http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:PhantomJustice&section=today deviantART RSS for by:PhantomJustice en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 08 Dec 2009 02:16:38 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/28740264/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/28740264/ Fri, 04 Dec 2009 03:53:07 PST
It has been a while, I know; my life is bursts of art with long lapses in between for one personal reason or another. It's not because I will it so, just some things getting in the way. For instance, I have now officially finished vet school (for those of you I did not get a chance to tell) and managed to get that internship I wanted. Career-wise it is a big help; I am not getting paid, though, and the literally endless hours and continuous all-nighters from being on call drain me to the point that when I finally do get home, half the time after thirty-six hours of being away, all I can do is fall over. I had to get really sick with some sort of flu just to get a chance to sit down and type this,heh XD.
Now, why I am telling you all this personal stuff is just to help the ones out there who are interested understand how things are in my life right now, and why I have not been able to get any art done. If I don't even have time in there for so much as food (proof: I have lost almost ten kg in the space of a few weeks), how would I manage to be inspired enough to draw?
Last time I was on, and really active, there had been... resentment on the part of some random people concerning my presence in DA (they weren't even part of my active watchers). I was called a drama llama and asked to leave because of my so-called too emotional journals. I would like to ask the people who do not care for the latter to please click that little button that enables them not to receive my journals. Simple, no? I want to think I have friends here, and because sadly I do not have the time to chat with each of you personally, my updates have to come in the form of this journal. Because I do not have a heart of stone, I have grown attached to my watchers and friends here on DA, so yes, sometimes I will worry or fret or ask for support when upset. When I can be around, I am more than willing to offer anyone and everyone, not just those close to me, all the support they could ask for. So is it really insane of me to use these journals as a way to connect with others, speak of my troubles and listen to theirs? You might say this is in no way a blog but an art site, but I am afraid I have zero time for a blog or any other place, and besides- my friends are here. Why should I force them to move someplace else to be around me? I say these things because I value people's justified opinions, and I want to know yours. Nothing I type is ever set in stone: more like a question to all of you out there, am I right or wrong and of course what can I do to make things better. Always open to suggestions
To finish with a brighter note, I want to think I am getting the hang of things with the intern issue, if slowly and painfully XD Someday, I will make myself sit down and start drawing again. I do not know when that will be, so I cannot make any promises, but I will hold onto the hope that it will be soon, and think of all of you and how much you've supported me all these years. So, hello again everyone, and I'll try to stay in touch as much as possible.
Yours truly,
-PJ

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]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27550269/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27550269/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 01:00:32 PDT I would tell you what happened to me, but it is very very personal and outside of DA, and I do not want to bring my problems here. That was why I did not elaborate; let's just say I was swindled out of an important opportunity by someone I trusted. The only reason I posted anything was to let people know that sadly, I do not even know yet if or when I will be able to fulfill my art promises since trying to take care of all that's going on in my life right now will make it hectic; I want more than anything to be around, so I will do my utmost in that respect, but it hurts me that again I am going through a tumbling phase in life outside DA that won't let me do as much as I wanted. I should have taken the time to breathe first, understand what happened and then write a calmer journal like this one, but it was the first time I ever lost something really important to me career-wise and it was a blow too sudden to process.
Now, no one is obligated to read this journal, and I am not writing it for sympathy or to get comments or any sort of thing. I only wanted to inform everyone who expect things of me that I do not know yet when things will calm down enough for me to draw again and be around. Could be today, in a week, in a year... I just don't know yet. This wasn't a `Bwaaah I am leaving DA zomg` as some people seem to have thought, and I'd appreciate not being insulted when I am going through too much already. I do not want wars here, or anywhere, and so flaming comments will be, as ever, ignored and deleted.
I did not want to hurt anyone's feelings, and if that happened by accident I apologize. No one has to comment, no one is obligated to offer any support, this is just to inform everyone of what's happening to me right now and why I might suddenly seem to `vanish`- it won't be because I wanted to. Again, I will try my utmost to keep in touch and support the people who have supported me here, and I will get to everything I promised first chance I get. The people who have been around for me here are never far from my mind, and if I came here to tell my watchers that I am hurting right now it's because I thought at least some of them might care. If I have to apologize for anything right now, it would be that I did not write this journal first, since obviously the other one cast me in a bad light. But it is your choice to stick around or not, and read this or not, and think of me as Lucifer or not. I just wanted to say thank you to the ones who didn't up and snap at me, and understood what I am all about without instantly thinking the very worst they could. It's to those people I write these lines, and hope to make up for that as best I can.
I think that covers just about everything,
-PhantomJustice

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]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27484950/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27484950/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 12:09:37 PDT I'll go first to give you an example:
Justice (mauve stallion): When he was younger, he'd be a liability since he'd run off to the rescue of his loved ones without blinking twice- even if they were not really being threatened at the time. Now he's more mature, he'd make a steady, reliable mount, obedient not to the heel but his rider's very thought; flashy gaits too, either intentional or unintentional, and a warm, caring personality.
Llorona (lavender mare): She was always fleet of hoof, and due to abuse from a past mate bound to shy off easily; ever since she met the love of her life and had the twins, however, she mellowed out, and grown into a fierce and brave mother. She'd certainly make a fast ride, probably a joyful one for one who enjoys speed, but not too bad on endurance either.
Lythian (multihued stallion): A youth still by all standards, but with the best parts of his parents' personalities. Might have a mind of his own and overjump the obstacle course, and may not be as big and heavy as a classic dressage type champion, but he'd be too lovely to look at though the aids would really need to be light on him so he won't be ruined for life.
Absynthe (blue and green pintaloosa): The OH CRAP of rides.XD Stubborn, flirty, bratty, mind of his own, would yank away the bit and drag you off for the freaking hell of it since what sort of point is there (in his book) to prance around in circles? Battle or shmex another of the horses in the arena- or two, or ten- now, that would have been more to his liking. He'd be the absolute nightmare of the stables, unless the rider was equal to struggling every step of the way for the hell of it.
Alorinel (jewel-colored, sparkling rump and legs): Might make a good pleasure ride as long as not much more than a fast gallop was expected out of him. Wouldn't last in endurance, would balk to race alongside others, would refuse exercise in a closed arena in favor of the freedom of the outdoors. A sweet personality but in need of guidance most of the time, to feel like he's being protected by his rider, so that would take confidence in the saddle and a cool head.
Valerian (mahogany dapple): A little old to be pushed too hard, though he'd push that great heart of his to the limit to bring joy. An excellent child/amateur's ride, forgiving mistakes, ignoring yanking on the bit, no bad traits whatsoever. Where do you think Justice inherited it all from No longer able to go through a rigorous competition though.
Mihlal (sea-colored stallion): An excellent ride, but trained a certain way and bound to fail to obey commands from the heel or hand unless given the way he was taught; other than that though, smooth and silky, so light on his dancer's feet he'd feel like a cushion of air.
Melphalan (silver-brindled blue stallion): Prowess is the word. Pure raw power, like sitting on a runaway train, but with a steady hand on the bit the ride could prove intoxicating and addictive; would need a rider that can go for miles just as he can, though, certainly no newbies.

So, what do you think?
-PJ


Art status: Requests and trades closed till I am finished with the art I owe people, but I will let you know
For those of you waiting for art, it's coming along, it's my pleasure to make things for you but since I over-committed (as usual) I am making you wait a while. Sorry about that!

Clubs I support:

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27278238/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27278238/ Fri, 18 Sep 2009 10:34:25 PDT I'll be waiting to hear what you have to say,
-PJ

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]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27161700/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27161700/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 00:47:02 PDT [link]
It's a week or so sooner than the deadline, but since it has been a rough time for me I thought this might help me think of happier things, like being free enough to make the gift art I promised... So, have you thought of what you want to ask of me yet?
Remember, if you ask for something horse-related, it will probably be finished faster
1. - I owe you the Petshop-Phantom crossover, and that also will be finished after the 23d but your characters haven't gotten nearly enough love from me, so ask away
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
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9. - I have a very special idea in mind for you, but if you have something in mind you'd really want to see from me, feel free to ask
10.- I know I owe you the two gifts from my contest as well, and I promise I won't forget that But drawing for you never tires me, so ask away
11.
12.....

If I forgot anyone, please let me know and I'll add you
If there are more people who feature me before the 23d of September, they will be added on this giftlist. I will be taking no more requests until I wrap this up, so you have eleven days left to feature me and be added to it.
Oh, by the way, know of any clubs that might care for my art? Let me know

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Featured Artists Corner: [link]
My FAQ: [link]

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27072253/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27072253/ Tue, 08 Sep 2009 23:49:19 PDT
A wonderful person, and a very good friend ever since we both first showed up on DA Though how much she's improved since then is staggering. Every piece she makes manages to surpass the last one, which is all an artist could aspire to, isn't it? Go look, go look:
[link] Such a beautiful picture, and not just because it's my Justice There's just something about it that makes me go back to look at it over and over
[link] The amount of attention that went in this drawing. I swear all her love for the series went in this one, and even if you don't know where it came from it's all the more fun to figure out the little story going on among the absolutely gorgeously depicted characters.
[link] I could rant on and on about the clever selection of background, the sweet expression of the character, the lovely pose... but I'll just let the image speak for itself.
[link] I couldn't resist Another picture she made for me for a contest. You can guess who was the winner, I think... Wouldn't you gloat if someone had drawn something this beautiful just for you? Oh, for those sweet, sweet eyes, the eye-popping detail of the hairpins and that soft caress of color, bringing it to life.
[link] How stunning is this. It's his gorgeous features and expression that captivated me, but all those feathers deserve recognition. *offers ice for misschievious's drawing hand*
[link] I love pictures that tell a little story; interesting hairstyles too, and the most amazing part- this is traditional, pencil art... I fall over just to think of how long it must have taken. So go give her lots of love


An artist with lots and lots of baby hedgehogs XD Heheh, nevermind. She's friendly, creative, fun to be around and talented even if she does not believe it sometimes Also... she's going through a hard time right now, so go give her some well-deserved support.
[link] Such beautiful atmosphere, the trees fading in the mist like that... straight out of a Black Beauty/Silver Brumby sort of film, for those who know what I'm talking about
[link] This may look `simple` at first glance but there is nothing simple about it;the style is so beautiful and original, and I would have put this portrait before hundreds of same-old Spirit-style copies. I do not mean to hurt any feelings, I understand that it is much easier to use a style that is well-loved (and of course will get instant by the majority) but I am more for encouraging an artist's personal style, something that can be their trademark and loved and appreciated as their very own work, and not because of using something popular.
[link] Aside the intri... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27045594/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27045594/ Sun, 06 Sep 2009 00:11:49 PDT Oh, and let me know of any clubs that might be glad to have me

Other than that, my exam date is closing in, so I apologize if I cannot comment on people's art as much as I wanted to... Seventeen nightmare days to go, and then hopefully I'll get to all the things I have promised.

People that entered my giftlist by featuring me:

How to get free giftart? You feature me on your journal BEFORE september 23d.

Thanking you for all your support and understanding, especially when I rant ,
-PJ

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Featured artists: since it was her idea that I spread the love and feature some people too, she gets to go first

A wonderful person, and a very good friend ever since we both first showed up on DA Though how much she's improved since then is staggering. Every piece she makes manages to surpass the last one, which is all an artist could aspire to, isn't it? Go look, go look:
[link] Such a beautiful picture, and not just because it's my Justice There's just something about it that makes me go back to look at it over and over
[link] The amount of attention that went in this drawing. I swear all her love for the series went in this one, and even if you don't know where it came from it's all the more... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27007376/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/27007376/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 00:35:41 PDT I can believe that people could not be bothered to draw my characters, so maybe I can understand that there was barely two people entering my last contest. Obviously, a drawing made for me, when I draw things for others by the gallons, is way too much effort. The comment race went a little better, though I think that's because what few friends I do have got a little motivated- even if it's sad that I had to complain in order for them to do so. But on my last journal [link] I basically offered FREE ART to ANYONE AND EVERYONE who would care to so much as say `there's PhantomJustice, has this drawing up that I liked`. So- either both my watchers and strangers walking by really don't like my art enough- so why the hell do they watch me?!- or, again, it is too much effort, apparently. Or maybe no one reads journals- but it's surprising how when there's drama, people just flock in by the dozens.
If you didn't care enough to so much as say `can't participate, sorry` don't come flaming my head off now just because I complained aloud. People who have the time and energy to flame have way too much time on their hands that they are not using the right way. Think about it.
The ones who entered:

Well, I suppose that will make it all the easier for me to draw so much more beautiful things for those four. Everyone who wants to get FREE ART just by FEATURING ME on their journal, still has time to do so until the 23d of September.
I bend over backwards for people and they still manage to disappoint me big time.
-PJ

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]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26848405/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26848405/ Thu, 27 Aug 2009 01:10:05 PDT So here I am again, with another silly weird contest of sorts: it's the feature contest.

Rules: go into my gallery, shuffle through the lot, pick your favorites (however many you want) and feature them on your journal. Simple? If you say a thing or two about me as well, that's all the better. I love drawing people's characters for free, and that way maybe more can come find me instead of me running around looking for whoever would want gift art. Oh, and link me when you are done, of course
Prize: if few people enter, I will make either a full drawing or character reference for everyone, if more enter I will randomly pick as many as possible. So it's a contest where almost everyone wins
Expiration date: September 23d. (Gee, I wonder why ) So you have plenty of time to enter this one
Let's see how great you guys are at advertising!

Entered:

Over and out,
-Phantom Justice

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]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26773412/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26773412/ Sun, 23 Aug 2009 11:23:56 PDT -PJ

EDIT: It's 's part of our trade!!


]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26732756/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26732756/ Fri, 21 Aug 2009 11:38:58 PDT
A woman goes to a pharmacist's; she asks for the deadliest, most terrible poison no matter what the cost. The pharmacist says that he can't possibly sell something like that; and who did she want it for? She answers: `I want it for my husband,` and when he keeps refusing saying that's murder, she says: `have you SEEN my husband?` and shows him a photo. The moment the pharmacist sees it, he exclaims: `why didn't you show me the *perscription*, I'd have given it to you at once!!` and gives her the poison.
What was in the photo?
.................................................A picture of her husband screwing the pharmacist's wife.

Not the funniest joke on the planet, but I can't wait to hear yours. Let's drive some of that ghastly depression away together.
-PJ

My FAQ:[link]
My art list:
Prizes I owe:
To
-one character ref sheet (gray background)-waiting for you to pick the character, Missie (Marquis?)
-one full picture of her choice (Halifax)
Art trades:
With - done!
With - done!
Requests:
PhantomxPetshop crossover-Erik gets a new pet
Naorah with my characters
Miles and his three birds from the Petshop-25% done
To-do list:
Original characters:
Amenophis snake ref
Three Ibar snakes pinup
Three Verlaren snake friends
Justice and Synthe- Boys will be boys
Cacao and Tyrren
Justice,Synthe and their mates on the beach
Mischief/Mildew ref
Haldir horse and boy ref
Alorinel horse and boy ref
Introducing Lyric
Melphalan stallion ref
Petshop :
Count D and the Nellia
Misbehaving Totetsu
Morning After
T-chan's delicate feelings
D-licious
Come Hither
Phantom: Phantom centaur

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]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26662450/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26662450/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 00:54:00 PDT To
-one character ref sheet (gray background)-waiting for you to pick the character, Missie (Marquis?)
-one full picture of her choice (Halifax)
(Two ideas with the Marquis having tea with some of my dragons (in their person form) or my own marquis (I have to dig up my notes of him) or of Halifax with my brat Absynthe (in his elf form, not stallion form)so Halifax could be `out with the guys`)
Art trades:
With - done! Can't wait to see her part
With - done![link]
With
Requests:
- done![link]
PhantomxPetshop crossover-Erik gets a new pet
Naorah with my characters
Miles and his three birds from the Petshop-lineart done
To-do list:
Original characters: Amenophis snake ref
Three Ibar snakes pinup
Three Verlaren snake friends
Justice and Synthe- Boys will be boys
Cacao and Tyrren
Justice,Synthe and their mates on the beach
Mischief/Mildew ref
Haldir horse and boy ref
Alorinel horse and boy ref
Introducing Lyric
Melphalan both sides ref
Justice with Synthe-Synthe flirty and Justice rolling eyes with a chuckle
Raed leading a gallop (with UnicornSoul's or more characters)

Petshop :Count D and the Nellia
Misbehaving Totetsu
Morning After
T-chan's delicate feelings
5 months Pregnant [link]
D-licious
Come Hither
You Found Me comic
Don't Leave Me comic
Phantom: Phantom centaur
Gift art: for

There are lots more... I just wanted to have them gathered all in one place in case it motivates me to start working on them, though I fear it will make me run for the hills instead XD

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]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26579690/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26579690/ Sat, 15 Aug 2009 13:05:39 PDT 1 with Midnight Horror
2 with Taima
3with Chivalry
4 with Lightning
5 with Naorah
6 with Isis
Thank you for entering everyone!! The picture is currently 50% done. Damn, I shouldn't have put so many characters in one go XD What a challenge.


Contest Status: We have a winner!!! with [link] Go see, coment, fav and worship because damn, that girl has talent with balls. Just... HOLY FREAKING WOW. Whatever prize I make won't even begin to make up for the beauty of this... All I can do is try Missie, I bow to you.
Art trade Status: Closed
Waiting for 's part of the trade
Waiting to hear what you have in mind
Requests Status: Closed until I finish the ones below
make one or more of her beautiful characters
PhantomxPetshop crossover
one of her characters with one or two of mine
To-Do List: Get started on the 100 Petshop Challenge
The rest is secret

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26539169/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26539169/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 01:08:40 PDT There are some amazing people here on DA that I want to think of as friends, and they make being here worth it. You know who you guys are.
On a different note, three days to the deadline of my contest [link]
Entered:

with[link]
I owed a gift for entering first-done![link]

As for the Comment Race: for those of you who don't know what that is and may be looking at my journal for the first time, a Comment Race is what I came up with to increase the nearly nonexistent comments I had been getting, and maybe get to know more of my lurking watchers in the process. The person or persons who will make the best comments (most thought out, who will actually state what they liked about a piece, old art included and not just all the new ones) will get free art.
Entries so far:
I want to thank each and every one of these wonderful people personally with a drawing, but since I can't neglect my to-do list either and it is a long one, you guys can make your requests under this journal and I'll be tackling them one by one. Love you all.
Oh, and if I owe anyone any art, if I had made any promises I never got around to drawing, this is the place for you to request them anew.
Art trade: Waiting for her part of the trade
100 Challenge: I'd want to do this one with Petshop themes. Oh yesh...
Requests:
Unicorndreams One or more of her beautiful characters
Horsefeathers75 Old request-Black Beauty Fanart-done!
JenicaRoseHeart Waiting to hear what you want
LoathsomeGargoyle PhantomxPetshop cros... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26482912/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26482912/ Sun, 09 Aug 2009 11:56:34 PDT [link] was mostly ignored as well, because it's *great* if I just go and draw people's requests but nooo, no reason to give anything *back* now, is there?

I had this in mind: a comment race. Meaning, go in my gallery, comment away, and the person or persons who makes the most well-thought comments will get free art. But I bet you will just ignore that too, won't you?
I don't know what else to do.
-A very disappointed P.J.

Clubs I am in

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26396199/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26396199/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 06:45:45 PDT OR
One of my characters in a yukata (japanese summer kimono)
OR
(equine) Two of my characters having fun.

Prize: One full picture of your choosing and one character reference sheet (gray background)
Ends: August 15th, but might be extended if needed.

The first to enter will get gift art from me (could be something simple like a character portrait or something full-blown, I have a fickle muse)

My Characters:
Equines:
Minstrel [link]
Lythian (left) and Veren (right):[link]
Absynthe:[link]
Taimavar (right):[link]
Cyrril:[link]
Raed:[link]
Herald:[link]
Elves:
Nisstyre:[link]
Myrr: (red-skinned one):[link]
Vayu (left)and Sielle (right):[link]
Shahari:[link]
Aredian:[link] (don't forget the horse tail)
Minstrel (orange skin) and Haldir (red skin)-humanoid forms:
[link]

Sooo, plenty of choices there! Have fun and let me know if you have any questions.
Entered so far:

with [link]

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26082160/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/26082160/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 08:14:17 PDT
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]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/24667229/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/24667229/ Sat, 09 May 2009 10:53:16 PDT -In Between (Linkin Park)-Let's pour tea for the Detective... and smirk for sweet addictions
-In Pieces (Linkin Park)- Papa D dedicating this to grandpa D. With love,er,hate,er... you know what I mean.
-Nobody's Listening (Linkin Park)-`Told you everything (the rules about the pets)loud and clear. But nobody's listening.`
-Chasing Cars(Snow Patrol)- Lover's leap in volume 10 of the old series. Just listen to it, and picture them jump off at the last moment while the top of that building(Papa D's `appartment`)bursts in a trillion pieces in a ball of flame and smoke. And of course the boat scene... D's tears and Leon getting pushed off. And think of what happened if D *hadn't* pushed him off.
-The orange tree (The Illusionist Soundtrack)- D finding pets for people, making Leon or Taizuu's lifes living hells *snickers* Never mind that they are enchanted every cursing and kicking and screaming step of the way. Oh yes.
Actually the whole Illusionist score sounds as though it was *made* with petshop of horrors in mind. Seriously. And the very last track, Life in the Mountains, is to me the play of Papa D's sweet smirk with young- and older- Vesca giving chase...
-How to Save a Life (the Fray)- When Leon walked on in the streets of Chinatown after Chinatown, whose face would he be seeing in the backdrop of a myriad city lights? Whose bi-colored eyes would he miss when time after time he saw a red lantern, a carved door, or caught a glimpse of silk?
-You and Not Tokyo- fairly obvious. D slipped through Leon's grasp, but did either of them escape their feelings for each other?
-Faraway vol2 (Apocalyptica)-Think old series, D waiting for/worrying over mr Detective. Or new series, resenting leaving him behind. Picture him walking into room after room, or leaning his brow against the glass of a window, with rain falling hard outside.
-Through the Glass- I had actually an entire little comic/videoclip idea in mind. People should really invent mind videocameras sometime soon...
-What About Now (Chris Daughtry)- What if every talk, every tea session, every candy box offered and every taunting jab of advice led to a kiss smack on those smirking dark cherry lips?
-Path vol2 (Apocalyptica)- Three generations of D having a faceoff session. Sizzling atmosphere.
-The Little Things Give You Away (Linkin Park)- Why do I see the pets singing that? Especially T-chan. Now imagine a T-chan with the voice of Chester (lead voice of the group) *wiggles brows and smirks slyly*
-Bongo Bong (Robbie Williams)- Seems irrelevant, but I had the silliest rp session when D and all the pets were dancing to that and Leon walked in. XD It was hilarious. Hardcore fans know our dearly beloved friendly neighborhood petshop owner is not always as prissy and elegant as he seems...
-Hero (Chad Kroeger feat Josey Scott)- Totally Leon's anthem for me.
-The bitter end (Placebo)- and here's to hoping that the end of Petshop of Horrors!Tokyo won't be so bitter. Or I will want to wind my fingers around Akino's neck and *squeeze*.
-You and Me (Lifehouse)- Because I am a true romantic at heart. The images that come to mind from that are from private rps of mine, so sadly none of your effing business
-Broken Strings (James Morrison)- Papa D and Vesca had a fiery hidden relationship, if not in canon then certainly in fanfics and in my rps... This is a sad one, but its music still reminds me of them.
-Colorblind (Counting Crows)- D and Leon first time. Yes. Awkward, intimate, tender and rough, fiery... and heart-wrenching sweet.
...To my Leon out there: I love you.
-Shadow of the Day (Linkin Park)- `Sometimes, goodbye's the only way.`
-Whirlpool of Love (X-men soundtrack)- Papa D and Vesca(Wescar), Petshop!Tokyo vol2, last story... or Honlon's `birth` ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/20849278/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/20849278/ Sun, 05 Oct 2008 20:11:38 PDT LG,Katy,misschievious,Horsefeathers... I miss you guys so much. I am sorry I had to vanish like that from your lives. Kika... I have not seen you in centuries but I miss you too. Liz, you have been so nice to me, I wish I could have been a better fan and perhaps a friend... Same for you, Mia, though you probably won't ever read this. Blue, I hope you found everything you wanted... I wish I could contact all of you and start over, but I don't even know where to start. Lately, I have had a couple of `friends` I thought I knew for years turn against me, in a really foul way, so I am being cautious... closed to myself and my mate, which can't be healthy but at least I can give her and my characters my full attention. I still get sad though. Isn't it funny how people out there in `real life` claim so stubbornly that they `know` us, when all they have seen is our everyday facade, and only our internet ones ever really do? At least so it feels to me, though both online and out there, all I have ever done is being honest, sometimes bluntly, even brutally so. It's endlessly amusing when stalkers from my past claim constantly that I am a liar; the one thing I never have been. It's also very sad. Vale people of my past, if you did not keep cornering me in an attempt to make a scapegoat out of me even now, years later, I could have been the truest and most loyal friend you'd ever have. So ironic that the monster you are trying to make out of me even now, is only in your heads. But no, I will not just sit by and take abuse any longer, neighter will I start out a war just to give you something to do, so. Anyone who comes to this gallery with the intention of pecking a fight with me for having nothing better to do, you can turn around and walk away and find another victim to bully, because you will promptly be told what a brat you are being if not utterly ignored, which is my general tactic with people dumber than a brick wall and just as insensitive.
So, I think that about covers it all. Anyone out there want to say hi? Stranger or friend, come on out. I promise I will read every single answer; I always do, even when I don't get to respond. How did you find my gallery? What about it do you like? Do you even want me to try and make something post-worthy to update? Etc. Waiting for your answers, people, and sorry for the thought-ramble there... just doing what I intended to when I first logged on this place. Sharing.
-Yours Truly

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]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/16341413/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/16341413/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 09:35:28 PST So yes- I ask you, my watchers. Why would I want to keep trying with people, and with DA in general, when there is so much drowning me in my real life, constantly demanding my attention, when there are private rps where I am perfectly happy to share my characters and art with friends that will never purposefully and for their own spiteful amusement try to break me? Why would I want to keep trying when exams have me by the throat, when I always check DA in case there is a new message and unless I have just posted something new, there is nothing- and I have seen other artists who `vanish` for great lengths of time, but THEIR galleries are not forgotten. Obviously, my talent, my art, all I have is poor quality, unpopular and unwanted. So why should I leave my Shadow Gallery, my Lair beneath the Opera, my incence-filled Petshop... (to mention three of my favorite rp places to be)
Give me that one good reason to keep trying with humans... when tomorrow I have to face nightmare.
Though... there was one highlight today. One. GAQ's gift. In a world of shadow, there was that teeny tiny spark of light- effort, and love flaring for my Llori, my mind's child, to see her so sculpted by another's hand. That and Ponymadgal's gifts... and the gifts I remember people have made me in the past. And the comments, and getting to exchange ideas and just reach out through them to another person who might understand what love of the Petshop means... or love of the Phantom... or of unicorns or original characters... Yes... that is something. More of a something than empty popularity perhaps. *Smiles softly* Ah, people. As a species, they disappoint so easily... yet sometimes, they can surprise me, just like that. Sometimes, I am amazed to see the understanding, here on DA. It is a precious thing, understanding. It differentiates the bone-headed mindless petty bully, from those who deserve being called, and treated as, a person, with wit and grace and dignity. I cannot stop thinking how it is so sad... so sad that I did not start off here, on DA, during my first hesitant internet steps.
Such be my notes and rambles; beginning from a storm, with that faint silver lining toward the end. That last did not use to be there before the light of my life... but I will not bore you further. Cookies to any and all who managed to read this far... and hopefully now you have a better idea of why I have been awfully quiet this past week, and will be so for the next four.
I see your comments. I see your favs and notes. I appreciate every single one of them... They are the silver lining to a world of shadows... my world. So keep them coming, won't you? *smiles gently*
Ah, now, how to sign this. Oh yes, I remember *soft chuckle*
Your (dis)obedient servant,
-Erik http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/16029634/ Fri, 21 Dec 2007 13:24:58 PST PhantomJustice can be very poisonous if injected intravenously.
Americans discard enough PhantomJustice to rebuild their entire commercial air fleet every 3 months.
The pupil of an octopus's eye is shaped like PhantomJustice!
PhantomJusticeolatry is the mindless worship of PhantomJustice.
The Asteroid Belt between Mars and Jupiter is made entirely of PhantomJustice.
There are more than two hundred different kinds of PhantomJustice!
It took PhantomJustice 22 years to build the Taj Mahal.
Humans have 46 chromosomes, peas have 14, and PhantomJustice has 7!
Julius Caesar wore a laurel wreath to cover up PhantomJustice.
The Church of Scientology was founded in 1953, at Washington D.C., by PhantomJustice!

[link] *chuckles*

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/15915386/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/15915386/ Sun, 16 Dec 2007 19:44:47 PST

1) Can I use part of your art as my icon?
If the picture was done for you, then with permission, you can use it as an icon. If it was not made specifically for you, then DON'T. It will be someone's character, either mine or not, and I'll consider RUDE at best, THEFT at worst.
Wouldn't you rather have something specifically made for you, specially, with respect to you and your particular character, than be a baby and steal? See below.
2) Do you take requests?
Yes, though it's easier on me to draw something equine (horse)-related, or at least fantasy related (elves rather than humans). Usually unicorns/horses, though
3)Do you accept art trades?
Even better than requests, since I am motivated more to finish the picture for you. But if you plan to ditch out on me, then just request and don't promise me things. It upsets me afterward when people just forget when I have put all my effort into drawing what they wanted.
4) Do I have to have my character already drawn for you to draw them?
Well, references help with color, but I can work from a description if I have to. Just make sure it's a really detailed one The piece I'll make for you will be unique, and I'll probably be working on it till I can't work any more, so no corrections afterward. Make sure you have told me everything, or it won't be my fault if something's missing...
5) How do I contact you?
Through deviantart Note is my preferred way. My email is hidden for good reason, trust me. It makes me feel better to know the one I'll draw for is another artist/photographer/writer etc than just someone that came out of nowhere...
Oh, and please try to be a bit nice when you note me, don't just demand or it seems like you are snapping at me for no reason... and I'd be less inclined to draw for you that way.
6) Can I use part of the drawing you made for me as my icon?
Yes, just credit me if asked, please
7) Can I have a non-copyrighted version of the drawing you made for me for myself?
Sorry, but no, not unless you are someone I know well and can trust not to post anywhere without my permission.
8) Can I post your art on my website?
NEVER without my PERMISSION. Or I will consider it theft and hunt you down. There's no harm in asking nicely and crediting me for it, though
9) Can I trace your work/use your pose etc?
NEVER without my PERMISSION. Or I consider it art theft and get really really pissed off. On the contrary, if you contact me for it, credit me for it, and link me when you're done, I tend to be more flexible I mean that I'd be more okay if you wrote beneath: `inspired by PhantomJustice's X picture` with link. Sound reasonable?
10) Can I use the colorations of the characters drawn in the pictures for my rpg?
NO. NO. NO. And NO. I get furious about that, since I have suffered it a lot in the past by some horrible people who never gave me a speck of credit. Besides, I adore making gifts so usually those would be other people's characters you'd be stealing from. It's not just stealing, either, it's soul-rape: when they are my creations, they are integral to stories that will at some point see publication. So be very careful about that if you EVER want art from me, since when marked down on my bitchlist, there is no chance in hell I would ever draw for you. I put a lot of love in my drawings and stealing from me would make me want to sue you instead. Kill you and cut you up in pieces in fact.
11) You seem to be complaining a lot about theft.
Considering the sick, sad psychos who stalk me from a particular website... you'd feel the same and worse if you had been so harrassed for no damned reason but caring for someone. Such sad, sad people, I pity them... puerile bullies that were given power and were sucked up on so much that they think they are gods now... roflmy-freaking-ao.
12)What is Petshop of Horrors? We have seen fanart in your gallery but have no idea what that is.
A wonderful manga created by the talented Matsuri Akino featuring, well, exactly what the title... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/15612904/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/15612904/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 22:30:55 PST What is wrong with my art? I get so few comments, less favs. What is it that disappoints you so? What is it you want to see? Is it that it's not crisp Photoshop I use but crappy ancient Painter? Is it my subjects that are boring? Is it my style or coloring that is off?
Help me out so I can understand.
-Erik

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/11621865/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/11621865/ Tue, 30 Jan 2007 10:31:43 PST ...My fingers glide over the shining keys, my world, black and white, as my shining reflection moves, my usually sleek mane tossing like black waves. This is worse than when the child I had placed under my wing, left with that chit of a boy. Worse than when I saw you walk away in that public place, never turning, to spare me from grief.
My music spins in the air around me, like a vortex to either rescue me or drown me. Nothing works. I have been working on the painting of us all day again. Art; will that spare me from missing you, going mad with longing for you? No! You bastard!! How did you make me care for you so much? And you being sick and away from my reach and who's going to take care of you if not me? How you always try to be the warrior! Who will pile an extra blanket over you or peel an exotic golden orange for you if I am not there? If I need you and you need me and I bang the keys as if it's their fault for missing you, for just having missed you. Damn you, daroga! Is this love, a scream of passion so shattering as to bring down the Chandelier? The song of agony and pain, the howls of music and longing rising togehter as I scream, inside, and I feel as if I've just been abandoned. Strong, aren't I?? The fierce and mighty Phantom!! I, who would slay without question, who would dig my fingers in a mortal throat without a blink. I can't breathe. You are not here. Is that how you felt when I went on my little hunting trip? And you lasted, your patience helped you through what must have been agony, I see it now, I know it, but that could not be helped as this can't be, because we need to do some things in order to be together when it feels as if we're being torn apart.
I wanted to tell you... so many things. I miss your presence, I miss your kindness, you, the only one who might ever soothe me, large eyes ever watching me, and gentle hands around me as I prepared you breakfast on the tray, when you weren't supposed to get out of bed, our bed, that was the whole point. Your eyes. `My Erik.` I want to hear that again, and it hurts so bad that if I could weep I would fall apart in sobs. The fact that I weep inside does not mean I hurt any less for missing you, my love, my Amari. How you have made me depend on you, your friendship, your gentle hands around a mug of coffee, listening to me, soft light bathing you, every moment looking like the dark-skinned Angel of Mercy you've been to me, a best of friends the kind that lasts... forever. Will I have that? If you're taken from me I will go mad!
Fingers flowing, flowing, flowing over the keys, from one side to another, fluttering to that trill, as if you could hear my music in your dreams and I could shield you from your fevered nightmares. Gah, but you're too good for me- I don't deserve you- but no one else shall have you, you're MINE!!
Damn, but I miss you. I don't know if I will delete this before you see it and know how I hurt for missing you. I cannot burden you with my suffering for being even a second away from you. You promised me some things. I, who have been betrayed at every corner, have to trust you and I will trust you if it kills me.
You cupped my heart with your hands gently to heal it and I ended up letting you have it before I knew what I was doing. I wanted you, and I still do, every day I fall more wildly in love with you and do you even have any idea how deep the knife goes? No, Eros, whom you know as Cupid, perhaps, has no arrows, but more like a spiked scimitar, slashing, cutting deep, rending me apart so that only you can keep that roaring wound closed so I can do anything... when without you I have the will for nothing.
Damn it. I love you. I love you. YOU!! I am in love with you, me, I've fallen in love, so terribly as I had sworn I never would again. Yet all times before you seem now as childlike efforts compared to what I feel for you... My Persian. Come home to me. Heart pounding, slowing now. Mercy: I can weep. Tears of crystal... they might as well have been of blood for the depths of what I feel. My love. I'm reaching out to you tonight. And I tell the world I love you. I scream that I love you because I am without you and I hurt. Wanted... missed... I close my eyes and I feel that stolen kiss in the dark, when I pulled you to me, I feel your lips return it when I thought my heart would stop. Fight, my love. I await. Fight...
Your Erik
................

Yes. I love my mate that much. My art is dedicated to her. So is my life. I am Erik. I have a muse of a Phantom. And my soul is being torn to pieces by love and all the while I plead for more. *sad smile* Pitiful, isn't it. I don't know why I am telling you. My readers. My watchers. I don't even know if anyone would read this, a rambling so deep, so very personal, if flavored with the hues of a well-known character. I just feel as if I should tell you that I love. Maybe there is something for... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/11361206/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/11361206/ Mon, 08 Jan 2007 11:14:22 PST
No more mister Nice Guy.
Does anyone remember the picture I had drawn of Mercury's family for Snapesnogger's contest? Anyone?
Let me refresh your memory:
[link]

I found just now a copy of my pose, though not an exact traceover, pretty frigging close. FOR THE SAME CONTEST. I had not even seen it back then- and only through browsing through DA and coming across snapesnogger's fan club did I see it.

So they steal my idea and pose, redraw it, then post it for the club.
What would you do if you were me??
Don't all my picture say do NOT copy,trace, alter, reproduce, in any way shape or form?
I do not think DA allows me to type the address of the theft itself, but admins will hear about this.
I adore Mercury and his family, and the only decent piece of art I ever made and posted of them was ripped to bits, and I feel raped and very, very angry.
Over and out.
-Erik

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/11173935/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/11173935/ Sun, 24 Dec 2006 10:44:57 PST What a sinister introduction. Let's start over. What I mean to say is that maybe it does not have to be as lonely. So I am taking this chance to thank everyone that has been watching and commenting on my art for all your support; every fav is most appreciated, even if I don't get round to thanking everyone personally.
And... I want to ask something of you, just a wee bit of a thing; all right, two things. One: Christmas is not `the season to be jolly` for everyone. So if you can, try and make at least one of those who are always there for you, happy. From family or friends, anyone you like. Dedicate a wee bit of time to them, do them a favor, whatever it takes to make them happy, even if it's something really small or unimportant-looking. Strange request? Think of the bigger picture... If EVERYONE did something to make EVERYONE happy... *wink wink*

And the second thing: I am a wee bit shy to ask. You see, I would like all of you, my watchers, to come forward. Yes, you at the back, hiding behind the lady with the glasses... you too Drop a line under this journal, saying anything you like: even if it's just `heya, how are you? ` Some of you I know personally. Some of you have been good friends since for ever, and maybe I have never told you how much I appreciate you. With some of you I might have had spiffy art trades or accepted gorgeous gifties from; but this little note includes EVERYONE. What drew you to watch me? What would you like to see more of in the future? How did you come across my gallery? Etc. I'll be waiting to see those replies so don't you disappoint me!
Merry Christmas to all of you,
-Erik

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/10141256/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/10141256/ Thu, 21 Sep 2006 09:57:47 PDT 1. Unicorn versions of LG and her special friend- the characters are completed, but the bgr would not work for me. I have a better idea to try on that now, though. Will be posted soon.
2. Trade of sorts with Frotu- it's half done, I could post a WIP if you wish and you can tell me if it's acceptable. It ends up not
to be a comic after all, I fear. *sighs* At least the finished bit of it looks good so far
3. Selecting between linearts for the gifties to Misschievious and Unicornsoul
4. Had selected lineart for Amaris and Bane, but decided they needed something much better, much hawter. Needs to be drawn from scratch... Same for cast-indoubt, I need something much spiffier. The down side of being a perfectionist
5. Feathers, you won't believe this, I doodled your request of Black Beauty... from last year XD Question, though: did you want just Ginger, on her own? Because my doodle involves Ginger and Merrylegs by the lake, and Beauty cantering up to them, a sort of helicopter zoom out vista... Let me know?

Once I am done with the above, I will get to the trade and Zephyr and any gifties
I have another question... and this is for everyone. If I threw a contest, and the prizes were art from me, like the gifties I tend to offer (see in my gallery) would you enter?

Your recovering Phantom,
-Erik

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/10106584/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/10106584/ Sun, 17 Sep 2006 22:40:48 PDT And then....
.... ART.
*Heaves a deep breath and goes off to punjab a few choice teachers*

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/10018360/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/10018360/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 09:25:24 PDT teensy bit nice, instead of constantly proving their utter stupidity, they'd get gifties too. But there's people for you... ) Anyway, after that little eyerolling there, on to the beauties:
Sheer, sweet, glossy perfection. Adore.
Mrrrowrrrr. Must love that tuft Again, mrrrowrrr.
Oh, and by the way, this still does and always will, `roxor my soxors`. And the rest of my damned wardrobe. My jaw still reaches floor level to look at it. Amazing.
*gently tugs at the chain* Heheheh
What a lovely image of the twins! Got the colors of them wonderfully with pencils.
Pay particular attention to the glossy lips and lovely eyes
Aaaaaaaaand, how could I resist but add the following...
Had DA not eaten my journal as I attempted to update, there would have been here a huge fan's drawling sugary sweet comment... I think I shocked even the system out of its wits. I will just say now that seeing my humble ideas drawn by such an exquisitely talented hand is, the least to say, marvellous. Cheers to my Angel of Comic. *wink wink*
and . Just . Done during a very hard time for me... kept me going. For all your understanding and support, a tight hug *glomps LG*
Also by the same sweet artist: My Justice.
I am sure there are more I have not added here, please poke me about it with a link and I shall do so instantly. *glides away to find them*

Your naughty p... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9970583/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9970583/ Mon, 04 Sep 2006 21:08:11 PDT If you wish to repost it on your journal, make sure you give credit where it's due *wink wink nudge nudge* If you would like to reply here, feel free. Most of all have FUN!

The SAUCY character quiz:
(aka and additions )
1)Favorite underwear
2)Does your oc wear any interesting jewelry?
3)The weirdest place your oc has slept in.
4)Has your oc had sex in a public place?
5)What’s your oc’s tool/weapon of choice
6)Has your oc had sex with more than one person… at a time? (the same time)
7)Past lovers
8)Most embarrassing incident from your oc’s life
9)Most tender moment of your oc’s life.
10)What is your oc exceptionally good at?
11)How does your oc pass their spare time (hobbies- no matter how nasty *wink*)
12)Which is the body part your oc is most attracted to/ finds most erotic.
13)What is the most erotic thing your oc has ever worn/enjoyed seeing someone wear?
14)Is your oc ticklish? If so, where…
15)Favorite position in sex.
16)Of the following, which fits your oc most? A)Sweet, b)Emo, c) Slutty, d) Sex machine, e)Bitchy, f) Coy, g) Innocently Shexy
17Where does your oc enjoy being kissed most.
18)Kissy or love-bite?
19)Your oc’s type: romantic or one-night-stand?
20)What attracts your oc to their boyfriend/girlfriend/mate/spouse.
21)If married/engaged, how/where did your oc pop the question/had the question popped to them?
22)Would your oc stay with their lover for ever? If so, why?

Enjoy.

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9928781/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9928781/ Fri, 01 Sep 2006 10:29:39 PDT
1. Serredwen and Vanisdar!- DONE!
2. Unicorn versions of herself and a friend- 50% done, mwahahahah!
3. A Phantom stallion!- DONE!
4. Horsethingyversion of Shimau!- DONE!
5. - Lineart done, mwahahahah!
6. Amaris as a pegasus with bonus Bane unicorn -Have a sketch, not really sure if it will work... Might try different version...
7. Working on it!
8. Her buckskin with dark brown grulla markings, Prance- Working on it!
Aaaaand cameo request 9. Her stallion, Soul
What started all this:
Go and give lots of favs and love! It's my Tyrre, whom you may know from this picture
Aka the pimping of the be-autiful doodle continues...
I also pimp: For all her wonderful support ever since I first glided through DA's shadow galleries...

As soon as I finish each of the doodles/speedpaintings, they will be posted here as thumbs- something to nudge myself in the right direction. (I think it's working too)

List of first priorities (aside the above):
-Art trade with http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9894084/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 08:56:36 PDT Freaking.
Mother.
Of all Operas.
For lack of a better description. Though I don't think this piece
needs one.
I think gentleman or not, that I am allowed to a) gape, b) swallow my tongue, c) possibly faint.
I will not comment on what precisely looking at that `doodle` did to me concerning my, ah, thoughts about my, erm, artistic so-called talents.
Let's just say that no small jar was ever as... disturbing... Oh, no, no, misunderstand me not, dear reader. This journal is a compliment, one of the sincerest that might ever be offered.
There are times in life that even Phantoms with egos the size of cathedrals feel suddenly really really small *indicates distance between thumb and forefinger* About thiiis big...

Before you call me childish, try nine hours of studying straight, dawn to dusk, see how it feels. Try a cascade of forced knowledge of medicinal subjects such as would need years being shoved down your throat in a matter of days and having it widely expected that you should remember the minutest details.
Art wise, I will get to everything. It might take a bit longer than I thought... especially after that *points above* but I will get to everything.
I intended some good work on my own speedpaintings. Now I am not so sure fifteen hours of effort on each would ever be enough.
I needed to say these things out loud, wallow in self-depreciation, again, look at my horror of a face in the mirror and attempt neither self pity nor self loathing... I am not seeking comfort. Merely calling out in the silence. I do not need (or rather, deserve) sweet embraces, I need a whip taken to me... Some day I might put this lasso of mine to good use.
Till then, I remain, ladies and gentlemen...
... your obedient art pimp.
- Erik

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9777888/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9777888/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 11:25:25 PDT So, without further ado, may I present to you the five first- and the three extra!- to get a doodle from me.
Why three extra, you ask? Because they were nice about it. And because they really wanted one. And because they are friends... but after these eight, I draw the line so as to actually finish all the requests before my exam's hellmonth kicks in.
So *grins under the full mask*
1. Serredwen and Vanisdar!- DONE!
2. Unicorn versions of herself and a friend!
3. A Phantom stallion!- DONE!
4. Horsethingyversion of Shimau!- lineart done
5. If you don't request something, I have a few good and naughty ideas...
6. Amaris as a pegasus with bonus Bane unicorn
7. Ask or I improvise!
8. Her buckskin with dark brown grulla markings, Prance!
Aaaaand cameo request 9. Her stallion, Soul
What started all this:
Go and give lots of favs and love! It's my Tyrre, whom you may know from this picture
Aka the pimping of the be-autiful doodle continues...
I also pimp: Because she can turn the nastiest miffing incidents into fun experiences. And PWN while at it.

As soon as I finish each of the doodles/speedpaintings, they will be posted here as thumbs- something to nudge myself in the right direction.

List of first priorities (aside the above):
-Art trade with (To self: Yessssssssss!... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9771279/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9771279/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 12:16:42 PDT Clicky on the thumb to view and drool over:

Go and give lots of favs and love! It's my Tyrre, whom you may know from this picture
So.
You know what that means, don't you? I despise chain things, but I love art, and maybe this will get me started on sketching by hand again. Though when I submit to DA, it will probably be in the form of speedpaintings, in the quality of my Tyrre drawing (see above). So no grumbling if it's not spiffy lick-cleaned lineart...
Okey-dokey, here we go:

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.

Ask ahead. Requests closed till I finish these, and a few things off my priority list. Oh, and before I forget, if you do this, you are supposed to make five doodles for other people, and post this on your journal.
Another little note: if your request is something horsy/unicornesque, it will be finished more swiftly (because I have had more practice and it's easier for me). If it's Elfy/Phantom-y, it will be finished a bit more slowly. (NO ERIK/RAOUL PAIRINGS. Maybe Erik/Christine ones. Definitely Erik/horse or Erik/Persian ones. Or with Mme Giry even, but only if it's a motherly affection and not naughty for the last case). If you don't ask something specific, I might browse around your gallery to get ideas from your original characters
I think that about covers it

Your naughty Phantom,
-Erik

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9736046/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9736046/ Tue, 15 Aug 2006 11:18:37 PDT






P.S: From now on, I shall recall that I am on DA only for the purpose of composing and putting up art. Katy, a good friend of mine, says not to give up on people. Oh, but I have. Oh, but I will. Greet then, the professional Erik, and expect to see the art list that will ensue.

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9731327/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9731327/ Mon, 14 Aug 2006 23:29:31 PDT I have given several warnings of the most amiable nature but it seems people need bashing in the head just to figure that THIS Phantom is REALLY touchy about his stuff. Really really touchy.

Real friends: *rewston ~SwordchildPlaid*LoathsomeGargoyle

Why can't people be bloody original? Why? I watch hundreds of people, more than ever could fit on a watchlist and THEY are original!! Hundreds!

PS:I wonder if bad things happen sometimes so we can appreciate the support of the people close to us. The past couple of days have been truly amazing in that respect. I never thought I would feel so loved since... well. Luff you three. I do.

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9713419/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9713419/ Sun, 13 Aug 2006 15:47:25 PDT
Because she's a wonderful person and amazingly supportive and she has something some particular people will never have.
A living, beating, compassionate heart.

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9582437/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9582437/ Wed, 02 Aug 2006 22:40:04 PDT
The pastor entered his donkey in a race and it won. The pastor was so pleased with the donkey that he entered it in the race again, and it won again.
The local paper read: PASTOR'S ASS OUT FRONT
The Bishop was so upset with this kind of publicity that he ordered
the pastor not to enter the donkey in another race.
The next day, the local paper headline read: BISHOP SCRATCHES PASTOR'S ASS
This was too much for the bishop, so he ordered the pastor to get rid
of the donkey. The pastor decided to give it to a nun in a nearby
convent.
The local paper, hearing of the news, posted the following headline
the next day: NUN HAS BEST ASS IN TOWN
The bishop fainted. He informed the nun that she would have to get rid of the donkey, so she sold it to a farmer for $10.
The next day the paper read: NUN SELLS ASS FOR $10
This was too much for the bishop, so he ordered the nun to buy back
the donkey and lead it to the plains where it could run wild.
The next day the headlines read: NUN ANNOUNCES HER ASS IS WILD AND FREE
The bishop was buried the next day.
The moral of the story is .. being concerned about public opinion can
bring you much grief and misery...and even shorten your life.
So be yourself and enjoy life ... Stop worrying about everyone else's
ass and you'll be a lot happier and live longer.

Nicked from thepurplemonster's journal XD!! It definitely made my night...

And because I am a masked pimp: Clicky on this.
And this
And this
Enjoy. Comment. Fav.
Because I say so, of course
Your bouncy hip-wriggling master Phantom, (feels damn good when the Opera Managers are out...)
-Erik

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9463526/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/9463526/ Sat, 22 Jul 2006 23:46:59 PDT Does anyone know when it comes out under that title... I have the others in the series... but not that one yet and it's driving me mad. I want to see what happened and I will now be a complete baby and say that if the creator kills Seren I'm chasing her down and... well, doing something really nasty to her that sweet innocent Seren probably would not approve at all.
Serenserenserenserenseren-ism. prrrrrrrowrrrrrrr. Albino-pale, child-innocent, sweeter-than-cream, god-hawt Avatar. What's not to adore.

*shifty eyes* I guess now the poor people who watch me must certainly know I am insane...

Your disobedient Phantom
-Erik


(P.S: I figured I could spazz at people for once. Fun...?)

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]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/8546812/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/8546812/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 01:36:38 PDT May you forgive the lack of eloquence of this little note,

-Erik

PS: Just letting you know I am still alive...

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/8273969/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/8273969/ Sun, 26 Mar 2006 18:39:21 PST
`By all rights, ghosts should not grace the turf of Alma’s World with their hovering hoofsteps. The past belongs not in the future; but so it happens sometimes, that though things are intended to happen one way, call it fate or call it luck or call it the great Mare herself making the choices, strange, surreal occurrences do come to pass… affecting unicorn’s lives for better or for worse. Some might have called his existence a miracle. Others, a bitter curse… if only out of pity for what had happened to make once a lively young stallion turn into… this.
Hardly a soft sound, hardly a breath heard as it heaved barrel-broad flanks. Eyes in the shadows, both blue, one seeing, one perfectly blind; but the eye that was left pierced with its gaze the foliage, even as the mind behind it drifted in that eerie state between living and dead, between sanity and madness. The same tragic event: losing a mate and infant, working so differently on a pair of shoulder-friends that had once been so close. For Absynthe, it had meant being pushed to anger. But for this one… perhaps it was their individual parentage that appeared through them now. Pure anger in the pintalooza warrior, Absynthe… this odd, nirvana-like, serene state in the one who pondered on these things now.
Looking at him, one might have mistaken him perhaps with an old acquaintance: the glossy mauve hide on one side with the identification markings; the crescents and the jagged vertical lightning scar, all from the battle he had fought to protect the same mate he was bound so cruelly to lose. But his fetlock-reaching mane could not hide most of the harm that the other side had suffered. Dapples, lines, crescents, triangles even, too many scars for the eye to number at first glance or even at a second; some, most having healed white... so fast, such a contrast to his shattered insides.
How were those made? But the answer to this question was easy:
… Peals of agony and grief. Plunging off that convenient edge… to a ravine. The void, sucking him down into darkness as he challenged death to come take him and end his suffering for losing Atlanta and her unborn meant to lose the world. Rock closing in around him like blessed jaws… flashes; blood pooling, caking his coat, matting the long mane and tail. Turning the green of his legs to burgundy as he thrashed in it, in a pool of rock and blood and thorn. Blackness; blessed, at last.
Yes… he had been meant to die there. First time, his attempt. Then, when he had learned of Absynthe’s madness by other’s conversing lips; driven to face him. Had he not always been driven? Driven to save, driven to gather, driven to protect... Fierce had been the spar between once-friends, and yet neither could truly recognize the other… and so it was that the murderer that was left of the once cheerful smirking tease, had left the mauve one wounded without finishing him off; a look in those eyes, both empty, one for being derived physical sight and the other for something more, and anyone would have been convinced that Justice, as all knew him once, the gold-hearted knight in shining armor, was now dead. What was left? A shell guided by a phantom spirit through an unnatural serenity.
Was it for anyone to wonder, since the stallion standing now hidden well in the shadows of the grove, staring blankly at the frolicking unicorns, was only half there… and half on the other side? How could he not be if he was meant to belong with his love, always, going where she went even as it meant for him to perish too; all he had to wait for now, stoically, was for his body to finally give out so he could follow and find the peace promised in the hovering light his mind had turned into.
He held so still, butterflies were beginning to coat him; the first spring ones, blues and reds and yellows and dusty grays upon their velveteen wings, and they covered his horn and perched on his body, seeking in vain for food from this brightly colored, enormous, strangely shaped flower, tangling their little insect legs in his long mane and tail as if nature adorned him. And all the while, he only smiled gently at the welcome touch of the insects, barely felt, and kept himself more still than any equine might ever do so… Any sane equine. And his thoughts drifted; no, he would not face his dam or sire. They had finally settled with their respective mates… they need not know of the darkness that had befallen their strange sons. They deserved to be happy. Perhaps a certain midwife would have understood, for the tiny magenta-eyed, mask-faced Playn’tann knew sorrow well; but he had pass... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/8144370/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/8144370/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 21:52:45 PST
... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/8070311/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/8070311/ Sun, 05 Mar 2006 00:52:55 PST Do I ramble? Of course... hot tea in my hand, permeating the air around me with its soothing scent. Japanese, of course... and my hand slowly glides over the velvet of my new cloak. A bittersweet smile; a memory.
`Make this for me, `I said, `no matter what the cost. `
The lady who would oblige; no words did she offer, no protest, but sent me off to fetch what fabrics I would. Velvet on the outside, of course. Black as night. Sleek as serpent's skin. And on the inside... not velvet but slightly curling white fur. My Opera cloak. And when I went to check upon her, she had it ready to place upon my shoulders; a gentleman, strutting among gowns for ladies and top hats and what have you, in the attic of that small but oh so rich seasonal Halloween shop... And now, hanging close by so I can see and feel it. My gentleman's cloak. Why the bitterness of my smile, you ask? At all other times I had a couple of wicked imps as companions to go out; but I cannot travel to visit them and give tonight a bit of glamour. Nay, I will rest, in beloved arms, allowing my illness to have its way with my too-pale body like a ravaging lover. Loneliness... were it not for my Persian rose and for my memories, such a pang of loneliness as would be unbearable.
But I am a fool. *smiles softly* For I meant to compose this note to leave a word to my darlings, my watchers and companions here on DA; not to ramble about my personal condition. I must last till the Easter holidays; after that, things shall be easy. Till then... *winces slightly and tightens a hold on a punjab lasso, and takes a deep breath, exhaling it in a sigh...* Let us think positively *coughs* Erm, yes, I know positive is not my strong point. But my promise is that I have been working on a lot of things, which will be put up here in due order. The requests first and foremost... yes, I still have not forgotten... Just a few weeks more, my darlings. A few weeks and then I am free.
Know that my eye is upon every single one of you; protective, proud, fierce, loving. I may not have time to respond to comments or send notes or thank people for watching me or faving my work, but I still see and know and am most humbly thankful. There is nothing that I want more than to add personal little notes to each and every one of you who means something special to me- but I don't want to see jealous little pouts, now You're all special. I will just mention my host of favorite people on DA, and may each of you go and visit, fav, praise, and generally molest with wonderful comments: for they deserve them.

~bringonthethunder (dear Celeste), ~depplosion (aka captain Jacq and skinny hawt Eriks) , *darkhorse5 (equine artists rock), ~forestfruits1 (those Puss-in-boots eyes!!) ,~Frotu (*glomppouncestealawayandworshipforeverand ever* One of the most eloquent comment composers, and I won't say `the`because it will get to your head ), ~Gatana (It will be all right, darling, hang on in there), ~HabitualFlippancy (damn volumes of bloody talent), ~Hiei1317 (even though you know how I deplore Raoul ),*horsefeathers75 (talk about talent to blow people away), ~Jenphi (a new addition to my DA harem *smirk smirk*), ~katubish (may you be happy on the path you chose, though I do miss some saucy wickedness around this gallery XD), *LoathsomeGargoyle (my most darling of sponsors), *Losmios (have adored her since for ever and still do), ~mayonakaryoko (should I melt now or later?), ~misschievious (ever so kind to me from day one), ~Porcelain-Requiem (we may disagree on a certain soprano's pitch but talent is ta... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7985409/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7985409/ Thu, 23 Feb 2006 21:26:20 PST
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF I:

» I committed suicide:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Art:
» Comments:
» Character Designs:

WHAT ABOUT US:

» Who are you?
» Are we friends?
» When and how did we meet?
» How have I affected you?
» What do you think of me?
» What's the fondest memory you have of me?
» How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
» Have I ever hurt you?
» Would you hug me?
» Are we close?
» Emotionally, what stands out?
» Do you wish I was cooler?
» On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
» Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
» Am I loveable?
» How long have you known me?
» Describe me in one word.
» What was your first impression?
» Do you still think that way about me now?
» What do you think my weakness is?
» Do you think I'll get married?
» What about me makes you happy?
» What about me makes you sad?
» What reminds you of me?
» What's something you would change about me?
» How well do you know me?
» Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
» Do you think I would kill someone?
» Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7943800/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7943800/ Sun, 19 Feb 2006 13:49:12 PST
Aka, be on full duties for seven days and then return to see what happens at DA. I guess those will take me a while to sort through.
Apologies to people who expect things from me- I barely got a minisecond to type this tiny note.
*Drags self off to cat-box and falls face-first in it like a log*

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7861646/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7861646/ Sat, 11 Feb 2006 03:25:19 PST You may accuse me that it was my choice, by my own hand. That I have this one chance to become someone important, to have choices over life and death within my hands even if it is no more but over animals… but I drown in despair. I shall be taken from everything I have ever loved, and since I have tasted a form of punishment- what else can this be called?- similar during this summer, I have no wish or desire for another and not even the tears to weep. And this is hardly about my weakness to face what is coming, what even I, who have been accused of seeing only the darkest side of things, could not quite imagine just how awful it would be. I already feel the hangman’s noose around my neck, bitter irony for Erik, is it not? This summer nearly broke me in twain, those who were near me had to suffer for it, watching me torn to pieces and have no choice over the matter. What shall it be like now, now that it will be twice that time? Think that it is three and a half months, you might say. Withdraw behind the mask of flesh and ice and let the cruelty of masters imposed upon your head so you might learn and be powerful, and some day wealthy, perhaps, not bother you as much. But oh, how can it not? Even riding another’s horses has been taken from me, and to see everyone on this very site ramble about how wonderful their life is with their own equine companions is pain enough, without needing to take in the face the whip sting of: you will never have a horse. And if I wish not to be tethered to a single place, to be for ever free until my heart somewhere binds me, I can only borrow steeds black as night or gold as the dawn from other places, with all the risks that come thereof. I was lucky to escape being turned into a crippled invalid a couple of times… paying the price of pain, of course, but a far deeper one in the wounds I carry to my soul for one betrayal after another. Yes, I ramble. For once I shall ramble, for a friend told me I have been given the right… and even others have been curious, as I was shocked to notice, for details of the life of the creature that is me. This amuses me no end- how could anyone in their right minds with their beautiful and normal lives ever wish to behold even a corner of the darkness that my eyes see all day? And so much more, the darkness within…
How I remember their faces, dear journal, whenever I give them a taste of the truth I see. How I remember the sting of words, reminding me that I have a disfigured soul that I must continue to hide behind my mask of pain, my only shield against this horror of a world, when they themselves have demanded to see behind it…
I grieve and am in pain, vulnerable in this dark hour, the edge of a battle I cannot slip past… not this time. I have been imprisoned one time too many in places where I went to learn… have I learned? For I see every day I gain more from what I have ever taught myself than what tutors who think they have achieved everything there is to be done in life just by reaching that small station… and therefore consider themselves the kings of the universe. Well I bow to no kings. I sit on their thrones and pry the diamonds loose just so I can toy with something sparkling, holding no more value to me than a butterfly. That is all they have to offer me… and of course, a sense of twisted fun in pitting myself in odds that must ever tower against me. Would my poor mother understand, you think, dear journal? Would my so-called friends? Shall I name them for you one by one? Ah but I cannot, for my heart is so torn open this instant that only venom shall come, and I will never offer that to the numbered few who ever showed me even a scrap of kindness.
And what of my lifebond… fool you will say, fool am I. You see the creature that is fierce, that is passion, that is color, that is power… and so my wounded core, my scars, might escape from view in the wake of my velvet cape. Time and time again in my miserable loneliness, did I not scream for my lifebond, my Companion, my One to come to me? And she has… but is still kept from me by bo... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7689958/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7689958/ Mon, 23 Jan 2006 21:21:47 PST The worst week of my exams is (finally) past, and now I can breathe again: and this means I can once more return to this request list and see what I can do about making it smaller...
In my last journal I had inserted a bit of homework for you all, though no one seemed to pay particular attention: so here is my little request again.
I'd like to see your favorite Phantom picture. Pick one (or two, or three) of the best Phantom pics you have seen around and link back to them!
My search for Phantom art continues....

Squish97
Erik and Christine kissing at their wedding- a `what if` alternate ending to the story- Challenge accepted!

Forestfruits
Book- The scene at the end in the Daroga's apartment (Leroux) –Lineart finished!
Movie -The part on Apollo's Lyre when Erik is watching and hearing Christine and Raoul confess their love. –Challenge accepted!

Mizamour
Phantom: the scene at the end in the daroga's apartment- Lineart finished!
and the scene in the mirror chamber w/Raoul and Persian- Thinking about it
Lord of the Rings: Gollum/Smeagol's "My name..." moment, with Frodo... –Thinking about it

SwordchildPlaid
Desert scenes- the camel chase, Erik and the Persian–Challenge accepted!
Erik and the baby –Challenge accepted! (since a long while now… *sheepish*)
Collab- T’chayo and Kildryn –Challenge accepted!
Zairendil and Giemsyrr- (work in progress)

Horsefeathers75
When Black Beauty comes into the pasture with Ginger and Merrylegs for the first time, and there's a shot of Ginger standing by the huge pond in tall grass and flowers, and leaning towards the water.... –Challenge accepted!
Waterfall- Art trade!
Tain and Tyrre- 50% colored!

Depplosion
Drawing Nadir as the `man` -Lineart almost finished!

(Or from personal Phantom list:
Ginger and Merrylegs dancing, Beauty rearing! )

Gifties: Rewston (Katy! ): Emyr or Bane

Contests:
Losmios- work in progress

Waiting results:
Silver Brumby- Abraxas
Horsefeathers75- Elsewhere
Ponymadgal- Keiytr

Waiting from:
Horsefeathers75- Tain contest prize (CotS characters)
FreeMaree- contest prize
Lp-unicorn- part of art trade...

No 1 priorities: Erik sillyness...

P.S.: Kindly remember that I am a very very busy person, and going through exams at the hardest school imaginable, and I have a huge art list of my own which I must work on at the same time. I beg your understanding in the simple fact that trades/gift exchange/contests will be promoted to the top of my to-do list. Even Angels can be enticed with honey…
Any requests/ideas you might have, you may post under this journal. I most likely will not get to them before I get at least part of my list done, but you never know- if something appeals to me/coincides with my secret list, then it might just be realized even sooner than everything else.
And with such food for thought, I leave you,
Your obedient servant,
-Erik

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7363541/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7363541/ Sat, 07 Jan 2006 22:33:38 PST My darlings! Another little note from me, and this time, it’s more or less an art list. I would like to thank you for 3000 pageviews (who caught that? Come out, come out, wherever you are… *purrrrrr* ) and once more, let me express the sheer pleasure your visits and comments and to my humble work are… I am presently entering one of the worst exam periods of my life, so I humbly ask for your understanding in any delays in replies/art owed, since I am working really hard.
Now to the main topic: In a previous little note, I had asked you to kindly pick your favorite scenes/moments from either books or movie… Being naughty as I am, however, I did not specify that the movie I meant was the Phantom of the Opera; therefore, several particularly interesting requests came up, which I have turned into the art list you will see below… this list shall be updated in the course of time. Please read…

Squish97
Erik and Christine kissing at their wedding- a `what if` alternate ending to the story- Challenge accepted!

Forestfruits
Book- The scene at the end in the Daroga's apartment (Leroux) –Thinking about it
Movie -The part on Apollo's Lyre when Erik is watching and hearing Christine and Raoul confess their love. –Challenge accepted!
Benedict and Lucille- Challenge accepted!

Mizamour
Phantom: the scene at the end in the daroga's apartment, and the scene in the mirror chamber w/Raoul and Persian- Thinking about it
Lord of the Rings: Gollum/Smeagol's "My name..." moment, with Frodo... –Thinking about it

SwordchildPlaid
Desert scenes- the camel chase, Erik and Shahriyar –Challenge accepted!
Erik and the baby –Challenge accepted! (since a long while now… *sheepish*)
Collab- T’chayo and Kildryn –Challenge accepted!

Horsefeathers75
When Black Beauty comes into the pasture with Ginger and Merrylegs for the first time, and there's a shot of Ginger standing by the huge pond in tall grass and flowers, and leaning towards the water.... –Challenge accepted!

Depplosion
Drawing Nadir as the `man` -Challenge accepted!

(Or from personal Phantom list:
Ginger and Merrylegs dancing, Beauty rearing! )

Contests- Waiting results:
Silver Brumby- Abraxas
Horsefeathers75- Elsewhere
Ponymadgal- Keiytr
FreeMaree-Moon Rise (working on it)

Waiting from:
Horsefeathers75- Tain contest prize (CotS characters)
-Tyrre and Tain (her part of the shmexy Tain trade )
Lp-unicorn- part of art trade...


P.S.: Kindly remember that I am a very very busy person, and I have a huge art list of my own which I must work on at the same time and let me reassure you, you will enjoy greatly… Any further requests/trades shall be added here, and I beg your understanding in the simple fact that trades/gift exchange will be promoted to the top of my to-do list. Even Angels can be enticed with honey…
Any requests/ideas you might have, you may post under this journal. I most likely will not get to them before I get at least part of my list done, but you never know- if something appeals to me/coincides with my secret list, then it might just be realized even sooner than everything else.
And with such food for thought, I leave you,
Your obedient servant,
-Erik

PS Here is a bit of `homework` for you all: I'd like to see your favorite Phantom picture. Pick one (or two, or three) of the best Phantom pics you have seen around and link back to them!
My search for Phantom art continues....

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7254338/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7254338/ Thu, 08 Dec 2005 09:35:40 PST The woman I loved is…
… dead.
I have not seen you laid low. I am told that I should ‘deal with it’; it’s not the first time such a thing happens to me. And yet, futile as it is, I must ask: why you?

…The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return…

The news was brought to me by note and by gentle warning… yet it was through a friend’s honest lips the horrible ultimatum was delivered and all hope was crushed to bits. We die, having swam in memories of utmost beauty and ugliness, rich beyond the count of fortune, and yet still it seems to me like no more than a single breath before the candle of your delicate life was put out by a violent wind. And I won’t face it; I still resist to the idea, refusing to fall apart and grieve or collapse in bitter wailing. Tears there have been as I hear our song in my mind and in my heart and I cannot help but think we still sing to each other so the words become our bridge beyond the widest yawning chasm, that brink of darkness upon which I once more find myself standing.
Remember you? Cruel stars, could I ever forget??
Always shall I hold you to me, and I do not say this lightly as random, commonplace, cheap platitudes. I seek neither comfort nor solace for none do I deserve. I lose myself in music, contemplating my rose, freshly plucked while barely beginning to bloom, the cherry tree’s flower that falls before it can wither, the essence of the warrior; your scent in my nostrils still, despite the swirling snow; and upon the rose’s stem, a ring of diamonds, your last gift to me. With your last breath, you sought to save my soul, and left me for ever. Come What May. Our song, the song I sang to you in blind infatuation, on your dying lips, the stroke to send me to my knees, the hand to keep me from sinking beyond the point of no return by grasping my heart and wrenching.
Why live life from dream to dream…
…and dread the day…
… when dreaming ends.
You flew away, like a dove, away from it all; and my heart shattered even as I knew you could only find peace where you travel to.

Never knew I could feel like this… Like I’ve never seen the sky before. Want to vanish, inside your kiss…
The grief is too near for me to sing with these lips that shall never kiss yours, cold as ivory, farewell. Should have, could have, all the dreams we should have shared; and the light fades in an all-devouring blackness. Or has it not? Were you calling me to you with those last words into forever, or bidding me stay and care for the ones who need me… left am I, to love the rose when your petals are scattered across the floor of the stage we moved together, our greatest triumph, still holding you in the arms of recollection as my heart’s blood drips, slowly, mingling with my lachrymal farewell.
Seasons may change, winter to spring…
Silence warring with Music. Music echoing divinely, defiantly, into Silence.
The sun… it will come out eventually, but I wonder how it will dare show its face after you are gone. I feel the monster, deserving punishment for the unforgivable crime of having failed; failed to save you, to hold onto you and drive Death away with my silver sword. Fell in love with you, did he, that last of all lovers, so he must have you before you could live and see a family bloom before you? Not for you the cold embrace of the earth; perfect as a valkery of war in a ring of incadescent flames, in the heart of the place I had given you, in the lilacs and the willows resting until my time is come to follow you and give you my immortal kiss… Is it there that you wait, beyond a silver shore, beyond the peaceful darkness, in a place of utmost beauty, waiting for me? I gave you a part of my soul to keep you company till that day comes. Justice follows his Atlanta into the white ships and beyond the stars, and you gave me a part of yours in forgiveness so that we must be bonded for ever. It is thus I should feel no pain; it is thus the pain shall never end, and your face I shall behold when it is time for me to fall in my last glorious battle. I will join you soon, my friend, my love.
Not today. Soon.
I seek solace in solitude. I contemplate and remember. I sing our song and sometimes I weep. No comfort, no healing is needed. What more gift could I possibly have than love upon someone’s dying breath? Perhaps in time I shall forgive myself as you have wanted.
Love Lost. Love never lost.
Rest in Peace 4/12/05.
You live now only in my memory and in the heart of all those who knew how special you were; angel in truth. And I, the fallen one, remain behind, till all my promises and vows are fulfilled, and my existence is utterly spent, dwelling among meaningless, fading things and never touched by them, hanging onto this pain that has ensured I shall never let you go.
Love.
L... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7189749/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7189749/ Wed, 30 Nov 2005 21:07:16 PST
I guess we all know that even with a subscription it will take me a while to sort through all that- don't forget this Phantom leads a rather busy life and so I hardly get a moment to be on line and when I do I am multi-pounced. :eep: and to think I am the one supposed to do the pouncing...
But I want everyone to know I truly appreciate every comment and favorite and visit, and that I will be returning the favor according to time and inspiration.
Speaking of which, I'll ask you to kindly pick your favorite scenes/moments from either books or movie or any sort of original ideas you'd like to see realized by my hand. Yes, yes, I do have a miles-long list, but still I am curious to see if some might coincide with mine, and if not, so much the better. *Purrrrrr* So take your quills, or rather, keyboards, at hand, my darlings, and write me your little notes. In the meanwhile, I will keep working on that gift list I have promised myself I'd finish...
Ta-ta,
Sneakily yours,
O.G.

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7071669/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/7071669/ Thu, 17 Nov 2005 13:07:08 PST 1. I ___Erik.

2. I want to _____Erik!

3. Erik is ______.

4. Erik and I are_____.

5. If I was alone in a room with Erik we would probably _____.

6. I wish Erik could _____.

7. Erik should ______.

8. Erik reminds me of _____.

9. If Erik was an animal, he would be a ________.

10. One day, Erik and I will _____.

]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/6996783/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/6996783/ Wed, 09 Nov 2005 04:46:22 PST Once upon a time, when I first learned to rp, my first character was the mauve unicorn stallion Justice. He was a real knight, noble, with a golden heart, chivalrous to extreme.
But many things came to pass. Many betrayals. Pain and bitterness came in the way. And with them, fury.
And just when I was so frustrated and ripe for it, I met Erik.
He became my muse, then my teacher, and then... well, here I am.
And so... as I told a friend... There is no Justice in this world. Justice is `dead`. There's just me. So I'm the Phantom, I am Erik... And I am the Phantom of Justice, his ghost, if you will, still in me when I am being my Don Juan self.
As for the `joke` I mentioned: there is only ghostly, fake justice in this world. Justice on the skin only, if you will, superficial.
That our rosy hopes are not real, and in truth, there's darkness...
Rosy... do you see? (Justice being mauve)
It pains me now, to be called by that dubbing.
Because of what I remember... because she knew me as Justice. And because of everything that's happened, and because she's gone, and so that part of me shall follow her beyond, loyal for ever, even as I must live on and remember.
Do you understand? Do you see why it hurts, every single time, to throw me back in memories, back to a time when I was something else; the youth, foolish in his innocence... Before I was dragged in front of that mirror that shattered my life, a mirror to show I was a monster, before I was caged by dreadful people who repayed my every kindness with a bitter word, who tried to have my heart trampled and my spirit torn down.

My name, if you so choose to use it, is Erik. Otherwise, if you know me not so well, PJ. Or Phantom. Or Ghost, or O.G. Or whatever pleases you but for the love of what you hold dear, refrain from reminding me of my past pains.
The issue here is I cannot stand people calling me Justice any more. It hurts me when it's hardly anyone's fault, to the point where I would snap in anger, and I don't want that to happen.
End of rant, and thank you for your patience.

-Erik

P.S: Offering another glimpse behind my mask... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/6895940/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/6895940/ Sat, 29 Oct 2005 00:49:47 PDT Here goes.
As if anyone really wanted to know.

20 Random Facts about PhantomJustice:
1. I live underground. In a basement as dark and humid as it makes me wish it were a cavern. At least on one side, if you pull back the heavy curtains, you can see all the way to the silver waters of the ocean... I hope to change that, though, some day, and have a sunlit appartment like everyone else.
2. My musical education varies from the House of Music (the closest equivalent to an Opera where I was born, its title roughly translated) to private lessons with a piano esscort to self-lessons... and the latter were the strictest. Said `House of Music`, in greek called the `Odeion` (pronounced o-thee-on=singing-place, fittingly) was my playground when I was little: my favorite hobby was to seduce my friends away from their classes and dodge the security and the men who made sure everything was smooth and quiet in that palace of marble and fabric-lined walls, to walk the isles above the Drama School which was also housed in there and make fun of the actors by imitating them mockingly as a voice from above (that made them furious for some reason), and to steal away and play as I wanted on the enormous recital pianos- you know the kind, glossy to extreme, with the wood of their backs lifted up like an enormous sail... Imagine it, I was around seven at the time, my feet dangled from the stool! *chuckles* But though the `silence guardians` knew me, they never tried to box my ears for it. I think they might have been a bit fond of a tiny child so enjoying such sombre surroundings...
3. My mother language is Greek, but I speak English just as well, if not better... I also speak French and Sindarin and a couple of other languages here and there, but this is not a curriculum vitae and so I won't elaborate further.
4. I could swim since I was practically in swaddling clothes. One of my best moments: capturing a baby octopus. Around these parts, their legs are considered delicacies... but it was only a baby. I swiftly released it before anyone could know. Another loved moment: dolphin-dancing over the waves. (waiting for big ones and jumping over them to land on my stomach on the other side... it's so refreshing.)
5. I have two godchildren. One, the eldest, is my true godchild, the other is `adopted`. *smiles fondly* I adore them both, the eldest for her incredible insight and the youngest for the ability to be sweet and wicked, innocent and cunning at the same time. And so expressive! *smirks, pointing at scraps*
6. People look at my libraries. Then look back at me. Then look at my amounts of books again. Then they say: `There is no way all that stuff can fit in ONE head. `I shrug at their disbelief.
7. I adore baby animals... I have a soft spot for enormous eyes...
8. ... but I am also known to relish morgue sessions when I get to do the slicing and dicing. I wanted to be a coroner when I was in my teens.
9. If there was a Hell and I was sent to it, I would make sure I got an enormous pitchfork and spend the rest of eternity poking the bastards that have made this life miserable for me.
10. I can be the sweetest, most adoring Don Juan... If I grant my love, it is for ever. But betray me, hurt me, and my wrath is unstoppable... suffering, guaranteed.
11. Many have tried to break my fierce spirit. No success. I still hate every single one of them for it. I shall never forget.
12. I have an enormous list of drawings I wish to create... Make that a few enormous lists. I am also an addict of other people's art, hence the torrent of faves. Presently, I watch no less than 144 people, and the list gets larger every day.
13. Most of the best moments of my life were experienced during Halloween.
14. I still cannot live without riding even though my waist nearly snapped in two in a double accident a few years ago. The PAIN.
15. I don't act Erik. I am sincere in everything I type.
16. ... which has led people to say to my face that my sanity is questionable
17. ... to which I respond: of course it is, because I am in love...
18. I am not rich. On the contrary. And yet I may spend for thick crimson velvet or for a beautiful ride or a rare book... or to have a special someone come to visit me. Because one can't take money to one's coffin; only beautiful memories.
19. I adore beauty in all its forms. A blush is as precious to me as the twinkle of the Heart of the Ocean.
20. The one thing I constantly chase after is love. It is the single thing that... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/6765799/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/6765799/ Fri, 14 Oct 2005 11:29:34 PDT I am mourning.
I shall not utter details here, in honor of the person that is slipping away from my life, but never from my heart; for her dignity, for her shining spirit to ever remain intact and beautiful, please ask me not to tell you more.
I don't know if she will even see this... I don't know anything any more except that once, not so very long ago, I fell in love with a very sweet girl... and she taught me so many dear and precious things that brought me some of the most beautiful moments of my life. She showed me how to live rp... without knowing it, perhaps, she showed me how to release my shy emotions... She gave me pictures to hold for ever, the art and light we made together, my lovely, slender Last Unicorn... and I sang Come What May for her, with her, and I swore there would be nothing to take her from me...
Many things happened since, and we came to part... But I can never let go of her presence...
Shall I describe her for you? Paint a picture of her with words so you will have to worship her loveliness as I did and still do? Should I speak to you of her kind soul radiating from her with every word? What petty words of mine could ever truly capture the wonder that was she? Her fiery spirit, her compassionate heart... Forgive me if I ramble, but I need to keep her to me now, for ever, idealized in her moments of utmost glory, my beautiful Satine... the one who brought out the gallant poet in me... the chivalrous knight... Justice.
I hold onto her now, in my thoughts... even as her spirit flutters away and I hope she can forgive me for every little wonder I failed to give her, for every dream I had wanted to share, and I pray that my feelings are respected and no replies come under this journal entry: I'd rather each of you takes the time to do something sweet for the ones you care for. Anything. Share love... give from your hearts... rejoice with what you have and let that be the candle to light this fallen angel's flight back to living.
My love to all of you.
-Erik `Justice` Faith. ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/6455548/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/6455548/ Fri, 09 Sep 2005 01:14:23 PDT
Dear visitors of this humble corner on DA... I guess this means I have returned. Did you miss me? *smirks softly* I guess DA means too much for me to just let go. I am back in action, viewing art and commenting and faving as never before... *purrs a deep laughter* And once more, I thank dearly everyone for their comments, and of course they are appreciated- what is an artist without a public? *wink wink* One thing, though: forgive me if I never reply to my front page. No need to thank me for the favs, guys- you're the ones with the fantastic art. But I do love to see you drop by. Take a look around. I hope to have some fresh art uploaded soon. *smiles fondly*
Same `rules` as always: I enjoy visiting the page of everyone who drops me a line, and of many more who don't (YET. *smirk smirk*) I also enjoy replying to comments. If it takes me a while, don't despair- I lead a busy life.... three of them, actually. *winks* So I humbly request for a teeny bit of patience. I am quite fond of challenges. Requests. Pressies (both offering and receiving). Art trades. Collaborations. I have been aching for some drawing practice, and I hope that now that I am recovering from the mystery illness that felled me for the past week I will be drawing again. Furiously so.
For those of you who drop by my little `lair` for the first time, welcome. Respect me and I can be your Angel. Copy anything of mine, and I will be your worst nightmare. Fair and square...
As for those who know me *smiles deeply and takes a bow* My precious ones. I missed you. I've been watching your progress, just like a good Angel of Art... in that sense I never left. Time for you to watch my progress, hmmm?
I think that's enough of a rant for now. Forgive your Erik for getting carried away...
As always, your obedient servant,
P.J.

P.S: I am currently on a hunt for Phantom art/stories... I wonder if I should ever post my own... phanfics. Perhaps I hesitate because they are so personal, moments so dear to me... Perhaps it is for love of my daroga that I don't. Yet it's so hard... to give your soul to something and not be able to display it exactly because it's your life and it means so much.
I might post a taste of it... I just might... the answer to the Amari riddle. My Don Juan triumphant. *smirks, sliding back in the shadows to create beauty and terror* Perhaps... ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/6087784/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/6087784/ Sun, 31 Jul 2005 11:08:06 PDT When I agreed to the terms of use, I gave DA without realizing it the right to repreduce my art pretty much as they see fit - and I won't get any credit or money for it. Not just me, apparently this applies to everyone. Don't believe me? Read the following. CAREFULLY.
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These are just clues you can follow so you will understand the reason for my distress. The nightmare goes on and on and this thing is getting massive proportions, apparently. The question: What to do.
I ask those that watch me and those who have requested things from me to forgive me, but until this thing finds its ending one way or another I am no longer submitting anything on DA. So I should have known I was taking a big risk anyway when submitting things to the net: but to be told to my face that my art no longer is mine, no, that I cannot suffer. I am sorry. So I am not one of the best artists around, not one of the big legends, like Mia `Losmios` Bengttson or Katy Rewston or... you get the point, the list goes on and on. Still, my art is my love, my life, my work, and I don't want to ever see complete strangers take advantage of it. And yeah, technically, by deleting my stuff I am not punishing the ones that still somehow must be keeping my art in their archives, but the true art lovers. But as an art lover, I cannot stand by and not say anything about it.
So.
Me and Losmios have come up with this idea: we created an MSN group so that those who do not like what is going on will have a place to turn, even if only permanently if that is their wish. It's called Artist's Circle and it's here [link]
It is all about ART for ART'S SAKE- for true ART LOVERS and NOT PROFIT. I know, it's nowhere near as glorious as Elfwood or DA itself. It will be under progress till it takes proper shape. But this is our friendly hand reaching, and anyone can take it, free of charge. You can see more about this at Los's own journal here:
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Understand I have nothing against DA. I've only been here for a while and I loved it while it lasted. If it is decided in the end that there will be no profit involved, I will put up art again. Till then...
You'll see me on Artist's Circle.
Yours truly,
Your friendly neighborhood Opera Ghost. ]]> ~PhantomJustice http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/5796590/ http://PhantomJustice.deviantart.com/journal/5796590/ Sun, 17 Jul 2005 20:54:15 PDT I just want to thank you all for the comments, for they are duly appreciated... and say that it may take me a while to reply but it's only because I visit the page of EVERYONE who comments on mine and I comment and fav as occasion may arise; but I am also a busy person and I have lots of projects going, so this might take a while. However, you never know, you just might get a present for me if I get so inspired... whoever you may be, even if I don't know you at all.
If you have a challenge/request/wish for an art trade or a collaboration/competition especially equine or anthro or Ph.O.t.O related, don't be shy to poke me about it. My muse can be really strange, so I cannot promise you much; usually I prefer doing first, talking about it later heheh. But I can tell you that when I do promise something (which means I am really interested) I finish it fast, and from what I could tell, it is liked.
That is all for now...
I remain, ladies and gentlemen, your obedient servant
P.J.

PS: *laughs* Who knew... my initials are those of Punjab Lasso.. whoohohooo... *smirks wickedly* Don't know what I'm talking about? Then obviously you're not an Erik phan. *sniggers* Fitting, since my muse is Erik and I am yielded by his guidance as easily as said instrument of this prince of stranglers...

Oh yes, and everyone please, please go visit thejackbull's gallery [link] she accepts commissions at very low prices and she needs the help. I wish I could help her too, the least I can do is pass the word... ]]> ~PhantomJustice