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Anyone that wants to keep in contact with me should send a note requesting my new account.

I will stop using this account for uploads/journals TOMORROW.

I will continue to check for notes from watchers and stuff for another day or two after that. So please, send something asap.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/16687893/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/16687893/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 09:35:57 PST

I kinda wish I had a drinking buddy right now...seems like a good alternative to what my mind is doing to me now.

Yeah, that a bad way to think. I know.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/16106046/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/16106046/ Wed, 26 Dec 2007 08:28:26 PST
Let me know when you guys want to all hang out together. I want to see you before you go back to college.

Call my house or text my cell. Or leave a comment here. ^^

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/15706331/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/15706331/ Wed, 28 Nov 2007 11:37:57 PST 2. Put on shuffle
3. Write the first line of each song
4. You all guess! Correct guesses will be bolded out

1. Music is a world within itself in a language we all understand.
2. Obi Trice. Real name, no gimmicks.
3. I woke up this morning. I could barely breathe. Just an empty impression on the bed where you used to be.
4. I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head. -Becki
5. At first I was afraid; I was petrified. Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side. -Becki
6. Here I stand, empty hands. Wishing my wrists were bleeding to stop the pain from the beatings.
7. Kazo e kirei nai demo sukoshi no saigetsu wa nagare
8. Can you feel that? Oh shit...
9. I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind. I left my body lying somewhere in the sands of time. -Becki
10. What’s this? What’s this? There’s color everywhere. -Becki
11. Ladies and gentlemen please, would you bring your attention to me? -Becki
12. Break me down, you’ve got a lovely place. We’re going to your place.
13. This is not the way I wanted things to be. I hope someday you’ll understand.
14. There’s nothing wrong with me. There’s something wrong with you. There’s something wrong with me.
15. Today I woke up, I woke up knowing, today is the day I will die. -Becki
16. Namiga yosete wakaesu kono ashi no tori
17. My cock is much bigger than yours.
18. Well you ask me about the clothes I wear and you ask me why I grow my hair.
19. Is that seat taken? Congratulations. Would you like to take a walk with me?
20. I was hanging with the fellas. Saw you with your new boyfriend, it made me jealous.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/15459596/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/15459596/ Sun, 11 Nov 2007 06:54:52 PST And last week I only had 10?

Listen the fuck up Wegmans:
I need hours. My car just doesn't drive itself to school on non-existant gas.
Textbooks don't buy themselves.
Food does not magically appear in front of you for free (unless you're at Tig's apartment lol).

I'm hoping this changes very soon...


Excuse me. My stress level just went over its limit. I'll be throwing things at my wall now.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/15141522/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/15141522/ Sat, 20 Oct 2007 10:03:28 PDT

Rules
1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.

Characters Chosen:
Iselia: Um...sure? ^_^;;
Blair: Why me...? -_-
Bucket: Oh-no...O_O

1) How Old Are You?
Iselia: Well let's see...I was seventeen when I died and that was two years ago?
Blair: Counting years is pointless.
Bucket: Eleven!

2) Height?
Iselia: Short. Probably around five foot four.
Blair: Six feet? *shrugs*
Bucket: Umm...four foot five? >_>

3) You Got Any Bad Habits?
Iselia: Well...I guess I can be kind of annoying sometimes.
Blair: Are you judging me?
Iselia: Blair's stubborn.
Blair: Am not.
Iselia: Are so.
Blair: Want to keep arguing? *pulls his handgun*
Bucket: I tend to hide from people. They scare me.

4) You a virgin?
Iselia: Yeah...it sucks. >_>
Blair: You are not.
Iselia: Well neither are you then!
Bucket: What's a virgin?

5) Who's your Mate/Spouse?
Iselia: Can't say. I fear for my life.
Blair: You're not even alive Iselia...
Bucket: ...I haves a bucket? I love my bucket. ^_^

6) Have Any Kids?
Iselia: Ugh...children are so annoying.
Blair: Agreed.
Bucket: But...I'm only eleven! My bucket can be my baby.

7) Favorite Food?
Iselia: I'm not too picky.
Blair: Pancakes.
Bucket: Candy.

8) Favorite Ice Cream flavour?
Iselia: Chocolate!
Blair: I love ice cream!! Chocolate!!
Bucket: Chocolate chip

9) Killed anyone?
Iselia: A few...
Blair: I lost count.
Bucket: You people scare me...*hides*

10) Hate anyone?
Iselia: Her...
Blair: Everyone who betrayed me.
Bucket: Isn't hate a strong word? >_>

11) Any Secrets?
Iselia: I love...
Blair: Don't you dare open that mouth!
Bucket: I...I'm not really an elf!

12) Love Anyone?
Iselia: Yes. Again, can't say.
Blair: Now you're getting it...and I don't love. Anyone.
Bucket: My bucket. <3

13) TACOS?
Iselia: Ew...too messy.
Blair: *shrugs*
Bucket: I like tacos.

14) Ever slept in All day?
Iselia: Too much stuff to do.
Blair: Of course.
Bucket: Yeah. ^_^

15) Favorite Show?
Iselia: When was the last time I watched tv?
Blair: I don't watch tv.
Bucket: Cartoons!

16) Favourite Movie?
Iselia: I don't remember watching movies either...
Blair: Ones about tragedy and betrayal...
Bucket: Spirited Away.

17) Favorite Band?
Iselia & Blair: Dir en Grey!!
Bucket: Whatever is on the radio?

18) Eye Colour?
Iselia: Red.
Blair: Grey.
Bucket: Green with a purple ring inside.

19) Skin?
Iselia: Kinda pale.
Blair: Pale.
Bucket: Normal I guess.

20) Fat/Average/Slim?
Iselia: Skinny. ^_^;;
Blair: Thin I guess...but don't think I'm a pushover.
Bucket: Skin and bones! I'm a kid, what do you expect?

21) Rain, sunshine?
Iselia: The rain...
Blair: Rain...the sorrow...
Bucket: You two are so depressing. Why don't you date or something?
Iselia: That's a good i...
Blair: No.

22) Pool, Beach?
Iselia: Not really.
Blair: No.
Bucket: There's people there. *hides*

23) Camping, staying home?
Iselia: Feels like I'm camping all the time. I hardly get to go home.
Blair: I'd rather be home.
Bucket: Camping sounds fun...but are there people?

24) Dog, Cat?
Iselia: Kitty!
Blair: Do we have to get a pet...? At least cats are better than dogs.
Bucket: Mrrow?

25) Believe in aliens?
Iselia: Huh?
Blair: Are you kidding me...?
Bucket: Ooooh...aliens...T_T

26) Natural Born, or Clone?
Iselia: What? Of course I'm not a clone.
Blair: I ready to be done with these ridiculous questions.
Bucket: What's a clone?

27) Car or Ship?
Iselia: I walk.
Blair: Is there even a ship around here?
Bucket: I like boats. They have lots of buckets.

28) Ever destroyed something out of Blind Rage?
Iselia: Uh-oh...
Blair: Psycho Trigger...
Bucket: I don't get mad...

29) Any Unusual Things about you?
Iselia: I'm dead? And I secretly love...
Blair: Shut up!
Bucket: I like buckets...>_>

30) How much food/drink do you need a day?
I... ]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/15106715/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/15106715/ Wed, 17 Oct 2007 19:00:32 PDT
It just sounds...weird to me. It doesn't sound like Mr. Harris. Something else has to be up...

I'm so sad now...

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14984579/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14984579/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 12:13:01 PDT
I fail.
Computers have hearts.
Mine needs an upgrade.
V 2.0!! lolz

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14745608/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14745608/ Sat, 22 Sep 2007 15:19:12 PDT
He tried to talk me into a threesome with him and his girlfriend. Why?
1. It would be the best thing ever to have two hott girlfriends.
2. Twice as much attention for him.
3. I'm bi, so it would be the best of both worlds for me.

Uhh...no. I'm bi because I am attracted to men and women, not because I'm one of these "fad girls" who do all this crazy stuff and act bi just for the extra attention. Not me, sorry. I'll either have one boyfriend or one girlfriend to dedicate my time, attentions and love to.

Don't assume that just because someone is "bi" they into being wild freaks. That's not what bi is.

I am a woman. I have feelings. Just because you think I have a pretty face, doesn't mean I'm into just being your plaything. I'm not. I happen to be one of those people that actually believes in dedicated relationships between two people who truly care about each other.

I will not makeout with your girlfriend for your benefit or because "I'm bi so I would enjoy it".

I'm not going to go out with you if I barely know you.

I will NOT have sex with you even if I have known you for a while.

Deal the fuck with it.




God...men irritate me lately.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14684955/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14684955/ Tue, 18 Sep 2007 08:59:10 PDT
Hispanics are officially too sexy for the world. They all need to be moved to the moon or something. The planet cannot contain all of them and their sexiness. Yeah, I found my racial fetish. Millo-face has the asians, I have the Hispanics and no one has the French. The French are still up for grabs everyone!

Seriously though, there's a hispanic dude in my japanese class. (hispanics...japanese...what? O_O ) He reminds me soooooo much of someone else I know...Vick. I can't help it. I study this kid like there's no tomorrow. Maybe I figure if I can memorize his movements and body language, I'll be closer to Vick. Kinda like having a clone of him. O_O It actually creeps me out a little. Meh, maybe I'm not describing it well. I don't like this other kid except for the fact he reminds me of Vick. T_T

Penises also need to die. There's too many of them EVERYWHERE! At school, at work...gah! I'm sick of guys. Tell them all to just go away.

Except for Vick and Millo-face and Jesse Cruz...you guys don't count. You and your penises can stay. I'm sorry if theres any other cool penises that I forgot. T_T

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14550429/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14550429/ Sat, 08 Sep 2007 18:56:48 PDT
First off, good news. I now have a job at the Wegman's sub shop. Now I can buy textbooks and gas to get to school. Woot!

The start of the school year is always really sucky for me. This year I started a new major and had to make all new friends. Problem is, RIT doesn't believe in putting more than four girls in the same class as compared to having at least fifteen guys. I like guys and everything...but I need female friends. To talk about female things. And to have a break from guy things...

On the first day of class, a creepy guy followed me to my car and started asking really...personal questions. If I have a boyfriend...why the guy I'm interested in doesn't deserve me...yeah. It freaked me out. Then he started following me after class on the second day too. Hopefully this stops...I've been calling one of my friends to walk me to my car and such to keep the creepy one away.

My love life sucks. It kind of takes a nosedive as soon as school starts. This year is no exception...I feel isolated from him. He's busy with his projects and his friends and stuff. I don't blame him or anything. I know he has a life besides talking to me on the phone. I just kinda wish he was around more often. I get depressed because he isn't around and I tend to withdraw...then we fight about stupid things and I withdraw more...stupid cycle. *le sigh*

Anyhoo, there be my problems J-Christ. There's more, but I don't really feel like sharing them here. Feel free to note me.

I hope the rest of you are doing better than me!

Oh yeah...and come home soon. It sucks without you guys here.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14391826/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14391826/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 07:29:52 PDT

HERE is the MIGHTY TAG GAME....still fun after all these years.... Tagged by:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they're tagged.
*6. Cannot be tagged back by the people they tag.

8 Random Things
1. I have trouble finishing the things I start. Tis why I have so many half-drawn sketches in my room.
2. I really want to cuddle with someone...right now.
3. I just ate bowl of fruit loops.
4. I need to get laid.
5. I'm nervous for school, which starts on Monday.
6. I'll probably be the last one out of my friends to get laid.
7. I'm working on too many arts for different people now.
8. Criss Angel is on?! Fuck yeah!

I tag...

Its only seven...i can't remember any more usernames. Its early.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14362718/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14362718/ Mon, 27 Aug 2007 10:10:08 PDT
I've been trying to keep my chin up lately, but its extremely hard with all the stress. The good thing is, I have a job interview tomorrow. I just hope that goes well.

School starts in a week. I'm nervous. It feels like I'm starting over again as a freshman because of how I had to switch majors. I'm probably going to be with mostly guys. -_- I need more female friends.

And stuff! Working on arts. Thinking I should set up a commissions shop on gaia. Maybe...we'll see how busy I am with school.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14132493/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/14132493/ Sun, 12 Aug 2007 11:43:39 PDT ~Biki's birthday picture
~More wallpapers
~get job T_T

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/13941607/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/13941607/ Mon, 30 Jul 2007 12:56:50 PDT
Maybe I am too sensitive. Maybe I get bothered over things that should mean nothing. Who the fuck knows...

All I know is, I'm a step behind in achieving what I want. Or maybe I'm so far behind that I shouldn't bother to count steps anymore.

Who the fuck knows? I sure as hell don't.

I miss my friends...

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/13897274/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/13897274/ Fri, 27 Jul 2007 07:28:40 PDT
Therefore...I liiiiiiiiiiiive!!!!

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/13778494/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/13778494/ Wed, 18 Jul 2007 06:34:25 PDT
I lost my job.

And I didn't just lose my job, I got fired for absolutely no reason. My former boss is just an ego-freak that can't take even a small change unless it came from inside his puny little head.

One week prior to being fired, I left a note by the sink politely asking that people clean up their own dishes. I didn't point out anyone in particular, but myself and other members of the night crew were getting sick of picking up after the morning crew. As one co-worker put it, "I'm not a cleaning service. This wasn't in my job description." Fair enough right?

My boss saw this, accused me of being a rebel and trying to start trouble with the morning crew (which is a bit silly because a. it was a polite note, complete with please and thank you and b. it wasn't addressed to anyone). He said that the night crew has been cleaning dishes for 35 years and that wasn't going to change now. I could either take down the note or go home. And he didn't just say this, he screamed it, rather loudly, in front of my fellow co-workers and any customers in the area. Completely unnecessary.

So I was quite shocked that an innocent note could cause such a huge scene. I was so upset and outraged over how ridiculous this was that I was fighting back tears the rest of my shift. Had I not needed the hours so badly, I would have walked out on him.

This past Friday, a half hour before close, my boss starts in on it again. He tells me to clean the dishes in the sink. I knew what he was up to. So I helped a few customers and started my sweeping (which had to be done every night along with vacuuming). Halfway through the sweeping he says to me "did you hear me about the dishes?" and I said yes, but I wanted to finish my sweeping first. Then one of my co-workers asked me to cover the front for her, which took about 5-10 minutes. By the time I got back, it was 15 minutes to close and I still hadn't vacuumed, which takes a good 15-20 minutes.

So I vacuumed until 5 minutes to close when my boss insisted I "forget the vacuuming, I really want those dishes cleaned. Now." I said, "Okay George, but the floor still looks dirty." I cleaned all the dishes but one cup and two forks before it was time to leave.

The next day, after working a five hour shift, he came in and fired me for being "billigerent (nope) and disobedient (wrong again, sorry)." He went on about how I "purposely stalled to avoid doing dishes" and that "he knew what I was doing". I shrugged and said fine, but that wasn't true and left to go tell my co-workers what had happened. I made sure they knew it was over flippin' dishes. Of course, my boss was behind me and heard all this and says "this isn't up for negotiation. Do the grown-up thing and leave." I said, "I'm not negotiating anything George. You made the choice. You're the boss."

"Yeah. Now you know who the boss is."

I went up front, broke down in front of Lauren (who was my closest friend in the store). We left together and on the way out I said, "nice working with you George." Not snotty or sarcastic or anything.

"The pleasure was all yours."

I just stood there with my mouth open, not believing how much of a dickhead this guy was being. Then I figured, since I didn't work for him anymore, I didn't have to be nice. I tried to be the bigger person, it failed, now I was going to bitch at him. So, right in front of everyone, customers and all...

"George, if you're going to fire me over something as unreasonable as dishes, I don't want to work for you anyways."

He got so pissed. ^_^ I could have called him a fucktard or any number of things, but he had already claimed the role of the childish one. I figured I might as well play the mature one.



So...whee...now I need a new job. T_T

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/13525402/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/13525402/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 12:37:12 PDT
...an Aoi-kun plushie. ^__________^

He's from Biki.

Aoi's a member of a j-rock group named Gazette. Good music. Go listen to it...

...while I cuddle my plushie.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/13167398/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/13167398/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 05:41:43 PDT
Friday: More pictures. Dealer's room. Artists' alley. Biki's photoshoot. Really sucky cosplay chess. Stuff. More staying up late. Bed.

Saturday: More buying stuff! ZZ's concert, cosplay.com's photoshoot, Naruto photoshoot. Autograph's from Johnny Young Bosch and Wendy Lee...aka Kuhn/Vash and Blackrose. Awesome. Moonlight Masquerade...sucky. Room. Creepy dude. Bed.

Sunday: More buying...chilling...ZZ's autographs...watching the Road to El Dorado and finding out that it's most definitely NOT a kid's movie. Bed.

Bought Stuff:
.hack//Roots box set (signed by Johnny and Wendy)
Axel plushie
Cloud picture
Sephy picture
Axel/Roxas picture (discounted because of my costume)
Tifa postcard
Death note poster
ZZ poster (signed by the band)
Riku picture!! How could I forget?

Maybe more...I don't remember.

OH! I made AN friends!

Well...one friend at least. I'm going to make pretty art for him. Partly cause he's just cute and partly because I need practice drawing yaoi. So, hopefully I'll have something when I get back from Massachusetts.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/13051684/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/13051684/ Tue, 22 May 2007 14:09:47 PDT
You all need to buy Pokemon. Right now. Diamond or Pearl.

It...ROCKS! You can do so much stuff with it now. A lot of the min-games and stuff are multi-player. Do it....

I like not fighting with people and having things work out. ^_^

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12896129/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12896129/ Wed, 09 May 2007 05:51:15 PDT
Damn, I felt like crying. Because thoe words, coming from him, were completely out of the blue. And it had nothing to do with what I wanted to talk to him about at all. It was really sweet...

On another note...I caught my own 4.5k. I suck.

On yet another note, I'm (hopefully) going to the RIT show with (as long as he finds money), his girlfriend and my other friend Julian. Funfun. Wootgar.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12814201/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12814201/ Wed, 02 May 2007 10:15:04 PDT And check out... She be one of my good gaia friends. And she's cool. And I said so. Go on, look at her stuff.


Soo...my birthday is in 10 days! I'm going to be 19 on the 12th of May baby! Woooooooo~

What does that mean? Party!!!

You all should go to Tilt on my birthday and do cool party stuff with me. ^_^

Are you coming?! Good! ^_^



More cool shit!

May 18th...Breaking Benjamin, Puddle of Mudd, 3 Days Grace and Red @ RIT. Tickets on sale on ticketmaster for $34.50. I reeeeeaaalllllly want to go. It sounds like a fricken sweet show. Someone come with me? We'll have lots of fun?

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12671934/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12671934/ Fri, 20 Apr 2007 19:20:25 PDT

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12642409/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12642409/ Wed, 18 Apr 2007 12:19:09 PDT
Maybe its just me.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12629182/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12629182/ Tue, 17 Apr 2007 07:41:12 PDT
I have a D in scriptwriting.

At first I got kinda freaked out. I don't think I've had a D in anything in my life. Then I stopped to think...

"Here I am, skipping a class. I have a D in another...and I really just don't care. I don't really want to make up the work. I hate the class...I just don't care."

So, right there, I made the decision I had been debating in my head ever since the beginning of winter quarter: I'm going to switch majors.

I don't want to make movies. I hate conforming to "normal" concepts for stories, where guy meets girl and yadda yadda yadda. I hate how the professors tell us to be creative, but to their standards of what they like. That isn't creativity! That's me trying to please your tastes. I hate working with film. I'm not close with anyone in my major, so I have no one to work with on projects and end up doing them all by myself (which is a ton of work, and everyone else is paired up with someone). I dread going to class. And the most important thing:

I'm not happy. I can't see myself doing this forever.

So...I'm really scared...but I have to tell my parents about it. My original plan for college was to do game design, but RIT told me they had nothing like that. I did some research and it turns out...they do. I really want to switch into that.

I want to come up with crazy ideas that only exist and are accepted in a video game world. I want to design characters and give them backstories. I would love to do cut-scene work. I would work on music mixing. Even programming the game, I would do that too. That's where I really wanted to be in the first place. I'm tired of forcing myself to do something I don't like.

Wish me luck...

On another note...things are slowly starting to work out between him and I. At least we don't fight as much anymore. Hardly at all actually. In a way...I've kind of accepted that we aren't getting back together. Just because I've accepted it, doesn't mean I still don't cry over it. A lot. But at the same time, I think the crying is senseless. Crying won't change the past and it won't make him come back. So why do I bother? Who knows...

RIP to all the people from yesterday's massacre. No one deserves that sort of fate...

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12577836/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12577836/ Fri, 13 Apr 2007 08:27:42 PDT

1. Iselia
2. Blair
3. Tsukasa (.hack//sign)
4. Vash (trigun)
5. Hinoki (betterman)
6. Wolfwood (trigun)
7. Dias (Star ocean 2)
8. Tri-edge (.hack//GU)
9. Chii (chobits)
10. Soubi (loveless)


Then you answer the questions below by plugging in the person next to the respective number into the question. It's kind of long...


WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF...

1.Number 1 (Iselia) woke you up in the middle of the night?
> Either she had a nightmare or she's going to kill me. O_O I'd be freaked.

2. Number 2 (Blair) asked you to go out with him?
> Isel would kill me. O_O And then kill Blair.

3. Number 3 (Tsukasa) walked into the bathroom while you're showering?
> Well, he's cute and shy. He'd probably realize I was in the shower, freak and run away.

4. Number 4 (Vash) cooked you dinner?
> Vash may be good with a gun, but I'm not so sure if he can cook. >_> I would pretend not to be hungry.

5. Number 5 (Hinoki) was lying next to you on the beach, sleeping?
> Ignore her? Heh, I don't know.

6. Number 8 (Tri-edge) got into the hospital somehow?
> Can malicious computer code go to the hospital? I think not. Besides, Tri-edge can repair his broken data anyways. He needs no hospital.

7. Number 9 (Chii) made fun of your friends?
> Chii is too adorable and naive to think that its possible to make fun of someone!

8. Number 10 (Soubi) ignored you all the time?
> Soubi has his own agenda anyways. Shows up when he feels like it, leaves when he feels like it. I wouldn't mind too much.



WHAT WOULD THEY DO UNDER THE FOLLOWING CIRCUMSTANCES?


1. Two serial killers are hunting you down. What will Number 1 (Iselia) do?
> Kill the killers. Not for my sake or anything, she just murderous. O_O

2. You're on a vacation with Number 2 (Blair) and you manage to break your leg. What does Number 2 do?
> Act all annoyed, but he would probably carry me to a hospital or something anyways. And then he would blame me for interrupting his vacation.

3. It's your birthday. What will 3 (Tsukasa) give you?
> Probably something really cute and handmade. But he'd act all shy about it and worry that it wasn't good enough.

4. You're stuck in a house that's on fire. What does Number 4 (Vash) do?
> Save the women and ruuuuuuunnnn!

5. You're about to do something that'll make you feel extremely embarrassed. What will Number 5 (Hinoki) do?
> Pretend not to know me and walk away. >_>

6. You're about to marry Number 10. (Soubi) What's Number 6's (Wolfwood) reaction?
> Well, Wolfwood's a priest. He would probably do the ceremony. ^_^

7. You got dumped by someone. How will Number 7 (Dias) cheer you up?
> Dias isn't really a "I'm going to cheer you up" kind of person. He might try, but he'd be awkward about it.

8. You're angry about it afterwards, how does Number 8 (Tri-edge) calm you down?
> [insert heavy breathing here]
Me: *freaks out and becomes even less calm than before*

9. You compete in some tournament. How does Number 9 (Chii) support you?
> Enters and mimics my every move, with the occasional "Chii?"

10. You can't stop laughing. What will Number 10 (Soubi) do?
> Probably smile while in his head thinking, "What is up with that girl?"

RELATIONSHIP PART


1. Number 1 (Iselia) is all you've ever dreamed of.
> Erm...nope. Sorry Isel.

2. Number 2 (Blair) tells you about his/her deeply hidden love for Number 9 (Chii). Your reaction?
> I guess Blair gave up on real girls and went for robots. But, nah. Blair doesn't love anyone.

3. You're dating Number 3 (Tsukasa) and introduce him to your parents. Will they get along?
> Nope. They would get pissed that I had an internet boyfriend.

4. Number 4 (Vash) loves Number 9 (Chii) as well. What does that mean?
> Everyone's going for the robots now, eh? What's wrong with real girls?!

5. Number 6 (Wolfwood) appears to be a player, he breaks many hearts. What do you do?
> He is kind of a ladies man isn't he? I would tell him that he's a horrible priest and to stop hitting on everyone.

6. You had a haircut and Number 7(Dias) can't stop looking at you. What goes on in your mind?
> He probably thinks I look weird, or won't admit that he likes me.

7. Number 8 (Tri-edge) thinks he'll never get a girlfriend. What will you tell him?
> Well maybe if you stop with that creepy breathing thing and fix your eyes so you don't look like the thing from the... ]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12565407/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12565407/ Thu, 12 Apr 2007 10:31:29 PDT
I lost a piece of me in you;
I think I left it in your arms.
I forget the reasons I got scared,
But remember that I cared quite a lot.

You see but lately I've been on my own.
Yeah one, but one by choice.
You see, thats a first for me,
There's only me, yeah theres only me,
And now I realize for once,
It's just me.
It's just me.
It's just me,
And I'll find a way to make it,
There's noone left to stop me.
Here I go.
Can we take it from the top?

So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I'm already spent living half my life undone
So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again.
I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends.
I've tried to push them all away,
They push me back and wanna stay
And that's one good thing I have.

I'm gonna feel a peace in me,
I'm gonna feel at home.
I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone.
I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor.
I don't wanna hurt no more.

Yeah it's just me.
It's just me
And i'll find a way to make it.
There's noone left to stop me.
Here i go, can we take it from the top?

So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

So why so long?
So sad, i wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

I used to be the one who won before.
I used to smile but dont no more.
I'm living just to watch it all go by.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12453157/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12453157/ Wed, 04 Apr 2007 06:21:16 PDT It really helpled a lot.

Ugh so much crap lately. I'm falling behind in two of my classes and as worried as I am about my grades and crap...I can't seem to bring myself to do any of the work. Its really bad.

More boy drama...I kinda wish things would just work themselves out. The situation is just so...messy. There's things I need to get off my chest, but I can't really say them because I hate dishing up the past. I just want for us to be friends or whatever, but I can't just be accepting of everything that's happened until he understands completely where I'm coming from. But he can't understand where I'm coming from because its hard for me to bring it up because it will be dishing up the past and it will start another arguement and I don't want to argue I JUST WANT THINGS TO BE FUCKING NORMAL!!

...vicious cycle. SuxXors...

And on top of that...someone completely killed just about all my trust. I thought I knew this kid and could trust him but...guess not. So as much as I would like to have a boyfriend or at least a really good guy friend just to cover my back and take care of me...kinda not trusting of it right now. Note if you would like more detail. I'm not gonna say anything here.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12444911/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12444911/ Tue, 03 Apr 2007 13:28:30 PDT
1. What person had the greatest influence on your life? Why?
3. What do you remember paying for things? Do you remember what a loaf of bread, a piece of candy, and a quart of milk cost when you were a child? (If yes, what did those items cost?) What do you think about prices today?
4. Have you ever believed in an elected official? (If yes, who?) Why or why not? Are you politically active today?
5. What events in your personal life stand out in your mind?
6. Where have you lived in your life? What place did you like the best?
8. Can you recall expressions that you used as a young person that you don't use today, such as "bee's knees," "far out," and "swell"? What was it like to be young then?
9. If you could tell other people something and hope they would remember it, what would you tell them?

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12405122/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12405122/ Sat, 31 Mar 2007 17:08:59 PDT
And she definitely gave me the classic, senile, clueless Brothers look.



And I beat .hack//GU... But vol2 comes out four days before my birthday and I'm getting it as a present! ^_^

New Projects
a drawing of Folken from Escaflowne (watch it! good series)
a drawing of Jack and Jane for
a .hack amv...also for
A drawing of Blair, because I made a cute chibi of him in Biki's notebook last night and then realized I haven't drawn him in a while
.hack//GU fanart...Haseo...Endrance! *_*

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12337469/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12337469/ Mon, 26 Mar 2007 14:20:41 PDT
[link]

New Projects
a drawing of Folken from Escaflowne (watch it! good series)
a drawing of Jack and Jane for
a .hack amv...also for
A drawing of Blair, because I made a cute chibi of him in Biki's notebook last night and then realized I haven't drawn him in a while
.hack//GU fanart...Haseo...Endrance! *_*

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12326507/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12326507/ Sun, 25 Mar 2007 17:34:41 PDT
For anyone who has ever heard of or had any experience with .hack, go buy .hack//G.U. right now! Its a three part series and as far as I know, Rebirth is the only volume out right now. Ooooooo my freaking god, jeezy-creezy on a cracker that game kicks some serious ass!

...or maybe its just because I'm a massive .hack fan...>_>

The funny thing is...I swear the Haseo's voice is Danny Phantom and Kuhn's voice is Vash the Stampede. O_O Weird...

Go play right now!!!

And while you're at it...buy the first .hack game series (Infection, Mutation, Outbreak, Quarantine) and play those too. And read .hack//Another Birth, hack//Legend of the Twilight, and .hack//AI Buster. And watch .hack//sign and .hack//Liminality. And buy every music CD with .hack music.

NOW!!

New Projects
a drawing of Folken from Escaflowne (watch it! good series)
a drawing of Jack and Jane for
a .hack amv...also for
A drawing of Blair, because I made a cute chibi of him in Biki's notebook last night and then realized I haven't drawn him in a while
.hack//GU fanart...Haseo...Endrance! *_*

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12255203/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12255203/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 07:33:58 PDT _> Oh...I feel silly now...**

i know you all hate quizzes and tags and all that, but i thought this up and i want to share and i want to here everyones answers....so deal.
answer in another journal, plee-as.

Firstly. If you got a million dollars, (do you really need a reason why? if you really need a reason, FINE. the lottery. you won. woo.) What would you do with that Million dollars? Be as specific or not specific as you want.

Pay off college, buy a nice iMac desktop computer and oogles of hard disk space. Buy a mansion with a waterfall and invite various bands to play there (Gazette, Dir en Grey and My Chemical Romance are currently on my mind). Go traveling...meet some of my online buddies...oh and hire a personal chef.

Secondly. If you could have any Super Power or Ability, what would it be? Now this is what you want not what you would actually get based on your personality, and we all know that they are different.

Hmm...well I would love to be a pyrokinetic. I mean...c'mon! Creating fire just by thinking about it? Hells yeah!! Of course I would also want to fly...hmm...but fire...but flying...ooooh. T_T

Thirdly. If you never had to work ever agian in your life what would you do? YOU DON'T GET A REASON THIS TIME. FINE. IT WAS MAGIC.

This is assuming I have lots of money right? Go clubbing all the time! Work on my art more...umm...hang out with peoples all the time. ^_^

Fourthly. ummmmmm. what's your favorite cookie?

I can't choose...T_T Sugar, vanilla wafers, milanos, chocolate chip, molasses, peanut butter sandiwch, all girl scout cookies...ohhh...I'm hungry.



New Projects
a drawing of Folken from Escaflowne (watch it! good series)
a drawing of Jack and Jane for
a .hack amv...also for
A drawing of Blair, because I made a cute chibi of him in Biki's notebook last night and then realized I haven't drawn him in a while
.hack//GU fanart...Haseo...Endrance! *_*

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12152670/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12152670/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 06:12:04 PDT So Sami ish kinda happy now.

...in other news...I PIERCED MY BELLY BUTTON!!

It didn't really hurt that much, which was weird. Yesterday morning I tried to clean it, but passed out and nearly threw-up. My co-worker warned me that would happen if I didn't eat and...I kind of ignored her because I thought I would be fine.

Me was wrong-o!

So now I eat before I touch it.

I'll post pictures later.

I still can't believe I did it. Ohmeegee.

Sarie and Biki and Okama-san roxxors my soxxors!

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12116274/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12116274/ Fri, 09 Mar 2007 09:34:44 PST

1. what is a bad habit you have that ud really like to get rid of?

Procrastinating...

2. ummm......ok, close your eyes, and turn your head to the left, then open them. what is the first thing that catches your eye?

my toilet...the bathroom's across the hall from me.

3. look around the room u are in and see if u can see something .... yellow. what is it? (if u really cant find yellow.. then..... how about green?

Some church bible picture book thing...EW!

4. do you like spaghetti? if yes, how do u like your spaghetti prepared? with sauce? cheese? just butter?

Spaghetti with butter and cheese...sometimes I melt sliced cheese on it too.

5. what color is the sky at this moment? (if you cant see out a window right now, you can either get up and look out one, or you can make up your own sky colors, but u must describe them in detail.

Pretty much...light blue. Some clouds.

6. say pudding out loud...... now say your favorite type of pudding (ex, say 'chocolate pudding' if thats ur fav). if you hate pudding, say 'i hate pudding' then say (still out loud) a dessert out loud that you do like (YOU MUST SAY THIS PART OUT LOUD, I DONT CARE IF U GET FUNNY LOOKS JUST DO IT DAMMIT!!!!)

Chocolate pudding! No one's home to give me weird looks...aww...

7. look away form your keyboard and press a random letter (or symbol or whatever u hit). now make a word or sentence using that letter or symbol.

t...Tigers are orange and stripey.

8. im getting bored so ill try to makew the rest really simple....... umm....look at your ceiling... see anything other than..... white flatness?

Crazy designs...I don't know. They did something weird with my ceiling paint so it looks all cracked and texturey.

9. how many pillows can u see form where you are sitting? give them all names......u can give them ilogical background too if u like

Two...Shitface and Dickwad.
Shitface was picked on as a baby pillow so he grew up to be a serial killer.
Dickwad is just a horny bastard that got dragged along with Shitface. He rapes the corpses.

10. for every letter of your first name, come up with a random word (get a dictionary if ur drawing blanks

SillyAnimalsMakingIckoos!


New Projects
A short novel (which will take a while...)
a drawing of Folken from Escaflowne (watch it! good series)
a drawing of Jack and Jane for
a .hack amv...also for
A drawing of Iselia that should have been finished a while ago
A random dude drawing...I should finish it because he was starting to look really hott. *_*
A drawing of Blair, because I made a cute chibi of him in Biki's notebook last night and then realized I haven't drawn him in a while

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12111399/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12111399/ Thu, 08 Mar 2007 20:38:34 PST
10pm is now officially Velvet time. You all must wear velvet lined coats, buy a velvet clock and basically celebrate for that one minute out of each day like its New Years eve. Mass drinking...dancing...the like.

That is all.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12104366/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12104366/ Thu, 08 Mar 2007 10:27:33 PST



So...heart-broken basically. I tried. I put effort into it. I lost to another girl. Sometimes I wish I had listened to my reasonable side who kept telling me this would be coming. But nope, I tried anyways...and lost. And what sucks more is that the reasons I had for not liking this girl in the first place aren't even true. Made up. Completely made up. Now I'm going to go cry my eyes out some more...

I can't even hope anymore...I threw all my hope into this. Hope brings nothing but sadness...I fell harder because I hoped.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12085743/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12085743/ Tue, 06 Mar 2007 19:19:58 PST

AND I FUCKING LOST! DAMNIT!


Anyhoo, losing it! Like that Eminem song? Yeah?

"They say I was running butt naked down the street screaming AAHAAAHAAHAAHAA!"

Like that. Just like that. Yeah.

Teeheehee!

I'm a giggling fiend! FIEND!!!!!!!!

FIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII-END!

Fi-endy-end? Thing face your mom?





Yup...I lost it. Whatever it is.

Sanity? What's that?

Teeheeeheeeheeeeeeeeeeeeee......eeeee.....e.

New Projects
A short novel (which will take a while...)
a drawing of Folken from Escaflowne (watch it! good series)
a drawing of Jack and Jane for
a .hack amv...also for
A drawing of Iselia that should have been finished a while ago

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12011612/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/12011612/ Thu, 01 Mar 2007 10:10:04 PST


New Projects
A short novel (which will take a while...)
a drawing of Folken from Escaflowne (watch it! good series)
a drawing of Jack and Jane for
a .hack amv...also for
A drawing of Iselia that should have been finished a while ago

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11993659/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11993659/ Tue, 27 Feb 2007 20:48:48 PST
So, just letting him know...you're officially a member of Foot Locker.

New Projects
A short novel (which will take a while...)
a drawing of Folken from Escaflowne (watch it! good series)
a drawing of Jack and Jane for
a .hack amv...also for
A drawing of Iselia that should have been finished a while ago

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11987071/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11987071/ Tue, 27 Feb 2007 12:30:00 PST
I'm on break for the next two weeks. No work...no school...no nothing.

New Projects
A short novel (which will take a while...)
a drawing of Folken from Escaflowne (watch it! good series)
a drawing of Jack and Jane for
a .hack amv...also for

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11950285/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11950285/ Sat, 24 Feb 2007 16:26:04 PST
Camillo: I really appreciate that you seem to be making more of an effort to want to sort things out. Right now...I just need some time okay? You're a cool guy and I really don't want to lose you as a friend because we have had a lot of fun together over the years. The only thing is...one minute you seem to want to work things out and the next you seem to want to just accuse me again. So...give me a week and I will unblock you if you still want to talk. I'll understand if you don't want to work things out after then okay? I really do mean it when I want to keep you as a friend and even though you won't be able to respond to this journal, I just want to say I'm sorry again and I should have trusted you more and talked to you first. I hope you can accept that. Again, I'll understand if you don't. Its completely your choice.

Ashley: I'm not sure what to really say here. I had hoped that if I explained things you would understand...but you don't really seem to want to see or try to see my side. I'm not saying my side was at all right or just, but I wanted to at least let you catch a glimmer of what I was thinking at the time. Some of the things you brought into this whole situation, like my finances, was completely unneccessary. That has nothing to do with anything. You say you're not mad, yet all of your actions seem to be in anger. You seem to be throwing forgiveness out there, not because you mean it, but because you want to appear to be the bigger person in this. I really don't want to stoop to name-calling or anything. There are things I could say but I won't. At this point...I don't really want to try to sort things out with you. I know this means that Camillo will probably want nothing to do with me but...oh well. I threw the oppurtunity out there if he still wants to talk.

If neither of you want a relationship with me after this, that is perfectly fine. I know I would have to earn your trust again. The one thing I really don't want is for anything to end with hate on either side. So, I'll say again:

Camillo, if you want to, talk to you in a week after we've had time to think and cool down.
Ashley...it may take longer than a week...but in the future maybe I'll be able to talk and sort things out with you too.

To everyone else: please do not feel like you have to take sides here! Don't get involved please. I don't want people on either side of this to hold things against you. For the love of all things good...just don't get involved. If you want to comment, that's okay, but please don't say something that will get you involved more than you should be. Okay? I don't care if you agree with me, Camillo, Ashley or think we're all idiots that need prozac and group therapy. Just keep your mouths shut. I mean that in the nicest way possible.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11931754/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11931754/ Fri, 23 Feb 2007 07:56:50 PST
Seriously, instead of you guys screaming and name calling, why can't we just talk like that?

I made accusations about you guys, yes.

I expected you to be upset, yes.

I didn't expect you to jump down my throat and rip me to shreds like you did. Some of those comments were completely uncalled for even if you are mad at me.

I can respect Jesse when he says I have problems with trusting people/pushing them away because of the way he says it. Not with hatred...just as a friend pointing something out.

You guys, even though you have no trust for me, would get a lot better of a reaction from me if you could a tiny bit less hateful and a tiny bit more explanatory.

I had no idea the thing with Sarie, Ashley and Camillo bothered you so much. I wish you would have said something sooner, but you didn't.

I should have come to you each personally, but I didn't.

We both screwed up okay? Why can't we just TALK instead of scream?

You guys don't know a lot of stuff with what I'm going through too. Yes I didn't tell you, but some of it shouldn't be told and has to do with extremely personal feelings between me and another person who shall remain nameless. They know who they are. Its still a fresh wound and it still hurts. Thats why I lashed out like I did originally. I felt hurt because of my other issues and after two journals (one in which I told of my stress with finals, projects, and having to say goodbye to someone really important) I get no response from anyone. I was hurt. I thought someone would have maybe said something or at least wished me luck with my exams or whatever. I tried reaching out then and got nothing, so I just got angry.

If you don't want to trust me, fine. But I'll say this anyways:

I never did any of what I did to try to hurt people or make them not trust people.
I don't look at any of you as bad people, even if I don't agree with some of the things you do.
I would never insult you, call you dirty or petty or underhanded or anything like that.
But I will call lies when I see them. I knew Sarie was lying and I'm sorry if you're going through an emotional time and I'm bringing this stuff up.
I only said things to you guys because I cared in my own fucked-up way and I didn't want to see anyone hurt.

Take it or leave it.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11920996/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11920996/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 12:29:50 PST
I saw that you all carry hatred for me and I don't blame you.

I'm still going to go off DA, but I'll wait until all of you have had your say about what I've done.

I'm sorry. I don't know how to make up for what I've done to you.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11917851/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11917851/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 07:00:13 PST
So forget it.

Yes, I realize I don't leave comments on every single one of your journals, but some of you post a couple journals in a day or two. I read them all, but sometimes I just don't comment. If its important stuff though, like you're upset about something, I always do leave a comment to check up on you.

I'm sick of people letting me down lately. It feels like you're all drifting away. Even when I do reach out, nothing comes of it. I have to hear from Sarie's stepmom when she'll be home because she never tells anyone. Even when she is home, Millo and Ashie and Caitlin are much too important for her to take time out for me or Becki. I know you're family isn't always bugging you to do stuff like you say Sarie, I hear it from Sue. You're always with them.

And Millo and Ashie...I know I've kept quiet about this because I tried to just let it go, but its not fair of you to toy with people's emotions like that. I feel like I was turned against Millo for no good reason. Its not fair. I know he's probably not mad, but what's he supposed to think of me now? I don't like being tricked. I don't like trying to help people and having them say, "oh, just kidding!" I know you apologized for it, but I'm still hurt by it.

The rest of you that just don't stop by or comment, I'm sure you're busy. I'm busy too, I know what its like. I just wish sometimes you could spare me more than just one word. Especially when I see you hanging around other people's journals for an extended time.

I'm really just sick of people. I hate how this fucking college thing has pushed some of us apart from others. I want to go back to when we all hung out. And I wish...that someone would reach out with some kind word when I'm upset or stressed like I have been this past week. I made two journals about it. No comments on either. I even brought up before that I don't like us drifting like this before. Its for this reason alone that I don't like sharing my problems: no one says anything. They ignore it.

God...maybe I'm overreacting...I can't help it. I feel like I have nothing left. This world isn't fair. Whatever feelings I may have are not important anymore...not when I know that I came second to someone else...again. I was always second, wasn't I?

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11840265/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11840265/ Fri, 16 Feb 2007 09:25:36 PST
I'm working on a short animation (scanning the frames as I type) and I'm hoping it will turn out okay. Realllly hoping it will turn out okay.

I've been talking with someone I don't particularly like. Sometimes I wonder if I give away too many personal thoughts just to gain an edge or a bit of information from her.

I really feel like I don't know anyone anymore. I want to go back to high school so I can see everyone all the time.

I let go of a dream...something I've been trying so hard to make work for such a long time. I've decided to just let Fate run her course and hope for the best. Yes, I always try to be optimistic about it, but I'm scared too. At least we have that promise right? I just hope by me backing off and not forcing things, we come back to where we tried to be for so long.

Finals...finals...finals...
Stress...stress...stress...

Give me a week and this all will be over.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11782637/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11782637/ Mon, 12 Feb 2007 06:55:40 PST (one and three, you are here
to tell me we can't do this)

to tell me we can't do this
(three for three, i'll disagree)

anymore

your hair and face against the mirror
as i take the steps
to save what's left of me
someone's out when it's over

people steal from you
they take anything they choose

it's good to see you
i missed you last night
that's such a lovely color
it goes with your eyes
before we fall asleep
i just wanted to say
this all seems so easy
but there's choices to make

can't decide
then look at the faces
candlelight
we're burning the pages
but ask us why
and hurting ourselves with this false start
resign yourself
and always be (and we pretend)
without the one (it simply gets easier)
thing you need (but does it get easier)
debating words with no replies

when we have these mornings where we can say goodbye

i wanted to mean everything to you
but this isn't right
you keep coming back disassembled and i
keep losing this fight

i won't (i won't)
answer (answer)

dancing on the starlight glow
no one in the city knows
confidence can take you
nerves try to shake you
from going all the way

it's not that far

it's good to see you
i missed you last night
that's such a lovely color
it goes with your eyes
before we fall asleep
just wanted to say
this all seems so easy
there's choices to make

we watch the tide roll in
with cold air and coffee cakes
holding our words at lips
stopping the sounds they make
we know the way to go
we know each step to take
to be here

these words with no replies
stopping we's and starting i's
this need is killing me
and taking me over

i wanted to mean everything to you
but this isn't right
you keep coming back disassembled
and i keep losing this fight"





I do keep losing this fight...
<3
]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11732112/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11732112/ Thu, 08 Feb 2007 07:34:32 PST
First of all, you have to wake up super early to register. Second, for being a technology school, you would think they have less of an issue with the servers overloading and majorly lagging.

But they don't.

This is especially bad when you're at home using dial-up.

What does this mean? Originally I could only get into one of three required classes for this year. Now, thankfully, they have added another Scriptwriting section so I can take that as well. Still, there's no additional sections for Fundamentals of Computing and Imaging, which I also need to take.

Sami ish very angry.

The even suckier thing is, there's other classes I could be taking, but they all interfere with my required shit. I could be taking Gesture Drawing for Animators or Intro to 3D Modelling. But noooooooooo.

So, I'm frustrated.

And to add to my frustration, Valentine's Day is coming up. I hate the sorry excuse for a holiday and I hate even more that I'll be stuck in class that day. Of course, even if I didn't have class, I still would not have a date. T_T I told my mommy to bring a flower home for me so I could pretend to feel special and she kinda laughed.

I wasn't kidding though.

So there's my first emo rant in a long time. Enjoy.
Oh yeah, and if you haven't watched my video, please do.
I'll be working on my final animation.
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]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11695548/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11695548/ Mon, 05 Feb 2007 10:26:32 PST I did it.

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]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11681667/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11681667/ Sun, 04 Feb 2007 09:15:38 PST I wish there was.

Currently pissed at the entire male gender.
Except for Jesse Cruz.
His penis is just about cool enough to be a vagina.
Actually, it might halfway be a vagina.
He is Sex after all, therefore he must know both genitals.

No, this journal was not made because of the "asshle" pictures or journals.
That's their business.
This was made because of one of my personal problems.
No, I don't feel like sharing.
Just tell anything with a penis to leave me alone.
Unless its Jesse Cruz of course.
He's practically a woman anyways.
No offense J-Christ, but you do think like a woman.
Its a compliment.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11608407/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11608407/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 07:25:52 PST So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.. (XD)

Opening Credits: Fuck You I'm Drunk by Flogging Molly
(What a beautiful start! )

Waking Up: Spirit Dreams Inside by LArc en Ciel
(That makes sense. I usually reflect on my strange dreams when I wake up.)

First day of school: The Year Santa Went Crazy by Weird Al
(Huh...somehow my going to school influenced this?)

Making your new best friend: I Thought She Knew by NSync
(Well, I guess the reason I had to make a new friend was because the old one didn't know she was my best friend...but I thought she knew...)

Falling In Love: All Star by Smashmouth
(I'm an all star cause I'm in loooooove!)

Breaking Up: Vertigo by U2
(My world is spinning....SPINNING!!!!)

Prom: Overture by Namco
(Remember the opening song to Katamari? That's my prom song. Weird.)

Graduation: Obsession by See-Saw
(Wait...what am I obssessed with? o_O;; )

Life's Okay: Play That Funky Music by Wild Cherry
(There be some partying with funky music going on!)

Death of a close friend: You Were Meant for Me by Jewel
(How could you die on me!? You were the one! ;_; )

Mental Breakdown: Out Tonight from the Rent Soundtrack
(I guess when I break down, I'm going to go out and hunt down men with a sex-crazed demeanor...creeeeeeepy!)

Driving: Lonesome Day by Bruce Springsteen
(I must be out driving because I'm all alone and have no one to stay at home with me.)

Flashback: Gin and Tonic And Red Red Roses from the Katamari Soundtrack
(Whoa, did I black out at some point in my life after being drunk? What...happened? O_O )

Getting Back Together: Safe In New York City by ACDC
(We got back together in NYC? Yay! Someone to keep me safe from pickpockets!)

Birth of Child: Without Me by Eminem
(Yes, my tummy is going to be very empty without you baby. However, my nights will not be empty, rather filled with screaming and bottle feeding and no sleep for me. Little jerk.)

Wedding Scene: Back in Black by ACDC
(Its a nice day for a...black wedding?)

Car Accident: Cage by Dir en Grey
(I guess I got trapped inside the car. Must hae been a bad accident.)

Final Battle: Heavy Damage by Janne da Arc
(Sounds appropriate. Hopefully the damage is not directed towards me.)

Death Scene: I'll Be by Edwin McCain
(How can I be a crying shoulder if I'm dead? Someone please explain this.)

Funeral Song: This is Halloween from the Nightmare Before Xmas Soundtrack
(I must have died on Halloween! Cool, my favorite holiday.)

End Credits: Taking Over Me by Evanesence
(I'm going to steal your souls and control your brains as you read the credits! MWAHAHAHAHAHA!)

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11521139/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11521139/ Sun, 21 Jan 2007 17:41:12 PST
ANGER
1. With whom did you last get angry? parents
2. What is your weapon of choice? I would never be able to use them, but a sword or a cestus
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? In a joking around kind of way
4. How about of the same sex? In a joking around kind of way
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? Not sure
6. What is your pet peeve? People that have bad grammar or can't spell
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? Depends on the offense

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? Floss
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? noon
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't? Daniela
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? Eeeehhh...
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones)? Of course
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? last Thursday
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?! zero! I slept in til 11:30...

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Yuppie? Mt dew...?
2. Meat eaters? Meh, meat's okay
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? Don't drink
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? No
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? I need to gain some
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? sweet!
7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, LUNCH? no...

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? Uhh...the model from art class...that's it
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? one
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? Yeah...>_>
4. Have you done it? Nope
5. What is your favourite body part on a person of your gender of choice? Hands! And eyes...does hair count too?
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? No, thank J-Crizzle
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?: no

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? zero
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? Anime store
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? Pay for school, move out and take a trip to J-pan
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? Give me the damn money
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? Depends on how boring
6. Have you ever stolen anything? No
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? 943

PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? Not had sex
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? Got into RIT...I think
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? Meet someone...
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? I usually don't get second. I'd be fricken grateful
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? Nope. I'm always with less skill
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? no
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? Slept a lot

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? Not sure
2. Who would you want to go on Trading Spaces with? Biki?
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? Invisible!
4. Have you ever been cheated on? ...yeah.
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? Yeah.
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? Being able to stand up for yourself
7. Finally, what is your favourite deadly sin? lust

That's enough for me.

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11414425/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11414425/ Fri, 12 Jan 2007 19:28:12 PST

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11003251/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/11003251/ Sat, 09 Dec 2006 07:32:00 PST

12 May 1988

Your date of conception was on or about 20 August 1987 which was a Thursday.

You were born on a Thursday
under the astrological sign Taurus.
Your Life path number is 7.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 4 & 22.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 9.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 3, 6, 8 & 11.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2447293.5.
The golden number for 1988 is 13.
The epact number for 1988 is 11.
The year 1988 was a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/17/1988 and ending 2/5/1989.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Dragon.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Beaver; your plant is Wild Clover.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Epipy, the third month of the season of Shomu (Harvest).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 25 Iyyar 5748.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 26 Iyyar 5748.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.15.0.9 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 15 tun 0 uinal 9 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Thursday, 25 Ramadan 1408 (1408-9-25).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 3 April 1988.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 10 April 1988.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 17 February 1988.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 22 May 1988.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 29 May 1988.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Monday, 12 September 1988.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Saturday, 2 April 1988.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 16 February 1988.

As of 12/9/2006 10:26:57 AM EST
You are 18 years old.
You are 223 months old.
You are 969 weeks old.
You are 6,785 days old.
You are 162,850 hours old.
You are 9,771,026 minutes old.
You are 586,261,617 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:
Jason Biggs (1978) Kim Fields (1969) Tony Hawk (1968)
Stephen Baldwin (1966) Emilio Estevez (1962) Ving Rhames (1961)
Steve Winwood (1948) George Carlin (1937) Tom Snyder (1936)
Burt Bacharach (1929) Yogi Berra (1925) Katharine Hepburn (1907)
Florence Nightingale (1820)

Top songs of 1988
Roll with It by Steve Winwood Every Rose Has Its Thorn by Poison
One More Try by George Michael Look Away by Chicago
Never Gonna Give You Up by Rick Astley Sweet Child O' Mine by Guns N' Roses
Anything for You by Gloria Estefan & Miami Sound Machine Get Outta My Dreams, Get into My Car by Billy Ocean
Man In the Mirror by Michael Jackson The Flame by Cheap Trick

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.65557729941292 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)


There are 154 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 19 candles.

Those 19 candles produce 19 BTUs,
or 4,788 calories of heat (that's only 4.7880 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.17 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1988 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.
In 1988 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1988 in the US there were 2,389,000 marriages (9.7%) and 1,183,000 divorces (4.8%)
In 1988 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1988 the population of Australia was approximately 16,687,082.
In 1988 there were approximately 246,193 births in Australia.
In 1988 in Australia there were approximately 116,816 marriages and 41,007 divorces.
In 1988 in Australia there were approximately 119,866 deaths.


Your birthstone is Emerald

The Mystical properties of Emerald

Though not meant to replace traditional medical treatment, Emerald is used for physical and emotional healing.
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/10949330/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/10949330/ Mon, 04 Dec 2006 14:22:38 PST
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]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/10905923/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/10905923/ Thu, 30 Nov 2006 19:24:53 PST Well...only the ones I know personally.

I'm sending Christmas cards, but I don't have all your addresses! Give them to me so that I may send you pretty things! ^_^

*COLLEGE UPDATE*
First semester is over. Whoo!!
I got 4 C's, a B and an A. Kinda not used to such low grades, but I'll try harder next time.
Next semester is going to suck. All film courses. Blah! XP
At least last time I had a bit of a break for Philosophy. I would have had Beginner's Japanese but the stupid Asians in my school put a hold on the class so that only foreign language majors could take it! Grr...

Okay...I'm not being racist. I really don't hate Asians.
...just the ones at my school who set up this stupid thing so I can't get into the class.
Not all Asians.
Just a select few.

That be all.

GIVE MEH YOUR ADDRESSES OR PERISH!!


]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/10676998/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/10676998/ Fri, 10 Nov 2006 07:37:08 PST Sorry for not commenting.
Sorry for being all-around busy with college and shit.

Okay, now that's out of the way...

I hung out with , his girlfriend and her friend yesterday and it was kinda fun. Kinda weird too just because the last time we hung out was over the summer. He got me an Axel model for Christmas. *_* Axeeeeelllll.... It did make me feel kinda lonely to hang with them though. Him and his girlfriend were all cuddly and affectionate. At first, it didn't bother me but...yeah. I'm not immune to that sort of thing. It's a weakness. It makes me wish that I had someone here with me to be affectionate with.

That won't happen though so I try to ignore the loneliness.

Drawing class...oh mee gee...I had to draw teh horridibible PEN15!!! Yes, we actually had a nude male model and I almost died. Literally died right there.

I need to think of an idea for Ashie's contest, but every time I enter...no...one...else..does...T_T

I have a final critique and a philosophy exam next week. I hope my grades are high enough to keep my scholarship...otherwise I don't know what I'll do. I'm so worried and stressed. At least classes are over now and I'm on vacation for the next few weeks. Yay vacation!

I MISS EVERYONE!!!!

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/10525604/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/10525604/ Fri, 27 Oct 2006 08:54:05 PDT
Write down 11 things to different people, but don't tell who its to!

1. I know there's been a few hard times, but I'm so happy to have you as a friend, unconditionally.
2. Sometimes I don't know what to think about you, but that's never a bad thing!
3. You have something so special that any girl would kill for it. Don't screw it up. You're one of the lucky ones.
4. Your obssessions scare me...O_O;;
5. Honestly, I've never met a person in my life that could pull off a quarter of the things you can. You rock.
6. You're beautiful and one of the most caring, honest people I've met.
7. I have no idea how you can carry through life with that smile always on your face! What's your secret?
8. I tried everything, but nothing seemed to work. I'm sorry for not knowing how to fix things, really I am.
9. Even though things didn't work, I wouldn't trade it for the world.
10. Be careful, I don't want to see you lose what you have. Though if you screw up, I won't hesitate to intervene.
11. You are a strong person. There has to be some way for you to get what you want. Just keep searching for it and maybe...

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/10444215/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/10444215/ Thu, 19 Oct 2006 11:08:41 PDT
]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/10293239/ http://Rekei-no-Takai.deviantart.com/journal/10293239/ Thu, 05 Oct 2006 13:03:25 PDT Seriously, I saw one with blatantly obvious proportion flaws and all of the characters in it had flat heads! It was like eyes, bangs...TOP OF HEAD! Right there! Not to mention, I've seen three works by one artist get featured today alone! What's up with that?

On another note, I have to film some event for class that I cannot direct. all of my previous ideas fell through and I have to be done by Monday. Crap...

]]> ~Rekei-no-Takai