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so apparently, ive been neglecting my DevART account..
i havent posted in quite awhile.. hahaha..

busy with school and such..
plus, i dont really have anything to post anyway.. XD

ive been logging into devART simply to check other people's submissions.. i dont really have much time for anything else.. D:

summer vacation is about to start..
in my country at least.. haha.. im from the Philippines, see..

this week is finals week..
ive been going through hell and i hardly sleep.. D:
i have lots of projects to submit so i need to work on them..

i had a few minutes to spare today, so i posted 2 new deviations!
that plus a new devID and a new webcam pic..

this summer, i'll try to post more things..
that is, if i have time.. im intending to enroll on some summer classes.. XD

anyways, that's all for now..

ciao~

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/20450706/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/20450706/ Fri, 12 Sep 2008 07:01:13 PDT but i dont have time or energy..
my blockmates, they are killing me.. XDDD

i updated a bit though..
i uploaded a new deviation, a new ID, a new desktop screenshot and changed my webcam pic!

consider that a decent update coz im going crazy due to all the school stuff..
too many term paperrrssss~ D:

plus i procrastinate a lot so...

anyway, there's an event tomorrow that i want to go to..
but im not so sure if i can go..
apparently, i have swimming classes.. sucks to be me

i hope i can make it..

and i hope that i'll have more free time to update this account by next week..

ciao~ for now..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/20018387/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/20018387/ Mon, 18 Aug 2008 08:22:55 PDT Be honest no matter what.

1. Who were your latest 3 inbox texts from?
- emman. emman. emman. so basically, im only getting messages from emman. O_o
2. Where was your default pic taken?
- i dunnoooooo~ @_@
3. What's your middle name?
- Morales.

Where's 4? yeah where’s no.4??
I’ll make no.4 question.[rio's 4]

What’s your fave number and why?
-16 and 28 and 29. 16, coz its a highschool thing. 28 coz it's a me and someone thing. and 29 coz its a me and someone else thing. LOL
5. Does your crush like you back?
- go ask him. XD
6. What is your current mood?
- ish uhh.. bored. XD

7. What's your mom's name?
- Chris.
8. What color shirt are you wearing?
- white. O_O
9. Would you kiss the last person you kissed?
- yes? i mean NO! NO! uhh.. no srsly.. no.. XD
10. If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
- yeah! XD
11. Have a crazy side?
- YES. NO! maybe? CHOCOLAAAAAAAAAATE~ *drools*
12. Ever had a near death experience?
- yeah~ @_@
13. What is something you do a lot?
- eat. sleep. eat. read. eat. sleep. play games. eat. procrastinate. sleep. write. eat. walk around anywhere. eat. daydream. eat. fangirl. sleep. eat. watch anime. sleep. eat. basically, i eat and sleep a lot.
14. Angry at anyone?
- YES. YES! YEEEESSSSSSSSS! *that sounded wrong in my mind* XD
15. Do you wanna see somebody right now?
- Yeah. so much! D:
16. Do you like drama?
- depends. LOL
17. When was the last time you cried?
- uh. last night? XD
18. Who would you do anything for?
- people i love.. <3
19. Who is your hero?
- KILUA IS MY HERO! LOL
20. What is the one thing you notice first with the opposite sex?
- eyes, posture. XD
22. What's your biggest secret?
- uhh. it's called a secret for a reason. XD
24. Would you ever take him/her back?
- take who back? O_o
25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
- yeah. sometimes. XDDD
26. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
- not eating nor drinking. XD
27. Do you speak any other languages?
- English, learning japanese.. XD
28. Whats your favorite smell?
- COFFEE. strawberries and chocolate. <
29. Describe your life.
- its.. uhh- boring? @_@
30. Have you ever kissed in the rain?
- no. >_<
31. Do you like the rain?
- uhh.. no comment? ._.
32. What are you thinking about right now?
- Midterms. Someone. i want to eat. someone. school stuff. someone.

33. What should you be doing right
-- Reviewing for my Midterms.. XD
34. What is your favorite memory?
- My debut.. <3
35. What are you listening to?
- Ohayou~ HXH Opening. LOL
36. Who was the last person you told I love you ?
- ehehe.. i shall not say.. @_@
37. Who was the last person you yelled at?
- my brother.. D:
38. Do you act differently around the person you like?
- No. or at least i think so. ._.
59. What is your natural hair color?
- Dark brown.. @_@
40. Who was the last person to make you smile?
- Emman~ <3

i TAG:
NO ONE~
No one left to tag.. LOL..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/18299667/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/18299667/ Tue, 13 May 2008 03:54:30 PDT ive been busy with personal matters, anime marathons and reading tons of mangas.. so i didnt have much computer time.. D:

but i'll be submitting stuff again..
i was suddenly inspired to try learning photo-manip again..
i still pretty much suck at it.. but i want to learn so.. xD

im hoping i'll be really good at it by August or something..
yeah.. im giving myself a long time to learn coz i'll get bored if i focus too much on something.. D:

and im glad to be posting again.. lol

anyway..
i still have to make a photo-manip thing for my online friend
this is because she didnt get any Ds or Fs in her progress report..
im so proud of her..

well.. that's about it.. xD
till my next uber boring journal update..

oh! and please visit my blog. [link] and leave a message on my tagbox..

thankies for those who will visit..

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i havent made much progress.. but oh well..

Mangas to read
1. 666 Satan
2. Ayashino Ceres
3. D Gray Man
4. Daa! Daa! Daa!
5. Fullmoon wo sagashite
6. Genshiken
7. Highschool of the Dead
8. Hunter X Hunter
9. I's
10. Ichigo 100%
11. Katekyo Hitman Reborn
12. Lucky Star
13. Midori Days
14. Nana
15. Naruto (Shippuden Part)
16. Neon Genesis Evangelion
17. Ouran Highschool Host Club
18. Prince of Tennis
19. Slam Dunk
20. Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya
21. Soul Eater

ANIMES/SENTAI/WTEVR TO WATCH
1. Kamen Rider Kabuto (ep 23 onwards)
2. Airgear
3. Avatar (season 3)
4. Bleach
5. Detective Conan
6. Devil May Cry
7. D Gray Man
8. Elfen Lied
9. Fruits Basket
10. Daa! Daa! Daa!
11. Higurashi (both seasons)
12. GTO
13. Gundam00
14. Jigoku Shoujo
15. Love Hina
16. Shakugan No Shana
17. Tenjou Tenge
18. Get Backers
19. Fate Stay Night
20. Nobuta Wo Produce
21. Tada Kimi Wo Aishiteru
22. Gokusen season 2

these are suggested by ~itachi349
21. Honey and Clover
22. Yukan Club
23. Hikaru no Hikari

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/17824798/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/17824798/ Wed, 16 Apr 2008 05:36:26 PDT

001. What is Your Name?: Maeka Kyuketsuki Jagen..
002. How old are you?: 18.. i know im old

~*BasicS*~
004. Name/Nickname: Maeka/Khaye/Rayne/kathe/Kath
005. Birthday: 8-12-89
006. Zodiac Sign: LEO rawr~ xD
007. Hair Color now?: black.. @_@
008. Eye Color: brown.. ._.
009. Tattoos: dun hab any.. >_>
010. Piercings: one in each ear..

~*Favorites*~
011. Color: red, black, and sometimes pink
012. Food: CHOCOLATE~!!!
013. Gum: uhh.. @_@
014. Movie: SWEENEY TODD~!!! <3
015. T.V Show: there's too many.. @_@
016. Band: Kaze.. LOL
017. Song: Rain by Kaze
018. Season: WINTER~ but there's no winter here.. ._.
019. Holiday: CHRISTMAS~ hohoho.. xD
020. Day Of Week: Saturday.. ._.
021. Store: Comic Alley.. xD
022. Animal: PANDA~ or dogs.. ._.
023. Flower: roses.. duh

~*Have You Ever*~
024. Danced In The Rain?: SOoOOOO many time.. X3
025. Sung For No Reason?: *starts singing ash like snow* uhh.. yeah..
026. Cried For No Reason?: once or twice. >_>
027. Laughed So Hard You Cried?: YES! LOL
028. Smiled For No Reason?: yep.. xD
029. Smoked?: yep.. used to.. xD
030. Done Drugs?: nope.. dont plan on doing that..
031. Got Drunk?: uhh.. yep.. i think.. @_@
032. Been In Love?: yep.. sucked LOL
033. Been In A Wreck?: dnt think so.. ._.
034. Met A Celebrity?: lots.. lol.. when i was in HS.. xD
035. Cried Over A Movie?: hahaha.. im full of dramu that way.. xD
036. Sat On Your Rooftop?: my neighbor's rooftop.. xD
037. Met The President?: i think we're related.. O_o

~*The Last*~
038. Thing You Said: hnd ako kakain (im not going to eat)
039. Thing You Ate: CORN~ xDDD
040. Song You Heard: Broken by Seether..
041. Movie You Saw: SWEENEY TODD~ <3
042. Thing You Bought: DVDs.. LOL
043. Person You Talked: my brother.. xD
044. Person You Hugged: my mom? ._.
045. Person You Yelled at: my brother.. ;
046. Website You Went: this one.. duh
047. Game You Played FF7: tetris LOL
048. Party You Went To: my cousin's bday.. LOL

~*This 0R That*~
049. Computer 0R T.V?: COMPUTER! <3
050. Phone 0R IM?: IM
051. Myspace 0R Xanga?: MySpace.. LOL
052. McDonalds 0R Burger King?: Burger King.. xD
053. Markers 0R Sharpies?: markers.. <3
054. Pen 0R Pencil?: PEN~
055. Summer 0R Winter?: winter! SNOW PLEAAAAZZZ~
056. School 0R Work?: can i say NEITHER? @_@
057. CDs 0R IPoD/MP3?: MP3 mehn.. xD
058. XBox 0R PS2?: PS2
059. Movies 0R T.V Shows?: T.V Shows.

~*Other*~
060. The Shoes You Wore Today: random sneakers..
061. Your Weakness: certain people.. LOL
062. Your Fears: too many to type.. xD
063. Your Perfect Pizza: ALL MEAT~ im a carnivore.. RAWR~ :3
064. Your Most Overused Phrase On an IM: "ZOMG" "LOL" "gah"
065. Thoughts First Waking Up: gah.. >_<
066. Your Best Physical Feature: eyes maybe.. @_@
067. Your Bedtime: depends on my mood.. LOL
068. Your Most Missed Memory: dont know.. elem days..
069. Do you Smoke: used to.. >_<
070. Do you Swear: EVERY *TOOT* DAY..
071. Do you Sing: when no one's watching.. xD
072. Do you Shower Daily: HELL YEAH~ xD
073. Have you Been in Love: i think so..
074. Do you want to go to College: im already in college.. >_<
075. Do you want to get Married: maybe in the future.. LOL
076. Do you belive in yourself: most of the time.. NO..
077. Do you get Motion Sickness?: sometimes.. @_@
078. Do you like Thunderstorms: sometimes.. LOL
079. Do you play an Instrument: learning.. @_@
080. How do you want to Die: saving the person i love.. LOL cheesy Maeka is cheesy.. xD
081. What do you want to be when you Grow Up.: a doctor or lawyer common LOL
082. Number of things in my Past I Regret: right now? too many to count.. xD

i tag..
~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/17687599/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/17687599/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 17:50:52 PDT

it's been a year since i got bullied forced asked to join devART.. ^__^

yay for me right?
and after:

97 Deviations
1 scrap
336 Deviation Comments
87 Deviant Comments
1336 Pageviews

here i am..

arent you just happy for meh?! xD

anyways.. just wanted to post that..
now i must go get ready for OZINE FEST~!!

going there with some friends..
oye! One Year since my first convention.. LOL..

NOTE: Ozine Fest was the very first con i ever attended.. xD

ciao people~

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/17597380/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/17597380/ Sun, 30 Mar 2008 21:05:54 PDT i think this is the only use for my DevArt account right now..
answering all the tags.. xD

havent had time to make anything lately..
im being a lazy little girl again..

anyways..

Tagged by

1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged.

============================================

1. i am a very VERY lazy person.. i sometimes just lie in bed all day doing nothing.. i dont even eat sometimes coz im too lazy to get off the bed.. D:

2. i am now controlling my sweet intake coz my mom thinks im eating too much sweets and she thinks i need to lose a few pounds.. O_O

3. i HATE HATE HATE math with a passion that burns like a thousand hot suns.. D:

4. i am an ANIME FAN.. i love anime.. but i dont think i can consider myself an otaku..

5. i cant draw to save my life.. i seriously CANT draw.. D:

6. i HATE liars.. and i think they should all be burned in hell.. >:]

7. i love to write.. im a frustrated writer.. though im not very good at expressing myself through words,, i find that it helps to write what you're feeling down..

8. i like tags.. they are fun.. and they give me something to do..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/17504068/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/17504068/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 05:26:15 PDT

The rules:
1. You have to post the rules
2. Every person tagged has to write 10 things about themselves
3. You have to write them in your journal
4. After that, tag 5 more people
5. Go to that person's page and tell them about it

I AM...
-a very evil person, dont be fooled by my appearance. i am not a sweet little girl.

-a sasuke fangirl ( and no sasuke is not gay, nor is he an uke! >_< )

-an obssessive person (i get obsessed and things go BOOM)

-a masochist/sadist

-a lolicon/shotacon (i dont know why, but people say im loli. ._. how can i be loli when im a lolicon? weird right? do you guys think im loli? ._.)

-completely straight! (i just seem bi/homo due to the fact that i like guy stuff and i can easily relate to people of the opposite sex)

-a chocoholic ( i love chocolates and i cant live without them. :3 )

-a hopeless romantic (Period!)

-a frustrated writer. (havent written much lately though, due to lack of inspiration)

-a very lazy person. (i can sleep all day if i want to.. and i usually spend my days in my bedroom.. )

i tag.
anyone who wants to get tagged.. xD

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/17466803/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/17466803/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 23:15:15 PDT Maeka Kyuketsuki Jagen // Rayne Itami // Katherine

2) Male/Female
Female.
(or so i think.. xD)

3) Were you named after anyone?
dont think so..

4) Does your name mean anything?
Rayne - my name and someone's name combined
Itami - Pain.. >:]

Maeka - my name and my Akire's name. (my akire? LOL WHUT?)
Kyuketsuki - Vampire
Jagen - Random..

Katherine - a saint i think.. D:

5) Nickname(s)?
Kathe, Kath, Maeka, Khaye

6) What do you think you look like?
i look like me..

7) Date of birth?
August 12, 1989

8) Place of birth and current location?
Philippines

9) Nationality?
Filipino

10) Astrology sign?
Leo

11) Chinese astrology sign?
snake.. slytherin house! oye!

12) Religion?
Roman Catholic

13) What's your favorite smell?
Strawberry.. and hot chocolate.. xD

14) Political Position?
whut? xD

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Water.. ice cold water..

16) Hair + eye color?
black.. brown.. LOL..

17) Do you look like anyone famous?
i dunno, check my FS..

18) What do you look like?
a person..

19) Any unusual talents?
I can stalk people.. it's a talent.. srsly.. xD

20) Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous?
righty.. xD

21) Gay, straight, bi, or other?
STRAIGHT. with bi tendencies.. xD

22) What do you do for a living?
i slack off.. xD

23) What do you do for fun?
i stare at the wall.. xD

24) Materials to work with?
MY *makes a rainbow* IMAGINATION

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?
ack.. kitsune's answer blinded me.. YAOI~!! x_X

26) Have you met your grandparents?
YEAH.. ._.

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
is non-existent..

28) Crush?
Akire.. actually.. i dont have a crush right now.. ._.

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?
TOM FELTON~!!! <3

30) Current worries?
my grades.. xD

31) Favorite online guy/girl(s)?


32) Favorite place to be?
my bedroom.. xD

33) Least favorite place to be?
school? xD inside the classroom..

34) Do you burn or tan?
i dont burn or tan.. D:

35) Ever break a bone?
i think i broke my leg.. but i didnt have it checked.. xD

36) What is your favorite cereal?
koko kru... ]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/17389997/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/17389997/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 04:47:38 PDT

i decided to start learning Photo-Manipulation..

and because i had to try and get comments from people who know more about it..

i decided to post my work here..

i hope that you guys will comment..
i want to get better..

i think im improving a bit..
but your comments will help me improve more.. ^__^

thank you in advance to those who will comment..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/16147089/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/16147089/ Sat, 29 Dec 2007 01:58:11 PST
STOLEN FROM

ANIME/MANGA NERD

[x] You watch anime. [duh!]

[x] You read manga. [ *nods* ]

[x] You buy/collect anime DVDs or manga volumes. [i only have a few right now though.. x_X]

[x] You own some other form of anime/manga merchandise. [yep.. my room is covered with posters.. i have loads of other anime stuff.. my room is a mess due to them.. xD]

[x] You have referred to an anime character as 'hot' before. [YES! i worship the bishieness that is sasuke, sasori, kadaj, byakuya, kilua, li syaoran and loads of other cute anime charas.. xDD]

[x] You have cosplayed.[i wore someone else's costume.. xD i call it cosplay! if you hve a problem,, then that's your problem.. NOT MINE~ ] (oh wait.. i cosplayed in my HS days too.. xD mage.. ._. but i wasnt fat back then.. xD)

[x] You have done so in public.[yes.. it was at a school event.. some kid stared at me.. ._.](also at a school play.. ._.)

[x] You have been to an anime/manga convention.

[x] You have created/joined a fanclub for an anime/manga character. [TOMASINOTAKU = <3]

[ ] You have created/joined a hateclub for an anime/manga character.[nah.. that's not nice.. xD]

[x] You have squealed when you found out somebody had the same name as an anime character you knew.[yes.. weird enough i did.. when i met jho and france's friend Hotaru.. ^^]

[ ]You enjoy drawing anime. [NOTE: i CANT draw.. TT__TT]

[x] People you know know you as the 'anime' person.[LOL.. yes.. apperantly,, im "otaku girl".. xD]

[x] You know that it is pronouced 'mawnguh' and not 'manga' like it is spelled. [yes.. but only coz my mom told me.. xD]


Anime/manga nerd= 12/14



ART NERD

[x] You like art.

[x] You actually consider yourself an artist. [writing is an art! xD]

[ ] When using art supplies, the brand of them matters to you.

[ ] You have a favorite brand.

[x] You have asked for art supplies as a Christmas/birthday gift before. [i did when i was a kid.. xD]

[x] You give people your drawings as gifts. [used to.. xD]

[x] People actually ask for your drawings. [yup yup.. coz they know i work hard on those.. coz i CANT draw that well..xD]

[ ] You are/were known as 'the art person' at your school

[x] Instead of just 'brown' or ' pink', you'd be specific; it's 'sienna brown' or 'blush pink'. [sometimes...]

[ ] You have taken an art class outside of school.

[ ] You have considered a career as an artist.

[ ] Your school papers are always covered in doodles.

[x] You have a favorite artist. [OMG. YES~!! ]

[x] Your drawings have been framed [ my mom's doing.. xD]

[ ] You carry a sketchbook with you everywhere you go.

Art nerd= 8/15.




MUSICAL NERD

[x] You play a musical instrument. [i can play the flute.. and the guitar.. but not that well.. xD]

[x] You play more than one instrument. [._.]

[x] You actually really enjoy playing your instrument. [yes,, i do.. ^^]

[ ] You've given your instrument a name.

[ ] You've participated in an extracurricular activity for your instrument.

[ ] You are known by what you play.[no one knows i can play any instruments.. xD]

[x] You listen to classical music. [Yes. sometimes.. calming actually..]

[x] You are wondering whether that refers to the classical music genre or the classical music time period. [yep.. haha.. but i considered it as the genre.. coz i dont know much music that came from the classical time period..]

[x] You have a favorite composer. [NOBUO UEMATSU!!! He composed the ones in Final Fantasy. i just so love One winged angel! esp. Advent: One winged Angel!] (i agree with jho!! xD)

[ ] All of your friends are from your band/orchestra class. [HELL NO! xD]

[ ] You write music.

[x] You've had discussions with your friends about music; your favorite composers/instruments/musical time periods/key/etc... [Guitars, bands.. etc.]

[ ] You have considered a professional career with your instrument.

[ ] You are never nervous playing for other people.

Musical nerd= 7/14



VIDEO GAME NERD

[x] You play video games. [yep yep.. xD]<... ]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/16074613/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/16074613/ Wed, 26 Dec 2007 00:51:32 PST
vrolijke Kerstmis

Joyeux Noël

frohe Weihnachten

Buon Natale

즐거운 성탄

christmas alegre

веселое рождество

Feliz Navidad

メリークリスマス

no matter how you say it,, it only means one thing..

MERRY CHRISTMAS~!!

MALIGAYANG PASKO SA INYO~!!

may you all have a Happy Holidays..

to everyone.. aylabyu ol!! XDDDD


NOTE: it was edited because of kitsune.. xD

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/16008455/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/16008455/ Thu, 20 Dec 2007 00:22:13 PST and of not submitting journals..

i have decided to submit stuff again.. xD

hope you guys will like the stuff that i'll post here.. ;

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/15662023/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/15662023/ Sun, 25 Nov 2007 09:31:21 PST and
yesh.. at the same time.. ._.

+ Naruto +
[x] You're stubborn.
[x] You like ramen.
[x] Are foxes your favorite animal?
[ ] You're afraid of ghosts.
[ ] You're jealous of your best friend.
[x] Are you a hands-on kind of person?
[x] Do you have a crush on someone, who isn't interested in you?
[x] You want people to respect you.
[x] You never give up.
[ ] Are you tan?
[ ] Were you born on the 10th of October?
Total: 7

+ Sasuke +
[x] You don't care about other people or their opinions.
[ ] Are you left handed?
[x] You prefer being alone.(yes.. alone is good.. @_@)
[x] Are you cold, cruel or withdrawn? (LOL most of the time cruel)
[x] Are you talented? (i want to believe that i am.. x_x)
[x] Have you had to work on your social skills?
[x] Do you practice your skills?
[x] Do you have a motive in you life that you live for?(yes! yes! YES!)
[x] Do you feel like you're cursed?
[ ] Were you born on the 23rd of July?
Total: 8


+ Sakura +
[ ] You like the color pink.
[x] Do you feel like something inside of you is ordering you? (kinda)
[ ] You and your friends have a crush on the same person.
[x] You're smart. (wahaha.. i am lol.. just too lazy lah)
[ ] You have a five-finger forehead.
[x] You usually repress your emotions.
[x] You insult people just to annoy them.
[x] You're aiming for a medical career. (wahaha)
[ ] You grew long hair because of your crush.
[ ] Were you born on the 28th of March?
Total: 5 (who knew we had so much in common.. i hate her though)

+ Kakashi +
[x] You read romance novels. (wahaha..)
[ ] You like to spend time in the fields.
[x] Have you separated from some group?
[x] Is your personality hard to describe? (very.. LOL)
[ ] Are you often late?
[ ] Do you like to use something that covers your mouth?
[ ] Do you use the sayings: "A black cat crossed my path..." or "I fell into a sewer..."?
[ ] Is one of your eyes a different color from your other one?
[ ] You only have one hobby.
[ ] Were you born on the 15th of September?
Total: 3

+ Iruka +
[ ] You have a scar on your face.
[ ] You worry about other people.
[ ] Is your favorite word
[x] Do you like dolphins? (dolphins are bimbo fins)
[ ] You and your friend have a similar past.
[ ] You're kind by nature. (LOL NO~!! xD)
[ ] Is your hobby the hot springs?
[ ] Is you blood type B?
[x] You like ramen.
[ ] Were you on on the 26th of May? xD
Total: 2

+ Itachi +
[x] You like red and black.
[ ] You wear purple nail polish.
[ ] You paint your toenails. paint?
[x] You've been the leader in a group. (school stuff.. LOL)
[x] You're a lot more advanced than other in your age class (i think)
[x] You're unforgiving at times. (i hold grudges dude)
[x] You judge people. (sometimes.. xD)
[x] You hang out with a certain crowd. (LOL.. )
[x] You have a little brother (does Noel count? xD)
[ ] You dress in overly long clothes.
Total: 7

+ Shikamaru +
[x] Are you lazy?
[x] Are you intelligent?
[x] Is everything too troublesome for you?
[ ] You often play shogi.
[ ] You like shadows.
[ ] You pretend to sleep a lot.
[ ] Your IQ is over 200.
[x] You wear a ponytail.
[x] You often use the saying "How troublesome" or something near it.
[ ] Is your birthday on the 23rd of September? (nope.. but my dad's is)
Total: 5

+ Ino +
[ ] People would consider you very girly.
[ ] You're blonde.
[x] You have very long hair. (since i was a kid LOL)
[ ] You like the color purple.
[ ] You show your emotions easily, especially when you like someone.
[x] You had a big fight with a friend a long time ago.
[x] That fight was solved.
[ ] Were you born on September 23? (nope.. my dad was..)
Total: 3

+ Chouji +
[x] You're overweight/chubby/fat. (chabi chabi.. xD)
[ ] You always deny being overweight/chubby/fat.
[x] You love junk food.
[x] You love food in general.
[ ] You're a generally nice person. (NO~ ack.. >_< ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/15182994/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/15182994/ Tue, 23 Oct 2007 04:35:29 PDT i get my grades and my mom would probably ground me for life..
so yeah.. whatever.. i hardly care anymore..

knew this was coming and i expected it to happen..
but anyway.. enough about my crappy life..
i rant about it enough in my multiply account..

so why dont i tell you of an upcoming plan,,
that my friends and i came up with..

and that is a PHOTOSHOOT~ xD
actually.. three photoshoots..
yeah.. coz we're camwhores.. xDDDD

the photoshoots are:

DEATH EATERS
MARAUDERS
DEADLY SINS

all three have been running in my mind for the longest time..
but yeah.. we didnt get the details fixed until recently..
and now that everything is settled.. we can start!!

yay! for us!
this is the very first project that the Death Eaters will be working on!
so wish us luck.. and i hope we do well.. T_T

im kind of worried actually..
coz i might not be able to do the photoshoot..
coz of being grounded and stuff.. so yeah..
im hoping i can still make it.. >_<

WISH US LUCK~

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/14342891/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/14342891/ Sun, 26 Aug 2007 02:02:05 PDT yesh~ very much so.. ^^

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
yeah.. lots actually.. ^__^

3. Are you athletic?
hell no~ >_<

4. Are you: thin, fat, athletically built etc:
i think im fat.. wahaha..

5. How much do you weigh?
i dont know.. seriously.. ._.

6. What's your height?
5’1” o__O

7. Shoe size?
7 or 8..

8. Girls - are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
a bit tomboyish.. a bit girly.. and not normal.. haha..

10.How old are you?
18,, yes.. i know im old.. >_>

11. When is your birthday?
august 12..

12. Do you like to receive giftart?
yes.. ^^

13. Are you sociable?
uhh.. nope.. im a bit anti social.. though.. not all the time..

14. Do you have many friends?
err.. not really..

15. What's your race?
Filipino..

16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
yup.. ^^

17. Are you single or taken?
single.. and loving it.. haha..

18. Do you eat meat?
yes..

19. Are you paranoid?
very!

20. Do you read a lot?
yup.. i love to read..

21. Do you listen to music, what kind?
rock, punk, i listen to any genre..

22. Do you play any instruments?
trying to learn to play the guitar..

23. How long have you been drawing?
i used to draw when i was around 5-12 years old.. then i realized i sucked at art so i stopped.. @__@

24. What's the meaning of life?
life = CHOCOLATES~!!! yay for CHOCOLATES~!!! :3

25. Tag a bunch of people! They MUST take this quiz and post it in their journal!

i tag...




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1. Name three nationalities / cultures you wish you were:
-err,, im fine with my nationality.. but if i had to choose.. uhh.. american, japanese or er,, british? hahaha..

2. Name three people (famous or not) you wish you were:
-Emma Watson? hahaha.. uhh.. the girl to play Pansy Parkinson in HP 6.. because of that scene ^^.. uhh.. tom felton's girlfriend.. *gets shot and dies*

3. Name three famous people you wish you were dating / married to:
-Tom Felton!! Robert Pattinson.. uhh.. Macaulay Calkin? hehehe..

4. Name three personality traits you wish you had:
-err,, being patient.. uhh.. sociable.. and uhh.. not moody..

5. Name three physical traits you wish you had:
-uhh.. i dont know.. cant think of anything.. hahaha..

6. Name three types of people you wish you were (i.e.> cowboy, samurai, etc.)
-Ninja
-an asassin
-A WIZARD!!!!!!!

7. Name three skills you wish you had:
-drawing,, err.. i cant think of anything else.. hahaha..

8. Name three cartoon characters you wish you were:
-err,, there's too many of them.. x_X

9. Name Three characters in a book or story you wish you were:
-PANSY PARKINSON~!!! hahaha.. and i cant think of anyone else..

10. Name three deviants you wish would answer this tag: (you dont have to if you dont want to but i think its fun!)

TAG~!!!!




]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/13264026/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/13264026/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 10:38:13 PDT
The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things/hates about yourself" and people who get tagged MUST write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things/hates as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours.

6 weird habits/things/hates about yourself:

1. I talk to myself.. all the time.. lolz.. specially when im walking around on my own..

2. I talk to my dog.. lolz.. and i tell her all my problems.. coz i know she will never tell anyone else..

3. I have an obsession with sweets.. i eat sweets and lots of them everyday.. i cant stop myself from eating chocolates..

4. I keep a journal.. as in a diary.. and i like, used to write on it daily but i stopped coz im lazy.. haha..

5. I used to eat neoaspilets.. hahaha.. when i was a kid i'd sneak them from the med cabinet and eat them.. >_<

6. I collect things me and my friend nela call "artifacts".. they are basically things related to certain people in our lives.. mostly things that came from those people or are somehow related to those people..

i tag: NO ONE.. i ran out of people to tag.. most of them finished this already.. >_<

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/13156170/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/13156170/ Wed, 30 May 2007 19:56:43 PDT _<
i keep answering these stupid things when i get bored..
and no one tagged me.. i just wanted to answer it..
no one's online so i dont have anyone to talk to..
gah,, just gonna answer this then..

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TAGGEDNESS.
1) Full Name: Rayne Itami [katherine macapagal]

2) Male/Female: err,, either? lolz.. female,, duh!

3) Were you named after anyone?: i have no idea.. i think my dad just likes the name.. >_<

4) Does your name mean anything?: i forgot what it means.. T__T

5) Nick Name(s): Maeka,, Kathe,, Kath,, khaye,, maca,, macaps.. dang there's too many~!!

6) What do you think you look like..name wise?: err,, me? i look like me.. i think.. >_<

7) Date Of Birth: 08/12/1989

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: earth? lolz..

9) Nationality: proudly pinoy.. nakz..

10) Astrology Sign: lion.. lolz..

11) Chinese Astrology Sign: snake.. OMG~!! im a snake.. lolz..

12) Religion: catholic.. ^__^

13) Whats your favorite smell?: my uncle's cooking? ROFL..

14) Political Position?: ehh? i dont hve one.. do i? ._.

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: cold glass of water.. seriously,, with ice.. lots of ice.. >_<

16) Hair + Eye color: Black and Brown..

17) Do you look like anyone famous?: how should i know..?

18) What do you look like?: A human being? lolz..

19) Any unusual talents?: I.. i.. i dont know.. >_< i have no talents~!!

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: righty~!!! ^___^

21) Straight, Bi, Gay or Other?: ROFLMAO... OTHER..

22) What do you do for a living?: i live off the money my parents give me~!! ^__^

23) What do you do for fun?: make fun of people? lolz.. kidding..

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?: i suck at anything that has to do with art.. >_<

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: i dont know.. i'll suck whatever i use anyway.. >_<

26) Have you met your grandparents?: err,, only my grandparents on my mother's side.. i wuuv them.. ^__^

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend: dont have one..

28) Crush: Akire..

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: err,, TOM FELTON~!!

30) Current worries?: err,, there's too many.. T__T

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s): Hana,, Kitsu,, Laine,, jho,, twist.. lolz..

32) Favorite place to be?: My room.. with the computer and the T.V..

33) Least favorite place to be?: the classroom.. with the annoying professors.. >_<

34) Do you burn or tan?: me have no idea.. o_o

35) Ever break a bone?: nope.. not yet..

36) What is your favorite cereal?: coco crunch~!! yay~!! ^__^

37) Person you cry with: ehh? i cry by myself.. >_<

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: no sisters.. T__T

39) Any brothers: two older brothers... ^__^

40) Any pets: 3 annoying dogs.. o_o

41) An Illness: i dont wanna talk about it.. >_<

42) A Pager: err,, are there still such things as pagers? lolz..

43) A Personal phone line: i have my own phone in my room.. lolz..

44) A Cell phone: yup.. given to me by my mom..

45) A visible birthmark: i dont think i have one.. ._.

46) A Pool or hot tub: we dont have either.. wish we had a pool though..

47) A Car: i dont have a car.. >_<

Describe Your...

48) Personality: i have massive mood swings that can send satan packing.. i turn from cold to sweet in a matter of seconds.. im so weird.. lolz..

49) Driving: still learning.. im not that good yet..

50) Your clothing style: wearwhateversinthecloset.. lolz..

51) Room: hmm.. simple and full of anime stuff.. >_<

52) What’s missing: i.. dont know.. o_o;;

53) School: dont wanna talk about it.. ._.

54) Bed: err,, flowery?

55) Relationship with your parent(s): It's ok.. i wuuv my parents..

56) Do You believe in yourself: no.. not really.. ._.

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: no..

58) Consider yourself a good listener: most of the time,, yeah..

59) Future dream that you would like to share: rule the world? lolz..

60) Get Along with your parents: most of the time..

61) Save your e-mail conversations: sometimes..

62) Pray: i pray for lots of things.. >_<

63) Believe in reincarnation: yesh.. i k... ]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/13129938/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/13129938/ Mon, 28 May 2007 19:23:59 PDT

yay~!!!!!
Congratulate me people~!!
I passed~!!!

i was really worried about my BioLab class..
but i got the results yesterday and i passed~!!

im so happy..
my sleepless nights of studying..
they didnt go to waste at all~!!!

weeeee~
just when i lost all hope..
i get my grades and yay~!!
im really happy right now..

i thought i was going to fail...
the grade isnt that high at all..
but i dont care right now..
im just glad i passed..
and i didnt get a 3.0
it's a bit higher than that~!!

quite unexpected really..
wow.. im so happy..

^_____^

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/13096158/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/13096158/ Sat, 26 May 2007 02:48:35 PDT
2. Full Name: Rayne Itami; Maeka Kyuketsuki Jagen; Kaeane Akuma [Katherine M. Macapagal]

3. Birthday: 08/12/89

4. Have you been in love?: once or twice.. yeah..

5. Are you in love right now?: kind of..

6. Which color is your underwear?: why are you asking..?

7. Have you been drunk?: err,, yeah.. ._.

8. Did you love so deeply to cry for someone?: cried so much i think my tears dried up..

9. Ever been in a car crash?: yup.. and yet im alive.. damn it~!

10. Parfum?: hmm..

11. Sprite or Seven up?: sprite..

12. Beer or wine?: Beer..

13. Coffee or tea?: if the tea is iced tea then tea XD

14. If you were a crayon, which color would you be?: Black,, or Red..

15. Plain color pijama... or with lil animals on it?: plain

16. Favourite food: hmm,, i eat nearly anything.. XD

17. Best part to be kissed?: Lips..

19. Flower: does a dead rose count?

20. Topic you hate the most: anything related to HIM..

21. Your typical guy: absolutely err,, i dont know.. XD

22. Do you have a crush on someone?: a crush? yeah,, you could say i do..

23. Favourite movie: Battle Royale~!!

24. Hugs or kisses?: Both..

25. Last time you were in a hospital?: cant remember..

26. What color is the carpet/floor in your bedroom?: red..

27. How was your teddy Bear named?: named after my beloved.. Iggy.. lolz..

28.Where do you picture yourself in 15 years?: In a hospital.. curing some random person..

29. From who did you receive this shit?: copied it off someone's page coz i got bored..

30. Which one of your friends lives more far away from you?: the ones in Hong kong,, Australia,, Canada,, USA.. the idiots left me..

31. How much do you love/loved school?: hmm.. how bout,, i dont like it.. at all.. fine,, around 5% or so..

32. Are you resentmentful?: i think the word is "resentful" and yeah,, actually i am..

33.Who do you think is going to answer all this sooner?: some random person..

34. Pets?: 3 dogs..

35. Best friend?: i dont have one..

37. What would you change about your life?: so many things..

38.How much rings before picking up the phone?: dpends.. if im waiting for a call i pick up in like a ring.. if not,, about 3-5..

39. Weakness?: HIM? does he count?

40. First thing that pops up to your mind when you wake up: why oh why did i wake up..?

41. Storms: i like storms.. just no floods please.. XD

42. If you could be someone else, who would you like to be?: someone who actually has a life? coz i dont think i have one..

43. Something you always wear and never take off: o_o i just stopped wearing it.. it used to be my necklace.. it holds lots of memories..

44. Have you ever been depressed?: almost everyday of my existence..

45.What's below your bed?: some bags and boxes..

46. What's your dreamcar?: i dont think i have one.. a porsche maybe..

47. Who sent you this?: no one.. i just copied it..

48. Do you hate someone??: yesh.. ._.

49. Who would you like to answer this: some random person..

50. What would you say to someone and you don't dare?:
im going to kick you where the sun doesnt shine if you dont leave me alone~!! *i really did kick someone* >_<

51. Prefered colours: Black,, Red,, Blue..

52. Overused phrases/words: Amf-ness..

53. Favourite Book?: too many to write her.. *bookworm*

54: The best?: ehh? *scratches head* best what?

55. What do you do when you're bored?: surf the net,, read.. write..

57. Open or serious relationship?: serious..

58. What's Life for you?: seemingly endless journey that one must take..

59. Which shampoo do you use?: pantene..

60. Favourite song?: song? hmm.. there's too many.. >_<

61. Saddest moment in your life?: oh,, rather forget about it.. >_<

62. Do you love someone right now?: yes..

64 What do you look for at the opposite sex?: personality? err,, i dont know..

63. Funniest person you know?: woah.. too many.. there's too many of them..

65. Do you fear something?: losing those i care for.. or those person i value getting hurt..

66. What do you think about death?: a new adventure? *albus dumbledore* lolz..

67. Have you had a crush on a close friend of yours: kind of..

68. How many time does it take for you to get ready for going out?: dpends on where im going.. ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/13060293/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/13060293/ Wed, 23 May 2007 07:55:51 PDT fell in love with him..
got my heart broken by him..
had the biggest fight with him..
became his friend..

but it's been too long since i last
had contact with him..
it has been over a year since i last
saw him..
months have passed since i last heard
his voice..
i feel incomplete for some reason..

he found himself a person who loves
him completely and i couldnt be
happier for him..
and yet i feel jealous..

i know i dont have the right to be jealous..
he said it himself..
"we dont have that kind of relationship"
but i just have to say it..
im so freaking jealous of that girl..

she has one of the most perfect guys
in the world..
and im just hoping that she's treating
him right..

i dont know why i posted this..
i guess i just felt like letting him
know somehow..
even though i know he wont read this..
i just thought letting this out would
help..

i really miss you~!!
*sigh*

i want to see him again..
one last time..
before.. *sigh*

if he does read this though..
im sure about one thing..
he wont have any reaction..
no reaction as always..
hahaha..

im getting crazier by the minute..
lolz..

-end post-

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/13044845/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/13044845/ Mon, 21 May 2007 22:37:32 PDT i walked throught the very muddy pasig market without getting mud on my totally white uniform.. *yay for me~!!*

then i got to sit next to this cute guy on the FX.. *yay again~!!*

then i got to meet with laine.. *she's fun to hang with really*

then we ate at seven eleven..
and some cute guy was being a real gentleman..
he held the door open for me..
*piso alert~!!*

i think i aced my math finals~!! *yay~!! yay~!!*

then i was thinking,, it's almost one o'clock..
i was suppose to meet someone..
and bring him the BR cd and some brownies..

i missed that person and wanted to hang with him for a while..
i guess i was sort of looking forward to it..
guess what?!!

he freaking cancelled~!!
and i dont think he was planning on telling me~!!
gah.. im gonna feed my dog brownies and dark chocolate tonight..

im so pissed off at the moment..
luckily there is no sharp object in sight..
other than a blood lancet that i cant use..
dont ask why.. i just cant..

well there goes my whole,, "yay happy day" thing..
thrown right out the window..

frack~!!
im not gonna talk to that guy~!!
shit im so pissed off..

i know he doesnt control the sitch..
but damn.. at least give warning or something..
what will i do with these brownies now?!!

fine,, i'll feed it to my dog..
coz there's no way in hell im eating this now..

i so hate you~!!
you know who you are~!!

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12998041/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12998041/ Fri, 18 May 2007 07:21:22 PDT an anime convention of some sorts..
MANGAHOLIX..

i really want to go,, but im not sure about it now..
see,, my brother said he'd go with me..
i got my dad's permission,, just waiting for mom's..
and im looking forward to seeing my friends..
not to mention i have to help some of them with stuff..
like the costume,, and some other stuff..

but im having second thoughts..
i have a mojor quiz on monday..
and two prelim exams..
yesh,, i have to study really hard~!!

so im thinking "maybe i shouldn't go.."
and im all confuse now..
coz i really REALLY want to go..

gah.. i'll decide later..
when my mind starts working right..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12907778/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12907778/ Thu, 10 May 2007 05:27:36 PDT OMFG~!!!
LAINE~!!!! I blame you for this~!!
I can't stop singing it..

*sigh*
anyway.. three days of no sleep..
i think im killing my self dont you?
nah,, not killing myself..
so many people are going to get pissed if i kill myself..
and i dont see any reason to do that..
im perfectly happy right now..

well,, maybe not perfectly happy..
but still better than last april..
may is turning out to be a better month..

i hope this continues..
and im still praying for a miracle..
if you dont know what the miracle is,,
im not telling..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12838639/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12838639/ Fri, 04 May 2007 10:30:40 PDT
"if this is all a dream,, then someone please wake me from my slumber.. i dont wish to dream of a happy past when i know what the futue holds.."

--Rayne Itami

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Actual Entry..

Status Report:
_well,, i've pretty much gone from stable to suicidal to stable and all in one day.. yeah,, im too weird.. too many things just keep happening to me.. i'm starting to go insane.. i happen to have manic depression btw.. if you dont know what that means,, then google it..

slowly all the strength i had is disappearing.. i dont know what to do with myself..

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im letting go of everything.. all im keeping are the memories.. the feelings,, the pain,, the anger.. i'll leave them all behind.. past is past.. no more looking back.. if this is how you want things to be then fine.. may our paths never cross again..

you know who you are.. if by some random twist of fate you're reading this,, know one thing.. i meant every word.. everything i ever told you is true.. i am not to blame for what happened.. you chose this when you lied to me.. i did nothing wrong..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12773547/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12773547/ Sun, 29 Apr 2007 01:38:39 PDT My last one didnt work out well because my stupid brother read it..
But I'll make sure that he won't findthe new one..
Even if he is one hell of a brilliant hacker..

My brother's being annoying again by the way..
He keeps telling me to bring his li'l sister back..
He says I changed..
Truth be told I did..
And i believe that if i dont change,, i'd end up killing myself..
I need to adjust to what's happening..
I'm not the type to talk about feelings..
or at least i used to be..
Now I'm constantling ranting on blogs..

Emotions need to be put in check again..
I need the old personality of Rayne Itami back..
I need a hell of a lot of reality checks..

and im working on that..
I might not succeed though..
but i'll try..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12734563/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12734563/ Wed, 25 Apr 2007 18:44:29 PDT effing blame me for every stupid thing!!
i am the effing cold hearted bitch from hell..
and i need to burn in hell..

but girl (if you can call yourself one)
i am dragging you with me!!
B*TCH!! i wont go there alone..
im taking you with me all the way to the deepest inferno!!
and then we'll settle this there..

only one girl stands at the end of it all..
and you can be sure that i wont be the one lying bloodied on the floor..
it will be a long way before anyone can ever defeat me and my quest for vengence..
yes,, this is all too petty..
but sweetie,, you effing started it..

i dont like people getting involve when im talking to someone..
i wasnt talking to you b*tch!!
so you have no right to interfere..
next time,, mind your own effing business..
it will end up being the death of you..
or maybe,, this will end up as the death of you..

dont worry dearest..
i dont plan on taking your life..
i dont want my hands dirtied by freaking scum..
but i'll make sure that your life is so effing miserable..
death will be your only option out..

and deary,, remember one last thing..
that boy.. he's safe..
i will never hurt him..
you on the other hand..
well,, that's a different story..

next time..
keep your effing mouth shut..
sluts have no right to talk to me..
and vengence,, dear sweet vengence..
i'll get mine.. just you wait..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12687247/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12687247/ Sun, 22 Apr 2007 05:25:03 PDT Life went from okay to bad to worse this year..
January went by kind of fine..
Considering what hapened December of 2006..

February,, start was fine..
Became kind of rocky..

March,, God I don't even know..
It wasn't good either I suppose..

April,, GODDAMNIT!!!
HELL MONTH!!

just,, HELL month..
I hate it so much..

I hate myself..
I hate all the people around me..
I hate HIM..
I hate my entire life!!!!

Fuck everyone in the world!!
why is that stupid HIGHER POWER doing this?!
gah!! do you love making my life a living hell?!!

Taking him away from me?!!
Shit.. He happens to be my life!!
I can't live without him damn you!!!
Why does he have to go?!!
Why now? why now when I've fallen too hard?!

I know he doesn't really give a shit about me..
He doesn't care anymore..
But fuck!! I love that guy!!
Him leaving is like me being stuck in hell..
No way out!! Fuck this!!
Why does he have to go?!!

God dammit!! i'm so pathetic..
But I can't help it..

Shit..
Please,, don't go..
I don't want you to go..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12628971/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12628971/ Tue, 17 Apr 2007 07:12:36 PDT Three little words that means a lot..
Three simple words..
But when I say those words to someone,,
I mean it.. with all my heart..

You happen to be one of the few people I said those words to..
I meant it.. I do love you..
But I dont think it's worth it..
Not anymore..

I can handle "unrequited love"
Been there before..
But what you've been doing is just so much worse..

I'm slowly dying..
I don't blame you..
I did this to myself..
But somehow,, I thought you'd be there to save me..
You didn't.. You gave me a shovel to dig up my grave..
You didn't rescue me,, you helped kill me..

Tears are slowly falling..
This is the last time I'll cry because of you..
I'm tired of crying..
I'm sick of waiting..
And I don't like the way things are going..

I desperately wanted the data to be wrong..
I tried my best to prove it wrong..
But somehow,, I ended up proving it right..
And in the end,, losing you completely..

piff~
what am I saying?!
I can't lose something I never had..

"I'll take care of you just like I took care of her"
Nice to hear,, but they're just words aren't they?
They don't mean anything..
I believed you when you said those words to me..
But I guess,, i shouldn't have..

It was just a kiss,, it meant nothing..
Just a dare that you had to do..
I'm pathetic..

I'm ranting to the world..
And people might actually read this..
WOW! Now I really will sound pathetic..
I'm not like this actually..
He somehow changed me..
And quite frankly,, I don't like the change..
I don't like it at all..

I want to forget..
To just forget all about how I feel..
To forget all about the last four months..
To forget him and everything related to him..

But it's hard..
The feelings won't go away..
And everytime I'm alone,, I end up thinking of him..
How do you forget someone who made your world seem brighter?
The one that saved you from insanity..
The one you care so much about..

I hate this..
When did I start sounding so pathetic?
Someone just kill me now please!!
I don't like what's happening to me..

Message to you: (you know who you are!)

My knight,, You came to me at my darkest hour.. You rescued me from the tower in which I have been locked up in for so long.. You gave me back my lost sanity and self worth.. You were there when I needed you.. So in your time of great need,, I did all I can to stand next to you.. Fight the demons with you.. I tried to protect you the way you protected me.. But now,,I have lost all my will to fight.. I wanted to prove them all wrong.. To shout out to the world that you are not who they say you are.. But as time passed by,, you have greatly changed.. You are no longer the knight that I met a long time ago.. And I am now getting tired of enduring the pain you have been putting me through.. I give up.. I see no more point in fighting.. The pain has become too much for me to handle.. I can no longer keep my promise to be near you forever.. Being near you only causes more pain.. Goodbye dearest knight.. I wish you happiness in your journey.. May you find happiness with your new angel..

~end of my pathetic entry~

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I gave you my heart and it ended up being trampled and torn to a million pieces.. So much for helping me, ne? LIAR! And yet,, who is more pathetic? You who couldn't keep your word? Or me,, who trusted you completely?

The answer? ME.. For trusting you.. For believing in you.. For falling inlove with you.. I'm pathetic..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12560016/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12560016/ Wed, 11 Apr 2007 21:20:07 PDT Err,, not completely..
But still,, it's getting to me again..

The ghosts of my past..
Memories that keep haunting me..
I don't want to remember that day anymore..
It hurts to remember..

I don't like remembering how he smiled at me..
How he held me close..
How he told me all the right words..
How he gently touched my face..
I don't want to remember any of those anymore..

But everytime I close my eyes,,
his face appears..
At times I find myself reading his old messages in my phone..
Wishing that things would go back to normal..
But I know it won't..

I've been trying to decipher everything..
Every conversation..
Every text message..
Every IM..
But I can't figure it out..
Where do I stand in his life?
What do I do now?
Who am I to him?

I don't understand..
I'm so confused..
But,, I don't want to talk to him about this..
He won't understand..
He'll just get mad at me again..
I don't know what to do..

I hate this feeling..
I hate everything that happened..
I wish that I never told him..
I wish I didn't like him..
I wish I can just forget all about him..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12533715/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12533715/ Tue, 10 Apr 2007 01:54:32 PDT =don't ming the freaky mood thing=
I'm not hysterical..
I just think that the emoticon is cute and funny..

Okay,, next..
I was bored and running out of things to do..
so I decided to write this stuf..
It might get kind of boring..
So if you read the first few lines and think that
it isn't interesting,, you'd better just stop reading..
And this may include stupid things about me and my crappy love life..
and,, it will definitely not interest you..
So,, unless you have nothing better to do..
I suggest you don't read this..

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I read my friend's blog earlier..
One of the things that got stuck in my mind is this:

UNREQUITED LOVE #908:
-the heart bleeds, then stops, then laughs at itself, then beats again for someone else

Not saying that I'm an expert in the matters of the heart..
*specially since I've never actually had a boyfriend*
But still,, I think I know quite a lot about it..
*even without the experience of having a boyfriend*

UNREQUITED LOVE
-according to wikipedia,, is love that is not reciprocated, even though reciprocation is usually deeply desired..

Meaning that the object of your affection doesn't feel the same way for you.. or he/she doesn't love you in the way you love him/her..

I've been there..
Falling in love is never easy..
I actually started writing because of unrequited love..

Now,, you might ask me:
"is unrequited love possible?"

YES! I honestly think it is..
You can love someone with all your heart and that person still won't love you back..
You can't force someone to love you after all..

Unrequited love hurts like HELL..
Those who have not evperienced it,, you are lucky!
Falling in love with someone who can't or won't love you back is way too painful to describe..
So let's just say this,,

"it's like getting stabbed by a really dull,,rusty dagger 100 times on your leg.. then you pour alcohol on the open wound.. only ten times worst.." (-Rayne Itami)

No amount of physical pain can ever equal the pain you get when someone breaks your heart..

"Physical pain is nothing compared to the pain of a broken heart.."
-Rayne Itami

Still,, this is only my opinion..
I've fallen in love twice in my 17 years on earth..
*I'm only 17 by the way..*
Both are unrequited love..
I love and give and got nothing in return..
I wasn't expecting anything..
I didn't care about that..
All I cared about is letting the person I love know how I felt..

Yes I am pathetic..
I know that already..

Twice I fell in love..
Twice I got my heart broken..

First would be with Edmond..
I don't mind writing his name here because he'll never get to read it anyway! ^_____^

That was way back in highschool freshman year..
I started writing because of him..
All the poems and stories I wrote back then were inspired by him..
I stayed in love with him till my freshman year in college..

We were sort of close during highschool..
We had a lot of arguments but we somehow end up fixing the problem and being friends again..
I loved him more than anyone in my life..
He was my pillar.. My support..
The person I can always count on to make me feel safe..
He never gave back the love that I gave him..
But I didn't care.. He gave me something better..
A shoulder to lean on in times of trouble..
That was enough for me..
He stuck by me even when I got annoying and irritating..
He found my irrational bahavior amusing at times..
Although he gets annoyed by it occasionally..

We started out having a lot of fights..
But we settled everything and became friends..
I don't talk to him much anymore..
He has a girlfriend now..
And the girl doesn't want him to talk to me ever again..
He still wants to talk to me though..
I guess I was the one who gave up on him..
I stopped talking to him because I didn't want him to get in trouble with his girlfriend..
He loves her and I'd rather not see his heart shatter when he loses her..

The second time I fell in love..
*if you can call it that*
Is in college freshman year..
He's a friend of mine..
We were a little close for a while..
But then he found out I liked him and we sort of drifted apart..
Maybe it was my fault..
But still,, it hurts to think that he changed because of what he found out..

He didn't promise anything... ]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12532590/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12532590/ Mon, 09 Apr 2007 22:53:32 PDT Mainly because I wasn't in much of a writing mood..

Well,, yesterday was okei..
Kind of boring and uneventful..
I spend the morning at home surfing the net..
Then me and my mom went to the mall after lunch..

CHOCOLATES!!
I just love eating chocolates..
No wonder I'm this fat!

Kidding.. ^____^
I love eating,, who cares if I end up fat?!
ehem.. Back to the topic..

Well,, I had a talk with a friend of mine..
We had a fight *cough* my fault *cough*
sometime ago.. and it got fixed yesterday..
so I'm happy it ended up okay..

Well,, before making this DA account,,
I had a breakdown..
And after that breakdown,, I decided to
"REFORMAT" my life..

Go back to how things were..
Starting with apologizing to those I've harmed..
Hence,, the talk with my friend..

He's a nice guy..
I doubted him for a second,, but now I know that
I made a mistake.. ^____^
I shoudn't have doubted him..
So,, gomennasai..
I'm pretty sure you won't read this..
But still,, I'm sorry.. ^____^


I made mistakes and I'm now fixing it..
My Everest sized pride just got cut in half..
And I am now willing to be the better person and say "I'm sorry"
Not to mention the fact that I've quit being a
self-mutilating,, suicidal freak..

Life Reformat in progress..
It might take a bit more time..
But starting is already a big thing..
And I'm half way there.. ^______^

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12505043/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12505043/ Sun, 08 Apr 2007 04:00:06 PDT Yup! You read right! "A KIDDIE PARTY!!"

*sigh*
I didn't really want to go..
I'm always the one stuck with having to deal with this..
Just because I'm the youngest kid in the family..
I'm the one who gets dragged into all the family functions..
I had to attend this one because the kid celebrating her birthday happens to be my god-child..
Yeah,, I have a god-child at this age..
Oh,, and also because of the fact that my cousin
(who's the father of the celebrant)
was the one that owns the monitor that I am using now..

So,, yeah.. just to say "thanks for lending me your monitor!"
I had to go to his kid's birthday party..

Well,, needless to say..
I just wasted four whole hours of my life..
There were like 30 people there..
Mostly those who are about 20 years and older..
There were only 5 kids..
All those kids were extremely annoying..
And I had to spend my time sitting in a corner waiting for the party to just end so I can go home already..

*sigh*
Up until now,,
my head hurts because of..
Well,, I don't know why my head hurts..

So anyway..
I have to just stop writing for now..
I need to talk to someone..
I'll write again later..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12493547/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12493547/ Sat, 07 Apr 2007 08:17:14 PDT err,, just had a bashing from my mom..
She thinks that I ought to study more..

My brother TP is ignoring me..
*because of the whole self-mutilating thing*

My dad is being extra sweet..
*because of some reason that I'm not allowed to write here*

My other brother Jeebs is his usual self..
*err,, quiet and doesnt notice me much*

My friend Avarciriel is going insane..
*confusion does that to you*

My other friend Ren is in emo mode..
*she misses RJ*

My other friend Dimlameiel is in emo mode as well..
*err,, something about her love life I think*

And above all these things,,
I'm more confused and pissed off than ever..

Being so damn insensitive should be punishable by death!
Argh! How can anyone be that insensitive!!

That guy should be burned alive! Damn it!
He is just too damn annoying right now..
Not that he's doing it on purpose..
He is busy after all..
But still,, a minute won't be that bad right?!

*sigh*
I'm being unreasonable again..
Not like I have the right to get mad..
We don't even have that kind of relationship..
I'm not even sure if we're friends..

err,, I guess I had too many arguments with him..
I can't even tell if I really am his friend or not..
Okay,, now I really am confused..

I'm ranting to the world again..
err,, never mind..
*sigh*

I really need to sleep..
But for some reason my eyes won't close..
I just keep seeing this annoying slide show in my mind..
His face keeps flashing in my mind everytime I close my eyes..
Things that happened.. Past feelings..
And I can even hear his voice in my head..
I'm about to go insane..

My memories of him are haunting me..
Memories of those days when everything was okay..
Days when we still talked to each other normally..
Now every conversation is awkward..
I can't even have a decent conversation with him anymore..
Everything is just too awkward..

*sigh*
I wish I can just change what happened..
I wish I never told him the truth..
Hell! I wish I didn't meet him..

Well,, maybe not that last one..
I'm glad I met him..
But I guess,, I just wish I didn't feel this way about him..
Then maybe things won't be this complicated..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12491154/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12491154/ Sat, 07 Apr 2007 02:16:31 PDT See,, a week ago.. (or maybe longer,, I can't remember)
I cut my leg several times..
Self-punishment and all that stuff..
TP found out about it today..

But I only did that because,, well..
I did something wrong and I had to punish myself..
Not to mention the fact that I was suicidal during those times..

I am NOT,, repeat NOT! suicidal anymore..
My beloved mother talked to me and I now know that killing myself is a bad thing..
My mom won't be able to handle it if i die..
And I don't want her to have any problems..

She loves me and I love her..
I won't leave her..
I will stop my stupid suicidal and self-mutilating ways for her..

So,, TP might read this later..
He might hack into this account just to read this..
So,, TP,, I am not suicidal anymore!!
Stop worrying..
I'm fine now..

And the wounds are slowly healing.. ^____^
Don't worry too much..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12482097/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12482097/ Fri, 06 Apr 2007 10:13:08 PDT I was able to solve it..
And is no longer a problem..
Or so I thought..

Apparently,, it's not..
If being ignored the whole day is not a sign that something is amiss then I dont know what is..

Messaged him thrice and no reply..
This whole thing is bull!!
And I'm beginning to think that Avarciriel is right..
He isn't worth it..

Just when I thought I did the right thing by choosing him over my pride,, he proves that he isn't worth it..
Does he not realize how important my pride is to me?
I happen to treasure my pride..
Yes,, it is a deadly sin..
But still,, I value it..

I am not the type to let others walk all over her..
I don't just hide away in the shadows and cry when I am hurt..
I love my pride too much to let anyone hurt it..
I'd rather die than let anyone trample my pride!

But I gave all that up yesterday to talk to him..
To apologize..
To tell him I've done wrong and I need his friendship back..

Apparently,, it isn't worth it..
So now,, I'm in emo mode..
Depressed that I was stupid enough to believe in him again..

When in heavens name will I learn?!!
He isn't worth any of this..

But for some reason.. *sigh*
I keep coming back to him..
I keep giving him my trust back just so he can chuck it right out the window.. The same way he chucked my heart out.. The same way he threw my love out..

*sigh*
Is this really worth all the pain?
Is this really what I want?
To wait for him to grow up?
Be mature about this?

I slapped him..
I said goodbye..
I said I don't want to be near him..
I did wrong..

But I corrected it..
I apologized..
I told him I need him..
I had 10 new cuts and a bruised fist,,
as punishment for slapping him..
Isn't that enough?

Yes I USED to self-mutilate..
I used to be suicidal..
But I promised my mom I wont do those things anymore..
I'm not leaving her.. She needs me..

Apparently,, *i keep using that word dont i?*
that's what I've been doing wrong..
He said that that's what he hates about me..
*piff*

I caused him pain..
that's what he said..
Because I slapped him..

"Physical pain is nothing compared to the pains of a broken heart"
-Rayne Itami

And man did he break mine..
*sigh*

He's not the only one to blame I suppose..
He did warn me after all..
My friends also told me to stay away..
But I was the idiot who kept coming back..

I'm confused again..
I don't know what to think anymore..
I'm not sure if this is me being my usual paranoid self,,
or my instincts telling me something's wrong..

I'll give him till tomorrow I guess..
If he continues to ignore me,, *sigh*
I'll just think about that tomorrow..

For now..
I won't think too much..
Maybe he was just busy..
DND = Do Not Disturb..
So,, he must've been busy..

*sigh*

Just when I thought that all's well..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12467677/ http://Rayne-Itami.deviantart.com/journal/12467677/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 08:35:43 PDT It should be special, ne?
Unfortunately,, nothing special happened..
*note: im being sarcastic*

*sigh*
Let's just say that things are a bit better now..
The guy I seriously wanted to run away from,,
well,, I went back to him..

He's now suppose to be my friend again..
Bye bye PRIDE!!

I guess he's more important..
or so I think..
I'm only hoping that he doesn't prove me wrong..
I don't want to find out that I gave up on my pride for something stupid..

If he does prove me wrong,,
I'm going to get another mouth full from Avarciriel..
She hates it when I do these things..
Sacrificing my pride for those who aren't worth it..
She doesnt think he's worth it..
So she'll kill me if she finds out that I'm friends with him again..

But what was I suppose to do?
Just watch him as he walks away?
He is now an important part of my life..
Like it or not,, I care for him..
I still want him in my life..
Even if it hurts..
He's still important..

*sigh*
I'm pathetic..
So totally pathetic..

Storm's over..
I can see the sun..
Let's hope for smooth sailing from now on..

And I hope I made the right decision in fixing this..
Otherwise,, I'll totally be depressed..

]]> ~Rayne-Itami