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]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/24670877/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/24670877/ Sat, 09 May 2009 14:56:14 PDT Engineering is still hard, but I think I enjoy it. I wish I had more time for music and art though, i feel like I'm losing the creative part of my life. It's all math and science and intellectual nonsense all the time, I just wish I could go a few days without being smart.
I'm looking forward to my trip to Africa.
I guess that's really all of interest right now.
Oh! And I've sworn off dating for the rest of...a really long time. I just can't handle it right now, and I doubt it'll get easier. I think it'll be good for me to get a grasp on life without having to worry about someone else. The longer I do the single thing, the better it feels.
I'll write another one of these in a few months.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/23305876/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/23305876/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 12:40:35 PST 1. I am living in a single two floors down from my old room in Rodney D. I find the situation much more favorable, and I've met some really cool people being down here.
2. I'm dating a pretty cool guy named Greg. Most of you know this. He's an English major, and is pretty good at keeping me grounded when engineering gets overwhelming.
3. I'm taking my first engineering class, and I actually understand the material, at least in theory. This was a surprise to me.
4. I'm living in an apartment on Main Street starting in June, and I think it will be fantastic.
I am a little more overwhelmed this semester, but I think it'll be okay. I just need to stay focused and on top of my work.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/21071286/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/21071286/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 21:21:08 PDT
Some of it is college stress, I just feel so unmotivated so much of the time, and it's hard to get my work done.

Some of it is people stress. I know the little barbs mean nothing, besides maybe affection, but I can't help it if they hurt sometimes, even though I know it would mean something worse if they weren't there. The friends that I've known long enough to really talk to about everything aren't around, and everyone else, well, I can't ask them to deal with my emotional issues. I don't want to push away my new friends. However, it's hard to justify the way I get flustered so easily with relatively simple things, without giving some explanation, and a window into my extremely fucked up brain.

I hate my mildly obsessive personality. I hate the way I over-analyze everything. I hate the way I feel when you're around, and the uncertainty that you bring to the table. I wish I knew what i wanted. I wish even more that I knew what you wanted. I wish the most that I didn't care at all about either.

I know this seems kind of mopey and whiney, but there's so much on my mind right now, I'm just all over the place. I couldn't even have normal phone conversations today. I dropped the ball on my audition for pep band because I choked. The weight in my chest hurts, and there's nothing I can do about it at all.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/20749302/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/20749302/ Mon, 29 Sep 2008 19:48:17 PDT
It's been pretty awesome so far. I've been here over a month, and it very much feels like home. I have so many great friends (not to mention AWESOME roommates), and despite all the work that I'm currently putting off, things are generally going well. I feel so much more in my element here than I ever did in high school.

Marching band is probably a large part of the reason I'm enjoying things so much. I know I had it in high school too, but MHS band doesn't even compare to UDMB and Blue Thunder. The band folks were my first friends here in Delaware, and they are the best ones I've met. No matter how miserable things can get, like standing in the rain for three hours, I enjoy band and the people in it. It's great being in a place where drama extends about as far as someone drinking a bottle of water in front of you when you're really thirsty (this one goes out to you, Greg) and some of the most important things are remembering your helmet and sack of clues (which I seem to forget alot...). I guess what I'm really trying to say is band is something I think everyone should have, and it's made my life amazing, and it's only been a little over a month.

I've been kind of gliding through classes, and I think I need to really buckle down and focus in the information. I mean, it's largely stuff I've heard before, but I feel like I've been letting my work get away from me, because there haven't been any serious assessments. But I'm changing that. I need to get on top of things, and that's how it's gonna be.

I am pretty crazy about a boy (surprise!), but he will never know. I'm trying to play everything off as if I'm gayer than vampire Willow (don't be surprised if you don't get the reference, it's from Buffy the Vampire Slayer). I refuse to have drama now, no matter who I feel like jumping. The end. And if you're one of the three people that knows what I'm on about, DON'T. SAY. A. WORD. Or I will find you and kill you. Yes, YOU.

All in all, I'm thrilled to be here, I love UD, I love my friends, and I can't imagine being anywhere else.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/19888914/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/19888914/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 00:38:11 PDT -Never having anyone check our passes on the Light Rail
-The guy in the black cloak that made me lose the game
-Jeremy, my fantastical rave buddy <3
-A rather large black man very enthusiastically complimenting my hair
-Having someone realize the awesomeness that is my Tuba Hero shirt (thank you Dan, even though you will never see this)
-Meeting one of my favorite DA artists and purchasing my favorite Gaara print from her
-Watching a guy in a full Pikachu mascot costume rave
-Watching a guy in a full Sonic mascot costume rave
-Wearing the same tights as a guy
-My Yaoi bag
-Turning Griffin gay with my Yaoi bag, via molestation
-Griffin's amazing ability to acquire free stuff, and knock over Asians while doing it
-Being a TOTAL Narutard
-All the "holes" in Silent Hill
-Finding out that all yaoi/yuri characters are "18"
-Truly amazing cosplayers (Rorschach!, Captain Hammer, Tsukasa, many glompable Gaaras)
-Otaku belly dancing (and free candy!!)
-Buying my first corset!!
-We didn't playtest this (Star cards are superior to other cards)
-Dragging Griffin to yaoi-related things with Sara
-Marveling at the disorganization of the video game room

More to come, if/when I remember them.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/18981520/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/18981520/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 10:55:14 PDT It is the Canon EOS 350D Digital Rebel XT, and I love it almost as much as I love my Mac! New pictures will be up soon, because who can resist playing with a new camera?

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/18601059/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/18601059/ Sat, 31 May 2008 21:58:32 PDT
I know I have some objects and stuff that shouldn't really be there, but I took all if these out of the back window of a moving minivan on Route 1, so try and cut me a little slack. I tried to work those objects into my themes, but I'm not sure how successful that was. Let me know what you think if you feel like it.


Other than that, I think there are going to be some major changes happening soon in my life. I'm not sure if they'll be good or bad, but I suppose I'll figure that out when the time comes. I really miss some of my friends, but I'm not sure how to get back in touch with them without being awkward. I need to work on that outgoing thing.

Well, toodles for now!

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]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/13708867/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/13708867/ Thu, 12 Jul 2007 13:59:08 PDT So that means MANY MANY updates. I miss you all, and I can't wait to see everyone after I get home on the 21st! So you better all be around some time. Anywayz, until then, I send you all shamrocks, Irish potatoes, and pints of Guiness. Enjoy!

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/13581123/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/13581123/ Mon, 02 Jul 2007 16:55:24 PDT
Updates are on the way, since I have a new camera, 2GB memory card, and 18 days in Ireland ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/12659174/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/12659174/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 18:40:21 PDT
For all the sincerity, I really thought things were going to change, but they haven't. It's the same old shit, and I get screwed because I never stand up for myself. I hate to write off a friendship, but I just don't know how to make it work. Any attempt at communicating fails, and interactions in person are usually met with similar disaster. I don't want to keep thinking that I'm trying for nothing all the time, so I'll just stop. I can't say half the things on my mind, because I chicken out when it comes to saying the things that actually matter, the things that might stop me from getting hurt. But we all know I can't to do that, which is why I'm writing a xanga entry about it. In hopes that maybe, just maybe, an understanding will be reached and I can avoid confrontation.

Aside from this rant, things of late have been rather in shambles. My grandma's body finally gave in to the pneumonia, and she passed away just under two weeks ago. Although distressing, I have met it with an acceptance, because she was able to accept it, and I figure it isn't fair if I sit down here making here feel bad for not trying harder. My basement also flooded with nine inches of water, and my bedroom has been destroyed. It's not even really the loss of material objects that is making things so miserable, but a loss of haveing somewhere that is really mine, my sanctuary that I can go when I need my space. Somehow, this has all caused my life to be thrown horrifically out of wack, and combined with the mandatory making up of schoolwork, is pushing me to the verge of neurological collapse.

Band placements to be posted tomorrow. Even though I expressed my wish to be in Wind Ensemble to Mr. K, I doubt it will do any good. Maybe I really don't deserve it, and I'm expecting too much, but out of everything I've ever wanted to achieve in the band program, a Wind Ensemble spot is the thing I want the most, and the thing I'm least likely to get.

HOWEVER, not everything is bad. I actually have a really good month coming up. Band Banquet, Big Band Bash, THE BAND TRIP!!!, and prom are all on the near horizon. Although I can't imagine they'll make me much saner, they may be what I need to improve my mood and outlook on life. Because, somehow, school and the impending college applications are not causing me to brim with joy. My recent six-month anniversary however, is.

As a final thought, I have come to the realization that I need to spend more time with my friends. I feel like I'm so out of touch with everyone, and that needs to change. It's probably my fault, because I know that JT absorbs so much of my time, but I like to think there is a possibility that someone else is, in fact, capable of making the suggestion. But since I haven't, I'm not holding it against anyone. As much as it probably is self-alienation, I do miss feeling a part of the group, and have begun to notice schisms, especially between myself and another, which again I take responsibility for, and wish I hadn't gone so long without trying to figure things out. But I suppose it may be too late for that now, and that it might be awkward if I brought it up. I don't like to let these things go, but again, I'm a chicken, and am more prone to allow myself to remain inactive and in doubt than to bring up an uncomfortable topic, and for that I am sorry. I really am rather ineffective at most things, when it comes down to it.



That was surprisingly cathartic and truthful. I didn't even realize half of it until I typed it, and afterwards became uncomfortable with what I had written, but I am refusing to go back and get rid of it, because these are things I needed to say. If for no one else, than for my own sanity. Please try not to tear me apart for what's written here, because I'm not going to change it if it offends you, it's just things I need to get off my chest.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/12275101/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/12275101/ Wed, 21 Mar 2007 17:52:28 PDT

Are you a bad influence?

Rules
*Total the number of things in each list you've done.
* No need to say which ones.
*If people really want to know they will grow the balls to ask.
*If you got tagged, tag at least 3 people on your watch list.

1. Smoked
2. Consumed alcohol
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5. Kissed someone of the same sex
6. Had sex
7. Had someone in your room other than family
8. Watched porn
9. Bought porn
10. Done drugs
TOTAL: 8

1. Taken painkillers
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine
3. Lied to your parents
4. Lied to a friend
5. Snuck out of the house
6. Done something illegal
7. Cut yourself
8. Hurt someone
9. Wished someone to die
10. Seen someone die
TOTAL: 7

1. Missed curfew
2. Stayed out all night
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
4. Been to a therapist
5. Been to rehab
6. Dyed your hair
7. Received a ticket
8. Been in an accident
9. Been to a club
10. Been to a bar
TOTAL: 8

1. Been to a wild party
2. Seen the Mardi Gras
3. Drank more than four beers in a night
4. Had a spring break in Florida
5. Sniffed anything
6. Wore black nail polish
7. Wore arm bands
8. Wore t-shirts with band names
9. Listened to rap.
10. Own(ed) a 50 Cent CD
TOTAL: 7

1. Dressed gothic
2. Dressed prep
3. Dressed punk
4. Dressed grunge
5. Stole something
6. Been too drunk to remember anything
7. Blacked out
8. Fainted
9. Had a crush on a neighbor
10. Had someone sneak into your room
TOTAL: 7

1. Snuck into someone else's room
2. Had a crush on your best friend
3. Been to a concert
4. Dry-humped someone
5. Been called a slut
6. Called someone a slut
7. Installed speakers in your car
8. Broken a mirror
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
10. Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush
TOTAL: 7

1. Consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
2. Been an R-rated movie in theater
3. Cruised the mall
4. Skipped school
5. Had surgery
6. Had an injury
7. Gone to court
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying
9. Caught something on fire
10. Lied about your age.
TOTAL: 7

1. Owned/rented an apartment
2. Broke the law in the police's presence
3. Cheated on someone
4. Got in trouble with the police
5. Talked to a stranger
6. Hugged a stranger
7. Kissed a stranger
8. Rode in the car with a stranger
9. Been harassed
10. Been verbally harassed
TOTAL: 7

1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online
2. Stayed online for 12 hours straight
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
4. Watched TV for 12 hours straight
5. Been to a fair
6. Been called a bad influence
7. Drink and drive
8. Prank-called someone
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
10. Cheated on a test
TOTAL:9


Total=68
I must be a bad kid

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/12210077/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/12210077/ Fri, 16 Mar 2007 18:13:07 PDT Fuck doctors. What are they good for anyway?

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/12069965/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/12069965/ Mon, 05 Mar 2007 15:47:50 PST
If anyone is feeling ambitious, I'd love feedback on which five of my photos you think best represent dreams, it any way, shape or form. There is no set interpretation, so you can really pick anything, and I'd really appreciate it if everyone could give me some ideas.

Thanks guys

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/11895527/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/11895527/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 14:03:20 PST It's really very awesome.

I enjoyed the break alot. I hung out with JT so much, and I got my prom dress, which I am really excited about I also got a new phone, a white KRZR, because my old phone, although loyal and faithful, crapped out after two years on the job. May he rest in peace.

In other news, hopefully I'll be adding alot more stuff to DA, because now I have some new programs. If only someone could teach me to properly use Photoshop >.<;

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/11062997/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/11062997/ Thu, 14 Dec 2006 14:23:48 PST
If today should be happy, why does it suck to no end? Seriously, it didn't even start out well. The only highlight was drum circle. Everything else pretty much blew, hard.

I hate being so negative. I should be happy, I have no reason not to. I don't like breaking down from stress. I don't like being up until 2 AM trying to finish homework. I don't like putting up walls. I don't like seeing only the bad in good things.

I just want to feel good about life, and about what I'm doing with mine.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/11042252/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/11042252/ Tue, 12 Dec 2006 16:25:23 PST On the bright side, less than two weeks until Christmas break, with some much-needed chill time, that will probably be spent teaching the elderly how to knit at a local assisted living facility and watching movies/bumming around basements with JT.
Now back to not procrastinating and actually working, until I get frustrated again and need to do something else.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10842632/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10842632/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 13:43:28 PST That's all I wanted to say.


[edit]
Pics are up!!
Check my scraps, folks!!
Do it.
Do it now.
I DARE you.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10779368/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10779368/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 15:19:13 PST In other news I got this really awesome fuzzy new jacket today, which I love ALOT. It makes me all happy-like.
So besides homework and constantly being sick, things have been going really, really well lately. I finished painting my mom's room today (finally), and I am actually all caught up on my schoolwork except for what I missed while I was out. The audition music for Stage Band is not nearly as hard as I thought it would be, I mean, I do have to practice, but I'm not so worried anymore. I also have an AMAZING boyfriend, who I am very much in love with.
So if anyone has any great ideas about what to do with a group of people, please, let me know. I want to do something awesome, since I kind of skipped out on the whole Sweet Sixteen thing.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10744454/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10744454/ Thu, 16 Nov 2006 11:58:49 PST So tonight's scedule is looking like:
Call people to find out about missed HW.
Practice the tuba.
Practice trombone for Stage/Jazz band auditions.
Do my DQ and find out if I'm doing copies.
Drink lots of tea.
Go to sleep EARLY dammit!

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10700296/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10700296/ Sun, 12 Nov 2006 11:35:31 PST
On another note, I am having serious art block. Like, I can't produce ANYTHING, and it SUCKS. Ahrg, I'm going to go insane shortly from lack of human interaction and lack of artistic outlet.

I'm sorry for ranting and raving. I think the paint fumes are getting into my head. I hate days like today.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10618777/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10618777/ Sat, 04 Nov 2006 21:33:58 PST
Friday was Saw III, and WOW, I loved it. I didn't even freak out as much as usual, possibly because *someone* handled most of the freaking out for both of us It was an awesome time though. Even better was when we got back to my house and just chilled for like, two and a half hours because his mom didn't feel like coming to get him yet. Ah the joys of being up way to late...

Today was the game against Monroe, and we lost, but not by much. Busrides were way more fun than the game, except for when Emeka and I discovered that we're long lost twins. Our father was a drunk Mexican and our mother was half African-American and half Irish, and we were separated so we wouldn't learn of our TUBA PLAYING SKILLZ OF AWESOMENESS, but we figured it out anyway. Now I just have to teach Emeka how to be GANGSTA! I just can't believe we didn't see the family resemblance before...
So after marching band Nicole came over and we had dinner, and then picked JT up and went to see BORAT! That movie was quite possibly one of the most shockingly offensive and horrifically nauseating things I have ever seen. But somehow still incredibly worth my time.

So in conclusion, I'm happier than I've ever been. I hope this lasts.

P.S.-You know you've been reading the wrong bedtime stories when it takes a biography of Elizabeth Bathory to relax you enough to go to bed.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10594881/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10594881/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 15:28:02 PST Homecoming-I know I know, most of you think school dances are really lame, but you know what, I had an awesome time. Band grind lines/circles, and singling loudly and obnoxiously along to every song we knew. And there were other parts that were so simply amazing they were almost surreal. Maybe I'm just cheesy, but that was possibly one of the best school functions I've ever been to.

Sunday-Chasing Amy/This Is Spinal Tap.

Monday-Painted JT's nails and made him look like Tim Curry (Rocky Horror style) using eye liner. Also had some rare chill time with the little sis, which was kickass. She's really pretty cool, and I forget that alot.

Tuesday-HALLOWEEN BABY!! Trick-or-Treated w/ Kathryn, JT, Jackie, Nicole, Jenny, Will, Shannon, and Liz. Except for my silly boyfriend hurting his leg, t'was an excellent night of snagging loot (I was a pirate) and general insanity. We all met up with Pete back at Kathryn's, and watched (okay, not really) Kingdom of Heaven.

Wednesday-I got raped by a bio test and almost died at marching band because W made us do the block rotation like 10 times, no exaggeration. But the sports meeting was fun I guess? Looks like Fia, JT and I will all be sprinting, so that'll be the new thing (along with Stage Band) to take up our entire lives. w00t!

I'll write about today in an edit when I get home from the coffee house.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10518987/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10518987/ Thu, 26 Oct 2006 16:17:09 PDT But in good news, I definitely DO NOT have mono. So that in itself is something to celebrate. And I'm going to see Spamalot on Dec. 10th with my family and JT, so that'll be rediculously awesome as well.
Off to finish the DQ and drink some yummy tea!

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10413859/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10413859/ Mon, 16 Oct 2006 15:22:19 PDT I'm walking in the clouds.

So despite the fact that my schoolwork and diabetes have hit a bit of a rough patch, I'm still feeling pretty good. Fabulous actually. I'm starting to get everything together again, turn in my work on time ect...even marching band doesn't seem quite as oppressive. I've got alot of work to do to get things where they should be, but it doesn't seem so hopeless anymore.

I've been childishly happy lately, and it feels so GOOD.

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]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10318582/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10318582/ Sat, 07 Oct 2006 20:23:17 PDT I have not been this happy in a long time. Everything was just perfect. I just wish it could have lasted forever, or that we could have fallen asleep and had the cops called on us, while fighting snakes (on a plane), bees, horses and sharks. And the speak-and-spell. In super-bright moonlight. Yes, that's how we do. And I hope it never changes.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10293933/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10293933/ Thu, 05 Oct 2006 14:09:00 PDT I can, however, look back at my memories of Mrs. Carraher with absolute fondness. She was a good woman, and deserves to be remembered as such. You always remember the best about people in the occurance of such tragedies, and all the negative stuff just loses it's relevance. I like thinking about people that way. I just wish it didn't take something as serious as death to make people see all the good that was already in someone, especially someone like Mrs. Carraher.
Why can't we all see each other that way every once in a while?




R.I.P. Sheryl Carraher. You are loved and will be missed.

]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10217723/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10217723/ Thu, 28 Sep 2006 17:06:24 PDT 1. I'll respond with something random I like about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll name something we should do together.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me).
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll leave you a quote or phrase that is somehow appropriate to you.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must (please) post this on your journal so you can do the same for other people.


Do it. Now.

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]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10114604/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10114604/ Mon, 18 Sep 2006 17:43:04 PDT This is a Dope song that almost perfectly describes how I've been feeling lately:




Would it make things easier if I were gone
Would it make things right if I was never wrong
Would it make things easier if I were gone
Would it make things easier

All the times you took for granted that I waited here for you
I was on another planet, I was waiting there for you

She said
Would it make things easier if I were gone
Would it make things right if I was never wrong
Would it make you happy when you sing your song
Would it make things easier

I was blind and I was faded and I didn't have a clue
I was always into something that I always had to do

He said
Would it make things easier if I were gone
Would it make things right if I was never wrong
Would it make you happier to move along
Would it make things easier

All the awful things we say, all the stupid games we play
Every night and everyday, I don't know what else to say

Would it make things easier if I were gone
Would it make things right if I was never wrong
Would it make you happier to be alone
Would it make things easier
Would it make things easier if I were gone
Would it make you happier to be alone
Would it make things right if I was never wrong
Would it make things easier
Would it make things easier ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10106486/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10106486/ Sun, 17 Sep 2006 22:19:38 PDT On another note, my DDR mat is working part-time again, so I won't turn into a total fatty because now I can excersize! I also discovered Final Fantasy X, which is pretty rad and I think I might play it after the sibs are done.
I have also hit writers block, which sucks, as I really want to write something. I guess I can just keep scribbling until I come up with a reasonable piece, but it drives me nuts because I usually can when I want to, and right now I just can't, uhg. And it's not for lack of inspiration either, just a way to get it on paper in a reasonable form.
All in all, things are pretty balanced right now, nothing really awesome, but nothing too awful either, despite how dramatic and stuff I sound sometimes. I guess things are almost bordering on dull, because there's so much school work, and I'm trying to ignore the drama from now on.
I guess that's about all the excitement I can handle for one night.
Later. ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10042324/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10042324/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 18:30:41 PDT But all in all, it still hurts.
Alot.


P.S. Don't assume you know what this is about. You probably don't, so just leave it alone. ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10013781/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/10013781/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 21:11:41 PDT I just want to go lay in the middle of a grey field on a rainy day and stare at the clouds as they go by, not caring if I'm wet or cold, and just forgetting and relaxing. Just let everything slip into a blur of timeless unreality and stay there forever and never move or speak or feel again. I just want to be. Simply exist in that monotone field while everything else happens out of the range of my senses.
I know this sounds random and slightly morbid, but it's just how I've been feeling lately. Maybe I need help.

PS-Don't you hate that feeling you get when you go into the freezer to get an icepop and all that's left is fucking strawberry? ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/9999005/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/9999005/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 13:44:33 PDT
I hate the fact that no matter what happens, it always comes back to me as the screw up. I try to do the right thing and help people, but being the eternal scapegoat for when things go wrong, it amounts to shit. More and more I'm hating Montgomery and it's whole social scene.

So I'm already screwed in Dore's class. I asked 476576346 people what we needed to do over the summer and not ONE of them told me about the fucking internet research. So I'm screwed. Lalala. I guess I'll just have to be perfect the rest of the marking period.

Other than that, I'm surprisingly not absolutely dreading being at school. I like most of my teachers, and I have friends in every class. So that's really cool. BREAKFAST PARTIES 4th PERIOD! w00t! So I guess you could say I'm ready to be back.

Notice how my mood changed throughout the entry lol. Okay, I think I'll get started on the Algebra II work. ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/9967528/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/9967528/ Mon, 04 Sep 2006 16:42:57 PDT ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/9827518/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/9827518/ Wed, 23 Aug 2006 12:54:33 PDT Uhg I miss my tuba.
And my friends. ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/9542276/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/9542276/ Sun, 30 Jul 2006 11:11:10 PDT ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/9205313/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/9205313/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 22:47:15 PDT ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/9159692/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/9159692/ Fri, 23 Jun 2006 13:39:06 PDT If anyone wants to chill before that, let me know.
Otherwise, I'm out from July 7th to the 27th.
See most of you sometime in August! ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/8921916/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/8921916/ Tue, 30 May 2006 15:14:10 PDT And the only thing I am looking forward to is Italy. ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/8411416/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/8411416/ Sat, 08 Apr 2006 19:46:22 PDT I haven't yet decided whether this is good or not.
I mean it is.
But I don't really feel that happy.
I'm going to go play tuba now. ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/8345289/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/8345289/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 16:10:00 PDT And I now have X-Files season three, so today is awesome too.
Everything is just freaking awesome ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/8210721/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/8210721/ Sun, 19 Mar 2006 19:35:11 PST Tim broke up with me this morning.
And I had to go to his fucking brithday party, give him a gift, and pretend I was fucking okay all day.
And then my friend who I have helped through more shit than anyone else ever, decides that because he "told me so" that he's not dealing with my shit.
I love how every time you really need help, it's when your friends walk out on you.
And still call themselves friends. ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/8107062/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/8107062/ Wed, 08 Mar 2006 20:11:40 PST I'm really happy, but some part of me is seeing what he said about it being different. I knew it would be, but this is alot more than I expected. However, I think we can work through it. And I'm not really sure where I am in terms of friends right now. Most of them I feel are like, fed up with me or something. Like they don't want to be around me. I dunno, maybe I'm just being paranoid.
I really need to hang out with people more or something. I should have a random party. Or a movie night. Or something. Arg like whoa.
Okay, rant being done now. ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7982993/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7982993/ Thu, 23 Feb 2006 16:53:07 PST I'm in the freaking worst situation right now. And I hate it. Uhrg. ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7928976/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7928976/ Fri, 17 Feb 2006 19:55:46 PST
But anyways, some huge hugs for Krystle
And a thank you to my friends who have been putting up with me recent "drama." I need to get away from this stuff. or at least not let it bother me.
So yeah, that's about it.
Peace yo ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7910639/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7910639/ Wed, 15 Feb 2006 20:20:50 PST So right now things are kind of weird. I think something may be going on, but I really have no idea, and am on the verge of just tossing it and going back to basking in singularity. I'm not sure it's worth the freak-outs. but then maybe it is. We'll just have to see.
So I'm writing this while I have a bloodsugar of 66, which is why my thought pattern is a little sporadic. It's even worse inside my head, so be thankful you aren't in here. It's like having the whole damn lunchroom in your head. But being able to hear and comprehend every single conversation. At the same time. So yeah, I was supposed to have a date tomorrow, but because of Stage Band, I think it'll have to be another time. Which sucks. Yeah. But I do enjoy Stage Band sometimes. Cuz the music pwns. You know, I think the only reason I rant in here is because I don't have to worry about most people reading this. Cuz only like a handful of people know this site, and even less of them look at the journal, and even less than that care. So now I'm done being random and spazzy.















Okay I lied. I'm not done.
















Now I am. ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7846368/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7846368/ Thu, 09 Feb 2006 12:18:46 PST French:91
English:85
Geometry:94

So I'm happy

And, as it turns out, I am in fact going to the snowball. Funny how things change, eh? I even have a date. So it should be fun, even if he doesn't seem to excited about it. Ah well.

Yep. ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7773664/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7773664/ Wed, 01 Feb 2006 17:29:45 PST
So midterms are over. I have two of my grades..

Chem=99%! w00t! Mrs. Muhs says it might be the highest grade of all the normal chem classes. Double w00t!

AP History-I pulled an 80! OMG a B! I'm still in shock. Haha.

So that's all pretty exciting.

Ditching the snowball with Fia and I don't know who else to watch girlie movies all night. It'll be a blast. Then going to Steph Allen's sweet sixteen the next day, which looks awesome!

Andddd I learned how to dance like and oompa loompa. Mhm.

I guess that's all I have to say. ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7679707/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7679707/ Sun, 22 Jan 2006 19:41:27 PST I love it.
And I love you too
So...how about leaving me some feedback (nice or not) on some of my work? Please? ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7623063/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7623063/ Mon, 16 Jan 2006 17:36:57 PST
That's all I have to say ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7555044/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7555044/ Mon, 09 Jan 2006 14:31:22 PST And the whole thing was a lie.
And I know this.
But for some reason, it still kinds of hurts.
I wish you were easier to get over. ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7490731/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7490731/ Mon, 02 Jan 2006 16:24:39 PST Thanks for listening to my rant! ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7411991/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7411991/ Sun, 25 Dec 2005 09:38:13 PST Erinn finally put new stuff up. Rejoice and sing and dance and be merry. Tis a rare occurance.
Awesome presents I got-
Team 7 shirt (naruto)
GAARA! <333
Battle Royale the novel (makes crazy love to Fish, but not really)
New plaid pants
Yummy platform hooker boots
FMA workshirt and T-shirt
Trigun/Wolfwood shirt ::swoons::
FlCl shirt (I can be twins with Sohmers, w00t!)
Wicked Soundtrack (YUSSSS!!!)
5 volumes of Trigun (double w00tness)
And of course, socks and chocolate!
Ahh, I do love the christmas season.
Now back to making scarves for all of my lovely friends and finding a usable bra for Connor and his enormous boobs.
Ciao! ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7086112/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/7086112/ Sat, 19 Nov 2005 04:15:44 PST ]]> ~PoisonedAcid http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/6393181/ http://PoisonedAcid.deviantart.com/journal/6393181/ Thu, 01 Sep 2005 23:53:13 PDT ~PoisonedAcid