deviantART: by:PinkTractorbeam

new account =)

~PinkTractorbeam — Tue, 14 Dec 2004 13:13:41 PST

i made a new account, im sick of the clutter and terrible work on this one...ill probably sign onto this occasionally but am going to make a new lit account, for my writings, as well as my new one

is my new account, it has the same icon yes...i like my icon.. >.<

feel free to add me, &/or recomment on pics...itd be much apprechiated.

for *lillyinblack your kiriban will be posted on the other account.

xxx nic

blah.

~PinkTractorbeam — Sun, 12 Dec 2004 12:23:36 PST

the gigs are over, they were great, the next one isnt until january- a week or so before my chemical romance...i cant wait till the 25th!
however, my bloody school is giving us shitloads of coursework top finish for this week and also...making us revise over christmas. the bastards.
im starting to think abotu college applications, and stuff like getting a parttime job...i could really use some extra money. for giftage and clothes and stuff.

im starting to really hate this website, either you stumble upon really talented artists who make you feel. a. inferior. b. stupid and c. really untalented. or youll find idiots who talk only in text speak and TyPe LyKe ThIs. and everyone has their own little elitist groups or, not really elitist but groups of friends and theyre all really talented and...sigh. stupid website.
no one ever comments on my stuff either. i have 22 people devwatching me. and only get about 3 comments per deviation. i mean, my stuff sucks but its better than it used to be! i can still improve...come on...fun improveywatchingness ooooh. i know it shouldnt matter, but when i think something i do is genuiinly...good for once itd be nice to be told. or constructively helped with how to improve. but nope. much thanks to the few who do comment, btw especially those who fave my crap....crazy people.

there are so many drawings i want to do, but just...am not capable of producing. its rather. confidence damaging. ill usually be happy with a piece then notice something horribley horribley wrong and hate it immediatly.
god i suck.

anyone who wants their eyes burnt out with a request, next kiriban is 2,000

like violence/you killed me

~PinkTractorbeam — Fri, 03 Dec 2004 10:45:04 PST

"zip your fucking zippers up 'cause this next ones gonna get you pregnant!"

ah...tom delonge....
Blink 182 man. they may be the ultimate favourite with the teenyboppers..disregarding the (shitty)rasmus of course... but they still play FUCKING AWESOME MUSIC. man it was awesome. got there relitively early but had to wait for an hour or so in the cold *coughcoughseancough* so my feet were fucking freezing when we got in. didnt have to wait too long inside though, the first band Kinisin (think its spelt right) started straight away...man i felt sorry for them...the music wasnt to bad but the singer was so camp, wiggling all over the stage- lmao. woulda been good had they not been so...assholeish on stage...people kept telling them to fuck off, giving them the finger and throwing stuff at them...poor bastards...
Sugarcult came on next, and they were fucking awesome- despite being another band most 'wannabes' like. lol, i still like em off ages ago. they played bouncin off the walls, pretty girl, stuck in america...daddys little defect, memory...so many good songs! ^_^ i havent heard them in so long but they fuckin rocked. too bad i couldnt jump much (they are SUCH the bounce around band) since i was holding hells hand so as not to loose her...man stuck in the middle with the crazed bouncing sugarcult fans...fucking class.
THEN. then. then it was Blink 182 man. fucking awesome. they opened with feeling this, not my fave song but still really good. they had all this crazy flashing artwork in the back and kept putting strobe lighting on. they played all the best songs, easy target, violence...man violence fucking owns...all the small things, i miss you, obvious, mutt...man...so many good songs. right at the end they came back and played dammit for an encore . they didnt play always though...twas like. damn. or if they did..i spaced out or something. i dont recall it being played but hey they were awsome. tom & mark were so funny and kept talking to the crowd and our friend Russel ALMOST GOT CHOOSE TO GO ON STAGE...damn you cap boy steal rustys...thunder...lol!! heh, right at the end mark came back on stage and started playing guitar and keyboard and drums. twas muchly coolness and amusing. so kiddies, if you get the opportunity GO SEE BLINK 182!!

my next two gigs are on tuesday & thursday alexisonfire&the bled on tuuueeesss & then [link]. gah!!

next kiriban be 2,000

gigs and ramblings- huzzah

~PinkTractorbeam — Sun, 28 Nov 2004 12:13:00 PST

next kiriban 2,000

oooh so its the art exam tomorrow *much nervosa* ive figured out that it takes me approx 8 hours to complete the picture, which gives me a while to get everything neat- im not rushing to finish so much. i have to crop my bloody picture to get it to fit the fricking frame X_X. i cant wait for it to be over, i can finally draw for myself again and, get my kiriban done. wooop. i might try my hand at mixed media, or making a big ole messy painting. they always look fun to do...i keep meaning to do fanart too...but not getting round to it. eep. gah i have to do a french presentation for tuesday at the latest so any biographies on my chemical romance would be muchly appreciated mer...school pisses me off so much...i need some idea for full pictures with backgrounds and such, not just. random charecter portraits that SUCK ANYWAY. mer. check out sean and his budding photomatography. his account shall be goodness when he gets his camera ~ amonotoneromance and he has AWESOME songs. so yey for next week!!
im bored, so im gonna list my gigs that im going to.

gigness
Blink 182- thursday 2nd december
Alexisonfire & The Bled- tuesday 7th december
The Vagrant Records Tour- ( from autumn to ashes, moneen, senses fail & emanuel)- thursday 9th december
The Used- 19th january
Taking Back Sunday & My Chemical Romance - 25th january
Greenday- February.

woo. its gonna be awesomeness!
mwer. i so totally need to learn to play guitar.

Devious Journal Entry

~PinkTractorbeam — Sun, 28 Nov 2004 11:58:55 PST

fuck fuck fuck. sorry if swearing offends,dears.

~PinkTractorbeam — Tue, 23 Nov 2004 12:07:04 PST

next kiriban 2,000

i have an art mock exam on monday. i have to do so much prep work still and am gonna DIE. lol. not really but...gah...so much work to do...i like my final idea (for now) but am a bit...unmotivated to do my prep work. oh fuck. and i have to do a NEW physics project and REDO AN OLD ONE. and redo biology and probably chemistry. oh and a french presentation for FRIDAY. and maths coursework. fuck fuck fuckedyfuckfuck. school is slowly crushing me, and all i want to do is some artwork for myself, but i dont have TIME and also when i do get time, i cant think of anything GOOD. i never do anything fucking GOOD. i fucking hate my art in and out of school. and whenever i do anything that i THINK is remotely DECENT i get such a shit response from posting it that i start to fucking hate it. RAAAAAAAR. my hair sucks too, i really need to get it fucking cut. and some fucking talent. that would be good. and a school burning blowtorch. fuckety fuck. ffffuuuuuccckkk.

must. do. kiriban. for. *lillyinblack. itll get done as soon as im finished with this shitty art prep, or when i have some free time.
also. stupid things like popularity on websites like this or...myspace lol. piss me off. its stupid and it shouldnt matter. actually popularity in real life pisses me off too. i just. sigh. want people to like me...
godamn fucking education.

xx

Birthday

~PinkTractorbeam — Fri, 12 Nov 2004 10:31:58 PST

heh twas my birthday yesterday...oooh 16!! so everyone should give me hugs. and cake! lol...or not. heh i had a great time at ku *dances* (though my alcohol tolerance is fr too high now!) and got the loveliest green converses *swoons* and monies and such. hurrah mini spree! blazer blazer blazer! im feeling quite random. mwee party tonight i think...wont know many people there but hey. drink always helps with that....my nurse fetish is continuing and i think im getting my own scanner soon so HURRAY!!
i cnt wait till the...25th of januart My Chemical Romance & Taking Back Sunday live! ill be going to see alexisonfire/the bled pretty soon too...and the spill canvas and the vagrant records tour if i can get tickets! cant wait. gigs are so fun...oh yeah and its Blink 182 in december too. *jigs*

next kiriban 2,000 still need * lillyinblack to tell me what she wants!

check out meh funkeh clubs! ~ Scissorhands-~boyswillbegirls

oh and drop by ~DeaDNeSSs gallery- fucking excellent!

kiribanyfullness

~PinkTractorbeam — Wed, 03 Nov 2004 14:10:41 PST

YEY. someone claimed my kiriban thanks to *lillyinblack for claiming pageview 1,500. ^_^. ill do another for 2,000 but thats ages off...so just tell me what you want in this journal, or in a note ^_~.

im going to enter the ~Scissorhands- christmas competition...heh gonna start working on my entry soon. ^_^. ive also got some anne rice fanart...sorta sitting in my mind. cant. resist.urge. to. draw. claudia. ill be doing somemore...older pics of boogies boys to...try it out in meh new stylee. hehe. gotta do somemore original charecter sketches to...i have a biro drawing fetish developing...oh yes. and kinky nurses. gotta have some of those. *who knows what im talking about anymore...get a cookie if you guess cause i aint got a clue*. bah. boredom. doesnt the nightmare before christmas rule? ....sigh. boredom. i have such a cool idea for my mock exam in art. all surrealist with nurses and weird tim burtonesque swirls and stripes and lots and lots of wires. maybe ill draw it even if i dont get to do it for the art...meh. toodles xx

something to write home about

~PinkTractorbeam — Fri, 29 Oct 2004 07:23:33 PDT

only a few away from my kiriban....1,500 if you get it or closest to it
if no one claims is (whichno one will as i suck...) ill just do a...celebratory piece. heh.

hmm...party tonight. i have no alcohol but vodka. and ive developed a vodka intolderance. meh. i dont know how to get there or home. great start.

i also need to figure how to get a smooth skin tone with pencils...if anyone has any pencil tutorials would be muchly apprechiated.

my fave deviant this month is because he has the most amazing style and uses frickin ballpoint. BALLPOINT. *gouges out own eyes* hes slowly filling up my faves...heh.

also check out ~sadwonderland's AMAZING COMICS they are soooo funny. check her gallery too actually...beautifl now. for the random listing of devs....

People who's talent i wanna rip out of them and keep for my own

Artists

crudexxxhope's request. once i can get it to NOT SUCK. i probably wont be browsing as much as i used to, till i can be bothered with this stupid thing we call. existence. *melodramas* ill clear out some of my crapassed gallery. maybe make an id. and a new avatar. this one sucks. ill be posting my new stories, once i get round to writing them properly, though it will be quite...inconsistant. i should totally do something for my clubs. meh. whatever.
oh i got a new email. but da sucks and keeps fucking up when i try change it. so its
paperheartsandinkstainstars@hotmail.com

Artists (go visit!)

Writers.

Artists

crudexxxhope itll be the next thing i do i swear . it sucks. i have no friends on da (apart from my actual friends and that doesnt count cuz i know that theyre my friends) it seems like everyone else on here knows each other etc. well ill be coming back when ive actually drawn something that i like, and inked it. i might submit one more crappy drawing before i 'go' so...you have that to cower from. huzzah. +_+
Band Names- which do you like best?

Artists (go visit!)

Writers.

Artists
tobethelastone is in a band, and hes got a list of band names that he asked me to put in my journal- please take a look at them and tell me which ones you like the best please?
drawing flat
drawing skills
love is spelt better forwards
tobethelastone
randomly playing with movies
enjoy the silence
adara
robots dont need hearts
deploy killer robots
unrelated note
strange exeption a true story
haybailsforeverblown
bluegreen
subtle title
blackmail is acceptable
flirting via muffins
violence at midnight
tormenting simplicity
complicated symmetry
better than full fat milk
scribbled drawing
random numbers
more of a stagger than a walk
close enough to have long arguments
quips lighten the screaming
awkward silence

i command you all to go download planet schmanet janet by tsunami bomb

Randomness
Things To Draw
*Request for ~crudexxxhope (prep sketching)(i swear itll be the next thing i draw!)
*Kiriban For ~suicideispainless (please tell me what you want!)
*Edward Scissorhands Fan Art(few ideas floating around my brain)
*Rocky Horror Fanart (Needs Shading, neatening up etc.)
*Pic of my chars (its rocky horror fan art too...but with my chars instead of the ones originally there... and it needs neatening, inking and coloring on photoshop.)
*A Manga Page (to practise different poses/facial expressions etc.)
*Fun Stuff For Me...

Other Random Crap That You Couldnt Care Less About
Featured Artist: all i can say is... her art.
Listening To: Paper House, By FoolProof & Planet Schmanet Janet, (a rocky horror cover) by Tsunami Bomb. oh and the killers new album
Drawing: nothing for now...too much homework/laziness
Random Quote: "now just remember, dont be shy!"-john, about twentythousand times yesterday when he was drunk. ah good times...

Artists (go visit!)

Writers.

Artists
crudexxxhope (prep sketching)
*Kiriban For ~suicideispainless (please tell me what you want!)
*Edward Scissorhands Fan Art(few ideas floating around my brain)
*Rocky Horror Fanart (Needs Shading, neatening up etc.)
*Pic of my chars (its rocky horror fan art too...but with my chars instead of the ones originally there... and it needs neatening, inking and coloring on photoshop.)
*A Manga Page (to practise different poses/facial expressions etc.)
*Fun Stuff For Me...

Other Random Crap That You Couldnt Care Less About
Featured Artist: all i can say is... her art.
Listening To: the 'top ten' list
Drawing: random scribbles with pen.
Random Quote: "I am thinking its a sign, that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they're perfectly alligned-such great heights- the postal service.

Artists (go visit!)

Writers.

Artists
crudexxxhope (prep sketching)
*Kiriban For ~suicideispainless (please tell me what you want!)
*Edward Scissorhands Fan Art(few ideas floating around my brain)
*Rocky Horror Fanart (Needs Shading, neatening up etc.)
*Pic of my chars (its rocky horror fan art too...but with my chars instead of the ones originally there... and it needs neatening, inking and coloring on photoshop.)
*A Manga Page (to practise different poses/facial expressions etc.)
*Fun Stuff For Me...

Other Random Crap That You Couldnt Care Less About
Featured Artist: Go Look! Now!
Listening To: Catalyst, New Found Glory's Album (and the rhps d/ls)
Drawing: My New Charecters (Adara and Melia for those curious about the names- they even have reasons for the names!)
Random Quote: "You Talk Out You're Ass And Everyone Knows"- your biggest mistake, new found glory.

Artists (go visit!)

Writey Thingys.

Good Arty Types.Yeah.
crudexxxhope
*Kiriban For ~suicideispainless (please tell me what you want!)
*Edward Scissorhands Fan Art
*Rocky Horror Picture Show Fan Art (already prep sketching)
*Charecter Designs. (+ a real pic of my charecter)
*A Manga Page (to practise different poses/facial expressions etc.)

Other Random Crap That You Couldnt Care Less About
Featured Artist: Go Look! Now!
Listening To: Sweet Transvestite- Rocky Horror Picture Show & The Long Grift/Exquisite Corpse- Hedwig &The Angry Inch.
Drawing: Suspenders. and chunky shoes.
Random Quote: "You're as sensual, as a pencil. Wound up like an e or first string when we made it- did you hear a bell ring?"

Artists (go visit!)
Great Poets/Writers

Fantastic Artists
because she loves tim burton, and has such an excellent style.

Things To Draw
*Request For ~crudexxxhope
*Edward Scissorhands Fanart
*Rocky Horror/Hedwig Fanart
*Anne Rice Fanart
*develop charecter.
*~suicideispainlesss Kiriban.

Artists (go visit!)
Great Poets/Writers

Fantastic Artists
suicideispainless claimed my kiriban, so i might do my next one as 1500
in the meantime im wide open for Art Trades/Requests although im going to try hone my drawing/coloring skills as lately i cant draw anything that i like. le sigh.

Anyhoo...
well i just got back from le france which i visited with Amy. and it was so cool we visited the eiffel tower and the louvre, which had such beautiful art!, the arch du triomphe (sp?) although i did happen to get groped on champs elysee *blinks* by some perv on a scooter, they do have huge shops there. *cough* we also visted the musee de beaux arts, with a featured gallery of the randomest dude called vito acconci. seriosuly he has some weird shit. and a penis fetish. natural history museam...interesting but kinda cruel, and of course beachiness and shopping. mmmm...pain au chocolat...
aussi Happy Birthday! to Amy For last friday, youll get a present soon france was so cool. gah, i wish i knew more of the language. haha, we got flashed on a train though, and there was this random drunk dude and of course all the random pervs who clicked and or winked. and the photograhic pants. ah...good times. i know have an overload of milka. and strawberry flavoured chewing gum that makes me kinda high. .

Randomness
Listening to: Deathcab For Cutie
Reading: Blackwood Farm, By Anne Rice
Watching: Nothing Yet, i hath just returned.
Wearing: My Brand new stripey top, and the random new jeans i have
Downloading: The Rocky Horror Picture Show
Buying: My Converses cant wait...
Eating: Far to much chocolate. and the nicest crisps ever- french 3d doritos or 'deltas'..
Fave Quotes: "Anything but the blatant proof was your lips touching mine in the photobooth" (deathcab- Photobooth)
Wanting: To Much.
Featured Deviant: Seriously her stuff is just breathtaking, she has such an excelent, uniquie style.

Artists (go visit!)
Great Poets/Writers

Fantastic Artists

Le France!!

~PinkTractorbeam — Mon, 19 Jul 2004 15:34:57 PDT
well. no one but amy claimed the kiriban...but im wide open for Art Trades/Requests.

and this is just a quick journal to say bye!!!! im going to france for a week and so shall be leaving

Going: Tuesday 20th July
Returning:Tuesday 27th July.
whee. so im gonna cram this journal full of icon, in the hopes that youll visit le fantastico peoples. (specially ~tobethelastone and~suicideispainless they need more pageviews!)

Great Poets/Writers

Fantastic Artists

From My Boat, I Can See Your House...

~PinkTractorbeam — Thu, 15 Jul 2004 13:04:23 PDT
PageView 1000
whoever gets Pageview 1000 gets a request and if you cant catch it whoever gets the closest to 1000 can have it, just drop a note to me telling me what you want- it can be a Sketch or it can be Digitally Colored, if im feeling generous it can even be Prose or Poetry
someone, please claim it, it would mean a lot to me

Random Crap
Watching: Nightmare before christmas, again XD
Reading: Still Memnoch, anne rice
Listening To: Mew (title is from their song, 156), Mars Volta
Lusting after: Melancholy Death of Oyster boy and other stories, Lenore comic.
Loving: STRIPES!!!
Doing: Coloring crappy drawings.
Downloading: Vincent, Rocky Horror, J-rock.
Fave Dev Of The Month:
mmm....skinny boys....

Blah...blah...
Like Edward Scissorhands? Join ~ Scissorhands-

im going to France soon, but shall be making a journal about that before i go
Huzzah! Artists!,

Icon Bonanza!

~PinkTractorbeam — Fri, 16 Jul 2004 15:25:26 PDT
well...everyones doing it, so i guess ill list all the lovely people who i admire, although i dont watch all of them i still think theyre work is amazing...
extra huggleness to ~suicideispainless and ~tobethelastone my real life friendlies....

Great Poets/Writers

Fantastic Artists

O_o this is strangely long ('innuendo' XD)

~PinkTractorbeam — Sun, 11 Jul 2004 11:26:30 PDT
Random Crap
Well, Today was very fun and resulted in stripey tights, stripey! gah, i love stripes. seriosuly, draw something with stripes and watch me drool over it . gah for stupid bastard busdrivers who make you run then pull away just as you reach the doors. stupid fuckwit...anyway, onto happier subjects i also got some awesome pinbadges, and shoved them onto my beret ^_^ (hurrah for berets ) i also went into forbidden planet, and found some fantastic manga and some great roman dirge and jhonen vasquez comics, as well as the melancholy (mispellings ) death of oyster boy, by tim burton . and this really nice book by junko mizuno, and a book called 'doll' that was just so beautiful
that was my saturday ^_~
Just to let yous know, im going on holiday soon ^_^ to le france (with ~ suicideispainless as she kindly pointed out ), but ill be posting a journal letting people know soon.
it was great that i got such a good response to my crappy edward scissorhands pic, so thanks to all those who commented, it mean a lot to me ill be doing more edward fanart soon, and shall be posting some new pics soon also.
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For Pageview 1000, i shall be doing a kiriban. *awaits applause...tumble weed rolls by...* anyway, it can be whatever you want a drawing or prose (or even poetry if im in a poemy type mood). the drawing can be a sketch or colored with really crap pencils, or done sort of 'im still learning to color so quiet you!' digitally colored way. anyway, please let me know if you get pageview 1000. please? not that anyone will want it...
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A Bit Of Useless Info
Listening to: Random Jpop/rock, tis very...strange O_o, and also a bit of Mew, a great band
Reading: Memnoch The devil, by Anne Rice
Watching: Nightmare Before Christmas, Cartoons
Drawing: random comic-ish stuff, edward fanart.
Fave Dev of the month: super skinneh boys =yummyness.
Club: to 'help' with my edward obsession. Like edward scissorhands? then join!
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oh, and if anyone has anymore drawing ideas, theyd be apprechiated, and will get the pic deciated to them.
and thanks to *solle for some pic ideas

oh and people, you should so check out his art is so cute, and his song writing skills are amazing!

Empty Brain

~PinkTractorbeam — Thu, 08 Jul 2004 11:27:45 PDT
just a journal to include the club i joined really.
i still need drawing ideas please, people who gimmie idea will get a pic dedicated to them. plus im open for art trades, etc. .
i the nightmare before christmas and edward scissorhands. burton is a genious, and i wanna watch 'vincent' but cant find it anywhere. anyone who knows where i can download that or some j-rock music (for free!) gets a cookie
i got knocked on my ass in pe today. whee, it was fun. now my back really hurts. but hey, walking like an old crippled woman isnt all bad right? i also realised how much i hate my school, thank god i get too leave for the summer in like, a week . i always make such pointless journals on here, i might start making meaningful ones. (yeah right)
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For Pageview 1000, i shall be doing a kiriban. *awaits applause...tumble weed rolls by...* anyway, it can be whatever you want a drawing or prose (or even poetry if im in a poemy type mood). the drawing can be a sketch or colored with really crap pencils, or done sort of 'im still learning to color so quiet you!' digitally colored way. anyway, please let me know if you get pageview 1000. please? not that anyone will want it...
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Useless Information and Icons
My fave deviant of this month
her art is so sweet, and the uber-skinney boys she draws are just...yummiful .

Club
< to help with my unhealthy obsession with edward scissorhands. 'help' hahaha *cough*

Music: 156- Mew.

*stabs self in eye with pencil*

~PinkTractorbeam — Mon, 05 Jul 2004 10:53:00 PDT
gah! i need some drawing ideas, please someone give me drawing ideas! im considering doing fanart or art trades or hell, even gift art just to get something to draw!! my brain will not produce ideas anymore *sobs*
i do however have two new charecters (whe-hey) WallPaper(yup thats her name ) and Azalea- there so cute and coupley. mm. hehe. anyway, drawing ideas? please?
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For Pageview 1000, i shall be doing a kiriban. *awaits applause...tumble weed rolls by...* anyway, it can be whatever you want a drawing or prose (or even poetry if im in a poemy type mood). the drawing can be a sketch or colored with really crap pencils, or done sort of 'im still learning to color so quiet you!' digitally colored way. anyway, please let me know if you get pageview 1000. please? not that anyone will want it...

Paranoia

~PinkTractorbeam — Wed, 30 Jun 2004 13:03:50 PDT
For Pageview 1000, i shall be doing a kiriban. *awaits applause...tumble weed rolls by...* anyway, it can be whatever you want a drawing or prose (or even poetry if im in a poemy type mood). the drawing can be a sketch or colored with really crap pencils, or done sort of 'im still learning to color so quiet you!' digitally colored way. anyway, please let me know if you get pageview 1000. please? not that anyone will want it...
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im so paranoid. seriously, its not fun. i always think people dont like me or that im being stupid or whatever, (usually because they dont, and i am). i also think im annoying....but know thats true. im having a bit of a random rant phase at the moment so bear with me. gah. stuff sucks. i know that i probably have a pretty good life and all, i mean im not some starving kid or anything, and yeah ok bad stuff has happened in my life but it could be so much worse. but i still feel so...discontented. *sigh* i mean...i want so much materialistic stuff, which i no is bad but i cant help it, mostly in an attempt to make people think something good about me. maybe people will like me if i do this...etc. low self esteem is not fun either, and thats hand in hand with the paranoia. gah. and yeah, i know i shouldnt care what people think of me but come on everyone cares at least a little! although, and only one person know what im on about here ^_^, i dont like who i am at least im not making up perversely stupid lies to improve myself, although i pity the girl who feels she has to. and will feel SO bad if she isnt. anyway enough of my babbelling....
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My new email is: this_broken_kiss@hotmail.com
i tried to update it on da, but it just didnt work so i thought id mention it here. plus im having artists/writers block. whee. *colors on photoshop instead*

Random Rants, Lolitas and Kiribans

~PinkTractorbeam — Fri, 25 Jun 2004 16:07:33 PDT
For Pageview 1000, i shall be doing a kiriban. *awaits applause...tumble weed rolls by...* anyway, it can be whatever you want a drawing or prose (or even poetry if im in a poemy type mood). the drawing can be a sketch or colored with really crap pencils, or done sort of 'im still learning to color so quiet you!' digitally colored way. anyway, please let me know if you get pageview 1000. please? not that anyone will want it...
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Gah. im obsessed with drawing gothic lolitas lately. seriously if you look through my little sketchybook thingy (its not really a sketch book so much as a note pad minus the lines) its full of loads of pics full of them. whee. i also have two new charceters, with weirdassed names. yeah lol. ill hopefully be 'asking' (aka forcing at gun point) sean to scan some stuff in for me. whoo. now its time for a random rant from me. yay. arent these fun?
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how much do i hate my school? grr. im so sick of all the stupid little pricks rnadomly shouting abuse. ok, so its not insulting but its just like WHY??? what will be gained from it? im also sick of everyone having stupid little idea in there head about me. they have no idea who i really am. so they should just...leave me alone. yes, i do talk just not to you, dick. yes, i do happen to be drawing? whats that? its 'weird' because im not smoking? or getting drunk in class? and yes i dyed my hair black. no, genious, it doesnt mean i want to slit my wrists. ive never been depressed in my life.
they just annoy me so much!! grr.... *strokes nuclear weapon* like today, a friend of mine went on a history trip and she was wearing her normal clothes, which i think are nice , and a supposed 'friend' (whom she hates, with reason as this 'friend' is the most annoying girl in the world) started taking the piss out of her in class. when shes a stupid little 'charver' clone. grr. and throwing things. thats not fun. whats the point? ah, a mint imperial help! gah, a coke bottle. ok, rocks in the eye are not fun...but that was an accident . i cant wait until i can just leave it behind, and find somewhere else where people wont have some stupid, fuckwitted preconception of me. and i want to be pierced. more.
ok rant over...

Obessions...

~PinkTractorbeam — Wed, 16 Jun 2004 10:34:15 PDT
gah. i recently watched edward scissorhands (borrowed it off the oh so kind aka sean) and now i dont wanna give it back. i love it and am addictedQ! addicted i say! at school, i wanna go home to watch it. and also go home in general. . but its jonny depp! looking all pale with crazy hair and kickassed hands! hes so sweet! i just wanna take him home! *huggles dvd box* sean, youre not getting it back mwahahahaha!! i also now wanna watch the nightmare before christmas and other tim burton stuff. im also addicted to the newfound glory album, and the incubus ones. woo. . gah, i want a pale cray haired guy....with the loverly brown eyes gah *drools and passes out* *cough*
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anyhoo moving on... for my 1000th pageview i shall be doing a kiriban, my first ever one ^_^ huzzah. ill be submitting some new stuff soon, so dont worry about the crap in my gallery ive improved since then...which sounds kinda, uhm, arrogent but its true lol . anyway, the kiriban can be any of these three, a drawing (most probably colored in pencils or digitally (which i suck at btw), unless you request a pencil sketch), poetry or prose. prose being what im best at i guess lolz
so please inform me if you get pageview 1000!
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ill be submitting new stuff soon, once sean scans them for me ^_^ lolz along with some new prose. one of my pics is dedicated to so. yeah, lolz
thats about enough of my stupidly long journal entry. *cough*...

Nice Dead Ferret. (SPOILERS!)

~PinkTractorbeam — Sun, 13 Jun 2004 08:19:22 PDT
ooook, went to say PoA today, and so you get a lil rant on it hehe.
first of all, i thought the moive was ok, although it wasnt as good as 1. i expected it to be and 2. the other movies. there were quite a few funny bits, but they left out some vital stuff, like explaining who the bloody hell mooney, wormtail, padfoot and prongs were! how the hell snape knows where harry and hermione are and why there is a stag as harrys patronus. cedric digory!! hes kinda important for the next film, but you just get a brief glimpse of him! exactly HOW sirius escapes from azkaban. now for the stuff that just kinda annoyed me cho, they miss out cho! ok, she can easily be intorduced in the second one, but harry likin her would be more understandable if it was introduced in this one. lupins moustache! and fat face! i just feel he looked totally wrong. Sirius' tattoos- why?? the dementors flying, wtf?? and also their capes just seemed wrong. rons foot, hes sposed to break his leg and frickin pass out! the entrance to the shrieking shack, the fact that harry only sneaks into hogsmeade once, the suckassed werewolf!! and the fact that malfoy came across as completely balls-less, ok yeah hes a dick but not a complete wuss, id hope! heh...for once i actually liked malfoys hair though, and ron looked soo cute ...*cough* harrys acting came across a bit... flat, especially his fainting and 'angry' scences. and i think he should have acted a bit more 'sick' around the dementors, it even says they make him feel nauseous in the book! i was highly amused at his 'titanic moment' when he was flying over the lake and the part about the tapdancing spiders!! although, where did harry get that cookie? and why doesnt he ask HOW lupin knows how to use the map? and what was with professor flitwicks severe makeover? long white hair and beard to weird monk hair do and moustace? huh!?
i did however like buckbeak, he was cool, and it was quite an entertaining film. i did not like the way the dementors 'sucked the faces' off the people kinda, or the lil glowy soul orb, though i did like the whole frosty thing. professor trelawny was funny, but her prediction was too distorted and freaky . the ron-hermione relationship hints were sweet though, maybe a little too much emphasis was put into that though . i liked the 'time conversion' bit with the owl flying though, although the other times it flitted around a bit and didnt really explain, they could have easily added some short dialouge to clarify things. and the hole hermione and the tree thing was a bi unneccesary. oh, and i liked the twins hair, but where the hell was oliver wood!!?? we need the sexy wooooooooooooooooood!!!!!! *cough*
i had a whole rant prepared for 'queen of the damned' too, but maybe ill save that for later since this turned out waaaay longer than expected. (OH AND IF YOURE WONDERING ABOUT THIS JORUNAL TITLE, ITS A QUOTE FROM THE MOVIE )
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Im gonna do a kiriban for my 1000th pageview, still 400+ to go to that though, so please note me if you get it ^_^. oh, and dont worry about it being sucky, from the standard of my gallery- i have uimproved woo and will be submitting some new stuff, that is far better than my crap so far, soon. if you get it, you can request whatever you like (poetry, prose, a drawing whatever) as long as its doable. ^_^ wheeee long entry

Incubus!

~PinkTractorbeam — Mon, 07 Jun 2004 15:53:25 PDT
Incubus lat night! FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC! brandon boyd is hot, i will marry him. and he was shirtless. wow.
they played such kickasssed songs, like drive and i miss you, and loads of the new album and morning view! *falls over* so excellent. they also say 'when doves cry' by prince, and the spongebob square pants theme song!! brandon had a bra on his head at one point! and played guitar! and bongos! gah, i love them so much. hundred reasdons also rocked! at the end of incubus, the guitarist mike chuked a load of plectrums off stage and i got one!! tis green!! gah i love incubus so much!! *eats pic of brandon*
although someone did throw what felt like beer off of me. but still, woo!!
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i did a new pic called 'papillion' tis quite good, me thinks, its in my new style. im also doin a 'moth girl' one, though i hate moths. im considering doing kiriban for my 1000th pagview. whatya think?
anyway. INCUBUS ROCKED!!!! ishallmarrybrandonboyd!