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deviantART: by:QuartzFire http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:QuartzFire&section=today deviantART RSS for by:QuartzFire en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 19 Dec 2009 00:40:10 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Its so been awhile! http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/27795089/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/27795089/ Fri, 16 Oct 2009 10:19:21 PDT

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Like TWO months and a half! oy -_-;
but well, I'm back again! but I don;t know how much I'll be contributing line art. life just got hectic all the sudden and.yeah

though I have been busy with other projects. the main reason i haven;t been on ( aside from being tired and lazy

) is because i am performing in a play called "masque dei mortus " by slave of the muse productions so its been practice...yeah I don;t think i need to continue on

and work....work has been really pain in ass. but hey! i'm back! an I do have some new art to share..rather a doodle here and there

and wow, I've got ALOT of catching up to do! 0.0 everyone has been so busy with some great stuff! and i'll get the comments hopefully finished when i get more time.
but for now, i gotta practice!
later~

]]> *QuartzFire @_@ orz cont... http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/26366005/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/26366005/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 18:52:12 PDT

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hello everybody, again its been awhile

I haven't been on at all due to feeling really really crappy. but I did want those who cared and were curious to know that I'm alive, just getting my ass kicked by hormones

so I;m going to be off of here for a little bit longer until I get that under control. thanks for all the faves!

its been awesome! hope everyone's doin well and I'll bother y'all sometime soon!
Meg
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wel, crappy feelings are out the window, its all around

ultimate crap, I caught the flu from work, no not the pig flu lol, but the average joe we can all expect flu, I'm getting over it thankfully, just have a mild caught and sore throat. however I'm kind of laughing at the irony, I catch the flu and my hormones go back to normal, so yay! I'm female month bleeding AND sick! this so is not my month

so, aside from the negatives my vacation is coming up next week! whoo california ocean here we come! I'll hopefully be well enough not to catch something else while I'm up there, that'd so suck!
anyway I'm doing better, just taking it easy, so i'll talk to you all soon!
thanks for the watches, veiws and comments!

]]> *QuartzFire sigh, another cat loose http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/25876024/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/25876024/ Sat, 11 Jul 2009 08:34:22 PDT

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I can't tell you how annoying and how absolutly nerve wracking it is when one of your cats gets outside in Nevada heat with maybe no food and some water availability ( fixed that hopefully) my littlest one, socks got out three days ago, and last night on the way home we spotted him in front our neighbors parked car! well in jubilation I got out and went to go get him. he recognized me but didn't and slowly went to retreit, and when I tried to catch ahold of him he just up and ran!...saw him a second time because again I was overly worried and wanted him in so bad..scared him off again..sadly the second time it took me to learn to leave him be, he;s trying to get home and is on instinct mode. so i cracked the garage open this morning and left food and water and a blanket that smell slike us, the other cats and the house. so maybe when we get home i can close it each night and look for him that way. if it seems all else fails, I'm hoping to get the pound's help, he has a microchip so its not like he will be there long, they will call us, and it seems like more of a proper way to get ahold of a skittish cat. needless to say this is so frustrating

in another event I finally got some inspiration and drew and COLORED even, something for my girl

's upcoming birthday. and since I've sent her the image first ( hopefully she has seen it before now lol ) so I think I can share with you guys and get the dust off of this gallery slump

anyway, I have to run off again, breakfast and friends babyshower await

]]> *QuartzFire boo boop de boop http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/25627946/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/25627946/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 11:46:40 PDT

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or something like that

so a few things are up and running. para-petshop is going off to a semi decent start, maybe even less than that. but my friends and I are starting to get a decent hold on it, so hopefully it will be up to parr here real soon

In other exciting news! a deviant who is awesome at coloring found one of my line arts and asked to color it! I was so very flattered and stoked someone wanted to do anything WITH my line art! I've never had that happen before! ( at least legally lol ) so I'm goin to show her alot of love!

here she is!

and her lovely color work of my sexy paladin Ametra![link] her out while your at it too!

in other news, I've been having one heck of a month! gastric infection, temporary room mate driving me nuts! ( 12 more days!) work pulling more nonsense than nessisary in anyones one life oh, and my period is a day later, and nope, its not stress! I meditate each night and I am the type to let things roll off my back, so everyone keep your fingers crossed for me and say a little prayer

and if it happens to be just a late schedualed present from aunt flo, i'll..well..lol I'll let you know wether its preggers or not

still no arts, been far too busy to sit down to get anything good out, hopefully some time soon though!

]]> *QuartzFire Update :6/17 http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/25370228/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/25370228/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 10:00:16 PDT

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Soo, I'm feeling tons better! the stomach flu or gastral infection is gone!

so today I am going in for some scheduled pain, my tattoo's going on today at 4 in the afternoon my time

I'm sure it won;t be too unbearable if i can take a damn hormone shot with a needle long enough to make me tear by just looking at it, I can take a tattoo

That and some wonderful friends have offered me some numbing agent to make it even smoother of a time for the first part! one of them used to be a tattoo artist so I'm very happy and indebted for sure!

and tomorrow I'm heading off to chippendales (with my mom

) and a buffet I won off a radio station..funny, i've lived in vegas (now henderson area) for 19 years, and all I win out of all those years is a show to chippendales...couldn;t I get nickleback tickets for once?

naw realy, its ok, mom needs a pick me up anyway

so that said I'm going to be a bit busy this weekend, so expect some interesting journals sometime after~
-Meg

]]> *QuartzFire Ahem * breaks out into dance* http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/25263440/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/25263440/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 21:50:17 PDT

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My Tattoo is finished at last!! well almost, she needs to add the feet, she and I don't get why people have issues with raptor birds having feet which was why she didn't put on the talons, but I'll be weird and cool, I'll have the feet

so the 17th I go in to get it slapped on, going to be about three hours max, so I think I can handle sitting that long, and for a decent price too! the next update will be with photo goodness~
aside from that, not a whole lot going on, still dealing with loudness, but not as often, and apparantly it was told to me I offended her boyfriend because I didn't want him in my house if nobody was home for four hours, the whole " just cause i'm black and they think I'll steal something" um, no, last I checked we were not racist and this was OUR house with a person in it that we do not know, to do what they pleased. but eh

I don;t care, I won;t have that issue as far as I'm concerned
anyway more later, I have eyes behind me, oi

]]> *QuartzFire GRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/25190224/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/25190224/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 01:41:22 PDT

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My nerves are so rattled I can;t even describe how bitchy I have become! I held my tounge on the para-petshop page, las tthing I want to do is spam them MORE than they already have! poor guys, but more so, POOR ME! it is my fault however..*sigh* i'll get into that in a second, but first the back story.
i'm letting a co worker stay in my house for a month and two weeks so she could have a place to stay before she drives out all the way to chicago for her transfer. she is not paying rent ( I didn;t want any of that whole " well I'm paying" fiasco, learned and burned on that one before already) and I do not have the hear tto say "pack your things and head out" regarding these probably petty issues, but please keep in mind, I work with this person, she is under my roof now and I don;t get any privacy anymore! hell even browsing for art on here she;s on my shoulders!
my main beefs are 1. she wrecked my second page to the comic I am working on! delaying all the more the update

2.she is SUPER LOUD!!!! in the same room I get a headache, she uses an outdoor voice indoors for no reason..granted that is how she is but..just...ug.
3 I can't draw around her, aside from the loudness and the non stop talking and opinions of everything, I just cannot concentrate, even in my own bedroom, i can hear her through the walls as if she is next to me...again my own fault..but I've no one to really really vent to and I'd rather not blow up at my husband..thats just not nice

4. I can't do tarot or divination or even meditations, same reasons above.
5. she interjects me when talking to anyone...

and now i feel I am whining, but really, this is how I feel and I'm just enraged at the moment, and a little scared, not of her though, not to worry, I'll just have to work it out or say " hey, if you can;t just give me space and quiet down, you need to go elsewhere"
But tonight I found out ( via husband) that my back molar is brown..i haven;t seen the dentist in awhile, so I had no idea what that meant, i looked it up and it turns out..its dead and needs to be pulled before abscess or root canal is needed. THEN on top of that my co worker proceeds to tell me I should get my fillings taken out and replaced, when I asked why she told me they contain murcury and over time release it into the body, so now that has me wondering if that in any way contributed to me losing my baby..so yeah, i'm not in a happy place right now, and i hope to god what she said isn;t true and her dentist was just trying to make more money...*sigh* I'm gonna go curl up and sleep now..aie vei

]]> *QuartzFire *yawn* http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/25118004/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/25118004/ Thu, 04 Jun 2009 01:41:59 PDT

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oy, did I have a busy day. not that shopping is a chore

If anyone is visiting vegas, I highly recommend the town square mall for shopping, it has everything and its huge! that and its relaxing to walk around in an outside mall

not to be mistaken for the premium outlet mall however

that and the fashion show mall doesn't have a hi-def theatre either

but speaking of movies, I FINALLY saw slum dog millionaire, and i'll agree with the fact they deserved EVERY winnings they got! its a wonderful movie

and as for the tattoo, well I have to check back again next wednesday, it wasn;t fully ready to be viewed yet, which is fine because I would rather them take their time and do a good job the first time around

but fingers crossed its a good'n!
sorry for the spammage of journals, I didn;t have time to sit down and get anything art like out * unless you call getting buzzed and breaking out into an irish accent at lunch artistic

* althought I did pick up a book for dummies on html, css and xhtml...its gonna be interesting

tomorrow I have alot of time, so its primarily going to be dedicated to the next page for para-petshop and cleaning....if only cleaning sucked literally would it ever get done at all

though I do have one worry on my mind, and for you fellas you might wanna skip this part, otherwise ladies who have had experience, I kinda need your help. my period is 4 days late now, I'm not pregnant and I'm a bit worried if its a big concern. anything would be appreciated

take care y'all and have a good night!

]]> *QuartzFire Tattoo's and comic news http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24984457/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24984457/ Thu, 28 May 2009 15:16:00 PDT

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hey
And the first page is up as of around 12:40 last night. I'm not too happy with it due to how..well you'll see, I plan on fixing it once i can find my tablet. The big reason being that it is plain like it is, is because I found my dogs chewing up my ink/shade marker pens ( and this morning I find other shit chewed up) so I have to see about replacing those

but if you still want to see it by all means go ahead

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its been revamped, go check it out!

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]]> *QuartzFire Eventful update http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24518089/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24518089/ Mon, 11 May 2009 17:23:19 PDT

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Art wise things have been stagnant, though alot of productivity fleshing out details for the comic of paranormal pet shop

I'm still fleshing out details and thinking of what other elements need to be covered. but when I'm not doing such things, I'm working on the house. despite losing the babe we've started working on the nursury with alot more verve and creative on slought that all that is left to do is install the wood floor and sliding mirror doors

Though granted my husband has been doing all this work, I've been cleaning and working on my paranormal interests. and on another note, to all the husbands out there who have never installed a ceiling fan, TURN OFF THE BREAKER, and if you happen to zap yourself, DO NOT TELL YOUR WIFE! we'd rather not know you almost electrocuted yourself

the next room to be worked on is my meditation room, YAY! thats going to be a fun endeavor :3 as have I bought a georgeous deck made by lisa hunt, for those who like the same paranormal stuff as I do, I recommend checking that deck out, its primary icons are animals of all kinds as does it have religious icons of Greeks, native Americans, Romans, Mayans, Japanese, Chinese and Hindu! all around awesome deck!

if any of you are curious about the kittens, three have found wonderful homes! my favorite one still remains with me :3 still working on her chance at a family to give joy to.
and one more thing before I head of back to slave away at work, I want to thank :Iconthefirstmccloud: for being patient with me and my erratic schedual.

for taking the time to help me get more insight about mediums I haven't explored and much needed critique, and of course for offering to ink the comic that is still in the fleshing process and

for her links and help to mediums I'd otherwise never afford XD
and

I love you hon, and I hope your studies are going well and that you'll be withyour kitties and horse soon!

]]> *QuartzFire 0.o? http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24353663/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24353663/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 00:59:37 PDT
so I've replaced it with this short...short one! XD

]]> *QuartzFire I hate the media *rant warning* http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24353553/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24353553/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 00:41:04 PDT not alot of you guys know who I work for, and I'm sure many of you are far too busy doing cooler stuff than really caring that I'm the * GASPOHNOES!* person who takes away liquids over 3.4 and water. yep, I'm one of those, TSA officer FTW!!!...>.>: okay well maybe not for FTW, but anyway onto the point before I blubber senselessly XD
Because of the job I have, I've sadly learned to not really be all that 'happy' to see thousands of strangers each day, ESPECIALLY when most are grumpy and upset about false information the MEDIA over exaggerates on or keeps important facts out to make it sound exciting and dramatic..that it causes all hell and misery for us who know the truth and procedures and just make us HATE the day, comments towards us aren;t exactly nice

. Today was one of those days when we found out that the media had blasted false information about ammo and what not of a marine. I tell you now the damn bag was DECLAIRED and the airlines accidentally sent his bag to baggage claim instead of a transfer. but no, the media keeps all that junk out and happily points out we are worthless and let something monumentously bad by,,,my fucking ass. *sigh*
they did the same thing saying " guess what guys! TSA lifted the liquid band, bring your water and lotions and ect ect" i cannot TELL you enough how much hell that was telling them " no, the media was-" GASP OH NO FOR REALS! " wrong"
this brings up the point of what good is our media these days? what happened to the straight facts and important to know without the dramatized hype? made me learn that even in the olden days the issue was around, but not as strong as it is today. its sad in my opinion that we can;t count on the NEWS of all things to be truthful.
overall just a stressful day :sad:
aside from that I turned 24 yesterday, lol.
but yeah sucky day >.>

]]> *QuartzFire a very amusing journal http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24211754/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24211754/ Sun, 12 Apr 2009 23:26:55 PDT tonight when the husband and I came home from work, to my alarm the bathroom door in which kittens and mama kitty are was WIDE OPEN :gasp: thinking the utmost worst we turned on the lights and i called for mama kitty, she hissed and grumbled a little peeking over the box, and to my amazment and releif everybody in the bathroom was snuggled in the box. my three boys seemed to have eaten all of her food like jerks, but no blood, no dead kittens or anything. just wow!
well my husband decided to test things out, he grabbed the bravest of all the kittens and brought her out to snoop around the boys, i was so afraid they would swat and attack the kitten. but nope, one of the boys licked the kitten, another just watched and gave a disapproving hiss and watched more, and of course the most docile of them all gets mad and swats and growls, thank god he;s clawless in the front. so three of the kittens ventured out of the bathroom and were romping around and wrassling on the dog blanket(dogs were outside BTW) and having a good time. the other kitten was nestled with mama and sleeping. I can;t even imagine how the day went, but i am very glad the dogs were not inside, otherwise i think kittens would have been hurt by playful pounces and dogs never seeing kittens thining they were play toys...and ooooh would mama kitty kick ass on em. well, now we are going to let the kitten socialize with the others for a little bit and let them play in the hall to ive mama a break. but they son are ready for homes, slowly getting weaned off of milk. we hope to send them off in pairs if we can.
thus this ends my amusing journal

]]> *QuartzFire Preparing a tribute http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24128690/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24128690/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 12:12:32 PDT now this is related to what happened to my unborn child, but more so to every woman and small family that has undergone the same loss if not worse off. I'm not sure if anyone has done an art piece tributed to the women who have had this loss if not once than more than once, not something just signifying the loss/death/sadness and gore they often may put in, but showing the strength and perseverance it takes to take a step forward to try again, deal with the memories or to make alternative decisions. in essence a very unique type of strength that few people can attain in their normal life routine.
now I have an idea in my head, its fuzzy and its not sharp, but I wanted to reach out to those who consoled me with similar or more pains than I've experienced, I want to know what you see as far as a representation of women in this strength to preservere and cope with the loss, what image stands out most in your minds?

when completed, however long it takes, I want to donate the image to the clinic that helped me through the procedure, and many countless others I am sure. who knows? maybe other places where hopefully the image can be understood.

anyway I hope to hear your thoughts on this topic

have a good day~

]]> *QuartzFire All is going good! http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24043661/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24043661/ Fri, 03 Apr 2009 16:09:04 PDT the only hard part was waking up and not feeling out of control lol, but I've napped and I seem to be doing fine, just some mild bleeding as to be expected.
So today I'm taking it easy, probably going to go nap again.
I promise I will get to those supportive comments left on the previouse one, but I'm still too sleepy. thanks so much all *hugs*

]]> *QuartzFire The saddest day, and no this is not an april fools http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24015932/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/24015932/ Wed, 01 Apr 2009 23:41:28 PDT I have some very distressing and hurtful news. please please PLEASE do not take this as an april fools joke, it is seriouse and it tears me up enough that we had to find out on this day the horrible news.

Today we went in for a scheduled doctors visit, only to find out that my baby had died about a week ago. it had stopped growing and my body did not dispel of it as it should have. Friday I go in for surgery to remove it, and I'll be out of work for a good five days to heal. I am alright, please know that i am. I've accepted what has happened and just want to move on, try again and hope for the best. we know, my husband and I, that it happened for a reason, if the fetus didn;t survive it wasn;t meant to, and its natures way and gods way of taking its course. After the procedure they will send the remains to the lab and find out for us what went wrong so we can better help it next time. I was still in the red zone, or what others call miscarriage risk zone, being only two months. my only concern now is that any hemorrhaging or the expulsion will happen sooner than the surgery. I just ask for prayers and positive thoughts for me at this time.

Don;t worry, I'm not going into antisocial dismal depression mode. I want to move foreward and have already gone through the motions. thanks for the support guys, and take care,

]]> *QuartzFire another update and advice for returning cat http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23721808/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23721808/ Sun, 15 Mar 2009 23:31:16 PDT so now I have two pissed off cats who have a serious dementia problem and want to kick his ass ( though it serves him right)
the littler one seems to be okay now that we've made mikey and him eat at the same place. but jay, jay's being more difficult and going after mikey and acting like its fight time. we've put him in the dog kennel with food,water and a blanket with a temporary cat litter box to simmer down since socks isn;t as teritorial and is just reacting to jay's behavior. now we aren;t permanently going to keep him in there but we're going to get mikey to get his scent in the place and re wrk their bond. i swear this is the hardest part of getting the cat back. but we're happy he;s okay. any advice on what more to do with mikey and jay?
also mama cat heard the whole thing since the fight erupted when we were visiting her, it got her all antsy and protective and I'm afraid teh commotion in the house will make her flee and relocate. do you guys think she will? i know the boys will get along again, its just gonna take a few days...and we've already covered our couch in plastic, we know their going to piss on whatever they want to claim...joy -_-;

]]> *QuartzFire kitten update http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23709025/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23709025/ Sun, 15 Mar 2009 10:01:30 PDT so far the kittens are doing fine, the mom is tolerating us well since we feed her each day.
she does tend to get moody but we don;t let her growl or attempt to see us as a threat. and good news for her too! someone is interested in taking the mother cat in once the kittens are old enough to be given homes as well,

she was my biggest worry regarding someone even considering working with her and taking her in.

sadly something else happened though, one of my own cats had gotten out on the 13th of this month. he;s always tried to get out no matter where we lived so its not a surprise, but its how many days have passed and we've no sign of him, for those of you familiar with my cats, it was of course mikey the big maincoon who loved to be lovably lazy. I'm concerned patches might have ran him off assuming he was a danger, as she has a right to beleive. *sigh* though oddly enough dan and I are not too worried about him, he;s gotten out before and come home after a few days. so we'll give it about three weeks of checking pounds andlistening out for him and having neighbors do the same. if nothing comes up..well...then we just have to hope someone pick him up and liked him so much to just up and keep him. an maybe we'll adopt a kitten, maybe.

]]> *QuartzFire Kittens in my garage 0.o? http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23652497/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23652497/ Wed, 11 Mar 2009 22:44:53 PDT thats just despicable you know? and whats more, they even left their dog in the back yard. the dog was luckier than the cat we think because two days later the neighbors called the humane society.
So today we were working on fixing the wagner machine to paint the nursery for the baby when my husband came in perplexed, he then told us that the stray cat we 'named' patches was in there. we thought it was a he, so he told us that for a second 'he' was going to flee, untill it ran and snuggled over next to our water heater. my husband was thinking at first " are you hoarding rats?!" because he saw tiny furry things. well he soon learned that patches was no he, that it was a she and that she had given birth to what we originally thought was five kittens, turns out it was four!

it made sense, she could easily get into our garage, it was closed off and a safe place, that and this was technically her home. well we went in to see her, and granted I am pregnant and my husband was worried I'd get scratched and hurt. well no, she was nervouse but she stayed with her kittens. she growled only a second untill she realized i was putting food in front of her. the poor thing we later found out is emaciated, so she sure was greatful for the food. here was a time when she was gone for a few hours. before then I was checking in on her, giving her food, water and getting her used to my presence. she didn;t mind me over too much, she is slightly domesticated, but just uneasy because I am a stranger and she has new babies. well my mom and I put together a big box with a warm thick blanket, cut a hole in it for patches and placed the kittens inside and put it between the space of the water heater where the babies were originally. as the hours passed we checked, wondering and worrying if we had encouraged her to abandon them. well luck have it, not only later when my mom checked was she in the box, but she was greatful and happy to have a warm place to conduct heat and softness for the babies instead of a cold garage floor, that when my husband went th check on her, she came out and let him pet her, scratch her chin and even stick his hands in the box where the babies were with her. she was purring even

granted we know not to push our luck and not to smother her, but we are feeding her and letting her stay,and when the kittens are moving around to where they can walk and see, we are going to transition them into the house to help domesticate them. then we are going to call the humane sociaty to take them. we dare not take them to the pound because so many are ending up there already, and we want patches to go to a good family since her original one just up and abandoned her.

while she was gone and we were transitioning them into the box we got to pet them, they were so soft and cuddly! we saw there was three creamy grey ones and one bright orange one! that one is my favorite so far

my only worry is that we thought there were five, so we really are hoping we miscounted and there are truely four. it'd just be awful if something happened to the possible fifth.

its just so sweet and special! I'm pregnant and patches thought our home a safe haven, and she is starting to trust us a bit more. its just a special way to thank god and his fellows above for this sweet little chance to do something for someone who was on her own with four babies to ensure they all are taken care of, mama kitty and babies alltogether

]]> *QuartzFire update again :) http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23523087/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23523087/ Wed, 04 Mar 2009 12:02:05 PST
So, nothing much to add, art might be uploaded today and tomorrow, the spark's back so far!

thought I might butcher it on practice coloring

anyway sorry for the short journal. but its petter than a pregnant hormonal rage rant any day

thanks to everyone who offered their advice on the matters

's for everyone!

]]> *QuartzFire GRAAAAAAAHHHH!!! http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23409108/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23409108/ Thu, 26 Feb 2009 00:20:11 PST
so instead of ignoring her like i should have I proceed to explain that there really isn;t ANY nutrient deprivation, its still my breast milk, i just choose to extract it differently, that and daddy to be wants to help out too when I'm at work and he;s home with the baby. the bitch has the gaul to go on and say " don;t make him do all that work! that's your job.* 'scuse me bitch!? who the fuck are you and why are you still talking to me?! that took the cake, i got mad and told her she had best leave otherwise I was going to persue pregnancy harassment on her ass. she scoffed, and I know thats not the last I'll hear from her either. hmph!

another issue I am having is with a friend of mine, who is slowly turning into being a rather bad kind. I asked her to throw my baby shower, thinking she would enjoy the task. of course she liked it. so ok, things are calm since it won;t happen for awhile, but then i get called today and i was told " your going to love this, but we are going to buy you a crib and engrave your child's name on it!" 1. I have a specific crib i want on my registry, one that turns to a toddler/adult bed when they outgrow the crib. 2. I did not want any furniture mutilated 3. I was offended and alarmed they were going to do this without asking me, they were calling me to TELL me they were GOING to do this! 4. i want this crib/ bed to use for baby number two, to carve names in it would defeat the purpose and just be wrong for my baby#2 because I do not know where i will be down the road and need to save money?

another issue, again with mutilating my crib, was she wanted to imbed my baby crib with protective stones to protect the baby, I'm a spiritualist and I love this stuff, but al i could thing of was 1. why are you trying to mutilate my furniture!!? 2. i could just imagine those stones falling on my babies head, scratching him/her or a choking hazard! on top of that i don;t want my baby crushed!! it just angered me so much that she wasn;t thinking of my wants and respecting the safety of my child with things not relevant to '

rotecting' my baby! there is only so much spiritual stuff can protect against! now i may have hormonal rage right now, but i think i've a good reason, even if its 'well intentioned'
and i really don;t know what to think about the " we are gonna have the baby shower when your 7 months cause its the only thing you will look foreward to and you will be feeling ugly and miserable" WHAT THE FUCK?! who says I will be?!
on top of ALL THIS, she persists on bossing me on how to keep my baby healthy and what I should do, how to do it and what ALL babies do...she doesn;t have kids..so really..I'm starting to want to live in a cave AWAY from these people and only stick to my beloved friends and husband and my beloved god mama and sister..before I give everyone who gives me an issue a FAT lip and MISSING teeth.

on a side note, my husband brought home a steer skull who is on the dining room table staring at me with one socket..its creepy, but I named him Jerry...yeah..really odd day -_-;

]]> *QuartzFire 4 weeks and counting http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23198998/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23198998/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 15:22:58 PST
in this journal I'm going to answer some of the questions you guys have asked, as well as inform y'all whats goin on in ma belleh!
hehe~
First of all, I'm four weeks, this stage means my ittle baby is going to implant itself into his temporary warm home. I'm also getting the neausea and the mood swings, and the boobs hurt too

so active wise not a whole lot!
I go in for my first appointment march 6th, by then I'll be 6 weeks and maybe able to see some stuff! so till then we are working on the nursery!
We're going to go neutral with pretty yellows, sage greens beige browns and if its a girl lilac and lavenders added! if its a girl we're going to have flowers or teddy bears and butterflies! ifits a boy we are going to go with a bug theme or the teddy bear theme or a jungle theme!

as for names we have two sets for each gender

Girl: Annalisa Lynn or Zoe Rene
Boy: Aiden David or Caiden David ( Danny wants his fathers first name as our little ones middle name

)

as for the due date its estimated at: Oct 24th!
and I've already chosen the god mama. my beloved sister and best friend :IconLadybright: who'sjust as ecstatic!!

thats all I do have for now, I'll keep you updated!

]]> *QuartzFire Pragent~ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23158101/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/23158101/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 14:59:02 PST after 6 months of trying and failing its finally here! my lil one growing inside doing what it does best

I'm so excited! and i just wanted to share with all of you guys!
my dad took it alot better than I thought he would too, so thats a bonus!!
now its a matter of telling everybody in the family....thats one hell of a long list

lol
I'll keep you updated!
and sorry about no art or anything, just been so busy, and now even more busy! lol
TTYL!

]]> *QuartzFire hey guys! long time no see!..again ^^; http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/22765404/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/22765404/ Fri, 23 Jan 2009 17:15:08 PST I'm sorry I pulled another dissapearing act. but you know how it is, work sleep eat and work some more. I've also been busy fixing up my house

so far I've painted the front room a nice purple! because its going to be turned into a meditation room with all sorts of awesome things related. the guest bathroom I need to finish as far as touch ups. a short person as I am can only do so much without a ladder haha!

aand I am going to be starting some classes again, only i procrastinated again! ^^: haha go figure there right? well I'll sign up for the late classes and get in hpefully. so pretty busy!
but I thought to say hi and let you all know I was about and around. and to once again apologize for not replying or submitting art, its getting pretty hard to pull anything out so far

anyway take care guys! I'll let you know if anything is coming up!

]]> *QuartzFire CORGI CORGI CORGI!!!!! http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/21878959/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/21878959/ Mon, 08 Dec 2008 09:42:08 PST My beloved second sister/best friend Maggie's Fiance was browsing around and found her for me! for a long time maggie has known my insane love for corgi's and the desire to own one, well this christmas her fiance found a little runt that the owner was more than happy giving a good home to!
*he's buddy buddy with breeders since he deals with them often

*
I'm so extatic!!! her name is Ginger and she;s only 8 weeks old! though sadly I need to wait till she;s shipped out, the lil stubby legs is in Idaho ^^: but I'm more than happy to wait!

We have a big house, though three cats and one puppy dog already, where as I am just bouncing in my seat, ginger is going to be the last addition for a long while ^^: but cody is definetly going to be happy to have a play mate that actually WILL play with him! I'll get pictures as soon as I can to post!
*sqeee!*
* is shot, dragged off and stuffed in a closet*
hehe~

]]> *QuartzFire laptop goodness! http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/21490177/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/21490177/ Fri, 14 Nov 2008 18:49:04 PST so, as the title states, I havbe laptop a mini hp to be exact

and as tacky as i am, I named it.
or rather my co workers did

will get this joke, but my co workers know about bobo the tree frog. well, one happy go lucky smart ass told me to name it Bidi, and well, as girly as I am, the computer has a name and its name is Bidi

so now i can actually be online on my breaks and do homework and keep up with you guys a bit better!

currently I have a comic I'm fleshing out with some wonderful help :wink:
so hopefully it will come to some better fruitation that isn;t so difficult.

also, i downloaded manga studio and purchased the mangastudio for dummies book. any9one actually know someone who has used it, so i can take a look?

anyway, back to work!
..*sigh*

]]> *QuartzFire loaded update XD http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/21337204/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/21337204/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 09:55:18 PST

got it

so yus!
now onto other things. work..sucks..ass. if I could explain in such a way it wouldn't take a month long entry, then i would -_-;
school is going alright, it and suckage work are keeping me busy thus far.

but I've made a decision on many things. see, in my struggles for finding what I wanted to do career wise I kept overlooking what i raelly wanted to do. because it felt ulogical and out of my grasp.
well, thats out the window, screw logic. ever since I started on this site I wanted to be an animator. well, animation isn;t for me, but art still is! I've got all these stories, ideas and concepts that I simply have a hard time getting out without the love and aid and much fun writting from

I even remember in hs where :iconsupercuteeyeofnewt: and

did a pas off on notebook stories!
so I got to thinking, yes, I didn;t make it in the AI * art institute*, but maybe animation wasn;t for me, I love art, I love making stories and characters, so why am I so reluctant to do just that!?

so my friends, I've decided to try another rout. I am very much going to try and be a comic artist!
yeah, I know I'm not up to par just yet, but I will be! always since i was small did I draw, fantasize lil stories in my head. its just natural and damnit! its what I'm going to do.

I am young, and for some reason I keep thinkin myself old and I'm only 23..toally retarded, so as I said, I'm young and I've got a long road to get better and suceed, and I will

and I really would like to do it without an expensive school, but I'm up for the challange, and maybe, just maybe I'll get my chance when it comes, and suceed.

so please wish me luck! and anty advice and information pleasae let me know :beg: I'll be forever greatful!

]]> *QuartzFire Kiriban bust, but new stuff! http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/21125370/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/21125370/ Thu, 23 Oct 2008 12:56:17 PDT
but! on the other hand I've posted on

with my new jewelry concoction!
please check it out, and please reffer your friends

aside from that, just waiting for my vacation, whoot! and trying to get used to typing with acrylic nails again. hhahahaha!

]]> *QuartzFire Kiriban 8,600/trouble http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/20193635/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/20193635/ Fri, 10 Oct 2008 10:09:05 PDT
it always seems when i streatch out a hand to d artistic OC's from other people, things get in the way. well, yeah, it happened again *sigh*
Work has been very hard, due to alot of trouble regarding people calling off overly much, they are punishing the whole department, regardless of who hasn't called off in awhile. so things at work as I have said are getting hard. my shift has changed however, so it won;t be difficult as far as finding time to do anything at home, my fear is the quality may be low

school I'm falling a little behind in due to some of the work troubles, so I've got to catch up on that first.
I understand your all about at wits end regarding patience, and for that I am sorry, this is why I don;t charge for anything, I'm really bad at timing. so please bear with me, let me catch up on things on my end, and you'll see results soon.
sorry again guys

I'll note you when yours are done.
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So, this morning i knocked over a glass and broke it. well, turns out I didn;t clean up all of the shards, and I stepped on this big one that cut me more than I've ever been before. so i rush to the bathroom, foot bleeding, and grouchy at my husband and allt hat good stuff. well, I love the man, he gpt one of my panty liners, blue painters tape, and after disinfecting it and washing it. he thus came up with the panty-aid by using the panty liner as the compress and the tape wrapped thoroughly around my foot XD

go marine ingenuity!
But back to the main reason I'm writting. i'm setting up another DA acount

now no worries! i'm not going anywhere, this account will be for my art and friends and lots of watching! the other one is for my smalllittle buisness I opened up.
its still inthe works, but i have a website launched for the custom hand crafted jewelry I make. so please check it out, though its not done yet, still need to get my actual peices up and set more pages up. but its a start! and who knows? maybe someone who knows how to work websites could give me a hand?

anyway, this is the work website [link] I'm going to utilize DA to get feed back, polls and advice. since well..on my website i can;t exactly do that

Here is the DA link of meh jewelry-soon to be- stuffs

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Hey everyone.

upon logging in i discovered all the repilies and comments i had just simply vanished, as if they didn;t exhist. I appologize to ANYONE who messaged me recently. its not that i won;t reply, its that all is gone!

so by all means let me know if you had specific questions.
also, arts are still being worked on, they will be posted soon enough!

thanks!

Comish list
1.

* The unicorn from her chronicles~* [link]
2.

* his oc serhilda*
3.

* zach an original Character *
4.http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/20070576/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 01:33:24 PDT ...so, yeah. totally have nothing much to say. same old stuff different day I guess.
Oh! except at work we will officially look like rent a cops on september the 11th. I heard our uniforms look exactly like those at palace station, or some cooky casino. it makes me laugh, as if we didn;t look dorky enough XD
School's starting up again, so hopefully I'll be able to stay in class without having to book it to work too badly

kinda sucks working at the airport as security. fun * is shot*
I really wish i could look at all the art I've been missing out on, ESPECIALLY the nice comments you all have given me...I'm like what..thre months behind?..I' starting to wonder why y'all haven;t strung me up by my toes XD thanks so much for sticking with me guys!

much love!
I feel bad, I know I have promised comish's out there that I haven;t done yet. if you are one of those few. please let me know. since things have slown down I should be able to get em out as promised.

sorry guys!
..so much for not having much to say, lol.
talk to y'all soon!

]]> *QuartzFire We have house http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/18972914/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/18972914/ Sat, 21 Jun 2008 20:11:41 PDT We are doing swimmingly as of yesterday! we got everything in as of yesterday

so all that is left is to get the few things we need around the house, such as curtains and a few fixtures, but aside from that all is well!
a short message but one none the less

take care all!

]]> *QuartzFire ARRRG! http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/18179369/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/18179369/ Mon, 05 May 2008 11:37:25 PDT haha!
Anyway, I have not updated in...well forever I guess, but thats usual of me, really.
Work absorbs all of my time, and I'm usually too irritated to be creative and let it flow freely. In other words appologies for lack of art, updates and stuff. *sigh*
we are currently still working on our house status, things are going good so far, just waiting for the underwritter to say okay, go to escro, sign the mile long papers and get our keys. I'm really confident things will go well, its just the matter of waiting.
I'm kinda bummed my creative level has gone down, aside from " ametra and claymore' thats all i've really had time for, i had to struggle to even get ideas out on paper *sigh* i'll hang in there.
anyway I'll try and be more active than i have been, all have a good day!

]]> *QuartzFire House/wedding anniversary update http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/17377418/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/17377418/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 10:51:59 PDT Sorry, I hadn;t had the time to update anything decent in awhile, I've been taking the time to clean out my gallery of old old scraggily pieces I did when first starting here on DA.
As far as houses go, paperwork is being waited on before we get the big " green go" on house hunting, hopefully by the 20th we will hear from them. If not I'll be nozy and call to ask how things are and what the status is. While waiting I have been hopeful and trying to not get overly excited and overly eager, you can't just jump into purchasing a house before you check it out and all that good stuff, its like over judging the pool, it looks like its the right temp, but when you jump in its icy cold! haha, something like that, gotta make sure you test it out first to make sure its good.

Warcraft wise, its still something I enjoy doing after and before work. in a week I have reached LV 14, noobish I know, but its something I do to relax ^^ Dreani's are still my faves, a shame they don;t have druidic classes, ah well, hunters rock anyway! ^-~

Happy St. Patty's day everyone! don;t be too crazy out there now, lol!
and speaking of days, Our anniversary is comming up here soon, I've got something interesting planned, but I'm gonna keep it on the lowdown till it gets closer to the day ^^

]]> *QuartzFire wow: I love Drenai's! http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/17292030/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/17292030/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 19:03:52 PDT Though there is only one downside, I end up playing by myself, I don;t belong to a guild or anything, its rather sad

the hord characters don't appeal to me much, I tried playing the blood elves, but they are just so..weird when they move, granted they are slimmer and sometimes more attractive than nightelves..but..I just love the Drenai more!
so beware, fan art may ensue, I mean I am sure everyone had a WOW craze when they started, right?
so I'ma just gonna get it all out

Toodles

]]> *QuartzFire World of warcraft a House and...stuff!!! http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/17222187/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/17222187/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 09:44:04 PST appologies for that for those who do wanna see stuff. Again work holds my hands tied, however I am going to start lugging a small sketchbook and supplies for when I am on my breaks, so I'll try to make some time

I've got some news! We are going out this tuesday to go house shopping!! I'm really excited to be able to do so!
now please keep in mind we are going after Fixer uppers with no HOA ( homeowners associasion) cause lets face it, just about anyone knows how much they can suck, so much you can;t put your own flag of your country because its not uniform..stupids but ANYWAY, off that rant. this is really a time for the buyers, and in old town henderson the houses up to 3 bed 2/12 baths are as low as the 100's! so we are springing on it! I'll keep those interested or who care updated

Warcraft, I am so the n00b, my co workers finally got me suckered into it and its a total blast!! I've been playing if for four days now and I already have a level five druid nightelf....yeah i know, total lamage for you supirors, but ya gotta start somewhere

so yeah, loads of fun!...when damned spiders aren;t killing you that is

but if anyone is interested in playing along, or wants to help a noob like me, my account is ironically under my name ( meggan) and I'm on the suramar server.

gha! gotta go, work awaits!

lOVE YA!

]]> *QuartzFire Contacts, scheduals and lazer pens http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/17125568/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/17125568/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 22:34:19 PST
My last entry was a bit short, this one might be too, but mostly of other informative stuff. to those who like me

ad want to keep in contact with me aside from my Dev account, I really suggest writing me E-mails @ quartzfire@gmail.com, because to be honest, I check my e-mail every day and more often than I do anything else, so if you wanna chat or contact me, E-mail is better, and for me more enjoyable at times.

Since I work security and stuff my tie is pretty much over taken by that, so art work will be mostly up on Tuesday or wednsday if I have the time to and the creativity flowing. I also have to figure out how to use our new scanner, so even if I have something, it might not be up till its figured out.
But enough about the technical stuff, onto some fun interesting stuff!
I'll admit, despite me being tird and busy, I have wanted to doodle, so anyone out there, if you want any character drawn, or paired up with one of mine, lemme know and I'll have a whack at it! just remember the result won;t e as quick or immidiate as.....actually I don;t think I was ever immediate with anything lol

but you get my drift.

and lazer pens are just too much damn fun, the kitties love me for it

bwahaha!
but I am tired and tuckered out, till next time!

]]> *QuartzFire *blows off dust* http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/17101050/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/17101050/ Thu, 28 Feb 2008 10:40:26 PST it is I, the great meg appearing after.....well I don;t feel like counting to be honest.
new events have occured. so I'll just say these things, I have a new kickass job in security, what kind i cannot really say. we have new computer, because our old one was infested wth horrible viruses, making me unable to comunicate at all or well. so here I am popping in to let all know I am alive, well and pretty buisy. I also wat all to know that I have missed you, and that I hope to keep up with everything as best i CAN.
love yas!
Meg

]]> *QuartzFire Very Lucky/ Hilariouse event http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/15806667/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/15806667/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 12:12:46 PST First off, hi everyone!

yet again Its been awhile since I did anything constructive or creative, aside from uploading images.
let me start off by stating that I of course, hate my job more so now. Ever since the begginning of December we have been swamped with customers, hey, thats a good thing! and I am very happy our studio is finally getting some great buisness. The only sucky part is that my co workers have become even more of a nightmare. For one my manager is lazy and will figure out who knows how to do paperwork, make them do it, and just take smoke break after smoke break, or go shopping ( we are located in a mall) what irks me aside from the obviouse statement, is that two others always go out with her. so every 20 minutes they are out there smoking, while the remainder of us who do not smoke are stuck with the horrible rush and hence being overwhelmed.

FUNNY EVENT!!!
well, its kinda sad at first, but a happy ending! (shoulda wrote this first)
Dec 2nd our door was ajar and left open at 4 am in the morning. Mikey, my big fluffy cat who you see on a pizza box in here. got out. for three days we were hoping and looking for him to come home. You see, we have cyotes in the area and buisy streets galore about the front half. So with our hearts heavy, we went to the shelter to see if he was there. and well, we willingly got suckered in by 7 a month old kitten. a few hours after we brought him home (my second cat Jay of one year pissed as hell already might I add.) I heard yowling of a cat outside and downstairs. wouldn;t you know it, as soon as we thought him dead and brought another cat home Mikey comes home! for the most part our little family grew. the Boys are still getting to know one another ALL OVER again. but its so worth it. So now we have Mikey our 8 year old cat, Jay Jay our 1 year old cat, and our new addition Socks, our 7 month old. don;t you just love how irony plays?

Socks: is very cute. He is very mellow...and does not attack feet or hands when you sleep. He LOVES being petted and being picked up. he will litterally melt in your arms and stay there. he is one hell of a purr box...and has seemed to prove top cat out of the big ones...yeah, so funny that is! XD but he is very cuddly and mellow. a very nice addition of the two wacky personalities.

Mikey: Poor mikey, as soon as he gets home from his frightful nights out, he not only finds a new kitten home, but he ends up getting a * GASP* BATH! he was covered and still is covered in grease and smuck, he has ah ack job of a hair cut now...and man, didn;t he have more to yowl about indeed!

Jay Jay: Pissed as hell, he has been such a good boy and hasn;t at all attacked the kitten, or mikey *thus far* he just glares from across the room and avoids em both if they get too near to him. the sad part is, that he won't let you cuddle or pick him up. you know, very pissed off he is afterall.

]]> *QuartzFire Stuffs galore http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/15375965/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/15375965/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 12:12:29 PST Well, college life is rather slow. I'm waiting for the next semester classes to sign up for more classes geared towards Photography. I'm currently disinterested in drawing right now, taking a break to smell the flowers and watch the sky, so to speak.
I've been in a recent reflective mood, and looking back it seems to happen quite often with me betwxt months. I'm Back working at the Photography studio Kiddie Kandids. Things have gotten much better since I left, granted it was only a month I had been gone, but alot can very well indeed happen in a month. Needless to say though, I am only a seasonal now, but I have high chances and hopes I'll gain my original position back with my work ethic.
I need to thank

for her reccomendation links on programs against computer virus and spyware. its helped a bit, granted internet explorer refuses to open, but MSN has helped with that thankfullly. so thanks alot!

On a secondary and GREAT note. my best friend is comming down next week for a few days. its going to be so wonderfulseeing her and spending physical time with her! What I mean, is that we are always online as much as we are able, so seeing her in the flesh will be so gratifying and very blessed.
She is also enjoying so m uch time working on a ranch when she can, and also gaining riding lessons. To me watching her moods and spirits lift to a more peaceful gratified state is tear jerking with much happiness. its about time she found her niche and special place. and I beleive that this is what has me reflecting, I very well have an idea what mine may be, but I'm either too lazy or intimidated to really go out and do it just yet. gotta get on it I suppose ^^
and here is a wacky suggestion, we are always looking down or ahead of ourselves, just for kicks, look up and find out what interesting things are above your head, its oddly refreshing ^^

]]> *QuartzFire *sigh* this needs cleaning http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/15014170/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/15014170/ Thu, 11 Oct 2007 11:53:38 PDT so I'm going to be cleaning up as best I can. Olderworks are going into scraps. and quite possibly old line art that was just a practice run.
that and I need to upload more photography, especially since my computer has been infested with damn TROJAN ware..does anyone have any idea of how to get the damn buggers off, or rather anyone know what is a good decent spyware and virus detecor?

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY!:

at school today I was doing my usual errands for the DRC and well...had alot of time inbetween. in the hall of the C building was a promtion for technology and a student survey of the overall functions and performance of certain technical aspects we students used. I got free software

BUT the main highlight is that I met two gentlemen who were just supurbly awsome and generouse to give me advice, tips and share stories of photography.
I'm very thankful to the gent who took the time to share his experiences with me and answer much needed questions that I was having a hard time locating. it was great, THANKS ever much for that if you happen to read this!

the other fellow gent was very insightful to photoshop, and was very kind to offer to send the original photoshop program to let me experiment with.
such a great day!

]]> *QuartzFire Art Kick! Hiiiiyaaaa! *chop* http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14939345/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14939345/ Sat, 06 Oct 2007 10:34:53 PDT yeeesss~ I'm in an artsy mood and its all thanks to Aerist/ Aerith

I know folks knock her down, like her or just utterly despise her. well I'm a fan despite what my best friend may claim

So don;t be surprised if you see alot of aerith/aeris pop up in here. and maybe Tifa, I mean she is awsome inher own way don;t get me wrong! but ya know, I like aeris alot too

I'm also going to try and work on a new updated ID. it sucks that I can;t do all the Neat nifty pixel art Id's or any of the cool types. for one Danny Deleted my Adobe elements way back, for which I'm still in the process of looking for the disk. and now the Open canvas I had. and that was given to me by a good freind I don;t talk to or see much of anymore. so I am totally S.O.L on any wacom drawings or any hopes of lousy digital coloring

That and I owe someone a Commish/ art trade thats pas PAST overdue. for that I am sory dude, I know how it feels to be promised something, and it never goes through, thats happened to me alot. and only a few good buddies of mine came through always.

anyway, enough said, its doodlin time!!!!!!

]]> *QuartzFire I shall call you squishy and you will be mine! http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14878330/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14878330/ Mon, 01 Oct 2007 22:09:42 PDT The best part is I don;t think its even right!

Anywho! good news people! I have an interesting job for the moment.
I'm a Note taker at my college..yes I am paid to take notes for students whoa re either unable to or have a disability hindering that. it feels great to be doing something to help. that and I can get an insiders veiw of a class I need to take soon!

I am so pleased!

However today I have a funny story. I was supposed to drop applications off today. and well the chaos began

Fistly Daniel was being a stickler for what I was to wear. he feels he is a professional at this sort of first impression spheal

granted he is..but its annoying for me to be told what to wear and change about fourty different times over little things. anyway, he ended up Burning a hole in one of my best shirts, the iron itself had mineral deposits in it. after I got out of the shower and used the hairdryer it sparked and caught on fire for a breif moment. then when we were finally out of the house I ate some candy that turned my tounge blue. so in result we went back towards home, only ti find dan got off the wrong ramp, so not only did we have to navigate back home, we gave up because it was just too funny.

aside from that all is well!

]]> *QuartzFire ART dump oh great, more greif http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14695122/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14695122/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 10:30:47 PDT so sorry about that.
so far things are moving smoothly. nothing pissy to rant about..yet. man, what a week, things were rotten from the start, but seem to be waning off. anywho. enjoy the art dump!!!!!!
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More Greif
okay, just when you think the bad week went away, it decided to jab me again

I called the company I had purchased my camera from. the problem is that I haven;t received my monthly bills of payment for it yet. and that concerned me, the last thing I wanted was to be in trouble for not paying for something I signed for. well they couldn;t find my purchase number or transaction. this alarmed me, does that mean I have a camera thats considered stolen? does that mean that its a free camera now? or am I in a ton of poo?
overall on the payment plan, I owe1200 something on it, its easy to pay off, which is why I decided to go after it. the problem is now, that I may have a dillema. I was supposed to receive a montly payment bill of $130 for ten months so no interest would become of it, and a credit card, which in a time where you make your own pensions and retirment, is needed, especialy if you've never had one before and no credit. which is how I found out about the whle shebang.
I'm not going to ask the doomed question, but...is ther a chance it can become a little bigger problemo?

]]> *QuartzFire I forever hate salesmen http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14638311/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14638311/ Sat, 15 Sep 2007 00:13:44 PDT so not only did they send me a package, I refused it, only to later argue with them. here was the jist of the argument:

quartz: alright, I'm pissed, your company charged my account illegally and I just refused your package, my money better be returned or I will get my bank and other legal matters on your company.

salesclerk: on you you didn't! we can;t give you a refund now because you didn;t send the item back right.

quartz: * very angrily* excuse me?! you mean to tell me I won;t get my money back that you ILLEGALLY took because I didn;t send it back right?! what the fuck is that?!

Sales clerk: it states on our web site that you need this code, and it says so on the package to.

quartz: * evil low voice* you mean to tell me I can;t get my money back, because I didn;t do that fucked up method of returning it to you?....you mean to tell me I'm wasting my time with you right now.

sales clerk: * bitchily* well we could send it back to you.

quartz: then I'd do the return your way?

sales clerk: no, we won;t accept any returns the second time.

quartz: * royally pissed and wanting to strangle these people*...thank you VERY much bitch *click*

I officially hate people like this, scum of the earth they are!
so I ended up calling my bank, untill that damn pending amount is actually taken I can;t take action against them. my bank is going to do an evaluation and investigation on this once it does happen, and I HOPEFULLY willg et my taken money back from these bastards. I bought a sample that was four bucks two months ago, that was a major mistake obviously, but then they go back into my acount and take money fromme without notifying me of ANYTHING because I didn;t cancel withthem?..um, excuse me, on the damn site it said nothing about that. be careful of what you do online one,a nd secondly avoid this company all together and anything like it... i swear, I hate people, i so hate people like this.

]]> *QuartzFire I'm not fired, I quit! http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14610924/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14610924/ Wed, 12 Sep 2007 23:01:39 PDT I'm done, I'm done working for petty bull shit corperations that don;t resspect or give a shit about the employees that make them MONEY!
I cn understand the new dress code, fine, I can understand that we need to make sales go up, fine. but to be a total bitch and tell me ITS MY PROBLEM I CAN;T OPEN THE FUCKING STORE and tell me its MY RESPONSIBILITY when for five weeks I have called her time after time saying I can;t open without a key, she never even made an attempt till now and its MY fault?!..oh fuck no, they can just do well enough without me, I'm DONE! tommarow I get one of my final checks, then its job hunting again, I'm sick of this, I've stuck with it for 8 months, thats more than enough, I've tried my best, I'e spoken up, I'm done!

]]> *QuartzFire sketch Dump! http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14518039/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14518039/ Thu, 06 Sep 2007 14:40:52 PDT well as promised I put up some wedding pictures, the others kinda have to be majorly edited and stuff.

anyway I think I've suceeded at having a rounded out gallery. and because of the uploading of photography I have been able to work casually on some line work again.

so enjoy em!
...I'll work on it soon

]]> *QuartzFire Treats for my peeps...i think? http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14379070/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14379070/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 11:08:23 PDT just nothing to report or anything, so this is going to be all kinds of short.
but I remembered tht awhile back I mentioned posting wedding photos up here. well I've gottem now and I'll be putting them up! so if your interested just keep an eye out for specified "wedding" titled stuff.

aside from that just going to classes and stuff so I'll se how that goes.
oh! and of course, thank you for tye support those of you have given me lately, its really touching *huggle*

later!

]]> *QuartzFire Things... http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14275657/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14275657/ Tue, 21 Aug 2007 16:36:18 PDT - My Husband, in everyway possible
- My found freedom
- My happiness
- My best friend, who still stands beside me
- my talents, even if they are little
- new found contentment

Things I am proud of
- my spiritual side, be it little or great
- breaking away from my cage of unhappiness
- becoming my own person, and making more discoveries
- facing my fear of my oppression and being triumphant
- my freedom

Things I yearn for
- the betterment of myself
- to find my absolute gift, and be well at it
- bettering of my skills, at least to its next level
- reaching another level in spirit, and to better understand it.

of course as long as I am alive, this will increasingly grow, but its about time I embrace all the positive things, where there have been alot of negatives.

]]> *QuartzFire I'm home http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14236591/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14236591/ Sun, 19 Aug 2007 07:11:52 PDT ive beenback for two days and realized I haven;t updated the depresing details of the other ones.
I want to thank everyone who ofered their condolences, worries and expressed concern and prayers, you all know who you are, I greatly thank you if I haven;t already.

there is good news however, grandpa has improved so far as I have been told, however with a new paemaker her should he good for a little while longer.

Returning to work has been hard, lately I haven;t had the patience or the want to deal with so many people and kids so much at one time. my job overall I am getting tired of, I have another job offer in the works, but it might take awhile to go through, so I'm contemplating if I should find another temporary, or stick with this one.

anywho, I probably need to get going, sorry for the dull update

]]> *QuartzFire more vacation horrors http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14167859/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14167859/ Tue, 14 Aug 2007 16:26:34 PDT well, things have gone downhill, yesterday we had that horrid ordeal, well we are at my grandmothers house, and we come to find out later this afternoon my grandpa had a small fender bender, only to have a massive heart attack right after. the way we found out was through my aunt, the hospital had her contact number and we are finding out more as the day goes by. the recent update is that his kidneys are failing him,
my mom is taking this very hard, this was supposed to be a vacation, she had never gone fishing with my grandpa in the longest while, yesterday had her distraught, and now to find out that there may be a chance he will not make it has this whole vacation turning into a very sad one.
as I mentioned before, I had not met my grandpa since I was eleven years old, its sad and a bit morbid that I meet him and have a great time, only to have this threat of it being the last.
thanks for the support, and I do know its not a good idea to post these things up here however it just needs to be said somehow.

onto good things, which things have been kind to give. my grandpa joe, who is married to my grandma, the grandpa thats in bad condition is divorced from her, to explain things. but grandpa joe has this chipmunk that will go right up to him for nuts or any other treat, I gave it a try and sure enough the lil bugger was more than happy to oblige, I got some nice shorts of him while feeding him. I also managed to snag a shot of a humming bird, I will continue to do so untill I have gotten my fill and manage to get ahold of a male one, they are tricky lil buggers, and here I thought the dock swallows were hard lil things.
anyway, I have home made lemon meruinge pie to get after.

]]> *QuartzFire vacation update and horrors http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14152918/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14152918/ Mon, 13 Aug 2007 16:58:14 PDT I'm alive and well just not very happy about the current events of today. the week so far had started off well enough. we wedre in the air and had a good steady flight, we were inluck with the rental vehical place that is 'usually' closed unless to late flights..the last part we didn;t knw so prior to that we were panicking.
we are in a marriot hotel at the moment in oniana NY, we had crappy sleep the first night, but god the beds are amazing when your ass is plastered in a plane seat and a car for endless hours on end.
for the first three days we went onto my grandpa's boat for the first three days, thats waking up early included with jet lag, sea sickness for the first day....and no fish to be caught. however this was my first time out on a boat period. and I have hiked through some woods..that creeped me out, but got neat shots with the camera. but unfortunatly today, we had a turn for the worst.
I've never phsyically met my grandfather, so this was the first time for that at the beggining of this vacation. but today we went farther than we had before on the hunt for the elusive fish, then he breaks into seziure, not one, but three. it was horrible and he is alright for now. but he is a stubborn man, and refuses help unless its nessisary or by his standards, we all were scared, and my mom had to pilot a boat she had never steered before, much less at all, slowly through a 15-20 mile lake shore watching the fish meeter for depth to make sure we didn;t bank or scuttle the boat, and we were going only five miles per hour with 6 foot swells being asses and making us all sick and my grandfather suffer even more. so needless to say, this trip hasn;t been the needed relaxation we had hoped for.

we will be returning thursday, so I guess I will have more then. *sigh*

]]> *QuartzFire Week hiatus http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14103244/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14103244/ Fri, 10 Aug 2007 09:46:18 PDT well, today I fly out to albany, so I'll be gone for awhile...only a week...damn, wish it were more.
But happy things can last for only so long when its a vacation, I'll miss you guys, and very likely I won;t be able to check here at all. but I promise to bring back more arts, and photos! I've read the manuel and its not as hard as I thought it would be....though I'm still figuring things out

but anyway. I've got lunches to pack and a checklist to go over again.

hugs to everyone! and hope I have a safe trip! I'll tell you guys alllllllll about it!

= :IconLadyBright:

and everyone who;s icon I can't remember

To0tles!

]]> *QuartzFire Going digital http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14021626/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/14021626/ Sat, 04 Aug 2007 22:28:48 PDT again, things at work take much of my time anymore. and I haven;t drawn anything worthwhile to post up here. so sorry about that.
but I have news, news of a big change, where as I still may draw, my gallery is going to take a dramatic change for the best. I today have purchased a Canon Rebel XTi 35mm lense digital SLR camera, granted its a pay as you go thing, but it was far better than used ones on ebay

however my husband doesn;t know I have done this, and won;t be happy, but well, it was a very good deal with a great company

so please expect some interexting outdoors photo's fromme in the near future.
On the tenth of this month till the sixteenth of this month I will bei n upstate NY, thats a great film opportunity and I'll be sure to share that experience with the practice of my camera. I hope to do very well with it too!

in other news, I got bit by a ten month baby today, his teeth cut clear through my skin

....yeah, babies are not the friednly cuddly things you may think they are with the whole grabbign finger thing. turn around to fix the camera one moment, then CHOMP! the next...clearly painful but..amusing all the same.
anywho talk to you later...I have a pad of bachelor neighbors that are moving in next door...this is gonna be some trip -_-;
anywho later!

]]> *QuartzFire Summer blues http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/13656796/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/13656796/ Sun, 08 Jul 2007 09:43:11 PDT I haven;t updated this thing since may -_-;
I don;t mean to be that much of a recluse, the only excuse and reason I have is work.
I am a photographer in the kid studio kiddie kandids in the gallaria mall here in vegas..or henderson rather *sigh* well, as most mall jobs anywhere you have hecktic buisy times, or you have slow days. well being in a kid's studio is very hard to predict, as it is hours are just starting to pick up a little bit, but for a few months, I'd say about two or three, we've had shitty hours given because we have not much buisness on most days.
well since we live in the apartment now and have bills. not a whole lot, but still, a lousy 300 dollar check doesn;t cut into much on my end :sigh:

but lately things have gon slightly downhill, only to pick up a little.
first our manager quit, leaving us with the assistant manager. okay, we were fine, but then she quit, and for about..oh, I think four or five weeks we havent had any type of managment. so a few of us were made in charge, trhee to be exact, I wasn;t one of them

but one co worker of mine has her best freind working with us. you know whath appened? we got stepped on, she was giving herself and her best freind the good hours, while giving the rest of us only four hour shifts, I didn;t notice this happened untill pay day..cause realy, when youd eal with kids all day you get engrossed in it.
it was this payday I found out, usually I make 345 or more, but this time.. a measly 311, and when the three of us being shorted overheard the one of the two of them say they got an awsme check, I had to get away to the bathroom and cry. both of them *who will not be named* got 500 to 600 checks, while all of us got only 400-300 because one of them that was put in charge schedualed us so little.
it made me sick, discusted and cry, it was unfair and not at all right.

*sigh* it didn;t stop there, because friday the same trhee of us witnessed another unjust bull act. we were dead slow, but we were not even an hour into our shifts when the same one of "them" that were in charge turned and said our average was too high and some of us had to go home. okay, well kristin, and honey volounteered to go. it was anotehr 15 minutes later when that same one of "them" turned to me and said, I'm sorry, but you have to go too.....now get this, my shift was only a four hour shift, kristin and honey had longer shifts schedualed than me. instead of letting me work my short hours and letting her BEST FREIND clock out till I was done to clock in, she just got rid of all of us, which we all found later its illegal!
so this is why you haven;t seen me much on here more so than usual. I'm trying to figure out how to get out from under this shitty foot.
I'm planning on taking courses to become in the higher managment bracket, I've had enough of being stepped on this way, and I know deep down, I'm fair.

anyway guys. have a good summer

]]> *QuartzFire New Living space http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/13131679/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/13131679/ Mon, 28 May 2007 22:06:59 PDT
not really new that I was away on a moving mission. but I wanted to let you guys know that its great! the apartment is wonderful and things are comming together slowly but surely.
there are some awsome factors to this place.

1: no roomates
2: its a nice spacious apartment with washer and dryer in a patio closet specially for them.
3: stores are just across the street.
4: bus stop near my home
5: pets are allowed
6: space!

we still have alot to organize and put away. but when its your first home, wether or not your married. its actually alot of fun.
I know for one my crystals and cats will be alot happier. and my Husband is especially happy. more so I am as well. being in a garage with no windows or decent anything was...well we tolerated it well. but this feels so wonderful and really great.
the really great part about this day is that my step mother, mother, and mother in law got along swimmingly. you cannot immagine the imense sense of ease that was for my peace of mind.
My step mother gave me a gorgiouse cherry colored Basset end table and coffe table. a dining table and chairs. my mom gave me a nice dish set

everyone has been so kind! I am very thankful things came well together.

art wise, well I have drawn, but theya re a tad too mature to put up here. lately I've been a bit more on the ...what you call it..um.. well I guess soft hentai if thats the easiest way toput it. I dunno. but I'm doodling and doing well ^^

but I must shower and get to bed...we both have work tommarow and well, we have a wonderful new place to pay for.
so tootles!

]]> *QuartzFire *gasp* http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/13082526/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/13082526/ Thu, 24 May 2007 22:50:22 PDT Quartz actually COLORED SOMETHING! HEAD FOR THE HILLS!

...okay, I'll quit giving cheap shots at myself...for the moment *grin*
well, anyone who pays attention to this sappy lil gallery will notice...soemthing is actually colored. Albeit the original is alot better and isn't grainy and what have you.... its the evil scanner.. like I said. evil but nessisary *sigh*
but since I have more prisma;s I might start seeing if I can learn the medium. since computer shading is so out of my league *sob* I'll never beat them 12-15 year olds, they out do me....yeah well I'm older than you...so HA!..... yeah, really lame, I know. Just do me the favor and nod your head for me....thanks *smirk*
can you beleive my thumb is actually raw from the sharpening of those things?....my god I'm a sap, or that camera at work just hates me period....which works cause I hate it...evil bastard electronic...thing! always breaks or has to interupt when I finally get a fussy kid to work with me..... did I mention I loves sledge hammers for faulty electronics? it does you WONDERS when they make you near the brink of insanity, keeps you in check! *wink*

I promise, I'm not insane. just being....spontanious?....just nod your head again and agree...there ya go!

...alright, before I seriously do scare someone, I'm gonna head off to bed...and hope someday I can acomplish ....well... *shrug* whatever the day brings
see ya!

BEWARE:....... um *beet red*..... I have a rather.. er...how to put this... um...highly nahgty naked thinky in my favoites of irvin from FF.....please take caution

and if you see it randomly on my page..... I warned you!

]]> *QuartzFire Catching up http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/12963918/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/12963918/ Tue, 15 May 2007 10:17:12 PDT I feel bad for those who read the last nonsense of the season

the only news is that we are moving again this month. its to our own apartment with no damn roomates for me to rant to you about how I wanna kill em! yay!

So this is to let my freinds and any watchers I have that don;t think I suck that I;ll probably be offline awhile till I get my internet transfered over on the 28th of this month.

I have drawn more, but I am not sure I want to update them just yet. I'm going through one of those " man, all it is is inked lines, no color" I;m trying to fix that, and brave the unknown, risking my original works to bad coloring *sob* Ill also be catching up on the probably dusty and old comments I neglected to get to untill now. its rude of me I think

sorry everyone.

well, I've got major catching up to do
tootles!

]]> *QuartzFire Hi! I'm Mrs. Walsh http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/12616109/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/12616109/ Mon, 16 Apr 2007 08:19:06 PDT as of april 14, 2007 I am officially married! our honeymoon ended yesterday. but things went very smoothly.
I suppose I can tell as much as I can remember about it.
despite the wind being a tad stronger than anticipated, I was almost late, honestly I cannot remeber when a bride really is on time, its irnoic I hear this from my mother " its luck to be late" is it really? hehe. well, its all in my memory, but our honeymoon was wonderful. Dan wore his military marine dress blues, and me in my gown, when we went into the stratosphere he got many thanks and compliments for his service, when we went to check in there was a long line, we had no problem standing there to wait, but a nice conciere all the sudden came behind us and moved us to the 'hotel invited guests' line, that was rather nice and we appriciated it. s we checked in, getting many compliments and congradulations. but its when we went past the bar that all te sudden people stood up and cheered, it was abslutly wonderful. never have I experenced such thanks and warm cheer.

well, after an hour of 'froliking' we were exhausted by the day, went down to have dinner, got stuffed, and went to bed. we spent the next day at a nice resturaunt in the venitian...I felt so out classed it wasn;t even funny ^^' but the food was good. we wandered around and then finally came back home..to discver the damn dog had gotten into our aniversarry cake..luckily it was just frosting we heard. but man was I mad, I honestly wanted to beat the dog, I normally wouldn't but wholet the damn dog out? and whoileft it out? *sigh* oh well, just one of the many bloopers i did;t mention.

today we continue with going to madame tusoe's house of wax museum, then if the weather is good a gondola ride..maybe ^^: and then apartment huntig. things are moving smooth and are great.
take care...and expect art...sometime soon I guess

]]> *QuartzFire heads up!..you might wanna duck http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/12110925/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/12110925/ Thu, 08 Mar 2007 19:56:52 PST
but thanks if any replied to the last journal, I don;t usually spurge feelings into my jurnals like that, but i am very tankful for the support given, kudo's to you all!

though, I am a tad buisy as of late, I am at last working, which is good, and the wedding month is drawing closer, and closer, so...yeah

miht see me scarce for a tad again, but thats alright, I'll still pop in to comment and see whats going on.

]]> *QuartzFire Wedding plan blues http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/12032608/ http://QuartzFire.deviantart.com/journal/12032608/ Fri, 02 Mar 2007 21:00:50 PST
I don;t mean to always complain,but right now I don;t have someone to really talk to at the moment, that and i am borrowing a computer for the time being,since I am at my stepmother and fathers house. we thought going about planning the wedding ourselves would make it easier on our families, but instead of attaining that, we just dissapointed them.... on my side at least. you see, me and my step mother never saw eye to eye, i never understood her, and stillto this day I don;tknow what she thinks of me, or even how she sees me. I don;t even know how to interact with her with all my heart andpersonality,,always guarded, as ifprotectingmyself. or, quitepossibly ashamed to show hermy true self.

so while i am alone as all the others sleep, waiting for my danto grab me from here,i sit here brooding, and wondering just why it is we are so distant and seem to misunderstand so much. no matter what i do, I always seemto stab her, or so she says, the wedding hasn't been the easiest of it at all either, i tire so much, yet i can;t help but reflect back onit all. and this I accept, that maybe we may never do things but hurt, annoy or hurt the other, we do not do so intentionally or evenknow that we are.itsjust a viciouse cycle, no matter how much Ihave tried to not hurt her, it seems i do, and she tells me such as itis.

I think, that no matter what, no matter when, nor no matter how often, you will always look back at the shackles that once bound you to your pains, only towonder why they had kept you there, in that scarce chamber of despair. and it seems, that you will always continue to wonder, exactly why itwas. as will it be for me, and every other person of this planet. that, is what I think, and firmly beleive.

forgive me if i seem drained or depressed, I truely am not, I am just reflecting onthings, seeing as I am on the outside looking in, or in thiscase, holding those shackles inmy hands, free of their blight, to inspect and look at them as a free person, rather than how I had when bound.
I am a person who loves life to be in its simplest form, I enjoy it and its so wonderful not to endure the stress of other lifestyles, but I guess even in my quiet peaceful life I have finally created, I too have troubles, no one can evade them, itmatters how one deals with them, as a good freind told me once, you are given tools, it matters how you use them. such is the case. I guess, its true what Daniels motehr told me, my pain now, and my past pain, are my inspiration that keeps me moving foreward. quite facinating to see it that way, and not be dragged down by it. I truely am a strange creature aren;t I? well in anycase, i guess this has nothingtoo much to do with wedding blues? now does it?

well, thanks for letting me vent, it read or not. it was needed.

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