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I had such a great time. Traveling by myself wasn't that hard. As long as I remember that it's ok to get turned around or to ask directions/help from the airline employees. That's what they're there for, after all!

Well.. To get to the bones of the weekend.... Bethany House Publishers absolutely LOVED my story NaNo was good for something after all!!! :hurrah: They want me to continue writing chapters and send them (unedited :gasp to the rep that I met with at the Con. I also have an agent who thinks my style of writing is superb I'm barely able to contain my excitement. No contract on either yet but who knows???

Now. Neen. I haven't asked you this yet and I need to x_x Is it ok if I use Lisbeth? I'll pull up my own storyline for her time in the otherworld but she was your character first. Bethany House is willing to let me write a pair of companion novels one for each girl. Whatcha think??

I've started writing up my weekend's experiences in a series of short fictionalized pieces. One is up now. Let me know what you think of the first one. I may or may not continue to post them, depending on the feedback I receive. In all honesty I'm just trying to capture the memories.

I also have a plan to get my novel done. Similar to NaNo but slightly different. Several of the speakers at the Con harped on the point that "I have no time" is just an excuse. So I have decided to start getting up at 3 (Yes, AM) and make a pot of tea before sitting before my computer and writing until I get at least 1667 words. Today it only took hours and I rewarded myself by going back to bed for a little more rest. I really want to get this done.

And now... For a mindless quiz.


Pick 3 characters, and have them answer the following questions accordingly. (They may be original characters or not):
1. Ril
2. Karyn
3. Nicholas

1. Number one (Ril), what was your childhood like?
It was beautiful and peaceful. The type of childhood that one wishes for. It was everything I could have ever wanted.

2. Character number three (Nicholas), if you could go back and time and change one thing, what would it be? (It can be something regarding your personal history, or something that is in the history books.)
I wish that I had continued my ballet studies, despite my parents refusal to fund my dreams.

3. Number two (Karyn), would you rather be immortal and eternally miserable, or live a mortal, blissfully peaceful life?
I'm already mortal! Nothing much can be done about that. I think I'd much rather be happy for a few years than miserable for all of eternity.

4. Say, character number three (Nick), how much do you weigh?
145, it's as much as my ankles can take.

5. Have you ever loved and lost, number one (Ril)? I'll bet it was your fault, wasn't it? Tsk tsk...
I've spent all of eternity loving and losing. It's a battle I'll never win. Everytime I vow never to love again, to close and harden my heart to any emotion I meet someone who insists on my affection. I care not a whit for Red. He can rot in hell for all I care. Ixion did not deserve the brutal death that was forced upon her. Dakarys... Kimani... Words cannot describe the pain I felt when I lost you. Yes, it was my fault. I would do anything to change what happened. E ki su, Dak.

6. Oh, no character two (Karyn)! You've just strolled into a department store to admire the lovely washing machines when a guy with a nylon stocking over his head runs in and holds the whole store at gunpoint! How will you save the day?
Well, I'm not a coward. But my lack of sight might cause problems in being a hero. I suppose I'd call 911. That would be the smart thing to do.

7. Number Three (Nick), tell your best "Yo Momma" joke.
Yo Momma is soo big she sat on my Harley and it told her to get off.

8. Who is the one person you cannot live without, character number one (Ril)? Why? (Please don't say Oprah, please don't say Oprah...)
I've learned to live without the people I love.

9. Hey, number two (Karyn), tell me one of your deepest, darkest secrets. To make you feel better, I'll tell one of mine: I don't have any deep, dark secrets.
I hate my parents for giving me up. I wish they had at least tried to raise me.

10. All characters: What kind of music do you listen to? Do you play any inst... ]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/16326695/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/16326695/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 08:19:32 PST

Rules:
The first ten folks who respond to this journal get featured. I go to their page and chose my fav three pics, and I post a link to it on here.

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]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/16251809/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/16251809/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 19:13:47 PST
However I've been given a tremendous chance. Every February there is a four day writers conference held at a hotel on Pikes Peak in Colorado. I would love to go as I've been invited to attend. There are editors and publishing agents along with intensive workshops that would be incredibly helpful for my work. The only thing is the expense. I've broken it down to this.

Hotel: $350 a night. That's at a discounted rate, I can get it at half that if I share a room with another conference attendee

Taxi: $100. I need to go back and forth from the airport to the hotel and if I stay at a different (aka cheaper) hotel then from the hotel to the conference site.

Air-fare: $650. Non-negotiable. I've got to get there somehow and flying seems the best option. I just hope I can get a cheap rate.

Conference: $650. This is a non-negotiable fee. If I pay now it's $50 less than paying a week before the conference. This covers the fee, most of my meals and all my materials that I need for the classes.

Food: $75. There's a couple meals that I'm on my own, that's also taking into account lay-overs at airports and such.

Miscellaneous: $100. There will be vendors for books and writing resources and I know I'll be spending some money on that type of thing. This'll also cover costs if I decide to go shopping or something along those lines.

Clothes: $200. Colorado. In February. For a southern girl like me, that's scary. I'm going to need some heavy jackets and sweaters plus thick leggings, pants, boots. All that fun stuff. This might be hacked down to $50 if necessary but I'd much rather get the things I need. As this conference is in a business environment I'm also going to need to get at least one suit.

So that adds up to a grand total of $3175. I don't even have half of that. I'm willing to go into debt to make it to Colorado. I'm planning on taking a loan out from my brother (Uncle Money-banks over there.) and maybe visiting the bank. But without a job and no credit, paying it back is going to take a lot of time. Where do you come in? Well... Commissions, buying a print of some of my photographs or just plain donating. I know I'm asking a lot. But this means a lot to me. If you can find it in your heart to give a little money to my cause I'd be very grateful

~E

Edit

A few hours after typing this my mom was able to talk my brother into lending me $1,000. After a bit of refiguring and budget reduction this sum (plus what I already have) will cover my entire cost!! I'M GOING TO COLORADO!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited it's unbelievable. I'll be going by myself, which is in itself a little frightening. I've never traveled alone before. I just hope I can make connecting flights, get taxis, etc without too much hassel. Gods I'm so thrilled. Thanks for your good wishes everyone. They helped

Now just hope I get published

~E

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/16219739/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/16219739/ Wed, 02 Jan 2008 07:27:28 PST Thanks, love!

Q1- IF YOU WERE GRANTED AN EXTRA EYE, WHERE WOULD YOU HAVE IT INSTALLED?

I wouldn't haven't installed yet as I'd keep it as a spare until I needed it. I really think that's the most logical thing to do.

Q2- WHAT'S THE MOST DANGEROUS THING YOU'VE EVER DONE?

Physically: Barrel racing, cliff diving, bungee jumping
Emotionally: Listened to what other people think about me

Q3- WHAT COLOUR ARE YOUR EYES?

Hazely green

Q4- DO YOU PRACTICE VOODOO?

Voodoo? No. Magick? I dabble here and there.

Q5- CAN YOU PUT YOUR LEG ROUND YOUR NECK?

Despite numerous years as a gymnast I've never been able to achieve that.

Q6- WOULD YOU GO UP IN SPACE IF INVITED?

Oooh, yes!

Q7- IF YOU COULD SWAP PLACES WITH ANYBODY FOR A DAY, WHO WOULD IT BE?

Huh... I don't know. There's no one person I envy. Though I suppose if I could be some hot guys arm candy for a day, I wouldn't complain

Q8- WHAT IS THE NEXT BEST THING SINCE SLICED BREAD?

Phantom, hands down

Q9- DO YOU THINK WE DESCENDED FROM APES?

Eh. I try not to get into these types of discussions. But since I am... I believe in intelligent design.

Q10- LEFT HANDED, RIGHT HANDED OR AMBIDEXTROUS?

Right.

Q11- WHO WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO SHARE A SLEEPING BAG WITH?

Lo-Lo, just us a sleeping bag and a star full of skys.

Q12- WHAT'S YOUR POISON?

90% Dark Chocolate.

Q13- WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE FOODSTUFF?

Uhhh... *looks up* I already answered that, I guess. But, hmm. Chocolate or a really good veggie pizza with Spike.

Q14- ARE YOU AFRAID OF DEATH?

No. "Death is the natural course that life takes. Immortality is not a gift but rather a curse" Yeah, waxing philosophical.

Q15- IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL?

Neither. It's just... Half

Q16- DO YOU HAVE ANY WAR WOUNDS OR BATTLE SCARS, IF SO, WHERE?

On my tummy from surgery. Wrists from my self. Knuckles and palms are pretty scrapped up from forgetting that mirrors are sharp x_x

Q17- WHO ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?

"Song of Love" Rebecca St. James

Q18- STARSIGN?

Virgo

Q19- WHAT MOVES YOU?

Music, sweeping, sad, angry... Music is the soul's cry. It is one of the few things that can actually bring me to tears.

Q20- WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE MOVIE(S)?

I love epic films. Lord of the Rings and Star Wars are some of my all time favorites. The Princess Bride, Pans' Labyrinth, Secret Window, Seven Brides for Seven BRothers, Phantom of the Opera. I love musicals and scary films, romance and thrillers. As long as it's not stupid or too gory then I'll probably enjoy it.

Q21- WHAT IN YOUR OPINION IS A RIGHT RIVETTING READ?

Susan Kay's "Phantom" of course. I read a lot of mysteries and psychological thrillers. My all time favorite author is Ted Dekker. Anything written by him is teriffic

Q22- WHAT IS YOUR MOST REDEEMING PERSONALITY TRAIT?

I'm great with children. I love the little buggers beyond belief.

Q23- WHAT IS YOUR MOST ANNOYING PERSONALITY TRAIT?

I'm extremely sarcastic and have a biting sense of humor. I also don't show my positive feelings very well

Q24- IF YOU COULD ONLY LISTEN TO ONE SONG, OR PIECE OF MUSIC, FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, WHAT WOULD IT BE...?

Per Te by Josh Groban

Q25- WHO IS THE MOST INSPIRING PERSON YOU HAVE MET?

Emily Taber. Ami, I love you! That old lady is 96 and still kicking. I have the greatest conversations with her.

Q26- ARE YOU HAPPIER THAN YOU WERE A YEAR AGO?

No, I don't think so. Neither am I any less happy. I'm pretty content, I think.

Q27- WHAT WAS YOUR BIGGEST EXTRAVAGANZA LAST YEAR?

Black patent leather heels. They're properly broken in now and those babies do wonders for my legs.

Q28- WHEN DID YOU LAST WASH THE DISHES, OR HOOVER?

Ha! I washed the dishes 20 minutes ago ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/16105830/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/16105830/ Wed, 26 Dec 2007 08:08:44 PST
I know I said I was back. But I got sick again. Damn my immune system. Headaches are bad and then I got Carpal Tunnel. In both hands!!! Yeah, I'm not happy about that. It's getting better but I've still got a lot of soreness in my wrists if I type or crochet for too long.

Josh Groban's Noel...... Good Lord. It's lovely. That boy's voice is delectable. There are a few songs that are not his best but overall it's a gorgeous Christmas album and well worth the wait that us Grobanites have been through.

The New Year is coming up and I've decided to make some resolutions. I normally don't but I feel compelled to do so this year.

1) Write something new every day.
2) Take more pride in my appearance, aka Wear MAKE UP!
3) Find ways to feel pretty even if it's just wearing sexy underwear.
4) Start exercising and get down to a decent dress size.
5) Seriously work on a novel for publication.

Well, there's five. Maybe I can keep at least one or two of them.

Hope you all have a great New Year and remember "One never knows if tomorrow may come. Today may be the last day you have."

~E

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15717118/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15717118/ Thu, 29 Nov 2007 06:03:34 PST
Things have been.. crazy to say the least. My headaches are to the point where they are daily. Horrible throbbing pain, light and noise sensitivity the whole deal. It's so crippling. I hate it but the myriad of medications I've tried hasn't helped at all. The most relief I get is from good old Mountain Dew. How ironic.

My poor NaNo project has fallen to the wayside. I feel like a neglectful parent. I want to continue it but the time, effort and desire to actually sit down and write are missing. I'll probably pick it up again, from time to time you may see another chapter of my Mirror saga. Whether it'll ever be finished is yet to be seen. I'm looking forward to getting back to my own writing. Once I'm able to write.

So. I talked to my Cardiologist on Tuesday. Things in that area seem to be going well. There's no change in medication/diet so I'm happy about that.

Mentally/Emotionally I am not doing well. I could use a change of scenery but I have no money to solicit such. *sigh* I seem to be stuck.

Thanksgiving was lovely. I cooked the dinner for the entire family and nothing burned! I was thrilled beyond belief. The Christmas tree is up and so are all the lights, decorations, etc. Mom and I went shopping on Friday and we had a good time, as always, and got some rather good deals. I talked her into buying me a few things, one a rather smexy leaning jumper dress. It's one of those clingy cotton affairs that looks good on most people and I was particularly pleased with how it appeared on me.

I'm sorry if I've missed people's submissions, I had to clear out my inbox. I had over 100 deviations o_O I think I subscribe to far too many people and there's still more to see out there!

Well I hope everyone is doing well. Keep your eyes open for some new work from me. I will do my best to start writing again.

~E

Clubs:



]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15529133/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15529133/ Fri, 16 Nov 2007 04:01:39 PST had to go and ruin it. Thanks Neen

However this does NOT mean I'm willing to be tagged every time. I may just ignore the taggings. Or I'll play the submissive and quietly accept. Who knows? Anyhow...

Post-It Rules:
1. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
2. Tags should write a journal of these facts
3. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named
4. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they have been tagged


Random Fact #1-My youngest brother was born on my 17th birthday.

Random Fact #2-I own more black tshirts than of any other color by at least 2 to 1.

Random Fact #3-I have been to every coast of the US but have never left.

Random Fact #4-My comfort food is "Super Soup" a concoction I picked up from my boyfriend.

Random Fact #5-If a book doesn't grab my attention/have a good plot before the first 100 pages is up I won't finish reading it. I'm also one of those people who read the last page to see if I'll like the ending before reading it.

Random Fact #6-I have no piercings or tattoos. If I ever get inked it will probably be a small one on my shoulder blade, but I'm still undecided.

Random Fact #7-My "favorites list" on my MP3 players includes Three Days Grace, Josh Groban, Loitumas and Haywood Banks.

Random Fact #8-If I had to be stranded on a desert island with only one item I would chose to bring "How To Get Off An Island In Ten Easy Steps" which is an actual book.



For the Taggings!







I know, I know. It says 8. But that just seems cruel. So 5 it is.

On another note.... I haven't been uploading. Mainly because I haven't been writing. I've been depressed and sick and cold. I need to get my sorry ass moving. And I'm trying. I want to write. But.. Yeah..

How're ya'al doing?

~E

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15432953/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15432953/ Fri, 09 Nov 2007 10:59:24 PST

I've had a bad headache since last night. I go to clogging every Thursday night. I'm one of the dancers in the front row so it's important that I keep my skills up and go to class for the full two hours every week. So in the middle of learning a new routine I'm hit with this awful headache. Headaches are nothing new. I can't remember the last time I didn't have at least a small one, they're pretty much a constant these days. But I could tell that this was going to turn into a migraine. I get migraines about three months or so and when I get them I really get them. Light and sound sensitivity, nausea. Everything. So I gather the two sibs who came to class with me and drove carefully home. Leaving dance class early is something I never do. So yeah.... It's still clinging on but not as bad as yesterday.

I haven't written my NaNo in a couple days and I feel very guilty. I'm not sure I like the concept of NaNo. The whole idea is to "just write" but I'm an editing addict. I always edit as I go, rewriting phrases and whole paragraphs until it's perfect. The fact that I can't (self-editing is the biggest "No!" of NaNo) is killing me. So.. Yeah..

My parents anniversary is tomorrow. 24 years. That's insane. I don't know how Mom's put up with Dad's wierdness for that long. But they really do go well together. I'm happy for them. And a tad jealous.

Signing off. Enjoy ya'als weekend!!

~E

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15315414/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15315414/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 12:00:06 PDT
So I was up at 6 this morning. Partially because of my insomnia, partially because of the children who were already away, partially because today is the first day of NaNoWriMo!!

It took me about 8 hours off and on, mostly off, to get my words written but they are written! The Mirrors now has its first chapter

Last night was Halloween and we had a nice family party since we don't really "celebrate." I dressed all the kids up and they looked so ca-yoot! There's some pictures in the gallery but the majority of them turned out blue. Blue. I don't know why as my camera has never done that before.

Afterwards Josh, Ben and I went out for an hour. We visited Gramma, popping out of the jeep in her driveway to scare the crap out of the trick or treaters. And of course we took the best candy for ourselves. ^_^

So yeah... Hope you enjoy the pictures and the chapter. If you decide to read it.

~E

Edit: How could I forget??? I won the 's contest! Won as in first place!!! I mean.. Dude. That was pretty incredible. I wasn't expecting to place at all. So yeah. I've got agood day

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15244898/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15244898/ Sat, 27 Oct 2007 14:29:31 PDT
I'm scared stiffer than a ... well.. you know.. one of those. And I have a co-author!! The lovely and talented is going to be helping me out on this. We've got a plot and a basic idea of where we're going with this. We'll switch off days writing 1500 words per chapter, 30 chapters total. We may do a prologue/epilogue of 1500 words to fill in the gaps.

*blinks* So I'm not going to be posting much. Not that October has been a great month for me in the posting department. Between the surgery and just life in general my creative juices has taken a horrible kick in the gonads. I'm hoping NaNoWriMo will either put some much needed Oomph into my imagination or just make me hella grateful to be writing my own stuff.

Would you guys be interested in reading the entire thing? Or excerpts? That way you still get something to read and I can still post. Opinions?

I won 's contest. She's going to be drawing me a portrait of my OC and muse, Ril Lycanes. I know I haven't said anything about her before now. Shame on me. I just don't know what to post about her. I've been writing about the sadistic bi- I mean... wonderful girl since I was 14. I might go back through my enormous pile of filled notebooks and see what I can dig up. Again, if you're interested.

I'm also waiting back on to see if I won their contest. I was supposed to know on Thursday.

So.. yeah..

OH! I made what is possibly the worst decision of my LIFE! I picked up Frederick Forsyth's Phantom of Manhattan which I heard was the worst Phantom book ever written. I wanted to see if it lived up to it's reputation. Good Gods. The grammar was so horrible that I stopped 20 pages in. Shame on you Freddy! And shame on Lloyd Webber for plugging it!!

On a much better note I also picked up Phantasia which was done by Julian Lloyd Webber. If you're at all a fan of Phantom I suggest finding this recording. It's a string suite and it absolutely blew me away.

Well I have to go see if I can calm a hysterical three year old. Can you say time for dinner?

~E

PS. I wish it was November 1st already. My fingers are itching to start.

PPS. This is the "plot bug" I came up with. I need a title. Suggestions welcome.

Two young women (one in England, one in "elf world") have identical mirrors. One day they look into the glass and see the others reflection. They smile and then shwoosh.... They switch worlds.

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15143115/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15143115/ Sat, 20 Oct 2007 12:04:07 PDT
I'm still recovering from surgery. Damn surgical glue pulls on my skin so much it hurts. ( And my scars are ugly. It kind of scares me, seeing these red lines running across my stomach. I mean.. I have other scars but these are different. Maybe in the simple fact that the others were... well.. self-inflicted. I don't know. It must be a mental thing. Or perhaps it's because of the location? The stomach is a rather sexual area and one would like for it to be perfect. *shakes head* Whatever. I'm rambling.

I've been struggling to find time to do any writing. And when I do find the time I don't have inspiration. I've worked a bit on my little PhanPhiction but I really didn't receive that many comments on the first chapter so I'm reluctant to post it here if people aren't going to read it.

Also! I'm looking for two separate beta-readers. One for the afore-mentioned PhanPhiction, the other for a SpiderMan fiction that I'm going to be writing with my brother TheNameIsEcho. We have a plot and a general idea of where we want it to go but nothing written yet. As for the PhanPhiction, I'd just like someone who is well versed in the fandom to read it and critique it. And, of course, if someone wants to be a steady beta for my regular work I'd love that. I need someone who will be a real critic. I enjoy the "That was great!" comments but if you're gonna beta I need Feedback with a capital F.

On another note I'm taking the siblings to go see the Oscar Meyer Weiner Mobile in a few minutes. I'm taking along my camera and get a BUNCH of shots. Hopefully anyways.

I've noticed a growing trend. Naming your camera. Suggestions? I'm a little wary of doing that only because.. Well.. For me names hold meaning. I'd hate to name my camera something and then realize it has a totally different personality. Bah. 'Tis a camera, dear Lizzie. It doesn't have a personality.

Whew..... I'm in a... strange mood today. *blinks*

Read my POTC fic!!!!

Um.. yes.. On to the Weiner Mobile!

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15038767/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15038767/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 04:40:01 PDT

I'm thrilled. And sore.

So it wasn't as bad as I thought. I don't even remember going into the operating room. Funny what morphine will do for you.

I got six scars instead of the expected three and they are sore. Really sore. I haven't looked at them yet, a little frightened to. I suppose I'll do that when I take a bath later today.

I'm still dizzy and my throat is extremely sore. They gave me some medicine that's stronger than vicodin but doesn't knock me out. Smaller pill, too. I'll probably just switch to being House at night and use this other during the day.

Thanks for all your prayers/thoughts/wishes guys! I know they helped.

*laughs* I was really groggy in the recovery room. I asked my nurse if Logan was here. *smiles a little* A'course he wasn't. But I while I was being worked on I dreamt that he was with me the whole time, holding my hand. I guess that's what made me ask.

Oh yeah!! They didn't find anything cancerous/tumerous etc in my gallbladder. It was just some bile that had thickened and blocked the exit. So I'm good to go

I'm not sure how much I'll be active over the weekend but I hope to be back for good by Tuesday.

Love ya'al!

~E

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15012885/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/15012885/ Thu, 11 Oct 2007 09:51:43 PDT
I'm scheduled to go under the knife tomorrow at 2 pm EST. I'm not nervous.

Ok.. Maybe a little. Surgery is serious business.

The surgeon said that he only sees one case of gallbladder cancer every three years.

But.... I just have this feeling. A premonition. And I don't like it.

I talked to a friend of mine on Tuesday and he told me I wasn't allowed to have cancer. He made me laugh, which helped. And he prayed for me. That helped even more.

I'm not an overly religious person and I've purposefully not mentioned my religious affiliation. But prayers have power. Whether you pray to the moon goddess, or christ, buddha, or the puppy next door. The fact that people care enough to pray for me makes me feel better.

So I ask you all for your prayers. Even if you don't pray, send me some thoughts or whisper a wish. It would mean the world to me.

Thank you all.
~E

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14981083/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14981083/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 05:56:57 PDT
First, there's a mass in my gallbladder. It's most likely only a bunch of gallstones that have calcified together. But.. It could be a cancerous tumor. So we are having it removed and after that... Who knows?

Second, my pain is on the wrong side of the stomach for it to be my gallbladder. So while it's still coming out that may not be what's causing my pain.

Third, they're running a CT scan of my pelvic area and stomach. Hopefully this will reveal exactly what the mass is. This is scheduled for tomorrow.

Fourth, they're going to perform an edometriac scope. Basically what they do is slide a tube down my throat and into my stomach. Contained in the tube is a surgical instrument and a camera. They'll take a biopsy of my stomach wall and pictures. Again.. In hopes of discovering the source of my pain. This is scheduled for Friday.

Fifth, I have vicodin!!! I'm trying to only use it at night, since it is rather addictive. But it helps marvelously with the pain. Thank god for pharmaceuticals.

So... I'm going to be very busy. I don't know how much time I'll be able to spend here but I'll try my best to answer comments, notes, etc. I appreciate all of you guys. You help. You really do

Features are still open. Two spaces left. If you want one let me know. This is the last chance. Don't really feel like continuing.

Stole this off of 's journal.

~This or That~

Sunny day at the beach or Autumn in the park? Autumn in the park. Just the beautiful colors decide it for me. Besides. I was promised a moonlight walk by the pond in the autumn.

One Best Friend or several close acquaintances? One best friend outweighs a few acquaintances.

Traditional media or Digital? Well considering that writing is a "traditional" method but I take photographs with a digital camera I would have to say.. Both.

Angel or Devil? Angel of Music!

Chocolate or Vanilla? Lindt 75% Extra Dark Chocolate Truffles. Sex in a wrapper.

Cats or Dogs? Cats. I have like eight. Sorry Lo

Chaos or Order? "This is not anarchy, Evie. This.. This is chaos/"

Quiet or Loud? Either or. Quiet to think in and loud music to work in.

Hot Topic or Old Navy? I'm a Hot Topic enthusiast myself but... *whispers* Old Navy has some nice shirts too.

Loner or Pack dweller? Loner. But I could be a pack member, depending on who was in the pack.

Reality or Illusion? Realistic illusions.

Left or Right? Right.

~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14914939/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14914939/ Thu, 04 Oct 2007 15:46:59 PDT
Arby's never tasted so good.

So today I got impatient and called my Doctor, hoping she could find out my results. 2-5 days. I can't wait 2-5 days!!! It is my gall bladder and I'm going to need surgery.

On one hand I'm thankful that we know what this is and I won't have to continue through all this pain for too much longer.

On the other hand I've never had major surgery before and this rather frightens me. I won't even stay the night in the hospital most likely, but still.

I continue to be in a lot of pain and I'm not sleeping well at night because I wake up in pain. I just want all this to stop.

I'm hoping to get in to see a specialist next week and have the surgery the week after. ^_^

Anne Rice. Why does everyone make such a big deal over her? Because everyone loves her so much I read Interview With The Vampire and in all honesty I was rather bored. I have respect for her if only for the simple fact that she is one of the most read authors out there but not for me. Nope.

Buckaroo Banzai. End of story.

The county fair is this week and next week. If I'm not in too much pain I plan on performing again. I'm trying to decide on a song, there's just so many good ones!! Maybe Jem, or Anna Nalick. Or RelientK! They've got this one song, "Deathbed" that is phenomenal. Bah. I'm so indecisive.

To my rp buddies. Would you guys get online? I miss my entertainment!!!

I won 's kiriban! ^_^ She's making me a shiny picture of me and my boyfriend together. I can't wait to see it.

Hmm... I want some of that fudge that's in the fridge. I think I'll have that.

There's still 3 spots open on my features list!!! Apply, if you haven't already! And of course, check out the people that I featured. There's some amazing art on that list!

FEATURES

I'll be offering a feature to the first 10 people to comment to this journal. I'll be posting a couple of my favourites from your gallery and blahblahblah normal feature stuff. If you get featured, you agree to offer features in YOUR journal. Fair is fair. Spread the love people.



1. Seb has a really unique form of art. He likes monsters ^_^

Tired [link] This is a pretty frigging awesome introduction to Seb's monsters.

Mr. Hands [link] I like this one because it's unexpected. I mean... It's on his hand!!!

Art Trade With Ril Of Fey [link] That's me! ^_^ Ok so this is sort of a shameless self-promotion but I absolutely love how Seb portrayed the portal into the underworld from my story Crossing The River Styx



2. Likes Invader Zim and Sonic the Hedgehog

Lola Bunnie [link] Even if you're not a fan of Sonic, this is a well executed piece of fan art.

Invader Zim Wallpaper [link] I downloaded this one ^_^

Invader Zim in Fox Version [link] Can you say... "cross-over"?



3. She's such a great chica. Random and sweet. I love this girl!

RxR Don't Worry http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14783748/ Fri, 28 Sep 2007 11:51:02 PDT
I joined the 100 Theme Challenge. Only because I felt like it would be a good thing to do. I'm stuck between doing it in order from 1-100 or just randomly picking ones that inspire me. On one hand the thought of doing it in order seems so restricting! But... having to PICK the theme's scares me and sets my need to be controlled in overdrive. I am a strange individual.

Hurrah for heels! I went to the mall with sister-friend on Sunday and found a pair of black patent leather stilettos for $12! Of course they didn't have them in red in my size But they still look rocking hot. A friend of mine has asked for pictures. That seems a little strange to me. Oh well.

I don't know what else to say. Being twenty is no different than being nineteen.

I'd still like help with stamps and my features are still open.

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I'm sick. Like.. really sick. I've been having sharp pains in my stomach for about 10 days now. My mother thinks it's gallbladder but we can't get in to do the tests until Monday. So I probably won't be online much... If it is gallbladder then I'm going to need surgery. If it's not then it might be my ovaries, liver, kidneys and anything else in that area. I've never had invasive surgery before and I'd rather avoid it. But I don't want to go around in pain all the time either. So... yeah..

On a side note the Features are still open! Love ya'al!
~E

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FEATURES

I'll be offering a feature to the first 10 people to comment to this journal. I'll be posting a couple of my favourites from your gallery and blahblahblah normal feature stuff. If you get featured, you agree to offer features in YOUR journal. Fair is fair. Spread the love people.



1. Seb has a really unique form of art. He likes monsters ^_^

Tired [link] This is a pretty frigging awesome introduction to Seb's monsters.

Mr. Hands [link] I like this one because it's unexpected. I mean... It's on his hand!!!

Art Trade With Ril Of Fey [link] That's me! ^_^ Ok so this is sort of a shameless self-promotion but I absolutely love how Seb portrayed the portal into the underworld from my story Crossing The River Styx



2. Likes Invader Zim and Sonic the Hedgehog

Lola Bunnie [link] Even if you're not a fan of Sonic, this is a well executed piece of fan art.

Invader Zim Wallpaper [link] I downloaded this one ^_^

Invader Zim in Fox Version [link] Can you say... "cross-over"?



3. She's such a great chica. Random and sweet. I love this girl!

RxR Don't Worry [link] This is such a cute piece! Check out the companion story...

I Love You Muffy Cake [link] Look at the expression on that poor girls face!

Kasey and Baby Stan [link] I love mom/baby pictures ^_^



4.http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14711883/ Thu, 20 Sep 2007 11:44:43 PDT
I was featured awhile back in someone's journal and I can't remember who it was! So if you're reading this and you're that person let me know ok? And I'm also going to be featured in 's journal. So here's what I'm gonna do.


FEATURES

I'll be offering a feature to the first 10 people to comment to this journal. I'll be posting a couple of my favourites from your gallery and blahblahblah normal feature stuff. If you get featured, you agree to offer features in YOUR journal. Fair is fair. Spread the love people.



1. Seb has a really unique form of art. He likes monsters ^_^

Tired [link] This is a pretty frigging awesome introduction to Seb's monsters.

Mr. Hands [link] I like this one because it's unexpected. I mean... It's on his hand!!!

Art Traded With Ril Of Fey [link] That's me! ^_^ Ok so this is sort of a shameless self-promotion but I absolutely love how Seb portrayed the portal into the underworld from my story Crossing The River Styx



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This gives everyone plenty of time/space/opportunity to get a feature. I know I'm not the most popular deviant out there by a long shot but it's always nice to get some more exposure!



My copy of Susan Kay's Phantom came in the mail yesterday at 11 am. At 2 am this morning I finished it. If you are in anyway interested in the Phantom of the Opera I highly recommend this book. It gives Erik a soul and depth and.... *sighs* This book transforms him from the achingly tormented killing machine into a man with hurts and aches and loves. If I thought I felt for Erik before that was nothing compared to the depth that I ache for him now. That poor, poor man. All he ever wanted was to be loved.



Does anyone know how to put stamps on your journal?? I've got a nice little collection in my favorites and I'd love to put them up there but I have no idea how to get the stamp to show up and not the link to the deviation. HELP!!!!


So yeah.. Thanks for reading! Here's a cookie

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14683805/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14683805/ Tue, 18 Sep 2007 06:38:17 PDT

And Daniel's birthday. Of course. ^_^

I've already gotten all my presents. For some reason I got everything a week early. I haven't quite gotten why just yet but hey! Presents!

I got that LOVELY digital camera I'd been saving up for. So new camera + extra money = happy Lizzy! So expect a lot more pictures, hopefully with an increase in skill now that I have my own snazzy camera.

My aunts gave me an Ecko watch and a Vera Bradley bag. Methinks they're trying to turn me prep. But the watch is nice, although big and the bag is small and black so I like 'em.

Friday I think I'm going out with the girls. Mom will probably tag along to make sure I don't get into trouble. Fun x_x And then I'ma going over to my Aunt's house to watch tv. Since.. you know.. we don't have tv.

And I'll be taking Daniel out to breakfast/lunch so he can pick out his present. I love having a sibling to share my birthday with. He'll be three and he's just great!

Hmm so... I'm going to ~try~ and write some more. I have to work on my Lover's Requiem project, get the second chapter of Devil's Child up and maybe try some original stuff. I'm just so busy!! Gah!

Anyways... I'm going to post some pictures. Let me know what you think.

~E

PS. I also bought myself a rare edition of Susan Kay's Phantom as a birthday present to myself. ^_^ Yep, I'm happy.

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14585040/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14585040/ Tue, 11 Sep 2007 05:04:36 PDT
So I leave you with a verse that I tweaked to fit today.

Remember, Remember 11th September,
The aeroplane treason and plot,
I see no reason why the aeroplane treason,
Should ever be forgot.

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14375148/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14375148/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 04:23:37 PDT
Cam. You sadistic, vindictive, cold-hearted bitch. I can't believe you've done this to me. I can't believe I was fool enough to let you! Yes, I was in your employ. But Ami paid the bills. Not you. You had no right to criticize my work when there was nothing to criticize. Ami was healthy and safe and happy. I was not hired to do extensive housework but to be a companion to your mother. Yet I mopped the floors, cleaned the kitchen and bathrooms every day that I was there along with a dozen little things Ami would think of through out the day.
Did I complain? No!
Why? Because I love that old woman.
Which is honestly more than I can say about you. Do you spend any more time with her than the half-hour you so graciously give to tuck her into bed some nights? She's 95 years old for fucks sake! She's not going to be around much longer. I spend more time with her than you do and you're her daughter! You need to cherish your mother.
And that's another thing. She is your MOTHER. Not a little girl. Show her some respect. She is not "a cute little thing" She is a dignified lady who deserves to be treated as such. Let her know about the important decisions you make.
Such as hiring help. I know for a fact that she is capable of deciding things. But then maybe that's why you didn't let her know.
As for keeping me as a "back-up'?? You can take that idea and shove it up that pruny ass of yours. I wouldn't work for you again even if you doubled my pay. I will miss Ami. But you, madame Frost, are not worth it.

*sighs* Ok. I feel better. On to the quiz thing.


1. What's a commonly used nickname people call you by? Lizzie. One certain person calls me T'vaer'a ^_^

2. What's your favorite color? I'm a fan of the black-and-purple combination. It's rich, seductive and playful. Although baby blue has also become a new favorite when paired with chocolate brown.

3. What's your favorite food? Ok there's this chocolate... Oh my fucking god. It's the best EVER! Lindt 70% Extra Dark Chocolate Truffles. Wow. It's like sex in a wrapper. They're expensive but WAY worth it. You warm it in your hands for a few minutes to make it soft and then you pop it into your mouth and the shell breaks and the molten inside just explodes onto your tongue and OHHHHH! It's like a chocogasm!

4. Are you a squeamish person? I've attended half a dozen births and that doesn't bother me at all. However violence in movies between two people does. I think it's wrong that people can do that to each other. It's more of a psychological thing than anything to do with my stomach.

5. What's your favorite animal? Wolves. They are like humans, wild and following their instincts but there is one defining characteristic. They are free.

6. Biggest pet peeve? Humans! I honestly can't stand the human race most of the time. They're loud, annoying, smell bad and don't have a shred of decency or intelligence. There are a few exceptions but sometimes I just want to live on a desert island.

7. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be? Burnsville, Minnesota

8. Do you cry easily? No. I don't cry. There are other less painful outlets for emotions than the creation and death of worlds known as teardrops.

9. Do you generally have a good, loving family? Generally, yes. There are things that I would change but on the whole I'm all right with it.

10. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yes! ^_^ He is the best part of my life currently.

11. Do you have many phobias? Only one. I'm deathly afraid of drowning. I can swim and there are times I can even enjoy it. But I am so afraid of being pulled under the water forever that most times at the pool or beach I stay near the edge.

12. Favourite genre of music? I like it all really. Except most country and rap. I get a little picky there.

13. What's your thoughts on homosexuals? Honestly? I don't mind them as people. But I had a bad.... experience almost a year ago that guarantees that I will never be one. I like men, thank you. Don't try and change me because it's not going to happen. So... They have a place in society. I suppose that's my stand on it.

14. Are you a trendsetter, a trend follower, or do you dress originally? I suppose I dress originally. I like dark colors, blacks, browns, greys and purples. I prefer skirts as that is one of my few concessions to be... ]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14260571/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14260571/ Mon, 20 Aug 2007 17:39:25 PDT
Opening Credits: Lance The Turtle-VeggieTales

Waking Up: I Will Be Here-Steven Curtis Chapman

First Day At School: Way Away-YellowCard ((WOOT! Them's my boys.))

Falling In Love: Heaven-DJ Sammy ((OH MY GOD......... That's our song!))

Fight Song: This Love-Maroon5

Breaking Up: Opening Titles-Labyrinth Soundtrack

Prom: Breaking The Habit-Linkin Park

Life: Walk Away, Maybe-Good Charlotte

Mental breakdown: Everything You Ever Wanted-Hawk Nelson ((Nice))

Driving: Beautiful World-Colin Hay ((Fitting))

Flashback: We Have All Been Blind-Phantom of the Opera Soundtrack

Getting back together: Welcome To My Life-Simple Plan

Wedding: This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race-Fall Out Boy

Birth of Child: Dark Carnival Of The Immaculate-I Am Ghost

Final Battle: Don't Matter-Akon

Death Scene: College Kids-RelientK

Funeral Song: Thousand Miles-Rockapella

End Credits: I Won't Say I'm In Love-Hercules Soundtrack



((It's official. I have varied tastes. I'm disappointed there was no TDG though ))

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14109819/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/14109819/ Fri, 10 Aug 2007 18:44:37 PDT
My writers guild is holding it's annual First Novel contest. I'd like to participate this year. Only thing is that I'm behind on my lessons for the guild x_x So if I don't get caught up I won't be able to submit anything. If I get caught up I won't have time to write anything. I ~hate~ these situations!!

My brothers and I wrote an interesting rp while driving to Orlando. It's amazing what an rp reveals about those close to you o_0

I found out, just before we left, that Logan is just fine. From a FRIGGING YAHOO NEWS FEED! Boy... You are so dead. You hear me? D-E-A-D.

I'm working four days this week. It may not seem like a lot but it is. I love Ami and she's a great old lady. But it's boring work.

Happy Birthday Mum! (43)

Happy Birthday Josh! (18)

Happy Birthday Stephen! (11)

Gee... All within a week too.

I was hoping to get a ~ton~ of writing done while on vacation. But it seems my laptop can't hold battery for even an hour and that was taken up by the aforementioned strange rp. I feel so guilty. So I will banish myself to my room to write. AFter I take an arnica bath. My side hurts.

'Til next time.
~E

P.S.
Go to my favorites and read "My Type" I swear I laughed so hard I cried.

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/13981175/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/13981175/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 04:23:53 PDT
Most of you know that there were at least seven killed.

Some of you know that they stopped searching for survivors at one this morning.

What none of you know is that is where my boyfriend lives. I've heard nothing.

I am scared.

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/13938883/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/13938883/ Mon, 30 Jul 2007 09:24:47 PDT
Anyways... I've decided to write the story behind the opera. Armed with lyrics, the music, and my own twisted sense of the world I shall write!

The first piece is up, Crossing The River Styx. The next one is called Our Friend Lazarus Sleeps.

I have to admit there are at least three tracks on this album that I don't like. But they are necessary to the story. I have a sinking feeling that those will be less than satisfactory when I'm done writing them OR! Maybe it will just push me harder to write better!

Who knows?

Anyways. So this project is inspired by Logan ((I LOVE you!!)) and I Am Ghost. Who'd have thunk it?

~E

]]> ~Riloffey http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/13806842/ http://Riloffey.deviantart.com/journal/13806842/ Fri, 20 Jul 2007 10:07:22 PDT
I've been more than pleased with everyone's response. A ton of people have been kind and welcoming and just all out nice. It makes me wonder what I've done... *shifty eyes* Must have done something...

Anyhow. I'm going to try and do some writing. Maybe. I mean I'll at least ~think~ about doing some writing. But there's ~Vampire Knight~ to read and roleplaying to do. And if I write I have to awake the muse. She's been such a FIB lately that I'm reluctant to do so. We'll see.

~E

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