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I won't say I'm thrilled to death that it came up negative. In all honesty, if I was pregnant, it would be okay. I'm lucky enough to be with someone who has a secure, well paying job to provide for pre natal care and the necessary baby supplies. And more importantly, he would be a fantastic daddy. He's a wonderful person. I don't want to say I was dreading being pregnant because I really believe if I got pregnant then I was supposed to get pregnant. I will say I'm relieved I won't have to quit school or compromise Brad's income, though.

So. I'm safe until further notice. Brad and I decided not to even try sex for a while. He said if we don't want to have a baby then we shouldn't be having sex. And as boring as that is, I can't argue

But hey there, sexually active teens! There are plenty of ways to have fun without risking pregnancy! You can read the bible together! Or share oatmeal! Or play monopoly! And then of course there is oral sex, fingering, foreplay, mutual masturbation, and so so much more. Or hey, why not go gay for a while? You may find you like it!!!

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/26491585/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/26491585/ Sun, 09 Aug 2009 19:51:22 PDT
You do not need to have penetrative sex to become pregnant.

Pre cum in the vaginal area can get you pregnant. (For the kiddos, pre cum is the clear stuff that comes out of a man's penis to help lubricate)

Essentially, you can be some people's definition of a virgin and still get pregnant.

Pregnancy tests can give false negatives for weeks.

To be safe, take a pregnancy test a week or so after your missed period!

My birth control pills are such that I only get my period four times a month.

I have to wait a month.

I might be pregnant.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/25252863/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/25252863/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 11:23:03 PDT
I told her I had been suffering from Anorexia Nervosa.

Everything in my head screamed at me to stop. "No, don't tell the doctor! They'll monitor you! You won't be able to control your weight! That's the only control you have left!" But the louder my brain screamed the firmer my decision. I told her everything. And now I'm on watch.

I don't know where I got the strength to do it... To let go of that last bit of control I had over my life. But I did it. It was terrifying. It still is. You can't just take something like that back.

But then I got scared. I had NOTHING left to control. I didn't know what was going on with Brad, I couldn't make myself feel better by starving myself. So I decided to try to control him.

I pressed him SO hard to reject me. I laid it on him heavy. Even though it was the last thing I wanted in the world... My desire to control the situation at that moment outweighed my desire for him.

But he didn't bite! I pushed and pushed to get him to admit he didn't love me and never would. But he wouldn't budge. He said he couldn't tell me that because it wouldn't be true. He wants to wait. He wants to see where this goes. I talked to him about everything. I told him what everyone told me. How love cures commitment-phobia and all that. And he was so sweet and supportive through all of it. He isn't afraid of the commitment. He's just so used to a trend... A trend of going after the girl he wants and getting burned.

Of course I apologized profusely afterward. I hated myself for letting my desire for control influence my behavior. Especially towards him. But he wasn't mad! He said he WANTS me to get it off of my chest when I feel that way. He talked me through it and everything.

He says I'm close to bringing out that inner strength he sees in me. He was so proud of me for talking to the doctor and he was just great.

So, I'm feeling better about everything. Yesterday I ate breakfast, lunch, and dinner for the first time in months.

I'm gonna win, guys. I found hope... I found strength... In him

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/25194613/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/25194613/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 09:44:50 PDT
You know, some days it gets so damn hard.
Yesterday I fasted. I went over 24 hours without eating. In that time I walked over 18 miles.

I'm falling back to the way things were.

My lowest point was 97 pounds. That's a BMI of 17.7. The minimum BMI to be considered healthy is 18.5. My goal at the time was 95. A BMI of 17.4... Over 10 points too low.

I started getting better and reached a normal weight. It makes me sick to say it, but I got all the way up to a sloppy, disgusting 115. That's not meant to be offensive to anyone who weighs that or more. It looks fine on you. Not me.

In a short amount of time I've gone from 115 to 106. 9 lbs. I can see the difference. My stomach is flat. Ribs still out of sight, but peeking out in the right position. Some people say it isn't a big difference. But when I gain or lose one pound I can see a HUGE difference.

I've found out that I do this to myself when I'm stressed. When I can't control the world around me, I control my internal world. I have the power to lose as much weight as I want and nobody can stop it but me. Ana is the only thing I have.

There is a boy. A handsome, sweet, incredibly intelligent boy. I adore him. Everything about him. He's so fun and romantic, passionate, strong, masculine. I love everything about him and I fall for him all over again every time we talk.

We went on a date and he spent the night. We messed around for a little bit and as we lay there together I was just so happy. Kissing him, holding him, stroking his face, playing with his hair. It was heaven. Then he whispered in my ear.

"I don't want to hurt you." I thought it was sweet and romantic. I've been hurt by everyone else. It was sweet. I kissed him and asked him why he would say something so silly. He said it again. Then he said, "I can't do this. It's not the right time." He went on to say he didn't know how he felt. In a week he might regret saying it, but at that moment he just couldn't have a relationship.

Suddenly he didn't want me to touch his face or hold his hand. None of it seems like a big deal, except for the fact that he was telling me everything he told me before that point was a lie. All of those promises of a future together... It all meant nothing.

So I started to panic, right there in his arms. It was so hard to breathe. My whole body tensed. I expected to burst into tears at any moment. I was an idiot. He was just like everyone else.

And then... "Breathe. Come on, breathe. You're alright. Breathe with me." He did breathing exercises with me. He rubbed my back and whispered to me. "You're okay. Yes you are. Breathe. Good girl. It's okay. Relax... Calm down. You're fine."

Nobody has ever. Ever. Held me when I was having an anxiety attack. He not only calmed me down, but he grabbed me a blanket and tucked me in. He held me all night. "I'll be right here. It's going to be okay." And he was there when I woke up.

He said there had to be something wrong with him because for years all he wanted was a relationship. And now that he was faced with one he didn't know what he wanted.

In the morning, it was like the conversation never happened. I made him breakfast. We hung out together. He picked me up and carried me around, twirled me around like we were kids. It was so fun. He was romantic. He let me lay down with him and play with his hair. He let me sit in his lap and face him while he kissed me down my neck. Everything was playful and romantic and passionate. It was like we were... together. At one point he asked me what I thought. After bantering for a little bit he asked me straight up what I thought about the conversation last night. I told him he could take all the time he needed. He laid on top of me for a while and let me hold him and it was just nice and great.

And now I'm home. And he's home. And I'm trying my best not to pressure him. He said he's afraid. He's been hurt as much as I have been... But I don't think he's afraid of us. I think he's just afraid of how I'll react when he finally rejects me. That's how I feel. But I don't know. How can he act SO sweet and SO loving and SO amazing if he doesn't want me? There's obviously attraction. We make each other laugh. When we're together everything seems wonderful. Then what is holding him back? Why doesn't he love me back...?

I'm still waiting to see what happens. He says he needs to figure things out. He really doesn't want to hurt me. I know that for a fact. But I feel like it's that fear and only that fear that is keeping him from telling me no.

But the point is... I can't control how he feels. I can't make him love me. I can't affect the outcome of this story. We might end up together, which is what I really want. We might not. Maybe I'll be in this limbo until... ]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/24168469/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/24168469/ Fri, 10 Apr 2009 16:30:30 PDT
1. What is your DeviantArt name and what does it mean?
Nisi is a nickname of mine and Kai comes from the kais of dragonball z.

2. Why did you join this site?
I had great aspirations of actually posting things and drawing pictures for people... oh, to be young and foolish.

3. What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined?
Dragonball Z. Still

4. How many watchers are you currently watching now?
pffff. at least 100. There are so many great artists on here <3

5. Your first gift ever was to?
Ummmmmmmm. i can't even remember. did i ever give anyone a gift? ._.

6. List five things you are a fan of?
1) perfect cell
2) harley quinn
3) innagadadbz's stupid videos
4) high heels
5) anything cute!!!

8. List four people you look up to the most? (apparently no #7)
1) my brother chris (so smart with his freaking model wife. gahhh)
2) my big sister cheri
3) my buddy angie. i aspire to be as adorable as her
4) my friend tess, who is so smart and i luff her

9. How many pets do you own?
3

12. Name 3 aspects of your personality? (hey, let's disregard numbers!)
1) accepting
2) fun
3) paranoid ;_;

13. If you could had a power what would it be?
ability to fly. no question

14. Who was the last person you talked to?
my brother

15. Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
i don't remember ._.

16. Write the first five things that pop into your head?
1) it's really dark in here
2) i wish my a key didn't get stuck all the time
3) dad better call me soon.
4) i'm gonna be so bored and lonely tonight.
5) i need to check facebook and see if dustin sent me my movies.

17. What are the things you wish you could do better?
lose weight
be confident
sing
draw
dance

18. Do you like who you are?
parts of me, yeah

19. Summer or winter?
summer

20. Rain or sun?
sun! rain scares me ;_;

21. List 2 odd things about yourself?
1) i turn into a puddle when i hear a russian accent
2) i can crack my elbows???

22. Pop or Hip hop?
depends on my mood

23. How many scars do you have?
none

24. Do you wear spiked wristbands, Collars & belts?
nope!

25. Do you own anything from Hot Topic?
some shirts and a pair of heels

26. Windows or Mac?
windows. i hate macs

27. Nyc Trpp or Lip Service?
huh?

28. Steak or Chicken?
no!!!

29. Favorite Color(s)?
pink forever!

30. Anime or Manga?
anime

31. Beer or wine?
neither. blech!

32. Goth or Emo?
oh man. goth girls and emo girls are effin hot. i don't even care.

33. How many pairs of shoes do you have?
a trillion!

34. What is the most amount alcohol you ever drank in one day?
:twitches at horribly formed question:
a sip

35. Cold or Hot?
hottt

36. Favorite pair of pants?
the ones i'm wearing now. low cut and slimming <3

37. Do you like your user name?
sure!

38. Have you tried any drugs?
nope

39. If you have? what drugs?
nopppppe

40. Do you have a myspace/Facebook page?
facebook

41. Pizza or Kebabs?
depends what kind of kebabs.

42. Are you are nice person?
yes i really am!!!

43. How old are you?
18

44. Spikes, studs or eyelets?
i don't know what eyelets are!

45. Do you like your music loud?
yes!

46. Kind hearted?
mhm

47. Holden or Ford?
holden caufield?

48. Annoying?
;_; gee i hope not

49. Do you like PLZ accounts?
plz? please?!

50. Do you own a car or motor bike?
car

51. Do you like The Presets?
what the heck is that?

52. Do you keep secrets?
yes i do! i'm very good at keeping secrets

53. Should they release criminals from jail if they have kil... ]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/24004356/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/24004356/ Wed, 01 Apr 2009 12:23:51 PDT
I'm making a webshow. It's called Geeking Out. It has a following of about 900+ subscribers on youtube.

The episode is about FAN STUFF and I'm looking for someone to draw the intro picture. I usually take a photo but I was hoping someone could draw something for it. Please comment or send me a note if you're interested. I'll give you credit... but I have specifications so please ask first!

I'd do it myself but A) i'm lazy and B) i want it to be good

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/23146069/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/23146069/ Wed, 11 Feb 2009 19:42:09 PST
I don't know what else to say. I'm angry and I'm hurt but I knew it was going to happen.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/23129036/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/23129036/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 20:06:29 PST

[link]

It's a fanmanga based off of all those old DBAF rumors. It's pretty wild. And i just think the idea that Nishi Kaioshin is Freeza's mommy is hilarious.

So there's a random update.

Aaaand no other updates. Mom is alright physically but still sort of messed up. I'll keep you guys posted.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/23100850/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/23100850/ Mon, 09 Feb 2009 11:46:16 PST [link]

something to take my mind off of my mother's near murder

no, seriously though. this is super exciting for dragonball z fants. remember the animation on the new movie Goku and His Friends Return or whatever? how everyone was saying 'oh i wish they'd do the whole series like that?'

...

no filler. totally remastered (and not what funimation is doing- BETTER) and the entire japanese cast is RE DUBBING EVERYTHING!

funimation is going to want in on it. i hope they redo some scripting. krillin should not be making references to the bahamas haha. so. yes.

fun!

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/23089599/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/23089599/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 18:40:38 PST
my mother works for her ex boyfriend. she went to his house (about an hour away) and they got in a small fight because he was talking about his ex. she said she was going to leave and he locked her out of their room where her stuff was. she told him to let her in and he wouldn't. so she said she was going to break the door down and she'd pay for it later but she needed to get her stuff. so she kicked a small hole in the door.

he grabbed her hand and almost broke it. it happened fast so she doesnt remember a lot of it but eventually he got his hands around her neck. there were two bouts of strangulation and he also tried to smother her.

she pleaded with him to stop. she has a permanent neck injury from a car accident and she told him 'my neck!' and he looked in her face and said 'i know'.

he grabbed her wind pipe in her throat and pulled it forward and really hurt her. she almost passed out. she told him 'i'm sorry i'm so sorry. please let me go to the bathroom' and he actually let her go, warning her 'i'm not done with you yet'.

she ran.

he spend the night in jail but is out now.
she's all beat up and spent the entire day in the ER.

she is still working for him. and she talked to him on the phone, trying to reason with him. he called her numerous times.

i tried so hard to get her off the phone. i really did but... she wouldn't have it. i spent the night being screamed at and spent an hour in 40 degree weather with a windbreaker on waiting for a ride that never came.

now she is convinced it was her fault and she is furious with me and my brother for trying to get help. we almost got kicked out.

the thing is i know this is just like all the other incidents. nothing will change. nothing will happen. it's just going to be another event in my life that i'm forbidden to discuss.

so that's the scoop. i'll update you guys. i have no idea what's going to happen.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/23087903/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/23087903/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 17:14:55 PST
its getting so hard
she almost died and oh fuck. christ.

i cant do this anymore guys. i cant keep doing this

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/23017895/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/23017895/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 10:09:43 PST
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/22308620/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/22308620/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 16:02:03 PST Aaria

2. What is your character's name in another language?
Haha. I spent over an hour looking up names and meanings and picked Aaria because of it's meaning... and I can't remember what it is!

3. How old is he/she?
22 (I make up all this info as I go lol)

4. What is your character's race/species?
She is a human. Caucasian/Hispanic I think. I have to look up where that name is from.


5. Do they have a crush?
Nope. Actually I need to find a way to make her story become Cell's story lol. I don't know. I'm so terrible at romance Not gonna happen

6. Do they have many friends?
Model friends. But they come and go and the friendships aren't very deep.


7. What planet is your character from?
Earth

8. Does your character like to eat?
She has Anorexia Nervosa. She HATES to eat.

9. What's his/her favorite food?
Celery- it burns calories when you eat it

10. What's his/her favorite drink?
Ice Water (your body has to heat up to digest it so it burns more calories than room temp. water)

11. Is your character annoying?
To people who don't understand. But in her environment her behavior is fairly typical

13. Is your character loved?
The camera loves her

14. Is your character hated?
Not hated, no. Modeling is pretty cutthroat though.

15. Is she/he emo/goth?
Nope

16. Is she/he straight, bisexual, or gay?
Straight

17. Is she/he a virgin?
No


18. Name 3 hobbies:

1) Cooking and baking

2,) Working out

3.) Shopping

19. Is your character normal?
Normal for an anorectic :\

20. Is your character attractive?
Absolutely stunning. A very natural beauty. However, as the story progresses, she gets sicker and frailer.


21. How does your character handle emotions?
She feels out of control sometimes and uses food to control her emotions.

22. Does your character have other forms?
As Cell becomes 'erfect' Aaria also comes closer to what she thinks is perfection. And it eventually kills her.

23. Does your character overreact?
Nope

24. Is your character a criminal?
No

26. What's his/her IQ?
115

27. Does your character have a disease/curse?
Anorexia Nervosa

28. Is your character dead?
At the end!

29. Does your character have a family?
Yes. A mother and older brother.

30. Has he/she encountered any tragic times in life?
Rough childhood (abusive stepfather). She also dies at 22. Pretty tragic.

31. What's the best time in your character's life?
Getting in front of that camera and feeling really beautiful.

32. If you could name 1 friend, which would you relate to your character?
My mother.

33. Is your character single?
Yes

34. Has he/she developed any relationships?
On and off throughout her life.

35. Does he/she have an element?
Nope

36. Do you roleplay your character?
No

37. Do you write about your character?
I'm working on the plot!!!

38. Does your character have a bad temper at times?
Nope. Can get a little emotional, but doesn't usually get angry at people

39. Does your character get depressed?
Often

40. What's your characters favorite animal?
She has a lot of favorites

41. Does your character have any fears?
Being average

42. Does your character have any weaknesses?
Yes

43. Does your character look up to anyone?
Her older brother. Other models.


44. Does your character like music?
Indeed she does.


45. What's your character's favorite type of music?
She likes things with fast beats.


46. Is he/she impatient?
Not really

47. What's something funny about your character?
She kissed a girl and didn't like it!

48. Name 5 nicknames
Ria... can't think of any others xD

49. Does your character curse?
Occassionally

50. This test is over, what does your character h... ]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/22193338/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/22193338/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 15:00:30 PST
All of that being said there have been a lot of things going on. Firstly and possibly most importantly my diagnosis with severe depression. The plan was to run a bath and slash my wrists on January 5th.
They took me off my Prozac and I'm a little afraid. I'm going to have to see a psychiatrist when I get home. No biggie.

I am gaining weight though. A relief to a lot of people worried about my struggle with Anorexia Nervosa. Makes me sick thinking about it. But I plan to lose all the weight while here in DL. The goal is 95 lbs I know everyone wants to convince me it isn't right but trust me. It's something I need to do for myself.

I also found a very sweet boy.

So I wanted to let you all know why I haven't been doing much lately. It has gotten to the point where I have to struggle to be awake eight hours a day. My hygene even started to fail and my apperance is getting very different from my personal norm (for some people it is fine not to wear makeup or dress up. For me that is the farthest from myself I can physically get).

So, I'm not ignoring anybody. I am just so TIRED. So please bear with me. I'm really trying.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21751328/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21751328/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 15:22:33 PST sadly no tablet :hangs head in sorrow: so all i can do is crappy lineart.

Sarah gets Salza and Zarbon
princessofawesome gets Freeza and Evil Buu
Lady Doom gets something nice (don't know what ;_; )
Sis gets something. probably cell related.
Gen also gets something xD

Very specific list, eh?

Everything is gonna be done before January 5th. Probably before Dec. 23 because I'm leaving then. Winter is busy for me, so I'll work on them fast.

I probably won't be on this site after Jan 5th, actually.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21425567/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21425567/ Mon, 10 Nov 2008 17:15:58 PST That being said... xD

Rules: If you comment on this journal, I'll give you a letter & you'll have to make a journal that lists 10 things that you like starting with the letter I give you.

I got the letter "P" from

1. Poodles (can you honestly say you're surprised?)
2. Puppies!!!!!
3. People
4. P...p... um... Pugs!?!?!
5. Parachutes
6. Parakeets!!!
7. Para sailin' (sarah pailin... para sailin'!!!! ...don't like her though lol)
8. peaches
9. Piglet
10. PERFECT CELL!! (haha i didn't forget)

I will tag. hmmm.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21388901/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21388901/ Sat, 08 Nov 2008 13:13:51 PST
The art trades I promised are coming, but I'm waiting to start them until I get my tablet (about twelve days)

Why twelve days? BECAUSE IT IS MY BIRTHDAY IN TWELVE DAAAAAAAAAYS AND I GET A TAAAAABLET! :cough:

alright. For Sarah I'mma draw Salza and Zarbon. x3
For princessofawesome I will draw Freeza and Evil Buu (way to ask me to draw two characters i never drew before, hahaha)
and LADY DOOM AND ALL HER GLORY... i dunno yet xD i'll draw ya somethin nice. probably me hitting on you, or something. lol

And of course if anyone wants to draw my character Arria i'll draw you anything you waaaaant ^.^ It'd make me a happy little duckling!

(plus art trades are good birfday presents tee hee)

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21371741/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21371741/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 11:57:04 PST
so far i have 'respect/yourself' 'success/failure' and 'hilosophy/reality/art&science'

i was also thinking of getting my little cousin's name (Grace)... but at the same time I don't think people get seven year old's names tattooed on themselves lol. i do love the kid though x3

so any ideas? you don't have to create an ambigram or anything. i just want some words. so think opposites. they have life and death for example.



]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21281493/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21281493/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 10:56:21 PST
1. The five first people who drop a comment in this journal entry will receive a sketch from me of a subject they can choose almost freely (DA guidelines + no adult-only material).

2. The comment dropper has to extend the sketch chain by writing a journal entry similar to this one.

All I ask is that you give me time. School is kicking my butt right now, lol. I have to finish my application for college and present my senior project then I'll have all the time in the world!

(Sarah and princessofawesome, your pictures are on their way, so don't worry about it!)

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21158102/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21158102/ Sat, 25 Oct 2008 15:54:31 PDT I'm doin' a new fanfiction and I made an OC and yadda yadda yadda. I'm going to post a picture of her soon and I'll give you details if you want to.



]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21036129/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/21036129/ Fri, 17 Oct 2008 18:08:41 PDT
So. School is eating up all my time. But not enough time that I forget to eat!

Why do "good" things feel so bad...?

Getting "better" feels like crap. Like, seriously. When I was down to 97 I felt really good. Now I SWEAR my weight fluctuates by the hour. 100. 103. 100. 102... I know I shouldn't check that much. But... 95. I feel like 95 would feel so GOOD.

I keep drawing pictures of half of my face and I always have really strange dreams.

Sometimes I wonder if I even have a problem. If I have a problem, why do I still eat?

Just a ramble, I guess.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/20772007/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/20772007/ Wed, 01 Oct 2008 06:41:26 PDT
My mom brought it to my attention that she felt I was kind of grown up for my age. (Her words, not mine!) She says that I have a different insight and outlook from others and that's why I feel so faceless sometimes. No one at school really appreciates my character. Now, don't get me wrong, I love my friends and I am NOT saying I'm better than ANYBODY. I'm just not the same. I had to grow up pretty fast, ya know. Plus studying psychology made me wise up pretty quick.

So my mom... Wants me to start dating my oldest brother's best friend. A college student? No... In med school? No... Residency... No. He's a thirty year old doctor.

Now granted, he looks like he's in his early 20s. I'll be 18 this november. He's so adorable (he was my brother's best man and could barely choke out his speech because he got so emotional). He is shy and a little awkward, but more or less just adorable.

I hadn't even CONSIDERED him. He is THIRTY. But my mom got this idea in my head, so i don't know. What do you guys think? Is it weird?

Trust me, I'm not gonna sleep with him. That's just. Uggggh. I don't see myself losing the V Card for a while, if ya know what i mean. Not when I'm 18 and he's 30, anyway. And he is the kind of guy who is... Ah. He's kind of like a puppy xD He doesn't need that stuff. Mom said he needs an intelligent woman to give him direction.

...I've never been called an intelligent woman. I'm a YOUNG LADY! Aren't moms supposed to tell their daughters NOT to date older men? xD hahaha. Who knows...?

So. Tell me. Is it bad or is it okay? To me, I like him and he's cute. I just can't get over how it SOUNDS, ya know? Even though I know my morals and I know his. just want some input

oh, and anyone notice how goku holds up five fingers on the DBZ S. 6 cover? That's hilarious.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/20682219/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/20682219/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 07:33:23 PDT
I'm thankful for
three kisses in the cab
dances
confident people I know
2nd block
cafe 13's roof
my diary
kids
$292
the fact that my mom is the best when it comes to surprises
community mailboxes
endless possibility
"crazier things have happened"
temporary solutions
secrets
this coming august
plans
fate
people who believe in fate (too)
bad boys
shenanigans
perfect timing
cheaptickets.com
not knowing what's going to happen
my countdown
prozac
dreams
my grey sweater
fond memories of people who have changed
technology
the right words

I'd also like to just tell the world that MICHELLE DEHART was a beautiful person and will always be missed, even by those of us who were only graced with her presence a few short years.

I love you, Michelle.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/20402861/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/20402861/ Tue, 09 Sep 2008 07:16:52 PDT
As many of you know, last year around easter time I developed anorexia- the loss of an appetite. Not for any particular reason, though. I knew I wasn't doing it on purpose, but, well... eventually after all the comments on how terribly skinny I looked I got it in my head that I ought to maintain that weight.

Every day I got a comment. Not a compliment, either. I was too thin, lost too much weight in too little time, but I didn't know why! I just wasn't hungry. Then... I started liking it. I was going through rocky times with my girlfriend. I felt special that people were worrying about me. I felt that my thinness made me stand out and different. And sine I was different, someone could fall in love with me because I wasn't so average. My whole life I've wanted to be special enough to be worth someone's love...

So simple anorexia quickly became Anorexia Nervosa.

I've taken walks my whole life. The sidewalk is 1.7 miles long, and to get home it takes a total of 3.4 miles. I did this trail multiple times a day for fun. I NEVER used to walk because I felt fat. Then, I did.

After every meal I did the track home and the track back at least twice. 6.8 miles. Then I started walking before meals so I could burn of calories I'd take in for the rest of the day. The best feeling in the world to me is walking on an empty stomach. Sometimes I'd treck 8.2 miles in one shot, rest, and go again.

I started eating less because I felt guilty for everything I ate. It felt the way I used to feel when I was trying to go vegetarian and slipped up and ate meat. I felt horrible for anything I ate. I started snacking on celery. Burns more calories to digest it than the celery has itself. I read that at a restaraunt. I became fascinated by other diets. "Eat whatever you want all day, but only eat two bites of it!" or eating crushed ice.

The diet I eventually settled on during summer break was to eat (for instance) a bowl of cereal at noon. A peach at 3. Two pieces of bread at 6. And walking all the time. Eventually, that wasn't enough. A bowl of cereal between noon and 3. Another bowl between 5 and 7. Later than 7, I wouldn't bother eating and I'd go to bed very early to not deal with the hunger.

I started having my mom buy soy milk instead of the 2% everyone else drinks. Soy milk has 60 cals a cup while regular has 160 a cup.

I became anemic. Cereal gave me about 160 calories including milk. Mom got me oatmeal with extra iron for my anemia. My meals dropped down to 100 cals a pop. The feeling of tightness and emptiness was just great. I was completely delusional.

Picked out healthy food bars. The lowest calorie bar I found was 85. One bar, one meal.

School starts and I eat cereal or oatmeal for breakfast (whichever one available had less cals). I'd skip lunch, eat when I got home, and possibly have dinner. We don't eat as a family so that was relatively easy.

Mom thinks I buy lunch at school every day. She filled out a form so I can get reduced lunch. She doesn't know I haven't handed it in. And she doesn't know I save the lunch money she gives me.

Whenever mom goes grocery shopping I lose my freakin' mind. I feel like I have to eat all the food fast so I can get back on track with my methods. So I sort of binge. For instance, last night I had a piece of pork roll, about half of my half of stromboli, and a bowl of cheerios. That's a binge.

I tried a LOT of times to purge. I have no gag reflex, though. I've put my fingers so far down my throat that they couldn't go any farther and NOTHING.

Yesterday I made a mistake, though. I tried to do it, and my brother heard me cough. I yelled through the door to tell him I just coughed, no big deal. I didn't end up throwing up, so I just washed my hands and opened the door.

Mom was standing there, demanding to know if I was throwing up. I got really mad. I told them both they were trying to make my life difficult and they were out of their minds. "Would I be smiling if I just threw up? Does it LOOK Like I just threw up?!"

Mom dropped the subject. I never ever EVER lie to my mom, but I had to. She's pretty easy to get to because her sophmore year of highschool she only weighed 92 lbs and I think she has sympathy for me. Plus, I imagine she wouldn't want her daughter to have ANOTHER mental disorder (OCD, GAD).

My brother is persistant though. He buys me food a lot and he watches me look at nu... ]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/20373916/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/20373916/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 11:39:52 PDT
HOWEVA.

I have NO freakin clue what to draw. I DO want to do giftarts for people (and its a surprise who gets one tee hee)... but inspiration hasn't hit me yet.

So this isn't a thing for requests. But suggestions, and if you guys have ideas that I fancy, I'll do my darndest!!! INSPIRE MEEEEE

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/20029333/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/20029333/ Mon, 18 Aug 2008 19:13:52 PDT 's characters and :iconserachi: 's and everyone else's and i want SO BAD to doodle them for you but I can't do ANYTHING anymore.

Usually I sit down and pace myself, doing my summer assignments for my AP courses. I don't know what's up, but I'll keep you all updated.

I'm so sorry everyone. I really REALLY miss you. I have so many great friends outside the computer world, but my DA buddies are somethin' else

I'm trying hard to feel better, so... Hopefully I'll have some stuff up. And the first thing I'll do is gift art for everyone I missed >_<

ugggh. i hate this.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/19714003/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/19714003/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 07:46:21 PDT
NOW read facts about me

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about them self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.


1: My two adorable toy poodles just got groomed... And I took their little bows for myself x3

2: I have three anxiety disorders.

3: I used to have a crush on the Announcer Guy (not the artist!) from DBZ xD

4: Deathnote makes me angry. Like, its existence bothers me.

5: Instead of buying myself DBZ Season 6 and my brother buying himself Bleach season 2, we're buying them for each other because getting gifts rocks.

6: I cried when Krillin died and when Dende died on Namek. In fact, the day after I saw the episode that Dende got killed I looked ALL around the playground at school to try to find the dragonballs to wish him back to life.

7: I think my brother's future brother in law is REALLY cute xD (his mom tried to hook us up. Too bad he lives in FREAKINCANADA!!1111)

8: I have season 15 of the Joy of Painting with Bob Ross on my compy.

I'm not tagging anybody. I'm way lazy.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/18956490/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/18956490/ Fri, 20 Jun 2008 19:57:35 PDT [link]
Gaze on how I wasted an entire week of my life four years ago to memorize this stupid thing.

...seriously. i need the attention!!!

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/18870758/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/18870758/ Mon, 16 Jun 2008 10:25:43 PDT [link]
(i'm the one in the blue xD )

also, start watching the cell games redubs, because starting with episode 11, I'll be doing the female voices!

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/18632040/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/18632040/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 17:27:28 PDT
Awesome.

I really want to do more fanart. I just feel bad though because I don't have stuff to color it with so my gallery will look like balls. a bunch of black and white pictures is lame. SO LAME. so i dont know what i'll do yet. does anyone know of any free coloring programs that i can download? what i used to use was microsoft picture it publishing 2001 xD definatley not photoshop but it got the job done. but it doesnt work on this computer and the other computer is balls (wow. new favorite adjective?)

so let me know i love you guys x3

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/18600330/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/18600330/ Sat, 31 May 2008 20:59:35 PDT
Doctors put me on Prozac and I haven't had any anxiety attacks or strong suicidal urges since... So that's good. I am noticing that I care a lot less. I'm not being a bitch but. I don't know. I'm not up in arms about other peoples' problems, either. Whatever.

I'm really happy with the results. I never thought I'd feel NORMAL again. If a little bit of apathy is the price of living fear-free, then I'll take it.

So. There's a small update. Still not doing requests, though. My mind is making all sorts of weird images by itself. So if ya'll get anything, expect it to be Cell related.

Oh, guys. CUTEST side effect warning ever. I was reading it on my meds and it said: "Warning: Yawning may occur" in addition to other stuff but how freaking cute. If puppies were medicine, they'd be Prozac. I love this stuff.

Oh. And random musing. Got DBZ Season 5. Except for one 15 second scene where it sounds like someone turned the voices waaaay down (Bulma and Baby Trunks sound really quiet while the other effects are normal) I'm pleased, I guess. There's one scene where Trunks ORIGINALLY said "Step away from Vegeta" and Cell makes a snooty retort... but in the remastered version Trunks just grunts like an idiot. Whatever. I've seen the Perfect Cell saga so many times on VHS, I know every line that was changed. The only thing that I found to be cool was one line they added for Cell (all the other dialogue is the same, which is annoying in the episode Cell is Complete because he sounds like he's talking through cotton balls).

Anyway. He goes "I know what you're thinking. I'm just a Nightmare that won't end!" that's new. the old part that he says after that is "Well wake up, Trunks. I'm real." I think the additional line added extra coolness to the scene.

That's all.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/18279104/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/18279104/ Sun, 11 May 2008 18:53:06 PDT
I don't think I'l update anything for a while. I'm dealing with a LOT. Uhm... Just. a lot of things right now. my girlfriend... left me for a 20 year old man (she's 16). for the last... jeeze. i don't know. since before easter... i've been fighting the beginning stages of anorexia. i haven't been able to see my therapist... and later this week I am going to be diagnosed with my SECOND anxiety disorder.

I am not really enjoying things very much right now. And, while this will sound stupid, anime IS helping me escape some of the pain I'm dealing with... I don't think I can update for you guys. Maybe it would be healing to draw some happy stuff but... I'm not sure. I just don't have the energy.

I'm calling off all requests. I'm really sorry. just... an eating disorder, an incurable heart condtion, and two anxiety disorders... No. I can't worry about requests right now.

I'm sorry for whining. Actually, though. Since I've become so... unhealthy... I've been inspired to write more to my 'Home Wrecked' fanfiction. I don't know if it's reflective of my frustrations or not but. Whatever.

I'm in a miserable mood right now but things will get better once I get some medicine. I feel like every problem I've had since I was a little girl will be named and "cured" in just a few days. The thing is, I don't know if I can hold out that long. Things are... pretty bad.

If you don't want an explination then don't read the rest. If you're curious (I know I'd be interested. psychology kicks ass), I'll explain why I'm mentally fucked.

First I'll touch up on the eating disorder and possibility of anorexia. My wonderful, dear, darling sis :icondarklyshadedshadow: already heard about it. basically... i don't eat. I don't know what else to say. I used to tell myself I wasn't doing it to myself and that I was just not hungry and it was something that would go away... but then, after my ex broke up with me and I started TELLING people about it... I realized... I don't want help. I don't want to eat healthy, I don't want to be told that I can't walk 3 miles a day. The weight I'm at now is just a few pounds short of ideal. I'm NOT seeing a doctor for it.

Why?

1. I'm not skinny enough to be anorexic. I know that sounds like I'm anorexic, but really. I'm at an almost perfect weight.
2. With all the other problems I have... please. another way to break my mother's heart? I don't think so.
3. This will sound emo, but it's not. I love my family but... no one is going to believe me. My sister didn't believe me when I said I was depressed years ago (even though she said herself that I cried EVERY day over nothing) and my brother didn't believe me when I finally admitted to people I thought something was wrong with my heart (he's a cardiologist).

I almost miss the hospital. I won't lie. I like the attention. But mostly... I just want a break. I want to be alone to cry or write or watch TV... alone. I want to be by myself with no way of checking up on people at all which brings me to my anxiety disorder.

I say my SECOND anxiety disorder because I've already been diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

Yes, there's a history of anxiety in my family.

Interesting fact about Nisi? She believes the world will end before she gets to grow up. She makes PLANS and WANTS things in life... but she doesn't see any of it. Her whole life... Nisi was told she'd never grow up.

When I was very small... I used to get anxiety attacks (I didn't know what they were at the time) once every couple of months because I was afraid of the world ending. Then every month. Every couple of weeks.

When I found out my ex cheated on me I started getting them every day. And we got back together... but I'd check on her. Constantly. I'm GOOD at digging up dirt. I KNOW when people are lying to me and I KNOW where to go to find what I need. I'd ask every day "do you love me?" "is there someone else?" and i KNEW damn well i was acting erratically, but she was a trooper. i promised to stop checking and I did very well at pretending that I had some semblance of normalcy.

then she broke up with me for a reason that deeply disturbs me. and after she broke up with me... i mean like a DAY later she's "in love" with a 20 year old guy that she described as "a creepy old pervert". charming.

Anyway. Now. You'd think one anxiety attack is enough to make someone just jump off a bridge. But I get them multiple times a day. I wake UP with fear.

Now, what's an anxiety attack like? Well. It's like when you wake up from a nightmare. You tell yourself you were only dreaming but you're still so cold and afraid that you can't move.

I've cancelled my exchange trip to germany becaus... ]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/17651214/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/17651214/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 12:58:49 PDT
Ya know, my girlfriend and I never ever ever get crap about being together except for these past two days xD And I'm not mad, it was just funny how all of the sudden we hear:

"Did you see those lesbians?" (said with disgust)
"Ew, Lesbians!"
"Look at those girls!"
and my favorite
"Ohhhh, Lesbians!" (said by some guy with a twinge of excitement xD )

I'm more amused than anything. But the point is, I doodle pictures and comics for her all the time. Usually they're comics of my characters Cherry and Misa (from a fanfiction. Long story short, Cell falls in love with Misa and announces it at his Cell games... they are his hostages and yadda yadda yadda. he is crushed and publically humiliated when she informs him that she and cherry are a couple. my personal way of making fun of all the cell romances that i never could write xD ) and Cell.

I wrote a list of 15 reasons why it's more fun to be a lesbian than a straight person. All are complete with cute little pictures. So... That means 15 pictures sometime in the near future.

Warning, though. I have neither the time nor the patience to draw Cell's stupid little dorky bicycle hat. So yes, he has HAIR. If I get one comment "I like his helmet better lol" then I'm just not going to bother posting. Kay?

Awright. Gonna go draw them up, I guess.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/17167485/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/17167485/ Mon, 03 Mar 2008 16:05:27 PST
I know that I haven't been updating like I said I would, and for this I apologize, but I have two very good reasons why

1. Work and School (its a twofer!) I am BUSY BUSY BUSY. I had to take a break from writing my LAB REPORT just to type this!

2. When I'm not doing work, I'm either with my girlfriend, talking to her, texting her, writing her notes, IMing her, or some other Angelia-related thing. I can't deny it folks... I love you all very much, but I'm afraid she's on my 'top priorities' list xD And yes, for those who know, she IS the one who wrote me that CellxChiChi piece, AND the one with Cell and the two lesbians xD She's the best girl ever and I'm in LOVE with her. So... Lots of time going for that right now xD

So, that's why I am not here. But I'm still HERE. Just. Not. Drawing. ;_; I'll submit at least one more piece before I die, okay? Good! Bye now!!!

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16759036/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16759036/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 17:55:30 PST -Rewrite the rules
-Write 8 things about you
-Write a journal for this
-Tag 8 people
-Notify those people that they're tagged

1. I speak six languages! (actually, i'm only bi lingual, but i can sing the 'i speak six languages' song, which includes a total of SEVEN languages!)

2. um... i am 5'2'' and petite and yesterday, my aunt asked me if i was eating enough xD

3. i'm mad at my mom!

4. i have a communism fetish (like... a literal fetish.)

5. Sometimes... I listen to the Backstreet Boys

6. My favorite compliment to get is that i am a good helper!!! (or that i'm CUTE!)

7. i laughed at what QueenCold's number 7 answer was (sometimes i dont finish my )

8. i'm insecure about a lot of things ;_;

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16390652/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16390652/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 15:59:05 PST
I'm going on vacation! I won't be back for almost two weeks. I'm so sorry guys xD Sorta sudden. But it's not like I was updating anyway
-_- all this means is that i better have cool stuff to look at when i get back, alright?

I'm gonna miss you guys! I leave tomorrow night!

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16340052/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16340052/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 06:57:10 PST
It was a hot, summer day. Cherry and Misa wer esitting on the couch, planning dinner and talking.
"Oh, Cherry," Misa sighed, "I sure wish I coiuld meet a man who was attractive, smart, AND strong!" Cherry nodded in agreement as she played with her pearl necklace.
"Men are boring." she agreed, "Not like you, Misa. You're so exciting. Too bad you're a girl. Otherwise, we could be eternally happy together." Misa smiled and stood up, smoothing the wrinkles from her apron.
"Cherry, ;you're silly!" she giggled, "Girls can only be with girls if a man is present to oversee the experimentation! Otherwise, it's sinful!"
"Agreed!" Cherry smiled, "If only we could find a perfect man to satisfy our needs." Misa grinned.
"Cherry," she said, "Cell is handsome and strong and smart! Maybe he'll grace us with his kin!"
"Oh, but we're not good enough for him!" Cherry sighed.
"Not even me?" Misa asked.
"Especially not you! But ESPECIALLY not me!" Cherry replied. Eventually, the desire for a man became too much for the two and they decided to ask Cell to love them physically.
Cell was upstairs writing his third opera when the two girls came in, "Yes, my dears?" he asked them
"Cell, we're women and as such, we have the urge to procreate with you! Please do us the honor of fornicating with us!" cherry cried, falling to her knees. Misa clasped her hands together.
"Please, Mister Cell!" She begged, "We need you!"
"Oh, alright." Cell smirked, lcearing his fighting trophies off his bed.
"Oh, God bless you, Cell!" Misa smiled.
"He did," Cherry grinned. "He made him a man." Then they did it twice. The end.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16131223/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16131223/ Thu, 27 Dec 2007 22:36:30 PST
anyway.

at the end of the battle, after i ROCKED HIS WORLD, zangya says "Don't you wish your girlfriend was tough like me? Dont'cha?" and she even WHISPERED the end. My brother and I both heard it. Funniest copyright infringement ever. Did anyone else notice that???

...I don't even LIKE the Pussycat dolls. Why do I know this? -_- Ah, well. Just thought I'd share.

ps. Cell and Zangya would make a bangin' couple. And I mean that. That's all they'd do. Okay, maybe Cell would get emotionally attached (you know how mushy he can be), but I picture Zangya kinda like Jessica from that one Simpsons episode ("I learned that... I can get men to do anything I want." "Well, Jessica... Then you haven't really LEARNED anything!")


ah. I need to stop getting Cell laid.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16111567/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16111567/ Wed, 26 Dec 2007 15:38:39 PST
but FUCK YOU to all the people on the forums out there and in her picture bitching about how bad the movie's gonna be. everyone said transformers was gonna suck, well. fuck you. i heard it was pretty damn good.

OKAY. Going to highschool DOES NOT MEAN goku is suddenly a scientific genius. he can STILL be in character. how?

Fuck, if goku DID go to HS, he WOULD be an outcast. it doesnt make him emo. ever see hercules? HE wasn't a nerd, he was TOO DAMN STRONG TO FUNCTION WITH NORMAL PEOPLE. hell, if goku went to my school, i'd avoid him like the plague.

"Did that guy just break that dude's hand by SHAKING IT???"

fuck. i'm so tired of people bitching about things that haven't happened yet. and now I'M bitching. i'm the very thing i hate. dammit.

if everyone would just start HOLDING HANDS AND SINGING i wouldn't be in such a bitter, terrifying mood. i just shot a kid seven times. SEVEN.

know what? most of the people who say the movie will suck are gonna see it anyway. Gosha-chan was the ONLY person in the damn comments who was keeping a positive additude. She fucking rules. I love her now.

i hate society. just let the people make the damn movie. if it fails, it's because of these peoples' negative additudes.


...i need a hug :miserable:

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16107754/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16107754/ Wed, 26 Dec 2007 10:44:08 PST
August 15th, 2008 is the release date of the Dragonball live action movie. I know a few years ago there was a rumor about it, but now it's real. Infact, it's been filming in Mexico.

the website to go to is [link] but I'll give you a condensed version on what the deal is.

Justin Chatwin (Tom Cruise's son in WotW) is Goku. no wig- just short and spikey. Lots of people don't like it, but I do x3

In the movie, Goku is about 18 years old and going to highschool (another controversy). What I'm worried about is that instead of his friend being krillin, it's some nerdy guy named... what is it. Tato? Taka? Whatever. Some guy. And the main villian is Piccolo (James Marsters, or Spike from Buffy. I like the casting. Remember demon king piccolo's huge cheekbones? Marsters has 'em xD )

Emmy Rossom (Christine from the Phantom) is Bulma. She and Jamie Chung (ChiChi) will both wear wigs. They're supposed to be very cool.


So... Yeah. Live action Dragonball movie

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16097809/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/16097809/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 17:27:11 PST
[link]

Hell, I'm doing YOU guys a favor by introducing you to this masterpiece. MY SIS made the CUTEST picture of all time. I'm in love with this. Just... GO!

And so you guys know. I, Nisi Kai, self proclaimed Cell Junior Baby Sitter, got a laptop for Christmas. NOW I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING! You all must think I'm very rich and famous and beautiful. And while I can assure you that one of these three things are true (bwahahaha), this is a bittersweet thing.

Bitter, because it might just take a wee bit of time before you see an update. But that's strictly guesstimation.

Sweet, because I'll have my coloring program back so I'll have crappy backgrounds AND, well... color!

I love you guys. Merry Christmas.

PS- did you see the live action goku? he's HAWT!

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15909216/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15909216/ Wed, 12 Dec 2007 19:54:29 PST
...Here's MY account [link] (but I haven't updated in FOREVER)

now on to the REAL talent.

[link] Cell's Breakout by the loverly It's an instant classic. I think every Cell fan has read this. I know it's been a while... Basically- CELL IS A WOMAN!!!!! (Don't look so surprised. Only Kash could come up with something so deliciously evil)

[link] Celling out (awesome pun) is probably the BEST Cell humor fic I've ever read in my life. He's not in character 100% of the time- but DAMN is it good. Awesome jokes, awesome writer, awesome story line. Basically... Some guy tries to promote the Cell games on TV and whatnot.... Pepsi hosts. Cell does an insurance commercial... Please read this.

[link] Lonliness Leads to... by my girlfriend ^.^ Yeeeeah. I conned her into doing a CellxChiChi lemon. Bwahahahahahah. It's fabulous- and android boy's in CHARACTER!

[link] Mr. Mom by good GOD. I love this story with my heart and soul. Probably my favorite Cell fanfiction ever. It has everything! Male pregnancy, the Jr.s and a downright disturbing look at how Cell impregnated himself. Very funny and very cute.

[link] The Dentist is another classic by the ace of authors. I miss her a lot- I haven't heard from her in a while. Cell isn't in this one- but Piccolo is... and he's a DENTIST. It sounds so lame, but really. It's great. HYSTERICAL. Nail is ghetto. Just read it!

[link] Two Cells by What could be better than TWO Cells? Three. But anyway- I like this story. The girl ISN'T a mary-sue, and Cell is in it TO THE MAX! Plus, he's a cute little bug at the beginning ^.^


I'm sure there are more really good ones (like the one where Cell spanks Gohan to make his powers come out) but I'm too lazy to get them. Read everything!

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15893791/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15893791/ Tue, 11 Dec 2007 17:41:28 PST
• What is the name of your character?

Let's do... Oh, say... Hannah! The prostitute that just entered the story I'm writing. (It's a Celllll fanfiiiiiic!)

• Where did the name of your character come from?
My friend, Hannah. She put me in a dirty story (I didn't even ask! xD ) so I'm returning the "favor" for her.


• What species is your character and why did you choose that species?
Human, because, well. See (I almost spelled that with a 'c', Cell lives on earth, and there are TONS of humans runnin' around...

• What color is your character and why? Hair/skin/eyes/etc
She has very fair skin- Comparable to Cell's! Her hair cascades down to her shoulders in gorgeous blonde ringlets. Hey, that was pretty awesome. I'll have to use that description xD Her eyes are a glassy blue color.

• What is your character's personality and how does this compare to your IRL personality?

Well, she loves the stick. Ahhh. Not shy about having sex for money... even with guys she can't see! (like Cell.) Me, well... I like to know who the hell it is I'm screwing (oh, and I'm not at the screwing stage yet. Pretty big difference). She's confident. Pretty much just the average whore. Except Hannah isn't at the stage where prostitution has destroyed her life yet.

• What is one item your character owns that is significant to you in RL?
...she does it with Cell, but that's not really an item. More of an action.

• What is one thing you think you would say to your character if you could meet?
Sorry I had Cell break your neck... Oh wait. You're just a hooker. My mistake.

• What is one thing your character would say to you if you could meet?
50 for a pass, 150 for the night.

• How has your character changed over the years?

Erm. She wasn't a prostitute... and then... she was!

• How long have you had this character?

I've had her swirling in my head for a while.

• Would you like to be more like your character?
I'd love to look like Hannah ;_;

• Now tag three people.

Um... MY DOGSs!

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15867523/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15867523/ Sun, 09 Dec 2007 18:29:07 PST
I love when I don't hate things.

Hating things is wrong.

You guys. I need to take a picture of my Cell Plush. He's so cuddly and cute AND HE STANDS ON HIS OWN!

Sorry about this lame journal. Just wanted to apologize for hating DeathNote.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15867182/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15867182/ Sun, 09 Dec 2007 18:05:25 PST
First. I have a rat named Piper (like the Pied Piper). I have her for psych. I taught her how to eat out of my hand, cross 20 inches of ruler, 10 inches of dow rod, stand on her hind legs, go through a tube, and jump.

I was with my mom coming home from a musical audition and suddenly A CAR BACKED INTO US. So, yeah. Was in a car wreck. Nothing too bad, though. I got whiplash and hurt my back, though. Dammit.

So. DeathNote. What the HELL is up with deathnote?

I won't even go into how sacreligious the art is. But. Okay. So... Light wants to be earth's new God by killing all the evil people. Fine. That's super-duper. But... He kills an innocent woman in the episode I saw. One who had JUST lost her fiancee in a car crash. FUCK YOU, LIGHT! Know how the series ends?

--spoiler--

PEOPLE WORSHIP THE FUCK OUT OF HIM!!!! What the helllllll?

---end spoiler--

And Misa's a whore, dammit.


Sorry. Alright. I admit it. I don't know much about the series. Maybe if someone could explain it to me, then I'd be dandy. But the whole concept is ridiculous. I mean, it'd be great if it were like the movie Seven and Light wanted to do all this stuff and he was noble and personable 'n junk... but he's NOT. He's an egotistical sunnovabitch. There is not one single redeeming feature about him. The worst part? DeathNote has a freaking FOLLOWING. People love this crap. I bought a DVD of it for my girlfriend because she's into all this anime and just loves the show, so I'm like, why not? I feel horrible now that I know what it's about.

...New decree time! From now on, people should only like the things I like.

OH MAN! Know what a GREAT anime is? Bleach. I love that damn show. Let's all watch that.

And I want the following manga:

InuBaka (Crazy for Dogs) Volume three--- the one with the TOY POODLES! and
Guru Guru Pon-Chan!--- holy crap, a manga ALL ABOUT A TRANSFORMING YELLOW LABRADOR RETRIEVER!!!

...I think I'm starting to fall for cutsie manga.

I'm going to cry myself to sleep. g'night!

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15628442/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15628442/ Thu, 22 Nov 2007 22:39:33 PST [link] go there.

Now. I re-read some of my old crap lately, and I must say: Wow. I am so random. And... Holy shit, it's 1 30 in the morning. Screw this. I have to get to BED.

...Ah, i'm just foolin'. Bed is for jerks and lesbians. Now, when I eat candycanes, don't get me wrong, I LOVE them, but nothing compares to the SweetTart variety. Buy them at your nearest grocery store, please!

And for the love of God- I bought my poodles TINY LITTLE OUTFITS.

Also, sometimes... I eat cereal. Throughout the day. It's such a great thing... ah, I'm tired of this sentence.

I haven't been drawing or writing at all. I feel terrible, but the fact is, my mom is on the computer about 27 hours a day- don't you dare tell me i'm bad at math! anyway, I have stuff to post but i can never find a DAMN MINUTE TO DO IT. Even if I did, I have to transfer the picture to my other computer to color it, then transfer it back... It's LAME!

Have I told you guys I think Cell is probably homophobic? I was just thinking about that!
Cell: Nisi... :weak laughter: You can't date a girl! You're... YOU'RE a girl!
Nisi: ...-_- I like girls.
Cell: Boys, Nisi. Girls like boys.

Not a mean one. I just think he's so old-fashioned. If he wore pants, he'd probably wear them up to his elbows. And would it KILL a woman to bring him a beer once in a while? I don't think he'd even like it- but it's the PRINCIPLE of the thing, dammit!

Cell: Hey Nisi! What do you tell a woman with two black eyes? NOTHING! You already told her twice!!! Bwahahahahah!
Nisi:...:hits with frying pan:
Cell: You're supposed to be making my DINNER with this! :smacks ass: Now get crackin'!

...okay I added the ass smack because I believe he'd deliver a nice, firm smack. Not to hard, but just enough to make you jump and giggle, put a hand to your lips and say, "Oh, my!" All before realizing you're wearing high heels and have a plate of his dinner in your hands. Oh, and you've got red lipstick on. Sometimes a man's gotta have something goin on down there while he's enjoying his steak! ( please don't understand that.)
Cell: Nothing says 'good job' like a nice, open hand smack on the-

So, anyway. I'm making up more Cell stuff. Is he gay? Is he a womanizer? Is he a gentleman? Don't ask me- my answer changes every time!

Cell would make a kickass Santa. Ripped as all hell. No 'ho ho ho'. it'd be 'HMHMHM' all the way! What's that spell? Sexy chuckle, that's what. Whip it out, "SHOVE THIS IN YOUR STOCKING!... Madam!" Oh, MAN! What a magical Christmas that would be! Cell delivering to all the women of the world!

Cell: I'm making a list... and checking it twice! :wink:
Nisi:...That can't even be interpreted as anything risque`, Cell. That was terrible.
Cell: :nods head while slowly crossing Nisi off the list:

...Man. It's time for bed. Holy crap, I didn't have any Pumpkin pie today! WHAT THE HELL!?!?!

G'night! ^.^

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15586495/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15586495/ Tue, 20 Nov 2007 07:19:02 PST
But anyway. I have a question. Does anyone in the whole world know where I can buy the German Cellspiele???? Eh??? Alright.

...

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15432454/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15432454/ Fri, 09 Nov 2007 10:14:26 PST
Normally I wouldn't brag about a present I got but come on. Cell in chibi plush form? I've been waiting my whole life for this. He's so darling! >_< I luff 'im!

The doll could only be better if it said, "Well rub me down in oil and let the GAMES BEGIN!" everytime you squeezed his tummy. Oh well. We can't have it all.

Now, I have a quick question. Y'all know I LOVE the german dub of DBZ. It's so funny. (Cell calls Vegeta a damp pickle. get out of town- i love it! Goku calls baby Gohan his little stupid shitty diaper. bwahahaha) but there is ONE Cell line in which I have no idea what he's saying- it's way too fast. To me it sounds like "You want to go against me? I only hope that you... something... last time... HAVE MY HAT!" I DON'T think that's it for some reason...

I would be a happy girl if someone would PLEASE translate that for me so I know what he's saying. I have a feeling he's being a smart-ass.

Here's the link. The line is at about 9 minutes, 30 seconds

[link]

Thank you thank you thank you ;_;

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15380859/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15380859/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 17:19:55 PST
I've been so busy. I have new job, been keeping busy with school work AND my 17th birthday is this month (20th for those interested, but I already have SO many diamonds and jewels and riches...)

So, yeah! Just a quick little update for everyone. I'm alive and kickin'. And I've decided Cell should be bi-curious. Just becasue. It would be hot... If he gave Goku a handjob in the heat of passion (I.E.- he was havin' sex with ChiChi with Goku in the room). Hey. I didn't write it... I just told someone to, that's all
>>
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Roses are red
Violets are bland
I just gave Goku
a job of the hand
-Cell

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15206222/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/15206222/ Wed, 24 Oct 2007 18:10:12 PDT
JK Rowling pisses me off. She is a mind-screwer is what she is. She comes out for Dumbledore for NO other reason than to sell books. IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE STORY LINE SO WHO GIVES A FLYING LOBSTER??? (she doesn't even deserve my profanity at this point).

She LOVES the attention. She wants to create controversy, whatever. Want a gay character? Go for it. But your books are already written, and his sexual preferance had nothing to do with story line, so shut up.

I'm so angry, I could just strangle a bear.

"Hey, let's use gayness for attention like so many 13 year old whores!"

Atta girl, Rowling.

ps: I'm not even a Harry Potter fan. Don't dislike it, just not into fantasy books. My friends love it, though, and when I saw the announcement on Yahoo news I almost cried in rage.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14946494/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14946494/ Sat, 06 Oct 2007 20:10:03 PDT
I just got back from my highschool's homecoming. Of course my girlfriend had to be away tonight but I had fun anyway ^_^

The german exchange was phenominal. My host sister, Lea, is the best ever. Totally cried on the car ride home when we had to drop her off at the school so she could go to the airport ;_;

She and I went to many places, including a theater where we saw West Side Story (AMAZING. Rent the movie or something).

Right now I'm so sleepy But it's okay. I need to rest. I've been watching you guys, even though I haven't been commenting on everything I've wanted to. I'll be good from now on

I feel like I have so much to tell you all, but I guess it's been so much I can't even think.

I should mention my dog of 14 years was put down. I haven't cried so hard in a long time. A week later our other dog, her granddaughter, had a seizure. She's okay now, but if you've ever seen the aftermath of an episode you know how disoriented the victim is. Emmy was literally HOWLING at me. So scary.

Other than that, all is well ^_^

Sleepy Nisi. I LOVE YOU!

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14702058/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14702058/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 14:12:37 PDT
Lea is coming today and i'm gonna be BUSY BUSY BUSY!

But I love you ALL! forget me not ;_;

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14690385/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14690385/ Tue, 18 Sep 2007 16:29:42 PDT
Saint Anthony Robbins
If for some reason today Anthony Robbins was deemed a saint
middle class women would drop their many years of love for their faith and become Catholics.
Every day they would kneel behind their pews, their heads bowed, their shoulders slumped,
praying to the Saint of Financial Success to bring them all his name had promised.

And like the body of Christ in the wafer, happiness would appear!
They would live with passion,
they would set goals for themselves,
and love, money, and joy would have no choice but to gravitate to them.

While Anthony Robbins stands next to God, telling the Lord of the wishes of the middle class,
God would sit in his throne, rubbing his temples, asking irritably,
“How the hell did you get this job anyway?
I haven’t even seen your work papers, and besides that, I’m not even Catholic!”

And Anthony Robbins would flash his veneer-perfect smile happily at his Lord,
“Well, God,” he would say as he leans casually on the side of the Lord’s throne,
“I learned that in this business you have to practice what you preach.
You’d be amazed at the power of positive thinking."

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14595000/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14595000/ Tue, 11 Sep 2007 19:10:16 PDT
This world would be so much worse without you in it.

And I'm glad to know you. Even if we don't talk much, your talents have influenced me and I truley appreciate it.

I love you. So much.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14580004/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14580004/ Mon, 10 Sep 2007 18:25:45 PDT
Alright. Please don't think I only plugged you guys so I'd seem less evil for plugging myself now. Trust me, there will be plenty more plugs for you all coming up whenever I feel like it. I already feel terrible enough. I killed a spider. I literally almost cried.

Alright. Scavenger Hunt (hee hee hee the first time I wrote 'hung' time. Go to [link]
Look up 'Nisiyouri'.
Read 'Home Wrecked'
Review it.

...Um. Whoever can tell me the third word of the third sentence in the third paragraph gets um... A mention in my author's note after chapter two! YEAH!

...Shame? What's THAT mean? xD

If you want to know what it's about, it's (as the crappy summary suggests) the CellxChiChi fanfic I finally got to working on. I think, as far as descriptive-full-ness, it's my best written piece of work so far (rivaled possibly by the phantom one, but... i probably won't finish it. though it had a kickass twist ending. meg falls in love the phantom but BOOM he's her daddy.)

Yeah. is helping me map it out a little more. Makes me a happy goose. x3

I LOVE EVERYBODY! (especially you!)

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14558410/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14558410/ Sun, 09 Sep 2007 09:34:46 PDT
She's been like a sister to me since middle school. We've been through so much together. She's my best friend
;_; I wish she was online more. She's one of my all-time favorite Cell artists of all time. GO VISIT HER NOW! Her DA page AND her website. She's phenominal. And she was so sweet in talking about my old crappy fanfictions. Gotta love that!
like you guys didn't see THAT one coming. This girl is just so adorable! She has a DBZ meets Disney style, writes the best fanfictions of all time (I highly reccomment Mr. Mom and Spinaltap Valley. I'm sure if you ask her for her FF.Net name, she'll give it to you) and is an all around wonderful person.
Ohhh she's the best of all time. GO LOOK AT HER, NOW! She's so funny. Introduced me to the warped world of Mpreg. The conversations we've had are so disturbing xD She's phenominal.
She is HILARIOUS. And she knits!!! Oh, she's so cool. Her pictures are so cute. Warning: she's just SLIGHTLY crazy xD She's so much fun. Check her out!
I don't know him that well. But I DO know that his drawings rocked my socks off and took my virginity on a bed of roses. And he's super nice too! (he complimented my EYES! :school girl giggling: ) Y'all should look at his stuff. Just make sure it's bright in your house and you're surrounded by loved ones. They're pretty scary xD
Award for most original characters of ALL TIME! I don't need to plug her because she's already famous on here... But she's so down to earth! I love this girl xD She's so friendly and open, and her sense of humor is priceless
Who DOESN'T love her? She's so humble, and very sweet. She is one of the most talented people of all time, even though she'll never admit it xD Plus, she re-kindled my love of Hey! Arnold. She's so amazing.
anyone who knows her will understand why I'll never call her anything bug 'Sis'. She is in so many ways a big sister to me. She's brave, she's kind, and her talent is overhwhelming. You guys have to go see her. She's a fascinating person with so much to give to society. ;_; Where would I be without my Sis?
She's just... Cool xD She's such a fun chick to talk to. And she has been so good about my half of the art trade. I swear you'll get it ;_; Other than that, she's SO funny. She can be super serious at one point and talk about long haired hippies named Josh immediatley afterwards. She's awesome x3

So, there you have it! D, Tamako, Sn... ]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14536756/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14536756/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 20:38:35 PDT

*I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

*I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

*I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

*We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

*I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

*I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

*I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

*I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

*We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

*I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

*I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

*I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

*I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

*I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

*I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

*I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

*I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.

*I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

*I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

*I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.


=====
I think it speaks for itself.

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14470342/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14470342/ Mon, 03 Sep 2007 11:08:04 PDT Hannah writes smut.
Hannah's smut is never one chapter long. I loathe the Harry Potter series, but she gets me into her fanfiction and it's so GOOD. It's like.... AHHHHH. It's so good. And occasionally she'll surprise the reader with some nice smut. It's lovely.

So my question is, do you all think it's worth it to do a lengthy story like that? It works for Snipermander, it works for Hannah... But I have commitment problems when it comes to my fanfiction. I LOVE it at the beginning. And then I'm like "...eh."

Ugh. -_- I REALLY need to improve my writing skills. I'm horrendously mediocre. I'm no Kash, I'm no darklyshadedshadow, I'm no Snipermander... ;_; It's depressing!

I guess it'll be a good way to practice. And it'll be smutty.

^_^ And the world could use a full length CellxChiChi fic! (Don't act so surprised).

What do you kids think? Maybe Nisi should quit the business. Ugh. I'm so uninspired -_-

]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14425999/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14425999/ Fri, 31 Aug 2007 13:16:43 PDT 'WHAT'S THE MEANING OF THIS!?'
"We're sorry!" we cried, "We didn't mean to take your boys! We accidentally scooped them in our arms and carried them away!" Cell looked at us blankly.
'You took my boys?'
"...No."

Turns out, Cell just wanted to show us a book he had found (ohhhh THAT'S why he screamed 'what's the meaning of this!?' He said he thought it belonged to one of us and didn't want to open it up because it would be cruel to read someone's diary (we all smiled nervously and agreed). The cover was pink and glossy, decorated with bright blue and purple feathers on the outside edge of the book. There was no name, only a simple lock on the front. We decided we'd break it open JUST to see who it belonged to, and only read it if it guarenteed to provide embarassing information on whoever owned it.

In fancy cursive writing (red ink, or is it crimson?) The initials F.J.K (woah, read it twice, not JFK) were inscribed.

"Frieza!" Cell gasped, dropping the book and taking a step back, his hand on his heart (which is located inside his left leg).
"It says 'F JAY K" QueenCold pointed out, "Frieza doesn't have a middle name... does he?"
'James.' Cell said solemly. We all hung our heads quietly. Sniper turned the page.

The first page was a series of sketches of what appeared to be Cell Junior. We all agreed that they were very good, except a few minor issues... Like the babies don't have long lizard like tails or black lipstick.
The next picture was disturbing because it looked like Frieza's own son in mirror land! Little Kuriza-pie... but with wings! And odd purple streaks under his... pink eyes??? We moved on.

Entry One (in cursive.)
I feel the need to record my thoughts as of late. Frozin is catching wise, I think. She doesn't like me hanging out with Cell. Why can't she just understand? Uh oh. Here she comes."

Cell's already liquid white face was turning paler. We all began to cry as we turned to the next pages.

...Ya know Seraphic Reverie's pictures? Of nekkid Cell? They were like that. Except they had naked Frieza in there too. I asked Sniper what they were doing. She replied 'dancing' and broke down into heavy sobs. Somewhere, a dog barked.

There were poems, far too explicit to post here. I'll enter them with slight edits so you can see what was going on.

'Love Song for Cell'
So many times I have envisioned [explicit content delted] your [explicit content delted] as our [explicit content delted] entwined blissefully in a sillohuete of [explicit content delted]
Your lips, lush [explicit content delted] of [explicit content delted] make my [explicit content delted] [explicit content delted]
Your [explicit content delted], [explicit content delted] [explicit content delted] [explicit content delted] [explicit content delted] [explicit content delted], are [explicit content delted] [explicit content delted] [explicit content delted] to my [explicit content delted].
[explicit content delted][explicit content delted][explicit content delted][explicit content delted][explicit content delted][explicit content delted][explicit content delted][explicit content delted][explicit content delted] jello,
[explicit content delted][explicit content delted][explicit content delted][explicit content delted][explicit content delted][explicit content delted] deer [explicit content delted][explicit content delted][explicit content delted] rocks [explicit content delted]
But the dinosaur lives on.

Cell shot himself in the head. We watched as his limp body fell to the ground with a heavy 'thud'. Moments later he jumped up screaming 'OW! WHY THE HELL DID I DO THAT!?!?!? AHHH... OW! OW! OW!' We ignored him.

We heard a knock on the door. QueenCold rushed to answer. We listened to hear who it was.
"Oh, Frieza. We were just talking about you! Come in!" We were silent. We quickly shut the book and threw it across the room just as Frieza entered the vicinity.

"Hello, ladies, Cell," he said, looking at us all, "I was wondering if I might have left something here... Oh..." he bent over and pic... ]]> ~Nisi-Kai http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14422467/ http://Nisi-Kai.deviantart.com/journal/14422467/ Fri, 31 Aug 2007 08:23:50 PDT
1. What is your character's name?
Misa Misora

2. What is your character's name in another language?
None that I know of. She's my friends character who I developed. She's named after a mange character.

3. How old is he/she?
19.

4. What is your character's race/species?
She's human.

5. Does he/she have a crush?
We'll find out in the end.

6. Do they have many friends?
She hangs out with Cherry on campus. They both have many friends. Misa is a sweet girl and is easy to get along with. She can be a wet blanket, though. The only friend we meet in the story is her best friend, Cherry Hughes.

7. What planet is your character from?
Earth.

8. Does your character like to eat?
Not more than normal.

9. What's his/her favorite food?
Fruit... Fish.

10. What's his/her favorite drink?
Iced tea.

11. Is your character annoying?
No. She's soft spoken and a little needy at times, but more than anything, she's just cute!

12. Name 5 most annoying things about your character
She isn't really. She's a generic girl. She isn't very dominant, but she isn't a huge crybaby, either. Of course, she's terrified of Cell, but it's only natural.

13. Is your character loved? (as in does anyone have a crush on them?)
It'll be revealed in the end x3 What do you guys think?

14. Is your character hated?
Nope. She's pretty well liked

15. Is she/he emo/goth?
Not at all. She's a very happy girl.

16. Is she/he straight, bisexual, or gay?
Oh ho ho! Maybe we can hook Misa up with ChiChi when she goes to the Son house!
xD Naw. This is a Cell romance fic.

17. Is she/he a virgin?
She isn't.

18. Name 3 hobbies
1). Singing. She has a beautiful voice. She doesn't play any instruments, but she sings like an angel.
2). Writing (she writes cute little poems, nothing big. just a hobby.)
3). Little known fact about Misa? She dances to hip-hop when she thinks no one is watching.

19. Is your character normal?
It's hard to define. I try to make the girls as normal as possible. They both have their quirks, but who doesn't?

20. Is your character attractive?
Unlike Cherry, who was originally plain, Misa's been beautiful from the beginning. She used to wear glasses, but I felt Cell would rather have a girl with 'erfect' vision xD She is the opposite of Cherry. Where Cherry's body is skinny and tone, Misa's is very curvy and soft. She has short wavy black hair and yellow eyes.

21. How does your character handle emotions?
She expresses them normally. When she's scared, she'll stutter. When she's feeling confident, she'll act as such.

22. Does your character have other forms?
Nope.

23. Does your character overreact?
She is very pampered, actually. She's used to having Cherry rub her back when she sits down, with no prompting xD It'll take a while for her to get used to sleeping on the arena tiles. She's also a picky eater. Maybe I should have put this in the annoying section xD But she's not, really.

24. Is your character a criminal?
Nope. She's pretty good.

25. Does your character go to school?
Yes, she and Cherry go to highschool together.

26. What's his/her IQ?
She is of average intelligence.

27. Does your character have a disease/curse?
Nope.

28. Is your character dead?
Hahaha. That'd be a nice twist, but no, she isn't.

29. Does your character have a family?
Yes. She has a mother, and a little brother.

30. Has he/she encountered any tragic times in her life?
She was kindapped with her best friend and used as a hostage. She's later saved by Goku, but returns soon thereafter.

31. What's the best time in your character's life?
She's having fun in college, and loves singing outside while Cherry plays guitar.

32. If you could name 1 friend, which would you relate to your character?
She was originally based off of my friend Angelia, but now the only thing they have in common, just like the remnants of Cherry and I, are the body types. They both have yellow eyes... but Angelia won't admit it (sorry angelia) xD

33. Is your character single?
We'll find out in the last chapter! Who's it gonna be, Cell?

... ]]> ~Nisi-Kai