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Waist Of Time...

~Organization20 — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 04:00:56 PST

Last night was the biggest waste of time and i was the biggest waist of space you'd ever seen. I felt like shit and I couldn't help anything. If I said something to you last night that was out of character (since i hardly remember anything) I give you my sincerest apologies.

This morning I waited for nonsence for about an hour... GREATEST PIECE OF NONSENCE I'VE EVER PRINTED xDDDDDD
yeah... if you're close to me... like lol talked to me last night on aim when i started getting better, you know what i'm talking about. an inside joke xDDD

HELP ME PLEASE!

~Organization20 — Sun, 13 Dec 2009 11:39:30 PST

I need some jpop/rock songs to listen to so i can draw some yaoi... IT'S AN EMERGENCY!!!

if you could, please include artist name and song name...

The meme that almost didn't happen. >.>

~Organization20 — Sat, 12 Dec 2009 12:32:13 PST

1.Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

1. Procrastinating is one of my favorite things to do.
2. I really am a loner, but people just kinda come to me... it's really weird.
3. When you start bashing G/L/T I get really pissed off and will fight you until you die.
4. I often talk to myself, reffering to my oc's like ÂJESUS JUN WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!Â Yeah...
5. I'm not a very nice person and can be quite hard to get along with, but if you warm up to the sarcasm, frequent depression, often pissiness, bitchy attitude and contrary outlook, you'll love me.
6. Something I've always wanted to do is get into a fight and beat the shit out of someone.
7. I'm probably failing ceramics in school.
8. I'll probably need a psychiatrist at some point in my short life.
9. I cry a lot and I don't know why.
10. I'm very impatient and hate to wait for a phone call if I know it's coming.

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:

10) If you want my help, don't be so fucking picky.

9) Make her cry again, I swear I'll kill you.

8) If I really wanted to use your sewing machine I would be done by now.

7) You really need to shut the fuck up and leave me alone.

6) When I look at you, I really feel like crying.

5) You wouldn't know I existed even if you tripped me would you?

4) Now that you're gone.... I feel like I have no one.... I have for six years... especially with the holiday season right here... I'll be driving soon... aren't you proud?

3) You have no idea how screwed up my mind is right now.

2) Jesus just lock me up already...

1) GIVE HER A CHANCE. STOP JUDGING PEOPLE.

EIGHT ways to win your heart:

8) Hold my hand when I cry

7) I'm broken, don't try to fix me, take me as I am.

6) Tell me I'm pretty even when I'm in sweats.

5) If I like something, don't question it, just go with it.

4) Don't reject me more than once. You don't have to worry about be wanting sex, I'm terrefied of it.

3) I'M VERY EMOTIONAL. DON'T TOY WITH ME.

2) Mess with my friends. See what happens.

1) If I say I don't care I really mean Âi care, i'm just cryingÂ

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

7) "Damn you to hell.Â

6) "You say you love me, then you ignore me.Â

5) ÂIf you're going to complain, keep it away from meÂ

4) "ummmm... there was something I wanted to....Â

3) "I've never wanted something so much that made my heart ache so badly...Â

2) ÂYeah... it definatly runs in the familyÂ

1) "I miss you too much for wordsÂ

FIVE people who mean a lot at the moment:

5) Bri

4) Mamma Duck

3) Nellie

2) Rae

1) Him.

FIVE songs that you listen to often lately:

5) SleepWalker Â Adam Lamberto

4) Bad Romance Â The Lady

3) If I Had You Â Adam Lamberto

2) Cemetery Drive Â My Chem

1) Drowning Lessons Â My Chem

I taaaggg:
~neeko-ninjan
~MusicallyObSeSsEd
~the-forgotten-one-4
~Vampire-Princess2014

If your name is Eddie...

~Organization20 — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 15:53:58 PST

I promise I'm working on getting the scanner to work, but there's only so much I can do! T.T I'M SO SORRY.

On a lighter note... it's really starting to feel like christmas... only... i don't have a living room or a christmas tree... T.T which is fail and i swear if i don't have a christmas tree for christmas i'll cry my eyes out for the rest of the year. it's depressing to not have a christmas tree. I'm depressed.

But the music is really bringing up my spirits... I really can't wait for christmas break.... there are so many things i want to do.

Ohhh a meme.

~Organization20 — Sun, 06 Dec 2009 14:22:32 PST

, I stoled it from you. xDDD

Rule #1: If you open this you take it.
Rule #2: You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks.
Rule #3: Be completely honest.

Answer: True or False
Q: Kissed someone on your friends list?
True
Q: Been arrested?
False
Q: Do you like someone?
True
Q: Held a snake?
True
Q: Been suspended from school?
False
Q: Sang karaoke?
True
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
True
Q: Laughed until you started crying?
True
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
True
Q: Kissed in the rain?
Eh Half True
Q: Sang in the shower?
Every time
Q: Sat on a roof top?
True
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Unfortunatly True
Q: Broken a bone?
False
Q: Shaved your head?
False
Q: Played a prank on someone?
True
Q: Shot a gun?
True
Q: Donated Blood?
False

Last Person:

1. You hung out with?
Rachel ( ~MusicallyObSeSsEd )
2. You texted?
Bri ( ~the-forgotten-one-4 )
3. You were in a car with?
Cayla, Aunt June (she was really drunk and she's like 92) and Grammy
4. Went to the movies with?
Dad and Nathan
5. Person you went to shop with?
Mom
6. You talked on the phone?
Rachel?
7. Made you laugh?
Colin
8. You hugged?
Cayla

Answer Truthfully
1. Sun or moon?
Moon
2. Winter or Fall?
Winter
3. Left or Right?
Right
4. Sunny or rainy?
Rainy
5. Where do you live?
The Middle Of Nowhere
6. Club or pub?
Club
7. Are there 1 or 2 people who you can always trust and rely on?
Yes
8. Do you want to get married?
Kinda
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
I don't like spaghetti
11. Are you afraid of commitment?
Yes
12. What is your greatest hope/wish?
To meet someone that truthfully loves me and will stay by me forever.
13. Do you cook?
Yes
14. Current mood?
A Little depressed.
15. Color of underwear?
Blue

In the Last 48 Hours, Have You

1. Sang?
Yep
2. Listened to music?
Yep
3. Danced Crazy?
YES
4. Cried?
yes
5. Liked someone you can't have?
YES

25 Firsts

1. Who was your first prom date?
Nobody
2. Who was your first roommate?
Nobody
3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time?
None
4. What was your first job?
None
5. What was your first car?
None yet
6. When did you go to your first funeral and viewing?
Never went
7. Who was your first grade teacher?
Can't remember...
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane?
To Iowa
10. When did you sneak out of your house for the first time?
Last year, right out my window.
11. Who was your first best friend?
Cait
12. Who was your first Best Friend in high school?
Going in: Bri, Actual First Year: None
13. Where was your first sleepover?
Propably Cait's
14. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?
Bri
15. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or groomsman?
Shelly
16.What is the first thing you did when you got up this morning?
Got on the computer and checked my phone
17. What was the first concert you went to?
Aaron Carter
18. What was the last concert you went to?
If you count Star Wars Live, but really It was the Idols
19. First tattoo or piercing?
My ears
20. First celebrity crush?
Aaron Carter
23. Current crush?
Eh a few of em
24. First time you tied your shoe laces?
When I was 6 maybe?

Seven names you go by/names given to you
1. Freshie
2. Lexi
3. Alexander xD
4. Dem Dem
5. Snoopy
6. Beanie
7. Matt

Three things you are wearing right now:
1. Emmett t-shirt
2. Socks
3. Skinnies

Three things you want very badly at the moment:
1. See New Moon
2. Not Go To Church
3. Get My PSP NAO

Three people who will probably fill this out: (Consider you people tagged <3)
1. ~the-forgotten-one-4
2. ~neeko-ninjan
3. ~T...

YOU HAVE A BEAUTIFUL BACK.

~Organization20 — Sat, 05 Dec 2009 20:45:18 PST

Rah rah ah ah roma roma maa ga ga oh la la
WANT YOUR BAD ROMANCE

Yeah...

"be a good girl and eat your candy!"

Vail is back.... >.>

~Organization20 — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 12:54:32 PST

I don't love him anymore. They changed him... like... they made him have weird noises and they put a weird background on him... his time was set in a different time zone, and it's just not him... T.T MY BABY!!!

any who... yeah... he's home... well... he's... he's... not himself but he's home.
>.>

If your name is eddie and you were promised pictures on like tuesday and didn't get them I SWEAR I TRIED AND I WILL GET THEM UP AT ANY COST.

Happy Thanksgiving + Something you haven't heard..

~Organization20 — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 17:35:25 PST

At least not in a while...

I'm singing at the computer... and being happy... because of something that happened today and possibly something that will happen on Sunday.

I did something to myself today and it was amazing.

Leaving it at that.

I might stay at Bri's house on Sunday night. I'm super excited. I'm planning some stuff but you won't see anything until I get VAIL BACK BECAUSE HE WENT TO GET FIXED BECAUSE I GOT THE BALLS TO TELL MY DAD ABOUT THE VIRUS AND HE WAS MAD BUT HE STILL LOVES MEEE!!!>w<

anywho... after it happens maybe I'll tell you.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING.

I'm thankful for:
Family
Friends
Anime
Music
but none of them more thank the LIFE I've been given to LIVE.

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST. DANCE LIKE NO ONE IS WATCHING. LIVE EVERYDAY LIKE IT'S YOUR LAST.

*MoonsongWolf

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The Death Of A Dear Friend.

~Organization20 — Sat, 21 Nov 2009 19:48:16 PST

Vail,
Although you have just one week left... you are already missed.
I promise your succsessor will not be loved as much as I loved you. When you leave me, you'll take my heart with you.
And I never even got a chance to show you college...
So many regrets.
So many things left untyped...

Not Kurt.
Not Unique.
Not Alexander.
Not Rainbow.
Yours Forever,

Alexandra Leigh Z.
(Lexi)

*MoonsongWolf

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This is what happens when Lexi is alone...

~Organization20 — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 07:23:47 PST

"Quadmidroid? OH OMNIDROID! I was like wtf is a Quadmidroid!"

lol I talk to myself... because I am unloved xDDDD

Alexander talks to me too. In my head. xDDDD I lurve my Alexander!

*MoonsongWolf

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Lappie Top Is Fricked Up Again...

~Organization20 — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 17:20:21 PST

Gallery Website My Prints My Favorites

Eh, my Vail has that Security Tool thing again, suuu I'm going to fix it late tonight when mah Mamma and brother and grammy are in bed and I can look up the antidote on the home computer again... >w> OHHOHOHO HOW TRICKY I AM!

You all must have fricked up brains to think I'm not a bitch but hey, that's okay. You can join my club. Whatevs. I was a little poed (lol POE'D) at some stuff and I've been under alot of stress to do good in school and right now, I think I'm sucking at life. NO I'M NOT SUCKING LIFE THAT'D BE WEIRD.

SUUUUU! Yeah...

I went shopping last night with one of my friends and we were at Rue and she was taking forever so I started a conversation with this guy that worked there and NOT ONLY WAS HIS NAME COLIN (yes colin with one l, I know too many...) BUT HE HAD COOL PIERCINGS, AWESOME HAIR, AND AMAZING EYES. I WANT TO DATE HIM. lol

Sooo yeah... I got in trouble and wasn't allowed on the computer for a day and then my lappie top freaked out... sooo... yeah....

I'm looking for a good oc meme to introduce afew new oc's including Allison, Torin and Vincent.... uummmm... yeah.... sooo... FIND ME ONE.

lol i accidentally typed fink instead of find the first time xDDDDD

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I swear... DOES EVERYONE JUST THINK I'M A BITCH?!

~Organization20 — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:02:14 PST

I hate love.

It fucks up your mind.

And hurts your heart.

Eddie, I'm glad you're feeling it.

Rae, I'm sorry you're feeling it.

TO EVERYONE: YES. I think I am a bitch.

I don't want it anymore.

Just leave me alone already!

Ya know?

It's just too much for a 10th grader to handle.

I DON'T WANT THE FUCKING DRAMA AND I DON'T WANT THE FUCKING LOVE.

I WANT TO PASS, GRADUATE FROM HIGHSCHOOL AND MAYBE GO TO AN ART SCHOOL.

END OF FUCKING STORY.

100 Truths

~Organization20 — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 15:49:56 PST

ALL ABOUT ME:

001. Name â Alexandra
002. Nickname(s) â Lexi, Lex, Alex *very seldom I think some of my teachers used to call me that*, Duckling, ... IDK some ppl like to call me skank and bitch xD
003. Status â Ummm? Depressed?
004. Zodiac sign â Gemini/Dog
005. Male or female â I am TOTALLY a MAN
006. Elementary â SHES
007. Middle School â c: SHMS
008. High School â SHHS + BMHS
009. Smart â Have you ever spoken with me?
010. Hair color â Brown... boring ugly brown.
011. Long or short â SHORT FO SHIZZLE
012. Loud or Quiet â Depends on my MOOD because I'm quite MOODY
013. Sweats or Jeans â I could never choose, again MOOD because I'm quite MOODY
014. Phone or Camera â how about... AN IPOD TOUCH INSTEAD >8D
015. Health freak â Nope. I'll eat what ever the hell I want.
016. Drink or Smoke? â DO I WANT TO FREAKING DIE?! NOOOO I DO NOT!
017. Do you have a crush on someone? â ...
018. Eating or Drinking â Um, both.
019. Piercings â Ears
020. Tattoos â I wish...

FIRSTS:

023. First Mate â To tell you the truth, I've never really been in a lasting relationship sooo.... yeah. When one happens, I'll let you know.
024. First best friend â Cait
025. First award â Soccer, We all got one.
026. First Crush â Dominic. We went to preschool together and I chased him around my birfday party at like... 4 years old xD
027. First pet â Sinbad... my black cat that died.
028. First big vacation â SeaWorld? o.o
030. First big birthday â Really? I don't know. My birthday parties were big untill I turned 10.

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating â Ummm.... a double chocolate muffin thing.
050. Drinking â NOTHING BUT I SHOULD BE DRINKING MILK
052. I'm about to â Eat again... xD I really want to fuck some one up right now though.... like... JESSE OR SAM. OR MAYBE MY MOTHER.
053. Listening to â "Candles" by Hey Monday, make me want to cry again.
054. Plans for today â Sit on my ass... eat... fuck some one up... sleep.

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids? â I want to adopt/foster at least 2.
059. Want to get married? â Not really planning on marrying anyone until I'm 40 and unmarried. xDD If you're reading, you know.
060. Careers â Something in props/costumes *like for broadway* or Art.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH OPPOSITE SEX?

068. Lips or eyes â Eyes, it's one of the first things I look at.
070. Shorter or taller? â That doesn't matter to me, but preferably tall.
072. Romantic or spontaneous â Spontaneously Romantic/Romanitcly Spontaneous
073. Nice stomach or nice arms â Who cares?
074. Sensitive or loud â Sesitive about the right things, and obnoxious like me!
075. Hook-up or relationship â Relationship
077. Troublemaker or hesitant â Both. But if he makes trouble for me, I'll kick his ass.

HAVE YOU EVER:

080. Lost glasses/contacts â Yep, but it didn't matter because the weren't real.
081. Ran away from home â I had everything packed
084. Broken someone's heart â have i???
85. Been arrested â My dad works at a prison. I don't want to see him any more than I have to.
087. Cried when someone died â I still do when I think about him...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself â Not really. I have low selfesteem.
090. Miracles â Sure do.
091. Love at first sight â Crossing my fingers for that day.
092. Heaven â Yes
093. Santa Claus â I believe in the spirit of christmas.
094. Sex on the first date â Hell no! Do you think I'm a whore?!
095. Kiss on the first date â Depends on who it is. Or if I'm stalking them outside their window~

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now â Absolutely
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life â Not really
099. Do you believe in God â Why yes. Yes I do.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag people? â No taggeh if you want to do it... do it.

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You may have been surprised. You would be if you understood the cryptic messages. xDDD If You get it, you should comment and re-post xDDD

*MoonsongWolf

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Easy, Breezy, Beautiful Allison.

~Organization20 — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 15:47:44 PST

xDDDD SLOGANIZERS FOR THE WIN!!! xDD

Allison is one of my oc's that you haven't met yet ^^ He's so adorable! YES THAT'S RIGHT ALLISON IS A BOY. HE LOOKS LIKE A WOMAN BUT HE IS A BOY.

I LOVE HIM. SO SHOULD YOU.
NOW FOR SOME MORE ALLISON SLOGANS:

Nothing sucks like an Allison.

The cookie that thinks it's an Allison.

Allison comes to those who wait. (for death)

I saw Allison and thought of you.

Turn loose the Allison.

Marvin the mountie always get's his Allison. (Allison: Wh-who's Marvin?! D8> )

How many licks does it take to the center of an Allison? ( xDDD )

Strong enough for a man, made for an Allison.

The best Allison a man can get.

Washing machines live longer with Allison.

Get Allison or get out.

You're in good hands with Allison.

It's how Allison is done.

If you like alot of chocolate on your Allison join our club. ( xDD )

I want my Allison.

Give that man an Allison.

LOL ISN'T IT FUNNY?!?!?

Allison: ;.; I feel weird... like... those were really weird...

LOLOLOLOLOL!!

32... errrmm... Rules To Live By When....

~Organization20 — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 16:21:23 PST

The United States turns in to Zombieland.

Rule 1: Cardio
Rule 2: Doubletap
Rule 3: Beware Of Bathrooms
Rule 4: Seatbelts
Rule 7: Travel Light
Rule 17: (Don't) Be A Hero
Rule 18: Limber Up
Rule 22: When In Doubt, Know Your Way Out
Rule 31: Check The Backseat
Rule 32: ENJOY THE SIMPLE THINGS.

Zombieland.
FUCKING HYSTERICAL.

lol I'm sitting there in between my dad and Breezy and I'm like "OHMYJESUS HE'S GANNA USE THE DOUBLETAP!!!!! >w<"

it was funny...

"I think I'm going to have to get up from this movie to puke... xDD"

"I actually hate twinkies... >w>"

Where Zexion's Lexicon Came From?

~Organization20 — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 11:00:02 PDT

So I was writing more to The Storm In Your Eyes part... what is it? 3? I can't even remember....
ANYWAY!
Not only is the dictionary on my Open Office the "standard dic" xDDDDD
But when I was adding Zexion to this... "standard dic" Lexicon was one of the suggested spellings!!!! xDDD
THAT IS WHERE ZEXION'S WEAPON CAME FROM!!!!!!!!

THE STANDARD DIC(K)

lol (k) is there for some of us who may not have gotten that one xDDDD

Soooo.... yeah....

Stayed home again... my mom is picking up my homework today so I can get it done... >.>U there's lots of it from what my teachers told meeeee..... ARGH TO YOU COLD!!!! *i yell as i cough*

I can't wait till i get in to college... *starry eyes* I want to go to an art school! Preferably some where in this state, UGH never thought I'd say that... only because it's cheaper though... >.> NO WHERE NEAR WHERE I LIVE NOW THOUGH. Maybe... Pittsburgh or Philadelphia??? Anyone out there know any art schools in PA??? lol

Back to my stuffs now...
maybe you'll get a suprise :iconi'mhighplz:

<333

Who says I can't get stoned?

~Organization20 — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 16:17:18 PDT

AHHHHHH...
Who says by John Mayer.

good song....

still sick.... MIAAAAAHHHH!!!!
my throat really hurts and my chest pains are from coughing... T.T I'm ganna have a ton of makeup work... maybe if i stay home tomorrow I'll ask if i can get my homework sent to the office or something... (can i even do that in highschool?)

I'm so boooorreeedd.... all i did today was play some Devil May Cry 4 and watch movies... I got a nice hot shower and that was amazing... but yeah...
I NEED TO FREAKIN GET BETTER AND GET ALL THE SHIT I MISSED DONE BECAUSE I NEED TO GO TO THE MOVIES ON SATURDAY WITH BRI AND ALL THIS SHIT NEEDS TO STOP!!!!!!!!!!!

T^T AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO SIIIICK... the doctor never called but my mom called him and he said it sounds like i'm getting a sinus infection and that i should keep doing what i'm doing and let it run it's course... that i should take tylenol for my chest pain and head aches and to drink lots of fluids and stuff... ya know exactly what i've been doing... and sleeping is really all i want to do...
it really sucks... i have been sick for almost three days and i've accomplished NOTHING.
bri stayed home today too... she just had cramps though...
she called me at like 2 and we talked for a few minutes but i couldn't hear her over my coughing and shit so i had to say good bye... T^T
I MISSETH MY BRI AND MAMMA DUCK AND ZEXI-KUN AND RAE-CHAN AND SAAAAMMMM!!!!!!!!
WAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!

I need hugs... T.T I'm ganna go curl up and try to get my mother to hug me...
if i don't respond to you guys it's because i fell asleep or i'm to busy doing nothing and being sick... or maybe i'm actually doing something... idk...
love you all...
T^T

<3333333

To every guy...

~Organization20 — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 07:56:41 PDT

â¥ To every guy that said, "Sex can wait"...
â¥ To every guy that said, "You're beautiful"...
â¥ To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her...
â¥ To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down...
â¥ To every guy who has given her flowers just because that's how he rolls...
â¥ To every guy that said he would die for her...
â¥ To every guy that really would...
â¥ To every guy that did what she wanted to die for...
â¥ To every guy that cried in front of her...
â¥ To every guy that she cried in front of...
â¥ To every guy that holds hands with her.
â¥ To every guy that kisses her with meaning..
â¥ To every guy that hugs her when she's sad...
â¥ To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all...
â¥ To every guy who would give their jacket up for her...
â¥ To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe...
â¥ To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes...
â¥ To every guy that would give his seat up...
â¥ To every guy that just wants to cuddle...
â¥ To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what...
â¥ To every guy who told his secrets to her...
â¥ To every guy that showed how much he cared through every word and every breath...
â¥ To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one...
â¥ To every guy that believed in her dreams...
â¥ To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them...
â¥ To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams...
â¥ To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door...
â¥ To every guy that gave his heart...
â¥ To every guy who prays that she is happy even if he's not with her...
________________________________________ _____________

Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore. And because of this, there are not many left out there. I guarantee 90% of the men on your page will not repost this because they care more about their image.

- If you are a nice guy, repost this in your journal with the title: "Nice guys STILL finish last";

- If you are a girl that thinks every guy should treat a girl this way, repost this in your journal with the title: "To Every Guy".
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I'm home sick today... i left early yesturday... i haven't eaten yet and i just woke up around 930 am... i woke up at 5 to pee though xDDD
when i got home yesturday my grandmother decided to make me go to giant with her... which turned in to the mall and giant.... I could have killed her when she took me to eat at a Chinese buffet... MY THROAT FREAKING HURTS!!!! I HAVE CHEST PAINS!!!! YES TAKE ME SOMEWHERE TO TORTURE ME!!!!!
so when i got home around 1-130 i dumped everything i'd gotten on the floor popped some pills (not really just some alkaseltzer gels) and i slept for 5 hours.

so yeah now i'm watching tv getting ready for a hot shower... relax all that stuff.
Video games and tv all day.... so yeah... ttyl guys...

MIAAAAHH!!!

~Organization20 — Sun, 25 Oct 2009 17:01:33 PDT

lol Mamma duck, you're reading this and laughing i know it...

So today at the ToB, I was just saying random shit basically and I think I went to say Nyaa and I said MIAAAHH!! Then we decided it was hybrid animal... a cross between a Cat and a Donkey... lol a ... conkey XDDDDDD

ish mah pet... She does as I saaaayyy. <3 lol she's so kawaii. XDDD

It got really cold and stuff at ToB and I got this really bad cough and my throat is raw and it hurts alot... >.> like alot alot... like i have to keep coughing but it hurts... and I have chorus two times this week... >.> ARGH!!! I have two parades, trick or treat night and Bri and I are going to see Zombieland on saturday... lol HALLOWEEN!!!

I think I'm going to just go as Misa-Misa or if I work really hard, *not happening* Matt bc I still have shiz to cut out for the vest then i have to pin it and sew it.

QUESTION ABOUT THAT
I'm debating upon sewing the fur or just using a hot glue gun. I'm think I'll end up going with the Glue gun, because, not only is it faster (thats what she said) but it's also going to give it the feel that the fur is poofier... am i right?

I went to a Misfits concert last night and it... WAS FUCKING AMAZING!!! I went to one two years ago and that one was much more crowed than last night. There was still a mosh pit which my dad and I dubbed a mosh puddle xDDD it was REALLY small. (thats also what she said) and the opening bands were like... group head banging xDDD lol and the first band sucked, only because of their lead who has a lisp when he sang/screamed. But the rest of the band was really good. The second one was awesome. The singer/screamer got up on the huge speakers like a few times during each song and stood up there for a while and the one time he did a backflip off the stage!!!! But I'm pretty sure he was drunk the whole time...

AT LEAST HIS PANTS STAYED ON GERARD!!!! XDDDD

I had to.

Lol have a good week if I don't update, it's because of the crazy week I've got ahead of me. <3 I still love you all.

IT WAS AMAZING TO SEE YOU BRI I MISSED YOU SO MUCH AND WE'RE GOING TO SEE ZOMBIELAND AND WATCHING SILENT HILL ON HALLOWEEN WHEN YOU STAY OVER!!!!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT. MY MOM SAID SHE'D BUY US TIX IF MY DAD WONT GO SO WE'LL GO NO MATTER WHAT!!!

Lol we can sit in the back ;D

YOU MUST OBEY MEEE!!!

~Organization20 — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 17:03:10 PDT

funny stuff... FUNNY STUFF...

SQUINK

~Organization20 — Mon, 19 Oct 2009 17:10:26 PDT

xDDDDDDDDD

Literally almost pissed my pants reading this eddie... thanks xD
Eddiewow, we RP for weeks... like, a lot, we have fucking novel length RP'S XD)

AHHHHHH

SQUINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S MY NEW FAVORITE WORD.

... it's a womens cut... they always fall down...

xDDDD
I'M SO FREAKIN PUMPED!!!

That's right. Slit your wrists little girls, do it

~Organization20 — Mon, 19 Oct 2009 03:48:35 PDT

Seriously... NOBODY SLIT YOUR WRISTS!!!! IT'S NOT GOOD AND STUFF!

Something to think about:

Singin songs that make you slit your wrists
It isn't that much fun
Starin down a loaded gun

A girl actually killed herself because of My Chem...

Lost your pants again?

~Organization20 — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 17:55:13 PDT

Lost your pants again?
*nods* It's a... womens cut... they always fall down...

WATCH THIS. ESPECIALLY YOU EDDIE!
[link]layList&=1DC1B082BA994D61

i nearly peed my pants.

Such a Mystery

~Organization20 — Sun, 18 Oct 2009 15:39:49 PDT

Pretty girl it's your show let it go when you're alone~

lol Party in Your Bedroom by Cash Cash

Depressing shit aside, I'm working on my matt vest!!

Where does depression hurt?

~Organization20 — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 18:04:53 PDT

Everywhere.

lol stupid comercial.

I'M SORRY FOR BEING DEPRESSED.

I'm a bit better now.. i watched Charlie Bartlett again xD

Uhhh... so yeah... i was really upset earlier and I'm sorry if I've been full of fail and ignorant or bitchy. It's contagious and my mom isn't helping that fact xD
So really the only thing keeping me sane for the past like... idk 4 hours has been charlie barlett, my class ring *which i got today!!!*, music, almost falling asleep, a "touching" "mother"-daughter moment, my bri texting me and FRANK IERO'S FACE ON MY PHONE. I seriously wanted to throw breakable shit around earlier. i really wanted to break something and it's clear to me that i may need help in the future for mental issues.
apparentally my mother had thought so for years. she told me she asked my pediatrician multiple times if he was sure i didn't have any problems. and i'm sure i have some.

another thing that's really been bothering me is my grandmother.

IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT MY PERSONAL ISSUES IN DEPTH AND MY (as some of you fuckers may call it) "PITY STORY" DON'T FUCKING READ ANY FURTHER.

She has terminal panceratic cancer and the doctors say that she doesn't have much longer to live. they aren't sure when it'll happen..... so there's no way of knowing. she may not even make it to christmas... what hurts me the most is that my grandfather's death about 5 years ago... really hurt me because it was while i was at summer camp and i was going into 5th grade... he didn't even get to see me go into middle school... or highschool... he didn't even see me turn 13. he died when i was... 10? I always blamed my self for his death, because i wasn't there. I was at camp.

my cousin and my uncle were going to suprise me by being there when i got home from camp... but i got a suprise of a different kind. as soon as i saw he wasn't there.. subconsiously i knew he was gone. He would never miss picking me up. My last physical memory of him is picking blueberries and eating them fresh off the bush before the counslers were there...

there was so much i didn't get to tell him about my time at camp that he would have loved to hear...

i had writen him a letter and i forgot to send it... i could kick my self in the ass for that... and i wanted to... i hated myself for a while.

the last letter i got from him said
grammy is fine
the cat is fine
i am fine
love you lexi looney
pop

i miss him alot and knowing that neither of my grandparent will see me graduate or get "married"

SUCK BALLS.

I'm never getting on the computer again.

~Organization20 — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 13:04:45 PDT

I hate everything right now and I know I've said it before but...
MY MOM CAN GO FUCK HERSELF TO HELL FOR ALL I CARE RIGHT NOW!!!!

aka:
MY PARENTS RUIN MY LIFE.

aka:
MY GRADES SUCK.

aka:
DON'T EXPECT ME ON.

Eddie, I'll be back...

~Organization20 — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 05:48:03 PDT

I'M GOING SHOPPING I'LL BE BACK AFTER LUNCH (AKA MY TIME) AND I DON'T THINK I'M GOING ANYWHERE AFTER THAT.

I'M LEAVING AT 9 MY TIME AND YEAH. YOU PROBABLY WON'T BE UP, BUT JUST IN CASE YOU READ THIS...

I'M SORRY.

LAWLS FOR JOOO

~Organization20 — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 16:28:15 PDT

"Hey I found her arm!! But she's missing a head!"

\"TOOOOOOOOGGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!\"

"You can't be a streaker!"

LAWLS

SAKUJO!!!!

~Organization20 — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 17:11:09 PDT

I looked like miki today when i got home from school!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

I'm... afraid....

~Organization20 — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 14:04:46 PDT

x = Somewhat
xx = Greater
xxx = huge enormous crippling omg fear

A
[] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
[x] Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[x] Agliophobia - Fear of pain.
[] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds.
[x] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
[] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
[x] Androphobia - Fear of men.
[] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking.
[] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers.
[] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society.
[xx] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched.
[x] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders.
[] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers.
[>] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightning.
[] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness.
[] Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection.
[xx] Atychiphobia - Fear of failure.
[] Autophobia - Fear of being alone.

B
[] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria.
[] Barophobia - Fear of gravity.
[] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep slopes.
[] Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians.
[] Bibliophobia - Fear of books.
[] Botanophobia - Fear of plants.

C
[] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness.
[x] Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed publicly.
[x] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors.
[ ] Chionophobia - Fear of snow.
[ ] Chromophobia - Fear of colors.
[ ] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks.
[x] Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces.
[xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx] Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns.
[ ] Cyberphobia - Fear of computers.
[ ] Cynophobia - Fear of dogs.

D
[] Dendrophobia - Fear of trees.
[] Dentophobia - Fear of dentists.
] Domatophobia - Fear of houses.
[x] Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents.

E
[] Ecophobia - Fear of the home.
[] Elurophobia - Fear of cats.
[] Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers.
[] Equinophobia - Fear of horses.

G
[x] Gamophobia - Fear of marriage.
[] Genuphobia - Fear of knees.
[] Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public.
[] Gynophobia - Fear of women.

H
[] Heliophobia - Fear of the sun.
[] Hemophobia - Fear of blood.
[] Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles.
[] Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia - Fear of long words.
[] Hydrophobia - Fear of water.

I
[x] Iatrophobia - Fear of doctors.
[] Insectophobia - Fear of insects.

K
[] Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms.

L
[] Leukophobia - Fear of the color white.
[xx] Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes.
[xxx] Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth.

M
[] Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking.
[] Melanophobia - Fear of the color black.
[] Microphobia - Fear of small things.
[] Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and germs.

N
[] Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things.
[] Noctiphobia - Fear of the night.
[xx] Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals.

O
[x] Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight.
[] Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8.
[] Ombrophobia - Fear of rain.
[] Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes.
[] Ornithophobia - Fear of birds.

P
[] Papyrophobia - Fear of paper.
[] Pathophobia - Fear of disease.
[] Pedophobia - Fear of children.
[] Philophobia - Fear of love.
[xxx] Phobophobia - Fear of being afraid.
[xxx] Podophobia - Fear of feet.
[] Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color purple.
[] Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns.
[] Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying.
[>] Pyrophobia - Fear of fire.

S
[xxxxxxxxxxx] Scolionophobia - Fear of school.
[] Selenophobia - Fear of the moon.
[xx] Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation.
[xxx] Somniphobia - Fear of sleep.

T
[] Tachophobia - Fear of speed.
[] Technophobia - Fear of technology.
[] Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder.
[xx] Trypanophobia - Fear of injections.

V-Z
[xxx] Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful women.
[] Verminophobia - Fear of germs.
[] Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft.
[] Xenophobia - Fear of strangers
[] Zoophobia - Fear of animals

I'm afraid of being touched, which is why I hate doctors. I'm deathly afraid of clowns. I hate school. I'm afraid of child birth hence, i'll never have children. I'm afraind of beautiful women because... I mean look at them! They're so pretty and I don't really like being jealous, it makes me feel kinda dirty...

If you have any questions on why or why I'm not afraid of something, feel free to ask! ^^
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Yeah so.. i'm in my room away from all the people here for my brother's birthday party. I hate little kids xD But they sure as hell love me.

Uuuuhhh... yeah... haveing fun... I'm Demyx right now!!!...

GO ME IT'S NOT MAH BIRTHDAY!!!

~Organization20 — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 09:38:11 PDT

it's my brother's, but not mine xD

anyway...

I GOT IT!!! I GOT THE NEW KH GAME!!! THANK YOU SO FUCKING MUCH GRAMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I lurve it.

Mom, why is the toaster always unplugged?

~Organization20 — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 17:59:31 PDT

Me: Don't you love my facebook picture?
Mom: Oh yes, lovely.
Me: TARA LIKES IT!
Mom: Tara's a lesbian.
Me: Yeah, because I have hot lesbian picz.
Mom: *hits my stomach* Yeah that's just what I need.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Me: Mom, why is the toaster always unplugged?
Mom: Because even if you aren't using something it still uses a little bit of electricity. We don't need any more bills.
Me: Oh, 'cause it always confuses me and I'm like "why the heck isn't this stupid thing working"
Mom: Oh well.
Me: *totally forgets to unplug and just takes pop tarts and is talking to them* I love my pop tarts... I love youu.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Mom: Lex can you move those sodas?
Me: Sure.
Mom: I don't want little kids tripping on them tomorrow.
Me: I think they're more in the way there mom...
Mom: Well if it isn't raining tomorrow we'll have the table inside so they'll be under there.
Me: *thinking: If it ISN'T raining shouldn't it be OUTSIDE* Uhh.. yeah.. okay.. *just does what she says*
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Sam: BECAUSE A GUY CAN ONLY TAKE SO MUCH CLAY!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
One of my reletives: Why do you have a blond wig hanging on you're mirror?
Me: Oh! That's my wig! I have a red one too! *shows*
OoMR: Oh do you just randomly wear them around?
Me: Yeah!
My grandma: Yes, she does wear them randomly!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
lol why you may ask? bc my family is straight. xD that's why.

Random Rant I just pulled out my ass.

~Organization20 — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 04:02:45 PDT

if you are EMO you are EMOtional. okay? THANK YOU

I was looking at my clothes and decided that I was punk.
You were looking at my face and decided that I was goth.
I was looking at my life and decided I was emo.
You were looking at my wrists and decided I was not.
You laughed and said "What a poser"
But one day when we came face to face, you looked in to my eyes.
And you decided I was HUMAN

So yeah, I'm trying to write a story based on that poem i wrote... idk , tell me if it's good. I might write a few different versions.

ALL THIS STUFF ABOUT CUTTING IS BULL SHIT.

HELLO THERE!!!

~Organization20 — Wed, 07 Oct 2009 13:47:20 PDT

GORGEOUS!!

lol srry, had to.

So yeah, Jun... has a few things he'd like to say....

-----------------------------------------------------

Jun: Kristie-sama, I just wanted to let you know, I bugged her about it for a few days and she's finally done with my sketch... only... she went a little over board and is now coloring it... so... it might be up tonight, or tomorrow. Ummm... oh yeah, she worked very hard on it and she even inked it for you!!! And like I said she's coloring it now... *bows* Thank you very much for accepting me! >.> Okay can I be done now? Because seriously, this being nice thing, it's killing my non-existent soul... WHAT?! WHAT DO YOU MEAN I HAVE TO SAY MORE THAN THAT?!?!!? *sighs* I... ummm..... stay in school... *rolls eyes* Eat your vegetables... other wise you'll go to-

-----------------------------------------------------

OOOOKAAAAAYYYYY!!!!!!!!! That's enough from him... >.>; right so yeah, it'll be done soon! ^^

Just a few things...

~Organization20 — Mon, 05 Oct 2009 18:30:22 PDT

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MY FAMILY!!!!!!!!
Parents- 18 years of marriage
Me- 15 years ago, my parents found out i was going to be borned
My devil- I mean brother- 7 years ago was his due date but he was 5 days late

HOT LESBIAN ZEBRA SEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh yeah... and just to add you in here 'Sora'

"Smells like Christmas!" lol <3 you bri when you get on and see this you'll kill meeee!~ btw she said that in the beginning of june xD

had a nice day.... actually ^^

OMJ i have my ims sent to my phone and my cousin ashley keeps sending me shit and i'm supposed to be in bed!!!!!!! she was like "lol you're ganna wake up with a thousand texts!" I HAVE LIKE 20 OF THEM!!!!!!

So I Died, And Now You Love Me

~Organization20 — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 13:38:15 PDT

Missing- Evanescence.

lol I FEEL SO NAKED WITH OUT MY SOCKS!!!!!!!! T.T I'm going to work some more on my MelloxMatt which I've conveniently decided was going to be an ff only.... soooo, the link :

[link]

READ IT
LOVE IT
TELL ME HOW IT WAS!

do it... DOOOO EEEETTTT!

lol i'm a little hyper... xD did some fun stuff today... xD like wearing a face mask so i didn't breath recycled paper insulation any more than i already had. fun shit... FFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNN SHIT!
lol niiiice lex, niiiiiice....

HOT LESBIAN ZEBRA SEX!!! xD ftw

... like I said before... I can never be happy.

~Organization20 — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 17:48:16 PDT

Just found out Bri is grounded.... she's not allowed to call... or anything. I won't be seeing her this weekend probably at all... so... I guess you could say... she's on a temporary hiatus... it depresses me because... it just does.

WHY THE FUCK NOW?!!?! WHEN I NEED YOU THE MOST?!?!!?

:sigh: No use in speaking to def ears, so I guess my mom and dad won't be hearing that.

I miss her already..

HOLY JIZZLETTES!!!

~Organization20 — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 17:30:59 PDT

I JUST CAME FACE TO FACE WITH A SPIDER!!!!!!!!! I TURNED AROUND AND IT WAS LITERALLY DANGLING 3 INCHES IN FRONT OF MY FUCKING FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So yeah I'm sitting here writing my MELLOxMATT (not a mattxmello) and Halle is in it and I was like "he looked in to her.... her blue eyes? Noooo... green? noooo... WTF COLOR ARE HER EYES?!?!" so I'm looking and looking and I can't find anything... so I had to watch the whole section in episode... 32? Where Matt and Mello die... just... to find... her eye color... IF ANYONE SAYS IT'S NOT LIGHT BROWN I WILL FREAKIN KILL YOU!

Because it is.................................

OTHER WISE I'LL CRY AGAIN BECAUSE I JUST WATCHED MATT AND MELLO DIE... AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T.T

Such a sad sad song...

It makes you think... "When I'm not around... who misses me?"

I'll give you a list of people I know for sure and if you should be on that list, let me the fuck know cause apparentally it's news to me. And if you're on there and shouldn't be, let me know, I don't want to assume ppl care about me if they don't....

Bri
Nii-kun
Rae
Kristie
Kels

I'M SORRY.

Devious Journal Entry

~Organization20 — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 15:10:36 PDT

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your profile):
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflÃ©
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship

Team... Angel?

~Organization20 — Wed, 30 Sep 2009 15:13:08 PDT

Ohkay, since everyone else seems to be doing this, I will too! ^^ LE GASP! I'm such a poser D; Oh noes!

ON WITH THE INTERVIEWING!

I chose two of my older Oc's that I've never really talked about with my people on DA... They're really amazing and actually, partial credit goes to ~the-forgotten-one-4 Of course xD Gregory and Gummie! Say hi to the pretty people guys!

Gummie: ^^ Hiiiii pretty people!
Greg: *clears throat*
Oh... sorry...
GREGORY: 'Sup.

*sighs* >.>; (What have I gotten myself into???) First~ Tell us about yourselves!

Gummie: Me firrrsttt! ^^ Gummie is just my nickname because I LOVE my sweets! Gummy bears are my favoite! *giggles* I'm an elemental angel, people say I'm childish, but I can be serious sometimes too! I'm really short and I hate it when my friends fight, but that tends to happen alot, so sometimes I get mad at them, but I don't like to be mad at them!

GREGORY: Umm... I'm kinda angsty... I'm also an elemental angel... My body is half metal... I can't jump in puddles or anything... If I get the faq, I'll have to kill someone... >.>

Wow... <.< really informative Gregor...

NEXT~ What are your hobbies?

Gummie: I like to eat candy!

Gregory: I like to read and listen to music.

'Kay... Any crushes or anything?

Gummie: *blushes* N-nope!

Gregory: No.

Because you think you're too good for love. >.>

Gregory: Criticize some one else.

If you could redo one moment in your life, what would it be and why?

Gummie: ... I... Nothing.

Gregory: Ever caring for anyone. You only hurt your self.

QUICK BEHIND YOU!!!

Gummie: MEEP! *hides behind Gregory*

Gregory: >.> WTF? Leave me alone.

FINE DON'T BE FUN... say good bye nao.

Gummie: *glomps you all* T.T NUUUUUUU!! DUN MAKE MEH GOOOO!!!

Gregory: Bye. *leaves

But every one was doing it... xD

But I dun wanna puke up rainbows! D:

~Organization20 — Tue, 29 Sep 2009 03:53:32 PDT

Just came to my head as I finished my lucky charms... xD

Ren: If you eat those too fast, you'll puke up rainbows ya know.
Darcie: B-but... I dun wanna puke up rainbows! D:
Leasha: *looks at bowl and eats faster* I DOOOO!!

XD perhaps I should get back to writing...

Breaking The Habit

~Organization20 — Sun, 27 Sep 2009 17:24:25 PDT

Listening to this song makes me want to rock out xD
lol
Nii-kun, I bet you thought it was going to be depressing didn't you? WELL HAH! I'm not getting grounded for another week! xD

I love Linkin Park xD
Headstrong, Numb, In The End, Given Up, Breaking The Habit... AAAH.. good stuff right thurr.

OH WHILE I'M TALKING ABOUT MUSIC!

Hetalia is the best anime I've ever watched with subtitles... wait... IT'S THE ONLY ONE I LIKED ENOUGH TO DEAL WITH SUBTITLES!!!!!

yeah... you should all love it.

I LOVE YOU KRISTIE!!! YOU ARE MAKING ME HAPPY!! XD lol i lurve you mamma duck.

I love you too Breezy.

Yaoi?

~Organization20 — Sat, 26 Sep 2009 16:15:14 PDT

I need insparational songs for writing yaoi. So... GIVE ME SENTIMENTAL SONGS!!!!

Contributions:

~TheCrowOfFortune

Break - three days grace
Silver and Cold - AFI
Let me be myself - 3 doors down
Without you - Three Days Grace

I cried too...

~Organization20 — Sat, 26 Sep 2009 10:31:33 PDT

Everything started as a joke. Our lives, our days, even our friendships... our relationship... But none of that matters anymore because now, it's serious and I never want to leave you. Even if it kills me to walk away from the people I've met that mean so much to me, my family, it doesn't matter, I'd do it for you.

I never really wanted to move. I knew it'd hurt, but I thought for the wrong reasons. All my friends would be gone and I'd start new. But none of them really mattered. I could live my life without them... but it got to the point where I'd be constantly talking about things we did together that we had fun doing... and it hurt to not laugh with you about them... even now.

Neither was I, I think I questioned my sexuality because I wasn't really interested in boys either. But... everytime I saw you, I felt right. I never thought we'd be here, but I'm glad we are. I read it and I cried from the first word. I knew that I would.

I was really worried about you... and yet... I felt like I was reading my own words. I cried all the time before, knowing I was going to wake up and go to school and see someone else sitting next to me at lunch... There are points in my life when I'm constantly depressed, but I hear your voice or see you... and I just want to smile. No matter how suckish things are at home or school.

Every single thing I said to you... it's all true. I regret saying that I don't think either of us will ever really FOR SURE remember the TRUE date of our anniversary. xD Maybe we'lll tell them some day. Maybe they'll understand. Maybe they'll laugh. But I really couldn't care less about that. I'll have you.

It doesn't matter if you neglect to say it. Because I'll say it enough for both of us. I love you.

LIFE SUCKS... no matter how good it is.

~Organization20 — Thu, 24 Sep 2009 17:38:07 PDT

So yeah... my dad yelled at me today... again, for nothing.
I thought for everyday this week so far that it was the best day, then some bull shit happened and, well there goes the day
WHAT'S THIS?!?! TOMORROW'S FRIDAY?! LEXI'S FAVORITE DAY?! LET'S FECKING RUIN IT!!!
that's what the gods are saying right now.
they hate me.
i swear.

I'm going to quote Kate...
"FUCK! It sucks to be me!"

I need to get away from here... and just... get out of here. that's it... i hate it here... i... i just want out.

My conclusion...?
No matter how good life seems... IT SUCKS.

so yeah...

.:EDIT:.

Where did you go Eddie?! You were here then BAM! You were gone for hours... T.T

iPod stuff.

~Organization20 — Thu, 24 Sep 2009 16:04:17 PDT

Trying to get somethings on my iPod... including the follow....

I'm Yours
There's a Fine Fine Line
Smile Like You Mean It
My Immortal
Zero Gravity
Love Drunk
Only Hope (Switchfoot version)
Everyone's a little bit racist
A Little Too Not Over You
Cartoon Heros
If You Were Gay
It Sucks To Be Me
Ordinary Day
Fall For You
We Belong To The Sea
Be Good To Me
Chasing PAVEMENT (haha on you Breezy!)
STARSTRUKK
Single Ladies (Put a Ring on it)
I Kissed a Boy
Pete Wentz is the only reason we're famous
Hollaback Boy
LOTTSSS OF OTHER STUFF... too much to mentions...
But my mulan songs are going on too xD

FUCK YEAH BITCHES!!!!! TO HELL WITH SCHOOL!!!!!

~Organization20 — Tue, 22 Sep 2009 03:46:27 PDT

<3 Haiiii!
So last night... I cut out the pattern for the vest thingy for Sebby-chan... I DID NOT sew anything... but i have BOTH my Matt vest AND my Sebastian thingy patterns cut out. I think tonight after I'm done with my homework, I'm going to actually cut the fabric atlease.

My excuse for last night you may ask?

I did something else... but no one can know bc I JUST KNOW someone will tell ~the-forgotten-one-4 and SHE CAN NOT MAY NOT and WILL NOT KNOW! Until I get the pictures... so hellz yeah, if you know don't tell her.... PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't tell her...

school sucks... i have to go today.... >.>

ps: I LURVE MAH DADDY!!

I did something today...

~Organization20 — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 13:38:17 PDT

I

went to a pretzel factory and a chocolate factory and a family restarunt and a fabric store.

It was pretty gay... but I liked spending time with my Uncle John and Aunt Sharron. They live in Washington state so I don't see them a lot.

On the way home, Kana was still in school so, we were texting and THIS happened...

Kana: haha well i'm ganna try
Me: You'll phone in the verdict, right?

ADVENT CHILDREN MOMENT!!! ahaha after that i proceded to tell her i'd put it in my straight ass journal. xD

So yeah... i got fabric and right now i'm cutting out my vest for SEBASTIAN!!! from Kuroshitsuji (did i spell that right?) aka Black Butler.... so yeah... love me... i might actually sew today.

Check soon!

~Organization20 — Sun, 20 Sep 2009 12:51:15 PDT

I'll be putting up quite afew videos today on the instant insanity account. I think i'm going to write more of the Zemyx which i've neglected...

yeah that's it. what evs.

I DON'T CARE IF YOU HATE HOMOSEXTUALS!!!!!

~Organization20 — Sat, 19 Sep 2009 06:41:44 PDT

I'M FUCKING SICK OF PEOPLE!!! SERIOUSLY?!?! CAN YOU REALLY BE SERIOUS?!?! IT'S NO DIFFERENT FROM TWO STRAIGHT PEOPLE!!! AND YOU CAN'T GET PREGNANT!! I'M FUCKING SICK OF PEOPLE IGNORING THEM OR DECIDEING "Oh I don't like you because you're not straight, I said I was you're friend, but I lied, now that you're gay, I hate you" IT'S FUCKING WRONG!!!! And I pity any one who can't see that.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE I'M SICK OF?!!? MY FUCKING FAMILY! I HATE THEM WITH A PASSION!! AND EVEN THROUGH ALL THE BAD THINGS I'VE SAID ABOUT HER, MY GRANDMOTHER IS THE ONLY NICE ONE ANY MORE! I FUCKING HATE IT HERE!!

I really just hate people in general right now. If you don't like it, I don't care it isn't your fucking life. So go get your own and fuck out of mine. >.>

This wasn't meant to hurt any of my true friends, you know who you are and you probably know why this is up, if you don't, that's okay, I just really need to vent.

And just so you all know, no matter how much my parents like to push him off on me, my brother, Nathan, isn't my son.

"I wished for you too"

~Organization20 — Thu, 17 Sep 2009 17:46:40 PDT

Quote from a movie I just watched called Practical Magic. It was really good.

so anyway...

Writing some stuff... haven't put my matt vest together yet... need to get shit done... isn't happening...

the other day my mom basically called me a thief and decided I was stealing my lunch money instead of not putting it in the account... I think I'm failing Biology and I know I'm failing ceramics and Health.... Which is bullshit.

I'm not sure why, but I'm pretty depressed right now...

Nii-kun got grounded for some godforsaken reason... I got a new typing program on my computer.. it's really cool.

ummm...

yeah today pretty much sucked ass basically... the only good part was it rained. I love the rain.

nothing fancy in this journal.. just a bit of depression. I've missed a few days... but I don't really care... my head's just not here right now...

I cried alot today... I think I might go to bed early... no one to rp with now that eddie's grounded... >.> emo cornerin it.

It makes you stop and think...

~Organization20 — Thu, 17 Sep 2009 04:02:32 PDT

I read something this morning and it really made me stop and think... i cried alittle but i thought alot...

To all my friends, fighting a war between families, pushing your way through drama, or suffering a hole in your heart, I have one thing to say to you:

You're my love and my best friend. And every day that goes by, it seems like I discover something new about you to love. It's incredible to me how one person can make such a big difference in my life. You touch my heart in a way I never knew before. I discover something new about you to love. It's incredible to me how one person can make such a big difference in my life.

The words "I love you" really can change someones life. It may not seem like much, but... it really is. Never take those three words for granted because you truly never do know what you've got until it's gone.

I'm crying as I'm writing this, and it's okay to cry. It's okay to be angry. It's okay to be childish.

My weakness is my feelings. I'm way too emotional and really, I don't know why. No one in my family does. But all my true friends can handle that. They may not understand why I'm upset, but they comfort me none the less.

So if you're one of them, one of my TRUE friends, whether I know you in real life or not....

I FREAKING LOVE YOU.

It really makes you stop and think...

ATTENTION TO EVERYONE!!!!!!!

~Organization20 — Wed, 16 Sep 2009 13:01:20 PDT

please, if we are currently rping on this account DO NOT send it back until further notice. I had a really shitty day and i'm not even sure that i'll be doing any rping for the rest of the week. i'm sorry for the 'inconvenience', which i'm really not, but it's family shit again and i really don't want that affecting my rp and making me any more ooc than usual. i lovce you all, but not right now plz

BE WARNED IF I GET IT I WILL NOT SEND IT BACK. I WILL DELETE IT.

SUPER FAIL, with a side of strawberries.

~Organization20 — Wed, 16 Sep 2009 04:08:08 PDT

Timing

When someone says to you "hey dad, can you get me up at 530 so i can get my shower?" Do you:
a) wake them up at 530
b) wake them up at 530
or
c) other

If you answered c, you're my dad! WHO FREAKIN DECIDED TO WAKE ME UP AT 630 AND MAKE ME FUCKING LATE!!! WHORE!!!!

The side of strawberries

I got mah magazine!!! ^^ and I got tons of new notebook and, the best part, I got my home work done before 11!!

No time for my rainbow today, i'm late!
<3 Unique

SUPER FAIL

~Organization20 — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 12:51:07 PDT

Today

Today was super fail on my behalf. So last night, I didn't really feel well, so i went to bed early. Then this morning, I felt a little better, so i treated myself to waffles for breakfast *which i almost never eat breakfast so it really was a treat* ALL FREAKIN DAY I WAS SICK TO MY STOMACH. Reminder to self NO FREAKIN WAFFLES FOR YOU!

School

I came home early today, but as far as i can tell... I have an A in geomehtry and english... I kinda feel like a nerd... >///> I got a hundred on almost everything in geomehtry... and I got a hundred on a vocab test... A FREAKIN HUNDRED IN ENGLISH!!! Idk if it was luck or what, but I'm so proud of myself! So now I just need to get the Bio grade up... and keep them all good!

French?

I'm going to be putting something up on here in COMPLETE french that you will have to see xD I'll translate it once you all try to guess what it says... it's a contest and who ever gets closest gets something of their choice! ^^ cause i'm bored!

My Happiness

Going out to eat (i probably won't get alot bc of my stomach) and then... BOOKSTORE AND HALLOWEEN STORE. Well party outlet... I'm looking for some wigs... if I find some nicely priced ones that we can use, i'll get as many as I can. This will make my Winter Rose happy right? ;D If you're happy, I'll most likley be happy too! ^^ Love you! <3

Unique <3

I was being totally serious when I said iloveyou&l

~Organization20 — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 14:37:47 PDT

Just wanted to drop a note...

Updated Cosplay List

This will be up on ~Instant-KK-Insanity Check the journal there soon and you will have the update. Updating this for my own use as well. I will put the progress of them up there frequently from now on. I know we've been neglecting you for sometime now, but it's a little difficult with the way things have been recently. Alot of stuff is happening in our personal life, and less in general, mine. I may or may not go in to more detail in the latter part of this journal.

Updated RolePlay List

This will be up on ~Unique-Terror Check the journal there soon and you will have the update. The reason I'm updating this is because I have expanded the series list and I believe that you guys really want to know what I'd enjoy to RP... even though you don't xD

Personal Status On DeviantArt

My status on here will be online just about everyday because I don't sign off... EVER. (more or less) I may or may not put deviations up during the week, as, yes, I am NOT supposed to be on. Sooo, yeah, if we're in the middle of a conversation and I disappear for a while, it's because someone walked in, or I went somewhere and I had no way for letting you know. I will try not to as much as possible, but if the situation arises that I get tired and fall asleep on you, I apologize in advance.

Personal Status At Home/ In Real Life

I'm not so sure you guys want to hear this rant, so I'm not going to tell you .... not yet at least.

Kana
To the one who's kept me alive for the past 5 (almost 6) years.
If the rest of the world turned their backs on me, as long as you're there, I'll be fine.

"My Winter Rose"
With your heart, as cold as ice ^.~
"My Source of Happiness"
To the times we've had and to the times that have yet to come... and to now.
"My Favorite Retard"
For all those you had to be like us to get it times 'That doesn't say like... o.o'

Love you

<3 Kurt (Unique or Lexi)

I dont' want to talk to you any more...

~Organization20 — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 16:12:07 PDT

Put the president on.

Don't you love how Cloud doesn't flinch when Yazoo shoots in the face and he's just thrown back a bit? I love that. Do you love that?

Yes, AC is on now... I luuuuurrrvveee my AC.

Reno gets stuck out side.... i lurve him... T^T MY RENO-KIIINNNNSSS!!!

"Yeah Rude! Lookin sharp!"

*sigh* I'm such a nard...

"Not interested."

I can't help feeling like Reno told Cloud on purpose... maybe it's just me... buuuut, seriously? He's a joker, but he's not a joke. And he's not stupid.

Kadaj, Yazoo and Loz....
They're amazing, but they need a new rep... i'll have to write about that...

Tifa.
Kinda pisses me off.

Aerith...
Tifa's in her church and it pisses me off... bc anything having to do with her makes me cry... like right now.

Vincent.
OMFJ

Yuffie.
I'd love to be her! I'd really love to write a Yuffentine, but... idk. Kana might disagree... atleast, her Vincent might... no?

The rest of the Turks...
I ADORE TSENGXELENA!! Rude, is cool too.

I'll update later too probably...

You gave me loaded dice?!

~Organization20 — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 14:36:01 PDT

I had a dream that luxord said that xD so now, i'm watching one of my all time favorite movies...

THE ROAD TO ELDORADO!

"hey isn't that my favorite movies to watch with you?"

"no now get out"

"oh i like that one, they jump in the barrels! *runs out*"

">.>"

me and my brother about 7 minutes ago. xD

adam was amazing, we'll to a vlog maybe some time...

"It will be loquacious to a fault!"

"We're both in barrels that is the extent of my knowledge"

Home now..

~Organization20 — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 21:35:42 PDT

Just got home... will update later... still have scholl tomorrow... can barelyu sit up to typ this... sleeping wit adam tonight... so's kana...s e's excieted... later... night... mornig? eh what eger... i'll updsayt later...