http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Renomon&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Renomon en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 05 Dec 2009 03:56:12 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Renomon.deviantart.com/journal/17286719/ http://Renomon.deviantart.com/journal/17286719/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 13:34:24 PDT >; patience is a virtue and i still need to look for another job. andwelli'mrunningoutoftimenowsoi'llrespondtoyouguyslatertakecarenowcyasgah!!! O-o;; *runs to class*

]]> ~Renomon http://Renomon.deviantart.com/journal/12728050/ http://Renomon.deviantart.com/journal/12728050/ Wed, 25 Apr 2007 09:11:47 PDT D; so if your interested, my new Gaia name is xMilo_Foxfirex feel free to drop by and say somethin' or...somethin' XD

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]]> ~Renomon http://Renomon.deviantart.com/journal/11918662/ http://Renomon.deviantart.com/journal/11918662/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 08:33:42 PST .>;; eesh x.x;; but who knows how long its been since i last upda- *glances at his journal* X_X;; OMGASH!! i'm a slacket T_T; i think its because of the stress and drama i've been having to go through x.x;; *sigh* but ANYWAYS!! 8D with a little bit more of inspiration from fellow deviants, (a couple in general <.<; ahem) i've decided to try to get back into my artwork, diving head first into my old drawing and starting to scan them... even tho i should actually to finish up some of my final ones oO;;; ja.... maybe thats a good idea XD; *yays photoshop* and also, it seems to me that my scanner still seems to hate me <.<; so i've decided to bring in one of my favorite tools to make it work again *pulls out giant rock* whee! >3 well, hopefully things will come around for me.. look forward to my future artwork guys! cuz this Fursona hasn't given up all hope just yet

~Reno

P.S. X.x;; i'm dying of sickness so i'm home from my college classes XD YAY! <3

]]> ~Renomon http://Renomon.deviantart.com/journal/11885735/ http://Renomon.deviantart.com/journal/11885735/ Mon, 19 Feb 2007 17:51:45 PST <;; but i'm not giving up dammit X_x;; i just wish my scanner worked.. *sighs and pokes dusty scanner with a stick* v.v; anyways.. this isn't what this journal entry is about...

Have you ever wondered.. after so long of waiting from something that happened in your life.. that changed your life forever because of what happened?... v.v; in my case.. it would be the girlfriends that i've had over a 5 year period... and to be honest.. i'm appalled and crushed to bits and pieces now that i look back at my life... v.v; cuz i used to be so happy i guess... but from what?.. was it companionship i so desired?... v.v; to be honest.. i believe it is. i've been so lonely this past few years... cuz its as if relationships keep getting rubbed in my face. i miss having a girlfriend, or someone who i know i can love and hold and care for all those times when she needed me... and i look back to the people who i used to date on their myspaces and gaia accounts and other places (Furcadia X_x;; blegh) and.... it puts me in a weird position.. v.v; i see them, and they're with their new boyfriends (or girlfriends x.x;;; ) and they're expressing their love to one another in ways that i could never imagine myself... and it pains me to the core knowing that i never was able to experience that first hand from...........anyone.. *sigh*. but, the thing is... not only am i hurt by seeing them...

...i'm also happy...

happy cuz.. i can finally put myself at ease and know that they're happier now with a specific other person.. v.v;; i just wish someone would come into my life and show me that passionate desire i so want...

whoever you are.... save me... please v.v;;

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Love, Modern.

The rain pelted her heavily, as she stood at the edge of the tracks, waiting for her train to finally show at the station. The rain fell heavily beneath her gaze, and it pelted her long, leaving streaks through her long hair, and making her body shiver just so very slightly, for it was too terribly cold right now.

She stood, her umbrella pelted long by the water, and her eyes gazed sweetly towards the distance, towards where the train should be coming. The future laid in that direction, where a new job would rest, and all things considered, it was where she would be happy. Right now, she rested her fingers against her suitcase, and breathe din a soft breath, to clear her lungs of the dryness that had accompanied her during the entire trip to the station.

Looking long, she saw the people mill about and draw as the train became to be seen in the distance. Looking, she also saw the train, and her right hand waved at the conductor who was busy putting the brakes down. A heavy squeal began to fill the air, and she had to laugh a little, though the sound was painful it was a sound she would not mind at all. It was the sound of tomorrow, the future.



She lifted her suitcase up, then set it at her side, upon one of her saddle bags. And she stepped towards the loading platform. But the ground was slick, and she felt her paw slide forward, and her body twisted, she falling to her side as she lost balance. Her side gave suddenly and she felt a light pop, and looked at the train as it approached her. Her right hand reached to pull herself up, but she could not find the purchase she needed to lift her body from the position she held, much to her fear.

Her body trembled a bit as she tried to pull her body up, but the ground was far too slick, and her paw slid forward again, sending her even more off the edge. “Help!” And only then did someone notice she was in danger, that she had any need of help. A hand then grabbed her own, and pulled her up quickly, though the train, as it drew by, nicked her ear and made her give a stifled sound. The hand held tightly, and she gripped it, then clung to the body that had pulled her up, while others even noticed something had been awry, and they moved forward, with shocked sounds and sudden questions.

Her eyes looked about suddenly, as she saw an older woman holding a kerchief out, and a young man talking into a radio, and a conductor whom had leapt from the train to check on her. Passengers were getting off, and the crowd started to surround her, leaving her in a swell of people, and the hand, the hand that had lifted her, was gone, leaving only a small clump of fur in her palm.

“Where did he go?” She asked, her head turning, and her eyes looking about rapidly, wanting to see the hero again. Others spoke loudly, and got into her way, leaving her to wait for someone to help her through the surprise through the fear of being alone. Her hand gripped for the hand that was not there, before she pulled the fur to her chest, while others talked, and rambled on.

---

She stood, looking out and over the window out of her office, while holding the small locket in her hand, holding the six strands of fur she had. Looking long, she gazed out through the window towards the many people who walked below, wondering which had been her savior, which had helped out was. Every lunch break was the same, just watching and wondering, alone in her great tower of glass and steal.

“Cindy.” The voice was soft, as a wolf gazed at her through the doorway, his fur slickened back, and his hazel eyes looking at her reflection. She turned her body about, her rear legs flexing slightly and leaving her to face him. She felt her right ear twitch at something, which made her wince – the wound still hurt, even two weeks later.

“Yeah?” She asked back, “What do you need?” She sat herself down gently on her long mat, and clasped her hands together in her lap, leaving her to look at him. He smiled to the taur, and sat in a chair, while his fingers laced and his feet pressed against her desk, a touch.

“I was just wondering if you would care to share lunch with me and a few friends; we worry about you, up here alone. We don’t see you eat that much, and you taurs have high metabolisms. Your loosing weight, and its not good.” She looked back out the window, lost in the revelry of the memory, of the hero she had never got the chance to thank. “Cindy, come on.” Her head turned to look at him when he stood, and she just gazed back through her almost haunted eyes.

“No, I’m fine. I’m just thinking about the Delrun’ Project. It’s a bit low on successful trials, and I am not th... ]]> ~Renomon http://Renomon.deviantart.com/journal/9572127/ http://Renomon.deviantart.com/journal/9572127/ Wed, 02 Aug 2006 00:30:40 PDT Yes, this was the typical life for me, back in the good old days...

apparently... not is what it all turned out to be...

things got out of hand.. it was chaotic in my own mind... blocks of all sorts.. artist block, writers block... everything, was just getting to me.. it was terrible... and eventually... it turned to the point where i would lose the one i cherished...

one after the other, my dream fell through the holes of darkness... i struggled to clammer above... i struggled to strive for success... my happiness, my dreams.. my goals all disappeared, as my star just vanished into thin air.. but still, to keep myself above despair, i would kick, and scramble for whatever is out there... i would grasp and grasp out into the darkness that now hovered and surrounded my body.. with a smile, which i always kept upon my face, i shed a tear.. hoping to take hold of something that would lead me the right direction....

.....nothing was there.... it was never there for me..

Then with a cry of despair... i gave up... and sank into the darkness where it withered into my body and tore away at my heart made of pure light... my innocence... gone forever...

for awhile... darkness swept through every moment of my being... i was crushed, devoured by this darkness... all my doors to the light have faded away, and i had no entry point...

then i heard from an old friend... deep from the calling of my now dark heart... i heard a small flicker of light... but it was extremely faint... and covered in red... what she said to me that day... i will never forget.. even though the pang of guilt and hurt still hides there in my heart for what she did to me... but you know what?...

...i now stand up in the darkness... this is who i thought i was supposed to be.... but as i turn to look to the east... i see what seems to be a blank white... unnoticeable to whatever it seems to be...

As i walk towards this door... the darkness sweeps to my mind... as all of a sudden.. i stop in my tracks as it cycles through my head.. these.... words....thoughts...

".... i'm screwed.... will i ever change to impact those around me like i once did?... theres no one for me in my life... is there?" as i think about these thoughts... i hear the same mind entity from someone not too far away.... asking herself the same similar questions.. "are we screwed?.... is the human race just purely a race to be considered a failure?" i blink as these thoughts trail through my mind... i scream out in the darkness... fear has overcompensated on hope.. but you know what?!

I STAND ON MY TWO DAMN LEGS NOW! I still can make an impact on this world and the people around me! i shed tears of faith, as i reach up, and try again to reach for the stars... i sigh once again, as i feel nothing... but wait!... whats this? as i pull my hand back down... a feather... that as white as the purest dove... rests in between my fingers.... YES! a sight of hope! i look to the east that is purely blank... i walk towards it now, feeling still my sights of darkness... but at the same time... my broken heart now shimmers a dazzle of light from within... as i approach the blankness... there appears to be one door.... tattered in all its midst, while behind me... are the same several thousands of doors that lead me here in the first place... i toy with the idea of both the path i took long ago... and then the path i'm about to take... as i stand in the middle between two doors... a smirk crosses my face as i turn and look in between... as i say... "...i need no door or specific path to get me to where i'm goin'... what matters to me is where my heart shall take me..." so as i look in between the doors... a new valley is opened up to me... neither pure or evil... its the middle path for me... my alternate door....

~Renomon~ ]]> ~Renomon