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I'm back now, with a new compouter... Mine was broken and very old, so I had to buy a new one... Organizing things to get beck to dA!

How have you been, guys?

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I'm SSSSOOOOOO tired!!!


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]]> =Nsambakalunga Well... http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/26239344/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/26239344/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 18:00:17 PDT



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I'm getting excited with this thing of doing art again! :giggle:
I really wanna learn more and improve!
And you, how're doing! :D


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Coming back to here...
I hope I can be as active as I was once....

How have you been?
Hope you're ok!


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Hi, my deviants, how have you been?
I'm here now to ask your help... Can you send me links of great photoshop tutorials outside deviantArt?
I've tried to google it, but I find so many tutorials that are not that good... If you can help me, i would be grateful!

Thanks a lot!

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How have you been?
Tell me!
I miss dA so much... I'm coming back, yes, but not as I would like...
I'm here in my free time, and I'm trying to do more art and get better!

Well, I'm working a lot, most times without any day off. Only today I could stay quiet at home. I worked more than 2 weeks without resting.

So, I hope you be well, and when you have time, just shout at me in my shoutbox in my main page! :giggle:

Soror A.


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llll =Nsambakalunga Making some changes... http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/24765746/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/24765746/ Fri, 15 May 2009 06:56:30 PDT



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Ok, I've decided to make some changes, and try to show how I feel these days...

I've realizes that the world is a Temple of Disillusion... Please, don't look at it as a bad thing, because it isnt...
Life is a great thing, I agree, but I need, right now, to look at the world as it is, and not as if there was a magic light upon it, like i used to look...

First this magical light made my world dark and depressive, and then i suffered a lot for it... Because I couldn't see anything good in being alive... In another time, I started to find that everything was just to beautiful, and the magical light bring me a illusional vision about the world... I started to believe that everybody was a good person, and that everything was perfect...

Now I realize that there are good things and bad things, and that is why I see the world as a Temple of Disillusion, because you live and live and sometime, somehow you are forced to see reality as it is, and not as you think it was...


Well, I'm sorry for my bad english!

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Ok, now I decided to get back to Deviantart! Why was I out? Because I was too stupid to realize how good Deviantart is!
Here I have friends, here I have people to talk!

So, I'll tell you a little about my life... I'm working so much... That's why I'm not arround here often... And I was getting to tired to do anything... But now I know that I can never be tired to do art, and to express myself.

Well, the bad thing of living in a third world country is that I work so much, 8 hours a day and 12 hours at saturdays and the money I get I so little... Barelly can't afford a house just for me, and food and all things we need... I still live with my mother, and do want to get out of here... That's why I'm studying... to get a better job, to have a good life... So, I work all day, and study at night...

Only I know how much I miss Deviantart, and how much I miss to do photomapulations... I decided to try to get back... One piece per month, or two... I'll do my best...

I have missed all of you guys! Hope you have missed me two!

Sincerely Yours,
Silvia.


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Well, I'm sick! :(


My Thraut aches a lot! It hurts and is very red and has that little white things that I dunno the name in english...

I'm taking a lot of meds, and trying to get better.


I guess it's normal when winter comes, people get sick! It was just too good to not get sick for a long time, about 6 months... But now the flu is back!

Oh, lemme get to bed, 'cause I barelly can stay sitting... Maybe lay down I'll be better.

Love you all!
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Oh my God, I won my first Contest! :w00t!:

I won =markopolio-stock's Contest!


I'm so happy!
Thanks a lot!
Thanks for the judges!


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Hello you all?
How have you been?

I'm hardly trying to be more active here, but it's been difficult. Things are very hard, and I'm doing so much...

Here in Brazil, byebye cold. It's hot again. A shame. I like cold, and I was joying a colder weather. 21th June starts our winter. Do hope it will be really cold.


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MY WORDS

It's Autumn in Brazil, and here is finally cold!
I love cold, and I would just LOVE to meet snow, but you know?, Tropical Country, no snow...
Someday I'll go to the very North or South... and I'll eat snow :excited:
The only bad thing is that my noose is terrible... Yeah, I got a flue, like always... One day i'll be cold and i won't get a flue... Only once in a life time :giggle:
My life is busy...
University at mornings, studying Brazilian and Portuguese Literature, Portuguese Grammar.
At afternoons, when I have a pacient, I work. I work with Reiki! :aww:
At nights, studying again, in a School of Shiatsu and Accunpcture (or whatever the name of it in english =P)
And you, my deviants, what have benn doing?
Are you all ok?
I hope so!
I love you all!

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January 5th is my birthday! :aww:

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Just a different layout here...

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Are my art strange?
Soemone said this...

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[link] (blackeri)

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[link] (don't remember her name, but she is famous here)

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Just nevigate there and you'll find lotsa rippers!

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[link] <- In this link... If you have patience to navigate at the site, you'll find a lot of images of dA that are there, being used without credits...
Like in here: [link]
and here: [link]
and here: [link]
and here: [link]


Than you for your attention!

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Apenas para dizer que eu tenho um blog [link] para colocar meus escritos, contos e poemas...
Se alguém se interessar, dá uma passadinha lá, e deixa um recadinho pra mim! :aww:

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I've been so busy, my deviants...
My classes start at 7:30 am and only finish at 10:35 pm!
I've been sssssooooooo very tired...
I hope to be more active here soon...
I miss all of you!


And how have you been, my deviants?
Much love to ya!

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I made it last june 6th!!


Love you all, my deviants!


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Hello, my sweet ones, how have you been?

I've been very well, but very busy as well!

Do you have any news to tell me? I would love to hear from my beloved dA friends! ;)


I made a tattoo last saturday, may 26th! I'll do my second one in June 6th!


Here's a pic of my tattoo!!! :


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Kisses to you all!! :aww:


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I've been so busy, my darlings.... So busy...
I have a lot of things to study and a lot of things to do...
That's why of my absence!

I miss you all so much!!!

I hope I can be back soon!!!


:glomp: to you all!!


]]> =Nsambakalunga I'm Back http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11608668/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11608668/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 08:00:15 PST Image Description




I'm back!!!

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]]> =Nsambakalunga Away for a while... http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11526486/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11526486/ Mon, 22 Jan 2007 06:20:21 PST Image Description




My computer is broken :tears:


]]> =Nsambakalunga My Birthday and Travelling http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11303539/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11303539/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 16:19:47 PST Image Description




January 5th is my birthday and I'll be with 23 :giggle:


I'll be traveling from tomorrow 'till January 13th.
I'll miss you all my deviants!!

Take Care!

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]]> =Nsambakalunga Hello you all!! http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11286118/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11286118/ Tue, 02 Jan 2007 09:36:51 PST Image Description




Hello you all, my deviants, how have you been?
I've been allright, my last year 2006 was hard, I'm still too trapped in my past, and I try everyday to let it go.
Hope 2007 is a better year for me.
I'll seek a job, keep my studies, do everything to graduate in literature...
And work hard to forget my past and move on, to turn out the page.


I did an stock account I hope it helps photomanipulators.


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Happy New Year to all of you, my Deviants!

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MERRY XMAS TO YOU ALL, MY DEVIANTS!

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]]> =Nsambakalunga MonicaWesley's Contest http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11123479/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11123479/ Wed, 20 Dec 2006 04:03:37 PST Image Description





=MonicaWeasley is helding a contest which theme is Vampirism The objective is to use the following photo from her stock, traditional or dgitaly, as reference or manipulated. :) [link]
The Deadline is 28th, January 2007 and the prizes include comissions, prints, stock packs and features! :aww:


]]> =Nsambakalunga Isabeausong's Contest Winners http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11093238/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11093238/ Sun, 17 Dec 2006 10:39:20 PST Image Description



3D begginer and Intermediate

First Place


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Third Place




Photomanipulation Fantasy and Dark Begginer

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Photomanipulation Dark ou Fantasy Intermediate

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I took it from ~Idle-Tears' Journal:

"I cannot emphasize the adult warning of this journal strongly enough but it is a topic that is extremely important to be brought out in the open.

Please, pass it on. so many people are still in the dark."

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'Ok, I know the shit-storm this is gonna bring down on me. I'm gonna get letters from perverts, called names, prayed at, and worse yet...sympathy. But like I said in an earlier blog, it's just words on a screen. But maybe if I talk about this others will too, and it will help them. Trust me, there's lots of others..more than you can imagine. And we all think it's our fault and are ashamed..or afraid of what a lot of people will say to/about us. Fuck that, I'm not ashamed and I don't give a rats ass what anyone says. Lots of adults like to fuck children, often their own children. So I'm gonna write about this and repost it alot. And if you even think to ask me if I got any pleasure out of getting fucked by my father, you're as big a sicko as he is...seek help u asshole. When I was eleven years old I pretty much knew I was gay. I come from a strict Christian family and my Dad is a cold controlling man. My Mom is cold and docile. So I went to my priest and told him and he told me to tell my parents. He said it would be ok (he was an idiot. I still go to confession but usually the priest just reads me my Miranda rights and sends me home). He said I MUST tell my parents before I went any further down that road.This was before we all knew that priests were deviated perverts anyways. So I went home and talked to my Dad alone. His face turned into something that came out of a cuisinart. Daddy told me I needed to pray...apparently, he thought I could pray better with a black eye to help me along. So I went in the corner and prayed on my knees. I prayed that someday I would get to see my friend Jennie naked, is what. I figured God could arrange that easier than fixing whatever demon had got hold of me.and made me evil. My Dad changed the sleeping arrangements around. I couldn't share a room with any of my sisters anymore (being evil) and got put in the basement. I got put in the little laundry room/pantry. My Dad put a cross on the wall the size or the original one and I got a Bible and a bed is all. Other stuff happened but I don't want to make this too long. After about a week Daddy decided he needed to effect a better cure than just prayer. So in the midle of the night he came down wearing is robe. He woke me up and said he wanted to show me something. He showed me something. Daddy said it was what I should want and God wanted me to want (Daddy was NOT all that God-spouting religious before this all started..this God talk all the time was pretty new)..He said this was the 'life' connection and it was beautiful. I thought it was the ugliest damned thing I ever saw, but I put a proper look of AWE on my face. Then Daddy told me to touch the magic battering ram of life. Now when you're eleven..or even older..and your Daddy tells you to do something, you do it. Daddy is all powerful, you know.

It looks like a fat dead old snake to me so I touched it. Daddy said don't be afraid, and showed me how to pet it the right way. From the look on his face he was definately having a religious experience of some kind. And guess what? Mr. snake wasn't dead at all! Mr. Snake woke right up and looked at me..and then the little fucker spit right in my eye!! Well, Daddy (once his knees stopped buckling) apologized and cleaned me up with my own dirty sock (thanks asshole) and hugged me. Then he told me I was gonna be ok except if I told anybody in which case I'd go to reform school in hell with my ass on fire. I felt sick and the last thing I wanted to do was tell anybody...ever! Well, if you didn't guess, Daddy and mr. snake came back a few nights later (after being certain I had not told anyone, I think). Daddy was so sweet. He put a little rain hat on Mr Snake so he could't spit at me again. He hugged me and held me and told me he loved me sooooo much and he was gonna help me for my own good. But it was our little secret or he wouldn't love me anymore and would love (go after?) my sisters instead.

Don't be sitting there with your hand in your pants waiting for me to describe it. He undressed me, and he fucked me. It hurt, I bled, I cried, I barfed, I cried some more, and I kept my mouth shut about it. I went to school the next day like nothing happened. I pretended to myself nothing did. and guess what? I wasn't cured..after all Daddy's hard work and sacrifice...I was still looking at girls. What I wasn't doing was... ]]> =Nsambakalunga Devoted http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11048919/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11048919/ Wed, 13 Dec 2006 08:46:46 PST Image Description









Devoted
Lacuna Coil



I’ll be there when there’s nothing left
Night and day holding you
Harmony deep inside your soul
Meet me there

Can you feel me?
Deep inside

There’s no time to deny that I’ll need you
And I’ll be there to inhale your delightful day
There’s no time to deny, I will need you
That’s why I’ll be there to relieve your painful day

Hiding well where the pain is real
Night and day growing in you
Anger is poison in your veins
Meet me there

Can you feel me?
Deep inside

There’s no time to deny that I’ll need you
And I’ll be there to inhale your delightful day
There’s no time to deny, I will need you
That’s why I’ll be there to relieve your painful day

Deep inside

There’s no time to deny that I’ll need you
And I’ll be there to inhale your delightful day
There’s no time to deny, I will need you
That’s why I’ll be there to relieve your painful day


]]> =Nsambakalunga Devious Journal Entry http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11042536/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11042536/ Tue, 12 Dec 2006 16:52:06 PST Image Description





The Sleeper

[by Edgar Allan Poe]

At midnight, in the month of June,
I stand beneath the mystic moon.
An opiate vapor, dewy, dim,
Exhales from out her golden rim,
And, softly dripping, drop by drop,
Upon the quiet mountain top,
Steals drowsily and musically
Into the universal valley.
The rosemary nods upon the grave;
The lily lolls upon the wave;
Wrapping the fog about its breast,
The ruin molders into rest;
Looking like Lethe, see! the lake
A conscious slumber seems to take,
And would not, for the world, awake.
All Beauty sleeps!- and lo! where lies
Irene, with her Destinies!
O, lady bright! can it be right-
This window open to the night?
The wanton airs, from the tree-top,
Laughingly through the lattice drop-
The bodiless airs, a wizard rout,
Flit through thy chamber in and out,
And wave the curtain canopy
So fitfully- so fearfully-
Above the closed and fringed lid
'Neath which thy slumb'ring soul lies hid,
That, o'er the floor and down the wall,
Like ghosts the shadows rise and fall!
Oh, lady dear, hast thou no fear?
Why and what art thou dreaming here?
Sure thou art come O'er far-off seas,
A wonder to these garden trees!
Strange is thy pallor! strange thy dress,
Strange, above all, thy length of tress,
And this all solemn silentness!

The lady sleeps! Oh, may her sleep,
Which is enduring, so be deep!
Heaven have her in its sacred keep!
This chamber changed for one more holy,
This bed for one more melancholy,
I pray to God that she may lie
For ever with unopened eye,
While the pale sheeted ghosts go by!

My love, she sleeps! Oh, may her sleep
As it is lasting, so be deep!
Soft may the worms about her creep!
Far in the forest, dim and old,
For her may some tall vault unfold-
Some vault that oft has flung its black
And winged panels fluttering back,
Triumphant, o'er the crested palls,
Of her grand family funerals-
Some sepulchre, remote, alone,
Against whose portal she hath thrown,
In childhood, many an idle stone-
Some tomb from out whose sounding door
She ne'er shall force an echo more,
Thrilling to think, poor child of sin!
It was the dead who groaned within.


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=Nsambakalunga The Promise http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11014671/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/11014671/ Sun, 10 Dec 2006 08:32:17 PST Image Description



The Promise
(Within Temptation)


On behalf of her love
She no longer sleeps
Life no longer had meaning
Nothing to make her stay
She sold her soul away

I held you tight to me
But you slipped away
You promised to return to me
And I believed, I believed

After the night he died
I wept my tears until they dried
But the pain stayed the same
I didn't want him to die all in vain
I made a promise to revenge his soul in time
I'll make them bleed at my feet

Sometimes I wonder
Could I have known their true intentions?
As the pain stayed the same
I'm going to haunt them down all the way
I made a promise to revenge his soul in time
One by one they were surprised


]]> =Nsambakalunga Holliday Card Exchange http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10980350/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10980350/ Thu, 07 Dec 2006 06:14:24 PST Image Description




I wanna exchnage holliday cards, if you're interested, please, send me a note with your adress!!

:blowkiss:


]]> =Nsambakalunga 10 people... http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10970179/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10970179/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 09:24:41 PST Image Description




10 people to feature and 2 works each and then you return the favour!!!


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...have nothing to say...


]]> =Nsambakalunga Pan's Labyrinth http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10923281/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10923281/ Sat, 02 Dec 2006 09:43:21 PST Image Description



I was in the movies!!!
Yes, yesterday and I saw an amazing movie called Pan's Labyrinth.
It's a dark antasy movie, with a great history, in Spain.

""Pan's Labyrinth" is the story of a young girl that travels with her mother and adoptive father to a rural area up North in Spain, 1944. After Franco´s victory. The girl lives in an imaginary world of her own creation and faces the real world with much chagrin. Post-war Fascist repression is at its height in rural Spain and the girl must come to terms with that through a fable of her own."


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And you can see many more in the official website: [link]


]]> =Nsambakalunga Finally http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10876488/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10876488/ Tue, 28 Nov 2006 07:28:24 PST Image Description


Finally I'm entering in vacation, and I hope to do more art, if I have inspiration to do it!!
My days are better... I still sleep to much and feel tired, but some vitamins are really helping me.
Last saturday I had a great party, and though I dont remember it, 'cause was on of my spiritual guides that were there, my friends said that it was marvellous, which is an awsome thing, 'cause i worked a lot with my brothers in faith to do the decoration, and cooking and doing loads of things to everything come out perfect!
Well, and now I'm in vacation of my spiritual center too, untill January 23th.
Hope all of you are ok!!! ;)


]]> =Nsambakalunga uhmmmm http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10818658/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10818658/ Thu, 23 Nov 2006 02:54:34 PST Image Description


In general my days have been so boring...
I have a lot of things to do that I dont do the way I should...
I'm felling numb and tired, and in the present days I've been felling so asleep. No matter how much I sleep, I just wanna sleep more and more and more. And I miss some people that arent in my life as often as before, but i'm not doing a thing to see them more, 'cause I feel tiredand wanna sleep. Weird, hu?!?!
Next week is my last week of classes, and then, vacation, thank god!
Gosh, I need to find a job...

]]> =Nsambakalunga Hi there http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10769977/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10769977/ Sat, 18 Nov 2006 18:55:11 PST Image Description



Hello there my friends!
I had several reasons to change my account, and I'll tell that my older username was bringing me so much sadness, 'cause of the things of my past... I create a deviantart account when I was very ill, and now that I am better, I just wanted to send all my past to hell, and change a lot of things.
That's why I made a new account.

John, sweets, I'm so grateful to you, thank you so much for all support and everything (John is *Metatetron)

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]]> =Nsambakalunga testing http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10764037/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10764037/ Sat, 18 Nov 2006 07:56:11 PST The CSS code is right, but the journal is not appearing with the colors I choose...
Oh, dA need to fix these problems.... :(

]]> =Nsambakalunga Hello http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10756767/ http://Nsambakalunga.deviantart.com/journal/10756767/ Fri, 17 Nov 2006 14:24:17 PST I used to be =selva-amarga
Now I am =Nsambakalunga
I changed my account for several reasons, and I hope you keep watching me here, in this account.

Thanks soooo much for my beloved *Metatetron for the subscription! You're my angel.

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