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Fined for overdue books. Deserved it. Now, I can't borrow anything until the fines are cleared. Great~ Needs to read Ian Rankin's new book, The Naming of the Dead.

Brushing up on my drawing. Dusting out the olde tablet. Starting to get familiar with it. Not really as intuitive as I thought it to be. Been thinking of doing an animation at the moment. Playing around with the story. Hard to say if it'll come to fruition. Always been much of a procrastinator yours truly. Sucks when you have been neglecting whatever you've learnt for the past 3 years. Now you have to slowly relearn everything again. Guilty.

Gained a lot of weight recently. Doesn't help that people actually noticed. Not good. Have to start losing it a.s.a.p.

]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/11891961/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/11891961/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 08:28:27 PST ...
Longing for another book. It's been a long while. Borrowed Gibson's Neuromancer. Couldn't get past the first page when I realised the deadline just passed. Feeling that there's too many stuff going on. Think it's just me. Heard of Ian Rankin's new book, The Naming of the Dead. Really want to get my hands on one. Just about done reading all his books, almost.
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Wow March is already approaching. Soon February 2007 will be gone like a blink, kinda like how January was. January was probably my busiest month in the SAF; so busy that I can't remember anything I did during that month.

February I can remember. For one, it started pretty smashing. After 4 months of trolling, I finally got my 2B license on the first day of February. This means that I'm now given the "privilege" to ride a motorbike not more than 200cc. I remembered on the day I took the 2B Traffic Police test, I tried to look all calm and indifferent but god knows inside, it was butterflies in my stomach. In the end, I kept my nerve and got what I wanted.

Then there was the week after that, actually barely a week after that. Took a day off from camp to go out bike surveying with my step-dad. Wasn't really thinking of getting my bike but as it happened, I returned home with one on that same day Hahaha. Wasn't expecting to buy a bike so soon and there I was, riding one back home. It's a Honda CBR 150, one of the bikes at the top of my list and I've think I've made the right choice. It's always exciting when you get something new but this felt different. My own bike with my own cash. It was like venturing into a new unknown. Ok, ok maybe it's not that epic but it was what it felt like. Of course like most erm, feelings, you'll soon grow out of it. Blame it when a newbie gets his/her new toy or something hehe.

Had interesting conversations with a few friends in the past weeks. Got talking about some topics that were quite interesting and a welcoming distraction to the rush that is in recent days. It's been some time since I got into a "serious" conversation. In this respect, I've always preferred talking to instant messaging. I rather enjoyed it. Breaks down the niceties and discuss what we really think. Perspectives brought out in a different light. Refreshing.

What I'm seriouly lacking right now is arty works. Looking at the new deviantArtwerx, everyone has progressed by leaps and bounds that I'm left behind by miles, MILES. No question it's me screwing myself. Goals idealised but never kicked off. Procrastination just took over. Feel so helpless. Despite how I try to deny it, it's a quarter-life crisis right now. Then again, some people just don't realise they're in it. Move on.

Erm this is weird. Where did all these words come from?

]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/10621703/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/10621703/ Sun, 05 Nov 2006 06:17:53 PST
Portfolio progress is zero at the moment. It's been more than a month since I last did anything. Not really satisfied with my last few deviations. Still not "there" yet. Been tinkering with the idea for another animation but still unsure if that's a wise choice. Can't really remember the pipeline, rigging and everything else really. Wanted to get to the drawing board this weekend but it's already Sunday night and I still haven't done anything at all. Will probably be based off my FYP animation but that's just one of the ideas. Hmm.

Just the thoughts. I'm gonna have to force myself to start something tomorrow. Please let me get something done.

]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/9383093/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/9383093/ Sat, 15 Jul 2006 07:55:06 PDT
Finally graduated. Memorable day it was. That was like 2 weeks ago hehe but it still feels weird. Felt great to meet old friends again after those 3 years with them. 3 years of working it out and it's all over just like that. The gear has changed and now, we move forward into the next phase of our life, whatever it may be. I'm already thinking about what to do after my national service ends. Ok, I'm always thinking about what to do after it ends. Progress on my portfolio has been snail-pace. Planning to draw everytime I get out during the weekends. Can't be bothered to draw when I'm staying in at camp. The environment there is just not conducive to drawing.

*sigh* Just 2D works at the moment. Finally got my "multimedia" computer working last week. Had to reformat my HD. So long old portfolio; for real...

Currently, only Photoshop is available. I'm lagging way behind in the 3D department. So badly want to refresh my 3D stuff. Just can't find my Max CD. Help! So want to get my hands on 3D thingy. Got some rough animation ideas. Think it's time to start a short 3D project. Thinking of working on the concepts next week.

Btw, still felt France was the better team.


Going 20 decibels and lower. ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/9134644/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/9134644/ Wed, 21 Jun 2006 08:00:32 PDT
- The Cardigans' My Favourite Game
- Billy Joel's All About Soul
- Blind Guardian's The Script for My Requiem

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It's a good thing. I've been struggling a little with my foot fracture for the past 3 weeks and thank goodness it's getting better. Have another medical checkup next Monday. Hope I can get off the painkillers. For the life I just can't be bothered to take them again. Keep forgetting that they exist. Besides, it's getting better anyway and with now that I'm in vocation that I'm in now, it'll be good in a few more days.

I'm in the next phase of my life serving the country. I'm posted to the service side. Initially, I was quite surprised and upset that I got posted to it but 3 days in, I've resigned myself to accepting and taking in the positives of it. You don't have a choice; so let it be.

Began building my portfolio again as you can see from The Question [link] . Hoping to start some momentum here. Procrastination is the devil. It's hard but I'm trying to put some action into my ideas. Currently thinking of making a short animation project. I hope to get it started soon but beyond that idea, I have other ideas lol. Can't seem to get my perspectives right. Have to start something or I'll get nothing done.

... Here's him talking to himself.

Rant. I find it perplexing. I'm stymied that some of the masses are so accepting of alternative medicine, despite their lack of evidence in effectiveness, but so quick to bludgeon and question the effectiveness of modern medicine, which actually works. Judging from television and from reading the newspapers here, I'm starting to think that we, Singaporeans, are getting too influenced and falling into this claptrap of New Age woo woo fallacy where their limitations have expanded beyond the boundaries of fiction.

There's not much, if any, real science in it. Yet people make a bee line for them.
With all this woo woo ideas floating around, it feels as if the world is trying to move back 100 years and yet, at the same time, move forward. Seemingly, a paradox. ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/8629602/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/8629602/ Sun, 30 Apr 2006 10:22:48 PDT
- Eric Clapton's Layla
- Blackrose's Penantian
- Rainbow's The Temple of the King
- Anthrax's Madhouse

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I got a phone call from a lady about a job interview. Seems that they have a vacancy for a position and wanted me to come down for an interview. Vague eh? Yeap. That's all I could remember her telling me beneath the thick accent. I had no clue what the job is about. She said she'll be contacting me next week (since I'm not free today). Weird though. I'll only be able to work after my 2 years of NS is up and that's not very soon. Not sure if any of you mates got said phone call too.

Well, I've completed my 7 days out in the field last week. Quite an experience I'd say. The first day of field camp already managed to burn the whole lot of us. The 7 days were pretty rough and tough but thank goodness it's over. To me, the major killers were the route marches. We all had to endure the distance and a heavy field pack bearing down on our backs. Oh and I feel weird when I look at the photos of myself with hair hahaha

Military episodes aside, progress on portfolio has been slow. It's hasn't even started actually. I just can't bring myself to start on anything. The procrastinator re-emerging. There's so much I want to draw but no real effort being put. Just can't disclipline myself to follow through with my goals for the weekend. Thus, another weekend wasted. I always give myself a goal that when I book out on weekends, I will set aside time to draw. Well, good luck to me. That goal was formed some weeks ago and I've still yet to reach it.

I've been reading too much instead. I'm trying to gather more information about history that I'm overloading myself with too much data. Trying to think up of too many stories, twists in the plots and character archetypes. I have a few rough ideas already but will need more research. I kinda like this research phase. So many things to gather and consider. It's exciting.

All this has gotten me pondering about the option of furthering my studies into one of the local unis. My family has been bringing up the subject from time to time. It's a very hard decision for me especially when I think that my current standard isn't up to where I want it to be. Thinking about it, this industry that demands creativity and competent skill isn't really the same as other industries. A degree alone won't guarantee me a job. I still have to show a portfolio to add credibility and back up that qualification. Same goes if I have a diploma and I already have one now. It kinda boils down to a good showreel and portfolio plus the experience.

Looking thru my gallery, I just don't see anything much that I can really feel confident about. Feels like I'm really behind my peers and the industry at the moment. Kinda missing out but am trying to stay patient and optimistic. Without it I'll probably had given up.

It's a thin line. ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/8260246/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/8260246/ Fri, 24 Mar 2006 22:30:43 PST
I'm not too concerned about that though. The awful thing at the moment is that my "multimedia" computer is not working. Diagnosis: possible hard disk failure. Just 2 weeks of not being used and it's gone AWOL. The thing I'm really upset about is that my whole freaking portfolio is gone too. If not for dA, I would probably have lost everything. Then again, it does feel like I lost everything. All the 3D stuff I was working on before enlistment, all the high res colours and new pencils are now up in smoke. Freakin Hell. Now I have to rebuild my portfolio AGAIN.

On a better note, I passed all my modules in my final year thankfully. Looking forward to the graduation ceremony this July.

Feeling quite jaded right now. Will comment when able. Take care everyone.


Feel-Good Message: "Yesterday's history. Today's a present. Tomorrow's a mystery"
Nrz's Safety Message: "Don't forget to breathe" ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/7543177/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/7543177/ Sun, 08 Jan 2006 09:28:57 PST
- Iron Maiden's The Trooper
- Wings' Taman Rasidah Utama
- Nash's Pada Syurga di Wajahmu
- Rabbani's Satu Qiblat

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"Chuck Norris doesn't read books. He stares them down until he gets the information he wants."

I want to be like Chuck Norris! Hahaha: [link] . Found this at CGTalk. Had a great laugh. Vin Diesel's: [link] . Mr T's: [link]

My body's still feeling the after effects of the Friday badminton tragedy. As usual, I sucked. Hard to believe that I'll be leaving the safety of school and into the big bad realm of the uncertain in another 4 months. Seriously ain't sure what I'm gonna do after I graduate. Then again, can I even do what I want to do if I knew what I wanted to do? In addition, will I be able to keep up the standard? Soooo many what-if's.

Maybe I should instill more self-confidence but it just can't pave it's way in through all this doubts. Well, perhaps National Service gives me another 2 years to think about it I guess. In regards to NS, I still don't believe how the hell did I get a PES A grade when the last time I actually did any serious exercising was like, erm, 4 years ago.

Anyways, there seems to be an increasing number of insects flying into my room recently. Beetles, moths, spiders and some other unidentified flying stuff. Makes me wish I have a camera to show them. I'm writing this after swiping a moth from existence just a moment ago. Couple of days ago, a beetle drop literally in front of me and got me jumping for a second. Hehe. Thinking I should keep some live specimens. Could be useful to ward of my little cousins from rampaging my room again.

"Mr. T destroyed the periodic table, saying Mr. T. only recognizes the element of surprise."

Goodnite~ ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/7372553/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/7372553/ Wed, 21 Dec 2005 11:47:34 PST
- Blind Guardian's The Script for My Requiem
- Placebo's Every Me and Every You
- Helloween's Secret Alibi
- Saujana's Jendela Hati

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It's E-Learning week this week, thankfully. Easing off the pedal slightly and trying to catch up on some lost nights. Pretty ironic considering that I'm writing this at 3.30am. Just can't reiterate how awful this semester has been for yours truly. Shan't bother you guys with my problems.

Have given up blocking my animation at the moment. Gawd my com is going nuts too. I'm getting some "out of memory" errors when I try to open the villain and the environment models. Blocking animation is pretty tough too *grr*. Frustrating. The stress is making me hate all these modules. *pfft* We had the interim assessment last Monday. It was alright I guess. Got to read up on my texturing again and work on the lighting too. Group wouldn't be too pleased with 2 minute plus renders per frame. Hmm, think I'll post a render of the villain some time.

My family's going to Kuala (Koala hehe) Lumpur tomorrow and I'll have the house to myself for a week . Damn I hate it when I'm left alone nowadays. Doesn't help that my sis is not at home anymore. Needs a new "sparring" partner hahaha.

In other news, my scanner has ceased all operations. It happened a few weeks back while scanning a few sketches in a row before it went kamikaze. Nrz pleads guilty. Scanner will be missed, very much. Hope to get it fix/get a new one a.s.a.p.


and Life continues... ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/7139413/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/7139413/ Fri, 25 Nov 2005 08:28:16 PST
Music Cycle:

- The Yardbirds' Happening Ten Years Time Ago
- The Steve Miller Band's Jet Airliner
- Blue Oyster Cult's Don't Fear the Reaper

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Finally, I've just managed to complete the clients' website. That is, until the next changes are loaded and shot back in my face again. So much for a "simple and quick" website. Late changes and whatnot has really put the stress on me while I'm trying to juggle this website and my FYP at the same time.

I had another website offer and this time, the client really is big-named but after considering all the factors and my priorities at the present time, I have to reject it, reluctantly. The money is not much (just like the current website I'm doing) but enough for a newbie to the field like me and having it on my portfolio will certainly make it look nicer but damn, I'm still feeling some regrets rejecting it. Then again I'm not that skilled in design yet alone programming. I might just add more stress to the the pile that's already growing.

To be honest, my enthusiasm for this whole semester has just about left me. The fire that spurred me on in past semesters is at it's end. I keep trying to get myself motivated but I just couldn't maintain it. Why do this have to happen in my final semester is beyond me. If I were to be a player in a soccer team, I will be referred to as having a "serious dip in form" and would be warming up the substitutes bench and if it continues, I would be quietly sold at the price of a cow to some lower division club.

In addition to the other sucky things on the list, I have to return to CMPB (army place) for my follow up check-up. Seems I failed the last section (the medical) and have to return to re-do it. Failing to do so might yield really scary/severe consequences (as noted in bold on the form). The note on what I should do prior to this return: Sleep well . Great, another thing I'm not good at.


... Dropping Marbles ...

Around 3 nights ago, while I was home alone and about to call it a day at around 2 am, I heard a sound that I hadn't heard since I was doing my O Levels back when I was living in my old house.

"Someone" in the flat above mine was dropping a bunch of marbles and rolling them on the floor at that time of the night. The whole thing happened for like 5 seconds. Some heartlanders might be familiar with this strange phenomenon but, looking at the clock with the smiley face in my room, it's about time I called it a day too.

~ time for the nrzzz ~ ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/6640937/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/6640937/ Fri, 30 Sep 2005 08:54:50 PDT
- Eric Clapton's Layla
- Blind Guardian's I'm Alive
- Toto's Hold The Line

Currently Reading - Robert Rankin's The Brentford Chainstore Massacre

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~ Prelude to The Day that Has Passed ~
Finally, after thoughtful months, Today is the day. ITP is dead. Performed the necessary after-waking-up rituals and proceeded to make my way to school for the final logbook handover. Had to wait 7 minutes for the next train but all is well in this world.

~ The Excitement Heats Up ~
Managed to reach Dover MRT 10 minutes late but all is still well in this world. The LO can wait. Anxious smiles exchanged, friendly nods of the head, the odd word or two before we made our way to the ICT block. Yes people; Today is the day.

~ The Excitement Escalates ~
Our LO was no where to be seen when we reached there so I informed him of our arrival. It's nice to see faces that have not been seen for those months in ITP. Suddenly, out of the corner of my eye I spotted someone approaching...

~ Nail Bitting Stuff ~
Our LO! Nice to see you! Finally, we can truly set our souls free. Questions abound and questions answered. And then a revelation.

~ Tension Mounts at the ICT Block Lvl 3~
Our LO uttered something about missing stamps on something. "What! Where?" said I. And there it was; the missing stamps on the Attendance sheet! They were supposed to be stamped by the company! A sudden chillness disseminates my soul. In fact, if this chillness could speak, it would have said, "OH SHIT!!"

~ The Tension Almost Reaches Breaking Point ~
We realised the error of our ways thankyouverymuch. Without these stamps and signatures accounted for, the release of our souls will have to put on hold. The only solution; back to the company and get this stamps and signature thingy. "By today" said our LO before he left us to fend for ourselves. What should be done must be done, no matter the cost.

~ Rollercoaster Ride to Hell ~
Thus we made our journey back to the office in City Hall. I did not make it back to the company though. I have to thank my 2 other ITP buddies who offered to help me acquire the necessary thingies. Their fate remains unknown to this ... oh wait, there they are in MSN...


...
- Acknowledgements -

There is life after Ian Rankin's books! It's another Rankin of course. This time's it's a Robert Rankin. The above was rip-off from a part of his book although my execution is par humourless and un-funny at it's best (me being a humourless person to start with).

Having read all save 3 books (couldn't find them at Sengkang's Library) from the Inspector Rebus series, I really needed to find another series to get myself hooked to. The Rankin-surnamed books are on the same shelves after all lol. What's with their funny titles (Nostradamus Ate My Hamster, The Antipope, Fandom of the Operator (my favourite ) etc) and witty humour, it's looking like a great read from here.

Just reading from the back summary of the The Brentford Chainstore Massacre (TBCM! Go figure hahaha) got me laughing even though my face refuses to exhibit any emotional reactions.

Why am I talking alot about books nowadays some of you might say? Well, to explain it Matrix-style, I'll just have to say that you already knew the answer


~ The Veritable Cliffhanger ~

"Nrzman had a smile upon his face. It was a big smile, a broad smile, a real self-satisfied smugger of a smile. No normal fellow could pull off a smile like that. It takes a real mad bastard to do the job properly.

What a bastard!"

- Thanks to Robert Rankin again ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/6278866/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/6278866/ Sat, 20 Aug 2005 11:08:11 PDT
- Guns & Roses' Welcome to the Jungle
- Grand Funk Railroad's Some Kind of Wonderful
- L7's Pretend We're Dead
- Ozzy Osbourne's Hellraiser

Currently Reading - Ian Rankin's A Question in Blood

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Guess I didn't have time to complete The Tommyknockers. Read about a third of the book before I realised the date was due. *No time for thick books* It's back to Rankin goodness. Realised that the National Library had a dismal collection of Rankin books. I could only find 3 but the Resurrection Men was there (not available at Sengkang from what I know).

Anyways, I'm so pumped up for FYP already! So pumped up that it's 2 am and I'm here to tell you this. Read the script and couldn't help to flesh out more depth and give my ideas into the story. For those in the blue, the working title at the moment is Aeon Saga. I'm always open to any critiques and comments to the current story so team members, please give your input. Wikipedia really is a great resource for ideas. I'll be utterly pissed if our proposal gets rejected but life's unfair *rolleyes* and the administrators are procrastinators (since approval/rejection won't be known until 3 weeks before next sem starts). Better think of the contingencies.

The story aside, I've been sketching a few more concepts of the villain. Kinda feeling that I've finally got the desired look I wanted. Haven't started on the environments and the locales for the "future" timeline yet. Still gathering my references. All in all, I'm really trying to not make everything look too simplistic or cliche but the cliche part is hard We'll see how it goes.

My bio-clock is messed up. I can't switch myself to sleep before midnight. I'll be up till late early morning doing nothing productive and when the next day cometh, I'll be grumpy and half dead. It's a hangover without the beer. Kinda like what will happen tomorrow. Only myself to blame.

*This is the section where I whine about how tired I am, how i have a lot of work and showing how unemphatic I am blah blah blah*



... ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/6065931/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/6065931/ Fri, 29 Jul 2005 09:17:48 PDT
- Iron Maiden's Phantom of the Opera
- Akon's Lonely
- Faith No More's Midlife Crisis
- Metallica's For Whom The Bell Tolls

Currently Reading - Ian Rankin's Black & Blue
Next Book - Stephen King's The Tommyknockers

...

Finally, a few more weeks and I'll have some free time to do my own stuff. Work's routine as usual. The same old same old. Really not sure what I feel about the internship period. I've learnt lots of stuff about the mobile biz, music royalties and dealing with business partners but I'm kind of disappointed that multimedia-related projects are almost non-existant. Wished that there were some really focus design stuff. Pretty much one of the reasons why I'm pretty vulgar now. I hope that this, or worst, does not happen to anyone else but they do I guess...

Enough with work, I went for a jog around my estate just a moment ago. This machine's rusty. Timing's not good. 2.4 in 13 minutes. Well at least it was better than the 15 2 weeks ago. Gonna fail my NAPFA if this continues. Night jogs are really quite peaceful minus the stray dogs.

Currently thinking of a new layout for my webbie. The current design sucks. Drew a few rough sketches for my FYP. Don't really like the current designs. Also, been trying to colour more. Trying simpler colouring styles at the moment. Those eerily realistic paintings are still a ?? to me. Meanwhile, the tablet is just sitting on my printer gathering dust. Still prefer the mouse :/

Energon's running low. Gonna try and finish Black & Blue and start on the Tommyknockers a.s.a.p. If you guys have any book recommendations, please drop a note. I don't care what genre it is.

Honestly, wish I can write what I really feel.

... ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5957990/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5957990/ Sun, 17 Jul 2005 10:29:27 PDT
- Sarah McLachlan's Fallen
- Jason Mraz's The Remedy
- Savatage's Gutter Ballet
- Iced Earth's Angels Holocaust

Currently Reading - Ian Rankin's Black & Blue

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[link] - The online encyclopedia. A great information resource Had been searching and reading about alot of topics before I realised it was already 3 hours. Really a great and informative time-killer.

Should really be sleeping now. Tomorrow's another day of slavery. Already thinking about all the good stuff I'll be able to do after ITP ends. Adding the "updating of website" to the list [[link] On the subject of websites, I can't help but feel like I'm being used. Been slogging myself to create 2 external websites. One is finished and the other at 85% done and guess what? The pay is, to put it nicely, way below expectation. I guess I'm at fault myself. Should have been more assertive. Should have done more research on quoting. Stupid me. Just checked some websites on the quoting. Seems that I'm being paid considerably lower. Gonna say it out the next time I meet them. I'm taking the website hostage! So what if I'm an intern? Experience and portfolio is important but when it's business, it's business. Of course I'm not some narcissist observer or a money minded conspirator but even I can see if something is wrong with the picture.

Don't think I can survive as a designer anyway. I'm not as creative as I hoped I'd be. My friend set me thinking of joining the police force. Haha, guess I'll give it a thought but 5 years? Too long I'd say. Already have to book my national service medical check-up sometime next week but I'll give the SPF a thought. There are some other stuff I'm thinking about after NS but at the moment, they look like a long shot. The future not as simple as it used to be. Or are we the ones confusing ourselves by making it look complicated? Or is it because we just want the best for ourselves? Whatever it is, it sure is worrying me.

Writing really is therapeutic. The brain might be nearer to the your vocal chords than your hands are but it sure is easier to write it out than say it out. Sometimes.

... ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5901872/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5901872/ Mon, 11 Jul 2005 07:34:38 PDT
- Jason Mraz's The Remedy
- D12's My Band
- Iron Maiden's The Trooper
- Iced Earth's The Phantom Opera Ghost

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Time what is time? Designing websites can be so tiring No. Not going to spread the negativity to thy reading this

Really sorry to anyone that I might have let down this past few weeks. It's not my intention to cause any inconveniences. Guess coping with change isn't one of my strongest points. Again, I'm really sorry.

Laying down some arty stuff that has yet to be done (and some that will probably never will):

- Custom TF Gestalt team:
Steel Storm (done)
Mien Recon (Lines done)
Blind Guardian (redoing design)
??
??
??

- 3D Objects for FYP
Cyborg (revamping design. Still in concept phase)
Super Cyborg (revamping design. Still in concept phase)
Environments (on hold)

- Alternator Technobots (have some ideas on the alt. modes. Not sure will complete this)
- Rodimus Prime fanart
- Fighting scene
- Expand on Dragon Saga universe
- Rhapsody fanart

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If you have any book recommendations, please drop me a note ^_^ Any genre will do. And for the last time, I'm not an MSN junkie!! Please read my past journals for the explanation .


Peace Everyone.

... ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5854449/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5854449/ Wed, 06 Jul 2005 07:19:24 PDT Just when you thought the situation was worsE, something new and alien makes it worsT. Fuck~ I'm not going into the storm, I'm caught in a perfect one. Between the devil and the deep blue sea. Not even the full stop will mean that it will be the end of this.

I'm putting whatever it is on hold just for this second. I'm still here. No, I'm not lamenting about a dying relationship or some other shit. Best I keep IT to myself. I'm the price and the solution; even when I don't even know the answers.


"But Fate fooled me and changed my cards. No one asked if I want it, if I liked it"

... ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5466659/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5466659/ Thu, 26 May 2005 11:07:17 PDT
- Iron Maiden's Purgatory
- Europe's The Final Countdown
- Nur Irsyad's Jejak Uhud
- Travis's Why Does It Always Rain on Me?

Currently Reading: Nothing...

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Went clubbing last Wednesday. Well not literally of course! I didn't get drunk or jiggle my way on the dance floor or anything worse. Went there to shoot a video for a dance segment. I've just finished editing the video. Got the last-minute job from 2 of my lecturers. If you're wondering where it is, it was at the Esplanade Mall in a NTUC-run disco/club called the DXO. Was there from 2.30pm till 8pm. Needless to say, it's my first time being at a disco.

It was the club's official opening and my lecturer wanted someone to film this dance as he was the choreographer. So I was given this space and the edge of the dance floor to shoot the dance. The dance was also integrated with a Russian circus troupe. Honestly, they were awesome! It was great watching the dancers and the troupe perform on this somewhat small dance floor. Plus, Najip Ali was the host ^^

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I can't switch off as usual. Writing this at 1:33 in the morning. Tomorrow's (Today actually...) the ITP posting results and my group's having our FYP discussion. Can't come out with a story... Me brains' fried. Always looking forward to weekends. Have absolutely no energy to draw . Looks like my "drawing-a-week" isn't going to work out...

Saw a Wacom Intuos2 tablet at Suntec City the other day. I didn't go in to see the price tag as I was in a hurry but I just hope it's not too much The Graphire 3 looks tempting but not really sure if 4x5 (or is it the other way around?) will be enough in the long run. I can afford that right now and also the Genius Tablet but judging from the reviews the Genius' getting, it doesn't sound to positive. Then again. I'm not really sure if buying a tablet now will be good since my drawing foundations are still sub-par. Decisions, decisions, decisions. Haiz

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How much time does it need to heal all wounds? Ghosts I can't get away from. ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5390330/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5390330/ Wed, 18 May 2005 08:35:40 PDT
- Iron Maiden's Prodigal Son
- Iron Maiden's Hallowed Be Thy Name
- Incubus' 11 AM
- Blind Guardian's Mordred's Song

Currently Reading: P.D James The Black Tower

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These past few days have got me thinking about a lot of things that have been thought about over and over before. Dammit I just wish that I can stop worrying so much.

Anyway, work is getting more and more "interesting". I've only been there for a few weeks and I've got lots of stories to tell about my experiences there. Work aside, I've not been drawing anything new. The time is there. It's just that the energy is lacking. Now, I pick my pencil, try to draw for an hour only to erase everything I did because I'm not happy with it. Even after all the deviations, I still "cannot" draw .

Also, if you guys see me in MSN from 9.30 am to 8 pm or so, don't think that I'm some MSN junkie or social animal haha. Just that my company uses MSN to communicate (it's faster etc) but by all means, don't feel afraid to talk to me!~

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"Don't judge a book by it's cover". Sometimes I wished that these words aren't true. Because, sometimes, beneath the facade that you see someone in, lies something that you just wished you'd never found out. ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5291106/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5291106/ Sat, 07 May 2005 06:41:26 PDT
- Yasin's Kerna Dia
- Transformers Headmasters Intro
- Scorpion's Lonely Nights
- Audioslave's Like A Stone

Currently reading: P.D James' Death of An Expert Witness

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Weekends are getting shorter and shorter it seems. Or is it because I'm lazing around too much? Anyway, I'm gonna try and draw stuff every weekend just to ease some stress. Laying out some plans I have in mind. Currently working on finally completing my old Transformers combiner team; the Slayerbots (gonna change the name).

The "Armada" version:
- Blind Guardian [Leader] > [link]
- Steel Storm > [link]
- Recon > [link]

The team will be "set" in the Galaxy Force/Cybertron timeline. I've already redesigned Steel Storm [link] and currently working on Blind Guardian. There will 5 or 6 characters eventually. The new lineup will be:

- Blind Guardian [Leader]
- Steel Storm [link]
- Mien Recon
- "Rhapsody"
- "Inspirit"
- "Volition"
- "Metal Phantom" > Gestalt Name

I might try to draw some human characters too. Haha. I hope I will be able to complete this personal project.

May peace be with us all. ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5219723/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5219723/ Fri, 29 Apr 2005 08:15:49 PDT
He lifts his fingers off the keyboard. 12.26pm, the time on the monitors' task bar says. "Still some time from the end" he thought to himself, "and a damn long time from the end of it all". The fingers of his neighbour were going amok on the keyboard on the desk next to his. Indeed his had been doing the same since 9.30 in the morning. Here he was. No music to sooth his soul. No energy to keep a conversation. Well not with all this sorting out that needed to be done. He returned to his task.

Copy, Paste, Rename, Sort.

That was the order of the day. The order for everyday. Well, he didn't feel like complaining anyway. His colleagues were friendly and he broke a lot of new ground these past 2 weeks. New environment, new people, new challenges but the same old Nrzman. He is starting to realise how stressful redundancy can be. Not that all redundant experience is. Just that this was, well, redundant.

Copy, Paste, Rename, Sort.

Retribution indeed.


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LOL sorry for the lameness ~ Suddenly felt like writing a story of sorts. ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5032012/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/5032012/ Fri, 08 Apr 2005 07:01:12 PDT
- Psychic Lover's Never Ending Road
- Tanimoto Takayoshi's Calling You
- XPDC's Sakinah
- Scorpions' Aleyah

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Firstly, an illusion that will boggle your mind: [link]

Inspector Rebus = Intriguing

The school "season" is nearly over. 2 more papers and I will be leading my normal civillian life. Not that there will be any rest for your friendly neighbourhood Spider Nrzman . For I know that with great power comes...... Ok Ok i'll stop roleplaying as Spidey hehe.

There's something that's really bothering me nowadays. The problem is what? I know the semester is going to end and yet I feel that something is just not .....right. I actually went for a night jog last Wednesday on impulse. There was this feeling that made me want to run just about anywhere.

On a lighter note, I only wish that this feeling will make me move my butt to SLS and finally buy the damn tablet that I've been planning to get for some time. Damn you lousy procrastinator!!

The ITP company will be calling this Thursday to give me more information about our Friday meet. Fortunately, 2 of my friends (Yuanda & Kin Phiang) will be with me throughout the attachment. Honestly, I'm nervous as hell. I feel that I'm not worthy enough to be working for them. Not when my stuff look so amateurish compared to all my other peers. I've set a goal and that is to try and study as many drawing and colouring skills as possible during the holidays. Hopefully, when ITP starts, I will be able to cope reasonably well with whatever creative material that I'm supposed to handle. Haiz. It's harder when you're so used to procrastinating...

Finally have my own webby!! ---->> [link]
And I will revamp the layout again!! Haha.


Take care everyone! ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/4460138/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/4460138/ Mon, 31 Jan 2005 08:11:56 PST
Transformers Galaxy Force- Call You- Kimito Bokuno Mirai
Beach Boys - California Dreaming
Iron Maiden - Only the Good Die Young
Takako Matsu - Yume no Shizuku

I really love the Japanese Theme Songs for the Transformers. The english versions are cool but can't hold a candle to their Japanese counterparts.

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Anyway, stress with school work as usual. I just can't stop procrastinating!! *Grr* It seems I'm getting "lazier" as every semester passes and to think that next semester's is already ITP...

However, I've found a growing interest in books recently. I've just finished reading 53 pages of Stephen King's "The Eyes of the Dragon" since 10p.m. Before that, I was looking thru the school's library catalogue (ELISER) in search of books that I want.

Can you believed that our school has only THREE Edgar Allen Poe's books? Furthermore, most of the books that I was searching for are located in the Main Library which like takes a year and forever to go there. OK maybe it's just me being a lazy bum but still... Fortunately, the BizIt isn't so bad.

Oh and Isaac Asimov's "Foundation and Empire" was much more compelling than I thought it was being the first SciFi book I've ever read (after randomly picking a book from the book shelf ). Going to look for the sequel to it when I have the time.

All the Best everyone ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/3730673/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/3730673/ Tue, 02 Nov 2004 04:02:47 PST
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Woohoo the semester is over! The exams are finished and I can finally breathe with little worries. I'm worried about some of my grades though coz I think that I screwed some modules (PCT, MMPJ, VIDP). What's done is done me reckon.

Been spending my time at home doing nothing really. I just bought my first electric guitar (Fender Squier Package) and I haven't really touch it much . But I feel a resurgence(sp?) of arty-related ideas going thru my mind. Me thinking of expanding my Dragonslayer characters but I can't really put them on paper coz my skills need major refining.

Muahaha. Hope everyone else is doing fine . ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/3015634/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/3015634/ Tue, 03 Aug 2004 07:40:57 PDT
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Time seems to pass by faster than I can keep up with it. It's going to be the 5th week of the semester tomorrow and I'm still confuzzled about what's happening and what the heck I'm supposed to be doing. I'm just going with the flow really and procrastinating as usual because I can't get myself to find out about all the assignments and such...

I had a fun time playing badminton with my frens last Friday nite even though our numbers are decreasing. They should have seen smash like a pro or play like an energizer battery or playing like a possessed madman

It's unfortunate that , and couldn't make it but I understand. And me? Well I'm the fodder but that's because I gave them a chance to win! *looks around* Haha

*nrzman is a really bad badminton player*

And I finally made myself and avatar! - ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/2718360/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/2718360/ Sat, 26 Jun 2004 08:38:35 PDT
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It's only half of the year but 2004 is turning out to be a year I will never forget. A few but very memorable events that I've expected but acted unexpectedly .

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Thanks to friendster, I was able to find some of my primary school friends and Woah!~ Have they changed bucketloads! Even so, I have to say that out of all the stages in the education system, my most favourite moments were when I was in primary school. Then again come to think of it, I tend to dwell too much on the good things that has happened in the past. It's very hard for me to tear myself away from it.

Haiz. Azman, Azman. It's time to move on...

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I'm feeling very frustrated with myself. It seems that my drawing skills have deserted me without notice! I've been trying to draw myself a new ID but just can't come out with something satisfying. Haha. Kinda feeling demoralised right now. ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/2404415/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/2404415/ Tue, 11 May 2004 05:28:29 PDT , , , for always being here to comment on my deviations. Thanks a MILLION!!

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DAMN I find it really hard to draw a human head. It seems that I just can't draw a proper human head even with a reference and it's really giving me a headache. Also add to the fact that I can't draw a human figure properly. Haiz~

I have a few ideas but no skill to really make use of them. Haha. Guess I know what I'll be doing for the rest of the holidays.

Ideas:
- More spidey fanart.
- Complete 2 more Slayerbots. I'm still looking a name for the last one.
Slayerbot team: - Blind Guardian, Steel Storm, Recon, ???
Any suggestions are appreciated!
- Street Fighter fanart. I'm having trouble drawing the heads for this one. Grrr...

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Can't wait to get the exam results! I don't care about the grades anymore. I just wish everyone and myself will make it thru to next year. ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/2155000/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/2155000/ Fri, 09 Apr 2004 04:08:15 PDT . I realised that I had to hand in a sub par WEBP assignment because I had forgotten how to work a layout using frames :/.

*Sigh* What's done is done.

I've been taking life much slower now because of this migraine. I'm distancing myself away from the computer and have been trying to read the newspapers to reduce this migraine but that didn't help either. Instead, i felt more giddy when I concentrate too much on an object and then find myself lying in bed with eyes closed. Even medicine doesn't seem to quell this hurricane.

*Sigh* No time to rest though. There are deadlines to be met, skills to improve and exams to pass.


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It's been quite some time since I've uploaded anything that's not related to my assignments. I'm planning to redraw everything that I've scribbled/doodled in my DBMS textbook into a proper art piece. I really like DBMS lectures. Most of my art inspirations seem to appear when the lecturer is talking about SQL statements and ERDs .

Anyway, my goal for next week is to finish up my MORG responsibilities once and for all and prepare for the OC grp presentation.

<-- 3 weeks left in this Dark Age. --> ]]> ~Nrzman http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/1918725/ http://Nrzman.deviantart.com/journal/1918725/ Fri, 27 Feb 2004 22:57:48 PST
Time passes by so quickly. Fortunately, the term break has started though it'll pass by as quickly as it started. I have slightly lost my motivation to do any assignments though I'm particularly excited about the "Cd Cover" design assignment .

I guess I'll use this one week to relax and brush up on my drawing.

It seems as though 24 hours isn't enough... ]]> ~Nrzman