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]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/19086858/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/19086858/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 03:35:26 PDT
]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/16248149/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/16248149/ Thu, 03 Jan 2008 23:12:48 PST 2. love wiser
3. save more monay
4. sing stronger
5. dance happier
6. forget cetain things
7. make a dream come true for me or someone else. hell even both!
8. listen
9. study harder
10. be smarter
11. try harder
12. breathe better
13. photograph more
14. draw some
15. and above all ALWAYS ALWAYS HAVE HOPE!!!

]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/15730847/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/15730847/ Fri, 30 Nov 2007 05:57:05 PST So now i have only enough money for gass next week and my credit bill will go up another $10 because i didnt make a payment. and not only that but i will have no money for x-mas. so basically i am fucked because my dad forgot and of course my system bitch slapped me....hard.

so i am really feeling like crying about it honestly because i barly make any money being a host when i am only working three shifts a week. and so i need to ask for more hours or get a new job soon, which i have no time for because i am so busy with school.
like the days i have off i am using for school work and finals so i am being hit hard with that. working on fridays all day, then satuday working on homework when i wake up and going to work at 5:00 till 10:00 or 4:00 till 8:00 and they havent been making me work sundays so more homework then...and i have no idea why and soon my class shec will be changing and i will only be able to work saturday and sunday and i probably will have doubles which means 10 hour days...making crap money...and not being able to study for classes.

and even now my step-mom is hounding me for leaving lights and it costing money...they think i dont worry abotu money i do. i have only been driving to school and back all week, patrick picks me up and drives me to his house all the time now. or comes over to see me. and the only time i have free i am sleeping or barly staying awake to visit with my boyfriend while doing homework. i dont get to see my friend unless then come see me which happens about as much as never because their money is tight too.
so personally i have no time to breathe. and i am trying so hard to save money and work and it's not happening when people screw me like that...basically if i had done that to my dad or something he would have been pissed as well and tried to make do and thats what i am doing. it just sucks that i cant get gifts for anyone and i dont even have time to make anything for anyone...
so this all sucks.
big time. and all i want is to sleep and i cant.

]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/15484822/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/15484822/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 19:44:40 PST
like i am art work...

i kinda feel like the words he says mean nothing other then a little fake idea of me he has. idk i am trying to figure this all out...and i kinda dont know how...

so alright...maybe i am just nerivous who knows...

]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/15136845/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/15136845/ Fri, 19 Oct 2007 23:44:27 PDT obsessive...stalker-ish...and i know why and i hate the "why"
so i am terrfied...that there is something wrong...
and then amy told me something that was said about me 'she was just to good to be true, like perfect...it was weird and scary. but thats what she was.' thats why one guy left me... so is it good that i am that way? or just horrible...? and what happens when i make a mistake does it ruin that thought and no longer can i be liked or even loved?
and i worry even more now after i have been cheated on if maybe all my relationships will fail? for some reason or another or, will suddenly like a blackbird with broken wings i will fly in another way? for years i spent dreaminf wishing and praying for one man to take me into his arms. and within the past 2 months if not more the name hasnt even crossed my tounge untill tonight while thinking. what i was thinking was how my feet and knees have weakend for a pair of greenish blue eyes. thinking of how just once i would love to wake up to thoses. when my thought crossed this path...i forgot the 4 years of my life...and i natalia remember everything.
but patrick so different, so fresh... like a breeze that smells like home, clean and warm. and it's funny because like me he takes deep breathes randomaly while with me like he is almost taking in the love i have...
and then i worry when i dont see him...what if's wander....
and it's only normal. and for me of course...
patrick is a beautiful man, handsome and sweet...
and i always think of myself as natalia, plain jane...i knwo i am not image wise...but inside? in secure foolish girl...i think of myself as just tal. the one cheated on, the one used, the one hurt, the one alone....but now i am not alone...
but i think, what was wrong with me to begin with?
my stomach turns everytime i see K. i want to cry and yell all at once...and i hold me chin up.
hell if i saw J...i dont know what i would do...possibly try and kill him...or just have just astomach ache the bathroom would be my only friend.
but patrick...is it possible? i keep thinking...maybe he is a dream...a thing a person i created and then suddenly found. like a blue pebble within millons of gray. patrick...is a dream...
so good to me...so like me...
and i care so much already...but is it alright i worry i could loose it all? is it ok i think another girl could be it? or he would think well all these fish why this small one?

idk. maybe i am thinking like this because its 3 am...who knows...

oh well i should try to sleep right?

]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/14981118/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/14981118/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 06:02:36 PDT but then you get up because you need to

and you listen to a song...and relize why does the day have to be bad just because of other bad things. why do i need to be upset?
i didnt do anything wrong. chin up shit aint needed here. i feel good...alittle tired but good...
sure i only went through a box of tissues last night...but i am still here living breathing...and i know i can be happy. at least i know that. i am tired of acting like my hum drum life is horrible it was once. and it has been but i am alive. it didnt kill me. it hurt but hell i have broken tech 6 bones. and they all healed a little off but still they only hurt when its about to rain and thats kinda a nice warning .

so with my heart i patch its little bones together and i will wait till it mends. but i am not sad. i didnt cause anything...
and maybe right now it is better i am single so i can be natalia.
just natalia.
and i am happy with that cause i have my whole life to find someone perfect and like meggy said "you are a good person" and i am sure i have done my nasty things like anyone but i dont care anymore.

right now i am who i am. and thats who people should worry about not my past.
hell i am not even worried about it...and i always have

-natalia-

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hummm my life?

]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/14779544/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/14779544/ Mon, 24 Sep 2007 21:41:24 PDT
i feel like i am not going to go anywhere with it right now.
i feel like shit about my work out of no where tonight.


*sigh* i need my karl...cause i feel like i am going to cry right now...

]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/14598771/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/14598771/ Wed, 12 Sep 2007 04:55:02 PDT
i go and try and be polite and treat someone nicely and they come and bite me in the fucking ass cause they think they know who i am.
well la de dah....people dont know me and ever the closest of people dont know me.
so do me a favor and shut up cause momma didnt raise no fool!!!

gosh!!! ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/14495880/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/14495880/ Tue, 04 Sep 2007 23:08:50 PDT
please? ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/14482466/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/14482466/ Tue, 04 Sep 2007 05:31:12 PDT
like a dog

feeling better slowly
i will have alot of new DA's shortly
so get excited

blah...sickness blows ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/13742369/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/13742369/ Sun, 15 Jul 2007 09:04:57 PDT
i want to start getting my name on the map i am paying to have a website designed and thats where you come in my fans and friends here on DA.
i need you help on my photo picks for my website.

i need you to go through and choose my best photos the ones you love as well as on here i need to have people look through the dreaded myspace.
[link]

you have no idea how much i need YOUR help.
i want to become famous with my work and you my fans and friends are what make someone known.
not only can you help me here but you can also help me in alot of other places as well as here you can help me on JonesSoda by voting my pictures. at Jonessoda.com you can go to the gallery and look up Natalia DeLong and vote me onto a bottle.
i am going to need your help and everyone elses. stand by me?


-natalia delong

thanks to you
Fans and Friends. ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/13518791/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/13518791/ Wed, 27 Jun 2007 23:05:48 PDT

yah i was the 28th baby born this very day on a full moon...

and i was the only redhead in the entire hospital

neat huh... ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/13123598/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/13123598/ Mon, 28 May 2007 09:56:47 PDT i have gone back to being me to a ponit.
but not what i wanted.
a part of me i am afaird has started all over.
i think i keep myself from starting to feel for anyone and i rush like crazy into things i shouldnt. i dont know how i am being like this isnt a female sposed to be the one who wants things slow?
no one is telling me to calm down...no one is telling me that they are worried
not even my parents, yah ,y dad got up at 2am looking for his car but me??? no...
and again they leave me home...all off to do their thing without me.
i didnt do anything wrong.
fuck this...
i have no family. no mom or dad. i mean my father hasnt liked me since i moved in and i continue to piss my mother off and i dont care about her...i just want out of this world. i want to be happy with someone but thats impossible for me.
i cant even care about anyone.
i cant even care about myself.
sure i love him...but it doesnt matter at all if that person cant love you back...its not love then.
its not.
a crush maybe w.e.
ehhh
its all gone to hell.

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thank you dear god.
i ended last monday

so yah! ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12830706/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12830706/ Thu, 03 May 2007 17:05:00 PDT
i am so dead i dont want to do anything that takes thinking i want mindless things to do.
i just start to think and cry and cry.

i hate myself.
i hate my life.
i hate everything.

leave my everything box alone ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12597114/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12597114/ Sat, 14 Apr 2007 19:39:51 PDT
REMEMBER

Quae Tibi Nocere Possont,
etian te adivvare possont.

(What Can Harm You Can
Also Help You.)

you laughed at how stupid i was once.when you
aww-ed at my words or laughed and said "right now"
or knowing i liked you made you believe. remember me
trying to kiss you, once, twice, three million times a
miss.

"no matter what you do i will understand basically is
what i am saying, i am learning more of who you are
then you probably think and i am ENJOYING every
moment of it. so either way I AM HERE."

"i can't forget you and i know never in a million
years i would forget you, i would still cry
when ever i smell your colonge and touch my nose
when ever i look in the mirror and wanna wack myself
in the head everytime i would say Whatever or
say something that sounds like you. I COULDNT
FORGET YOU."

"it was that u really liked me and that made my day better
knowing someone did, but when you went out with him,
u didnt like me. and i was also mad at parts of you.
but idk."

"i know you dont, but seriously i could walk out of the picture,
i know you dont want me to say that but i have to,
i dont want this to be hard for you i can handle it if you
and her were together i personally want you just to be happy,
thats all i worry about is you being able to smile and i mean really
smile not your fake little one, plus i might not even see you much anymore
with classes changing...it's possible to forget...i know you dont want me
saying this but it's the only thing i know to say plus to see you happy would
me the world to me.
I dont want u to forget.
I dont want to forget u."

"but hun maybe you and me should stop for awhile...maybe to
kiss her could tell who you want/need or w.e.
idk,
id miss u then
a lot."

"shy can be sexy.
well if you think shy is sexy then we
are set for life."

I SAVE THINGS SO I REMEMBER BEING IN....

so leave my everything box alone ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12543955/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12543955/ Tue, 10 Apr 2007 18:32:16 PDT
that you really should fix with help and the right glue but you dont want to tell anyone cause your parents will get mad?
its kinda like that with the Josh/ex thing
i know i should wait but i miss him big time...and it would be nice to hear him laugh at me or me laugh at him...


PS; for those that dont know my uncle has terminal cancer and i am feeling like the crying is all gone but i still wanted to let people know thats why i have been so down lately

*sigh* love sucks ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12437525/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12437525/ Mon, 02 Apr 2007 21:38:58 PDT
i drove home in the fog from the pursuit of happyness movie i watched at school till midnight tonight
and i remembered the quote that got me to cry "And it was at that time that I thought about Thomas Jefferson writing that Declaration of Independence. Him saying that we have the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I thought about how he knew to put the 'pursuit' in there, like no one can actually have happiness. We can only pursue it."
maybe i give up pursuing it...maybe i am just done...
i have no hopeful bone left.
i look sad because i am sad.
i fight.
and i cant win.
my life is like the fog i drove through...one set of light guiding me forward no where else following the lines. i spent money todayi shouldnt have.
and i just ehhh...
i dont want to have to worry anymore about my family...let alone myself.
i have cried three nights in a row holding on to my phone. with not a single god damn call.
and here i am.
if i look sad i am.
and if you ask if i am ok? and i reply i am fine i am not.
i wanted to drive to boston tonight so badly. but there is no one there...
"he couldnt be that man i adore. I dont know him anymore."
i have no one. i have me thats it.
everything is shit.
it just is.
i feel ponitless more and more.
i can act happy.
and i hope a car hits me and takes me out...or something.
just let me rest in a bed.
for a few months or something take meout of my world.
take me out.
ehhh.

]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12420804/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12420804/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 18:18:23 PDT
you know that need of someone that happens...?
that need of needing someone as much as they need you that no matter what all you have to do is call and they stop for a second of their life for a second of yours?
i have bottled all my pain for years and it's finally pouring out
all the work and all the fighting i have done to be strong....
for a little person i have always sucked it up so someone else didnt need tohandle it
i was the girl who walked in the bathroom and if i saw a girl crying i would hug her no matter who she was...even if she and i hated each other i would lean to hug her. Tasha knows that i am like this. i barly knew her but i knew i needed to hug her and hold her.
Pat P: you've just got so much on ya though, not fair
as i said to him I always have.
if you look at all taht i have held and never talked to about to anyone all that i have fought and never cried the panic attackes the black out where i cut myself.
the bath tub after my break up. the slamming walls the dealing on my own the feeling bad for letting peope see me cry. the needing...

and then being left when i call for help everytime. i called on men, on family, on teachers, siblings, friends....and then when i dont want it the force themself on me for a bit untill i tell them to go away and the ones i want to pay attanetion are busy or its the wrong time so what am i sposed to do....

i pushed away the one person i have cared the most about other then family because of what people said and what i told myself, he doesnt care he never will he says he does but idk. he doesnt get what i ahve dealt with
BEING CALLED HIS GIRL, THE OLD MARRIED COUPLE the i have someone you should meet and me asking who and sayign i dated him!
the people not knowing we even dated, the people telling me to move on....the peopl etelling me that they wont fight to get to me because of my BLOGS AND HIM....
dont you get it i fight you in my mind everyday.......
i fight calling you when i need you and when i give up....
i call and find out it was ponitless...

I NEEDED YOU...last night...

i needed someone...i needed my dad not to ask to come in...i needed my damn cat to cuddle with me....he hates cuddling....

i dont want anymore hospital tips, i dont want this bull anymore...i have dealt with everything....EVERYTHING....
heart break and i death and i just keep wishing ti apon myself the death and the sickness the bipolar and the dipressed and the car to have through me out the window and pinned me that night....

i want to give up...and everytime i try to quicken the pase of my death i cry more and scream into pillows and ask WHY,,,,

why couldnt you have just talked me down....why...cant i have a friend like me...
i give up...i am going to go pout or whatever people call it...
i am in my pain again.

everythign ha sbe wrong ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12411444/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12411444/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 05:14:35 PDT
my uncle is going to die. the cancer is back...i have about maybe 2 years with him here left.
wtf.

this is my life.

life sucks ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12381372/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12381372/ Thu, 29 Mar 2007 20:28:53 PDT
for a second i would really like a guy to be honest with me
the one guy i have cared and worked so hard for to just say it
but i dont think he will.
and here i am heartbroken again...
i let myself fall for another guy and i edited out my own ex to start a new and the guy wouldnt stop talking about his own ex so here i am miserable, missing once more the guy i have cared about for almost 4 years...

and i cant speak to him without getting frustrated with maybe myself or maybe him idk...

i am just ergh

what is a girl to do? ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12324144/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12324144/ Sun, 25 Mar 2007 14:10:01 PDT
JM: 5 things that make you who you are. your religous views, your parents, your perfect day at the beach, your passion for art, and your favorite ice cream dish
QuirkyCutey7: what makes you think ice cream makes me who i am
QuirkyCutey7: kinda random thing
JM: because your random
JM: so why not put a random thing at the end

why does he have to know me so well...
and why do i have to make myself hate him
i care about him so much i am forcing myself not too.
he is what i have always thought was worth it and now i just keep thinking no he isnt worth the time i give.
i just dont understand...
here i am pushing for the no pushing i cant love him not anymore.
and yet deep inside me i cant feel this nagging need
even if we did date my parents would hate him untill he proved to them that he has changed...
even if we did
idk
what would happen
i am not sure if me and him would be happy or if we would just kinda stand and shug. or if it would be like a cop out...like well marriage is all thats left.
would we be in love?
i think we would but who knows i am not really worrying about it cause i dont even know if i love him anymore. i dont feel it anymore.
i dont even get jealous when i see pictures or even cry...
i just knida shug my shoulders and change the page i am looking at...
i feel for him and i miss him
but he is not mine.
never was...
i was his
i gave that to him people used to call me Josh's Girl...i was labeled that without even knowing.
i still think about when i was told that and how angry i got and yethow sad as well because i wasnt anymore...now i just think maybe i dont want to be. all this time thats all i have ever wanted in life...was to be with him and now i dont care...
i know i would cry still if i lost him in death. but i just dont feel right now...
i stopped partly the last time i saw him
i just kinda felt like i did will all the other guys like nothing.
just a girl he would kiss and send off never saying SHE THAT GIRL IS MINE.
and i love knowing that.
and he would tell me, "your my girl"
and yah no...
so here i am just kinda of sitting knowing the one person i loved, the one person who knows the most about me in the one person i cant feel for right now.
it doesnt hurt it just feels empty.
i push away to protect him more then me too.
and i stare at his screen name...feeling something...and smiling...just his screen name and i know i still care about him maddly...
but i jknow i shouldnt.
i know i shouldnt.
there is no way...
no way i could spend a whole day on the beach with him
no way i could go biking with him
or hiking up some mountain...

cause i dont feel like he wants to do it.
let alone with me

knowing you know ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12270191/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12270191/ Wed, 21 Mar 2007 11:09:04 PDT


my fave picture of 2007 so far ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12046666/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/12046666/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 22:05:59 PST


yahoo ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/11822484/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/11822484/ Wed, 14 Feb 2007 21:16:12 PST
"so everyone sees this girl. shes happy, shes energetic, shes weird, not everyone likes her, people find her annoying, but people dont know her. they see the shades she puts on. they see the smile she wears when she leaves her house. they see her carefree walk, as if everything was wonderful, but the truth is, she isnt walking in a winter wonderland. they dont see her unhappy. they dont see her cry, they dont really know her, they dont even know half of her. she isnt a girl, shes a lady. and theres more to this lady than everyone sees walking around. people dont even see whats right infront of them, sitting 3 desks away. they dont understand that weird can be a good thing also. they dont see her truely smile. they dont see that she gets tired and doesnt always want to continue. they dont see that she really is human. those arent flaws they are gifts."


this was written about me three years ago...and it pretty much still is me today...
so i thought i would add this and leave the writter unknown.

and no i didnt write it ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/11616687/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/11616687/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 20:12:25 PST


me and my dad...yah we the shit!

got to love the boston science museum ]]> ~Quirkycutey7 http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/10056901/ http://Quirkycutey7.deviantart.com/journal/10056901/ Wed, 13 Sep 2006 04:38:50 PDT


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