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deviantART: by:Painless-Tears http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Painless-Tears&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Painless-Tears en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 30 Nov 2009 08:39:37 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png :U I hate you all. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28647544/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28647544/ Sun, 29 Nov 2009 09:52:34 PST

I have the worst friends. Period.

]]> ~Painless-Tears "And if nobody loves you" http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28569573/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28569573/ Wed, 25 Nov 2009 13:46:25 PST "Then I will love you." I'm in a rather pleasant mood. And I hope you all have a great Thanksgiving. (For my American friends.) My family received a food donation. I wish I could send a thank you letter. I'm very greatful that other people locally can give like that. There were human touches. Like, we got a zip-lock bag with apples in it. Which meant the kid gave my family the fun right out of his/her mouth instead of just going out and buying bag. I'm very greatful that people are actaully getting into the meaning of this holiday. I thanked my social worker for delivering the food. She herslef is an amazing woman. Thank you for reading. ]]> ~Painless-Tears 100 truths http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28523639/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28523639/ Mon, 23 Nov 2009 07:24:08 PST 002. Nickname â Lexii, Ali, Al, Franki, Cutie, Creeper
003. Status â I can't explain it...
004. Zodiac sign â Aries
005. Male or female â Female.
006. Elementary â Greengrove El, Sharkriver El, Waterford El., Thomas Richard el.
007. Middle School â HMS
008. High School â Not Yet.
009. Smart â Yes
010. Hair color â Original? Blonde Current? Blonde, Red, Brunnete.
011. Long or short â Right now short.
012. Loud or Quiet â Loud
013. Sweats or Jeans â Jeans.
014. Phone or Camera â Camera.
015. Health freak â Yes
016. Drink or Smoke? â Use too. C:
017. Do you have a crush on someone? â Of course.
018. Eat or Drink â Drink.
019. Piercings â Yes.
020. Tattoos â I want one.

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing â Ears.
024. First best friend â Lizz and Bri K.
025. First award â Creative Writing Award.
026. First crush â Mattie!
027. First pet â Dog.
028. First big vacation â I've never been on one.
030. First big birthday â I've only had tiny family ones.

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating â Nothing at the moment.
050. Drinking â Water.
052. I'm about to â Be a Forum whore
053. Listening to â Superchick, Kerli, and Three Days Grace.
054. Plans for today â Homework.

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? â Adopted, yes.
059. Want to get married? â Yes.
060. Careers in mind â Writer/graphic designer.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
068. Lips or eyes â Eyes.
070. Shorter or taller? â Taller.
072. Romantic or spontaneous â Both.
073. Nice stomach or nice arms â Stomach
074. Sensitive or loud â Sensitive.
075. Hook-up or relationship â Relationship.
077. Trouble maker or hesitant â Trouble Maker

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts â No.
081. Ran away from home â Yes.
084. Broken someones heart â Yes.
085. Been arrested â Yes.
087. Cried when someone died â Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself â Sometimes.
090. Miracles â Not really.
091. Love at first sight â Yes.
092. Heaven â I can't make up my mind about that one.
093. Santa Claus â Nope.
094. Sex on the first date â No.
095. Kiss on the first date â Cheek only.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now â Yes.
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life â No. Still a few tunnels.
099. Do you believe in God â Not really.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag â Fer shure babeh.

Tag - IRL FRIENDS GO! C:

http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28515728/ Sun, 22 Nov 2009 18:18:23 PST Art Wise: Tag Collab with *sniickers Art Trade 'Ode To Amber' with ~Wavestorm101 NoveberxVinnie for ~invaderzim468 Design for Elliot Revamp Pawn Design plot with Kiki, *sniickers , and Myself. Start writing 'Marching Band Affair' (Name might change) Life Wise: Pass Marking Period Have movie night with Marching band/play kids Donate clothes/time a good will Get a life.~Painless-TearsYay. Art of Jezebel/Me http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28369811/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28369811/ Sun, 15 Nov 2009 08:27:15 PST

Botton right corner. It's Jezebel. It looks a lot like me before I cut all my hair off. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28318169/ Thu, 12 Nov 2009 17:07:45 PST
(We're not dating. I just love him) A guy has been harassing me. Calling me a whore. Durring gym Ryan snapped at him and told him to stop it. My friend commented how cute it was that he wanted to protect me. A lunch the kid was doing it again. This time Ryan jumped at him and told him that if he did it again that Ryan would drop him. It was so nice. Small journal. Abusing the journal skins. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28298403/ Wed, 11 Nov 2009 16:58:41 PST Somewhat tired of the same thing over and over. Someone suggest music. >: Indie, rock, techno, and dance are my favorites. <... ]]> ~Painless-Tears Pawn re-vamping http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28239922/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28239922/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 12:50:57 PST Those of you who have wonder what the hell I'm up to (or you just don't) I have been working with the Pawn plot. Nothing major, just little twicks. I've chaged Elliot's age and *coughhowjezebelandelliotstarteddatingcou gh* All so, I've been working on about 4 other plots. One of them I do in fact want to post on dA. C: Yes, nothing has been posted in forever. Though, I wrote something with Elliot's real mom in it. How she has been questioned lately.. >: Never explained where she was and why Elliot hates her. And I know you're all, "WTFing" at me. I've been really bad lately with my work. And logging on. Laetly, passion is being lacked. I will update later when Re-vamping is finished. C: Comment with questions please? made this layout. ]]> ~Painless-Tears We are the goddamn Navy.... http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28168492/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/28168492/ Thu, 05 Nov 2009 19:35:40 PST ....I lied, we're just the HHS Marching Band Of '09. Sadly, today was our last day of pratice and tomorrow we're going to Maryland for National. Big crying fest with the seniors. ]= I'ma going to miss every last senior. Mostly Ashley R. She made me smile even when I wanted to die. I sincerely love that girl. Tomorrow is going to be a long day. Mentally and Physically. We're going to be up 9 am till 12-3 am in the morning. (Maryland is abput 4 hours away from where I live) We're one of the last to go on. If I haven't told you, we've been in last the whole season. Truly, I'm hoping we can all pull together for one day and bring this sucker home. C: It'd make a good story. Tonights pratice was amazingly cold. Yet awesome. The guy I like rejected me. So what? My best friend and I are still friends after a huge fight. That's good. My friends hate me for the most part. So what? I ran to FULL Marching Band laps (They're huge) without stopping. That's cool. I got my hair cut and everyone thinks I look like a guy. So what? We're looking good. And I'm doing this next year. I grew a lot from the start of the season to the end. ILU all. I wish I was a better artist for all my watchers. Theres still a lot of growing I have to go through. Figuring myself out is on the top of the list. ]]> ~Painless-Tears Go fruck youself. ._. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27974841/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27974841/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 09:51:38 PDT Today I went to the doctor. Larely, I've been very tired. My arm was swollen and one of the band parents looked at my arm. She thought it was blood poisoning. About an hour ago the doctor confirmed, for a fact my right arm is poisoned. I got bit by something (spider) and that it got into my blood stream and traveled up my arm. Great. Lucky for me, it only made it up to my shoulder. (started at my right wrist) I'm starting my medication tonight. I have to take a pill, use special lotion, and do hot compresses for ten days. Then I have to go back so she can check up on my arm. Also, this sunday was States For Marching Bands. YES, I went to sates instead of the doctor. That's how important it is to me. We got 8th out of 9. Why? I lost all strenght in my right hand and dropped my flag 5 times. Plus, I leveled a Saxophoniest. (sp) Sorry is all I said to him for the night. (god is he cute. C The music was great and we had everyone jumping out of their sits by the end of Mario. I was smiling even when I dropped my flag and looked angery when I was 'fighting with my partner for mortal combat. It was fun. Our old Captain (last year's ) works for another school that was competeing. They got last place in our group. Fuck you Kaitlen, we still love you. Oh, our Instructors quit on thursday. That doomed us. But our new one starts tomoorow. The best part of the whole thing was the last person to go on did a 911 themed one. EPIC FAILURE! No one was on time, no one marched correctly, music was horrible, they were stripping during it and showing their boob. Oh, not to mention a girl took of her pants. She hand pretty panties let me tell you. All you heard was all the bands going ew, and our head piccoliest go : "IS THAT ALLOWED! IF SO< I WANT EVERYONE TO SEE MY THONG!" (kidding of course.) ]]> ~Painless-Tears I've come to realize..... http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27943754/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27943754/ Sat, 24 Oct 2009 15:11:49 PDT tt>
1. i've come to realize that my hair:
hasn't been it's natural clour for 5 years

2. i've come to realize that when i talk:
I slur my words

3. i've come to realize that i don't want:
the people in my life to see through me

4. i've come to realize that all i really need:
is to love again

5. i've come to realize that i've lost:
who i wanted to be along the way

6. i've come to realize that i hate it when:
others are in pain

7. i've come to realize that if i'm drunk:
that'd I'd enjoy it.

8. i've come to realize that money:
should grow on trees

9. i've come to realize that when i get old:
that I'd still want to change

10. i've come to realize that i'll always be:
the weird one

11. i've come to realize that i have a crush on:
my best friend

12. i've come to realize that the last time i smiled was:
truly? years ago.

13. i've come to realize that my cell phone:
is just plastic

14. i've come to realize that when i wake up in the morning:
that i just want to go back to sleep again.

15. i've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:
that i love it more and more each time

16. i've come to realize that right now i am thinking about:
marching band compition tomorrow.

17. i've come to realize that my life:
is already doomed.

18. i've come to realize that my favorite drink is:
tea

19. i've come to realize that today i will have:
be sick... again

20. i've come to realize that tonight i will:
be in pain

21. i've come to realize that tomorrow i will:
work all day to get last place

22. i've come to realize that i really want to:
be loved

23. i've come to realize that the person who is most likely to re-post this is:
no one

24. i've come to realize relationships are:
stupid

25. i've come to realize that love:
is hard to find

26. i've come to realize my best guy friend:
I love more then life and that he's an ass.

27. i've come to realize my best girl friend:
doesn't care

28. i've come to realize food is:
makes me feel fat

29: i've come to realize that this summer:
was spent working

30. i've come to realize heartbreak:
something I enjoy

31. i've come to realize that the person i like:
is also one of my closest friends

32. i've come to realize that my sister:
is better then me, both of them.

33. i've come to realize that crying:
is something I hate doing

34. i've come to realize that death:
frightening

35. i've come to realize that if i'm sick:
wait, i'm always sick

36. i've come to realize when i'm bored:
i get restless

37. after answering every question i realize:
a lot of things.

]]> ~Painless-Tears Journal For Jadezilla http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27892834/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27892834/ Wed, 21 Oct 2009 16:45:06 PDT
made me feel bad for not including her in a journal. I'ma sorry girlie.! 8D Feel better and keep.

That's all. I don't feel like talking about how much I hate my life/myself/people.

]]> ~Painless-Tears So, I am now a girl. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27853778/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27853778/ Mon, 19 Oct 2009 13:11:13 PDT

Contacts:
Aim: PrettyIsAutumn
Facebook: Alexis Strahan
Email: Lexiistrahan@yahoo.com

Apperantly, I wasn't a girl before. -glares at - I love you to Kiki.

Today started out great for me. I woke up and did my hair and put on make-up. Which is rare. I put on a cute little outfit. (For me anyway.) Did my nails a bright red and walked to the bus stop. (With no sun rise. D It was fun. My bus buddy was absent today, so my seat was empty and lonely. Which sucked. Good way to start a very long day.

I got my first mirgrane ping then. (I have horrible migranes , just got medication for it. ) That sucked. I forgot my medicine.

I saw Brandon. God I love that kid. Hey, I could care less if I have no chance. He's to cute not to stare. Anyway, he looked down at me and smiled. He said hi and I gave a blush. He makes me want to... *coughcoughcough* He makes me gigglely.

My friends were harassing me for his name.

DeVon: How are you trying to impress sexy?
Me: N-no one dev.
Devon: Make up? You? Please, spill.
Me: Brandon...
Devon: what?
Me: BRADON BEBE
Devon: Lex, you're insane. He's up a rank for our satus.

(We're about mid popularity.)

>.< Horrible friends. Very bad. Specialy, . Horrible little Kiki. xD (ILU)
We were walking pass him.

"OMG LEX, YOU JUST BLUSHED LIKE A LITTLE GIRL"

BAD Kiki! Bad!

]]> ~Painless-Tears I hate men. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27798430/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27798430/ Fri, 16 Oct 2009 13:58:45 PDT

Few of you know, I have lost a lot a wheight since last year. I cut and dyed my hair and started wearing clothes that looked good on me. My skin cleared up. And I love how I look.

Apperantly a lot of guys like how I look now. 6 guys have a crush on me. (That I knw about)

The only beg diff is that I lost almost 10 pounds. D: The hell. Leave me alone guys.

I kinda like one of the guys. Last time I dated a guy everyone told me I could do so much better....

But I also like another guy at the same time. So confused right now.

Anyway, I wrote a short story. I just have to post it.

See ya.

]]> ~Painless-Tears I LOVE YOU<3 http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27522357/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27522357/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 14:01:20 PDT

Hello~ I what to thank they few people that commented on my last journal. You got me through a tough spot.

I'm writing again and drawing. Not pixeling though. I can't get back into it right now. I wrote something really random the other day and I also just posted something. And when my friend Heidi posts our spanish play I'll post that too. (it's a collab!)

Also, my friend made a account. add her please? (I'll send you a link)

I won't be logging in on Sat. anymore because I have marching band. Love you all.

Lexii

]]> ~Painless-Tears And with a Knife to my skin.... http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27444314/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27444314/ Sun, 27 Sep 2009 08:54:55 PDT Everyone has a weak moment, right? The moment where they can't hold the pain in anymore. Last night was that time. I couldn't stop crying. I had a headache. The hole in my chest was huge. And I really wanted to hurt myself. My school's Marching Band team hand just won first place when it hit me. Lucky for me I was on the bus in the dark when I had my little episode. (The bus is VERY loud) My best friend (more like Ex bf now) Didn't care a tiny bit. She pretty much just dismiised me without a single word, Went on with something else. My older cousin cared more. She pushed everyone out of the way to sit next to me. Recently, everything has hurt and taken such an impact on me, Moving in with my family, moving away, friends turning on me, and my dog just went in for surgery. So I haven't been me lately. And worst of all, no one is really here for me. I just want to have one friend that cares, is that hard to ask for?
]]> ~Painless-Tears First days of school // diVORCE. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27245647/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27245647/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 13:24:43 PDT I was happy for school to start. Now, I could punch the people incharge of classes. Everyone that I hated or fought with last year, are in all of my classes. And even when my friends are in my class, they sit in the back and I'm in the front. (Some how I managed that.) I have Spanish first Career Cycle class. I have to spen 60days trying not to fail. Why can't it be German? Why? Jacob isn't in my classes. I miss my wuver, D: Also, I got to see Mr. Tower. Parents might get a divorce. I'm happy. I'm terrible. C:

]]> ~Painless-Tears Donate A Prize! http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27166596/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27166596/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 09:25:45 PDT

For anyone that donates a prize to my new contest, you will be featured in a News article. Also for one lucking donator, you will can get one free request. So, if you can please donate some kind of prize, please do.

First Prize/s (so far) :

2 requests. ~Painless-Tears
Journal Feature. ~Painless-Tears
New Feature. ~Painless-Tears

Second Prize/s (so far) :

1 request: ~Painless-Tears
Journal feature ~Painless-Tears
New feature ~Painless-Tears

Third Prize/s (so far) :

Journal Feature ~Painless-Tears
News Article ~Painless-Tears

Everyone that enters will have they're entry and one other Devation will be featured in am article.

]]> ~Painless-Tears School Starts : Sept 15 http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27090297/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27090297/ Tue, 08 Sep 2009 08:45:59 PDT Mhm. I can't wait for school to start. It's away to get out of the house. Plus, I do enjoy learning new thing. Even though it's a pain in my ass, school is my only escape from my house. Like I mentioned in another journal, it's mostly likely that only messages will get check on when school starts. Because, this year I want to focus more on school the art. (Sorry.) Also, time on dA will be cut even more sense I joined Marching Band and I am most likely to join Drama Club, Peer Support, Libary Aids, Fashion Club, prolly going to take up the clarient, School counsil. (whatever) and Art club. I guess I really want to get into a ood college. (No seriously, I do. ) On the first day of school, I'm going to tackle Mr. Tower (last year english teacher) and hug him. I know a lot of you are still lost with my family affairs, but he was the only person that helped me through the pain. At hte being of the year I hated him, but now I'm very fond of him. Who would have thunked it. Before all of you get bored with me, I also want to say sorry for being a bitch lately. See ya. ]]> ~Painless-Tears Computer Broke. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27039523/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/27039523/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 17:05:52 PDT
]]> ~Painless-Tears Writing/Art block // Marching Band Preview Show!!! http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26975938/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26975938/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 11:48:42 PDT

Pretty sure that was noticable. I haven't spent anytime on anything art related. Frankly, it sucks. Hmph. And, my journal skills fail.

Anyway, next this thursday, I won't be logging on. The whole day will be spent at my highschool. Yay. We're having a preview show at 8:30pm for the parents. It'll be fun. (yes, I'm a band geek. C: )
The song we're doing is:

Mario
Mortal Combat
Halo/ Amber Clad
Legend of Zelda

Star Theme / Yoshi

(it's video game themed)

The flags are so cool.

]]> ~Painless-Tears I have s stamp... fo meh! http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26931511/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26931511/ Mon, 31 Aug 2009 08:07:31 PDT Don't say it doesn't count because my sister made it. That isn't fair. Your fans make yours. My sistah is a fan oh me. C: Stamp: [link] It so cool. C: Totally gonna use it someday. *wants a sub donar* AND AGAIN, SHORT JOURNAL FTW. ]]> ~Painless-Tears Health Issues? http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26920710/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26920710/ Sun, 30 Aug 2009 17:08:26 PDT Quote: " I don't fear not gettong noticed, I fear being forgotten by the ones I love" If you guys haven't noticed, I haven't been doing much on dA. Well, I haven't been up to anything. It's kinda weird not wanting to pick up a pen to write. Iy's a horrible feeling, as if my dream is slowly draining out of me. Joint pain, stomach pain, headaches, and gagging, have filled my days lately. It's horrible. Truly. Kinda just want to sleep the day away. Also, my depressions is also getting worse. And even though the theapist wants my mom to, she won't put me of the medication. (I'm kind getting tired of coping with the fact I can't be happy by myself too.) Also, sorry about not posting my art work. :'(
Contacts:
Email: Lexiistrahan@yahoo.com
Youtube: LizzAndLexii
Facebook: Alexis Strahan

]]> ~Painless-Tears Meet my friends. C: http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26901599/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26901599/ Sat, 29 Aug 2009 18:31:00 PDT Contacts:
Email: Lexiistrahan@yahoo.com
Youtube: LizzAndLexii
Facebook: Alexis Strahan
"Lifes a rainbow. Like my vocab. Colourful." I'm very lazy. I promised to do this before I meet a new artist a few weeks/months ago. : He's very good. So just check him out. Be a good watcher for once. VERY SMALL JOURNAL FTW ]]> ~Painless-Tears School is Oct.? No way. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26796596/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26796596/ Mon, 24 Aug 2009 13:20:31 PDT Contacts:
Email: Lexiistrahan@yahoo.com
Youtube: LizzAndLexii
Facebook: Alexis Strahan

"I know whom I am, do you?"

It's an interseting idea. A older friend of mine (a junior in highschool) told my older brother school might no even begin until that month. (Date to me is unknown) I knew school starting was delayed this year because it was remodeled one of the other schools and they wanted all of them to open on the same day. I want school to open now. ASAP. I know a few of you are screaming "LUCKY YOU." Not really. If that does happen, all my holidays/day-offs become a school day. Which cuts of all my free time. That means even less art. My duty is to my school-work/clubs/sports this year. Not the internet. That's my own choice. Anyway, I enjoy going to school because it's a break away from my home life. (Something I truly do need.) So, I hope the rumor is false. ]]> ~Painless-Tears Stolen - Get to know me? http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26754357/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26754357/ Sat, 22 Aug 2009 12:40:20 PDT Contacts:
Email: Lexiistrahan@yahoo.com
Youtube: LizzAndLexii
Facebook: Alexis Strahan

"Why can't the silence blend with the vibrant colors again?"

~~Stolen from *jennyleigh~~

I'm actually doing one of these... fear me... Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to People: 1. Why can't you ust accept the truth. I grew up faster then the others. 2. You can't contorl me anymore. You just can't. NAd your hurting us both trying. 3. I'm sorry I stole your dream. 4. You can't be a complete bitch/whore to me and expet me to protect you. 5. Why did you die. Why when I needed you the most? 6. Thank yu for holding my hand through the hardships. You barely knew me. 7. Stop loving me. Please. 8. I deserve you hate. Every last ounce. 9. Put the beer down. 10. I'm so sorry your sick. Please, don't die. Nine things about myself: 1. I use to cry a lot. I still do, but, no in public. 2. I tried to kill my self once before. 3. People tel me the scariets thing about me is my glare. 4. I'm not that bad of a person. 5. I am a fake blond, though, I was blond at birth. My hair turned burnette. 6. This isn't my dream at all. 7. I'm really fat. 8. Depression is killing me 9. I like a Black kid... my dad would kill me I I said it out loud. Eight ways to win my heart: This list is for people I personally know. Not DA peeps. 1. Be my friend 2. When I tell you I'm fine, don't listen to me. 3. Listen to me. Really, listen to me. 4. Don't fake it. 5. Don't criticize my art without an invitation to do so. Do not even comment on it unless it is something 100% positive unless I ask you otherwise. 6. I can't forgive. At all. 7. When you hurt me I will build an emotional wall and not let you in. I still don't know how to break them down. 8. That's all. C: Seven things that cross my mind a lot: 1. Depression 2. Can't wait to move out. Really. 3. How long until bedtime 4. Running away 5. Losing wheight 6. My family 7. Band Camp Six things I do before I fall asleep: 1. Think about tomorrow 2. Work-out 3. Read the new-paper 4. Check my clother 5. Draw/write 6. Lay down. Five places I want to visit: 1. England 2. Germany 3. Canada 4. Mississppi, again. 5. China Four things I'm wearing right now: 1. SKinny jeans 2. Sun dress 3. One Stars converses 4. Glasses Three bands that I listen to often: 1. All time low 2. Greenday 3. Sum 41 Two things I want to do before I die: 1. Get a nice book published 2. Have a happy family One confession: 1. I can still feel everyone staring at me. Even when I'm alone. ]]> ~Painless-Tears G'day Mates. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26710534/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26710534/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 10:12:42 PDT Contacts:
Facebook: Alexis Strahan.
Emails: lexiistrahan@yahoo.com
Gaiaonline: JezTheHero
Twitter: No account
Myspace: Ali :3

"Loveing what I'm doing."

Bases: I haven't gotten anytime to work on them. first, I'm going to make my newest uploaded art. If you haven't make a request. I don't want to, but you can give me a piece of art to make into a base. Ask the artist first. (No Naruto, Bleach, etc.) Hand drawn: Got a new scanner. Oh yes. I have a dump truck load of art for you to see. I'll upload when I get free time. Note me for request please. Features: Please, I mean this, send me some of your work for me to feature. I'd really love it if you did. I want to feature you people. Life: I HATE my father. H.A.T.E. Gosh, just saying that. I can't standing living in the same house as him. We just don't get along. One day, we're just going to kill one or the other. (Prolly me, though. He is bigger.) Haha, At least I have Marching Band to get away from him. Today was funny. and I got to teach the poles. We kept bickering about the counts. Still, I got to teach! Haha. Half way through paritce, I ties my tank top to my ribs. It was good until the guys started watching us. >.< I felt weirdish. Even a few kids from school were walking by. Haha. At least i've lost a lot of weight, so I'm not fat anymore. (Okay, just a little) Haven't had anytime for anything else. ]]> ~Painless-Tears Stupid compter! http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26670640/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26670640/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 12:11:19 PDT I feel like writing like this, 'kay?

So, as you know, I have a new yet older model computer. It was given to my father by a friend. The computer was combined with some other parts of my old desktop to make it work nice and good. So I thought.

The internet shuts off every few minutes and it has annoying fan. (My father put it in to discourage me from using it. He's an ass.) So, if I don't login for a few days, it's because I prolly smashed the computer into tiny pieces.

A few other probelms with it, but I fixed most of them. Like my old screen. It liked to disconnect itself. Which, caused me to lose most of my files. Or work. Ah, what a good computer.

Band camp. Jesus. My legs are burnt from the working in the sun. Owie. It also takes up all my art time. >.< But, I do have a nice tan.

]]> ~Painless-Tears And... I have internet. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26592097/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26592097/ Fri, 14 Aug 2009 14:56:48 PDT

Not much to say. Marching Band has been brutal. (Stupid humidity.) I hate my father. I hate the world in general. And men. If you didn't know that.

]]> ~Painless-Tears NO INTERNET http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26401802/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26401802/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 12:25:53 PDT
]]> ~Painless-Tears A little project<3 http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26186284/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26186284/ Sun, 26 Jul 2009 08:55:20 PDT [link]

~DevLittleHelpers

It's a dA project I'm working on. I need a Icon for it too. It was inspired by all the deviants asking me questions. The adorablely blissful ones.

]]> ~Painless-Tears I'm back. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26184781/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26184781/ Sun, 26 Jul 2009 06:42:56 PDT

When school starts the first few weeks I'm going on a break again.

Sorry for the short journel.

]]> ~Painless-Tears Stolen work, and I'm gone. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26155994/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26155994/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 17:31:25 PDT [link]
It's stolen.

]]> ~Painless-Tears I'm tired. I might close this account. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26150821/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26150821/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 12:39:35 PDT

]]> ~Painless-Tears ^FAQ ^Interviews http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26108478/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26108478/ Wed, 22 Jul 2009 12:51:47 PDT [link]

I decided to do a new FAQ. (Frequently Asked Questions.) You may add questions at any time.

Do you do request? No. Only close friends can get them.

:bulletsliver: What about art trades? Yes.

:blletblue: Collabs? No.

Commissions? Yes.

Can I get featured? Yes, though, you'll get featured when I get to it.

Do you do interviews? Yes. Always willing to.

What types of books do you like? Fictions. Romantic.Anything that's sweet, but daring. Nothing boring.

:bulletsliver: Write me a story? If the theme is good.

Once again, if you want to be interviewed, message me.

Lexii

]]> ~Painless-Tears I want to feature YOU. My watchers, my friends. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26091318/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26091318/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 16:20:59 PDT

I owe for featuring me in the news.

She's truly a sweet heart. (Look at her page too!)

Anyway, I want your favorite picture/films/wrting/scraps/WIPs/Pixelings/articles/websites to feature. You can give me up to three. Please give them in thumb nails codes.

The only request is, and you don't have to do it, is give me a quote with each one. It's just a touch I'd like to add. Or, give me an idea what was going through your head when you wrote/made it.

Old friends and brand new ones are welcomed to post. BUT, if we haven't spoken in about 3 months, I'll have to think about it. Why? Because you might just want the pageviews, and I'm tired of being used. Tired of being taken advanage of because I'm nice.

I won't take any posts after 26th of July.

Lexii

Ps. Contact me at Lexiistrahan@yahoo.com for question about anything.

To Do List Write First chapter of the Untouchables. Write first chapter of Pawn. (Which I'm taking a break from) Draw request for close friends. Make a journel for my Contest. Work on diet. Read school's summer book. Finish Blue Moon by Alyson Noel. Draw commisions. But attair for Marching Band. Start the interviews. ]]> ~Painless-Tears I'm only a little... gay. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26041947/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/26041947/ Sun, 19 Jul 2009 10:12:02 PDT Really. I'm tired of everyone babying me for being... me. Seriously, just make the gay, queer, homosexaully, ect. jokes. They do NOT bother me.

It doesn't annoy me, I actaully find they funny. It anooys me that you have to 'be nice' about what you say. Sheesh.

Anyway, I went to my town Carnival. Prettah fun.

I spent the night with

, My older brother, and my buddah Erin.

I went on the bumper cars with

I wa the man of the car. Lizz, (emokid) Had to take over after I nearly ran over the ride holder person. XD I deny asking for directions!

Erin and I went on the Merry-go-round together. She was so funny.

She spent her time fake stripping. I love her. <3

Then we went of the craziest ride. My brother, Erin, and I. Lizz was to scared. C:

]]> ~Painless-Tears Marching Band: Four Hpur Parade. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25963219/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25963219/ Wed, 15 Jul 2009 12:10:30 PDT
]]> ~Painless-Tears Keyboard is fixed, and sick. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25898942/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25898942/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 12:41:06 PDT I'm working with new codes and fonts now that I bought a new keyboard to hook up to my sister's laptop. How does it look?

I've been sick a lot lately. A few days ago I couldn't even stand up. Which was really bad. I still have a throat infection. And a fever. Blaahhhhh........

For the rest of summer I'll be very busy. With summer school and Marching and. Which sucks. Haha.

]]> ~Painless-Tears Wow. A year already? http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25772680/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25772680/ Mon, 06 Jul 2009 11:28:02 PDT
]]> ~Painless-Tears Help! http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25587460/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25587460/ Sat, 27 Jun 2009 13:12:08 PDT
]]> ~Painless-Tears Please fill this out. C: http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25565883/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25565883/ Fri, 26 Jun 2009 11:55:36 PDT 2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of dA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the "world peace", etc.). What are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you re-post this so I can fill it out for you?

]]> ~Painless-Tears List of work. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25492880/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25492880/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 10:43:57 PDT

Lose a whopper 10 pounds.

Finish Math packet for school.

Read school summer reading novels.

Do commishes.

Write for school therapist.

Restart Circus Collab

Restart Other collab.

Remember the others xD

]]> ~Painless-Tears GaiaOnline account! http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25475392/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25475392/ Mon, 22 Jun 2009 13:57:31 PDT
]]> ~Painless-Tears Cute Highschool Story!? http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25375001/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25375001/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 14:28:03 PDT Pawn thing. Wouldn't that be cool? Anyway, comment to tell me your idea to it. I'd love to bop to your suggestions.
Also, do anyone want a character in the mini story? That would be fun to do! Haha.

Fill out forms:

Name:
Age:
Sex:
Sexuality:
School Year:
Hobbies:
Likes:
Dislikes:
Background:

]]> ~Painless-Tears Sch-schools OUT! 8,000 Pageviews. Poetry Book. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25332677/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25332677/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 15:49:11 PDT
SCHOOL IS OUT! SUMMER VACAY! WRITING! FUCK YES!

Yesh, pageviewers, watchers, friends, I L.O.V.E You.

Also, I am writing a poetry book. :3

]]> ~Painless-Tears To do List! http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25220556/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25220556/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 16:14:05 PDT Contests

[link] Summer Love Contest.

[link] What I dream

[link] Music contest.

Requests:

None

=[

Collabs:

1 collab

ARt trades:

None.

]]> ~Painless-Tears ^School Finals ^Wildwood Parade http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25146200/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/25146200/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 15:25:48 PDT School Finals.
Woohoo. I missed the Part 1 of my english final today. The rest are starting on Tuesday. I have to study:

Science
Social Studies
English
Math
Health
and
Lunch.
(Just kidding)

I'm somewhat worried about them. Mostly math. 'Twis be about falling math this year. I tackled Social Studies, kinda.

Wildwood Parade

Saturday I'll be at the parade due to the fact I'm in my schools Colourgraud time. (Though, I'll be carrying a banner)

]]> ~Painless-Tears What's up? http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24947035/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24947035/ Mon, 25 May 2009 16:42:54 PDT [link]

Still working on it.

Want to help? PM (Private Messages, haha.) Love you all. Kisses. XOXOXO

]]> ~Painless-Tears Ouch.... http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24820955/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24820955/ Mon, 18 May 2009 11:48:00 PDT
]]> ~Painless-Tears Haha. Senstive moment. http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24657798/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24657798/ Fri, 08 May 2009 19:34:02 PDT He's eyes... I couldn't look into them. They were trotured in a way. The way he looked was beyond innocent... he was scared. Almost untouchable, in a way.

My friend said: Awwwww.

Hahaha.

]]> ~Painless-Tears 7,000 pageviews...and Random! http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24518236/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24518236/ Thu, 30 Apr 2009 17:21:37 PDT
So... Random is a year younger then me... and completely cute....

Haha, short journel...

]]> ~Painless-Tears Er... Bored.... http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24255681/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24255681/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 12:01:07 PDT
]]> ~Painless-Tears My... heart hurts... http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24188048/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24188048/ Sat, 11 Apr 2009 18:54:41 PDT He broke it. My tiny, little hurt. I hate men. I hate men! Why did I let him in. Why did I tell him all these things. Why did I flirt back. Why did i feel good, whenever I got his text? Why did I smile that one night, when he called me beautiful? Why?

Okay, the last two weeks, I have spoken to my friend's friend Jason. He's cute, and funny. Tough and soft. He made me smile, in a very long time. In two weeks, everything to fade away. I wanted to see him, in real life. We only spoke by texts. But, I was happy. Very happy.

Today, he ripped it away, in one menacing moment.

' I don't care about her, I already deleted her number.'

I gasp and shuddered. I cryied for a half an hour. I couldn't stop my last words were. ' I choose for you. It's forever. Later.' Icried a bit more. It hurt so much. A lot.

I smiled and laughed. I felt... wanted.

]]> ~Painless-Tears Devious Journal Entry http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24168115/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24168115/ Fri, 10 Apr 2009 16:05:48 PDT Good vs. Evil.

To explain this piece, you would have to understand the concept of with good is and evil is in my mind. Well, the concept is a slippery little sucker, so we must deal with it slowly or so patiently read this.

1) Good people or things come in multiply packagings. A rough person might be the thing your life needs. Someone, with a bad rough, I-hurt-you-if-you-look-at-me-wrong look might just be the gracious person youÂll ever meet. Some who cares for others? This person might not be the holist thing youÂll ever meet.

2) Bad people also come in different sizes or looks. Bad people arenÂt super villains; they are people who acted against laws. Not everyone who makes mistakes is bad; mostly the ones who do it without regret. A bad person could be that sweet girl/boy sitting beside you. Or that one person you really trust. You can never know.

This picture shows that, the fight between good and evil isnÂt super Heroes. ItÂs just the fight to help the world develop.

]]> ~Painless-Tears Hola? http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24134344/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24134344/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 17:46:25 PDT
]]> ~Painless-Tears FAQ - Mine. (Ask a Quest.) http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24054137/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/24054137/ Sat, 04 Apr 2009 08:16:27 PDT

1. Where do you live?

A small town in south New Jesey. It's very peaceful and beautiful. my house is moving back and forht. My exes house to my aunts.

2. What's going on with your father?

my father kicked me and my sibling and mother out the house. I now live with my out, but I spend most of my time at friends houses. I can't talk or see him.

]]> ~Painless-Tears Read http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/23973651/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/23973651/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 17:56:43 PDT
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours.

]]> ~Painless-Tears Self Harm http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/23972636/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/23972636/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 17:05:00 PDT smashedmyhandinadoorbecauseIwasverysad

What is wrong with me? Oh god someone save me. Didn't I just get over depression. It wouldn't go away. :sigh: Didn't I always so I was agianst self harm?

]]> ~Painless-Tears To a concert we go!! http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/23933887/ http://Painless-Tears.deviantart.com/journal/23933887/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 12:40:10 PDT o am guys. Going to my cousin's concert.

Love you!

]]> ~Painless-Tears