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WATCH ME, DARNIT.


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I uhm... Forgot. *Winces*

Well.. I'll get to the point-

DO I OWE YOU ONE?
If so, please tell me what I owe you.
Don't lie? ._x

I know I owe Ragnarok one...From a long time ago. Was it the angel with the sword and book? Because I actually drew that one. Weird, huh? I just haven't scanned it. >>

And I know I was going to draw the character of someone else. This cute little vamp girl named Cosette I think?

And someone's elf character thing.

And.. Uhm.. I forget.

REMIND ME?

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]]> ~NobodyAiHeart http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/9695214/ http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/9695214/ Fri, 11 Aug 2006 20:00:33 PDT 'Ello and thanks for checking out my page!

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Well... I'm another year older it seems. I wasn't able to celebrate my birthday 'all out' as I did last year though. My house is still undergoing an extensive remodel, and also my sister was in the hospital. She's home now, so don't worry. But on my birthday Mom didn't even have time to sing me that song that goes with the occassion before she had to rush back to the hospital. My little brother made me chocolate covered cherries and gave me a gift certificate to Borders. My grandma sent me a Twenty in the mail along with a birthday card signed by all my family over there. And Andrew, being too nice and generous with his money, gave me a manga. At Jordan's house I decorated the German Chocolate cake that Mom bought for me, my favorite kind, so that the candles were lined up to look like flowers... If you used your imagination. ^^ Herena was there too, if you count MSN. And this weekend Kyle and I are going to have lunch at the Olive Garden.

So even with a bit of stress around the family, my birthday seemed to have worked itself out.

And if you want to wish me a belated Happy Birthday, I'd be more than happy to accept a donation of your blood.
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Love ya all!!!!


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AAAAAAAAAH~! That is me. Running around my basement flailing my arms. I don't know why. I just did. Because I felt like it. But maybe it has something to do with me being really really hyper and really really depressed at my work at the same time.
I'm talented that way.

Yeah, see, I was supposed to turn in my entry for the Lasaro Lovers contest today. But it's not finished. And it sucks. And I worked so hard on it. And it sucks. *droops* -.- I know how I want it to turn out. But I don't know how to make it turn out that way. >>' *sigh* Do you ever have that feeling when you're trying to portray something in your art?

I went to Anime Expo this weekend. It was a 19 hour drive from Oregon down to Anehiem, California. I was bored, as is expected, so I kept a time journal of what happened:

_{Friday, 12:30 am ~ Got in car and left.
1:00 am ~ Took out the Pizza Lunchables and devoured them.
4:44 am ~ Put the Decemberists into the radio and listened.
5:00 am ~ Car dancing ensued. Sun threatening to rise at us.
6:00 am ~ Stopped at a store. Bought chocolate. Chased a butterfly. Ate at McDonalds.
1:00 pm ~ Had lunch at Taco Bell. Saw some other kids headed to AX as well. One was wearing a Kenshin shirt.
3:00 pm ~ It was 105 degrees. We died. And squiggled.
4:00 pm ~ Pretty~! Look at the mountains! And desert~! And hawks and coyotes! And cows...lots and lots of cows. Went past a sign saying we were entering the city of Lost Angels. Er.. Las Angelas. Whatever. >>;
6:00 pm ~ Been stuck in traffic... Like coconuths. Which grow on all these palm trees.
7:00 pm ~ Traffic. Death. Need...restrooms... >>;;;;
8:00 pm ~ We're there! And have badges! And a hotel!}


Saturday I dressed Gothic Lolita. And saw Mana. I spent six hours waiting in line that day for him. He was pretty. But he looked sad. And he signed my poster. I bought the same poster that most everyone else there had bought, so poor Mana was signing the same picture over and over again. I mentioned this to him and his translator, and she laughed, then said something to him. I'm asuming that she translated my comment, because he looked up at me. After he signed my poster he held out his hand. And I'm all 'eeeh? Eep?' Because I hate shaking peoples' hands. It's just weird to me. But I held his hand, and he shook it. It was all rather...odd. But still cool.
During his panel we were able to ask him questions. By the way, thanks to Kyle saving a spot in line for me, I was able to sit in the very front row, directly in front of him. Someone asked how he was able to keep his make-up on so long. And he said, "Don't sweat." And someone asked him how he was able to keep his hair up and make it do such cool things. And he said, "Passion."
Therefore, we decided that the reason Mana doesn't sweat is because his sweat is actually Passion. And all his Passion goes up to his head, and holds his hair together. *nod nod*

Sunday I dressed as a lolita version of Meowth. You know, from Pokemon. Because Kyle was a lolita Pikachu. ^.^ And then Monday was the Masquerade Ball. We wore black and white. I was in a ball gown with a black frilly top. And I wore a white mask I had made with sparkles and black paint and white flowers and silver ink. And we went to an art party. We all drew pictures together. One of the games we played was where we all got out a peice of paper, and we would doodle on that paper for 1 minute, then pass it to the left, and doodle on the next paper. And it went on like that until we got our own paper back. We ended up with some really funny final papers. That night there was a really fun game that some kids were playing on the street. One (really pretty!) guy was playing the keyboard. He played really well, too! And he was directing the game. The game was Sony vs. Nitendo, and each side had players who on their turn would jump out with an insult about the other side portra... ]]> ~NobodyAiHeart http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/8943136/ http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/8943136/ Thu, 01 Jun 2006 17:52:30 PDT 'Ello and thanks for checking out my page!

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Wee~! You know how I'm such a clutz?

Well, this morning I was running down my cruddily paved street to catch the bus to school and I tripped over a rock. My poor delicious cup of green tea went flying from my hand as the sky and ground and sky and ground flickered past my vision as I did a couple of pretty killer cherry sweet flips. Or... you know.. rolls... smashing... and whatnot. I stood up and was immediately, and incredibly, annoyed that I had ripped open my favorite pinstriped pants and got blood all over my frilly purple shirt- the one with all the lace and ruffles- as well as on the chibi avatar that hung from my backpack. Oh yeah, and there was blood running down my left leg and arm, and scratches all over both wrists and on my right leg. I guess the skin from my left knee and elbow is missing. Not that that's important.
My poor outfit.
Well, I slapped some bandaids on anything that bled profusely, changed my outfit, and went to school. About half an hour later the pain kicked in. Gods... stupid pain. The pain was almost as annoying as ruining my clothes. I kept getting dizzy from it. Blah. Oh well.
Heehee. I guess I'll be limping around school from now on.

I'm so weird... I'll cry if I accidently kill a bug, or if a tree in the Amazon gets strangled to death by a vine on some documentary, or if a character in a book I'm reading is hurt, ect... But I don't cry when I'm hurt. o.O;
Is there something wrong with me?

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Love ya all!!!!

P.S.
Mow mow mow! MOW~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
_...because. (I'ts the lack of blood talking.)

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~NobodyAiHeart http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/8798822/ http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/8798822/ Wed, 17 May 2006 14:14:35 PDT 'Ello and thanks for checking out my page!

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I am so freaking happy right now. If you check out my latest deviation you may see why.

Lately I've been burried under stacks of homework, leaving me anxious pretty much constantly. In History I have to prove that the CIA assasinated President Kennedy, and I have to do a huge interview and presentation on someone who went through World War Two, and I just finished with my speech on who should be elected as representative of the Democratic Party. I think I'm an Independent...but that's beside the point. In Algebra Two I am behind two chapters, and yet have to do all the chapter tests as well as the state CIM tests. In Journalism I'm feeling more alive- I even got the position as Editor of the Arts page a couple of issues ago! I think I might want to make my career in Journalism. As a Page Editor perhaps, though I love doing editorial cartoons, columns and reviews as well. Sometimes I do news and features, but they are a different sort of challenge. In English we're doing a huge reading project on Orwell's 1984. And I'm still trying to work on my novel that the teacher encouraged me to write. We've been studying grammar under the substitute- my teacher is in the hospital right now...

But what I've been doing in my Graphics class is why I am so happy right now.
When my teacher first introduced a program called Adobe Illustrator I was sent into convulsions of eyetwitching and glaring- at the iMac before me and the darned rebelous Illustrator that is so different from my lovely Photoshop. Of course Photoshop and I have our differences, but it is my love. Now.. Photoshop is going to have to share it's position with Illustrator. I finally learned to use the dreaded program, and I've been working on a picture of Honshei, one of my first characters. My first attempt with coloring in Illustrator is in my scraps, under the name Sudden Flash. It was a sketch that Lasaro drew. It came out well, especially when I touched it up with Photshop's Burn and Dodge combo that my wusband =onlyon2sdays taught me. So I did the same thing with my new deviation Prince of Grins.

I know I still have a long time to go- a lot of practice and a lot of learning- before I am any good at drawing. But I think I've gotten a lot better, and I'm truly happy with the results I've achieved lately.


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~NobodyAiHeart http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/8345624/ http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/8345624/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 16:52:02 PDT 'Ello and thanks for checking out my page!

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Nothing new to say... I guess I'm just kinda boring like that.

Well.. I did clean out my basement...and found stacks and stacks of old drawings that -when they were drawn- were rather good... but.. they're not good enough anymore and.,.,.frankly... I'm too lazy to color them! *ducks under cover as she's pelted with random objects* Sorry?

I'm gunna draw some stuff... but... I should probably catch up on my math first.. Uhm..Yeah...The last two months worth. >>;;;;; Hehhmm...hmn.... I'm in so much trouble....

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TAGGED!

Hehee. I've been tagged by Cho.

Rules : The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6(or as many as you know xD ) people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

1.) Every time I pick up a paperclip, I can't help but to bend it straight. I do it without thinking. It's just a really bad habit. And then I hit my head against my desk..because my paperclip will no longer be able to clip papers ever again.
2.) I always close my shower curtain. It bothers me when it's open. If I'm in the restroom fixing my hair, I have to close the shower curtain first.
3.) I kill computers. I don't know what it is about me, but if I touch a computer, something will go wrong with it. Period.
4.) Procrastination sucks. Especially when you're a perfectionist. *dies* I avoid doing things, leaving them for the last minute. And then when I finnally go to do them, I'll spend forever on one little part and not finish the whole thing. Yeah... it sucks.
5.) I chew my nails. I haven't had nails since...I was...like...seven? X.x For a while I was able stop chewing my nails, but then I started chewing the side of my thumb. ¬.¬ *sigh*
6.) I avoid calling people on the phone. I just...don't really like talking to people on the phone. And when I'm talking to someone in person, I'd rather be talking to them on the computer, or to be writing back and forth on paper. *shrug* I'm not really antisocial...I think... I just... I dunno... I'm odd.

I tag... , , , , , and http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/8334166/ Sat, 01 Apr 2006 13:04:42 PST
WHAT ARE YOU?
_{(A quiz of stereotypes)}

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--THEATER KID--
[ ] Ever been in a High School play?
[X] Have you ever seen a Broadway show?
[X] Did you like the Broadway show?
[ ] Have you ever been/Are you in school shows?
[ ] Does your current job involve theater in some way?
[ ] Want to end up working in/for theater
[ ] Can you recite all of the lyrics to your favorite play/musical?
[X] Do you break out into random songs?
[X] Do you like the Sound of Music?
Total X: 4

--REDNECK--
[ ] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?
[X] Do you ride four-wheelers?
[ ] Do you like to get dirty?
[X] Do you like country music?
[ ] Do you have a broken car in your back yard?
[X] Do you own a cowboy hat?
[X] Do you live on more then 1 acres?
[X] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home?
[ ] Do you watch Larry the Cable Guy movies?
Total X: 5

--GOTH--
[X] Do you wear black eyeliner?
[X] Is most of your clothing dark?
[X] Do you think about death often?
[X] Do you want to die?
[X] Are you a social outcast?
[X] Are you pale?
[X] Do you own something from Hot Topic?
[X] Do you enjoy Tim Burton movies?
[ ] Are you mean?
Total X: 8

--PUNK--
[ ] Can you skateboard?
[ ] Do you wear Vans, dcs, converse, ect.?
[X] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
[ ] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops?
[ ] Do you have any piercings or a mowhawk?
[X] Do you like/wear spikes?
[ ]Are you a rebel without a cause?
[ ] Have you called someone a poseur recently?
[ ] Does it piss you off when people say poser instead of poseur?
Total X: 2

--PREP--
[X] Do you say the word "like" alot?
[ ] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/AE/Aero?
[ ] Do the people in Hot topic scare you?
[X] Do u laugh alot?
[ ] Have/do you watch LAGUNA BEACH?
[X] Do you like pop music?
[X] do you want/have a little dog?
[ ] Do you smile a lot!
[X] Do you hang out with your friends alot?
Total X: 5

--HIPPIE--
[X] Is your hair long?
[X] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?
[X] Do you want to save the animals?
[X] Do you think war is unnecessary?
[X] Do you like classic rock and trippy music?
[ ] Have you ever participated in a protest?
[ ] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?
[ ] Do/have you ever smoked the peace pipe?
[ ] Do you wear a peace sign around your neck?
Total X: 5

--GANGSTA--
[ ] Do u act ghetto?
[ ] Do u wear do-rags?
[ ] Do you like hip-hop?
[ ] Was Tupac truley the greatest rapper in the world?
[ ] Do you believe he's alive?
[ ] Do you like afros?
[ ] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?
[X] Do you like to dance?
[ ] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit?
Total X: 1

--EMO--
[X] Do you cry often?
[X] Do you wear hoodies?
[X Do you like hard music?
[X] Do people not understand you?
[X] Do you write your own poems?
[X] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark?
[X] have you ever cut yourself
[X] Are you LONELY?
[X] Do you think a lot?
Total X: 9

--SURFER--
[ ] Do you surf?
[ ] Do you wear flip flops year-round?
[ ] Is your hair shaggy?
[ ] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?
[ ] Do you own any pairs of shorts?
[ ] Are you tan?
[X] Do you want to be at the beach right now?
[X] Do you hate tourists?
Total X: 2

--GEEK--
[X] Do you wear glasses?
[X] Do you get good grades?
[X] Do you stick pens/pencils in your hair?
[ ] Does your mom pick out your clothes?
[X] Are you on the computer often?
[X]Do you ever get picked on?
[X]Do you look forward to going to school?
[X] Are you shy around the opposite sex?
[X] You play video games?
Total X: 8


Heehee. It seems I am, in order of most points, the following:

~ Emo: 9
~ Geek: 8
~ Goth: 8
~ Hippie: 5
~ Prep: 5
~ Redneck: 5
~ Theater Kid: 4
~ Punk: 2
~ Surfer: 2
~ Gangster: 1

I'm emo? >.>; http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/7819349/ Mon, 06 Feb 2006 13:47:52 PST 'Ello and thanks for checking out my page!

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I'm going to Washington DC though soon. A sort of field trip... only one that costs a couple thousand. I worked some of it off doing carwashes and lunchhelp. You'd be suprised how much you get paid as well as being fed for free, for just serving food to other students. Luckily, I got some child support money in the mail. Go dad. So that money helped...

I keep wondering what the east coast will be like.... I know I've mentioned it before.. but ... It seems so far away. Practically another country.

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Yay! I got a free one week subscription to DA! I'm so excited! Weee!

^_^ Hee....

I did absolutely nothing this weekend but be lazy. I played videogames, watched movies, tried unsuccesfully to download Ragnarok online, drew pictures and didn't study for my finals.

Aren't I a wonderful student? :lies: :dies:

But, speaking of the drawing aspect, I tonight I got out the sketchie bookie I stole from and my wonderful blunt #2 pencil and a pen, and I drew a pretty killer cherry sweet piccie. If you look over at my recent deviations you can see it. It's called Daze. ^_^ I think it turned out quite nicely, eh? I was inspired by myself. It's quite odd. I was reading a journal entry I wrote once (not online) and.... I wanted to draw. *grin* I suppose my own life can be just as inspiring as a role play or book or movie and whatnot. Heh. :cute:

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I got a scanner for Christmas, so I shouldn't have an excuse for not updating with more art. But... then again, I really need to concentrate on school and grades. So sorry to all those affected. ^_^
You guys are the best.
I promise I'll get better! *Determination* And I'll finish that novel! *Determination failing* ...someday.

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It seems like just yesterday I started second grade.
It seems like just yesterday I finally learned to read.
It seems like just yesterday I decided I wanted to grow up to write and illustrate my own books. To become an artist.
Or like just yesterday when I left my books to find out what the world outside my room looked like.
When I found out about technology.
About the Internet.
About friendship.
About myself.

I spent the first half of my life in my room, or playing with my step brother on the rare occurance I saw him. If I did go outside, it would only be when I visited my father; then I would go climb the oak tree that towered over our decaying house and read myself to sleep in its cradling branches.
Then my Grandpa died.
The only person in my life who took the time to pay attention to me. He would bring us food, attend school functions, and he bought me my first two wheel bike, that I rode at every chance I had for years until it was unable to work from overuse. And then, one Thanksgiving, I was told he was gone.
Just gone. Like that. Dead.
At the funeral, the priest kept going on about how he spent all his time working, and that he should have come to church more often. My grandpa did spend a lot of his time working, but that was to create a future for us. For his grandchildren.
I had always had my doubts about a higher entity. I was taught in private school about this God that watched over us and judged us. But how could someone that didn't even bother to know you judge you? I had spent hours as a young child sitting in front of the heater staring into the vent, trying to work out how such a being was possible. But, I clung to the idea, because I was told that this God saved people. Protected them. Wrought miracles. Brought happiness. And I desperately cherrished the idea of happiness.
But at Grandpa's death these threads of immature hopes vanished. But now I had nothing left to cling to, to keep me going.
I went into a serious depression. My grades and schoolwork, the only things I ever paid attention to at that time, seemed so insignificant compared to the loss I felt when I experienced death.
Over the years, at each new change in my life, I gain new experiences. My heart is as fragile as ever though. Once something is broken into so many peices, no amount of adhesive can repair it. Maybe that is why I refuse to allow myself to love anyone. Or at least give myself obvious chances to care so deeply about others.
There are people in my life that I couldn't bear to lose, but they wormed their way into my heart over time, against my will. I've tried to prevent it, but friendship will not allow masks.
Perhaps my weakness truly is that I care too much.

It's hard to believe how many years I've managed to live through, and how strange my life is turning out.

I must remember. The beauty in the veins of a petal if one takes the moment to look. The lift in sound of a string of notes. The scent of gingerbread cake baking. The taste of pomnegranite juices rolling over your tongue. The soft touch of an inquisitive kitten as it steals your heart.
I say I fear Love. In truth, mayhaps it is its follower, Sorrow, that I fear.

I have to remember that there are things that make the wait for tommorow worth every single second. ]]> ~NobodyAiHeart http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/7273678/ http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/7273678/ Sat, 10 Dec 2005 12:19:35 PST
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I am so often asking others to be more tolarant, wishing the world would accept the varied, the different. As long as something does not harm anyone, it should be tolerated if not accepted. I know its wrong to force things unto others, but I think tolerance is the most important moral of all.

Do not kill.
Do not lie.
Do not steal.

Do no harm.

Those who do not tolerate things eventually harm somebody. ...so many gone...over simple beliefs.....

I feel I am letting my own belief in tolerance slip away. Am I a hypocrite for not tolerating such things as sex, drugs and alcohol? But...they do harm. So...its okay that I don't tolerate them ...right?

I don't know anymore. I know what I like and dislike. But its getting harder to make things work out. There will always be an adversary. Flip sides of a coin.

How can I make a difference? How can I make things better for the world when I am just as guilty as the rest of them?


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"Candles lit for a brighter day. Scars marking the way for memories. Everything we do matters. Pay attention to the joy as well as the pain. Ask questions. Think. Everything leaves marks. Leave the best marks you can."

~*~

Wandering down these curved lines
slicing over polished wood
crossing through ancient memories.
Wondering why these black bars rusted,
silver shining through the flaking red.
That checkered tie is spilling over.
Silent pinstripes in invisible white.
There are heads poking up over the crowds,
but it is those who duck down and look away that I notice. ]]> ~NobodyAiHeart http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/7179962/ http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/7179962/ Tue, 29 Nov 2005 19:16:20 PST
A - Accent: I say elian instead of alien. ....leamie be.
B - Beautiful men: With men.
C - Chore you hate: Chores? *Runs and hides in her room*
D - Dad's name: David
E - Essential make-up item: Anything on a guy.
F - Favorite perfume: Mmm....roses. Or lavender...and such.
G - Gold or silver: Gold! Or Silver! BOTH! ..yay for shiny...
H - Hometown: Boring. (Yes, Boring as in the city.)
I - Insomnia: That I have.
J - Job title: Hacker of Hearts!
K - Kids: Eww.
L - Living arrangements: I get the whole downstairs of my house to myself. ...or rather I took it over.
M - Mum's birthplace: Uh... Portland?
N - Number of apples you've eaten: I forget how many...
O - Overnight hospital stays: I forget again...
P - Phobia: Bloodsuckers. I hate anything that sucks blood.
R - Religious affiliation: I don't believe in anything. Athiest?
S - Siblings: None and three. (Halfs)
T - Time you wake up: As late as I can while making the bus.
U - Unnatural hair colors you've worn: Umm...highlights?
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat: EWWW! Vegies are ICKY!
W- Worst habit: Procrastination.. Perfectionism.. Ect....
X - X-rays you've had: Head, back and teeth
Y - Yummy foods you make: Anything microwavable.
Z - Zodiac sign: ...Its a secret.


FACTS ABOUT ME:

I tend to daydream...a lot...
I'm rather clumsy.... I run into walls and posts and doors and people and counters and I trip over things. I have bad eyesight and don't wear glasses.
I'm really weak... -.- I'd be the first to die.
They say I'm naive... not really...right?
My favorite color is purple. My favorite number is six. My favorite word....heh...some know...
I'm disorganized and lazy.
I can burn anything. Anything. ~Bad cook~
I adore kitties.
Not many people at my school like me... I don't know if theythink I'm annoying, wierd or creepy or stuckup or any combination of those...they just avoid me...
I'm not doing my homework again right now. ^_^
I have no self-dicipline.

GLOMPS FOR ALL~!


This is just something silly that I decided to do because a friend of mi... ]]> ~NobodyAiHeart http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/7099960/ http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/7099960/ Sun, 20 Nov 2005 19:35:37 PST “The War To End All Wars”…
More people died in a single day in that war than in any recorded war before or after. A war where the stories on the battlefield are too horrifying to tell. But it was when I was reading about the effect on the economy and real people, those in their countries where it was supposed to be safe, that I truly realized what horror this war hid.
Neighbors turning against each other and killing simply because of the way someone’s last name sounded. People forbidden by law to say anything against the war or the government responsible for it. People thrown in jail for life for simply walking by somewhere that the government found unfit. People beaten to death by those who are supposed to protect them and uphold law. Others excused for murdering the innocents simply because of the innocents’ heritage by judges whose one duty was to bear justice…but who chose this false ‘patriotism’. Newspapers shut down for trying to spread the truth of what was happening. Germans portrayed as bloodthirsty barbarians. Books pulled from the shelves. Music no longer allowed to be heard because of the ancestry of the composer. Languages and lessons no longer taught to children that would one day lead the country.
These were just some of the things that my history book so briefly passed over. In my eyes it was far worse to have it told to me by these dead pages so bluntly. Because I can truly only imagine the things that people went through in this “Land of the Free, Home of the Brave” at that time. What an ironic slogan. What an ironic, bloody history.

There is no such thing as fighting for peace.

I was unable to finish filling out the worksheet that didn't even require us to read that section. I spent the rest of the evening staring off into the fire...imagining the torment of those long forgotten.... ]]> ~NobodyAiHeart http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/6962833/ http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/6962833/ Sat, 05 Nov 2005 13:24:16 PST
My Kiriban is: 100 pageviews.

The winner will recieve a commision of the best of my ability. ...but it will most likely have some pinkness or sparkles. Remember, I'm a surreal fantasy artist after all. *Grin.*

Hopefully someone out there would appreciate it. I swear, I will improve. You can tell with each deviation that I do that I am learning. Slowly teaching myself the Ins and Outs of the cursed, blesed Photoshop. Slowly...

I know that though she'd probably disqualify me, I'm watching for the 2,500th pageview of Onlyon2sdays.

She is an amazing anime artist... Her work is actually proportionate; something rather lacking in my work. Lol.

Well, I wish you readers luck in all ventures, and hope that the next peice you work on doesn't try to kill you. ^_^

And as always, any tips or critiques on my work are throughily appreciated.

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]]> ~NobodyAiHeart http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/6805126/ http://NobodyAiHeart.deviantart.com/journal/6805126/ Fri, 21 Oct 2005 14:41:49 PDT The mountains had no details, simply dark outlines against a glowing sky. The clouds caught the sun behind them and seemed to blaze with with it's light in shades of pink, yellow and orange. Those further off obscured a pale blue with lavender and purple. Breaks between clouds would eventually reveal a bright blue sky.
When I see things like this I am always awed. I suppose inspired. I wish so many things at once. That it would stay that way forever. That others could see such beauty. I wish that I could share my way of seeing things with everyone in the world. Loan my sight to those blinded, wether they blind themselves or are unable to see. Maybe it would make the world just a little bit better if I could. Small steps at a time.

Everything in life is beautiful if you take the time to look. Beauty is what I live for. Whether it is an image, a thought, a sound, a touch or a story. And beauty isn't always happy. I seem to be attracted to the beauty of sorrows.
It is the destructive beauty that I am wary of. Sorrow is one thing, pain is another. They seem to be so close, but they are not. I don't like pain. Death is a beauty of pain.
Someone once said that the reason things are so beautiful is because they are so frail. I suppose this is all too true. I wish I could preserve the beautiful things so that I could share them, but that would make them pointless according to that statement of frailty.
Mortality is a frail thing. We so easily die. Life is precious they say. Is that why so many are obsessed with death? They fear it. They love it. Faccination. Such things are all too similar. I don't want to be immortal. I just wish I could live long enough to leave a mark on the world for the better.

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Whoever gets my pageview of '100' shall recieve a commision.


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