http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:RezRagnarok&section=today deviantART RSS for by:RezRagnarok en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 15 Dec 2009 03:33:27 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/27491701/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/27491701/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 17:56:16 PDT
As of now, I managed to win an ebay item. And I'm actually really happy about it.
Its a messenger bag, originally given out if you pre-ordered Mirror's Edge, and getting rare on ebay. There were only three on the page and two of them pushing 40$.

I managed to get mine for 37$
So I'm happy.

(and a geek, yes I know this)

In other news...college is college, just as high school was high school. But without so much drama. ^^

Oh, I actually cleaned my room as well. Which means it became so bad I actually got annoyed enough to clean it.

Also, I've actually not drawn anything on my tablet since...well, before I got a job. SO the lack of art is because of that. I haven't forgotten to draw stuff or anything, but life tends to get in one's way from time to time.






]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/27135061/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/27135061/ Thu, 10 Sep 2009 15:27:44 PDT I tried to hold out but I'm sorry. It isn't my house.
Its not my rules. I love you and it hurts. I'm sorry.

I have to hug you as you leave, I won't come home to you again.
You won't wine when I leave, or get the look of utter happiness when I return.
I won't have to hurry home anymore.

I'm sorry I agreed. I signed your death. I'm sorry, your ignorant. You'll think we are taking you to the park and we are not. You'll go into that room and sleep...I'm sorry. I'm not strong enough for this. It's hurting me. I can't I can't breath.

I'm so so sorry. Please forgive me. Please don't look at me with those trusting eyes. I'm a fake, I can't look back at you without crying. You try to comfort me! Me, who isn't the one who won't wake up again. I can't even be in that room with you. God I'm sorry.

You won't be there to scare off the idiots who knock, or run around the house with me...if I hadn't gotten Henry...then then.

Your warm. I feel that. Never again will I feel that again. I'm so sorry for not being able to be there. Face to face, I owe you that but I can't. You wouldn't ask it of me, your just that loving.

Dear God, forgive me. I am not ignorant of what is going to happen. Death is final. I agreed. I killed. This feels so wrong. It is. I'm sorry...please please forgive me. I'll pray for you, I'll dream for you, I'll try to live for you.

Please follow after the others. They are there waiting.

Its over, my childhood, my memories. That house in those woods. You are not young, and neither am I. I'm sorry. Again and again a million times over. With you my heart goes, generous pieces. over twelve years of my life and yours. Its ending. And you don't even know it.

Stop looking at me like that. Be mad, bite me, curse and shout. Hate me. I'm sorry. I love you...and I always will.

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
So very sorry.

























]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/22243761/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/22243761/ Sun, 28 Dec 2008 18:09:36 PST I'm happy to have a new cat...and yet I still really miss Andy...so its really bittersweet right now.

...it doesn't help that he is only 8 months old, so he's getting into everything. I'm gonna see how everything goes...I hope he will mellow out as he ages, as the same thing happened to Andy. (although I don't remember but my dad told me)

...I also happen to be overtired, so that isn't helping.

I've yet to name him...he came with the name Trent but I don't know about it yet.

Its not that I don't want him, I love his attitude. He just wants to be petted and purrs nonstop. I guess I should have gotten an older cat, but for now I'll see.

Oh...and Scout, our dog, seems eager to meet him up close...which we are being VERY careful with. As Scout is a large dog...and doesn't realize it. Kinda like a bull in a china shop.

I guess I'm just asking for some input on how to help calm him down, or some reassurance that he will eventually lose some of that boundless energy. -__-

(kimmy, did you have issues with your cats when they were younger? Same for you Alycia, I know Walter is full of energy...btw, Henry is one of the names I'm considering)


***********EDITTTTT***********************

Ok...so, after much thought and much play with the new kitty I have decided to keep him. AND to give him a name.

"The cat" is now officially Henry James Savage.

I've bonded a bit more with him, and I can't let him go....he managed to wiggle his way into my heart.

So Alycia, we are gonna have ta introduce themmmm! Lol!

(I named him Henry in hopes that he would settle down a bit...hopefully he will)



]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/21319865/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/21319865/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 14:49:00 PST
As I need to move on and be the bigger person.

Finals are coming up soon...I have no idea how that happened, they just popped up!

I have stuff I need to get done, a few books to finish and a paper to write...joy.








]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/21308372/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/21308372/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 20:44:06 PST
Sorry for making you hear it again....

*sigh*

Just have to get it off my chest.


One of my friends of many years decided that I was basically bullying her throughout high school...

...I am now in college....

so....bolt out of the blue for me.

I never talked bad about her....I actually looked UP to her. my god....she was my friend!!

I don't know what to do...I feel kinda numb after everything. Cause I'm not really mad at her nor am I sad...

Bad friends shouldn't be friends. And I shouldn't be saddened by her loss...but I guess I wouldn't be human if I didn't feel anything.

Still, its more sad that she acted so childish in the end. Made my respect for her disappear quickly.

Again, sorry for the rant.









]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/20970634/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/20970634/ Mon, 13 Oct 2008 13:59:48 PDT
I don't really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it first of May, at the mental hospital and I saw you pull the clothes off the crazy monk. I'm sure you're high enough to understand that I get turned on by garbage men. I'm returning your contact book to you, but I'll keep the results of your blood-sample as a memory. You should also know that I get sick when I think of a passionate interest for mice .

Good luck on your short-term leave from jail,
-Jill-



<<

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Kimmy... I lovveeee uuuu!


Make your own here!

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]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/20556736/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/20556736/ Thu, 18 Sep 2008 17:02:09 PDT
Ummm....thats about it. Really, I have been fairly boring these past weeks...true statement.





]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/20445768/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/20445768/ Thu, 11 Sep 2008 19:55:53 PDT
Strange that it happened so many years back...still seems like yesterday. And...well...I think people need to remember WHY America is fighting.

I can remember where I was, what I was doing and how scared I was. But I also remember the anger that came with that sorrow.

I remember that 2,974 people were murdered by idiots. Yes, idiots.

I can slightly understand the samurai killing themselves with planes...but they were not taking INNOCENT PEOPLE with them. I can kinda get it....kinda.

But the lives lost...the hero's who died...who willingly walked into the buildings.

Remember the men and women...Mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers, daughters and sons.





So, no...I will not complain about the war in Iraq. We are there for a reason. So September 11th NEVER happens again!

I know this sounds like a rant, but I get annoyed at people who complain about the war, about how we need to move on...get over it.

WELL...I am not forgetting nor am I turning a blind eye.

I am an American...and damn proud of it.

So I will remember 9-11-01.




]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/18331136/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/18331136/ Thu, 15 May 2008 04:42:40 PDT
I am now 19!

Although its strange to not have a party with my friends. (most of whom are not even in ohio anymore due to college)

But still.....I'm another year older and I managed to not kill myself or cause some sort of harm to befall myself over the last year.

....Weird cause its me....

Meh, I'm just crazy like that!








]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/17568482/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/17568482/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 06:11:15 PDT



This morning, my love of 14 years, Andy my cat, passed on.


....it took him about two full weeks to go. In that time he slowed down, but managed to STILL be able to attack/smack our dog if he annoyed him. AND still remained appearing with an air of general "I am far better than you, you dumb mutt! or Humph idiotic dog" complete with lots of glaring at anything and everything.

He was the only gray and white striped cat in the litter, also one of the smallest. I picked him because he was so damn amusing to watch. He ran under a car (parked) and hid as soon as he climbed out of his basket. This was the first time I looked at him. I also loved his eyes, and have never seen a cat with the same color. His eyes were a forest green with yellow highlights. They were the kind that spoke volumes to a person.

...although I do think Andy thought he WAS a human. He even sat in a chair at the dinner table. He would also try to get things out of the fridge if it was open.

The only animal that I have ever seen get even on a human. If you upset him, he would stop at nothing to do something to you. Usually this involved pouncing on your head at three a.m. or knocking water on your head/legs/body in general.

He liked to explore...outside...but he was in indoor cat. He just didn't seem to fully understand that. We did manage to catch him after he snuck into the basement. He was covered (mainly his wiskers) in cobwebs and dust. My god, the look on his face when he was caught.

He wasn't a perfect cat....but he was the best damn cat I have ever had the pleasure of knowing.

I'll miss him.

Because I feel that animals go to heaven, I can only say this:

"Its not goodbye, its only see you later"





]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/16012433/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/16012433/ Thu, 20 Dec 2007 10:00:31 PST
1. Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate?
Hot Chocolate with marsh mellos.

2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree?
wrap

3. Colored or white lights on tree/house?
Colored, especially blue lights.

4. Do you hang mistletoe?
...I don't know if we have any, so nope.

5. When do you put your decorations up?
Usually a wekk or two before Christmas.

6. What is your favorite holiday dish (excluding dessert)
Cheesecake, chocolate...any red meat or fish.

7. Favorite Holiday memory as a child:
Thats easy, when it snowed like...four feet and I got to go play outside.

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa?
When my mother asked me if I wanted to help her carry the gifts down. I have no idea what age I was.

9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve?
Yep, I always open one.

10. How do you decorate your Christmas Tree?
It takes awhile. We have two trees-one is moms and one is mine. We both fill up the tree(s) It takes time but it always fun.

11. Snow! Love it or Dread it?
That depends. I can love it if it melts quickly, and hate it when its cold. If someone could invent warmer snow that would be wonderful.

12. Can you ice skate?
Kinda. I would rather rollerblade.

13. Do you remember your favorite gift?
My Gamecube-cause I knew what it was and I waited to open it last.

14. What's the most important thing about the Holidays for you?
Food, my parents, and gifts.

15. What is your favorite Holiday Dessert?
Anything and everything...no fruitcake.

16. What is your favorite holiday tradition?
Opening one gift on Christmas Eve.

17. What tops your tree?
We don't have anything that sits at the very top...and I can't reach it so usually its up to mom.

18. Which do you prefer: Giving or Receiving?
I love receiving-but I like to give my friends things.

19. What is your favorite Christmas Song?
Silent Night, Angels we have heard on High, and I want a Hippopotamus for Christmas.

20. Candy Canes?
They are good, but I prefer chocolate.

21. How many Nativities do you own?
One, usually I set it up.

22. Favorite Holiday Movie?
Rudolph, The Grinch, New animated Rudolph

Well, there ya go. Hope you liked!

btw, I tag CrystalWhiteInk and nodachichiri.






]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/15504324/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/15504324/ Wed, 14 Nov 2007 14:32:32 PST
Ok...so now that I have managed to cool off...and ate some ice cream...I will update!

So, I talked to the guy...he was ok. I guess he was just worried for me cause I missed out on getting some classes. That or...his attitude is just his personality.

annoying as it is...

ANYWAY

My mood is better...now if only I could pull a C in my math class!

------------------------------------------------------------------------

Depression sucks.

So does college....and teachers...and grades.

Okay...why the hell do some adults treat you in such a condensending manor?!?!?!??! I mean, DAMN, I am SHY when I talk to people, you don't have to throw it back in my face! Its people like that that drive me to do STUPID shit to myself! I'm a freshman...and I don't live on CAMPUS so DEAL WITH IT!!!!!
And don't make fun of the way I talk! I'M NOT THE ONE WITH THE SOUTHERN ACCENT! ( that is not making fun of anyone who has an accent )

I hate the looks I get from adults too. That look, the one where they look down their nose at you. As if you weren't worth anything. WELL I AM...at least, that is what I have to tell myself. And my parents wonder why I have bad depression. Its all the damn PRESSURE! I can't take it!

I hate it, and its getting me so depressed I keep thinking of bad things to myself .
And I don't want any of the bad things to happen. I'm not that far gone....yet.

I highly doubt I will make the cut...my parents are going to kill me. Which adds to my already long list of things to be depressed about.

*sigh*

damn it all. I hate crying every day cause I'm an emotional train wreak. And now, when I really need support...some of my friends aren't there.
I have yet to really make friends, and I'm, like I have said before, SHY...and that doesn't help.

SO...I don't know what the future holds...or if I even have one.





]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/14532987/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/14532987/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 16:00:13 PDT


>> THE GAY FLIGHT ATTENDANT
>>
>>
>> My flight was being served by an obviously gay flight attendant,
who seemed
>>
>> to put everyone in a good mood as he served us food and drinks.
>>
>> As the plane prepared to descend, he came swishing down the aisle
and told us that
>>
>> "Captain Marvey has asked me to announce that he'll be landing the
big
>> scary plane shortly, so lovely people, if you could just put your
trays

>> up,
>> that would be super."
>>
>> On his trip back up the aisle, he noticed this well-dressed and
rather
>> Arabic looking woman hadn't moved a muscle.
>>
>> "Perhaps you didn't hear me over those big brute engines but I
asked
>> you to
>> raise your trazy-poo, so the main man can pitty-pat us on the
grou nd."
>>
>> She calmly turned her head and said, "In my country, I am called a
>> Princess and I take orders from no one."
>>
>> To which (I swear) the flight attendant re plied, without missing a

>> beat,
>> "Well, sweet-cheeks, in my country I'm called a Queen, so I outrank

>> you.
>> Tray-up, Bitch."




]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/14223075/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/14223075/ Sat, 18 Aug 2007 08:38:25 PDT

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"Justice moved my high maker, in power divine-----Dante's Inferno canto III
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2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What can you reach?
My pillow.
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3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Naruto re-runs
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4. Without looking guess what time it is?
11:00
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5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
11:14 hmmm...not bad.
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6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
the air conditioning and my fan...maybe my cat wanting to be fed.
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7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Yesterday, when I went rollerblading
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8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
ChrystalWhiteInk's journal
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9. What are you wearing?
White shirt with a jaguar with the words Paraguay written on it...green boxers and underwear. ( Still in my PJs )
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10. Did you dream last night?
Yep, I think it had something to do with ninjas and transformers. But I can't be sure.
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11. When did you last laugh?
Yes, when my cat tried to attack my hand, missed, and did a face plant.
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12. What are on the walls you are in?
Lots of stuff. I'm in my bedroom...sooo
Posters of: Johnny Depp as jack SparrowOrlando Bloom as Will Turner,

One happy bunny poster on the back of my door with a marines poster that has women on it

A martygra mask with some large metal keys and one piece of my art work.
A small mirror, two small tiles that have kindness, beauty, wisdom and knowledge on them. A gundam scroll.

A picture of my cat and I ( small, he was trying to see what the hell i was doing making high pitched noises. I was playing my Piccolo. )

and lastly, A poster of the Transformers:Autobots from the new movie.
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13. Seen anything weird lately?
My mom playing wi?
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14. What do you think of this quiz?
Its ok.
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15. What was the last film you saw?
Transformers!
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16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Fund my college, get stuff for my car, buy an Xbox360 and a PS3 along with alllll the games I could get my hands on. Provide for my family so they would be able to retire early, shop till I drop. and maybe buy the large bumblebee model from the movie.
..............
17. Tell me something about you that I don't know?
I am very shy when first meeting people. Oh...I'm adopted.
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18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt, what would it be?
Hmmm.....make alllll my dreams come true ( aka...alllll actors and or transformers I love REAL! )
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19. Do you like to dance?
Yes...but I am not good at it.
..............
20. George Bush:
Misunderstood and unneccessarily bashed! He is a good president...and I will stand behind him.
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21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Easy, Aden or Asland
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22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Again...easy, Albel, or Linkin ( even Asland again cause it can go both ways. )
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23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
No...unless I somehow learn a language and go over to japan.
..............
24. What do you want God to say when you reach the pearly gates?
"Do you know how many times I had to put your guardian angel through therapy?" or something like that.


Ok...thats the end. I tag manderina, nodachichiri and OshiiFeawen.



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]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/10296997/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/10296997/ Thu, 05 Oct 2006 18:49:19 PDT
I'm really excited...and suprised. My grades kinda suck and I didn't do too well on the ACT. Sooooo....I'm offically HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!

And strangly hungry.....hmmmmmmmmmmmm....time to find some candy.



]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/10226077/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/10226077/ Fri, 29 Sep 2006 13:44:17 PDT
I NEED A DATE TO HOMECOMING!
Which is funny b/c I'm not really going.
I'm just dressing up and heading over to play laser tag with a few friends...and eat chinese food.

Lets see....I have almost saved up enough money for my Orginazition XIII coat. Tis over 100 and I have 80 saved.
( Anyone want to take pitty on me and give me money? )



]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/9960894/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/9960894/ Mon, 04 Sep 2006 07:38:26 PDT
...I don't have a lot to say, but he will be missed.



]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/9911092/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/9911092/ Thu, 21 Sep 2006 04:52:37 PDT
The only catch is that they then have to post the same tag on their OWN journal, and accept requests for the first 10 people to comment as well.

1. Manderina-something from Megaten
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]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/9817175/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/9817175/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 14:48:07 PDT Yes! (well...maybe not spiders)

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
Nope! Unless I already knew them!

3. Are you athletic?
I'm not athletic, but I'm in the band!

4. Are you: thin, fat, athletically built etc
Slightly fat...but I have to work off my summer pounds!

5. How much do you weigh?
Somewhere around...120-130.

6. What's your height?
5' 2"

7. Shoe size?
I range from 8-11, depending on the maker of the shoe.

8. Girls- are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
Tomboyish, but I have my girly moments. (like when I see a cute boy...)

9. Guys- Are you girly, or guyish?
If I were a guy, I'd be a...guy?

10. How old are you?
Just recently turned 17! One more year till I'm legal!

11. When's your birthday?
May 15!

12. Do you like to receive giftart?
Yeah! (....but I have yet to get any -_-)

13. Are you sociable?
Sometimes, when I'm with friends. Otherwise I'm quiet.

14. Do you have many friends?
I have a ton of online friends...others are close...but there aren't many of those.

15. What's your race?
asian/mexican/german

16. Do you like to talk on the phone?
Not really...

17. Are you single or taken?
Single.

18. Do you eat meat?
MMM, Meat. Especially seafoods! (Orrrrrrr.... )

19. Are you paranoid?
...yes....

20. Do you read a lot?
Yes, almost a book per week!

21. Do you listen to music, what kind?
Who doesn't? Ummm....breaking Benjamin, or heavy metal, techno, trance, anything upbeat that has a catchy beat, DDR, etc.

22. Do you play any instruments?
Flute and Piccolo!

23. How long have you been drawing?
I started drawing when I was allowed to have crayons. When I did I drew dinosaurs! Or Animals!

24.What’s the meaning of life?
To strive, to seek, to find and not to yield!

I TAG ALL OF YOU. (Unless you have done this!)

]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/8908418/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/8908418/ Mon, 29 May 2006 05:34:48 PDT
The worst part...I have band today. No, not the nice kind of band, no...this is MARCHING BAND! Where you are fully clothed in a wool uniform!
And today we're just playing...not even really marching! We get to stand, look like we are enjoying ourselfs...and not lock ur knees. (I guess you can faint if you do) Yet that won't stop half of us from trying to faint...mainly out of sheer boredom.
I play the piccolo for marching, and flute for concert.

The only good thing is we get to go to london for a trip this december!

]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/8777962/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/8777962/ Mon, 15 May 2006 12:10:27 PDT (yet I don't feel older)


]]> ~RezRagnarok http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/8513482/ http://RezRagnarok.deviantart.com/journal/8513482/ Tue, 18 Apr 2006 17:45:44 PDT thats all for now! ]]> ~RezRagnarok