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Putting that aside...

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My hero












Miku version
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]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/27951589/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/27951589/ Sun, 25 Oct 2009 00:28:20 PDT
]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/27570321/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/27570321/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 02:42:55 PDT
[ ] you love hoodies
[X] you love jeans
[X] dogs are better than cats
[X] it's hilarious when people get hurt and fall
[X] you've played with/against boys on a team
[ ] shopping is torture (depends what I'm shopping. If I go shopping at an electronics warehouse, then I'm like a kid in a candy store... lol)
[ ] sad movies suck (only if they have stupid plot)
[X] you own a XBOX, (I owned a sega saturn, super nintendo, ps1, ps2, ps3, xbox, xbox360)
[X] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[ ] at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter (Actually, early on I wanted to be a pastor -_-)
[X] you owned a DS PS2 or Sega
[X] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[ ] you watch sports on TV
[X] gory movies are cool (SAW)
[X] you used to go to your dad for advice ('used to'? I still do...)
[X] you have at least 1 trophy of a sport (tae known do, it's what every koreans learn...)
[X] You used to play Yu-Gi-Oh
[X] baggy sweat pants are nice to wear
[ ] it's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[X] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors
[X] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[ ] sports are fun (boring)
[ ] you sometimes talk with food in your mouth (heck no, not only is it embarrassing, it's unhygienic)
[ ] you sleep at night with your socks on
[X] you have fished at least once

TOTAL= 16

YOUR GIRL SIDE

[X] you like to shop (like I said, if it was at an electronic warehouse...)
[ ] you wear eyeliner
[ ] you wear the color pink
[ ] you go to your mom for advice
[X] you consider cheerleading a sport (Man, If you were part of after school sports that rehearses, then you can see why cheerleading is a sport. I've seen a girl get thrown up into the air high as around one and a half a story, and hit the pavement because the thrower/catchers messed up. Same thing with color guard and marching band. people who say they are not a sport obviously never did it, cause if you do, you won't think like that).
[ ] you hate wearing all black
[ ] you like going to the mall
[ ] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[ ] you like wearing jewelery
[ ] you cried watching The Notebook
[ ] skirts are a big parts of your wardrobe
[ ] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[X] you don't like the movie Star Wars
[ ] you are/were in gymnastics
[X] it takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed (It's not because I'm picky, it's just I'm lazy. I take long time to do pretty much everything. around 40 minutes to eat, 20 minutes to shower, 15 minutes to get dressed, etc etc).
[ ] you smile a lot more than you should
[ ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] you care about what you look like majority of the time
[ ] you like wearing dresses
[X] you like wearing body spray/deoderant (Isn't this mandatory? I mean, there is so much you can do by showering. Sure you'll smell ok during like, the first 3 hours after you shower, but during the day specially during summer, when it's hot, and you sweat, you smell. And obviously other people don't want to smell your BO. That is just wrong. Simple cologne or perfume when you go out after you shower is sufficient, and courteous to the people around you)
[ ] you like high heel shoes
[ ] you used to play with dolls as a kid
[ ] you like putting makeup on others
[ ] you like being the star of almost everything

TOTAL= 3

]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/27368208/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/27368208/ Wed, 23 Sep 2009 01:59:33 PDT
No, seriously...

First of all, I drink (source of liver failure and much harm to your liver), and to mention, I drink, ALOT (아놔, 그것도 소주 폭탄주가 아니라 양주, vodka, brandy, whiskey, rum). And second, I smoke, along with I smoke cigars and even hookah (this is major cause I was born with weak lungs, this is crucial lol, smoking hookah and drinking brandy as I write this). Seriously, I will either die with lung cancer, jaw canver, or liver failure hahahaha.

Some people ask 'why do you smoke?' or 'why do you drink?'

Well, I say, it's same as why people have sex. It feels good, and relieves stress. it feels good. It's the way I relieve stress. Life isn't really all fun and games. People need way to relieve stress, and unfortunately, my method is through drinking and smoking (although I didn't touch drugs yet, but this is arbitrary as I have a glass of marijuana stored airtight in my room. But hey, it keeps me going. It lets me take out my stress. Oh well. Here is to early death, CHEERS *laughs like a maniac*

]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/27034134/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/27034134/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 11:37:06 PDT
Anyway, I don't really want to get too closely into that. But what I would like to talk about is, the group activity that has been recently growing in college campuses. Hookah. So for those who don't know what hookah is, it is a type of tobacco smoked out of a tall standing pipe. The pipe has roughly three parts, the top plate which holds the flavored tobacco, the tube that leads to the base which holds the water, and the hose which you smoke it from. Now, no way does hookah considered as drug, as it is still tobacco and since tobacco products aren't categorized as drugs and not yet been outlawed, it is perfectly legal; and with lots of hookah lounges appearing in the areas near colleges (personally, I have a hookah pipe myself, a result of my haste thinking when I saw a hookah pipe for 39.99 and each visit to the hookah lounge costs me around 20, so I figured that just buying a pipe would be cheaper. But I didn't input few factors into the thinking, such as where I would smoke the hookah. Also, smoking hookah in a lounge, and smoking hookah alone is pretty different, the latter being a bit dull cause it does not have the atmosphere of the lounge with the loud music and the handful of the crowd, along with crazy college students dancing to the music sometimes). After trying lots of the things college students do such as drinking, smoking (although I never tried drugs), hookah has grown quite popular along with the students. The first time I tried hookah in a different school's party, when a guy had a hookah pipe as he got it from his father, and around dozen guys and girls sat in the table taking turns on the pipe. One thing I would like to mention, is that hookah is still tobacco, and it is very hazardous to one's health, and one will know why when they take one puff of the hookah. The amount of smoke that results from just one inhaling, is just around 5 times as from taking just one from a normal cigarette.

Well, that was just a rant, but for right now I don't really have much to say. Life is keeping me up and running through hoops right now, trying to fix my problems in my classes, trying to deal with the school's financial mess, all while still trying to keep some fun to keep my sanity all while this recent unholy heat is frying me. Oh yea, and I still need to take drivers school for the stupid ticket I got for driving 30ft without my headlights on...

]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/25981375/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/25981375/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 09:15:16 PDT
not really that excited -_-;; Yea I'm going to bars and drink periodically, but since I've decided not to round trip my relatives, I've realized I'm bored shitless currently. Yea there are manga/manhwa rooms which lets me borrow a book for 30 cents, and for 6 bucks I can stay the whole day, but frankly, from last year and till now, I've read all the manhwa/manga in my local places... So I've moved onto novels. I don't want to go sight seeing either, and since I can't get internet accesses easily at my current place of stay(so I goto pc cafe's, but when I do I usually end up playing games all night -_-;; ) so I've practically killed my internet activity (not to mention being behind on all the anime's I've been keeping up with, including checking up on the new seasons...), I actually want to go back already... Problem is, I still have 3 more weeks to go, fuck(and no, I can't rearrange my flight).


Your first ...



Class?
I believe it was a crusader

Transcendant?
I think it was an assasin cross... I can't really remember it well.

Server?
aeRO I believe, was my first "Real" server. The actual first server I played on was a really small private server ran by my big brother's friend and it only had like, 40 users.



Do you prefer ...



Crusader or Knight?
Crusader, seriously, Knights don't really do a good job of tanking.

Wizard or Sage?
WIZARDS, SG+LoV, it takes control and timing, so I enjoy it more.

Priest or Monk?
Monk, no question. One hit, one kill.

it was pretty funny when I hit a knight with a Asura, and I suddenly died along with him/her and went "wtf?" while the knight replied with "40% dmg back skill "

Hunter or Bard / Dancer?
I was never fond with the whole archer class, but I guess I would go with hunters.

Black Smith or Alchemist?
If I thought about this question when I first played RO when the alchemist was out, I would've said BS. But after the homonc patch, I got on to the alchy bandwagon.

Assassin or Rogue?
Assasin. Before 2nd transcendent classes, and when a doppel card was rare, it was the only class that could reach 195 atkspd

Taekwon or Star Gladiator?
Star gladiator

Super Novice or Soul Linker?
Super Novice, it's really versatile being able to use all of the first class skills, and with insta-cast... lol, very fun.

Gunslinger or Ninja?
Anyone who knew me for good time will know the answer to this...

Guns Guns Guns.
Gunslinger is my obvious choice.


Your Favorite ...




Class?
Wizards. I don't like to run 노가다(nogada) and mindlessly kill same level monsters. But with wizards, oh-ho! I could vertical firewall, control, and kill higher lvl monster so it was more interesting(also you can level easily with geos )

Headgear?
romantic leaf, I think was the most headgear I've worn.
a)it's cheap
b)it looks decent

Card?
doppel. Why? If you've seen a mage literary "beat" the crap out of a priest with a +10 rod of hurricane with 195 atkspd, you'd think the same way as I did.

Pet?
Munak! Although I thought of Alice and that other pet (the one with the whip that's into S&M), but munak beats those too *cough*influenceof.ro*cough*

Monster?
That topless female insect monster.

MVP?
That tiger with the pipe. My finest guild MVPing memory (on a low rate server) was with that walking furry smoker.

NPC?
KAFRAKAFRAKAFRAKAFRAKAFRAKAFRAKAFRAKAFRAKAFRAKAFRAKAFRAKAFRA

Town?
Hmmm, I guess popular choice maybe pront, but I never liked that place after it became a road of merchants squatting to sell. Even my intel core duo 6gig ram dual geforce 8800gtx liquid cooling monster computer would lag when I walked down that aisle. Anyway, my favorite town is geffen, kinda relates with my favorite class.

Dungeon?
don't have a particular dungeon I favorite.

Server?
RebirthRO. Sure the GMs were crappy, and there was that whole drama with the founders swindling the donation to buy drugs or something and pay their bills and whatnot, but I've never donated to a server (and never will , if I was willing to pay for playing ro, I would've moved to the official kro in the first place because I have a korean SSN, one of the reasons I was able to play the RO2 open beta, but that turn... ]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/24934572/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/24934572/ Mon, 25 May 2009 00:40:44 PDT
Ahhhh, nothing marks the start of a break like a glass of cocktail and a good stick of a stovie. I work now, and man, it's friggen tough. But I feel really refreshed. It feels like I'm making some progress in life, getting some work experience, finally motivated to do things, learning the value of hard work (ignore the cliche' ). I feel a bit more satisfied with myself these days. I'm actually being more productive with my life, learning things I wish to learn, and this summer break I really want to put more effort on the things I want to do and learn (not just watching anime all day and playing eroge), and I have a long to do list this summer, and I actually feel confident that I'll really work on it this summer.

quick to do list:
Practice more programming in C++ (make some applications)
Draw more (I've been drawing, not confident enough on my drawing level to upload)
Practice playing pool
Get another job for during summer

And my training period of my work finally is over with this week (I now make 50 dollars plus the 10% of sales I make, it's a part time job). I feel really lucky with my work. The boss is a reasonable and understanding (from what I can see so far), and I don't hate the job (and I also have a side job of fixing computers). But one thing I realized since I turned into a college student, is that time goes by very fast(as I mentioned before), and I have so much I want to do, yet so little time(and my tendency to procrastinate hasn't changed much either unfortunately, lol).


Along with that, today is memorial day! Time to hang with my friends, goto kareoke, and have another stovie afterwards w00.

]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/24815075/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/24815075/ Wed, 20 May 2009 12:24:09 PDT
It would be REALLY great if something like this won't happen again... Lol





Oh yea, Final in 12 hours. 40 page essay due in less then *edit*24*edit* hours. ahahahahaha *shoots self*



I figured out why I procrastinate. I found out that I do so because... *shameless self promotion* I'm good at it. The 40 page essay I was talking about that is was due in 24 hours (now in less then 8 hours), I finished in 5 hours. with the help of good ol caffeine. It was crazy, my keyboard was on fire and I was tacking away relentlessly. And I'm pretty sure I will get atleast a B on this paper. and I gotta tell ya, it feels good. Putting the minimal effort to get maximum effect. That is probably the reason I procrastinate probably, and I will most likely keep procrastinating until I fail at it, which I haven't happened yet.

]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/24128083/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/24128083/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 11:26:07 PDT Outcast
[x] You don't have very many friends.
[ ] Often times, teachers forget your name.
[ ] You were always picked last for kickball.
[ ] You don't like to talk a lot.
[x] You tend to avoid mass social activities.
[ ] You don't participate in any extracurricular activities.
[ ] All you wish for is to move away or get a fresh start.
[ ] Your friends have blown you off before.
[ ] You sit alone in most of your classes.
[ ] You have a feeling that once you leave high school or college, nobody is going to remember you.
[x] You hold interest in activities that other people find strange.
[ ] You have a large sexual background.
[x] People don't find you friendly.
[ ] You hold extreme hate towards another high school stereotype.
[ ] You eat alone at lunch. (ball my friends are busy or gone at lunch D: )
Total = 4

Party Animal
[x] Let's face it: you like to party. (if it's a drinking party, yes)
[x] You party every other weekend.
[ ] Or every weekend?
[ ] You've been going to frat house parties since early high school.
[ ] You're the defending beer bong champion.
[ ] You know the best hook-ups in the state...world.
[ ] Everybody who's anybody goes to the same parties you go to.
[ ] You've hooked up at parties.
[x] You spend time getting ready for parties.
[x] You've passed out from being too drunk.
[x] You've partied all night.
[x] You've sneaked out of the house to party.
[x] Actually, your parents really don't care if you party or not.
[x] You're pretty much nocturnal.
[ ] You like to go clubbing.
[x] You and your friends always party hop. (usually if the initial party turns out to be a bust)
[x] You've crashed a party before.
[ ] One way or another, you've wound up naked in front of everybody at a party.
[x] You've thrown up from drinking too much.
[x] You've done something that you regret at a party.
[ ] You can dance.
[ ] You're friends with a lot of people older than you.
Total = 12

Scene Kid
[ ] You know what sXe and hXc actually mean.
[x] You have/had a obsession with dinosaurs, robots, and Pokemon. (I still have like, the cartons of pokemon cards... gonna sell em later on ebay or something)
[ ] You idolize Jeffree Starr.
[ ] People have called you scene before.
[ ] You spend at least an hour getting ready to take pictures of yourself for your MySpace.
[x] You have a mirror pic.
[x] You listen to bands that most people have never heard of.
[ ] You enjoy going to shows.
[ ] You only go to shows for the sake of going to shows, not the music.
[x] Your hair is multicolored.
[ ] You accessorize your hair with kiddie barrettes and bows.
[ ] Fashion is one of the most important things that define you.
[ ] You mosh.
[ ] You often mix vintage with modern.
[ ] Your MySpace picture captions are sad lyrics to sad songs.
[ ] All of your friends are scene.
[ ] You don't know many of the people on your friends list in person.
[x] You take angled pictures of yourself.
[x] You enjoy photography.
Total = 6

Prep
[x] You pop the collar.
[ ] You won’t go near the Goths.
[x] You own at least one thing from a designer store.
[\] You are very clean cut.(Depends, when I get a hair cut, it's clean, but I let it grow and it gets shaggy)
[ ] You are squeamish.
[ ] People have called you preppy before.
[x] You never leave the house without putting on cologne/perfume (This is just matter of personal hygiene... Even if you shower, you sweat, so unless you want to smell like BO, cologne is needed)
[ ] You have a lot of money.
[ ] You know who LC is.
[ ] You watch shows like The OC, The Real World, The Hills, and Laguna Beach.
[x] One of your favorite stores is Abercrombie & Fitch or American Eagle Outfitters.
[ ] You're afraid to set foot into Hot Topic.
[ ] (Girls) You carry a purse wherever you go.
[x] You need to wake up at least an hour before school so you can get ready. (this is more like cause I'm slow but... ok)
[ ](Girls) You do not leave the house without make up.
[x] You are content overall with how your life is going.
Total = 6.5

Band Geek
[x] You have played an instrument before.
[x] You still play an instrument.
[x] You are/were in regular Band.
[x] You are/were in Jazz Band.
[x] You are/were in Marching Band
[x] Most of your friends are in band.
[x] The band room/band hall is your second home.
[x] You enjoy listening to classical music on occasion.
[ ] You aspire to be a Drum Major.
[ ] You've made out with somebody on a band bus or at a band competition.
[x] You have trouble getting your non-band friends to go near the band room.
[x... ]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/23601998/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/23601998/ Wed, 11 Mar 2009 00:44:16 PDT There is no fourth line on the 18th page on the book nearest to me >_>

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?
O2

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Some animal show

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
midnight

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
11:40

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
nothing, it's dead in the night currently

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
2 hours ago, I came outside to drive back home for an hour and a hal


8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Devart message centre

9. What are you wearing?
nothing except my under garments

10. Did you dream last night?
no, I dream only when I was to dream (or when I have nightmares)

11. When did you last laugh?
3 hours ago, with my friend playing pool

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?
post it, smoke detector, calender, post it, post it, post it, keys, duct tape, paper clips, spider webs...

13. Seen anything weird lately?
A checkpoint where the police were examining every car in the middle of a freeway.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
Interesting

15. What is the last film you saw?
What, as in the film film? cause film != movie.

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Parts for a super computer

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know about.
I have a hat

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
unlimited resource

19. Do you like to dance?
You lost me...

20. George Bush:
Monkey

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
There is a complicated naming system in our family, and probably my daughter will have a name derived from that complicated naming system

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
see question number 21

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
I already am planning for one, so yes.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
Three words. -"You did well"

25.Tag six people who must also do this in THEIR journal:
see question number 5+pow(log(10),1/2)%5*(rand()%10+1)

edit (where I added another survey

How much of your teenage life have you messed up ?

[x] Gotten detention. (chewing gum in class)
[x] Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[x] Gotten suspended. (brought a fake knife to school)
[x] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[x] Gotten caught cheating on a test.

Total: 5

[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times (during highschool senior, I always arrived late to first period and I ditched my zero period about 80% of the time)
[x] Didn't do homework over 5 times.
[x] Turned at least 3 projects in late
[x] Missed school cause you felt like it. (yea, I ditched like 40 days one year)
[x] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.

Total : 5

[x] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school. (faked illness)
[x] Texted people during class. (always)
[x] Passed notes. (stopped after I got a cell lol)
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.

Total : 5

[] Pulled down the fire alarm
[x] Went on myspace , facebook , xanga , Gaia etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took pictures during school hours
[x] Called someone during school hours. (calling my friend to ditch together lol)
[x] Listened to an iPod , CD , etc. during class (had hair that covered my ears, and earphones with wires that went behind the ears)
Total : 4

[x] Threw something at the teacher.
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code. (I wore a shirt with profanity unconsciously)
[x] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class. (I ate ramen in class regularly, brought a cup ramen and hot water in a thermus. My german teacher let me, it was awesome)

Total : 5

[x] Gotten a call from school. (for ditching too much)
[x] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school.
[x] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[x] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.
[x] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear.

Total : 6

[x] Faked your parents signature (always the day after I ditched. The friggen office people don't even check anyways)... ]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/22975468/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/22975468/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 00:10:16 PST
That's all it comes to my mind right now. What the F**K, really. My brother has some issues, MENTAL issues.

So, my college isn't far from my home, so I commute. Same goes for my brother. Me and my brother have seperate rooms. My parents sleep on the bed in the living room (we live in a 2 bed apartment). My brother, for SOME REASON BY GOD I DO NOT KNOW WHY is afraid of the friggen dark. What's the problem with that? A brother that is afraid of the dark? Well, first off, he is a junior in college. Second of all, he can't sleep in the dark alone, so he either ask if he can sleep in my room (which I always deny), sleep with the lights on (this is costing a fortune in the electrical bills), or sleep next to our mother in the living. It's gay, it's wrong, it's friggen stupid, you're over 21, and you can't still sleep alone in the dark so you sleep next to your mom still. You had some FU*KED up childhood or something.

For so long, I have beared with, saying that it's my brother, and never told anyone. But now, FU*K THAT, he drew the last friggen straw. That's why I'm posting it here, I need somewhere to vent, but if I post it on facebook, all my friends will know which is not a good idea. SO, what's really annoying, is that whenever I go to the living at night when he sleeps (I'm a night person, and I perposefully got night classes), so at 1 am in the morning, I go out of room for basic necessities such as water/midnight snack/bathroom. But my brother is a light sleeper, so he wakes up everytime I come out of my room.

So this where the problem begins. He always yells at me saying "I have school tomorrow! Go back in! Don't come out!" But wtf? He has his own room, why can't he just sleep in his room where he won't be bothered? Oh yea, he is afriad of the dark and has to sleep next to his mommy. What's MORE annoying is, that won't awknowledge that he is afraid of the dark either. When I ask him "Why can't you sleep alone in your room like I do? I have no problems!" He goes "I don't know why but I can't sleep well in that room!" If that's not bullsh*ting, I don't know what it is. He won't admit. He is too "EMBARRESSED" to admit. Yet he doesn't fix his problem. He comes whining out to the living room because he is a F**KING cowarding PU$$Y. I can't stand it anymore, especially after what he pulled today.

I go out around midnight to the living room as usual, cause I'm hungry since I only had 1 meal at lunch. I goto the fridge, and start pulling out some milk to just have some cereal cause it's simple and makes the least amount of noise (I could've gotten that leftover shrimp and microwave it, but I was TRYING to be considerate). I didn't slam the door, I didn't drop anything, I even tip toed to the location. Yet however my brother woke up. The first thing out of his mouth was "What the heck are you doing? Don't you know by now I wake up early and have school?" So I say "I'm just getting some cereal, just ignore me." But he kept complaining, "Why can't you just let me sleep in peace for once?" ...Ok, I got annoyed, and say "Well, if you sleep in your room you have, we wouldn't have this problem." Then what's more amazing is, that he just yells and goes "WHAT THE F**K DID YOU SAY?! DON'T YOU TALK BACK TO ME LIKE THAT, F**K YOU!!!" Now for a moment I'm just speechless. What does this good for nothing brother done SOOO well that he can yell at me like that? So I reply "Well? You're the one who chooses to sleep in the living room, which is entitled for everyone in the family to enter and leave, instead of telling me not to come out into the living room, why can't you just sleep in your room?" Now from here my brother don't even reason, and goes openly: "HEY, F**K YOU, F**K YOU A$$HOLE *flips middle finger audiobly*, FU*K YOU!!!"

I won't go any farther, but WTF IS THAT?!? YOU'RE THE F*CKING PU$$Y THAT CAN'T SLEEP ALONE IN THE DARK AT NIGHT SO YOU HAVE TO CRAWL NEXT INTO YOUR MOMMY SO YOU CAN SLEEP. WHY THE F*CK ARE YOU PUTTING THE BLAME ON ME?! If you goto your room (of which I let him choose first which of the two rooms he would've like to have) and sleep in YOUR ROOM like all the rest of the NORMAL people above the age of 21 without any mental issues are doing, me coming out of my room to grab a bite WOULDN'T BE A DAMN PROBLEM.

God, I had to let that out. Holding it in isn't good for you =_=

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But putting that aside, me being an computer enthusiast and a computer science major at my school, I have some exciting news (for me anyways lol)! I got a new computer!!! MUWAHAHAHAHA!! But not just any computer, I got mine in components (which means I bought the parts separately and built a custom system, but then again, I never bought a pre-built system for myself anyway, always built them out of scrap parts >_> ), and built one that I really like, and it's more powerful then my previous ones. So a quick specifications about the computer, and I'll go on with this rant >D

The case is a cooler master cosmos (a full tower case, which I always wanted), with a nvidia 790i sli xfx motherboard, with a intel core 2 duo E8500 (3.16ghz) processor, with 6gb (soon to be 8 >D) of ram, 1tb Maxtor 220gb WD(the WD mybook use to be a external HDD but I took it out of it's case and turned it into an internal HDD) 60gb internal HDD (along with the 1tb hitachi and 1tb WD, that's total of 3.3tb of data storage I have), 2 graphics card evga 8800gts and 7950gt, 3 dvd burning roms, danger den water cooling system, bfg 550 watt power supply, 1000cc of thermaltake coolant, and Windows Vista 64bit (the 32bit OS has a 4gb ram capacity limit).

I was literary dying with anticipation when I got all the parts all out of the boxes
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With the new full tower cooler master tower standing tall
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So I got started right away, putting the motherboard onto the casing
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Then fitted the water block, the D5 pump, the tubing, the T-line, 2 graphic card, power supply, cd rom, radiator...
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And after figuring out the tubing (which was a pain, because the length of the tubes didn't fit well, so I had to switch the tubes with each other, and cut a bit off), I took out the water cooling system and started to fill it with coolant (no reservoir yet, using just a T-line at the moment but I'm planning on getting a reservoir and installing it on the one rom bay that is left). It took about 2 hours to bleed the air out of the system enough to install the cooling system back.
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And now the finished product
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Yet however when fixing or building a computer, one knows that nothing EVER goes the way to you want it to go. Fortunately, the great hardware fairy was smiling on me so that none of the hardware had any problems, and I could assemble my computer without much hitch. However, the software fairy must've had cramps or been going through PMS or something, cause all hell came lose when I started to install the OS and set all the software.

First it went all smoothly. Window 32bit XP SP2 Korean version installed flawlessly as usual, and I got my computer up and running. Sounds all good right? Sounds TOO good. Later I realized this was the calm before the storm. I ran the "dxdiag" line in the run.exe, to bring up the core specs. The processor checked out fine, graphic checked out fine, ram checked out 3.5gb that was fin- wait... 3.5gb? I was pretty sure I installed 2x 2gb corsair and 2x 1gb kingston on my motherboard, and yep, it is plugged in fine. So while I was running through my system trying to figure out what was wrong, I googled in effort to find a solution (people who come crying saying that they need help, goto google first, it's really helpful and you can find all, or alot of your answers there), and which I did. Turns out that the 32bit operating system (if you don't know the difference between 32bit and 64bit operating system, google it or wiki it, I don't feel like writing out another two pages in this already half a football field long journal) had a 4gb total memory cap. What does that mean? the operating system won't read any memory beyong 4gb, and this was including ram, graphic memory, and processing memory. So hell, what the F**K do I do now? So remember seeing in a thread from a forum which told me about the 4gb cap saying that you can solve the program by switching to a 64bit operating system. I gave it a though, should I go with the 64bit XP? or the 64bit Vista... So I thought what the hell, I'll go with vista, since there was direct x10 and since I had a mon... ]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/22463492/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/22463492/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 02:08:46 PST _> partially because the private servers don't have em -_- well, last time I checked them anyways). Then I started playing pangya portable, dj max portable (yes, I bought a psp), and a new online Korean game called S4 League (I once played on the english server, but then the english server's quality was crap, seriously, it was down half the time and it was boring, whereas the korean server had spanking new weapons and a whole new playing mode, the arcade mode), and I starting looking into the Korean culture more, which I've been not paying attention all this time. By what I've found, it surprised me again, and it also has intrigued me very much so, and along with my visit to Korea last summer, I've come to really miss the country I was born in. So to close this long random rant... I WANNA GOTO KOREA AGAIN OTL (I hope I can get into the study abroad program for Korea...)

note... I STILL HAVE TWO MORE WEEKS OF WINTER BREAK LEFT HAHAHAHA!!

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Anyway, stopping with the whole ranting (holy shit, I wrote all that?!), time for something I made a resolution. I'm going to start drawing. Like MAD. To make up for all the time I lost in high school. So although my art would probably suck (and make you want to stab your eyes out with a dull pen and pencil). I advise please bear with, and do not prosecute me (nobody visits here anyways, so I don't think I have to worry much).

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Crap... College is scaring the living sh*t out of me right now ._. well, at least I got to visit Korea this yar...

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There is a remix version with another singers, and that's really good too.

1. 현재 방영 중인 애니들은 이미 원작으로 접해 본 것들이 대부분이다. (라이트노벨, 코믹스 등
뭐, 반 정도는...

2. 투니버스나 챔프 등에 나오는 더빙판은 못들어 주겠다
저는 영어 더빙 보니까 투니버스가 아니지만. 영어 더빙, 완.전. 캐.안.습.

3.애니 보다가 일어를 익혔다.
이제는 자막 없이 봐요... 영어로 자막 할때도 있었고, 그리고 이재는 후커 갔고 미연시 하니까 카타카나까지 배우고 있는중...

4. 작붕이 눈에 보인다.
작봉이 뭔지... (미국에서 살아서 한글slang 잘 모름.

5. 목소리만 들어도 성우가 누군지 알 것 같다.
이름은 몰라도, 한번 들어본 성우는 대부분 암.

6. 현재 듣고 있는 음악의 50% 이상이 애니, 게임 음악이다.
전 한 70%가 애니/게임 노레...

7. 캐릭터 입버릇을 자주 따라하고 있다.(우그읏, 호에 등
이런 짓 하면... 주위한테 엄청 비난 받아요...

8. 야동보다 야애니나 야겜으로 성욕을 만족시킨다.
내가 아는 동생이 내 devart을 보기 때문애 답못합니다...

9. 미연시나 에로게는 잘못된 장르라고 생각 중이다.
어떤 미친놈이 그러캐 말하나?

10. 집에 범접할 수 없는 포스의 물건을 구비 중이다. (가슴 마우스 패드, 껴안는 베게, 미소녀 티셔츠 등
아니... 이건 좀 숨길때가 없어서, 아직 살수 없슴 (기숙사 들어가면 될거 같은...)

11. 양키 게임은 하기 싫다.
미국 게임? 좋은거 몃개.

12. 2차원의 특정 미소녀들이 내 애인이라고 생각 중이다.
전 아직도 현실에 살아요~~

13. 내가 미소녀에 하앍거리는 모습을 다른 이에게 보여도 창피하지 않다.
친한 사람들 한테는 상관 없는데, 모르는 사람들에게는...

14. 미소녀 게임을 플레이 하지 않아도 CG 때문에 구입을 한다.
난 그냥 귀찬아 CG팩 다운 받는데.

15. 피규어나 미소녀 물품 구입시 밀봉 보관을 자주 한다.
하나 사기는 했지만, 비싸서 더 못삼.. <--거지

16. 취미 관련으로 다른 사람과 크게 다툰 적이 있다.
없음.

17.밖의 모임보단 애니를 보거나 게임을 하러 빨리 집에 가야 한다.
왜? 모임 갔다가 밤에 애니 보고 게임하지. 둘다. 잠 같은건 버려버려~

18. 현실의 이성 친구는 20년 이상 동안 0명이다. (25년 이상동안 이성친구 0명이면 퍼펙트
이건 좀 캐안습. 다행이 아님.

19. 애니도 보고 야겜도 하고 미소녀도 좋아하지만 내가 오타쿠는 아니라고 생각한다.
ㅋㅋㅋ 내가 오타쿠 아니면 뭔가?

20. 어찌 되었건 현실의 여자(남자는 좀 짜증난다.
뭐, 짜증 날때도 있지만, 그게 현실 아닌가? 아니면 이 세상에서 완벽한 여자/남자 라도 있나?

ê²°ê³¼.
0~3개(일반인, 그러나 오타쿠가 될 적성은 있습니다 분발하시길
4~7개(당신은 어느정도 이 바닥에 파고든 매니아입니다
8~10개(이미 오타쿠입니다
11~15개(경지에 이르렀습니다. 취미생활을 즐기는 건 상관없지만 어느정도 자제가 필요
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1. Full Name : 류호승

2. Male/Female : *lift pants and checks* Male ._.

3.Where you name after anyone? : Nope.

4.Does your name mean anything? : The first character stands for "budding" the second character stands for "raising" (I think), and the last character stands for "victory"

5.Nick names? : ...I don't want to even say it, it's a traumatizing memory -_-;;

6.What do you think you look like? : Emo (cause of my long hair)

7.Date of Birth : X XVI, MCMXC

8.Place of Birth and Current Location : Seoul South Korea, Garden Grove CA

9.Nationality : Korean, but my ancient ancestors descended from China I hear, they fled to Korea after they were overthrown to avoid getting killed. So basically our family is a exiled noble?

10.Astrological Sign : Have NO clue. I know I was born in the year of the horse though.

11.Chinese Astrological Sign : Horse

12.Religion : Presbyterian Christian.

13.What's your favorite smell? : Something citric?

14.Political Position : None. I go with what I like.

15.What do you prefer to drink in the morning? : Coffee, or apple cider.

16.Hair and Eye Color : Black and black.

17.Do you look like anyone famous : I could if I changed my hair style, maybe...

18.What do you think you look like? : My friends say I look like a girl from the back... Cause of my long hair... =_=

19.Any Unusual Talents? : I can remember every single music I hear...?

20.Righty/Lefty or Ambidextrous? : Ambidextrous, except I'm right handed for writing and chopsticks only.

21.Gay, Straight, Bi or Other? : THIS IS A TRICK QUESTION ISN'T IT?!!?! GAWHAMAHGHAGUWAHA I'm heterosexual.

22.What do you do for a living? : Tutor, sell stuff, buy stuff, fix stuff, break stuff, play stuff, do stuff.

23.What do you do for fun? : Games, cards, gamble, fix computers, build computers, draw(suck at it), write on-line novels. Toy around with little brothers, go on a shooting frenzy (trigger happy), listen to music, etc.

24.What are your favorite materials to work with? : A computer with high end components and a full tower case.

25.What materials would you like to work with? : A 8-core with 8 gigs of ram, dual 1 gb graphics card, 50tb harddrive (a 10:40 master:slave split), dual 52x dvd burner rom, a floppy drive, SD roms, extra large tower case, liquid thermal cooling, dj headphones, synth compatible audio card, triple screen monitor, mighty mouse, mac keyboard, a quad booting between window XP, Vista, Linux, and Mac OSX, Tablet, HP laser jet color, high res scanner, and so on...

26.Have you met your Grandparents? : Heh, my grandparents live with us... Although my grandparents on my mother's side are deceased.

27.Boyfriend/Girlfriend ? : I'm currently open if anyone is interested XD

28.Crush? : I don't think I have any.

29.What celebrity would you date if you could : HELL NO, celebrities are insecure, unstable, and unpredictable. I rather have a normal regular human being >_>

30.Current Worries : Staying alive~ oh, and graduating high school

31.Favorite online guy or girl : Forum family, Aqua, Conman, tricsterpriest, Naturebless, shinikenshi, aiko, gamefish, (lost contact from this point), speedster, cotton, Richi, buddycuff, daz.

32.Favorite place to be : Home. HOME home, back in Korea in my old house in the small little town.

33.Least fovorite place to be : school.

34.Do you burn or tan? : Well, burn as in sunburn? Cause I burn myself regularly with my zippo lighter).

35.Ever break a bone? : With over 100 stitches I've had and a car accident, amazingly no broken bones yet.

36.What is your favorite cereal? : Well lets see... The last time I ate cereal is... Dunno, 4 years ago?

37.Person you cry with : None, usually go drinking alone in a dark confined space if I'm that sad/depressed.

Do you have...
38.Any Sisters? : Alot, although they are in Korea.

39.Any Brothers? : One older, and two none-blood related little ones.

40.Any Pets? : I WANT PETS!!!

41.An Illness? : Genetically weak lungs.

42.A Pager: Whats a "pager"? You don't mean that prehistoric piece of device that rings?!?

43.A Personal Phone: Yea

44.A Cell Phone : I want a PDA though.

45.A visible birthmark? : A mole on my back, and a black bruise like mark on my right shoulder(I heard this is because I have Mongolian blood in me or something).

46.A pool or hot tub : Does normal household tub count?

47.A Car : YES!! Finally got my first car TT-TT a white honda civic.

Discribe your...
48.Personality : Pretty messed up. I thi... ]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/17293223/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/17293223/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 20:28:24 PDT
[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[X] I think I'm ugly sometimes. (If there isn't who have not though of this even once, you have serious complex about superiority)
[x] I have many scars. (gone through two surgeries and chicken pox scars)
[] I tan easily.
[X] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[]I have/I've had braces.
[X] I wear glasses.
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercing.
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[X] I've sworn at my parents.
[X] I've run away from home.
[X] I've been kicked out of the house.
[X] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[X] I want to have kids someday.
[] I've had children.
[] I've lost a child. (My parents did though)

School/Work
[X] I'm in school. (God, someone take me out me this god forsaken highschool!!)
[X] I have a job.
[X] I've fallen asleep at work/school. (More like, I DO fall sleep at school. 2nd period, all the time)
[] I almost always do my homework. (Lol)
[X] I've missed a week or more of school. (up to date, about a month total I think)
[] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[] I've stolen something from my job.
[] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[] I've peed from laughing.
[X] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[X] I've glued my hand to something (If your own hand counts, then yes)
[X] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[X] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[X] I've gotten stitches/staples. (Total of 100 stitches or so)
[] I've broken a bone.
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[X] I had a serious surgery. (Two of them)
[X] I've had chicken pox. (This was hell for me... Glad that's over)

Traveling
[] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[X] I've been on a plane.
[] I've been to Canada.
[] I've been to Mexico.
[X] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to Japan. (I wish, but I'm afraid of being shot...)
[] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[X] I've gotten lost in my city.
[X] I've seen a shooting star.
[] I've wished on a shooting star
[X] I've seen a meteor shower.
[X] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[X] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[X] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[X] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving.
[X] I've gone skinny dipping.
[] I've played spin the bottle.
[] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] I've crashed a car.
[] I've been Skiing.
[X] I've been in a play.
[X] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[X] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[] I've seen the Northern lights.
[X] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[] I've played chicken. (Like a chicken fight?)
[X] I've played a prank on someone.
[X] I've ridden in a taxi.
[] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[X] I've eaten sushi. (Duh, I'm Asian)
[] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[X] I'm single.
[] I'm in a relationship.
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now. (Always do. Lost contact with lot of my old friends)
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've gotten divorced
[] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[] I've had a crush on a teacher. (Wtf? With the teachers at what age in America? Maybe in Korea where the teachers are like, 21 maybe)
[X] I am a cuddler.
[] I've been kissed in the rain.
[X] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime
[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[X] I've done something I promised myself I... ]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/17125476/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/17125476/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 22:23:35 PST
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]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/16663811/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/16663811/ Thu, 31 Jan 2008 18:14:06 PST _> Go shoot some people, get shot, die in so called honor and get some money for family and so on -_-;;

Down the lips and pass the gums, watch out after life, here I come.

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You can soooo tell I'm perfectly sane right? Lol.

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Now this page had pretty interesting points and comments, yet generally it was very cynical and blunt. Some of the parts of that page I agreed, and some I disagreed. But it compared all the remotely popular or known subjected and criticized it, or made "not so nice," comments about them, categorizing the deviantart users through stereotypes and pointing out how ridiculous the deviantart does things, and some in my opinion are true, some not. Now this brought a great sense of shame, as I felt that this page felt like it insulted deviantart in general, without logical explanation with VALID and EVIDENT proof. Yes there was some points again I must state that I agreed with some information on how some banning are ridiculous, but such comments as "devianTART is to destroying the art world, and turning us all into furry drama whores and emo attention whores." explicitly. This seems like a biased conclusion itself as how the page attacks the deviantart's bias characteristic (which I don't know if it is true, hope not). This article is VERY, VERY informal with all kinds of profanity which some I didn't even know, and launches a equal brutal offence against deviantart and it's artist with it's members. However, what scares me more, is that the very nature of the page, the hatred, the ignorance, and how the people who writes this seem to look at everything with negative cynicism and criticism. With this people, just writing this journal makes me a "attention whore," "emo," "Arrogant jerk," " Nerd," "got no life," and the list would go on. Actually, also according to them, me writing this journal would get me banned from deivantart actually about, more then a dozen of times. I really wonder what the world is coming too...... I need to go forget about this, and go finish writing up my personal statement or something.

]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/15425235/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/15425235/ Thu, 08 Nov 2007 18:50:30 PST
and now a journal update for anyone who cares enough to visit my plain ol' devart page.

Alright, after months and months of inactiveness, I have come back with yet another backround screen shot, and a new poem. And now back to my slumber I go, to practice drawing. But I won't post anything until I see that it's at a acceptable quality >_> and to practice drawing on a tablet (love my Medium Bamboo Fun).

Darkness fills, this world ever so ugly.
Hovering over, cold and heavy.
Seeps into the skin, slow and surely.

Crawling inside.
Devouring all that resides.
Not a single warmth, left to guide.

No immune system can stop it.
Body puts no fight, only forfeits.

The mind collapses.
The soul shatters.

No longer exist what existed before.

Left nothing, but despair.
Which comes with misery, as a pair.
Every breathing moment charred with agony.
Infested with darkness, anguish and suffering.

To be free from it all, is ever so bliss.
To leave this world, with nothing to miss.

So hurry.
Come quickly.
Make haste,
Oh, sweet, sweet death.

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Inside the accelerating time, all things vanish.
In front of the unstoppable flow of time, is there anything we can accomplish?

As beings are forced into the depths of void,
The fragile balance of the world are disturbed.

The struggle of existence for a world,
The destruction of the world in sake of a conviction.

But between all, exist a ruling force: time.
Yet if one could suppress time, how would one reside?

To return to the elapsed future,
Or to materialize the approaching past.

The system which made by whom no one knows.
The result that no one can predict the moment comes.
Time.

Tis’ a constraint that restraints everywhere.
Tis’ a constraint that restraints anywhere.

The world where others lived,
The world where we lived.
And the other worlds.

The thing which that everything concludes is a system
A system that is one yet infinite, and infinite, yet one.

Time.

]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/13310593/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/13310593/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 00:15:04 PDT In front of the unstoppable flow of time, is there anything we can accomplish?

The struggle of existence for a world,
The destruction of the world in sake of a conviction.

To return to the elapsed future,
Or to materialize the approaching past.

The system which made by whom no one knows.
The result that no one can predict the moment comes.

The world where he lived,
The world where we lived.
And the other world.

The thing which that everything concludes is a system
A system that is one yet infinite, and infinite, yet one.

]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/11034400/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/11034400/ Mon, 11 Dec 2006 22:22:48 PST
My siblings,
My friends,
My companion.

and then...

The one who loved me,
The one who I loved,
Although losing everything through me,
The beautiful person who loved me til their dieing breath.


The reason why I had to live,
The reason I could live.

The moment when i forfeit all that I held dear,

I,
Become what I believed not to be,
Wake up from the dream I wished reality,

And then,
go back to the past.

Destiny which I could not accept.
Reality which I refused to believe.

But, the inescapable fate.

]]> ~RainingBullets http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/9170464/ http://RainingBullets.deviantart.com/journal/9170464/ Sat, 24 Jun 2006 15:40:14 PDT



Bye. ]]> ~RainingBullets