http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Odessae&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Odessae en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 18:06:27 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/23767749/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/23767749/ Wed, 18 Mar 2009 17:07:20 PDT
Got a pic in the works full shading graphite thats just stunning to behold, another dreamscape random thingy in current progress, that i will add to once i have some more memorable dreams... and the previous shade-fest graphite is in my mind. i want to finish it badly.

And the watercolour request piece is still being put off sadly. Sometime or another it will be finished as well.

Isolation.

Should start on a canvas. Paint should be in the blood soon. It really should.



Soooo yeah. Art is fun.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/23407265/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/23407265/ Wed, 25 Feb 2009 20:49:02 PST
Nice 5-6 hr drawing, and another one in the works that need to be scanned in. No progress on the comic, or on the digi painting. Too preoccupied with moving and dealing with the random bs that is full up over here.

Writing more often, notes and ideas. *shrug* Give it a week, things should be recovered enough for more posting. Thanks for your continued interest and support!

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/22834392/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/22834392/ Mon, 26 Jan 2009 22:06:25 PST
I is happy!

Bombing mission. I want to see Cloud smack up some shinra guy to that. or see Aerith jump infront of a bomb repeatedly.... I mean shes going to die anyways, why not let her be useful over and over again. As long as the bitch doesnt eat up my phoenix downs like theyre bonbons. CHOCO!


Work continues on PAssing of the Torch, on teh mainpage yum. I figured out how to do clouds reaaaaaly well, mostly the style of seeing wisps of darkness as falling rain comes out of large clouds, however it works well for the big fluffy clouds too... i need to smooth out some of the choppy areas i just put in, but after that, the clouds should be set for the most part. I need to figure out some badassyness to go on the mecha portion to get things looking reaaaaly badass... and finish the grounding part. YAYS and after this, what to do next i wonderish hmmmm.

nuff about the work,

things are still going the same as ever

Im still single.... ladies ^^


STill in batavia... damnit ^^

And still cant type worth a shit.

work tomorrow. its an 11 hr shift... Wish me godspeed, and cast godhaste on me.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/21854592/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/21854592/ Sat, 06 Dec 2008 20:23:50 PST
uhm yea. my drawing pad has like 4 or five current projects being worked on all at the same time, along with Lost Again in the Secundous, and some digital musings that ill most likely post later on.

The past month has been grand and fun, and thankfully my gamerism has been blanched away leaving what i hope is a creative core. mmmm orchid. love it sonny jim!


dream picture coming up. Welcome back me. I love you.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/20647815/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/20647815/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 07:36:36 PDT
]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/19466250/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/19466250/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 14:07:11 PDT
Working on a pinup digitaly. Figured out how to get hair to work very very well digitally ... After the pinup. I do believe that ill go back through and re-work, or continue working the angel plottist, 'So you think you can Bind me?' What i need to nab to work on new works is a new sketch pad and a pencil that does not break every time you tighten it ever so slightly.... im slightly livid over the loss of it. only slightly. Can one be slightly Livid? Lmao.

Nothing new social wise. Still alone. Still unable to talk to people yay me!!!!!! Milk still sucks, and coffee from mainstreet is the only type that i can metabolise with out regretting my existence a few minutes later. YAY WHO REALLY WANTED TO KNOW THAT!!?!?!?!?

So, home in a second and then play games till i pass out. Tomorrow i have got nothing. Perhaps ill read or something...


Unifyed theme to get my self interested in. Something to pour thy intent into.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/19018533/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/19018533/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 11:01:59 PDT
Summer has hit us and things keep seeming like they always have.

Life is slow... only when and where you dont want it to be.

My hand has healed from the rollerblade injury a month ago, about the same time as the raspberry slash i got from brenna's party during st pattys day. Things take forever.

No internet yet. Third month of rent soon. Wooooo!

Leaving subway soon enough. Before August. There is no doubt in my mind before August.

Yeeep. Lots to digest and consider.

Anyone else feel like some cake?

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/18301661/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/18301661/ Tue, 13 May 2008 08:12:32 PDT also means:
rollerblading into the ghetto, pinching my hand under someones wheels ouch, and sitting around a stopsign for a half hour waiting for someone to propisition us for a "good time" Either Shana or My self. ew.

Peering out the window at cute neighbor girls and their chocolate lab puppy. delishus.

Parking tickets and honking horns

Alternate energy hotties. (You could set up a geothermal powerplant on her!)

Pay the bills, society needs it more than i do.

Broken dryer, broken dreams.

Fight for my love!!!!!

Dreams are high, talent is lowish...

Renders to come, drawings too if im up to it.

Ciaoish

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/17878841/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/17878841/ Wed, 16 Apr 2008 10:57:07 PDT
Did you know...it was all going to go so wrong for you
And did you see it was all going to be so right for me
Why did we tell you then
You were always the golden boy then
And that you'd never lose that fire in your eyes

Hey you...did you ever realize what you'd become
And did you see that it wasn't only me you were running from
Did you know all the time but it never bothered you anyway
Leading the blind while I stared out the steel in your eyes

The rain fell slow, down on all the roofs of uncertainty
I thought of you and the years and all the sadness fell away from me
And did you know...
I never thought that you'd lose the fire in your eyes

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/17719330/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/17719330/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 16:50:03 PDT Blue queried about the nature of the webcomic/animatic that i was poking with, Wayfarer Complex. No progress, and very little actual oomph to do something, however, with the advent of me actually picking up my pens and inking something ( sure it did turn out good, but im so noobish to pens that i wish that i could have done better and know that i could do better next time and next time and next time and so forth...) makes me think that i want to work on something that way. However i was poking with the tablet about two weeks ago and realized that i can draw at about 80% standard on there, and need little to no extraneous art supplies. Hm. I suppose i need to dig into the artist community around here and get some goings on and the like. dA might be decentish along those lines. Must get in depth i suppose.


Ive got nothing... Plans are in the works, and other things will be happening. Perhaps ill write more on saturday morning, or the next time i get ahold of the interwebs. yeah. Til then, question those children running around.

Art wise as an additional... have 3 or four things to scan when i get the time... and the scanner hooked up again. None of it is top notch junk that is worthy of me not being on the scene for this long, but its good by my standards. Soonish perhaps.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/17349152/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/17349152/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 15:06:11 PDT

Woo. Yea Hope your all doing okay.

Moved in life and everything... meh?

Continuing onwards i suppose. Life makes me want to explode but whatever.
Sublimed into my lack of personality. Someday yo. Take care

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/17019599/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/17019599/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 03:35:19 PST
Then
Something else!

Ive been writing alot more lately than usual, however noone really gives a damn, so ive been tooling around on my friend's writers forum... that seems like fun but ive not made much of an impact there...oor anyone for that matter since its new [link] Give a look, and start writing you hopeful few!!!!!

Pish i guess people dont really consider writing when they sign up for Deviant Art...

About 60% done on that really neet work ive told you all about... whom might that be? dunno. Should be finished when its done.

Going to bed. i mean.. work.. yeah going to work.
Man do i seem like an ass now. Yahoo.
"That boy shot Santa into the cold Void of Space!!!"
"Kwissmass is wooined foevaahh!"

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/16479301/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/16479301/ Sat, 19 Jan 2008 18:29:29 PST
therefore... any attempts at being productive have gone down the tubes in the latest installment of matt doesnt give a shit. I would have spent today backing everything up and then wiping the HD for a clean slate, but the Tourney in Syracuse ran a little long, and i am forced to go to bed....

Adding to that, i lost my favorite (and only for those keeping score) hat at the tourney....


Gods is i tired.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/16228524/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/16228524/ Wed, 02 Jan 2008 17:39:03 PST
Give me a week to sort through my junk.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/16135091/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/16135091/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 08:11:12 PST Hopefully the last ditch effort will come to save me before i am forced to wipe and re-install the OS.

Someone pray to whomever's god you are that all goes smoothly.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15979825/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15979825/ Mon, 17 Dec 2007 21:31:39 PST
Strangeness.... i dont feel popular




Anyways Capricious, the lightning version of Dawn of Ice is finished... in my book.... waiting for a computer to scan it..... More than likely once this whole shit thing is resolved, i will be sitting pretty elsewhere just scanning in 30 works for you guys to get me up to 3k hits. Impressed yet? Im not. Im not being manic, no sirre!!!!


Though, what is funny is trying to have your George Bush impersonation, singing Scatman.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15912376/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15912376/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 03:31:20 PST Wait a week
Play around for 4 hours, getting in touch with the people on WoW for a little while.
Computer crashes.
Reboot
Computer crashes 1/2 way through the boot...
Reboot
Computer boots to a condescending apple smiley face flashing between that and a question mark.....
Rebootx3
Condescending Smile....

Kay. Taking the fucker into the Mac store today.

For those of you taking score...

First the phone
Powercord
Some dickhead boots my hack into the rafters showing off
Computer

I am now currently taking bets as to what part of my materialistic regalia is going to shit the bed next...

Soooo fucking numb to everything right now.... i wouldnt even notice if i blew another X dollars for a new computer.... Id be ticked to high heavens later on but still.... god damn im numb.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15836830/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15836830/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 15:57:15 PST

g'day till then.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15829614/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15829614/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 03:31:46 PST
I have actually been creative this week and im holding on to this feeling with a tenacity that is overwhelming...

Girlfriend(Random) : A poem 2-3 hours
Groundscrapers : Render 5 hours
Rohol Majoris & the Bad Cross : Digital Painting 4 hours

and more to come tomorrow...

Hurray for me!

Proi have som pictures too... I DO!!!!
a really nice ripply cloud parking lot pic... very hot.... going to work ta!

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15411814/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15411814/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 19:14:26 PST
No.

Half a sketch of a girl in this outfit i was poking at, a few rough ideas of those tricksy boots that im obsessing over. Up a level and a half in Wow, and tired tired tired.... Not to mention the bonus pay but really is it worth it in the end? PRoi not.

*shrug* Molly?



Got a hoody... its nice and warm.... best purchase ive made in quite some time...

I think i need to go and get a time away from everything... most likely when im driving down the road to see aj in december. I figure that spending a day on working out the kinks in my self will be helpful. I also figure a week focusing on Death and the absence of self that is seemingly eventual at the end of my life will possibly give some insights into the whole process, reinforce my beliefs and views, and more importantly keep me from freaking out in the shower like i did 2 weeks ago..... I hate freaking out like that. I need to keep a reign on that, as it is my biggest fear... and even talking now about it casually has gotten me in a state... ITs all a conspiracy. Its not me lacking the acceptance that everyone says is natural... I dont want to go calmly into the night. Cant you see that theyre puling the wool over our eyes!!!!!

lmao does that sound hysterical or what!?


Lol the options keep killing each other off before they even get a chance!!!!
Who knows, meby ill get the balls in the mail and ask someone out?

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15322912/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15322912/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 20:03:30 PDT
Don't expect any progress.
Don't send any aide. (lemon or otherwise)

List of things to do once i get situated in a work schedule

Plan the trip to FL to see AJ
Find cheap affordable Insurance, get the self checked out. Im not worried about stuff, but i would like medical assurance that this abdominal stuff is merely my anti-cheese glands protesting, and me eating too many dried apples.
Payments towards my share of the house. Figure out the whole routine between John myself and whomever the third party will be. Ben Green? Noble sir Fox? Hooty McBoob? Expendible ensign #15?
Move out, move in.
Find a career somewhere.
Figure out what i want to do
Determine if this separation of Ego and Body is becoming too detrimental to counterbalance the good it has done me. The Xenophobia has done wonders for my hobby of looking down at people as inferior ants just waiting for a giant magnifying glass to obliterate them War of the Worlds style.
Set a routine of meditation and dream recovery, and stick to it.
Membership at the YMCA and swim every other day.
Other weight lifting measures and weights.
Writing and/or drawing at a regular intervolt. This story wont get much further if i dont start warping my little head around it. I have to love and be a part of every fascet that i am pouring out of my creative personae.
And if ive got time, find someone to be with romantically. Yeah. Dont count that as happening soon/ever.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15242198/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15242198/ Sat, 27 Oct 2007 11:01:28 PDT

Oh yeah... Want to do a photomanipulation using like arm skin and the like to make a veil of flesh on a girl that covers her hair and kind of flows behind her... That and the conjoining and other stuff that people like to do on here.... very fun junk....

yeah,...... someone round here..... start posing...

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15077077/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15077077/ Mon, 15 Oct 2007 17:14:57 PDT
nothing up yet... perhaps later... but i dont think i want to play wow tonight.... meby i will change my mind and upload a picture of some marigolds that i took earlier.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15040518/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/15040518/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 08:15:34 PDT
Camera is... in .... batavia....... rightnow..... cant........get..............until...........................bloody...............monday!


damn you UPS!!!! i shake my fist at yooze



Plotting the demise of my self... moving out in january.... slick. I just so want to get a membership to the Y and like swim every other day

plotting my demise, as i burn corn in the coal stove...

Coloring the recent plotist angel picture... turning out really well i discovered using layers as masks... man im slow sometimes but the results are amazing


MERV!

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14991649/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14991649/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 20:32:15 PDT [link]

Its coming in the mail... I ordered her this afternoon...
*ponders* What should i name it...

Jezebelle - Laptop
Jinx - iPod
Josephene - Car
Julia - Jumpdrive

Jennifer, Jessica, Jeniveve, Joanne, Judsiea *snicker*


Expect a bunch of photos that only a person with a new camera can think are decent ^^

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14799015/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14799015/ Wed, 26 Sep 2007 11:27:56 PDT
Gotten a few pages done these past days... nothing intent.. but hey its a start.

Few drawings i havnt scanned in, mostly shit that i cant really bother my self to finish... perhaps ill compile it into one super page of shit that i havnt finished and then ill have something completed to show you... a crappily done face of a girl with demon horns in a sub-fetal position. trying to draw love, the subject being 'Love is..." with the girl blindfolded (blind) with a shattering wineglass (fragile) with a burning wing going up in soot behind her (fleeting) i hadnt gotten much further than that, besides her having a large shield in which to depict the way that people shield their hearts from the outside in order to safeguard them. Doesnt go along with the love is... topic, but it does illustrate an aspect of the human heart. If you can think of anymore analogies for love, send em this way, id appreciate the help.

waiting for 3pm to roll around so that i may drive to the flying j and meet with rich to go and eat suchi with him aj and his friend bob or tom or billy, or bill or mack or buddy i dunno what his name is... rob? ah whatever...

a little bit of what i got done today

He slipped into the Cluster dormitory, off limits to most of the workers, and waited at the Airlock. Cluster protocol or at least the eccentric ways of Darrien'Jor required the ancient underfonts to be used in addition to low font when depicting the purpose of doors. The symbol appeared almost to be a frowing face, an image that held a great affinity with tycho, if one tilted their head just right.
"If your necks bugging you, you should have one of the med-adepts take a look at it." From behind the sliding door, and the shrouding mists the short brown-haired child on the floor chirpped happily.
"Celeb. No." The glare he shot the smaller boy was enough to peel glass, yet by the shrouding of the decontamination mists or the childishness of Celeb, it was promptly ignored. Tycho slammed his fist down on the oversized button to begin the decontamination procedure.
"Say did you like the doggie I coded to chase you around?"
"I didn't see it." The length of the sigh preceding his words would have clued anyone else into his lack of interest. The Lowfont countdown on the decontamination time ticked away, each segment slower than the last.
"Why not? Should'ave transmitted to everyone. Ill try again." Celebs eyes crossed and his tongue stuck out with the strain of concentration, as only a child's face can. The left side of Tycho's face twitched violently.
"You do know that the mists interfere with the wetware, right?"
"Im not scared of that kinda stuff. Sides if something really ever happened, nice Adept Roche-Tinal will fix me right up. Shes always got a sugardrop in her pocket. All you gots to do is look real sad like you miss home a lot." Tycho hit the large button again with enough force to jitter the count screen. "Not like i really miss home too much. This place is so much more fun than the other camps I've been to!"
"This isn't a camp Celeb. This is real."
"No way, yeah! 'S why its so much more fun!" Tycho rounded on the boy.
"Fun!?" he sputtered, echoes metallic drifting through the mists, "Fun!?"
"Yeah fun! Don't you know about fun?"

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14623142/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14623142/ Thu, 13 Sep 2007 20:20:07 PDT
Gots to get around to doing something. Something i dont really know what to do. Leaving the dream-like state is not something thats easy. Ambition. Rivalry. Competition. Desire.

Desire.
Have I ever Desired?
I think that I should.
Leave the dream-state of ambiguity and reactionary acting, and actually desire and think and accomplish.

?

Who knows. I think that all involves leaving my skull for a while and the cotton what is my thought processes. Give a good nap, give a good meditation. Dream me a vibrant land, an interconnected web of locals, events, and peoples. How many masks have I put on in the dream, how many have felt foreign and uncomfortable. The one I wear whilst awake.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14567320/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14567320/ Sun, 09 Sep 2007 19:55:36 PDT
Have been given a little bit of time... Started pouring through all the Deviations that have been piling up since the last time i tried clearing them all out... lol... Sad isnt it. Ill try and be more prompt and on time. Actually read one of mmpratt99's illustrated books, which ive been meaning to do when i got some spare time lol. Riveting and the illustrations just key you in to so much more than a short story. Course no one reads this journal sept her and perhaps the mutual friends that have already been transfixed to all of her work, but hey any adverstisment is good right?!

Bleah, just finished a Psych assignment... im offto bed.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14535770/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14535770/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 19:24:59 PDT
i should be asleep right now. I open at 7 at Pembroke. Thats a nifty name Pembroke. Should be like some pimping huge hero's name... or something cool like that


Ill post what i get done tomorrow on the posters that i have to have by monday... *yawn* stupid posters... respect campaign and some antiquity theatre poster.... meh.... tired. whismy has taken a back seat to my fatigue. At least i found a place to buy that camera ive been lusting after for the past oh.... yearish... slick.
Still slowly working on that Plottist Angel. I need some bird wing photos for the wing reference... Eventually

Heres to hoping the rains will come again... Cheers.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14497957/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14497957/ Wed, 05 Sep 2007 05:55:31 PDT Finally uploaded something... One would think that after like 3 weeks of subtle inactivity i would be full to bursting with ideas and stuff to upload... MAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

no. Though to be fair, i am working on an animation for skool, i have some characters drawn, i need to get more however.... and they are pretty rough... i dont have time to be all eloquent and shit when it comes to skool assignments. Some exploding children will have to suffice. Props to ~thefiftheye for like having cool fonts and so on.

I need some ya know respite... gots me lots of work... uhmmmm yesterday to sunday is my schedule.... yeah... on to class *sigh* More when i can muster it.... This computer feels so akward and weird... ive been quite inactive...the keys feel foreign.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14392393/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14392393/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 08:30:56 PDT
drawingS? soonish. Working on alot of Background for Wayfarer Complex.
Beyond that? uhm nothing. just getting into a new routine. g'day and g'luck.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14290084/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14290084/ Wed, 22 Aug 2007 14:56:34 PDT
I have an angel drawing coming along, she is in a plottist stance, with one leg crossed over the other, her hand on her chin fingers curled up over her cheek, half shackled with the same metal rings they used to bind wyrms in FFXII I loved that little bit of flavor!!!!!! *melt* Patterned her face and hair off of this girl i saw during the Warped Tour bullshit, redhead with curly hair and freckles... woooo how unique lmao.


Yeah, this past week has simply been me waiting for college to start up again monday.
Soon!

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14104230/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14104230/ Fri, 10 Aug 2007 10:59:44 PDT

My tablet is in the mail, here on monday. YES!!!!
Gots to go shower up and get off to making those sammiches... woooo hoooo!

Finished another Witch type drawing, akin to the one i posted a bunch of months ago.. alot better, her feet arent the same size, and her face is really weird, but whatever ya know... Found a use for those amazing boots i conceptualized a while back... never posted... meep.

Alot working on the background for Wayfarers. I mean... ALOT. Should start working on the Deities and how theyre going to interact. man im so tired... fuck. yeah this journal entry was meaningless.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14055590/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/14055590/ Tue, 07 Aug 2007 07:23:25 PDT
Nothing too much happened... Got a drawing up. Finally forced my self to start drawing again. Trying to find a tablet, just going to buy one off of the interweb. Uhm. College is paid for. Need to apply for financial aid... get me some of that sweet government pie.

ITs too f'in hot to be doing anything.

I dont know. D'ya think Demons can be glorified and made to be compelling and sexy, the way Anne Rice did to vampires way back in the 80's-90's? Mmmm Demons. Ill give it a shot!

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13991556/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13991556/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 19:29:53 PDT
*releases breath held in anticipation*

IM FUCKING SICK!

Head cold. I killed off a box of kleenex brand nostril gauze, went through some cold meds that had absolutely no effect besides keeping me up for Gods know how long Tuesday night. Blah. Haven't exercised in a week, and haven't gotten anything artist done either. Today got some stuff written down, but hey its all back story and notations so what the fuck does that mean? Y'know?! anyways ill post what I've got down. This is the setting that Wayfarer Complex is going to take place in, along with a whole crap load of other tangental storys that Lucas and Seven will eventually destroy or at the very least disrupt with some sort of crazyness.

Land of Childe -- Notations

At the creation of this world, the land bulged and rippled, cells of topography and spatial law multiplying as an egg does in the womb. Nurtured by the comforting gentle womb of concept, the land grew to hold a single viable planet orbiting a single viable star. Her sisters orbiting around this same star inert and devoid of all but materials, no consciousness did they hold, merely shells of mass whose only purpose was to shield the burgeoning intelligence on the third planet, Childe, from harm. The lights in the sky are merely a shadowy recreation of the sky in the planet that Childe had decided to model it's self after. The planet's limited consciousness flickered alive after the initial construction of its form. Contemplating its solitary nature in this silent world with no others, it abandoned ideas of an initial violent nature, as other plane-souls often choose in their infancy. Creation spawned life and a quite fragile ecosystem on the plane. Understanding that this harmony was gradually going to collapse, Childe poured part of her focus into three mental forms, gifting each of these entities named Queens with a different aspect of the primeval creation that the plane possessed. The Queen of Scar encompassing life and the potential to transcend the bitter elemental harshness, The Queen of Self, encompassing the stallward force of law and universal creation, and the queen of Surge, holding fast in her bosom the sheer facets of possibility pushing back the fluid cycle of life and death. The Queens are ever warring, their possible alignments always conflicting with those they dare try to ally with. The first three Queens, also known as the Secular Combine, were the ones to delve deeply into the core of Childe during their first and only collaboration and find a large pocket of Royalty, the energy source that powers the Queens and Childe herself.

Self Transcends Surge Encompasses Scar
Scar Transcends Self Encompasses Surge
Surge Transcends Scar Encompasses Self

Upon realizing that her three creations, the fascets of her self that had been changed by the nature of the world, had begun to syphon off the very essence of her cognisense, she closed her self to her creations once and for all, and secreted her will behind a bastion of mental worth. This fabled storehouse of Royalty continues to be at the top priority of each Queen's agenda. Small pockets of Royalty remained outside the Bastion's Facade, though small enough to remain untouched by the Queen's prying eyes. Though cut off from new sources of the stuff, the Pools of Royalty contained in each Queen's Form continually regenerates as depleted.
The remainder of Child's consciousness went to the ongoing collection of materials from throughout the realm of her Mothers. Through war and destruction, and the anathema of belonging, she collects pieces of society, heros of renown, and entire land masses to better construct the Mirror of Terra she strives to be. This has been an ongoing process, Theft though high on Childe's mind has been slow to be enacted due to the reletive harshness of the Riftcolour barrier between Imari and Childe and the overwhelming energy reserves needed to maintain the Facade enough to elude the Queen's probing.

Immateria
The Blue. The Shimmery Ribbon. Arcanae Incarnate. Power. Immateria is a tangible emotion of peace against the odds, and defiant contentment derived from the planes of existence that Imari had become. When the girl feel contentment and joy despite the overwhelming opposition to those emotions waves of Immateria spread forth around the land, buffering it against the onslaught of the Riftcolour. As she becomes weary, as her joy subsides or the defiance against which that joy doth shine brightly diminishes, the Immateria also wanes. Most beings have modicum of Immateria bound to them at a cellular level, hidden in the mitochondria of fleshy beasts, small segments of this Immateria sustain and enforce the prime node of their inner core. The... ]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13908530/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13908530/ Fri, 27 Jul 2007 23:43:41 PDT
also i should fly around and kill the pope with my laser beam eyes.

and my spelling has also diminished....


yeah. Tired. Just got back from playing hack with tim for like a couple hours then watching office space. funny movie.


The new work... my new baby *cradles digital art warmly* will be up today or tomorrow, whenever i fix the few bugs in the piece. (Query the Weight of Light) Feels good to be putting out some pieces of quality. Print account here i come!!! Wheeeee!!!!!! *explodes a little*
Few renders, meby those scrub drawings if i think to scan them. Most of my self has been poured into the new cityscape.

beyond that... ive got nothing but an emotional void, and some slight spike in my creativity. Could go for some more social interaction, however i think i would botch it in some way shape or form and that would definitely not be conducive to a good healthy atmosphere of healing. Though when i am tired i get quick witted, funny and say things i had no idea i was going to say.

I need to be out before any of that happens.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13831001/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13831001/ Sun, 22 Jul 2007 08:42:59 PDT

I gots me a grad party to go to... Going to use the traditional tiny card made out of a 5$ with a even smaller 20$ inside. yeah im lazy but whocares?!!?!?!

Uhm... this past week has been blah. bored. Nothing much to be done, so im just chilling out. Got some sketches of Seven and Lucas going, did some trees up in Photoshop, figured out how to get them into Flash with only minimal tweaking... Starting to put things together in my head. Organizing the Deity structure in One God Risen, Poking a bit of a page out every day in Dae.... yea mostly literary stuff... i know... not much to be posting here since everyone here is for the deviantART and not the deviantLITERATURE Sad. Still if anyone wants to read something by all means comment me with a roll of duct tape to keep my big mouth closed... Also have a few more renders to post.

Registering for college today... uhmmm.. Yeah... the class i want is filled at the moment, i need to wait until after the 6th when they purge all those lazy whores who wont pay up out of the system and then i can register for art history... which will be a pain in the arse, but whatever....

been playing 12 sommore with the intent of getting the fucking game finished..... or at least seeing most of the nifty shit therein. okay


uhm.... catcha round...

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13734630/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13734630/ Sat, 14 Jul 2007 16:05:27 PDT
Perhaps some sort of need will come forth and gift me with some inspiration.

I think ill start writing... and continue jogging... (which is why im not feeling all that well.. .the first burn of evils lodged in my lungs and my immune system is taking a hit. I always get sick after the first day of strenous breathing type cardio exersize. Id run today but theres rain everywhere, and tomorrow ill be walking through an amusement park in OHIO)

Love you all, with out question, with out reservations, with out regards for my self.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13638052/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13638052/ Fri, 06 Jul 2007 18:43:26 PDT
Sorry i havnt been around... Just a lot of cloistering in my room and preparations being made. Im off next weekend to take Hybralisk up to see his GF in Michigan. Cool. Stuff. Dont know. Feeling kind of.... nothing really. Very neutral towards everything and that pisses me off. Yeah... or something... going back to bed.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13579058/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13579058/ Mon, 02 Jul 2007 14:01:14 PDT

Nah, nothing is coming to me artsy wise. Spent the weekend in servitude. I really kinda want to go home and just crash until tomorrow when i go out to buy stuffs for things on my day offishness. This week is going to kick plenty of arse, especially having tuesday off makes it a 3 day work week wednesday through friday when the weekend arrives. Relaxation and other assorted doom.

Posted a little render. Nothing high scale and full of life, just displaying what im poking at ever so slowly. Had a full page drawing that i decided to ink in my infinite wisdom with a .7 mm pen.... man im stupid sometimes. Killed the drawing... shouldave like scanned the pencil sketch before hand. Its just incentive to stop into Hyatts and grab some actual small tipped inking pens for this kind of work. Meby even get prices on the inner framework to stretch canvas on and whoooboy a painting would be teh shit to work on.

So dead...

Hybralisk got him self a kickarse 7.1 mp digicam for his b-day from his girlfriend... Man coming home after the dig yesterday, caught this amazing sunset, the bottoms of the clouds looking like inverted paths, dunes inverted on the sky. I am so jealous of him having a camera. *desires camera* I may be able to squeeze it into the whole financial thing this summer. Then again... With all the trips that are being planned at this point...
Michigan to drop off Hybralisk to see his Girlfriend...
Possible Road trip with the guys...
Rennisance festivle near the Hudson, with Castleman and Sara...
Visiting Aj in florida...
...that i may infact have less money than i expected... *sigh*

Up until this point, money has not dominiated my bloody life... I hate this feeling.

Gods am i any better than the rest of this Material absorbed society in the end? ]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13499913/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13499913/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 14:49:44 PDT

Yes. Infinite windyness.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13490320/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13490320/ Mon, 25 Jun 2007 20:11:59 PDT
Fpheh, im off this game for a while... i love you Cloud, but cmon dude... Stop being confused and killing Tifa....



Got a page done of notes for this story im working on with my friend AJ, All good. Interesting concept, hope that its enough to keep going with to completion.

I've half a drawing to scan, and 4 renders to upload... ones still churning away upstairs. Ill do that tomorrow. Getting tired of only seeing grayscale drawings on my recent deviations square...

Thank you all for the support given to my little friend, the fetus with a top hat. One creepy little mascot wouldnt you say? I think ill stick him in a tube of green fluid and go crazy with a painting.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13463825/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13463825/ Sat, 23 Jun 2007 19:26:35 PDT
Work.

Bleah


No word on these people pranking me. Candice thinks its an immature admirer. That kind of thinking scares me. Im already confused and paranoid, i dont need this too, it will drive me to the rooftops peering down with my russian made monocular and a rubberband gun waiting for the inevitable. (That would be a nice drawing methinks)

I want a camera. I dont think i can justify one, what with my loan and the forthcoming semester of college. Just not enough with out dipping into the Shiny New Car Fund. Wait. The Buy a Car When This One Blows Up Fund. Thats more accurate.


The summer doesnt bode well. At least i have my drawings to fall back on. Coloring the Daughter Phene drawing. Man its fucking slow. Ive not coloured something in Photoshop in faaaarr too long.


Keep it something, i guess.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13380702/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13380702/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 12:14:53 PDT
Pull in to the homestead after work on thursday, and dad is outside, he comes to my car, points to the grille, and asks; "What the hell is that?"

Look down, and someone had zip-tied a Woody (from Toy Story) pullstring plush doll, to my grille. I look at it... laugh a bit... ask my self WTF about a hundred times, and then forget about it. Friday, im out in Batavia getting my self re-registered as a student, and notice the damn thing as im heading back to the vroom-mobile. Damnit, i dont want to get nabbed by the cops asking questions.

cop--D'ya know why i pulled you over?
Me--Excessive niceness?
cop--You've got a woody on your car.
Me--Uhhhhmmmmmmm..... Thank you?

Asked Preggers, she had nothing to do with it. Im leaning towards it happening between monday and wednesday... Anyone want to confess to giving my car a woody?

(BTW: The thing that kinda makes me impressed, is that after at least a day's worth of driving around with that thing knocking against the pavement, His little rubber hat never came off!!!

(BTWx2: Uhm.."After at least a day's worth of driving around with that thing knocking against the pavement, his little rubber hat never came off..." Yeah. Sexual connotation anyone?)


Got a phone call friday too...

caller - Hello Val? (Im very confused at this point, almost no one calls me Val)
Me - Yeah hello?
caller - Where are you? Are you at home?
Me - I'm at work... Wait, who is this?
caller - *click*

hm.... oddish

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13359578/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13359578/ Fri, 15 Jun 2007 17:58:14 PDT
All them tremendous brunettes around (x a billion)

Slow down, dont fuck with my high
I want to be left alone here with my monsters and
Say, now its time to ride
To see lovely girls and to not put the moves on them

Praise now the baby genius
She skips in the shade of the lonely sour apple tree
While she snaps on her gum
Her gleaming teeth bared and the shine that she shows to me

All of your ill-gotten gains
That you have whipped up to a rich, foamy lather, girl
Nameless gnaw of my pains
Like three hundred trumpets, and just one is out of tune

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13342342/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13342342/ Thu, 14 Jun 2007 12:10:44 PDT What a bummer... Neh, the week has been depressing and down. I spent the first couple of days fumbling around for ideas concerning a drawing or two, the concept and the pose never seemed to strike in the right coordination, and with my already dour mood, it just served to further agitate me. Coffee shop didnt help all that much. I did however finally buy my own copy of FF7, which i have been playing ever since... "Acquired Orthopedic Underpants" Lmao.... i forgot the sense of humor that went into the game, and the many many different ways you can play Cloud. Im being a real jerk right now, playing him like Zidane from FF9, always flirting with the ladies... confusing the fuck out of Aerith and Tifa by flirting with each of them. ahhh....

Yeah FF7 has kept me sane the past couple of days. Though to be fair after playing it for 5 or six hours... i go upstairs and start poking with my literary work of doom, The Dae Circle. I am quite pleased with the level of background work i am putting into the characters, the dense web of connections that they are going through at the moment. sure they pick up immortality along the line (or some sortid equivilant) but its their childhoods where they get their true personalities from. Expect some drawings. I already did Therassi, need to have her covered in like tech workings, shes in this knit top, still with some electroneering tools stuck in her blouse all good.

mmm yep... exercize.... i ache....

i dunno.... gimme this weekend off to recoop the rest of the way, and ill start drawing again.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13291880/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13291880/ Sun, 10 Jun 2007 15:10:31 PDT
ew


im tired. of most everything. i should get some serious rest, seeing as how my weekends are quite a bit not restful. always something there to remind me.

Wonder what the catalyst will be to get me up and out of this funk i call a life... someone make me rejoin society... no matter how much i balk at the idea, no matter how much i start a scene in the mall food court, no matter how much it will damage me. Society. Yahoo...

Today, i drew a picture of Therassi, a young girl in my main story. Shes the smart one all techologically advanced and shit, yet she got caught did some time.. blah blah blah, her parents only abided her presence due to the sentence keeping her at home. All her folks cared about was making sure their newborn son never turned out like their fallen daughter.

Anyways, got a sketch going that i will colourize somewhere... havnt been productive at all lately.... I think that since Scott left work, and i have no reason to go to pembroke early to bs, ill just return to akron and start my chores early so i can spend time drawing at work... i always got SO FUCKING MUCH done when im creatively working on someone else's time.

My dreams are vivid, coming through, and have started to become repetitive... Something needs to be changed, the dreams are trying to tell me something...

Chapter 7 was completed a month or so ago, i never mentioned it.... come to think of it, i dont know if i uploaded them to dA or not.... perhaps was worried about some copywrite thing, trying to sell yonder work later on.... ill dig around and see.

yeah.... uhm...... hope things are going well.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13232276/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13232276/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 19:21:10 PDT
Wow. First rant ive gone off on in like YEARS! Feels good. Yeah like super spicey curry bread. Id love to try that sometime. With Crystal Pepsi yar! Somehow, drew a page of a comic im code-naming Dantet. Mix of Dante's voyage through hell accompanied by Virgil.... and Alice in Wonderland. Just random musings. Dunno what kind of symbology or .... (Okay this is fucking weird.... I mention Dante on here... and then they make a shitty analagy of photons of energy having to get out of the many layers of the sun like Dante wandering through Hell.... I kid you not!!!!!! Thats the crazy shit that they talk about in that Psychic book. Correspondence and precognition... 8.5 minutes you lazy tv program) ...social message i want to convey through the page. Dont know if i want to keep it up or not... Any input or commentary or ideas you al lmay have will be glorious. I will color it on the photoshop.

Im loating the way these programs are catering to our entertainment based market. Theyre personifying natural events as violent or evil. What happened to the lack of unbiased descriptions? What happened to informative programs, that assume that people are interested enough to have a very basic knowledge of the topic, and stop giving us the flipping run around. oh yeah i remember why things changed.... $$$$$$$$$$$$ (Bitch bitch bitch program... Venus and Mars are both in the range of having liquid water, therefore life, but had extranious circumstances happen to their atmospheres to prevent life from thriving... i hate this program!) No i dont really, this isnt as bad as many programs ive watched.

Okay no more bitching. Here's to more dreams. Luck to you all.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13215600/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13215600/ Mon, 04 Jun 2007 13:30:02 PDT

mmm going to sequester me a sammich from the land of Robbie and then go to fucking towne on photoshop. Get the mad skills back... never had oh well then ill develop them on my own. yar.

edit

THAT FUCKER IS CRUISING FOR A QUICK BURIAL.... QUIT TOYING WITH ME!
oh yeah it decides to stop working after about 10 minutes of me being happy and joyful and gloating on the journal that it all working and shit.... SMARMY BITCH, I WILL MAKE YOU WORK OR ELSE I WILL MAKE YOU NOT WORK MORE. hm.... i dont think yelling will help...

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13201220/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13201220/ Sun, 03 Jun 2007 11:02:29 PDT
Ive got a few drawings to scan in... the Head of Alice isnt being worked on as much as id like. Proi put them in there later

I know its been done before, (i dunno where. lynch me in a dark alleyway if its your idea and i forgot )but i just want to draw the whole steriotypical big breasted blonde in a sexy pose attatched to the lure thingy of a giant Angler fish. Cant get the face right.... of the blonde not the angler fish... those things, you get the face wrong if it looks cute and doesnt have needles for teeth.

mmmm yeah.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13187758/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13187758/ Sat, 02 Jun 2007 10:09:12 PDT
01) First name:
Matt

02) Your nickname in dA:
Odessae. Trying to veer from the Valerie and the Ozincov and the other popular character types i write about. Odessae is blunt, headstrong and forceful. Dunno why i leeched her name for this account, yet hey it sounded cool.

03) Birthday:
Jan, 3, 85

04) Horoscope sign:
Cappy

05) Birth town:
Batavia

06) Country:
US *cough cough* dont hate me.

07) Nationality:
US *beggers stance* pleaaasse dont hate me

08) Parents:
two in fact.

09) Do you love them:
is the pope jewish? (the jewish one is)

10) Brothers or sisters:
Niet

11) Do you like the place where you live:
This region needs central air.

12) Hair color:
Brown to copper depending on the sunlight.

13) Color of your eyes:
Everything but blue. brown to green to amber. mostly amber

14) Height:
6'1"

15) Weight:
180

16) What grade are you in:
2nd year of college if you take out all the sloth and stupid.

17) What marks do you have:
no comment

18) Do you work anywhere:
I am firmly intrenched in Jared's right breast pocket. Eat FRESH

19) What do you want to be in your life:
Useful.

20) Your life:
Not useful.

21) Personal quote:
"Never will you find a bigger source of ambiguity, OCD, crazyitude, and procrastination than in side me. Im some sort of lazy elemental."

22) Lucky number:
42

23) What are you interested in:
Breathing, thumbing my nose at God creatively, (i can create too) not being a fleshy sack for the rest of my life. Dreams. Art Writing.

24) Good side of your character:
Self sacrificing, bright, empathic creative singleminded

25) Bad side of it:
self sacrificing, requiring reaction time in important situations, socially innept, singleminded

26) Is your life happy?
Im tired.

27) Do you think that you are crazy?
Crazy is dismissive. The world needs to just sit down and think things through before doing it. The world is too reckless and almost crazy

28) What is the time?
12:44 pm

29) What is the date?
May 31

30) What's the weather like:
Hot, humid, and sunny

31) Favorite day in a week:
thursday

32) Favorite music:
ambient.

34) Band:
soul coughing underworld, bjork

35) Songs:
any.

36) Best concert you have been:
Dont like the live music part... detracts from the artist's vision of how the song is supposed to be... that and money issues, people being people.... and i dont own a lighter to do those cool awesome slow songs.

37) Actress:
Mila Jolovitch

38) Actor:
Johny Depp. Bruce Willis

39) Film:
LotR, Matrix 1, Spaceballs, Donnie darko, Fifth Element

40) TV series:
Venture Bros, Bebop, FLCL, Star treks,

41) Theatre play:
--

42) Film director:
I care about the results, not about the guy who is making them happen.

43) Do you want to be famous:
Anonimity is so in this year

44) Do you want to be an actor/actress:
and be fake and plastic? i can do the same thing with a toaster oven, thirty gloves and a series of hospital stays

45) Do you want to be a singer:
id kick ass... but no.

46) Book:
no fav, i just read when i have a reading mood.

49) Food:
The favs get shifted when i eat the good ones too much. Dill pickled beans forever though

50) Drink:
Chai Tea. Sobe Green Tea,

51) Sweet:
MUFFINS!

52) Fruit:
Mango

53) The worst food:
something rank. Tomatos, pizza with shitty sauce, any kraut....

54) The Worst drink:
.... yeah tomato juice.... or or or that like soda that tastes like ear wax (dont ask questions) that they had from another country in that coke exhibit when we went to Epcott..... eewww

55) The worst Singer:
too numerous

56) The worst Band:
too numerous

57) The worst Actor:
?

58) The worst Actress:
?

59) The worst Movie:
anything recent.... most anything recent.

60) The worst book:
the manual to my computer

61) Do you drink alcohol:
not recently

62) Do you smok... ]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13068086/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13068086/ Wed, 23 May 2007 19:35:49 PDT
On the way to the coffee shop yesterday, my playlist went on random.... actually hitting some of the high notes on some of the songs i know... Burn my voice out after Wicked Game, and The Sweetness.... but the high notes are slowly becoming mine... or my cords are slowly going to spit fire and die comfortably.

Now every gambler knows, that the secret to surviving,
is knowing what to throw away, and knowing what to keep
'Cuz every hand's winner, and every hand's a loser
and the best that you can hope for is to die in your sleep

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13025217/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/13025217/ Sun, 20 May 2007 11:57:53 PDT
Ill post that Janus Succubus pic sometime... dont expect anything new for a while, i am so not in the mood for anything.

Feel like Cloud with the black background white text stuff. Who are you...Who am i?

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12865802/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12865802/ Sun, 06 May 2007 16:26:14 PDT
editing... yet i dont know where to start. Dont know when and how to get it to where i want it.... how to get into the mind set how to get each character so ingrained into my head that i start classifyhing people i know and meet by how theyre aligned to my work.

that an dim pissed off that im drinking soda again...... stupid 4/10$ on 24 oz 6 packs... STTTTUUUPIIDDDD MARKETING PLOYS!@!!!!

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12807952/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12807952/ Tue, 01 May 2007 19:27:39 PDT

My entire life is being viewed remotely.
i can see my life passing before this mental terminal screen. Like im watching it all unfold before me. Conscious of this only from time to time, yet it happens constantly.... Detatched would be the word...

Makes me feel... very disturbed sometimes. Other times i take it as proof of those truths ive started to believe in. At least i have an idea about.


Uploaded a bunch of stuff from the past week.5 of random toiling here and there. Gimme come forthcoming feedback on Hidden Hold. ill try and get the cityscape im working on up and thrumming... after that, ive got a sidewalk city thing that ive got in mind in the same style as the city scape and City of the Eyeless.

Cloistered.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12719239/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12719239/ Tue, 24 Apr 2007 14:59:04 PDT
]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12684763/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12684763/ Sat, 21 Apr 2007 20:01:54 PDT
Depressed?
proi.

Empty. Sure.

Wonder if its the lack of the attention i was given mentally and subconsciously.... hm... Confusion...

Move on.

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12647032/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12647032/ Wed, 18 Apr 2007 19:31:53 PDT
sure it was the best solution, i still dont have to be thrilled....

Should be focusing on keeping busy and the like, but i feel sooooo damn uninspired, unmotivated... meh

im going to go waste my life away infront of a terminal. There had best be snacks... and a certain something in there

]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12634165/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12634165/ Tue, 17 Apr 2007 15:38:13 PDT
]]> ~Odessae http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12559625/ http://Odessae.deviantart.com/journal/12559625/ Wed, 11 Apr 2007 20:43:18 PDT
Gods, i am so tired. Moving my friend to his new apartment, not sleeping all that much, spending sleep time on working of that Cityscape that i havnt properly named yet because im so damn tired that id name it something lame and send it off to printland with a shite promise and a lacking of coherant thought. Going to get some water, pass out until 7am, and start the viscious cycle all over again. *sigh* it wont be done until next month i bet.

In other news, the city of dis has now put a sanction on the amount of trans fat that can be served in human flesh.

i love hell based humor, it rings so true to me.

]]> ~Odessae