http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Psychomessiahs&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Psychomessiahs en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 11 Dec 2009 10:16:28 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/23587441/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/23587441/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 08:02:41 PDT Also my heart has been broken this morning.
Anyway, ill fulfil my duty in featuring, those two that are in the list and then ill go away.
Hover mouse over link for a explanation why I chose that one.

1. =Appiie

Sin

Sternchen

Estelle

2. =darkkana

Landscape

Dragon

Dragon Fly

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I spent my
whole life
In love with despair
Kept my lungs full
With the breath of thier
Mute atmosphere
I became
What I hate
And thus
Shall I remain
To give birth to a
Mighty assasin
Armed with a weapon of words
To defy the lies
To never compromise
No
Today
My name
Is pain

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/23427507/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/23427507/ Fri, 27 Feb 2009 04:43:06 PST In return, those Deviants featured will have to create their own Journal placing me in the first slot, for a total of 15 features!

1. =Appiie

2. *darkkana

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(Never in hell will I fill all slots..)

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/22795831/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/22795831/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 04:56:04 PST
Put an x in Every box that applies to you then add them up, and that's your age!

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own a credit card
[x] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You' ve done your own laundry
[x] You can vote in an election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[x] You think politics are exciting

TOTAL:7

[x] You show up for school late a lot for classes
[x] You always carry a pen in your bag/ purse / pocket
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once
[x] You like to take walks by yourself
[x] You know what credibility means , without looking it up
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week

TOTAL: 12

[x] You know how to do the dishes
[x] You can count to 10 in another language
[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[x] You can mow the lawn
[x] You study / do important work when you have to
[x] You have/ hand washed a car before

TOTAL: 18

[x] You can spell experience without looking it up
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[x] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[x] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type pretty quick

TOTAL: 23

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[x] You have been to the beach
[x] You use the internet every day
[x] You have been outside of the united states 1 or more times
[x] You make your own bed.
TOTAL: 27

:/ lol

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/21294087/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/21294087/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 03:53:46 PST And still you'll cry
To be back in her bosom
To do it again
She'll make you weep
And moan and cry
To be back in her bosom
To do it again
Pray! - 'Til I go blind
Pray! - 'Cause nobody ever survives
Praying to stay in your arms just until I can die a little bit longer
Saviors and saints
Devils and heathens alike
She'll eat you alive

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/19824495/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/19824495/ Thu, 07 Aug 2008 09:54:14 PDT It's so goddamn hot here.. I am bathed in sweat from simply sitting around, let alone moving.
The time I spent home I spent making videos for youtube and getting to know blogtv. I have met a few pretty cool people there. But still I am not really happy. I guess it's just a stress thing, but I just feel.. weird. I can't really explain it. I feel like I miss something, though I couldn't put the finger on what it is I am missing.
And I want that feeling to go away.

Oh, and I somehow feel ditched. But again I cant really say why.

My highlight of the week: I ate a donut today.
hurray.

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/19609459/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/19609459/ Sat, 26 Jul 2008 15:46:34 PDT Ich vermisse mein Leben.

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]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/19175285/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/19175285/ Wed, 02 Jul 2008 23:24:03 PDT For the coming days until monday I will be at the With Full Force Festival in Leipzig [link]
I will be far away from any computer and so I can't answer any messages, obviously.
I really hope that vigorously banging my head repeatedly to Six Feet Under will make it go empty. I could use an empty head, it's been way too full for a long time.
Alright, I will be missing all of you.
KTHXBYE

*sigh*

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]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/19019379/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/19019379/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 11:53:41 PDT Andreas Marcello Puhl

2) Male/Female:
Very male

3) Were you named after anyone?:
The Marcello-bit derives from the movie "Marcellino, Pan et Vino" Ugh..

4) Does your name mean anything?:
Andreas come from the greek Andro, Ander meaning "A man", so Andreas means "One who is very manly", Marcello as far as I know derives from the roman god of war Mars and Puhl comes from ancient german Pful meaning Pond or small Lake. SO BEWARE: The manly god of war from the pond is coming to kick your ass

5) Nick Name(s):
None in real life, some (luckily very few) call me "Andi". (those looking for a punch in their face even "Andy")
In Internet use are "Psychomessiahs" and "Voidmage".
Oh.. and then there is "Undies".

6) What do you think you look like:
Rather short, rather skinny, long haired, bla..

7) Date Of Birth:
September 22, 1988

8) Place of Birth and Current Location:
I was born in Frankfurt am Main, and I now live in Hattersheim, both in Hessen, Germany.

9) Nationality:
German.

10) Astrology Sign:
Virgo.

11) Chinese Astrology Sign:
Dragon.

12) Religion:
I refuse to call atheism a religion, so: none.

13) What’s your favorite smell?:
Old Paper, Earth, Cinnamon.. generally smells that one could describe as "brown".

14) Political Position?:
Socialist.

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?:
Well if i have enough time, then coffee (1 spoon of sugar and a drip of milk), though school usually doesnt give me that time.

16) Hair + Eye color:
My eyes are sorta blueish, but the colour seems to change from blue to grey and back every now and then. My hair has been bright blonde when i was younger and darkened up over the years, now its a sort of dirty brown.

17) Do you look like anyone famous?:
I for sure can't judge that and no one ever compared me to anyone, so I guess: no.

18) What do you look like?:
Erm? Copy, Paste Error? See Question 6).

19) Any unusual talents?:
I can play Devil Stick which is kind of unusual, and I have a weird memory. I forget certain things like dates of exams in no time, but if I hear something like a show of a standup comedian or a funny movie, I can recite them by heart even years later.

20) Rightly, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?:
I am right handed, if that is what the question refers to, but I use my left hand a lot aswell.

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?:
Straight. I have never felt anything for any man that could be compared to what I feel for women.

22) What do you do for a living?:
Still going to school. After the summer vacation I'll be in 13th grade which is the last one prior to the university. I want to study archeology.

23) What do you do for fun?:
I mainly play music, listen to music, play computer games, get drunken and have discussions with verious people in my spare time. But do A LOT other stuff aswell.

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?:
ATM I'd say my 4B pencil, but when I was younger I really enjoyed sculpting with clay and the likes. But I cant afford that anymore.

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?:
Oil colours (never had a teacher) and stone sculpting are what I would like to do the most.

26) Have you met your grandparents?
Both my grandmothers are still alive and I meet them regularly, but both my granddads died before I was old enough to care. (one died of brain cancer, the other of parkinson - and both are genetically transmittive, so hurray :/ )

27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend:
*sighhh*

28) Crush:


29) What celebrity would you date if you could?:
None.

30) Current worries?:
Paying for the music festival me and friend are going to go to in 2 weeks, a friend of mine who is in love with me and I dont love her back and my own pity heart.

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s):
Ooph, thats a lot. If I was to choose a single person than that would be Appiie for obvious reasons, but I know a lot people on the inturnetz that I consider good friends, so I cant really answer this question.

32) Favorite place to be?:
I want to be where she is..

33) Least favorite place to be?:
Here.

34) Do you burn or tan?:
Burn. I even have a predisposition for skin cancer, so I stay out of the sun at most times.

35) Ever break a bone?:
When I was a baby I broke my collar bone, but other than taht, nope.

36) What is your favorite cereal?:
Cini Minis ftw [link]
But I dont really eat cerea... ]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18915446/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18915446/ Wed, 18 Jun 2008 16:14:38 PDT
]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18804140/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18804140/ Thu, 12 Jun 2008 14:29:06 PDT [link] and found it funny, so I stole it

RULES: Go to google and type in your first name and the phrase. Copy and paste the first sentence/phrase you get that makes sense.

Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search.
A: Andreas needs 3 hands to fly

- wtf?



Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search.
A: Andreas looks like a sissie throughout the whole game

- ;D


Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search.
A: andreas Says: Februar 14th, 2006 at 2202. und wo sind die Bilder?

-"And where are the pictures." Yes, where are they?!


Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search.
A: Andreas wants you to help her make it through the night

-Yes, please. Though that "her" is a bit irritating. Andreas is a male name damnit.


Q: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search.
A: Andreas does a varied series of workout sets using a Universal machine

-Ermm no.. just no.


Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search.
A: Andreas hates the idea of boarding with girls

-Hahaha exactly, Fuck you girls.


Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search.
A: Andreas asks if INFN can set up a web page giving describing its test results.

-Questinable grammar and a cryptic meaning. wtf?


Q: Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search.
A: Andreas goes spicegirls.

-Does that even make sense?


Q: Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search.
A: Andreas likes to write music, play computer games and watch movies.

-Haha, so true.


Q: Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search.
A: Andreas eats whenever he wants, and eats more whenever he wants that.

-Well, who doesnt?


Q: Type in "[your name] wears " in Google search.
A: Andreas wears new Superman costume to Elisa and Richard's for Christmas dinner.

-I dont know them, but damn - if I knew them, I would do that! ^__^


Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search.
A: Andreas was arrested for anti-religious harassment.

-That sounds like me >_<

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18413660/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18413660/ Tue, 20 May 2008 11:19:36 PDT My head is somehow out of it, like my engine is only running half its cylinders. ...


I miss her.
Can't I have a slap to my face please so that I wake up?

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18196844/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18196844/ Tue, 06 May 2008 13:36:08 PDT It's okay.
Dry your eye.
Soulmate, dry your eye.
Cause soulmates never die.

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18165529/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18165529/ Sun, 04 May 2008 13:34:45 PDT I cant, but I need to pretend and keep up one of my many masks. So I glued one to my face pretending so well I even prentended to those that actually care for my real me. And I apologize to each and everyone I lied to.
Well, one thing my absence and the thinking had as result is a new clearity I have. I know now for sure that I cant be. And that I have to ceise to exist.
Or better to say: That what is me cant be. I have to mutate, be reborn or get washed away in some way but what I am now can not be.
Not anymore.
I am housing in ruins of a collapsed house, the scent of mildewed cake everywhere.
At least when I dream or when I am drunk my inner eye catches the sun again that shines though a window, at least then the empty room is filled with that giggle again that for ever will be etched in my head.
I cant dream forever, and I cant drink forever.
..or can I

*places the mask back to his ravaged face*

In other words:
Im back, everyone! I had a great time, how are you all. Lets sing a happy song!

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18103076/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18103076/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 14:31:18 PDT With houses made of cake
My life has lost it's substance
No fear I might awake." (Taken from my poem 'dream' )

I will put my life on pause for a while, no internet, no television, no telefone, no nothing. I need a break of this all and so I simply run away from me.
Just so no one wonders why I dont answer messages or anything.
Bye everyone

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]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18053109/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/18053109/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 11:01:48 PDT But now the sky is faded and its burnt around the edges.
From this lawn all crisp and yellow where I lie
I should have known not to seal up my mouth and leave it alone.
But now I scream across this gap, across this endless space
Cause you blessed me girl,
Then you robbed me of my fragile world.
And I miss you, girl, more then anything in the world

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/17946264/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/17946264/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 14:54:47 PDT I shouldnt feel this way, but I do.
Seignories offer land to vassals in exchange for military service but all I can think about is her face. *sigh* I wish this phase she's in would be over soon, but something tells me it wont be. I need to brace myself now, I promised to.
I promised to.

Spiritus quidem promptus est caro autem infirma (Mt 26,41)

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/17924518/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/17924518/ Sat, 19 Apr 2008 08:47:49 PDT 1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you



1. The age you will be on your next birthday:
[link]

2. A place you'd like to travel:
[link]

3. Your favorite place:
[link]

4. Your favorite object:
[link]

5. Favorite food:
[link]

6. Your favorite animal:
[link]

7. Your favorite color:
[link]

8. The town/state/etc in which you live:
[link]

9. Name of past pet:
[link]

10. A dream come true:
[link]

11. Your nickname/screenname:
[link]

12. Middle name:
[link]

13. Favorite Smell:
[link]

14. Bad habit of yours:
[link]

15. Your first job:
[link]

16. Favourite Movie:
[link]

17. What are you doing right now?
[link]

18. Whats The Weather Like?
[link]

19. Favourite Sport:
[link]

20. Favourite Music/Style/Band:
[link]

..am still bored.

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/17859882/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/17859882/ Tue, 15 Apr 2008 05:50:27 PDT
Allways I will be.

Less than B

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/17719009/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/17719009/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 16:28:40 PDT 1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5.Put this on your journal.


1.If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Hatebreed - Proven

2.How would you describe yourself?
The Dubliners - Sam Hall (lol)

3.What do you like in a girl?
Tenacious D - Tianamen Square

4.How do you feel today?
Sonata Arctica - Still Loving You (wow, that makes sense)

5.What is your life's purpose?
Muddasheep - Wishful Thinking March Remix

6.What is your motto?
Sonata Arctica - Kingdom For a Heart live in Osaka

7.What do your friends think of you?
Silent Hill 3 OST - I Want Love Studio Mix

8.What do you think of your parents?
The Ramones - Substitute (hahahaha)

9.What do you think about very often?
Type 0 Negative - thir13teen

10.What is 2 + 2?
Farin Urlaub - Das schöne Mädchen

11.What do you think of your best friend?
Six Feet Under - Ugly (HAHAHAH)

12.What do you think of the person you like?
Apocalyptica - Quutamo

13.What is your life story?
RHCP - Throw Away your Television (its true )

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
Otis Redding - Tennessee Waltz

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Procol Harum - A whiter shade of pale

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
Debauchery - Take my Pain (Death Metal Wedding :3)

17.What will they play at your funeral?
Jethro Tull - To Cry you a Song (No bad idea, actually)

18.What is your hobby/interest?
Sick of it All - Call to Arms

19.What is your biggest fear?
Biffy Clyro - The Conversation is... (8O so true!)

20.What is your biggest secret?
System of a Down - Psycho

21.What do you think of your friends?
Nirvana - Sliver

22.What will you post this as?
Nine Inch Nails - The Wretched

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]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/17273395/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/17273395/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 15:17:41 PDT I was laying in my bed on my left side and read in a book with a flashlight. I finished the chapter, switched off the flashlight and closed the book. Then I realised my love was laying in front of me sleeping. She was on her right side and our faces were less than a feet away from each other. I heard her calm and soft breath and then I gently stroke her lower lip once with my thumb. She quitely munched a few times and then said sleeping: "No, not green. The door is on the outhouse."

I have no idea what to make of that ^^ But it was a really vivid dream and its pleasing to remember that feeling of her so close next to me.

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/16669640/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/16669640/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 06:17:00 PST My emotions are like a storm deep inside me
I don't want to feel, but it's so fucking real
This shit is back again and it's killing me

I want to tell you, but I can not explain
In my words selfish, uncontrollable rage
I feel the fear, I feel the hate
And I feel I am going insane

Look at me, I hit the bottom
I'm out of my mind, I lose the control
Give me something, the pain is killing me
You are my shelter, you are my shelter

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/16504045/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/16504045/ Mon, 21 Jan 2008 11:11:17 PST [link]) last Journal idea. <.< Though unlike her I CAN sleep and I even have to because I am curently on an internship that requires me to get up at 5:30am -_- I cant do anything lately because I spend all my time on the train, on the intern or in my bed.
I feel shitty = tired and I wish I could log into MSN but I fear I wouldnt be able to log off in time T_T.. All I can do is holding on, a weekend is going to come ^^

1. What exactly are you wearing right now?
Mudstained jeans (i'm having my intern at an archeologist) and a red longsleeved shirt. socks (2 of them)

2. What is your current problem?
Tired as fuck.

3. What makes you most happy?
Apples do.

4. If you could go back in time, and change something, what would it be?
I would stop me from being able to go back in time resulting in me never having been able to change time but still doing so = system crash of our universe's OS.

5. Ever have a near death experience?
Several times. I had a habit of jumping into deep water when I was too young to know how to swin. Stupid me.

6. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
No song right now. Just the CPU fan noise.

7. Any celeb you would marry?
Olol?

8. Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Hans Scholl, member of the white rose resistance movement against Adolf Hitler.
Oh and Wolfgang Petry, which is giving me the creeps.

9. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
No.

10. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
I hate Starbucks. Never been there, never will be.

11. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
Yep ^^

12. Are you comfortable with your height?
No <.<

13. What magazines do you read?
None, only Newspapers.

14. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
No.

15. Has anyone you're really close with passed away?
Two Grandfathers but I didnt know any of them really well.

16. Do you ever watch MTV?
Never.

17. Do you ever watch MuchMusic?
What is that?

18. What's something that really annoys you?
Atm? My lack of sleep.

19. Current location:
My desk, my room, Hattersheim, Hessen, Germany, Europe, Planet Earth.

20. Hair length:
They reach my shoulders

21. Eye color:
Blue/Grey

22. Do you live with your parents:
With one of them.

23. Do you get along with your parents:
No, not really.

24. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?:
Divorced.

25. What pets do you have?:
2 cats and 3 mice.

26. FAVORITE City:
Büdingen. Its where I grew up.

27. Ice cream flavor:
Apple with cinnamon...

28. Season?:
Autumn

29. Most amazing thing you have ever seen:
Idk

Do you..

1. Sing in the shower?:
No, too tired. I shower in the morning.

2. Write memos on your hand?:
Yes always ^^

3. Call people back?:
?

4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
I have a single mattrass bed.

5. Wear glasses or contacts?:
No and no.

6. Have any bad habits:
I'm sure I do

7. bite people:
Never did

8. smell bad ever:
I ..hope not ^^

9. wear skanky undies:
Im male, I dont need to worry about fancy underware. -I hope

10. like cheesy movie:
Yes.

Have you ever...

1. Worn braces?:
No, luckily I was one of those kids that didnt have to.

2. Broken a bone?:
Yes, my clavicle when I was a baby.

3. Shoplifted?
No

4. Taken painkillers?:
No.

5. Gone SCUBA diving?:
No.

6. Been stung by a jellyfish?:
Yes! It was terrible. like a wasp only 10 times worse.

7. Been stung by a bee?:
No.

8. Slept with your contacts in over night?:
Since I dont wear any ...

9. Thrown up in a restaurant?:
Haha no, should try that!

10. Been to overnight camp?:
What is that?

11. Sworn in front of your parents?:
Fuck yes.

12. Had detention?:
Many times.

13. Been sent to the principal's office?:
Yes, that happened sometimes.

14. Been called a bitch?:
Erm, no.

15. Been called a hoe?:
No.

Last...

1. Person to call you?
Havent had a call in like a half year.

2. Three people you recently hugged?:
No hugs for me recent... ]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/15574559/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/15574559/ Mon, 19 Nov 2007 09:50:55 PST I guess I will be done with the ritual by next monday, which means my account will be officially active again.
Lets all rejoice and hail the new times to come, lawl.
_____________________________________
Arrows fester in my heart
Each memory another dart
Love and death both colored red
Showing my past, the dream is dead

]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/13071669/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/13071669/ Thu, 24 May 2007 04:31:50 PDT

I´m leaving dA, my account is expiring and I wont subscribe again. Thanks all of you for the inspiration and support you gave me since I created my Account on Feb 06 2004.
As I am sure no one is going to read this, no one is going to ask why, but I write it nevertheless.
The first and least important reason is that I somehow didnt manage to get in touch with friends in dA, have a look at the views per picture and yu will understand what I mean. The second reason is that my artistic work doesnt limit itself to computer graphics, better to say they are but a marginal piece of it. And since my scanner broke I am not in a position to share my non cg-work with anyone anymore. Also I am more into writing poems and music lately, poems in german of course, something dA does not offer a platform for.
The third and most important reason is that dA and everything related to it reminds me of a certain deviant I am not allowed to be around anymore, and even the slightest glimpse .. erm aches, no matter how emo that may sound. Hell, I even have this deviants deviation on my frontpage where there used to be
Maybe I will revive this account in the future. It is very unlikely though. Until then, all of you be blessed and have a wonderful life.
Over and Out.

PS: If you go out and meet a moose, you better feed it sugar.

Ich habe dich stets vergöttert. Scheinbar habe ich dem Teufel gelauscht.

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Arrows fester in my heart
Each memory another dart
Love and death both colored red
Showing my past, the dream is dead ]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/12491780/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/12491780/ Sat, 07 Apr 2007 04:16:55 PDT

I have been very ill the last days. Some kind of liver desease. Maybe it was(/is!?) even some sort of hepatitis, the results from my blood test arent back yet.. I feel better now, but the last days were pretty much dominated by pain.
No matter how "unpleasent" the last days were they gave me the break I needed to think. Think about me, my life, my views on everything. Oh, unrelated things like timetravel or the nonexistance of coincidences aswell.
Some of my views changed, about some I even became surer.
I feel like a different person.
A very good .. friend of mine once told me never to regret anything, but I do regret a lot. I did many mistakes and caused a many unhappy moments. I see clearly about that now and I know what I did wrong, I think I even know why.
I hope this time I had will be a lesson for me, for my future life and I wish for everyone of you to have a similar time. Time just for YOU yourself to think about your life. (I´m not talking about carrear, money, education...) Im talking about your soul.
Soul.
I wish for all of you to feel the same rebirth that I did.
Namaste

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Arrows fester in my heart
Each memory another dart
Love and death both colored red
Showing my past, the dream is dead ]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/12065050/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/12065050/ Mon, 05 Mar 2007 09:15:49 PST

TYPE YOUR FIRST NAME WITH YOUR...

1.FINGERS: andreas
2.CHIN: ay 3.ONE FINGER, EYES CLOSED: anfreas
4.ELBOW: as cxfddssasd
5.NOSE: qj5reaqsw
6.PALM: x BMSDVBGFAXC


1.) List Four fandoms you have.
- Music
- Cats
- Mtg
- Apples

2.) Have you ever slept in the back of a car?
-Yes I did <.<, weird question.

3.) Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?
- I didnt mind cutting my hair for years.

4.) List four people that you look up to the most.

- Shavo
- Karl Marx
- Rosa Luxemburg
- Trent Reznor


5.) How many pets do you own as of now?
- 2 Cats that have no names and 2 mice

6.) Which do you prefer white or black?
- Black

7.) Who is your most played character?
- Kagenami (enFlyff.Mia.2), Gordon Freeman

8.) Choose one or the other, not both:
-Being stuck on an island with your best friend
-Being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances

~I´ll always prefer a good friend to acquaintances

9.) Name three aspects that tell who you are.
-Sarkastic
-Tired
-Thoughtful

10.) If you could have a power what would it be?
- The Power to bend the time. *_* You know, like timestop, fast forward and such XD

11.) Who was the last person you talked to?
- My cat

12.) Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
- *cough*

13.) Write down the first five words that pop into your mind
simpsons
beer
ice tea
granola
apples

14.) What's one thing you wish you could do better?
I wish my english was better. There are so many things I wish I could express in english but I cant.

15.) Do you like the way you are?
Depends.

16.) Choose, Summer or Winter:
Winter

17.) Choose, Rain or snow:
Rain

18.) Water or ice?
Ice

19.) List two odd things about yourself:

1) I hate to be predictable. That goes even so far, that I sometimes do things that make no sense, just to stay "mysterious" lol
2) I never wear two socks that are the same. (not intended btw)


20.) Now tag 6 people who should do this quiz:
~Appiie ~ProletarioX ~tenshiyami ~marlylubsaxel ~MHKK ~OmenRider

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Arrows fester in my heart
Each memory another dart
Love and death both colored red
Showing my past, the dream is dead ]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/11913999/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/11913999/ Wed, 21 Feb 2007 20:17:38 PST

Werde ich langsam wahnsinnig? Ich bin mir nicht sicher, aber es scheint so, als würde ich den Boden unter den Füßen verlieren. Was ist los mir ihr? Warum antwortet sie nicht?
Na wenigstens weiß ich jetzt, dass sie noch lebt.
Hat sich einer von den 0 Personen, die die Zeilen lesen, je gefragt, wie es wäre, wenn eine Internet-Bekanntschaft stirbt? Das würdest du nur hersausfinden, weil sie von heute ab nicht mehr online kommt. Vermutlich würdest du es nicht im Fernseher, auch nicht im Radio erfahren. Die Person wäre einfach weg. Wie lange würdest du noch deinen leeren Email Account ansschauen? Wie lange würdest du dich in Onlinegames einloggen in der Hoffnung sie wiederzusehen? Wie oft MSN laufen lassen?
Das Internet ist ein paradoxer Ort. Du siehst du perfekte Welt, Du siehst perfekte Farben und Menschen. Menschen auf der ganzen Welt. Aber wenn du die Hand ausstreckst, um etwas in dieser Welt zu greifen, siehst du, wie kaputt sie ist.
Ich konnte sie täglich sehen, doch mit einem Mal war sie weg. Und dieser höllische Scheinwelt, die das Internet bietet, gab mir keine Möglichkeit herauszufinden was los war.
Internet, ich verfluche dich.

Und ist es ein Zufall, dass ich sie am 14.Januar in mein Leben trat und am 14.Februar wieder verschwand?

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Arrows fester in my heart
Each memory another dart
Love and death both colored red
Showing my past, the dream is dead ]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/11763339/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/11763339/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 17:21:18 PST

Well last week I asked you to find out what this:

is. Im sad, I have to say no one guessed it correctly.

Here is the solution:
[link]" /

Its a satellite dish. The picture is taken from my rooftop.

Well I understand that the game idea was stupid, so I wont continue it.

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Arrows fester in my heart
Each memory another dart
Love and death both colored red
Showing my past, the dream is dead ]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/11586493/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/11586493/ Sun, 28 Jan 2007 17:24:19 PST

I just subscribed to DeviantArt so fear my new gained invincible power of HTML usage!

Well I´d like to start off into my new life with a game. ^^ I display a picture that is a close up of something and you guess what it is. XD The winner gets err.. I dont know yet. Lets just say: A PRICE! *cough*

Ok here we go:


ok, it is a tough one. You have time until next saturday ^^

Edit: Ok, this game is too hard. I change the rules You ask Questions, and I answer with yes or no.

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Arrows fester in my heart
Each memory another dart
Love and death both colored red
Showing my past, the dream is dead ]]> ~Psychomessiahs http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/11531685/ http://Psychomessiahs.deviantart.com/journal/11531685/ Mon, 22 Jan 2007 15:31:42 PST

This is my first Journal Entry. I always wanted to have a Journal, but I never had anything worth writing.
Well I still dont have anything.

I´m eating cereals.

With milk.


Bye

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Arrows fester in my heart
Each memory another dart
Love and death both colored red
Showing my past, the dream is dead ]]> ~Psychomessiahs