http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:RedPillows&section=today deviantART RSS for by:RedPillows en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 15 Dec 2009 03:50:16 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/28343782/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/28343782/ Fri, 13 Nov 2009 23:23:11 PST
Its been almost a year since I graduated. And about two months before that count, Ive been doing nothing but freelance jobs. Freelance is a job, a job is something. Even before I graduated my mom has been down my throat about GETTING A JOB. I think thats the only things shes concerned about when it comes to me; what status I will hold in the future. She never really recognized the little things Ive done in the past. The only things I can distinctly remember when she was proud of me was when I graduated highschool and college....and thats it.

I stopped doing freelance back in September and basically moved back to Fayetteville. My brother quit college again so there was no point in living in Raleigh anymore. I took a month off to relax even though I was aware that the retarded ass tuition bill was coming. Ive come to the conclusion that...3D SUCKS! My mom has been more on the hunt for jobs in that field than I could care about and all the feedback shes gotten was "we need technical blah blah blah". Basically NOTHING Ive gotten into college for. And plus, all the freelance jobs Ive taken had NOTHING to do with 3D. Yeah, 3D sucks.

I told my mom that my tires needed to be rotated because it felt weird while driving it. Because of me telling her that, it resulted in her telling me to find a job somewhere out of this state or something along the lines of "going to that college was a mistake". She didnt say that, but thats basically what she said. It stressed me out. It made me cry. I blogged about this two hours ago. It was much more vague and I pretty much told my dreams and aspirations to fuck off.

Ill get back at you when I think life is back in order.

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/26236332/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/26236332/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 15:14:33 PDT :3

I probably didnt mention about this but two weeks ago somebody from my college asked if I wanted to be in an art show that was happening in Fayetteville. Simply bring all your traditional art you want to display and pray that someone would want to buy it. I came with $42.00 worth of digital copies and about seven canvases. I left with $300, the half the things I brought.

I think I was the only person who was actually selling the most. I have about $160 now. Im planning on buying more canvases and maybe a pair of shoes to paint on. The guy said that he might plan art shows once every month seeing as that last one went better than expected. I totally agree with him...and plus the thought of getting about $300 a month is more than fine with me.



In other news thanks to Brian, I have someone else modeling out some people for me. WOOT!

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/25929796/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/25929796/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 20:44:08 PDT
The one to do it on me originally was this bald guy. I was hoping Id get Ken to do it cause I knew him and he was most likely going to knock a few bucks off the price. When we got there, this one lady that I used to party with comes up to us. She hears about me getting my tattoo and goes "nooo get Ken to do it" with this look on her face like shes trying to convince me that the bald guy wasnt anything compared to Ken or something. So I went into the shop to ask the bald guy if I can switch up artists.

Mouse: hey, can I have Ken do this tattoo?
Bald Guy: *glares at me*
Mouse: e .e;; *slowly cowers back*

Ken was almost done with a session he was doing at the time anyway, and plus the bald guy wanted another hour to redo the design I gave him. (added to the fact that we arrived an hour after we shouldve been there) I wanted it on my chest. Two women at the shop, along with Ashley were saying it was going to hurt. I didnt care because the first tattoo was just calling to my chest! It took Ken about four tries to place it in the right position. The session didnt take long and it didnt hurt as bad as I had anticipated. Maybe a few stings here and there but overall it was alright.

By the time we were done with that we went to go get my brother from Nina's house. He had to cut the yard which didnt really look like it needed cutting in the first place. The three of us hadnt eaten anything all day so we made Daniel make fried rice. His rice is more spicey than anything cause he just pops in alot of spicey shit. We spent a good while inside that hot ass house until nightfall.

SATURDAY DAYTIME: bullshit
SATURDAY NIGHT: party


I dont like driving all over town picking/dropping people off. And plus Im getting tired of weed runs. I never ask to want to smoke unless Im really stressed, and anyway people should have their business done beforehand because I really dont like weed runs. Just saying this now before I go on with the next story of this night.

We were all the way on cliffdale and Daniel wanted to get dropped back off at Nina's, which was all the way over in HopeMills. That already got on my nerves. Then after doing that Jessi tells me to go this and that way to get her some money so she can get her weed, and that just annoyed me. I didnt want to do anymore driving after that so I just planned on dropping them off.

I stopped by Walmart to buy some stuff for skittles. Because if I was driving here and there, I might as well do it while drinking so it wouldnt annoy me any further. Ashley had came with me inside and we were waiting at a register. "Im not feelin' this" she says to me...meaning she wasnt feeling my rotten mood at the time. Then out of nowhere some niggah in dark shades pops up behind her tryna mack or something.

Niggah wasnt gonna smash that cause Ashley knew who was already smashin it ((( cough ))), so I didnt pay attention to him half the time and let Ashley deal with it politely. I couldnt understand half the shit he was saying anyway. We came back to the car, got whatever Jessi wanted, then I dropped them off. Weed was not on my mind at all today. Im not a pothead, if anything Im an alcoholic cause all I wanted to do that night was DRANNNNNNNK! ^ __^



Party Roster: Taylor, Justin, Jay, Cammie, her brother, Melissa, Daniel, Jake, JohnCo, Jack, girl with dimple piercings, Ricky, Thea, Griffin, black guy named James, a girl named Lauren I think, Matt, Heather, Ariel, her friend who I didnt catch the name to, Wil, and about four or five people that I dont remember

I was still in a somewhat bad mood so as soon as I walked up on deck I wanted ups on next game. I was drinking as fast as I could before I even made it up the steps. It was me and JohnCo against Ashley and that guy James. Starting around the beginning of the game someone tells Melissa to distract me and JohnCo. So Melissa lifts up her shirt and before you know it the party becomes a shirtless party and everyone was demanded to take their shirts off.

Everytime it was my time to shoot Id see Ashley unbuttoning her pants and Melissa on the side doing that stomach thing she was doing. Id doit in return by making them shoot for my moneyshot. Me and JohnCo. lost anyway. Ive been losing lately what the hell!?!


Someone had said the strobelight was on so I went inside. I saw Melissa dancing her drunken ass off along with four other half naked people grinding up a... ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/25500435/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/25500435/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 16:53:41 PDT
You have no idea how intense I make shit when Im left loose to play. You have no idea how I love to fuck people up at parties and watch them stumble over themselves trying to avoid walking over their own vomit. And I dont do it out of mean mischief, I do it cause parties were meant to go down that way. Parties were meant to have two of the main life sources of fun, which is alcohol and weed.

I know what the word "no" means and I know what influences control and dont control me. But seriously if you got a FINE ASS niggah (photographic evidence <3) feenin for you like no fucking other and you feenin for them back, then the limits have to either die down or not exist at all.

But if youre like me, a niggah who is overflowing with charisma and knows how to work it, then theres no need for drugs and alcohol. You have no idea how much of a bad unfluence I can be and how much 'naughty' I can bring in the bedroom. Big things come in little packages and all I gotta say is the secks is going to be twice as good now. ;3

Forreal
Im not even lying.
You do not KNOW its going to be INTENSE.
im going to LOVE IT and my whole back is going to be covered in twice as many scars.
I am going to love it.

Mouse does not settle for less! <3

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/25341205/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/25341205/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 23:36:52 PDT
I spent most of my time smothering myself in sex, drugs, and alcohol in the past month or two....not like I havent been doing it since forever. Did I regret it? HELL NOOO. Should I have at least done some work in between all three of these things that consist of 90% of my life? Yeah probably.

Does anyone have Adobe After Effects along with a crack? And I still have those cds of Maya and Photoshop but Im illiterate when it comes to reading instructions on how to install. Cause its getting annoying to have to drive to the school EVERY DAMN TIME just to work on something. AND ALSO, does somebody have good notes on rigging? I dont and I need it for a freelance job....or I can just pay a niggah to rig it for me.

"makin brownies" the new mousey lingo for secks

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/24759181/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/24759181/ Thu, 14 May 2009 18:26:37 PDT
I recently found out my brother broke into my room and stole some of my books to sell for shit money. And when I mean shit money I mean buying pointless things. He said he used it to buy groceries and I think thats a load of bullshit. Even though its been sitting in the cabinet for months theres PLENTY of ramen up in there that he couldve eaten. And the niggah knows how to make fried rice so I dont see why MY possessions had to be sold for such a thing. What I really think he sold them for was for fucking cigarettes. Which really pissed me off.


So Im planning on moving out this bitch. My brother cant stay there cause my mom wont be able to still pay for a $700+ apartment. I already grabbed one of those magazines that show apartments for rent and I have a list of apartments that are $200/$300 dollars cheaper.

IVE DEVISED A PERFECT PLAN. >D
(in which I predict wont start sailing until a couple of months or at least before I have to start paying tuition off)


First off, I propose the whole "I cant live with this niggah!!" situation to my mom. Then show her my whole written down plan of action. (I literally WROTE down every step of the way to living in an apt by myself) If she agrees, I show her the selection of apartments and prices. We come to some level of agreement of which place I can aim for.

Next, I find a job (which is probably going to be hard) in that general area of what ever apartment we chose. If all goes to plan I get that job and hopefully keep it for at least the rest of the year or whenever I snag a better job. I save up enough for the application fee and deposit of the new apartment. Then I make my plans to move out and move in. My brother will have to find someone who can pay for half the shit there or move in with some other niggah. Whatever.

Anyways, I move in. (yay!) Since I just got there I wont have alot of money so my plan will be to live off of campbell's soup and water. xD I have adjusted my eating habits to eating two small ass meals everyday even though its bad. But niggahs gotta get at dat money. I have it on a piece of paper at the level of split payments between me and my parents. (ie. I pay for this portion and they help pay for the other)

Because damnit Im done with roomates. First roomate was messy as hell and didnt clean her dishes for shit....which caused us to get roaches. And when I left that bitch the roaches managed to come in my new apt which pissed me off even more. But I managed to have them stop coming. And now my brother is pretty much the same only theres man hair all over the place. Leaving a mess everywhere except for my room. So Im better off living by myself.




In other news:
I got my second payment yesterday yaay! Im only cutting a 4th of it for spending money. Im almost done with this freelance job. The client visioned a flash animation for his web commercial, but he doesnt know that I did 90% of the work in traditional 2D animation. ;3 The rest will be done in flash. After this freelance job, I have another one to do that FINALLY deals with what I went into college for. Im gonna worry if I dont find a job after these two are over with. ; ____;

Anyone know of any available non-fastfood jobs in the wake forest area?

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/23625835/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/23625835/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 12:45:05 PDT [link]

I'm way behind on this. I kind of stopped checking up on this stuff because I wasn't really submitting anything on here. I was too busy doing a freelance job and other stuff during that month of February.

And speaking of that, I think I got ripped off. I don't know maybe not but if I find my work elsewhere then...I don't know....I might kill a betch. Well what happened was basically there was a freelance job opening at the school. "STORYBOARD ARTIST NEEDED" was what it said and I managed to snag that. Because I could fly through that shit and get money fast. I got an email from the guy, and you know people who email for business they usually have links and contacts to their business or whatever they have. This guy didn't have anything really and I was like

O __o;;

But I didn't think I had to worry too much about it because I needed the money. I met him at the school and he basically walked me through the business process for about 15 minutes. And the job wasn't even storyboarding! I had to do the concept art before even starting the storyboarding, I had a sad face in the back of my mind.

The following week I had to meet up with again with my concepts. The meet up was fairly quick compared to the last week. He had the money and the receipt book ready. So I got my $150 and a receipt that had "Poor Man's Investment" as the company name.

- __-;;

Wha? Is this real? Is HE real??

A few days later I get an email from him that my job was redirected to some 10 page comic thing and that I'm on hold. Well I never got inside information on that comic job just yet! D< And this is why I think I got jipped, but then again I think I wasn't. Because SCA wouldn't team up with art thieves, at least I don't think they would.

But yeah I need another freelance job. Or a real job. Or a part time job. I almost got hired at Forever21, but my schedule didn't fit with them. I'm probably going to call back to say I'm free everyday or I want a position at the new Forever21 in Fayetteville. OR! I can just rob a mutha fucka for $10,000 and I'll be set with tuition!!! D<

PS. Sunday is my birthday! :3

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/22688944/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/22688944/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 08:14:06 PST
So everybody knows (at least in the east coast) that its snowing outside. I didnt prepare for this because I havent experienced snow since 2002 I think.

I woke up to have someone call me at eight in the morning. Seeing how early it was, I shut the phone up. My phone is set up near the window, Im looking out there with eyes half awake and all I see is white shit. I thought it was just too bright outside and then I saw the snow falling and Im thinking "oh its snowing, fuck I cant go anywhere..."

You know how when youre younger, living on the east coast, and in an area where it rarely snows, the first thing that comes to your mind is "OMG ITS SNOWING!!". And all you wanna do is run out in your lime green underwear and make happy little snow angels and piss flavored snow cones for your friends~ But seeing as Im older the first thing I think of is

"how the fuck am I gonna get out of this?"

"are the roads cleared up?"

"if I attempt to drift would I end up swirling in circles down the road?"


The last thing....okay maybe the fourth thing Id think of would be playing in the snow. I wouldnt run around in it cause its just too cold for that crazy shit. And plus I have my car. Its like walking; why would you walk down the street when you could drive down the street. So why walk in the snow when I can drive in the snow? Ill see a group of kids playing in the yard and then ill skid some snow and they'll basically be little snow people. xD

Im suppose to be going up to Raleigh today, but I dont even know if i can cause it hasnt stopped snowing. What if those ridiculous oh-that-shit-would-never-happen moments would happen where it would just keep snowing? You'd open the front door and all you see is a wall of snow. And the news would say people still have to go to work and to school....and the only way they could get there is through pre-built tunnels. So everybody would basically have to mole their way through everything.

And it would just keep snowing all the way into summer. And for those families who do annual bbq cookouts, they'd have to make snow burgers and snow hotdogs, and all the little kids would be stuck inside their little kiddy pools and be like "mommy I think my left side is num againnn! D:"

But enough of these wishful shinanagins. LETS GO SNOW BOARDING!

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/22223686/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/22223686/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 09:57:04 PST
I put in my two cents like I have this whole time, and I continue to tell you what I think but I dont think youre taking in everything that I say.

If you have a problem, YES you can come to me. Is it not my damn job to help you through your issues? I cant keep rubbing your stomach and telling you "ohh itll be okay baby." and then we'll just leave it at that. If I have to rough you up in order to get you through some tough shit, then I will but if youre not gonna meet me halfway through then thats not my fault. Everything is not fucking cake and pie.

And if you wanna stop coming to me for answers, then ask someone else they'll tell you the same goddamn deal.

Every fucking bitch out their aint gonna like you and aint gonna want to be your friend. That doesnt give you a reason to think you suck. And if ppl keep giving you shit dont fucking listen to them. People dont matter, YOU matter and thats all you need to worry about. But if you cant see that then I have nothing else to say.

PEACE OUT GIRL.
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Am I not fucking right!?! D<

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...and shit like that makes me SICK, anyway. ]:<

One night, this particular couple along with some other people were hanging out around the house, almost all the lights were out. This couple was doing their lovey dovey bullshit all over the damn place, I was THIS close to kicking them out but it would be mean so I told them to PLEASE take that bullshit elsewhere. Not in those specific terms but I made it clear that I dont want that around me.

At some point in the night I decide to go up to my room. And what happens..I find that my room is locked. Who the hell locked my door? I look around and OH...that couple isnt anywhere to be found. I ask someone where they are and what do they say...."Theyre in your room".

Now WHO the FUCK, especially if youre a friend, who the FUCK conjures up such a fucked up idea. Please someone explain. It resulted in me punching the door, leaving, and someone else punching a whole into the wall between my room and the next room because they were just as pissed as me.

I never forgave the fuckers.
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Story number two. Two years ago a friend had a boyfriend who came back from basic or some shit. They both got into my car and we went out to the mall. We got there and we all walk out. My friend says "hold on, we'll be right back". And me not knowing whatever they were gonna do, I say okay and walk off to wait elsewhere. It just so happens that the wait was too fucking long so I walk back to the car. And what do I find? The two of them in the backseat of my car doing shit.

And of course, AGAIN, I got really pissed because why? Yo bitch ass is quick to disrespect me. i tell them to get out and what do I do? I left their ass.

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And tonight, a similar event went down. This bitch ass actually tries do shit in the backseat with a girl WHILE im in the goddamn car. REGARDLESS if it was a kiss, I specifically told him NO because I dont want shit like that goin down in my own car. But does this bastard listen, no. And Im telling the friend of the girl, who was riding shotgun, the whole story about how Im not down with bitches doing shit in my backseat cause its happened before.

And I didnt care if they listened, I hoped they listened. Cause bitches dont need to fuck around like that. We were supposedly suppose to go into Taco Bell. The two of them in the backseat of the car get out and realize the two of us arent moving cause Im still talking to him. And somehow they get back in. Im telling them they ought to get back out cause my ass is ready to bounce. And the girl asks some shit about dropping them off to her car. The car was RIGHT ACROSS THE STREET. I think they can survive a few fuckin steps across gravel.

Then at some point I snapped a little and just drove them back to her car. And then I told my friend "You leave too. You better get the FUCK outta my car.Here's your shit. get out." to his face. Cause this is the second time he's done FUCKED UP with me just because he wants some damn pussy. I hope he catches warts and they eat away his dick.

The girl's friend was chill as fuck.
The girl is nothing to me but a pretty face.
And my friend, well he can basically cook his dick and eat it.

Im tired of people and their disrespecting ways.

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/20991925/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/20991925/ Tue, 14 Oct 2008 19:05:53 PDT
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That should be my quote. Forever. Anyways, update time! :B

I got another freelance job. Apparently the client saw my promo packet at school on the wall and she said she liked my image. It was exactly what she was looking for. YES boys and girlies....a squid milkshake was exactly what she wanted. teehee!

Ive got to do a couple of short animations dealing with box turtles. I met up with Laurie today and she gave me a few tips on client relations and bringing money up-front. The client comes tomorrow at 10:30 so I gotsta have my game face on by that time.

After that I took my brother to Edward McKays cause he needed cigarette money I think. They have that one movie Mad Money for $6.00! Someone give me $6.00

It was happy food time so we went to the Cici's Pizza nearby Wake Forest. And what happens....that bitch was packed! D< There was people lining up from OUTSIDE the building. But my ass drove all the way from Edward McKays to THERE. So I thought "okay since its packed lets wait a few minutes until the rest of the ppl get in the door..THEN we get in line. Cause no one is gonna line up after these ppl"

And what happens...3 families come lining up right behind them! D< It made me angry so I started mouthing off racist comments...and I was parked right in front of them. Dont think they heard me though...BUT THEY SHOULD HAVE! D< Go buy a salad you assholes. We went to Wendys...urr...I mean..."Square Meat Land" and I got a baconator.

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Where's a good place that makes graphic shirts? Cause shirts and shoes today...EYE can do myself so why the fuck would I wanna spend $50 plus dollas for one that someone else made? I wanna make my own and then rep that shit and someone would be like "yo where'd you get that??" and itll be a wrap.

Mouse will make it rain~

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/20734097/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/20734097/ Mon, 29 Sep 2008 00:11:45 PDT
mouse's first impression about that: !!!
mouse's impression a second after: D: .......

bye bye R&R. so instead of having 2weeks away from artsy fartsy shit I cut it in half to 1week. and anyway my brother is attending the school now sooo anybody who still goes to the school look for some stocky mexican looking [he's really filipino] guy who looks like me only he just happens to be darker! xDD He'll respond to "Panda" or "Daniel"

He's not really like me though. you know...always yelling out curse words and talking about sex all the time. So yeah dont talk to him like you would talk to me.

But yeah back to the whole school thing. I spent most of the previous week going to school early in the morning doing this freelance thing and standing on the side for my brother's orientation which is honestly a waste of time. I'll be at the school still trying to get some work done. D: My website portfolio will have a v3 layout. Hopefully that will be the very last update and I can get to relaxing a little more.

cause Im mad at how I only cut it to 1week. D<

so I had to take full advantage of that week with tons of beer pong [scratch that "liquor pong"] and ~making out with the hottest ppl I know~ and other forms of sexual nature teehee. Once Im done with this freelance thing Ill get back to drawing. Im so far behind the bandwagon I fuckin fell off months ago and the bandwagon came around for another trip and ran me over. D:

ps ps.
Im thinking of dying my hair again. cause Im tired of my natural hair color. im tired of it im tired of it im tired of it!! >.< Its probably gonna be red again...cause I pull dat shit off well and ppl seem to like it and consider me as "the cute victim to be raped" ;___;



but rape is fun. >:V
so bring it.

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/20449226/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/20449226/ Fri, 12 Sep 2008 03:30:12 PDT
no more, NO MORE. I can finally not go day to day based on a schedule of some kind. Well at least for a while before I actually have to get an actual job.

now I have time to catch up on my partying times! yaaaay! wait... no, actually Ive been on schedule with that every Saturday for the past few months. And I dont think Ive obtained friends who like to drink on weekdays, I dont think I want to. >.>;

Speaking of parties____
party 1: the night of graduation on a friday
party 2: the night at axol's house on a saturday

So yeah, like, lvl30 Hangover will deck me in the face Friday night, only to have a lvl65 Hangover finish me off the following night. And then Im gonna feel like shit Sunday. But thats okay. Thats how youre supposed to feel like after something crazy amazing happens, youre suppose to feel like shit. xD

Other than that Ill still be in Raleigh for another year. Constantly changing the layout on my website, adding new material, all that good jazz. And I can also get back to this shit on here.

ONE THING I will most definitely miss though xD There was a saying I had always said everytime a new quarter had started. Like the first day of second quarter, the VERY FIRST thing I said when I stepped inside was "..Where the bichez at!". And Ive said it every fuckin quarter, cause I was seriously looking for some to be honest. *rubs chin*

[*definition to "the bichez" - singular or plural. meaning anyone(anybody period.) who mouse thinks is fine as hell or a tiny bit attractive and is capable of having "super happy fun times" with her. Not related to the degrading term "bitch" at all.*]

and what happens...NOTHING...mouse never found the bichez during those full 2years. Well specifically at school at least. I found two, but they dont even live in the Raleigh area so what does that tell us. Exactly.

Anyways, more of my updates will be through myspace, like theyve always been. But if ppl dont like to read about my sexual escapades with the hottest ppl I know, then I suggest keeping up with me only through here. :V

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/20046563/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/20046563/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 17:49:36 PDT
GOAL : make a simple series of my sexy/hot/beasty version of everybody at school

and what happens--I never got to it because I miscalculated the whole busy schedule of last semester. And school was first, and also I had a sudden brainfart when it was time to draw Chris....and I think it will forever be a brainfart.

And after a moment of telling myself "you never finish anything you faggotron!" I decided to test out my doodle skills again....which just so happen to be on an elite myspacer.

NOTE: DONT ever draw anything for an elite myspacer unless youve got time to do about 1000 other people who want one from you too! >.<

oh my flipping god it was like...I send in a little doodle to a goddess worshiped by many, and now all of a sudden I get like 7 to 10 friend requests a day, 80% of them asking the infamous question "Can you draw something for me too?". I was on myspace the night I left for LA, I find a little azn shop 2days after the leave, it had free internet and what happens, I get 2full pages of friend requests and every other possible notice that myspace gives you. [ie. messages,comments,pic comments, bdays, invites, etc]

I can no longer keep up with real friends cause I exceeded the 1000 friend mark. ;__; But Im not gonna turn down most of the requests cause most of them are hot people. >3



Am I ever gonna get back to anything? *tear*

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I havent stepped foot on this site so Im not gonna check all the mail and just throw it away. And since Im back its time to get back to the list of godlyness.

BUT.

Some time in that one week of vacationing this person on the right [link] came up from Tampa for a visit. rawr rawr rawr. All I have to say is that week was quite interesting. And she wants me to draw a picture of us along with two other ppl we chilled with.

SO GODLYNESS IS ON HOLD!! D<


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In other news:

New semester. Where the noob bitches at so I can badger at them about how they suck

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/18688047/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/18688047/ Thu, 05 Jun 2008 21:38:07 PDT
I hate getting sick even though my immune system will fight it off, but mouse does not deny the chance for tongue wrestling over n over. muahahaha [or mayb it mightve been lacy who got me sick....hm..iono] The list has been revised, just so I can speed up the process a bit. And yet, I dont think this strategy will speed anything up at all due to the fact that it takes me at least one whole day to finish ONE character....and that includes procrastinating, school work, and pron. heehee, just kidding on the pron part.

Seperately:
Mouse
Sara
Chris Carver
Melissa
Sunshine
Chrisi
Tyler
Matt
Brian
Nate
Anthony Jones
Madcat-dison
Lacy
Spike
Damian J
Anthony Purington
Knate
Britney [sp?] Reynolds



IN A GROUP:
Alex
Raquel
Larson
Chris Mclaughlin
Trey
Mark
Ben
Titus
Jesse
Jerome
Beth
Stephanie
Woody
Melissa2
Joseph Moore
Tony
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Mouse
Sara
Chris Carver
Melissa
Sunshine
Chrisi
Tyler
Matt
Brian
Nate
Tony
Anthony Jones
Madcat-dison
Lacy
Spike
Damian J
Anthony Purington
Knate
Alex
Raquel
Larson
Chris Mclaughlin
Trey
Mark
Ben
Titus
Jesse
Jerome
Stephanie
Woody
Melissa2
Britney [sp?] Reynolds

what Im doing: naming almost everyone in the animation program that seem to stand out in my mind as of now.

what Ive been doing lately: drawing people

Spoilers:
- "Chibi Commissions 6.0" by Endling
- ANY concept design by Wen-M

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DUH you know where this is going! so if there's anyone Ive left out that you think should join the bandwagon tell me. OR if there's anyone outside the circle, but should definitely get in on this then give me legit reasons and theyre automatically in.

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/18437844/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/18437844/ Wed, 21 May 2008 20:01:35 PDT
Yeah I wanted to go cause Ive never been to an anime convention before. The closest Id probably get is if id be sticking my eyeball against the computer/telly screen. *sad face* Iono I had money for it...I "had"....but I spent it on something. I dont remember what it was that I spent my money for. It better have been something I NEEDED rather than something I wanted. eh...probably something I wanted cause Im a compulsive buyer sometimes...

damn son! >D
If I went Id be pwning fine bitches off the yingyang...and that counts for both girlies and boy...ies? cause the world is mouse's prostitute. then niggas probably gonna be like "wow mouse I didnt know you were like that o.o;" and ill be like "nigga dont you know who I AM?" im the one holdin the hoe phone here....the one who'd be down for a sexy party.

definition of a sexy party: a party or get together, only you chill in your underwear. anything goes.

mouse's drunken coked up cosplay idea:
UHHH everybody [who is a complete stranger to me] always...they ALWAYS say "omg you look like Kyo I wanna rape you so badz bby". so I take out all the red/purple in my head and bleach my whole head...walk around topless but like press my mousey boobies down with barbed wire. and for those who have weak stomachs with the whole bloody shit...then ill use ducttape....then tape nails on each of my fingers so I can constantly rip at my chest and/or mouth and bleed while im walking around staring at other kids.

and when I snag some GULLIBLE little fanboy or fangirl or whatever
ill tell them, in a crazed kyo like manner, that ill mount them, ripping at my chest and/or mouth and let the blood poor over their horny naked genitalia pulsing body. yaay!

the end

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/17960565/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/17960565/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 14:07:19 PDT
Even though alot shit runs through my head [mostly of cute things and food and both exploding/dying in some ominous and/or joyous fashion] I cant seem to force them on paper lately. Either Im lazy or lack of motivation...or Im hungry...?

But yeah mouse's request box is open. So tell me what to draw cause iono what to draw!!well I got a list somewhere but Im not really following it.

...I needa buy that powder stuff you mix in bleach to dye your hair. Cause my hair is fairly long now and I think it deserves to be another hair color other than natural. yaay? :V

oh yeah and I need music to download just because, I mean I got nothin else to do right now and Im over a week ahead of myself in college work and stuff. preeeez? I listen to anything. But preferably something with good bass cause I like watching my rear view mirrors vibrate when Im driving.

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/17628578/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/17628578/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 10:27:46 PDT
Its a pokemon right? D<

Iono the whole "so I heard you like mudkips" joke kinda passed over my head when it was actually popular. ..or maybe it still it popular....iono...but fortunately I dont really care, yaay! so whoever STILL watches pokemon or whatever explain to me why the whole "mudkip" thing is so 'delicious' or however the joke is suppose to be perceived.

but! in other news I leave for Nassau today. Just....eleven more hours to go. Which means eleven more hours of being lazy.

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/17517172/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/17517172/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 21:05:45 PDT Attracts me like no other lover.
Something in the way you woo me.
I don't want to leave you now,
You know I believe and how.
Somewhere in your smile you know,
That I don't need no other lover.
Something in your style that shows me.
I don't want to leave you now,
You know I believe and how.
You're asking me will my love grow,
I don't know
You stick around now, it may show,
I don't know
Something in the way you know,
And all I have to do is think of you.
Something in the things you show me.
I don't want to leave you now.
You know I believe and how

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We watched "across the universe" in Rich's last class and thats my favorite song from it next to the other song "because" when they were trippin out in the field.

But other than that...I GOT OFFERED TWO JOBS TODAY. *insert final fantasy victory theme song* Monday Matt Kelly mentioned a job from this place called AvenueZ. "You interested in having a job?", he says. I just kinda tilted my head with an obvious look that I need to be convinced likeRIGHTNOW. Then he says "its a job that gives you 15hrs a week and over $20 and hour".

..pfft well DUH now im convinced just mention the pay without me trying to pry it outta you and Im in. xD

Today..I think her name is Rachel? from PorfessionalServices stops me from doing mah ~scooter thang~ outside and tells me about the job offer again. She says he actually wants an interview with me. And I was thinking "YES! no gay ass jobs like rudino's even though I loved the free food!" AvenueZ is actually a job leaning towards the digital media kids, like doing graphic designs so whoever reads this...iono youre probably not interested in reading right about now.

BUT.
Right as class started for Rich's class, Im handing in the hard copies of the storyboards I did for our group project....and he says the most craziest thing that..iono if I had floppy doggy ears my ears woulda done shot up the roof of the dome. He said he was gonna try and see if I get an intern for Pixar studios....ON, the same DAY that I got offered this job at AvenueZ and Im like "hell yeah double level up on pokemon master points!"

So yeah the internship in Cali sounds PRETTY good but this ground zero job right now is still on the table with me.

but for as of RIGHT NOW, spring break is like..RIGHT NOW for me cause im not going to my last class and I am ready for this cruise to the bahamas. Rich said to just relax for the break and not be anywhere near Maya and I plan on doing that. Just buy me some sun screen and I am set.>D

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/17478014/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/17478014/ Sun, 23 Mar 2008 16:02:07 PDT car/lancer evo
rank/C5 "The Lion Like Spear Holder"
HP/720
ricer/Jun Kitami

2. name/mous(with a dot replacing the E)
car/RX8
rank/C6 "The Chosen Raiden"
HP/680
ricer/Kohichi Hiramoto & Harada

3. name/yoiy(with a star after)
car/legacy
rank/C9 "Racer"
HP/450
ricer/Reina Akikawa

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/17421290/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/17421290/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 05:54:04 PDT
1: name/mouse
car/lancer evo
rank/c6 "the chosen spear holder"
HP/720

2: name/mous(with a dot replacing the E)
car/rx8
rank/c7 "show off"
HP/660

3: name/yoiy(with a star after)
car/legacy
rank/n "full marathon"
HP/360
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Really someone should find this game and make a car so they can race me. Or do a ghost battle with me or something. Not to mention I stick out cause Im the only girl I know who plays it other than all the guys I see playing it. Yeah but anyway Im busy for the rest of this free week, I think.

Thursday today: appointment at 10:30 and then going to funfunfun to play more arcade games.
Friday: hanging out I guess cause some ppl said theyre skipping school or something. [aww you highschool kids are such rebels]
Saturday: ecstasy and a strip club possibly
Sunday: rob a bank.

YAAY!
so who's ready for spring break? Im going on the '08 cruise to Nassau, yeah nigguhs. ill try and sneak in a drink or two so I can take naked drunken pictures for you. *wink*

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/17325806/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/17325806/ Fri, 14 Mar 2008 04:08:00 PDT ...WHAT! the fuck. xD Well so much for calling it a "happy" birthday. Unless someone gives me a reason to consider it happy *nudge nudge* Cause yeah it'll be my birthday and I should have whatever I want, a sucker for love would do some good. huahahaha. Well anyway..ill be twenty yaay!

STOP yaay-ing for me. D<
Cause ill still look like im 16 and sound like im 9. Its not really an important age other than the fact that ive graduated the teen years. [important ages: 16, 18, 21, 30] If anything, give me cash as a present if youre not gonna give me a "happy" ending, you hoes!

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/16501750/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/16501750/ Mon, 21 Jan 2008 08:32:18 PST Melanie *COUGH CHOKE DIE*....sen

2) Male/Female?
Female

3) Were you named after anyone?
No, my parents just went through a name dictionary and randomly picked it. My original name was gonna be CHO, but noo they decided not to be so aznly cliche

4) Does your name mean anything?
Yeah but I forgot

5) Nickname(s)?
Mouse, the opposite persona of how I am in college >:3

6) What do you think you look like?
an anime character cause thats what everyone says

7) Date of birth?
March 15 1988

8) Place of birth and current location?
somewhere in Jersey
the capital of North Carolina

9) Nationality?
Filipino, yeah I guess I kinda look chinese/japanese mixed but Im not

10) Astrology sign?
Pisces

11) Chinese astrology sign?
Dragon

12) Religion?
Agnostic

13) What's your favorite smell?
well lets see. When Im really fuckin hungry...the smell of food being cooked, Sex...well Im not too fixated on the smell, and food scented lotion/chapstick

14) Political Position?
I know nothing about the elephants and donkey

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Fruit drinks or water

16) Hair + eye color?
hair: originally black, blonde/coppertone highlights with a big portion of red in it. Its like my head caught on fire
eye color: it looks like pikachu eyes from afar ^0^

17) Do you look like anyone famous?
I was at a TacoBell one night and one of the workers said I remind them of Keyshia Cole. And if I knew any famous azn ppl then Id name them also

18) What do you look like?
..wtf this question was already asked. well I look like a little boy cause of my hair and my joe cool swagger

19) Any unusual talents?
Thats not to be discussed *wink*

20) Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous?
I tried to be ambidextrous, Im left handed

21) Gay, straight, bi, or other?
I be pimpin' the best of both worlds forreal, thats why my ego is fairly big

22) What do you do for a living?
Go on computers 24/7

23) What do you do for fun?
sex, drugs, and alcohol with friends, and other illegal types of things. seriously im a bad little hoodrat...goody two shoes shouldnt hang around me cause I can influence quite a bit if I tried

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?
any type

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?
ANY damnit >:V

26) Have you met your grandparents?
yeah but all of them are dead

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
yeah like back in middleschool and highschool, now its just all about friends with benefits so I dont have to worry about all the drama

28) Crush?
For now no

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?
Dating is lame >:3

30) Current worries?
my procrastinating this semester, like I have in the previous ones even though I finished the work on time anyway

31) Favorite online guy/girl(s)?
Ive got my favorites building up in my photobucket account

32) Favorite place to be?
somewhere doing very bad things

33) Least favorite place to be?
sometimes at my apt cause its just me here in this two bed/bath...my brother moved back to our hometown so yeah

34) Do you burn or tan?
Id rather not do any

35) Ever break a bone?
No

36) What is your favorite cereal?
Frosted Mini Wheats

37) Person you cry with?
...never heard of a crying buddy before

38) Any sisters?
no

39) Any brothers?
Yeah, two years older than me...lives with our mom..works at an amusement place called FunFunFun...looks more mexican than filipino...ppl think we're twins.

40) Any pets?
this FATASS cat named Ning Ning. I like when it lies on its back so then I just roll it back and forth on the floor cause its so fat @w@

41) An illness
pshhh im such a deity

42) A pager?
a whaaa? xD

43) A personal phone line?
no

44) A cell phone?
yeah its full of booty calls lol
get at me...text wise if I dont know you

45) A visible birthmark?
yeah this thingy on my left calf...kinda looks like a bird flying

46) A pool or hot tub?
heh, put me in either one and ill promise fun mousey times

47) A car?
a yellow ricey looking focus that must be updated tokyo drift style

48) Personality?
Melanie: quiet, paranoid, obedient, chill
Mouse: outgoing, angry, troublesome, hum... ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/16480283/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/16480283/ Sat, 19 Jan 2008 19:43:12 PST
And so I did. I just updated Sven, Hood, and myself. All I need is a scanner and such. So be on zeh lookout cause they look like duh shit nukka! If I ever...EVER!!! get the time out of class then ill probably do more mini stories on them. Or just more pictures of them in different outfits and what not.

oh yeah, Im back on gaia cause I cant stare at myspace for more than a minute unless someone is talking to me. My username is still the same _strEEt complex. So add mee if you wish......and if you wanna comment me about how much you love my hair and how much you wanna rape me cause I supposedly look like Kyo from Dir En Grey, then be my guest. Cause thats all anyone says when I check my gaia profile.

And if you HAVE been on gaia before and you dont go on it anymore then GIVE ME YOUR STUFF!! That is all. >3

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/15500273/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/15500273/ Tue, 13 Nov 2007 21:42:28 PST
I havent had much modeling time but I notice that I get better and better every time I try on my free time...even though I never finish. Ive learned from the past mistakes that Ive carelessly made when Ive modeled. And learning from your mistakes fast is the azn way to do it...or else you have to kill yourself. And I say that alot when Im in school...only I mumble it to myself so I think everybody there thinks Im crazy. One of my instructor already says Im a "ninja" cause he never noticed that I turned in my quiz paper. :3

And with storyboarding, as soon as it was exposed to me I was so quick to understand. And I got it like that. Even though drawing the same thing about five times is nerve wrecking but Ive been told that I tell the story well with my little pictures and hit the image on point when it comes to storyboards. And also Ive noticed that storyboard artists have to act it out as they tell the story along the way. We do improvs sometimes in class and I enjoy doing it. ^w^V

SO. It has been decided on which pokemon I have chosen for my journey! *points* ...and I dont even like pokemon!
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In other news, I got an animation to work on. Animation is cool but the whole process of doing it pisses me off. Did I mention that Im a really good procrastinator? Dx Im doing it as I type. I guess you could say Im not all that good in animating. I can do good in 2D animation but not so much in 3D. Now...off to kill some pizza and eat it.

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/14145193/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/14145193/ Mon, 13 Aug 2007 07:40:53 PDT
As you can see I am slowly getting back to submitting on here, and I havent done that in two years. Im in college now, can you guess what type? Yes its an art college. I think Ive mentioned this before, I dont remember. Well Im in digital animation now. So far Ive been exposed to that, lighting and environmentals, storyboarding, flash animation, character concept, and digital media related stuff that Im exploring on my own terms. All thats a BITCH but worth it in the long run. Right now Im in the studios early only because I failed to do homework. Right now Im just waiting on a free studio to step in and do last minute work.

On another note, around the winter of '06 Ive been drawing alot in sketchbook. Not so much as anything "anime related". More like, walking into a bookstore and looking at magazines of ppl I can draw. Ive gotten better at that kinda stuff, I only use pen now when Im doing realistic images. If I find the time to scan some things then Ill submit when I have the time. :3

[EDIT] so how do you submit flash animation on here??? cause I made one and iono which file to put down when submitting. Is it the SWF file? help mee! :V

]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/10005938/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/10005938/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 05:31:31 PDT But, as none of you know, mouse is moving for college pretty soon yaaay! I am finally leaving this cr00dy ass town that is called Fayetteville and moving to the city limits, subtract the tall buildings. Last night I only packed up my clothes and that sucked suprisingly. Its two big fat garbage bags worth of clothes, and Im not even done. I still have two stacks of shirts waiting to be packed along with a couple of clothes that need to be washed. pshh...I have alot of clothes.

But if I was some rich laguna beach girl, itd probably be six fat garbage bags sitting in my room and Id probably have two closets full of other clothes waiting to be packed up. But Im not so you know how it is.
I havent even gotten my fucking license yet...whats up with that. I really should get it, but I need some insurance thing dont I? ...I wanna flippin drive! *throws rice to kill the birds* so I can go to certain peoples' houses cause I know ill get a special goodbye from them. <3 ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/9817990/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/9817990/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 16:05:48 PDT
Well anyway enough about me lets talk about Me. Just a few more weeks until I move out of my house and into my apartment with my roomate Nicky. Although the location is very much "out there" and on the edge of city limits and countryside.. which is my downside thought about it. But doesnt matter, apartments are hot. I dont know if Ill have internet right away when I move in...if I dont then imma hafta kill a bich or something. Cause I cant go 40 minutes without it. You wanna see my source of transportation? Its my pikachu on wheels teehee!

[link]

And Im going to an art college called "Digital Circus". It looks like a damn circus too. its like three golf balls shoved into the earth's crust on the outside, and on the inside its surrounded by student work and the floors and walls are so tacky with each other. But its all good cause the admins. there actually talk to you like a person and not just some student like they do in highschool. woot!

Well anyway...thats the end of my journal update, ending transmission~ ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/9463978/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/9463978/ Sun, 23 Jul 2006 01:17:33 PDT
Ive got a plan...
Me, and maybe a couple of peeps who want in on this, are gonna go to a bank. Late at night. We rob that bitch. Then we go to those electronic stores at night. Those stores are bound to sell some kind of adhesive/tape so we tape up the security videos and steal all the scanners I need. And if some peeps are willing to join in such festivities, they can steal themselves a computer of whatever the hell they want.

"then what was the point of stealing money from the bank??" you ask.
BECAUSE its just what ya do okay?! okay.

Since we've already succeeded at stealing money and electronics. We sneak into the mall, which is most likely next door. Go to security maintenence and shut them bitches down. Go down every department and taken whatever the fuck we want. Going to other stores, opening them up and taking THEIR stuff too. And you know those big trashcans on wheels that janitors push around to collect all the garbage, we use those to put in all our stolen goods.
Then for a victory celebration we break into Bath&Body Works. [EVERYBODY!! Ive had this thought circling around my head for a LOOOONG ass time and I think that somebody should try this one day] We take al the lotion/shampoo/hand sanitizer ANYTHING thats all slippery and cover the whole floor in it. We remove ourelves from most of the clothing on our backs and just skate around the mall. Or slip-n-slide....which ever you like. And just for kicks we break into the toy store and grab the nerf guns. We fill them up with drinks from the drink machines and have an all out war of the worlds. bwahahaha!!
ha...

After milking the night for all its worth we go to Walmart. Its open 24/7 so yeah. Before going in we put either beanies on our heads with heavily packed foundation on our faces, or we walk in with full body mascot suits. OR!! We ghost everyones' ass and sneak in without being seen from anybody or their cameras. Kinda like MetalGear mwahaha. We steal a couple of bleaching kits and hair dye or whatever. Head to some kind of facility or remoted area and re-dye our heads, so just in case our original identities were traced anywhere at anytime.

My fallback plan was to just buy another scanner....................
but the first one sounds fun doesnt it. mehehehe ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/8531890/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/8531890/ Thu, 20 Apr 2006 15:52:24 PDT
You do not know how excruciating it is to not be able to scan a simple drawing. Yes Im still drawing ever since my scanner wigged out on me, and that was a long ass time ago. All I can pretty much do is submit photos. I have alot, but I doubt anyone would want to see over 100 photos of my face. As soon as I get a workable scanner I will be submitting off the yingyang. Thank you for 12,000 reviews by the way.

OMG ID BE HAVING A DEVIATION FOR THAT REVIEW!! goddamnit...

Ever since my temporary lockdown on DA Ive been on myspace. Here is my link, which is under construction: [link]

If you do gaiaonline then here I am: _strEEt complex ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/7368807/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/7368807/ Tue, 20 Dec 2005 23:38:59 PST And thats odd.
I like you alot but I obviously cant have you.
The only way to satisfy the both of us
is to say what was set in my lil mousey heart
from the beginning.

mouse loves you
yes she does.

At least it makes us both happy
that Such A Love actually exists.
Whether it be passionately strong
or blindfully weak.

Either way
I will rise again and learn to like you more from afar.
or I will fall and learn time and time again that your certain
spark in here <3 just really aint meant to be.

What more can I say?
sorry for liking you in such a way. ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/6349211/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/6349211/ Sun, 28 Aug 2005 08:56:28 PDT

i dont fucking know if 1. its not compatible with new computer system thats installed or 2. its just another piece of technology's garbage
I MEAN GODDAMNIT!

and here i was fucking waiting this whole time WAITING for my job to end WAITING so i can take all those pictures home WAITING for us to get the damn internet back WAITING until I had the TIME. and now that i have time.

IT DOESNT WORK!!

what kind of shit is this *throws it out the window*

NEEEXT. ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/6287147/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/6287147/ Sun, 21 Aug 2005 10:45:55 PDT
A series of deviations are about to be posted.
A series of Mouse...
In many different fashion statements...
Along with other creations.
A total of 28 creations.
Before postage.
PSP9 program must be installed due to a brand new computer system, obviously.

This mission will commence shortly.
*closes eyes* ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/6279987/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/6279987/ Sat, 20 Aug 2005 13:51:05 PDT
my work: my pokemon journey
me: the she-version of ash ketchum

Well this summer I set on my pokemon journey. It was hard..everyday handling pokemon battle after pokemon battle. And I won! mwahahaa! Yesterday I became the ultimate pokemon guru, so I am retired. teehee
Well besically yesterday I finished working at my summer job. wee! now i have time for anything! but now i gotta scan all the pix i drew to show you.

Earlier on I had a major set back...the tower thingy to the computer crashed due to a damn floppydisk.
I lost ALL the music on my limewire.
I lost ALL the pictures i took with the cam I had.
So now I gotta start from scratch and rebuild Mouse's Kingdom! ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/6103841/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/6103841/ Mon, 01 Aug 2005 17:16:05 PDT ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5916389/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5916389/ Tue, 12 Jul 2005 17:56:40 PDT
I wont be posted pictures for a good while.
Leave my name to collect dust like Id care.
Mouse needs time to herself.
Too many freakin people asking me "so you done with my drawing so you done with my drawing?" NO BICH DAMNIT QUIT GETTIN ON MY BACK ABOUT THAT SHIT!?!

jesus let me BREATH for once.

Ill come back eventually.
with darker pix
psycho0ish dark pix
happy pix
happy darker pix
which ever will come to mind...

just leave me be for now. ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5738005/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5738005/ Thu, 23 Jun 2005 20:14:12 PDT [link]

account with photos ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5605731/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5605731/ Fri, 10 Jun 2005 02:56:14 PDT


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A problem that continues to grow and annoy me along with others. I think of my sarcasm as something that shouldnt follow into an arguement...yet at the same time...
My Driven Mind Thinks:
"everyone is right, mouse is wrong."

what...?

My tactic for crying for help; look at my drawings, listen to my words. Truthfully I dont know what Im asking for in a specific sense. I just want the depression to stop.
I think too much...
Angry little fucker... ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5449609/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5449609/ Tue, 24 May 2005 15:55:37 PDT [link]

! [link] !

For those who have one of these: "Lets be friends! "
For those who dont have it: "...Lets be friends! " ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5218266/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5218266/ Fri, 29 Apr 2005 03:03:34 PDT

I completely forgot about my 8k page review. oh balderdash. well once the 9k comes up Ill put the 8k pic up too, that is if I remember. xD


The End ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5113175/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5113175/ Sun, 17 Apr 2005 15:43:07 PDT
OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!
IVE NEVER BEEN SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED IN MY WHOLE FUCKIN ENTIRE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES I DISLIKED SUZANNE IN THE PAST BUT NO I DO NOT DISLIKE HER NOW!!!!! I LET HER FUCKING HANG OUT WITH ME CAUSE SHE ASKED TO!!!!!!!! YES I DID THINK OF PICKING YOU UP!!!!! NO I DIDNT GO AND PICK YOU UP!!!!!!! NO I DID NOT LIKE THAT FUCKING AWAY MESSAGE YOU PUT FOR NO GODDAMN REASON!!!! NO I DID NOT LIKE YOUR ONE SENTENCE ENTRY!!!!!!!!! WHO DIDNT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES IT HURT MY FEELINGS AND FUCKIN OFFENDED ME!!!!!!!! YES I COULD SLIGHTLY TELL THAT YOU WERENT MAD AT US!!!!!!!!!! BUT NO MY FRUSTRATION FROM 'FORGET ALL YOU BITCHES' STILL GOT THE BEST OF ME AND I WAS STILL FUCKING HURT ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!! NO I WASNT FOCUSING PART OF MY ANGER ON BRANDON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I YES I STILL FEEL THAT ABOUT NOT SAYING HIS DAMN NICKNAME AND YES IM SORRY IF YOU DONT THINK THE SAME WAY!!!!!!!!

I HAD NO FUCKING FEELINGS KEPT IN!!!!!
CAUSE I HAD THEM OUT TO BEGIN WITH!!!!!!!!!!
AND THATS WHY I WANTED TO STOP THE GODDAMN CONVERSATION WHICH WAS TURNING INTO AN ARGUEMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!

oh my godOH MY GOD!!!!!!! FUCK THIS FUCK IT ALL oh my gosh this fuckin frustration has never made my temperature rise to this im about to fucking bang my fucking against the fucking walls or something..FUCK. EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING IS SO. DAMN. FUCKED. UP. PPL. ARE SO. DAMN. FUCKED. UP.
I MEAN WHATS THE FUCKING POINT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !! make a fuckin flame to ppl and dont have a fuckin reason behind it until AFTER they fuckin get mad and hurtWHY DO YOU THINK IM FUCKING MAD NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5110638/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/5110638/ Sun, 17 Apr 2005 10:15:55 PDT my account: buttermouse
my [recently toolish] friend's account: xxacid_haloxx

[Her entry]
i can't wait till Bama comes back then i can forget all about you bitches!

[My Comment]
well gee fuck you too! Probably the only thing I -WiLL- be happy about is him coming back!
[Her Reply]
sept u mel
[My Reply]
You know I dont know if youre playing me on this journal, BUT IT HURTS. its probably to get back at all the dumb heartless shit ive said huh?or Is it cause we dont take you with us when we go out? Probably is.cause when brandon gets back you'll get to go where ever the hell ya'll want,MAYBE even move away so forgeting about us will be much easier. But if you are serious about this entry then regardless "this loser" will still care for you whether you forget me or not. Just hope you and brandon are happy with whatever you got going for yourselves in the future.

and yeah Im gonna stop calling him "Bama", its so childish.
[Her Reply]
okay okay. First of all its not childish for someone to have a nickname so dont even go there. And secondly and most importantly. I dont give a shit whether he can drive me places or not, I love his company and he loves mine. Which is something i dont get with anyone else. Because what you are saying makes it seem that you believe the only thing i like about him is his driving. Which i can tell you now is DEAD wrong. I love him. He doesnt make me feel left out at all... And yes i do get kind of upset that you guys dont think of me when you go places but the only thing that does is make me feel left out. And how the hell do you know i wasnt talking about my parents?!? HUH?? I do like you alot melanie, i couldnt ever forget about you and i wouldnt either.

[MY reply..]
DUDE that bama comment wasnt even close to taking a stab at you it was just my opinion okay. if i dont want to call brandon bama then it should be a-o-fuckin-K that i dont want to. second, i wasnt being sarcastic or anything with the 'you and him going places whenever' i was being very sincere since NOW that you said you feel left out. if you wanna hang out here: daniel gets off at work @ 6 and comes home around 7, hes off mondays and tuesdays. there now you know the hangout schedule, but if you dont want to hang out thats fine w/ me thats fine w/ you thats fine w/ everyone else.
third, I already KNOW he loves you you love him WHATS THERE TO PROVE WRONG? i know he calls you every chance that he gets i know you'd wait on his calls and wait on him for an eternity i know you still feel lonely even when were all around you trying to make you as happy as possible i know you feel really sad not seeing his face in front of urs i know youd cry if ANYTHING happened to him and then youd blame it on yourself cause you know hes doing it for the both of you. and this tells you i dont know at least a little bit between you two? well at least i pay attention to some of the little things. and i pay attention to mostly you. your too sad about this distance between you and him i know if you had the chance youd drive your bubble van all the way to texas if you had to. why do you think i made that previous entry about you and him? drawing that little comic? you kno ppl say "it'll be okay" you know it is but most of the time you probably dont think its okay cause you worry something will happen to him over there and he worries that you might not still want him when he gets back. its not fuckin rocket science. where the fuck this parents shit come from huh? i didnt have a flying fuck this had anything to do with them!! you kno back when i didnt care its strange that you paid alot of attention to my actions, but now that im showing a little initiative it really does suprise me how many times you knock me down.
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thats all thats happening as of now. she's being a fuckin tool right now and i dont understand why but its irritating me. the internet messes you up like that. ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4713671/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4713671/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 17:56:46 PST
1. another poster mission for a friend
2. another poster mission for another friend
3. drawing request from another friend
4. piece for next page review, its 7K right?
5. ...i most likely forget one last person

I already got two ideas written down for myself. I probably wont be able to get to them cause of this agenda right here. But the poster missions are for monyah [$$] I will do much for monyah

Nothing big happened today..
I received a reply letter from a fellow deviant in the mail. The letter was realy messed up though. Envelope was thrashed and it looks like someone stabbed with a knife or a bird pecked at it. Buncha heethenz ppl gotta be more careful with mail these days. That shyt is like...the fathers of email yknow? ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4641499/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4641499/ Mon, 21 Feb 2005 22:01:15 PST
I pressed "alt0167" and it takes me straight to yahoo. wtf...
it erased all of what I just typed down. it wasnt even long but that wasnt the point.
Well the POINT IS that I wont be submitting stuff for a while because Im still working on the SES project and Im now putting it on poster board. I order to know about the SES project just looking my scraps.

the end ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4609497/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4609497/ Thu, 17 Feb 2005 19:05:38 PST
Well Im not very experienced in canvas work, Ive made less than ten pieces throughout my whole entire life. If I had a camera of some kind I'd show you what Im made of.
Today I was in art class, Ms. Combs's art class. And while we were sitting around waiting for the lunch bell another art teacher, Mr. Bone I think, walked with two canvas pieces. I couldnt see what they looked like because the backside was facing my way. And I heard this "whoa thats tight!" from another student and everyone was staring at it. Mr. Bone walked up to Ms. Combs and showed her and I saw it. It was two pieces of anime work...some yu-yu hakasho stuff i think, I wouldnt know. But the picture was very very detailed. Nice background, good shading and character formation.
I saw the signiture on the back of one canvas and it said "Jennifer". I recognized that named and managed to guess exactly who this Jennifer person looked like. Ive seen her sometimes at school. She's an anime freak, but also classified as a nerd. Short, glasses, hair thats long blonde and frizzy, an extremely odd laugh. She's like a witch sort of. Im guessing a small but good amount of friends. Ive never talked to her but I knew she painted those pieces. Theyre very awesome. Big things come in little packages, and she's someone with a huge talent just as we all are.
Propz to her and all of us!
We express how we feel and we wont stop.

That is all
The End. ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4568555/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4568555/ Sun, 13 Feb 2005 09:59:52 PST

I heard from some of my friends that theyre not going to school that day cause they hate that day. I dont hate it, even if I dont have a Valentine's person. Im not the mooshy gooshy type anyway. Tomorrow before going to school im gonna buy a v day shirt...cause im gonna be everyone's valentine...whether they like it or not.

The End ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4548703/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4548703/ Thu, 10 Feb 2005 18:12:58 PST
what.
did I dew. wronnnnnnguh! Just in case you havent read my previous journal "rraAHH", I am reminding you now that you cant cause I deleted it. It was about how my friend Ashley isnt talking to me, and I dont know why. Everytime we're not talking, she always says it my fault, but I never find out how it came to be my fault. And soon enough I broke down in anger.

Well now its frustration.

Im really getting tired of not knowing why she aint talking to me or adressing my presence even when she's not looking at me or..WhAtEveR. Id rather hear her yelling at me about the many flaws I do instead of just ThIS. ThE CoLd ShOuLdEr-

I was heading to the bathroom at school and she happened to be right behind me. I really wasnt going to the bathroom, I just went to go see her cause she's always in the bathroom at the time. So knowing that she was right behind me I stopped and waited for her to say something. Like "Hey" or "MOVE fool!" or "GOD short ppl are lame" or -pushes me out of the way just to go to the bathroom- But nothing happened.

Its almost Valentine's day...
Ive been saving money for myself but Ive been thinking that I should buy something for my friends Jessi..and..Ashley. But now Im having doubts, who wants to buy something for someone who treats you like you dont even exists? ...it really Hurts you know...
I had, like a thought, like I buy her some teddy bear or whatever. A purple one cause its her favorite color. And she would be all "no I dont want it" and push it away. Now that would be fucked up, it hurts just to think.

Im tired of it.
Im tired of her being a fucking lame.
Im tired of me bichin about it.
Im tired of yall hearing me bich about it.

Sometimes I think I should just shut everything out and forget we ever became friends if it continues to go this way. And I try to prevent that from happening. I mean I talk, but she doesnt respond and its leaving me out in the dark. I just dont want to let go. ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4511390/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4511390/ Sun, 06 Feb 2005 11:32:13 PST so hows your weekend going along ?
mine, same old stuff.

Got some new shoes n stuff. Theyre platform so Im probably three to four inches taller. I get to be with the tall crowd and see what they see. And if someone makes me angry Ill waffle stomp them or something.

Friday: Sunny came over. Him, me, and Daniel went walking that night and it was freezing. Walked over to an old elementary school and star-gazed talking about how it was when we were younger....you know..."The Good Ol' Days"

Saturday: Saw Jessi's crush Joe. Heard he lives in Carey,NC or something? They met each other ~online~ is how I see it cause she always flaunts herself online and alot ppl happen to catch interest or something. Hung out with them and some other friends [JessiE,Shaun,Tiffany] at the mall and some such. I saw ALOT of ppl I knew at school, its such a small world. They went home and we went to the movies.
Sunny came over agn and we walked out in the cold agn. This time to Food Lion cause he wanted some food even tho we had some at our house. Met up with some other friends [Terry n Kerry] Theyre your average trouble-makers,running around the store and sliding around. Saw a chick from my class and asked for cigs, its such a small world.

Well thats about it for this weekend.

Look at Sunny's head, cant think of any other link other than VF. Seems like everyone has registered on that site at least once, I gave up on that stuff.

[link] ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4480458/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4480458/ Wed, 02 Feb 2005 14:26:52 PST Murr, I was doing some work in US History/1st period until the announcements went on and was all "attention we are in a code six" which meant we were in a bomb threat. I havent said it alot in this journal but our school has had alot of bomb threats, like every friday, but now it comes randomly and everyone really could care less now and just want the school to blow up.
Well we had to stand out in the cold at the football field for probably a good hour. And then we see a group of ppl walking over to the buses that were parked across the street. at first we assumed "yay! were going home!" but really we were going to be transferred to westover, our rival school.
Everyone was pilling up behind one another but the teachers were blocking us back so we wont break into a riot. the first thing that cameout of my mouth was "Dude its like the Holocaust!" [no offense] because we were being separated 30 by 30 and ti was crazy. I was with my friend Jessi and Joey, we were all "you guys we cant okay?" and when we were being counted off a teach er went "28 29 30..ok you stop here!" and joey was left behind.
Joey: oh no! no you guys cant leave me!
teacher: you guys gotta go! move!
mee and jessi: wai--but... ::runs off::
It felt just like the Holocaust, scary. *3*; So we were transferred to Westover. That school sucks and they got some ugle ass people there, well some. Cause me and Jessi were walking to their gym and we were all freaked out until we noticed a boy peeking through the crack of a door.
Mee and Jessi: omgomgweregonnadiedude---ooh <3
So we had to wait in their gym for probably another hour or something. These two guys [i think Terry and Charles] they yell alot just to act stupid and everyone was just like "damn stfu quit bein immature!" and they'd yell back at them all "NO!! reggin reggin!!!" ... all the more reason for ppl to stereotype us and hate our guts...
Well we went back to school and it looked like a dump cause there was trash everywhere, which is a sign that our school sucks ass. We had to wait in OUR gym so everyone would be where theyre suppose to be. Some chicks in front of us were judging jessi by her looks n stuff, all the more reason for US to stereotype them and hate their guts.
Our lunch time was altered so I was stuck in 1st period back where all the crap started. It was okay cause we were watching "who wants to be a millionaire" xD
Well today was a total waste of time. I couldve just stayed home....life's a bitch. ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4463053/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4463053/ Mon, 31 Jan 2005 14:49:54 PST
I remember I was at a bookstore with some...friends...and we were reading "The Darkside of the Zodiac" and I looked up Pisces, which I am. It talked about the people that will drive me off the wall. One was a Virgo, which was the one I was just flaming over on my previous journal. Sorry I had to delete it and all ur happy comments, I just couldnt take looking at it any longer.
Well anyways it said that Virgo is the most I will get my problems from...relationship wise or whatever. "Pisces is water, Virgo is earth, mix them together...and you get mud." It was pretty much all of that in a nutshell. But then it said that I may still have my issues with her, but I need her anyways. Sort of like that saying "Youre weakness is your greatest strength" or something like that. And every time Im in some pickle with her I find that she is my strength cause she makes me learn......which is really screwed up.
Cause you now when you get in fights or something its you who wants to win over it, but you cant, you still want to be friends and you dont want to lose him/her either way. so youre just screwed in the end pride wise.
Goddamnit...*slap* she sat next to me this morning. I tried not to think about all the crap I typed last night and just tried to enjoy myself and the company of others. And at the end of the day i saw her agn and just patted her on the shoulder. no "hi" or whatever, just a pat. And I said "bye" and she said "bye".
I felt a bit elated but still...not talking to me still makes me feel bad! ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4451329/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4451329/ Sun, 30 Jan 2005 08:10:08 PST
1. ppl who comment
2. ppl who favorite
3. ppl who I favorite
4. ppl who have left
5. ppl who are..just nowhere to be found
6. ppl who are on my list but i never here from there or they never hear from me
7. ppl who i enjoy watching their art

Remind me if I left you out, that is if you watch my journals...cause i never watch anyone's journal. xD ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4445865/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4445865/ Sat, 29 Jan 2005 14:00:23 PST is Female
is a deviant since Jun 17, 2004, 5:55 PM
has 6,000 pageviews

Ive been working on a piece for the 6k for a very.long. time...
And its driving me crazy~

LIKE A MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!


...i will update later... ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4432401/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4432401/ Thu, 27 Jan 2005 20:32:55 PST
[General]

Name: Melanie
Nickname (s): Mouse
Birthday: March 15
Chinese Horoscope: dragon
Zodiac Sign: pisces
Age: 16

[Description]

Eyes: dark brown
Hair: black, dark brown
Height: 4' 9"
Weight: 110, the last time i checked
Build: short...thats all.
Heritage: pinay ~*PI-Azn*~

[Your Life]

Location: Fayetteville, NC
Siblings: I am one.
Nephews/Nieces: dont know, theyre probably Dead.
Parental Status (divorced/together): together
Second Languages: shamefully no
How You're Stereotyped: gothic, 'they' havent picked up the word 'metalhead' yet. so im stuck with gothic.

[Favorite]

Color: red and black
Season: autumn or winter
Tree: bamboo ;3;
Fruit: mango all the way!
Car: anything fast n purty
Music: metal and azn
Language: MY language!! Tagalog!!! even though i dont know htf to talk tagalog...
Time Period: future
Scent: ashley scent xD she smells "lyk teh sex"
Animal: red panda,chow,tiny mammals, etc.
Element: fire bebe
Candy: twizzlers
Names: Cho, because that was gonna be my name if i didnt have THIS one.
Place(s) You'd Like to Live: a prosperous big city
Place(s) in Nature: when youre in the point of complete tranquility
Musicals: never seen one, is Moulin Rouge one?
Quotes: Spare Me!


[Top 5 Favorite ...]

-Movies:
1. Princess Blade
2. THe Sweetest Thing -only american one on this list-
3. Vampire Effect
4. Mr. Kokujiro...somethin like that
5. RE Apocalypse

-Songs: (at the moment)
1. Niki FM -Hawthorn Heights-
2. Obscure -Dir En Grey-
3. Shine We Are -BoA-
4. The Transition -Hawthorn Heights-
5. Piss Angel -Pig Destroyer-

-Bands: (again, at the moment)
1. Hawthorn Heights
2. Funeral for a Friend
3. BoA
4. Baby Vox
5. Brand New

-Books:
1. Cut
2. In Cold Blood
3. Monkey Bridge
4. Revolver -mags really-
5. In Neutral

-Video Game:
1. PIU
2. Emphermerial Phantasia
3. Lunar 2 -eternal blue complete set-
4. DDR
5. Silent Hill +

-Cartoon Characters:
1. Mouse [ahem..]
2. Ami and Yumi
3. Raven and Starfire
4. Serenity Rosa
5. Homer and Peter Griffin

-Movie Characters:
1. Charlene Choi
2. Cameron Diez
3. Selma Blair
4. -azn actor here-
5. -azn actor here-

[Pick]

Pirates or Ninjas: Ninjas! x3
Love or Lust: lust, doesnt hurt as much
Society or Lonesome: society
Midnight or Morning: both
Individuality or Popularity: individuality
Family or Friends: where's the difference?
Ocean or Forest: ocean
Sun or Moon: moon
Vampire or Lycans: hell ye-yuh Lycan!
Do it yourself or Get help: do it myself..pff! I aint no bich! x3

[Are You...?]

Funny: at times
Sarcastic: yeh
Creative: yeh
Open-Minded: yup, most ppl arent so ppl like me have to
Happy: at times
Angsty: I never found out what that word means
Angry: I can be Right Now.
Beautiful: bich I am Pimp! *struts my shtuff*
Ugly: I can be
Gullible: yeh
Charming: I dont know
Obnoxious: no
Confusing: yeh. sometimes its hard for me to explain and then I confuse myself ;3;
Weird: yeh
A day-dreamer: if i had a bagillion dollars for every time i daydream.....shooot
In denial: yesh I am
Musical: yeh
Bouncy: yeh when Im bored then my bounciness makes me laugh alot
A worry wart: yehhh. look at my gray hairs and mounds of blemish!
Smart: bich I am Pimp! *struts her mind*
Sly: I am to the ppl who least expect me
Mysterious: i guess so?
Convincable: not really
Suicidal: No

[Do You..?]

Believe in True Love: yeah, but that stuff can go to hell
Hate yourself: yes and no
Know the meaning of life: Yeah, s'all bout that cream soda
Have happiness: not now
Love Life: i said that can go to hell.
Steal often: used to until i got caught
Sing in the Shower/Rain: yeh ~so fresh n so clean clean~
Know some people who know some people who rob some people: I probably d...YES
Have "Connections": I have a friend who does, weed n all those things
Have past experiences in battle: battle with my Life thats shitty right now!!
Beleive in reincarnation/God: Ill say yes so I wont burn in hell so "yes" ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4428626/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4428626/ Thu, 27 Jan 2005 12:56:29 PST
Theyre like having sex with someone who has crabs, AGN AND AGN!

You can take it...
have your fun for only so long...
in the end realize you have crabs...
more of them if you constantly go at it...

...take the pill
...get all screwed up with its after affects
...in the end realize youve taken a pill for dumb reasons
...feel more stupid if you constantly go at it

Ive taken one every morning ever since this week started. My reasons: ive been depressed a little, i feel fat, my stomach constantly growls for no reason and the pill can shut it up.
Those are dumb reasons [not to mention play-out] for taking them. I needa stop, it truely IS pointless to take them. I take it in the mornings and in the afternoon it makes me feel drained and not so giddy like i used to when i didnt take it. And i think it fucked up my girly cycle. Its good, because every girl hates having it. Its bad, because of the fact that it hasnt happened yet. I swear im not pregnant.

I needa slap myself and stop. I got one more left which was reserved for tomorrow. That pill should go all Jack Sparrow on me, "leave me be Mouse, this pill [meaning it] aint meant for you" ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4362942/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4362942/ Wed, 19 Jan 2005 18:13:40 PST There was a blackout this morning that went from my neighborhood all the way to the high school I attend. thats pretty far.
I was spiking up my hair in the bathroom and then sudden poof the lights and everything go out. And the first thing I thought of was bloody mary in the bathroom and I was like this:

ohmygod daniel!
...*walks out the bathroom feeling around*
DANIEL!! *feeling around in his room*
wake up! *smashin his face in making sure thats him*
Where's a flashlight?! The freakin power went out!

He hands me a lighter and says to look for the flashlight. And for that split second I think of all the freaky shit in horror movies that the character does involving the actions of lighting a lighter. so i just sit there until HE does it. so were walkin around in the dark and I look out the window to find that the whole neighborhood is out of power! woop de doo what a way to start the day.
So I grab my stuff and its flippin'...FREEZING!!..outside. The street lights were out so people are driving without letting others go. I was planning to eat some breakfast but no the power in my house is out. so Im all "fine just go to mcdonald's ill get some breakfast there." and when we get there THEIR power was out and im complaining about how i cant get my breakfast while my brother drops me off to school which is across the street from mcdonald. i dont kno mcdonald was probably mocking me or some crazy jazz like that.
The power at the school was out also, obvious cause its a lame ass school. so im sitting in the cafeteria and everyone said it was my fault or something that the power is dead.

now times like these there is that inch of hope that school maybe...just maybe...would be cancelled.*

me and my two friends were huddled up together and then suddenly ... one light goes on. AND THAT ONE LIGHT JUST HAPPENED TO BE RIGHT ABOVE US! and the two of them were the only ones who were heard in the cafeteria cause the second that light came on there yelling "NOO!!!!!" damnit... and then all the other lights go on and school continues its ridiculousness for the rest of the day.
There was a chance that it would snow today yknow? There was a baby flurry going on at the end of the school day and everyone in my class is all "w00tw00t lets get outta here school out its snowing so schools out! w00tw00t raise the roof and all that pish posh" but that flurry lasted for probably a good fifteen minutes.
...the hell's up with that man! SNOW! Blizzard I dont care just let SOMETHING fall from the sky! make squirrels and flower babies fall down or something of that nature!

What kind of Wednesday was this... ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4324528/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4324528/ Sat, 15 Jan 2005 06:20:15 PST

You know that certain perspective seen in some photography? Well skate demos use the "fisheye" thing, I really cant describe it for I know nothing of it...but I want it. I dont know I just really like it next to Film photography and what not.

Im not a photographer but I am interested. Once I get a memory card for my camera Ill probably be taking a hell of alot of pictures with it. I heard that if you take it as a profession or something you get to travel based on your work? ~ahhhh~ the thought of traveling I really cant take staying here for another decade, I gotta go out and see something.

The End. ]]> ~RedPillows http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4295668/ http://RedPillows.deviantart.com/journal/4295668/ Tue, 11 Jan 2005 15:40:39 PST
Trades Open
Requests Open

Just...anything to get me back to drawing something. Obviously I drew a blank again and cant think of anything that would live up to my standards. So..throw out something I could do. Something that would challenge me maybe.

Ive got like two pieces waiting to be submitted.
But theyre on canvas.
Look at my scraps and find "Lovely". Thats the piece that has been painted, from a long time ago. I dont have a camera so its a loss cause for now.

But anyways . . .

Trades Open
Requests Open

If there are already ones waiting remind me, I may have already forgotten.

The End~ ]]> ~RedPillows