see me, but i'd have to report you and have you escorted out. see, i said my shifts were from 6 to 6... but they neglected to inform me that they were 6pm to 6am. meaning i'm night security. instead of dealing with massive numbers of people, heat, and rain, i have to deal with small animals, cold, and rain. anyone i see who's not in uniform get's a call-in, and likely get's escorted out.

on the bright side, it's 12 hours of night, where i'm for the most part alone. i'll probably bring a notepad to draw/write, and get some good work done... they said we can bring CD players, which i'll take advantage of... i'll probably spend a bit of time meditating. the pay is good... and one of my co-workers is a kid going to my former university in the fall... another co-worker is actually a kid i graduated with and knew fairly well. so it's not ALL bad.

as for my personal life... XD

i'm single, lonely, like long walks on the beach, quiet conversations, and cuddling rather than sex. being a hopeless romantic, a libra, and a mindhealer... well, i'm wondering if i'll have ANY kind of long lasting relationship. of my three/four... none have lasted longer than a year. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2886128/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2886128/ Thu, 15 Jul 2004 04:07:54 PDT
i shoudl be happy with it.

but i'm not.

it's a crappy job.

i get to wake up at 4am, to go to a high school...

get there at quarter to six...

take a shuttle bus to the 'site'

then stand at the buck open as a security guard for 12 hours straight. no breaks. one meal, eaten on post.

8 bucks an hour.

that's the first week. however long it runs into a second, i do the same, only get paid 12, not 8.

bad sides:

-i have to get up before i'm generally even asleep.
-i hate secutiry, it runs against nearly every character trait i have.

-i had to cut my hair.

that's right, i had to cut my hair... it's short now... cut of nine inches.

for a fucking two week job.

good thing i'm going to quit after those two weeks... assholes.

on a lighter side, i've been able to get with a couple friends a couple times... havn't seenthem since before i went to college, so it's good... played some laser tag, that was fun.

to all you out there who read this, who i havn't talked to in a while... i miss ya, you should drop me a note or something... i like to keep friends alive. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2785673/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2785673/ Fri, 02 Jul 2004 06:11:50 PDT ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2670144/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2670144/ Tue, 15 Jun 2004 21:29:59 PDT
i havn't been a deviant here for more than a year, yet... barely half a year, even. all i've done is a few lackluster wallpapers, a few rants, a story... and somehow, with 39 deivations, i have 800+ pageviews.

really, it's odd for me. either i'm 'destined for greatness', i have no idea how devart works and am actually typical, or i again dunno how it works and am below average. either one of the three i'd accept.

so really... am i popular, or just deluded? are my wallpapers halfway decent? are my literary works worth reading?

am i really worth the 800+ i've gotten? ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2602091/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2602091/ Mon, 07 Jun 2004 04:40:39 PDT ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2546270/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2546270/ Sun, 30 May 2004 21:46:05 PDT
the fact that i go and post a nine-part rambleing THING, to see the reactions of my peers.

all of the ones i checked have been viewed, and have been downloaded.

only one has been commented on, and it wasn't even a real comment, more an exceprt from an on-going conversation with the person in question.

PLEASE, i implore you, if you read/download it, comment. it's not really helpful to post a possibly controversial writing and have it passed over...

so please, comment on them if you're one of those who care enough to read... ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2504988/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2504988/ Tue, 25 May 2004 11:01:00 PDT
it was a great distraction, and i didn't spent quite as much as i thought i would... -thanks canadian coinage-

but now it's time to go home, and return to THAT particular circle of hell... grah.

well, i'll post some pics of the very nice cosplayers, and MAYBE one of me if you're lucky... hmm... ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2420055/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2420055/ Thu, 13 May 2004 10:27:50 PDT
parent's are being sort of civil again, so i'm back, for the time being. i have to be careful not to push it, of course...

not many updates, just a story for now. but we'll see eventually.

anyways, i'm back everyone. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2323404/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2323404/ Thu, 29 Apr 2004 11:24:20 PDT
i didn't meet their standards this past year...

i'm dismissed.

what that means, is i'll most likely no longer be online. living, really, for that matter.

honestly, without college and without internet... i have nothing. no friends, nor any way to contact the ones i used to have. no money, no job, and a shit-load of loans coming due. basically... i'm dead.

to those that were waiting for something, or making something for me... i'm not likely to be here for some time... i may be able to keep my computer, but that will be a stroke of sheer luck.

goodbye, everyone... i hope i can be back soon... ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2257745/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2257745/ Mon, 19 Apr 2004 17:06:52 PDT
i've been in a bit of a lazy rut, here for the last few weeks of school... but the end of this week is the end of school, so i should be having a lot more time to do nothing, and a lot less time online, so i will PROBABLY be more productive. in the future expect some more megatokyo wallpapers, perhaps a poem or three, maybe even a short story or comic... perhaps something detailing my adventures at anime north... and that's just the first few weeks.

all overshadowed by the death of a beautiful thing... but one day it will heal, and one day i will find another... but that's all i will say about that. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2126282/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2126282/ Wed, 31 Mar 2004 21:45:51 PST
-looks at his to-do list-

i have a book report, a paper, another paper, a story, and short short, and a post to do, as well as reading and reviewing people's stories in class... and a movie review...

in short, i have a lot of stuff. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2065873/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/2065873/ Mon, 22 Mar 2004 21:38:32 PST
on a lighter note, some of my projects should be done soon... ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/1845595/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/1845595/ Sat, 14 Feb 2004 17:08:28 PST
Yes, I seem obsessed with Miho.

No, there isn't a reason.

I figure i'll do this now: Megatokyo characters copyright Fred. I make the wallpaper's with copy and paste, pretty much. none of it is hand drawn, it's all taken from the comic itself. Thanks to Fred and everyone else who has made MT possible, I love it and love making the wallpapers around it.

New things: Planned on my sheet of things to do are a few Divergence wallpapers. The targets? Myself, Asgard, Gingitsune, Main Plot, Subs, and of course, Divergence as a whole.

Other than all of this, there's really not much to report. Thanks to everyone who's commented on my papers, I really appreciate it. ]]> ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/1813323/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/1813323/ Sun, 08 Feb 2004 14:09:20 PST ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/1792601/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/1792601/ Wed, 04 Feb 2004 10:46:08 PST ~Nighthand http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/1757374/ http://Nighthand.deviantart.com/journal/1757374/ Wed, 28 Jan 2004 14:51:58 PST
So anyways, I saved the strip and cropped it, leaving me with just Miho on the phone pole. A good pic, if I do say so myself. But much to my surprise and dismay (well, not really dismay), the next strip had an even better pose of her on the pole. This too I took and cropped, and it turned out nice. Then I showed it to my friend Nikko, the resident MT fanatic, and he said one fateful comment.

"That would make a good wallpaper."

And thus, after two hours of work in Photoimpact and a bit of hassling, the Tohya Miho wallpaper was born. This spawned the idea to make one of each character. Thus Largo's. And more are on the way. Here's a bit of a list of the name and colors, perhaps in a basic order.

Junpei-Black
Seraphim-Light Blue
Asmodeus-Dark Red
Ping-Pink
Piro-Golden
Ericka-Spring Green
Boo-Brown
Endgames crew-Unknown
Endgames Largo-Red, probably

There are more, but I can't remember names at the moment... hence why I need Nikko.

Anyways, I hope you all enjoy the Megatokyo Wallpaper Project, I know I am. ]]> ~Nighthand