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Looking for my lost muse.

]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/13079917/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/13079917/ Thu, 24 May 2007 18:25:00 PDT
]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/9651268/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/9651268/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 16:04:25 PDT
Im gonna miss everyone, or at least most everyone...mostly Samantha...just hoping i can spend some time with her before i leave (alone)...i look forward to everyone's letters and i will be back for a the holidays for 2 weeks....

i will be attending Baker Flint, for Graphic communications and possibly later something at CCS.... ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/9572025/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/9572025/ Wed, 02 Aug 2006 00:11:16 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/8188591/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/8188591/ Fri, 17 Mar 2006 13:27:26 PST
*exhale* okay....now that that's out of my system, you can go on with your day....thank you for letting me vent. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/8022250/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/8022250/ Mon, 27 Feb 2006 20:16:33 PST ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7794484/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7794484/ Fri, 03 Feb 2006 21:08:45 PST
So i forced myself to my feet and took a seat...a pair of twins were talking, presumingly about me. One didn't seem to care about the curiosity in the other's eyes. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7744107/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7744107/ Sun, 29 Jan 2006 17:35:01 PST
Needless to say i wound up with 3 broken ribs and room painted red....and realizing what had just happened i said "joe, your a dumbass" and walked away, laughing. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7735638/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7735638/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 20:25:55 PST
I find that all my worries have finally gone a drift and im back to the fearless bastard you all know and love (not entirely fearless but you get my drift)....which is a good thing because me being that way makes it easier to handle things that have caused me pain in the past or could potentially cause pain....but this doesn't mean im heartless, i just don't feel things are likely to go against me and if they do i'll fix em....

anyways....just an update seeing as how i never post anymore....tis a shame ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7634007/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7634007/ Tue, 17 Jan 2006 20:12:24 PST ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7591495/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7591495/ Fri, 13 Jan 2006 10:40:37 PST
I yelled at Grossman today because she was giving me issues about leaving her class during exam time...but i didn't need to be there, the advanced students don't have midterms and we were practically done with our work anyways....reason i needed to go was to finish an exam that i hadn't been given enough time to finish (which that teacher was also giving me shit).

I am not sure i did well on the Physics exam, despite the fact that i studied as hard as i could the night prior...hoping that i did decent.

I have been doing alot more physical labor aside from my job...which i don't mind because it could payoff later...but i've been doing it before work....so im pretty much working 18 hours of my day, not including eating or sleeping...not exactly the sort of thing i want to do 24/7.

I feel that i have been progressively becoming quite the asshole and i don't mean to be because its not anyones fault (for the most part)...its life and i have to deal. (sorry for anyone who has experienced this or has seen me acting strange, its just the stress wearing off...takes awhile).

I look forward to a nice 12 hour nap after i get home from work tonight...then i'll go to my dad's and sleep some more.

I'm supposed to be going to "Stomp" with sam of the 28th (i think) and seeing as how i will be able to spend some time with my girl and listen to music (both of which i have an extreme passion for) i can't pass up this opportunity...then...maybe i can relax for a little while and focus on sam (which i also look forward to).

I really would like to get my liscense soon...I just need someone to take me to go take my roadtest...this will make things more conveniant...although i don't like my truck all that much, it's a little difficult...So i will probably sell it, unless i get used to it.

I'm looking forward to graduating and yet im not...i want to because then i might be slightly relieved of the obligation of school but then again i don't because then i don't get to see certain people everyday...some of which i need to see or i will wind up in a psychiatric ward.

Certain people are still on my shitlist (Not you Jason) and i hope they die a slow and painful death and i am there to laugh.....see there's the prick bursting from my chest....lo siento.

*yawn*

Talk to you guys later...i think i have whined enough for now... ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7540158/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7540158/ Sat, 07 Jan 2006 22:45:28 PST ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7474028/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7474028/ Sun, 01 Jan 2006 01:10:33 PST And i've noticed that alot of people here lately seem to find it an absolute necessity to critize my lack of speaking ability...well perhaps now you know why i dislike to talk...not only do my thoughts get in the way, my reaction time and brain processing isn't what i'd call fast (im willing to admit this)...but lay off okay, its not like i try to be like this, i really wish i wasn't sometimes, so then maybe i'd be taken more seriously...Along the same lines, i realize that i sometimes say stuff when i really mean something else...but bear with me, some people actually do understand what im trying to get across despite my anti-english use of english words and expression...

for those who understand where i'm coming from and are willing to take up my requests (or already have), thank you....as far as anyone else, fuck off.

love always,
joe ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7417552/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/7417552/ Sun, 25 Dec 2005 20:36:16 PST ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6711570/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6711570/ Sat, 08 Oct 2005 10:26:43 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6634361/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6634361/ Thu, 29 Sep 2005 13:31:23 PDT Anyways....school's pissing me off....not the people but the lack of time to complete assignments and such....and yet i manage....anyways.....i thought i would bitch the computer out seeing as how i am here anyways.....lol ....yeah i know, i am a freak. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6579185/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6579185/ Fri, 23 Sep 2005 06:16:32 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6560904/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6560904/ Wed, 21 Sep 2005 05:40:35 PDT .....hmm....what is this that i am feeling? ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6517945/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6517945/ Fri, 16 Sep 2005 06:17:08 PDT
Not to long ago....i realized how much of a fool i used to be (and probably still am)....having realized that my countless days of depression had been wrong....had been in vain...for that i am fool....i have a family that actually loves me....don't know why it took so long to realize it....pisses me off thinking the way i did...."they don't love me....they don't even know me" i used to think...but the truth is, i hardly took the time to let them in...i was angry at everything that was happening my life...but how could i be so blind? I am my own worst enemy...don't realize that i do it...but i sabotage my own life....i screw it up.... i don't like doing it, nor is it my intention....but its all my fault....every thing i try to accomplish turns to shit in my hands....what's wrong with me? is this fear? what is this i am feeling? i don't know what it is....

Forgive me......

for those i love....im sorry that i didn't tell you....and im sorry that i didn't realize this all sooner.....you were always there for me and i took for granted....allow me to pay my debt... ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6470882/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6470882/ Sat, 10 Sep 2005 19:49:08 PDT
life has been rather tight lately....wish it wasn't like this....but i can't do much about it....i mean i have school to attend on a daily basis (most of my classes are really advanced)....i have to work 3 or 4 days out of the week and it isn't easy work....i have obligations at home (which annoys me to no end, knowing the second i get home from work i have more work.....).....then i try to plan days for band practice and they don't work out....and sadly i haven't been able to spend time with sam and her family lately, which sucks....i'd really like to be able to do that soon....*sigh*

anyways....schools been okay so far....haven't died yet, so i suppose that i am doing good.....same goes for work....i get along with my co-workers and i haven't been fired...so yeah, can't be doing too bad....

i am really hoping things lighten up a bit.....think i tried to take on too many things at once....have to slow down..... ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6412636/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6412636/ Sun, 04 Sep 2005 10:02:28 PDT
Anyways, schools about to start, kind of excited, kind of not.....which is rather confusing even to i....which makes no sense because it makes perfect sense....not sure if that made sense

miss my girlfriend (you know who you are) and wish i was currently by her side, which i am apparently not due to the fact that i am typing this notion on my Grandma's "second computer" which mind you, sucks platypus carcus...(hehe platypus...hehe)......

yeah so boredom does stuff to you and this is what i do when i am bored...which all those who know me know this already...i tend to babble on about alot of random things (whether important or not) and sometimes i annoy people out of this plague that has been cast upon me and many others now and before me....

yeah...so i have been playing my guitar more effectively....because quite honestly (despite what others may think) i think i suck at guitar.....maybe i am pessimistic but i dunno i think i could be better.....but oh well i'll get there eventually.....trying to get faster and more accurate with out it sounding like utter crap (ha...utter crap....hmm....wouldn't that be milk?....i don't know....anyways)....i really want to write a song for a certain someone but can't seem to get my thoughts on paper.....the english language doesn't have enough words.....maybe i should look into german or spanish or some other language...but that would be completely pointless because then the target would have to look up the words and the effect would be blown away....so....not going to do that.....(think, think, think darmit)...hope i come up with something soon....

yeah so....work is gay...i bus up at the big boy and let me tell you....i get more of a workout there then i ever did at the powerhouse gym (used to have a membership....i don't go anymore....nor would i have the time, knowing my priorities, being sam, family, friends, work, guitar)....anyways its not easy.....there's alot of running, alot of fast movement......although i do get free food and drinks.....

trying to figure out what i am going to do for my birthday party and such....hoping it will be at either Nick's parent's or my Grandma's house....both places have a pool table (which is fun)....however Nick's parent's house's basement (being the place we'll probably be hanging) is far bigger then my grandmother's.....but i doubt i can have it there......my grandma though....she might not mind, she's awesome....don't know though...have to wait and find out first....

so i have lost what i was going to continue my babble with....hope you enjoyed ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6407718/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6407718/ Sat, 03 Sep 2005 18:08:05 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6406058/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6406058/ Sat, 03 Sep 2005 14:04:02 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6399151/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6399151/ Fri, 02 Sep 2005 16:38:00 PDT thoughts that only wish to stay
Preventing what is needed
the sleep i can not take

My mind is in distress
hoping not to be a pest
but thoughts are plaguing my mind
too many, too much all intertwined

bit off too much that i can chew
my mind just a stitch, a brain stew ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6388614/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6388614/ Thu, 01 Sep 2005 14:27:25 PDT
got the job at Big Boy's.......

went to jamas for the first time....

school starts in 5 days.....(ha ha....wow, i am so bored that i must resort to annoying people with the same thing.....wow.........okay.....enough of that.)

went paintballing with my girlfriend and her brother.....

etc....

happy again.... ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6283796/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6283796/ Sat, 20 Aug 2005 23:04:19 PDT
tommarrow's going to be sweet....it would be my first Alice Cooper concert...and yeah....i really don't know what to write about but i thought that i would write something make sure people didn't think i was dead....(though, i know some people wouldn't care any less....as for those people, i wanted to let you know your worst dreams have come true...i am still alive)....

so blah blah blah.....thats all i got to say.....wow, im so bored.....sure you could tell......blabbering on about nonsense or otherwise information that no one will care about, so i really don't see the point in writing this journal entry....how does it feel to know that you wasted more of your life by reading into mine......

heh.... ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6272469/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6272469/ Fri, 19 Aug 2005 16:03:05 PDT
yeah......anyways.....18 more days until school.....

heh....talk to you later ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6264739/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6264739/ Thu, 18 Aug 2005 18:53:10 PDT i know that's probably getting annoying....but im really getting anxious about it.....

supposed to be going to a Alice Cooper Concert on Sunday.....really looking forward to it....

Rather tired....don't know why.... ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6252007/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6252007/ Wed, 17 Aug 2005 11:40:28 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6242187/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6242187/ Tue, 16 Aug 2005 10:17:31 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6238682/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6238682/ Mon, 15 Aug 2005 21:59:17 PDT
so bored....tired....having a hard time not sounding like a dick, right now...which is getting on my nerves.......hope it's over soon....i don't want to piss certain people off. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6236592/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6236592/ Mon, 15 Aug 2005 17:44:33 PDT .....24 more days until school!! ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6217961/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6217961/ Sat, 13 Aug 2005 16:24:13 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6199260/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6199260/ Thu, 11 Aug 2005 15:12:57 PDT

And it seems that nobody is willing to hire me for a job...its rather discouraging....like they won't even give me a chance....and i don't fully understand it....i've applied for at least 10 different places and yet not one has given me any sort of notice, even after i have checked several of them on numerous occasions.............probably won't hire me because im too unique......and if thats the case then they must be pretty damn weak....nobody is too unique for anything....PANSIES!!!!.....
damn, i hope i am at least allowed a shot soon......i need it.


anyway, really looking forward to a number of things:
(1) school (because i can see sam, everyday and don't have to worry about chapperoness.......i cherish every moment i can spend with her, especially while we're alone)
(2) Tattoo
(3) My friend and I, starting this band.
(4) Getting my truck fixed/fixed up
(5) Getting my liscense
(6) my birthday
(7) Christmas
(8) Getting my costume designed/made
(9) um.......personal things......but most important.....*shuffles feet*.....sure you know. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6152165/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6152165/ Sat, 06 Aug 2005 18:02:34 PDT
babbling again!!!! DAMNIT!!!.....lol im done......sorry i am so bored and i can't stop thinking about sam......*sigh*I'll survive somehow.... ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6127751/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6127751/ Wed, 03 Aug 2005 23:40:47 PDT
some moments you wish would never come to an end....unfortunately we can't prevent them from doing so....sad isn't it...yet im not sad, more content then anything.....but i wouldn't trade these moments for anything....because i know that there is always a possibility for more to come my way....for which i can share with the only one i can see myself spending my life with.....you know who you are........

i can't wait for school to start again....for many reasons.....some more so then others....

]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6055283/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6055283/ Thu, 28 Jul 2005 06:42:22 PDT
i don't know who bought me a subscription but i thank thee....this is kickass

]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6030531/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6030531/ Mon, 25 Jul 2005 13:07:35 PDT i love band practice....not just because i can jam but i can also hang out with a couple of my best friends and just have a blast....i don't always get that chance to do that....so i take advantage of the situation...as i do when i can see sam....but thats a different story that i am sure that you've all heard before....
anyways...i have alot of inspiration right now....and i'm trying to write music for my song "whore"...which im sure some will probably hate due to the acidic lyrics i have poured into it......but oh well.....i'm not really here to make people like my work or myself...i'm just trying to prove a point and express how i feel at certain points in my life....sorry if it becomes offensive....believe me that is not my intention...i hope all know this....
anyways i shall talk to all later..... ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6024358/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6024358/ Sun, 24 Jul 2005 20:11:53 PDT
i really hope i can see sam again soon...i savor every second i can spend with her....and i will always love her....heck if it weren't for the fact that both of our parents would make a big deal about it and the fact that im not sure how long they (being sam and her family) could handle me for that long of a time.... i'd move in...

..i'd do anything for her....even if it meant dieing.....

i hope to take her out on a date that i arrange....i don't like having her do all the work and planning....makes me feel bad because in my heart it doesn't feel right....i want to be the one to sweep her off her feet...but by my own terms....i guess that's mainly the reason i've been upset with Sam's parents (which i admit i was....not anymore but i was)...because i feel like even though its her that is being constricted by her parents, i am also in a way becoming constricted by their laws....because i feel i could be so much better of a boyfriend if i could just take her out on a date.....just me and her.....if i could spend time with her alone...i think i could be a better boyfriend.....*sigh* maybe i try too hard....i don't know......as i said many times before i would give her anything in the world if i could...but unfortunately i can't.....and i guess that sort of hurts.......

school needs to hurry up and start for a number of reasons...
(1)i can see sam everyday
(2)i get to see my friends everyday
(3)most of my classes are art based or something to that extent
(4)i can get out of my house......that has no internet *twitch*

....i feel very disoriented for some reason....i don't know why.......think maybe i'm going crazy....

shit....i forgot to remind sam about something.....and i forgot my cds again....



anywayz......sorry if i wasted your lives with my mindless babble and whining.... ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6014242/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/6014242/ Sat, 23 Jul 2005 15:51:28 PDT
when i think people are finally starting to trust me they regress.........its both irritating and heart-breaking........i don't see myself being offensive or untrustworthy......maybe i try to hard........i don't know.......i just feel like im not even given a chance and that is what tears me up inside......

she is everything to me......can't they see that.....i would die for her.....its important to me and to the relationship if i can earn there trust......but sometimes i feel like my efforts are in vain as of now.....

*sigh* i love her as she does me....why can't they accept that? ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5959781/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5959781/ Sun, 17 Jul 2005 14:32:16 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5848152/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5848152/ Tue, 05 Jul 2005 14:31:13 PDT
yeah....i just hope it comes faster then it seems like it is......time never wants to abide by a man's wishs....it always goes slow when you need it to go fast and fast when you need more time.....sad but inevitable........*sigh*....i'd give anything to have her for myself for at least a day.....and it wouldn't have to be all elaborate eather.....just holding her would be enough.....enough for me.....

sorry im sure you all know this by now.....but i feel i must put my feelings somewhere or i must just explode............. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5831204/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5831204/ Sun, 03 Jul 2005 18:10:40 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5823714/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5823714/ Sat, 02 Jul 2005 19:39:12 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5801751/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5801751/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 12:39:56 PDT
anywho.....its gonna be sweet though....i already have the design mapped out....it's going to have black denim, black cloth and crimson cloth patchs from old shirts and pants and it'll have chains and zippers and the sections will be random shapes so it isn't all blah and stuff.....

its going to be a one of a kind....mainly for stage wear but i think i might wear it more often if it turns out right. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5792547/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5792547/ Wed, 29 Jun 2005 15:14:05 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5783436/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5783436/ Tue, 28 Jun 2005 16:38:09 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5765368/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5765368/ Sun, 26 Jun 2005 19:35:12 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5737014/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5737014/ Thu, 23 Jun 2005 18:24:27 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5707120/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5707120/ Mon, 20 Jun 2005 18:23:43 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5698440/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5698440/ Sun, 19 Jun 2005 20:42:23 PDT
anywho...

hell i dunno...im so zombiefied i don't know why im even writing a journal entry. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5689410/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5689410/ Sat, 18 Jun 2005 21:16:33 PDT
i think her family likes me, seeing as how they were joking with me and what not....generally a good sign (considering that my family is the same way)......

Later on we ended up watching monte python and the holy grail and sam fell asleep in my arms.....it was a good feeling.....*sigh* i love her....don't think i could i live without her....

well yeah.....got home about an hour or so ago.....actually shed a tear due to my paranoia but i won't get into that....

until next time, later. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5678605/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5678605/ Fri, 17 Jun 2005 16:46:59 PDT
it was cool though...we got alot done today and i got to spend sometime with my sam...though...wish i could of been able to spend time with just her.... (no offense to her family, whom i actually like and respect, but you know how it is)..... really didn't want to leave, but seeing as how my mom would get all pissy and her parents would flip out i saw that i had no other option....though if i had the option to stay i would without a second thought.

oops.....forgot to remind her to show me something....oh well, there's tommarrow.....


well that's all for today.... ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5657066/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5657066/ Wed, 15 Jun 2005 14:44:07 PDT
yeah thats about all that's really new....i mean other then stuff that you peoples don't already know already. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5645225/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5645225/ Tue, 14 Jun 2005 10:10:22 PDT
anyways.....yeah i really miss her....called twice to see if i could come over but no one was home....*sigh*....i'm still going to have to try to get over there as much as i can....that is the plan.....i couldn't bear not seeing her as least twice a week....it would be too hard.

anyways (again).....yeah really bored right now....hoping my mother won't come home and bitch me out for no real good reason, like she does when she is in a bad mood.....it gets quite annoying..."you don't do anything around this house" .....yeah right!!! i do more then she does around this house.....lol well....yeah i think i am going to just sit around...maybe get something done that techniquely isn't my job...but i'll do it anyways. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5624316/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5624316/ Sun, 12 Jun 2005 04:33:48 PDT ....my love. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5619444/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5619444/ Sat, 11 Jun 2005 14:44:27 PDT



The piercing radiant moon,
The storming of poor June,
All the life running through her hair,

Approaching guiding light,
Our shallow years in fright,
Dreams are made winding through my head,

Through my head,
Before you know, Awake,

Your lives are open wide,
The V-chip gives them sight,
All the life running through her hair,

The spiders all in tune,
The evening of the moon,
Dreams are made winding through my head,

Through my head,
Before you know, Awake

(SOLO)

Through my head,
Before you know,
Before you know I will be waiting all awake,

Dreams are made winding through her hair,
Dreams are made winding through her hair. ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5617207/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5617207/ Sat, 11 Jun 2005 09:44:41 PDT ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5607405/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5607405/ Fri, 10 Jun 2005 08:23:17 PDT .....i am going to miss her so badly....i think i'm going to cry.... ]]> ~ProblemChild87 http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5588841/ http://ProblemChild87.deviantart.com/journal/5588841/ Wed, 08 Jun 2005 12:09:17 PDT ~ProblemChild87