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]]> ~RachaelGomer http://RachaelGomer.deviantart.com/journal/27459251/ http://RachaelGomer.deviantart.com/journal/27459251/ Sun, 27 Sep 2009 23:01:52 PDT Deciding to not care, or to hope.
I choose hope.
We'll see.
Are you with me?

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hmmm.
life prove me wrong okay, stay good regardless of time and distance and what not

]]> ~RachaelGomer http://RachaelGomer.deviantart.com/journal/26547177/ http://RachaelGomer.deviantart.com/journal/26547177/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 11:53:38 PDT The first a cynic boy.
The second a girl who desperately wants to change.
The third a girl who wishes not to be forgotten.

They all lead the same life in my opinion. The second girl was a cynical person, she had a major 'who gives a fuck' personality. But then she began to care about everything. She wants to love and be loved. But people can't see her, but for her mistakes. The third girl, well she is cynical and wants to change, but she only wishes to change so others will love her. See, she loves everyone much to freely and has no guard for herself. In my eyes it is a sort of pretend love because she doesn't trust others. How can you love without trust?
The first boy cannot love with out trust. His love life is a paradox. He is guarded with himself and his emmotions and comes off as not giving a fuck.
And then there's me. Haha I just love everyone, I love my few closer than others, but I trust easily and take words at face value. Does that make me weaker or stronger?

It is hard to change, to let people into your life and heart, admit to things that are strange about yourself. Your imperfections. People will love you for it . The beauty and normalcy occupy a very thin band. Imperfection and ugliness have infinite variation and in my eyes are the true beauty.

"Inside every cynical person, there is a disapointed idealist" -George Carlin.

Well pull your panties up, and learn to love. Seriously. The world is not forever against you, if you put it out there it WILL be acknowledged. Everyone these days likes to pretend the are uninvolved and uncaring and nothing bother them, and "oh, they didn't notice." Well I notice everything. So either I am alone in my observation or everyone is pretending so they don't get hurt.
Get hurt.
Life is worth living, the hurt is worth feeling, if love can be felt too.
And if you try to change and someone has the audacity to point a finger, remind them, "hey asshole, you haven't lived my life!"
Caring does not make you a door mat. It gives you more of a propensity to love and be loved.
You know what?
EVERYONE NEEDS TO JUST START CARING PLEASE!

WE make eachother into cynics.
An attitude of scornful or jaded negativity.
a contemptuous mistrust of human nature?
Lighten the fuck up people!
Mean it when you say "I love you"
Believe it when people tell you they love you.

It is better to be disapointed by a few people than to mistrust the world.

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Quench my soul. I can contribute as much as possible for others to drink. Allow me to drink from you. “if you got no water how you gonna survive?” This is so symbolic to me. If you have no value, no substance to your person, you are the offscouring of humanity. Stunning centerfold outsides, bare insides. You have nothing inside, you will be left behind, stripped of nothing to parrot, the scrivener dies, wastes away to the machine. The person is virginal and ready for manipulation. See as humans we are born with a natural inclination to be in servitude to others and the need for particular emotions, and a need for this servitude to be reciprocated. But the apple cart is poisoned when a uniformly casuistic, corrupt, selfish mercenary-type person comes along. They realize what emotions to feign and how to practice them meticulously in a form of manipulation to suit themselves.


I have an odd view on achievement, but I believe if you are inherently successful at something the gain is not as great as someone who had to work very hard to be where they are. Humor, is defined in the satire of having so many gifts, and not the slightest idea of where to apply them, and lack of application leads to seeing the triviality of each gift.


Everyone is equal whether they are Black, White, Middle Eastern, or gay. Americans do not truly have only one ‘revailing race’ per say, but a mixture. So we should all behave accordingly.


When life fails you, find a new way. We are resilient. You have power in your bones. You have the freedom to choose to be free. Educate yourself. Love recurrently, contribute to the world. Never let you heart or spirit or heart become to eradicated. Hell, if it’s that bad, pop a bottle or light up, but do something constructive. The aptitude is in your hands. Make up your mind, stick to your guns and be someone.

for the people to say
that we don't wanna fight no more
they'll be no more wars
and our children will play

I’ve figured it out.
I’ve found my way.
Rachael.

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]]> ~RachaelGomer http://RachaelGomer.deviantart.com/journal/17145378/ http://RachaelGomer.deviantart.com/journal/17145378/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 08:39:42 PST (Possibly 4x4 and Long jump too)

Oh and My mom said if she sells a house we can go to toni&guy to get my hair dyed unnatural colors. I'm thinking Hot pink under layer? Comment me your opinion.

But yes, My awesome friend Jorgi (who has hispanic hair) Is going to let me dye the under layer of her hair like Sunny-D orange! And she is like a walking canvas for my tatoos! YES! That really makes me happppppppppppppppppppppy.

I'm now coloring on people's shoes for $10-20. So yeah gimme some shoes to do.

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I am re-reading pride and prejudice. I wish Jane Austen's life hadn't sucked so much. She sure does make reading enjoyable.

Hey since your here and taking the time to read my journal- drop me a comment. I'll talk.

P.S. 6 more days til the end of analog broadcast. Then it will all be HD, so buy your HD tuners before they get really expensive!

I wish bob dylan was young. Then I could date him. That would rock. I just love curly hair. Kind of introspective I guess, but hey.

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I thought of a quote; By me of course!

A word to the wise:
For intended asphyxiation or infatuation, be slow to divulge your secrets, for when the last secret is spun, the admiration is undone.

What I mean is, when people go through short bursts of infatuation with your knowledge of other people, (gossiping) Don't tell it all at once. I will come back to bite you in the form of them moving on. Therefore a 'short burst' of infatuation. But if you are careful, and aware of what you are doing- This can take a turn for asphyxiation.

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I feel so much better though because I have fabulous friends who were all totally there for me!

I ran 4 miles, so I feel refreshed and warm. Then we had burgers and I just finished my gummy bears. Today is a good day.

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As if that wasn't shocking enough aparently he makes fun of me everyday at lunch calling me a guy.

And he didn't have the guts to tell me he didn't like me. Wow, this is officially the first time my heart has been ripped out and rubbed around on the ground. Way to go. Congratulations to you. This sucks so much.

Oh well, he must be blind. Me and my friends will go spit on his door knobs lol so every time he opens the door... hahaha

]]> ~RachaelGomer http://RachaelGomer.deviantart.com/journal/16523886/ http://RachaelGomer.deviantart.com/journal/16523886/ Tue, 22 Jan 2008 15:48:48 PST But about 10 minutes in to my lesson girls from my squad came in crying and beat up. Some mom went awire and was attacking them as they came out.
The police had to come. My friend called me, she was hurt too, the police took my phone and questioned her. I finished my lesson and went home by about 11 pm.
Needless to say, after seeing my friends get wailed on I didn't school today.

At any rate. Recovering from not heartbreak, more like confused heart.
I will no longer sit back on the guy I like. I'll tell you how it goes!

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I believe Marijuana should be legal- but not like he does. The state has no right and it is not their sole duty to control the people lives and decisions! Civil disobiedience people! What the youth of America needs, [as I am sure many, many teenagers want Marijuana legal so they can smoke it] is a strong, honest drug program in school.

Americans need knowledge of the effects of drugs to guide them, not laws to prevent them!
However, if Marijuana became legal, I highly doubt it would mean free-for-all-take-up-smoking-as-your-habit. It would be more along the lines of, yes doctors it's ok to give your cancer patients who are on Chemo therapy Medical marijuana.

Though I am pretty sure it's just Bravado, I don't know where a 16 year old boy would be getting marijuana.

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So I really started liking this guy, exactly like the one I wished for in the blog Feelings.
Well I got up my nerve and told him. Hurray! He likes me too. All is well, I spend the rest of my day hopping around, really excited that I have actually found what I am looking for and more.

And More.

Way More!

His 'Friend' starts talking to me, well this 'friend' is his fucking boyfriend! Gosh, I don't know what happend! I don't understand. Why did this happen? I didn't want him and his partner to fight so I just told him I inferred incorrectly that he was single. Don't fall for the yellows, they will break your heart.

Some people prefer blue, that would be me, I like boys, others pink- girls, and yellow. I just lost my head to a yellow. Heck I woke up as soons as the sun did this morning...I am losing sleep over this guy!

I guess this just goes to show you that I am not ready to date, or I have weird taste, could I handle dating someone who was interested in both? I think I could, but that may just be because I really like him. Unattainable.

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My second favorite feeling is when it rains when I am running. It feels amazing to be hot and sweating and then chilling rain and wind soaks your clothes. It's freeing when you get to go inside and change into some drier clothes.

Running for me, is a way to let go of things. I don't know how some people can hate running. Running is a cingular sport that allows you to think about your issues, day dream think about school- anything. I love times when my mind isn't tethered to one subject and I can just wander thinking shamelessly about what ever it is in the world I want.

When I read twilight, new moon, or eclipse. It got me into vampires and ....ed..ward. I really like edward cullen. Although it's depressing, I don't know any Tall, fast, red-haired, Cursive writing, charming, dedicated boys. That's why I am so fond of that book.

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She notes I have odd taste, yes I do. Unpopular taste- but who knows me half as well as me? When I considered how different I am behaving, it seems like a big deal. I am a very boisterous person and in my art class, I am most comfortable so the whole class gets to hear what I am thinking.

Other times (Crush is in my atmosphere times) I am quiet and fairly normal. I guess if you didn't know me as well as Emily knows me you couldn't tell the difference. I don't say much and try to look away. My mom says it's not that I have an issue attracting- I just go for the odd ones. He's not odd in my eyes.

Well, for someone who always knows what to say (Modern Oratory 1st Place) I honestly don't know what's with me when I get around him! He's good at most of the same things as me, so somedays I feel threatened. I don't really hide that I like him. But I'm not exactly blatant. I haven't told him. But I have talked about it right infront of him, so if he hasn't gotten the point of my message at this juncture- he's either ignorant of my presence or he has selective hearing.

I know he knows though because other guys have told me he gets teased about it. Where did this become so awkward. The moment I saw him. Why? Because I just can't be myself. It all boils down to psyhcological signs I know are above my head that I can't decode. I know I want to be myself, and If I want anyone else to like me, I would want them to like me as being myself.

No one, I mean no one has every made me this cataleptic! Being a teenager is some kind of cruel joke the world provides to make it into adulthood successfully. I hate this. You know what. I am going to be myself all day when school gets back in. Wow. That is going to be difficult.

If he dosen't like me as I am, then that's as good a motive as any to MOVE ON!
Boys suck. I'd rather just run off into the sunset with Edward Cullen. Oh, what's that you just said? He' s just a character in a book?! @#$%! You've spoilt my innocence like claggart spoiled billy budds.

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I ran 3 miles yesterday. I also did 300 crunches and 50 push ups. I'm a buff man! jkjjkkk.

Anyways. I get off break next monday. Yuckk. I miss interaction with more than my parents, bffs, and dogg.


Kisses. Rae.

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[link]


Laugh your butts. off.

lmao

rflmao

^^^^
Those sound like a different language huh?

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I am itching to get my viewbook from McGill University. I have every intention of taking full advantage of my quebecoise canadian citizenship!


But for the time being I am patiently waiting for the course catalog to infiltrate the borders of the US and land on my door step.

As well as this, I have been unusually productive today- I did like 8 loads of laundry in 5 hours, made cookies and drew a picture of Nathan Ferraro. Mike Kirsh told me Nathan was italian but his little brother is blonde and blue-eyed. WTF?
Oh well you should check out their band -A Step too Far, their pretty good ay? <(haha)

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We were shopping and there were no changing rooms; So the guy at hot topic held a mirror up for me! The service was great. We ended up having to get a jacket off the manequin because there were no smalls. lol. The Manequins hair fell off.


And then we went to the vans store and I got the kind you can color on. (Yay!) The guy was very patient, I had a lot of candy in my jacket and had to dump it on the counter to find my money...Yeah...Well, Thanks For Reading!

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The Next band that totally rocks is The Midway State. I saw their music video on the international music feed [imf]. I didn't know the name of the band and went insane trying to find picture. (Pictures would be a dead give away because Nathan Ferraro is a white guy with a totally hot afro.) But eventually I saw them on imf again, and discovered they were possibly the greatest music I have ever heard. They only have 4 songs on an EP because they are very new, but I assure you, the music won't get old. They have an excellant drummer who responds to all emails/myspace messages etc. They actually do their own fan mail!

Last but not least is Sum 41. I found them because Stevo32 produces/directed the Midway State's first video. Sum41 is very high energy kind of political-punk. They don't like the American Government and they are definitely going to tell you about it.

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