http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Paige-the-outcast&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Paige-the-outcast en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 16 Dec 2009 05:00:27 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/26357936/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/26357936/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 11:50:02 PDT it's mostly drama but if you really wanna know you can check out my blogs on myspace.
But here's the deal, my friend (and model) has posted some pictures I've taken of/with her and has prints up for sale.

Take a look at these, they are really beautiful artistic nudes (so only go if you are of a mature audience -18+ -) 1, 2, 3.
I'd love someone forever if they'd buy me a print of one of these since I can't buy one for myself.

Also, I should get a lot more pictures up here once I can get them on my computer.

]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/17013515/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/17013515/ Fri, 22 Feb 2008 17:34:03 PST No more depressed over Shawn.
Yep, that road was traveled and over.
I got in some serious trouble with Juvie because of stupid shit last summer.
That's finally over.
I stopped doing drugs, though I continue to smoke.
I still take pictures and do stuff, but I haven't really updated.
I will soon promise.
I love you guys!

<3 Kitty

]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/14891366/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/14891366/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 20:19:14 PDT
I am alone and depressed and sick almost every other day.

He wants what we used to have... i don't think that is even possible.


oh well

i suck at life?

What else is new?

I haven't been inspired enough to post more... obviously...

well

hope you all are doing better than me

-Kitty

]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/13315928/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/13315928/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 11:51:04 PDT
Shawn is up here now and I have seen him everyday for the last two weeks.... today however is the first day that I won't see him at all... it is a bit bothersome...

as for summerschool... I decided to say fuck that and take geometry again senior year.... I still have time right? lol


I dunno things are crazy cause shawn is in summer school from 7:45 in the morning till 12:30 in the afternoon so blah....


not much else to say...


I will try and post when I can... I have to get a new memory card for my camera... I dunno what happened to my good one I had already... ohwell...

<3
kitty

]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/12967379/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/12967379/ Tue, 15 May 2007 15:52:03 PDT
So basically just a little while longer and I will be with my boyfriend again and forcing him into photo shoots and such. He is starting to learn it too so maybe I CAN be a model!!!! Which by the way I am down to 125 lbs thats right ME! Lol isn't that insane!!!!!


So yeah... I will be in summer school takeing Geometry most likely so for a month things MIGHT be slow... but since it is summer I will most likely be posting like CRAZY!


<3

Kitty

]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/12032900/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/12032900/ Fri, 02 Mar 2007 21:30:10 PST
My birthday is the 28th this month!

Our anniversary is the 16th

and he is moving down here sometime in late June early July...

I am recovering slowly but steadily from having my tonsils removed and I have lost almost 10lbs in the past 3 days....

GOD I CAN'T WAIT TO EAT SOLID FOOD!!!!!!


but here are somethings I would really really like to have a picture of us CGed with a pair of black kittens all chibi like above us...

I can give references photos for all of this and I have no deadline honestly... I would just love to have one done... *sigh*


well I don't have much else to say...

except perhaps I could come up with money if someone presents me something well done....

I don't paypal however seeing as I am not yet old enough for such things

and I wouldn't require a print of the image because I have an amazing quality printer and matte paper galore...

anywho...

note me if you want to try your hand...

thanks!
-kitty

]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/12007629/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/12007629/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 23:14:47 PST
I just had my tonsils removed and not even the pain meds help.... then again they burn so bad going down I can't get the correct dose in my system to know if they would help or not!

I went to Military ball...

that was like the last time people from school saw me and the last time I actually felt not pained...

oh and yay me I have been on here for about 2 years now! yay...

let's see

oh my boyfriend is moving back up here by June or July of this year and so yeah I am happy...


well I WILL be happy soon as I don't feel like crap and get to see him again.

]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/11653345/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/11653345/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 21:25:55 PST

but it is true

I am happy.


My boyfriend Shawn and I have so much in common it is great.


I have another new haircut and new color....

it is blue under and cut to a style I can only define as Myspace...

which leads me to something that must be said

Myspace has become a clique... a genre and almost a core phase in being a teenager...


weird you know.

Anyway I love you all... and yep... I am going really slow with deviations... but sooner or later they will pick back up! Promise!

]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/11054112/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/11054112/ Wed, 13 Dec 2006 17:41:22 PST
it has deffinately been a while

and while I was gone things only got crazier!!!

I haven't done much in the way of art... well other than in art class... but I can't get those pieces on the computer... -sigh-

My boyfriend just got out of the hospital...

I am jealous of the chick that has been by his side the whole fucking time...

I feel bad for it.

I have lost my flare...

I need some one to hold me....

I need some one to kiss me...

oh gods I just need some fucking attention!!!! T_T


I have a Gaia..

but in the rp I am ingaged in none of the characters pay any attention to mine...

she is too wierd I guess..

but c'mon the wierd ones are always the most fun to rp with

I guess I am stuck in teen agnst land....

oh well...

if you have a Gaia accont... and are feeling genorous (SP?)

stop by and donate some gold! or items... both are great... My sn is SilvietheFrenchie

that'd be great...

I love you all...

see ya later!!

]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/10597478/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/10597478/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 19:42:05 PST
I NEED GLASSES!!!! WHAAAA!!!!!

I have mono.... v.v

I miss having someone sleep with me (non-sexually)

I miss real kisses

I need love

I want my Master to know how I care

I love french

I hang with germans

I lost weight and gained deffinition in my body!

I miss life of summer... (Staying out late, sleeping around, getting drunk and having fun.)

I actually like JROTC...
I miss my talents (they seem to have taken a break)

]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/10429030/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/10429030/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 22:36:22 PDT
maybe some one would be drawing up Vixie as an Anthro for me... like with humanesque features too. I dunno I love this movie and was wondering if anyone might like to... but seeing as I have little to offer in way of payment that would really have to be worked out... I have no paypal or way of paying unless it would be to actually mail some cash or money to an address which I will do if needed.... but I probably will be getting an image of Tod and Vixie when they are snuggling tattooed to my calf or shoulder blade later on in life...

Another thing keep in mind I want the animal versions of Tod and Vixie to be as close to the Disney version as possible and the Anthros to be very close to realistic... I am willing to pay up to $25 for a very good yet small version of Tod and Vixie(animal form colored) and 30 for the Anthro... If I am paying you I expect the best from you and will pay 15 down on both of these. After seeing the sketch I will decide whether to continue and pay the rest or not...

Also remember later in life this will be going on my body so in escene you are designing a tattoo. Money will be sent only if you agree and note me your address of which I can send the money... thanks

Beth

]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/10263262/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/10263262/ Mon, 02 Oct 2006 18:07:50 PDT
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<3

Bethers ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/8491029/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/8491029/ Sun, 16 Apr 2006 16:01:30 PDT [link] and so basically... it RAWKS!! anywho



HAPPY EASTER!!! ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/8408081/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/8408081/ Sat, 08 Apr 2006 12:49:43 PDT
I suppose that maybe she doesnt try but it sure feels like it...

Anyway with all the issues on myspace today she decided she would get one.... AND SHE KNOWS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING ABOUT COMPUTERS so she asks me to work on it with her. But as usual she doesn't want to listen to me....


from there it just kept going down hill.... she is the one person in the world I just cannot stand.... Its like when she is nice I should learn that right afterwards she is going to be a total bitch....

I am soooooooo fucking pissed I cant think of any thing to say but I sware I am about to burst!! ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/8225776/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/8225776/ Tue, 21 Mar 2006 10:25:07 PST

15


Big news right?


well not so much.... ONE MORE YEAR TILL I AM 16 PPL!!! ONE MORE!!!!!

Any who... Birthday Art would be Muchly loved and posted with a no comments here Dev. and a link to the original art and artists page!!! ^^ Also... I am on Neopets and I kinda am gonna have a contest for my Xweetok's Picture comming up in April....


If you want to help be a judge note me.... (Judges will get part in Germaine -my Xweetok's- story....)

Further details and guidelines on entry will be posted later.... as will prizes ( DO NOT EXPECT MONEY PRIZES!! or much of anything big for that matter this is going to be more of a have fun and get noticed contest)


Thanks for the time!!

<3 Bethers!~ ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/8142156/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/8142156/ Sun, 12 Mar 2006 17:49:37 PST
Thought you peeps may wanna know... you can see it on my myspace on this [link]

ciao peeps
~Bethers!~ ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7990850/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7990850/ Fri, 24 Feb 2006 14:31:02 PST
~Bethers!~ ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7883690/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7883690/ Mon, 13 Feb 2006 13:40:36 PST
Does anyone know how to get my dogs and my ferret to get along though? I am a little worried because both the ferret and my dogs get really jumpy which is hard since I don't know whats gonna happen.... well... Thats all for now

Talk to you all soon!!
~Bethers!~ ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7724082/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7724082/ Fri, 27 Jan 2006 14:53:59 PST it's so sad now I can't photoshop pictures.... but I still take them so I am still in business!! lol well... thought I would make that announcement!
~Bethers!~ ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7649010/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7649010/ Thu, 19 Jan 2006 14:09:31 PST
Point is I didn't have it horrible... but sometimes now it feels like it. I have had 4 surgerys all on my ears so I can hear better and not die from the desease that would have eventually eaten away at my brain. I am ok now not sick at all (except for the occasional virus.) Well my parents were devorced for about 3 years but last summer my father started living with us.

I never minded until people started talking about how awkward it must be and how they felt my pain. But I really didn't care. Well he broke his leg and had sugery recently and 3 nights prior to this journal my dad threw such fits about how he wanted his meds (he has been adicted before so we couldn't give them to him) that I had to call the police.

Its not as if I wouldn't be used to it, it had happened at least three times before in my life so no big deal.... but when I saw the uniforms I went into shaking and crying. Its not like I didn't know what was going not like I really cared but I just remembered and couldn't stop.... My history seems to be repeating... my father is still here.... I can't seem to gain my energy and I feel so stupid for feeling like this... no one hugs me like they should (except for the officer a few nights before) and I feel rather alone.... I am getting really behind in school and I just want it all to be over.... I just want time to fastforward.... and I want to stop caring!

I guess there is no real explination for why I wrote this... I would rather not have people comment this saying to cheer up or how it will get better... just that they understand. Maybe not even that... I just wrote this to get it out... please... don't feel sorry for me... just learn never to do this to your own family.... and please please.... never make your kids go threw this hell... it messes with them.... people WILL call them Emo and WILL say that they are lame because they cut. But kids like me had thier reasons... the pain they had to overcome.... and Cutting is one of the only ways to get over it.... let them do it... let them hurt themselves.... they will gain understanding on thier own... quit by themselves....

Thanks for the time....
~Bethers!~ ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7633701/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7633701/ Tue, 17 Jan 2006 19:41:36 PST ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7512252/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7512252/ Wed, 04 Jan 2006 20:43:48 PST ~Bethers!~

Check out these cool people ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7187120/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7187120/ Wed, 30 Nov 2005 16:03:26 PST <- that guy shares my b-day!! hehe its kinda funny go check out his site.... and give me your birthdays people!! I shall add them to this Journal!! Loves you all!!

January
Febuary
19th
March
14th
, 28th
April
May
June
July
August
September
October
November
December
18th ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7161387/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7161387/ Sun, 27 Nov 2005 18:52:09 PST Loves y'all
~Bethers ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7063785/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7063785/ Wed, 16 Nov 2005 13:16:01 PST ~Bethers ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7027791/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/7027791/ Sat, 12 Nov 2005 14:11:05 PST
i hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
i focus on the pain
the only thing that's real

the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but i remember everything

what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end

you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt

i wear my crown of shit
on my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
i cannot repair

beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
i am still right here

what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end

you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt

if i could start again
a million miles away
i would keep myself
i would find a way ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6947468/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6947468/ Thu, 03 Nov 2005 17:56:24 PST ~Bethers ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6945605/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6945605/ Thu, 03 Nov 2005 14:40:11 PST ~Bethers ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6927558/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6927558/ Tue, 01 Nov 2005 15:37:26 PST
Also... please please please help me find inspiration.... I feel like everything is just dying this fall.... I can't admire it... it just all seems to be death... I skipped over the change part and went striaght from summer to winter.... Striaght from peaking to dieing... no changing.... no transition... just the best time of my life to dieing every day inside! I am going crazy it feels like.... Help me!! ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6799588/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6799588/ Tue, 18 Oct 2005 09:37:18 PDT ~Bethers ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6686300/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6686300/ Wed, 05 Oct 2005 11:53:05 PDT
A SOCIALIST: You have 2 cows. The government takes one and gives it to your neighbor.
A REPUBLICAN: You have 2 cows. Your neighbor has none... So what?
A DEMOCRAT: You have 2 cows. Your neighbor has none. You feel guilty for being more successful. You vote people into office who tax your cows, forcing you to sell one to raise money to pay the tax. The people you voted for then take your tax money and by your cow and give it to your neighbor. You feel righteous.
A COMMUNIST: You have 2 cows. The government siezes both and provides you with milk.
A FASCIST: You have 2 cows the government siezes both and sells you the milk. You join the undergrond and start a campaign of sabotage.
DEMOCRACY, AMERICAN STYLE: You have 2 cows. The government taxes you to the point you have to sell both to support a man in a foreign country who has only 1 cow that was a gift from your government.
CAPITALISIM, AMERICAN STYLE: You have 2 cows. You sell one, by a bull and build a herd of cows.
BUREAUCRACY, AMERICAN STYLE: You have 2 cows. The government takes them both, shoots one, milks the other, pays you for the milk, then pours the milk down the drain.
AN AMERICAN CORPORATION: You have 2 cows. You sell one, and force the other to produce the milk of 4 cows. You are surprised when the cow drops dead.
A FRENCH CORPORATION: You have 2 cows. You go on strike because you want 3 cows.
A JAPANESE CORPORATION: You have 2 cows you redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and produce 20 times the milk.
A GERMAN CORPORATION: You have 2 cows. You reengineer them so they live for 100 years, eat 1 time a month, and milk themselves.
AN ITALIAN CORPORATION: You have 2 cows.... but you don't know where they are.... you break for lunch.
A RUSSIAN CORPORATION: You have 2 cows... You count them again and learn you have...5 cows... You count them again and learn you have...42 cows... You count them again and learn you have... 12 cows. You stop counting cows and open another bottle of vodka.
A MEXICAN CORPORATION: You think you have 2 cows.... but you don't know what a cow looks like. You take a nap.
A SWISS CORPORATION: You have 5,000 cows.... none of which are yours... you charge others for storage...
A BRIZILIAN CORPORATION: You have 2 cows. You enter into a partnership with an American Corporation. Soon you have 1000 cows and the American corporation declares bankrupcy.
AN INDIAN CORPORATION: You have 2 cows.... You worship them.



Hope you guys like it
~BETHERS ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6584697/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6584697/ Fri, 23 Sep 2005 19:37:17 PDT
PS I do check my coments and deviantupdates. I still keep track everyone I'm just laying back a bit... and debating weather to take extended leave... Whatever no worries that probably wont happen....

~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87 and now CB as Cyd-vicious
Call me even! Public knowledge of my cell # 615-944-9604 wewtness... ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6538510/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6538510/ Sun, 18 Sep 2005 15:31:05 PDT I haven't been too active lately... I feel very unartistic right now so I may take a long break... I need to bring up grades. I will still be checking for updates of my buddies (I love you guys.)

In other news.... I just got a pet snake! Her name is Francesca Serepentessa Noir. ^.^ She is a cute little 3-4 month old corn snake with the lack of all red pigmentation. She has the prettiest pattern ^^. She is a little skitish but I held her for about 10 minutes today and she is doing better.

I don't have much else to say so I shall part from you all now... Thanks
~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87.
Call me even! Public knowledge of my cell # 615-944-9604 wewtness... ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6495812/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6495812/ Tue, 13 Sep 2005 15:51:09 PDT Water: Of course!
Me: I would like to dedicate Smells Like Teen Spirit to my best friend Heather, who is off in boarding school.
Water: How does the song make you feel?
Me: Well Heather pretty much introduced me to some of the best music I ever heard and we basically memorized this song together it is pretty special.
Water: If you could say anything to Heather what wold it be?
Me: I would tell her that I love her and that everyone at Currey Ingram misses her.
Water: Great!!
Me: Thanks so much.
Water: Anytime.

-----1 minute later-------
Broadcast

Now, we will play Smells Like teen Spirit dedicated to a very special girl named Heather from Beth. I asked Beth how it made her fell and this is what she said to me "Well Heather pretty much introduced me to some of the best music I ever heard and we basically memorized this song together it is pretty special." Then I asked her if there was anything she could say to Heather right now what would it be? She replied, "I would tell her that I love her and that everyone at Currey Ingram misses her." So there you have it... A true friendship and here it is. Smells Like Teen Spirit.
(left up in honor of Heather [link] )

Not much to say except.... I am the ficklest person alive... what ever... this is short and sweet... I am just thinking about the up coming concert Thrusday.... well see you all around...

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87.
Call me even! Public knowledge of my cell # 615-944-9604 wewtness... ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6422565/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6422565/ Mon, 05 Sep 2005 12:01:33 PDT Water: Of course!
Me: I would like to dedicate Smells Like Teen Spirit to my best friend Heather, who is off in boarding school.
Water: How does the song make you feel?
Me: Well Heather pretty much introduced me to some of the best music I ever heard and we basically memorized this song together it is pretty special.
Water: If you could say anything to Heather what wold it be?
Me: I would tell her that I love her and that everyone at Currey Ingram misses her.
Water: Great!!
Me: Thanks so much.
Water: Anytime.

-----1 minute later-------
Broadcast

Now, we will play Smells Like teen Spirit dedicated to a very special girl named Heather from Beth. I asked Beth how it made her fell and this is what she said to me "Well Heather pretty much introduced me to some of the best music I ever heard and we basically memorized this song together it is pretty special." Then I asked her if there was anything she could say to Heather right now what would it be? She replied, "I would tell her that I love her and that everyone at Currey Ingram misses her." So there you have it... A true friendship and here it is. Smells Like Teen Spirit.
(left up in honor of Heather [link] )

Mood: Loved and Horny
Listening to: Garbage- Milk
Reading: Healers Keep, Eldest

Ahem let it be known I am in love.... I have never had such strong feelings for someone as I do for Josh... I don't know how to discribe all of this... The feeling is a sensation and extacy which I have never tasted or felt before. At night all that can cross my mind is him. My heart and soul is with him my mind and body yerns to be with him but miles hold our forms at great distance. There is a poem I read recently that discribes my feelings... [link] Thats it... The words are my true feelings and the irony is so great. I have words to put feelings to I could have never thought of myself...
~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87.
Call me even! Public knowledge of my cell # 615-944-9604 wewtness... ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6345375/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6345375/ Sat, 27 Aug 2005 19:37:30 PDT Water: Of course!
Me: I would like to dedicate Smells Like Teen Spirit to my best friend Heather, who is off in boarding school.
Water: How does the song make you feel?
Me: Well Heather pretty much introduced me to some of the best music I ever heard and we basically memorized this song together it is pretty special.
Water: If you could say anything to Heather what wold it be?
Me: I would tell her that I love her and that everyone at Currey Ingram misses her.
Water: Great!!
Me: Thanks so much.
Water: Anytime.

-----1 minute later-------
Broadcast

Now, we will play Smells Like teen Spirit dedicated to a very special girl named Heather from Beth. I asked Beth how it made her fell and this is what she said to me "Well Heather pretty much introduced me to some of the best music I ever heard and we basically memorized this song together it is pretty special." Then I asked her if there was anything she could say to Heather right now what would it be? She replied, "I would tell her that I love her and that everyone at Currey Ingram misses her." So there you have it... A true friendship and here it is. Smells Like Teen Spirit.

Mood: Missing Heather
Listening to: Nirvana-Smells Like Teen Spirit

That was went on friday night as I was listening to Second Shifters (a radio station I find at vampirefreaks.com). I IMed the host Water and our post (posted above) made me cry. Austin and Mr.Allen (carbonhazard and paracentric), both know Heather. I think they may be able to grasp a small part of how much I really do miss her. But, nothing made me want to cry more than Friday afternoon as I was passing her house.... I could look up her driveway and see her horses, but no matter how much it seemed like she would be there, up in her room working on homework, on the phone, or playing her instruments... I knew deep down.... she wasnt there.... She wasn't over at Molli's or out at the book store... she was off at boarding school.... I know its only a 2 hour drive... but it feels like she's gone to college.... or in another country....
I feel selfish... wanting her to be at school with me.. I know she needs this education so she can go to the best college there is... I of all people knows she deserves the best. I hope that no one there in that school hurts her... and I hope her dreams are coming true....
I talked to her today... Things don't looks so fabulos, but I know that the people there will grow to love her just as much as we do... Thats what scares me... It scares me to think that maybe I will be replaced... Maybe she will like it so much that she will forget..... It sounds like a melodrama... but thats what those soap operahs are about right... real life.... well... it feels like I am living one...

Please.... don't comment on trying to make me feel better... I just want comments about Heather... visit her page here -> [link] Thank you for reading

~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87. call me even! Public knowledge of my cell # 615-944-9604 wewtness... ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6298936/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6298936/ Mon, 22 Aug 2005 16:02:29 PDT A) Dusty red with strawberry blonde highlights and lowlights
B) A midnight blue thats black in the school lights and blueish in the sun.

I really want some more and would be happy to hear Ideas. I also want to start a contest.... but that will take some major planning... any way... just made a journal for ideas....
~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87. call me even! Public knowledge of my cell # 615-944-9604 wewtness... ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6225082/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6225082/ Sun, 14 Aug 2005 13:07:55 PDT .< not to mention I just got to see his pic.... I was like wtf why the hell arent you living in the US we need some hot guys like you that are evil and write with mad Skillz! Anyway... I have no Idea why I am doing a random journal... I just got that sudden erge to do so... Any way... So yeah not much else to say... except Austin has made a conspirsy to start an Bug Holocaust
Wasps
bee
durtdobers and other shit like wasps...and hornets are one in a half
Beetles
Ladybugs
ants
spiders

Then he wants to kill mice and snakes.... and Mexicans.... no just kidding. He left this message on my phone rambling... its like a series.. I am on the last message.... and he has to go pee so he is gonna go... an then he starts rambling about talking to CB about bugs.. and then something about cows.... and how he hates PETA... and now cockroaches.... and something about people traps.... and now he is going...

That was great.... The end...
~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87. call me even! Public knowledge of my cell # 615-944-9604 wewtness... ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6195864/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6195864/ Thu, 11 Aug 2005 08:20:18 PDT ~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87. call me even! Public knowledge of my cell # 615-944-9604 wewtness... ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6113257/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6113257/ Tue, 02 Aug 2005 14:01:47 PDT ~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87 call me even! Public knowledge of my cell # 615-944-9604 wewtness... ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6014420/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6014420/ Sat, 23 Jul 2005 16:17:55 PDT ~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87 call me even! Public knowledge of my cell # 615-944-9604 wewtness...

~~Request Progress~~
Hobbitgirls Request (from inheritanceforums.com)- Sketch
Broms-wandering-soul (same site) - Sketch
Kelly Elizabeth (same site)- Posted ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6014417/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/6014417/ Sat, 23 Jul 2005 16:17:38 PDT
]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5962129/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5962129/ Sun, 17 Jul 2005 19:59:25 PDT ~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87 call me even! Public knowledge of my cell # 615-944-9604 wewtness... ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5925511/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5925511/ Wed, 13 Jul 2005 17:18:40 PDT .< However I am sort of regreting it. I miss the quietness of unpopularity... I am happy I am friends with Sinja... (new buddy) but I am exhausted from Jason.... v.v; but I will survive no? Anyways right well looks like I will be going to Alabama next week! I hope to get some pictures or at least funny stories and poems for you all! well Im out...
~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87 call me even! Public knowledge of my cell # 615-944-9604 wewtness... ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5857098/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5857098/ Wed, 06 Jul 2005 13:05:35 PDT
I know its lame or whatever but my dog is the closest thing to me... my friends hate me (except Denis and Alyssa) and not that they matter anymore but it just adds to the sinking feeling in my stomach.

My dog is the only thing I really have left of what was good in my childhood (seeing how it was crushed when I was in 5th grade by my father as he tryed to commit suicide infront of me.) Misty was always there to keep me feeling better when I was sick. She would come to the side of the bathtub as I lay in the water in pain and lick my hand. And if I was sick in bed she would lay next to me and I always seemed to feel better. Also as my dad was in the hospital I asked what his favorite animal was and his reply was "Misty" just before he feel asleep... Misty is smart and knows just what I say when I talk to her... I wish she wouldn't die but I know she is. I guess I should just stop writing it only makes it worse and no one really cares.
~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87 ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5849220/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5849220/ Tue, 05 Jul 2005 16:47:45 PDT
On a lighter note I am going to see The Fab Four with Alyssa, Kim, and Faith. Also Denis (spoty) You rock! Please don't leave dA I love your stuff and we can still work together on it! Even if your dA subscription runs out you can still submit. Also I have to look at your blog again...

Now as for randomness the next section of the Header, body, footer will be coming. Yes its true. Also Soon I will be heading down to alabama to see my cusins so if you want to get together call me and MAYBE (only maybe) we can work something out.

I really hate planning... it really sucks Id rather just stay at my computer go outside take pictures call people and modle but I cant... *sigh* well I don't know very much but I have a feeling one of my friends is just looking for a place to start a fight and I really would just rather not.

Thats all for today... Hope you all saw awesome fireworks.
~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87 ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5849212/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5849212/ Tue, 05 Jul 2005 16:47:01 PDT
On a lighter note I am going to see The Fab Four with Alyssa, Kim, and Faith. Also Denis (spoty) You rock! Please don't leave dA I love your stuff and we can still work together on it! Even if your dA subscription runs out you can still submit. Also I have to look at your blog again...

Now as for randomness the next section of the Header, body, footer will be coming. Yes its true. Also Soon I will be heading down to alabama to see my cusins so if you want to get together call me and MAYBE (only maybe) we can work something out.

I really hate planning... it really sucks Id rather just stay at my computer go outside take pictures call people and modle but I cant... *sigh* well I don't know very much but I have a feeling one of my friends is just looking for a place to start a fight and I really would just rather not.

Thats all for today... Hope you all saw awesome fireworks.
~Bethers

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard and *spoty87 ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5839751/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5839751/ Mon, 04 Jul 2005 16:41:49 PDT
I am still curious about how to get the most out of my subscription but I really dont care. Oh also... On my Yahoo! messanger status message I almost always post my Cell number so if anyone here wants it send me a note and I'll give it to you or whatever... I don't care really at all... I am bored and like talking! lol any way... later... BYE!

Check out my Friends *lilithresurected and =carbonhazard ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5839692/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5839692/ Mon, 04 Jul 2005 16:33:47 PDT
I am still curious about how to get the most out of my subscription but I really dont care. Oh also... On my Yahoo! messanger status message I almost always post my Cell number so if anyone here wants it send me a note and I'll give it to you or whatever... I don't care really at all... I am bored and like talking! lol any way... later... BYE!

Check out my Friends =lilithresurected and *carbonhazard ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5799937/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5799937/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 09:22:45 PDT
Body: *Looks up at what ever the header is. Points* Whats that about? *stares up at the ominous looming thing called a 'header' above* hmmm.... prehaps its pokeable?.... *pokes.... Screams*

Header: Grrrr..... *Bites the 'body' which poked it*

Body: *runs around in circles screaming cause the scarry thing above it bit it* AHHHHHHHHHHH-HHHHHHHHHHHH-hhhhhhhhh IT FUCKING BIT ME!

Header: *Gives an evil laugh* Muhahahaha!

Footer: Wtf? I am always left out.... goddamn *hmphs and scowls up at the two maniacs above it.* ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5770650/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5770650/ Mon, 27 Jun 2005 10:32:33 PDT ~Bethers

]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5743780/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5743780/ Fri, 24 Jun 2005 11:10:17 PDT ~Bethers ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5703148/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5703148/ Mon, 20 Jun 2005 10:22:09 PDT ~Bethers ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5628452/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5628452/ Sun, 12 Jun 2005 15:20:11 PDT .<; I am still taking pictures of drawings I have done away Mr. Allen's upload of other stuff on my other name.. (Hint Mr.Allen, Hint!) I do hope he reads this for I really would like to have some scans of my drawings up here on deviant becuase I know pictures of pictures cant cut it.... I also have some still life photos from lunch that were fun to take... Oh and I ate a peach that could have housed a Gregor (if anyone has read about him)! Thanks for bareing with me every one!
~Bethers ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5609787/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5609787/ Fri, 10 Jun 2005 13:19:10 PDT ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5571670/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5571670/ Mon, 06 Jun 2005 15:42:42 PDT Crying for help,
Bethers ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5536163/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5536163/ Thu, 02 Jun 2005 19:47:34 PDT ~Bethers ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5502312/ http://Paige-the-outcast.deviantart.com/journal/5502312/ Mon, 30 May 2005 12:55:30 PDT Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles

How many days in a year
She woke up with hope but she only found tears?
I can be so insincere
Making the promises never for real
As long as she stands there waiting
Wearing the holes in the souls of her shoes
How many days disappear?
You look in the mirror so how do you choose?

And the clothes that you wear
Look swell the next day
Your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

This is the story of a girl
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles

How many lovers would stay?
Just to put up with this shit day after day
How did we wind up this way?
Watching our mouths for the words that we say
As long as we stand here waiting
Wearing the clothes on the souls of our shoes
How do we get there today?
When we're walking too far for the price of her shoes

And the clothes that you wear
Look swell the next day
Your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles

And the clothes that you wear
Look swell the next day
Your hair never falls in quite the same way
You never seem to run out of things to say

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her

This is the story of a girl
Her pretty face she hid from the world
And while she looks so sad and lonely there
I absolutely love her

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles
When she smiles!

For all those lovers of this old song here it is. I herd it just a few minutes ago and I couldn't resist going and finding the lyrics to it. and note the song is (c) 3 Doors Down. Thank you. Also tell me when you hear this song does it make you reminiss (or however its spelled) I know it makes me. I feel like that girl sometimes and other days I fell like Sum 41's Fat Lip.... ok sorry for the randomness of this but I had to get these lyrics out!
~Bethers ]]> ~Paige-the-outcast