http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Nirvanangel&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Nirvanangel en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 04 Dec 2009 05:00:21 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/27665549/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/27665549/ Fri, 09 Oct 2009 10:06:16 PDT ..save this bleeding heart of mine.


but how to save it?
well, whatever, nevermind.


I want to print out all of my favourites and hang them on my wall.
Thank you to all the artists who have done those already- (and future to-be-favourited) works.

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]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/25195963/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/25195963/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 02:00:06 PDT _{..save this bleeding heart of mine.}

well, whatever, nevermind.

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.a véredben van az élet mégis fejjel lefelé a sárban végzed.



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So we're all out of money. So I do commissions. THESE ONES for example. for cheap :3
Feel free to contact me (:
//


_{and last but not least:
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]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/24175716/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/24175716/ Sat, 11 Apr 2009 02:43:47 PDT

dead birds
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As for that, I finally started with streetart (:


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]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/22237002/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/22237002/ Fri, 23 Jan 2009 01:03:09 PST
sick, sick, sick.


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]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/21183089/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/21183089/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 10:26:00 PST _{Think I'll leave it all behind, save this bleeding heart of mine.}

Well, whatever, nevermind.


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]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/21056631/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/21056631/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 02:15:36 PDT _{Think I'll leave it all behind, save this bleeding heart of mine.}

Why the hell has nosebleed(ing) become kind of a trend?
This is ridicolous.
Grow up and get an own life, kids.

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_{(Think I will start leaving a lot of it behind, soon, forgetting about this bleeding heart of mine or make it even bleed more.)}

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/20196299/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/20196299/ Thu, 28 Aug 2008 05:28:39 PDT Think I'll leave it all behind, save this bleeding heart of mine.

(I should. Leave it all behind, I mean)

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Álmaimban minden rendben
Álmaimban minden szé p,
álmaimban nem rettegek
mert nem látszik más csak sötét

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/17550991/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/17550991/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 07:13:29 PDT Think I'll leave it all behind, save this bleeding heart of mine.

People are still really frustrating.
But I watched 'Idiocracy', then it became better for about 5 minutes.

-

They didn't let me jump off the tour d'Eifel, I knew it.
There were some fences.
Anyway, Paris is really beautiful. (!)
It's 4.10 p.m. and I just got up.
Everything all messy, and I've got headache.
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TAKE A LOOK AT MY FAVS!

and:
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still nearly the same:
virag.

(And if I'm not available and pissed, you may find me in 's closet. But don't expect me to react to anything.)

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/17120092/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/17120092/ Thu, 13 Mar 2008 12:41:37 PDT Think I'll leave it all behind, save this bleeding heart of mine.

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Sometimes I can't decide wheter the others are bigger idiots then me or I am the biggest idiot of all.
People really frustrate me.
They irritate me and make me sad.
I hate them. I hate all of them.
And I'm just one of them.
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(Did I mention that I'm 3/4 dead?
Well since tonight I am.
A nearly completely dead drama queen. But not without reasons.
And I hate myself for nearly everything I've ever done.
And I can't draw since some time and I won't be able to for some time.
First I have to get alive again, somehow.)

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TAKE A LOOK AT MY FAVS!

and:
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somewhat brokened,
virag.

EDIT:

thank you so much!

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/16268452/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/16268452/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 15:14:55 PST also at the older ones!
reccomended.
(aber mal übelst.)

plus:
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.virag

___

THEY MADE ME DO IT!
tagged me.


"Tell me 5 Secrets of your life, that has never been told to anyone ^~^

Everytime, you have write your answers, you have to Tag 3 more people and let them write their answers into this Journal!"


1. I do like some pop songs. And some techno. And some quiet weird stuff.
2. When I was small I was afraid of squirrels.
3. I like shopping. And I like shopping shoes, or at least trying on high-heels...(but not really wearing them, just fooling around xD)
4. My bodylotion and my shower gel are pink. (Strawberry..but..pink)
5. I think handsome boys in skirts/dresses are sexy. Even if it's really not very masculine.

Tag?
Eh..
and
if you didn't do it already.

.

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/16071467/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/16071467/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 06:58:31 PST
you all.
.virag

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/15677215/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/15677215/ Mon, 26 Nov 2007 10:14:31 PST Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am taffy stuck and tongue tied
Stutter shook and uptight
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am fine

I am covered in skin
No one gets to come in

Pull me out from inside
I am folded and unfolded and unfolding
I am colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am fine

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(sketches: )
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Meinegüte, vielzumüde...

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/14585425/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/14585425/ Tue, 11 Sep 2007 05:55:53 PDT

sketches:


IDE KLIKK HANNA:

(és hűűű de gonosz vagyok..xD)

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/13776194/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/13776194/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 03:26:12 PDT After that I'll have a new ID, and hopefully some new pictures to upload.
Have a nice summer, everyone.

Sincerly,
virag.

Some very great sketches (and also not-so-very-great stuff by me)


EDIT:
Im 15 now. Wooooooow.
And I have to study. Arts History. And I hate it.
AND Im reading Potter. English. And its terribble, somehow.
And shocking that there wont be another one...I cant believe the story just ends here.
And Im at my boyfriends. Im fine.
Hope everyone else is, too.
Enjoy your life,
again sincerly:
virag.


EDITEDIT:
Finished with Potter.
Feel free to discuss the book with me

EDITEDITEDIT:
tagged.
1. Do you like animals?
yes. but there are some I HATE
2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
yes ^^ more often
3. Are you athletic?
I could be....but I hate sports. So, well, not.
4. Are you: thin, fat, athletically built etc:
I used to be a little bit overweight and I used to be underweight. Now Im all normal (:
5. How much do you weigh?
*coughs* One doesnt ask this from a girl.
6. What's your height?
1,76
7. Shoe size?
41
8. Girls - are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
I can be both (tomboyish, girlish) but actually Im just me.
10.How old are you?
15.
11. When is your birthday?
July 26th
12. Do you like to receive giftart?
of course!
13. Are you sociable?
I think so.
14. Do you have many friends?
No
15. What's your race?
Mixed up ^^ Well, mostly hungarian I think
16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
Im a girl. Isnt it obvious?
17. Are you single or taken?
happily taken
18. Do you eat meat?
YES. (I could never ever not eat meat. Id die. Really ^^)
19. Are you paranoid?
Of course.
20. Do you read a lot?
I used to. Now its...ok.
21. Do you listen to music, what kind?
Everything I like.
22. Do you play any instruments?
I used to play the piano. But unfortunatly I quitted...hm. Ive got no feeling for this I think ^^
23. How long have you been drawing?
Since I am able to hold a pencil.
24. What's the meaning of life?
Being happy

I dont want to tag anybody with this one.

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/13734661/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/13734661/ Sat, 14 Jul 2007 16:08:11 PDT Because I can't sleep but I'm too tired to draw or read. (Sleep just doesn't come.)

Time started: 0:54 am
Full Name: Virag Papp
Nickname: Viv
Single or Taken: taken
Sex: female
Birthday: july 26th
Sign: leo
Sibling: the worlds best two older brothers
Eye Colour: brown with about 2% green. perhaps.
Shoe size: 41 (european)..that's 8
Height: 1.76 m...that's about 5'8 or 9?
What are u wearing rite now: underwear and PJs
Where do u live: in hungary. and I hate it.
Righty or Lefty: righty
Any pets: A cat (two actually...and a dog. But I neither like the second cat nor the dog too much.)
Relationships------------------------------------------------>
How many close friends do u have?? not many
Do u have a bf or a gf?? Yes.
Fashion Stuff---------------------------------------------------->
What is your fav place to shop: Frankfurt!
Favorite kind of pants: Used jeans with big holes
FAVS----------------------------------------------------------
Colour: red, purple, black, green
Number: 2
Subject in school: arts and german (literature),english, ethic, politics
Animal: cats
Drink: diet coke and coffee
Sport: skiing, jogging
Veggie: Actually I like nearly all vegetables!
Fast-Food : Chicken McNuggets with sweet-sour sauce
Band: Nirvana
Movie: can't choose
Juice: strawberry and orange
Breakfast: Cornflakes. Chocolatecornflakes. Or black bread with cheese and coffee...or nutella
Perfume: Don't know.
Favorite cartoon character: Calvin and Hobbes, Jeremy from Zits, Cosmo and Vanda and Stan from Southpark
Have you ever ------------------->
Given anyone a bath: yes
Smoked: yes but NEVER NEVER NEVER AGAIN.
Bungee: no
Made yourself throw-up: Once but I felt really sick
Gone skinny dipping: no ):
Been in the opposite sex's washroom: yeah
Eaten a dog biscuit: no but dry cat food...
Put your tongue on a frozen pole: no
Broken a bone: not yet
Played truth or dare: of course
Been in a physical fight: Yes
Been in a police car: Yes
Been on a plane: Lots of times and I LOVE IT.
Come close to dying: Once I nearly choked.
Been in a sauna: no
Been in a hot tub: yes and I want one at home
Swam in the ocean: yes
Fallen asleep in school: Too many times
Ran away?: hm yes.
Broken someone's heart: perhaps
Cried when someone died: yes
Flashed someone: ?
Fell off your chair: Yes. In school. More then once.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for a call:Not all night.
Saved MSN conversations: I save most of them.
Saved e-mails: yes
Fallen for your best friend?: no
Made out with JUST a friend?: no
Used someone: perhaps
Been cheated on? I hope not
Done something you regret?: I would like to regret. Too many things.
First thing that comes to mind----------------------->
Red: blood. (I love blood.)
Blue: cold
Autumn: brown
Cow: milk
Greenland: Tabaluga. Oh how I hated this show.
What is.. ---------------------->
Your good luck charm: Lots of wristbands and a few of my necklances..and a little NICI cat I got from my boyfriend.
Best song you ever heard: Too many.
Stupidest thing you have ever done: Too many.
Whats your room like: full of posters and ALWAYS messy but NEVER unhygienic.
Last thing you said: Something to my dad.
What is beside you: Stuff. Like cookies. Drawer, socks, mug, mobile phone, papers, pencils bla bla.
Last thing you ate: vanilla cookies
What kind of shampoo do you use? dm stuff
Something that has happened to you this year: Had a terrible time at school.
Worst thing that has happened to you this year: Moved to hungary. School there. Everything there. And stuff...
Have you ever had------------------------------->
Chicken Pox: no
Sore Throat: Yea
Stiches: no
Broken nose:no
Believe in love at first sight: Somehow, yes.
Like picnics: yes
Like school: no. Unlike a lot of insane ex-classmates of mine in hungary.
Hate anyone: yes.
Do you/Are You:------------------------------------------>
Do you like filling these out: I can't sleep.
Do you wear contacts or glasses? no
Do you like yourself: no.
Do you get along with your family: with my brothers it's ok.
Do you do drugs: coffee..if the opinion of my boyfriend counts.
Have piercings below the waist? no.
Stolen anything over $50: no.
Obsessive?: in some things, yes.
Compulsive?: isn't it the same as obsessive? Hm yes.
Depressed?: Way too often recently.
Suicidal?: No, it's weak.
Final questions... ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/12965854/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/12965854/ Tue, 15 May 2007 13:40:41 PDT Nur damit ichs mal gesagt habe..
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I've got a new keyboard. It's silicone, like breasts. I can't write properly. I have to hit it so hard my damn fingers hurt.
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Have a nice day,
enjoy yourselves
and:

GO AND VISIT MY IDOL!!
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Sincerly,
.virag



]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/12229259/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/12229259/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 07:48:30 PDT And teach me how to keep it alive?
To survive.

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Germanspeakingidiotsselfsupportingmarket ing-

Lots of Love.

Enjoy yourselves

.vrg

(To answer any unquestioned questions:
Yes, I think leaving out the vocals is quiet cool)

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/12014620/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/12014620/ Sun, 11 Mar 2007 14:14:31 PDT
LOOK!


.virag
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Doing this again, but hey it was fun
Got tagged by ^^

The Rules Are As Follows
1. Thou shalt put your music player on shuffle.
2. Thou shalt press forward for each question.
3. Thou shalt use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Thou shalt tag 5 people and rain hell upon humanity.
5. Thou shalt bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.


How are you feeling today?

Hole - Celebrity Skin
-> "Can you stand up or will you just fall down" that is the only part of the lyrics that matches for me : /

Will you get far in life?

Nirvana - School
-> "What you believe in is just mad luck - no recess, you're in highschool again" I AM indeed STILL in highschool xD

How do your friends see you?

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Tell me Baby
->


What is your best friend's theme song?

Tocotronic - Meine Schwester
-> oö Yeahhh....Ren?! XD ()

What is the story of your life?
White Stripes - Seven Nation Army
-> Hehe?! oO

What was high school like?

Nirvana - Negative Creep
-> Yeah. I was and I still AM a negative creep...

How can you get ahead in life?

Nirvana - Pennyroyal Tea
-> ..."I'm a liar and a thief"...: //

What is the best thing about your friends?

The Beatles - We Can Work it Out
-> Yes...They forgive ME ...

What is in store for this weekend?

The White Stripes - Instinct Blues
-> Really?

To describe your grandparents?

The Smashing Pumpkins - Blew Away
-> Last time iTunes was better on shuffle oO This sucks xD

How is your life going?

Him-Wicked Game
-> oO Yes? XD That's the ONLY Song I've got from Him...I've got so much Metallica, Metric, Smashing Pumpkins, Placebo bla bla bla....but this stupid iTunes picks out HIM xD

What song will they play at your funeral?

Placebo - Space Monkey
-> "..ts far too sacred
don’t ever fake it
and don’t and don’t and don’t let me down
like you let me down before"
._.

Will you have a happy life?

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Californication
-> Oh my god I LOVE this song

What do your friends really think of you?

Red Hot Chili Peppers - We Believe
-> If this means that they believe in me, thank you..T_T
(iTunes I hate you oO no..I hate the shuffle function )


Do people secretly lust after you?

Coldplay - Politik
-> Guess that means no XD


How can I make myself happy?

Placebo - Every You Every Me
-> oO Ew...



What should you do with your life?

Adam Green - Emily
->...XDDD

Will you ever have children?

Metric - Combat Baby
->Yeah. ...

I'll taaaag

~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/11837569/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/11837569/ Fri, 16 Feb 2007 12:42:12 PST So let yourself show, damnit!

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.virag

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/11757214/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/11757214/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 08:19:46 PST

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Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song titles that come up to answer each question.
NO CHEATING.

How does the world see me?
Teenager in Love - Red Hot Chili Peppers

Will I have a happy life?
Protect me You - Sonic Youth

What do people really think of me?
Scoff - Nirvana

Do people secretly lust after me?
I Don't Want to Miss a Thing - Aerosmith

How can I make myself happy?
Infra-Red - Placebo

What should I do with my life?
Scar Tissue - Red Hot Chili Peppers

Will I ever have children?
In My Head - Pale 3

What is some good advice for me?
Outtathaway! - The Vines

What do I think my current theme song is?
There's No Home For You Here - The White Stripes

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Lithium - Nirvana

What song will play at my funeral?
Des Todes Abgang - Saltatio Mortis

What type of men/women do you like?
Hypnotize - The White Stripes

What is my day going to be like?
Wir Kommen Um Uns Zu Beschweren - Tocotronic

Why am I here?
Walpurgisnacht - Schandmaul

What will people remember me for?
Last Days - Michael Pitt

What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?
Hall of Mirrors - The Distillers

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?
Time for Heroes - The Libertines

What will this year be all about?
Level - The Raconteurs

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/11721045/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/11721045/ Wed, 07 Feb 2007 10:41:10 PST

The rules:

1.) Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.

2.) No time limit so have fun

3.) The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photo shop to create the pic.

3a.) Pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.

4.) The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A.)You are in the challenge
B.)What you have completed

5.) Make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic

6.) In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.



--- THE LIST ---

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Away
9. Cut
10. Breathe
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Spit
17. Blood
18. Under
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. War
22. Mother
23. Distastefull
24. Want
25. Lurking
26. Europe
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Urban
30. Rain
31. Flower
32. Night
33. Wrath
34. Moon
35. Walk
36. Precious
37. See
38. Abandoned
39. Dream
40. 4:29 PM
41. Citric Acid
42. Still
43. Die
44. Two Roads
45. Two Guns
46. Drop
47. Dirt
48. Young
49. Preservatives
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Old
53. Desecrate
54. Tower
55. Need
56. Biohazard
57. Sacrificial
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Desert
61. Fairy Tale
62. Voodoo
63. Do Not Disturb
64. City
65. Horrorific
66. Snow
67. Drum
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mislead
73. I. Can't.
74. Confrontation
75. Mirror
76. Broken
77. Testament
78. Drink
79. FUCK [if this theme offends you, you may do the alternate theme "Balk"]
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. +
83. Heal
84. Cold
85. Sick
86. Seeing Red
87. Hunger
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drown
92. Rape
93. Iron
94. Soft
95. Advertisement
96. Storm
97. Safety
98. Puzzle
99. Alone
100. Gone

___
cool. I'm barely even drawing. Hahaha....Got homework. Anatomy. Scares hell outta me, well nevermind.
I don't think I'm EVER gonna finish that list. As I know myself there'll be like...three pictures?
I should study and practise.
Study some shit for school, and practise for myself.
I shouldn't be eating and writing this journal.
This is senseless.

/
Enjoy yourselves


.virag

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/11106021/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/11106021/ Mon, 18 Dec 2006 14:18:00 PST I feel the question
Of your loneliness
Confide... `cause Ill be on your side
You know I will, you know I will

X girlfriend called me up
Alone and desperate
On the prison phone
They want... to give her 7 years
For being sad

Chorus :
I love all of you
Hurt by the cold
So hard and lonely too
When you dont know yourself

My friends are so distressed
And standing on
The brink of emptiness
No words... I know of to express
This emptiness

Chorus :
Imagine me taught by tragedy
Release is peace
I heard a little girl
And what she said
Was something beautiful
To give... your love
No matter what

(Red Hot Chili Peppers - My Friends)
___
[Moving to hungary..]
__
Enjoy yourselves,
lots of love;
.virag

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/10994187/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/10994187/ Fri, 08 Dec 2006 11:45:20 PST Your innocence is treasure, your innocence is death
Your innocence is all I have
Breathing under water, and living under glass, and

If you spin your love around
The secrets of your dreams
You may find your love is gone
And is not quite what it seemed
To appear to disappear
Beneath all your darkest fears

I believe in never, I believe in all the way
But belief is not to notice, belief is just some faith
And faith cant help you to escape

And with this ring I wed thee true
And with this ring I wed thee now
And with this ring I play so dead
But no ones asking for the truth, so let me tell you

To the reveleations of fresh faced youth
No one will come to save you
So speak your peace in the murmurs drawn
But youth is wasted on the young

Your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate
My love for you just cant explain
Why were forever frozen, forever beautiful
Forever lost inside ourselves

The night has come to hold us young

[...]
______
Some things going down, some things going up, down again, dancing, jumping laughing, breaking down again and again, crying, coming up, going on.

Cause no one's asking for the truth...

BDG!

,
.virag

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/10419979/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/10419979/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 05:19:53 PDT Drowning in problems.
Not drawing enough, but how could I?
First I've got to manage some more serious stuff...somehow.
Still lovesick, probably going to be lovesick forever.
I've catched a cold and I'm sick another, third way, yay, besides diabetes.
Really scared of everything.

Wishing you nice vacation/holidays and a nice automn-time!
( I hate the fall..)

[link]

[ Forever in debt to your priceless advice ]

Enjoy yourselves
& keep cool.


.virag

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/9896887/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/9896887/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 14:00:41 PDT [link]
the amazing:



and , well, not as amazing as the others.

~ bla bla bla.
Why do I even care?
Well, I don't. ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/9555160/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/9555160/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 14:07:24 PDT Im all alone, and I mean all alone, because now I have nobody.
I always thought I could be falling because someone would always come and catch me, or at least my own will would catch me, my own will to believe in things.
Now there is nobody to catch me anymore, and my will is just too stupid for it because it failed, I believed and I failed and Im just some stupid asshole teenager.
Im down. I mean, Im down to earth. Down ON earth.
The world moves on too fast, you know sometimes its just too fast for you.
And then you know that everything has changed. But you wont believe it, you dont want to, and Im still not believing it. Ive cried enough, Ive cried and cried and shouted at myself and who knows what, now Im really cool. Im cool with everything, sometimes you just have to face the pain.
See how cool I am?
And I will get better, I promise. Who I am promising it might be a good question, lets say myself.
As long as I believe in myself everything will be okay.
Ren is 500 km away. She is the only one I have now, and my family.
I really miss her.
And I will be okay. I know I wont sleep today, and tomorrow and I know that I cant listen to lovesongs eventhough Id love to, but its okay. As long as he feels good I will feel good too.
Ive only died a very little bit, and its okay. Im totally cool with everything, and I can face the pain, and I will believe it. I have to because there is no other way.
You know what? I really hate Disney for what they have done to me. Theyve made me believe that there is always a happy end. Funny, Im still believing in it, eventhough the unhappy end has made it, and there was an unhappy end.
I dont want to think anymore. I dont know what to do, I dont have anything to do. The rest of my holidays will be like a trip into some horror-movie, but Im okay with it, because Ive already had lots of nice summers. You cant have everything.
You must carry on, eventhough you cant. You have to carry on eventhough youre nearly dead, because as long as you are alive, you have to stay alive.
You have to stand up and face the world, you have to face yourself.
And it hurts. You dont know how much it hurts, do you?
Well, Im okay with it. Im okay with it now. I wont be okay with it when Im going to sleep, but Im still awake. Answer me, please, because I have to stay awake.
Thank you very much for reading (if someone reads this crap, anyway.)
Sincerly,


...ah. Megalomaniac. Why megalomaniac?
Because I still believe that there is gonna be some happy end, that IM going to have a happy end, that I can face everything. Oh yeah.
Funny thing, Im just failing. I absolutely cant face it.


___
Edit:
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I thought Novemberrain would be okay as a lovesong, but it has a happy end too. OH HOW I HATE THEM ALL. OH HOW I HATE THEM. STOP IT. STOP IT, BECAUSE I WILL BELIEVE IT, STOP IT YOU IGNORANT........................................

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain, ohhh yeahhh
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

OH YES I SO HATE THEM. I COULD BLOW THEM UP, I COULD ALL BLOW THEM UP. ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/9512310/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/9512310/ Thu, 27 Jul 2006 13:56:32 PDT I took a short cut
To be in fully grown

BUT I still can travel with some weird child-ticket, haha xD
Had an okay birthday, already got all my presents, still remember the stuff for drawing? <3
I`m still in hungary with . We`re always getting followed by some weird guys, starring at us and waving. We`re feeling kinda silly. Are our boobs so big or WHAT? -_________- Jesus Christ...........
Nah, well. Thehe. Going to upload sometime, hahahahahaha. (Supposed to sound very evil. Better beware.)
I know I`m silly, and I love it And I love all of you n__n Wehhh I love everybody, I`m a mentally damaged teenager!

Enjoy yourselves.


Sincerly,
Virag.

Sketchblog of DOOM -> [link]
]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/9354696/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/9354696/ Wed, 12 Jul 2006 13:23:11 PDT back from class vacation.
What did I draw? Well, nothing. Completely nothing, laugh at me. I didnt even SCRIBBLE.
Think what you want to, get better and better all you guys, get real artists.
I dont care. I had fun, I had so much fun you cant imagine.
And tomorrow will come for nearly three weeks and then my boyfriend and well, I dont care. As long as I feel good I so dont care what I need to do for it. Egoistic?
I hope you will all get better in drawing and stuff
Have nice holidays, love love love and THAAAAAAAANKS for the pageviews!!
Enjoy yourseves ^^


... ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/9148431/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/9148431/ Sat, 24 Jun 2006 10:02:23 PDT We have a sketchblog now.
Love us XD

[link]

it`s not fixed yet. but it`s cool anyway. HA~ XD

__________


Im bored and I suck because I dont draw.

A - Available?: For what? Standard question: NO.
A - Age: 13 (but iiiiin 35 days ill be 14! Im soo cool °__°)
A - Annoyance: intolerance, shyness, people who worry to much, people who are obsessed with learning, dogs (@__@ i just cant stand them), smoker, stores which sell those annyoing poser-clothes, lipgloss, people who think they have the worst life on earth.

B - Best Friends?: dunno <-< But..friends I never want to loose:
Sveta, Jasmin, Abla, Elisa, Valerie, Atiya, Sara...°_°
B - Bar: Nahhh....XD Chocolate? STRAWBERRY!
B - Birthday?: July the 26th

C - Crush: Kurt Cobain xD <3 Ive got a crush on my boyfriend, yes XD
C - Car: Our new BMW is damn cool. Ha XD
C - Cat: Miiiiiiiiiiine T__T

D - Dead Pets Name: ....Micó, Öreglány (T__________T), Macó, Folti
D - Dad's Name: László
D - Dog(s): My grandmothers °__° The only one i like.

E - Easiest person to talk to: Sveta and Ren o-Ö
E - Eggs: Love eggs ^^ But not the yellow stuff in there...eww
E - Email: Electronic mail, yup yup XD

F - Favorite color?: red, green, purple and black. and i like orange
F - Food: I LOVE EATING! O__O Chocolate? Strawberries? Ahh...Italian, Chinese, cakes, cherries, apples, omg XDDD
F - Foreign Slang: London Slang. omg SEXY

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Bears...please...
G - God: Mehhhh......XDDD And Sara! (Insider XD) Buddha? XD Dunno.
G - Good Times: Pro 7? Or was it Kabel 1?! xD

H - Hair Color: brown
H - Height: 1,76m
H - Happy: drank too much coffeine, so yes

I - Ice Cream: Strawberry and melon ice...and orange XD
I - Instrument: My boyfriend will teach me playing the guitar. If he is patient enough...XD
I - Idol: My brothers

J - Jewelry: 3 necklances and 16 wristbands.
J - Job: Wannabe-Artist
J - Jokes: <-<

K - Kids: Cant handle them under the age of 5. The 6 year old little sister of one of my classmates is so cool XD Im her "big friend" XDDDDD
K - Karate: sucks.
K - Kung Fu: fightiiing....those kids were faast as liiiiightning...XDD

L - Love: Family, boyfriend, life
L - Longest Car Ride: dont ask
L - Lipstick or Chapstick: whats the second?

M - Milk Flavor: Milk...cocoa? COFFEE!
M - Mothers Name: Margit / Gita
M - Movie Last Watched: About A Boy

N - Number of Siblings: 2
N - Northern or Southern: Go south go south go south xDDD (Vll verstehs Sara XDDDDD)
N - Name: Virag

O - One Wish: you cant have
O - One Phobia?: worms. height.
O - Otter Pop: ew?!

P - Parents, are they married or divorced: still married....hahaha
P - Part of your appearence you like best: my sunglasses, but theyre broken AND I CANT WEAR THEM ANY MORE AHHHHHHHHHHHH T___________________T I LOVED THEM!!!! [...] My shoes and my Nirvana-Shirts..my wristbands
P - Part of your Personality you like best: outgoing. shakka! XD

Q - Quick or Slow?: Quick
Q - Queer or Straight?: straight
Q - Queen or King?: Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody XD

R - Reason to smile: Life
R - Reality TV Show: Pimp my ride UK XDD I dont watch it but I LOVE the way they talk. I just listen to it XD
R - Right or Left: Querfeldein x)

S - Song Last Heard: ooooh o_O Red Hot Chili Peppers - Storm in a Teacup (I think)
S - Season: Summer
S - Series: Lost, Cosmo and Wanda XD

T - Time you woke up: 6.15 a.m.
T - Time Now: 22:03 p.m.
T - Time for bed: from 11 p.m. to 1 a.m.

U - Unknown: The sense.
U - Unicorns: EWWWWWWWWW! GROSS!
U - You are?: weird

V - Vegetable... ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8974747/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8974747/ Mon, 05 Jun 2006 03:56:41 PDT
(Red Hot Chili Peppers - Charlie)

Gotta go drawing now. Got Watercolors, two new brushes, three new sketchbooks and a biiiig thingie to carry my drawings in. Because everybody tells me I have to draw bigger. Is 90 x 60 big enough?
My mother is cool. I hope she wont buy me something for my birthday. That stuff I got is enough. Away from that I hate my birthday. I dont want to celebrate it and I dont want any presents. I dont want to get older oficially.
Im off, drawing, jogging, learning french. Did I mention that I hate french? The french people are total...sorry, but idiots, for making a language as hard as theirs. Why dont we all speak english? (Was that sentence right?XD) French is disgusting. I cant even spell it.
..
Ive noticed that my anatomy is crap. Really really BAD. Ive noticed that I need models for everything. AAAAH. After Ive practised with watercolors, I have to practise people again.
Enjoy yourselfs.
Thanks for reading.


When I pick up on that smell
Pick it up and run like hell
Little women send me some
Better get up on your run

Hu.
So much more than Charlies waking me
To my call and Charlies shaking me
Tell my story
Charlies making me
And charlies making me smile.
Woah now

My heart
Your skin
This love
I'm in
We don't arrive, without a suprise
Your right
Im wrong
Be free
Be long
Into inside, its coming alive ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8871132/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8871132/ Thu, 25 May 2006 07:10:36 PDT
It`s four o`clock in the afternoon, I`m tired, so damn tired. When I woke up I wondered if I was still drunk. Well I haven`t been drunk yesterday, I just...how do you call it if you`re not drunk just a very little bit? XD And you can still think....minimally?
Shhhh.....Nah, I don`t like parties. But I have to admit, the party yesterday was great My class can be pretty cool, sometimes.
Back to the fact that it`s four o`clok in the afternoon and I`m in PJs. I want to go jogging.....but it`s raining. I`m feeling tired and sick and everything`s GRAY. I should wash up and clean the kitchen. That`s the next thing I`ll do. Don`t ask me why I`m posting this, I hate today. Today is so....grey. I`m afraid of today, I`ve got bad memories. No, I`ve not. They`re not bad but the feeling I have is so GREY. And dark green and very frightening. Wet, but not cold. Glass and rotten plants and grey buildungs with rusty abstract-art-statues from the 80s. And the feeling that something bad is around...oh my god I`m scaring myself.
Ha~h...I don`t know.
I want to be a little child again.
I don`t want to grow up, to BE a grown up. I want to stop, right now, before it`s too late.
Right now I`m listening to Incesticide, somehow it isn`t the best. Once more Aneurysm and then away with it because I`m going to get depressed because so much has changed.
...

The last you`ll hear from me,
I`ll be screaming "handle it" ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8831073/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8831073/ Sun, 21 May 2006 01:57:36 PDT But my previous journal entry sucked.

1. What kind of first impression do you think people say when they first see you?
> Most of them stare. Or start giggling...mostly because of my sunglasses XD Or because Im moving my head to the music all the time while im walking down the street. But I dont know what their impression is. Perhaps they think Im strange? But if someone stares at me I start smiling and then nearly everybody smiles, too ^^

2. What's one thing you like to do alone?
> Music. LOUD!

3. What is your favourite line to say when you're drunk?
> I was drunk only twice...well once a friend of mine put some fingers in front of me and asked: "Virag, how many fingers do you see?" My answer was: "Thats your hand Atiya. Stop shaking your hand in front of me!!" I said this like...ten times xD

4. How many drinks do you need before you get tipsy?
> I dont drink very much oO So not many...

6. What kind of books do you like to read?
> I used to read a lot of fantasy, but I red so much of it that it bores me now...hmm...normal "romans"...I love everything from Zöey Jenny and Nick Hornby and Andreas Steinhöfel...and Michael Ende and Lewis Caroll!


7. Do you think you're cute?
> No. I can be cool. But cute no way...

8. Do you have a problem changing clothes in front of your friends?
> No oO

9. What do you eat/drink when you raid the fridge at night?
> Cornflakes. XD Chocolate Cornflakes...or Orange Juice. LOTS OF Orange Juice

10. Describe your bed?
> Ikea. With yellow sheets and a yellow cover..with some flowers on it.

11. Spontaneous or planned?
> Spontaneous!!!

12. Do you know how to play poker?
> They tried to teach me...but I forgot XD

13. What do you carry with you at all times?
> Pencil. I always have a pencil in my pocket..if ive got a bag then I carry some more pencils, my sketchbook and my diabetic-stuff..

14. What do you miss most about being a kid?
>”Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all” <- Thats stolen from Jule.
But I miss everything. I really miss...being funny. Doing senseless things, playing role-games or hide and seek...playing with my friends. Most of them are cool now and drink all the time..and smoke. And are assholes. We used to play football or run through the "villages" till ten o clok in summers.
I dont want to grow up >-< You got me sentimental...

15. Are you happy with your given name?
> No. My name just SUCKZ.

16. What colour is your bedroom?
>White. With tons of posters.

17. Have you ever been in a play?
>Yes

18. Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
>I believe inmyself most of the time but I...well...I try to like myself at least sometimes.

19. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
> Most of the time. If I want to be nice I am really nice.

20. What's one thing you wish you could do but can't?
> omg...dont ask...

21. What is your ideal wedding location?
> Outdoor...on a field...like Jule said, Middle Earth x)

22. What's one instrument you wish you could play?
> Guitar and...piano again

23. What's one language you want to learn?
> Perfect (!) english >-< English english °_°

24. Have you ever pierced your body parts?
> No oO

25. Do you have any tattoos?
> Noo...

26. What's one trait you hate in a person?
> Intolerance

27. Do you consider yourself materialistic?
> No..

28. What do you cook best?
> Nothing xD Once I lit up a pizza in the oven...

29. Favourite person(s) to talk with on the phone?
> Daniel and Ren ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8797699/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8797699/ Wed, 17 May 2006 12:04:45 PDT REALLY REALLY BAD.
Don`t want to line up all the reasons. I hate myself. I SO hate myself. Okay, you already know that. I want to draw. I want to write. I have to LEARN. I feel guilty. I suck.
Hate me.
I`m tired...

[link] ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8758212/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8758212/ Sat, 13 May 2006 10:51:45 PDT I suck.

I like tight clothes, so I MUST be a whore.
I'm not like everyone else, so I must be a f*g.
I'm overweight, so I most likely have a problem with self control.
I'm an atheist, so there must be something wrong with me and I MUST go to hell.
I'm a woman, so I must think irrationally.
I'm a teenager, so I must drink and do drugs.
I'm young, so I must be naive.
I'm rich, so I must be a conceited snob.
I'm white, so I must be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I'm really into my music, so I must be scene.
I like black boys, so I must be a fat blonde whore.
I'm into theatre and art, so I must be a homosexual.
I'm lonely, so I must just be looking to you for attention.


So what? My boyfriend is lesbian, anyway.
And I`m overweight and I`ve got a problem with self-bla bla bla and well...I`m a teenager.
I`m crazy.
________________________________________ ______

Here are the stereotypes:
I like tight clothes, so I MUST be a whore.
I go to Saint John's So I MUST be gay.
I'm skinny, so I must be bulimic
I'm emo, so I must cut my wrists.
I'm black, so I must have a big dick.
I'm Hispanic, so I must be dirty.
I'm Asian, so I must be smart.
I'm not like everyone else, so I must be a f*g.
I'm Jewish, so I must be greedy
I'm gay, so I must have AIDS.
I'm a lesbian, so I must live in San Francisco.
I'm Arab, so I must be a terrorist.
I'm a single mom, so I must be a slut.
I'm old, so I probably can't drive.
I'm quiet, so I must be a b*tch.
I'm overweight, so I most likely have a problem with self control.
I'm religious, so I must shove my beliefs down your throat.
I play softball, so i must be a lesbian.
I'm an atheist, so there must be something wrong with me and I MUST go to hell.
I'm republican, so I must not care about poor people.
I'm democrat, so I must not believe in being responsible.
I'm from the south (west), so I must be white trash.
I take anti-deppressants, so I must be crazy.
I'm a man, so I only want to get into your pants.
I'm a woman, so I must think irrationally.
I'm Irish, so I must have a bad drinking problem.
I'm Indian, so I must own a 7-11.
I'm Native American, so I must dance around a fire screaming like a savage, or be apart of a gaming casino.
I don't live with my child, so I must be a dead beat dad.
I'm athletic, so I must be stupid.
I'm a prep, so I must eat and breathe Abercrombie and Fitch and Hollister.
I'm a teenager, so I must drink and do drugs.
I drink, so something must be wrong.
I'm a cheerleader, so I must be a whore.
I'm a punk, so I must do drugs.
I'm young, so I must be naive.
I'm rich, so I must be a conceited snob.
I wear black, so I must be gothic.
I'm blonde, so anything that comes out my mouth shouldn't matter because I'm just a stupid ditz.
I'm white, so I must be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I'm pretty, so I must not be a virign.
I'm Cuban,so I must be a good swimmer.
I'm Mexican, so I must have crossed the border.
I'm not a virgin , so I must be easy.
I don't like chicken so I must not be black.
I fell in love with a married man, so I must be a home wreking whore.
I'm a teenage mom, so I must be an irresponsible slut.
I'm italian, so I must have a big nose.
My parents bought me a car, so I must be a spoiled brat.
I have straight A's, so I must be a boring person.
I'm really into my music, so I must be scene.
I like black boys, so I must be a fat blonde whore.
I dye my hair crazy colours, so I must be irresponsible.
I'm into theatre and art, so I must be a homosexual.
I'm a vegetarian, so I must be a crazy political activist.
I'm lonely, so I must just be looking to you for attention.
I have a bunch of guy friends, so I must be f*cking them all.
I'm Muslim and i don't like corperate America, i MUST be a terrorist
Im Russian, So I Must Not Like Anyone Outta My Race
I'm German, so I must be a Nazi.
Im a skateborder, so i must be a trouble maker and destroy everything.
I'm Peruvian, so I must not know how to make a living since I'm from a 3rd world country
I always hangout with my teamates, so i must be a stuck up jock.



... ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8727450/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8727450/ Wed, 10 May 2006 06:15:37 PDT Everything is just...NOT COOL.
No no no.
I ruined the math-tests, I had a black-out, because I made myself so mad...everybody else was studying in break and in class and me...well I so know that I get nervous if I study the same day the test is. Well, they made me feel guilty and bad because I thought I hadn`t studied enough so I looked through the whole stuff again and I KNEW IT and then the test came aaaaand...I don`t care.
Sunshine every day and night.
The sun LOVES laughing at us. It`s so damn hot outside, but I hate putting on tight shirts and stuff...because everybody in my class got thinner but ME. I feel fat. I know it`s unfair because there are so many people who weigh a lot more...but I weigh a lot more than so many people, too!!
I hate myself. Really really really. GAHHHHHH....So sorry, this will go away soon. At least I hope so.
I also hate myself for beeing so jealous and bad at drawing last time...if I would spend more time for it...more time for learning shading and stuff, I`d get better. But NO, I`m just making myself mad because of this, too.
New topic. New topic because I will start crying.
And I`m so..BAD. I had a really bad day and a girl from my parralel class who copies my style since some time...(she does full punk. I`m not a punk, but anyway, everybody says shes soooo cool because she dresses so..unnormal. Nobody says that to ME. Except of one girl in my class. <3)
...well she bought the same glasses as I have oO Not the same, but also HUGE, UGLY glasses. And I`m the only one who weared them...because they were so ugly that they looked cool the same time. Everybody laughed at me because of my damn glasses, now she got them aaaaand....copycat.
Nah. So I got mad. I bought myself a T-Shirt at H&M (everybody goes shopping there, because they have so cool "outsider"-stuff. Retro and rock and emo and punk and everything. It`s just fashion..damn.), it`s white with black points, and I wrote POSER on it.
She and her boyfriend saw it the next day, and now they hate me and they always look at me like I`d be a stupid bug. Like I`d be the poser and so....I can`t describe it. I`m so sad,
because I`M SUCH AN ASSHOLE!!!
I shouldn`t have done that...it was bad. I don`t think that I`m more an "outsider" then she is...
But I can`t just go there and say sorry because what if she says that she didn`t notice it and she didn`t feel that I meant her?
...Hate me, my friend.
Well?
I also want to admit, that....
~neon-tube `s parents are UNTOLERANT, IGNORANT and just...CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She has no more internet, and her parents do not trust her and I don`t want to go into detail but...they`re insane. I`m really sorry, I can understand it but there`s one point somewhere where you can say It`s enough now, and they have left the point FAR BEHIND.
THEY CAN`T TAKE AWAY MY BEST FRIEND!!!!

I will draw more.
I promise. I will practice shading more and I will paint with acryl and everything. I want to become a good artist again!!!





Appearance
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.


Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together. (Still...haha)
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.


School/Work
[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8611909/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8611909/ Fri, 28 Apr 2006 13:10:35 PDT But I`m way too tired.
And way too dumb, sadly.
Yesterday I rescued a sqirrel, I think. That was pretty...nice. Rescuing some little fluffy (okay it wasn`t fluffy at all, it was dirty and full of mud but who care) animal-thingie.
Today our school-paper was selled. There`s a comic on the last two sites which I made and it`s a CATASTROPHY. It`s just......EWWWW. No more comments to THIS -.-
So...yes.
Math-test on tuesday, I`m such a dead girl.
Theheee....oh my god, I draw so much recently but I can`t upload my drawings because a) they are doodles. Nice, but just doodles b) they are pictures of ME which I draw in the bathroom...out of the mirror. And I don`t want to upload some stupid sketches feautirung me in bra and jeans, no, thanks c) they are lost...the pictures. Or I forget about wanting to upload them and they get lost (this sentence is SO not right. Blah, anyway..)
So...nanana....One more scrap and one picture.
I think there will be some more upcoming.
Thanks for so many pageviews oO
Ah. And I`ve got a webcam-pic now. It`s taken with my mobile xD

Enjoy yourselfs.
If you want to check out my friends` galleries, well, down there left corner there`s a list of people watching me. Click them, please.


...
Some special thanks to...



(She owes me two pictures...oh well, I owe her two, too XD) ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8517406/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8517406/ Wed, 19 Apr 2006 05:00:20 PDT What am I watching? Nothing.
What am I reading? The stuff I`m writing, haha. Nah...I don`t know.


I just got back from feeding the cat and bringing in the groceries from the car.
I did some thinking while walking through our garden, so now I`m gonna annoy you with it. All Apologies,
as you may have noticed, I`m back.
Sadly, my english didn`t get any better, but I trained saying "dad" the english way, so if you hear me saying it, it sounds quiet cool.
As far, my holidays were really really beautiful and nice and great and sunny and everything you could wish for.
Nowadays, somehow they aren`t as great. I`d really love blaming Destiny`s Child for it, but that would be just unfair. Then I could blame nearly everybody for it, especially Destiny`s Child, oh and Jennifer Lopez and Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera and Shakira and who they all might be. I could blame the TV, I could blame Disney (no really, that would be cool) and Hollywood.
You know what the point is, don`t you?
Going after Einstein, or whoever said it, everything would be relativ. Actually, everything IS relativ, but we all have the same point of view, so let`s just throw the relativity away. Nobody can tell you that it isn`t important how you`re looking. Really nobody, don`t let them fool you. At least I haven`t met anybody who could have said "Hey, everything`s allright, you could walk beside me completely naked or act like an idiot, it wouldn`t bother me." Or something like that. They might not admit it, but I think everybody says it`s important how you look.
If you find somebody who REALLY doesn`t care about looks at all, squeeze him and go yelling: "OMG YOU ARE GOD, AREN`T YOU???" Do it for me, please.
I don`t mind being and beeing seen with somebody who doesn`t look like Britney Spears. I don`t mind it, because I believe in the relativity. The only problem with me is, that I cut MYSELF out of it.
I`m trying not to make it. I mean, it`s really silly.
You have to admit it. It`s really really idiotic.
So now that`s my problem, being such an idiot.
(Great, my mum wanted me to do something, now I`ve totally lost the line and forgot what I wanted to write)
So...yes. This journal is senseless. Try to figure me out, haha. I swear, I`m trying to be better, going all :"What do I care what the others say?! I love myself!" Uh...actually, that`s weird, because I really don`t care what the others say. I care for what I say. But isn`t my opinion manipulated by the others? Now you have the reason why I want to blow up Disney and poison Destiny`s Child.
Sadly, I won`t do it, because I`m being all good.
And I can`t run around poisoning everybody, because first I have to kill my maths-teacher.
I just wanted to say that I love all of you, and everybody is great. Even Destiny`s Child are great.
This journal is all senseless. Have I already said it? I apologize.
I did also some other thinking, mostly of art and maths and the sense of this chaos, but sadly I`m just a freaked out teenager without any smart thoughts, so nothing came out.
It would be really stupid to change the world, because we may perhaps turn it better, but someone would be always distreated. (I forgot my little german-english dictionary. Damn.)
Aww I have confused myself again. Really, I should stop thinking, and I should stop writing.
I`d enjoy comments to this journal.

Heyho, I`m also UPLOADING. Wow. I`ve got plenty of pics and already 1100 pageviews. Thats soooo nice. THANKS, EVERYBODY.
So, uploading?
Yeah, look at scraps and leave also comments there, please, because mostly I`m just doing scraps.
No real pictures, so sorry.
I got tired from writing all this. Going to check my sugar now, or how it`s called in english.
Well, perhaps one day I won`t be thinking of so much garbage any more, because I`m gonna be a famous artist. Everybody will love me (or they will hate me) and then I`ll be going mad and cut myself a piece off my ear, or I will shoot myself into the head. (Somebody will shoot me?)
I`m prefering the the ear. And then I will end up in a hospital or something, being all crazy. Yay, cool.
Love and peace and fun, everyone.
Enjoy yourselfs.

http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8363571/ Tue, 04 Apr 2006 12:43:39 PDT My grammar is terrible, sorry I`m really tired, and I still have to clean up my room. And draw. Stupid school paper. Tomorrow suckz already, I`m stressed.
Hell.
Anybody heard Dani California yet? Yay! What a great song! RHCP have better ones, but it`s also very cool.
So, where was I? Oh yes, easter.
This will be my last journey for like 2 weeks, I think. (Probably that`s it.) Stupid to write these things here...uhm...thanks to my great DA friends, anyway for the nice comments and the loooots of pageviews ^^
Sorry that I`m not uploading anything new, like another stupid portrait of Kurt Cobain or something because today (or tomorrow) will be what we germans call his "Todestag" : / Makes me a bit depressed....12 years! But okay, we can`t change it anymore so let`s just remember him as one of the greatest musicians ever lived.
I honestly apologize for my english today.
So...at least, my easter holidays will be cool, I suppose...
oh how boring this is. Bla Bla Bla, writing senseless stuff.
Thanks you, all you great guys.
Enjoy yourselves!



California, rest in peace!
This stupid song is stuck in my ears.

Adios, Amigos ^^ ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8303764/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8303764/ Wed, 29 Mar 2006 10:53:31 PST tagged me! @__@


Name 3 things in your pockets:
1. Pen
2. bus-ticket
3. perhaps my keys. if not they`re lost somewhere in the mystery of my room again

Name 3 things you always wear:
1. bracelets
2. two (or at least one) necklance
3. thats it oö

Name 3 things you do when you are really stressed:
1. I`m acting really annoyed
2. I turn on some music LOUD
3. I trie to solve my problems. Haha. ME.

Name 3 favorite songs right now:
1. Heart Shaped Box (Nirvana)
2. Hotel Yorba (JESUS! IT JUST WON`T GO OUT OF MY HEAD!)
3. Here she comes now (Nirvana)
And SO MANY others. Insane.


Name 3 favorite places to shop:
H&M. Even if it`s THE poserstore.
Zeil Frankfurt XD With my stupid friends
Düsseldorf n_n

Name 3 places you go to on a daily basis:
1. School.
2. Home?
3. Well....home.

Name 3 things you like to do:
1. Listening to music REALLY loud
2. drawing drawing drawing
3. being with someone i love/like

Name 3 most valuable possessions:
1. My Loved
2. My cat
3. My...well....music?

Name 3 favorite fruits:
1. Strawberry
2. Cherry
3. Peach

Name 3 things you are addicted to:
1. My Love(s) <.< That means my boyfriend, my friends, my great family...
2. Music
3. Justice. I HATE it if there isn`t any justice where I am.

Name 3 favorite hobbies:
1. Drawing
2. Being with friends
3. Trying to find the worldsense. Haha...well...dunno

Name 3 career choices:
1. Artist
2. Rockstar- Wife
3. Someone who helps other people

Name 3 goals in 2006:
1. Daniel over here ^^
2. Uhh...classbest in arts and english? @__@
3. I want to be thinner. But I`m not. YET.

Name 3 plans for next week:
Next week? Uh well...Saturday I`m going to buy new shoes XD
Then I will make some T-Shirts...
and I plan being HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY n__n

Three Names You Go By:
Virag
Viv
Kurve XD (virage in french: curve)

Three Things That Scare You:
1. Horror movies (YES!!)
2. nightmares
3. being alone

Three of Your Everyday Essentials:
1. Orange juice
2. a pencil and some paper
3. music!

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. my green skirt
2. a white blouse with tow buttons on it
3. a black silk tie from my dad XD (No. I`m NOT an Avril Lavigne Fan. EWWW!!)

Three of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists:
1. Nirvana
2. Red Hot Chili Peppers
3. White Stripes

Three Things You Want in a Relationship (OTHER THAN Love):
1. tolerance
2. privacity
3. understanding


Two Truths and a Lie (in no particular order):
1. I`m thin
2. I suck at arts
3. I love the smell of my shampoo

Three PHYSICAL Things about the Opposite Sex that Appeal to You:
1. Face o_ö
2. The eyes
3. the way he moves and acts

Three Places You Want to go on Vacation:
1. Ireland
2. Somewhere exciting
3. Somewhere even more exciting. Ah no, England

Three things you want to do before you die:
1. Find this stupid world-sense
2. Have kids
3. Travel around the world

Well....because Ren-Darling is already tagged Ill taaag.... aaand and n__n ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8294407/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8294407/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 12:09:16 PST Morphin`s best friend:


Suzy-Lee (MSN ist am sterben, Latein am nerven und ich am genervt sein) says:
forever and ever and ever and eveeer...wie ron und harry n__n

Suzy-Lee (MSN ist am sterben, Latein am nerven und ich am genervt sein) says:
ich bin ron XD ich bin der blödere von uns beiden XDDD (außer du magst harry nicht oÖ)

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
ich mag harry nich °-° hast du ne narbe am kopf? XDD
rupeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrt *-* da fällt mir ein, dass die deppen das autogramm immer noch nich geschickt haben +__+

Suzy-Lee (MSN ist am sterben, Latein am nerven und ich am genervt sein) says:
ich hab ne narbe am knie XD naja dann halt nich harry und ron....umm......wen gibts noch? XD

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
ähm ich zähl meine narben jetz nich auf °v°;;;;

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
hermine XDDDDDDDDDDDD;

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
sirius *________* un remus? XD

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
oder james XD

Suzy-Lee (MSN ist am sterben, Latein am nerven und ich am genervt sein) says:
hermine und ron? XDDDDDDD nein jule killt mich XDDD

Suzy-Lee (MSN ist am sterben, Latein am nerven und ich am genervt sein) says:
sirisu und james n__n ich bin arrogant genug für beide XDDD

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
Yo *__________________*

Suzy-Lee (MSN ist am sterben, Latein am nerven und ich am genervt sein) says:
kloppen wir uns drum wer sirius sein darf XDDDDDDDD ne ich verzichte n__n

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
oh danke *///////////////////* *sich betatsch* so fühlt sich also sirius an o///////o ... XDDDD

Suzy-Lee (MSN ist am sterben, Latein am nerven und ich am genervt sein) says:
*dich anstarr* *___________________________* aiiiee................muss.......standhaft.....bleiben.............. ____________

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
O___O;??
*hose hochreiß* omg wie peinlich +__+; *unterbuchse rausfisch un auch hoch zieh*

Suzy-Lee (MSN ist am sterben, Latein am nerven und ich am genervt sein) says:
@____________________@ *muahahahah* iiiiiiiich bin dein bester freund ich kenne dich *teuflisch grins* XDDDD

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
O__O aaaah du kennst IHN T__T

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
muss off °^°

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
[(L)] LY

Suzy-Lee (MSN ist am sterben, Latein am nerven und ich am genervt sein) says:
LY2 T__T

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
T.T morgen komm ich bestimmt nach nachhilfe nochma on. ich werd extra den bus beschleunigen indem ich hinten handstand mache O__O

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
ich kann zwar keinen handstand aber wurst XD

Suzy-Lee (MSN ist am sterben, Latein am nerven und ich am genervt sein) says:
das beschleunigt den bus? XDDD das verursacht wohl eher einen unfall. XD Busfahrer: *kopf nach hinten reiß* *ren anstarr* aaaaaaaaaah *vollbremmsung* X___X

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
den schockt meine rollige mütze XDDDD

Suzy-Lee (MSN ist am sterben, Latein am nerven und ich am genervt sein) says:
ich bring ihn um wenn du dich verletzt. ich verfolge den busfahrer sogar nach dem tod <__<

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
egal ich schaff das, un wenn ich ihn bedrohen muss ey XD

Suzy-Lee (MSN ist am sterben, Latein am nerven und ich am genervt sein) says:
womit bedrohen?! XDDD

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
öhm O__O kugelschreibern *-*

Morphin's best friend // Baptista says:
[(L)] LY XD *kranklach* ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8270880/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8270880/ Sun, 26 Mar 2006 02:58:54 PST A - Age: 13 years and exactly 8 months
A - Annoyance: bad hair days and lots more

B - Best Friends?: and some guys who (I think) doesn`t even know DA exists. Ah and ,
B - Bar: I love Starbucks. Even if it isn`t a bar.
B - Birthday: 4 months until I get 14!

C - Crush: ah oui.
C - Car: Look. I called it "feet"
C - Cat: One. Buci. Best cat ever. Cuddly, warm, all nice to pet, purring...

D - Depressed?: Not often
D - Dreamguy/girl: is absolutely mine.
D - Dog: no, thanks. No dog.

E - Easiest person to talk to: me? Even if I talk lots of senseless stuff
E - Eggs: is a character in a book I once read
E - Ex-Girlfriends/Boyfriends: what`s that about?

F - Favourite Colors: black, red, violet, green
F - Food: I would say coffee, but I don`t drink any coffe recently..I haven`t drunk coffee for 3 months now. AH~! Peppermint chewing gum, cola light, chocolate!
F - Favourite word: Meow

G - Game: Activity
G - God: Favourite God? Kurt Cobain? Haha...sorry. Don`t know. One day, but not now. I mean god.
G - Good Time: HERE!! COME HERE!!!

H - Hair Color: brown. Nice, I think
H - Height: 1.74 m
H - Happy? pretending to be most of the time

I - Ice Cream: melon and strawberry
I - Instrument: I used to play the piano...but I can`t play any more. Well, piano and guitar
I - Irc?: Insane Rocket Competition? What?!

J - Jewelry: Lots of leather bracelets. These really thin ones...and a red gift-thingie.
J - Job: I`d love to babysit kids who play with me...currently I`m just the stupid illustrator for the even more stupid school paper. Which sucks. Being the illustrator. Because I hate my drawings.
J - Joke: Look at me

L - Love or sex? Love
L - Laughter: Loved
L - Last person you spoke to on the phone: Daniel...6 hours phoning.

M - Msn or Aim? Msn. If I could use mine. haha
M - Month? July? May?
M - Movie Last Watched: Charlie and the chocolate factory

N - Number of Siblings: two
N - Nickname: Viv
N - Name: Flower -.-

O - ONE WISH: Love forever
O - One Phobia: worms.
O - Odd habit: Umm..I have too many. Like always going on the edge of the sidewalk.

P - Parents: Arguing at the moment
P - Passive / Aggressive?: Passive Agressive is a song from Placebo Passive, please
P - Part of your personality you like best: being social and tolerant?

Q - Quote: Look under my ID.
Q - Question you would like to be answered? SENSE. GIMME THE SENSE OF EVERYTHING!!
Q - Quick or Slow: slow

R - Reason to smile: Being alive
R - Reality TV Show: Uhh...
R - Right or Left: Right.

S - Sex: Do boys have breasts?
S - Song: Too many
S - Store: CD-Stores

T - Time you woke up: today? 11 am, but I was in bed till 12 am
T - Time Now: 12.59
T - Time for bed: from 12 pm till....2 am

U - Unknown Fact about me: dunno
U - Unicorns: are horses. I don`t like horses that much.
U - Under your bed: Some books...paper...a red marker...even more paper...an empty glass

V - Vegetable you hate: Broccoli and carrots. EW!
V - Vegetable you love: tomatoes?
V - View on Politics: Insane, like the whole world

W- Worst Habits: Talking too much senseless stuff, being very sensible. What I should learn: First thinking THAN doing. (Erst denken dann handeln?)
W- What do you want to be when you grow up? Artist, me, rockstar-wife
W- where are you traveling next? To school, tomorrow morning. Then in 14 days to hungary.

X - X-Rays: Blue.
X - X-Rated Porn: no thank you
X - XZIBIT: Has a stupid name and looks very weird.

Y - Year you were born: 1992
Y - Year it is now: 13 years later
Y - Yellow: Here comes the sun...dududuu...here comes the sun I say...Its allright...

Z - Zoo Animal: lions and tigers.... ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8216682/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8216682/ Mon, 20 Mar 2006 12:35:50 PST I hate everything about this day,
especially me,
especially especially me.
Oh well, I`m just annoying.
But my last journal entry was annoying, too.

Look! Friends! Go! CLICK!


Clubs! Ahhh Clubs!
]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8166344/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8166344/ Wed, 15 Mar 2006 07:56:05 PST I draw alot lately. But most of it is useless crap which I won`t submit. Or it is for school and I have to leave it there. I`m mad, my art teacher took one of my pictures to an exhibition without saying he would- Ungh!!! I could`ve done it much better, in the end I just was like "Diiiiiiie picture diiiiiiiiiiiiiiie..." because it was so crap and I took my watercolours and made some...abstract stuff out of it. Not good. And he took it to an exhibition >__< Now the people there will say: "Well yes...it could have been very nice but why did the girl mess it up like this?"
If I was very beautiful, I wouldn`t need my drawings. Hell, I need them. So somebody likes me, even if I am ugly. (And believe me, I AM! I should loose some weight I suppose...but I`m diabetic and it`s so difficult T__T)
Na na na...you don`t care, so why do I write this? At least I don`t care.
I`m trying on western-comic style expressions. And a better anatomy.
And just getting better in general. When I take a look at the people here at DA I`m just like:
"OMG!! And I thought I could draw. AHHH! I`m nothing compared to everybody here!!"
Meow @__@
I thing I`m gonna upload something...yes...to annoy everybody who watches me. So many thanks to all of you!!!

GO LOOK! THEYRE ALL AMAZING ARTISTS!!!

I`m listening to Pagoda. They`re annoying me, but I like them. Well, I think they`re more annoying than likebal, but okay.
Ah. And there is an art contest here in town. For the best young aritst, but I can`t take part in it, because I`m thirteen. I hate all of you stupid guys who made up the rules ;__; I have to be fourteen, but that`s still nearly half a year.
Ahaha....
no more ideas what to write.
Say goodnight.

Clubs:



[link]
<- go and watch it. ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8016558/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/8016558/ Mon, 27 Feb 2006 09:45:45 PST
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
Personality:
Eyes:
Hair:
Family:

WOULD YOU:
Be my friend?:
Keep a secret if I told you one?:
Hold my hand?:
Take a bullet for me?:
Keep in touch?:
Try and solve my problems?:
Love me?:
Date me?:

HAVE YOU EVER:
Lied to make me feel better?:
Wanted to kiss me?:
Wanted to kill me?:
Broke my heart?:
Kept something important from me?:
Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

AND MORE...
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you gonna paste this to your journal see what I say about you? ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7978447/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7978447/ Thu, 23 Feb 2006 07:17:13 PST Latin suckz.
I draw a lot but somehow I dont upload it.
Lets see....perhaps I will upload some.
I have been trying on comic style for a while now. Somehow Im too dumb for that.
Im gonna make a new ID if I dont fall asleep now.
And I need a new avatar. Should upload some of my tipical charakters...shoul actually DRAW them. But thats the problem, mentioned above.


]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7780969/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7780969/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 13:03:03 PST Okay..who cares, anyway?? XD

Ren? n___n ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7760934/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7760934/ Tue, 31 Jan 2006 13:20:47 PST 1. Virag
2. Viv
3. Nirvanangel

Three screen names you've had
1. Polly
2. G.l.o.r.i.a.
3. Mary-Jane

Three physical things you like about yourself
1. My eyes
2. My hair
3. My mouth

Three physical things you don't like about yourself
1. my body in general
2. my legs
3. my nose

Three of your everyday essentials
1. Sleep!!!
2. Music
3. Laughing

Three things you are wearing right now
1. Ski-Underwear...I mean a ski-underwar-trouser-thingie
2. Jeans with biiiig holes
3. Nirvanashirt

Three of your favorite bands/musical artists
1. Nirvana
2. Red Hot Chili Peppers
3. Beatles

Three of your favorite songs
1. Heart Shaped Box by Nirvana
2. Tearjerker by the Red Hot Chili Peppers
3. Master of Puppets by Metallica

Three new things you want to try to do in the next 12 months
1. Stop chewing my nails
2. Loose some weight
3. Be not so chaotic

Two truths and a lie
1. I`m thirteen
2. I try to make the best of everything
3. I cut myself

Three things about the opposite sex that appeal to me
1. Eye Colour
2. Personality
3. Smile

Three of your favorite hobbies
1. Drawing
2. Laughing
3. Reading

Three things you want to do really badly right now
1. Hug somebody!!
2. Sleep...


Three places I want to go on vacation
1. Ireland
2. New Zeeland
3. China

Three things to do before I die
1. Laughing
2. Listening to some good music
3. Beeing outside in the sunshine

[my name is]: Virag
[in the morning i was]: Tired
[all i need now is]: A Hug
[love is]: the thing everybody should have
[i'm afraid of]: Being completely alone
[i dream about]: too much

You:
- Middle name: Annemarie
- Birth time: Dunno
- Birthplace : Hungary
- Last place traveled: Traveled through? Austria...
- Eye Color: Olive Green
- Nail Color: Red
- Height: 1,74
- Zodiac Sign: Leo

Describe:
- Your heritage: ?!
- The shoes you wore today: Allstars
- Your hair: Middle Brown
- Your weakness: too much
- Your perfect pizza: with not too much cheese and NOT salami

What is:
- Your most overused phrase: "Scheiße!!" (I know XD Sorry)
- Your thoughts first waking up: "Sleeeeeeep...." and than "Okay, have to wake up! 64 days!!! "
- Your current worry: Bad mood
- Your plans tomorrow: School...home...homework...Tennis...chatting...
- Your best physical feature: Eyes
- Your bedtime: 11 pm?

You prefer:
- sunrise or sunset: Sunset
- gore or horror: I`m sorry...what`s gore supposed to be?
- eastside or westside: Damn aggressive idiots.
- Planes or trains: Planes
- metal or hardcore: Metal
- Pools or hot tubs: Uhm...depends on

Do You:
- Do you think you've been in love: Yes
- Want to get married: Yeah I do
- Type w/ your fingers: ?!
- Like to take baths: Yes...hot ones...if its cold in here
- Get motion sickness: No
- Like talking on the phone: Yes
- Like thunderstorms: Yeeees
- Play an instrument: I played piano but somehow I failed...I`m gonna learn to play the guitar
- Workout: Tennis? Need more
- Like reading: Very much

Favorite:
- Body part: Eyes
- Kind of fruit: Cherries, peaches and strawberries
- Music: Rock: Grunge, Indie, Alternative, Crossover...
- Car: BMW
- Number: 12
- Thing to do: Sleeping, laughing, being with someone I like
- Horror movie: I HATE HORROR MOVIES!! x__x
- Color: Red
- Food: Chinese?

The Future:
- Age you hope to be married: Something beginning wit 2...
- Numbers and Names of Children: 2...dunno names
- Describe your Dream Wedding: Don`t want to describe it. Too tired.
- How do you want to die: Happy
- What do you want to be when you grow up: Artist and Rockstar-Wife ; )
- What country would you most like to visit: Ireland AGAIN!!

Opposite Sex:
- Best eye color: Blue
- Best hair color: Blonde
- Best personality trait: Uh...tolerant and nice? Calm? Dunno...
- Best height: Higher than me, please
- Best articles of clothing: Dunno
- Best first date location: Outside
- Best first kiss location: see above

Finish:
- I eat: too much -.-
- I think: see above
- I am: kinda in... ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7748711/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7748711/ Mon, 30 Jan 2006 06:54:44 PST Here you go, colours, colours colours.
I`m really happy, those little rainbows from MSN everywhere. Really funny xD
Gonna draw more for this stupid gallery...upload more...its so...grey in here. But anyway, nobody`s gonna read this so well whatever nevermind.

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7505076/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7505076/ Wed, 04 Jan 2006 04:07:22 PST No, it isn`t, maybe just a little bit. No reason to freak out, ro reason to make myself crazy, even no reason to cry.
There`s nothing wrong....haha....who am I kidding? My mum and I are finally gonna move to hungary. FINE. It may be her home, but it isn`t mine. I just like this damn country because of my family that lives here, no more reasons. It`s just SO not germany....and, it`s nearly 1000 km away from Germany. Why do I have to?!? I so don`t want to...but I can`t stay at my fathers because I`m diabetic and he can`t take care of me....yeah....oh.....fine.....I knew my parents would split up but I didn`t think it was going to be that BAD. But if I think it over, there couldn`t be another solution.
I`m gonna leave my home....I`m gonna leave my home.....nanana.....yesterday night I started to laugh because of this because I thought I was so ridicoulus, and I laughed and laughed and laughed and finally it went over to crying, I was totally upset and couldn`t sleep until four a clock in the morning.
But if I think about it, why did I even cry? I can`t change it, and my mum said I can move to Germany again when I`m 16...she promised...and she has to keep her promise because I won`t stay here and ruin my future. But I`m better not thinking about my future. Thinking about this is (nearly always) bad.
Anyway....I don`t think anybody`s gonna read this.
I just have nothing to do...so I`m writing...

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]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7463808/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7463808/ Sat, 31 Dec 2005 06:24:14 PST ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7353719/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7353719/ Mon, 19 Dec 2005 11:09:22 PST
x. name = Virag Papp
x. fav. nickname = Nirvanangel or Viv
x. birthday = 26th July
x. piercings = no
x. tattoos = no
x. height = 1.74 m
x. shoe size = 41
x. eye color = sometimes dark olive green sometimes light brown
x. hair color = middle brown...my father says its a nice colour
x. hair length = ive got SO MUCH hair that its not really long...bit longer than till my shoulders.
but its all around my face!
x. siblings = two older brothers. the best persons on the whole world and in the whole universe!

the last....
x. movie you rented = coffee and cigarettes
x. movie you bought = forgot
x. song you listened to = something from enya
x. song that was stuck in your head = 'Im lonely (but I aint that lonely yet') from the White Stripes
x. song you've downloaded = the song mentioned up there. White Stripes, because Ive left the CD in Germany and I so wanted
to hear this song
x. cd you bought = Simon and Garfunkel for my mother
x. cd you listened to = Die Toten Hosen - Reich und Sexy
x. person you called = My Mum, saying her that the mobile of her friend was out of order because she wanted me to phone
her friend and say her something
x. person that has called you = My Mother?
x. tv show you've watched = something on MTV...at least the TV was on but actually I doodled
x. last movie you've watched = not a movie, but an anime: Azumanga Daioh
x. person you were thinking of = Umm...Daniel but as I mentioned the thing up there with my mother itd probably be her.

Do you?
x. you have a bf or gf = Think so.
x. you have a crush on someone = Yes, on my boyfriend XD
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = Yes
x. you think about suicide = hell why should I ?
x. you believe in online dating = umm....not JUST online
x. others find you attractive = dont think so. Few persons find a freak with too much hair, weird clothing and music taste
attractive whos weight isnt like 45 kgs
x. you want more piercings = more? do I have any?
x. you want more tattoos = um no
x. you do drugs = Nirvana?
x. you smoke = BAH! Hell NO!
x. you like cleaning = Im the chaos in person
x. you like roller coasters = yes
x. you write in cursive or print = ? both. Ive got a weird print-script in my diary...it goes from the bottom to the top and from
right to left
x. you have your drivers liscense = with 13? sure...
x. you carry a donor card = ...um no?

for or against:
x. long distance relationships = painful
x. using someone = for what?!
x. suicide = stupid
x. killing people = who am I?
x. teenage smoking = idiots
x. doing drugs = also idiots
x. premarital sex = no
x. driving drunk = No, I dont want to die, thanks.
x. gay/lesbian relationships = For. No problem with that
x. soap operas = Make me laugh

favorite...
x. food = I like eating in general xD
x. song = there are too many
x. thing to do = drawing, beeing with my family, doing idiotic stuff, listening to music, talking, thinking, writing...
x. thing to talk about = sense of the world
x. sports = skiing
x. drinks = orange juice and cola light
x. clothes = bandshirts and my shirt with the cherries on it because I look so slim in it XD my shoes...
x. movies = Pirates of The Caribbean...Lock, Stock and two Smoking Barrells, the faboulos world of Amelie, Goodbye Lenin,
American Beauty and stuff
x. band = Nirvana
x. holiday = Christmas

have you...
x. ever cried over a girl = sure
x. ever cried over a guy = even more sure
x. ever lied to someone = yes? oh really...
x. ever been in a fist fight = I once clapped a guy but thats it
x. ever been arrested = They couldnt catch me

what...
x. shampoo do you use = Pantene Pro V and it should make my hair nicer but actually it doesnt
x. perfume do you use = it smells like peach..i like peach
x. shoes do you wear = Black Chuck Taylor Allstars
x. are you scared of = complete lonelyness, loosing the ones I love

Number...
x. of times I have had my heart broken? = once
x. of hearts I have broken? = zero
x. of boys I have kissed? = three (but one I didnt want to)
x. of girls I have kissed? = All the girls in my class give each other kisses on the lips because they are "so good friends"
and afterwards they cry because of ruined friendships and beeing throwed out of the group and everybody is so cruel and....nobody kisses ME on the lips, so none.
x. of continents I have lived in? = one
x. of drugs taken illegally? = 0
x. of people I would risk my li... ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7316666/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7316666/ Thu, 15 Dec 2005 08:21:06 PST Nirvana > Marigold ]
[ Mood ☻ > Not like...WOW. Just like...oh... ]
[ Talking to ► > Annoying mother. "When are you going to PACK?!" Soon...Soon enough... ]
[ Thinking of ¿ > Cruel Cruel world. Makes me sick, frightened and confused sometimes. ]
[ Also thinking of ♥ > boyfriend ]

Nirvana is sex for your ears. ♥♥♥

*
We`re going to hungary tomorrow. 11 hours driving..terrifying. But I`m gonna see my brothers!!! ♥☺♥
So...three weeks hungary. Again? Yesterday were atumn holidays...time goes by so FAST. Really scary...
so, I wish everybody MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Enjoy it! : ) Love your family! Your family loves you!
Love everybody : )
Nice holidays...especialy to

_______.-*◦○►☼♥☼ ◄○◦*-._________
Goin` Clubbin` >

]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7238337/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7238337/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 13:12:51 PST

I like these kind of stuff to fill in xD

10 people/things you like:
1. My brothers!
2. My family and my friends
3. Nirvana!
4. Good music which makes me feel good
5. Nices/beautiful pictures
6. Books which make me dream
7. The Sky
8. The Stars at Night
9. Luck and Happyness
10. Things that are cool to touch

5 things that make you happy:
1. My brothers and my friends
2. Happyness of others
3. Phoning with my boyfriend/hearing his voice
4. Having fun while making something really idiotic
5. Sleeping

10 things that you hate/dislike:
1. The sense of the world. Because I cant find it
2. Rassists/people who think they are the best
3. Most kind of Hip Hop music (mostly because of the lyrics)
4. Being told what I have to do
5. Being ill
6. Being completely alone
7. Being completely ignored
8. Pink (as a color)
9. Waking up early
10. Posers

3 facts about your name:
1. Virag. -.- Its terrible
2. It means flower. Hungarian. oO
3. Flower?!?!?!

6 facts about yourself:
1. I dont like myself.
2. My eye colour changes all the time oO
3. I love wearing old stuff from my brothers
4. Im fanatic about anything that comes from Nirvana
5. I hate days when Im tired and I just want to SLEEP
6. Im weird

2 things you expect (at least for now):
1. Me getting terribly angry tomorrow in school
2. Love and peace and joy and all this stuff on Christmas

4 random thoughts:
1. Im ANGRY
2. Im happy
3. Kiss. Somebody just give me a kiss
4. Wheres the cat, anyway?

Song you're listening to (give singer):
Nirvana ~ Hairspray Queen. (I just LOVE his voice. woah! oO)

<3
Having a subscription is cool oO But I wont have it all the time....its just for free till the day after tomorrow : / ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7185920/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/7185920/ Wed, 30 Nov 2005 13:40:17 PST Oh how I HATE IT. My mood`s like a smashed guitar. Very much like a smashed guitar.
At the moment, my mother so suckz. Woah oO And everything suckz at the moment except my boyfriend, my cat, my music, my diary and my book.
......
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!! >__< ]]> ~Nirvanangel http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/6358668/ http://Nirvanangel.deviantart.com/journal/6358668/ Mon, 29 Aug 2005 09:59:46 PDT do you? ]]> ~Nirvanangel