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So the issues with the ex-girlfriend over the summer that inspired the last journal were pretty much nothing compared to the "i need a slave of my own" issues and the "i need a threesome" issues that followed... well kinda continued through the summer. We kept fighting about things, because I would get upset about him wanting to be with other girls, and he wouldn't care or take my feelings into consideration when trying to judge which of his dreams would be acceptable to happen in a monogamous relationship.

So because of these fights and my feeling kinda insignificant, when I went away to Spirits of the Earth festival this past summer, beginning of July, I was really surprised by the attention I got from a nice guy there. I felt sexy, I had fun, he made me laugh and feel young and wild and free. Which was a nice thing to feel after feeling like a weight around John's neck for so long - resented, weighing him down, not really wanted... and even though I'd asked John to marry me over the summer (i asked over the summer, but it wasn't going to happen until we were both done school and had good jobs) I couldn't help but flirt with Rob. We had a fun week hanging out, going to the workshops and dancing around the revel fire together.

At the end of the week, we exchanged emails and started to talk in real life too. We started to become friends, but realized that the attraction and chemistry that was present at Spirits didn't end there... it kept going, and growing... at one point I wasn't sure who I loved more - John, or Rob... I had Rob down for the weekend when John was coming home right before he was done for the summer so I could get them to meet and see if I still had feelings for John. Rob got here a day before John did, and we ended up fooling around and I cheated on John. It ate me up for the rest of the night and until I saw John the next night - but as soon as I saw him I realized I really did love him, and always would, and if anything the stuff with Rob had gotten the attraction between Rob and I to dissipate and my feelings for John burned brighter. I couldn't tell him.

School started in September and John and I bother got busy, we focused on school, saw each other at random times, like really late at night when he could get to my house to sleep over since he lives a half an hour drive away from the U and Windsor. So we'd basically only see each other when sleeping next to each other, or when I would skip out of class to have some time with him. But these times were never really that quality, since there was always other people around, we would never have time to talk, or we'd be doing something and I felt like he wasn't paying any attention to me. The threesome idea came up again and I said I might be okay with one, but not immediately... Emily and John kinda jumped me one night while we were sleeping over, and I nearly had a breakdown afterwards... After this I realized I couldn't feel anything energy-wise when I thought of John like I used to... I couldn't tell if it was from Rob or the threesome, but whatever it was, the heart meld energy was gone.

October came and John was pushing for another threesome and we started fighting a lot about it. I couldn't really think of a way to explain why I wasn't okay with it asside from my passed experiences, which he said I should be over by now. I got really sick and he went to a "play party" without me, which is where we started to fight about things. We went out for Halloween with a BDSM friend, and I thought she was nice, but John was talking about wanting to have a threesome with her, and I wasn't really all that attracted to her. [The other girl he wanted a threesome with was Key, an ex-gf/friend from high school who he said would be crazy in bed] I was getting sore and tired by around 1am on halloween and wanted to go home and go to bed, maybe get some fun time in with John, but he wanted another drink and to dance with our BDSM friend, Scamper. So I said I would get the other people I was driving home together and we could leave when he was done dancing - 5 songs later I was really upset because I'd wanted to leave half an hour before and he was grinding up on Scamper and I was feeling a bit forgotten... When we finally left it was nearly 2am, and we went back to Lindsay's house to grab our stuff and head to my place, but he wanted to sit for a bit and talk, and ended up texting flirtatiously with Scamper, so I made a bitchy comment and we ended up fighting, and talking all the way back to my house. This was the beginning of the end. We fought about the same thing, over and over circling back to the same things over the next three weeks. I was sick and not feeling good, and he was too busy to even try to comfort me, and fighting wasn't helping.

I finally got to meet Key one t... ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/26504075/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/26504075/ Mon, 10 Aug 2009 11:47:28 PDT

We're going to have been dating for 11 months on August 24th, and I can't wait for him to be back from the summer of working a long way away... like Meaford or Petawawa where he was this summer and still is until the 14th. We're going to a couple of our friends' wedding this coming weekend... So I'm going to Toronto to pick him up and then we're driving the rest of the way down to Port Burwell for the handfasting/wedding/thing of our two friends. I can't wait to see him again!!! *bounces*

Anyways... other fun and exciting news - I will officially be done my History degree after this fall semester! Then I can move on to more interesting things... Like Comm Studies (now known as Communication, Media and Film Studies) at the UofW ... Who knows - Maybe I'll actually be able to use this degree to get a proper job, not at a Bingo Hall/Movie Theatre...

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Another thing, if we are supposed to be monogamous, then shouldn't that mean that all sexual things with anyone other than your significant other be out of the question? I mean oral sex is still sex... right? I don't know which is the better course of action, say that it's okay and make him happy, but be dejected and hurt myself? Or say no, have him upset at me, but feel safe in my relationship. I don't want to watch some other girl do the things that are supposed to be my job, and the perks of being in a relationship with me... I can't. But I know that if I say this, he'll be upset with me.

Also, how do you tell someone that you don't trust their ex-gf with them? When we first started dating we were happy, and I tried to play it cool and not be upset with him trying to be friends with his ex, even though I saw her trash-talking me to him, and saying how much she missed him and couldn't live without him... but then is also dating some other random guy that she "loves so much". I know he's a flirty guy, and he flirts with everyone, female, male, doesn't matter, it's just the way he is. But when it's with her, and she's tried to break us up repeatedly, and he doesn't see it... how am I supposed to feel when he's flirting with her, and hanging out with her, and all the while she (in my imagination? maybe? maybe not?) is plotting on how to steal him back. Take facebook for instance - she hasn't written on his wall in almost a year, since when they were still dating. She'll comment on pictures, notes, things he puts up, but wont actually leave him a message on his wall. Then we get into a disagreement about the above mentioned "activities we wanna try" and he changes his status to something pissed off. Not even a day later, probably only like an hour later, she posted on his wall "hey how's it going out there, boring as usual?" and then he wrote back, and she wrote back, saying life is boring work sucks and I miss you boy. wtf? He never wrote back, and she never responded, but it's like what was the purpose in her writing and acting nice and innocent, at the specific time when we were fighting, if not to try and break us up.

This is why I don't trust people, why I am still paranoid even though we've been dating almost a year, and why I can't be alright with him going off with other girls, or having more kinky sex than we already do... it's like... are you bored with me already? Am I not making you happy anymore? Am I really not good enough? Do you still have feelings for her... I can't get these thoughts out of my head. And since no one really reads these... I thought I'd just write it here, where he might see it.

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Yet I can't seem to get enough of this amazing guy I'm with now. We've seen eachother almost every day for the past 3 weeks. And I still miss him when he's not around, can't get enough of him when he is around, and never seem to get annoyed with him.

You'd almost think it's magical.

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]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/16765656/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/16765656/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 06:55:19 PST Anyways. I just thought I would write a new blog thingy to say that I got my macbook this passed summer, and it is black and fast and beautiful. and i love it.
I feel like I'm getting a throat infection, my head hurts, this is the second essay proposal i've worked on in as many days... I just wanna sleep!!!!
I have a very messed up love life right now and I am not going to even try to explain it.. there's too much involved and too much to try and figure out still.. In short. It's screwy. (Oh yeah... Chris is SO last year... in fact I sometimes wish I could erase those few months and his existence in them... but I cannot)
I am going to be missing my first class of the day... to finish this stupid paper... so maybe i should get back to working on it.

KThnxBai!


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Can't wait!

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Passed all my classes, C-, C, B, B+ ...awesomeness. Now I'm into 2nd semester, midterm times...kinda sucks ass...but i'm generally having fun...hanging out in the Music building alot...loving my music class.

]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/11112771/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/11112771/ Tue, 19 Dec 2006 04:46:43 PST
So much for a vacation...

]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/10705516/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/10705516/ Sun, 12 Nov 2006 20:08:26 PST
On this thursday, the 16th, I have a document analysis of a book called Elizabeth, due. I am 1/3 of the way through the book. [<-STEP ONE OF DEATH]. On the following tuesday, the 21st, I have a written assignment on a greek coin due. I also have a handout/assignment due for latin. I have been told that it is extremely hard. [<- STEP TWO OF DEATH]. On the following Wednesday, the 29th, I have a comparative essay due, in which I am suppsoed to have read 2 books, one a primary sourse, the other a secondary source, of the same events. I have yet to read one, and have gotten to page 20 of the other. [<- STEP TWO POINT FIVE OF DEATH]. The NEXT DAY, the 30th of November, I have another document analysis due, on an excerpt of a book of my choice (oh goodie), which I have to read and write another essay about. [ <- STEP THREE OF DEATH] The concluding part of this is that I'm supposed to find time amougst all of this to collect money for hiatus house as my philanthropy for my sorority new member class, hold the lamplighting/sleepover at my house, work a euchre tournament, and go to initiation. and all this is within the span of 3 weeks...Oh yeah. I also have to send out an email to the people I had invited to the charity dinner at pepper's on the 30th ...to find out if they're planning on coming, and get their money from them, their tickets to them, and then give the numbers to my peoples in the sorority..so pepper's knows how many people will be attending and so we can get our money out of them. I repeat. I AM GOING TO DIE.

Now I have to go read Elizabeth and hopefully make a dent in it.

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DON"T FALL FOR THE TRAP! Stay on top of your work. Don't fall behind. Don't become idle. DON"T LET UNIVERSITY CREEP UP ON YOU AND ATTACK YOU WHILE YOUR BACK IS TURNED> I'm dying. *dies*

]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/9448878/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/9448878/ Fri, 21 Jul 2006 13:44:16 PDT
But anyways, back to this summer. So far, it's July. Almost August. I have thus far, gone past my feelings for Phil, and am now just trying to avoid running into him everywhere. Fate however is cruel, and finds me looking like an idiot and groping for something to say as I walk to the bus stop and find him doing the same. Or walking to the school and pass him on the way to the bus stop. I have since stopped walking past the bus stop. However now that I've gotten over Phil, I've also gone on my very first date!!! I know, I know. But it was with my friend Mike, who asked me out when I was on the rebound after Phil, so I said yes. Big mistake. Now things are weird again. But we'll get over it. In the meantime, I hung out with Steve yesterday, who was in my webdesign class in grade 11, and i had fall for worse than Phil...before Phil obviously. But I thought I was over him, until we hung out at his house all alone yesterday and I am suddenly having a relapse. I can't stop thinking about him, and he'll flip out and go into hiding if I tell him I like him again. So I'm simply not going to.

I have to work today. Which is going to bore the hell out of me, as I'm working High Side Door, at Silvercity, where I work...meaning I stand in the same place for nearly 6 hours, and rip the tickets of people who are coming in to see movies, and seeing as it's on the High number side, and the break room is on the low number side, I shall be bored out of my mind, with no one to talk to. I can only hope I'll be getting a half hour break today. At least I'm working female floor tomarrow, so I can walk around. But I have to go get my uniform out of the dryer and get ready to go.

Cya.
-Sam- ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/9448789/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/9448789/ Fri, 21 Jul 2006 13:34:48 PDT
Okay, so you’re probably thinking … “Oh god, what now?” or something sarcastic and cynical…which is one of the things I like about you…you’ve always got something to say, to remark on…you’re never without an opinion. So here’s what this is about…I need to know your opinion about something.
Here goes… So this one day I went out for dinner for my mom’s birthday, and somehow we ended up at Tecumseh Mall. Naturally, bookworm that I am, I went to Coles while the rest of my family went elsewhere. I had been in there for about 10 minutes when I decided I should go find my parents and my brother, when I noticed some CDs. I stopped to look at them and when I looked up, there was this guy looking down at a book. He looked kind of familiar, but I didn’t know who it was. He was wearing jeans and a brown leather jacket, he had snow in his hair and he looked really cute. Suddenly I recognized him: he went to my school and was in a few of my classes. Before I could stop myself I called out his name. He looked up and had the most innocent look on his face, and yeah…my stomach did a back flip…my mind did a 180 since I’d only ever thought of him as the class clown and from attitude alone, an idiot. In the two seconds it took for me to realize who he was and for my stomach to do the back flip, all that image was shattered. When I went to school the next day, I noticed all kinds of differences between who he actually was and who I thought he was…and I also realized that he wasn’t an idiot at all, but a history nut and that he was amazing. Needless to say, I started to develop a crush on him. I couldn’t get him out of my head, and the fact that all my friends were pointing out all these other amazing things about him, wasn’t helping matters. I gradually started to talk to him more and more, and thus learned more about him…some things we didn’t, and still don’t, agree on but for the most part my crush just kept getting worse. Eventually, my friends can testify to this, I started quoting him when talking about things; every time they mentioned his name I’d start blushing (annoyingly they’d take advantage of this…and my face burned for entire lunch periods…or until I’d walk away), and various other sad, sad things. But in any case, first semester switched to second semester and now it’s down to the end of the semester and I’m graduating. He’s not. Even though I’m pretty sure that the next year he’s supposed to be going into the same program as me, that’s still a whole year that I wouldn’t get to see him, or talk to him, and it’s just a little daunting.
The thing I needed your opinion on is, what to do about it? Because sometimes in class I’ll be staring off into space and when I come back to reality, I look over and we catch each other’s eye for a minute, but hold longer than just randomly looking around the class and seeing someone else looking at you. Or when I sit around and listen (I say listen cause usually I have no idea what I could add to the conversation) to his friends and him talking, and every-so-often he’ll look at me, or catch my eye and smile…his smile makes my heart melt…it’s really weird, and I’m pretty sure it’s anatomically impossible, but there it is…and so I’m really confused as to what to do. ‘Cause the one time I tried to get his email address so I could talk to him outside of school, he says he doesn’t have msn/email. Okay. So I asked if he was working one night. He is…Shit! So the next day I asked again, this time adding in why I was asking…to go out with me…to see a movie or hang out or something. And he said ‘sure…if I’m not working’ and so I was happy…giddy actually…Kristina just about smacked me cause I wouldn’t stop smiling the rest of the day… But that never actually happened…apparently he was working or something because he never called and never mentioned anything when we got back to school on Monday. Yeah...that kinda sucked…so yeah…a few months later, about a month after first contemplating asking, I ask if he was going to prom. *mumble* yeah. Do you have a date for prom? *mumble* no… (Blushing like crazy, stupid little girl voice) Wanna go with me? Sure. (What is up with the ‘sure’s?! everything else he’s got a definite opinion and lets it be known to the heavens…but one little question and he can’t give a yes or no?) Well. That was easy. Not. Anyways. Two weeks later, I’m trying to figure out when he’s buying his prom ticket. One number in the whole phone book…not him! Okay…so Monday I ask him, and he says tomorrow when he gets paid. So I assumed that was a ‘let’s get them tomorrow, cause I’ll have money then’ …he’s not there at lunch, so I put myself down to sit with my friends. On the last day to buy tickets, he buys his but because I wasn’t there he didn’t know…long story short, we didn’t sit at the same table, actually we talked maybe 10 minutes the whole night. Then he left early and I went to go swimming in a 68 degree pool at 3am. Not smart.... ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/2381642/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/2381642/ Sun, 09 May 2004 07:58:17 PDT They'll think you're up to something.
They need for you to be everything
that they can't be themselves." ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/2144075/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/2144075/ Sat, 03 Apr 2004 12:33:45 PST Music : First Date-Blink 182


I'm sitting here and listening to my world...music! I love music...almost every type...i can't stand rap though...i mean i'll tolerate it if i'm at a dance but i can't stand to listen to it on my own...like if it's on much music i'll change the channel...or i'll delete it off my radio station on [link] i mean i really hate rap.
Anyways...my mom basically volenteered me for cleaning dutee today. Like last night we were watching a movie and she's like "We have people coming over on sunday so you're going to clean the house tomarrow when you wake up. I'm sure it'd make your dad happy and more willing to help you get your pilates mat if you get it done by the time he gets up." Cause my dad's on midnights and i'm supposed to clean the entire house by 1 pm when he's gonna wake up! Ya right i got up at noon so i started to pick up all the shit lying around and then i waited til he was awake before i turned on the vacume. And where's she during this whole thing? In BOTHWELL!!!! 3 hours away, for some stupid Optimist shit. Like it's my fault she's the Leftenant Governor of this district of the Optimist Clubs...Why is it that I have to suffer and clean on my one day off because she's not going to be here and she's got people comming over tomarrow...
Grr...sometimes i really hate having parents who are involved in the Optimists clubs...like they're always busy and i'm always having to be busy and of course perfectly optimistic too as i'm an optibrat...and sometimes i just want to say fuck you all and go have sex with a whole bunch of people when get drunk and lock myself in my room to live forever in my own head and not in the real world...and then eventually kill myself just to prove i'm not optimistic and i hate the world.
But that'll never happen as i want to grow up and spite the world with my imperfection and brains. And then i'll be okay with being bisexual and wiccan and hating people in general...i swear i'm a sociapath...but that's okay on here as i dont really know anyone and no one really knows me and if i get sick of people i can block them off on my lists on instant messanger and put them on spam if they send annoying emails...it's different in person. you can just walk away or tell them your annoying go away...you have to grit your teeth and bear it as they'll just keep talking on and on and on...and never shut up until the bell rings or the time is up and you have to go...i mean! seriously people should learn to shut their fucking traps and fuck off!which is ironic as i'm someone who talks incessantly...but i'm getting better at it...and i dont talk that much in real life anymore...only online!lol...well i must go as my dad is forcing me to go clean the basement...

Ta,
Sam ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/2057564/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/2057564/ Sun, 21 Mar 2004 18:26:30 PST
Sam...damn parents need the computer...AGAIN they've had control of it the entire March Break and now i get on it andthey need it again. ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1945733/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1945733/ Wed, 03 Mar 2004 14:27:48 PST ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1911522/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1911522/ Thu, 26 Feb 2004 18:00:50 PST [link]

End Quote: "You haven't been to the doctors i've been too....NEEDLES IN YOUR EYES!!!!!!!


OH ya and I made a collage and it's cool if not a little too feminine but it's cool and it's MINE all mine....anyways

Your Lady and Mistress,
Sammy ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1905790/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1905790/ Wed, 25 Feb 2004 17:57:44 PST And on the plus side, i've known him for a long time, so i know he's great and not just some strange wacko....he's a friendly wacko...lol...

know what's a fun emoticon when you're pissed or just like watching people get hurt... lol... ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1884252/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1884252/ Sat, 21 Feb 2004 16:02:56 PST
Sam....oh ya HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY VERN!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1754907/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1754907/ Wed, 28 Jan 2004 05:41:46 PST to create a journal club to get your artwork noticed... and I think it's a great idea even though I'm not that good with most art, i like doing sketches of stuff. And now that i got my new scanner/printer, i can put my work on the site easier...even if it's not that good i could always add the colour on here and then it'd be easier than screwing up the entire work by trying to get rid of the colour...

Anyways...I like the word fucktard....it's a fun word...therefore it is my solomn vow to use the word fucktard at least once everyday, even if it is simply online....well i must go the music for the exams is on and i have to go write my science exam.

Cya later my little FUCKTARDS!!!

Sam ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1728488/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1728488/ Fri, 23 Jan 2004 09:24:37 PST
lol...exams suck, i'm quitting french, and i can't wait til next semester so i can get away from all these weirdly preppy, ghetto, freaks who plague my existance....no offence to those of you who fit into the first two catagories, but these people seriously annoy me...my school has more valley girls than the valley itself... ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1708508/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1708508/ Mon, 19 Jan 2004 19:01:30 PST Then lately she's been trying to talk to me, so i'm like ignoring her and not being rude, but not nice either, and so i've actually been the happiest ever over the last 3 weeks since the veil of unrealization slipped and i discovered how annoying she is...in other words, throughout grade 8 i was depressed and never really fit in, then in grade 9 since i became friends with her and kristen and deena and katie and kristina and all my other friends, i was so happy it was like a veil was raised and i couldn't see all the self-centered, consieted, annoyingly repetative and shallownosity that was Char.
Then we started fighting as the veil was slowly lowering and i saw all that i didn't want to see, and soon we broke up our friendship and then i was happy but for real not just with one person, not just with a small group...it's like life finally grew brighter and i can have fun and make my own friends and grow up at my own rate, not as char liked me too...
So anyways back to lunch...Deena comes up to me and then she says that she got a MESSAGE FROM GOD, and that GOD said that Char doesn't hate me and wants me back. Well you know what I have to say about that...FUCK HER!!!!!!!!!! She didn't want me and i still don't want her, so she's just going to have to deal with her choices now that she's made them.

G2G,
Sam ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1701850/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1701850/ Sun, 18 Jan 2004 16:10:08 PST Current Activities: Pulling out my hair and wanting to crawl into a hole and never come out again...oh and fretting about all i have to do and all that's to come.

I have to study for my french exam in which i don't understand 3 of the major consepts. I have a Science PRACTICAL EXAM soon...oh wait it's TOMARROW!!! I have a vocal Exam sometime within the next 3 days and then i have to study for my Religion exam over the weekend (GRR!!Shakes fist!!!Damn you JC!!!wait you dont exist so why am i yelling at you) and then i have the written science exam on tuesday, then i Sleep on Wednesday and go BACK TO HELL aka my base of Bordem and Torture for the Second Semester of Death by Bordem!!! OHHHHH and GFUN!!! I have TWO not one TWO classes with my ex-best-friend-now-nemisis- Charlene - in second semester, 1st And 4th period, so i'll start my day in a bad mood and end the day in a bad mood...oh can you just feel the enthusiasm?!!!! It's so tangible i could almost call it christianity....

Sam...you know if the sun exploded it would be nicer than the experience of exams.... ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1628614/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1628614/ Sun, 04 Jan 2004 13:29:23 PST
I hate this world, and life,but i can't just kill myself cause then i'd be giving into the world, and i'd miss the few bright points of my life too much...

Sam ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1612875/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1612875/ Thu, 01 Jan 2004 08:31:26 PST
Sam ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1607924/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1607924/ Wed, 31 Dec 2003 09:55:01 PST
well i got to go...

later... ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1598223/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1598223/ Mon, 29 Dec 2003 08:37:23 PST
I am bored, hungry and tired of the lack of snow...i think i shall move to antarctica.... there's bound to be lots of snow there... and during the summer i'll just move to australia cause it's nice and hot there...i mean...grrblurb i miss my usual weather... i miss the Windsor i grew up in, that before christmas we had snow piles taller than my 5 year old self...i mean why is it that humans have to screw up everything they come across...i mean GRRR *shakes fist at humans* damn you humans!!!! we screwed up nature, the environment, the natural change of seasons, we screwed u the ozone layer, we produce so much toxic chemicals thru the everyday items that we dont even notice that people are dying everywhere and that we ourselves could die from any of the things we inhale everyday....grrr words cannot express the anger that flows thru my viens when thinking of how the world used to be and how much we have fucked it up!!!

Sam ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1594889/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1594889/ Sun, 28 Dec 2003 14:42:10 PST [link]

You may have to copy and paste since i dont know how to make the links...

Sam ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1593294/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1593294/ Sun, 28 Dec 2003 05:34:29 PST
Your Lady and Mistress, Sammy ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1590284/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1590284/ Sat, 27 Dec 2003 12:24:43 PST
I need to cool down, bye
sam ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1589243/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1589243/ Sat, 27 Dec 2003 07:08:35 PST
well later,
Sam ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1587502/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1587502/ Fri, 26 Dec 2003 18:50:30 PST
Today we went to visit my grandmum in the nursing home, and found out that she's got cateracts in one of her eyes, and so she's not able to remember us very well purely on the sound of our voice, since we haven't been able to get out to see her lately... anyways on the way there and back I was just sketching in the sketchbook I just bought this morning...and it was so cool...I was thinking about my religion, wicca, and I started to draw the male duality of the god/goddess ruling system, the horned god, half man/half animal, and then the raindrop I had started drawing I changed into a pentagram surrounded by a whole bunch of weird petals and other shapes, then when I got home I did all the fine details of the face, the shading and the way the light was facing and then I had a blank space so I drew the earth...
My scanner's not hooked up right now and I can't get my webcam to take a good enough picture of it so I hope to get it hooked up, or get to someone's house who has a scanner in order to get the drawing on here...asap...well I'm watching a movie right now, so I've got to go...bye,

Sam ]]> ~Rhiannon22 http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1577883/ http://Rhiannon22.deviantart.com/journal/1577883/ Wed, 24 Dec 2003 13:22:32 PST A girl named renoer was accidentally shot by her cousin, and her dad sent her a letter that said he wished she had died so that he wouldn't have had to pay for the doctor's bill...I mean whoa! how mean can you get! That's like so wrong! I can only say I am sorry for her and hopes that I never have something like that happen to me.
Meh... I am happy to be not living where there is guns all over...so I dont have to worry about being shot...well tonight is Christmas eve, so I am goign t omy uncle's house for celebrations and then comming home, going to sleep, waking up tomarrow opening stockings and then presents, cleaning like mad, then getting dressed in clothes I helped pick out and then having everyone come over, opening more presents, having dinner and then having to clean some of the house b4 going to sleep and dreading boxing day when i have to clean again before going to visit my grandma in a nursing home...I mean I am so bored right now waiting for my dad to come back with the chinese food for dinner... well I'll away and see you another day... ]]> ~Rhiannon22