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Also wrote small snippet storystarter for a Trek fic. Mirror!Spock!Prime goes into hiding after his empire is overthrown by the Klingon/Cardassian alliance; when Romulus is in peril, he thinks he sees his chance to rebuild his power base (saving a planet oughtta be worth some political capital with the natives, right?) Unfortunately for him, he fails and gets chased into his own red-matter singularity by some angsty rihannsu -- err i mean ROMULANS -- and ends up in a near-identical universe, jetlagged about a hundred years behind his own . . gee, sounds a bit familiar, yeh? **rolleyes** ANyway . . want to write what happens in the mirror of the rebooted universe. . probably I won't actually go anywhere with it, we'll see. Anyone seen any good reboot!mirrorverse stories yet?

Bleh. So tired. Finally going back to bed.

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/22444837/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/22444837/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 01:21:58 PST
They are not alternate. fucking. DIMENSIONS.

call them universes
or realities
or realms
or 'worlds' (as distinct from planets)
but not.
fucking.
DIMENSIONS.
a dimension is not a place. it's a direction. you travel TO a place THROUGH (or by, or along) a dimension. you don't travel TO a dimension. Gah! get it right, scifi tv writers!


that is all.

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/21135257/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/21135257/ Fri, 24 Oct 2008 04:28:10 PDT
But this was all getting pretty weird to me and it occurred to me that I, who have usually tested out as pretty smart and who likes to hang out with a computer technician (yey dad!) and who enjoys things that at least SEEM logically consistent, didn't even have a firm idea of what electricity was all about, much less how stuff like EM radiation propogates or even what exactly that MEANS, i just have a knack for understanding enough of a technical discussion from the context to at least pretend to understand the gist of it, and maybe it was about time I started to correct my woeful ignorance and actually understood the full significance of sciency stuff and therefore be able to actually tell whether or not crazy theories like metaradiation are even remotely plausible or instead hackneyed enough to destroy the most basic suspension of disbelief and make grown physicists weep.

So I rush of to Wikipedia, not knowing where the nearest handy appropriate textbook would be, and I start relearning about particles and fields and waves and so on and so forth, and this time a bit systematically instead of just from offhand comments, and my head starts to hurt and I make whimpery noises like a dog trapped in a corner as I try to resolve competing impressions and to understand WHY different particles have different properties like charge (I can kinda sorta grasp that different molecules have different properties because of the way their different shapes hook into each other but that didn't require me to really understand fields and when you think about it why do fields exist' I mean why SHOULD all matter be attracted to each other? and why should certain subsets of matter be even MORE attracted to each other or even REPELLED? over a distance? without touching at all? I can accept that it happens but how? why? aaagh) and while I'm often pretty good at understanding some types of interactions based on defined properties of items (bet you can't guess my favorite type of programming! That's right, it's object-oriented ftw!) I just can't grasp why those things should have some innate thing about them that is PROPERTIES, I mean at least with programming things have properties because we SAID so, but who said up and down quarks have the property of (+/-)1/3e, I mean I believe in God so obviously I figure HE said it but still how did He even make it WORK and **gasp gasp** gyaaah!

And I was at the point where I was literally* about to go steal Dad's oil paints and paint a great big sloppy "WHY?" in big red letters on the wall next to my bed, and in neat blue letters "Because." beside it, and scribbles of thinks like properties and interactions and definitions, all just to express my frustration and head-hurty-ness, and I realized that maybe defacing a wall in my parents' house (and probably staining my sheets) was not the best idea and I reeeally needed to do something to calm down.

So I woke up dad ("Help! I looked up electricity and now I can't stop thinking sciency things!!") and he laughed and gave me a hug and I snuggled in bed with mom and dad for a few minutes and got some much-needed perspective. Namely, that it doesn't really matter to your heart if you don't understand the basic underpinnings of the universe, as long as you can get hugs from someone you love.

*This means not exaggerated, yes I really was about to go do this.

----
Oh, yeah, and my meds still haven't arrived.

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/21059489/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/21059489/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 08:22:37 PDT

Culture a la carte.

And why shouldn't we each have one? Pick and choose bits that we like best from all the cultures we see out there, all the naming conventions (why not rename yourself?), all the styles of dress, the manners we offer to others (this isn't an excuse to get offended by others mind you), the things we eat, the roles we play. Sure it's fun to dress up in a kimono (well okay it's actually incredibly frustrating but rewarding) but that doesn't mean that you have to copy ALL of the style of "traditional" Japanese dress and you're not any less of a person/fan if you mix things up. And you don't have to go completely roman just because you like some of their ideas about bondservice. Pick and choose what you like.

It's not like religion, which claims to explain the truth about the universe and how we are supposed to act/are most likely to benefit by acting. Some religions, if they were even partly true, it wouldn't really make sense to mix them with other religions . . you'd get something so self-contradictory that it doesn't seem like it'd be useful for discovering the truth with at all. But culture, that's doesn't have to be so central to your worldview, does it? You can enjoy the steampunk look, and even manner of speech and composure, without genuinely believing in Aether. Or you can believe in Aether without liking steampunk, I suppose, but that goes back to your worldview and isn't really what I'm talking about here.

I think you really ought to be picky about what you believe. After all, if you get it wrong, you might have some tragic consequences. No matter how strongly you believe you can fly, will you really be able to do it?

But how you dress, how you act, what kind of job you have, what you call yourself, what things you do with your free time . . not just in roleplaying, but in your everyday life . . if what you believe doesn't prohibit it, why not pick and choose your own personal cultural style? Why do we think we have to pick up things whole-cloth? Who gave us the idea that we HAVE to be hardcore?

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/20987013/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/20987013/ Tue, 14 Oct 2008 14:20:09 PDT
Now I kinda want to write a 100 Themes/Topics list of my own. (100 Internet Memes? 100 Shades Of Grey? [<--not that last one, that's just silly])

Anyone know of anyplace that compiles challenge lists like that?

Off to recreate the wheel . .

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/18249376/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/18249376/ Fri, 09 May 2008 22:04:37 PDT
It seems dependent on my blood pressure or heartrate or something, it hurts more when I move around but light or sound doesn't affect it much. Ow ow ow.

Need to go finish chores so I can go to bed. Just wanted to get a record down somewhere in case this starts happening regularly. And this is the closest thing I have to a blog/diary/whatever.

Ow.


--correction. Sound hurts a bit. So much for my calming music.

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/16467901/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/16467901/ Fri, 18 Jan 2008 23:56:43 PST
Tired. Missing Wolficorn. (I want to say MY Wolficorn, but he's not really.) I hope he is settling in well to his new job.

I like Oneko-chan, but I get along better with her in person. I like Wolfikins, but I get along better with him online. Maybe it's because he and I are still restrained around each other irl. Or something. Although most people, to watch me with him, would probably not call me 'restrained'. **fawns over** Poor dude. I must be terribly stifling irl.

With One-chan, I think we feed off of each other's energy irl, and we get a lot out of body language, so things are a little more fun. Online I am too random and chatty, without actually feeding any of that energy into her, so she is dealing with a nut. So while I miss her, I don't chat with her as much, because it's just not enough . .


Bleh. Go sleepy now.

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/15323805/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/15323805/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 21:19:29 PDT
NaNo tomorrow.

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/15286010/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/15286010/ Tue, 30 Oct 2007 11:34:39 PDT
And of course, the classic list that I'll be choosing from:

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Soltitude
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Seeking Solace
100. Relaxation

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/14887167/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/14887167/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 15:29:18 PDT
]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/14723022/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/14723022/ Fri, 21 Sep 2007 01:15:50 PDT
and this song sorta popped into my head. I'm going to record it once I get another microphone set up. (Tiny the giant rabbit chewed through the cord of my old one, and the one on my mp3 player is horrid.) It'll be in scraps, and you'll have to hit 'download' to hear it . . but it's a lot easier than me trying to download one of the Flash programs and learning how to use it.


I love you more . .
than the sun in the sky
I love you more . .
than the wind in the trees
I love you more . .
than the laughter of a child
I love you more . .
I love you more than anything

I love you more . .
than the moon in the night
I love you more . .
than rain in the springtime
I love you more . .
than the sweetest song I've ever heard
I love you more . .
I love you more than anything

I love you more
than anyone in the world
I love you more
I love you more than anything




I love you, Mom.


<>

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/12377716/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/12377716/ Thu, 29 Mar 2007 15:40:41 PDT
Translated: my mommy is awesome She got me a subscription to DA (again) - yay! Now I can go through those ~9,500 unviewed deviations . .

As a side note, I'm going through my favorites and pruning a bit. It'll probably take me forever. I just have toooo many favs to go through . . which is why I'm pruning in the first place! Only piccies that I absolutely love will stay fav'd. Which will probably be 90% of them.

Mew . . wish I'd been able to snag a copy of my ex-roomie's dictionary . . then I could keep my memory refreshed on all those words I'd 'learned' . .

-Akamune No Harutori / RouJoumis

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/12136910/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/12136910/ Sat, 10 Mar 2007 21:39:43 PST
]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/9184972/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/9184972/ Mon, 26 Jun 2006 02:43:52 PDT [ ] during the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[ ] my favorite toys as a child were barbies
[x] my favorite colour is pink or purple
[ ] I did Gymnastics
[ ] I love skirts
[ ] hollister is one of my favorite places to shop
[ ] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[x] I love chocolate
[ ] I've never had a real job

TOTAL: 2

[ ] my hair is almost always straightened
[ ] I have at least 8 myspace pictures
[ ] I usually go shopping once a week
[ ] I love to hang out at the mall with friends.
[ ] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earings
[ ] I've gone to a tanning salon
[ ] I've gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[ ] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] I watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[ ] I change my icon weekly
[ ] I wear a shower cap

TOTAL: 0

[x] I dont shop at Hot Topic. (ed- where?? What is this store you speak of?)
[ ] my cell phone might as well become a part of me.
[ ] I wear mascara everyday
[ ] I've been or am on a diet
[ ] bathing suits are adorable
[ ] I dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[ ] big sunglasses are hott (No, theyre cool.)
[ ] I have gotten my nails done before
[ ] MTV is one of my favorite channels

TOTAL: 1

[ ] all I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[x] I love to have gurls do my hair
[x] I give and recieve hugs from all my friends
[ ] I hate bugs.
[x] carnivals are so fun!
[ ] Summer is THE best season
[ ] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[ ] Im waiting for my knight in shining armor.
[ ] musicians are so hot
[ ] you write me a poem and tell me im beautiful and im all yours

TOTAL: 3

[x] I am self-conscious
[ ] I cry often. (ed- Define 'often'.)
[ ] my car smells like vanilla or cherry
[x] my dishes get washed more than once a week.
[x] I dont do sports
[ ] I HATE to run
[x] I squeal when i am surprised or angry
[ ] I eat dried fruit as a snack (banana chips!:3)
[ ] I love romance novels
[ ] Drew Barrymore is so cute

TOTAL: 3

[x] I dance a lot.
[ ] usually spend an hour or over to get ready to leave my house
[ ] I only have like 5 billion hair products
[x] I love to get dressed up.
[ ] every part of my outfit needs to match
[ ] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends
[ ] I would love to have a photo shoot
[ ] I apply lip stuff 50 times a day
[ ] I wish I were a model

TOTAL: 2

[ ] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton
[ ] I have been something that was semi
[ ] I own Uggs.
[ ] Hip Hop is the best music.
[ ] I pop my collar
[ ] I like to be the center of attention
[ ] guys with Mohawks are crazy
[ ] horses are beautiful
[x] I'd rather not pay attention in school(it can get so boring)
[x] Cats are adorable

TOTAL: 2

[ ] I write my own music(i try anyway)
[ ] I would love to visit Hawaii
[ ] Valentine's day is so cute!
[ ] white is better than black
[ ] I wouldn't be caught dead in all black (ed- Are you nuts? I dig the Johnny Cash look.)
[ ] my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes (Closet, drawers, whatever.)
[ ] hate the grunge look
[ ] I love to read magazines

TOTAL: 0

[x] I love to gossip(Nice gossip only plz kthnxbai)
[x] I had Lisa Frank folders/posters/notebooks as a kid
[ ] I love Celine Dion(not really)
[x] my bubble baths are 1-2hrs long (ed- forget the bubbles, I just love the bath . .)
[ ] My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned
[ ] My friends and I are in a strict group. We mostly only hang out with each other.
[ ] I like little kids
[ ] Diet drinks are the best
[ ] I'm all about being vegetarian
[ ] I refuse to eat at McDonalds

TOTAL: 3

[ ] I check my myspace everyday.
[ ] I love life!
[ ] I have a lot of jewlery!
[ ] my screen name(s) have x's in them
[ ] either one of my myspace names has/had <3's or in them
[ ] I would never want to be the opposite sex (ed- Are you kidding?? Bring it on!)
[x] It's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it
[ ]I have more than 3 pillows on my bed (ed- Well, I would if I could . .)

TOTAL: 1

Now add up all the total points and put "I am __% girly" for the subject if you steal or get tagged.



I am . . 17% girly, assuming I didn't mess up the math. But it ish late and I am very tired and must collapse now. Say... ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8877284/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8877284/ Thu, 25 May 2006 19:13:50 PDT

I'm not good enough. The surest way for me to lose someone is to try and give myself completely, totally, to them. . .


God, I want to love . . to be allowed to love . . not just a little but everything . . please God let it be soon . . let me be exactly what someone needs . . ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8691517/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8691517/ Sat, 06 May 2006 13:19:29 PDT
Out of Control by Hoobastank,
Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne,
Are You Happy Now? by Michelle Branch,
Toxic by Britney Spears,
White Flag by Dido,
Kiss Me by Sixpence None The Richer

Stir together slowly, alternating 15 seconds of each song until all ingredients are added. Mix with a wooden spoon until lumpy. Bake at 375 until charred. Serve cold.



That was me a few weeks ago. Lemme tell you, even being depressed and PMSing is better than THAT mess.

Solution? Sit down and talk about what you both REALLY want, and decide on what you are or aren't going to do. TOGETHER. It's no good if you decide to try one thing and he decides something else. Totally messes you up.

Oh, and really think about whether or not you've forgiven him for not being perfect. No, I'm not kidding. We're only human. We get hurt when people, well, hurt us. Check to make sure you've really forgiven the hurt. Took me forever to do that because I didn't want to admit I was 'petty' enough to hold a grudge about being human.

Mrarr. Must go hunt down food now.

(and yes, I know how telling it is that I see myself as the animated Terra. Shoo.) ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8687038/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8687038/ Sat, 06 May 2006 00:05:54 PDT
You page, "There's something more innocent about the mouse, even if oi'm a bit of a nuisance sometoimes. Oi'm . . more childlike. Less sexual. It's a bit safer sometiomes. Oi plan to be Selene much more often once oi have all these systems hammered out for me characters, and especially once oi have me meds again. (Oi'm currently off me medication for the next few days; oi left it in the dorm room when oi came home to mum's and da's to babysit rabbits.) When oi'm not medicated, oi'm much more easily distracted, much more insecure, an much more irritable. Reina is better suited to dealing w'all that." to Valthial. ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8525567/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8525567/ Wed, 19 Apr 2006 20:57:45 PDT

that is all. ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8523670/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8523670/ Wed, 19 Apr 2006 17:40:06 PDT
It's easy to groove with me, just gotta leave your mind
Leave all your troubles behind . .
It's easy to groove, be free . . just gotta take a chance
don't think it over, ask me to dance . .

I thought the song was scary enough, the reality is worse. Leave your mind? Just feel the groove? Ignore all rationality . .

That's the problem with taking my meds. I don't-care too much. I won't make myself do things.

That's the problem with not taking my meds. I have too much energy. I get carried away by highs and lows and trembling anxious fears and crazy shivering bursts of madgirl.


I had a dream about you. A waking dream. It went like this . .

Robin lays on your bed as you type. She's curled up on her right side, head towards the desk, right arm shoved underneath the pillow to prop her head up. Her other arm is curled in tight against her side. She speaks softly, quietly, in a strange sort of peaceful calm. "I know that Morgan is probably the one for you . . I know you love her, and that you always keep coming back to her. And I'm not trying to lessen that. But do you, even just a little, love me? I mean 'love' in any way you want to define it. Without changing what you have with Morgan . . do you at all love me?"

*and you said something . . something about maybe, maybe a platonic sort of love, just a little sort of friend connection, and how we couldn't be together and I said 'but you do love me just a little even just as a friend' and you said yes.*

She sighs a content sigh and curls up a little more, comfortable, basking in - something. "That's enough," she says, and closes her eyes.

"I'm going to miss you, you know . . " She hmmms for a moment. "I mean I'll have friends over the summer I'm sure and we'll still talk on yahell and stuff, but I'll still miss you. I mean . . you protected me. Protected me when you were the one who was vulnerable. Protected ME! Friends like that are hard to find . . . But I'll be glad. Glad that you'll have Morgan. I hope things work out for you two, I really do . . . " She sighs and drifts off to sleep, hugging your pillow to her face. "I'll still miss you . . . "

*and you lightly pat my elbow or my hair or cover me with the blanket and tell me to sleep, to get some rest, to try to forget it. You're relieved that I'm not upset but worried that I'll go crazy again. But that's okay. Because you love me even a little and that's enough. You love me . . *



Silly dream. I was going to IM you and talk about it. But it wouldn't have gone the way I dreamt it, of course, and I might have made things even worse. I might have gotten carried away, or enjoyed things too much, or been hurt too much, or something. Something too much. That's the trouble with not being on my meds.

I scared myself, the other night. I'm so so sorry if I scared you too.

I scared myself . .

that's the trouble with not being on my meds. ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8402268/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8402268/ Fri, 07 Apr 2006 20:53:10 PDT [link]

What is Vusty ?
Vusty snippets: [link]

whatis
Vusty is a huggable mischievous silly lawful submissive unavailable mostly-harmless newbie foxy-cat female.

wixxx
bondable cuddling curious inexperienced leather mated(closed)
pet private roleplaying slave submissive teasing trainable
voyeur currentlyunavailable female Vulpikat

denwi
curious unavailable bonded virgin a_little_pain bound
massaging backrubber female Vulpikat

wicc
Likes-> No-Sex Contact Dominant Romantic-Bondage Sensitive
Semi-Nonconsensual Dislikes-> Fucklust-inducing Is-> Adventurous
Male-biased Melon-breasted Submissive Only-two Heavy-breasted
Soft-breasted female fourpaws foxy-cat



morphs - not very imaginative ones, but . .
Morph Hammer V1.42 (C) 1994-1998 by Triggur
------------------------------------------
Command ...morphs you to...
----------------------------------------------------------
[Q]MORPH NEWBIE Newbie
[Q]MORPH PAWSVIXEN Fourpaws Vixen
[Q]MORPH ANTHVIXEN Anthro Vixen
[Q]MORPH PAWSCAT Fourpaws Housecat
[Q]MORPH ANTHCAT Anthro Housecat
[Q]MORPH VULPIKAT Anthro Vulpikat
[Q]MORPH FOXKITTY Fourpaws Foxy Kitty


Newbie

A young female Newbie wanders around, inexperienced and non-descript.

She smells like . . hmm . . vanilla and cinnamon? Yep. And is that . . dirt? Yep, plain red dirt.

Fourpaws Vixen
You see . .
. . . a perky young fourpaws vixen. Her red fur and brown eyes aren't that unusual, and even the light coating of dirt all over her might not be that strange, but something about the way she holds herself tells you, this girl is just a bit kooky (and not afraid to show it!)

Let's see . . young female vixen . . vanilla . .cinnamon . . and . . is that dirt? Yep, plain red dirt.

Anthro Vixen
You see . .
. . . a perky young anthro vixen. Her red fur and brown eyes aren't that unusual, and even the light
coating of dirt all over her might not be that strange, but something about the way she holds herself tells you, this girl is just a bit kooky (and not afraid to show it!)

Let's see . . young female vixen . . vanilla . .cinnamon . . and . . is that dirt? Yep, plain red dirt.

Fourpaws Housecat
You see . . .
. . . a young female fourpaws kitty. She's covered in fine red dirt, so that her natural colors are nearly impossible to make out. Dark blue eyes dart around shyly. Her fur is medium-length, and her tail is just a bit fluffy.

Hmm . . young female cat . . vanilla . .cinnamon . . and is that . .dirt?
Yep. Plain red dirt. She must be covered in the stuff.

Anthro Housecat
You see . . .
. . . a young female anthro kitty. She's covered in fine red dirt, so that her natural colors are nearly impossible to make out. Dark blue eyes dart around shyly. Her fur is medium-length, and her tail is just a bit fluffy.

Hmm . . young female cat . . vanilla . .cinnamon . . and is that . .dirt?
Yep. Plain red dirt. She must be covered in the stuff.


Vulpikat
--------------------
You see . .
. . a young digitigrade woman, about five feet tall. Her rich brown fur is medium-length, maybe half an inch on average; a foxy snout sits on an otherwise feline face. Dark blue eyes peer out above, twitching along with black whiskers. Delicate ears swivel to and fro. Slender paws with retractable claws hang by her side. A long, slightly fluffy tail curls along behind.
.
The fur smoothes out all of her curves, making her look sleek. Speaking of curves, there is a definite feminity to this one; soft white flows across two large breasts before moving down her front.
.
Though she wears no clothes, she's modestly covered by her thick fur. A simple silver ring circles her neck, marking her as legally bound to another.
.
Something in her body language tells you that she's playful, and maybe just a bit kooky. Her eyes look intelligent, but her face looks like a little kit. This is a woman . . girl . . female of contradictions.
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A young female, smelling like cat and fox, vanilla and cinnamon.


Fourpaws Foxy Kitty
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. . a young fourpaws adult, about one foot tall. Her rich brown fur is medium-length, maybe half an inch on average a foxy snout sits on an otherwise feline fac... ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8401927/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8401927/ Fri, 07 Apr 2006 20:18:25 PDT
Mood: thoughtful

You page-pose, "Selene hugs and then looks at the clock. "Gnrrr . . getting late . . "
She blinks and then realizes that maybe being sleepy is why it's getting harder and harder to think . . amazing concept, no? " to Zackfox

In a page-pose to you, Zackfox chuckles!! "weeelll yes, I think there may be some connection, dear "

You page-pose, "Selene rubs one hand against your back, moving the tips of her knuckles in small circles between your shoulders." to Zackfox

In a page-pose to you, Zackfox ohhs!.... *sigghhh.. mmeeelltt..*
In a page-pose to you, Zackfox burbles.. "uhh mmmm. thats nice. hehe"

You page-pose, "Selene sits behind you and starts with both hands, moving in opposite circles, one on each shoulder. Every so often her hands move back towards the spine, or down your back a bit, before returning to the spot between your shoulder blades and the base of your neck." to Zackfox

You page-pose, "Selene works her way up the back of your neck, using just one knuckle - sometimes two - from each hand. They move in tiny circles, digging into the knots formed by a long day. Her thumbs brush lightly against your headfur as her hands move." to Zackfox

In a page-pose to you, Zackfox shivers! "oh.. oh my" he says, panting a little at how nice that is, purrrrrrring and his eyes closing, shivering "ohh heh. that uh mmmmm I didnt expect this.. ommmmmmm" he says, coooing at the lovely touches "thats. .. thats sooo good" he says, his feet even *melt* into little pools. hehe <3

You page-pose, "Selene grins as her years of practice pay off. She works her way back down, alternating between your neck and the top of your back. She switches the direction of her rubbing from time to time, from clockwise to counterclockwise, just to keep things from staying too much the same." to Zackfox

You page-pose, "Selene moves down to just your back again . . she sometimes works her way down her spine to the small of your back, pushing firmly, and sometimes out to the sides of you back, being a bit more gentle there." to Zackfox

In a page-pose to you, Zackfox ohhhs and nestles in against your shoulder, panting a little and his arms cuddling around your lower back, holding onto you for support as he sigghs and relaxes "ohhh hon.." he says, whimpering a little at how cozy and nice it all is.. he shivers and breathes in deep long breaths, murrrrring, his tail quivering back n forth in pure bliss "ahh.. mmph.. ahhh.." his eyes closed, ears splayed "oh.. its.. soo nice" he says. He's gonna melt-gasm into a relax-o-puddle at any moment, but stays solid so he can feel more of your lovely lovely touch <3 <3

You page-pose, "Selene blinks in surprise at the effect she's having, but keeps going. She returns to just below your shoulder blades, moving more slowly now as your muscles are already relaxed. She starts using her thumbs, rubbing little secondary circles as her knuckles do their work." to Zackfox

You page-pose, "Selene gradually slows waaaaay down, giving your entire back a light going-over. She reaches up and rubs your neck one last time, then settles her hands against your shoulderblades, then lightly rubs down your spine. She leaves them there for a second or two before pulling her hands away and letting you sit all melty-like. " to Zackfox

In a page-pose to you, Zackfox sigghs, panting very quietly and softly as you massage your thumbs along his back and your skillful knuckles.. he purrrs as you rub along his neck, shivering as you run along his shoulders, shoulderblades.. and mmphs, straighting up as you stroke along his spine, purrrrring gingerly, sigghing as you take your hands away. He mmmpphs, just shivering, sitting there, totally in bliss, then breaathes in, and as he exhales, his whole body *melllttts* cutely down into a blue puddle of bliss <3 <3

You page-pose, "Selene awwws and pats the blue puddle. "Looks like you really needed that backrub "" to Zackfox

In a page-pose to you, Zackfox giggles and burrbles around, he'd kiss ya if he .. wasnt a puddle http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8401791/ Mon, 01 May 2006 00:46:15 PDT
Valthial whispers, "I should have them all done tomorrow, ready for you to enter in #morph." to you.

You whisper, "Thank you, sir. I'm very curious as to what you'll create . . and happy to know that it will be something you'll like. I'd be afraid to create something myself, since I'm not very good at writing what other people want." to Valthial.

Valthial whispers, "I think it's more what you would fashion yourself, and I'd just undertake the tedium of setting it into text. I've all confidence that you'll be just as pleasing and attentive a vulpine thereafter, and one so eager to repay a due favor?" to you.
You whisper, "You already have my service; I will do anything for you that I can without crossing the border into sex. If there is anything within those limits that I can do to repay your kindnesses, you only have to name it." to Valthial.

Valthial whispers, "Where would you set that boarder, dear? I'd like to touch you, if only casually so, as you make such an inviting vulpine, but not so far as to offend." to you.

You whisper, "Touch me as you would a servant. Try not to think of me as a person for sex, but as a trophy - someone you show off in front of others. I am happy to serve and make others jealous with my body. But do not try to take that beauty from me, please." to Valthial.

You whisper, "My body is reserved for another. It may be changed, looked at, dressed up or down . . but its ultimate purpose is to serve another, one I haven't even met yet, who will be my lifemate." to Valthial.

You page, "I do not mind you using my body. But you cannot own it. And sex . . would be a way of owning it. And anything that leads to sex would only be torture if there can't be sex. So . . touch me as you will, accept my milk and my hands and my labor. But claiming my body as your own . . " to Valthial.

You whisper, "I am sorry if I sound selfish or harsh. And I know I have not been very specific. But I suppose the main thing is the intent. One can touch another's shoulder in a friendly or aggressive or demanding manner . . or one can touch it in a seductive or totally-possessive manner. You can be demanding, and even possessive - in that I am your servant, not someone else's - but it's my service that belongs to you, not my body, so there can't be seduction or total posession." to Valthial


You page-pose, -mischan- to Valthial

Valthial whispers, "I thought that, from your listing, you'd already found your one and only elsewhere, and in such a case I'd not interfere. I'd gladly consider you a trophy, a delightful prize, and treat you accordingly.. we've already seen the envy that your superlative companionship evokes. I'd gladly accept your milk, your hands, and of course your kiss, but if it is absolute that you'd not be my vixen in that regard.. that's how it will be." to you.


Selene bows very low, bringing her head far below her waist.

You whisper, "You have just earned a great deal of my respect, sir." to Valthial.

You whisper, "It is an honor to serve you. Thank you for accepting my humble work." to Valthial.

Valthial whispers, "All I'd ask in exchange is that.. to such an extent, you are my vixen, and a gracious servant, one I cherish. That means my gracious servant, beholden to demands and to possessiveness, and I would be foremost in your affection here." to you.

You page-pose, -mischan- to Valthial

Selene nods obediently. "Even as you say, Master."

You page-pose, -mischan- to Valthial

You page, "I'm sorry about the earlier pages. I was talking with a friend earlier and got my commands wrong. From now on I'll try to only talk to other friends when I'm Vusty, not Selene." to Valthial.

Selene blushes and looks away, ashamed at her misattention.

Valthial says, "One important detail.. one I'd be remiss in addressing, with the vulpine I treasure so, and one that will make such a wondrous addition to my trove." His wing aligns vertically with the svelte rise of your spine, feathers flocking about your tailbase, interspersed with the luxurious plume of your tail. "To keep you at your most presentable, I'd need bathe and groom you regularly, yes?"

Selene nods obediently, still flushed at her rude behavior. "Yes, sir." The words remind her of the milk and tea in her fur, and she turns thoughtful.

Selene bows her head low. "Please forgive me, but I have to give something to my brother and will be idle for a moment. I will be back very shortly . . "

Valthial deliberates on that a bit. "For now, I'd not ask you for .. grooming in return, as that might be... ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8364992/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8364992/ Tue, 04 Apr 2006 15:12:42 PDT
Mood: I am not

I'm not a 'real' sub. I don't mind doing disgusting yet productive chores but I don't get off on being humiliated just to be humiliated. I don't mind humbling myself but I won't call myself less than I am. I like a little pain but I can't stand being abused by someone who doesn't care about me at all. I enjoy serving but it's rarely anything like foreplay for me. I'm a human, with a soul, not just a tool. I won't bind myself to anyone who's cruel to animals - how would they see me, their slave?

I like bondage but it's not enough to get me wet. I'm attracted to doms but won't give myself up to just anyone who would claim me. I wouldn't dom anyone else but still dom myself.

I have pride and I will not be helpless before anyone but my life/soulmate.



How do I explain that to people who think being a sub is ALWAYS about sex, or about not wanting to make your own decisions? I want to give myself to someone, not be taken by whoever's strong enough to keep me. I want to be submissive because I choose to, not because I have to. Not because I can't help it.

I'm a gift. A blessing. Not a prize or a trophy.

Yes, I'm a sub. I'm just not what you think I am, what you think all subs must be.

I'm not easily swayed, I owe no favors to you, I am not weak-willed or -minded. It is NOT just a matter of time and you will NOT get any more from me than friendship or non-sexual service - both if you're lucky.

And dammit, I'll fight for the right to choose who I give myself to, when, and why. I will not be taken advantage of.

I AM NOT HELPLESS.

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8249542/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8249542/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 19:13:31 PST
Mood: watashi wa ona desu
Listening to: Blue (Da ba dee)

I'm so looking forward to performing War of the Worlds next weekend, even if I'm not looking forward to all the work. we will ROCK this town!

I'm feeling like I'm totally gonna kick ass on this chapter's programming project . . once I get started ^.^;

I have a really smart partner for my huge final project in CS - yay! we will create the best ticket-seller program EVAH!

I think I finally slowed down my PSL for Richardo-san to a reasonable level, w/out hating him or being upset with him! God is da awesome for protecting me ..

I finally starting listening to my music again! It makes me happy.

da half-pills seem to be helping.

and apparently, there's a fundamentalist semi-conservative christian male out there who isn't freaked out by the fact that I'm intrigued by BDSM. 0.0 who'da thunk it?

mrr . . back to work!

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8249488/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8249488/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 19:08:42 PST
Progress:
40 questions fully entered
23 questions answered

Mood: watashi wa ona desu

1. If you decided to stay at home for the evening would you tend to:

A: watch tv
B: clean
C: talk on the phone
D: read

2. If you were taken by your date to a party where you knew no one, how would you respond?

A: stay close to my date, letting him/her introduce me
B: find a spot at the back bar and relax, letting him/her work the room
C: strike out on my own, introducing myself and making friends
D: I would ask my partner if I could skip this particular event

3. How often do you lose your temper?

A: practically never
B: once in a while
C: on occasion during a week
D: probably once a day on average
E: irritable: perhaps once every week or two. angry: perhaps once every two months. It's tied to my problem-solving state of mind. It's almost always situation-directed, not person-directed, but I tend to take it out on people who talk to me. Sometimes I need someone who's supporting and lets me vent all my anger, for me to work through it. Other times I just need space.

4. When in a relationship, how much personal space do you generally find you need?

A: I don't have a great need for 'personal space'. I like lots of together time.
B: I find my time spent working is enough personal space, the rest I like to spend with my partner
C: as long as I can get one night a week to myself, my personal space needs are met
D: when I'm with my partner I'm completely there, but I do need considerable time for personal reflection

5. If you had to characterize the end of most of your romantic relationships, they would be described as:

A: pleasant as breaking up can be, with both people feeling it was the best decision
B: sad, with one partner being hurt and feeling betrayed
C: very dramatic, with lots of hurtful accusations
D: angry, with lots of feelings of disappointment

6. Which of the following marriage issues do you fear most?

A: fear of growing apart
B: fear of marrying the wrong person
C: fear of becoming 'your parents'
D: fear of getting hurt

7. How important is chemistry to you?

A: I need to feel that instant "click"
B: within the first couple of dates I need to sense a certain chemistry
C: I think chemistry can be generated over the long-term with someone I really like
D: I don't believe chemistry is really important to a successful relationship

8. Which of the following scenarios would make you more nervous?

A: making a presentation to 500 people
B: a long car ride with a person you just met
C: talking about your deepest fears with your lover
D: meeting with the president of the company you work for

9. How many books did you read last year?

A: 0-3
B: 4-7
C: 8-12
D: more than 12

10. When going somewhere:

A: I am usually early
B: I am usually on time
C: I am usually late
D: I am often very late or don't show

11. Which of the following indoor activities sounds like the most fun to you?

A: cooking
B: shopping
C: bowling
D: watching a video

12. What best describes your parents' relationship towards each other:

A: married and loving
B: married but distant
C: divorced and civil
D: divorced and abusive

13. What best describes your attitude toward work?

A: It's just how I earn money to enjoy the rest of my life
B: I like my job but my focus is elsewhere
C: it is where I am at my best and my main focus
D: it is the culminatoin of my dream and where I invest almost all my energy

14. Where do you see yourself living in 15 years?

A: a nice apartment in the city
B: a house in the suburbs
C: a house in a small town
D: a house in the country

15. If you were to marry, how many children would be ideal?

A: 0
B: 1
C: 2
D: 3 or more

... ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8190092/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8190092/ Fri, 17 Mar 2006 16:13:02 PST Mood: genki junai desu

Doumo, Richardo-sama. Doumo arigatou gozaimasu. Atashi wa baka na ona desu. Wakarimasu.

Thank you for curing me of this ridiculous obsession with love.

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8140709/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8140709/ Sun, 12 Mar 2006 14:55:05 PST Mood: Mrr. . .

Just some of my favorite Teen Titans AMVs, in no particular order.

[link] TT Raven: It's The Fear [Of The Dark] (5)

[link] TT Slade: Remix Is Disturbed [bwahaha] (5)

[link] *TT Beast Boy and Raven: Roxanne [kickass!] (5)

[link] *TT Beast Boy and Raven: Talk About Me (5)

[link] *TT girls: Lady Marmalade [hot and sexy] (5)

[link] TT Terra: Are You Happy Now? (5)

[link] *TT Starfire: Strangers Like Me (5)

[link] TT: White Flag [I will go down with this 'ship] (5)

[link] TT Raven: Unforgiven (5)

[link] TT Raven: Paint It Black (4.5)

[link] *TT Mad Mod: American Idiot (5)


[link] More.

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8028692/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8028692/ Tue, 28 Feb 2006 14:39:47 PST
Mood: *twitch*

Must. Finish. Critique.

*gnerk* almost spring break . . almost home . . almost spring break . . just a few more days without medication . . then I'll have the happy good pills and I can stop popping Ghirardelli's 60% Cocoa . . not much longer now, my precious, and I'll be sane again . . until then, just keep thinking about class . . must be done before class . .must be done before class . . must be done before class . . nono, don't think about leaving the safe haven of The Room . . you can survive the outside world, really you can . . just don't make eye contact . . have some more chocolate . . focus on the critique . . fooocussss . . . .

*twitch*

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8020915/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/8020915/ Mon, 27 Feb 2006 18:01:25 PST
Mood: tiredy

I got tagged by ~puffsgain right after hearing: "ohhh, pms. I was *wondering* if your head was screwed on straight."

I know I'm bitchy. Leave me alone.



1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
bad cat: 244 not-so-pretty kitties and cats gone bad "HOBBY: Helping little old Chihuahuas cross the street

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
Air, wet towel.

3.What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Ummm . . some random movie playing in the cafeteria? haven't sat down to watch TV since New Years . .

4.Without looking, guess what time it is:
7:45 PM

5.Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
19:33:42

6.With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
the fan; roomie typing a little, singing to herself.

7.When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
I just left the school pool on the way back to this dorm . . and then I came in here. yay

8.Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
my comments/my notes

9.What are you wearing?
wet swimsuit (Now New and Improved with Pad!); cutoff jeans (YAY!! I love these jeans <3); the liner to my dad's AF jacket

10.Did you dream last night?
Hum, I don't remember.

11. When did you last laugh?
In the pool today.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Hmm . . roomie's Beatles poster, oriental tiger wallscroll and a few other tiny things . . man she needs to put the rest of her stuff up XD our room looks so bare. Not that I have anything to contribute. My Bionicle posters disintegrated long ago.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
A friend of mine has very thick, frizzy hair (yum) . .but in the pool, it turns into a 60s haircut! Whoo Dr. McCoy!

14. What do you think of this quiz?
It's . . wow, it's actually cheered me up a bit. Hmm.

15. What is the last film you saw?
Umm . . I think it was Hoodwinked? Bro dragged me along and I actually sorta enjoyed it XP

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Umm. Lots and lots of chocolate. and my FRIKKEN PILLS WHICH WERE SUPPOSED TO BE HERE A WEEK AGO AND HAVEN"T SHOWED UP AND GRR GRR ARRGH BINA SMASH!!! I mean . .uh . .yeah.

Oh, and the entire back archives of DC comics.


17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
I . .uh . . oh look! kittens! (actually, 'can't think. eating chocolate. yum.) Ooh ooh I know! My real name is the same as a superhero's alias. Yay.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics:
Mrr. Hard to choose.Some stuff is just not for me to change. It would be wrong of me to, even if I had the power. I can't just pretend that there'd be no consequences and no guilt, either. So . . um . . better restructuring of politics and economy so that food was actually spread out pretty evenly among the world's inhabitants?

19. Do you like to dance?
Well, I like to TRY XD

20. George Bush:
can't be summed up in one sentence. Especially since I have been too busy with other things to keep up with recent events (yes I am an idiote, pardon my greek)

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
SOO tempted to pick Katryn but that would just be vicarious. Umm . . . Elizabeth? Yay for Beths!

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Humm . . I like John a lot, for some reason.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
YES! I can live most anywhere, but living abroad might be a nice learning experience. If it didn't drive me mad. XP

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
"Well done, my good and faithful servant. How could you ever imagine that I wouldn't love my child?"

25. 4 people who must also do this in THEIR journal:

Hrmmm . . uh . . gosh I'm brain-dead. Uhh, if he won't kill me and hasn't been tagged yet, then ~Gaff1229. Hmm, then uh . . ~hellboy4ever, ~Stabitha and ~lamusicalady if they so desire . .

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7999931/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7999931/ Sat, 25 Feb 2006 14:08:12 PST
Spending too much time doing . .what, exactly? not really sure.

Be back . .who knows when. Spring break maybe.

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7928097/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7928097/ Fri, 17 Feb 2006 18:06:08 PST Mood: obsessed and tired
Listening to: 'Baby, It's all right now" - yeah right! grr.

3Ds Max 7 is le suck and so is any other free-ish modeler I can seem to get my hands on . . at least so far as certain file types go, that does limit my choice of programs a bit . . . how the hell am I supposed to make Harley's shoes now?? *headdesks repeatedly*

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7840749/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7840749/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 23:35:06 PST Mood: working
Listening to: 'unstoppable, unstoppable' -Tenchi

I want things to be happy. but I feel like everything is crumbling apart.

Would the best thing for him be . . for me to leave him alone?
maybe I'm not good for him/all I know is how to be selfish/does he really want to be with me?
or does he just want a warm body/heaven knows I feel that need/I don't want us to settle for a relationship of convenience.

We deserve more than that.

Should I leave him alone? 'give him time'? even if that means that I can never have him, on any terms? Forever just good friends . .

What does it say if the only terms I can have him on are 'you feel good'?

Maybe I'm just not the one . . no matter what I do or say or be . . just not the one for him. .

(don't say I'm bad for him - don't say I'm bad for him - don't say I'm bad for him - I'll stop if I'm bad for him-)

I'm paranoid.

And maybe I'm right.


-
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I'll be glad when my pills arrive.

--edit--

I think maybe I know what I should do.

Sorta. Maybe kinda. It came to me while i was in the shower. 'Blindingly simple' I guess but still a bit new to me.

I'm afraid I can't/aren't(? bad grammar, bad!) giving him what he needs. SO, duh, give him what he needs. If I'm not good for him right now, then I'll change. Not the essence of who I am, but my actions . . what I do for him . .

Instead of being all touchy-feely and stuff (though heaven knows we both crave touch) I'll focus more on being there for him, suppressing my annoying instinct to interrupt people (including him), mastering my attention span so I can actually listen without going off into space, get more involved in his projects/ideas (though I think he likes doing them himself . . but at least I can show interest, like I am already . . only more so?), and generally try to be less self-absorbed . . I need to LOVE him more than just LIKE him . .

dang, that'll take a lot of work - without the pills I'm bitchy and egotistical and with them I'm distracted and - what's the word? fickle? whimsical? easily blown about? scatterbrained? yeah . . but it's worth it! I may have been letting myself slack off for myself, when I was the only one who was likely to get hurt much, but . . he's my friend . . and I really should shape up for him. Even more so if we're ever more than friends.

And if he still won't really love me for me, but just for the physical chemistry we have? well that's okay . . I mean it hurts and I'll be sad but it's still okay . . I don't want him to just settle for someone who likes him a lot. Even someone who loves him. He should have someone he really loves.

And maybe, after him, if we don't work out . . maybe I'll finally be mature enough to love whoever I *am* meant for . .

ack. Too early in the morn to be up thinking about this stuff Off to bed with me . .

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7825458/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7825458/ Tue, 07 Feb 2006 05:16:32 PST Mood: just woke up

Just woke up. All sneezy. grr.

used the search feature to look for 'tribal wolf' stuff for a friend. Found a lot of cool things. faved some. Usually I go through each artist's gallery and more often than not I end up watching them, but this time I just faved cool things. Maybe when I have time I'll go through and look at their galleries . .

meh . .gotta run to b/fast and try to memorize lines in a hurry . . .

achoo!


(at least a certain someone should be a breakfast . . . *warm and fuzzy*)

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7790133/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7790133/ Fri, 03 Feb 2006 12:51:30 PST Mood: tired and wasted
Listening to: nothing

I don't know why but this seemed oddly poetic. Not the kind of poem I usually like - nice, regular verse - but more like something out of Proverbs. Paired and tripled lines, or something . .I dunno.

I feel empty lately. The pain actually makes me feel alive, even if it makes me feel like more of a heel that I don't feel it more.

Note: Mom raises rabbits.


DaMom: I just wanted to let you know that baby died during the night....
DaMom: but at least I tried all I could and I know he knew I loved him
RouJoumis: *hugs*
RouJoumis: I dreamed that I was with you
RouJoumis: and I was so upset when I woke up and realized I wasn't
RouJoumis: I'm glad you were able to be with him
RouJoumis: and not be too hysterical to take care of him
RouJoumis: Just remember . . I'm sure almost every breeder has been through this
RouJoumis: and unlike a lot of them . . you still put the rabbits ahead of the business
RouJoumis: even though it hurts
RouJoumis: I love you
RouJoumis: I'm praying for you


I have a meeting that I nearly slept though. Can't abandon ALL of my responsibilities, now can I . . *signing off*

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7769638/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7769638/ Wed, 01 Feb 2006 10:03:29 PST Mood: fooood . . .
Listening to: Close Your Eyes - Fantasy

My friend/roommate Jen loves my subscription. She gets to use the search feature!

I think I've finally wrested her away from my computer. now we might have time to eat before we go swimming

I'll have to buy that girl a subscription for her account . . hmm . .

Until then, I'll get to see lots of Tenchi pictures.

Off to food!

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7729826/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7729826/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 08:22:31 PST Mood: content
Listening to: Close Your Eyes - Fantasy

been working my way through the unviewed devs. I keep skipping over the clubs, since I'll want to check out each individual artist's gallery and that will take forever . . I've been re-watching a lot of people that I stopped watching. Now that I have a subscription, it will hopefully be easier to keep track of so many people

Today I have to:

Memorize scene for Acting II
Contact Jackson so we can practice for Acting II
Read Antigone for Script Analysis
Read the next chapter for Object-Oriented Programming


This week I have to:

Read the next chapter in history before the reading quiz on Thursday


Stuff I'd like to/ought to do this week, but that is mostly optional:

Practice the Japanese I learned on Friday; practice writing my name in katakana
Read M. Butterfly for the eventual project in Script Anal. . .
clean room
do extra programming, getting more used to VB .NET
start going through Drawing For Dummies (yay Christmas gift!)
shower 0.0



So . .what do I do when I first get up? I start going through DA I should probably get to work on that scene for Acting now . .

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7559846/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7559846/ Mon, 09 Jan 2006 23:24:53 PST Mood: content
Listening to: Close Your Eyes - Fantasy

After my comp died recently, I got some pieces/parts form family to make a new one. This included an old motherboard from my bro. (Well .. 'old' compared to the brand-spankin'-new one he just assembled.)

Along with the motherboard came some CDs of drivers etc. that were originally on the computer. Yesterday I finally got around to sticking in CD 2 - APPLICATiON -- ALREADY INSTALLED ON YOUR COMPUTER. I browsed around, installed the various anitviral programs, and then lo and behold I saw PAINT SHOP PRO v.8!! (cue hallelujah chorus)

I love PSP Unfortunately, several computers back I lost the only copy I had (which I got from my Dad anyway). So I was ecstatic to finally have a copy again. It turns out that it's only a 60-day trial, but hey, 60 days of a GOOD drawing program . . . buh-bye, MSPaint!

Still don't have a lot of skill but at least I have l33t 4pp5 for my not-so-m4d ski77s.

Anyway. Having fun . . *ish content*

~~

Random note . . . 'fake friends'?

I'll admit, I don't read most of the journals that my 'friends' write. I watch over a hundred friends. And I don't watch them because I want to know everything that goes on in their life . . I watch them because they draw kickass art. If the subject looks interesting, I'll read the journal. If they're someone I *really* admire, I might read the journal. Otherwise . . sorry, but I'm too busy I mean honestly, how many people are going to read THIS journal? Damn few if any. And that's fine with me.

I have to say, also: 'write a journal entry with 'fake friends' in the subject or I'll delete you' . . . isn't the point to see who's 'paying attention'? Doesn't that suggest you should be paying attention too? And yet you can't be bothered to read journals yourself . . you will only look at the titles, like me I didn't agree with the main point anyways, but this sorta just undermines it - going for immediately visible response over substance. How about 'note me if you agree/disagree' or 'write a journal entry about it (without worrying about a hotphrase subject title)' or something . . grr . . arggh . . Who started this thing and why?? Are they really upset that people are watching them without reading journals? And who would be lame enough to watch someone just to LOOK like they have friends?? If they're that lame then who cares . . having a lot of people watch you doesn't put any pressure on YOU, just on the WATCHERS . . grr . .

*sigh* sorry, irrationally ranting now . . off my soapbox I get (before I turn all bitchy and bite heads off for no apparent reason!)

~~
(and now for something completely different)
~~

Back to college in a week. I'm not even registered for this semester yet. I have a ton of laundry to do, things to pack, courses to pick out (after the financial aid office removes its hold on my account), and a schedule to get back into . . .

Must not give in to panic. Must not give in to panic. Must not . . .oh look, cookies! *munch*

Chocolate makes even school better . . for five minutes . . XD

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7540175/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7540175/ Sat, 07 Jan 2006 22:47:22 PST Me loves subscription. Must thank Mom.

But now I have to feed the bunnies, and head to bed . . maybe I can do some more while in bed . .hmm . . but I have to feed bunnies first or I'll forget

'night all! Have a good day/week/weekend?.

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7539434/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7539434/ Sat, 07 Jan 2006 20:58:15 PST
Now to see if it will kick in or not . . . *anxious* ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7528467/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7528467/ Fri, 06 Jan 2006 16:52:18 PST
I've been picking one dev at a time and totally catching up with their gallery, then just marking everything in devwatch with their name on it. So a lot of those 4500 are probably things I've already seen . . I just can't get to them to mark them, until I deal with the 100 deviations at the end of the list XP

Tired now and have headache. Will leave the rest for yet another day. . . and the day after that . .

(it feels good to be looking at art again!) ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7461235/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7461235/ Fri, 30 Dec 2005 21:59:30 PST
That's the lowest it's been in a long time

Plus, I have extra-flavored ramen sitting in a mug in my lap. With butter!!

Plus plus, I've done some catching up on a few fics that I'd lost track of. Yay for reading!

I THANK GOD for FINALLY having long periods of internet access . . while on break from school . . yay!!

(note to self, thank brother profusely for lending me his wireless antenna.) ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7109414/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/7109414/ Mon, 21 Nov 2005 20:49:45 PST
Thanksgiving break starts tomorrow, and my comp isn't coming with me. Probably won't be on for a bit (but then when am I ever on?)

after favorites, it's time to start narrowing down my devwatched artists . . and then actually check out the deviations that I haven't looked at yet . .

-tiredandsucky

~UPDATE~

with a few (mostly random) exceptions, I'm un-watching everyone who doesn't watch me. Hopefully this will keep those 5749 unviewed deviations from doubling while I'm away.

Later when I have more time I will go through my favorites and re-fav those artists that I just MUST watch. . . but for now I ish tired and uncaring. ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/6966325/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/6966325/ Sat, 05 Nov 2005 21:08:34 PST ) but I'm still alive.

Unfortunately my DA visits are sporadic, so 'pologies if I miss out on your latest greatest deviation, or if I take forever to respond to a comment

Keep kickin' ass, y'all ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5421083/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5421083/ Sat, 21 May 2005 12:57:35 PDT
Anyway, back to my life of alternating between layabout-ing and move-those-boxes-ing.

(And eating sgetti'os. yum!)

]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5345910/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5345910/ Fri, 13 May 2005 19:30:02 PDT
As soon as they get home, we start moving in . . .

YAY!!! NEW HOUSE!! ALL OURS! TODAY!!!! WOOOO!

Not that, y'know, I'm excited or anything.

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okay, so we didn't get the keys 'till 5 pm (since the previous owners had to do paperwork too and loans had to be approved, etc.)

Still, we've got some stuff in the house already. The bunnies . . . some food from the pantry . . . bottled water . . . small appliances . . . about to move the dog over . . .

YAY FOR OUR HOUSE! ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5310018/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5310018/ Mon, 09 May 2005 10:22:47 PDT
...

and am I the only one who wants them to be serious science fiction?

deep, dark government agencies . . . aliens held against their will . . . genetic experiments to create a special elite force . . . renegade agents rising up against their superiors . . .

Yep. Sounds like The Magic School Bus to me. ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5074545/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5074545/ Wed, 13 Apr 2005 00:19:46 PDT
And by 'disk' I mean C:

I expect her to die soon . . .

Farewell, poor frankenputer! I'll miss you! ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5047467/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5047467/ Sun, 10 Apr 2005 00:14:07 PDT
I told him that he belonged to me, and I belonged to him. And that was a really nice feeling.

He stood next to me and caressed my cheek. I reached out and ran my fingers through his hair.

He was speaking to me, and his voice sounded like music, like a beautiful song of affection and desire. I could feel his breathing, in and out, as he leaned against me. I ran my hands along the silk of his body.

He murmered soft approval. Then, without explanation, he turned and walked away.

Oh well. Stupid cat. Didn't need him anyway. ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5036913/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5036913/ Fri, 08 Apr 2005 18:46:07 PDT
Ok, so I liked the whole KP movie. And I'm so glad that KP and Ron are together. But seriously, is the dress fight not one of the coolest thing evah?

Sorry, DD, I'm still not converted to Kigo. But hey, I gotta admit, Shego is sexy. Especially in that dress.

Dang. Now I'm jealous. Where can I find a dress like that?

[edit] ok, so it's not really a dress. But it is hot. ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5028710/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5028710/ Thu, 07 Apr 2005 19:23:11 PDT
Damn, that was fun.


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oh, on another note. DD doesn't want me to draw her *sigh* so I'm not even gonna post the rough draft of the b-day pic. Hmm. Have to come up with a different idea. . . ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5012841/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5012841/ Wed, 06 Apr 2005 02:13:32 PDT Hopefully we'll still be speaking to each other when her b-day rolls around . . .

Too lazy to scan it in, though, so you get a pic of my desktop instead. Ph34r the zombies. ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5010386/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/5010386/ Tue, 05 Apr 2005 19:05:59 PDT 1. RouJoumis
2. Beanie (Bina, Bean, Beanpot, Beanikins . . .)
3. . . . no, I'm not going to tell you my real name. MINE! You can't have it!!


THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. RouJoumis
2. TCsEvilSis
3. Grue #2486

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. sense of humor
2. smart
3. big boobs ( okay so I don't much care for them but they'll make someone very happy)

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. scaredy cat
2. bossy
3. self-centered

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. NEEDLES AAAGH!!!
2. strangers
3. friends

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. webcomics
2. email
3. teh happy pills

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. leotard
2. black shirt
3. um . . . glasses? watch?

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists (at the moment)):
1. Switchfoot
2. Symphonic Chronicles
3. Marty O'Donnell *drool* sexay music . . .

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Chocolate Salty Balls
2. La Isla Bonita
3. gd01Rain03 Loop

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. wearing real combat-quality leather armor *drool*
2. . . .
3. uh, I don't really know . . . I like a lot of the OLD things I've been doing.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. someone to talk to :glee!:
2. someone to work together with
3. someone to cuddle up next to and get hugs and kisses . . . aw yeah . . .

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. Never been kissed.
2. Don't like little kids.
3. Can't stand caffiene.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Voice. Oh, sweet sexy expressive voice of a comedian . . . *swoon*
2. mussy hair
3. smiling face

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. strangle my cat
2. draw realistic stuff
3. keep my desk clean

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Readin'.
2. Ritin'
3. 'Rithmatic - er I mean listenin' to music.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. STOP HURTING in my back!
2. Buy a kitty for someone
3. work on my suede bracers

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. manga-ka/novelist
2. bookseller
3. waitress

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Mars
2. Australia
3. Jump City

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Kathryn Elizabeth
2. Bob
3. Sarah

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. get something published
2. lose weight and learn (more of) a martial art
3. . . . have sex

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. . . .
2. . . .
3. . . . ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4995959/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4995959/ Mon, 04 Apr 2005 09:00:09 PDT
I'm about to start narrowing down this list.

Actually, THIS list will stay the same. It'll be the great big list of people I thought were worth watching. The problem is, see, I've only got so much time. So the people I ACTUALLY watch will be less than the people I think are WORTH watching. If that makes sense.

I'm about to clear out my list of deviations people have done, and start over fresh. I just don't have the time to go through 1,687 message centre items.

I'll go through later and add dev tags to this list. Right now I'm just getting it out there.


Username
~AriaOfSorrow
~Beretta-Bitch-Kat
~bookworm001
~chamzi
~chik-4-wolverine
~CranberryZee
~CyborgxRaven-Club
~DAdamH
~DarkRaven44
!dead2rights
*GargoylesClub
~Go-Titans-East
~GriffinClaws
~hillary-the-weirdo
*hitokiri-kiba
~jaxxblackfox
~jingster
~Mery-Kitty
~Nadia354
~neKoIzuMi
~pokecat
~Sajiwo-Chan
~Sakura22
~Sentinel13
~SG1Fanatics
~SilverDragonGrrl
~SimplePlanManiac
~Smackdowner
*sonicelectronic
~taichichan
~teapot-phx
~Terra-Fans
~Thenextteentitans
~TheNumberD
~TitansVillainsClub
~unheard-voice
*White-Wolfen
~Wildarmsheero
*xaeryx
Clubs
~animorphs
~BadSpellersClub
~Christian-a-n-m
~christianotaku
*christians
~Cyborg-Fan-Club
*daac
~genuinegirls
~Incredibles-club
~JinxClub
~spyrothedragon
~TeenTitans-OC
~ThePixarClub
~treasure-planet
~wandafanclub
Clubs-*
~BBxRae
~cosmofanclub
~dannyphantom
~fullmetalalchemist
~KimPossible
~kingdomhearts
~MyBeast-Boy
~ravensemotions-club
~RobinxStar
~Teen-Titans-club
~teentitans
~terra-fanclub
~terraxbeastboy
~The-Raven-Club
~The-Robin-Club
Clubs-**
~DarknessAbounds
~kimshego
~megas-xlr
!starfireclub
~starfireraven
~TT-ships
Level 1
*bright-star
~elyang
~EndlessDreamer13
~Ferith
~MandaNoPants1
~pun-3x
Level 2
~AmyRicketts
~asanji
~bakhu
~bellatella
~Bertron-the-Prophet
~BlueSerenity
*CartoonFreak911
~chibi-Rikku
~DannyPhantomFreek
~dum-donutz
*endoh
~EricEchidhog
~fallenrose24
~Gandalfia
*goofmore
~GreenWolf242004
~KiwiYoghurt
~Kuria
~LadySubaru101
~lamusicalady
~Lunaresca
*musachan
~Raijuu
~Rhodonite
~rippie
*skyechan
~Stabitha
~TEENTITANSFAN
*unicorn-catcher
~VietLaosBoi
*wally626
~x0frankie0x
Level 2-*
~malchiorfan
~SamRH
Level 2-**
*Chibi-Angelwolf-chan
~ZarathePirate
Level 2-***
~Ghanima62
*jessnumbuh20
~Quezzi
Level 3
~0Pandoras0tear0
~addictedvalen
~Andali
`arcipello
~bara-chan
*bleedman
*Blue-Fox
*ButtercupSaiyan
~CamT
*celesse
~ceta
*Cylu-chan
*dark-persian
~defyingtheworld
~edgen
~farfie-kins
~fuuneko
~grimzee
~JSpengs
~kimchee4younme
~Ookami-Ayane
~simultaneousjoy
~thirdeyeblind
~Vertual-Being02
~vietgurlie3
Level 3-*
~animalloz
*Columbine-Icetree
*Eumenide... ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4968515/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4968515/ Fri, 01 Apr 2005 08:49:02 PST
Sorry I haven't been on DA in, like, forever. I haven't read/posted anything in . . . I dunno, a month? feels like. No excuse, just been caught up in other things. (apparently I'm a semi-decent roleplayer.) Don't know when I'll really be back. Hopefully soon.

I'm planning to do a little bit of writing soon, hopefully I can find my outline of Existence and put up a few more chapters . . .

right now I'm going to go lay down and get some sleep. Hopefully.

Someone alert the National Guard. General Malaise is revolting.

(. . . afterthought: today my favorite words seem to be 'hopefully' and 'soon'. Not a good sign.) ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4822527/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4822527/ Tue, 15 Mar 2005 18:03:08 PST
On the bright side, Dad's computer is great for playing DVDs. Hehe.

"THE BABY WAS EXPLODING! HAVE YOU EVER SEEN AN EXPLODING BABY, MR. DICKER?!?"

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~Gaff1229 made a very cool preview image for my Terra: Existence fanfic. I went ahead and added it - yay for Gaff! Go tell him how cool he is! Your Royal Annoyance demands it!

And now I gotta go check up on the bunny. ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4778927/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4778927/ Thu, 10 Mar 2005 16:08:15 PST
Yesterday we all went and looked at a house. This certainly wasn't the first one we've looked at, but it was one that kept Mom coming back to the listing. We didn't look at it sooner 'cause she thought it might be too expensive.

Yesterday we got there and absolutely loved the house.

Yesterday we put an offer on the house.

Yesterday they accepted the offer.

A lot happened very quickly yesterday.

Recently, Dad got a promotion (and corresponding raise). Also everyone in the shop is getting a bonus. Plus, I may be taking on *gulp shiver* a tutoring job. So a lot has been happening lately . . . at least it seems like a lot to me, who doesn't like change.

I'm half-waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Plus I'm impatient for May to roll around, so we can start moving in to our new house . . .

OUR new house. The first house we've ever owned. It'll be nice . . .



(badly mangled)
Yesterday . . .
All our troubles seemed so far away!
And it seemed that was how it would stay
Oh how I long for
Yesterday . . . ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4744272/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4744272/ Sun, 06 Mar 2005 15:34:04 PST
And I ALSO finally got my hands on Teen Titans: A Kid's Game. YAAAAYY!!!!!

*cackles with glee, runs away to read* ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4725526/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4725526/ Fri, 04 Mar 2005 07:49:38 PST
I'm consistently running about 2 days behind on reading journals, and about a week (in some cases more) behind on viewing deviations . . . eesh . . . I ish so behind . . .

It doesn't help that I'm afraid to look at club submissions because I'm afraid I'll see another rocking artist and have to go look at an awesome gallery with over 200+ items, 50 of which I must fave because they are so cool, which means I'll be another hour behind on clearing my devwatch list . . . *sigh* I just love cool art too much, and don't have enough time *stupid slow machine!!!* Or maybe it's just that I'm scatterbrained. Nah, couldn't be that . . .

off to look at houses w/Mom and Dad - be back later, not that you'll see me . . .

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The Watch List
If you've got a forgiving sense of humor, go check out ~zombiehorde ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4701699/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4701699/ Tue, 01 Mar 2005 11:42:10 PST
Finally found it.

Played it for my dad, who has never heard it before. (that's why I was searching.)

He just about fell over laughing. I think his face actually turned red from lack of oxygen.

He insisted I email it to him at work.

Basically, he really enjoyed it . . .

eh, it was worth the 90 minutes of frustration.

Life is good.

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The Watch List is >here< .
----- ]]> ~RouJoumis http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4698823/ http://RouJoumis.deviantart.com/journal/4698823/ Tue, 01 Mar 2005 03:30:49 PST The Watch List is >here< .
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list thingy "borrowed" from * CartoonFreak911, who got it from ~ HPfreak


.FIRSTS.
First best friend: uh . . . Sarah and Catherine I guess, sorta a group deal.
First car: none yet.
First date: Group date, Sadie Hawkins banquet (didn't have dances at college), went bowling afterwards.
First real kiss: none yet . . . unless that frisky puppet counted . . .
First self purchased CD: Liquid Dreams by Ghost in the Machine, on mp3.com
First pet(s): uh . . .gee, there's been so many . . . first one I really loved? Alexander the Great Cat.
First piercing: Both earlobes. Both have now healed over.
First tattoo: None yet . . . might be cool one day . . . except for the *shudder* needles. I'll stick with temps for now, I can always change my mind with those, and no pain!


.LASTS.
Last kiss: a children's puppet eh, puppeteers are a rowdy bunch.
Last good cry: I don't remember . . . been a while. Probably within the last year though . . .
Last movie seen: In theaters: Um . . .Incredibles? No wait, it was some horror/scifi thing at home: Nausicaa of the valley of the wind
Events: um . . . Christmas? New Years and Valentines were sorta non-events for me.
Last beverage drank: water
Last food consumed: green beans, chicken, rice
Last crush: Not counting the one I'm trying to kill? J.D. from college.
Last phone call: My counselor, setting up an appointment >.<
Last time showered: uh . . . last week I think . . .
Last shoes worn: all-purpose dress shoes, black with silver buckle
Last CD played: cd? I mostly play playlists on my computer
Last annoyance: the stupid cats scratching at litterbox
Last disappointment: myself
Last website visited: [link]
Last word you said: Sam (name of Dad's cat)
Last song you sang: . . . not sure . . . Dare You To Move ?

What color socks are you wearing: none
What color of underwear are you wearing: bright electric blue


.FUTURE.
Where do you want to go: some sort of con. Anime, comic book, scifi, Mysterium, Gargoyles . . .or a SCA event! When I'm actually a member!
What is your career going to be: short-story writer/manga writer + ilustrator
Where are you going to live: near my parents
How many kids do you want: I wanna have twins (like me!)
What kind of car(s) do you want: can't decide between a cute little compact or a mech-looking monster . . . do they make hybrid SUV's yet?

.CURRENT.
Current mood: tired and scatterbrained
Current music: None - last was DigitallyImported's Chillout channel
Current taste: um . . . plaque?
Current hair: sorta mousy brown, down to waist with lots of split ends
Current clothes: bra and pants (I'm in my room, ok?)
Current annoyance(s): too tired to type quickly
Current desktop picture: Greg from Real Life interrogating Mr. Stouffer in his radiation immersion chamber
Current book: um . . . not in the middle of any . . . I read them too fast
Current color of toenails: um . . . clear?
Current hate: AHHH NEEDLES!!! and . . . um . . . my current daily routines


Mark "X" for yes...
() Been drunk.
() Been high.
() Kissed a member of the opposite sex.
() Kissed a member of the same sex.
() Crashed a friends car.
() Been to Japan.
(x) Ridden in a taxi.
() Been dumped.
() Been fired or laid off.
() Been in a fistfight.
() Snuck out parents house.
() Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex.
() Ever dated someone of the same sex.
(x) Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
() Been arrested.
() Made out with a stranger.
() Stole something from your job.
() Celebrated new years in time square.
() Gone on a blind date.
() Had a crush on a teacher.
() Celebrated Mardi gras in New Orleans.
() Been to Europe.
(x)... ]]> ~RouJoumis