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Life

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 01:24:54 PDT

Things are really looking up at the moment. My balance is restored, and I feel inspired and creative all the time. S'agapo moromu, you make my world complete.

New Beginnings

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Sun, 23 Aug 2009 08:08:22 PDT

I have a new job, 3 days a week cleaning caravans in a holiday park. Its enough to keep me going, and not too much that I don't feel able to do art or socialise in the interim. Its not the best job in the world, but to me its just right. Now I have it, I can feel a bit more financially stable, and more able to support my art self in all its endeavours.

I'm excited, this feels like the beginning of a new chapter in my life, and I can't wait to see where it goes.

Be careful what you wish for.

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Sun, 02 Aug 2009 05:47:29 PDT

Thats what they say... and I should have been more careful. As a young artist I longed for the darker side of things, the inspirations, the shock factor. I wanted people to admire my artwork... and to fear it. What makes good art work is not just the skill involved, but the subject matter. You have to evoke emotions in the viewer, give them something to look at which makes them think, maybe even question themselves. It could disgust them. It could remind them of love. It could sing of their dreams. It could frighten them. It could fight for a cause which they themselves feel passionate about. They could lust over it.

Through my teenage years I went for fear, disgust, and sex... the easiest and in my opinion, lowest forms. I would draw a bloody skull with its eye being ripped out by a crow. I would draw death on the river styx with souls grabbing desperately at his cloak. I would draw mermaids with their breasts exposed, naked angels, anthropomorphic creatures that made the viewer feel disgusted at themselves for lusting over. And I would hang on the apron strings of popular culture, drawing dragons and getting people to commission me to draw anything they wanted. I was an art prostitute.

When I showed my work to tutors, they advised that I avoid the popular subject matter, but I never understood why. I thought, if I enjoy doing it, and everyone else seems to enjoy me doing it, then why stop? But I had it drummed into me so much, that it put me off drawing altogether. I left art for a long time. I thought that their advice must be sound... but I lacked the inspiration to find other subjects to fill the gap. My fuel for being creative was the admiration of others. I lived only to impress... but now I felt stunted by my tutors words.

Now that I have returned, my fuel tank refilled, I find myself avoiding relying on that same brand. I paint to impress with my skill. Wildlife, making sure its pretty so that people like it. I have another fuel too... the need to earn money. I draw to earn, to impress each and every customer. But there is something else. An awareness... that these things don't inspire me. If there is no real subject to the picture, if its there just to be pretty, I feel like I'm an image making machine. I'm just a camera. I want to create works that push my boundaries, and those of the public. That have emotion, and are not just there for decoration. Where there's a will, there's a way... so watch this space, I'm going for gold. Wish me luck!

Thieves

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Sun, 12 Jul 2009 13:27:26 PDT

I think

this

should be read by as many people as possible. A fantastic artist has been having her work stolen by fakers and wannabes, but its not just her, the thievery is rife all over the art community. I think we need to help each other, help stop it happening. Spread awareness by linking to her journal, and keeping an eye out for stolen pieces.

Together we can make a difference,

Thank you for your time,

~Tanya

Website

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Sun, 14 Jun 2009 08:16:50 PDT

Hi everybody!

Just to let you know I finally got round to setting up my website, please do have a visit [link]

Alright for a laugh.

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Wed, 27 May 2009 08:27:34 PDT

What color/kind of socks are you wearing?
[ ] Red = loud
[ ] Green = stupid
[ ] None = freaky
[ ] Fuzzy = gorgeous
[ ] Yellow = innocent
[ ] Purple = a little too happy
[ ] Black = emo
[ ] Stripes = funny
[ ] Gray = skanky
[ ] Pink = preppy
[ ] Light blue = sweaty
[x] Other = hot
[ ] White = sexy

What kind of bottom half are you wearing?
[ ] Shorts = cutie
[ ] Skirt/skort = skank
[ ] Corduroy = faggot homosexual
[ ] Tight jeans = scene kid
[ ] Ripped jeans = emo
[ ] Cammo = cage fighter
[x] Jeans = prep
[ ] Cargo = clown
[ ] Sweats = athlete
[ ] Boxers = brat
[ ] Booty shorts = female
[ ] Capris = Gangster
[ ] Nothing = hoe
[ ] Dickies = weirdo
[ ] Bikini bottoms = tiki girl
[ ] Skinny jeans = beast
[ ] Other = sex addict

What is your natural hair color?
[ ] Auburn = that every one wants to make out with
[ ] Blonde = with a broken heart
[ ] Black = with a sexy smile
[ ] Dark brown = with a hot boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] Red = that likes to have fun
[x] Brown = who loves to be different
[ ] Dirty blonde= with sexy eyes
[ ] Bald = with herpes
[ ] Other = with a nice ass

Pick the month you were born on:
[ ] 1 = who ate
[ ] 2 = who needed
[ ] 3 = who killed
[ ] 4 = who shot
[ ] 5 = who killed
[ ] 6 = who smoked with
[ ] 7 = who farted on
[ ] 8 = who ran shirtless with
[ ] 9 = who got stabbed horribly by
[x] 10 = who cuddled with
[ ] 11 = who slept with
[ ] 12 = who ran naked with

Pick the day you were born on:
[ ] 01 = the kool-aid man
[ ] 02 = a dog
[ ] 03 = a shoe
[ ] 04 = a toothbrush
[ ] 05 = Santa Claus
[ ] 06 = The Trojan man
[ ] 07 = Barney the dinosaur
[ ] 08 = a prostitute
[ ] 09 = a porn star
[ ] 10 = a bag of weed
[ ] 11 = a lover
[ ] 12 = a glass of milk
[ ] 13 = a horse
[ ] 14 = a lesbian
[ ] 15 = a stripper
[ ] 16 = a pickle
[ ] 17 = a jew
[ ] 18 = a homo
[ ] 19 = an orange
[ ] 20 = a dildo
[ ] 21 = a homeless guy
[ ] 22 = a whore
[x] 23 = my crush
[ ] 24 = an easter egg
[ ] 25 = a jar of honey
[ ] 26 = a condom
[ ] 27 = a bowl of cereal
[ ] 28 = a french fry
[ ] 29 = Micheal Jackson
[ ] 30 = Paris Hilton
[ ] 31 = YOUR MOM

Pick the color of the shirt you are wearing
[ ] White = because I love marijuana
[ ] Black = because I'm sexy as hell
[ ] Pink = because the voices told me to
[x] Blue = because I have AMAZING boobs
[ ] Red = because I'm a pimp and your jealous
[ ] Polka Dots = because I hate my life
[ ] Purple = because I'm gay
[ ] Gray = because I got dared
[ ] Other = because that's how I roll
[ ] Green = because I'm good in bed
[ ] Orange = because I smoke crack
[ ] Turquoise = because I have a noodle in my nose
[ ] Brown = because I had to
[ ] Shirtless = because I've got abs

Hot prep who loves to be different who cuddled with my crush because I have AMAZING boobs... I see... :S

MILK CHEEKS

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Thu, 21 May 2009 02:52:29 PDT

[link]

Obsess

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Sun, 17 May 2009 11:55:00 PDT

It's what I do. I don't think that I could live without something to obsess over, weather it be some new man to fancy, or weather I'm not paying my friends enough attention, or too much... Weather I am going to make it through life, weather I'm going to make it through the day... weather or not I'm spelling weather right... or if its even the right kind of weather... and now I've said it so much I'm not sure if its really a word...weather. Weather weather weather weather weather weathererre. When I'm not drawing, I'm not healthy, and I don't draw enough. I need to find that button in my head to switch it off because my mind is driving me insane. Screw this for a bunch of grapes... How are you? I'm tired of me, so tell me about you, anything, anything you like, you feel like saying anything at all, go ahead. Anything.

Hi, its nice to meet you.

Shhhh.... You saw nothing!

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 08:48:02 PDT

What did you see?

...

Thats right.

Not Worth Reading as is just mental battle.

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Wed, 22 Apr 2009 07:05:43 PDT

I've been in such a rush to live my life, and for it to be amazing straight away. I don't know if I'm ever going to learn to take it slow. My parents dying has given me this obsession with living life for the moment and having it all right now, because who knows when it will all be gone? I dont seem to be able to switch off, and I'm going at everything obsessively. I'm so up and down, I wouldn't be surprised if I'm giving everyone around me a headache, I know I've been giving myself one. The trouble is that I really, really don't like being alone. I need my social contact, who doesn't right? I'm so friggin contradicted. All this, and I'm too afraid of success. Too afraid that if I let myself be happy, let myself have some responsibility I will eff it all up. So why bother? I want the fulfillment, but I don't want the hard work that goes with it. I don't want to do anything that I don't like doing. If I find someone I like as a friend, I want to run the next minute because suddenly they expect things from me. Suddenly I have something worth having, something I might lose, so I would rather it be gotten rid of, so I remain in control. I'm so fudging self analytical too! ERGH I annoy MYSELF. You know what my problem is? I spend too long without contact with another person and I go internal, I only have myself to talk to and I go crazy. I'm so reliant on other people! Wait... wasn't why all this happened in the first place? I was so reliant that I needed to find myself. Now I'm here, I find that I am no-one, a reflective surface that relies on others to shape it... to give it purpose. I'm too afraid of actually being someone, of actually annoying people, I want everyone to like me, but I don't want to be a bother. How far is too far? I think I'm toeing the line with a toe on the end of a yard stick...

I need to make mistakes. I need to say yes more. I need to say what I want more. The only reason I feel like I'm vanishing is because I'm not making myself heard. Not letting myself be seen. Not trying at all. Just complaining. Waa waa waa who cares? No one because you pushed everyone away.

The big test is here. Can I change before its too late?

One last thing to moan about. Not getting the internet for another two and a half weeks. Which sucks. Majorly.

My time is running out!

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Wed, 01 Apr 2009 08:56:54 PDT

There has been so much to do on the internet, but my time allowed is running out in the pub, so I will dissapear again until the end of the week when, FINGERS CROSSED, I sould be getting my connection.

Ps: Sky sucks.

Take it in the eyes.

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Sat, 14 Mar 2009 03:01:53 PDT

I am not getting my own internet til the end of March so I am raping my sisters internet.

Time Will Tell

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Mon, 23 Feb 2009 14:00:32 PST

Hello all,

no sooner am I back than I am off again! This time it isn't for long though, its just a matter of lack of internet connection in my new home. Don't worry, I can't live very long without my dose of tinternet, so I will be back within the week! Or two... really depends on the speed of installation.

Tomorrow, I move! AAAH! I am excited
Stay safe, see you all soon! And try not to do too much art work while I am gone, last time I came back after a long time I had several thousand deviations to go through! I mean really... some people have no consideration.

Cheerio! xoxox

Dun....dun....dun....DUN DUN! Bum bum bum bum.....

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Thu, 19 Feb 2009 11:01:03 PST

I return...

HELLO! How are you all?

It has been a while, quite a while. This is due to the fact that university lead to me hating doing anything art related, and it has taken me just over half a year to recover. But I'm back, and back painting too, and this time, its for real.

University is over, I'm moving to Devon and I'm going to paint and do other arty related things to earn my living. Thats the plan anyway. Who knows if it will work...

Watch this space!

Yup its that time again...

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Sat, 12 May 2007 11:23:08 PDT

www.tulagogo.com

Time for you to read a journal entry by me! WOOT.

So I thought it was time that I updated... mostly because I have nothing else to do but also partly because I have nothing else to do. Which is a lie, I have a piece of project animation I should be doing, but I am really not feeling it at the moment.

Its drawing to the end of the second year at uni and it seemed about time to start thinking seriously about what I wanted to be doing afterwards. Funnily enough, its not animation. I'm finding animation is too much about the computer, and don't get me wrong, I love it but I just can't stop imagining what my future is going to be like...becoming a Borg. Some computer-human fusion. Wired in permanently to my computer... (an image that I'm really feeling the need to draw now.) but seriously I'm scared my future will be full of eye problems and health problems because of being so inactive..

I really enjoy doing things with my hands so I'm thinking of doing something in sculpture. I like to create. And I love the outdoors and nature too so maybe as a job I work at a kennels or something similar. Sculpture as my free time thing. Well art as my free time thing anyway. I don't want to stop doing animation permanently but I don't want the computer to rule my life.

So the plan for next year at uni is to lean animation towards what I want to be doing afterwards, and Dan suggested that I do something like claymation... which I think is a great idea. Unfortunately it came too late for this project so I'm left having to finish this project on the computer and I reeeaaaly am loathing it, and all I can think about is what I want to be doing instead of trying to enjoy this project for what it is.

I only want to pass, I don't care what grade I get for this project, but I have the feeling that even that is asking too much now. I fear that I may not make it. Anyway... I'm going to go draw the computer-human fusion now... and think about doing this project... and not do it. *sigh*

www.tulagogo.com

Apples and Pears

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Tue, 01 May 2007 10:13:54 PDT

www.tulagogo.com

Yep, because of this my boyfriend now has a mac book, and so do I. When we went shopping to get him one it seemed a waste of effort on my part to go all that way to find him one and not use the opportunity. Didn't want to go all the way out again when my lap top finally died, especially since we have no car and have to spend lots to get to the nearest place that sells computers.

But thats not the only reason, the rest I suppose are obvious, the benefits of a mac to an artist... plus they are gorgeous.

It turned out beneficial for me aswell because a friend came round in the evening and bought my old lap top off me straight away for £400 so I get some money back.

We both got the same one, 2GHz intel core 2 duo processer
80GB hard drive... for £879 ish. The cheaper one with 60GB didn't seem worth the money, and the £999 one, which was black, didnt seem worth the money either. This one was just right.

I my Mac.

www.tulagogo.com

Leonarrrrrdo Da Vinci

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Wed, 11 Apr 2007 11:20:08 PDT

www.tulagogo.com

I needed to get that angry rant that was my last entry off my main page. It no longer represents the way that I am feeling. Right now I'm feeling grand... and really in the writing mood. We have an essay due in when we return to uni next week, so I've been reading and writing like mad. For once though, I am actually interested in the subject, and I feel like my essay may be something a bit more than crap for once. Although this may turn out not to be true, the fact that I'm positive is a big turnaround.

Oh yeah... the camera problem, well that was fixed by the purchase of a shiny little card reading box. I wasn't happy spending the money but I sure feel it was worth it now! I also got a webcam so that I could communicate with my sister Rachel as she is travelling the world here is her website about her world travelling with her husband, Simon.

I feel like I have been good at writing in the past, but I had lost it recently... I think I was good because I had the guidence of a great teacher, and now I'm just kind of winging it.

Ah well... I see that I passed the 1000 views point a good 100something views ago. I suppose I should follow the tradition and do a commemorative piece to celebrate the fact and thank all you wonderful people out there who just so happened to stumble upon my page.

Its a good excuse to really use my tablet too as I really haven't had the opportnity yet. I shall do it now...

www.tulagogo.com

STUPID EFFING COMPUTER AND CAMERA

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Mon, 09 Apr 2007 15:35:43 PDT

www.tulagogo.com

OH MY GOD so I feel really pissed off right now. Fuming. There is steam coming out of my ears and I want to scream and throw things. I feel like I can mentally feel the barrier that holds me in sanity but it feels like cling film... apply enough pressure and it will break. I may be overreacting, but hey, thats a problem I have right now.

Here is my other problem. My camera refuses to put its pictures of Paris on my computer. My computer refuses to accept that there is a whole camera connected to it. Now it knows that there is a camera connecting in one place... but not in the place that I need it to.

I have tried everything apart from setting the computer back a month, or spending money buying a card reader. I just can't believe that it won't comply. WHAT has gone wrong? Dan has installed some other things since... and I've been installing and uninstalling things... but we have taken them off now and everything we have tried has failed. I have utter faith in Dans computer ability aswell so I know now that there is nothing more I'm willing to do tonight but its so frustrating not being able to see the images large.

I'm so very upset and I just wan't to cry, if it wasn't for our friend Matisse being round I would and I wish he would go so I could. Its really not a good time for him to be round now, but bless him, I really can't send him away, I feel so trapped by my own mind and the temptation to place my finger against that cling film and apply that little bit of pressure is so great now. Its so satisfying to get the cling film taut over your nail...just a little further couldn't hurt, could it?

www.tulagogo.com

YAY WE GOT TICKETS TO GLASTONBURY!

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Sun, 01 Apr 2007 04:39:35 PDT

www.tulagogo.com

YAY WE GOT TICKETS TO GLASTONBURY!

www.tulagogo.com

Paris in three days

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Sat, 31 Mar 2007 17:06:15 PDT

www.tulagogo.com

Dan (icewulf111) and I are going to Paris on Tuesday, and I am so exited! We haven't made any definate plans of what we are going to do when we get there, we want the whole thing to be spontaneous and such, but we are taking our cameas... to catch all those spontaneous moments. Dan hasn't been before, and the last time I went it was on a college trip a couple of years ago, and everything was so organised... Its nice to go without a plan and just see how we feel each day.

Excitement...

www.tulagogo.com

...the page of wonders...page of wonders squak!

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Tue, 27 Mar 2007 05:55:33 PDT

We went to see Ricky Gervais in Brighton last night, it was rate gud...

On another note, I have a new website *pause for applause*...

cough

Thankyou, please, its nothing really.........your too kind.

Its TuLaGoGo dot com, and its not much yet, just a little about me, some of my art work, photography and aunt Hildas window which often houses a cherry pie. Mmmmmmm.....love those cherry pies.......PIE........cherrry pie..........PIEPIE. PIE.

Its taken a bit of work to get going with it, with some effups along the way, but now I've finally got to a point where I'm happy with it to some extent and, although there is still very much I want to add to it, I think whats there is worthy of attention now.
So, in conclusion, et voila....

www.tulagogo.com

WACO.....m

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Sat, 24 Mar 2007 20:14:39 PDT

Into....YOUOS!

Yeah, Its a Wacom Intuos3 A5 graphic tablet. I it! I'M SO HAPPY!

I originally bought a crappy cheap Trust one, which lasted me all of a day before it refused to work properly. You just accidentally drop the pen, about 10cm above the ground, and it breaks! USELESS! I got so increadibly frustrated trying to get it to work... In the end I saw one of my tutors using a Wacom, asked him whether he thought it was good, and judging by his reaction, well..... you can guess the rest. YIPPPEEEEEE! (thought I would add that extra hint in there. You guessed now? No? Really? HE LIKED IT OK?!?!)

ITS SO GOOD AND SO WORTH THE MONEY I SPENT SO GOOD SO GOOD SO GOOD YEAH YEAH SO GOOD ah thats where the caps lock button is... I've been looking for that.

Oh by the way, incase you hadn't noticed, I'm back, woo hoo. I guess having a new tablet means that I will be putting some art work on here now again, as well as my photography...wait....I had only just bought a new camera.... spend much do I? Dan, help me!! You have to help me budget till we get our new loan for next term! My theory is that these things will pay for themselves in the long run, because I will be putting them to good use. (I know I'm not famous yet, shhhh! They will pay. THEY WILL PAY I TELL YOU!!) AH FEK THE CAPS Lthere thats better. It likes to have a little love, with the shift key being used all the time it craves some attention... poor thing.

Wow, blah much? yep. that seems to be my most frequently used emoticon at the moment. I am just so blah blah!

Ok ok enough already I sleepy need bed. dehn..fjaj...bed....sleeeeeepeepepepeeeeeeeee.e.....

'nigh....

love to all who love me.... and maybe a little bit to those who don't..... just tell me one thing... Why not? WHY!???!?! What did I ever do to you? Oh right.... that..... erm.... sorry 'bout that... hehehe.... Forgive and forget? No? LOOK OVER THERE! *running footsteps*

I'm 21 today (23/10/06)

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Sun, 22 Oct 2006 16:02:18 PDT

by my watch anyway...

Happy Birthday to me.

Join our Ben Templesmith Fan Club!

You know you want to.... go on.

Long time no entry...

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Wed, 18 Oct 2006 02:51:13 PDT

There's nothing like morning TV...its rubbish, so I'm updating instead!!

I have so much to do before friday its scary. I need to do a storyboard and animatic (I really doubt that I'm going to get the animatic done but possibly the storyboard...)

At least I can get my storyboard and visualisations done, I will do them today. I will...ah who am I trying to persuade?

I also need to deliver about 20 bags of items to houses around my local area, for this job that I'm trying to quit! AARRRgh. Meanwhile preparing for a weekend away because its my birthday on moday!!

So I suppose I better stop complaining and start getting on with my work huh? Okay okay...

Join our Ben Templesmith Fan Club!

You know you want to.... go on.

Ben Templesmith Fan Club

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Sun, 10 Sep 2006 03:32:12 PDT

I decided to start a fan club!

I really love the art of Ben Templesmith (www.templesmith.com) and i found so many artists on DeviantArt doing fan art for him, but no fan club, so I took the duty upon myself in the hope that I can bring all of us together in a place where we can all obsess over his wonderful style!

Join our Ben Templesmith Fan Club!

You know you want to.... go on.

Devious Journal Entry

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Fri, 08 Sep 2006 15:48:12 PDT

Borrowed and then chewed on, sat on, lost and found again, then given back to =icewulf111

1. How does the world see you?
Rocket Queen (Guns N Roses)
-Yeythats the best!!

2. Will I have a happy life?
I Want To Hear What You Got To Say (The Subways)
-Erm is that a yes?

3. What do my friends think of me?
Good Times Gonna Come (Aqualung)
- Do they not think the good times are now??

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
Kiss You Better (Maximo Park)
- Awww they want to look after me.

5. How can I make myself happy?
Pavlovs Bell (Aimee Mann)
-erm.this I dont get, but I love this song so its ok.

6. What should I do with my life?
Heaven (I Monster)
-Is it suggesting I die? Or my life will be heaven. I hope its the latter

7. Will I ever have children?
Were Going To Be Friends (The White Stripes)
-Yey Im gonna be friends with my child(ren)

8. What is some good advice for me?
Wake Up (Rage Against The Machine)
well I suppose I do sleep too much thankyou for the wise words o lord of the pod.

9. How will I be remembered?
Just Lose It (Eminem)
-hehe, a bit crazy then

10. What's my signature dancing song?
Magic Pie (Oasis)
-...no comment

11. What's my current themesong?
Out Of Space (The Prodigy)
-Galaxy Quest!! I love that movie so much My man just introduced it to me

12. What do others think is my current themesong?
Plug It In (Basement Jaxx)
- oh..kay.

13. What shall they play at my funeral?
Blood (Editors)
-hahahabrilliant

14. What type of men/women do I like?
Suddenly Seymour (Little Shop Of Horrors)
-oh god!!! Haha shocking.

15. How's my love life?
Blood Sugar Sex Magic (Red Hot Chili Peppers)
-umhah.no comment?

16.My dreams are?
Where Eagles Have Been (Wolfmother)
-mmmmmmmm.how apt

17.-My dead will be?
I Need Some Sleep (Eels)
-oh good?

18.-This year will be?
Blue Orchid (The White Stripes)
-The Year of the Blue Orchid, sounds cool!

19.- My mind is?
Youre Crazy (Guns N Roses)
-hahahahahaha, no Im notmy cheese is. Silly mouse eye.

20.- What is my destiny?
Dont Need The Sunshine (Catatonia)
-sounds like its a dark one.

That was fun....and slightly confusing...

Scribble Drawings

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Mon, 26 Jun 2006 09:03:06 PDT

So apparently Scribble Drawing works quite well for me. (Scribble drawing is where someone draws a scribble for you, and then you have to turn it into a drawing of some kind)

I went a bit mad with it at the weekend, and so I have a few new submissions to make over this week.

I had a good weekend, was my sisters birthday and party, so Dan and I went up to visit her. Barbeque and bouncy castle. A wonderful mix.

Full of Love and Happiness

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Tue, 20 Jun 2006 15:10:16 PDT

So today went off to a terrible start. No longer was I happy jolly but a blubbering wreak. I was upset that my wonderful boyfriend is more sucessfull in Deviant than I am. I wasnt upset at him, I was a bit jealous, but on the whole I was upset at myself. And I really was upset. But then I realised after a lot of painful thinking, that it really doesnt matter. I decided that I should be happy for Dan, and I was. He is doing so wonderfully well and I love his art work no end.

What I realised was that I needed to smarten up. I wasnt going to be happy with myself unless I actually got down to it and did some art work that I was happy with and submitted it. Whenever I get annoyed like this it always seems that myself is the reason. I am too hard on myself I think, I should just be happy that I am happy.

So I have started a Observational drawings journal. One that I will do a page of every day, and submit when I feel like. This journal will help me tone up my observational skills which I feel are a bit rusty as I havent truly used them for about three/four years now. It will also help me be happy with my art work. If I'm happy with my art, I will be happy with Dan too.

One day I hope to develop an artistic style that is my own. The observational drawing I do I feel is too generic, to samey samey, one day I hope to be as unique and special as Dan. I love you Dan.

New Shoooes?

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Sun, 18 Jun 2006 10:27:24 PDT

TA DA! Shoes I am a decorating......the FUN

well, I spent just under three days making the Sharon's. They were the fun and I love them so!

I cant wait to do more.

I am starting up my own shoe decorating business, where I make a stock of decorated shoes that people can pick from and buy, and also I will do shoes on comission (people can also give me their own designs which I will then put onto shoes for them). Ive not decided prices or anything, I've only just done the first pair, so I will see how the others go and what people offer for them.

If anyones interested, let me know!

Animated!

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Fri, 26 May 2006 12:30:38 PDT

I have finally made the first step to moving to animation, and i cant wait! Illustration I've decided really isnt what I'm enjoying and I cant see myself working as an illustrator, so I'm going to do animation for the second and third years of university.

also....WE HAVE A HOUSE! yey! I'm moving in with Dan and I'm so happy!! *runs around and around and around screaming like a kangeroo on speed with a toad up its bum eating a chewit*

Am doing an animation project at the moment which i shall post the animatic for.

First Journal Entry

*Phoenixfeathers85 — Wed, 08 Mar 2006 05:54:41 PST

Well, i thought id do a journal entry....just for the sake of it really. Well the project im doing at the moment is a storyboard for an animation. The story is about this guy that walks into this other guys house and finds him dead and discovers the house is full of Taxidermy. Hundreds and hundreds of creatures. As the story goes on the creatures get worse and worse untill its horrifying, and there are stuffed people and stuff....etc etc. i might put the full story on here at some point.

But yeah, the picture dead man is for this proj.

better get back to the drawing board.....