http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ObsessiveKat&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ObsessiveKat en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 23 Dec 2009 03:58:14 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17424379/ http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17424379/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 10:50:59 PDT
do you get it yet
are you aware of what you do to me
can you see it now
look at me and see
see that i am fragile
see that i am frantic
when you are not near
see me as i am
hear my screams
and listen to my cries
i am me
and that is that
i can not change
for this is who i am
i’m sorry i’m not what you want me to be
this is for no one
this is for nothing
i am just a person
who needs a little love
who needs
a little understanding
who wants just a simple
a simple life
with a husband
and for me to be a wife
a mother
a sister
a daughter
someone no one worries for
someone no one doesn’t understand
i need you to love me
when i don’t deserve it
you know that’s when i need it most
when it hurts for you to love me
when i hurts for you to see me
when you hate to look into my eyes
out of fear of seeing
what you wish wasn’t there
it wont always be there
someday it will disappear
Someday
i will be what you want me to be
a whole person
with no reason to feel ashamed
and no reason to feel like hurting
it will come
just don’t give up on me

]]> ~ObsessiveKat http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17281074/ http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17281074/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 03:09:54 PDT i didn't mean to hurt you
i didn't' mean to say those things
i didn't mean that i love you
i didn't mean to take that away from you
i didn't mean for you to hate me
i didn't mean for all those years to disappear
i didn't mean to kill myself
i didn't mean to go so deep
i didn't mean wake you up
i didn't mean for you to find out
i didn't mean anything
i didn't want us to end this way
i didn't want you to forget me
i didn't want to forget you
i didn't want this to end
i didn't want any of this
i didn't mean to want those ugly things
i didn't mean it
i want to take it back
i want to mean i love you
i want you to mean you love me
but it all comes out as hate
and i'm sorry i'm so confused
i do love you
now and forever...

]]> ~ObsessiveKat http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17264831/ http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17264831/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 00:21:15 PDT
]]> ~ObsessiveKat http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17173155/ http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17173155/ Mon, 03 Mar 2008 23:04:23 PST where i have i seen you before
have you got my number
can you see it on my forehead
can you tell me
when am i going
is it going to be tomorrow
is it going to be today
maybe next week
maybe next month
can you tell me this
can you
i can't seem to find the answer
i can't seem to know the right direction
i'm so lost
where have i gone

]]> ~ObsessiveKat http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17137941/ http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17137941/ Sat, 01 Mar 2008 18:58:41 PST ooooooo
oooooooooooooo
ooooo
ooooooooooooo
oooooo
ooooooooooooooooo
oooooooo
oooooooooooppppppppppppp
pppppppppppickle.... mmm.... wow.....mmmmmmmmmmmmm
mm....wow................milk.... cheese
is the evil spawn of milk.. muhahaha...
all the socks in the land of OZ are mine... up on
the roof top click click click down through the chimney with old saint nickalodeaon... what the ffffffffffffffffffffffffuck are you talking to me... bout.... dontcha know.... umm... okay bye bye now i lub you...





END...FINN......sincerely Katt

]]> ~ObsessiveKat http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17086233/ http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17086233/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 09:19:23 PST just emotions I feel
night is the worst
I can't stand it
it's like I’m drowning
in a sea
a sea all of my own
no fish
just me
cutting is my friend
makes me feel
I’m no longer numb
I can feel the wind
like a sting of a bee
it brings me from the depths
and takes me to a world
full of pleasure
pleasure that takes my breath away
no one understands
my family hates it
I love it
the feeling I get
it's like no other
complete and utter
relaxation
calm and at peace
no storm inside
just me
no thoughts
just me
no pain
just me
nothing
nothing but me
all I hear is me
no static
no noise
nothing...

]]> ~ObsessiveKat http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17067338/ http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/17067338/ Tue, 26 Feb 2008 01:49:42 PST
Dreaming comes so easily
'cause it's all that i've known
True love is a fairy tale
I'm damaged, so how would i know
I'm scared and i'm alone
I'm ashamed
And i need for you to know
I didn't say all the things that i wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'cause i feel you, i feel you near me
I didn't say all the things that i wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
'cause i feel you, i feel you near me
Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Will anyone get close to me?
I'm damaged, as i'm sure you know
There's mending for my soul
An ending to this fear
Forgiveness for a man who was stronger
I was just a little girl, but i can't go back

Cut lyrics

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore
A fragile flame aged
Is misery
And when our hearts meet
I know you see
I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside
I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone
I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore
But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut

]]> ~ObsessiveKat http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/16974450/ http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/16974450/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 09:15:02 PST I'd like to make a pretty picture
I'd like to feel the pain
I'd like to see it bleed
I'd like to watch me suffer
I'd like to make you pay
I'd like to make him cry
I'd like to know I’m still alive
I'd like to know I can still feel
I'd like to hate you for me
I'd like to kill you for me
I'd like to cut you up like dirty pictures of us
I'd like to cry crimson tears
I'd like create some kind of emotion
I'd like to know you love me
I'd like to know you'd never leave me
I'd like to know if you'd really commit me
I'd like to know if anything is real
I'd like to know for sure what I am
I'd like to hear you say my name
I’d like you to be here with me
I’d like it if you hurt me
I’d like it if I hated you
I’d like it if I made you go
I’d like it if I was alone
I’d like it if I couldn't hurt you
I’d like it if I could just cut myself
I’d like it if I hadn't said a thing
I’d like it if this was still my secret
I'd like it if you'd all just go fuck yourselves
I’d like it if I had a razor
I’d like it if I had some courage
I’d like it, just to like it....

]]> ~ObsessiveKat http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/16899725/ http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/16899725/ Fri, 15 Feb 2008 14:03:12 PST
I'm only the one who sees nothing...

I'm only the one who's the last to know...

I'm only part of me...

I'm only hiding because i can't stand to see you hurt...

I'm only crying because i can't self inflict...

I'm only something no one can love...

I'm only the one who hates everything...

I'm only some kind of monster...

I'm only someones baby...

I'm only someones little girl...

I'm only someones baby sister...

I'm only someone who has been hurt...

I'm only someone who's been changed...

I'm only myself, but who is that...

]]> ~ObsessiveKat http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/16676678/ http://ObsessiveKat.deviantart.com/journal/16676678/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 15:18:55 PST you are...
what was that...
i didn't hear...
are you sure...
what does that mean...
I'm not sure...
where you there...
no...
yes and then i was gone...
huh?
what?
sure you are...
I'm okay...
I'm insane...
your insane...
we're insane...
ha ha...
yes we are...
i do what they tell me too...
who?
the voices...
oh yeah...
oh yeah...
are you sure...
I'm crazy...
you don't know me...
i do to...
yes i do...
no i don't..
okay...
end...
end...
true...
beginnings...

]]> ~ObsessiveKat