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(Make this disappear with your eyes)

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I can't apologize enough for myself. ]]> ~Paramnesiac http://Paramnesiac.deviantart.com/journal/4938363/ http://Paramnesiac.deviantart.com/journal/4938363/ Mon, 28 Mar 2005 21:23:37 PST
What a monster this life has made of me.
Though I still feel, somewhere hidden within.

"Surrender, and know I've failed you."

I know I've failed all.
Atleast up is the only way to go when you've hit rock bottom.
What an optimistic statement from me.
Or maybe it's just so apathetic that it seems good.
Perhaps I'm so apathetic that I seem ok.
No matter, I'm the only one who seems to notice, or even care to notice.
And even that is slowly dieing.

What a lifeless monster this life has made of me.
What a careless, thoughtless, wreckless, indecisive being is forged from the cold path laid out for me.
What a hole of a soul, what a demon of a conscious, what a dry lump of a liquid churning heart.

What a monster,
I'am.

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Has anyone ever thought about sleep so much while they were trying to sleep that they realized the absolute ghastlieness of it? How one can seemingly detach themselves from existence for so long, and then just be back is scary to me. It's a catatonic state where our mind is constantly going, our subconcious is revealed, and we are ourselves, we know what we need, desire, hate, and love. Then we snap back to reality where we are demons in our own body. I believe that this is the closest anyone could come to death, and it pulls the strings of theories of mine about the afterlife.

I hate it when this happens to me, it always leads to death, and that always leads to the realization that I will die and will have lived in vain. I will go unnoticed and forgotten, and no trace of me left behind save a check and a box six feet deep in a cemetary where noone will recognize my dilapidated tombstone. It honestly makes me humor suicide...I'll be going now. ]]> ~Paramnesiac http://Paramnesiac.deviantart.com/journal/3949296/ http://Paramnesiac.deviantart.com/journal/3949296/ Mon, 29 Nov 2004 16:15:25 PST ~Paramnesiac http://Paramnesiac.deviantart.com/journal/3737172/ http://Paramnesiac.deviantart.com/journal/3737172/ Tue, 02 Nov 2004 19:16:37 PST ~Paramnesiac http://Paramnesiac.deviantart.com/journal/3354880/ http://Paramnesiac.deviantart.com/journal/3354880/ Mon, 13 Sep 2004 13:44:06 PDT ~Paramnesiac http://Paramnesiac.deviantart.com/journal/3205669/ http://Paramnesiac.deviantart.com/journal/3205669/ Tue, 24 Aug 2004 20:33:03 PDT ~Paramnesiac