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]]> =Paindancer Endings and Beginnings http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/27166276/ http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/27166276/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 09:07:04 PDT
Thats such a simple sentence, yet its such a monumental change for me.. its amazing.

I never was one to think that marriage was part of my life goals. I didnt see most work, I dont think its really in line with fundamental human nature, etc. Still, here I am, sitting at my favorite coffee house, sweating bullets in happy anticipation of the event at hand.

I am so unbelievably lucky, that I honestly believe it was planned. The wonderful woman I am to wed today is amazing, beautiful, intelligent, and totally brilliant in so many ways. Still, we faced so many challenges, with 5000 miles separating us for over a year. Now, however, it just seems like a shadowy memory of a past trial.

Its hard to really make it clear, when I discuss her and what we are doing. Many people ask 'why'. I suppose its best to say, that I have been haunted by this love, long before I had ever met her. Even longer than perhaps she has been here on this earth to tell the truth. How else to put it? That I knew her face, her mannerisms before we met.. that my heart ached for her presence before I could ever put a name to her?

Yet, here is it, we found eachother and made it work. We are together and I cannot ever imagine ever being apart. I am so very very lucky.. I have been given a chance at the type of love that people write about in books and fairy tales. Its amazing.

I am very thankful to have her in my life and so look forward to the times ahead.

I love you, Hattie.

]]> =Paindancer Busy http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/26753048/ http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/26753048/ Sat, 22 Aug 2009 11:25:49 PDT Watch me Note me Journal Instructions

I need to update journals more often, if nothing else but to excuse my lack of correspondance with my friends and family.

To say I have been busy as of late would be a understatement. We have a set ammount of time in the day, but sometimes I wonder if the hourglass inst filled with water instead of sand.

Siam and I have been planning our wedding.. less than 3 weeks now? Wow. We are doing something informal, small, easy.. but even that.. so many details. Not a good situation for procrastinators. Its been fun though, working invitations... trips to the art store to lament over paper choices, ring hunting, coordination. So many people are so happy for us, and its quite amazing. Lots of work to do.

The cats are crazy.. did I mention that?

Allergies have been brutal, almost as much as the job market. That situation needs to change and soon. Cant honeymoon in a cardboard box, now can we?

At least I have been using my free time to create and shoot like a madman. I cant believe how many photographs I have yet to edit, so many good sets. Still learning each shoot, trying new things... always grateful to my friends and supporters who leverage me into being able to create this wonderful imagery. The surface hasnt even been scratched yet.

Pretty lizards, breeders, drowned hookers, aquatic pin up... heh.. I need to get back to editing.

]]> =Paindancer Cat Crack and General Musings... http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/25719504/ http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/25719504/ Fri, 03 Jul 2009 16:14:43 PDT Watch me Note me Journal Instructions

So things are settling in with myself and Siam. She is very busy with shooting and I am building up steam with a few planned shoots myself. In addition to my son being here, we felt that having just one attention deficit hyper active male in the home (not including myself) wasn't enough and adopted a kitty which Miss Pixie brought to our attention...

Now mind you, being asthmatic I never wanted to have a cat.. but I was convinced and now we have a beautiful grey 2 year old by the name of Mr. Stripes. He is certainly a interesting breed, with just a light tinge of pink to him, his eyes glow orange nearly constantly, which may indicate some sort of demonic possession, which through careful observation could be a possible explanation to his actions: Sprinting across the hard wood living room, careening into walls due to said hard wood, affectionately sinking his teeth into the ankles of my son and Siam to get them to ' play ' (Sado-cat!) etc. Hes actually quite fun to have around outside of being a VERY vocal cat.

But.. the best came today.. I was treating myself to a tasty garlic infused olive and Mr. Stripes became quite interested. As I ate, his vocals became more urgent, insistent if you will. "What cat would possible want a olive?' I thought to myself. It certainly didn't fall into the range of cat like behavior I, in my limited experience with felines, would come to expect. Still, on a whim, I sliced up half of a queen sized, garlic and all, into thin little slices.

The change... was immediate. He took to his bowl with a ferocity and concentration I had not ever witnessed in our feline friend, or any other. He was beyond fascinated, he was attending these delectable morsels with a almost religious fervor. Still, I could tell something unusual was at hand. It could be his tossing the slices into the air, or his attempting to force his entire body into his little cat bowl at once. Once the slices were consumed, he proceeded to alternate between jumping in place, rolling on the ground and occasionally chasing his tail.

After some internet research, it seems that olives have in their oil a similar phermonic compound to catnip which stimulates a part of the brain we evolved specimens have outgrown. Its rare that a cat responds to it at all but it isn't entirely unheard of and can generate a more intense response than simple catnip. Olives don't have anything a cat needs, but they are not harmful according to my research (and yes, these were organically grown and preserved).

]]> =Paindancer ... Its coming from inside the house! http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/25012382/ http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/25012382/ Fri, 29 May 2009 09:48:46 PDT Watch me Note me Journal Instructions

Ive done pretty well establishing myself. I have my own routine, the way I like things. A bit spartan, sometimes a little cluttered, but I have spent a great deal of time making my own space my own. My studio in my living room, my room, etc.

But there has been a change as of late. A creeping, insidious change has occoured. There is.. pink creeping in. There is color being added to my bedroom and... sweet fragrant smells of perfume.

There seems to be another presence growing at home. Bouncy, emotional.. kinda pretty even. It must be stopped.. my very existence as I know it is being threatened. Tea is being made!

(Yeah, Siam

is here. Tell her hello!)

]]> =Paindancer Another Earthquake? http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/24843369/ http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/24843369/ Tue, 19 May 2009 16:54:23 PDT
]]> =Paindancer Update in the life... http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/24643496/ http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/24643496/ Thu, 07 May 2009 21:47:32 PDT
Ive been watching some friends drift away, others simply have shown that the value of trust and friendship isnt reciprocated. I suppose these things happen, espicially in the competitive world of LA. Everyone is trying to get ahead, make a buck.

Still, its hard, to see people I care about fade away. Ive never been outwardly sentimental. I dont remember the days I should, I dont give enough gifts or the right kind. I dont do the little things to let people know I care I guess. When I bother to let someone in though, its significant to me. It sucks when that goes away.

But, I have Siam here for 6 months at least starting in 2 weeks. What an amazing adventure that is going to be! Im excited on so many levels. A real beginning in the works there. All I can say is that it is flat out amazing to feel like this. Maybe I will think of a way to convince her to stay.

Im traveling to Montanna for the weekend to see my family, right after a quick cameo at an LA event.

Back home and several shoots planned, and some bigger events in the works. Very exciting, yet intimidating.

]]> =Paindancer 10 Deviants, 30 Devieations http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/22566614/ http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/22566614/ Tue, 13 Jan 2009 18:47:48 PST
The first ~10~ people to reply to this journal will have three (3) of my favorite pieces from your gallery featured here. But, in return, you MUST make a similar journal, and feature the first 10 people that comment to it and with me in first position!

Go Go Gadget Pyramid!

(removed people who didnt honor their end of the bargain)

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]]> =Paindancer Fireworks in the Fog http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/22478345/ http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/22478345/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 20:38:19 PST
Picking up from the last blog I wrote here involved a lot more fun with

and company. The next day Hattie and I took Ryu to Knotts Berryfarm to ride the coasters (they are both nuts for them) and the following to a Hockey game.

Finally it was time for Ryu to head back home to his mother. A bit sad considering how well Hattie and he got along, but it was nice to have some one on one with Hattie again as well.

It strikes me as surreal, to acknowledge I have been seeing

for over a year now. Its both been the most challenging one and the most rewarding. There are so many reasons this shouldn't work, so many preconceptions I have had to completely redo with regards to age, distance and on line romances. Yet, in a way that cant ever be proven, I dont see someone I have met a few hundred days ago in her, but a companion, a familiar presence that has been with me all along.

So, on New Years eve, I made it a special day at Disneyland for the two of us, starting corresponding with Disneyland staff months in advance for dinner reservations ect. It was a great night, ghostly mysterious with the heavy fog, people moving in and out like specters. It was perfect for us. The night culminated with a reserved ride on the storybook just before midnight. As we passed through the cave of wonders, Hattie made her wish, which came true as she opened her eyes to her engagement ring.

Yup, you read it right. Im engaged.

She slipped on the ring just as the fireworks started up, lighting up the entire sky with muted colors embedded deep in the fog. What a great way to bring in the new year... and a interesting parrallel, brilliant beauty in the unseen path ahead.

The next day, she was heading back to England, with a promise on her hand. Our hearts heavy, but looking ahead to the future.

]]> =Paindancer Holiday Musings http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/22193973/ http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/22193973/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 15:31:42 PST
To say this has been a relaxing holiday would be a gross misnomer but still, I have been very pleased so far.

Hattie

flew out to visit me, only to be stranded in Paris for a day. She made it out, the next day to hit the ground running, with a quick stop to the salon, then to a work party for me where she made a great showing, of course. (I dont know how the girl deals with the jet lag).

Then Bondage Ball approaches, but not before Battledress

comes out to do some heavy makeup and body painting for a photoshoot for a product shot. Neither put out anything less than sellar efforts and we get some great shots and make a nice visual splash at the event.

Next day, off we go to meet up with Micheal

and Perry

for another shoot for Hattie. Micheal couldnt make the shot due to Shy having a bout with allergies but Perry stepped up, had us come to his place and went to work while I got to be a fly on the wall. What a treat! Ive gotten some AMAZING shots form 'The March Hare', but I was eager to see what the masters would do and boy was I not dissapointed. Jaw Dropping! I consider myself so very lucky to have such a great circle of friends, not to mention a wonderful girl who I am lucky enough to have found at the beginning of what I hope to be a wonderful journey.

Sunday, we pick up Ryu from the airport, who is delayed several hours. He made it eventually with flying colors, being his first time needing to catch a connection. The little man is growing up and is no longer needing to be on direct flights. Little is hardly the word anymore.. he is my height now.. 5'4" at 12. heh!

Next day, back off to Battle dress where we manage to get 3 great sets in.

Finally, Christmas.. which is probably the best day of all, to be spending it with the people I love. I have a few friends over for a nice dinner that evening, including

, and colleen. I am thinking, how amazing, to have the life I have, the friends I have. Im a lucky guy.

I look forward to the next few days, hanging out again with Battledress, with friends, perhaps mending some worn bridges even. In all the holiday season, its those that are closes to us which make the days special.

]]> =Paindancer Christmas Came Earlyl! http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/21434697/ http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/21434697/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 08:45:11 PST
So... 4 alienbees, stands, remotes, softboxes, and such later.... I have the beginnings of a sorta respectable studio. *grin*

Now.. to convert the living room or the spare bedroom?

]]> =Paindancer A poll thats worth doing http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/21129772/ http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/21129772/ Thu, 23 Oct 2008 17:36:05 PDT [link]

Doomsday Dawn is being consider for DA nude artist of the month.

Um... no.. Hes not going to be nude. Least, I hope not!

But vote for him! Seriously! He very much deserves it!

]]> =Paindancer Spreading the word... http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/21048042/ http://Paindancer.deviantart.com/journal/21048042/ Sat, 18 Oct 2008 13:32:26 PDT src=" [link]">

[link]"D. M. Gremlin Studios is proud to continue our presentation of the [link]"Adam
Chilson Photography Workshop Series.

Our upcoming workshop event is "href="http://
[link]">Back
in Blacklight," a presentation of techniques for
blacklight bodypainting and photography.
Presenters/instructors are bodypainter href="http:// [link]">Lisa Berczel of Battledress Paint-n-Body (*Battledress) and photographer [link]"Adam Chilson (*Doomsday-Dawn). Models are [link]"Hourglass

(~HourglassDeviant) and href="http:// [link]">Nyx

Valentine (=quietchildae).

We are pleased to announce that this workshop is
being sponsored by href="http:// [link]">Wildfire Lighting &
Visual Effects and href="http://
[link]">Grex
Airbrushes.

Wildfire is the entertainment industry's
premiere provider of UV products and effects. Their
[link]"
target="_blank">extensive list of credits
includes the Disneyland and Universal Studios
worldwide theme parks, movies such as Batman
Beyond, and a continuing list of film,
television, and venues across the world. Wildfire is
providing lighting for the workshop.

Grex Airbrushes is providing the airbrushes
used at the workshop, and will also have airbrushes
available for sale at the studio on the day of the event.

Lisa Berczel and Adam Chilson are a proven
team, whose collaborations have produced some of the
most stunning and original blacklight imagery to be
found.

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above images bodypaint by Lisa Berczel,
photography by Adam Chilson, except far left
bodypaint by Crow Taylor
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Adam Chilson

Workshop date is October 25, 2008, 10am-7pm.
Registration is $250, limited to 8 participants, and
includes the full day course, lunch, shooting
opportunities with two models in blacklight
bodypaint, and promotional model releases for
portfolio use of images shot at the workshop.

On the bodypainting side, this course will address
safety and hygiene in product choice and procedures
for blacklight bodypainting. The workshop will
include demonstrations of high-end airbrush
bodypainting techniques, as well as brush painting
techniques that can be learned by the participants to
apply at their own future shoots.

On the photography end, material covered will be
advanced lighting techniques as well as "tips and
tricks" for photographing blacklight effects to their
full eye-popping potential.

Featured Models for this workshop are Hourglass
(~HourglassDeviant) and Nyx Valentine (=quietchildae).

Hourglass:
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above images copyright Adam Chilson Photography
except far left copyright Adam Chilson
Photography/Battledress Paint-n-Body/Rod Fuchs

Nyx Valentine:
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above images first and 2nd from left copyright
Adam Chilson Photography; 2nd from right copyright
stark raven photography; far right copyright Adam
Chilson Photography/Battledress Paint-n-Body/Rod
Fuchs

For more information or registration, please visit
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