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Like 3d, Its like my second language, I know how to apply it, but somehow I fall short on the advance steps.

It goes without saying even their terminology sounds like alien jargon to me at times. They giggle on artifacts and Sub-D's, while I smirk when I hear Panel Bleed and Gutter.

For the past hour, I have been doing nothing but draw a comic book. 7 days to go actually, and I still have a long way to go. Provided if I didn't have this art block, I wouldn't be falling behind. Somehow after chatting with some Filipino friends, It killed what seems to be the longest art block I ever had.

And as I browse through things I want to find out, people whom are influential on my work, It was like within a click of a button I have pinpointed out the origin of my skills.

Oddly enough, even seen a hundred paths that lead me to make a comic, in comparison to my pointless search in Craiglist's " Who is the next one to make me their expendable soldier " joblistings.

Hobbes has told me a hundred times, that I am not an animator, I'm a comic book artist. It's like this tatoo that was put to me since I was 9, since that time when all I did was draw...since that first time I finished a comic, but the world didn't care, and neither did I...(well..who would really wanna read a 12 yr old boy's 30 page pencil doodle about a guy dressed like sub zero and shoots kamehameha?)

Im still in denial stage. Getting hitched soon and building a family...comic book cannot provide for the mouths I will have to feed someday. I could deny that fact and pretend I am one of the chosen one, destined to be on top someday to watch as many follow the dark path that I lit along the way, but the truth is that I am not a chosen one, im just one of many...we could argue that It's just a matter of what my mind say not my heart...but when was the last time your heart made you survive in the harsh world of the "grown ups?"

looking back again, I remember how the technicalities come out of my friends mouth when they crit my 3d work, and somehow I hear murmur and a few familiar word: "something something something verticies...something something something render. "

But when Im doing comics, its like I become like them...full of terminologies and application where I could still be an amateur comic artist, but still can point out a strategic way of making a panel work through directional position of your character as it pulls you through a series of dialogues that pushes you towards an important plot object....


..ugh..I dunno, I guess all I realize is that I love comics, and I will do it whenever I can...but I will still hold on to the denial, as this is the only way I can provide for this passion, and for the future I am making.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/26168519/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/26168519/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 10:38:22 PDT [link]layeraspectwidth=4&layeraspectheight=3



what I was doing earlier, I took a break from finishing some comic pages by drawing Tirso and Nora together. (Lhege's character in Brgy Bakbakan)


enjoy..you can see me do one work and completely delete it just to start with something else.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/26084099/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/26084099/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 10:15:05 PDT


I got a call from my dad and we happen to have a bit of a chitchat, and he reminded me of a request he wants me to draw for him: A painting of his Dad.


So I was browsing through my cousin's album of lolo and I googled my own stuff for references, then I found this.

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hell yeah! finally I see him moving...well you know...like alive? finding how he sounds like and all that jazz.

......


....He sure dont act anything close to his children....


But then again, my father always tells me its all comedy in front of a camera, in real life he is overly serious and organized( and everyone one of them tells me he smells of old spice...never smell that scent before, gotta find that scent soon)


There was an article that says him and his partner in comedy gets beaten up by the Japanese and then gets released after interrogations...wow, he took that much damage? how contrasting to my lolo from the mom side who fights the Japanese; both does their own attack, one uses a gun, one uses satire, only in the end of the day, one loses another friend, the other loses another tooth.


I really wish I met him, well all seven of us from my generation would love to ( from my family branch, theres more and im still trying to find my bloodline as we speak )

Somehow,I know he is happy none of us ever followed his footsteps, I always hear from my dad how he didnt like my older uncles to pursue their love for music and just highly focus on finishing school, but can you blame them? heck, they got his skills in entertainment, personally I would be happy if my children gets bestowed with talents.


Sadly my branch of the family ( was it number two or three...all I know is that were not the first family, and my elder uncles are from the first one...I dunno how in the world he got away with it) never got much of his skills, but it seems they got his organizing skills and his palabra de honor of approach on things.


Ah well, Ill watch this one more time and then go to sleep, the next project from work may be announced today, im not sure....

...I think im glad he is not around to see my painting though...I know me and my dad has tackled that hypothetically he would hate my style of living...

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/26020026/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/26020026/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 05:26:00 PDT

I actually found myself talking to the screen as if I was there because of some of the things they were talking about, one of them is money conversion.


" Oh so if youre a dishwasher you make minimum wage, but lets try to convert that too.."


In the middle of it, the attorney manages to express what Ive been yapping about in my desk: " You cant convert it to Peso because of the way of life there, the cost of things there are expensive."

Numbers may be phenomenally large, but unless youre like some of my friends who are in Manila trying to commission people here, conversion has a small meaning to your way of living.


It does amaze me how some people think its easy to live here. political aside, anyone who is from a different ethnicity will have a hard time trying to live here because of the culture shock.

Sure, we Filipinos are highly exposed on western culture, but what we forget is that what we gain through growing up cannot be easily applied here, especially if some moral issues are on the line.

Do I enjoy this American life? I really cant say. I have friends and loved ones who are from different countries and cultures, but the cultural gap can get in the way most of the time...what I do enjoy though is the opportunity that I have gained by living here, and tasting hardships that I would definitely not encounter if I was still in Manila.


Back to that Attorney, he asked this to his co host: Are you willing to be a gasoline boy there? considering you may have a higher education and what not, are you still willing to become one if there is no opportunity for you?


Most of you guys would definitely say no, and some would say yes just to justify the urge to come here, but seriously...if there is no choice, will you? I know some of my friends here have, but this question is to most of you kids who think America boosts your rep back there in Manila.

Before I become a post production artist, I worked as a Gas Station cashier, Salesperson for an Amish furniture, Movie Rental Sales Associate, and so many things that is not art related...all of these just so I can have my own money because my family does not want to always catch me and spoil me with their help...I know most of you will still say " Oo naman, maski na ba tagahugas ng puwet ng mga matatanda gagawin ko!" but I know thats just all talk, especially most of you who have work and has done job much better to what I have mentioned...well I do know three or four friends who have washed old peoples ass ( My senpai is one of them..have to deal with it if your just a CNA trying to climb to RNA)...But lets try to ask most of these new gen DA artists who wants to become the next Wilce Protacio...will you do it? I sincerely doubt so


Behind the silver screen, behind the explosions, behind the MTV and the digital gadgets and entertainment that America can show the world...there's the reality that this country is no different from ours..well a bit, mostly the difference is that you dont have to deal with people hating you because of where youre from....Imagine a Manileno hating a bisaya and multiply that to a hundred...racism. You also dont have to deal with crazy people, or at worse, people who pretend to be crazy just for the attention (Mga KSP), Im sure we do, but its what? 2 out of 10 people? ratio here is 7 out of 10, and the three normal ones are slowly getting influenced by the other seven

And you may tell me that our country is fucked and that its hopeless and yadda yadda yadda, welp, thats the same with US, California is fucked right now, and its getting just as bad...whats that? you will move to New York? They have their own problem as well...what? you will move to some calm state then go to the major cities and state when things get better? Dude, that is not as easy as riding a jeep from Antipolo to Cubao and Araneta is just right there.

Lets also see the way of life here...you work for your debts, and for the means to go from point a to point b: car insurance, utilities and apartment, school loans, and your usual daily spending...I dont think you would have enough at the end of the month...sometimes, but not always.


I sound like im hating on America? no, in fairness there are some good things among the bad things, but you have to live a hard life to attain them, like I said earlier, its not as easy as asking Erpats for an extra allowance because you feel like chillin with friends. These ramblings are just for those who think life is easy here...Most of you kids probably dont know Mike Hanopol from the Juan De la Cruz band, but he made a song once and it go... ]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25957785/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25957785/ Wed, 15 Jul 2009 06:34:18 PDT

Luckily, my freelance boss contacted me to do some drawings.


On the comic side, it seems I may have to do the rest in black and white, time constraint is hard, and I do believe that if I do want this thing to be out by next week and a half, I have to cut away from my coloring and just go straight into the story ( Personally I do put Story on top priority nowadays, Im still trying to pursue it to make sure my work gets better, I need to get out of the boring groove)



Speaking of priority, I end up spending my weekend coloring my longshot CS-6 Nerf gun. Nothing complicated, just shiny black thats all. I fucked up the internals but oddly hours ago I manage to make it work, but after that it went nuts again. Its not much of a loss, since this newfound hobby does make me amuse during times im on an art block.


That movie my work stereo scoped is coming out next week, in fact seeing them on bus stations and on youtube as a showcase in their frontpage brings back hours and hours where I sit and count numbers of clips being taken down the list...only to be brought up, or as my officemates call it " Un-Omitted " by the clients.


but it does bring a smile to my face, to think I became a part of a project that is a part of the industry...its nice to see my foot is inside the door, blocking it so I can slowly get in completely...


....or am I already in? just thinking cynically about it because Im not one of those graduates who has the next samurai jack for a network. But what the heck, in some ways im happy.




....Did I ever mention I wanna shoot down guinea pigs? no? good, lets keep it that way...I do wanna see it in its full completion instead of clips listed on my workstation...

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25832065/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25832065/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 05:40:58 PDT
As we speak I just finished 7 thumbs for my comic, next goal is to finish most of them in the weekend.



Sa mga katropa ko, konting abang na lang, at lilitaw na ang tropang sangbangka!! (at good luck sa laban mo Izketz! kung kailangan mo ng tulong o pointers huwag kang mahiyang humingi ng tulong brad)

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25688685/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25688685/ Thu, 02 Jul 2009 06:03:51 PDT

My last ( best ) AX was around 00 and 01, and man that was eons ago...Im not sure what to expect to this new crowd, not to mention I do feel old for going.




I dunno, Ill try it out...see if its worth my time


* Edit *

Mel convinced me...im going

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25644688/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25644688/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 06:20:05 PDT



It stopped when I moved here in America, that and for 11 years, it seems like birthdays to me are just another point you scratch into the wall depicting how many years I have been walking around this earth.



so what changed after so many years?



Nothing much, except I kept looking back on my years in this planet, and how many people I met in my lifetime that molded and shaped me to who I am. Maybe I should make a list here of those I should be thanking for 28 years of my life:


First off...God, thanks for putting me here, my purpose is not clear yet, but thanks for every obstacle you gave me. It showed every spectrum of my feelings toward this mortal coil. I dont hold any ill feel to the bad things happening to me, maybe it was meant to make me more accepting to what I have, and appreciate what is around me. Just dont take Kim Hyung Tae, Oh Great, Gerry Alanguilan (Komikero), Tagailog, and Daisuke Ishiwatari yet...You were on a roll when you took Michael, David, and Billy Mays from me, I want to at least meet some of these guys in person.

To my family who has been there, we may be disfuctional, but hey, it made me appreciate those moments everyone is together, and that includes when Mom was dying and for the first time after many years that my family was in one place, me, dad, my brother, and mom.

To my friends, so few as I grow up, yet so many as years gone by. Through childhood I question if I was worthy to have friends because Im always the oddball, but in college I realize I do deserve it...im not the oddball after all, its just all in my head. Through my life in Art Institute I met so many friends, so many that I cant mention all of you guys...but each and everyone helped me: Hobbes and the Tainted Pocky crew made me realize my flaws, and to be challenged instead of feel butthurt..I need that strength you guys gave me once more...seriously.

Then theres Hyoung Soo and Steph, the two who are like my brothers, through thick and thin, they were around to help me smile the shit out of every problems...Shit you two remember when I have that ultimate tantrum because you guys wanna chill instead of letting me finish my portfolio? I just realize now what you guys want to do is make me get out of that stress shell and get a few fresh air..shouldnt have been too selfish to keep the problem by myself, should have been matured to see what you guys were doing.


To my Senpais, Ryan, Paul, and Guren...I drew like this because of you guys. Senpai Ryan and Paul, dahil sa inyo humusay ako dahil kayo ang naging inspirasyon ko nung high school. Di niyo ko inalalayan na parang bata, pero trinato niyo ko ng wasto para matuto ako sa sarili ko. Di niyo man sabihin, pero kayong dalawa ang naging ilaw ko sa madilim na daan. At ngayon, isa na rin akong ilaw para sa ibang mga artist...Naalala mo master Ryan nung drinowing niyo yung samurai showdown 2 poster sa sariling idea niyo ng hindi gumagamit ng ref? hanggang ngayon maski kaya ko na, hindi ko pa rin mapapantayan yung husay at bilis ng kamay niyo sa pag guhit. Ikaw rin Senpai Paul..heh...araw araw na ginawa ng diyos tinalo niyo ko ni master Ryan sa LAHAAAAT ng fighting games, pero alam mo, yun ang pinaka masayang araw sa buhay ko, dahil sa mga pagkatalo kong iyon, sa mga DBZ drawings na ginawa mo, at sa pagiging tsikboy mo sa mga kaklase ko na gusto kong ligawan pero binasted ako, naging matatag ako at naging motibasyon ko para umangat, o kahit maabutan kayo maski tatlong hakbang or paligo man lang..salamat ah.

Guren, boku wa tsuyokunaru. Kimi wa subete miseteyare, dakara iro iro arigato gozaimasu. Shikashi, yabou ga akirameru. Void no buryokuseiji wa ikatte..totemo saite desu ne...oro ka na boku wa...jitsu wa, mada tatakai itsuka...ano sannin battoru, zutto yameru, daga kono site wa hontou daisuki desu... Gomen ne, nihongo wa wasureru, naze wa hanashimasu ka? nnnnn~~ wakaranai.. moshimo ano jidai wa mada kanjiru, ano toki wo kimi ga oshiete iru...


To the Online world, my escape from everything...thank you because it help me appreciate the real world more. Shouldnt have it been the opposite? well as years go by, you turn into that cesspool I was afraid of...Its ok though, like I said, it makes me find more places to go and more people to meet.

And finally, my fiance, has it been almost that many years? We were on and off, back and gone..I have been confused and have gone astray but you still have forgiven me...you are the Tokio for this Saito Hajime, the saint who always inspire me. Just a few more months... ]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25119788/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25119788/ Thu, 04 Jun 2009 06:05:48 PDT


gagawa kasi ako ng short comic na showcase yung mga taga brgy bagbakan...KAYA KAILANGAN KO NG KAPITBAHAY PARA SA KANYA!!!




...reply lang kayo mga barkadudes kung interesado.




]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25084569/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25084569/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 08:18:18 PDT
Kung puwede lang na batiin, di binati na...kung puwede lang na regaluhan, dapat naregaluhan na..pero mahirap kung sumakabilang buhay na silang pareho.


Nauna si Ma, kanser sa baga na umabot sa utak, tumagal, pero sa bandang huli wala rin...Dose Anyos ako noon. Nalaman ko nung pagkauwi ko galing eskuwela, pinaalam saakin ng lolo ko na kinuha na ng diyos ang aking nanay. Napakadaya, dahil nung nanalo ako ng gold medal sa art contest sa school namin, wala siya doon, ako lang mag isa ang umakyat para kunin ang medalya ko.

Lumipas ang ilang taon, si Lolo naman ang sumunod, ganoon din..cancer...disisyete anyos naman ako noon. Ang Daya lo!! kararating lang namin dito sa America para magsama sama tayo, tapos, ginaya niyo rin ang style ni Mama: lumisan kayo habang nasa eskuwelahan ako. Napakasit isipin na napasok ako sa Advance Placement sa Art class tapos nung pag uwi ko wala na kayo?


Mas masakit saakin ang pagkawala nila since sila ang kakampi ko habang lumalaki ako. Habang ang kapatid ko ang paborito ng marami, nandiyan ang nanay ko para ipagtanggol ako, at ang lolo ko para kunsintihin kaming mag ina. nakakalunggkot, pero para bang hinanda niyo ko sa paglisan niyo.

Dahil sa pag alis niyo, natuto akong tumayo sa sarili ko, natuto ako na maging matatag kahit nag iisa, natuto ako na itago ang luha ko sa harap ng iba...



Pero ang daya niyo pa rin eh....


Eto na ako, nakapagtapos at may trabaho na nasa larangan ko, may sariling bubong at hindi nakadikit kay Pa na parang takot na tuta...may kasintahan at malapit nang ikasal..pero siyet naman no, kahit papaano inaasam ko na marining yung boses niyo, maski sa panaginip lang.

" Tumayo ka ng maayos!" " Tapusin mo iyang homework mo!!" " Para kang nanay mo ang hilig mag drowing wala namang ka dahi-dahilan"

" 'Nak maligo ka na!" " Nasaan na iyong pencil case na binili ko sa iyo?!" " Aba lumalaban ka na?! para kang ama mo!"



Halos lahat ng pagkakamali at pagsuway ko naalala ko parin kahit ngayon...pero sa dami nito, isa lang ang nagpapasaya saakin pag naririning ko...

" Apo kong malaki ( tangkad ko kasi, panganay pa)...pakabait ka ha?"

" 'Nak, galingan mo, dahil anak kita!"


Maski kahit panandalian lang, makita ko at marinig ko kayo, masaya na ko...


siyet...gusto kong maiyak, pero Ma, Lolo...happy birthday!




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Sa ibang ulat.





Sumali ako sa isang OC battle dito sa DA, kung gusto niyong sumali, sundan lang ang link na nakikita niyo na nasa taas.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25050194/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/25050194/ Sun, 31 May 2009 11:51:00 PDT
pero ewan ko... sa kasalukuyan ang ginagawa ko eh nandito ako sa harap ng pc ko pinanonood yung vlogs ni Gerry.

baka maglaro na lang ako ng xbox pagkatapos ko rito, malumanay ngayon ang panahon dito sa North Hollywood, balita ko maulan ngayon sa Pinas, nakaka lungkot kasi gustong gusto ko ang ulan lalo na kung bagyo.

yung para bang nasa loob ka lang ng bahay mo, na-aamoy mo yung halimuyak ng damo at ang estero, ang daloy ng ilog habang pataas ng pataas at palakas ng palakas ang bagsak ng ulan...

tapos kung trip mo dudungaw ka sa bintana...makikita mo yung mga bagay na itinapon sa gilid ng ilog: basura, balde, patay na aso, yung nawawalang sombrero ni mang kepweng...at kapit bahay mo.


Wala lang, naalala ko lang yung panahon nung kabataan ko, na madali ang buhay, wala kang inaalala kundi paano malilipasan ang pagkabato mo sa loob ng bahay. Pero kung iisipin mo, kung nasasaakin itong mga bagay na mayroon ako ngayon, kasing saya ba ako ng dati? sa tingin ko hindi.


Pero...kung mapasaakin ang kahapon, siguro sobra ang galak ko.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23980320/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23980320/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 05:23:06 PDT
Being transfered isnt that bad I realize, it made me learn some stuff people in VFX does, and its really adding a good padding to my resume....hehehehe..never thought ill be under visual effects, but hey, im here.

Should I ever get the overtime, its a definitely awesome year for me, sure, I may not be drawing, I may not be doing what I want to do, but im earning enough to make those desires work and support whatever hobbies that may be.


I got praised today, somehow it felt like a joke, not in a bad way, but in a way that its a compliment but the substance of accomplishment and being highly capable isnt there. Maybe its just my nature, considering a pat in the back for me is a rare thing, and I tend to look for it for certain people, mainly those who are above me.

But to get it from your boss's boss, a simple approval and a " Good Job, your definitely showing your prowess in this department." seems so much, but yet it felt like a distant shout from afar...it reached me, but not enough to make me look back.


This could be a trend or a pattern on my behalf, but then again im always used to not getting any praise or compliment that really means a lot, most often I brush it off, thinking it would not help me improve, and it would just make me feel lest competent...ive seen so many compliments in my lifetime, most often its empty bullshits just to get you off on your chair.





SPEAKING of trend, is it just me or Leotards are coming back...? First Beyonce, then Lady Gaga ran with it, now Ciara...



.........


...... A part of me is very jiggly about the thought...but hey, I highly doubt the days of the 80s where girls wear leotards to go to the gym is coming back, not to mention if it ever do come back, I dont think girls of my specific age range would be sporting one ( the 20 to 35 age range..yeah I love them middle-agers)...teenagers scantily clad is a definite no no on my book..its just...yeah...not on my universe...Teenagers of this generation scares me..

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23937460/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23937460/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 16:30:32 PDT
It was inevitable, everyone know he was battling with Leukemia for many months, but he kept strong till the end.


He was the only rapper that I really like as I grow up, all his lyrics were meaningful, has a message and has a positive feel of being nationalistic and taking life to its fullest.


Youtube was the only resource I have in regards to the news, although it was my brother who messaged me about it, it's sad as hell..shit, when rap took a sidestep and rock was in the frontline back in Manila ( I think I was 15 or 16? during the e-head era), there was the rockbands and francis M....


It's really hard since you grew up with the guy...I remember wanting to be as cool as him when I saw the movie bagets, shattered when he took a role of a bitter angry brother of Aga Mulach's leading lady in Joey Boy Munti, raised my soul when I heard mga kababayan ko, I am the man from Manila, Tayo'y mga Pinoy, im ready to defend the three stars and the sun...learned what meth and coccaine is with Mga Praning ( seriously, I know Shabu, but what the heck is it really? he basically put it in that song the info I need that no one wants to tell me), danced Convocation numbers with Meron akong Ano...


Francis M is one of the few artist who draws my nationalism out, in a place where any person of different ethnicity can get influenced and pushed away from their roots, he manages to kept me reminded of who I am, and where I am from.


Even though he is not with us anymore, he still kept his pride of being a Filipino...wow, must you have to make those white balloons shape as the map of the Philippines as you go and meet our creator? oh great rapper, mediator of rock and hip hop, he who saves the poor hip hoppers of my town ( hell yeah, Antipolo represent!), must you make your departure this much tearful?


You will be missed Master Rapper of the Philippines, Thanks for defending the three stars and the sun, surely Gloc9 and some of your Knights will continue your cause...

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23631582/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23631582/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 17:48:50 PDT

move backed at my place, he is joining me in my training at the moment.



No update at the moment, enjoying life outside the community, I can breathe better.


Eyes are finally getting better, thank goodness...but PC crashed as of last night, so as we speak I am looking for my programs and drivers.



ah well, at least I got SF IV

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23265339/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23265339/ Wed, 18 Feb 2009 04:33:34 PST

been practicing at work too, was doing some angles I never tried before, man, its hard as fuck, so im gathering some ref from googles and shots I took with my celphone, so Weekend is mainly for me practicing angles, and practicing SF IV.



My eyes have been seeing duplicates last night, or as some of us would call " ghosting"

Its really time for me to get glasses, where the heck is that blue cross card....?

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23249383/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23249383/ Tue, 17 Feb 2009 08:08:31 PST

chatted a bit with Justin, Phil, and Eric video console wise, then turns into gang talk and stuff...


...then I started penciling a page for Layla's comic ( title still witheld..)


...It only took 15 minutes, from thumbing a test page to putting it on a comic paper...


...took 45 minutes to finish the whole page inked...



...so now im about to sleep, I have two finished pages, and three unfinished blue penciled pages


....

........



...how the fuck did that happened?

Did I revert back to Old-Mamo groove? am I finally utilizing that infamous " zone " shit? nah...I dont think so


Apparently, speed does come when you just naturally let it I guess...so I think Ill draw her for awhile comic wise, while finishing the two commission I have from two wonderful people ( namely Dunne and Woodwose )


Im not saying Ill neglect void stuff, but Im taking most of these in slow doses since I am still feeling burned out from thumbing some BBs and comics, not to mention the atmosphere lately feels like walking on eggshells.


I dunno, maybe its just me or my gut feeling, but its really hard to explain:

Like, when you draw, and when you accidentally overlap a line, it feels so wrong and you just feel like you want to erase it, or when your trying to observe some artwork, and you see a part of it and you feel that unneasy feeling where you have to remove your eyes away, not because the art is unpleasant, but the spacing between the negative spaces feels like its squeezing you, just by staring at it.

Well lately, whenever I do think of Void, I have this heavy feeling inside me, like I cant breathe, the air is so heavy that even your body cant move. You feel immobilize, yet your mind is aware of everything.

I consulted this even to some close friends, and they told me that I am just feeling rushed. Too many good things happening and my time is too short, that I ran out of breath just trying to catch up. I told them it doesnt seem to be the case, I just feel like I am easily annoyed or irritated as of late.

There are cases I have tried to sway the feeling away, but sunday was when I feel like I have no more energy, At first I thought that this is prolly how Jho feels when she meant she is bored, but Im not bored at the moment, my mind is completely anticipating everything, I want to draw, I want to finish something, I want to partake...shit im talking in two chats at the same time and having a blast...


However, it did happen, my mind out of nowhere shut off, the only thought running in my head is sleep, if not, do something else, and thats where reading the MBQ book kicked in.


I love Void, I think I already have shown it enough for staying all these years, but I think I have to finally accept the fact that I dont have the time, nor the energy to do what I used to do. Perhaps a part of me long for those days where I used to fought multiple opponents, left and right, no retreat, no surrender, but I guess that time is over, its time to take it slow as I make my way to the world of retirement.


And no, I dont think Ill make it as a pro comic artist, personally I am contented where I am now: Work for the industry, then go home and do comic as a hobby, but maintain the strict method of it, and not cover myself with excuses to cover my flaw and my insecurities in front of my peers.

Perhaps, its also with the past few days, I read everyone's behavior and all I see is the same pattern when I used to be a part of SoCalFU and OCAD... Am I yet again trying to fix shit when really there is nothing broken?

( ahhh..the nostalgic ghost of my past...oh how much I stay awake when you knock into my heart)


Perhaps no, I dont think so, but the feeling rhymes, maybe I am just too tired, and maybe bitter that I feel tied in a chair, when I want to do so many things...maybe a bit annoyed to see some peers apparently have the head of a bowling bowl and cant absorb why some methods work and some doesnt, maybe completely bitter in seeing that all the hardship I have done can be match with battles that you cant even call a battle because its one of those " safety net fights." Probably more annoyed to know your time is so restricted, that you cant tell your stories, while some people prance around you acting like youre some has been trying to fit in with the new gens. It does hurt, when all you can really do is watch, and you cant do jack shit because you have to maintain your financial situation now.

(ah yes, watch, someone will start defending themselves by saying their in school and work at the same time and they still do comics, tell me that if your paying your school loans an... ]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23227667/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23227667/ Mon, 16 Feb 2009 03:00:44 PST

It really touch the fuck out of me.

The book completely made me relate on the characters, the resolution and the ending was great.

I really should have read that on Friday, if I did, I wouldnt have this boost of motivation hours before I have to go to sleep.



So a few more notches, my block will be gone, I had a bad case for the last two weeks, mainly because im too tired from work, and the push and motivation isnt there. ( I still forced it, but it felt like im freaking tired just sitting in front of my PC)

I also moved my lightings in my studio apartment, the lamp is close to my bed now, where I draw on my flat stomach on my bed, its weird, but during the whole weekend, I was trying to look for a way so I can get into the " zone " or that wonderful realm of solitary where you dont care of the now...what matters is what your doing at the moment.


was doing some Void BB, VxA stuff, but for some reason, I start to make Layla's first comic.


Gothology? yeah, I have that in the bag...I just need to clean the shit out of it so its at least respectingly good enough to be printed.


gamerscore points going up to, im up to over 3000 points, my goal is to reach the same as my brother and friends...but thats what SF IV is for...

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23115629/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/23115629/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 06:12:14 PST first cousin.


Im actually excited, you see, unlike some of you guys, you can link some family trees and what not, even if it doesnt traced back a hundred years, you can still see branches from your generation. In my case, I have all these big blanks, blanks and rumors and all that mysteries which I try to find out but none of my family members can explain.

But because of that, I just got in the mood to search the meaning of my last name online.

Contreras - To contradict, to go against.


Wow, so my fiance wasnt far from the truth then, she often said I live up to my last name when we argue.


Then out of nowhere I decided to check if they have any entries about my grandfather, I mean I highly doubt that he would have any entries since he is a comedian of the days of old. ( Pugo, also known as Don Mariano )


But lo and behold, they have an Imdb for him, and a small wiki entry.


There has been a lot of Contreras popping out, I remember last year, my uncle told us there was this musician in Vegas who claims to be my grandfather's son, but my uncle told me that their generation has a means of finding out if its true or not...my dad says nay, but the eldest said " Oh hey! the more the merrier! "

I never met him, but I always hear stories about the fact that despite their all not from the same mother, he still tries to gather all of them in one dinner table and not build animosity between each other.

The movies he made were kinda funny, I guess I never grew a taste on some old style of comedy, but im very entertained just watching him, they told me what he does on the silver screen is in contrast to what he really was: strict and organized, always has a straight face and never smiles ( WELL...I guess im not the only one living up to the last name)


I asked my dad once, what if he was still alive, what would he think of me, and all he said was " Prolly the same thing I tell you...try harder, he will hate how you dress, he would criticize how you move, he would make sure you go beyond everyones expectation, but in the end appreciates you for finishing your education."

Goodness..like I dont hear that from him everyday...


Anywho, I sent the email to this lady now, and told her I already relay the info to my oldman, maybe someday my bloodline will have a grand reunion, and prolly by then it will finally answer all these blanks in my family's history.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22627558/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22627558/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 06:04:24 PST


A lot of it change, but it still maintain some of it that the memories were still fresh in my mind:


And it made me think, and It just crossed my mind just after I posted that journal I did last night...WHY DONT I DRAW A FILIPINO BASED COMIC?!


I mean heck, why not even based it off during the time I was back home? You know, during the time UMD means more than just that thing you put in your PSP..every Convocations ( HA! I bet some of you have NO CLUE what that is) and events you and your friends has a dance number, and often has a part in the song where all of you saumersault and do a breakdance move...every guys bring their guitar and you guys go " jamming " every song in the songbook ( and it piss you off when one song has no guitar chords..)

but along that it brought back some painful memories: seven rejects, bullying, friends that you cant even call friends because you cant trust them in the end..prying eyes that judge you based on status and your actions..painful, very painful.

That's why I find it funny how some kids here always dream of being in an asian school where you wear uniforms...you know along with that luxury, comes with the nightmare that whoever is your homeroom, that's your class batch FOR THE WHOLE SCHOOL YEAR...even worse, your whole school life.

Comparing my life back home and my life here, its such a big contrast. Here I have more friends that I can count on my hands, back there I only have five or seven. I have freedom here, back there I was raised by my grandmother who seems to have a redneck tendency. Here, I can be whoever I want, what I want, when I want. Back there? I have to act according to society, or I would bring shame to my family because the moment I do something, it will be informed to them in a fast notice...Think downloading a torrent of anime series, and you get the whole thing in one minute...that fast.


So now as I browse, I see familiar faces, even some of my friends that I adore back home. I want to respond, talk to them or even drop a line and say hi...but honestly, do I really want to?

meh..Ill just skip it...although I think I'll still do that comic I have in mind....that makes me wonder though..


...who would read a hentai based on the 90s? hehehehehehehee.


Mamo out

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22608348/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22608348/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 04:56:18 PST
Puyat..pagod
sa 'daling araw kahos
silat sa puot
dahil sa pusong may galos

Bakit matanong
kung walang suliranin
dahil ba sa mga taong
o kay inis sa paningin?

Hindi mo makita
ni hindi mo mahawakan
pero dahil sa agham
yaring puso'y mapanalita

o kahon na wari'y bintana
bakit ba ito ang napupuna
magaling nga sa makabagong sining
kung magsalita naman, ay parang matsing


Siguro akoy pagod lang, at madaling mainis
sa teknolohiyang bago, and dala ay tsismis
di bale nalang, lilingon na lang sa langit...
at aking kikimkimin, ang natanim na GALIT



Basically...I just read some threads in Void, and lately, well...the flip in me decide to write a poem, so there you go.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22520058/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22520058/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 07:46:58 PST

Took awhile though, I mean everyone in my family got glasses before I did, and im the one who is basically married to my Desktop.


Oh yeah, so three people gets the kiriban thingie, Fence, Corny, and Riley, lemme know what you guys want for a kiriban art, Ill make them as soon as I can. ( except Corny, you already told me what you want me to draw)


As for the rest of the day today..I think Ill build my achievement points. Why? I dunno, it just hit me I only have like 1000 points of achievement points and I have like 5 games sitting in front of me.


oh yeah, for Dunne and Woodwose, Im finishing the art soon, just taking a break since I just finished a battle last weekend.

To Ryu and Agu, once all of the priorities above is done, Ill come back in drawing that all girls battle comic.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22390689/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22390689/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 09:54:06 PST
[link] ( dont mind the video )

but this...THIS...

[link]


THIS VERSION makes me think of Mize comeback theme kind of way...or shit fighting Viridius again and redeeming himself...


what can I say, im weird like that...I blame Eric

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22382398/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22382398/ Sat, 03 Jan 2009 20:50:17 PST

still inking and finishing thumbs. I swear it feels like doing math inside my head:

What to add, what to remove, why should this shot be in it, would it be significant for the next panel, would it work without one, how much focus on so and so...all those stuff.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22366988/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22366988/ Sat, 03 Jan 2009 03:38:08 PST

worried? not really, I have dealt worse. I think when I fought Moo, Kura, and Felle in one week was much more scary, the uncertainty of victory was three times as bad with just one.


Although this is bringing me back from the days of old. The fact I sit down staring on a big box of light and drawing my way into a comic feels much more liberating than trying to get some achievement points online.



If these keeps up, I can finally go back to Void and be completely active.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22348576/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22348576/ Fri, 02 Jan 2009 07:14:07 PST
im battling a fellow vet named Mr. Kick. I know its one week and it would be a stressful battle, but hey, I remember most of my battles were made out of crazy decisions and impulse.



Edit: thanks for reminding me Corny, I should have remembered that.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22347606/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22347606/ Fri, 02 Jan 2009 05:34:08 PST

Well ok, I know im not alone, were scattered and stuff, but dayumn...


Seeing Ryu's stuff, then browsing that lead me to Neil, then tracing back to Hentai Kitty... I mean damn..




....I think we should make a group for us!!



....


....actually nah, its ok, lets just keep going guys, you all have relit that passion for me, so much, I was considering Layla's story to start as it is.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22252470/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/22252470/ Sun, 28 Dec 2008 23:51:19 PST
*Commission for Woodwose and Dunne ( WIP progress for both on 80% )

*Finish New Years Vcast Episode ( last week's Vcast episode is here [link] )

*Upload Project Eroero ( almost done Justin I promise!!)

* Art Trade with is done, just waiting if he would allow me to borrow Kim for a comic ( that and message his friend about his character charlene )
* Start Art Trade with ( hit me up man )

* Get back to Void. (Im on a battle now)


Who would want to commission me for a DA subscription?

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/21876815/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/21876815/ Mon, 08 Dec 2008 06:03:38 PST
*Commission for Woodwose and Dunne ( WIP progress for both on 40% )

*Finish Editing Vcast ver 2

*Upload Project Eroero

* Finish Saints Row 2 ( done as of tonight )

* finish christmas list

* get laid.


I originally charge 60 per commission, but for now, Ill just go for 40 bucks ( Im still trying to familiarize myself in this kind of gig, im still not as good as my art buddies like Nashya or Delya )

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/21658728/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/21658728/ Tue, 25 Nov 2008 05:17:10 PST
(Damn it you guys, get back to void STAT!!!)

Anyway, the travesty continues:

* You know who Snakemeat is

* You have interacted with Snakemeat

* You know what the bingo book is

* You know who originally owns the mentioned item

* You know who took it

* You can name every Page monsters in Void

* You are ONE of those Page Monsters

* You know what Cullmination is

* You have two or more beyond battle

* You have promised a beyond battle more than your fingers can count

* You have a lovechild

* You know about the Riotbus

* You have participated with the Riotbus

* You know how to connect the timeline between the Carp Bombers and the White Jackets

* You are a member of mentioned Gangs, particularly Carp Bombers

* Your Deviation has more than five pieces related to your Void Character

* You have a sub category for your Void artwork

* You know what the origin of Pulpo is

* You know what Void City currency is ( Cookie points to anyone who can name it )

* You know what the mentioned currency is used for

* You can name all the Armageddon threat ( There is only four )

* Your Character's entry date says " Prior to Recording "

* Your Character has NO Intro pages, and their not SDT participant

* You know what P2's scar says on his forehead, and who gave it to him

* You know who the mayor of void, including the controversial recent one

* You know who the characters who tried to run for mayor

* You can name ALL the florida crew

* You know what " Jar-tired " means

* Your AIM has more than five names from Void members

* You can name at least three landmarks in Void

* You know what the name of the famous apartment in Void

* You know who Gears is

* You met Gears

* You have spent more than a hundred hours over a Void comic

* You call comics sequentials

* You start to use the word " Werd " on your daily internet convos

* You know of the Kimono Jam

* You are cynical about upcoming battles that are word of mouth

* You dream of Uncle Sex and Helftan

* You cringe when you see the word " Default, " even though your just looking on a setting on a program, device, etc

* Your on Xuda because you want to take a plunge into the industry

* Your on WFA because everyone in Void is a " douche "

* Your on some DA battle contest because you dont have enough readers in Void

( surely these last three are a can of worms, but hey, its there )

* You can count how many Furry, Ninja, and Demons that dwells in void

* You know what Orange Penis is

* You still cry when you remember what Orange Penis is

That's all for now.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/21642063/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/21642063/ Mon, 24 Nov 2008 04:59:40 PST
( And perhaps add it on the next vcast as a segment...I dunno )

You have been in void for too long if: (in random order)

* You have more than one character

* You have Void in your bookmark, mainly the forum section

* You go to Jamzchat, not just for the cock jokes, but mainly to know whats up.

* You know who the "Welcome Wagon" is.

* You know more than one retard/troll who dwells in Void

* You have the dilemma of redoing your intro page and Design Sheet, but youre too lazy.

* You're afraid of Wei

* You have witness more than one hype go to hell because of no follow through

* You know what the symbol of Void means

* You know what happened/ know the reason when Artjam closed down

* You know who starts the AIM chat before the chat moved to DA

* You know the inside jokes like " Taintface, Bootbutt, Synjeh emoticons, Pissing on Dan, and Morior"

* You have been " punked " by Galvo during April Fools

* You have become a ridicule inside the circle...one way or the other.

* You were involve in a drama that lead to a scar/deathmatch which didnt resolve anything

* You know how long the " Void timeout " lasted

* You celebrated the event mentioned above

* You have seen a fellow voidling grew inside the community

* You know who Kyosho is

* You have talked to Kyosho

* You know what Kyosho did, both in the community and with a specific person

* You have dreamed of a void scenario

* You have participated in some of its event, only to lose and pretend it never happened.

* You can still remember Void 2.0 layout

* You know who is the flash voice that goes " beep boop " on the front of the page

* You remember the splash page at Void 3.0, and that annoying voice (Oooh' Snap!..Void Tourneh iz on!)

* You know who that annoying voice is

* You have the Void Theme song on your mp3 list

* You MEMORIZED that theme song ( ugh..yeah..im ready..to start mah journeh..)

* You know who Jar is

* You know who Vincent is

* You know that in order to get accepted in Void, your name is put on a hat...not

* Everybody knows who you are

* Everybody asks you about past events

* No one knows what youre talking about

* You decide to make a list of how long you have been in this community

There is more I believe, feel free to add in this my fellow brethren

Mamoru Out.


Oh, and thanks for the 29k kiriban

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/21335832/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/21335832/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 08:15:14 PST
like fuck, I have to force myself since my work starts at 4 and ends at 3 ( best job ever, I sit on a desk doing stuff in relation to my skill...keh better than caricatures I tell you)



Listening to the filipino radio, everyone is rejoicing on Obama's victory, actually, I do too.

.....oh yeah, they play xmas songs already, time flies.

thanks for the reply on my last post guys, that really helps. Im doing some rehab as usual, somehow im getting it again, all I need right now is more time.


I doodled something random today 20 minute unfinished doodle Deji would so kill me for this, but hey, hope this make ya happy Matty-O

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/21294359/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/21294359/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 04:42:20 PST
I need to get that groove back somehow. Eyes are also getting blurry, seems I officially need to get some glasses.

It finally rained here in L.A. Its been surprising since what I have been looking forward is to see the dry streets of North Hollywood be drenched in water, it brings back memories and the scent of the time where I was young and restless, and have decided to take the pencil over the calculator.


Oh yeah...was thinking of the plot where it rekindles the love-story of Mize and Kate, and oddly, it was three years ago when Kate dumped Mize in front of an arcade...I dunno, some weird thought while browsing through my work and my fellow artist works that connects with the storylines.

time to get ready to sleep to go to work in a few hours. I really need to get my groove back on, because the Mamoru of two to three years ago will laugh on the Mamoru of now.

because as I read through these comics, I just realized my old me was the comic artist, and the now me is some guy who is learning to do comics.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/18329779/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/18329779/ Thu, 15 May 2008 00:36:42 PDT

The second one was fun, much more entertaining and everyone had a blast. I wanna thank Monday for the time he spent with us even though he is in the middle of a death match battle.


Anywho, gonna continue editing, then prolly do Ji Kei's new design and post it on the database.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/18234614/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/18234614/ Thu, 08 May 2008 21:58:22 PDT

well been in this apartment for three weeks now, I am still enjoying it.


So...Who wants to get commission?



just lemme know so I can start posting price.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/17857271/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/17857271/ Mon, 14 Apr 2008 22:14:44 PDT
......



..........



.....



I found a place, come wednesday I will check it out and talk to the peeps in regards on the process of me moving in to this studio apartment.



Pray for me everyone, you know that if I move, that means more time to draw and more time for void.



....which means "Mize-month" ( Thats what Jingu and Hiems called that thing when I fought more than 5 artists in one month) may happen again.


On a side note, I might have to do commissions now. Though I need to get some assurance that I will get people since I remember what happened on a friend of mine who tried it and did not got much of a response.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/17582098/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/17582098/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 23:51:25 PDT
Place was very nostalgic, it still felt as home despite the fact that I dont live there anymore.

Got myself a Tachikawa School Pen, its close to using a Tachikawa G-Pen I believe, and it gives me the lines I want for my work without going to the trouble of inking it digitally ( yeah, Digital gives you the benefit to undo and to deliver a farther crisp-and-clean lines, but the downside is the time and the trouble of hand-eye coordination...unless you own one of them cintiqs or youre one of those who are confident enough to spend less than an hour inking)


Finally home after staying all night in Burbank, I really have thought of using the time to do my BB and stuff, but umm....

.....


.......didnt felt like it.


anywho, back to work tommorow, seems we will be back on the usual schedule since spring break is over, and I believe that Ill have more time to do the comics since it would be dead once in awhile.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/16793579/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/16793579/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 00:16:47 PST

Found some pages of my BB laying all over my hard drive, so thats good. Also, still redoing more plots for Layla's comic called Camgirl or Camgal. ( short for Campaign Girls).



acquired more soldiers on MGS Ops Plus, fun.


Comics seems to call stronger nowadays, I still try to swerve away since the profession is not enough to pay for my loans, let alone I dont display the great skill to contribute at it ( amateur stuff is all I can do at the moment)

The calling is strong, yet I still decline to accept it.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/16778164/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/16778164/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 23:25:07 PST

I never really grow fond of co workers but I offically say that I love my crew. Not mainly for the fact we all came from different Art Institutes, but because of the interaction and atmosphere.


Ill get retrained on Airbrush again soon, so thats awesome, plus they suggest for me to post my work on one of the walls, oddly, something I highly doubt I am capable of when I work on my first caricature job.


As for the day off, me and Leslie went to Burbank mall, window shopped and played the simpsons arcade game ( the old beat em up, its fun). I can finally pat myself on the back since I manage to stay in a womens store long enough with her, back then I tend to run off outside and wait for her.

Oh, heard of a job perspective for storyboarding again, I would love to take it, but as I said, I love my coworkers...and sometimes it makes me feel that im better off with ex-animators ( my manager and a coworker were animator once, one from the Philippines and one worked for King of The hill) and fresh-out-of-the-oven animators like me than jump back into the politics of the industry....running off with my tail on the middle of my legs? yeah, you could say that, 9 months of feeling down does that to ya, but hey, just like Sam always say to me: " cest la vie "


Still comicking, doing drafts and asking for assistance on proofreading and plot-hole-repairs from Leslie...Camgirl mini-series about to start.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/16762008/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/16762008/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 21:32:52 PST
Tommorow is another day, but oh well, Im off, so Ill just go and meet with Leslie and spend time with her or something, preferably watch a movie or something.



Comicking again, and perhaps commissioning soon.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/15837536/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/15837536/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 16:49:46 PST
Im not talking about Santa Claus here, but I was always thought that there is 9 principles of Animation....Apparently theres TWENTY EIGHT!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH MOMMIE YOU LIED TO MEEEEEEE!!!! IM TELLING ON GRANDPA!! ( Mommy as in my teachers and Grandpa as in the old men of animation?...dont get it?...well some of you animators do...I think )



...ok now that's done, im gonna go back to job search/ Practice / Portfolio Submitting ( i.e. Throwing a pebble on a big lake)...

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14944121/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14944121/ Sat, 06 Oct 2007 16:48:11 PDT


Can't wait.... of course im siding with Pacqiao!!


dont feel like drawing or recapping today, I probably need a break in art in general.

Were also celebrating my oldman's birthday today, well it was supposed to be on the 2nd, but they decided to do it today since its saturday.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14883868/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14883868/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 11:23:43 PDT

My old man said that I cant blame everyone in this, nor would I try to just lay every fault on those who are involve in my misery right now. If there is anyone to blame, its basically me, and this is the reason everyone agrees with:


" Masyado kang mabait." ( You're too nice )



Wait, how does that work? as far as I know, Im not as kind or nice as they see me. I have grudges and I made enemies during my time as an artist, I have stepped and have discouraged a few who has been blinded by the shining glory known as art, and I have refused a few offers when someone is asking for help.

Apparently, their reason is that If I am not too kind, then I wouldnt have just said yes to everything my peers say, not only that, I am too good, that if someone tells me that I did something bad, I would completely lay down and play ball without wondering or asking as to why.

The comic gigs for instance, they said that I was willing to give my all to my friends without trying to ensure my benefits from it.

The analogy is that I jumped and dodge a bullet for them, but who would be sure that they will be there for the funeral? let alone, even visit your grave and offer you flowers now that your rotting six feet under ( or mixed with the sea if your the cremated type).


Another one is that I handed a bread without asking for something in return, the kindness will illuminate, but I would die starving, how sure are you that they will hand you a bread? maybe its already too late and they have, or they already forgotten while they already build their own bakeshop.


I defended it that im building a reputation, but...knowing that when you came in this world, the ones your debating with has already seen the bitterness of life and has conquered it, they countered it with: " Reputation? Thats nice and all, but youre building it on where? I want you to walk in to a studio right now and say that reputation of yours, and I assure you that they will laugh. You're not a pro, your still an amateur, lower than an amateur, and if you think just because 5 or 6 people give you a smile does not make you any professional."


And they are right. actually, they are right on every point that they given me. I came back to LA and declined a job in MN just because a comic book friend said theres a gig that would pay lots of money...where is it? I went and did comic coloring in order to give me a higher rep and good padding on my resume...what happen to it? I cant use the coloring anymore as a resume because he didnt use the color in the end, so I wasted a month and a half for nothing, as for the job offer, I have yet to see this person eye to eye. A promised studio in September? hey...its October already.


So I learned my lesson from this. I should learn to watch over myself first before I go and help others, because in the end, Im the one who is suffering, not them.



Oh, the person who said she would report me for a deviation I did 2 to 3 years ago hasnt replied, so as a start of being less kind, I will upload my character Kathryn again, in fact, Ill even draw a revision of her, and I will FILL MY EFFING DEVIATIONS OF HER TILL I GET A STRAIGHT ANSWER AS TO WHY AN ORIGINAL CHARACTER CREATED A LONG TIME AGO HAS TO GO TO FANART!


Thank you and have a great day guys.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14863823/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14863823/ Sun, 30 Sep 2007 23:00:22 PDT [link]


How nice, was looking for something new from Yoshida Brothers and I found a song that they collabed with Monkey Majik that really brighten my day a bit.

I love the lyrics, it really shoots directly how I feel ( I dunno about the rap part, but its nice nonetheless)

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14841849/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14841849/ Sat, 29 Sep 2007 13:30:03 PDT
so far yung mga kailangan ko na i-transfer sa PC ko, nandito na, ang problema nga lang, yung motherboard ko kasi out dated and bios kaya kailangan kong i-update para gumana ang Painter 6.


Ang nakakainis kasi, kung gagawin ko nanaman iyon, eh balik nanaman ako sa pag-install at un-install ng mga utilities ng PC ko...ugh at least proud ako na kahit papaano nakabuo ako ng sarili kong PC from scratch.


Plano ko na mag-sketch a day para ma-ensayo uli yung drawing skills ko, problema lang ay mayroon iba diyan ( ayoko magbigay ng pangalan ) na sasabihin sa akin na " o nagdradrawing ka uli, bakit di ka mag drawing ng comics uli sa void?"

kung gustuhin ko man, di maari kasi sa tagal ng oras na kakailanganin ko. At isa pa, madalas na ko matulog ngayon, di katulad noong nasa kolehiyo ako, ayon, sige, magpuyat ka hanggang sa gusto mo. At saka babalik din naman ako eh, problema ba iyon na mag antay sila at intindihin na may malaki ako na suliranin na kailangan kong lutasin bago magtapos ang taon?

Kung sabagay...is a sa mga pinakamalaking pagsisisi ko rin ang maging aktibo sa comics. Kaya sa tabi muna iyan, marami na akong napasaya sa ginawa ko doon, ako naman ang magpapasaya sa sarili ko ( diyos ko, ang tanda ko na no, halos lahat ng mga ka-tropa ko may asawa't anak na, ako na lang ang nahuhuli.)


Sa ngayon andito parin ako sa tiyahin ko, kung puwede lang na lumipat ako eh gagawin ko, KASO ALA AKONG PERA!! broke as hell, ni singkong duling ala ako sa bank account ko...oh wait, ala na nga pala akong bank account..DUR!!

Ang gulong ng buhay nga naman, minsan nasa taas ka, minsan nasa baba ka. Kung gustuhin mo man na idaan ang buhay mo sa isang landas, hindi maari kung ang nakatadhana sa iyo ay iba.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14777756/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14777756/ Mon, 24 Sep 2007 19:03:18 PDT [link]

Show me some love, or however Felle says it when he does plugs.



As for my Respark one, Thats where most of my naughty stuff goes, and some experimental ones.

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14167650/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14167650/ Tue, 14 Aug 2007 16:09:20 PDT


HELIUUUUUUUUUUUUM.....HELIUUUUUUUUUOOOooHHhhhUUuuuM...



...Don't breathe it in though

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14037604/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/14037604/ Mon, 06 Aug 2007 02:32:25 PDT
there would be some that I will remove, but not sure if I should.

Anyway, I havent put anything here in this journal so now im adding a new one again. I dunno much to say, but im in the middle of a Tag match which is a guinea pig project just to see how the tag team battle will work. Im with my art brother Felle on this, and were fighting Lysol and Sis RJ.

The battle scenario ( of both sides ) happened many months ago till the recent. And it also fast forward in their side right after a year.

Im completely excited on it, and at the same time, pretty overwhelmed since this is the first time im gonna do a BB twice the size of my battle, and a battle where Im collaborating to an extent that our work has to work as one. Sounds easy from afar, but its not once you get to the drawing board.

I also need to apologize to everyone who has been waiting for this BB, I know I sound completely like an ass lately mainly because the pressure of other things, but dont worry, this is the reason why I have been dedicating a no-sleep-one-weeker-all-out attention towards this.

anywho, breaktimes over, time to get back to these babies....Im really enjoying drawing Sekka and Hanabi. ( who? you'll find out )

]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/9813688/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/9813688/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 08:46:46 PDT ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/9637914/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/9637914/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 02:21:43 PDT ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/8641380/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/8641380/ Mon, 01 May 2006 13:04:57 PDT ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/7792042/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/7792042/ Fri, 03 Feb 2006 16:17:47 PST

Reason is that I have no money, literally I am a bum for these two weeks, asking classmates, and even some relatives who are kind enough to lend me the money. Sure, They give me a dollar fifty, then I bum back to my classmates. Its really embarrassing deep inside. But in the end, I cannot rely on them most of the time, so I have to wait for a perfect opportunity.

This is a very cleansing moment of my life though, since I didnt smoke around those times. But with this financial problem of going from point A to point B, I cannot think right. Leading to the worse problem for that two weeks: I almost timed out on all three classes.

As I write this, I am trying to catch up, trying to make it so that I catch up. Pete Patsiavoz was kind enough to understand my situation, and he said he would vouch for me. And I have to pick my poison he said: drop out or keep fighting and loose one of my classes.

I want a third option, and its only possible if I put 150% of my time for school...And I have decided to take it.

There is this need of venting, so I went and vent to my lady and my mom (heh pathetic? well sorry, I use to vent by drinking beer, smoking and chatting with friends, but my friends are all scattered everywhere and are busy, and the only one who are close are these two, and they know me inside out.). My mother told me that I should have talked to her before it got worse, but what can she say, im just as stubborn as my father. Then she suggested that the third option is a good idea. Im shocked, since I always know that self reliance is best during these kinds of times, but she said that she is not like my father, nor she would want me to take longer in staying here in MN. So she asked for my expenditures per month, and the estimation. Holy crap, im getting support to finish college! Back then my aunt only give me a few just in case, but because I work, it stopped, but now, they want to do it once more and give it all if I give MY ALL in college.

From that moment I feel confident, I felt that I can take on the world and the sun starts to shine....And so, I have come to that decision. I am leaving my job.

I should have told them before hand, but as we speak, Im catching up with the missed classes. Im done with the sound effects for audio class, now what I have to do is capture my own sounds, Its been due since last week, and I need to hand it over if I want to still be in that class, and I have till monday to do that. Same with Traditional Animation Studio, Storyboard is due back then, and I need to pass that and make a complete animatics for this week, I talked to Soyeon and she said she would check it for Monday at 2, because I should have done that a long time ago and why am I catching up now? I told her the situation and told her Pete already knows, So she said Monday, "I want them to be done, so you can have some time to Remake or redo any animatic scene for Tuesday for Presentation." (For those who have studied under Soyeon, you know when I say the word Remake or adjust your work...sometimes, it goes from change half of the scene all the way to start over again). Then finally my intermediate animation class. I havent passed a single project, nor actually know what Im doing, I am lost in rigging, I am so fucking lost! Why am I lost? because I am not in the class and Hernandez teaches fast, so fast before I could move a rig, he is already somewhere else.

Its all my fault just to let you guys know, but I have to make both ends meet for my education. Plus, I really dont feel like im helping you guys at all in the booth, If you look on all of my record, My average amount that I give for the booth is up to 100 dollars, I never go higher than 150, logically, an employee who cannot make it for the company's quota is not on his or her prime and needed to be reconsidered for the employment. I should improve and try to do my best, I could, but my education is gonna suffer. What about the weekdays? I dont work right? that is true, but im talking about the situation now, and I cannot juggle anymore. As I said, Im very sorry, and I know you guys would hate me and try to say how crappy or how much of a shithead I am, Im fine with that, I deserve it.

Honestly even my aunt here at home doesnt even know Im around, definitely she thinks im a shithead too... Ive been avoiding her till I recieve the money transfer from my mom to pay for my rent/celphone/cable.

There is only a few months before fall comes...I need to start moving on...oh as for the deviant artworks...yeah, It may be a while till I post again..sorry on that too. ]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/7515597/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/7515597/ Thu, 05 Jan 2006 08:28:17 PST
Starting to the most common to the less asked question:

1. What do you use to draw?

Painter 6 for CGing, and Photoshop for effects, text, what have you.

I use a wacom tablet, as of late, my old old old scanner (which has guided me since my first year in the net) is acting weird. So the newest deviations are all done in tablet.

2. Where the heck have you been?!/Your alive!/OMFG your back?!

Yes, for those who are wondering, the times I have been in hiatus here in DA, I am spending my time to practice and participate in the website called Void. I havent done a lot of pinups for the past months and I have spent my drawing time doing comics/sequentials in the mentioned site.

3. How long does it take you to CG?

It ranges from 2 hours to 15, sometimes it takes days, the bigger the size, the bigger the details, the longer it takes. Most the stuff you seen are all low resolutions, hence these are quick.

4. Do you do request art/Kiriban art?

Someday I shall do it again, but right now, I have been tight on schedule, these deviations you see are all done when I decide to take a break from Void, commissions, and school.

5. Whats with girls in Leotards? I notice all your girls are all scantily clad.

Yes, im a perv, and I have a fetish regarding the questioned clothing. I love what I draw, and hence why I do it.

6. What brought you back to DA? I thought your gonna leave it behind.

I was, but I left a promise many many many moons ago that as a new years resolution I should do a daily submitions of deviations so that way I practice myself from being lenient and active, if I succeed to pass 365 deviations, well wohoo, that means I can get things done and a bragging right to myself and my peers.

7. Who is your favorite artist in DA?

Ever since I saw Hoon's work, I have been in awe. Someday I wish I can meet the guy and shake his hands for being an inspiration.


If you guys have more questions, feel free to ask, ill try to answer it. ]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/6542994/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/6542994/ Mon, 19 Sep 2005 05:14:45 PDT
[link]

This is one of them, one is an intermediate 3d model, and some other frivolous stuff like moving and stuff since a family member moved back in. I feel comfy having them here..I love my family that much.

Anyhow, check the site out. Most old and well, new art are in there. ]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/6119752/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/6119752/ Wed, 03 Aug 2005 05:53:16 PDT
No posting on the 7th guys. go to to get the complete detail. (Im sure some are already informed)

Yeah, I know this sounds pathetic of me pleading for help from most of you guys and some of us indeed feel like leaving this place. Perhaps the idea of community is fading and the spirit of posting art here is starting to become a profit of a few who doesnt really know the burning passion of an artist, but rather the financial gain from what comes from us.

Yeah im rambling right now, but lets give it a go guys. ]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/5877416/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/5877416/ Fri, 08 Jul 2005 13:29:59 PDT
So far after many days just letting my PC run rant radio and me laying down in heavy sickness my aunt tells me that I need to get a check up because this is the second time I got sick for too long and she thinks it may be Pneumonia (not sure if its the right one, but my aunt says Pulmoniya in tagalog..you flips know what it is, the one you get if you get your sweat all dried up and shit.)

I hate doctors, let alone trust them, so I just brushed off the suggestion and tells her Ill be fine..which I know I am. Right now as I am making this journal the heaviness is gone. have a hard time breathing, but im ok. I still cant smoke, and the last time I tried one I just felt suffocated and shit. ah heck ill get better, I know I do.


P.S. For those who I owe art from, my sincerest apologies. And also, im starting to accept commission, fanart commision, whatevah. I need money so I can continue my plans of moving out. ]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/5777797/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/5777797/ Tue, 28 Jun 2005 02:12:53 PDT
I have a new job now. I work in the caricature kiosk in mall of america. Its a quick change of pace in style, but its helpful.

Along those lines, I wanna thank Teague and Maria and Joe for getting me in the job. And for those who are watching me right now and looking at my art. I love you guys and thank ya.

You know, being in the mid 20s tend to get you a bit emotional, but I love you guys, and thank you very much for all the support. ]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/5307404/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/5307404/ Mon, 09 May 2005 01:17:28 PDT

Despite its rap.....




...It made me cry. ]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/5234809/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/5234809/ Sun, 01 May 2005 01:02:58 PDT
1.Your food costs cheaper than your art material.

2.Your diet is consist of quick-nuke-em-boil-em foods..on the other hand...diet..what's that?

3.When someone asks for your opinion where they put a mirror/picture on a wall, you answer with: Too much negative space.

4. I.D. means more than just an identification card to you...

5. You appreciate stairs more than elevators.

6. Muffins sounds funny to you (well...for me)

7. If I get a penny whenever I press ctrl + S, Ill be a millionaire by now...

8. If I get a penny whenever I press ctrl + Z, Ill be a billionaire by now...

9. You get excited when you see rust, dirt...and cracks..

10. Rubber Duckie is to Photoshop as teapot is to Max...

11. set paper on peg and table..spacebar spacebar...remove on peg..repeat as necessary..

12. ZIEG HYMEN!!!

13....There's a fourth floor? oh yeah...

14. Sleep? whats that?

15. Life: A composition of 300-1000dpi that runs in 29.97 fps.

16. Yellow?! ...YELLOW?! WHY IN THE WORLD ITS YELLOW?!!

17. Rigged means more than just those darn variation of condoms.

18. The tune played after After Effects finish rendering is music in your ears.

19. You cringe when you see a very very crowded area...I mean...10 people in one global illuminated room has to have like a lot of memory usage....unless they are rotorscope or something...but they are not...AAAAAAAGH!!!

20. Your bothered when you see something smooth, clean, and sharp....

21. You own a digital camera not because you wanna take pics of people...

22. People freaks out when you take pictures...because your facing the opposite side...the wall..

23. You can tell the difference of a freshman to someone who is like a junior or senior.

24. You lose your original hair color. (SCHWING!)

25. You feel comfy when you hear the number 227...

26. You cringe when you hear stilletos or high heel sounds in the hallway.

27. You shudder when you smell a very disticnt perfume in the hallway.

28. YOU CRY AND RUN when you see a sexy looking girl holding draft plots in the hallways.

29. YOU COMMIT SEPPUKU WITH A FRISBEE WHEN THE SEXY LOOKING GIRL HOLDING DRAFT PLOTS IN THE HALLWAYS ASKS YOU WHERE THE PRINT SERVICE IS!!!!

30. I survive the horror of intro to 2d and all I got was a lousy t-shirt.

31. You managed to sleep in the school ground...UNDETECTED!!

32. High School memory becomes less terrible, until you head to gen eds.

33. Define Art history: A time in your quarter where your bag is twice as heavy as your body weight.

34. Speech: An epiphany of your college life where you find more interesting mind patterns in comparison with Psychology.

35. Psychology: The time where you evaluate everything in speech class.

36. Literature: "So Yaoi-Yiff DOES Exist in olden times!!"

37. Ethics: Your only chance to get away with world domination and genocide plots.

38. "Every first draft is shit"

39. SCIRAUSCORO!!!!

40. Squash....AND STRETCH!!!

So far thats what I have that runs in my head, Ill think of more soon... ]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/5117917/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/5117917/ Mon, 18 Apr 2005 05:24:29 PDT
So if you see the latest dev. This is the result of what I was playing around with. In comparison to what I do before with now? Im not sure...

On a side note I end up creating a story called "E-mail." now, the letter "E" is the keyrole of the title...ah heck, im just rambling right now... ]]> ~Nishikawa http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/5065754/ http://Nishikawa.deviantart.com/journal/5065754/ Mon, 11 Apr 2005 23:52:42 PDT
The feeling started a few weeks ago, there's this thoughts of: "hmm I need to change my image." I started with the way I wear my clothes actually. My family seems to be happy with it.
and yes, even I felt comfy with the thought of wearing blue jeans and a bright shirt.

The next step was the hair, I decided to go with the dye my aunt has in her stock room, its a soft dark brown dye. I never used this kind before, but seeing the result once again made me felt the same "comfy" feeling that I had when I changed clothes.


The latest step I did just happened minutes ago...I cut my bangs...yeah, the bangs I cared so much just went *skah* and now I have bangs that only reach my eyebrows...

Whats with the changes? I dont know the answer myself, but one thing is certain...it feels good. ]]> ~Nishikawa