http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Poohbearlover42&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Poohbearlover42 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 14:21:20 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/27906065/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/27906065/ Thu, 22 Oct 2009 13:23:07 PDT
I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I'm a NEGRO so I MUST carry a gun.
I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a ditz
I'm JAMAICAN so I MUST smoke weed.
I'm HAITIAN so I MUST eat cat.
I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be sexy.
I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.
I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.
I'm a GAY RIGHTS SUPPORTER, so I WILL go to hell.
I'm a CHRISTIAN, so I MUST think gay people should go to hell.
I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat
I'm ATHEIST so I MUST hate the world.
I don't have a RELIGION, so I MUST be evil and have no morals.
I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.
I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.
I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
I TAKE (or used to take) ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.
I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.
I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.
I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a whore.
I'm a DANCER, So I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
I wear SKIRTS a lot, so I MUST be a slut.
I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth or emo.
I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.
I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking whore.
I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.
I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a "big one".
I'm EGYPTIAN, so I must be a TERRORIST!
I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.
I PRAY so I MUST be slef-righteous and judgmental
I don't CRAM my beliefs down others' throats so I MUST be ignoring God's will.
I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS(or about to/want to), so I MUST be looking for attention.
I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
I'm INTO THEATER & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be a lesbian.
I have Big BOOBS, so I MUST be a hoe.
I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.
I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool and thats how Russians roll.
I'm GERMAN, so I must be a Nazi.
I hang out with GAYS, so I must be GAY TOO.
I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.
I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.
I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm HAWAIIAN so I MUST be lazy.
I'm PERUVIAN, so I MUST like llamas.
Im a STONER so I MUST be going in the wrong direction.
Im a VIRGIN so I MUST be prude.
Im STRAIGHT EDGE so I must be violent.
I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly.
I'm BLACK so I MUST love fried chicken and kool-aid.
I'm a GIRL who actually EATS LUNCH, so I MUST be fat.
I'm SINGLE so I MUST be ugly.
I'm a SKATER so I must do weed and steal stuff
I'm a PUNK so I must only wear black and date only other punks
I'm ASIAN so I must be a NERD that does HOMEWORK 24/7
I'm CHRISTIAN so I MUST hate homosexuals.
I'm MIXED so I must be screwed up.
I'm MUSLIM so I MUST be a terrorist.
I'm in BAND, so I MUST be a dork.
I'm BLACK so I MUST believe JESUS WUZ A BROTHA
I'm MORMON so I MUST be perfect
I'm WHITE and have black friends so I MUST think I'm black
I'm GOTH so I MUST worship the devil.
I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.
I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.
I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.
I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.
I'm on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border
I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.
I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon
I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.
I'm an ASIAN GUY, so I MUST have a small penis.
I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I... ]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/27711749/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/27711749/ Sun, 11 Oct 2009 17:14:10 PDT
First off: I am probably one of the worst Facebook addicts of all time. I'm busy as hell, but always find like, 3 hours a day to be on the computer just finding out who said what. It's ridiculous, and rather terrible.

And thus, that spurned me on to try to quit it.

Like, when I say quit, I mean quit the same way a smoker has to quit. It's KILLING me that I can't go back on there! KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLING MEEEEEEEEEEE. Cause the thing is, all I would have to do is re-log on, and it'd be re-activated. Sooo...this is a test of will power here. I'm not sure how I'm doing.

How am I doing? Heh heh...heh...*twitch*

Hopefully, I'll see an increase in my grades and attention span. At least, I'm hopin' and prayin' that it will be so...

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/27081686/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/27081686/ Mon, 07 Sep 2009 18:33:34 PDT
Basically, here's what transpired:

Today is the last day of summer vacation for me. BOOOOOOOOOO. Anyways, me and my friend Miranda, or , went out to lunch, and we thought that would be all it was. But eventually, nerds that we are, decided to go back to her house and watch a "few" Doctor Who episodes at her house.

Which, of course, always tends to escalate into many, MANY episodes.

So I get to her family room, and I spot a great, big, huge, multi-colored binder plopped on the couch. And, of course, knowing Miranda, it was made out of duct tape. She had actually made her own 5 subject accordian binder out of duct tape just because she could, and just cause she was bored.

And I knew I had to have one.

I am incredibly disorganized during school, and incredibly lazy when it comes to that...organization crap. And I knew this would help oodles. So, i requested she make one for me, with me helping in any fairly incompetant way that I could.

She pulls out this great big bin full of different colors of duct tape, and asks me which color I want. She had red, orange, dark blue, and a lighter blue. I said I wanted red, orange, and dark blue. Then I changed my mind, and said just orange and dark blue, cause they're complementary.

And then it struck me like a lightning bolt.

Oh, did I ever giggle like a fool.

"Hey Miranda..."
"Yes?"
"Just make it only dark blue"
"Ok. Why?"
...
"We're gonna make a Tardis binder"


And so we did. 5 and 1/2 hours later, we completed the masterpiece. Of course, she was the one doing all the main work, like, that actual making of the binder part. I did the details. I made the dark blue binder the Tardis by taking black and white electrical tape, and cutting it out into strips to make the oh-so-very-well-known box. I EVEN went so far as to find what was written on the little announcement sheet, and write it out in sharpie. It truly is a magnificent piece of awesome, and I can't WAIT to share it with the DeviantArt world once I can get proper pictures up. Of course, this creation couldn't have been made by just one person. In fact, I give about 95% of the credit to

I get the 2.5% for the actual idea itself, and 2.5% for the front cover.

She also was the one to think, "Well, if we're making the Tardis have a front door, shouldn't we find a way to put the inside in there too?"

So we printed out a picture of the inside, (WITH THE DOCTOR IN IT SO I CAN STARE AT HIS SEXY EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE), sealed it with clear tape, and VOILA! That good ol' Tardis is complete!

AND ITS BIGGER ON THE INSIDE!!!!!!

Poohbear is signin' off for a while too.

Didn't I mention? Senior year starts tomorrow.

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/26701202/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/26701202/ Wed, 19 Aug 2009 20:35:15 PDT
Thing is, if I want to be able to write any farther, i don't really think I can do it till this stupid hill is sufficently surmounted. I'm going to be posting up what little I have with a link to this journal to explain the dilemma and my request, so listen up!

The only reason I'm posting this work in progress is because I need suggestions in how I can bring the aformentioned segment in earlier to make it flow more smoothly. I also am requesting that you be brutal, and REALY let me have it. ANY grammar things, ANY parts where you don't understand whats going on, ANTYHING: Please make a comment so I can make it easier for us all. Being nice isn't going to fix anything, CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM is what I need.

Thanks very much!

Pooh Bear

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/26637353/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/26637353/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 20:28:49 PDT
I hate bad memories. They boil up in your gut, and rise up to the back of your throat and mind like a black bile and just sit there, rotting, giving you a bad taste is your mouth and leave a foul stench to the air and everything around you.

I mean, I feel like just the *act* of remembering is draining my energy! Even though I'm not conciously thinking about it anymore, it sucked the life and happy clean out of me. Like sucking the meat out of a lobster claw. Shhhhhhhhhhhhlllup! All gone.

I suppose I should explain; my dad brought up my ex. *headsdesk*

WHY.

WHY WHY WHY WHY *WWWWWWWWWWWHHHHHHHHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYY* DAD! SERIOUSLY. WHO LIKES THINKING ABOUT THAT.

It wasn't even like bringing up a good past memory either. He had to re-mention all the things I hated. So I re-experienced every emotion.

You know, I was actually having a good day today. A really fucking awesome, amazing, phenomenol day. And it gets blackened at the very end. GOD, isn't that JUST my life. It's always like that. Things really couldn't get much better, so WHOOP! They take nosedives. It's like my karma doesn't want me to be happy for too long; that's completely unacceptable. Sure, you can have like, a DAY where nothing goes wrong, but rest assured: our people will correct this, and they'll do it very swiftly and efficently.

I just hate life and everything right now. I hate all my past and current artwork, I hate that I've got a writers block the size of one of the blocks they used to build the pyramids with, I hate that I can't force myself to stay in a relationship for more than a week because i'm too scared that something similar to last bf will happen again, and I hate that i'm so weak and whiney. But hell, why stop now? Not talking doesn't stop me from being weak; I already am. I don't even have enough energy to cry right now, even though I have the feeling I should be doing so.

I'm re-starting dance classes tomorrow. And I'm auditioning for canton's community theatre production of Singin in the Rain. I WAS excited for this. I don't *currently* care, but it's actually kind of a really big deal. I LOVE that musical, and wanna do everything I can to prepare for it.

I also got to ride an ATV for the first time today. And learned how to do a front flip on a trampoline. Those were the awesome parts of my day.

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/25480162/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/25480162/ Mon, 22 Jun 2009 18:06:37 PDT
I *FINALLY* got around to seeing it!

Me and my friend Geoff, who I don't BELIVE has a DeviantArt,(I could be wrong ), after like, a full week, actually went out to the Plymouth library, and sat down for roughly 6 hours straight watching the full series called Jekyll, by BBC.

For anyone else out there who has seen it, does Steven Moffat have ANY sort of flimsy excuse for not continuing this series!?!? ITS JUST LIKE FIREFLY ALL FLIPPIN' OVER AGAIN AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!

All I know is, I'm in love. IN LOOOOOOOOOOOOVE. I mean, seriously? I'm gonna feel like a complete nincompoop for goin' around whistling that little tune from the ice cream truck Hyde does all the time. And singing The Lion Sleeps Tonight everywhere. WRRRRRRRRRY, STEVEN MOFFAT, WRRRRRY!?!? WRY ARE YOU GOD!?!?

God, there's too many good lines to count, and far too many to quote. Lets just say, if anyone's curious, it's art, that series. ARTZ.

*sigh* God, I need to go fangirl somewhere else now....

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/25325552/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/25325552/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 09:46:43 PDT

HOOORAAAYY LONG PERIODS OF ART ABSENCE!!!!

But not really hooray. GLAD it's over.

So ya, my main source providing art income is restored! So THAT means, while I'm getting re-accustomed to my long lost bebeh, you will probably be flooded with absolutely GARBAGE stuff until I get a hang of it again.

ALSO! My scanner works again too! IT LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVES~! So you will see some of the random stuff I've done this past year WITHOUT my tablet. (ps, I PROMISE I've got a lot better since my LAST deviation...)

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/25201239/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/25201239/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 16:05:30 PDT
Didn't make Madrigals. W/e. I'm over it now.

BUT! Dulcissima got switched to 3rd hour, so I can still be in choir next year! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAYZ!!!

Also, me and my friend made Sea-Salt Ice-Cream. In real life. Yes, it is the same kind from Kingdom Hearts I and II. And it's hella good, from what I heard. I get to try it tomorrow.

ALSO: BE FOREWARNED!!!

My Jekyll and Hyde obsession has begun to rear it's head again. What is this damned world coming to when a girl can't keep a hold of her strange obsessions anymore?!? :evil:

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/24970224/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/24970224/ Tue, 26 May 2009 21:35:41 PDT
I'm scared SHITless.

It's just so unbelievably mean of them. My choir directors, I mean. So FIRST, they said that they were gonna post the results for the choirs for next year the very last day of school. I accepted this, and moved on with my life.

Guess what curve-ball they decided to bean at my turned back?

We find out what choir we made it into after school THIS FRIDAY.

Like, whoa, HELLO!? WHAAAAAAAAT?!!? Since when was that ok?! First of, if you're already DONE, why make us wait till Friday?! I mean, ok, I KNOW auditions are already over and done with, and what's decided is already decided, and worrying about it won't change the outcome, blah blah blah...but REALLY, Mrs. Kopp? You're KILLING me!!! I'd rather have it be a surprise, or have the dignity of summer to cry into rather than having to deal with tons of classmates onslaught of either congradulations or that's too bad. I don't want EITHER. I just want to KNOW!!!

I actually bit my pen today in class, too, after hearing this news.

That's ridonkulous. I haven't bitten my pens or pencils since fifth grade. God, this end of the school year stress is really starting to get to me...

But HEY! On the UP side, only two more Mondays, and two more weeks of hell left! HOORAY FOR THE FINAL STRETCH!!!

Also, side note, once it's summer for me, be on the look-out for plenty of arts from me. Possibly photoshop arts. HOPEFULLY BETTER photoshop arts. And tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons of pictures. And maybe a few scraps. POINT BEING, I shall be officially returning to the DeviantArt world shortly!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/24241947/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/24241947/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 16:06:45 PDT
That's it, I'm done, I've HAD it! I don't know what to do anymore. I'm drowning in this, it's stupid, I feel so so SO STUPID! STUPID!

For thoses who don't know, in my last journal, I mentioned my dad. He had a really, really rough spot for about two weeks recently, but he's doing MUCH better now. He's actually back at work again, cracking jokes, and he's fine...fine...

An now my mom.

I don't get this, what's wrong with my family now a days? She's sick. She came home from work early today.

My mom NEVER comes home from work early.

She's the kind of person who, in reality, only has to stay at work until, oh, 4:30, 5:30 at the most. And she comes home at 8 or 9. All the time. And she was home at 2.

She went to the doctor, and they said that she has Vertigo. I don't exactly know what that means, just that it means that she has more fluid in her right ear than her left, it's throwing her off balance and making her really sick, and she can only lie down and watch tv.

I mean, I'm probably WAY over exaggerating how serious it is. They haven't really said when it's supposed to go away, per say either though. And it's just...lots and lots of stress, I suppose. I mean, if these had been seperated by more than a few days, I'd be fine, just a little worried, helping out with chores, blah blah blah. But my aunt is actually here, her sister? And she's helping make dinner, cleaning up, my dad just came home, and I just...don't know what to feel.

I just...can't, i can't anymore. I'm going to go bang on my piano for a while. Maybe that will help get some of this awful feeling out of me. I'll keep anyone who cares posted.

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/24010349/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/24010349/ Wed, 01 Apr 2009 17:19:00 PDT
*inhales deeply*So something happened with my dad. I don't know what, and I'm not sure I can handle whatever it was either. All I know is this: he can't go to work. He can't MAKE himself go to work. Even opening an e-mail at home from the office gives him a terrible mirgraine. He's hardly eating, he stays in bed all day, he's terribly depressed all the time, and the best part? He said, BEST case scenario, he'd be able to go back to work by next week.

I mean, can you imagine what this is doing to me? I couldn't go to school today. Sure, I really DO have a sore throat, and I need to save it for the show I'm in, (The Laramie Project as Rebecca Hilliker and a few others), but that's not the reason I stayed home today. I stayed home to watch over him. To make sure he didn't do anything stupid.

It's sick. I mean, what am I REALLY supposed to do? Sure, he's going to the doctor, might get antidepressants, and is seeing a psychiatrist. Those are all wonderful, pro-active things to do about whatever the fuck this is. But I mean, at the same time? WHY?! I'm so angry, I want to cry. The little girl in striped socks trying to fill big, black, scary looking high-heels. That's not saying my mom's doing nothing of course! No, she's doing everything in her power to make sure he's getting up, making food for him, blah blah blah. But at the same time? I feel like she knows whatever this inciting incident is, and thus, has more control over her end of the situation.

And I can do...nothing.

Fuck. And of course, I've got a big paper due Friday, OF COURSE! And I have to write it all tonight, cause God knows I won't have time after or before the show tomorrow.

I think i'm gonna go for a run. Maybe that will make some of this go away.

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/23192291/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/23192291/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 09:48:36 PST
I'm not gonna be able to go on DeviantArt or Facebook until further notice, as my title says. My parents are deadset on the idea that either one or both of the above is corrupting our computer, and thus, I'm forbidden on here. Tonight? They block the websites. SOOOO until I prove them wrong? No DeviantArt. Sorry guys, love you all.

Later.

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/22987821/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/22987821/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 16:30:21 PST 2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same
journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

1. K, I perpetually am in a state of having a song in my head. There has never been a time in my concious memory where there hasn't been, and I'm beginging to think, always WILL be. The longest I've had a song stuck in my head was for 3 continuous days. This includes while I was sleeping.

2. The report card that I just got yesterday said that I had a D+ in choir. My teacher is a RETARD because I had her go back and check it, and I really have an A+. Way to go, Mrs. Klippel. Now's she's gotta go through all this paperwork to fix her mistake cause that bloody D is currently on my transcipt. Once again? WAY TO GO.

3.I'm a terrible hypocrite. I'm FANTASTIC at giving other people advice in pretty much every subject, (or so I've been told), but I never seem to be able to apply it to my own life and my own situations. ESPECIALLY when it comes to crushes. I'm ADD, loud, obnoxious, spontaneous, and an all out FREAK when I'm around my friends, (as many people on here can testify), but I'm ridiculously quiet and shy around my crushes. Like now...*bangs head on desk*

4. Instead of watching the Super Bowl on Sunday, I restarted my Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask file, and was having a lot of fun doing it all by myself for once, cause my brother usually helps me when I'm stuck. Unforunately, said brother is currently upstairs as I type PLAYING MY FILE THAT I ASKED HIM NOT TO PLAY, so I guess it's ANOTHER one of HIS files.

5. Pretty much any inanimate object I own has a name besides my clothes. My camera is Gregory, my cello is Charles the II, (So that I can just go around saying "Charlie the Cello" cause it's FUN", my piano is Dvorjok, and I'm almost POSITIVE I butchered the spelling on that, but I LOVE to say that name!

6. When I discovered that they closed up the pit and covered it with an actual apron for Smokey Joe's Cafe, (the musical and other show we're doing at my school), I actually teared up a little.

7. I totally JUST realized that this thing deleted all my journal entries from before august 1st of 2008. What a BITCH.

8. One of my fellow cast members today, (who shall remain annoymous) but will simply be refered to as Domino, was being particularly funny why like, half whispering, half singing the word "porn" and harmonizing with Rat-gel, and where doing it for so long and with varying pitches that everyone on stage, (including our director), stop the scene they were doing to stare over at them. They didn't realize it until I nudged them, (cracking up, of course), and were forced to give it up.

AND NAOWS TAGZ PLZ:

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HA HA HA. (but you really don't have to if you don't want to. I really was just exceptionally bored.)

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/22693836/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/22693836/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 13:05:28 PST
I mean, the magnitude of this still hasn't fully hit me yet. Not quite sure when it will. I *LITERALLY* just witnessed history. I viewed an event that will writen down in history books for the rest of time, and i'll be able to tell my kids about it too. (My kids WILL be history nerds, just like I am. End of story. ) I mean just...wow. There's not many more words that fit.

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/22440647/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/22440647/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 18:55:46 PST , , and have all requested at some point or another for me to update them on who I've been cast as in the show.

ALL I KNOW AS OF NOW:

1. Rebecca Hilliker: She's probably one of the biggest roles I'm going to be playing, and I'm SOO happy! For my audition, we had to pick 3 monologues. I picked hers out first, and LOVED it, so i'm SUPER happy I got the part! Rebecca Hilliker is the head of the drama department at the high school in Laramie.

2. Allison Mears: Somewhat of a comic relief, Allison is a social worker in the town who works alongside another woman named Marge. (still no idea who that is yet). They bounce silly and serious banter off of eachother for a while, so it'll be a nice change from all the serious stuff.

3. Annoymous: Ok, yeah. This person doesn't have a name, but DOES have a very important association. The only annoymous person in the entire play, this role is someone who was a friend of Aaron Mckinney, one of the boys who murdered Matthew Shepard. The role has a good sized monologue, but only appears once in the play to give their opinion.

Sooo....ya, that's all I know for me. For people who know me in real life, and know some of the awesome other people in the show, Tim Tom is Dennis Shepard, Matt's father, AND Reverand Phelps, a real man who still, to this day, makes protests whenever the play is showed and tells homosexuals they're all going to hell, basically. Chelsey is Reggie Fluty, the police officer who first came to the scene of the crime, Luke is Jonas Slonaker and the govenor of the town, Alex is a baptist priest and the cyclist who discovered Matt, and other people are obviously other things, but i totally can't remember cause ITS SO MUCH TO TAKE IN IN ONE NIGHT.

So ya. My life rests in McNutt's hands now. And I'll live the next 3 months in the theatre starting tommorow.

Could this day get any better?

OH WAIT. I CAN GO TO SLEEP.

And also? Just over 7000 page views? WHAT? When the hell did that HAPPEN!? I haven't even posted anything but photos in MONTHS!

And now....!

*collapes on desk in a dead sleep*

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/22117087/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/22117087/ Mon, 22 Dec 2008 07:59:26 PST
How'd this happen, you ask?

Not a clue.

12 people got cast. TWELVE. And I've never ever ever been in a play before, but I made it where some really, REALLY great actors didn't. Like, WHUT?

It's so bizarre, cause like, every single person on the cast list, (besides myself), are all these actors and people whom I've looked up to since freshmen year, and who are like, GODS of the stage. And now, instead of me like, drooling and adoring from afar, I'm gonna be THERE? ON STAGE? BESIDE THEM? LIKE....NOW?!?!?

WOT?!?!?!

*again *

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/22038366/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/22038366/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 18:42:26 PST
Ha, my birthday passed too. I got to see Wicked in Chicago, (and go backstage and onstage. Be jealous), a calligraphy set, Wall-E, (my new favorite movie EVER), Hello Kitty footie pajamas, jingle bell earrings, an epic Winnie the Pooh puzzle I'm STILL working on, and tickets to see Sarah Brightman in concert. Oh, the 2nd season of Doctor Who with Rose, a big poster of the hottest Doctor EVER, (AKA, David Tennant in Who garb), AND! The Coup de Grace!

I got my own Sonic Screwdriver pen. And it writes in invisible ink you can only see with the tweety blue light on it. Aww yeah. It's kick-ass.

Also, we've got our final two play auditions of the year going on right now. Just concluded today, actually. Few hours ago. The straight show is
"The Laramie Project", a true story that had the world ablaze when in 1992, a young college student by the name of Matthew Shepard was brutally tortured and beaten to death in the town of Laramie, Wyoming, and why? Just because he was gay. It's about hate crimes and the levels of which people can sink to, and how compassionate the human race can truly be.

The musical?

UGH.

It's Smokey Joe's Cafe. A REVIEW! It means it has no plot, it's just a bunch of songs strung together with no dialogue, only pulled together by a common theme. It's terrible. I mean, NOTHING could compete with Jekyl and Hyde, that was a once in a lifetime awesome. But really? A review? You couldn't have even TRIED?! It's like, the biggest cop-out in the history of our theatre program.

But I auditioned for both, naturally. I think I only might have made chorus line for Smokey Joes, cause I didn't make callbacks.

But Laramie? *insert incredibily happy grin here* I made it all the way through to the final callbacks! YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! It's only my second ever audition for ANYTHING, and I think I did really really well! Even if I don't get cast, (cause hell, she's only casting 10 people, and there was 20 people at final callbacks, and she said there'd be more girls than boys, but STILL), I'd be REALLY hella happy just to get where I did, man. I mean, I was in a room with like, every single most amazing actor we have at our pool of three schools, some I've barely talked to, some I'm best friends with. But I had to make them NOT friends, thats what I don't like. It was one big "LOOK AT ME" competition, and if you lose, no one will be ABLE to look at you. Cause you'll be in all black behind stage. Again. But just getting that far? It was one hell of an amazing experiance. AND the cast list doesn't go up until after school friday so the drama teachers can run for their lives before break so as not be haressed. Damn them for being so clever...

ANYways, end update!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/21282487/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/21282487/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 11:52:49 PST [link]

First off, LOOK AT THIS LINK. Did I make it? No. Is it for OUR school version of the Crucible? Well...no. BUT! It is THE best representation of the plot I have EVER seen, and I am just...SOO in love with it!

*ahem* now, onward!

Halloween was super fun. Like, really REALLY fun. I went as....wait for it...wait for it...CINDERELLA! *tosses confetti sporatically around the room* I really only took one picture, so I guess I'll be putting that one up... Sometime or another.

This Saturday was also Tech Saturday for us, which, in theatre terms, basically means spend ALLLL day at the theatre. From 10 am till 12 pm. Yeah. But thankfully, I got to leave early because we got all the costume stuff out of the way early on.

Well, at least, kinda of earlier...

See, I've got a bit of a problem I need some opinions on. My position is "Assistant Costume Crew Head", right? So that means the actual costume crew head is technically above me.

I say "technically".

This girl, (lets call her Mars), is a sophomore, first of all, and is the biggest flake I have ever had the misfortune to meet in my existance. The Crucible has been going since when? Earlier September? And how many times has she shown up to rehearsal?

Twice. And only this past week, I might add.

The way our school works is, is that if you want to become a thespian, (which just means be part of the actors national honor program), you need 10 points. 1 point = 10 hours, and different crew positions automatically give you points. Personally?

I hope she doesn't get one goddamn point.

She hasn't earned ANY of it! And I mean, any of it. The first time she was ever at a rehearsal for more than 2 consecutive hours was just yesterday, and even then, we both got to leave early. AND SHE LEFT BEFORE I DID BY 3 HOURS. Because she decided at the last minute that, "Oh! I know you asked me to type up the costume inventory and everything but...i've got a lot of homework...do you think you could do it?" *insert annoying heh heh heh here*

And what do I go and do? I do it, of course. Thus the 3 extra hours. And why did I? Because I knewshe wouldn't do it even if I said no, and we'd all be epically screwed if it didn't get done. Not to mention that yesterday was the first time we've ever actually worked with the costumes, and our one and only monumentally enourmous job was after the actors were done getting fitted and trying everything on and back in regular clothes, we had to make sure, going through our manual check list, (which i wrote by myself), that every single piece was there. There are 30 actors.

I did about 28.

Basically what I'm asking is, what would any of you do in this situation? I want to do SOMETHING to make sure I'm getting the help I need and the respect I'd greatly like to get for all the hours I've put into this show already, (which, by the way, is about 55 compared to her 8)

Soo....any advice?

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/21186440/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/21186440/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 13:00:28 PDT

I don't really know how to tell you this, but our horoscope doesn't match. I think I realized it when your dog ran amuck at the mental hospital and I saw you castrate my best friend. I'm sure you're man enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist. I'm returning your false teeth to you, but I'll keep your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I will never forget your eggplant-fetishim .

Good luck on your short-term leave from jail,
Poohbearlover42

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Lol, ok, now that that stupidity is over with, let me explain. put this in her journal, and it CRACKED ME UP! So i decided to try it myself. The above is my result. If you want to do it too, (cause I won't tag anyone ) here's the link and instructions on how to do so:-->[link]

Other than that, all I have to say is MY LIFE IS BEING EATEN BY THE CRUCIBLE AND SCHOOL WORK BLARGH!

I have soo many unfinished things to do! I PROMISE, that AS SOON as I have time to do all that stuff, (ATK spectator entry, character profiles of original peeps, etc.) I WILL!

And that is all.

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/20636938/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/20636938/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 14:30:38 PDT
BUT ANYWAYS! The Crucible. Right, I put that in the title, right? *peers upward* Yeep, so I did. So, our school is putting on two plays this fall. The Crucible, and The Musical Comedy Murders of 1940. I'm sure you've all heard of the one in my title, and it's the play I'm going to be doing tech work on. Which, also, means I've sold my soul to the theatre. OMG I'M A WITCH! lol. So if I'm busy, or not on for extented periods of time, it's either the play, insane schoolwork, or a combination of the two. It's not that I haven't been drawing stuff. I HAVE. LIKE CRAZY. But don't have enough finished to really take the time to go to the library and get it scanned in. SOON!

Also? My story. That's the big, main thing I've been working on the most as of now. Andrew and Votch, (and a hell of a lot of other people you'll be seeing here shortly), have been throwing me screwy curve balls every time I sit down to add more! XP I was sitting upstairs earlier, just today! And was thinking about making individual, nice profiles for everyone, when I was struck with a thought.

A name! It hit me like a thunderbolt! The name of my story, (and, even as I type, I'm doing an outline for the cover), is going to be called:

"Black Light"

When I have more, I'll be sure to show you! And I'm always open to any questions you might have! See ya round!

-Kyla-

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/20296501/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/20296501/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 18:39:44 PDT
BUT ASIDE FROM THAT! I'm extremely excited for this school year! I've got like, super awesome classes, (intro to psych, drama and speech, orchestra, choir, to name a few)

Tommorow is our actual FIRST day, cause today was a half day, but that so doesn't matter! I'm SOO excited!

I'm determined that this year, I'm gonna put 100% effort into every assignment, into everything I do, and be the absolute best that I can be, for ME, and no one else. To learn and get the entire experiance, and make everything worth while. No more half ass-ing everything, not caring, just scraping by with minimum effort. Cause I could easily be a straight A student if I give a crap, and this time, I DO.

Ah, feels good to say that. That was mostly for myself. GO ME!

I'm also curious: What are some other people's classes they're taking this year? Any fun suggestions for the future?

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/20059533/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/20059533/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 12:35:01 PDT
If I wrote an actual story for Andrew and Votch, would anyone be interested in reading it?

I'm pretty sure that I'm gonna go ahead and do so anyways, but I was just wondering.*shrugs*

Also, I can now proudly say that I am not a slacking bum who lies around the house all summer! I'VE GOT A JOB! YUP! It's the truth! It's this odd little store called Bivouac that sells an odd combination of camping gear and over priced college fashion. So bad, that the saying around the store is, "If you can afford to buy from Bivouac, you don't need to work at Bivouc" yeah....BUT NOW I GETS THE MONEYS!!!!

And now for the depresseing part of this journal, and why I'm writing this before 4:30:

My cat ran away.

We don't know how long she's been gone, but my mom called me at work sayin she was coming to pick me up early, and we're goin home. Apparently, the smart little bugger figured out how to open the door from the sunroom to outside. I've already gone around the whole bloody block searching for her, but to no avail.

Also, we called the humane society, and they said they don't pick up cats. Like, what the hell? Is that like, the biggest dog over prejudice like, ever? "oh sure, go catch all the stray dogs you see so they don't get hit by the big mean cars, but let all the stray cats just become road paste. No one will notice." It's disgusting. I'm upset. I can't talk anymore.

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/19715107/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/19715107/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 09:08:02 PDT
WELL, here's the deal: Starting tommorow, I'm gonna be up north for an entire week plus a day, as the title of this thing implies, so I'm obviously not going to be on during that time. It's just a teeny cottage up by Mackinaw Island, and like, feet away from Lake Superior. PIMPIN', AMIRIGHT?!

I hope that by the time I get back, I'll have a bunch of stuff to dump on here, including photos and HOPEFULLY my next part of my Amaranthine Tea Kettle entry. I won't have much choice anyways...

OOO! And when I get back,(August 7th, for those who fail at math during the summer as I do), I'm going to see Boys Like Girls in concert! YAYZ! I think that Metro Station, (whom I don't particulary care for) and Good Charolette are opening for them too, so it should be fairly interesting.


TILL THEN, TTFN! TA TA FOR NOW!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/19306578/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/19306578/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 08:36:14 PDT I forgot to put up a new journal telling people why I wasn't responding! *smacks forhead*

But anyways, now that I'm back, until Sunday, the only thing you're gonna be seeing from me is probably gonna be that Amaranthine Tea Kettle contest that is consuming my life. *IF* I had been smart enough to start *BEFORE* I left, then this wouldn't be a problem.

Except it is. And I don't even have a full page yet.

This does not mean, however, that I don't have other things started/close to finishing them. My attention is just currently all consumed. So you'll definately see something on Sunday, if not sooner!

(and I am NOT distressed, despite what the decieving little mood smiley may lead to you believe otherwise. More like sunburnt. And hungry. )

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18949776/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18949776/ Fri, 20 Jun 2008 12:52:27 PDT
First off is the new band show. You have NO idea, just how...how BIZARRE it is for me. Today is the last day of June minicamp for our band, and...I'm not with them. I miss the sport, the sun, the excerise, and my flag, but I most CERTAINLY do NOT miss the people in the slightest. So I suppose it's all evened out! I AM, however, going to go see a preview show tonight, so I'm not TOTALLY cut off!

Ok,next. ARTZ. Well, truth be told, my personal problems have been delaying any interest in drawing lately, BUT! I have been working on like, two things, and I'll try to get those up before I go to Blue Lake next week.

Right. Doctor Who time now:



I BLAME THESE TWO FOR MY NEWEST OBSESSION ARGH!!!!

introduced it to me with her awesome pictures of the earlier doctors, and showed me a couple background things from the really REALLY old episodes,and , being 50% british, and one of my good friends in real life, was like, personally offended that I had not seen any of them yet.

Man, she had NO idea the monster she's created!

...

ITS OVER 5000 AGGGGGGGGHHHHH!!!

(I'll be posting something up for this landmark soon!)

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18888614/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18888614/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 08:54:45 PDT
CAN I GET A FLOWER DANCE PLZ?!??!



Awright. Awesome possum. I'm bored as hell right now. It's about, eh...11:50 am here, and it's insane for me to be concious right now. And I apologize for the emo-ness of my newest deviantion. I was kinda going through a rough time. BUT I'M ALL BETTER NOW! In fact, I'm working on a spazzy new thing to put up, but it's taking longer than first anticipated. Whatev. It'll be up when it's up.

And I'm probably gonna take a break from my thing to go scavenge up something to eat. CAUSE THERE'S NEVER ANY FOOD IN MY STUPID HOUSE ARRRRRRRGH!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18782131/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18782131/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 19:05:13 PDT
Gag. Me. With. A. Spoon.

I had math and economics today. YUCKY! Although, at least the scariest ones are out of the way now.

Ok, in regards to school, THE STUPIDEST shit on earth is going on tommorow. So basically, at my school, if you have any electronic device WHATSOEVER, (only barely excluding like, insulin things for diabetics. BARELY), you get a one day suspension for your first offense. Second time, three days, and so on and so forth.

Guess who's phone got spotted?

YESSIRE! ON THE DAY BEFORE SCHOOL LETS OUT, I GET TO BE THERE FOR FOUR FUCKIN EXTRA HOURS! HOOOOORRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAY!

...

I want to murder a baby.

*ahem*, Aah, I mean, yeah, that's not cool. At all. But it gives me PLENTY of time to study, RIGHT?!?

OH, and about that contest, I AM TRYING! My stupid computer deletes it EVERY time I get farther! WTF PHOTOSHOP!??

I'll do my best to have it in by tommorow! Thanks for your patience!

[EDIT]

Ok, so I'm little screwed when it comes to my entry here. DeviantArt is being RETARDED and it won't let me post it up! And it's a small file size, so I have no clue what its doing. If anyone knows how to solve this problem, I'd GREATLY appreciate it!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18616392/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18616392/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 19:28:31 PDT
I've decided not to do color guard this season.

And why?

Because the life of the theatre in the fall is calling too strongly, and the pull of being a musician with my wooden instrument and my vocal instrument is too strong! And I've only got one shot at high school to explore everything there is to offer. I don't want to be held back with regrets or 7 month commitments that are gonna inhibit me from exploring.
So this should make be feel great, right?

Well...it IS, but...

My boyfriend is being a dick He's making this harder on me than it needs to be, and I really wish he would stop bringing it up and pissing me off by trying to change my mind. Cause I'm NOT. AND, to top it all of, whenver we have this discussion, he's a TOTAL hypocrite! He says that he doesn't want me to go off and do choir and acting, cause everyone he knows from personal experciance who does these things are all jerks, and judgemental, (JOKE, LOOK WHOS TALKING), and rude. And he says he doesn't want me to be influenced in a bad way, which I can understand, of course.

But when he says that he doesn't want me to try out for a fall play unless he can audition too, I just LAUGH!!! He wants to try out WITH me, and/or be able to come see any shows I make it into! WHAT THE HELL?!? Am I the ONLY one who see's how funny and wrong that is? He CLEARLY doesn't. And I'm not gonna let him hold me back if he's, (pardon my french), too much of a pussy to try out unless I try out. I want to do this, and god damn it, I'm GOING to do it!

And I apologize. END OF RANT! NOW COOL NEWS!

So, I'm involved in and contest for The Amaranthine Tea Kettle, Link to find it is at this icon -->

If you want to do a cool contest cause you're bored, look into it! I'm still working on my entry and stuff, but I have a character already who's just not posted up here yet. You'll get to see him/them soon.

SOO DO EET!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18416584/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18416584/ Tue, 20 May 2008 14:29:09 PDT So this is just an overall update on meh life as of now and a little of the future. Nothing spectacular has happened recently, but meh. DEAL WITH IT.

SO YEA, THAT WAS I LIE CAUSE I JUST REMEMBERED SOMETHING:

I am finally going to Blue Lake Fine Arts camp of Michigan this year.



I've been wanting to go since 5th grade, but never had the money or time and blah blah blah. Plus, it just gets more expensive every year. *growl* BUT!!! I made an audtion for this like, in December, before I ever took private lessons with something stupid we were playing in class at the time, and got a $390.00 scholarship. Pretty decent, right?

Ha ha, yeah, the camp costs $1025.00 fricken dollars.

So I basically said, "Psh, that'd be nice, but screw that notion" cause of guard and cost. But, just a week or so ago, I got a letter from Blue Lake saying they wanted to add on more money to my scholarship. It was something stupid, for like, they needed more high school girls or something. They wanted to add on $250.00 more. Do you realize what that means?

They would be paying for more than half of the cost just to make me come.

AND I AM TOTALLY DOING IT, BITCHES!!!

Aside from that, guard started up, and I want to die. I am so out of shape from not doing winter guard, and skill wise, I've fallen behind the 'sophmores'. I say it this way, cause now technically, i'm a 'junior', so i can't call them freshmen any more, even though in school, they still are. ITS VERY CONFUSING. So I'm gonna have to work hella hard to stay caught up with everyone who's been doing it all year round. Kinda stressful.

And tonight, I am going to our schools final choir concert of the year, even though I'm not in choir, (YET!!!), cause two of my friends asked me to come. Plus, it's all musicals, so I thought, "hell, why not? sounds like fun!"

Finally, expect a few new things up soon. Not positive when, but I'm brewing up some crap, so keep an eye out. THANKS!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18160623/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18160623/ Sun, 04 May 2008 07:49:52 PDT I've become really interested in photos lately, and I'm gonna be deviantion bombarding you for the next half hour or so. Sorry!

Going crazy with cello right now. He's kinda unhappy with me, cause now that I've been playing him so much, he's all like, "Well, what the hell, bitch? Where were you BEFORE when I was sitting in my case for months at a time?!" But he's happy I'm playing him now. I say him, cause his name is Charlie teh Cel-lo, and does not like to be refered to as an object. Also pictured in my ID.

So yeah, not much has been going on lately. I finished this fricken awesome drawing last night, and then AFTERWARDS, after I had put about a full hour into this, I realized something:

IT WAS ON LINED PAPER!!!! AUGH!

I might put it up in scraps anyways, but still, I wish it didn't have to be in that category. Oh well.

...

I'M A FIRIN MAH LAZER BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18022217/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/18022217/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 12:35:35 PDT
Anyways! Color guard is starting up in May! WEEE! We've already had a rifle practice(which was a total joke, mind you, but it was a practice none the less), and the marching band already has their new little 8th grade soon to be freshmen recruits! AND THEY ARE JUST SO CUTE! I swear to God, they get shorter and shorter every year, and you can spot them from a mile away. Wierd how much of a difference only a year can make, huh?

Speaking of years, I was just thinking about next year, and like, absolutely nothing is staying the same for me except for the fact that I'm going to the same school. This year's group of seniors is going to be, by far, the hardest year for me to see them all go. I have SOOO many senior friends! All those familiar faces I'm accustomed to seeing aren't going to be there anymore! They're actually going to be going off to college and starting out their lives. It's SOO wierd to think about! I'm going to miss them all so damn much!

Some positives about next year are pretty fucking sweet, though, I'm not gonna lie. I get to be AN UPPER CLASSMEN BITCH! I'll be a junior! And with that comes the sweet classes that I GOT TO PICK FOR ONCE! It's totally all performance related, and all shit that I actually want to take!

For English, I'm doing Drama & Speech, then Late British Literature, which will both be hella sweet, cause I love acting and public speaking, (yes, I'm wierd), and I'm a book freak, and love reading old books. It's awesome!

For extra activities, I get to do (HOPEfully!) Symphony Orchestra, cause auditions are in two weeks and I don't know yet, and Choir. I had to fight and kick and scream to do two all year round classes that aren't on their stupid list of classes that have to be completed, but I won in the end! I LIEKS MOOSIC

Then the other unimportant classes is Chemistry in the Community, (AKA Chem Comm), and a required math class, but for all I care I could fail those and do good in all the other classes and still be happy. Certainly not planning on going into either fields of study, so it's not that important to me. But grades are, so blah blah blah...

And I STILL don't know what our show for band going to be yet! I NEED TO KNOW! ( why man plays this strange double game, his hand always close to the flame! It's a deal with the devil he cannot disclaim! So, what's his aim? I NEED TO KNOW!)

*ahem*

Pardon the random outburst. Absolutely neccesary. I can never say those words in the same sentance without singing that now. Neither can my orchestra director. lawlz. I still really want to find out what it is, though. I'm positive they've already decided, just haven't told us yet. AND JENIFO LESETH, THE BANE OF MY EXISTANCE, (and my stupid guard coach), IS QUITING! YES YES YES YES YES YES

I'm pumped as hell. A chance to get a spot actually based on, *GASP*, SKILL instead of favoritism! YES! I'm gonna try SOO hard this year, like, crazy intense. I'm pumped!

And now I'm bored. I'll update again when something else cool happens! TOODLES

*EDIT* by the way, the reason I haven't posted something in forever and a day is because I'm working on some... ]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17834314/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17834314/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 14:57:42 PDT
I suppose color guard is starting up again in the next couple of weeks, but I'm not entirely sure I'm even gonna be able to enjoy that anymore. Cause when it comes to guard, I love the sport, love the physical acivity, and LOVE the feeling of performing on a field and seeing all your hard work and sweat come to fruitation. But...I absolutely HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE the people! And they're my team! I HAVE to work with them! But it's just never that simple, is it?

I don't know if I want to do something like that now that I've experianced Jekyll and Hyde. Cause when it comes to this show, there is, quite literally, nothing I disliked. I loved the people, loved the pit, loved the music, the plot, EVERYTHING! And it never gets old, which is probably the best part. I don't know if I want to go back to a place where I love what I'm doing but hate the people, because now that's I've had the full experiance of loving what I'm doing AND loving all the people too, it just seems like it'd be...empty. I really don't know what to do. I'd love some help with this, if anyone has any thoughts.

(And on a lovely side note, I'm almost positive now that I've developed pneumonia, just like my friend had recently. Quite possibly, I caught it from her. Thanks, Madi.)

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17730786/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17730786/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 12:09:17 PDT [link] <-- Original "This is the Moment". There's also no video, it's just the music. For all you non-Jekyll & Hyde fans, (which is BLASPHEMY, btw), This is the song Jekyll sings right before he makes that famous poor life decision to take HJ7 and basically screw himself for life. And go on the muderous rampage as Hyde, who does not exist yet. A very serious and beautiful ballad, correct?

Well.....not at OUR rehersals!!!!

[link] <-- This is our Jekyll/Hyde, Brandon. He's a brillant singer and actor, and very sadly, is a senior this year, so he won't be around next year.

SO we had just done a full runthrough of the show in full costume, cause it was our final dress rehersal before opening night. We had to go back and go through individual trouble songs, and at this point, Brandon was having a little trouble singing, and drawing near to losing his voice. Which is very bad the night before the first show. So he asked if he could just act and not sing as we go over the little things, and our director said fine.

And we had to do This is the Moment.

I have NO idea what came over him, but the video is what resulted. He just became like, inspired to go crazy with it and make it a comedy. And none of us really minded. Sorry the video quality sucks so much, and you can't really hear him that well.

Supposedly, someone else was recording, and I'm keeping an eye out for a better version. Once I find it, I'll put that up instead. Our timpani player was recording. It's not the full song, which sucks! It's just the end! The beginging was the best part, too!
At one point, I literally just stopped playing, and stood up on top of my chair so I could see, and was just cracking up the entire time. I just stopped, cause I knew nothing so beautiful would happen again, and I had to watch.

When I get the DVD of the entire show, I'll also post a link to that, so you can compare to other versions. (if anyone cares, that is...) It should be soon!

And I hope to never post a journal this long again. SORRY!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17684891/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17684891/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 14:50:04 PDT
Ho good God...

It was a really fantastic performance yesterday. I was REALLY impressed by the cast! I've heard them all come sooooooooo far from when they first started this. It's truly a really cool experiance to hear a song once, then a million times over, and then suddenly, one day, you hear it differently and go, "Damn! That's SOO much better than it used to be!" Everyone, not just the cast, but everyone new to the pit like me as well, have just been changing and growing, melding together until it's one big solid production.

I've got another show tonight too. In like, 3 hours or so, but I gotta be there a lot sooner to run some individual spots.

I'm tired, sore as HELL, hungry, and WAY too sleep deprived, and...woah, that's like, all the symptoms of a zombie....

Meh! *shrugs* It's gonna be fantastic! As soon as I get the recording, I'll post a link to YouTube and to our show. There's already a recording, but it's a really bad one, so I'll just not...

Wish me luck!

(and madi, you BETTER get your ass to come see it SOOON!!!!)

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17631288/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17631288/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 12:20:00 PDT tagged me for this INCREDIBLY long test. I'm just gonna go ahead and waste the last minutes of sanity I have before I head off to the pit for rehearsal today just cause I'm so damn bored.

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4. (HA! 5'5!!! But my little sister's still taller than me...)

[ ] I think I'm ugly sometimes.

[ ] I have many scars.

[ ] I tan easily. (I'm polish, blonde, and white as a fucking cloud. I BURN)

[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.

[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.

[ ] I have a tattoo.

[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. (Well, I'm always covering my legs...)

[x]I have/I've had braces. (Have. FOR A SECOND TIME DAMMIT!)

[ ] I wear glasses. (I used to. I think I need them again, though.)

[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.

[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. (Someone told me I look like one of the Simpson girls. I think Ashlee? *shrug*)

[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.

[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.

[ ] I have freckles.

[ ] I hate my dad.

[ ] I hate my mom.

[x] I have a brother.

[x] I have a sister.

[x] I've sworn at my parents. (By accident. Didn't go over so well...)

[x] I've run away from home. (I was like, four. And got halfway to the end of the block before I turned around crying cause i wanted my mom )

[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.

[x] My biological parents are together.

[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.

[x] I want to have kids someday. (Well, yeah, but not too excited bout that whole birthing process...Kids = Pain = Hmmm...)

[ ] I've had children.

[ ] I've lost a child.

[x] I'm in school. (High school for me!)

[ ] I have a job. (BUM BUM BUUUUUUUUUUM! )

[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.

[ ] I almost always do my homework. (I'm a lazy ass, and still get A's.)

[x] I've missed a week or more of school. (I was really REALLY sick last year with a stomach flu/fever/sinus problem combo. Needless to say, that sucked.)

[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.

[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.

[ ] I've stolen something from my job.

[ ] I've been fired.

[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in spoken conversation. (And wanted to kill myself afterwards)

[x] Disney movies still make me cry. (I'm a Disney fangirl! LOOK AT MY SCREENAME!!!)

[x] I've peed from laughing. (...well...*ahem* That was embaressing, to say the least.)

[x] I've snorted while laughing.

[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.

[x] I've glued my hand to something. (Glued one hand to the other hand. It was fun!)

[x] I've had my pants rip in public. (Thank God, no)

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment. (Do ear infections count? lol)

[x] I've gotten stitches/staples. (Well, I'm gonna say yes, cause I accidently stapled my right pointer finger till the staple could be seen under my fingernail. It qualifies.)

[ ] I've broken a bone.

[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.

[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.

[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.

[ ] I had a serious surgery.

[x] I've had chicken pox.

[ ] I was born in a different country.

[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.

[x] I've been on a plane.

[x] I've been to Canada.

[ ] I've been to Mexico.

[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.

[ ] I've been to Japan.

[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.

[x] I've been to Europe. (I WISH!!! )

[ ] I've been to Africa.

[x] I've gotten lost in my city. (I have no sense of street names what-so-ever)

[x] I've seen a shooting... ]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17227881/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17227881/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 16:39:55 PST
Also known as my new life as a pit-a-teer. (pit)

So, I'll try to put up some stuff, and hopefully a lot of it, cause after this weekend, I will be SHOCKED to have any time to myself outside of Sundays. So Sundays shall be my duping day, if you will. Please don't kill me if I don't come on and respond to any messages right away/for a long time! I'll get to them all as soon as I can!

If anyone's interested and lives in mah mittenish area, I'll give the show dates. This is also mainly for my friends in real lifes benifit so THEY STOP BUGGING ME AND CAN HAVE ONE PLACE TO FIND IT ALL!!!

SHOW DATES

Opening day is April 3rd
April 4th
April 5th
April 9th
April 11th
Final Show is April 12th

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17138742/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17138742/ Sat, 01 Mar 2008 19:57:40 PST , and that was cool. We watched MST3K stuff. It was horrible, and yet, very satisfying. That's normally how those are.

Oh! And you know what's retarted? Here I am, ranting like, 24/7 about Jekyll & Hyde, and you know what I realized?

I had never read the book.

SOOOOOOOO Madi just happened to have a copy of said book, and that's what I'm reading right now. I feel stupid as hell for not reading it sooner, but meh, at least it's getting done. And of course, IT IS AMAZINGTASTIC!!! Kinda confusing to read at some points, but still, the awesomeness remains.

I also got to go see Stephen when I got home, and i got to snuggle for a good long time. That was so nice! I was finally able to like, release some tension that had been hanging around me all day.

Over all, it was a cool Saturday!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17063812/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/17063812/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 19:16:48 PST
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!! RUN 4 UR LIEVES!!

I apologize in advance for the poor lighting in most of these. It couldn't really be helped. My scanners still a piece of poop, but my camera started cooperating again, so I did what I had to to get SOMEthing up, ya know? I"ll definately be going back and re-submitting these when I can get to a scanner, but for now, you'll just have to deal.

And Madi, yes. I finally have the stuff you wanted/contest entrys.

AND NOW YOU MUST START THE NEW CONTEST!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16967934/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16967934/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 19:16:01 PST
But there are some...um...repercussions, I suppose you could say.

If any of you know me when I'm doing color guard, it's gonna be like that. Only not physically taxing. But VERY time consuming. This is actually like, my last week of sanity pretty much until spring break. Then after spring break, it gets worse.

I've only got pit on tuesdays and thursdays for now, and only till like, 4:30. Which is reasonable and fine.

But next week starts the rapid descent into the subterrainian darkness known as the the pit. Soon to be my home for the next couple of months.

It'll be practices Monday through Friday, and next Saturday I have a thirteen hour rehearsal. 10am till 11pm.

Great. Can't wait.

THEN, and this is the part that really kinda pisses me off. is after spring break. It'll be practices RIGHT AFTER SCHOOL, 2:30, till 11 at night.

My grades are shot. I can kiss my GPA goodbye right now.

But aside from crazy ass schedules, it's amazing. And I've got so many friends with me, so it's still fun and cool! I can't wait until we try to do something with the actors. It'll be so cool! I'm especially curious to see if the person they got for Jekyll/Hyde is gonna be able to pull of the part. He's an amazing singer, but he's more of a bass than a tenor, which is what Jekyll's supposed to be. I also didn't know he could act. I hope he does the part justice!

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*sigh* it's kinda depressing, but HEY! We've only got about 3 1/2 more months of this till we're free from school!

(so that I might be shackled, bounded, gagged, and chained to guard! )

And I'll be a junior, which is a REALLY bizarre thought to me. I'll be an upper classmen! HOLY CRAP!

I am kinda glad to be going back, cause I've been bored as HELL here sitting around all day. I've gotten pretty good at Guitar Hero III, but that's not something all that specatcular. And I drew the shit out of my tablet, as many of you have seen. Other than that....nothing.

AND I GET TO LOOK FORWARD TO FREEZING OFF BODY PARTS IN OUR SCHOOL POOL TOMMOROW AT 7:30 IN THE FUCKING MORNING!!!!! CAN'T YOU SEE MY ENTHUSIAM?!?!

Ho ho, I feel bad for those sorry motha fuggas that have to put up with me that early in the morning! Ask about it sometime. I bet she'll have loads to tell you!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16895674/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16895674/ Fri, 15 Feb 2008 08:45:38 PST that I'd update my journal on Valentines Day, but I got home too late last night to do so. So I'm doing it now.

Oh gosh, my boy was just being SO adorable yesterday! He was like, freaking out over every little detail cause he wanted everything to be perfect. If something came up, he like, exploded, cause he was planning yesterday for like, three weeks.

We went to go see Definately, Maybe. IT WAS ADORABLE! And yet, at the same time, horrendously akward. I hate watching akward movies where you're just like, "Oh God, come on! PLEASE stop being such a dick!" or "COME ON! SAY THE RIGHT THING!" or you just can't even watch cause it's so akward. But thankfully, this was not one of those. It had enough humor to balance out the akward stuff, so you could still watch it and laugh a lot.

But it was when my mom picked him up at his house when he gave me all my little gifts. Last year on Valentines Day, he gave me this little silver heart necklace that I wore down to pieces cause I never took it off. This year, he didn't need to give me anything like that. He gave me two Midnight Milkyways, my FAVORITE candybar EVER, cause it's dark chocolate, the biggest-ass bar of Hersey's dark chocolate you've ever laid eyes on, and another box of chocolates! I certainly love my chocolate! that's gonna last me for MONTHS! And not only did he give me enough chocolate to put me in a diabetic coma, but he drew this beautiful picture of a rose. I'll probably scan it (when my scanner is not stupid) and put it on his account for all to see when I can. And finally, he gave me two roses. He said two roses, cause it was our second Valentines Day together!

It was just SOOO sweet! After the movie, we got to go hang out at his house for about an hour, then I went home. But oh, it was just such a wonderful day!

I LOVE YOU STEPHEN!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16773223/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16773223/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 16:39:42 PST


Oh, and I'm still obsessed with J & H. In like, a really kinda scary way now. It's almost like the songs like me too much. I've LITERALLY, no exaggerations at all, had the same song stuck in my head for three days straight. And when I say straight, that's including while I'm asleep. Scary? Yes. True? Yes. Getting annoying but still awesome? YES.

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16739570/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16739570/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 13:56:21 PST
We've already had a couple of rehearsals, (I just came back from one, actually), and while it's still really REALLY rough, you can still tell what the songs are! Some of them are just like, "BAM, BITCHES!" when we nail it, and the other ones are murdered, murdered, brutally and unforgiveingly. (Ho ho butchered that last word!)

Whenever I get home, like, one of the very first things I do is plop down at the computer, go to Youtube, and watch/but mostly listen to my favorite songs from it.

For the entire rest of the night, with homework going to hell.

Here's some links if anyone's interested for my favorite songs.

NOTE: I'm sad to say that some of them are only sung by David Hasselhoff who did the play on broadway, so I apoligize to your ears in advance.

[link] <---This one's "Alive"

[link] <---This one's "Murder, Murder"

[link]

This one is part of the play. Go to about 3:00 minutes into it, and it's "Confrontation"

Hope you guys enjoy! And I put up a new piece in dedication! I'm doing two different versions, but I'm still debating on putting the other one up.

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16598011/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16598011/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 13:50:10 PST

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16595064/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16595064/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 10:40:11 PST

JUST FLAT OUT LEAVE ME OUT OF YOUR FUCKING PITY PARTIES ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16565498/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16565498/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 12:09:25 PST
AND I APOLOGIZE! THEY'RE ALL LOOKING TO THE LEFT. I don't know why, but I noticed that everything that I've put up recently, every stupid person is facing left! Even the one's I haven't put up yet! I think there's a magnetic pull that makes everyone look that way. Sorry, I'll give them an original direction soon....

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16548070/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16548070/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 08:21:12 PST
And now, let the dump of deviantions BEGIN!

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Initial reaction = hell yes, sleeping in

BUT! She then also mentions, "Yeah, they're going to be putting that metal bar tommorow, right?"

!(@^$)(*@#Y%_(@&#) (* WAHT?!

My crack-head orthodontist wanted desperately put put a metal bar behind my bottom teeth. And it would never come out. I said fuck that, no way in your life. My mom was surprisingly behind me on that one, which I suppose I appreciate.

And here's the reason I'm pissy:

They made me get braces again.

AGAIN WITH THE GODDAMN BRACES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's only on the bottom teeth, but it's enough that it hurts already and it's akward to eat anything at all, and I thought I was done with this shit 5 FUCKING YEARS AGO!!!!

My teeth are currently crooked again because I lost my retainer for a month, found it, and tried to put it back in. My mouth bleed, all my teeth were unstable, and I was unable to eat the rest of the day. So, avoid retainer. As soon as I told my orthodontist, I wanted braces then and there before my teeth got worse.

THIS WAS LAST FUCKING APRIL! WHY WOULD YOU WAIT UNTIL JANUARY TO FIX THIS?!?!

rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr rawr i'm gonna fucking kill someone.

Honest to God, I couldn't care less if my teeth are a little crooked. AND, to top all this wonderfulness off, the lady putting on my braces had never done it before. I was unable to protest cause I had this stupid thing in my mouth and couldn't say anything. SHE HAD NEVER DONE THIS BEFORE! I WANT A FUCKING PROFESSIONAL MESSING WITH SOMETHING THAT I'LL HAVE TO LIVE WITH FOR ABOUT A HALF A YEAR!

*sigh*, ok, ok, I need to stop ranting.

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16262385/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16262385/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 21:41:15 PST 1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person should post 8 aleatory facts of themselves.
3. Tagged people should write a Journal\Blog about these facts.
4. In the end, tag and name 8 more people.
5. Go to their dA pages and comment saying that they are tagged and hugged.

Mmkay so...Here I go, then!

1. I'm crazy obsessed with cats. Seriously, beware. 0_o
2. My best friend has Edgeworth locked up in her basement
3. When I eat chocolate, no matter how little or much, I act like I'm high
4. My name means 'lovely' in Scottish
5. I sit in front of two pot eating, (yes, I did say eating) stupid whores in my 6th hour
6. I devour books. Screw book worms, I eat 200 page novels for a snack.
7. My dad's friend first taught me piano when I was 6, and I've been playing ever since
8. I'm a jobless bum

AND NOW THE NEW PEOPLE TO BE TAGGED!!!!!!!

~frillythingy
~bluefishi666
~muffin6
~K0N3K0
*Jiisan
~nek0me0w
~OrangeAlbinoMario
~DeadHeartInc

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16186379/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/16186379/ Mon, 31 Dec 2007 14:30:46 PST
But I"m not excited or anything...

OH! And I'm taking requests to draw avatars for GaiaOnline if anyone's interested!

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]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/15990341/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/15990341/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 17:23:29 PST
So me, Madi, Alanna, Courtney, and Nicole, (yeah, I know, the world's most cliche names ever...) went ice skating on saturday. It was hilarious, and we all fell on our butts at least once, and Alanna actually managed to fall on her ass AND tits. Very talented. ANYWAYS, we were skating around, when I see this guy fall. I was like, "woah, is he ok?" but he started to get back up again right away, so I skated away. Then I see a crowd of people standing where the guy fell, now feeling bad, like he wasn't ok. So I go over there, and I see he's got a nasty cut above his eyebrow, and looks kinda out of it. I was kinda like, ew, blood, cause I've got an extremly weak stomach for that kind of stuff. Then, and this is my favorite, they lift him up, cause someone called the hospital, and there's this huge pool of blood underneath his head.

I was so close to puking, it was not even remotely funny.

So he split open the back of his head, and got a concussion. Ick, and suckiness.

Now, here's the part I don't understand:

The dude was stoned.

Who the fuck goes ice skating while they're stoned?! Um, HELLO?! You're sliding around a sheet of ice, hoping to God your balance is good enough, being only slightly supported by two BLADES attached to the bottoms of your feet.

I think that a village is sorely missing their idiot...

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/15838630/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/15838630/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 18:20:13 PST
I had to make one of the toughest choices of my life a couple days back. I had to decide wether to do winter guard and drivers ed, or to not do winter guard, and instead, drivers ed, a job, pit orchestra (which is the group that does the music for the school musicals), and have time for school, friends, family, and my boyfriend.

Now normally, you'd think, "what the heck? why's that such a hard decision? not doing it sounds a hell of a lot better!"

Right?

Well, it really wasn't. At all. I was stress crying every day for like, three days, cause it was seriously tearing me to pieces. On one hand, I do winter guard, which would keep me up with everybody else, keep me in my fall guard instructors good books, keep me in shape, and get me a better spot on fall guard for my junior year, with me possibly on rifle or sabre. Or I don't do it, and get all of the benefits that I already mentioned. It was hard, because both choices were like, almost equal in my mind.

But I decided to not do it.

I'm pretty happy with my decision so far. I've been doing a lot better in school, and I actually have been able to plan to hang out with my boyfriend and some girl friends for once in a very very long time! It's sweet. AND, probably the best part, is that I just told my orchestra teacher that I was interested in doing pit, and she said she'd think about it. But once I told her that I'm not doing winter guard, she said, "then you've got yourself a spot in the pit!"

That...is just fricken amazing. Why?

Cause she normally only takes upperclassmen! YAY! So, it's cool that I get to do this. Very cool.

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/15387836/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/15387836/ Tue, 06 Nov 2007 07:15:55 PST
1. Got sick. Like, BAD stomach pain, sniffles, sneezing, etc.

2. It was windier than my dad after eating a can of beans, and just far too fricken cold.

3. At the end of the run through of our show for marching band, I tossed my toss.

My flag decided to return to me.

IN MY FACE.

I do not have a concussion, but I am gonna have to be out of school Tuesday(today) and tommorow. I've got a head injury. God, this really kinda blows.

So...10:12 am, and nothing to do but write in a journal on deviantart with no one here...

BORED.

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/15155918/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/15155918/ Sun, 21 Oct 2007 10:08:12 PDT
I've got these really cool new drawings,
AND I CAN'T FRICKEN POST THEM!

My stupid-ass scanner is broken. AGAIN! And I don't wanna post them by taking a picture with a digital camera, cause if you look at some of the other stuff I put on here, you can see how well THAT went.

Grr....

As soon as it's workin', I'm putting more stuff up. (like, actually inked and pretty, not skeches)

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/14701946/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/14701946/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 14:04:56 PDT I'm gonna find the real stuff, really!

Oh, and today I got on the wrong bus cause I was limping all slow like. Goddamn, I hate being a gimp. My stupid 6th hour teacher wouldn't let me out early, cause I'm as fricken physically far away as I can possibly be from my bus, and she wouldn't let me out early. GodDAMN you Wieduwilt!

]]> ~Poohbearlover42 http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/13015629/ http://Poohbearlover42.deviantart.com/journal/13015629/ Sat, 19 May 2007 16:30:18 PDT
1. Wake up

2. Go to school

3. Only half pay attention at school and doodle all over everything and
read stuff.

4. Go straight to guard for roughly 2-3 hours

5. Come home

6. Blob about and save homework for last minute

7. Sleep

Not very eventful, but it's the main reason that I haven't been able to put anything up for, like, many many months. I DO have some cool stuff that I'm going to hopefully put up soon, but that will only be when I've got some spare time. We'll see!

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(Yes, I am quite aware that I am an emense Guard Geek, so restating it in a comment is unneccesary. )

]]> ~Poohbearlover42