http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Ninako&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Ninako en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 26 Nov 2009 00:48:40 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/26967430/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/26967430/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 21:26:35 PDT I have been busy partying and vacationing this summer. after doing well
In June with classes I gave myself a break. I start school again on OCT 5.

I am excited to go back but one of my favorite teachers will not be returning!
I hope things don't go downhill...

I've just turned 24!! can u believe it?!!!??! Me neither.
But this year has been a very awesome year!
I am blessed to have a great job, awesome career path and a hot boyfriend!
Lolol. My bf has been very supportive and we just celebrated our
7.0 today! He bought me dinner! I hope to take him out this weekend.

In other news I still haven't finished two swords! I'm behind!

I am finally bringing my lifelong dream of going to Ireland to fruitation.
I have it all in a nice neat green folder! lol.

Hopefully once I start school again I will be a presence back on this site...

Thanks to all who support me and to those who stop by and drop comments!
Niña loves u all, be safe and u will hear from me soon!

]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/25067044/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/25067044/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 10:11:26 PDT only 3 moar weeks of skool left (and if you cant tell, my brain has exploded). will be taking summer off. I NEED A BREAK!! ;_;
Been tryin to balance out my schedual. havent been drawing 2d as much as i like anymore
but i do every once in a while and it helps me feel better.

i feel the 3d art has helped me with my 2d skillzors. as of right now, im doing uv wrapping/unwrapping of my love's office walls. and a 3d character design of Drizzt Do'Urden (R.A.Salvatore/Forgotten Realms) I have been working tediously and put long hours every night into my work so that I can have it finished within the next week or so. leaving the last two weeks to just touch up.

work finally has cut me some slack (maybe a bit too much!) and im only workin 3 days this week. my hours are still the same, but the extra days off are nice!! if only this rain would go away, id go out riding! ill get to do that tomorrow, hopefully my dad and i are off to Honda to get some oil fer my bike. i get to lern how to change oil fer my new baby finally! XD; put 3k miles on it so far!

in other news my other OTHER love has left me for another country. *gasp* so to hell with him this upcoming weekend when he gets to visit my beloved Ireland!! D<
no, really, i miss him terribly and life is pretty lame without him.
but luckily i has muh girlfriends to keep me company XD

I AM SO ANGRY! (wai?!) because i bought Oblivion Elder Scrolls fer my computer........AND IT DOESNT WORK!!!! im short liek 8 bits ram in order to play it!!! my soul died. yes it hurt.
so diablo 2 fer the time being until i can afford an upgrade. ><

Still saving up monies to go to Orlando in August. Can't wait!! Gonna be at the Hard Rock Hotel!!!! So we can party all night and walk back to bed hehe XD; then roller coasters the whole rest of the weekend!!! XDD. I DEFINATELY wanna sit at the pool thooo!!!! have you seen it?! OH EM GEE.
Still, We will be shy just a MONTH! of the opening of the Harry Potter theme they have been building! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRG! u win some, u lose everything else D<

hehe. but still, there will be tons enough for us to do. my bank account will be throbbing for the next three weeks but its worth it. i love mai hunny and this will be the best dual birthday extravaganza EVER!!! (he's 12th; im 24th of august)

but anyhoo. expect more from me...eventually. for now, im gonna go out and enjoy some fresh air. love yall!! <3<3<3









~Ninako

Art Block Entertainment

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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/24124058/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/24124058/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 05:11:07 PDT Fer the last couple of weeks I've actually been out of a computer. (blue screen of death).
Long story short I need to order recovery cds. Until then, I may only be updating school work....at skool. My dA account also seemed to have been hacked into. Although nothing seems to be missing, I could not log in. Finally, dA responded in timely manner and I am slowly getting things back in order.

New classes start this week, texturing/lighting, game design & play, and finally, CHARACTER MODELING!! SQUEEEEEE!

on a lesser note, I have been pining over my cpu's death, but dealing. But even harder, even tho I had spring break, ive had to work all vacation (the pay will be worth it) and have missed out on hanging out with my SO.
He has been busy with his own things. I guess its a good thing because we're both getting what is needed done. But Nina is in much need of teh huggles. Sunday needs to hurry up and get here!!!

So In case I dont see or hear from anybody fer the rest of the week, Happy Early Easter to those it applies to. God Bless and take it easy yall!

Note to self: Major cleaning up of dA account. Getting it ready for 3dstuffs. woot.



~Ninako

Art Block Entertainment

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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/23623884/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/23623884/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 10:12:09 PDT i'm definately feeling influenced, however. Yay.

I need to finish Jak and Daxter. Then start the second one. And prince of persia...oh gawd....so much to do so little time!

Been sick. Goin to doc's thurs. yay.

I'll be around...



~Ninako

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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/23268816/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/23268816/ Wed, 18 Feb 2009 10:13:28 PST (i could totally pull off Buddhism!)

To update, my best friend Jenfer recently had her baby boy Solomon. And he is def a fav atm He reminds me of a kitten when he cries hehe. Her second boy, Isiah, screamed like a grown man, even when he was an infant!! hehe X3 and I see little of Kaikai (her first).
My other friend Pyro's baby Kallie(muh god daughter) recently had to get stitches
she tried to help the puppy get a fishing hook outta its mouth, with a battle of tug of war, and her poor finger lost she is ok tho! two stitches! she even still wanted to go fishing afterwards!!! hahaha! i love that little girl!! <3<3<3

As for me, midterms just passed (already!) and now i gotta do registration. So things are starting to move a bit faster. I finally got my hands on 3ds max and now im starting to get comfy with it. I still need to finish my logo however....><

and your favorite ninja in the world has finally found what it means to be truly happy!

i am accomplishing so much. i am happy with where im at. with WHO i am. i have gone through a tough couple of years and recently ive been reflecting on so much. i no longer feel any remorse or regret. i did what i did because i was living in the moment. id rather that then have the feeling of "what if?" and IF i hadnt done what I did, I wouldn't be able to handle things the way I do now, more maturely

NINAKO GAINS A LEVEL!

"ding!"

haha XD

I also have recently found myself in a nurturing relationship with a very special someone (finally, right?). and i feel it neccessary to give him kudos here just because!

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On that note, its been a year since i last did this! so here it is again!!




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Open your playlist and put it on shuffle! THEN answer these!!


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Opening Theme: Sweet Escape - Gwen Stefani ft Akon
Battle Song: Criminal-Disturbed
Traveling Song: Much Like Falling- Flyleaf
Comic Relief Song: Teenage Dirtbag - Wheatus
Love Song: The Unthinking Majority - Serj Tankian
Touching Moment Song: Lips of an Angel - Hinder
Anger Song: Homewrecker -HelloGoodbye
Boss Battle: If You Ever Stop Loving Me - Montgomerey Gentry
Death Song: Do or Die - Papa Roach
Rise Again Song: Broken Wings - Flyleaf


My random loves MEE!!!111234....not
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When you grow up you want to:
Crazy Sheila! -Neurosonic <3<3<3

You think school is:
Arabian Techno Remix 2005...(Easy Action)


Your Family is like:
ATB - Let Go

How you love life is:
Writing on the Walls - Underoath

Your job in life:
Me myself and I -Neurosonic
(can i kill myself now? lawl)

favorite thing to do:
Never Enough -Papa Roach

You think Obama is:
Ordinary World - (Original Mix)

Your best Friend is like:
Hand In My Pocket - Alanis Morsette (this goes to Pyro Jenfer annnnnd Rakkie!!) <3

How you spend your time:
Break the Ice - Britney Spears (hawt)

Your personality:
Pump It -Black Eyed Peas

What your parents think of you:
These Days -Rascall Flatts

What others think of you:
Hush -Tool

How you feel:
Ecstasy -ATB

Your theme song:
The Fantasy - 30 Seconds to Mars

Your wedding song:
I think I love you -DJ Ranking

Your out look on life:
Pressure - Skindred (fek yeh!)

How you do in school:
Back When I knew it all - Montgomery Gentry

The kind of party you like:
Pirates of the Carribbean 2 -Remix

What your home is like:
Scars - Papa Roach

You... ]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/22711124/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/22711124/ Wed, 21 Jan 2009 10:39:56 PST
Mypsace.com/Ninako85
Christine Schongar @Facebook

I have many fotos up there, I love doing photography on the side, so don't hesitate to friend me

Facebook has more albums however...

Thnx!

~Ninako



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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/22593066/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/22593066/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 09:58:43 PST
I got to keep muh bike after gruesome work and yelling. ive started my three new classes and its fun!!

will be starting to fine tune muh game characters now so expect those to start popping up!









~Ninako



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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/22233589/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/22233589/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 21:02:41 PST
almtoface:

what am I to do?! I am so in love with my new bike that im willing to fight for it (considering ive already done all the paperwork, and traded in my old bike already!) ive already signed a thousand contracts thinking they already checked this shit out, and behold, they change their minds whenever they want.

Nina is not happy. Not at all.....





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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/22051912/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/22051912/ Thu, 18 Dec 2008 15:32:34 PST
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH~

On top of that, I was really hesitant to find out my grades this semester for math, drawing and anatomy, and short story. In which i have passed ALL OF THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XDDDD
MATH!

MAAAAAAAAATH! Take that you neccessary ebiil!


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!


You'll hafta excuse me. I have alot of excess stress that I need to shed, and i find the only way of doing so successfully is walking around guffawing like a maniac! Work will definately get a kick outta me tomorrow! XP


YAYAYAYAYAYAYA~!



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Enjoy!



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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/21612642/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/21612642/ Sat, 22 Nov 2008 11:05:47 PST Start with 100%. Bold everything you've done and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Then repost as you're __% virgin.

[x]1. Smoked.
[x]2. Drank alcohol.
[x]3. Cried when someone died.
[x]4. Been drunk.
[x]5. had sex.
[x]6. Been to a concert.
[x]7. Gotten/given a handjob.
[x]8. Gotten/given a blowjob.
[x]9. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
[ ]10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 91%

[x]11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
[x]12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
[x ]13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfrend before.
[x]14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[ ]15. Been to prom.
[x]16. Cried at school.
[x]17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
[x]18. Went streaking.
[x]19. Given or received a lap dance.
[x]20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 82%

[x]21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
[x]22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
[x]23. Kissed a stranger.
[x]24. Hugged a stranger.
[ ]25. Went scuba diving.
[x]26. Driven a car.
[x]27. Gotten an x-ray.
[ ]28. Hit by a car.
[x]29. Had a party.
[ ]30. Done serious drugs.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 75%

[x]31. Played strip poker/darts/basketball.
[ ]32. Got paid to strip for someone.
[x]33. Run away from home.
[ ]34. Broken a bone.
[x]35. Eaten sushi.(<3)
[x]36. Bought porn.
[x]37. Watched porn.(teehee)
[x]38. Made porn.
[x]39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x]40. Been in love.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 67%

[x]41. French kissed.
[x]42. Laughed so hard you cried.
[x]43. Cried yourself to sleep.
[x]44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
[x]45. Stabbed yourself.
[x]46. Shot a gun.
[ ]47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
[x]48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.(damn online mmos!)
[x]49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
[x]50. Watched an animal die.


PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 58%

[x]51. Watched a person die.
[x]52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
[x]53. Pranked somebody.
[x]54. Put somebody in the hospital.
[x]55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
[ ]56. Kissed somebody of the same sex.
[x]57. Dressed punk.
[x]58. Dressed goth.
[x]59. Dressed preppy.
[ ]60. Been to a motocross race.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 50%

[x]61. Avoided somebody.
[x]62. Been stalked.
[ ]63. Stalked someone.
[x]64. Met a celebrity.
[x]65. Played an instrument.
[ ]67. Cut yourself.
[ ]68. Bungee jumped.
[ ]69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
[x]70. Been to a wild party.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 45%

[x]71. Got caught stealing something.
[x]72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
[x]73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
[x]74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
[ ]75. Got arrested.
[ ]76. Been pregnant.
[x]77. Babysat.
[ ]78. Been to another country.
[x]79. Lit your house on fire. (not intentionally!)
[ ]80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 39%

[ ]81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
[x]82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
[x]83. Cried over a family member of the opposite sex.
[x]84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for 3 months or more.
[x]85. Sat on your butt all day.
[x]86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
[x]87. Had a job.
[x]88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
[x]89. Been called a whore.
[x]90. Danced like a whore.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 30%

[x]91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
[x]92. Been in a car accident.
[x]93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
[x]94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
[ ]95. Raped somebody.
[x]96. Danced in the rain.
[x]97. Been rejected.
[x ]98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
[x]99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
[ ]100. Been raped.

I'm 22% virgin......o.o;;;



















~Ninako


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-------------------------... ]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/21567489/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/21567489/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 14:32:40 PST
What is home? Home, in my belief isnt a physical place. I live at home with my parents, I love them dearly. I practically live at school. I love it here as well. I also spend the majority of my time working. But even tho i spend considerable time at these places, these are not, in fact home. Home is more of a spiritual or emotional structure. Or both if you will. Home is within the relationships of your friends, family, and your god.

You can say Ive been on a long journey, and have finally found home again. Its not quite the way I left it. Views and opinions have found considerable depth and meaning to them. Some have changed. Others have not. I have Found the peace that my couragous heart and mind seek. But I know deep within, this is only temporary. I am free-spirited and constantly on the move. God knows that I belong to him. But he also knows that I must see the world through my own eyes, trusting his judgement and knowledge. Curiosity is a mortal-thing...

For what is life if we cannot enjoy it?
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I HAS GOTTEN A 'B' ON MY MATH MIDTERM!
ANCE: :BOOGIE:

i are teh happy~

And in other news, I have finally created a new myspace account:
Myspace.com/Ninako85

stop by if you'd like!






~Ninako


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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/21296477/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/21296477/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 08:32:05 PST I'd like to hope so. For my words are wicked and taste of bitter lies and hate. There is always hate now. I cannot remember when I fell from grace nor how quickly or slowly it happened.
One moment I felt like the world was mine to conquor, and now I feel like I have been conquored. Never again can I rise and face those I love. I feel like I am a disguisting thing. I'm burried under so much emotion and pain and yet I'm still trying to run away from it.
I feel I have no where to turn and I don't seek advice from any. Who truly can help me from this hell I've placed myself into? Why do my emotions toy with me? I thought I had this under control and yet I do not. I have let things overcome me once more, and now I've pushed all that I love away from me.
I know truly it is not them I am angry at. Perhaps its a subconscious move to keep them at bay until I can finish this war I have waged on myself. Even if I fail in the end.
What war? As silly or as far-fetched as it seems, I can't seem figure out who I am as a person. I know what I'd like to be. It's a battle of good and evil I say, within me. It's a battle many know but since I have grown into a person that has many more responsibilities and worries, I fear I may be consumed by them. There is the person within that wants to do what she feels, take what she wants and not give a damn who gets hurt in the process simply based on the logic that she's had it done to her.
Then there is the smaller part of me I feel I am losing, that always cares, despite trouble, or despite the wrath. Im losing control. And im losing all that I was. The ability to heal. The ability to forgive and the ability to simply let go.

Why?







~Ninako


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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/20542742/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/20542742/ Wed, 17 Sep 2008 18:25:08 PDT


Hopefully i can get a lab in by the end of this week! D<
Until then, looks like I shall be getting a's and....T.T....
b's (boo! hiss~)
once again. but that all depends on my finals! i hope theyre ok. i can live with a c, so long as it means i pass! ><
i really dont wanna do 5 sketches a week all over again!! i like moving FORWARD!

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which seems to be my term of the month. its pretty much what's been helping me move...well...forward! lol. can look back, but cant dwell on has beens or what ifs. whats done is done and if im happy right now (for the most part, except procrastinating on that last lab!) then i must be doin something right! i can sleep at night!

for once, i followed my own advice (and realized how right i really am when i tell others that time heals all wounds!)i also have the tendancy to have that 'do as i say, not as i do!' moto about many things hehe; but hey! thats me. i try not to contradict myself and sometimes i do. im still growing as a person and finally, with the space and time to myself, i know who i am.

no outside influences...no pressures of being held back by anyone, although in the long run, its only myself that holds me back...but yeah, outside influences are key factors despite what some may believe (not to point fingers////pointage of d00m)

been workin on tons of things, mainly for school, got all my projects done a week early by accident since my mind seemed to have exploded at some point within the last month or so. but its back on track. XD

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quitting hallmark. bleh, not much to say about that topic. started workin at publix. i swear my managers are giving me a hard time since i kept sayin i have the experience. its not coincidence that everything that could have gone wrong with my terminal DID! but being the awesomeness that i am, i simply got back at them by calling them every ten seconds XDD. everyone likes me tho so i ares teh happy newbie

i was comfy workin register, alot of old codes came back to me (after 2 years out!) BANANAS! 4011!!! HEHEHEHAHAHAHAHa!
and the mishaps came and went. was actually kinda fun. i missed workin normal retail, and nearly exploded in joygasms when i found out they would train me fer customer service...........eventually....hehe. publix rocks my socks. so kudos to them. and yay for more moneys!! $.$


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on an even lighter note my heart wounds have finally healed for the most part. treading old territories and all that. stuff only my closer friends would understand (simply because i use them as my living journals! XD) not that i expect yall to remember it. i'd get sick of listening to me too hehe.

im a strong, independant person, and i realized fer so long, my crutch was not really the need of a SO, but simply for someone to tell me how well i was doing. which is dumb, i know. but when yer an only child trying to live up to yer parent's expectations for so long (and yes, even my parents stopped "grading" my progress once i hit a certain age) i looked for it elsewhere. its why im so happy with school. i love doing something and getting a reward (even in the form of a passing grade) back. it just shows im doing right. i know now people and relationships arent meant to be the same. im a dork. i embrace it. im ungraceful in many aspects, and im a perfectionist in others. im a big jumbled mess of creative ideas and theories. and im a quiet, understanding listener willing to teach those who need it. for so long i felt i needed to be one way or another in order to make myself happy or to make the world happy. and after 3 failed relationships ive realized that just isnt going to do me any good.

i need to worry about only two things. one, what makes me happy, and two, what is right. like ive told others. my reach can only go so far. if im not doing the basics right, then let me know. anything above and beyond that is yer issue. T.T (loogie!)

so until next time....
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Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum(Whats wrong with me?)
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum(Why do I feel like this?)
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum(I'm going crazy now)
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-... ]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/20329093/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/20329093/ Thu, 04 Sep 2008 17:47:40 PDT So if you dont hear from me for a while, yes, I fell off the planet. (Or at least tried too! D< )

Things are going pretty great though. A few things I'd like to change, but I'm pretty sure God will take care of them for me anyway. I am expecting great things for myself....


thinking on taking an offer that my friend suggested and going away fer the weekend. but i have my finals to work on! so it wouldn't really be a vacation like id want! lol


I feel like writing........


Dusk is approaching. The light is dying down.
The night things skip about the growing shadows.
I miss the sun already, greedy with its addicting warmth.
It steals away, unseen and is replaced with an evil grin.
But i cannot move from an unseen but well known terror.
it rocks me and shakes me, but keeps me in place.
forever mourning the only curse i have ever known.
this beast of burden has many names and many faces.
the night frightens me and i cannot escape.
my legs are frozen to the ground and my eyes cast glance
around the prison i have settled into.
i want to give up for i know the outcome of this situation
and i cannot bear it, but this day I was so close to touching the sun.
yet the sun has eluded me again in this game of chase.
i am searching for the means to an end in this folly pursuit.

if i stay here, my legs will grow dead roots
my arms will grow branches that will never hold the fruits of my labor.
the night things will tear and bite at me. destroying me.
but i will never die, forever alone.
so when you ask when the dawn approaches, why i continue
it is because i know the restraints eventually go away.
the dawn approaches fast, burning away the cursed night
healing my wounds and warming my skin.
i tear away in pursuit once more with the hopes that the sun will take notice and pull me free from this cycle.



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I knew it! OOOOHHHH I knew persistence would pay off! No, I havent snagged that job yet, nor have I finished paying off my bills...nor have I finished any of my homework yet this week or studied fer my midterms...(shame on meh!) but i have reached the highest point in my life thus far (zen, maybe fer lack of a better word?). Loose ends have been chipped away and I finally see the whole picture for what it really is. And get this...I'm smiling! XD
No one has a better grip on my life than I do, and only I am responsible fer my happiness. No one else. So I did what any Christian in the right state of mind would do...I finally let shit I couldnt change, go! RAWR!~
Oh, what a blessing that has done for me! I have gone through too many things in life to stop now. Life is too short to worry about everything. Lord knows I did it for so long. I can only focus on my well-being and my work. Everything else will fall into place.
So you may be wondering what triggered this different state of being within me. Well, it started with a simple wardrobe change. Anyone who knows me, knows I have the whitest legs on the planet, due to lack of wearing anything other than pants. So i decided to get girly, and wear a skirt to school for the first time since grade school. Yes this is a big deal to me so fek off! XP
Im pretty sure it wasn't all the skirt's doing, but I knew there was that undeniable bounce in my step again. I felt ready to take whatever the world would throw at me...(i think i should be a writer, no? oh wait, i am! XD) I felt good. i felt pretty. Thats all that mattered. And i guess others noticed too.


Of course, that doesn't mean that I'll leave the fate of my midterms and final class grades to the will of the world. >D
Im definately feeling a bit anxious with my life drawing class. My teacher keeps bugging me about working on my shading and ive improved slightly...but i dont think its going to change so dramatically as he probably wants it to. i has the stubborn! and halfway through the course, he NOW tells me to change my sketch book to a different medium(cold press or something). like i have this kind of money! D< well, at least he tells me my drawings arent bad... /slitwrist
Color applications...im a bit worried on too, since i cant paint to save my life...but my project seems to be coming out well enough to please at least my own nit-picky ways.
I have plenty to do this month, so I'll keep myself up-to-date:


Colors painting - 100%
5 sketches - 20%
Concept Thumbnails for Final - 0%
Plan bday party - 0%
Finish changeout at work - 100%
Two lab drawings - 0%
Liath Sidhe - 30%







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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/19844957/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/19844957/ Fri, 08 Aug 2008 12:20:36 PDT
My social life is a bit quieter now but those who choose to be a part of my life, are. And those who choose otherwise, well their missing out on a relationship with a fantastic girl. But people grow apart from each other, its a way of life. Im trying to build a stronger relationship with those who have the same loves in life as I do, and the same morals and goals. Im out of high school, so I don't like dealing with children. If I wanted to deal with kids, I'd have them by now. But I dont, And for good reason.

My heart yearns for what has been lost, (friends, love) but its not the end of life. I have other loves, other desires that will keep me content until these superficial wounds heal. Time heals all wounds, and those who choose to be a part of my life, will be. Maybe this is part of growing up and maturing. Learning to deal with life alone. Or starting fresh/over. I've made mistakes and now I have the chance to start a brand new chapter as a new person. I will try not to make the same mistakes again.

Although some things have ended, my short term and long term goals have not changed, except the desire to achieve them even more. Odds are quite against me again, and I find myself in the same situation I was in last year at this time. The only difference is I have school to look forward to. Its now a time to focus on myself, and keep on keeping on until I finally achieve those goals.

But enough of the pep talk to self. I am going on a trip with two dear friends of mine to Orlando this weekend! This will def help me get my mind in a better place, especially since I love the atmosphere of Orlando. I promise to all those out there who keep track of me to party long and hard this weekend and maybe get a few silly pictures out of it so you can laugh with (at) me! X3


And thus I leave you all with a song I like....


A Fine Frenzy

Stitch in your knitted brow
and you don't know how
you're gonna get it out
crushed under heavy chest
trying to catch your breath
but it always beats you by a step, all right now

making the best of it
playing the hand you get
you're not alone in this

there's hope for the hopeless
there's hope for the hopeless
there's hope

cold in a summer breeze
yeah, you're shivering
on your bended knee
still, when you're heart is sore
and the heavens pour
like a willow bending with the storm, you'll make it

running against the wind
playing the cards you get
something is bound to give

there's hope for the hopeless
there's hope for the hopeless
there's hope
there's hope
there's hope

there's hope

]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/19592124/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/19592124/ Fri, 25 Jul 2008 14:25:43 PDT
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I might not be able to respond to every comment up to this point, but I greatly appreciate the support I've received thus far here on dArt. Thanks to all those to stop by and check up on me, and those who favor some of the drawings that are my fav as well X3.

Seeing as I have started another semester at school, and work, I've been a bit tied up atm. I promise as soon as I get my scanner working, I shall share some of the works that I do over at the Art Institute of Ft Lauderdale.

In the meantime, please bare with me...I dont even remember where I put my socks ;O;

~Nina aka Christine








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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/19326645/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/19326645/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 07:13:15 PDT A whole month I havent updated.
Goes to show time flies when yer busy. @.@
As fer work, I had been rehired and work my own store now
I knew they couldnt let go of me that easily hahahaha!

as for school, classes start again on tuesday, but monday i need to go finish registering fer the classes.

on a side note, its possible i may be moving out within the next few months with two of my friends. hoping to find a cheap 2-3 bedroom somewhere with them. this means second job and/or new full time job. whichever comes first. time to saves teh monays!!

finally got my priesty to level 63. 7 more to go and ill be an elite 70! WEWT! then ill be ready fer the expansion! >D

in the meantime...working and wowing is the thing to do! X3
havent been drawing all that much anymore...been too hellbent on getting priesty to 70...ill do plenty of drawing in my lifedrawing class though :3





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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/18398540/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/18398540/ Mon, 19 May 2008 12:41:47 PDT ~~~~~~~
First off...I've been officially fired from Hallmark. Word of advice for everyone out there.
Do NOT put effort into trying to work for them. If you love your soul, dont become a part of them!! They work you to the bone for shit pay, put the blame on everyone who actually works their ass off, and, since I dont have kids, even though I have school, its not good enough of an excuse to leave work. They expect you to set up camp, with a handy laptop with internet accessibility nearby and to eat breathe think and shit Hallmark.

Understandably, being only human, I could only do so much before I stopped caring.
I guess they got the point that I was no longer happy with this rediculous company that cuts out our vacation time, doesnt allow us the alloted hours needed to finish our work, cuts our benefits, and writes us up every time we dont follow their ever-changing policy.But yet they send us thousands of cards a week that we didnt order in the first place (this is not an exaggeration people!). Set up giftwrap, order products, and when major holidays are around, our work doubles!! They expect us to scan 6 big boxes (about 2,000 cards worth) of products, while doing all the above, plus those stupid end of aisles, 3 larges pallets (as if 28 feet of holiday cards wasnt enough!) and OMG it doesnt end!

Well Hallmark, I applaud you with your fantasic effort of digging yourself into a grave.
Hats off!

And excuse me for not being a god damned robot and knowing that i do NOT want to work for you forever!!! D<

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On another note, i recently saw Iron Man. I recommend it for everyone. I dont think I was ever into the story of Iron Man, although the story did seem familiar (though I also think thats because my intro to game art class has hounded us about the "Hero's Journey Plot" seen in most any stories/movies/books.
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To Catch A Thief-


As for creating my own game....I have created these two characters,
the protangonist, Sayeh, and the antagonist, Reza. But dont worry. Reza isnt a bad guy....just misunderstood

Sayeh-[link]
Reza-[link]

**********I will probably be redoing these characters now that I actually have the free time to work on them!!**************


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I have jumped on the Caramelldansen bandwagon and am starting to create some gifs of
me and my friends. Here I'll put a list of those I'll include in the animation!!


Sammy-as himself 100%
Cottonface-as subway slinger 0%
Jay-chan 5%
Ninako 0%
Ninja 0%
Pyro/Cigarette 0%

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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/18171896/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/18171896/ Sun, 04 May 2008 20:41:18 PDT I have been busy lately with school and work, and I finally have a few seconds to post a new journal.

***I FINALLY GOT MY HANDS ON MAYA!!!***
:YAY:
I ares teh happy!

And i couldnt even make a sphere right.
:faceplant:

With time....

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On another note, i recently saw Forbidden Kingdom!
Monkey King FTW! omg i want like a pocketful of mini monkey kings XDD!!!

Perhaps if i have time, i could do a fanart of him...I hope....

In other news, waiting on my midterm grades ;O;
I find out tomorrow @ school......o.o
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As for creating my own game....I have created these two characters,
the protangonist, Sayeh, and the antagonist, Reza. But dont worry. Reza isnt a bad guy....just misunderstood

Sayeh-[link]
Reza-[link]

Enjoy Hopefully, once I get Maya worked out, I can start showing off 3d renderings!! Pray for me.....;o;






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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/17893579/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/17893579/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 09:43:17 PDT D). Busy busy busy. No better way to describe it.
Just as I finish one homework assignment, I have a new one to work on. Trying to get my hands on a trial 3ds Max, or Maya program to get into the swing of 3-d design.

Yuppers, I'm upping my skillzors to that of 3d design. Yes, I love cartooning, but I've always been stupid when it came to learning the 3d programs. Im currently in A.I of Ft Lauderdale in hopes they can teach me. And oh God do they hafta teach me....*cough* NEWB *cough*

Hehe. So anyone out there with Guru-level skills in 3ds max/maya, or c++ please help me out! I need a push in the right direction!

Kudasa...


Anyhoo, financial aid FINALLY is dealt with (wewt). Getting straight A's (wewt again).
I ares teh happy!!! XDD












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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/17199697/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/17199697/ Wed, 05 Mar 2008 17:54:36 PST Things are starting to look up! Got back into school. (Took a CPT test for math, and scored an 80! XDD)

Waiting for the funds to get into my next class.

On another note. I'm looking to get back into art trades again. Anything at this point is welcome, for I have run out of ideas for the time being. Bring your ideas to me and I shall create something fierce! (omg too much project runway).

<3 christian. XDD


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Art Trades now open!
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Looking to join more groups.



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]]> ~Ninako http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/17048012/ http://Ninako.deviantart.com/journal/17048012/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 19:33:16 PST


02/25-School councelor appointment to discuss classes, and CPT
02/26- CPT, Math test
Hafta balance studying, writing, drawing and work. More hours means a happier ninako.




Im getting all the craps I need done tho, so this is gewd.
Eventually a better journal shalt be posted...





BTW I have posted three chapters of my novel in my scraps gallery for those interested in reading my novel I always talk about, Liath Sidhe. Enjoy

Chap One
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Chap Two
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Chap Five
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2000+ :handthrustintoair: YAR!

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Projects:
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ISSUE # 1:
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Original Comic:
The Art of Ardor: Chaos Theory
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Pixel ID
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Fanart of Akira 4
50% done
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World of Warcraft Fanart 4 Contest:
Subject is secret! >
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Liath Sidhe (original creation)
Paused for the time being...
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Color warcraft art fer J-chan
will get to this eventually....
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Must periodically eat drink and sleep!!
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Open your playlist and put it on shuffle! THEN answer these!!



Opening Theme: One Winged Angel - Kingdom Hearts
Battle Song: Descending - Lamb of God
Traveling Song: Foggy Dew (MIDI version!)
Comic Relief Song: Teenage Dirtbag
Love Song: Tomorrow is a Long Time- Nickel Creek
Touching Moment Song: My Love - Justin Timberlake
Anger Song: Paper Doll- Kittie
Boss Battle: The Way I Are- Timbaland
Death Song: Home Life- John Mayer
Rise Again Song: Survivor- Destiny's Child


My random loves MEE!!!111234
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When you grow up you want to:
Alone I Break

You think school is:
The Sanctuary of Zi-tah

Your Family is like:
Break You

How you love life is:
Bohemian Rhapsody (HA!)

Your job in life:
We Belong Together (Tristan & Isolde song)

favorite thing to do:
Send Me A Song

You think Bush is:
From Yesterday (HAR)

Your best Friend is like:
Liquid Blue Remix (haha cottonface) cant live without YOOOOUU

How you spend your time:
Tumult

Your personality:
Cold (Lacuna Coil)

What your parents think of you:
Killer Queen.........LMAO

What others think of you:
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First and foremost I'd like to thank everyone fer taking the two seconds to glance at my page, browse my gallery, and the lovely comments here and there. I lurves you!
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Original Comic:
The Art of Ardor: Chaos Theory
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Pixel ID
Fanart of Akira 4
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World of Warcraft Fanart 4 Contest:
Subject is secret! >
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On hiatus, MUST BE DONE!
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Liath Sidhe (original creation)
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List one to seven bad habits about yourself...

1. I procrastinate.
2. I am easy to temper.
3. Lately i put too much faith in myself. @.@
4. I curse.....ALOT.
5. I nitpick.
6. No patience.
7. I take on too much at once...

Personal sayings? (Philosophies, self-proverbs, etc...)
I'll sleep when I'm dead.

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Pixel ID
Fanart of Akira 4
50% done
(will eventually finish this)

World of Warcraft Fanart 4 Contest:
Subject is secret! >
(will eventually finish this as well)

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List one to seven bad habits about yourself...

1. I procrastinate.
2. I am easy to temper.
3. I dont put enough faith in myself.
4. I curse.....ALOT.
5. I nitpick.
6. No patience.
7. I stay in my room too much.

Personal sayings? (Philosophies, self-proverbs, etc...)
If love is gone, it never was.

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