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                <title>Final Phase</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 04 Dec 2009 20:02:25 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Alright, I'm doing my last journal entry, probably for the year.  So here's what's going on:<br /><br />I have finals not this coming week, but next.  I'm totally dreading it because unlike most lucky college students I don't have any tests.  Usually most would feel jealous until they hear that I have papers and art projects due.  This semester I'm done with all my art stuff, which is good.  I still have a 10 pg paper that I'm in the process of writing and I don't think I'm going to make it to 10 pgs, but whatever.  Then I have a 20 archive project due that same week.  So I'm sure you can see why I'm FREAKING out right now.  Perhaps after finals I'll be able to post some of my art from classes this semester... if I feel like any of it is viewable. <br /><br />My head is racing with costuming projects and I'm getting really excited about the break.  Not so excited about working more, but excited about paying off my credit card.  Anyway, back to costumes.  I already have some material to work on so I think I'm going to start my character from PSO.  I've wanted to cosplay her for years so I'm really excited I'm finally going to take the chance and make her costume.  I also have a few others in mind.  I'm going to be trying to finish my steampunk stuff and crank out Misty from Pokemon so I can do a shoot with my friend ~eclecticmaniac.  I'll post photos when that happens.  I also kinda wanna go to yaoi con next year and was thinking about what I could do.  I have any idea cause I wanted to bust out my Cain costume from Nightwalker.... all I need to do is convince someone to do Shido and I'll have fun.  If/when that happens I'll post photos too.<br /><br />I was also thinking about posting some of my scrapbooking stuff since they have a category for it, but I'll have to make sure that's okay with my friend.... my main scrapbooking project right now is her wedding and I wouldn't want to post anything she wouldn't want me to.  So if I get permission you may see some of that.  Oh, and please don't call me a little old lady for scrapbooking...~tear~<br /><br />Spent Thankgifting in Arkansas with my family and I am happy to say that my boyfriend passed the "meet your parents" test.  I was a bit worried, but they told my brother they liked him, which is more reliable than what they told me.  Anyway, I plan on keeping him around for a long time so that's nice to know my parents like him.  Both my parents and myself were very happy he was willing to fly half way across the country to meet them and we had a good vacation.  Thanksgifting was awesome so Christmas should be fun, too!  Happy Holidays everyone!<br /><br />Anyway, off to find something to eat.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>An In-betweeen School Update</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 02 Nov 2009 13:31:09 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So I'm at school right now and have been meaning to update my journal so here it goes.  <br /><br />In the world of posting I'm gonna try and post more even though I'm super behind.  I never posted my stuff from last semester: 2d design and my ceramics class although I did post my tiles that I made.  I'm also going to be posting some stuff that I'm already done with from this semester.  I have created a large sewing machine bobbin (enlarged 10x) with details when I post it and I working on a few more.  I'm taking 3d design and drawing, but the stuff from my drawing class is boring...although some of my charcoal drapery is interesting so maybe I'll post it in scraps.  <br /><br />In the realm of coplay I'm busy and yet haven't done anything.  I want to do so much and I tried to narrow it down but it's just not working.  I think the easiest and the next thing I'm going to do is Misty from Pokemon.  This is because my friend, Kelly always cosplays Ash, I fit the body type, and I think it'll be fun.  I also want to do my PSO coplay and many more including revamping my Ouran High Host Club lolita outfit.  Now that I think about it I don't think I ever posted it, so I'll fix it up a bit and post that too.<br /><br />As for school, I'm almost done.  And when I say done, I mean DONE!  Well, the semester is almost over with, but I've paid my graduation fee and should be done with my diploma at the end of Fall 2010.  I'm getting nervous and excited.  I'm almost done with school but now I must face the ever so terrifying "real world."  Anyone out there with some comforting words of wisdom and advice?  Oh, dear.<br /><br />Well that's all for now!<br /><br />Peace, Love, Anime<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>3,000 Page views From You to Me!</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 01 Sep 2009 20:16:06 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Thank you everyone for the 3,000 page views.  It took me a while to get all the way up here and was shocked to witness it!  I was at 2,999 and refreshed to 3,001!  Thanks so much!!!<br /><br />Well now back to the massive amounts of homework I have!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Convention Survival Skills</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 29 Jul 2009 13:46:04 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So Anime Expo has come and gone.  I've posted a few pictures so far, although we took over 300, I'm trying to be selective.  Expo was fun this year, and less full of drama than it has been in the past.  My friends from Arizona were out again and we cosplayed Meg and Jo from Burst Angel, which you may have already noticed.  We don't see too many Burst Angel cosplays and we did a wonderful job if I do say so myself.  (You can google image it if you don't believe me.)  I also bought a ton of figures this year which I may post a picture of so that people can see.<br /><br />Also I've cut off all my hair, well not all of it but most.  I'm a bit sad to see it go and wish I didn't cut it so much.  And it's still red from cosplaying which I'm annoyed with.  I want my hair a few inches longer and I want it blonde again!!!  Now!<br /><br />I still haven't posted any of my artwork from last semester but I'll try and get them scanned or take pictures of them within the next week so I can get them up before next semester starts.<br /><br />Ok, so I have to talk about school yet again.  I'm so pissed off right now because they've been cutting classes and staff and they just raised out tuition TWICE since last semester.  Once maybe but twice!?  I'm used to paying about 1850.00 USD, but this semester I'm required to pay almost 2400.00 USD for on semester's tuition.  How ridiculous is that?  So not only can I not take the classes I want, because they're not offered, but I have to pay more to take whatever classes I can manage to get myself into which are usually classes I didn't want to take to begin with.  I'm so upset and I've been raving about it all morning.  I mean, the second raise in tuition was put into place AFTER I paid for this semester!!!  I could murder the board of trustees, but that wouldn't really get me anywhere now will it?  Alas I will just pay and shut my mouth...or write a very unpleasant letter...I'm sure others are unhappy.<br /><br />I think that is all for now... Oh, so a small list of cosplay I will be working on in the next year:<br /><br />-Karigan G'ladheon from the Green Rider book series<br />-Steampunk outfits<br />-Michiru from Sailor Moon (not the scout coustume)<br />-Maria from Baccano!<br />-PSO cosplay<br />-Heroine from Legend of Mana<br /><br />I know I wont get to all of them, but knowing where I want to go is good right?<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Costuming to the MAX!</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 11 Jun 2009 23:29:04 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I've had a very busy yet boring week.  For the last couple of weeks I've been sitting behind my sewing machine almost every day trying to get my costume for Anime Expo done.  I'm working on Meg from Burst Angel.  You can google "burst angel meg" for pictures if for interested.  It's just a lot of tedious work with yellow and some of it is even hand sewing.  God forbid!  Anyway I've been taking pictures every now and then so I'll get some production photos as well as a final product picture.  My friend is also cosplaying form the same anime and so we'll be taking photos at the convention.  I'm pretty excited about it, but it's just stressful to get everything done in time.<br /><br />I had a fairly interesting conversation with my mother today.  We don't really talk to much because she's on the other side of the country.  Anyway, when we do talk there is a lot of catching up to do.  So today I had a very interesting catch up conversation.  I found out that my brother's god father, that we call "Uncle" passed away.  Even worse, he passed about a month ago and we didn't find out till today.  Apparently my younger was written into his will so we found out when the lawyer or whatever called to speak to him.  He had been sick but was doing better, but I hadn't heard from him in a while.  <br /><br />We also had a conversation about me living my my fiance.  At least she really didn't freak out too much.  She just said that I haven't lived near them in a long time and I can make my own decisions.  So even though it's not what she really wants she's not really angry with me.  She also demanded a decent picture of us for her desk at work that still has an old picture of me and my ex-boyfriend in it.  And she cheered up a bit when I said we were going to try and come out for Christmas.  <br /><br />Also one of my childhood friends is getting married on the 20th this month.  So I got news of a death and a wedding in one phone call.  I felt like I was missing the announcement of a baby...  Anyways, she wants me to stop by and say "Congrats" and whatnot.<br /><br />My brother has a girlfriend that he's been dating for a couple of months now and my parents really seem to like her, so good for them.  I love my little brother so much, but I still think he's like 10 and not 19 so sometimes I just want to squeeze him, but probly shouldn't.  <br /><br />I also let her know my grades have been posted from this past semester and I got 3 A's, an A-, and a B.  Both she and myself are pretty happy with the outcome.  And I'll be graduating soon so that's good to.  The economy, however, is not.<br /><br />I think that's about it for me for now.  How all is well with the outside world!<br /><br />Peace, Love, Anime<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>It's been a while...</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 05 May 2009 19:54:49 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey there!  Haven't been on DA lately, but there is good news: I'll be posting more lately!  I picked up an art minor to make up for the lack of classes offered by my major(and the fact they fill up in like two seconds).  Therefore I've been doing a lot more artwork lately.  Oh, and as soon as the semester ends I'll be working double time on Anime Expo cosplay which I will eventually post too.  I'm really hoping to get into costuming more and more since I kinda want to start doing artist alley or something at cons, who knows?  It could work right?<br /><br />This semester has been dull to say the least.  I'm working at Friday's again...and my urges to commit suicide are stronger (I'm joking in cause you're wondering).  I've been taking 15 units between two different schools and I'm just totally burnt out.  It will all be over in a few weeks and I'll have the summer off.  (I'm taking the summer off mostly because I wont have time to take summer classes, they're like 5 days a week for 8 hours... it's just ridiculous!)<br /><br />So I got a new laptop.  It's pretty exciting and I feel like bragging, but I shouldn't so I wont tell you what I got...<br /><br />Anyway, con prep has begun.  I'm moving soon so hopefully that goes smoothly, physically and with my mom... you know, she likes to freak out from time to time.  Anyway, you should all be seeing more and more of me and my stuff<br /><br />Peace, Love, Anime<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>The Hills are Alive with the Sound of Fire</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 15 Nov 2008 18:20:06 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey there!  So I live in Fullerton, CA and it's once again fire season in Southern California.  I've been working all day and when I left I had to drive towards the general direction of the fire and I could see and smell the smoke getting thicker.  I'm totally scared because I've never been this close to the fires before.  The closest it's ever gotten before was Irvine and that was within the last year, but for those of you who don't know there is a big on in Yorba Linda and one in Brea so I feel kinda surrounded right now.  And the air quality is not that great.  My boyfriend is on the way over because I'm extremely uneasy and he feels that his house is out of danger, and that his family is home in case they need to evacuate.  This is no way to finish my stressful work filled day.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Dose of Politics</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 03 Nov 2008 20:23:22 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey everyone so tomorrow's election day and I know everyone has heard it already but this is a really important election.  This WILL determine your future (and which country I decide to move to).  So please, I hope you are all registered to vote and that you make it to the polls tomorrow and help take back our country.<br /><br />My brother called me from Iraq today to let me know that he mailed in is absentee ballet already.  He's serving in Iraq and is still voting so there's no reason why you can't make a little effort to vote as well.<br /><br />It took me a while to figure out that you can leave some places blank so, if you are unsure of some things it's okay to leave them, but just in general it's important.<br /><br />I didn't really want to express too much of my political view but for those in California please vote no on 4 and 8.  Especially 8, seeing how it is wrong and an infringement on people's rights.  Please don't let your religion blind your sense of justice and what is guaranteed as a right of every citizen.  Prop 8 removes the rights of people to marry based on sexual orientation, what if it was an issue of race?  Don't you think people wouldn't even consider it?  So why are people think that if we amend the constitution to state that marriage is between a man and a woman that it will simply end there?  It wont and the reason it will never end there is because it is an infringement on the rights of the individuals involved in a same-sex relationship.  I also don't believe it is a threat to families or to the definition of what a family is, that is just an empty argument made by middle class conservatives that are closed minded.  Our generation needs to stand up for what is right.  College age students are the largest group of available voters and yet the have the lowest turn out.  Your vote DOES make a difference so get out there and make a difference!<br /><br />This is a very important day in our contemporary history so please take your opinions to the polls and vote down those props that are unfair and will only create more conflict instead of less.<br /><br />Our future is in our hands so let's make it count!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>What's on my mind...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 13 Oct 2008 10:58:08 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ About to make pancakes. It's really windy. I woke up to a phone call from my brother who's in Iraq right now, it was a lot better to wake up to him than to an alarm. I had a dream last night that was like half video game in third person and half in first person drama. I was attacked by these centipede like space monsters and my back was all bloody. I survived but their saliva was poisonous so I had to find my boyfriend and tell him that I was dieing. It was really sad. I'm going over to a friend's house later in the week to make her dinner...I love making her dinner and if she moved in with me I would do it for her all the time. There is a picture of this girl and me both kissing my boyfriend and someone asked me why she was kissing him. My only response was, "Well, it's Lyssie." No other way to say it.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Daily duties to myself...</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 03 Sep 2008 23:46:50 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ There are a lot of things I think I should be doing on a regular basis.  Regular being daily if not at least weekly.  Here are some of these things that come to mind.<br /><br />Read two chapters in a book a day.<br /><br />Write/draw in my book (for drawing/writing) at least a page a week.<br /><br />Send a good time (at least two hours) twice a week on sewing.<br /><br />Call and talk to my dad instead of my mom for once.<br /><br />Go dancing at least once a week.<br /><br />Dress up for no reason beyond looking cute that day.<br /><br />Drink tea when I'm having problems sleeping.<br /><br />Save money for Japan.<br /><br />Save money for a motorcycle.<br /><br />Listen to a new album each week.<br /><br />Laugh because it makes me happy.<br /><br />Cook something new each week.<br /><br />Think about the future.<br /><br />Draw up tattoo ideas.<br /><br />Have girls night out once a week because seeing my friends is awesome.<br /><br />Stop thinking too much about the future.<br /><br />Stab love in the face once a week for being stupid.<br /><br />Dance each day with my headphones on and no one watching.<br /><br />Exercise at least twice a week.<br /><br />Hug all my friends each week because they are the reason I'm still alive and well.<br /><br />Don't put off till tomorrow what should be done today because tomorrow might never come, or never be the way you though it would be.  Never believe you have second chances and perhaps you wont screw up the first one.  Don't always take the blame for someone else even though you can find reasons to take the blame.  It takes two to tango, as they say.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Recovering from Life</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 31 Aug 2008 15:02:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I just started school this last week and I'm already stressed out about the amount of work needing to be done.  Lots of reading, group presentations, classroom observations and all that jazz.  Everyone, wish me luck! I will need all I can get.<br /><br />I started working at TGI Friday's again.  I didn't really want to go back but I really need the money.  I would have made quite a bit yesterday but some stupid kids shorted me like $20 and so I made like half of what I should have made...lame.  Good new is I have some cash!  Not a lot, but there it is!  Yay!  I have to get going to work today and I better make some money or I shall be sad.<br /><br />I got to play PSO for the first time in quite a while.  My friend Nathan brought over his Wii and we played it on that.  How I have missed killing the crazy del-ified animals.  We must do it again soon.  Oh, tear...PSO, I missed you!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>You are a Liar and a Thief</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 25 Aug 2008 16:31:51 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I started writing again.  I've been in a slump lately and haven't really been feeling up to writing and also feeling like everything I write is shit.  But I'm back at it and hopefully it works out.  My story is called Blood, Sex and Cigarettes (BSC) and is about a girl who pretends to be a guy and joins a street gang to overthrow her family who banished her and left her for dead.  It's supposed to be futuristic so I don't know how it's really going to work out.  We'll just have to see, eh?<br /><br />Life goes on and so this too shall pass.  Whatever has been happening in my life, I think I'm finally on a road of recovery and I hope it doesn't happen again, but it's hard to look forward when I'm still looking back.  For now I'm working on piecing my heart back together (they're fairly big pieces this time around) and moving on.  You think I'm joking?<br /><br />You lied to me and stole my heart, give it back and let me be...<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Starting anew...looking back on the past</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 30 Jul 2008 01:34:36 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm looking for something I can't find.<br /><br />I've come across a lot of my old note books and such, but I'm still looking for one notebook and a box in particular.  I want to use all my old notebooks as a reference point for writing memoirs.  I always felt my life wasn't interesting enough, but I'm beginning to think even if I'm not famous or haven't experienced anything too extreme in my life, I'm over-dramatic so it might work out for me.  Except it's not something my mother could ever read, it would give her a heart attack.<br /><br />I got another tattoo.  It's on my wrist and you can check it out on my facebook if you wanna see if; or if anyone asks for it I might post it in scraps or something.<br /><br />I'm having some personal issues right now that make good writing conditions but alas...I can't write.  Not that I have been mentally unable to but I usually like writing rough drafts on lined paper and I injured my hand and am unable to write without it hurting.  I guess that's what I get for trying to be tough when I know I just hit like a girl.  Someone remind me to where my kickboxing wraps the next time I want to punch a guy...thanks.  I don't really want to explain.<br /><br />So what's going on with you? ]]></description>
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                <title>Apology</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 24 Jul 2008 18:18:27 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I apologize to you...even though you'll never read this.<br /><br />I get it.  IÂm sorry.  I didnÂt want to be this way.  I apologize for how I can be sometimes.  I donÂt always do what I mean, or mean the things I do.  IÂm just a bit over the top at times.  I wear my heart on my sleeve, IÂm sorry if you canÂt see it- everyone else can.  Hell, even I can see it.  I think you have selective sight, because you may not want to see what youÂre doing at times.  You think youÂre so hot, well screw you.  I donÂt really feel like fighting for your attention, mainly because I donÂt know how.  Either way, IÂll loose and the harder I work the more depressed IÂll be in the end.  So, IÂm sorry.  I'm sorry for wanting to see you, and talk to you so bad I can't stop myself from calling.  I'm sorry if I annoy you at times.  I'm sorry I'm this and not that.  But most of all I'm sorry that I have to tell you that you did it again, and I'm the one hurting and not you.  I knew it would happen.  You could always and will always be able to break my heart and cause me more pain unintentionally than I could ever even attempt to return if I tried.<br /><br />And so I'm sorry... ]]></description>
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                <title>Annoyed with love</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 23 Jul 2008 16:39:49 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ My heart is broken, my soul is lost.  Never again will I be able to see things the same way.  I already have realized that love no longer exists in this world.  How could it- when this world is so full of hate and logic?  But I remain in love with the idea.  That is what people would call hopeless romantic.  I have fallen in love with an idea.  Or have come as close to falling in love with it as much as my emotions will allow.  My heart swells with wonder at the ideas shown in movies and books and then breaks when I look into reality.  <br /><br />I feel crushed, both in a good and bad way.  Why must life always be like this?  Why canÂt I just have a happy ending for once?  I wish I could live out one of those romantic comedy movies where the story ends when everything is perfect.  Have you ever wondered what happens while the credits are rolling?  Did they stay in love?  Did they have kids and grow old and fat together?  No one will ever know.  I want my story to end like that.  Have everything fall into place and then a black out and rolling credits.  But I guess life could never be that way.<br /><br />IÂm not in the mood for anything right now.  I donÂt want to eat.  I donÂt want to sew or read or go out or stay in.  IÂm tired of the fan blowing on me, but IÂm also tired of the heat.  I want a job, but I donÂt want to work.  IÂm just simply not in the mood.  Is this what my life has come to?<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Con Mania is about to begin...</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 25 Jun 2008 13:05:52 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey there!  So I've been back from Europe for a few weeks...I'll post some pictures soon.  More importantly a lot has happened to me sense I can back from that far away place across the seas.<br /><br />My boyfriend and I broke up.  It wasn't because of anything that happened in Europe mind you, it was building up for a while.  At least it feels that way for me.  It was kinda sudden for him and I'm sure he's really upset and I do feel bad but I just need some space and time to figure things out.  I'm not sad about it and right now I'm really busy so it's not like some sad sort of loneliness as settled in.<br /><br />Anime Expo is around the corner (as well as my b-day!) and I'm cutting this year's cosplay close.  My friend Brain and I are going to be in the Midnight Tea event held on July 3 (my birthday)  so come by and say "Konnichiwa!" if you're not busy.  Hopefully we'll get everything done in time and it'll be amazing, but we'll see.  <br /><br />For the first year I will be attending Comic Con as well.  I just bought my ticket today and I'm super excited.  I'm going with my friend Greg and I'm planning on using my Gothic Lolita outfit from AX 06.  <br /><br />Hope everyone is having a good summer and will be ready to settle down and go back to school in the fall.  I'm quitting my job in August so that I can go back to school during the day...I'll be getting another job just one that I can do in the evenings or weekends.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Lets go!  Eurotrip 2008</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 15 May 2008 12:57:14 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ What? what?<br /><br />That's right folks, I'm leaving for Europe today.  I'll be gone for 3 weeks and I'm totally ecstatic.  Goodbye job, worries and California.  This is the first time in my life I'm leaving the United State.  ~excitement~<br /><br />But who will care for my family of plants while I'm gone?  I'm entrusting my boyfriend's roommate to ensure my plants live while I'm gone (I have like 10 plants).  Most of them are house plants but I'm growing a tomato sapling and I have a aloevera in need of some good old fashioned TLC.<br /><br />What will I be doing in Europe you ask?  Well, all sorts of things like hiking, bike tours, museums, canyoning and simply getting lost in amazing cities.  I also hope to catch of football game (that's soccer to you and me in the US), I know you can be jealous...I'll forgive you.<br /><br />After I get back I'm sitting down for some serious sewing for AX.  It's coming up real close this year and I hope to compete in the Midnight Tea cosplay event, but they don't even have registration up yet.  So I hope to see everyone there and wish me a broken leg: Ouran High punk-lolita style all the way.<br /><br />What else is there...?  I have a headache, but I'm totally pumped up to sit on a plane for the next 12 hours of my life.  Holy crap!  I can never get that day of my life back...pity one more down.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Are there stairs in your house?</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 17 Apr 2008 23:56:08 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey there!  So I just posted my first prose piece in a while.  Hope everyone likes it.  It is slightly different than I'm used to writing: this particular part is rather light and not as dark and eerie as I try and make my work, also I used quite a bit of cussing (for affect).  So check it out!<br /><br />Shortest Journal ever.<br /><br />Hearts and Starrs<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Udating is for people without lives</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 17 Feb 2008 21:15:14 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So, here I am attempting to update even though I haven't really been doing anything lately.  I'm working on ideas for a book I want to write.  I have got a few characters down and I might post some ideas for things like a myth and a dream sequence I'm working on but I don't even have a title so there!  <br /><br />I got a camera for Christmas so I might begin to post a few pictures (like of my cats and some cosplay) so keep an eye and maybe an ear out!<br /><br />I started school again and if I didn't have much time for updating before, now I really don't have time.  Just seeing friends and my boyfriend is all that takes up my time that I'm not working, going to school or doing school work (I have a lot of projects this semester).  We are planning on do a few things for AX, but I can't give them away because they wouldn't be a surprise if I did.<br /><br />I'm also going to Germany in May.  It's decided.  My boyfriend is ordering a new BMW and we're doing European delivery, aka: German vacation.  We're going to try and visit Venice and maybe some place in the Czech Rep. but if anyone has ideas I'm open for hearing where we should visit.  We'll be there for about 9 days, I know it's not long but apparently Europe is kinda smashed together and we have our own car to drive while we're there so we should be able to visit plenty.<br /><br />Hope everyone has been well while I've been away.<br /><br />Hearts and Stars<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Playing tag?</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 24 Aug 2007 23:33:58 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Tagged<br />
<br />
The rules are:<br />
1. Post these rules<br />
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves<br />
3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts<br />
4. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named<br />
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged<br />
<br />
<br />
1. I have a star tattoo on my back<br />
2. I don't really like how my feet look in a lot of high heels<br />
3. I haven't made choco chip cookies in months<br />
4. I'm in love with my boyfriend and we might be getting <br />
       a baby kitty soon<br />
5. I play soccer almost every Saturday<br />
6. I have an annual pass to Disneyland <br />
7. I'm starting my first semester at CSUF as a history <br />
       major<br />
8. I think Sean Biggerstaff (the guy who plays Oliver <br />
       Wood in the HP movies) is really cute<br />
<br />
I think between D and WaffleIron they'll tag everyone that needs it<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Teeth and Tooth</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 29 May 2007 19:07:46 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey, so I haven't updated sense the beginning of this moth but that was a shorter interval from last time.  So how's everything going?  School's out so yay!<br />
<br />
Today I got my remaining 3 wisdom teeth removed so if something doesn't make complete sense we can just blame it on the 3 different drugs I'm on at the moment.  It wasn't too bad to have the remove except I was really nervous and now I'm starving.  All I've had is 2 slim fasts and a little bit of cottage cheese sense 12:30 am this morning.  I'm in constant need of food and now I can't really eat.<br />
<br />
I hope I got good grades in my classes.<br />
<br />
Peace.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>The Last Few Months</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 12 May 2007 01:10:16 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hello everyone (all three of you)!  I realize I havent written in a while but I have been really busy.  Right now its the end of school and finals are upon us.  Tuesday I have one final and its all down hill from there.  My very last final is May 24 so thats a while off.  Im still busy writing project and have three more to finish before the 22.<br />
<br />
Ive been sick as well.  Im just now feeling better but I was sick for a week and half.  I think its mainly due to stress of the end of the semester.  Ive been trying to get plenty of sleep and drink lots of fluids but there is only so much I can do for myself.<br />
<br />
Ive also been working.  Im still working at TGI Fridays.  I never really understood why Fridays has an apostrophe, but I guess it does.  I mean, grammatically it makes no sense whatsoever.  Im also trying to find a second job for the summer.  Ive interviewed over the phone for a swimming instructor.  I go in on Monday to fill out an application.  Ive never really had formal training as a swimmer but I did play a season of water polo in high school so Ill see how this works out.  If I dont get the swimming instructor position then Ill defiantly be looking at other restraints for a different server position which I should be doing anyway.<br />
<br />
My birthday is in July and it is drawing nearer.  Ill be celebrating my 21st birthday this year and both my mother and my best friend are flying in from out of state to be with me.  My mother doesnt drink anymore so shes so going to be designated driver!  I dont really plan on drinking that much to tell you the truth, and most would laugh at that remark but its true. On a different note my boyfriends birthday is coming up in August so Im starting to think about what Im doing and getting for himthink, think think.<br />
<br />
Exciting yet relatively old news is that I bought a car last month.  No more huge van that I named Tadakichi, after the big white dog in Azumanga Daioh!  Now instead I have a little 2002 Suzuki Areio that I have dubbed Sumomo (the little pink clad persicon from Chobits).  My car is black out and in but I thought it was cute and deserved a candy cute name anyway, despite its appearance as dark and mysterious.<br />
<br />
Im sure there is more I could rant and rave about but I think thats all Ive got left in me for one night.  I worked earlier and Im just trying to be able to sleep once I turn out my light.  Oh yes, one last think before I go my boyfriend is having a huge party next Saturday and if you live in the area and wanna go just let me know and Ill give directions and stuff. <br />
<br />
Ok.  Have a good night.<br />
<br />
Peace, Love, Anime,<br />
<a href="http://www.themayparty.com">[link]</a><br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Oh Yea! Beat that!</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 19 Mar 2007 21:03:09 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I updated and I'm not just talking about my journal!  Oh yea!  Well not much has been happening lately so you're not really behind on the times.  <br />
<br />
I went snowboarding last month and I think I'm trying to go again the end of April.  I'm getting really good, I swear!  My board is dark blue and an almost neon green and her name is Lilly.  I'm starting to really get the trick of toe-side boarding and it's really useful and I feel less strained at the end of the day.<br />
<br />
Midterm season brings sadness and studing pressure.  I've already had two early midterms and am begining to study for the rest of them next week and the following.  After that I have some serious amount of essays, projects and out-of-class analysis due so I'm just busy busy.<br />
<br />
Work is good and bad.  Good and some days and bad on others.  I was hoping to find a job somewhere else but I'm not sure if they'll give me nessasary time off that I need in July.<br />
<br />
As some of you will know and others might notice,  I'll be turning 21 in early July and my mother, as well as my best friend are flying from out of state to come see me on my "oh so special day."  I'm pretty excited because of all that's going to happen in July.  The end of June brings in Anime Expo this year as many may already know.  Then the day after Expo I'm leagal able to enter a bar without getting my ass kicked out.  On the 13th the Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix comes out in theater.  Later, and more anticipated, on the 21 is the release of the final novel Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows.  I've already reserved my copy.  As you can tell July is going to be splended yet busy so I'm not sure a new job is going to humor me this month.<br />
<br />
You find yourself out of your comfort zone but make sure you have space to retret into your shell.  That's kinda what my horoscope said today.<br />
<br />
Peace, Love, Anime,<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>A Late New Years</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 20 Jan 2007 00:03:39 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So I guess this is my New Years post.  Well, everything has been going alright for me right now.  I moved and am still working and finishing unpacking things that are in the garage.  My roomies are pretty cool and I feel like I can hang around the house and stay there over a year which has currently been my red flag to move.  I've moved 3 times in the last 2 1/2 years.  It will be interesting to see how long it'll last.<br />
<br />
For Christmas I went to Colorado to snowboard.  It wasn't really work the drive but the lift tickets weren't anything like Bear's that are highly overpriced compared to what they got.  I don't know how much more boarding I'll do this season but I hope to go once more, maybe in Feb. if not in March as well.  I am trying to save money yet still have fun.<br />
<br />
I don't really like making New Years resolutions so I don't really plan on posting anything that might resemble them.  <br />
<br />
Well, my boyfriend just showed a vedio of him trying to kill himself in a stunt he did for a party and I'm all strung out so I'm gonna go.<br />
<br />
Peace, Love, Anime<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Better Now</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 11 Dec 2006 22:00:45 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Sorry about my rant.  I'm better now.  Not much has happened.  Almost done with Christmas shopping.  Starting finals tomorrow.  I'm gonna go watch a movie now.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Hating Homecoming</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 09 Dec 2006 19:51:16 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So I'm really hating DA as of right now.  I'm trying to post something besides a journal...like an actually deviation and it wont let me.  I don't know what it wants me to do but it keeps saying I can't post.  I'm trying to keep my cussing at a minimum although I can't acount for what I'm actually saying and not writing.  It's really pissing me off.  What I disapear for a few months and when I come back I can't actually do anything because people have updated so much that DA is simply unsualble now.  Maybe someone can explain what the hell I'm doing wrong, but until then you get nothing.  It has something to do with posting a text file and some html bull shit.  Damn I don't know how to do that much less figure out how it works.  Right now I hate deviant art.  DO YOU HEAR THAT I HATE YOU DA WITH A LOATHING PASSION AND YOU CAN JUST DEAL WITH IT CAUSE YOU MADE IT HARD FOR ME TO POST!!!!!!!!<br />
<br />
I'm done ranting.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Forever And a Day</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 02 Dec 2006 00:19:21 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey there!  So I haven't written or even really been on DA for like ever and a day.  Hope everyone isn't mad at me...or forgotten me.  I'm sorry!  I've been uber busy with school and work lately and everyone is in to this whole myspace thing...sorry for having to utter that nasty word in front of you.  <br />
<br />
So I hope everyone is doing well.  I hope to start posting again soon and maybe my boyfriend has forgotten about DA and wont peek in on me.  <br />
<br />
I don't have too much to say.  My bro joined the army in August and told me he heard a rumor that they're trying to get our troops out of Iraq in like the next couple of months...wouldn't that be great?  I think this whole "war on terrorism" things is a bit much.  I rufuse to accept anything after WW11 a war- they've just all been conflicts (mainly because congress didn't declare war on anyone sense they did on Japan during WW11, make sense?)  So I just hope my bro stays safe, eh?<br />
<br />
I've finished my Christmas shooping except for my boyfriend...he's so hard to shop for because most of the things he wants that I can afford he already has...bummer.  So if I don't post before the new year:  Happy Holidays (for those of you out there who aren't Christan because I always want to remain openminded)!!!!  And don't forget to forget your New Year's Resolution!<br />
<br />
Peace, Love, Anime.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Quiz</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 10 Mar 2006 10:50:11 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ â10 Firsts...<br />
-First Best Friend: Amber (I wont discuss the falling out)<br />
-First Imaginary Friend: Cleopatra<br />
-First Pet's name: Calico (she died when I was a baby...she was a kitty)<br />
-First Piercing: 3 holes in each ear<br />
-First Crush: a guy that used to live next door named Matthew<br />
-First CD: a Reba cd "What If Its You?"<br />
-First Car: 85' Chevy S-10<br />
-First School: James Guinn Elementary<br />
-First Kiss: Scott (my first "boyfriend")<br />
<br />
â9 Lasts...<br />
-Last Time You Smoked: don't smoke<br />
-Last Food You Ate: Blackened Cajin Chicken Alfredo from Fridays<br />
-Last Car Ride: way home from school<br />
-Last Movie You Watched: Wedding Crashers<br />
-Last Phone Call: to my boyfriend to tell him I was out of class<br />
-Last CD You listened to: a compilation<br />
-Last Bubble Bath You took: the last time i stayed at my grandmas...maybe freshman year of high school<br />
-Last Song You listened to: does the background music to Crono Trigger count?<br />
-Last Fight: i kinda had this emotional thing a few days ago...i wont go into it<br />
<br />
â8 Have You Ever...<br />
-Have You Ever Dated a Best Friend: kinda<br />
-Have You Ever Been Arrested: no but I almost was once for loirtering<br />
-Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: when I was very young<br />
-Have You Ever Been on TV: I don't think so<br />
-Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Regretted It: not really but I guess there is one or two I could<br />
-Have You Ever Cheated on Your bf/gf: no<br />
-Have You Ever Been on a Blind Date: No<br />
-Have You Ever Been out of the Country: Not even Alaska or Hawaii<br />
<br />
â7 Things You are Wearing...<br />
-Oakley shirt<br />
- a blanket<br />
- panties<br />
- brother's id braclet<br />
- <br />
- <br />
- <br />
(I just woke up so I don't have a lot on ok?)<br />
<br />
â6 Things You've Done Today...<br />
1.  woke up<br />
2. went to the bathroom<br />
3. blew my nose a few times<br />
4. took decongestent meds<br />
5. picked at a few zits on my face<br />
6. wrapped myself in a blanket so as to stay warm when on the compy <br />
<br />
â5 Favorite Things (no specific order)...<br />
-Purple<br />
-Anime<br />
-Friends<br />
-Family<br />
-my purple and black stripped stockings<br />
<br />
<br />
â4 People You Most Trust (no specific order)...<br />
-Mandi<br />
-EJ<br />
-God<br />
-Ric (brother)<br />
<br />
â3 Choices...<br />
-Vanilla or Chocolate: Chocolate<br />
-Hugs or Kisses: both<br />
-Pens or Pencils: Pencils<br />
<br />
â2 Things You Want to do Before You Die...<br />
-go sky diving<br />
-maybe get married<br />
<br />
â1 Person You Want to see<br />
- Mandi (I don't get to see her often)<br />
<br />
â7 People Who Should Put This In Their Journal<br />
I can't think of anyone!!! ]]></description>
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                <title>Those Crazy Goonies</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 11 Sep 2005 22:17:57 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey there!  Guess what?  Come on...guess!  Okay, I'll tell you.  I went to a somethingawful.com goon party.  Lame?  No.  Goon party?  Yes.  It was pretty fun.  I ran into an old girlscout friend of mine.  I also met a few people.  This one guys actually going to buy my subscription because I made a reference to PSO.  Well, I guess it was more than just that but that's what he said at the time.  It's pretty sweet.  I was like, "Sure, Lord knows I need something better to do with my time then spend it on myspace."  So it's all good.  Okay, so this is really short, but I did in fact have tons of sober like fun. Write more later, kk?  You know you like it when I rant.<br />
<br />
Peace. ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Home From School</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 08 Sep 2005 22:55:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So I just finished a very busy day.  Well, I left the house at 11:30 amish yesterday and finally arrived at home around 10:10 pm.  When I left the house I went to a tattoo parlor in Palcentia to drop off a sketch.  That's right folks, I'm getting a tattoo!  Amazing...I know.  Okay, so my friend and I did that then I dropped him off at home.  <br />
<br />
After dropping my friend off I drove out to Santa Ana.  I've been kinda seeing this guy, I guess.  Well, anyway I went out to meet him for lunch because he works at Santa Ana College.  Then I went to the dmv.<br />
<br />
I HATE THE DMV WITH A BURNING PASSION!  As you can probably guess that didn't go over too well.  So after my horrible tragity that I wont haunt you with I went over to a friends house to meet up with my friend, Brey, her boyfriend and the guy I'm kinda seeing, I guess.  Well they hadn't gotten back from their 1 year anniversary trip.  (They took a train to Oceanside to spend the day together.)  So I just hung out for a while.  <br />
<br />
Then we went to play practice at 7 o'clock.  It was cool, well, we just sat around doing nothing.  Despite the fact of bordom...it was still fun.  <br />
<br />
I arrived back at Brey's boyfriends house just long enough to be left alone while Brey was taken home.  Usually she stays the night, but she was starting her senior year today so she went home.  I brought her hot schoco in the morning for comfort.<br />
<br />
Then there was school.  I had school today.  I spent another 2 hours organizing mens trousers (pants).  Today I acctaully measured some unlabled ones...just to spice things up.  Now I know it may sound boring but I'm really enjoying the time I spend working in the costume shop at shcool.  Then off to ceramics.  I turned this rock shaped clay form into an insence burner.  I'm very proud of it.<br />
<br />
I've ended my busy two days having dinner with a friend from my ceramics class.  I guess I didn't really go into depth, but you get the idea.  Have a great weekend, kk?<br />
<br />
Peace. ]]></description>
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                <title>Waiting For Me</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 05 Sep 2005 15:33:10 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So I've been working on quite a few things as of late.  I have a short story in my head that I just haven't felt like writing down...but it's there.  I've also been working on my play.  I'm writting a play about myself...I know it seems selfcentered but it's supose to be autobiographical.  Anyway, no one reading the play until I've rewritten it at least three times.  It's taken me a long time to figure out just how I wanted to write it...now I just have to make myself happy with it.  I also have another play I've been thinking about...but that ones going to take a while before I even think about writing it down.<br />
<br />
On the other hand, I'm going to be in a play.  (Now here's the plug)  I've been a member of a privatly owned theatre company for about three years now.  Well, they have an annual Halloween show and this year's their 10th annaversary.  Yay!  I auditioned and I got a part.  The monologue I wrote (see Dead Letters:  Aunt Fak)  is also going to be preformed soon at the same location.  See the Hunger Artist website <a href="http://www.hungerartists.com/.">[link]</a>  Check it out or come see a show sometime, that is if you're in the area.  Talk later<br />
<br />
Peace. ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>That's What You Think</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 02 Sep 2005 16:28:05 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So I lost my voice yesterday.  I had to work today, and I work in a restraunt.  Don't laugh.  It's not funny. ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Weak Spots of Being Alone</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 24 Aug 2005 18:04:08 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm all alone.  I'm so bored.  I don't want to impose anymore on my friends.  I have 2-3 friends in my central area and they all pretty much live in the same house.  I feel I'm getting on their neverse.  I just need to spend time by myself.  I'm so weak.  Stay at home stay at home stay at home...I want to go somewhere!  I'm so mad at myself right now!  Why do I have to cling to people?  Why can't I just be alone for a whole day and not be sad?  Do you want to go out tonight?  NO!  I can't!  I can't do it any longer.  I don't want to annoy or loose the only people that will hang out with me right now.  I just don't really know what to do with myself anymore... ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Tired and Confused</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 23 Aug 2005 23:17:56 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I had my first day of school today.  I couldn't get into any acidemic classes I wanted.  I'm really pissed off about it, but what can I do?  Anway it's been a busy week and it's only Tues.  Crap...<br />
<br />
I have to go to the DMV tomorrow.  I have a date with my friend, Brey.  She got mad because she thought I was spending too much time with a boy and not her.  So I argued that I hadn't seen her without her boyfriend in only God knows how long.  So we made a date to spend time, just the two of us.  I also think I'm going to go play pool tomorrow.  I haven't played in so long, and I've really been in the mood lately.<br />
<br />
Well that's all folks!<br />
<br />
Today's...<br />
<br />
Quote:  "You fancied yourself a prince, but in the end...you were just a girl."<br />
<br />
Fact:  Slugs have four noises<br />
<br />
Goal:  Don't get attached too much to boys.<br />
<br />
Color:  Grey<br />
<br />
Number:  36<br />
<br />
Peace, Love, Anime ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>The Pleasure Center of Happiness</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 18 Aug 2005 09:33:14 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So I haven't really had a great year so far.  I've had to deal with some hardships but this morning I realized that for the most part I'm pretty happy at the moment.  It was kind of weird to discover it.  I honestly think I was getting used to being depressed.  Things just seem to be looking up.  I'm pretty much over my ex-boyfriend.  I still have one or two more stages to get through, but he can't really be around when I go through them.  However, I still live with him so I have to set that aside for now.<br />
<br />
It's weird though, because work doesn't seem as bad as it always did.  School...well I'm always happy to go to school.  I guess I'm uping the credits back to 13 so that's a bit daring.  I supose the feeling is hard to explain.  I just don't really have any complaints as of late, even though I'm sure I probably could.  Well, just felt like reporting in, I guess.<br />
<br />
Peace. ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Bent Out of Shape</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 09 Aug 2005 12:22:04 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So I've been trying to get into shape lately.  I know I'm not fat or anything, but I don't feel as fit as I used to.  So there you go.  I'm also trying to update a bit more.  I actally have some stuff to post.  I just posted a short little thing I wrote last night.  I also have part one of two different stories so look for my Adventures in Wonderland and what my PSO character, Rylie, would do on her Day Off.  They'll be coming soon I promise.<br />
<br />
I usually don't post lyrics yet addmit to listening to Matchbox 20, but I just feel like this sometimes so here you go:<br />
<br />
 If I fall along the way<br />
pick me up and dust me off.<br />
and if I get too tired to make it<br />
be my breath so I can walk<br />
<br />
If I need some other love<br />
give me more than I can stand<br />
and when my smile gets old and faded<br />
wait around I'll smile again<br />
<br />
shouldn't be so complicated<br />
just hold me and then<br />
just hold me again<br />
<br />
can you help me I'm bent<br />
I'm so scared that I'll never<br />
get put back together<br />
you're breaking me in<br />
and this is how we will end<br />
with you and me bent<br />
<br />
If I couldn't sleep could you sleep<br />
could you paint me better off<br />
could you sympathize with my needs<br />
I know you think I need a lot<br />
<br />
I started out clean but I'm jaded<br />
just phoning it in<br />
just breaking the skin<br />
<br />
start bending me<br />
It's never enough<br />
I feel all your pieces<br />
start bending me<br />
Keep bending me until I'm completely broken in<br />
<br />
shouldn't be so complicated<br />
just touch me and then<br />
just touch me again<br />
<br />
Peace. ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Key Points of Independent Film Making</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 06 Aug 2005 19:18:03 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So when I was visiting my parents in Arkansas I thought it would nice of me to give my house key to D's friend Robert.  Well, I've been home a week now and I haven't gotten it back yet.  Not entirely Roberts fault.  Monday night, however, I went to a friend's house and returned home at 3:30 am, thus without a key.  Therefor...you guess it:  I was locked out.  I slept in the car until 7:00 am when I crawled through a window.<br />
<br />
Today was much better, though.  I was an extra in an independent film.  I'm not sure what the film is called, but it was really cool.  I'm in a few of the school scenes...and I got a boyfriend!  He's off getting himself killed as I write, but it was fun while it lasted.<br />
<br />
Peace. ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Thundershowers and Birthday Parties</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 28 Jul 2005 10:25:00 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So today is my brother, Ric's birthday.  However, because I will be in California for Rob's we're having a three-way party.  So my brother's and I are all celebrating together.  <br />
<br />
We've been having some thundershowers as of late.  California is the only play I've been were one can surf and snowboard in the same day.  Arkansas (I'm sure there's more) is the only place I know of were a trip to the lake is welcomed with 90+ degree weather and you hit a thunder storm on the way home.<br />
<br />
So I've changed my featured deviation for a reason.  Aunt Fak was written as a monolouge for a group know as The Hunger Artist Theatre Co.  Well, they are actually going to have my monolouge preformed so I'm really excited.  Do you know what that means?  I'm an official playwrite!!!<br />
<br />
Peace ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Birthday Brings Anime and Goodbyes</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 13 Jul 2005 15:57:29 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So as you've probably heard that anime expo is over and done with.  Well, so has my birthday...considering it was during AX.  I got a few things from my friends like a Fruits Basket bag, a purple pikman, and a hotel room for a night.  It's all been pretty cool.<br />
<br />
Well, I said my goodbyes on July 6th to my friends and headed home to family.  So I write to you from Sringdale, Arkansas....home of nothingness.  Anyway I've been having a good time.  I've been up to Eureka Springs to shop and have fun.  I made the trip out to Onyx Cave earlier that same day.  I've been to the mall and all that jazz.  My mom and I went down to Alma and Fort Smith yesterday and that was... kinda boring.  We had a nice lunch after getting lost on highway 71.  Now there is something I need to tell you about 71-I get sick when we drive down or up it, but it was a fun trip anyway.  Today we went to the lake and I am proud to say that I am still white!!!! No sunburn- GO SUNSCREEN!!!<br />
<br />
Anyways, I'm going to try to get things posted while I'm here it's just a matter of finding awake time to do it in.  I have been working on a story and I've completed part one.  I hope to get that posted soon.  Right now I need to concentrate on how to get out of church tonight.  Peace. ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Buy Melissa a New Car Foundation</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 25 May 2005 21:13:45 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ (Don't make fun of my spelling....!)<br />
<br />
-So once again I look upon my truck   that I drive<br />
-I think about its oldness and I'm  broken inside<br />
-Once again I hate you<br />
-Once again I'm crying inside<br />
<br />
So that's a song I wrote about my truck  done to the tune of the Christain song  "Once again..."  Anyway...back to the  polt:  A truck our Miss Melissa's got.   Lets take you now to the memorible day  when Melissa found she hated Misour  Hide.  (I told you to screw my  spelling)<br />
<br />
Please help me!!!  My car is such and  asshole.  My uncle thinks I MIGHT need  a new head gasget....my window is  broken, I'm still overheating everytime  I drive it...and all my dad says about  it is, "Well honey, the car is twenty  years old.  You're going to have some  problems with it.  It's going to nickel  and dime you."  It's not nickel and  diming me...it's....dollaring me and  it's driving me insane(no pun).  I want  a new car.  <br />
<br />
I you would like to help this poor  inflicted soul to buy a new car please  conntact her at OtakuAngel04@yahoo.com   send a note to SailorDarkStarr with you  very own Diviantart account.  Please,  you may not understand the desperate  situation this girl is in, but I asure  it you:  it is dire.  Please help in  anyway possible.<br />
<br />
This message was brought to you inpart  by the "Buy Melissa a New Car  Foundation,"  the "Help Your Good  Friend Melissa Doations," and "Save the  World, One Car at a Time Society."   Thank you again for your time and your  help.<br />
<br />
No seriously people...I need a new car! ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Test time!</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 06 Apr 2005 22:04:42 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Here's the test from ~waffle-iron-mag  and *dark-felix's journal. I felt I had  to...<br />
<br />
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:<br />
1. Messa<br />
2. Lissa Celle<br />
3. Mel<br />
<br />
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:<br />
1. TeensRUs (just don't ask alright?)<br />
2. VixenFairy04<br />
3. AnimeAngel04<br />
<br />
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:<br />
1. my eyes  <br />
2.  my back<br />
3.  my flexibility<br />
<br />
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT  YOURSELF:<br />
1. my skin color<br />
2. my fingers<br />
3. i always like guys i shouldn't<br />
<br />
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:<br />
1.  big sharp knives<br />
2. eyelash curlers<br />
3. my wisdom teeth<br />
<br />
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:<br />
1. money<br />
2. sleep<br />
3. a brush<br />
<br />
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:<br />
1.  bathing suit bottoms<br />
2. two different colored converse<br />
3. a shirt that states in Japanese:   "Beware of Perverts in the Area"<br />
<br />
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or  artists):<br />
1. Flogging Mollys<br />
2. Aqua<br />
3. Savage Garden<br />
<br />
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT  PRESENT:<br />
1. The Offspring (ok so that was a band  I know just give me a break)<br />
2. The Mullet song- Six Hung Sprun<br />
3. Tobaco Island- Flogging Mollys<br />
<br />
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE  NEXT 12 MONTHS:<br />
1. be in a play (wait i'm going to be  in one in May: come see me in  Marat/Sade at Hunger Artist Theatre Co.   visit our website, search google for  Hunger Artist for more information and  directions)<br />
2. get in contact with some high school  friends i miss<br />
3. learn how to sew offically<br />
<br />
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP  (love is a given):<br />
1. someone who tells me the truth (does  this dress make me look fat?)<br />
2. to feel like a girl<br />
3. someone not to mind my deep love of  purple<br />
<br />
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE<br />
1. I love purple<br />
2. I like school more than work<br />
3. I can't play DDR if my life depended  on it<br />
<br />
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE  OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:<br />
1. glasses? (don't ask)<br />
2. hands<br />
3. eyes<br />
<br />
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:<br />
1. stay off the stage<br />
2. enjoy work<br />
3. sand people on the freeway<br />
<br />
THREE THINGS YOU CAN DO:<br />
1. tie my shoes without looking<br />
2. attract boys I shouldn't<br />
3. put my foot in my mouth<br />
<br />
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:<br />
1. playing games with friends<br />
2. Watching anime<br />
3. Reading<br />
<br />
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY  BADLY RIGHT NOW:<br />
1. take my shoes off<br />
2. Play PSU<br />
3. talk to my friend Eli....make him  com on AIM!!!!!!<br />
<br />
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:<br />
1. Drama/Art teacher<br />
2. drapper (costume pattern maker)<br />
3. English teacher in Japan<br />
<br />
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON  VACATION:<br />
1. British Isles<br />
2. Japan<br />
3. Alaska<br />
<br />
THREE KID'S NAMES:<br />
1. Katherine Morgan Elizabeth Jean<br />
2. Lavender Violet<br />
3. Vincent L.<br />
<br />
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU  DIE:<br />
1. have a published work<br />
2. know what true love is<br />
3. have children<br />
<br />
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ  NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:<br />
....i don't know<br />
<br />
Peace. ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Uber excitment! -Renn Faire &amp; Marat/Sade</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 06 Apr 2005 00:11:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So I'm enrolled in this costuming class  at my school and we're building Renn  Faire outfits.  I'm super uber excited  because I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO SOW!!!!   We'll things have been going pretty  good so far.  I still need to get my  material for my next peice but I'm  doing that on Friday.  I'm building a  traditional Flemish peasant garment.   It's very simular to what Enlish  peasants would wear.  I'm currently  finished with my smock/chemise.  That's  the undershirt that ends below my knees  and people used to wear to bed.  I'm  really excited about the whole thing.<br />
<br />
Next is I've finally made a play that's  not a high school production.  The  title is really long she everyone knows  it as Marat/Sade.  The names are French  so don't worry if you can't prnounced  them either.  Well, I'm having a lot of  fun with it.  I'm just a nurse but I  get to take care of mental insane  people.  In the first act I am picked  up but a gaint "man baby" as we like to  call him and in the second act we're  trying to find a way to throw me or  something...just incase any of you are  wondering:  all the insane people in  the play aren't really "insane"  some  may be questionable but we wont go into  it too much.  All in all, I'm having a  lot of fun and I can't wait till we  preform.  I wish  everyone could come  see it cause it's going to be fun!!!!<br />
<br />
Peace. ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Here we are!</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 15 Mar 2005 15:24:12 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Come on...you all knew this was coming  didn't you?<br />
<br />
Well you suggest one or more of the  following to me then ask me three  questions.  After that is over you copy  the topic on this entry and instert it  into your journal.  kk?  Well here we  go!<br />
<br />
1. A Book<br />
2. A Movie<br />
3. A Song, band, or musician, etc.<br />
<br />
Now lets have some fun!!!<br />
<br />
-Mel ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Oops...</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 04 Feb 2005 23:20:43 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey everyone who bothers to read  journals...Just writting a bit of an  update.  I've been really busy with  school and work so I've been slacking a  lot on posting.  I'll try and get  something up soon though-just so nobody  forgets my exsistance.  <br />
<br />
I was in a car accident yesterday.   It's not a big deal.  I just rear ended  someone.  I looked to one side then  when I looked back the person in front  of me wasn't moving, but I was...I was  moving at about 30-35 mph.  I slamed on  my brakes but I still hit her.  She was  real nice about it and all three people  walk away safe and with nearly  undamaged cars.  Hide is a bit dented  but the lady's car just had a few scufs  on it and no dent.  I don't think any  damage claim is going to be made so  pray she doens't want a new paint job  or anything...and cross your fingers  while your at it, kk? <br />
<br />
I have work tomorrow and I felt sick  all day.  I don't really want to go but  I also don't really have a choice.  I'm  going to Las Vegas next weekend so I  need to work all this weekend.  I do  get paid-that's good.  However, I don't  get to spend anything-not good. <br />
<br />
I'm broke.<br />
<br />
Later gater. ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Upcoming things</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 22 Jan 2005 22:34:41 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Alright, I haven't really been posting  anything lately. Well, I've been  working on a few things as of late.   I'm working on a short story and a  monolauge/2-person scene for a theatre  group I'm involved in.  I don't know if  it will actually be used, but I'm  writing it non-the-less.  I might be  scaning some more artwork as well...as  soon as I find what I want to scan. <br />
<br />
Blarg!  Whatever shall I do?  I want a  new job, but I don't know who else  would be able to work with my schedule  so I gotta figure that one out.  Well I  think that's all for now.  Not as short  as my last one but not as long as my  other ones....check back later-gator! ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Curse Words</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 20 Dec 2004 21:11:59 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Well, I swear I posted a new  journal....but alas, it never posted so  I don't really know what happened to  it.  It makes me mad.  <br />
<br />
So I'm off to Arkansas on Thursday to  see my family...long story.  So I'll be  gone for Christmas but they just go a  computer so I should be able to  update....that is if I have anything to  update.  <br />
<br />
That's all for now cause I'm still mad  from the phantom journal entry.<br />
<br />
Peac, Love, anime... ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Cold Hands</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 21 Oct 2004 00:12:02 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So the winter has come and Melissa is  feeling cold.  It's been raining lately  and I love the rain...but I hate being  cold. <br />
<br />
My car's working better now, however,  sometimes it makes this loud  screetching sound so I'll have that  fixed soon cause it's really annoying.   I have to turn up Kuta (watashi no  rajio) everytime Hide acts up.  I think  he just wants attention but we won't go  into it.<br />
<br />
My friend Mandi and I went to the 99  cents store the other day and the  butterfly wings I bought will be  showing up in my DA id very soon.<br />
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I posted a lot of things today.  I've  been waiting to get a scanner cause I  had a bunch of pics I wanted to post  that I have acumulated over the past  six years and now I have finally posted  them.  So...yay!<br />
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I have this story I want to post soon  about the voices but it's really long  and I need the time to type it.  It  should be fun but I forgot that I added  a mature ending...teehee, oops.<br />
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I need to blow my nose.<br />
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So on the PSO end of the world I  created a new character.  Now I have  three:  Celyf (FOnewearl), Rylie  (HUnewearl), and now I have Dameiath  (RAmarl) pronounced Dame-ee-ath.   Lalalala I like my characters.  They  are fun to play with.  I like to play  with them.  I like to draw Rylie.  She  is cool.  I like to misuse "y's."<br />
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On the other end of life I'd like to  say that I miss my family...they are  far far away in Arkansas whereas  Melissa is still in California.  She  will go back for Christmas but for now  I miss my mommy and daddy and my two  brothers.  Soon Robbie's voice will  begin to squeek and I won't be there to  make fun of him...that's just not fair.   <br />
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Cold Hands...get it?  It's a pun!<br />
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Anyways, I'm going to be leaving you  alone now.  Stay on the sunny side of  life all you cool cats.  Peace, love,  anime.<br />
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-Mel ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Hide is an asshole!</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 01 Sep 2004 03:00:59 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So my truck crapped out on me...again!   Poor Hide (name of my car pronounced  Heeday).  I know he didn't mean to, but  he just couldn't help it.  First of  all, I need new tires because I can see  metal mixed with the rubber and that's  never a good sign.  Then about two to  three days ago my breaks decided that  they didn't want to work anymore.   Plus, I almost ran out of gas on my way  home so I was almost hyperventelating  while driving which = not good. <br />
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Then I had a bad day in PSO world the  other day.  I accidentaly sold an item  I shouldn't have, I died fighting a  boss (not the bad part) but I forgot to  deposit my Meseta in the bank so I lost  all my money and poor little Celyf  needs fluids to survive and now I have  little money for them.  On top of that  I created a new charachter, her name  being Rylie, and I went into muliplayer  with D.  We plaied in forest and right  as he killed the dragon I died so  therefor Rylie didn't get any  experience from Mr. Boss-man.  Melissa  = not a happy person.<br />
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On a lighter note my friend and I made  cookies to make me feel better and  today we wrote down a list of things  that we like.  It was pretty fun minus  the fact I was having trouble writing  because I'm really tired.  I should go  to bed but at the same time I don't  really want to so I'll think I'll try  and tough it out.  <br />
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Also, I think I'm going to have a day  where D and I are going to take pics so  I'll let you know how that goes, kk?<br />
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Peace, love, anime<br />
-Mel ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Walking on the beach at night</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 23 Aug 2004 01:58:51 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So my friends and I have discovered a  new fun thing to do at night:  rock  climbing at the beach.  It's really  fund and I enjoy spending time outside  without the risk of sunburn.  So we  went out tonight and ended up going a  way we've never gone before.  Our path  sorta dead ended and our choices were  to jump down off the rock we were on or  go back and around.  <br />
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Alright, doesn't seem too hard ya?   Wrong.  Ever free falled about 8 feet  and landed on your feet on wet  gravel/sand?  No, I didn't think so.   Well, Melissa was the last to jump and  let me tell you I shouldn't have really  gone.  I'm the sortest out of all three  of us and we jumped from tallest to  smallest.  I felt extemely stupid  because they both landed on their feet  were as I landed on my feet but slid  and ended on my ass.  <br />
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Not to mention I ended up getting  soaked from about the knee down.  Then  they went off to play some more on the  rock and I staied behind cause I had  taken my shoes off.  Well, lets just  say I was super causious of everything  and freezing cold.  I'm just glad they  came back when they did because I was  starting to freak out from being left  alone too long.  Quiet time is good,  but I didn't really feel like spending  time alone.  <br />
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Well, I survived and I guess that's all  that really matters now isn't it?   Anyways, keeping it real and staying  alive.  Until next time, this is  SailorDarkStarr signing off.  Peace,  love, anime. ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>So this one time at work...</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 15 Aug 2004 15:28:27 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I work at a Hawaiian BBQ fast food type  of place and I get a lot of weird  things that happen.  Despite the fact I  don't like my boss and he makes me do  weird things like scrub the trash  contaners, I get really gross things  that happen to me.<br />
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I first started working there in about  May.  About two weeks into working I  was taking out the trash (this isn't  the sick part by the way).  You just  take the bag out of the trash can and  walk it out to the dumpster in the  parking lot.  Well, I didn't really  feel like opening the doors to the  dumpster so I just threw the trash over  and WAM!  Aparently there was some  gross puddle of only God knows what, on  the other side.  Well, I got a nice  face full of sick puddle spray.  I had  to run back into the restrant as fast  as possible and wash my face  off...cause well that's just sick.<br />
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Then there was this lady that came in  to the resturant once who looked like  she had had a fight with a tanning  machine and lost.  She had dead flaky  skin all over her...her legs,  arms...even her face!  Well it wasn't  so bad having her in the restrant but  when she left she left behind a bunch  of her dead flaky skin for yours truely  to clean up.  It was really gross it  you know what I mean.<br />
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The sickest thing that's happened to me  resently was my boss, Kelvin comes out  of the bathroom and tells me there's a  lot of paper towels in there and I need  to go sweep.  Alright, no big deal  right?  Well, when I get in there,  there is a small puddle in fron of the  toliet and a bunch of paper towels  behind it.  Thinking nothing of it I  began to sweep when I discovered that  the little puddle of water was infact  was stick and off colored....Well,  after I felt like throwing up I began  to think how a puddle such as this got  on the bathroom floor I felt like  throwing up more because I had to think  who could have made such a puddle.  I  wondered if Kelvin had seen it....or if  he made it.  Alright well the thought  of it was grossing me out so I  hurriedly left the bathroom and got a  mop to mop it up cause leaving it  there....that's just gross.<br />
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Well, those are just a few of the more  sickening stories from  work....ew...thinking about them's  making me sick again.  Alright, I'm  otta here! ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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                <title>Bedtime stories</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 02 Aug 2004 02:46:36 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Have you ever been afraid to go to bed?   I'm not saying I'm afraid of the dark,  no that's a different subject.  I'm  sitting at my comupter and I suddenly  feel afraid of going to sleep.   Everytime I crawl into my bed I have an  intense feeling of loneliness come over  me.  The feeling is so strong that I no  longer want to go to bed.  I know it  seems silly, but it's completely true.   I have become afraid of sleeping.  My  friend says I need a boy, but I'm not  sure if that will help any.  So I face  my fears and crawl under my covers  where i feel the most loved.  The only  question is:  Where do I go from here? ]]></description>
                <author>~SailorDarkStarr</author>
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