http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Rotzi&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Rotzi en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 22 Nov 2009 12:54:56 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/28405072/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/28405072/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 21:58:47 PST Stress level has gone way down. Granted there was a lot of that last week at work. 48 people were laid off or forced into early retirement. Our call center lost a manager and the director of the center, Covington lost their only manager, and the rest were at Waynesboro and some of the retail stores.

:/ Kinda had all of us worried that we'd come into the work with the chains on the doors. I'm still not certain how I feel about all of it -- it was my manager that lost her job.

Mm.. Back pain sucks.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/28119782/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/28119782/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 06:24:07 PST
Seriously, I think now that if I had a choice when it came to college with AIP I may not have gone. Student loans are a nightmare. Especially since I can barely make ends meet right now. I suppose a call to the 'rents and grand'rents is in store to see if I can get some financial help.

There is a lot of not happy going on right now.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/27885425/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/27885425/ Wed, 21 Oct 2009 08:52:48 PDT
I got my results from the doc, and I have a clean bill of health. No cancer. YAY! It was actually a nurse that laid my fears to rest because what she said to me made sense. "If the lumps hurt that's good. It means it's normal breast tissue. Cancer doesn't hurt."

That got me thinking. She had a very good point. Cancer isn't really part of you and wouldn't have any nerves in it.

:/ It's a shame that a doc couldn't have told me that a while ago so I didn't have such a freak out.


Also.... 'm still car-less. That may be remedied soon, though. I'd just need to default on my loans again so I'd have the money for a car...

Ah well. I'm still working on the pinup calendar. Woot! I have most of the images sketched out, I just need to finalize them, scan them, and color.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/27135027/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/27135027/ Thu, 10 Sep 2009 15:25:40 PDT
I'm hoping that the 15th gets here soon, yet I don't want it to come. Seriously, it's nice to know that something is wrong with you, but there are times you're just like, "Why is this something I have to worry about? Why should I worry about it? I've been good(ish) person... things like this shouldn't happen to good people." Except they do, and it rarely happens to the assholes that deserve it. At least I hope that they'll get their comeuppance in the next life.

As for what I'm talking about...

I'm not certain if I mentioned it here or in another journal of sorts. Back in February I went to the doctor for my physical. There was a small lump on my chest. It was small, about the size of the pencil eraser. There were two more small ones like that. The doctor told me to come back in three months, but with how busy I've been and lacking a car, I haven't had a chance to swing by there until now.

Aw, c'mon, Rotzi, small li'l bumps on the chest aren't nothing to worry about...

...yea, right. Not only have they grown, it's moved to the other side, and there are seven. I just really want to find the closest rock to crawl under and just pretend that it's happening to someone else.

I called my mum today to tell her the news. While I don't want to seem like an emotional, clingy child, she has offered to come to the doctor's with me, and I'm probably going to take her up on that offer.

Kinda funny. I always wanted a breast reduction... Careful what you wish for, kids. Fate has this -great- sense of humor.

At least I have a bottle of Bailey's and a bottle of Absolut at home that are unopened. I figure I can celebrate if it's something minor, or drink a little while depressed, get disgusted with myself for doing it, and come out stronger to find a way to fight through it if it's something major.

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I went to the doctor and I've been scheduled for an ultrasound of my breasts and a mammogram. I'll give an update for what happens.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/26426516/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/26426516/ Thu, 06 Aug 2009 15:27:16 PDT
In any case, when I got back online deviant art was blocked. According to IT the viruses spawned from here. It very well may be that -- gods know that there are a lot of ads.

In other news, James is still in the shop with a short. My brother is coming to get him today. I've only 2.26 to my name, and thank the gods that I managed to get my student loan payment in for the month.

Now I just need to save up for new glasses and a doctor's appointment due to some issues with some lumps on my breasts. I'm hoping for the best but since breast cancer is kind of in the family.... yeeeeea. Outlook not so good at the moment. The doctor comes first. Then the glasses, that much is for certain. I can suffer with the contacts.

About the glasses -- two days ago I was practicing with my bo staff for the first time in ages. I ended up catching it wrong and whacking myself in the face. It's just the nose-guard on the glasses that broke, but still... I haven't had a new set since 2003...

Ah, fun times.
Well, teh rotzi is gone for now. Take care, all. Maybe my roomies and I will get the internet at some point so I can update more.



In another note, the highlight of my night last night was.... yeeeeea... Apparently I found out I can bury my face in my boobs. I was vaguely amused by this, and even told my roomie. Actually, what I told her was "Hey! Look! I can motorboat myself!" followed by "...I just drooled on my tit. *snickersnort*". That had her in a five minute laughing fit.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/25983800/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/25983800/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 11:26:45 PDT
In the middle of the turn, just as I pass the garage, James starts shuddering, sputtering, then dies. AGAIN. Gyaaaaa!! I manage to have enough momentum to pull into the Harbor Inn (really awesome seafood restaurant, by the way) and stop him in their empty parking lot. Not. Fun.

Granted, I had my moment of laughing at the irony. I went over to Monro after leaving my brother a message. The mechanics there were like "What!? It's working again? And you're BACK!?"

Yeeeeeeeea. It was amusing, but, dammit!, I want my care to WORK for more than a week!



So, uh, with that said... I'm probably gonna do the 5.00-10.00 sketch commissions. Any takers?

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/25864348/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/25864348/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 12:59:00 PDT
For a while I was avoiding going to the garage because I was terrified at the amount it would cost for my car that they couldn't fix.
Zero bucks. YAYS. @_@; I was worried that they were going to actually charge me.

===update===

O: I got the most awesome message today from my big brother.

My James is fixed. It took my brother only 30 minutes. YAY! I can get my car tomorrow!! <3 James, how I have missed thee.

Per my agreement with my car, I'm gonna spend tomorrow cleaning him up both inside and out. << Though I'm probably gonna do it via car wash for the outside.

I have a car again!! *squeaks*

Also, the total cost is still zilch.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/25794154/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/25794154/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 11:06:02 PDT
In other news... I had a me day not too long ago and I feel so much better. Life really got me down and what not for a while but I'm working on getting it back together. Breakdowns at work aren't fun at all.

My me day consisted of keeping my roomies out of the house all day and I cleaned. It's kinda funny how going on a cleaning spree for me makes me feel like I'm taking that first step toward getting it all together. Confidence levels shot up after that -- and even moreso after I dyed my hair again. It's purple this time. I'll get some piccies posted soonish.

And now.. break time's over. Back to the grind.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/25272982/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/25272982/ Wed, 01 Jul 2009 14:14:16 PDT
I'm just declaring today Murphey's Law day. I get up, I get ready to meet my grams and everyone for lunch... my car breaks down. I call the cops to let them know, they call a tow truck... I really thought it was just because I ran out of gas (the gas gauge in the car is a bit wonky). We get to the gas station... and that wasn't the problem. The guy towing me takes me to Monroe and, thank the gods, only charges me 45.00. Originally when the police call them it's 200.00 + 4.00 a mile.

Because I wasn't freaking out or a bitch he only charged me the 45.00.

I just hope my car can be fixed. Ugh..

~*[update]*~

Okay, so James, my car, is still in the shop. It was the fuel pump or distributor like they originally thought, but the garage did find some leaks that were causing some problems. It's been decided that it's the computer in the car that's causing it to muck up.

So I relay this info to my big brother... which I got the car from. His response? He called me an idiot because I clearly should have known better than to leave my car at their shop (my James that would not budge a bloody fucking inch down the road despite my begging and pleading). Okay... I promptly told him bye and haven't called him since. Yea... one of the things that tends to really upset me is someone calling me an idiot when I know what I'm doing or I know I have no other choice but to do that. "Oh, but you could have had it towed home." Yea, uh-huh, riiiiight. Like I have extra money lying around to get it towed AGAIN. The 45.00 I gave the mechanic was all I had left. Period. Luckily I did get paid that day, but that money went toward bills and my student loan.

So, James is still in daycare, and I need to buy him a computer. Joy. I can't even get myself a new one.

~*[update numba 2]*~

Okay, I've just found out I need to write James off as dead. I got an estimate from the dealership on how much it would cost to look at it and, because it's the wiring and it'll take sooooo long I'm looking at $200.00. I'm just gonna have my brother tow it to my gramma's and figured out something from there.

So, I'm out a car, out of a lot of money (at least I can refund the comp), and kinda (very) upset. I'm gonna start working on my demo reel again (I put it on hold due to life), and see about getting a light table and some animation paper. Maybe I can get someone to fix the charging port on my laptop so I can use it so I don't lose my programs.

I'm looking into getting a used car... though I may just bite the bullet and see how much monthly payments on a new car will be. Goddess knows I can barely make ends meet right now, but, hell, if I can live off of 100.00/month in food in college I can do it here, and I don't want to inherit someone else's problems with used car.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/25077972/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/25077972/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 20:11:25 PDT
Yeeeeeeeea. I had one with the same guy in it about, oh, 4-5 months ago. With what I've noticed wth me if I have the same dream with someone I don't know it tends to either just be a one time thing or it happens for about a week straight then stops. It's never reoccured until now. Oddly, that bothers me. Especially since the two dreams were different.

The first dream was sort of a zombie apocalypse (if I butchered the word, I don't care.. to tired) and my roomie, her mum and I are out trying to survive in Pittsburgh (I know, worst place ever to try to survive the zombie attack). This guy, about 6'-6'2", shoulder length dirty blond hair, and muscled, and a friend of his come in. I look at them and ask what they're doing in my dream. He looks at me and just shrugs. I dunno what happened exactly, I just remember getting pissed at attempted to attack him. Next thing I know I'm pinned to his chest, his hand is on my throat, I come to the realization I like getting strangled (sorry if that's TMI), he pauses, and then murmurs, "That's interesting..."
That's when I wake from that dream.

The most recent one was last night. Same guy. This time he's sort of a shape shifter (may a werewolf) and it's at my dad's house back in Covington. For some ungodly reason I'm actually visiting there and staying the night. Something calls my attention outside that night and I go out to investigate. There's this massive black wolf out there and his pack. There's also some kittens out there that the wolf is investigating. I dunno why, logic must have failed me in the dream, but I went out there to get the wolves away from the kittens. The alpha pounces me and shifts to human form and it's that guy again. He bites me, says he's getting closer, and then something else I can't recall, and I wake up.

UGH. Seriously, this really does bother me. I find myself compelled to find answers for this and I'm dumbfounded. Any out there have a clue?

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24958850/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24958850/ Tue, 26 May 2009 10:53:40 PDT >; And one of the most expensive. Seriously, I've seen used copies of this game go for over 200.00. A new copy is generally 350.00-400.00. :3 I got mine for 150.00. And I also got Those Who Hunt Elves, Gall Force: Eternal Saga, Shinesman (<3), and Knights of Ramune. <<; I watched all but Those Who Hunt Elves last night.

I've also found that while on the typical con diet of take out, Ramen, and whatever candy I was able to get I managed to lose two inches on my waist and drop five pounds. Granted, I was walking everywhere and taking the T. Ugh. My feet may no longer hurt but my legs still do!

In other news I may be selling costumes and what not for the next con (and whatever other cons I end up going to). My jacket got oogled a lot. And I was told I probably could have sold it for 50+ bucks! Weeha!

And I realized after getting back from the con that I got no pictures of either myself or my roomie when we were Sokka and Zuko.... yeeeea... too busy hunting people down with my camera. Like the awesome Link trio, the twins that were Ichigo and Shirosaki/Hichigo, a really awesome Ishida... some more Legend of Zelda people, and someone that actually made an awesome Axel (they had the right build and their hair did not fail).

When we got back on Monday night we staggered to the bedroom and went ker-flop on the nearest bed. I am going to claim that nothing existed Monday until 12:38 PM. After that nothing existed outside of my futon.

Wee...

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24828037/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24828037/ Mon, 18 May 2009 19:50:35 PDT
The only think I'm not looking forward to when it comes cosplaying as a guy would be binding my chest down. ><; DDDs are not easy and it's worse than a corset when it comes to breathing. Ah, the joys of duct tape... because ace bandages are too small to do it properly...

In other news... It looks like after driving back from Richmond on Monday morning I may have to still come in to work that day. Turns out the girl that was swapping days with me didn't have that day off... Yeeeeeeeea.... Not fun. And the managers were out today. Joy. So depending on how exhausted I am upon getting back from Boston Anime I may or may not show up at work.

I can hear me now. 4 am, calling the TL phone going, "Hi! This is Jessi Redman. Just calling to let you know that it's 4 am-ish, I'm still driving back from Richmond and I'm this many hrs from Daleville. i'm not going to show up at work today. I honestly did try to get the day off." ...Maybe I can get her to call me on my off day to see what we can do...

Ugh.. I need s'eep. Lots of it.



Also, is anyone else going to Boston Anime?

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24654407/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24654407/ Fri, 08 May 2009 16:01:18 PDT
In other news, I have acquired a bracelet of awesome epicness. It's a bead bracelet. And it has squirrel vertebrae on it. It's by far the spiffiest things I've seen in ages!

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24548308/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24548308/ Sat, 02 May 2009 12:57:58 PDT
So, there I was, on my stomach in a hospital gown waiting... waiting... I ended up sleeping for an hour and no one came int. Also, during this time of waiting about 6 or more people that came in after me were seen and released. Four other people who were there before me walked out because they were never seen by anyone -- one of which had a broken wrist and had been there for two hours already. At some point Streea flagged down a nurse because the intitial pain meds did two things: Jack and Shit. 4:15 am rolls around and the nurse FINALLY comes back and gives me another shot. She told me there wasn't anything more they could do for me because the pain was "chronic" and I'd need to follow-up with my normal doctor in a week.

Finally the pain subsides, I get released, get pain subscriptions, and we go to IHOP because we're starving. We order food and I completely and totally decimate it. I also told the waitress we had that I loved her because she gave me 3x as much hot cocoa for the price of one hot cocoa. Then I called into work letting them know that, hey, it's 5x am, I got out of the hospital ER and that I'm not comign into work and I have a doctor's note. Life is all skippy. We got home and I slept until 2 pm.

The next day we went to CVS to fill my perscriptions because mal-wart sucks when it comes to it. We got the meds, went home, I took them, and went back to sleep. The next day I was feeling better. I even went to work... then two hours later I realized that the pain meds weren't working at all. I left in tears again and went to my doctor -- I love it that they accept walk-ins. While I was there for 4 hours again, at least they saw me and didn't forget about me. I also had a few sets of xrays done on my hips. The doc was appalled that they didn't even do that at the ER and called them dumbasses (not literally but it was obvious) because they called the pain chronic when it had actually only started the previous Saturday. She upped my pain meds (I'm now on percocet) and gave me some for when the pain lessens and I don't need something so high anymore. She called the Rxs over and sent me on my merry way with another shot and a doctor's note. I get over to CVS and wait for them to be filled.

Then, after an hour, I find out from the pharmascist that I needed to get a written perscription for the percocet. The pain meds by this time have worn off, walking is killing me - and getting in and out of my blazer caused the white hot pain I've only read about in books to shoot off behind my eyes. I didn't complain though since I knew it wouldn't get me anywhere. I put my things down, went to the car, went back to the doctor's office, got the perscription, and went back. The lady in the pharmacy that rang me up said I was possibly the nicest customer she's had with this issue. I told her I used to work retail and I work in a call center, so I know that rules and regs need to be followed. That and all I wanted was to get my pain meds and go home and go to sleep. I finally got home around 6:30 pm, made a lunch of Thai instant noodle soup, took my pain meds and steriods and played Soul Caliber until I passed out.

Percocet, like I said, is amazing. On the down side it makes me extremely dizzy, is a narcotic, and gives me cotton mouth. Yesterday in a one hour period I downed more than 2 liters of water and was still thirsty. @_@; I really, really hope that this pain goes away. I'm doing my stretches like a good girl and taking my meds (though limiting the pain meds unless I really need them b/c I don't want to grow addicted to them). I'm even having my roomie drive me to and from work b/c of the side effects.

Ugh. I have an hour until lunch now and I'm utterly starving. At least I have a lot of water...

Something kinda sad is that I'm one of those people that get off on pain... Now I don't wany any sort until this is fixed! Ugh...

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24348343/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24348343/ Mon, 20 Apr 2009 17:49:18 PDT
@_@ Should I ever be in another wedding I'm wearing flats. I have bruises on the bottom of my feet now. Sadly, should I do it again I'd probably still wear the heels... Granted, after this I'm not wearing them for a long, long time. Same thing with make up and having my hair done. << I'm going to forego the blue and get all the pink cut out. I'm starting to miss my normal hair color. I'll have it about an inch long, but I'll get over it. I can work on having Zuko hair for the con next month.

In other news, I found that I am no longer 5'3" as I have been for the past, oh, ten years. Yes. I grew an inch! Yes, I'm also very easily amused. And I'm also going to try to take dance classes. I wanna learn ballroom dancing so badly! After seeing friends of the bride's family doing it... *sigh* *adds it to teh wishlist*

How did everyone else's weekend go?

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24224644/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24224644/ Mon, 13 Apr 2009 16:58:33 PDT [link] ? It's the Cauis and Teiron picture I upload a while ago. Anytime I try to look at it I see a blank screen. I just wanna know if I need to re-upload the image. @_@;

Also... if a picture has been deleted from your computer and going back a month with a system restore doesn't fix it, I'm basically SOL, ja?



...and ignore the mood. Those two just make me amused.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24119386/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24119386/ Tue, 07 Apr 2009 20:02:43 PDT
In other news, my laptop isn't exactly working. It hasn't been up to par for the last 2-3 months. I suppose I'm lucky that it's lasted five years. *sadness* HOWEVER... it's just the power supply. I can always buy a new one. Or save up for a new computer. The only downside to that is finding another "learning" copy of 3d studio max... and maya, and PSCS, and all the other programs I use.

Projects I'm working on:
Stuffs for the Q [link]
100 Poems project - I'm gonna get this done, dammit!
Updating profolio - on hold until I can either get my laptop working or 3D max working on Brandy's comp

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24057742/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/24057742/ Sat, 04 Apr 2009 12:28:25 PDT

And is it just me, or does the obsessed mood emoticon amusing? Just like . *sagely nod*

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]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22847386/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22847386/ Tue, 27 Jan 2009 16:21:13 PST
This offer does have some restrictions and limitations:
- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make!
- What I create will be just for you.
- It'll be done this year.
- You have no clue what it's going to be. It may be a story. It may be poetry. I may draw or paint something. I may bake you something and mail it to you. Who knows? Not you, that's for sure!
- I reserve the right to do something extremely strange.

The catch? Oh, the catch is that you have to put this in your journal as well. We all can make stuff!


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Q update
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Oookay. Currently there's a LOT of editing going on, and Brandy and I are changing a lot of the stories (Yes, Mako-chan, even the awesomely sexy one with the Demon and Priest in Training), but it's for the best! After all, the first time around would be us growing used to the character's voices. NOW we know how'll they respond.

...though I'm thinking the one we currently are calling "House" is going to be redone a third time. ><; Alex keeps not obeying me. Feh. Frelling uke...

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Poetry Project
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I bet you thought I've FORGOTTEN this, ja? Fwahaha. I haven't. I'm still working on it - and I'm about 2/3 of the way finished with the poems.

Now I just need to work on the drawings that go with 'em...

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22675842/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22675842/ Mon, 19 Jan 2009 14:44:56 PST
I've gotten a bit of a head start on The Q here: [link] but it's no where near where I'd rather it be. After all, it only as one picture in it.

:3 On the bright side I'm actively looking for more refs so I can post piccies.

><; Still no piccies of people strangling each other. *sigh* Sadness. ...for people coming in at the wrong time of this, I'm needing refs of someone having someone in a strangle hold.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22653569/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22653569/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 13:17:48 PST
...there is a reason for this. Really. More than likely I'm just gonna grab my roomie and have her mum take the picture.... though more than likely I'll be the one being grabbed. @_@ Sad, she's so much smaller than I am and she's a lot more aggressive. Ah well...

><; I should so just start doing the ref pictures m'self like I did with [link]


:3 However, if anyone finds any good refs of someone getting strangled (not to death, mind you, just someone getting REALLY pissed at another and grabbing that person's neck). Male or female, it doesn't matter. I can easily transform a girl into a guy.



Oh yea! I nearly forgot! Today's by birthday. *sings to the birthday tune* Happy birthday to me. Happy birthday to me. I am turning 24. Happy birthday to me.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22493956/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22493956/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 19:06:58 PST
I have found the perfect way to de-stress myself, and believe me, when we have a lot of rather upset (and sometimes downright nasty) customers calling it's most definitely needed. Especially if I go days without seeing my roomies. Sad, we live in the same place and it's kinda small but aside from accidentally waking up Brandy two nights ago I hadn't seen her since Monday. Ah, such is life, I suppose, when you work two completely opposite shifts. Anyways, back to getting rid of the stress (and I dunno WHY I didn't think of it sooner). I just go upstairs to this awesome little sitting area we have, turn my iPod onto "Chouwa oto" by Kokia and mediate for 15 minutes.

<< And, in all complete honesty, I know I need to de-stress when I start growling, "Mein Gott" a lot or pulling a Sokka from Avatar by doing some serious face palming. Literally, I had a red mark on my forehead (this customer was seriously making teh Rotzi's brainmeats hurt). All I can say on that matter is, if we're walking you step by step and this is the 3RD time you've called in for this (and 5th time we checked the programming just to make sure) HOW in the name of whatever god chose you can you frelling get it wrong!? (By the way, Polaris, I'm going to hurt you. I'm typing frelling instead of our equivalent. It's all your fault with your bloody evilly addictive story.) @_@; I seriously should have just sent her to the store. Instead I took it out on my poor forehead. And it -still- hurts.

Fun fact: For those out there that didn't know "rotz" in German means snot. HOWEVER, back in 7th grade when I came up with Rotzi I was dead set on being a paparazzi, and my nick name would be Rotzi (because to my adolescent mind "Razzi" sounded like it could be spelled "Rotzi" and the later looked far cooler).

...I need an RPG fix, some hot cocoa and Kalua. This weekend off can't come soon enough.


And despite the mood thing-a-mabob, I'm not feeling hostile in any way, shape, or form. The emoticon just amuses me so very much. Heehee. Yays!

And I'm fleeing now before someone here decided I'm better off in a mental institution... *slinks off in ninja fashion*

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22138456/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22138456/ Tue, 23 Dec 2008 10:00:27 PST
As my year of chaos gradually comes to a close, I realize now that I was right on the money when I dubbed my 23rd year that. For those that are wondering what it is by me dubbing this my year of chaos, the number 23 is supposedly the number for the Eris, Goddess of Chaos. So many things in my life have changed. Acquaintances came and went and I learned who my friends really were. I attended my first Pride fest. My family learned I was gay. Job changes. Me finally getting out of Covington (hopefully for good)... Skies above, I could go on, but these were the most prominent.

I must admit, I'm going to miss Covington. For the longest time I considered it home, and a small part of me still considers it that. However, as things changed I realized how ill-suited I was for this town. After all, how does a gay, somewhat vegetarian artist fit in a small, southern town?

Hopefully by this time next year or the summer after my roomies and I will be heading out to Seattle. Those that know me are probably surprised seeing as I've been saying how much I loathe the west coast. Granted, I Have yet to be all over the west coast - I've only been to southern California. Maybe Seattle will change my view of things.

Another thing I think about is maybe the reason I want to set out of Covington so badly is because I'm running. I wasn't exactly thrilled when my family found out I was gay (it was an accident on my cousin's behalf). They sometimes seem to be walking on eggshells around me, or at other times flat out saying that I don't know what I want, I haven't given men a chance. So maybe I am running from the problem instead of trying to fix it. In any case, I know at least my roommates are accepting and don't care what religion, sexuality, etc I am, and for that I'm thankful.

As the year draws to a close I hope those of you that set goals were able to reach them. For those that didn't, at least you tried, ja? May your Gods/Goddesses smile upon you in the coming year.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22057859/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22057859/ Fri, 19 Dec 2008 14:35:10 PST
As it turns out, one of the CSMs daughters came out of the closet. Her reaction? She KICKED her daughter out after having a major bible thumping session.

SERIOUSLY, WTF!? Why the fuck would you throw out your own kid?!
Ja, seriously, we choose to be part of a group of people that are hated. Ja, that makes a lot of fucking sense.

What amuses me yet utterly pisses me off to no end is what a "good christian" this CSM claims to be. "Good christians" probably don't throw their daughters out of the house for being lesbians.

Ugh. Seriously, what the fuck!? I may not know the daughter, but I know the mum, and I think I'm at least right to feel pissed off.

===Update====
Okay, I went in to Walmart this morning to pick up some boxes (gotta move my stuff in something, ja). And, wouldn't ya know it, she was working. With a grin I pulled out a li'l envelope and handed it to her. She gave me this big grin and thanked me. With a devious grin (or what I thought was devious) I got my buggy of boxes and left. She was looking a bit horrified but I didn't stick around. Probably a bit cowardly, but I had to be at work in less than 10 minutes.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22054465/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/22054465/ Thu, 18 Dec 2008 18:01:36 PST .< I'm going to watch the other six DVDs I have.

I fully blame this [link] here for my fangirlish glee... and the faving of a lot of Voltron stuffs. Eheh.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21820441/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21820441/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 18:00:18 PST
A few minutes after the stranded callback I made she called me again, this time with awesome news. Her landlords want to interview me.

YES! <3

Karma, you may be a bitch, but I love you.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21667380/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21667380/ Tue, 25 Nov 2008 16:27:13 PST
In any case, today we had Thanksgiving here at work and it was most awesome. I made steamed Chinese pork buns (Cha Siu Bao) to bring in. To be honest, I was only expecting people to not really try them (*gaaaaasp!* You brought Chinese food to a Thanksgiving dinner!? Kill the HEATHAN!) , but I go back to the lounge during my lunch to find *shock!* More than half of mah buns are gone! It was quite ego stroking.

As for the family, we're having it on Saturday, per Gardiner family tradition.

...you know, this may actually be my last Thanksgiving here on the east coast. Wow. I never gave much thought to it.

What made my day for the buns and -really- stroked my ego was Katie, one of the many girls I work with, had tried one and we were trying to get Mama Melinda to try one. When she asked me what was in them Katie said, "Magic! <3" Yes. You could hear the heart. Then I told them they were going to miss me and my magic buns when I go to Roanoke. Katie then promptly said, "Didn't you know, you're not allowed to go now. We're keeping you. " Again, you could see the face when she said it. No, she didn't just make the face, but you could hear it in the words.

It may be my sleep deprived mind, but I thought it was really funny. Tonight I'll be sleeping really well since I don't have to get up at 7 am to cook.

Mmm... sleep.

====update====
I'm also going to be uploading some pictures soonish. <<; Everyone here is probably going to think I'm extremely sick, amused, morbid, or all of the above when I do so. As to what they are... *shifty* that's a secret!

====sidenote-age====

I miss doing the Star Wars RP.
*sad sigh and changes her sig*
There is no emotion, there is peace.
There is no ignorance, there is knowledge.
There is no passion, there is serenity.
There is no chaos, there is harmony.
There is no death, there is the Force.

Huzzah for Wookipedia

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21583653/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21583653/ Thu, 20 Nov 2008 15:09:54 PST
Within the next couple of months I hope to at least complete one of the chapters in the story. Another goal I have is to start up the story website with Streea (Which we shall call The Q (it's an inside joke)). Currently, though, we may start by uploading a few stories onto adultfanfiction [dot] net and get some people addicted to them. For the record, though, they're mainly m/m slash stories (and one's a fanfic but with our own characters). Seriously, we tried to do one that involved a straight couple but that didn't work out too well. In fact, every time we try to do straight sex via type it fails. These scenes are bootlace scenes. << I'd hate to see what would happen should we do femslash (seriously, with the straight sex attempt it was all "..." *look to each other* "Awwwwwwwkwaaaaard...." "Shall we just.. skip ahead?" "Yeeeea....").

Besides, m/m slash is just more fun.

....I have got to be the world's oddest lesbian. << Type fucking with two male characters is fine but the moment one is female everything gets weird...

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21555501/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21555501/ Tue, 18 Nov 2008 17:56:10 PST
And, with the company I'm with, you need to call us so we can get you with TS to set up the internet on the blackberries. So, once I got the five number changes processed, I got a hold of a tech support rep. The first thing I say is, "You're reeeeeally going to hate me."
"...why?"
"I have a customer that needs to set up the internet on his Blackberries."
"Ookay... wait. BlackBERRIES?"
"Yes. Lemme finish the note and I'll tell you how many..." *pause* "there are twelve."

I could hear it when she hit the mute button. There must've been a lot of cursing over there since they get off at 9:00 and it was 16 minutes til.

Eheh...

On the bright side, the customer was an awesome conversationalist and he had a Furby on his desk. Me, I have no furby, but I have a post it note of one that I threaten my computer with ("You start working or I'm gonna put a Furby on you! >.< "). Sadly, it normally works.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21317818/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21317818/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 12:53:06 PST
They even included the buns.

In other news, I pulled something in my back and I can only turn my head about 10 degrees in any direction. I try to stretch out the muscles but most of the time I have to stop because it hurts so much that I start bawling. NOT FUN.

At least I made a doctor's appointment tomorrow and I have tiger balm patches. Those things = awesome.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21251637/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21251637/ Fri, 31 Oct 2008 15:37:14 PDT
*sigh* She's still convinced that I'm really straight and I'm just going through a phase. That and she's forbidden me to have gal friends of mine sleep in the same room as me. "Because it looks like you're doing something."

Tch. Just 'cause I'm a dyke doesn't mean I'm gonna be fucking ever female friend of mine that stays the night. Sure, one of my friends stays over for a couple of days at a time but that's because it's just easier instead of driving back to 'noke the next day.

In any case, how is everyone's Halloween? To all of you witches out there, happy new year.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21159736/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/21159736/ Sat, 25 Oct 2008 18:03:40 PDT
I have been drawing. A lot. << Nearly have two notebooks filled up with sketches. Ah, the pictures my addiction brings about. The addiction in question is my RPG addiction. Currently I've about.. oh, 9+ RPGs going on with Streea and I've been drawing scenes from those RPs a lot lately. << Well, one of 'em more so than others because it was the first time I did a dark themed RP ever since Justin.

<< I'm still having nightmares even though the last we did it was Wednesday. Then again my poor character was nearly broken and what not... So, as a result, I'm drawing fluffy-ish pictures with the two. How I can make a picture with a demon that suffers from blood lust and a priest that's supposed to be in control of him cute and fluffy... who knows. I'm managing it, though! Still, I think the best way to make it not seem so bad would be if I can get the darkest image out.

Ah well. While I try that I've other images to work on. Guess I should do a sketch dump before long, eh?

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/20907827/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/20907827/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 15:19:29 PDT
However, I'm always asked, "Do you have a death wish?" Whenever I meantion to someone that I pick up hitchhikers.

My answer, of course, is no. Granted, I do see their reasoning with why they would say something like that. In today's society it's hard to trust perfect strangers, especially those you'd pick up beside the road.

I have been in their shoes before, so I find it kind of hard to say no. There were times in Pittsburgh when I felt I would have done something illegal if it meant I could have gotten a ride. Polar fronts are evil like that... and so are roomies who completely forget about you for 2 hours because they had company over.

Anyways, what's everyone else's take on picking up hitchhikers? Is it self-destructive?

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/20861904/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/20861904/ Mon, 06 Oct 2008 16:43:05 PDT
In other news, I am looking around for apartments in the Roanoke, Bedford and Danville, VA areas. I'm checking out craigslist, too. @@; I just need to get out of this area. Small towns in which you know everyone and everyone knows you are really getting on my nerves. True, Danville and Bedford are small, too, but they've the added bonus of having Roanoke right THERE.

Wish me luck! Methinks I'll need it with the way things've been so far with me...

====

Okay, since I've tomorrow off I'm going to be sending out emails/making phone calls to see about some of the ads I've seen. I'll be sure to keep everyone here posted.

And thank the gods for Mama Melinda and her candy stash.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/20556232/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/20556232/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 13:26:00 PDT
*edit* Everything's been taken care of.

Still trying to move, though

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/20431291/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/20431291/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 22:11:30 PDT
Life at the moment is awesome! Spent a week and two days with Streea. Sadly, there is no new art to post. Work and sleep are taking up most of my time... *cough* and story based rpgs. Streea and
I are thinking of getting a joint account on aff.net and posting our rps. I'll post any updates on that later.

Now as for the title... I have dyed my hair. It's currently fuchsia. I've even dyed my eyebrows to match. And if any of you wanna know if the carpet matches the drapes , I can only say one thing - what carpet?

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/20180018/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/20180018/ Wed, 27 Aug 2008 07:29:45 PDT
...and here at work my fingernails are turning blue cause it's so cold. @@; Hot cocoa, hoodie, and a blanket are all I have right now.

Meep.

And yesterday I bled on the library's keyboard. No clue how I got cut. Oh well. It got cleaned up.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/20086678/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/20086678/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 21:55:32 PDT
And you lucky folks that actually read this will have to suffer.

I jest.

The new job is interesting, to say the least. Working with my unofficial brother-in-law is just awesome [and I think that whoever is doing seating arrangements is making sure all of us gays and lesbians sit together (again, I joke)].

My awesomely sexy car is still dead. Rest in peace, Jerica Ruby. I may have only drove you two days, but you are still an awesomely sexy car. By week's end my brother is getting me a blazer. So long as it's not a cursed mommy van [or grandmommy van (yes, there are two types of vans like that @.@; So NOT fun driving either)] I'm good. However, should something happen to this one I'm going to determine that I am utterly cursed when it comes to cars [..I've killed two cars in less than six months]. So long as this one lasts and doesn't decided "Oh! I'm going to randomly switch into NEUTRAL while my driver is going 65mph down the highway!" I'm good. So long as the engine does die after driving it for two days I'm even better!

With my luck this one will catch on fire just like my Lynx did. Oy vey. I'm going off to find the nearest piece of wood to knock on now.

Oh. Before I forget, hornets are nasty li'l flying terrors. When they are attracted to the bug light [you know, the one that's supposed to REPEL insects] on the porch and you get home late at night, they are even worse. Now add in an absolute terror of these flying things. Now you have me on a nightly basis. Some Japanese hornets decided to do some business in the tree behind the carport. No clue what they're doing, exactly. There's no nest, so I've no clue what's going one. However, they're there ever day and attracted to the porch light [should my grams leave it on, that is]. Luckily I haven't gotten stung [though one HAS landed on my thumb (in which I froze for about a full minute before shaking my hand and running inside with a yelp)].

Winter can't come soon enough.

...by this point I've completely forgotten my entire point of this journal. Oh well. Tis late and I've an 8 hour shift ahead of me. Oh the joy of taking calls from irate customers. Hopefully I won't need to self medicate with rum laced hot cocoa.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/19947331/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/19947331/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 11:47:25 PDT
Today is the all or nothin' day here at Ntelos. o.o If I pass the test I keep my job. If I don't get at least an 85 I'm sent packin'. Not that I'm worried, mind you.

In other news, life is alright, I suppose. Feelin' a li'l odd today [probably b/c of the test or from over sleeping] but otherwise I'm alright. This weekend I AM going to the Park [ ><; Last weekend I was suppose to go but a friend's car wouldn't work; the weekened before I was going to go but was broke so I stayed at home..]

Oh yea! Speaking of cars and such I drove my awesomely sexy car for a grand total of two days [only to work and back to home] before it DIED. ...the engine, apparently, went bad. @@; And there was something with the fuel line... I can't exactly remember WHAT my brother said.

And the day my car died, my phone died that day [right as I was going to call my bro, too], AND I lost my wallet. I have my wallet now, and my phone's charged, but the car is still dead. *sad* Ah well. I'll get over it. Brother dearest is checking on a car for me. Woot.

Time to go! Test time!
Weeeeeeee

==========
**UPDATE**
==========

I officially have the job with Ntelos. Yays! Passed my test so that's all that matters. Woot!
After lunch when we had to mentor with people and take at least one call [though our trainer wanted us to have five], I was oddly more nervous about takin' those calls than the test. >_<;

...if I end up in jail in the next 24 hours it isn't because I stabbed the guy next to me. And it wouldn't be because of the occassional poke to a tickle spot. >_
*shifty*

Also.. if the trainer thought I was odd from drinking apple cider she would have REALLY thought me odd when I added the apples, celery, and curry powder to my chicken salad wrap.

Clearly, I'm an abnormal person.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/19771304/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/19771304/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 12:57:21 PDT
Granted, this class isn't so bad, and it also means that I'm not stuck at walmart. <3 Hopefully I never have to work at that horrid place again. I would boycott it altogether but I have some friends that work there that would LITERALLY hunt me down if I didn't stop by once in a while. I'd shop at Food Lion, Goodwill, and Kmart if I had things my way. Ah well.

I'm in class with a fellow ex-Mal-wart associate and a friend of a friend. My soon to be brother in law and a few friends and high school classmates work here, so yay!

Oh yes.
Teh Rotzi no longer has to drive a POS mommy van. I am the proud owner of a 1988 Dodge Daytona Turbo [link] [psst, not my actual car, but the color and model are the same. My aunt [the previous owner] had called her Ruby. I've renamed her Jerica [and I'm keeping Ruby as a middle name since I'd feel bad completely took away her name].

<< Sadly, for the past week and a half, every time I walked by Jerica I'd pet her and tell her how sexy she was. Maybe it's just because I finally have a car that's mine, or maybe it's because it's NOT a mommy van for once.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/19544915/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/19544915/ Tue, 22 Jul 2008 20:59:21 PDT
I suppose a BIG FUCKING change is what I get for being in hiding for the past... *glances at the last journal* month and a half?

Also, the kiriban has been missed. I'll give ya'll another shot at it. 21k this time.

In the past month or so, I've read half a dozen books, wrote more of mine [chapter one and three are nearly complete], and got a new job. Yays! I'm no longer a mal-wart slave.

I've also been invited to move to Seattle next year when some of my friends out in 'noke invited me to be their roomie. Of course, bein' the person I am, I said yes without any hesitation. For those wondering why, I loathe this town. I've had it with small, country towns in which people think that if you dare to be different then you must automatically be a bad person or something along those lines. I being in a place where if something sort of big happens in your life the entire town knows of it by the next day. I'm dead fucking tired of feeling as if I'm dying but my body goes on living, forever stagnating in a place that resists change. There are times that I wonder why I even left Pittsburgh. At least it was easy to feel alive in that place.



So, ja, I'm moving to Seattle within the next year t' year and a half. So far the reactions have been disbelief [or completely disregarded when it comes to my younger sister], acceptance, and all out bawling [my youngest sister did that]. Oh, and my personal favorite "if we treat it like a phase she'll change her mind." *eyeroll* Ja, and they said that about the bi thing in high school [even if it was a phase and I'm really a lesbian].

Oh, out of the books I've read, She's No Faerie Princess and Dark Lover were horribly cliche as far as romance novels go. Voice of Blood, however, answered a bunch of odd questions about vampire romance novels [such as certain things about sex with a human female during certain times of the month.... yeeeeea... I was curious if it were ever written about and now that I see that it has been... *twitches*]. My brain STILL hurts when I think about it. The other book was the Torquemada Killer. Woot for BDSM/detective novels. Now THAT one was really amusing. I'm thinking about reading it again just 'cause. The current book is Ring of Swords, something that inspired an RPG setting with a friend of mine [she's the one lending me the books].

Oh yea. I should have mentioned this earlier [though I know I've gotten in touch with a lot of people about it]. My grams decided to do my laundry one day and didn't check my pockets. I get home from work to find out that she had washed my phone. Luckily the contract was up and my uncle needed to get me an updated phone anyway. The bad news, though, is that I can't retrieve any of the numbers off my old phone. It's completely dead. So, if I did have your number drop me an email at some point, or note me if you want so I can have the number again.

That is all. It may be quite some time before I visit here again [though I'm gonna be getting rid of the 3k+ updates I have before I poof....]

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18736701/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18736701/ Sun, 08 Jun 2008 19:10:45 PDT
I don't blame her for freaking out. The skin and nail on my li'l toe was barely hanging on. I cleaned my foot off, finding two more sections where I needed to cut the skin off. Even after using peroxide on the areas my hand still hurt more than my foot, and it doesn't look nearly as bad!

In other news, my weekend rocked. I stayed with Streea for three days [she invited me to her graduation Saturday]. Much fun was had even though we realized that we were hopelessly addicted to RPGs.

Just a reminder to everyone, the Kiriban warning is still in effect!

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18575969/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18575969/ Fri, 30 May 2008 12:05:08 PDT
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Everything with the leg situation is going alright. Mine's nearly healed [funny how nasty gouges and what not heal really fast while bruises on me take weeks to get rid of]. Rissa's out and about on hers and is going back to work today.

And, for the record, no, Rissa and I are not dating, we're just best friends. Can't have enough of those.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18543727/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18543727/ Wed, 28 May 2008 13:04:42 PDT
A block and a half later we found out that Rissa's brakes don't work. She went down onto the asphalt, sort of flipping over her bike. I stopped to see if she was fine. She was.. until she pulled the brake handle [the one that's on the handle bars] out of her thigh, then she started screaming. A really nice ol' lady came over to help. I talked Rissa into getting out of the street and then I ran back to get her dad [he wasn't answering his phone]. Then we drove back to get her.

They left me there to take care of the bikes while they went to the
hospital.

...and it was when I got back to their place that I managed to hurt myself. I was putting the kickstand up on the bike I borrowed and felt a li'l prick in my leg. At first I didn't pay attention to it, but when I passed the downstairs bathroom I noticed there was a lot of blood going down my leg. "Sonuvabitch... Talk about my lucky day..." I cleaned it out and bandaged it up before going to clean the bikes off. It was then that I saw the blood on a piece of the brake on the borrowed bike and realized that's what when in me. It was about 1-1.5 millimeters thick and about an inch went in.

How's everyone else's week goin'?

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18381123/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18381123/ Sun, 18 May 2008 10:51:09 PDT
The to do list at the moment:
o Name the race that Noam and Asim belong to
o Name the towns and villages they stop in
o Come up with a name for their star god [aforementioned race worships the stars]
o Name the world that they're in
o Name Carolyn's ex-boyfriend and ex-friend

@@; I'm not worried with naming the school she's going to or specifying which state she's in. It's just a southern state and she's in a city that's medium sized.

I guess, for those of you that have read my outline at least, I'm going to make the real world more dream like at the beginning and the dream world more real. Given her situation methinks it kind of works.

Also in the works I have three chapters I'm working on. Yes, three at the same time, and they're not consecutive either.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18264705/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18264705/ Sat, 10 May 2008 22:12:12 PDT Thought I'd just let all my adoring fans and friends out there know.

As of lately I've found myself watching more movies [or, rather, pulling out old movies I haven't watched in ages]. Methinks it had to do with me buying two Tenchi movies [the first and third ones]. As a result I dug out a few old movies of mine [The Samurai X movie and Fatal Fury to name some]. More than likely I'm going to end up pulling out some more old movies and stay up most of the night watchin' 'em and drinkin' hot cocoa. Egads, I feel like I'm in high school again, except now my cocoa is Kahlua laced. Personally, I think it has to do with watching Fatal Fury: The Motion Picture. Gods, I miss when the Sci-Fi channel used to show anime movies every Saturday/Sunday [it's the reason why I own the Project A-ko series, Fatal Fury, and a few others (though I still have a strong desire to purchase the Galaxy Express series, Demon City Shinjuku, and Casshern - though I do own the newer movie of it)].

I've also had to fight the urges to pull up old stories I did in high school. I know I'll end up doing it and revising them after going over them a few times.

While I'm realizing that my job at mal-wart is slowly driving me insane, I did find a nice buy there today.

Yes, friends, I'm now the owner of my very own "hey! I'm a gamer!" shirt. Okay, so it's a Halo shirt [Spartans Master Chief thermal] and I got it for a buck. Yes. A buck for a Master Chief shirt. Yay for clearances!

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18162866/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18162866/ Sun, 04 May 2008 10:44:28 PDT
Probably the first image that'll be uploaded will be the gypsy version of Nerissa. I already have all the linework completed.

Next up will more than likely be what I want my back to look like [read: Tattoo]. Not sure -when- that would happen, probably at some point in the not so near future, BUT IT WILL HAPPEN. ...I wanna be a livin' canvas of sorts.

Anyways, I'm off. Lunch is served. Mmm.. food.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18086665/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18086665/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 13:35:27 PDT
I managed to talk a friend into starting a DnD campaign. FINALLY!

....and I managed to have such fricken awesome rolls for my stats, but the first attack I tried I critically failed.

Rotzi: ....FUCK! Dammit to hell...
Brent: .....you got a one, didn't ya? *sigh* Ooookay. Your character, instead of hitting the orc with the Stun Fist hits the rolling pin that the proprietress was weilding That, in turn, hits the old warrior that was coming to help you out, and the rolling pin gets stuck in the wall. The proprietress gives you the "why the fuck did you do that" look before turning her anger on you.
Rotzi: *in character* eep! I'm sorry! I was just trying to help! Really! I haven't done martial arts in such a long time!!

...and that was just the beginning of the fun. I'll probably be posting updates whenever my computer is back up and running. The previous scene is most definately gonna be drawn.

...as for what I'm playing... I'm playing a bamboo spirit that's a tattooed monk. Yes, friends, Sijji lives!

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18008551/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/18008551/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 14:29:34 PDT
That day I started working on the characters. I even worked on it in Busch Gardens last Sunday. Granted, I did have the character sketches worked out [[link] and [link] but I never had their stories. After spending an ungodly amount of time yesterday night typing it up, I have an outline. The ENTIRE outline. Plus profiles. I feel accomplished.

Anyone out there wanna take a look at the outline and tell me what they think?

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17899153/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17899153/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 16:14:45 PDT
[19:09] jobutz520: so guess what i drive by everyday on way to work
[19:11] shanara85: A starfucks?
[19:11] jobutz520: lake redman
[19:11] shanara85: Heh.
[19:11] jobutz520: octavia pointed it out the other day
[19:12] jobutz520: said "hey, that lake is named after that lesbian you know"
[19:12] jobutz520: and i said,
[19:12] jobutz520: "yes, i know"
[19:12] shanara85: XD

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17808041/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17808041/ Sat, 12 Apr 2008 06:51:23 PDT
Now, I don't blame my brother for not coming over [he works southern swing shift at the paper mill] so he probably has better things to do.

Speaking of which, I'm probably going to end up getting a gym membership [the new YMCA here is pretty spiffy and a lot of fun]. I probably don't need it but it's better than staying at home playing video games all day. That and I did loose a considerable amount of weight on my own [lost 30 pounds from when I moved from Pittsburgh to here and went from a size 16 to a size 10 (or for you guys out there a size 36 waist to a 28 waist)]. Maybe I'll be able to get into jogging as a result...

...oh sweet goddess, what the hell am I yapping about. Methinks that maybe I was kidnapped by aliens and they put a compulsion in my head that demands a healthy-type subject. [j/k]

And now it's time for work. Yay for short shifts!

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So... yesterday I went to Goodwill and, in an effort to make a friend of mine feel better I told her that she gets to make me look like a girl [I prefer my tomboyish good looks, and try to stay dressed like that]. I kind of regretted it since she picked out a bunch of skirts and wouldn't let me NEAR the men's part of store... *sigh*

So, as a result, I walked out with about $20 worth of skirts and girly shirts. ...and today I went over to her house to play life size Barbie. ...and got a bunch of pictures. *shifty* So, as soon as I get my compie up and running again and get the pictures edited a bit I'll be posting them.

And, by the way, I never even OWNED a skirt before. Well, at least not ones that came above my knees. All previous skirts were ankle length... <<; *coughcough*

Yea... so as soon as my brother fixes my cord [HOPEFULLY this weekend] the world shall see what teh Rotzi looks like in a skirt.

And if I vanish afterwards... yeeeeeeeea. It won't be surprising.

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EDIT 07 April 2008

So.. yeeeeea. Getting a hold of my brother to fix my compie is takin' some time. Odd... he said he'd come over this weekend. *sigh* I hate to say this, but I'm glad I'm not the only one in the family like that. <<

In other news... I finally landed myself a copy of Warriors of Virtue. <3 It makes teh Rotzi happy. Back when I was a kid, this was one of my favorite movies. Then, one summer day, a VCR decided it was hungry and devoured my poor tape. *sigh*

HOWEVER, thanks to Rissa dragging me out to a tanning salon [...and, yes, I did lay in a tanning bed... dun ask. Somehow she has a way of getting me to do things I don't normally do] that doubled as a movie rental place... There were still a few VHS movies in the store, and the owner was quite willing to sell it to me for three bucks. YAYS!

...and, apparently, this movie store is the only place in town to find pron. Huh. Interesting, I guess. I didn't know that such a place existed in this small, middle of BFE town had that. Guess one learns something new everyday.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17588816/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17588816/ Sun, 30 Mar 2008 11:51:02 PDT
2) Male/Female: Female.

3) Were you named after anyone: Not that I can recall. Mum said she always wanted a daughter named Jessica so she could call her Jesse.

4) Does your name mean anything: It is of Hebrew origin, and its meaning is "He sees."

5) Nick Name(s): Jess, Jessi, Rotzi.... Jess-jess....

6) What do you think you look like: *shrug* I look alright.

7) Date of Birth: 18 January 1985

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Lowmore, VA; Covington, VA

9) Nationality: American, though sometimes I lie and tell people I'm Canadian.

10) Astrology Sign: Depending on which Zodiac you're using I can be a Capricorn, Aquarius, or a Sagittarius.

11) Chinese Astrology: Rat

12) Religion: Pagan

13) What's your favorite smell: Rose or Patchouli

14) Political Position: *shrug*

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning: Water, or pomegranate juice if I have it.

16) Hair+Eye color: Dark brown and dark brown.. ja, kinda boring.

17) Do you look like anyone famous: No.

18) What do you look like: I stand 5'3" and apparently weigh more than I look like, though I seem a bit on the average side. My hair is only a couple of inches long. Oval glasses frame my face.

19) Any unusual talents: I can crack most of my joints.

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous: Right handed, though I can write backwards very neatly with my left hand [and it's more legible than my right, sadly...]

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other: As stated in previous journals.. GAY!

22) What do you do for a living: *crosses out living* I'm a cashier at walmart.

23) What do you do for fun: Drawing, video games, watching movies, and role playing [traditional and online]

24) What kind of material do you like to use: Depends on what I'm doing, though normally I just use pencil and paper.

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with: Clay.

26) Have you met your grandparents: Yes, on both sides, two of my great grandmothers and one great grandfather.

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Single

28) Crush: Oh, I'm going to be keeping these to myself.

29) What celebrity would you date if you could: *shrug* Probably none.

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s): I have to choose? Oy vey, there are too many to list!

32) Favorite place to be: By the water next to the house or, during summer nights, in the swimming pool.

33) Least favorite place to be: Wal-mart. Period.

34) Do you burn or tan: Usually I burn.

35) Ever break a bone: Not to my knowledge.

36) What is your favorite cereal: Kashi heart health honey nut flavor.

37) Person you cry with: My personal demons.

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: Yes, two.

39) Any brothers: Yes, two again.

40) Any pets: One cat, one ferret, one dog, one hamster, and one Kenyan sand boa. Our bunny is currently MIA.

41) An Illness: Not to my knowledge.

42) Pager: Nope.

43) A personal phone line: Nope.

44) A cell phone: Yes.

45) A visible birthmark: Yes.

46) A pool or hot tub: We have both, though the hot tub isn't working right now... and hasn't since it was bought. Don't ask, my family is odd.

47) A car: A maroon POS mommy van.

Describe Your:

48) Personality: I can come off as uptight at times, but I try to be laid back.

49) Driving: I think I'm an alright driver, though not everyone probably shares my thought on that.

50) Your clothing style: In normal mode it's a pair of jeans, normally mens, with a baggy t-shirt. In club mode it's a corset and a black pair of pants.

51) Room: Normally it's clean and somewhat organized. I've a lot of candles and incense in them.

52) What's missing: *shrug* I can't quite say. Probably something to cuddle with, like a girlfriend or a kitty [our cat is an outdoor cat, so she's not really allowed inside].

53) School: Completed forever! ....or until I decided if I want to go for a Master's degree.

54) Bed: Queen sized bed with black polka dot sheets, a down comforter, and an awesome fuzzeh tiger blanket a friend sent me.

55) Relationship with your parents: Better than it had been in recent years.

56) Do you believe in yourself: Most of the time.

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: Do I believe it can happen? Yes. Souls call to one another so I believe your soul recognizes your true mate before your mind even does, and falls head over heels f... ]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17576322/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17576322/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 16:06:15 PDT
Rotzi: "Yea, I'm going to the Park"
CSM: *furrowed eybrows* "What's the Park?"
Rotzi: "It's a gay club."
CSM: *confused and says softly* "Why are you going to a gay club?" *one of the other two CSMs is like, don't say anything.. don't say anything..*
Rotzi: *matter-of-fact* "Because I'm a lesbian.
CSM: *freaks out* OH MY GOD! *wonders over to customer service still saying this*

XD THAT made my day.

Now I leave you with this question: If a boy, about age 10, comes up to self check out looking a bit nervous, buys panty hose and mascara, rushes to get finished, grabs the WRONG bag when he leaves... what does this tell us?

Today, has been an odd day, and by far one of my favorite days.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17457801/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17457801/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 19:31:08 PDT
In other news, I'm babysitting the ferret and hamster this weekend. Only thing is... the hamster went AWOL when I got up this morning. Apparently one of the kids moved the weight on top of it's cage and it got out. ><; Sure. No one listens when I give advice that makes sense. Because if it makes sense it surely must be wrong.

With that said... does anyone know how get hamsters to come out into the open?

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The hamster HAS BEEN FOUND. ...setting food out for her did not work. She just kinda started making noise near the wood stove and I spotted her. She had that "Oh shit! I'm busted!" look. So, now she's back in her cage with a weight put on top of it [apparently she's strong enough to lift up the two lids we have on it...]

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17345262/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17345262/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 16:46:15 PDT
1. At self check out, the person standing at the desk is NOT responsible for pressing the debit, credit, or shopping key. The computer does it on its own. Do not come up to the person and tell them to get off their butt to press the key.

2. No, there is nothing wrong with the em-effing computer at self check out. If you're trying to ring something up while the bagging screen is on it will not ring up. Instead it will bitch at you to put the item you just rang up in the bagging area. If you place the item there long enough to register it, the bagging screen will go away. [OMG AMAZING!!]

3. When at an actual register, do not expect the cashier to be able to press the debit or credit key while they are loading things into your buggy. We cannot be in two places at once.

4. Is it really so hard to notice signs posted places? Yes, if you look under 27 we WILL card you. Yes, we are moving the age to 40. Even if we know you or if you work there and look under 40 you will still be carded. I know I'm not putting my ass out on the line for you just because you don't wanna show me your ID. Show it or no booze or fags for you.

5. Yes, the bags are evil. Everyone who cashiers knows this. It does take time to get them to open, and the bags will occasionally rip or tear. Don't blame us cashiers for the poor quality of the bag. We don't make 'em.

6. When you're returning something to Walmart without a receipt, we will need to see an ID. Don't get all pissy about it, we've been doing this for gods know HOW long.

7. Speaking of IDs, yes, every so often your check will flag and we WILL need to see an ID. If you don't have your ID we cannot over-ride the system for you. Get. Over. It.

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There will probably be more added at a later date, but for now methinks that this list is sufficient enough. I should probably dub it "Things about work that piss me off."

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EDIT

8. Do not complain that we move things around. We don't have a choice in the matter. Management says do it this way and the floor associates comply. It is a marketing ploy to get you to see more stuff that you may want but don't need. DON'T COMPLAIN LIKE IT IS THE CASHIER'S FAULT.

EDIT 20 March 2008

9. You know, if you're signing a credit card and hit clear, it will clear your signature. You WILL have to sign it again. No, CLEAR is not the same as OKAY. They have TWO /DIFFERENT/ functions.

10. Yes, I did see you slide your credit card, but you WILL have to slide it again since you bought a phone card that needed activation and also paid part of the tab with a shopping card. The system can only deal with one card at a time per register.

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For the record, I'm really starting to hate holidays of any sort. People get REALLY nasty toward us retail/customer service people. By the way, happy Ostara, people. Goddess, I loathe spring sometimes. Sinus infections are teh suck.

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17300990/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17300990/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 12:50:01 PDT <; Grr to those that do!]. I never heard anything from the graphic design people or the ones asking for freelancers. And, thanks to =jekylnhyde I applied to a gaming company out in AZ. Now I just need to wait patiently.... eh.. yea. I'm not one for waiting patiently at some points in time.

Yesterday a friend and I went on a side quest to Lewisburg, WV. The original plan was to go to Lost World Caverns and take a tour [I love that place]. However, they close up at 1600, with the last tour at 1515... so not fun. So, we spent the day wondering around the down town area [and it was far bigger than I expected! o.o Far spiffier, too!] We hit up an Irish Pub for lunch [shepherd's pie tastes like delicious!] after exploring the art store, book store, and antique shop/wine shop. I'm planning on going their this weekend so I can actually explore the caverns, drop off a business card [or maybe a flier] at the art store [the lady there said that they'll sometimes have people coming in looking for artists].

This weekend I'm planning on going out to dinner with a friend at Swagat in 'noke, then to the Park. More than likely I'm NOT going to stay until near closing again. Driving back is hell when you're falling asleep at the wheel. Mountain roads + s'eepeh drivers = NO!




....is it a bad thing that I view Silent Hill as a comedy?

]]> ~Rotzi http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17206880/ http://Rotzi.deviantart.com/journal/17206880/ Thu, 06 Mar 2008 08:58:42 PST
In other news, I spent the morning applying to jobs from places in Roanoke to some out in Richmond. Hopefully I'll hear something soon... Still no word from the spiffy graphic design firm out in 'noke. Oh well. Tomorrow this means I'll be retracting my two weeks notice. On a lighter note, this afternoon I have an interview at Westvaco. While I don't wanna work at a pulp and paper mill it is better than walmart - yays for no customers! ...though this would mean shift work. At least I learned in college how to easily adjust my sleep schedule without the aid of caffeinated beverages. *sigh* I miss drinking the starfucks coffee that you can get in stores [seeing as it's only caffeinated.... bastards].

This weekend I'm going to be heading to the park. YAY! My corset kisses have worn off so maybe I'm just really wanting them back on... or it could be because I didn't do anything last weekend... Hmm. Maybe that's it exactly.

Also on the trip to 'noke I wanna drag my compie out there and check with Best Buy to see if it's still under warranty. If it is, YAY NEW POWER CORD. If not... guess I'll need to buy one... and maybe a copy of XP pro. ><; I can't believe it snapped in half last week [the power cord that is]. Just as I was going to be installing my new scanner/printer combo. Cursed evil thing!

Oh yea... earlier this week when I was working on register one other associates were moving stuffs about as told by management [yes, it's MANAGEMENT that tells when to move things around so YOU will buy more - it's not the associates decision to do so!!! >.< (yes... it's a pet peeve of mine when people bitch about it when we have no say about it)]. Lo and behold, one of the things they moved near me was a pallet of books. On the bottom shelf beside Naruto was Fruits Basket Ultimate Edition for 12 bucks. ...I know I REALLY should be saving my money, but a hard back book with two volumes worth of stuffs in it was too good to pass up. ...I walked out of work that day with book one and two [or rather volumes 1-4 (roughly 800+ pages altogether] of FB. I'll be no one here had me pegged for liking that series. And, to make things better, I'm getting my little sister hooked on it, too. Maybe I can break her of being a preppy li'l thang and turn her to the dark-side...

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