http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ParanoiaOverdose&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ParanoiaOverdose en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 15 Dec 2009 17:57:12 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/28620432/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/28620432/ Fri, 27 Nov 2009 22:34:47 PST
I've only just finished putting together the desk. It's pretty sweet. A nice big corner one that has room for all my shit. It's now the biggest thing in my room. Including my bed. And the chair is big and comfy. And the mat is nice a smooth? O_o My chair rolls good on it. ^_^ (That was awesome grammar.)

I was also able to set up my second monitor with this new spacious desk. It's a 19" LCD TV, but has a VGA connection so I'm using it. xD Looks a little chunky next to my 20", but works well enough.

What about everyone else? Bought anything new and wanna boast? xD I'm listening.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/27970844/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/27970844/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 01:28:20 PDT These words get overused.

It's freaking cold, d00d! It's meant to be summer warm and here I am huddled in tracky pants and a hoodie.

Amazing new T&S album is amazing and new. Their progression is amazing. Keep going strong, guys.

New computer is AWESOMESAUCE! 1TB HDD, 4GB RAM, Quad Core CPU, 1GB Graphics, Windows 7 64x OS. It packs a serious punch. Be jealous.

Going to Pokolbin this weekend for Jazz In The Vines. See some people, relax with some jazz and wine. Staying with a friend. *Grins* Will be driving up after work on Friday. Wish me luck. So I don't crash and die. =/

Tafe blows. Did finish my Technical Documentation though, so kudos. Work is fine. Getting a bit over it but. I'm so ready for a change that I am getting itchy.

...The End.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/26664921/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/26664921/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 05:57:11 PDT
I bought a new $300 phone not yet a year ago, but on the weekend I bought another coz I was bored with the last one. This one was $250.

I broke my first netbook due to usage so I went out on the same day and bought a new one. That was within 6 months.

I have multiple External HDD's, I upgraded my netbooks HDD to 500GB and am tossing up the idea of upgrading again. To 1TB.

I bought an iPod. Just cause. And now I want a Zune.

Blah.

And now I am pricing and piecing together the things I need to build a desktop. Plus new tools for my pathetic excuse of a toolbox.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/22389043/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/22389043/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 08:01:00 PST
Apart from that life is the same. I have geeked out a bit and bought myself a little Eee PC. It's pretty sweet. Already looking for an upgrade though. Hah.

Photography has been blown out of the water. I just don't have time anymore. And to be truthful, my passion for it has waned. I want it to come back, but we will see.

My work phone has a rad camera on it. It's basically more camera than phone.

So, enough of my random musings.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/19247293/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/19247293/ Tue, 26 Aug 2008 21:11:51 PDT
1. Who is in the room with you?
No one. Mum just went back to work.

2. Who is the last person to text you?
Ash.

3. Whose house did you last go to?
*shrugs* Uh... Maybe... The Millers?

4. Who was the last person you told you love them?
Chloe and mum.

- THE WHATS;

5. What was the last thing you ate?
Well, I'm eating a sandwhich now.

6. What was the last thing you did?
God dressed and hung the washing out.

7. What type of pants are you wearing?
Faded black jeans.

8. What is the closest item near you that is blue?
A box of blank CD's.

9. What are you wearing on your feet?
Black and grey socks. Macthing for once.

10. What instant messaging service do you use?
MSN.

11. What is your favorite website?
Livejournal, new forum, AE.com.

12. What is your favorite pair of shoes?
My leather boots.

13. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
Jeans.

14. What is the last movie watched?
Um. I... Can't remember. Toy Story?

15. What do you currently hear right now?
I can hear Nils Folke Valdemar singing to me. Yes, me. And some cars driving past.

- THE WHENS;

16. When is your birthday?
4th of June.

17.When did you last go to the mall?
Uh, I think I drove down to get bread on Saturday.

18. When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
2 weeks ago.

19. When did you last take a shower?
Last night.

- THE WHERES;

20. Where is your favorite place to be?
In bed.

21. Where is your phone?
Near my right hand.

22. Where is your mom?
AT work. And she is 'mum', thank you.

23. Where do you sleep?
In my bed. I love my bed.

24. Where do you shop the most?
Online.

25. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
A shop.

26. Where in your house are you?
In the living room/lounge room/kitchen/computer area.

27. Where was your default pic taken?
*Shrugs*

- THE WHY'S;

28. Why did you fall in love with the one you love or have loved?
Stupidity. I hope to change that.

29. Why does, basically, half the world have a deviantART account?
Because everyone thinks they have talent? Just like Australian Idol auditions. xD

30. Why did you pick your deviantART user name?
Dunno.

31. Why did you pick your background?
Well, you can't. dA did for me.

32. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
None of your business.

PS. I am not in 'agony'. It just wont change. *sighs* Have pity on me, dA. Please.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/18317765/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/18317765/ Wed, 14 May 2008 09:11:31 PDT
I would delete at least half right now if it didn't take so much fucking time!!

ARRRRGHHHH!

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/17954102/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/17954102/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 05:48:21 PDT
So. Wanna know some facts?

Fact number one: I am sick and tired of being a fucking unemployed bum! I am trying so fucking hard to get a job and all I seem to get is rejection. Rejection, rejection, rejection. From everyone. It feels like even my friends are rejecting me. Maybe I am being overtly sensitive, but... FUCK ME DEAD!

Fact number two: I feel like a mother. Except Grace gets time out without the kids. I don't. I have not left the house without Grace and the kids since I moved in. I am sick of screaming kids. I am sick of changing nappies, wiping dirty hands and faces, jiggling crying babies, warming up bottles of milk, sharing my fucking cereal in the morning! Fuck!

Fact number three: My camera died. And it left a hole in me. I feel incomplete.

Fact number four: Nearly all of my friends live in the same town as me now and I see them maybe once every 3 weeks or so. If that. Is it my fault? Am I slack? I have no car. I have no licence. I have two kids that are half my responsibility. Should I be the one feeling guilty?

Fact number five: This thing with Shane cannot be fixed. Too many hurtful words have been said. I'm over the effort it takes to care. I have too many other worries to give a rats about his drug taking arse. His freak of a girlfriend. His shit. He wont even pay what he owes me back. Over $100. Reckons we are square. Yeah, as square as a fucking tree, arsehole! I threatened him. Told him I would mess up his pretty face. He told me he was going to the cops. I can't be-fucking-lieve him!

Can I punch him? Srsly? *Beyond angry*

Fact number six: I'm cold. Cold and tired.

Goodnight.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/17435965/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/17435965/ Fri, 21 Mar 2008 01:38:44 PDT
And if something happens on the street, like massive street brawls (It has been known to happen. -_-), it it generally closer to my place than Shane's. So he texts me, "Copz out front ur place. chek it out, aye." Because me and mum are oblivious. xD

I'm not sure where my home is right now. Home doesn't feel like the Bennetts nor the house in Peak. They are places I sleep at. Strangely enough, the Millers place feels more homely.

You know those things that you see that make you smile no matter what? I found another one. Watching Shane play with 3 yo Dylan. Throwing him over his shoulder, tickling him, singing with him, showing him the stars as they come out. He will make such a good dad one day. I would love to still be around to see it. More than anything.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/17174100/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/17174100/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 01:54:32 PST Chloe or Shane, I suppose.

2. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Depends. Sometimes keeping secrets makes it easier to deal with.

3. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
Yeah.

4. Can you do the splits?
Nope.

5. Do you get along better with guys or girls?
Depends. Used to be guys. Probably girls now.

6. Last person you texted?
Emma.

7. Do you like shows like Forensic Files and Unsolved Mysteries?
Meh.

8. Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
Night.

9. List 1 person you were best friends with in 6th grade?
Quentin?

10. Name the best person who could cheer you up.
Chlo.

11. Have you been to New York City?
No.

12. Who is the last person you added to your contacts list in your phone?
I... Dunno.

13. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
I do, but it was a present and I have never worn it.

14. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Mum.

15. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Shane, my home boy.

16. Heard any really great quotes lately?
Probably. My brain is like a strainer lately.

17. Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
I hope so.

18. MySpace or Facebook?
Myspace. I am loyal.

19. Do you remember the name of your first school you ever went to?
Nyngan Public.

20. Have you ever tattooed anyones name on you?
No.

21. Who is your number one on myspace?
I... Dunno. Been awhile since I was on there. Suppose I am not as loyal as I think...

22.What is the name of your siblings best friend?
Lauren, Sophie or Rachel.

23. What's the most appealing thing about the opposite sex?
The hair on their face is funny?

24. Which year has been the best so far?
Meh.

25. Ever found more than a dollar in a random place?
Yup. Found a fiddy once.

26. Has anyone ever been more important to you than a family member?
Just as important.

27. Last time you smiled?
When Mikie was playing peekaboo with me.

28. Last text message in your inbox?
Was from Emma or Chlo.

29. When is your next road trip?
Who knows.

30. Would you cry if you found out you were pregnant right now?
Not happening. Ever. By that I mean accidentally. Turkey basters are not really, "Oops, I slipped!" material.

31. Where is your phone?
In front of me on the desk.

32. Do you think your current pets will be alive ten years from now?
I don't want to think about it. Ever.

33. When was your last bubble bath?
Ages ago.

34. Do you know anyone by the name of Dennis?
No.

35.Where is your pet right now?
At home.

37. What colour phone do you have?
Red and black.

38. How many kids do you want to have?
2.

39. What outfit do you have on at this exact moment?
Shorts and shirt I wear to bed. I just showered. Mmm, clean.

40.What color are your eyes?
Green.

41. What are you doing tomorrow?
Driving lesson.

42. Do you know someone who likes you?
No.

43. Does a heartbreak feel as bad as it sounds?
Worse.

44. What colour is your hair?
Dark brown.

46. What is the closest blue object to you?
Sticky note.

47. Have you eaten popcorn in the past 48 hours?
Nope.

49. Have you ever been in handcuffs?
When I was little and let Bec tie me up. I think I broke them trying to get out of it.

50. If you could say anything to any one person what would it be?
"You have no idea."

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/16972148/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/16972148/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 05:08:22 PST Rules:
Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!

1. Hey how are you, I think I might explode, I found a box, which said "open and choose".

2. Someone right now is leaving their apartment, looking down at the street, wondering where there car went.

3. Now it seems I’m fading, all my dreams are not worth saving.

4. Allo Lola, c'est encore moi, j'ai beaucoup penser à toi Lola.

5. I've been typing for hours while he waits, alone in the bushes.

6. I'll bite my tongue this time, but you'll never ever get it in time.

7. She's wearin' dresses on the borderline, or making senses that were lost in time.

8. This feeling never dies. The fever never breaks. It shakes under your skin, and drips across your face.

9. Lark throated spit through beaks tonight, these gagging chirps were written in disguise.

10. I guess I'm trying to say I'm sorry, but it always comes out wrong.

11. You fight me, flat on my lonely face I fell. Finding in the end I live well.

12. What if I, lead a different life, would you stay, stay?

13. You’re so impossible. Scream and moan, it chills my soul.

14. Well I tripped, I fell down naked. Well I scratched my knees, they bled.

15. Like I said, "Leave your baggage at the back door". I'm leaving you the way I think it should be.

16. You remind me of a cigarette, you burn up slowly and then go out like that.

17. Mardi Gras came and went, all my money has been spent, how 'm I gonna pay the rent.

18. It seems like every time we’re here I look right back at you. As your eyes perk up and you say "boy, don’t you come unglued."

19. Where will I be, when there's pain as far as eyes can see.

20. Didn't I know you, mystery man? Strange as all new thoughts on impotence.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/16811428/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/16811428/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 05:36:58 PST It's not cool. In the slightest. Unemployment sucks.

My plan right now is to get my lisence, move to my Aunty's place, get a job packing shelves at night while I look for a day job. Could end up a checkout chick. Packing shelves at night and serving the scum of humanity during the day. YAY!

Excuse me for my lack of enthusiasm. <_<

I don't think I would mind working during the night. Give me something to do during my fits of insomnia. And it's easier to sleep during the day.

I'm gunna go pee now.

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

My head is pounding I can't stop the pounding
I think it is going to explode
And kill everybody who's in close proximity to the place I call my home
And they'll make a moving made for tv movie for Life Time all about my life
That ends with an epitaph one that will make you laugh
That says "great mom okay wife"
At it'll be funny to the people who know me
Who know if my body's not burned
My soul will spend an eternity in misery
Tethered and bound to this earth
So I'm not a dick or a stick in the mud always ruining things for my friends
I mustn't forget when I see the sun set that tomorrow it will rise again

So I tattoo instructions on my ass
That say "don't ever put this body in a casket
Burn it and put the ashes in a basket
And throw them in the Puget Sound
I don't ever want to be under ground"
Oh no, oh no

I wearing size thirteen basketball shoes
And laugh at your fishnets
I'm freaked out and fucked up
And I'm standing alone in an alley with you
Wanting to show you a cure for your hiccups
But instead I close my eyes
The needles are numbered so I'm writing you letters
And I cannot disguise the fact that I'm nervous when we are together
And so I fantasize
That the nights will get shorter and the days will get better
I feel a kick inside and decide
If this is a girl I'm naming her Heather
She'll look just like you but her hair will be feathered
She'll say how you died before you ever met her
Her hair will be feathered

My head is pounding I can't stop the pounding
I think it is going to explode
There are plus and minuses to sinuitus
Like sometimes I get to go home
But mostly it hurts so bad I think I'm dying
I just blew my nose and now I feel like crying
And the dreams that I have are all of my past lives
And the seizures would paralyze me in the night
And I wake up clutching my teddy bear tight
I'm drooling and trying to turn on the light
All I can do is hold fast and sit tight
But what if they forget 'cause you know they just might

So I tattoo instructions on my ass
That say "don't ever put this body in a casket
Burn it and put the ashes in a basket
And throw them in the Puget Sound
I don't ever want to be under ground"
Oh no, oh no.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/15785809/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/15785809/ Mon, 03 Dec 2007 20:46:25 PST
I have applied for very few jobs. I suck. But I did send in my CV and a coverletter for a job at Advancedphoto last night. Or something like that. They take school photos.

I have done many, many loads of washing today. Trying to get the house ready for my Aunty and Uncles return tomorrow, late. It's not like I have partied the whole time, but I still feel the need to clean up a bit.

I am addicted to NMH. Like, obsessively. Sooo goooood.


Must. Play. Loudly. At. All. Times.

Srsly.

Anyway. Peace out, Fucktards.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/15065580/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/15065580/ Sun, 14 Oct 2007 21:15:57 PDT
And the dude from Santa Photo's is organising a time for me and him to meet in Wellington.

Things are falling into place. Finally.

Damn, exams. <_< I hate yooooou! Sooo much.

I also hate teachers that come up to me and tell me how to study.

I mean, if I don't know by now I'm pretty much screwed and there is no point tell me. Duh.

I hate it, also, how the teachers are surprised to see me, Hope, at school. But, I think they think I am here to study and see teachers.

Little do they know... *Evil laugh*

...

15 DVD's. This is gunna be fuuuuun.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/14962010/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/14962010/ Sun, 07 Oct 2007 20:23:09 PDT 1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged, must post 8 random facts about themselves .
3. Tags should write a blogpost of these facts.
4. At the end of the post, 8 more bloggers are tagged and named.
5. Go to their blog, leave a comment telling them they are tagged.

1. I like grass. The lawn variety.
2. I enjoy hanging the washing out. Gives me time to think and fresh air.
3. R&B and rap music isn't so bad.
4. I am definitely going up to Townsville after exams. No if, buts or maybe's. [Love you, Chlo.]
5. I have two huge boxes of Photography magazines. Bloody thanks, mum. <_<
6. I think finding 8 random facts about me is hard.
7. I like being 'black on the inside'. Means I can get any sod layed into. Hahahahaha.
8. I am weird.

I suppose I need to tag people now.

Okay:




]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/14570605/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/14570605/ Mon, 10 Sep 2007 04:14:18 PDT
Some silences are easy and full of understanding. Others are strained and forced. I can't breech a barrier and it's frustrating. I can't reach beyond for something more. Something needed.

Can feelings be there but not, at the same time? Can hate be love? And love be hatred? There is a thin line between such emotions. Both are so... Consuming, demanding and ultimately destroying.

I shall now list things I love to counter this melancholy I have fallen into.

-Star watching, catching a hidden glance, easy silence, comfortable embraces, lulling Fridays, Chloe, camping in green, wet, fresh grass, sundried laundry, friends that say the right thing at the most important moments, saying "I love you" and having it said back, books that when you finish them leave a bittersweet, empty yet inspirational feeling in their wake, hot coffee on cold, miserable mornings.

And so, so much more.

Feeling better now. Thanks for listening. *Small smile*

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13728053/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13728053/ Sat, 14 Jul 2007 02:00:57 PDT
I shall outlaw ovens. No cooking of such a wonderfully tasting treat should be allowed.

Amen.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13704328/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13704328/ Thu, 12 Jul 2007 05:54:43 PDT
Did Mums jobs around town today. Such as, bank checks, cash checks, get pay slips, photocopy, buy bread and eggs and post letters. When I came home mum was siiiiick.

I called the doctors surgery. When Dr. Sue got back to me she told me mum should go down to the hospital and get an injection to stop the spinning and vomiting. Hm, easier said than done.

Mum sat up, vomited. Got dressed, vomited. Brushed her hair, vomited. And so on. I eventually got her into the car and drove her to the hospital at 3pm. At 4 she got the injection. At 5 she was spinning again. So then they started her on a drip. At 8:30, when I came home, she was on her third drip. I sat by her bed holding her hand nearly the whole time. The nurses offered me drinks and magazines. I refused. I paced sometimes. Back and forth. Back and forth.

Mum was groaning and making those sick noises. It was distressing. When the nurses did something with her or to her I always watched to make sure they did it right. Pfft, like I knew what right was. I am not medically trained. But I still watched. And glared when a nurse was overly rough.

Anyway, Shane came around and ate tea with me and only just left. Made me feel alot better. He does that. Awesome bloke.

I rang my Aunty and my sister. I didn't want to ring Nan because my Pa had just gone to hospital that night and she was stressed out enough as it was. And Mum will be back tomorrow and when her strength is up she can ring and talk to Nan then.

Ugh, I am so tired. Didn't sleep much last night and tea was my first meal since tea the night previously. I need a coffee.

A strong coffee.

Oh, and I forgot to buy fucking dog food. Poor pup.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13680557/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13680557/ Tue, 10 Jul 2007 06:26:17 PDT
Got my portifolio and resume cleaned up and presentable.

Booked an appointment with Central West Group Apprentices (CWGA). Am going to sit a test and then an interview this Friday at 9am.

I rang up and the receptionist was an old childhood friend, Kyle Keen. In the middle of me giving her my contact number she was like, "You may not remember me but we were friends when we were kids." I said I did actually remember her.

Anyway, I should go. I need something to eat.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13493034/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13493034/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 01:28:31 PDT
Uh, I only went because my mother begged. And Mr Maher threatened to terrorise her if I didn't.

I got the same thing from every teacher. "Hope needs to revise more and create better study habits out of school." Blah, blah, blah.

With English and Photography I got, "Hope is extremely talented but tends to cruise along because she lacks motivation. She only does enough to get by and no more."

Meh. I know that. I aced one of my essay questions in the trial English exam for 'Raw'. It was perfect, apparently. *Beams* I don't think my dialogue essay was too bad either.

Ancient History trial exam is tomorrow. 12:30pm. Ew.

I doubt I will do overly well. Hopefully I don't bomb out like I did with Maths and Senior Science. My SS teacher told me he was disappointed with my outcome in the exam. I felt to bad.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13319280/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13319280/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 16:47:43 PDT
Earache, blocked ears, sore throat, swollen glands, cough, phlegm in lungs aaaaand... sore knockers! (Hahaha, Emma!)

Am nearly done my video again. I am happy with what is done so far. Text and animation has been added. Am just in the process of blurring out Troys arse. Lol.

I have Maths next. Ew. Revision for Trial Exams.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13230637/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13230637/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 17:00:31 PDT
So is the storage drive that it was saved on.

Gone.

Dead.

Departed.

Mr Allen is pretty upset. He thinks that someone deleted it.

WHO WOULD DELETE A 300G HDD??!!

...

*Rawr*

I am slight upset. Well, thats the understatement of the year.

*Sulks*

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13230634/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13230634/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 17:00:21 PDT
So is the storage drive that it was saved on.

Gone.

Dead.

Departed.

Mr Allen is pretty upset. He thinks that someone deleted it.

WHO WOULD DELETE A 300G HDD??!!

...

*Rawr*

I am slight upset. Well, thats the understatement of the year.

*Sulks*

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13205314/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/13205314/ Sun, 03 Jun 2007 17:30:28 PDT
And I got a needle.

The End.

*Classical music starts playing*

*Credits roll*

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12985032/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12985032/ Thu, 17 May 2007 02:16:14 PDT
It's just... I don't want to take photo's. And I hate that feeling. Truly.

My headphones are cutting in and out. I have a stomach ache. I have assessments coming out of my ears. I am sick of the Forum. Sick of manga. Sick of anime. Sick of reading books. Sick of downloading.

And I am sick of not wanting to take photo's.

And to top it off I am nervous about tomorrow's mock interviews.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12812149/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12812149/ Wed, 02 May 2007 06:01:32 PDT
[Okay, I can mark that off my list of "to-do's"]

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12748437/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12748437/ Thu, 26 Apr 2007 21:27:38 PDT
A.k.a. This evening.

Should be good. I have a reasonable amount of grog.

Taking my swag. Well, my dad's. I will be getting my own soon for my birthday.

...

My jaw hurts from chewing gum all day. And I swollowed a piece first period. *pouts*

My tongue hurts from eating a hot pie.

My tongue is yellow from chicken salt.

My eyes hurt from... the lighting of the room?

I'm actually not excited. At all. I'm sure it will be fun tonight... but, I don't feel right.

...Well, that was random.

*Coughs*

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12609612/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12609612/ Sun, 15 Apr 2007 18:15:13 PDT
And I am so proud of myself! I stacked my bike yesterday for the first time in years. YEARS!

I got a nasty gash on my knee. And some grazes on my knuckles and elbow.
Oh, and I ripped the knee out of my jeans.

I was riding along a dirt track behind Shane and my tire dug into some loose dirt. The handle bars twisted and I went flying over them.

I told Shane and he patted me on the back, telling me how proud of me he was. Heh. Idiot.

Picture time!! *Squee*

Boo-boo: [link]

My over the top first aid: [link]

And then that night Shane, Korine, Karl and I camped in the nature walk thingo. It's illegal to camp there. It was uncomfortable. Rocky ground. No mattress. Sore back.

Ian and Ashley came out. We had alcohol because Karl wanted it. He drank alot. I had 2 cans of Woodstock.

Karl would not shut up! All night yabba yabba yabba. Shane pulled some of his hair out to shut the fucker up!!

I sat down on the track with my sleeping bag, tent, tarps and bag in the morning because they were annoying me and some random dude with a dog comes strolling by asking if I was a hitch-hiker!!

I was like, "Noooo..." *Shifty eyes*

Anyway. That was my day yesty.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12534287/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12534287/ Tue, 10 Apr 2007 03:30:38 PDT
I lost control of my toothbrush the other day.

I should be fined for drink brushing.

My gum hurts. Alot.

I was brushing rather hard, like you do when your mouth feels all furry and disgusting. My elbow bumped the towel railing and my toothbrush careered off my teeth and into my gum leaving a trail of destrustion and pain.

It was late. I had had too much to drink. I should have thought more before picking up that tube of toothpaste. I was irresponsible and foolish.

Let this be a warning to all about the kind of hurt and agony drink brushing can cause.

I bid you all a good night.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12465186/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12465186/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 03:05:19 PDT Step 2: Post the first line from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.

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1. Woe, how pitifull this is, knowing you can kiss me.

2. I gave you everything, but it just wasn't enough to make you stay.

3. I found a letter that said: "I'm sorry that you were asleep when I wrote these words down,"

4. Step up. It is time to learn the hard way.

5. A handful of sand is all that you grab, as you're watching the money fall, right through your hands.

6. All alone, and now it feels so hopeless.

7. You're so meaningless and forgettable.

8. Remind yourself, that they are the ones who will hold you still.

9. Autonomous machete for hands, warden and judge hide behind masks.

10. I will promise myself I won't care distracting myself from your stare.

11. I hear, a voice say dont be so blind.

12. I'm not giving up just yet, I won't give up 'till I lose.

13. I know it's hard for you, to understand what I'm going through.

14. Oh, I hate to be the one to bear the bad news. Yes, it is true I finally fell in love.

15. Curtains. Steady, this won't hurt a bit.

16. Disintegration constituents to decompose of the parts.

17. When I see your smile, tears roll down my face I can't replace.

18. Take apart every piece of this machine, leave my broken body in the street, I'll stammer drunk and hallow to your doorstep.

19. I can't escape this hell, so many times I've tried, but I'm still caged inside.

20. I've hoped for change, and it gets better everyday, I've hoped for change, but still I feel the same.


Go on, have a whack at it.

[I didn't remember to record the song titles so when someone posts what they might thing it is I am clueless too.]

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12366875/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12366875/ Wed, 28 Mar 2007 18:27:33 PDT
74% in my English assessment speech.

61.7% in my Snr Science topic test. (I beat Nichole and Amy!)

And I just blitzed my Photography exam. Answered every question. And wrote more that there were lines in most. I so rock. Heh.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12289995/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12289995/ Thu, 22 Mar 2007 21:15:53 PDT
Shall let you know how it turns out and how many times I fell over, drunk and hope I will feel for my cousins 21st the next day.

^_^

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12273310/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12273310/ Wed, 21 Mar 2007 15:30:49 PDT
I really have nothing interesting to say.

So... howdy.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12186582/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12186582/ Wed, 14 Mar 2007 20:18:24 PDT
1.DO YOU SNORE?
If I have a stuffy nose.

2. LOVER OR A FIGHTER?
Bit of both.

3. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Heights.

4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO BUILDER?
Yep. I loved Lego.

5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY TV"?
It is a waste of broadcast time.

6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
Yeah.

7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?
Everyone says so...

8. HOW IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?
Great.

9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?
This one is black, but mine at home is white and blue.

10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
No.

11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?
No and never will. The whole 'scared of heights' thing might fuck that up.

12. ANY SECRET TALENTS?
Nope.

13. WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?
My bed. Mmm.

15. HAVE YOU EATEN SUSHI?
No.

16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?
No. Don't want to.

18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CHOCOLATEY CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?
WTF?

19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?
No.

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?
Yep, many times.

22. ARE SPEEDO'S HOT?
Budgy smuglers? Ahhh, no.

23. WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?
Meh.

24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
I really doubt it.

25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yesh, actually.

26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?
Some pollens.

27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU"?
Uh, yesterday?

28. IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE?
God, I hope not. We hear enough of his shit with him being 'dead'.

29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?
No.

30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
Boiled, fried, scrambled, poached.

31. ARE BLONDES DUMB?
Sometimes.

32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?
Under my bed.

33. WHAT TIME IS IT?
2:10pm.

34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
Hopey, Hop, Hiphopanoynomous, Hopalong, Mope.

35. IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?
When I think too much about it, yeah.

36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?
Yesterday.

37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?
Showers. I prefer not to sit on my own filth.

38. IS SANTA CLAUSE REAL?
No.

40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
Not anymore.

41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?
dA, Myspace, The Forum, taking photo's, procrastination, coffee, my sleeping pills...

42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?
Creamy.

44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?
Once.

45. SINGLE OR TAKEN. IF SO BY WHO?
Single. Taken by myself.

46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
For me; yeah.

47. ARE YOU WEARING SOCKS?
White ones.

48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
Green.

49. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
*Shrugs*

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?
Mostly.

51. WHOSE LIFE IS BETTER?
My dogs.

53. HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"?
No.

54. DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?
Nope. I am untalented like that.

56. CAN YOU SKATEBOARD?
No.

57. DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?
Yesh, I do.

58. DO YOU SNORT WHEN YOU LAUGH?
I gigglesnort.

59. DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?
No.

60. DOGS A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?
Hella yeah.

61. YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?
Sure. If it's not right, it's not right.

62. CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?
No.

63. DOES YOUR MOM KNOW YOU HAVE A MYSPACE?
Sure.

66. DO YOU WEAR NAILPOLISH?
I used to. Only black, though.

67. DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?
Nope.

68. WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?
All of them?

69. DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?
No.

70. FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?
Hellogoodbye.


The END!!

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12136326/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12136326/ Sat, 10 Mar 2007 20:42:27 PST
I was like, "Uh... ah, okay."

...

Then I sat thinking, "How weird is this going to be...?"

So I invited Shane. It put Dad off a bit but he will survive.

Drinking with my Dad.

Pray for me. I don't want to let 'anything' slip... which I normally advertise when I drink.

Oh gawd...

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12081904/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12081904/ Tue, 06 Mar 2007 14:34:13 PST
I need a new addiction.

A new obsession.

A new... like?

...

My computer is faster now that I have burnt a heap of fuckin' CD-R's.

So I am a Download Whore again. *Sigh*

Myspace annoys the fuck out of me.

Bebo I was never into.

LJ... Meh.

Xanga, uh.

Deadjoural... -_-

What else? Hm. Photofuckit. Multiple accounts for forums. 4 hotmails, gmail, yahoo, bigpond, something else.

I am over it.

Over it.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12062019/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12062019/ Mon, 05 Mar 2007 01:39:40 PST
My search for the downloadable file of Closer by Bleed The Dream is not going anywhere fast.

One Minute Later:

Search has been fruitless thus far.

Ten Seconds Later:

If this continues I will wind up empty handed...

Six Seconds More:

Search is coming to an end. Too much shit to wade through and not enough patience.

One Second Later:

Calling it quits. Has become tedious and is not worth the effort. I wish all people who endeavour on this dull emotional and physical journey to be sucessful and have plenty of liquids.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12042863/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/12042863/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 16:37:09 PST
To the max.

...

I hate that phrase.

Shane is here.

Much discussion of Access Camp to ensue.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/11915905/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/11915905/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 00:16:14 PST
Am obsessed.

It's not good. Stupid devantART... <_<

I...

Am annoyed.

Rebecca is just being too nice... Freakin' me out.

I...

Am wanting it to be Friday. Thursday isn't good enough.

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/11876672/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/11876672/ Mon, 19 Feb 2007 03:40:52 PST
Tomorrow is school. So I wish it wasn't.

And yet...

I can't stand any todays. I'm over them.

Tomorrow has to be better. I don't know why I feel like complaining. Just a mood, I guess.

It felt like Friday for me today. It was Monday. What an illusion. Stoopid fucken thing-e-mah-bob.

*Curses*

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/11792854/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/11792854/ Mon, 12 Feb 2007 23:34:46 PST
I took them 'cause... uh, they look cool?

Some turned out so nice.

I s'ppose I should post them..?

Fine. I will.

No, I won't. Why should I?!

...

Gawd, I am arguing with myself.

And now I am rambling. *Is sorry*

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/11752672/ http://ParanoiaOverdose.deviantart.com/journal/11752672/ Fri, 09 Feb 2007 20:46:08 PST The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things/hates about yourself" and people who get tagged MUST write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things/hates as well as state this rule clearly.
In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours...
here we go:

1. I have more online friends than actually friends. And I love them all the same. [<3 you all.]

2. I have an addictive personality and am addicted to my anti-depressants. Yay. *Eye roll*

3. I tend to have conversations with the computer. Seriously.

4. I pretended to be interested in electrotechnology so that I could pull apart my sisters Sega, Dreamcast and get the motors for a tattoo gun. But now I am interested in electrotech.

5. I love my sister. But, shhhh. Don't tell her.

6. I make my dad mad enough to hit me for the fun of pushing his buttons.

I'm tagging: No one. Because I am kind. ^_^

]]> ~ParanoiaOverdose