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I've been in school for month and I've made many new friends! I've been so busy I hardly get online anymore. But that's okay, that means I have a life! EEHEE! Anyways, My writing has progressed a lot. I'm working on a book. I'm on chapter five now. I don't post it on here because I never get any feedback.

I usually put it up on Lj. That's where I've been! LIVEJOURNAL YEAH YEHA YEAH! YEHA YE AH AH YE!!!
So yeah! Nothing's really changed. <3 I just thought I'd say hi.

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HAH! I bet you forgot about me. I know you did! But that's okay. I got me hearty broken again. Yeah. Thrice this year. I really shouldn't get attached to people to way I do, since I know they don't really care about me, you know? It's odd. I love people though. <3 They're great. Especially when they insult you and they tried to sound smart. LOL!

I'm working on a story, I might post on here since I haven't posted anything on here in forever. I got some free time that's why I'm updating. we talked about gay marriage in fourth block, and I didn't say a whole lot. Even though, I'm like, half-dyke, I just didn't say anything. I dunno why. I mean... I'm part of the gay community for goodness sakes! I guess I was overwhelmed. Ah well. But my life is good. I had bad spell of depression a couple of days ago but it's gone now. Teens get like that, you know? I know. I know. I'm really an old man in a sixteen year old's body. But shh. It's been working so far.

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Today was great! I presented my statue of faggotry, I think I got a good grade. I let Baily color all over it and yeah, now it's missing. Someone must've took it. If I didn't have to turn it in, I wouldn't care so much, but meh, Coach saw me present it, and now it's gone. They must've needed it more than me. That's what I'll tell Shattuck.

"All we are saying is give peace a chance!"

I finished the epic poem of Doop the Tree. It's pretty rocking. It's all dialogue, and yeah. I'm getting sick. DAMN DRAINAGE. You and your sneaky ways. You should suck it! Suck it hard! WARG! I'm lying... I love you drainage. Just because you're different doesn't mean you're bad. You make my voice squeaky. Thank you, drainage and allergies.

"Let's hear it from the hippies and the yippies!"

Why am I putting song lyrics into my journals? For the hell of it, that's why. :B UHOH BOB MARLEY'S OUT! I need to go give him a treat.

Peace.

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Today was beautiful, laced in magical boredom. Yes. I feel I am accomplished and done and I feel like someone dipped me in silver waters to cleanse me of any agitations, agrivations, and depression. Thank you.

"Who am I? Nobody else can see..."

I had homework and was happy. Gave me something to do. Too bad I finished it so quickly and left me dry and bored. I cannot go outside and play today. It is raining. Hard. And annoyingly so I must add. People thought there was something wrong with me today. No. I'm tired. Je suis fatiguee. And I was calm and they didn't like that. I notice how people don't like change... It was almost amusing. Almost. Moreso annoying though. But you know... I'm happy they care. Or they feign caring. That's almost sweeter than actually caring. Because you're going against your head and asking this person for the hell of it if they're okay, when you could care less. That is most sincere when people are fake. It's harder to be fake. Kudos to you, you fake bastards. <3 I love you all. I know who are real and who are not. The real one shine brighter than any fake man could.

"Just you and me... Who are we?"

I've finally found a song to do for Music Tuesday in Creative Writing. It's by John Lennon. The lyrics I randomly post in my journal are in the song. It's called Look At Me. Very beautiful acoustic. <3 I thought perhaps it would reflect on my calm personality. What?! You're calm?! HAH. Actually I am. Yes, I do get excited at school, but you only see me 8 hours in a day. You only know me for those 8 hours. I go home and I rest. I am very calm. My mood changes, because another day is ended, it's time to be calm. Some people can't do this. Some people have to stay in the same disposition for that familiarity for everyone else. Today I was calm at school until I got around my friends. Anyhow. Enough of this philosophy...

Speaking of philosophy! Carson-Newman has a good philosophy thing. I am intrigued. I'll look deeper into it. Majoring in Philosophy and minoring in History. Yes. Well. I hope your day was as calm and peaceful and lovely as mine. perhaps not as boring though. I wouldn't wish that on anyone.

"Oh... My love... Oh, my love..."

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Doctor hasn't called. Granny's still sick. I'm freaking out. Why won't they call? What's taking so long? What could be inside of her? I feel weak and small and childlike. She's in there coughing right now, reading her a book. There's nothing I can do. If I believe in god I'd pray. I'd pray like you wouldn't imagine.

I've been so tired... I got to play outside like a kid again. I climbed a tree and all that great stuff. Shoulda been inside doing homework, but whatever. Like it's hard stuff. Pshht.

"She said life he won't be denied..."

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Thought my sister was gonna come out and hang but I guess not. I made my statue and it looks like shit. Pure unadulterated shit. Yeah. can't wait to paint this steamy pile of shit.

Watched Night at the Museum, I swear that is now my fave movie. I love it. I got Rebecca to watch Blue Spring. She said she liked it but it put her to sleep. I guess she's too young to get it. Well, whatever.

"You got the kind of loving that can be so smooth."

Valentine's Day is coming. Who will commit faggotry this year? Ah well, I don't expect anything or anyone. I've already been asked, but I'm not interested. WE'RE JUST FRIENDS. Yeah.

Can't wait for school tomorrow... Okay, I'm lying. I wanna stay home and cry. Cry cry cry. I think that's all I'm good for anymore. Oh well, at least I'm good at something. Hope everyone's well and that stuff.

Peace.

]]> ~Pandazilla http://Pandazilla.deviantart.com/journal/16464475/ http://Pandazilla.deviantart.com/journal/16464475/ Fri, 18 Jan 2008 18:42:34 PST that punk!
1. Post these rules
2. Each person must post 8 random facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal about these facts
4. At the end tag 8 more people
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged


1. I like school.
2. I just got a new computer. Dude, it's a Dell.
3. I'm listening to Michael Jackson...
4. I'm reading Nietzsche's view on poetry, pretty awesome.
5. I can speak some French, Korean, and some Japanese. Some Spanish too.
6. I smell popcorn.
7. I have a three-day weekend! Thank you, MLK jr, for being born!
8. Now I'm listening to Louise Attaque.

Okay... I will tag...

Because we both love Gojira!
Because Fir's a poet and a wonderful one at that!
Heehee! Can't wait to see your random 8 facts!
Because I love him and his sense of humor.
Hooray! Waffles!
He shares my passion for gaming.
Who doesn't wanna learn 8 random facts from her?
Because she fav's my stuff a lot! And she's super nice, too!


Well, get to it, mates!

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This upcoming Summer I hope to get a job at a flower shop. I'm going to save up enough money for my sugar glider a girlfriend; he needs to get laid. Also I'm going to finish this story I'm writing by next autumn and then get an agent. Would you buy my book? I hope you would if you saw it.

I hope everyone's Christmas was fun. Mine was! ^^

I wish I lived in a city sometimes... So I could visit my friends. I could just walk to their house. Or at least live in a little town where you can walk to school. You know, that stuff. But I live in a trailer park in the middle of no where. I can't walk to school, I can't walk to my friends' houses. I'd hang with my kids in my trailer park but they're all a bunch of douches that only care about vaginas and cigarettes. Because of them I can't put my garden gnome outside because I'm afraid they'll steal it.

I hope to hang out with my sister today. Maybe help her with errands. Jeez, a car would be nice. I don't how I'll get a job if I'm dependent on people to take me there. I don't even know how to drive. My sister's trying to teach me though and I can only go slow.

That's it.

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I really liked it.

Then we listened to some bluegrass and the Hillbilly in me came out. Of course the hippie in me wanted to get naked and roll around on the grass. <3 (It was outside on a big hill) It was a lot of fun and I hung out with my sis, her mum, and my best friend. I loved it! They had neat crafts there too! Fun fun fun!

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And... I think my sugar glider Bob Marley is crazy or retarded or something. He'll sit in his cage and watch me. Maybe he's a pervert! I do not want to engage in bestiality with him! No matter how much he bribes me! And... Yeah, I'm in a really good mood. YAY! I hope everyone is having a great weekend and it's not just me that's high on life. <3

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Oh yeah, I talked to this boy I liked (lamely) and he was okay with it. I think I R n luv. Yes. <3

Anyways, I didn't have any homework this afternoon or anything else to do so I got to be lazy! I am so in love~ I think I could write another poem, you should check out my newest one. <3 OH YES.

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I have a big mouth. Such a big mouth that I'm in trouble now. This large girl, older than myself, beat up a seventh grader yesterday. This morning I was telling another girl that it wasn't a fair fight. When we get off the bus to school I always sit and let everyone else off before me because I'm lazy and don't feel I should jump over people and go between their legs to get off.

And as this girl gets off she looks back at me (I'm still sitting) and stares me down hard. It scares me and... I think she heard my big mouth. And now I think she wants to physically harm me.

And I'm anxious (the bad kind). Anxiety is like burning my heart up inside me and tearing at my innards?

Advice? Kind words? It's all appreciated.

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I sound like those emo girls. I do, don't I?

I'm miserable and I have nothing to console me. And I am upset over a boy! The last thing that should bother me. I'm considered one of the guys. That chick that hangs out with so-and-so. I really do think I love him though I am too young to love.

I'm a loser compared to him. I'm at the bottom of the food chain at school. I'm down there with nerds and boys who take their cousins to the dances. And the gent I fancy... He's at the top with the faceless people whose names you hear in the hallways.

I'm done sulking. I suppose all I can do now is say that today was good besides. I'm open to advice on how to get over this. Deep down I want him to ask me to be his girlfriend but then I think back to how my social status is... BLEGH.

I don't think it was meant to be. And I think this is my longest journal entry yet!

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]]> ~Pandazilla http://Pandazilla.deviantart.com/journal/14429484/ http://Pandazilla.deviantart.com/journal/14429484/ Fri, 31 Aug 2007 17:24:24 PDT 1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they're tagged

RANDOM FACTS

1~ I like to laugh, a lot. At weird stuff.
2~ I can speak some Japanese and Korean and some French.
3~ I don't believe in bossing others around. That's just gay.
4~ I am patriotic... To CANADA.
5~ I don't really care what others think.
6~ I like to cook.
7~ My favorite colour is yellow.
8~ I have a secret passion for all effacing of politics, meaning I am an anarchist. <3

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I love my journal. I think I'll name it Bagism. Bagism ftw. John Lennon forever. I'm really bored. END OF POST.

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I hope to cope. xD And not fail horribly. <33 I love school.

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Anyhow, today was wonderful. Went shopping with my elderly sister. Got jeans, yes. And a book I've been wanting. <3 THAT'S IT!

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Maybe some day~ <3

School's is good. Freshmen aren't all... that made fun of at my school, which is good, I mean... None of the upper classmen bother me, so it's all good!

I'm really sleepy! >< ]]> ~Pandazilla http://Pandazilla.deviantart.com/journal/9080743/ http://Pandazilla.deviantart.com/journal/9080743/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 19:39:44 PDT ~Pandazilla http://Pandazilla.deviantart.com/journal/8800242/ http://Pandazilla.deviantart.com/journal/8800242/ Wed, 17 May 2006 16:50:27 PDT I hate pop-ups. D:

I bought some books today. One on Etiquette(sp?) and A Tail Of Two Cities that caught my interest AND a book about feudal Japan that's fictional. I also bought a book about pandas and a book on East Asia. <3 Hmn... well 'tis late and such... SO GOOD BYEEEE.

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