http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Rico007&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Rico007 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 24 Nov 2009 15:33:44 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/27859540/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/27859540/ Mon, 19 Oct 2009 17:53:24 PDT
First off, I'm still alive, very much to your dismay.

But just to get off with the important information, Kaisen 6, an anime/comics/movies/etc convention in Puerto Rico, will be held December 13, 2009 at the Ruben Rodriguez colloseum in Bayamon, from 9 am to 6 pm, and the entry fee is 7 dollars.

YOU BETTER ALL DAMN GO AND SAY HI TO ME!!!

Or else...

I'll glomp you...

My glomps are not subtle by any means...

you don't wanna get glomped by me...

So yeah. Go, have fun. Any questions, I may have some answers ^^

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/24977096/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/24977096/ Wed, 27 May 2009 10:39:38 PDT
]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/22139252/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/22139252/ Tue, 23 Dec 2008 10:45:25 PST
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

OR WHATEVER IT IS YOU CELEBRATE!!!

^^

I hope you all celebrate safely. I already got my gift, which is the presence of my dear girlfriend. I will celebrate christmas for the first time yay!

Also, my birthday is on Monday 29, we will be celebrating on Saturday 27 at Mayaguez, going to the mall, eating at sizzlers, watching a movie, hanging out. I dunno, I'm not making the plans. If you wanna be there, which I doubt anyone here can, just ring me up! 850-691-8419 I'll tell you the details! No gift needed! Just bring money for food and movies and what not! ^^

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/21929089/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/21929089/ Thu, 11 Dec 2008 10:44:57 PST Artist: Daft Punk
Album: Interstella 5555
See video here: [link]
(Sorry, but I couldn't find the MP3 for direct download yet and I don't have it)
(It is song 8 of an hour long video, so pardon me if you don't get it)

Song Lyrics:

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

I need you more than anything in my life
I want you more than anything in my life
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life

I love you more than anyone in my life

Rico's Comments:

The lyrics speak for themselves. Tomorrow we make two months, though we've been together for longer.

Dedicated to:


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]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/18616098/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/18616098/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 19:07:04 PDT
Others say they won't...

Others refuse out of fear of looking stupid...

Others say it's impossible...

Well, here's proof that you can!!!!

[link]

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/18327828/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/18327828/ Wed, 14 May 2008 20:39:38 PDT [link]

tagged by

RULEZ

1- Post these rules.
2- Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3- At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4- Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5- No tag-backs.
* * *

8 things about me

#1 I'm in love with
#2 My hair is my pride and joy
#3 I'm studying a Kitchen Technician Certificate
#4 My penis is smaller than your pinky.
#5 I am so nearsighted I'm almost blind.
#6 I am the most sensitive thing EVER!
#7 I don't really consider myself sexy.
#8 I want to get out of these four walls!!!

I tag:









]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/17947469/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/17947469/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 16:14:18 PDT My love interest.

May I die if I have someone else.

Kelsey, Crystal, Samantha, you stay the hell out of this. You have done enough damage as it is. Stop sending her lies. I don't get in YOUR lives, so stop getting in mine and ruining it, much against what you say you DON'T do.

My friends, somehow reassure her of my loyalty and faithfulness... She doubts me... just read her journal and you'll see.

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/17393549/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/17393549/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 11:16:12 PDT

So some day in Jan I get a comment on deviantART from a dude named Rico, "Hello, Greetings from Anasco!" and thats what started it all haha.We moved from fruity deviantart conversations, to fruity myspace conversations to even fruitier msn conversations and progressed to the ever fun fruity phone conversations.We arranged to meet in a nearby mall on Mar 9 08.Twas the cutest thing ever cause I think he got redder than me.Sooooo yes that day was fun.I had to go early but fun.

A bit of drama ensues but it is resolved.We arrange to meet again on Mar 17 and he asks if I want to stay in his Mom’s house to know each other better and all that mess . I go with my mom, my sis and her BF to the mall, look around the stuff in a drugstore until he gets there and he does. Our moms meet, fun.We prance around the mall, eat a brownie, go to pick out his mom’s bday cake for latah etc etc.All in all groovy.We decide to go to Time Out to visit the DDR but *dun dun dun* there was a bday party, they were supossed to open at a certain hour but the wouldnt open until every darn little kid left and poor Rico nearly had a meltdown right then and there lol It was funny.After much waiting they open. DDR-ing ensues and he’s the best freaken dancer I’ve seen on that thing....well although the only ones I’ve seen are chubby little kids bouncing around on the mall but still..twas impressive lol

We go see Doomsday with the fam Crappy ass movie BTW.Funny in its stupidness though.We get out and we’re still trying to figure out how to ask my mom to go with him for the bday celebration/staying at him house thing.So we do, she would be ok with it but she says no because my Grandma (whom I live with) would have a heart attack. Cool. so I call my grandmother who says that my mom is the one that takes the desitions. then I tell my mom, she calls my dad, my dad calls me then I call my grandmother and them I’m tangled hahahaha. I almost did not go, but after a good talking to by Rico (thanks) we did what any two reasonable people would do and snuck the fuck out.We went out the back, went to see if Pueblo (the supermarket) was open to get the cake. Nope.Went through the side of the building to my mom wouldnt see us and we stood in front an art store to wait for his mom. his mom thought I had the permission.So we go.

[This part is ommited, but.*giggly sounds*]

Next morning .Birds are chirping, roosters are cock a doodle oo ing *knock knock* "SHE’S HERE WITHOUT PERMISSION GET OUT" says the mom, puppy dog faces are exchanged. WTF faces are also because we have no clue in hell how they found us.My aunt, who had nothing to do with it calls. Well turns out my mom called my aunt and my aunt looked him up by just his last name because it is uncommon and BOOM found a family member and took us to his dad’s house.We get there in PAJAMAS.Speech speech speech. And I was gone.Went with my aunt to her work and she offered to take me there when I wanted i guess blinded by Rico’s charm hahaha. Anyways thats that. The sneakout *james bond theme*




]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/17059925/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/17059925/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 15:25:28 PST
Lately I haven't been much in the mood to respond to the 70 journals and 231 deviations I have left, I dunno why.

Just so you all know, few people here know, I am actually back in university!!!! I am taking a Culinary technician technical certificate course. Remember I was pissed because I have a court order to stay here a full year? Well, I'm doing something with that year!!! I'ma make something out of myself! And if not, then at least I will learn how to cook!!!! <3 That will make me a full housewife!!! *is shown in a french maid outfit*

So far I am doing fine. Last thursday I took my first test, a theorical one, in which I finished first in class, 11 pages in 12 minutes, 97%. If I am not mistaken, this friday counts for a grade too, and we will have to bake cakes. Fortunately, the proffessor will instruct us. But I need to buy myself a cake pan.

Social wise, I have but one adquaintance in class, a few out of class, and the rest are just... work/class mates. We talk here and there, we have shared myspaces, but that's it. I kindof have a blind date this saturday, I hope it all goes well. One of my peeps in college is trying to hook me up with his cousin o-O;;

Oh yeah, for Valentines day, I was going all around college with a sign on my chest that said FREE HUGS! JUST TAKE ONE , and handing out coupons for people to exchange to someone for a free hug. I got around 40-50 hugs!!! <3 And gave 98 coupons! TOTAL SUCCESS!!! XD

I expect to be back in photography soon, I finally saved up enough money to buy myself a Canon Powershot A570 Digital Camera, and even though for the moment I am stuck with a cheap 16 MB card that will only hold 4 photos at Max Resolution, it will have to do.

I am handling my depression well, taking 10 Milligrams of Lexapro Antidepressants daily, and 15 Milligrams of Abilify mood stabilizers daily, for my bipolarity. So don't worry, I'm not about to go Tonberry on my classmates... XD (look up tonberry on google and wikipedia... ^^)

There's an anime convention in PR on April 27. Here's the info. [link]
I'm planning on going with my friend , George, Ivan, the guy who's setting the blind date, and my blind date. I can't currently cosplay any anime or videogame characters that I know of, but I will try to dress up as my Dark Priest Abaddon Delacroix (Abaddon, Revelation 9:11). My coat, my 30+ feet of chain, my boots, my hair ties, my crosses... I just need more crosses and more chain... XD Ok... really, I do... And black cotton gloves.

Go to [link] click on wishlist at the top, and put in freakyguyx7@yahoo.com to see my wishlist. Buy me stuff!!! But it's best to have it shipped to yourself and then forward it here to PR, it's cheaper that way... ^^ <3 I'll love you forever!!!

My friends in Panama City, and those who have gone else where, and my friends in Connecicut, I miss you guys!!!!

I found a post for a job in promotion and modeling in my university's bulletin board. I emailed the address provided... Let's hope I get good results!!! I need the money!

Oh yeah, for Holy Week, my church wants me to play the part of Jesus carrying the Cross all accross town in the procession... Fun Fun...

Anyways, I'm cutting off for now, before my internet goes haywire... I have high speed now, but it goes insane at times...

So, to all of you my sexy peeps and huns, I love you all!!! Take care and blessed be!!!

Sincerely,
Ricoh

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/16123733/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/16123733/ Thu, 27 Dec 2007 12:39:54 PST
I turn twenty, 20, Veinte!!!!! ^^

Give me lots of gifts!!!

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/16099798/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/16099798/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 19:40:35 PST
Pet me...

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/16062706/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/16062706/ Sun, 23 Dec 2007 17:32:54 PST
Kill me.

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15963815/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15963815/ Sun, 16 Dec 2007 18:22:32 PST Be honest no matter what.
[One] Have you ever been asked out?
No
[Two] Where was your default picture taken?
Audrey's House
[My ID]
[Three] What's your middle name?
Luis
[Four] Your current relationship status?
You tell me, it's rather obvious
[Five] Does your crush like you back?
I sure hope so!!!.
[Six] What is your current mood?
Horny
[Seven] What color underwear are you wearing?
Blue
[Eight] What color shirt are you wearing?
Invisible
[Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?
All?
[Eleven] If you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
Kitty!!!
[Twelve] Ever had a near death experience?
I lost track
[Thirteen] Something you do a lot?
Breathe
[Fourteen] Last time you went to the movies, and with who?
Ages ago with paige
[Fifteen] Who did you copy and paste this from?
I forgot her user name
[Sixteen] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Amber Tate
[Seventeen] When was the last time you cried?
Today
[Eighteen] Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
Is ten people a large audience?
[Nineteen] If you could have one super power, what would it be?
Flight
[Twenty] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Eyes
[Twenty-one] What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Coffee, what else?
[Twenty-two] What's your biggest secret?
It was a secret, but not anymore, since it's null ^^
[Twenty-three] Favorite colors?
Black
[Twenty-five] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
None
[Twenty-six] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Nothing
[Twenty-seven] Do you speak any other language?
Spanish
[Twenty-eight] What's your favorite smell?
Woman
[Twenty-nine] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Nope
[Thirty] What are you thinking about right now?
Quiz
[Thirty-one] What should you be doing right now?
Sleeping
[Thirty-two] Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
Melanie...
[Thirty-three] How often do you pray?
Every night
[Thirty-four] Do you like working in the yard?
Yup
[Thirty-five] If you could have any last name in the world, what would it be?
Abaddon
[Thrity-six] Do you act differently around the person you like?
Nope
[Thirty-seven] What is your natural hair color?
This one is
[Thirty-eight] Do you like your name?
Hell no.

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15942813/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15942813/ Sat, 15 Dec 2007 10:07:04 PST Make a wishlist journal with 10 holiday wishes -- things you really want, of any and all sizes. And don't forget your contact info if it's something that would have to be delivered to you.
Step Two
See who else has a wishlist and, if you can and want to, grant some wishes.

1. To see my friends
2. To not be alone
3. To smile
4. I want hugs...
5. [link] check freakyguyx7@yahoo.com
6. Extra Small or size zero goth pants (a bit bigger are ok), Goth chains, or anything goth, period...
7. To be in family
8. A Wii... ^^
9. Letters and/or cards from my friends and buddies
10. I want to be happy!!!

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15920194/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15920194/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 16:15:06 PST 02) Last name: Rico
03) Birthday: December 29 (I hope you bought me presents)
04) Horoscope sign: Capricorn, the Mergoat...
05) Birth town: Mayaguez
06) Religion: Christian
07) Nationality: Puertorrican
08) Parents: Divorced
09) Do you love them: Do I...
10) Brothers or sisters: Little sis, half big bro.
11) Do you like the place where you live: No
12) Hair color: Brown
13) Color of your eyes: Brown
14) Weight: 140 Pounds
15) Height: 5'8''
16) What school/grade are you going to: None
17) What marks do you have: None
18) Do you work anywhere: No
19) What do you want to be in your life: A lover
20) Your life: SUCKS
21) Personal quote: Sometimes, it must simply hurt.
22) Lucky number: 7
23) What are you interested in: Arts
24) Good side of your character: Everything?
25) Bad side of it: The same things that make it good?
26) Is your life happy: No
27) Do you think that you are crazy: Yes
28) What is the time: 8 PM
29) What is the date: 12/13/07
30) What's the weather like: COld and humid
31) Favorite day in a week: Any day i can talk with friends
32) Favorite music: Rock and electronica
34) Band: Dm Ashura
35) Song: Depends on my mood
36) Best concert you have been: Ummm...
37) Actress: Ummm...
38) Actor: Ummm...
39) Film: Mamoirs of a geisha
40) TV series: Family Guy
41) Theatre play: The Phantom of the Opera
42) Film director: Ummm...
43) Do you want to be famous: No
44) Do you want to be an actor/actress: No.
45) Do you want to be a singer: Nope.
46) Book: Anne Rice's
47) Colors: Red and black
50) Drink: Milk
51) Sweet: Chocolate
52) Fruit: Strawberries <3
53) The worst food: Jail slops
54) The Worst drink: Medicine!
55) The worst Singer: ME!!!!
56) The worst Band: Dunno
57) The worst Actor: ME!
58) The worst Actress: Ummm... My sis!
59) The worst Movie: Anything Porno
60) The worst book: Ummm...
61) Do you drink alcohol: I do. I'm kinda tipsy right now.
62) Do you smoke: No.
63) Do you take drugs: No.
64) What do you adore to wear: My shoelace
65) Do you think you're pretty: No
66) What languages do you speak: ENglish and Spanish.
69) The most beautiful person on dA/male:
70) The most beautiful person on dA/female:
71) 5 your best friends on dA/male: EMpty slot
72) 5 your best friends on dA/female: Empty slot
73) The ugliest person on dA/male:
74) The ugliest person on dA/female:
75) The person on dA who you love the most/female:
76) The person on dA who you love the most/male:
77) The person on dA who you don't like at all/female:
78) The person on dA who you don't like at all/male:
79) How often do you shower: Everyday, twice a day.
80) What's your most visited website: DA
81) Do you have ADD: WHo knows, they say I do.
82) Have you ever been arrested: Yes >.<
83) When was your Very First Kiss: On March
84) How was it: Good?
87) E-mail address: Look at my profile.
88) Do you have something against gays: No
89) The best experience in your life: Getting drunk today?
90) The worst experience in your life: The whole CT Problem
91) When were you the happiest: When I am with... ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15895006/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15895006/ Tue, 11 Dec 2007 19:12:27 PST

...wuthuh?


A N S W E R - T R U T H F U L L Y

1. Do you like anyone?: ... Why yes... Yes I do...
2. Do they know it? Yes.
3. Simple or complicated? Simple.

IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U

4. Had sex: Can't say I have.
5. Bought something: Yeh
6. Gotten sick?: Hmm. Nope.
7. Been hugged?: Yes
8. Felt stupid?: 24-7 bebe.
9. Talked to an ex: Yes.
10. Missed someone: Mhm. =[
11. Failed a test: Maybe?
13. Danced: Yeh. In the arplane...
14. Gotten your hair cut?: The tips...
15. Lied: Yes, yes I have. I admit it.

U N I Q U E

16. Nervous habits?: look down, scratch
17. Are you double jointed?: No
18. Can you roll your tongue?: Yes.
19. Can you raise one eyebrow?: Oh yes. -Inquisitive brow-
20. Can you cross your eyes?: I think... Idk...
21. Do you make your bed daily?: No. ; D
22. Do you think you are unique?: I like to think so. ;_;

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S

23. Said "I Love you": Yes.
24. Given money to a homeless person: Yes. ^__^
25. Smoked?: Gross.
26. Waited all night for a phone call?: Yes
27. Snuck out?: Yes
28. Sat and looked at the stars?: Yes.

M A N N E R S

29. Do you swear/curse?: If I'm pissed.
30. Do you ever spit?: Barely
31. You cook your own food?: I try to.
32. You do your own chores?: Yes.
33. You like beef jerky?: Yeh!
35. You're happy with your life?: No
36. You own a dog?: My sister does
37. You spend your money wisely?: Psh....
38. Do you like to swim?: Yes, as long as I don't sink
39. When you get bored do you call a friend?: YEs

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R'S

41. Flowers or angels?: Flowers
42. Gray or black?: Black
43. Color or black and white photos?: B/w.
44. Lust or love?: Love. Lust is... Idk... But it's hard to get out of both.
45. Sunrise or sunset?: Sunset.
46. M&Ms or Skittles?: M&M's
48. Staying up late or waking up early?: Staying up late.
49. Being hot or cold?: Hot
50. Winter or Fall?: Winter.
51. Left or right?: Right.
52. Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?: 2 best friends
53. Sunshine or rain?: MIXED IT MAKES RAINBOWS

more have you evers;;

Sleep in a bed of the opposite sex?: Yes, WITH the opposite sex.
Hooked up in the woods?: No, been a victim of impolite people though...
Drank a bottle of alcohol by yourself?: No
Hooked up in the shower?: ... Oh this means sex. No.
Been Dumped?: Yuz.
Stolen money from a friend?: Not a friend
Slept naked?: Yes
Been in a fist fight?: Yes
Snuck out of your house?: Yes
Had a crush on a teacher?: Wtf. No.
Seen someone die?: Yes
Been on an airplane? Yes.
Slept all day?: Yes. ^_^
Missed someone so much it hurt?: Yes.
Fallen asleep during school? Yes
Been lonely?: Am right now
Cheated in a game?: Yes.
Been to the ER?: Yes
Been in a car accident?: Yes
Had detention?: Yes
Missed your first love?: Yes
Cried yourself to sleep?: Yes.
Sung in the shower?: I hum. ; D
Kissed a complete stranger?: No
Laughed so hard you cried?: Yes.
Cheated on a bf/gf?: No.
Regretted hurting someone?: Yes
Regretted loving someone?: Nope.
Been SUPER happy?: Yes. Once apon a time.

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15881237/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15881237/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 17:47:24 PST
I never met her...

I never saw her...

I never even heard her...

But she most definitely was a dear friend.

I will now enter mourning, in her honor.




People, please don't drink. My dear friend died of liver failure... I don't want you to be the next victim.

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15877746/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15877746/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 13:53:18 PST
Here's the link. [link]

email to check, freakyguyx7@yahoo.com

^^ Buy me lots of stuff!!!

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15864714/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15864714/ Sun, 09 Dec 2007 15:02:39 PST

MY 2007 AWARDS

1) SMOKING BUDDY OF THE YEAR
I don't smoke

2) LIFETIME SERVICE AWARD (longest friend) -
Karina, 18 years!!!

3) NEWCOMER AWARD - COOLEST NEWEST FRIEND?
Matt

3) HIGH POINT OF THE YEAR?
Being stable in PC

4) LOW POINT OF THE YEAR?
ALl that happened in CT

5) BEST HOLIDAY?
4th of july... my first.

6) YOUR SONG FOR 2007
La Camisa Negra

7) MOVIE FOR 2007?
Rocky Horror Picture SHow

10) WHO DID YOU SPEND VALENTINES WITH?
At work

11) BEST RELATIONSHIP?
Amber

12) WHAT WERE YOU FOR HALLOWEEN?
An Inmate.

13) RESTAURANT OF THE YEAR?
Mori's

14) KISS OF THE YEAR?
Krystal

15) BEST DECISION MADE THIS YEAR?
Working at Pineapple Willy's

16) WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR?
Study

17) MOST STUPID IDEA WHEN DRUNK?
RIding my bike in pitch blackness

18) TV SHOW OF THE YEAR?
Decisiones

19) MOST LOYAL FRIEND?
Hector and Jaymar

20) BIGGEST CHANGE OF THE YEAR?
Getting arrested

21) BIGGEST douche bag AWARD?
Ted, the owner of Pocket CHange

22) NEW YEAR RESOLUTION?
Get ready for my return to PC

REPOST YOUR 2007 AWARDS

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15864511/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15864511/ Sun, 09 Dec 2007 14:47:07 PST 2. let me hug you anytime I wanted to?
3. let me kiss you?
4. watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
5. let me take you out to dinner?
6. drive me somewhere/anywhere?
7. take a shower with me?
8. have a fling with me?
9. listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
10. buy me a drink if i didn't have money?
11. take me home for the night?
12. let me sleep in your bed?
13. sing karaoke w/ me?
14. sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
15. re-post this for me to answer your questions?
16. come pick me up at 3am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
17. Do you think i'm cute or hot?
18. Do you like my style?
19. Do you think I'm funny?
20. cry if I died?
21. dance with me?
22. sing happy birthday to me?
23. take advantage of me if I was drunk?
24. strip for me?

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15864203/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15864203/ Sun, 09 Dec 2007 14:24:09 PST ? Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
? Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
? Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months
? Tag 3 people one person from your friends list.
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DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.



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MONTHS

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever.Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy.Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention.Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled.Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing.Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation.Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings.Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.Guides others physically and mentally.Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally.Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unl... ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15826813/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15826813/ Thu, 06 Dec 2007 20:05:16 PST My aunt when she same me for the first time after jail.

2. Do you still talk to the person you kissed last?
No

3. Have you ever punched a tree?
No, I kick them instead

4. Do you believe that if you want something bad enough, you'll get it?
No

5. Do you watch a lot of TV?
No

7. Have you ever snuck out of your house?
Yes

8. Kill or Be killed?
DIplomacy

9. Break someone's heart or have your heart broken?
Have my heart broken

10. Why is it hard to tell them how you feel?
Because my feelings don't matter

11. Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off?
Unmentionable

12. Would you ever get a tattoo?
Yeah

13. Who was the last person you had a dream about?
Myself

14. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night all the way, baby

15. Who is the last person you texted?
Amber

17. Do you snore?
NO!!!!

18. What would you do if you opened up your front door to a dead body?
I'd call the cops

20. Do you have feelings for someone?
Do I?

21. Do they have feelings back?
Do they?

22. What's the most you have spent for a haircut?
10 bucks

23. Are you there for your friends?
ALWAYS

24. If you could go anywhere right now, where would you go?
Panama City, but first I have to make a stop at California

25. Do you like to spend time with people?
HECK EYAH!!!!

27. Are you hungry?
As a matter of fact, YES!

28. Are you a forgiving person?
Yes

29. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Closed

30. Do you drink every weekend?
No

31. When's the last time you did the dishes?
Today

33. Do you want a relationship right now?
Maybe

34. What are you about to do?
Keep answering

36. Have you ever fallen down a set of stairs?
yep!

38. Three feelings at the moment?
Tired, sad, longing

40. Done anything you regret so far in life?
HECK YEAH

42. The highlight of your week?
Friday church meetings

43. What are you craving to have right now?
LOTS of money

44. Who were the last people you went out to eat with?
Does the binge on saturdays with my PC friend count?

45. What are you scared of?
Losing the ones I love, being alone.

46. Last movie you watched?
The simpsons movie. POS

48. Are you thinking of someone right now?
Yes

49. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
AMBER!

50. Last thing you downloaded on your computer?
Porn a friend sent me!!!

51. Have you changed much this year?
Physically I only have longer hair. But inside... tons.

52. Do you love your mom?
Yes

53. Hug or kiss?
Hug

54. Who was the last person to text message you?
AMber

55. Where was the last place you went besides where you are?
La Inter

56. Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?
No

57. What are you doing tomorrow?
Notin!!!

58. Last thing you watched on TV?
Caso Cerrado

59. Do you dress for style or comfort?
Style

61. Ever had a drunken night during a vacation?
HELL YEAH!!!

62. What's the craziest thing you've done?
If only you knew

63. Favorite color?
Black!!!

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15803262/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15803262/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 06:32:08 PST Not currently

2. Did you ever date the last person you kissed?
Yes

3. What's irritating you right now?
Confusion

4. When did you last eat pizza?
Saturday

WHERE'S 5?

6. What do you want?
Happiness

7. Do you have any television obsessions?
No

8. Last spoken words you heard?
Don't waste it, stretch it.

9. When was the last time you cried?
Last night.

10. Is your sister a slut?
Maybe

11. Pepsi or coke?
Pepsi

13. What is your favorite sport?
Slamball!!!

14. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
Yes

15. Do you enjoy taco bell or mcdonalds?
Neither?

18. What's your favorite movie?
Memoirs of a geisha

19. What color is your hair?
Brown

20. Are you falling in love?
?

23. Do you like anyone right now?
...Yes...

24. Who is in the room with you?
My father, but he is walking out the door

25. What are you wearing on your feet?
Nails

27. Who was the last person who told you they loved you?
Mom

28. What was the last thing you ate?
Toast

29. Who was your last text from?
Roxy

31. What instant messaging service do you use?
Meebo

33. Which do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?J
Jeans

35. What do you currently hear right now?
Dungeon music for SUper Mario RPG

40. Where was your default picture taken?
Audrey's house dA
Margarita's house myspace.

42. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Maybe

46. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
Maybe, depending on how bad they cheated.

47. Do you own something tie dyed?
No

49. What are your plans for tonight?
Chat

50. Did you hurt yourself today?
Not Today

51. Do you want someone you can't have?
I always do

52. Who makes you smile the most?
My friends

53. Have you ever told someone of the opposite/same sex you loved them and meant it?
Yes.

54 .Is the person you like or have a crush on older or younger than you?
About the same age

55. What's the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
PANTS!

56. Have you ever started a sentence with "No offense, but..."
Yes

57. When did your last hug take place?
Yesterday, mom.

58. So why did you take this survey?
Bored

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15765707/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15765707/ Sun, 02 Dec 2007 15:51:31 PST [link]

To all those who watch me, check out this deviation by my friend Marina. She is in an abusive relationship, and needs help. She needs support. COmment her, help her, PLEASE.

I beg you all... please pray for her... she says she has a plan for her freedom, but that if it backfires, she's going to end up dead. Please, PLEASE pray for her.

She's my friend...

I feel so helpless...

So powerless...

So weak...

So impotent...

So...

So...

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15706755/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15706755/ Wed, 28 Nov 2007 12:43:31 PST
But that's no fun to write, now is it? I'm sure you want to know just HOW horrible? Well, the way I describe it may not seem TOO horrible, but trust me that it was. I shall be a tad graphic at parts, Ok? I don't know how long this journal will be, so brace yourselves.

As most of you may know, I was arrested on August 16, for being a good friend, a good person, and doing what a responsible friend would do when parents didn't give you that first chance. Attempt to communicate. Well, the letter which I wrote was the trigger to me being sent to jail, under a supposed case of harrassment and bridge of peace.

Bridge of peace -> Any act that alters the peace of an individual. Well, I've seen people get bridge of peace for insulting someone else, and stuff as stupid as sticking your legs out a car window while resting on a parking lot, so, yeh... Stupid crap.

Harrassment, Second Degree -> Sec. 53a-183. Harassment in the second degree: Class C misdemeanor.

1. A person is guilty of harassment in the second degree when:
1. By telephone, he addresses another in or uses indecent or obscene language; or
2. with intent to harass, annoy or alarm another person, he communicates with a person by telegraph or mail, by electronically transmitting a facsimile through connection with a telephone network, by computer network, as defined in section 53a-250, or by any other form of written communication, in a manner likely to cause annoyance or alarm; or
3. with intent to harass, annoy or alarm another person, he makes a telephone call, whether or not a conversation ensues, in a manner likely to cause annoyance or alarm.

Anybody that knows me at ALL, even a slight bit, knows that I am against this very behaviour I am being accused of, and either way, it says there with the intent of harrasing, annoy or alarm someone else. I clearly state in the letter that such is not my intention, but to attempt to comunicate and build a bridge between people, whose gap is costing me a dear friendship. Does a request to talk sound like a threat to you?

It all began when at night time, on Aug. 16, at the Shelter NOW of Meriden, CT, the police arrives for me. I immediately called my mom, and said "Mom, you know I sent that letter? Well, the police is here for me. Good bye." I got handcuffed, and very uncofortably fit into the car that had plastic chairs and somehow is tinier in the back than it seems. Once at the police station, I got put in a tiny yet freezing cold holding cell, well you had to walk to stay warm.

I was asked to strip down and given instead a jumpsuit made of hair thin paper (or so it felt) to wear inside another holding cell, where my bed is a sheet of metal getting colder by the minute. Do note I was sick that day, and the pressure made me throw up all I had eaten during the day. I asked for some toilet paper to clean my face, and used it as a pillow.

Next day I am taken upstairs to see the judge regarding my bail and sentence. I was TEN thousand... When I see the judge and the case is explained, the judge says she was frightened when she read the letter, and stated that they may have the next cheschire killer in their hands. She raises my bond to SEVENTY FIVE thousand and inprisons me. I'll have you know, rapists and murdererers get less than FIFTY thousand.

So you know, the cheshire killers is one of CT's worst cases this year, where two guys on parole raped and murdered a family of a girl, a chick, and a mother, brutally hurt the father, and burned their house. One is sentenced for life, the other is on death row.

I break down crying. I feel like a failure. I can't believe that me of all people is going to jail. I go berserk, and am placed under suicide watch when with my nails I attempted to rip away my arms, and I was already bleeding.

Later when I get calmed down, we are stuffed inside a small van we call the ice cream truck... Think of it like a real ice cream truck... dark and cold, except it has people stuffed on both sides of it until no more fit. We are taken to Whalley Correctional.

In there, everybody sets their eyes on me. Girly body, small frame, long hair, and... black eyes... All alone and helpless in jail. No sooner that I step into the bullpen (BIG holding cell for lots of people), I start actually being harrassed by other inmates. If the Piña family said I harrassed them... Bull poo... They don't know what is harrassment until they live a day in my jail life.

Once inside my cell, I see... my bathroom is bigger than it. We have a room about 4 x 6 at the biggest, with a bunkbed and a toilet. My cell mate was an old man that thankfully didn't try to rape me with his walking stick. I always kept... ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15586408/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15586408/ Tue, 20 Nov 2007 07:09:11 PST
Don't judge me for what you read here. If you are going to judge me, the back button is right there by your browser's left corner.

And now I begin...

As you may all know, I was supposed to have gone to Canada by July's end, but for whom it may concern, I haven't even been able to set foot in Canadian grounds. I was afraid of going, being that I was well aware of me getting into confrontation against my beloved friend Roxy and especially her boyfriend. But I had promised to go, and I should have.

Do know that I have some very strong and deep feelings for Roxy for over a year, I was jealous of her boyfriend, and I turned possesive, more than of anyone else in my life. But feeling I might lose her forever, I started fighting... But at the same time I want her to be happy. And hence I had a plan that would go against my very being, everything I ever believed in...

I was meant to make a stop in Connecticut for the month of July, and visit my dear friend Alyssa Pina, whom, because of the way she supported me when I found out Roxanna got a boyfriend, I ended up developping feelings for her as well. Well, I DID go to Connecticut, but that could have been about the worst mistake of my life.

Also do know that Roxanna Chiriac and I have never met, but we have comunicated by mail, email and phone all the time we've known each other, and meeting her would be a dream come true. Being with her, "ya esos son otros veinte pesos."

Alii, as Alyssa is to be referred, was a phone friend met over dA, and throughout our whole relationship as friends with privileges/lovers, I had never met before I went to CT, and throughout the whole relationship she never told her parents about me, and I know she clearly lied and denied my very existence to her parents.

So on July 5, 2007, I left everything I had... Money, Job, Stability, House, and most importantly, my friends, so as to go into this new future... And stepping on that bus was the worst mistake I ever made.

I did meet Alii, oddly enough, on 7/7/07, Lucky Sevens, yet this was the unluckiest relationship I've ever been in. Total time spent that and the next time we saw each other was about three hours, but they were the happiest of my life.

We were never boyfriend and girlfriend, only because I wanted to have a special occation in which to ask her. But I wasn't supposed to have a girlfriend anyways, for Roxy made me promise not to have any except her, and I have indeed kept that promise, even if it was by circumstance. ANYWAYS, Alii and I set up a date, and she tells me what she wants. Dinner, Movie, Hotel. The hotel was just to spend extra time together, not to have sex, but just in case, I prepared myself, because you don't wanna be caught condomless... trust me.

So on July 15, I had taken a Suite full with Jacuzzi near her house, decorated it with flowers, flower petals on the floor and the bed, two bags of Lindt chocolates, and cherries, sparkling grape juice, chocolate syrup, music, almost almost 30 candles, love cards, love poems, incense.... in short... all that was needed for a pleasant evening. I had made reservations at the only restaurant I knew, and checked out a few movies for us to see. All in all, I spent 800 dollars all for one day together.

But she never presented herself, she did the one thing that she knew upset me in her again. She was too afraid of talking to her parents. Four months and she never told them about me. At least the clean-up ladies witnessed my hours of hard work with that room, saying how they wish their husbands would do half for them as I've done for Alii.

When she told me she wasn't coming, I got upset, and my untreated bipolarity disorder struck me with a manic episode, and I started yelling at her, in what has been the worst verbal fight I have had with anyways. I got scared. I never have done something like that in my life. I yelled... I returned to the hotel, to spend what was to be my most special evening, alone... I slept in the bathtub with the hot water on, all night, crying. We did talk over the phone and fixed the problem, but... did we?

Next day I am walking by her street, when I call her on the phone, and we set up to just see her at least at her house, even if she can't come out and I can't go in. I am passing by, and I am so happy to see her, I wave at her... But her father was next door, and he saw me.

Once I left, he seeked me out, almost ran me over, forced me in the car verbally, and brought me back. He called her... ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15585551/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15585551/ Tue, 20 Nov 2007 05:16:57 PST
01. Smoked
X02. Drank alcohol
03. Cried when someone died.
04. Been drunk.
05. Had sex.
X06. Been to a concert.
X07. Gotten/given a hand job.
X08. Gotten/given a blowjob.
X09. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 95

X11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
X14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
X16. Cried at school.
X17. Gotten lost in a Wal-Mart or a department store.
18. Went streaking.
X19. Given or received a lap dance.
X20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 89

X21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
X22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
X23. Kissed a stranger.
X24. Hugged a stranger.
25. Went scuba diving.
X26. Driven a car.
X27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party
30. Done serious drugs.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 83


31. Played strip poker/darts.
X32. Got paid to strip for someone.
X33. Ran away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
X35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
X37. Watched porn.
X38. Made porn.
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
X40. Been in love.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 77

X41. French kissed.
X42. Laughed so hard you cried.
X43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep
X45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun
X47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
X48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
X50. Watched an animal die.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 70


X51. Watched a person die.
X52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody
X54. Put somebody in the hospital.
X55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
X56. Kissed somebody of the same sex.
X57. Dressed punk.
X58. Dressed Goth.
X59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 62


X61. Avoided somebody
X62. Been stalked.
63. Stalked someone.
X64. Met celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
X66. Ridden a horse.
X67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
X69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 56

71. Been caught stealing something.
X72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
X75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
X77. Babysat.
X78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
X80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 51

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
X83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
X84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
X85. Sat on your butt all day.
X86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
X87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
X89. Been called a whore.
X90. Danced like a whore

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 44

X91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
X92. Been in a car accident.
X93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
X94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
X96. Danced in the rain.
X97. Been rejected
X98. Left a restaurant without paying.
X99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
X100. Been raped

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 35



repost this as __% virgin

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15478551/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15478551/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 12:31:23 PST Don't have none... Where is my beloved...

2) What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
Invisible!!!

3) What are you listening to right now?
My father's new Yanni disk being blasted from the kitchen

4) Whats your favorite number?
7

5) What was the last thing you ate?
Taco Maker's sicilian burrito

6) When was the last time you smiled?
I can smile?

7) How is the weather right now?
Just finished raining.

8) Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Jay

9) What is your worst habit?
Being me

13) When was the last time, if ever, blacked-out from drinking?
Never

14) Hair color?
Dark Brown

15) Eye Color?
Black, but supposed to be brown.

16) Do you wear contacts?
Not right now, I lost them.

17) Favorite Holiday?
Halloween... then again, for me, everyday is halloween.

18) Favorite Month?
December

19) Have you ever cried for no reason?
yes

20) What was the last movie you watched?
The Simpsons Movie.... CHEAP!

21) Favorite Day of the Year?
October 31... I get candy and a bit of cash for doing what I do daily!

22) Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Yes, but when I finally beat the shyness, I get killed!

23) Last advice you received?
DON'T YOU FUCKING CONTACT HER, HEAR?

24) What was the highlight of your weekend?
Being alive?

25) Chocolate or Vanilla?
Choconilla

26) What is the last text message you received?
"Do you get txt?"

27) What is the last text message you sent?
Too personal to say

28) Who was the last person to call you?
Jay

29) What books are you reading?
None yet

30) When was the last time you slept in someone else's bed?
Prison bed counts?

31) Favorite movie?
Memoirs of a Geisha

32) Favorite football team?
Uumm... Me and Feliciano on fooseball!

33) What were you doing before this?
I forgot...

34. Any pets?
No

36) Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
Butter

37) Dogs or cats?
cats

38) Favorite flowers?
roses

39) When was the last time you got in trouble?
Aug. 16.

41) Have you ever loved someone?
yes

42) Who would you like to see right now?
My beloved

43) Are you still friends with people from kindergarten ?
Kari

44) Have you ever fired a gun?
No

45) Do you like to travel by plane?
Quickest, but no.

46) What website do you frequently visit?
myspace and dA

48) How many pillows do you sleep with?
I HAD 8, now I have like four

49) Are you missing someone?
yes

50) Do you have a Tattoo?
A makeshift on myleft backhand.

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15407286/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/15407286/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 14:16:10 PST
Police are really good at making people do so for a bit...

But I am now free...

From part of hell at least, I still suffer...

But just so you know, I'm back in P.R.

The worst fou months of my life...

But I am free...

I am grateful...

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/14080342/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/14080342/ Wed, 08 Aug 2007 19:34:20 PDT
(If you are the "pineapple" please call him his life depend on you call. And BTW, He says hhe loves you just as ever)
BTW Ricoh's number... 850-691-8419

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13612595/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13612595/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 20:32:46 PDT Artist: Aqua
Album: Aquarius
Download Here: [link]

Song Lyrics: Taken from [link]

Its time now to turn off the light
This has been such a beautiful night
We have served you a lot of delights
And some really wonderful sights

My friend, this is the end
So long and see you soon again
Bye bye, kissing you hi
Someday we will be back together

Goodbye to the circus
We hope you enjoyed the show
Now its nearly at the end
But it will be back, you know

It will be back, you know
It will be back, you know

You have given us all of the best
You are beating inside our chest
Staying with us as time has gone by
Gave us hope when tide was high

My friend, this is the end
So long and see you soon again
Bye bye, kissing you hi
Someday we will be back together

Goodbye to the circus
We hope you enjoyed the show
Now its nearly at the end
But it will be back, you know

The band played on, from dusk till dawn
And time is almost gone
The beat goes on, its almost done
This music marathon

It will be back, you know
It will be back, you know

So
Goodbye to the circus
We hope you enjoyed the show
Now its nearly at the end
But it will be back, you know

So
Goodbye to the circus
We hope you enjoyed the show
Now its nearly at the end
But it will be back, you know

We will be back, you know
We will be back, you know


Rico's Comments:

As you may all know, I am leaving Panama City... And I choose this song because this all feels like a huge circus, for I have met a huge cast of people...

People who love me...

People who hate me...

Homeless...

Rich...

Poor...

Big and Strong...

Small and Weak...

Crazy or insane...

Sane and sad...

All sorts...

So Panama City has been a circus to me...

But I at the same time have been a circus to most, for I am so crazy... I even pull my own act!

But it is time to say good bye, for I am now leaving...

I leave for Connecticut for a moment...

But then I am to leave for Canada...

In Connecticut as far as I am aware, I shall be homeless, but as long as she holds my stuff, I shall manage.

But when I leave for Canada, I am unsure of what will happen...

My nightmares...

My dreams...

I feel I am no longer wanted there...

But I made a promise I shall not break.

And so... I will go...

If I don't die, I shall end up bringing death... And/Or in jail...

So I am making no promises to be back...


But while I live, I shall make the most out of it... And make my love come true!

On a side note, I went to see the fireworks at the Marina, it was cool. I recorded some of it... <3

My first July 4th...


To all of you who are My Circus....

Good Bye...

I love you All... ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13596943/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13596943/ Tue, 03 Jul 2007 19:11:34 PDT
We are doing a mini get together, mi friends and I, planned just a few seconds ago.

Cici's Pizza, next to publix at 23rd street Plaza, at around 1:30 or 2 Pm. Be there!


... Please? ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13593428/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13593428/ Tue, 03 Jul 2007 14:22:54 PDT
1. hows your heart lately?
Broken, but held together by duct tape

2. when was the last time you went outside?
Today to go to Brit's?

3. what was the latest movie you saw?
I already forgot... Reno 911...

4. the last place you went?
Brittany's house... still there...

5. miss someone?
yeah.....really really really bad

6. what made you smile today?
Waking up Brit again...

7. the last time you fell in love?
... Recently?

8. when was the last time you were drunk?
Two weeks ago

9. ever loved someone so deep it hurt?
Yes

10. what is your status right now?
Single but Forbidden

11. did you dream last night?
Nightmares

12. what were you doing this morning at 7 am?
SLeeping, I guess

13. what were you doing this morning
SLeeping again, I guess, and packing

14. what were you doing this afternoon
Being at Brit's, who's sleeping

15. name a place you want to visit.
Conneticut

16. how many piercings do you have?
2

17. do you have a tatoo?
No

18. what was the last thing you ate?
Cereal

19. what was the last thing you drank?
Water

20. what do you want to do today?
Pack, say good bye...

21. do you have a nick name?
A few

22. things you need to do everyday?
Sleep, SHower, Brush teeth

23. are you a type of person who easily gets hurt?
Not physically

24. the last thing you said to one of your friends?
Wake up

25. the last person who called you?
Paige

26. Who was the last person to send you a message?
Alii

27. the last person you chat with?
Michael

28. the last person you talked with?
Brittany's mom

29. what can't you live without?
My loved ones

30. what song(s) is(are) in your head now?
Max songs

31. is there someone you love?
Most definitely

32. where are you?
Nrit's Comp Chair

33. having a date?
Yes. July 5 is my date... with fate...

34. who do you want to meet?
Alii, Dave, And Roxy

35. make a wish
I wish I'd be there tomorrow, or have all my dear ones together in one place. ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13591805/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13591805/ Tue, 03 Jul 2007 12:10:33 PDT
1. I've come to realize that my last kiss was...
Most likely the last one Amber gets from me...

2. I am listening to...
Stepmania Ciberia Style

3. I talk...
really messed up

4. I am dating...
No one... I'm forbidden...

5. My best friend(s)...
Are well guarded...

6. My Car is...
Still to be mine

7. I hate it when people ask...
If I am goth, when I am CLEARLY dressed like one...

8. Love...
Is forever

9. Marriage is...
My goal

10. Somewhere, someone is thinking...
A way to end me

11. I'm always...
anting my loved ones

12. I have a secret...
that will change how you think about me

13. My mobile phone...
should get turned off soon...

14. When I wake up in the morning...
I punch my clock

15. When I go to bed at night...
I go crying

16. Right now I am thinking about..
Conneticut and Canada...

17. Babies are...
False Advertisement

18. I get on myspace...
Once a day?

19. Today I...
have to work out what to do with my phone, sacrificing my last time seeing Tana...

20. Tonight I will...
Talk all night to Alii

21. Tomorrow I will...
Say my last good bye...

22. I really want....
To be with my loved one

23. Someone that will most likely repost this is...
Alii on dA ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13423461/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13423461/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 18:29:56 PDT Umm... depends on what the guy wants or is doing...

2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress?
A long formal dress!

3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?
Technically I already have...

5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
Yes

6. Are diamonds a girl's best friend?
No... I hate diamonds...

7. Is your hair up or down?
I have it in a bun

8. Do you straighten your hair?
Yes

9. Whats your favorite girly magazine?
Cosmo...

10. What's your favorite mascara?
I dunno...

11. Do you get your nails done?
No

12. Small or large purse?
Small for hanging out, large for travel!!!

13. In your purse, what are your must haves?
Phone and an ID (that one I learned by force)

14. Jeans or skirts?
Skirts

15. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that's uncomfortable?
Yes I do...

16. Do you text message a lot?
SCrewed myself up with texting...

18. Favorite Color(s)?
Black

19. Heels or flats?
Flats

20. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
Yes

21. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
Yes

22. Walmart or Target?
Ummm...

23. Do you wear collared shirts?
Collared?

24. Do you like preppy boys?
No

25. Are you spoiled?
My parents call me spoiled... But I never had what I really wanted... love...

26. Do you think lipgloss is the best?
I like it...

27. Do you own any big sunglasses?
Kindof?

28. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
From alarm wake up to finish... maybe 15 minutes if it's a good start.

29. Do you like to wear bandaids?
Yes, actually...

30. Do you like skater boys?
No

31. Do you often wish there was something you could change?
All too well...

32. Gold or silver?
Silver

33. Do you like to receive flowers?
Yes

34. Do you like surfer boys?
Cool...

36. Do you like to wear dresses?
Yes

37. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
A lot... around 8

38. In the past 24 hours have you hung out with a guy?
No

39. Do you wear lipstick?
Sometimes

40. Would you date a guy shorter than you?
If I were gay...

47. Do you like eye contact?
Depends...

48. Did you ever picture your wedding dress and wedding?
Yes

49.Would you rather date a boy that went to your school or went to a different school?
It doesn't matter...

O1. Does someone have a crush on you?
Mayyyybe....

O2. Last thing you ate?
Cereal

O3. Do you have A.D.D.?
Maybe?

O4. Who was the last person you messaged over MySpace?
Forgot...

O5 . I can't wait until?
I Meet Alii.

O6. What color shirt are you wearing?
Black

O7. Who was your last text message on your cell from?
Alii

O8. Are you paranoid?
Yes

O9. Favorite place to go on weekends?
Wherever my friends are, and AUdrey's house.

1O. Do you like the you are becoming?
I don't dare even think...

12. Are your friends all changing?
Unfortunately for the worse...

13. Is there an iPod near you?
Yes, not mine though...

14. Are your parents strict?
No

15. What's the last movie you saw?
Reno 911

16. Are you a friendly person?
Yes... TOO much...

17. Are you a good driver?
No...

18. Do you like anyone right now?
Yes...

19. Do you have any Tattoos?
No

2O. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Yes...

21. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
WIth someone else...

22. Do you consider yourself creative?
Yes

23. What are you listening to right now?
Alii's voice

24. Done anything you regret so far this week?
YEs... like wasting my time trying to come in tomorrow at 4...

25. The highlight of your week?
So far... Talking about Sex with Jackie and Angela

26. Have you changed much this year?
A lot, but not physically

27. Do you dress for style or comfort?
BOTH!!!

28. Name someone with the same birthday as you.
Amber...

29. Are you shy around the opposite... ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13362183/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13362183/ Fri, 15 Jun 2007 22:03:06 PDT

About:

Name: Rico
Height: 5'8"
Eye color: Light Brown to Black

Ethnic background: Puertorrican

Label me: Goth, Gay, Man, Adult, Pedophile, Crazy. (All labels based on my background (Adult, Man, Pedophile) or how I act/dress (Goth, Gay, Crazy) -Haley going to P.R.??? Go to El Yunque, El Morro, and Reserva Taina El Tibet. You'll like those places!-

Country: Commonwealth of Puerto Rico of the United States of America


Sibblings: Little Sister Laura, Older half Brother Luis

Four words that describe me: Different, Free, Love, Crazy

Four things I like: Music, Art, To write, To be with my friends and loved ones

Four things I hate: Liars, Betrayal, Those who hurt their loved ones, injustice

Four random things about you: I dress freely, even if that means dressing like a girl. I'll do ANYTHING for my loved ones. I am an Avenging Angel. I'm learning to cook by trial and error... And there is a cat on my keyboard...

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Favorites:

Tv show: I don't watch TV
Anime: Currently, D. Gray Man

Board game: Monopoly

Family member: My Dear Grandfather, Pedro Juan Rico Ballester. May he rest in peace.

Thing to wear: The grey shoelace that Roxy and I share...

Food:

Drink: Milk

Icecream Flavor: Mint Chocolate Chip

Time of day: 1 AM, because I am for sure at that time talking with Alii!!!

Season: Winter

Band: 403 (look up forbidenna)

Celebrity: Buckethead

Movie: Phantom of the Opera

Comic book: Batman, the one Hero that can kick EVERYBODY'S ass.

Holiday: So far, the ONLY holiday I have ever celebrated in my life, ONCE... Mother's day...

Artist: Edgar Allan Poe

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Have you ever:

Tried smoking: No. In fact, I yelled at my roommate for she began smoking today and I caught her.

Tried drugs: No, though I could if I wanted to, I have MANY contacts...

Drank an alcoholic beverage: Of course!

Gotten drunk: Yes... JAYMAR!!!

Gotten kicked out of your house: Many times.

Ran away: More like stormed away before knocking down the house... (seriously, I could)

Got beaten up: But I got my revenge

Beat someone up: Badly

Been teased: Yes...

Teased someone else: I am called a tease by many...

Had your heart broken: It is right now

Broken someone's heart: It... feels as such will happen no matter how hard I try against it.

Peed in a swimming pool: If you gotta go, you go.

Slept in your swimsuit: I used to wear suim suits as regular clothing...

Actually WENT to a school dance: Never...

Been asked out: No...

Been rejected: No...

Thrown a video game controller out of rage: Yes.... F-Zero GX players all have done that...

Swallowed bubblegum: All the time...

Slept with plush toys: I do every night...

Slept on the floor: Almost all the time out of this apartment.

Fallen down the stairs: No.

Hurt yourself on purpose: Yes, to death...

Whined to get your way: No, but people think I do.

Jumped out of a moving vehicle: Yes.

Danced to the 80's music: YEAH!

Read a harry potter book: Not even began...

Crushed on a celebrity: No.

Crushed on a friend: Yes.

Crushed on a family member: I didn't knew she was my cousin until like two years ago... o-O;;

Been kissed: Yes. A small while back actually, someone surprised me by kissing me out of the blue o.o;;

Given a wet willy: A super cold super wet willy

Gone to jail: No, but I have been close to, and will get even closer.

Dyed your hair: No

Eaten moldy food on purpose: Yes.

Ate something off the floor: Yes.

Punched a boy/girl with glasses: Yes. I pulled out the glasses, THEN punched him, then put them back on him after he was on the floor.

Written on the walls with crayon: Worse... Sharpies ^^

Been afraid of clowns: Not as far as I am aware...

Had a nightmare about a movie you saw: Yes... Gremlins...

Been afraid of your closet/the dark: Well, I as a kid used to freak out of the hallways at home at night...

Believed in the boogeyman: No.

Puked on a rollercoaster: Never gotten on a roller coaste... ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13359645/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13359645/ Fri, 15 Jun 2007 18:05:20 PDT
kiss me-

date me-

have sex with me-

be my boyfriend/girlfriend-

buy me things-

fuck me sinceless-

take advantage of me-

have a life with me-

love me-

hate me-

make out with me-

strip for me-

make me strip for you-

tie me up and rape me-

eat me out/give me a blowjob-

give me your number-

call me-

come over ot my house-

stay the night with me-

let me stay the night with you-

finger me/give me a handjob-

take me out to dinner-

4 play with me-

feel me up-

take a chance with me-

cheat on your bf/gf with me-

dump your bf/gf for me-

clean my house-

clean my room-

do my homework-

anel me-

sing for me-

hold me tight and never let go-

fall asleep with me-

kiss me up and down my body-

put up with me-

never leave me-

allow me to wake you up in the morning-

write poetry about me-

write me notes and letters just for the hell of it-

let me kill myself if it was for a good reason-

die with me-

buy me a rose-

love absolutely no one but me-

ignore everyone else to comfort me while i was crying-

drive 2000 miles just to see me-

come to my funeral-

come to me just because i needed to see you-

repost this so i can answer them for you-

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13295066/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13295066/ Sun, 10 Jun 2007 19:51:25 PDT

1. Would you mind me being in control?

2. Would you pull my hair?

3. Would you whisper freaky shit in my ear?

4. Would you talk dirty to me?

5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue?

6. Would you go down on me?

7. Would you let me give you a hickie?

8. How many rounds would we go?

9. What would you wanna do afterwards?

10. Would you take off all ur clothes for me?

11. Would you lick and bite me all over?

12. Would you like 4play or get straight to the point?

13. Would you take ur time if I told you to?

14. Would u fall asleep when we were done?

15. Would u want to go fast or slow?

16. Where would u wanna "do it" at?

18. Would u be loud or quiet?

19. Do u think u could make me have an orgasm?

20. Are u gonna re-post these so I can answer them for you

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13068438/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13068438/ Wed, 23 May 2007 20:08:27 PDT Do this because the person who sent it to you didn't sit here for ages for nothing. Answer all the questions honestly, no lying to avoid stuff.

Starting Time: 9:17 PM

Name: Jorge L. Rico Perez

Sisters: Laura M. Rico Perez

Brothers: Luis F. Rico Castillo

Eye Color: Light Brown

Shoe size: 10

Height: 5'8"

What are you wearing right now? Martial Arts Gi

Favorite Drink: Milk

Favorite Month: December

Favorite Breakfast: Anything I find... Fresh Hot Borikuan Bread with Butter!!!

***********Have You Ever*****************

Bungee jumped: No

Made yourself throw-up? No

Gone skinny dipping? Yes

Loved someone so much it made you cry? Yes

Broken a bone: Not mine.

Been in a police car: Yes

Been on a plane: Yes

Came close to dying: Yes

Been in a sauna: Not an ACTUAL sauna...

Been in a hot tub: No

Swam in the ocean: No

Fallen asleep in school: Yes

Broken someone's heart: ...Have I?

Cried when someone died: No

Fell off your chair: Yes

Sat by the phone all night waitin 4 someone to call u: And I still do...

Been cheated on: ...Have I?

Whats right beside you: ...An Empty Seat

What is the last thing you ate: Cereal

-----------------------------Ever had-------------------------------------------
Chicken pox: Yes

Sore throat: I do now... from crying.

Stitches: Other than for Surgery, none.

Broken nose: No, surprisingly
-------------------------Do You------------------------------------

Believe in love at first sight: No

Like school: Yes

-----------------------Questions----------------------------------------

Who was the last person you called: Amber

Who was the last person you danced with: Amber... If yu can call THAT dancing...

Who makes you smile: My friends... Whom I really need right now.

Who made you cry last: ...

-------------------------Who---------------------------------------------

Did you last yell at: Myself

Do you like filling these out: Yes

Do you wear contact lenses or glasses: Both

Do you like yourself: Not right now

---------------------Final Questions---------------------------

What are listening to right now: Amber
What did you do today? Work and cry
What car do you wish to have: A working one
Where do you want to get married? Japan...
Diamond or pearl: Pearl
Are you the oldest child: From mom, yes.
Indoors or outdoors: Depends...

----------------------------Today did you------------------------------

1. Talk to someone you like: Now I am...

2. Buy something: No

3. Get sick: Emotionally

4. Sing: Yes, actually... A very sad song.

5. Talk to an ex: Yes

6. Miss someone: Most Definitely...

----------------------------Last person who---------------------------

7. Was in your bed: Paige

8. Saw you cry? Nobody, oddly enough.

9. Made you cry? Myself...

10. Went to the movies with: Krystal

11. You went to the mall with: Amber and Audrey, but I hung out with more people...

16. Ever been in a fight with your pet? No...

18. Been to Mexico: No

19. Been to Canada: Yes, and soon I am again.

20. Been to Africa: No, but I want.

---------------------------Random-----------------------

21. Do you have a crush on someone:
Yes... most definitely

22. What books are you reading right now:
Nothing

23. Best feeling in the world:
Being in love, with the person you love, loving you back.

24. Future kids names:
Honestly, I can't anything to go with Rico

25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal:
Yes...

26. What's under your bed:
I don't have a bed, but the one I sleep on, I have nothing.

27. Favorite sport to watch:
Slamball

28. Favorite location?
Where my loved ones are

29. Piercing/Tattoos:
My ears have the lobe pierced once each.

31. What are you most afraid of right now:
Being alone, and the fact I am going to leave my loved one here as I leave...

32. Who do you really hate?:
My father and in part myself right now.<... ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13045228/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13045228/ Tue, 22 May 2007 18:05:36 PDT
I am leaving Panama City.

I don't know when, but it can be any time from Tomorrow, May 23, to Wednesday, July 4.

She broke her promise to me.

If anyone wants me to stay, you'd best give me a damn good reason for doing so.

Edit

I spent an entire hour today crying... Because odds are 95% that I am leaving... And I'll be once again leaving behind whatever I have built...

I still want people to give me a damn good reason to stay... if you really want me here, tell me why!!! Don't just let me run off, don't just let me slip past your fingers... Don't let me keep crying...

I really do care about my friends here, and even my enemies. I still want to be with you all. If I could just drag you out with me, I would. Maybe if I bring my friends here, I would stay?

Hmm... You know, that about gives me an idea... But you'll have to give me some time... If everything goes according to this, I WILL be back...

^^

*sigh*

Hopeless I am... If only I were like the typical teenager... Who things with their body or even mind, instead of my heart only... *sigh*

But that's part of what makes me Rico... I am one with my heart...

My roommates kills for the computer... Update later.

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13040124/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/13040124/ Mon, 21 May 2007 15:44:47 PDT If you like it at all, please DO SO
and post it in a bulletin or in a blog
and remind others to pass it on as well.

THIS WAS WRITTEN BY MYSELF, KELSEY SHOOK.
IF YOU STEAL THIS WITHOUT GIVING ME CREDIT,
I WILL SUE YOU. X]

There could be a few things you should learn about insecurity, but then again, maybe there aren't. Maybe it is simply my own insecurity that prompts me to think that you should have known better, but then again, mabye it isn't. However, if you could know what thoughts went through my mind when you said those words to me, if you could know how I was filled to the rim in only an insant with questions that lay dormant and unanswered in my mind even now, if what I am about to record if not only for the simple easing of my mind that comes directly from my core could ever fall under your eyes and if the thought could pass coherently through your mind for only a moment, I would hope that you would regret your last words and simply look me in the eyes and re-write those final words to me that would fit someone who is more brave-- and do not lie; I know how strong you can be when the need arises.

---
I am looking in the mirror right now in my bra and sports underwear. Although, I do not play sports, as you well know, I simply wear them for the comfort. I never enjoyed "butt floss", if you will-- was that ever disappointing to you? I don't understand why guys like that sort of thing. Natsy, nasty things happen with your rear, so what makes that body part so attractive? Guys are so peculiar. And what of breasts? Do they dance when I am not looking? There absolutely must be something that I am missing.
---

So, what is her name? Is it exotic? Pretty? Interesting? And where is she from? Europe? Asia? India? Does she wear glasses like I do or does she have perfect vision? I bet her eyes shine like that diamond in the ring you are going to slip on her beautiful, slim finger. I wonder what colour her hair is? Is it long and glamorous? I wonder if you are running your fingers through it as I write. How does it smell? I bet she uses shampoo fit for Paris Hilton's dog. How much does it cost per bottle? Three hundred dollars? Four? I can only imagine that her family is rich as sin. Is that more convenient for you? Has she bought you a new car yet? We actually lived pretty well together back when the simple things were good enough for you. I bet she has a gorgeous natural smile, but her grandfather didn't spend five thousand dollars on braces for his precious little grandbaby like mine did, right? Does she even know who her grandfather is? My smile may have cost a lot, but every time that I smile, I think of how grateful I am to my grandfather, so isn't that enough?

--
At this, I smile in the mirror.
--

Apparently not.
Is her chest bigger than mine? If it is, does it make you more happy? Chest size is almost like inverted school grades, so would I have been better off failing? I was passing with a C, at least. I don't like my chest, so why should you? Guys do not make sense. Lame.
When your arms are around her, I know she breaths in deeply like I used to and she asks you what you wear and you mention some expensive lie when you and I both know that the beautiful scent that she's inhaling into her pretty little nost is just you.
Does she wear five thousand dollar evening gowns? I'll bet that she only owns one pair of jeans and even then she wouldn't be caught dead in them. Ha! Jeans are all I ever wore around you. That probably wasn't classy enough for you, right?
I'll bet she's not like me at all. I'll bet she won't wear bright colours to cheer you up on your I-just-don't-remember-how-to-smile days, even though she [doesn't and I do] know that bright colours hurt your eyes.
Does she paint her nails to match her clothes? Are they French manicured and elegant like she is? Ten to nothing she doesn't bite them. You won't ever wonder why, but so you know, that's because she doesn't have any anxiety or self-conscious problems like me. That suits you just fine, right? I know she has all the time in the world to paint her toenails; do they match as well? I was hardly ever barefoot around you. I'm so shy about my feet, they feel so awkward. I cannot help but imagine her sunkissed skin and I'm sure it's so soft that the testosterone in your blood nearly ignites into flames when you touch it. She doesn't have any weight problems and she can't be too thin because bulemia or anorexia would just weird you out. I'll bet that she's tone and looks stunning
(promiscuous)
in a bikini, which is just provocative to make you imagine her in lingerie. Does she pose for
you? I never really saw a big point in lingerie, after all, you were going to see me naked eventually any way, why try to hide the inevitable? I know I had a littl... ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12988214/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12988214/ Thu, 17 May 2007 10:53:58 PDT
2. Who knows a secret or two about you? I don't hold my own secrets

3. Three words to explain why you last threw up? Incredibly Bad Depression

4. Have you ever burned yourself? Yes. Last time was for medical purposes...

5. Who knows you the best? It's really hard to say right now... perhaps Roxy?

8. Who is your hero? My Grandfather

9. Would you ever want to be a model? I already am, baby!

10. What are you doing? Procastinating with Myspace...

11. What is tomorrow? The day I see Amber again

13. Who do you want to be with right now? Amber, or my good Friend Roxy... or Brandi, who just came back from the dead!!!

15. How did you handle your last break up? Still trying to get back together in better terms... Afterall, we do still love each other.

16. Your motivation for tonight? Do laundry! XD

17. Last thing to hurt you? Amber fell from the bed right ON my crotch... X\

18. Last person to make you laugh? That new mexican at work

19. Last thing you ate? Grilled Chicken with cheese.

21. Have you ever accidentally eaten an insect? Wait... you mean to tell me hat WASN'T a raisin?

22. Do daddy long legs freak you out? Nope ^^ I actually saw my first on Saturday and found it rather cute ^^

23. Have you ever cleaned up someone else's vomit? Yes....

24. Have you ever dropped food on the floor and eaten it? Right after I deep cleaned it!!!

25. Do you kiss your pets on the mouth? Not my own, but pretty much all my friend's Kitties ^^

28. Do you ever talk to the TV? Yes

29. Would you ever work in a retirement home? I took care of my Gramps in his last days!

30. Do you believe plants have feelings? Yes

31. Do you laugh at people with "bowl" haircuts? No, but I do find them... weird...

32. Do you have nervous twitches? Yes

33. Are you ever purposely irritating? No

36. Love or money? Love

37. What did you do today? Woke up, showered, jerked off, and came to the computer, instead of doing chores and other stuff.

38. Favorite food? Anything with chocolate

39. Do you believe that your first love never dies? First True love is also always your last.

40. What event are you looking forward to coming up next? Biking to Audrey's tomorrow!

41. Current kind of shampoo? Tresemme

43. Most favorite people? No favs, do I am especially fond of Amber, Roxy, Tiffie, Krystal and Brandi

44. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonald's? McFlurry. I an't believe the M&M McFlurry is "new" in Amerika, when in PR we have had that and five other kinds for years.

45. Are you an emotional person? Yes!

46. Do you like your name? Rico. Yes, I love it...

47. What color shirt are you wearing? Brown+White

48. Do you have plans for tomorrow? Work and Be with Amber

49. Do you work? Gansta Dishwasha @ Pineapple Willy's

50. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? In the proccess of...

51. Why did your last relationship end? Because her father has the power to send me to jail I so much as hold hand with Amber...

52. What are you listening to right now? Psy Goa Trance Channe

53. Biggest fear? Hurting those I love and being alone.

55. How long have you been a part of myspace? December?

56. Favorite place to be? Where my loved ones are

57. Do you have a crush? More than that

58. Do you hate anybody? My father, but according to a friend's definition of hate, no one.

59. Does anyone hate you? Quite a whole lot.

60. How many people do you trust fully? Hard to say... A rough four?

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12935424/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12935424/ Sat, 12 May 2007 22:30:12 PDT
To tell me the truth!

I dare you...
to tell me the truth..

Four things you wonder about me
1.
2.
3.
4.


Five things you like about me
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.


Two things you don't like about me
1.
2.


My best feature
1.


Two things you want to know about me
1.
2.



One word that describe me
1.


One question for me
1.

one thing you've always wanted to tell me.
1.

Repost this in your journal ^^ ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12753858/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12753858/ Fri, 27 Apr 2007 11:34:44 PDT

I'm feeling better from that last journal.

Now that I have lost all I had when I first came here, guess it's up to a fresh start, ne?

No one can take the place in my heart that was abandoned by those who betrayed/left/abandoned me, a hole only they can fill, but at least it doesn't hurt so much now, that there's some other people slowly entering my life.

I'm not in so much pain now, and am trying to find distractions.

I started going to the Fiesta again... Maybe I can get to work as a waiter...waitress... whatever... XD

I'm getting Saturdays off, Fridays work until 4, and Sundays go in at 4, so if anyone wants to do anything during then, just let me know. Normally my days are taken, but I can work something out.

I'ma sexy beast!

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12660315/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12660315/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 20:15:25 PDT The eyes of Satan are set on my life...

Just how much more?

How much more can I lose?
Pretty much all I managed to get here is being lost... All I have built up is... gone... all I retain... is nothing but a job and a place to live. But not my heart... that too... is lost... It is broken... At last I opened my heart out to someone... and now... gone...

How much more can I hurt?
I have had to withstand so much pain since I got here, I am wondering just which is my limit... no... I already am past my limit... I was already broken... and can't really be any more broken than this. I was broken, now all that can be done is sweep the dust away, and I'm being swept away good...

How much more can I cry?
Right when I believed I could stop crying... I burst out in tears once more... My eyes, just how hurting they are, it's intolerable... Right now... I can't take my tears...

How much more horrible can I be?
I truly believed I had gotten over my past... That it was dead... But now she shoves it all in my face that I have not. That I am nothing but a creepy motherfucker.... That's what I am... I do nothing but lie... lie... lie... I am a horrible person... Hurting those I love... The worst friend anyone can ever be...

How much more weaker can I get?
Each time I think I've grown stronger, I have actually gotten weaker... right now... I don't have any strength at all, other than to move these arms, typing this...

How much more can I destroy?
Rico the Sin... The Hellspawn... The Destroyer... Everything in my reach is to be destroyed, and me with it... except I do not disappear... Everything I wish to preserve... This house almost became my grave...

How much more can I take?
I really am trying not to... bring myself back to do what I used to... But I can take only so much, despite already being broken... I am not a rapist... I am not a murderer... Why must I still pay for something meant to have died?

How much more can I be worth?
But Nothing?

Just... How much more?

... And mine are set on his own gaze. ]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12599314/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12599314/ Mon, 16 Apr 2007 22:18:50 PDT
Not like my muse is back, but at least, I feel like somehow giving some expression away to the world. In other words, make some art. Now that I have a camera, I can start taking pics again, and with Photoshop here, and what little I know on working it, I should be putting stuff up hopefully. At least one deviation a week will keep me happy.

Edit:

Well, this is amusing!!! Five new deviations in less than two hours!!! I have been searching around my digital picture folders for stuff I've been wanting to upload, or have forgotten to do so, and done some minor editing on some of them... and there's yet more to come!!! YEEHAW!!

Anyways, just so you know, I will provide you guys with two important tidbids of information about me.

This week's Schedule, Monday, April 16 until Sunday, April 22.
Monday-> 4-C
Tuesday-> 4-C
Wednesday-> 10-4
Thursday-> 10-4
Friday-> Off
Sat-> Off
Sun-> 10-4

If anybody want to schedule anything with me, just tell me, and hopefully, it will be done. I think I may already have plans for Saturday, and I'm working of doing something for friday. Nothing is definite, though, and it is all really vague right now, so suggest ahead!

It would also be easiest and faster to simply call me... That's right! Forgot I had a cellphone? Here's the number, use it wisely. (AkA, no threats...)850-691-8419 . It's a sprint, and I get free calls after 7:00 PM Central time. Nights and Weekends free. I must still card to call to Canada though ;-;

Meow ^^


Edit2

I was planning on getting myself a subscription next week, but a fellow deviant and friend gave me a gift of one month... I sure was surprised. Thanks. ^^

BTW, Read my sig, please!!! Go there!!!

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12584981/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12584981/ Fri, 13 Apr 2007 19:11:35 PDT Artist: ParagonX9
Album:None as far as I'm aware
Download Here: [link]


Rico's Comments:

At long last, I have revived Song of The Week!!!! After over four months!!! Took me long enough.... I hope I can keep in semi consistent this time around.

So... Close Combat... He heh... been a while since I have done this...

Sit down, close your eyes, and listen, not just to the song, but to what your inner self has to say.

I have done this, and still continue to do so at least once a day, or night, actually... And have seen... Felt... The combat...

Right now, there's a a combat going on, closer, MUCH closer than you think. Such battle happens inside you, sometimes you don't even know why. Aren't we supposed to be at times of peace?

I am one being, but split asunder into so much... My heart... my body... my mind... my spirit... my past... my present... my blood... my name... What am I to do? I cannot simply take a side, for I need all in order to be... ME.

My heart mainly fights against my mind, for one thinks blindly, based on pure emotion and impulse, and the other, stupid yet at the same time rational, trying to understand what is not meant for me to actually understand. I have always followed my heart, but what will happen shall I continue to do so? What will?

My past, dark and impure, once again sticks its hands out the grave to face my present, which tries to at last place an eternal rest to it. I do not intend to be haunted by the ghosts of a dead past anymore, foul beasts, BEGONE! My present is yet for me to live, I will not allow it ruined.

My spirit... My body... I have never paid any attention to the external world, giving extra care to that which we can only feel within. Since when am I so... SO... Material? I now feel a material need to prove my own existence, turning even my body into a material possession. I despise vanity, yet, while I don't consider myself conceited other than in a joking manner, I am so bent on looking my absolute best, an absolute difference from everyone else around me. Inside, I am a different person, apparently, I must now be on the outside as well. I don't recall myself ever buying so much... Which I don't need. So much clothing, when I already have that which will get me through. Am I now a compulsive buyer to compensate or relieve something within? And I trying to prove something to myself? So much material sin... Even some I dare not speak of...

My blood, in a never ending cycle of tainting and purification... Slowly being spilled, mostly in vain, actually has taken stance against a name most reminiscent of what truly being rich is... Rico, name of Wise Nobles of great times past, whose English translation simply means Rich, am I honoring my name... or am I defiling it? Grandfather, you're the greatest man I have ever known... will my blood ever be near the great ranks of yours, and have my name at last be honored as it should?

Unfortunately... In this combat... more like a war which rages within... it seems clear that not one single side must stand out above the rest, nor a single category with it's main enemy defeated... For once, all parts must stand on an even footing, and they must all lose... And make peace. Only then will they all win.

Just as my signature says.... God and Satan aee playing a little game... The Prize... ME

But Heaven strikes down with lighting as Hellfire rises up, that void caught in between, The Purgatory casts its Eternity, and from such a single creature is born, Rico the One!


Dedicated to: This is actually related not just to me, but also a quite a few people which surround me, although I wrote it based solely on myself. This song is dedicated though, to two dear people to my heart... and (Which BTW, I'll call you as soon as I refill my card... hopefully Sunday)

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12572809/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12572809/ Thu, 12 Apr 2007 20:27:23 PDT
I have stayed somewhere for well over a month!!!! Now THAT is amazing!!! I just wanted to update all of you on my current state real quick.

Still working at Pineapple Willy's, good place. I am the Gansta Dishwasha.

Still living with the lady and her two daughters, but still looking for apartment as well.

Haven't gone to the bar in AGES. Need to see the Drag Show again... hell, I need to do one myself!!!

I'm still brining sexy back... My roommate got me hooked on eBay... BAD idea... I have found heaven in a can... *buys a skirt*

*sigh* Guess what? I had a girlfriend for two and a half weeks... Yes, Rico had a girlfriend, real, living!!! Unfortunately for us, or me, and very fortunate for mostly everyone else, it is such no more. Yes, I was happy during that time, and now we're just friends once more. The friendship was never lost.

I've been wanting to make up things for two people who have been involved in my past. I understand so much more now than back in the time when issues happened with them, that I can just now apologize. These people are Sophie Mitolo and Kelsey Shook.

I was THIS close .. <- To leaving Florida... Getting a girlfriend... That's what kept me here...

I bought a new camera, being that the other was stolen, plus I have Photoshop 7 installed here... let's see if I can get some art done, I haven't been artistical at all since I got here....

Guess I will have to once again be... not me.

No, I'm not all emo about it, I'm not about to hurt myself.

I'm still sexy.

I need friends...

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12103276/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12103276/ Thu, 08 Mar 2007 08:25:51 PST
The very day I was sent to the streets, God send me an angel to pick me up. Four angels, as a matter of fact. My work mates, which are a Mother and her two daughters, along with a friend of theirs, have decided to take me in for a while.

So, for a short time, I shall be off the streets. This shall allow for me to save some money and get my own place.

Tomorrow Friday, after work, I plan on going to Club La Vela, which means I shall be there at around 11:30 or midnight. I don't even know where exactly I will be, but knowing me, I will be in the Dark Room.

I pray I will be able to relate to these people who have helped me, and to someday be able to thank them properly for what they are doing for me, which is much more than what I would ever ask of anyone.

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12078052/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12078052/ Tue, 06 Mar 2007 08:20:46 PST
As of today, I am once again on the streets, even more of a homeless bum than I was when I wrote my last entry. As in, I don't have a roof over my head AT ALL. Our of 8 of my roommates, 6 want me out. The other two have no power anymore. And one of them didn't even allow me to look through the bags to get my stuff, so I only have half my stuff right now.

Meh, my life fucking sucks right now... in that aspect at least.

I started working at Pineapple Willy's, great place, and lots of fun to get soaked while dishwashing... Plus, the shirts are cool.... I have a Pineapple of the Caribbean T-Shirt... XD

Plus I plan on working for Hot Topic. I'm going to hand in the application today. That employee discount alone makes it worth working there.

Crap... I need a way to keep my stuff safe while I go to work... I can't carry all that crap with me everywhere I go... Plus get myself a place... I MIGHT be able to find something by Friday... hmm... I might be able to do something, and sleep out on the woods for a while.

Yo dudes and dudettes... Just because I am a friggin Hobo doesn't mean I am lesser. I am determined to get back up on my feet, no matter how. I hope I don't have to come down to the point of stealing again, but I will survive, and I will succeed. Hell, I may even try to begin moving to Canada... At least there the homeless stand a chance...

But at least there's also nice people around me sometimes. I met some at P.W., and they are helping me get around to and from work. I thank them dearly. ^^

Friday... friday will be the magic day, when I will get my last paycheck from the arcade. At least 100$ that will save me... That and perhaps I might be able to get myself a trailer at the beach.

People, please pray for me, as there is really not much that you CAN do for me to get me off the streets. But right now, my faith and my life is all I have, is it not?

God... Send me an angel... *reminisces up north*

And I also have this love I feel within...

Have a nice day, and may God bless you all, be you or be you not a friend of mine.

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12009983/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/12009983/ Thu, 01 Mar 2007 07:16:24 PST
Actually, just more homeless than before. Today is the one week from my last day at the shelter, and now I live kinda in the streets. I banded up with five or six other friends, and together we are trying to maintain ourselves a room at the Relax Inn. But I get so little money at the arcade, I can barely help. And I can't do day labor because I don't qualify. Sleeping in the woods ain't that bad, but unfortunately, our camp is being watched by the cops, so we can't return there for a good while. It's too risky.

I have been working at the arcade, Pocket Change, but Sunday will be my last day. Starting Monday, hopefully, I shall be working at Pineapple Willy's at the Beach area, close to Wal-Mart. I am trying to get myself a tube to fix my Road Bike, which will allow me to get to work within 45 minutes average estimated time. I am not eligible for Day Labor, because I was just too honest for them... Damn me and my truthfulness.

So I have been very busy going up and down and trying to maintain us, every single penny I get has gone to our survival, and I am one of the main pillars that sustain us. Without me, they definitely would be sleeping on the streets a whole lot. I blew my whole bank account of about 600 dollars in about 8 days, my whole paycheck from Friday, 270 dollars, in three days. That kinda also explains why I haven't gotten online in so long.

I expect Saturday, or perhaps tomorrow Friday, to do a Drag Performance at the Fiesta. Most likely will be Saturday, as I most talk with Mother first. (Not my real mother. That's what we call Miss Dee Dee, the Main Drag Queen of the bar).

Meeeaaaahhh!!!!

I went blank.... I totally forgot what else I was gonna write.

I need to find my Camera immediately... It gone...

I am a sexy guy!!!


Roxy, I love you!!!

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/11864704/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/11864704/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 07:51:44 PST
Wednesday-> Valentine's Day-> Surprisingly, it was one of the best days I have had since I reached Florida!!! I was not alone, and the only issue was a friend drinking too much. Thank you to all the ones victim of my Free Hugs.

Thursday-> Overall a good day, ups and downs, I begin staying with some friends over at the Relax Inn.

Friday-> D00d!!!! I totally forgot what happened that day ._.;;

Satuday-> One of the oddest, most fun, and also rather painful days since I got here....



I still don't know what the hell is going on with and in my life, what I am doing. Again, I have done things I never though I'd do.

Last night, at 3 AM, was my debut to the world, or at least to the few people left at The Fiesta. Yes, I am still still straight, but my debut, I mean... My first Drag Queen show. I was nervous to death, but you know, it wasn't so bad. Once I got on that stage, swinging my Mardi Gras beads of death, performing to Cascada's "Everytime we touch", I kinda lost some shyness. Still doesn't change the fact I was stiff and scared. But I had SO much fun. I loved it!!! ^^ XD

Plus, the fact that I can now say that a girl gave me the bra she was wearing, I have bragging rights!!! XD

Dude, my boobs were made of bread.

GOTTA GO!!! BOOTED!!!

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/11795071/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/11795071/ Wed, 14 Feb 2007 07:02:13 PST
Monday->Worked
Tuesday and Wednesday-> Working
Thursday and Friday-> Off
Saturday-> Work
Sunday-> Off

So tomorrow, the dreaded valentine's day, is upon me. I had plans to somehow lock myself in the bathroom stall, where I WOULD be alone, contrary to the shelter's bedroom, but everything flipped over.

I am now forced to for the first time make it different. The morning all the way until work, I'm off, I may hang out with some friends if I'm lucky, and they aren't all busy having sex. I think I work from 3, all the way to closing at 9, but I'm sure it will be a slow day. Visitors are welcome.

After I come out at 9, I will head out to The Fiesta / La Royale, and hang out for a few hours, and make some money while at it. Again, if anyone can make it (which I doubt anyways, for most of you are underage AND lack transport), feel free to drop by and stick a ten dollar bill on my thong. XD

Hey, if I am forced to be out on that day, I might as well get something out of it, ne?

I am off on Thursday and Friday, but I may already have the day taken, it all depends on how well I can solve some issues.

Dude, I actually BOUGHT something from Hot Topic... I am SO goth!!!!! XD Just a choker and arm warmer thingies, meh. ^^ I like them ^^

Meh, I can't think of anything else to say. I think I shall go take a well deserved shower and sexy around for a while. I may go get a new thong, wish me luck!!! ^^ XD

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/11756711/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/11756711/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 07:25:18 PST
Breathe out...

Breathe in...

Breathe out...

Damn it...

Kill...

Breathe in...

Run away from me...

Breathe out...

There is no escape...



Tell me you guys, whether you know me well, or not at all...

What the hell am I?

A tiger?

An angel?

A Demon?

A monster?

Because I most definitely am not human.

Maybe I am nothing...

Maybe I am all I have ever hated...

Maybe I am all I vowed to never become become...

I have lost all dignity...

I have lost all faith...

I have lost all I had upon these people that included me in their little family...

But that's because I killed it...

So maybe I am a murderer after all...

Tell me, what am I?

I am lost, and cannot find myself...

Devoured by the darkness, don't even know where I stand.

I am forsaken, and will never be able to return...

I am replaceable, disposable, or else I wouldn't also have been abandoned.

My thong itches cuz is too tight...

Take it from me, don't floss your ass...

There, some minor and pathetic humour to lighten up the mood.

Not like it did any good...

I am alone...

So I feel...

Even this awsome music does nothing for my mood.

In fact... not just what I am... also tell me... what was I? What am I making of myself?

My hands shake almost uncontrollably as I type, yet where it is cold is outside.

What a fitting day for my mood. Cold, dark, gloomy, unbearable.

I can't stand it anymore...

Even the scar on my chest is starting to hurt...

Badly.

What am I to do?

What CAN I do?

I didn't want this to happen, I was trying to avoid it.

But I still lost it...

A little family, as we called ourselves to be.

And now... gone...

I am... a monster...

I didn't want this to happen...

I didn't want to hurt them... especially not her...

Someone help me...

I can't even cry...

My eyes hurt so much from the tears wanting to come out, which can't.

A devil cannot cry, am I right?

So, is that what I am?

Very fitting...

I really can't stand my own self anymore, whatever I am...

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/11734486/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/11734486/ Thu, 08 Feb 2007 12:16:36 PST
La Royale...

I swear to God, I AM STRAIGHT.

I never thought I'd do this...

I'm an Exotic Dancer...

DUDE!

O_O;;


Tammi...

No amount of words or actions is ever going to redeem me for what I am, what I have done.

But I want you to know that I really am sorry.

I am hurting you.

I hate hurting you.

I hate myself for hurting you.

My life is yours for the taking, that is all I can do.

I do not deserve to be near you.

I do not deserve your friendship.

I deserve nothing from you.

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/11706238/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/11706238/ Tue, 06 Feb 2007 06:16:07 PST
But when we got there (Her, a friend of ours, and me), she wasn't allowed in, she wasn't in the list. And so begins our "day".

We called a cab again, and yet after an hour, It wasn't there, so we decided to walk back. Now, take into account that the other two guys had been in a car wreck two days ago and the girl has a fractured knee, and didn't have her crutches... The guy simply had whiplash.

...And we where 20 miles away from "home"...

I wrote up a sign with our destination on it, and since the beginning we began walking sticking out our thumbs, and nobody would stop. Due to the nature of her wound, we took turns carrying her.

And so it was, three or four hours walking, she had it worse of all, for even we have our limits, her pain, intolerable. Little by little, I could feel her pain turning into my own, but I held back my tears.

We finally reached Winn Dixie somewhere near transmitter road, I think, my sign and my puppy eyes managed to get us a ride, as I carried the paper in my mouth and looked with so much sadness. So we saved ourselves an hour to the mall.

But when we got there, we saw it was too late... It was almost 9, and there was nothing that could be done about it... I was alright, as I am in the work program, but not them. Their limit was 4.

So we just saw a movie to rest. Some holiday movie, Unaccompanied Minors, I think it was called. The first time I go to the movies in way over a year.

While at the mall, funny, that after so much walking, the first thing I did was play DDR... With even greater skill than before. I AA'd A on Heavy... TAKE THAT JAY!!!! And I also saw Briannna and Josh, I'm happy to have seen another set of familiar faces in over a week ^^

So we then set out to go to a small homeless camp hidden in the forest, where they would stay the night. But it was too much, little by little we broke down. But We made it to the little hut made of sheets, and they found their place for the night. After a sad good night hug, I walked back to the Mission, and got there at 1 AM. Much later than I was supposed to.

George, one of the Mission inmates, told me I am in so much trouble. I still have not gotten scolded, but I'm sure that as soon as Ralph Morgan (the guy in charge of the work program) sees me, I am in deep shit. I may even get kicked out of the work program, perhaps even the shelter.

But you know... I really don't care... I'm worried about my friends, they already slept in the woods once, and I don't like it. I want to help her out, I really do. I care about her. She has gotten kicked out from the shelter, and we are working to get her back in. She can barely even walk!!!

I swear, I am going to write up a letter and address it to someone in order to help her. The mission, by law, cannot kick her out in the condition she's in. I may not have much money, or many resources, but I do have some other things just as valuable.

I have my life.
I have my will.
I have my faith.
I have my self.

I have Rico.

I am Rico.

And nothing can stop me.


NOTHING




On a side note, Today I have work from 4-9, I am off Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, I work Saturday and Sunday. Anyways wants to set up a meetings or anything? I believe I could use some time at the beach...

]]> ~Rico007 http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/11631881/ http://Rico007.deviantart.com/journal/11631881/ Sat, 03 Feb 2007 07:27:26 PST
I don't work at Pretzel Twister anymore. I now work at Pocket Change. I wasn't getting even 15 hours of work at the other one, so I switched. Now I work this week 24 hours, albeit it's minimum wage. But hey, it's still money which I need, right? As long as I make 60 dollars a week to cover the shelter's rent, I'm good.

I'm still searching for apartment, and I better hurry, February starts tomorrow, and I have pretty much until the end of March, and then the work program is terminated, which means I'd better have a place to stay...

Thrift Stores are the best!!! I'm getting ready to bring sexy back!!! I have found some awsome things at good prices, and women's pants fit me greatly.

To those who know... (people like Brian, Kody, Roxy...) ... I'm scared... It is taking over me, overpowering over my own self. I've done things I never though I'd do. This is not me... I am weakening, and something is taking control of me. My different personalities are once again reappearing, my eyes are changing. This... is NOT a good thing...

CONTINUING

Also, betrayal is still amidst me, people whom I have cared for with my life still betray me, and those around me are treating me as nothing but leftovers, bringing me back a bit to one of my old journals, "The Old Letter: L". For those of you reading this, that think I am disposable, that I can be replaced, you can just go away right now.

I will not tolerate such degree of hypocrisy, because I also have value, much more than anyone of you who do this is giving me. I am not a ragdoll for you to do as you please. And I am tired of being used and manipulated because I am a nice guy. I know I'm willing to give up my life for my dear ones, but if I am dear to my dear ones, I assume they will not want me to get the that point, now is it not?

I am currently providing emotional support to a very dear friend, so I cannot continue. She has just told me of hurting herself, I must prevent it at all costs. I shall continue later. Take care, everyone.

Continuing again

I am a white tiger, so I have been told. And each time more I feel as such, each time more, a wild beast with no control whatsoever over my own actions. I am blind, to those who know, my heart does not discern right from wrong, and even less now than before. I truly am a wild beast, and worse off... a wild beast in heat. (note the mood icon)

But I am no pet. You can't play me. I am tired of such. Even a small kitten can scratch you up painfully, what is a white tiger capable of? I can do so much, and with my lack of discern from right and wrong... Anything goes. Anything happens.

I am just mindless right now.

I am not the monster I am believed to be.

I believe I'm turning into a different creature altogether...

Please pray for me, I don't even know what I am doing, I am blind.

Continuing yet AGAIN

Well, I am still sick with the Mission Death, and I got tired of being stubborn and coughing up blood, so I went to the Emergency Room. After about 8 hours of sleeping in that chair with my friend Tammi, I got woken up just to be told that I have a bronchitis about to turn chronic. So I got a shot on my butt that felt more like a venom viper's bite, for the needle was not bad, but the liquid felt like poison running all over my butt and I crying at the incredible pain. AAARRGGGHHH!!!!!

Today I'm supposed to go to Wal-Mart to go get my prescription Medication, I want this thing out of me. Then again, as long as I live in the Mission, I shall keep on getting sick. At least I'll not get AIDS just by hanging around in here. *coughs up a poring*

It's now February... how I loathe this month... simply for that one day... February 14... A day of death, a day of hate, a day of murder, a day of pain. Knowing the Arcade, I'll have work that day, but I'll see if I can get it off... Unfortunately... I don't have my own room to hermetically lock myself in, windows closed, and stay in my bed covered up and hungry and crying all day long until next day. Coming out that day is a perfect recipe for destruction, death, darkness.

Rico Forecast: Wednesday, February 14, 2007: 85% Chance Panama City is fucked.

I may be able to figure out a place to lock myself up or something by then, so that's why it's only 85% chance... ^^

Well, I guess that is all for now, hopefully. I shall see if I can get friday off, and I'll most likely get some other day off too, so we'll see. I wanna hang out. ^^

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Last night I slept over at Brian's house, fun stuff, but I can tell my emotions were getting the better of me... I started throwing the forks, sticks and stuff he has on his room at his wall, and they stuck always, with deadly force and accuracy. That means my rage is building...

I ended up sharing the bed with him. Ok, all cool, except for the part when in his sleep he grabs my left arm through the sheets and starts caressing it... Dude, I know I look like a girl, but I swear, it's only from the hips up!!!! XD

I waited three hours in the blistering cold for the trolley, which just kept driving by.

Yet another gay guy declared himself to me, saying he wants me to be his. Damn my bad luck.

But by the same token, I have girls and boys hitting on me... 12 and 13 year olds, actually...

I have been warned by Arnold High School's faculty to stay off the school premises, even afterschool. That the rules are such. That's not what the guard told me...

I have Monday through Thursday off next week.

Right now I feel like pure shit. People who call themselves to be friends...

I knew from quite a while ago that half of Arnorld High School knows my name, just not my looks. It seems that some people have been spreading shit about me.

This goes to everyone. If you have any problem with me whatsoever, I am not that hard to find. Come to me, rid yourself of your problems, face to face, instead of hiding behind whatever it is you hide with.

I live at the Panama City Rescue Mission.

I work at The Panama City Mall, at Pretzel Twisters, Friday through Sunday. You can find me in the afternoons.

In my off time, I am at Panama City Beach, but it may be different, depending on what I have to do.

Want to solve your problems, I am here, come to me, and they shall be accordingly discussed and solved.

I will not tolerate hipocrisy. I will not tolerate betrayal. I will not tolerate being so easily replaced. I don't care if you had sex with Samantha. And don't say I am splaying it out to the world, for she didn't do a very good job at hiding it in the first place.

Any of You want to fight me, come and fight me.

Any of You want to hurt me, come and hurt me.

Any of You want to kill me, come and kill me.

I need something to unleash all this negative emotion that have been building up for so long, and you'll do well to remember I will not hold back. My past may once again come forth, so I warn you, I shall not be made responsible for deaths of those who choose to face me after this warning.

I am not willing to break down again, knowing it will kill me.

Come.

COME.

C O M E ! ! !

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I also need another part time. AT Pretzel Twisters, it's supposed to be full-time, but it's SO slow now, that I can't really work all my 40 hours. 30, tops.

Being around so many sick homeless people, I think I am falling sick myself... But I don't really know, I barely even cough. But meh, I'll be preventive and see if I can find a community clinic. I do need to get myself a full check-up, see how the change of lifestyle is affecting my body. I've gone up to about 135-140 pounds, I must go back to 125.

Alright... Wednesday and Thursday I have it off, so if anyone wants to make plans for those days, tell me. I'm already trying to set aside one of the two days for someone, you know who you are, we'll talk tonight, K?

609 Allen Ave
Tel (850) 769-0783

That is the address of the Rescue Mission and the phone number. Just give me a call, if I'm not available, ask them to leave me a message, and I'll get back to you ASAP. Normally, I'll just call and tell you to call me at the payphone outside, so it's free and unlimited XD

Friday I may, may not go to Rock-It Lanes... My schedule this week has friday very busy, I shall talk with my boss.

Now, not just Kody and Brian know, some more people know of me getting this weird feeling... I wonder if I am doing the right thing by telling you...

I have also been feeling sad and depressed lately. Being all alone kills me. Sure, I'm surrounded by people here, but that's it. I don't talk with anyone. You guys are ALL I have... Those of you who have given me and yourselves the chance for us to meet, and are willing to allow me into their lives, you're all I have here. My desire to be with someone is incredible... Just a few minutes after separating, and I already miss you guys...

I need to soon leave, so I'll cut here. All of you, please take care, ok? *big hug for everyone*

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