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]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/24029047/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/24029047/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 18:24:40 PDT
Nothing much to say about what's been going on, nothing really has. Starting to post some new technical works for fighter craft and such. Yay!

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/22997692/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/22997692/ Wed, 04 Feb 2009 07:22:10 PST
There was a dispute about a month ago about a receipt when I bought tiedowns I forgot to get a receipt and thats what I thought it would be about. I come in, sit down... and they tell me they are laying me off. I've not been there long but there is atleast one other person that should of been canned before I was. He rolled a damned package truck and destroyed it! But does he get laid off? No because they are afraid that he might sue if they do.

I fought back the angry tears and threw my uniform back into my locker, threw away everything I did not want and just drove away. I went home and just stared at a cold fireplace for an hour then started a fire and burned every catalog I had laying around which was alot of them. I was thinking about taking a gun to someone just so I wouldn't have to worry about a job anymore but my logical side quickly overrode that. I'm not a violent person but this stupid shit hurts. I finally had a job where I had a good excess of money, I could of stayed there for a couple years no problem. But after yesterday well now I am kinda lost with no purpose. Atleast I have some money saved up so I am taking a full week off with no work just to center myself and get over this sense of loss.

And the HR person today (I went to see them to get my final paycheck and of course it wasen't in) said she was torn up about having to let me go. She's a nice woman but I wanted to shout at her "YOU'RE TORN UP?!?!"

I am glad I did not spend the money on a new camera and firearm that I was looking at.

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/22587912/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/22587912/ Wed, 14 Jan 2009 23:04:31 PST
Alexander is the older General that has taken Louis under his wing. They are part of the Coalition (sci-fi not current one) and Louis had a recurring dream about a woman that his mind tells him he should know. When he has asked those around him none of them remember her.



Louis
Its more of the mist of a memory within a dream. I can't remember many details save for the warmth of her skin, the color of her hair and eyes, and the softness as she laid next to me.

Alexander
And you are asking me about her why? I did not attend the Academy with you

Louis
It seems... almost as if you should know her. If she was even real

Alexander
Your imagination gets the best of you sometimes. She was probably a fantasy constructed by your mind to help you pass away the days at the Academy.

Louis
She seemed so real

Alexander
When I was a boy my mother loved snakes. She used to say that a snake was like a man. You could love it unconditionally and still it would turn on you. There was one she had as her favorite. She named him Python. He wasn't real, just an illusion concocted by the power yet my mother used him as an aid. It was her representation with the power. She knew it was not a living snake, yet she did not understand what it was that she possessed.

Louis
She was a druid?

Alexander
In a manner of speaking I suppose she was. More then a Druid and far less the one also. My mother simply was my mother and I loved her as any good son should. Unfortunately as most sons do they outgrow their mothers and never return to them. I left her behind and sought solace and comfort elsewhere.

Louis
I don't even know what it is to have a mother.

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/19363521/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/19363521/ Sat, 12 Jul 2008 22:56:11 PDT
I bought a Crossbow recently, its a good one for the price yet it isn't exactly what I want to go on silent raids with. Check out the pic in my gallery. Its a 150lb draw quasi camouflaged bow from Sportsman's Guide. Made by Taiwanese people for Guide Gear their own personal brand so to speak. Its basically your standard 150lb recurved fiberglass bow that has a different grip and a paint job that looks almost but not quite like Mossy Oak or Realtree camo. The thing shoots ok from what I can tell, no real distance target yet and the nine aluminum bolts that I bought with it have all been destroyed by bouncing off trees and cement. With a decent scope, some carbon bolts, and time to dial in and shoot I should be able to have good groups with this crossbow. The one I really want is the Explorer by Horton, I will get that one later when I can afford four hundred dollars for something that I can use in an urban environment for... um... strategic... sheep... purposes...

As far as the misc bit, Miss a few people (pun not intended). Did not make it down to the 4th party because of work. Yay for work! May be working in Wyoming soon at the oil fields. And Utah has a no crossbow hunting law unless you are a disabled person. Grrr!

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/18433651/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/18433651/ Wed, 21 May 2008 15:42:24 PDT
Growing up, I learned a valuable lesson early on from my mother. How to listen to someone and retain the information they pass onto me. Sometimes it gets mixed but for the most part my memories of it are good. I still remember alot of the little things Li, or Jen, or Willow, or any number of women told me that I liked. I always thought that if I sit by the sidelines and become their friend then I could eventually move into being more then that to them. In high school I was always known among women as "The Guy". That means that I was the guy to come cry on his shoulder and tell them about their boyfriend being an ass and so on. I never got a date, I never got a kiss. It was depressing.

After high school I started hanging out with Li and her husband Gustov. Thats when I started learning other things that applied to what I was trying to do. I had a crush on Li for the longest time, pretty much everyone did. I lived with them for awhile and I still consider them good friends. Yet the depression was still there, I found the closer I became to them the greater the loneliness was.

After a few failed attempts at a relationship and some disasters I decided to swear off women for awhile and focus on myself. That did not work, it just made me bitter towards everyone. I found after awhile a good balance of the two yet still I find myself dateless and without anyone that I could ever really call my girlfriend. The last kiss I had was two years ago.

I'm not a bad guy as some of you know, hell I'm one of the easiest guys to be friends with, perhaps I should adopt the role of the jackass that gets laid yet I can't bring myself to do it. I don't want an easy lay, I want a woman that will stay around. I want a relationship with someone I can connect to. I just want to come home at the end of the work day and find someone wanting to talk to me that does not have a penis.

It gets annoying to be sure. I find myself lost in a sea with no definition as I struggle to pull something meaningful out of nothing. I've been working to better my appearance and so far its helped but it hasn't worked just as nothing has worked these past few years. I accidentally injure myself alot and so I wish I had a chance to play the pity card there sometimes yet at the same time I don't want someone only to feel sorry for me.

I'm just trying to figure out what to do in a situation like this that seems to grow harder every day. I'm only twenty six, yes I know I am still young but when you feel as if you've lived a thousand years one more is torture in trying to create something tangible with another person. I love, I laugh, I live, yet it never seems enough.

I am happy though that my friend Jen is happy for the first time in awhile. And that my roommate and friend Brian is finally getting his life in order. For me however I just continue to drift not sure where the shore is because I can't see anything. We'll see what the next year brings.

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/17941240/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/17941240/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 09:42:58 PDT
THANK YOU INDYMOGUL.COM

I got some great ways to do things from there.

The first in a line of prop pics is in my gallery.

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/16700044/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/16700044/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 02:14:35 PST
I have no idea why I wrote that... but I did so yeah...

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]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/14865456/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/14865456/ Mon, 01 Oct 2007 03:50:38 PDT
Jen - Well being the idiot that I am at times after I left Sanya I went through a dark period and Jen was there to help me along. Of course since she did help me emmotionally I deluded myself into thinking I was truely inlove with her instead of Sanya. That went on for months until we had a couple weekends together and then she went back to Davey. That was the mindfuck for me. I never really let her know my feelings, yet I thought she understood and it just pretty much ended abruptly. The annoying part of it is that I still have some feelings for her yet I won't be acting on them again.

Richelle - Well, two years after Jen there was a woman I met online that lived in Colorado and had a couple kids that were young teenagers. We talked for a couple months online and over the phone. Then we met in Green River Utah and had a glorious night of sex. Afterwards I decided that I did not want to be in a relationship with her so I told her I just wanted to be friends. I haven't talked to her since that day and its alright, she had alot of problems in her life that I just did not want to help her with. I feel alittle bad about it since I did use her, but she did use me also.

And those have been the three women I have been with. Two others I would of killed to be with at a point were Li and Annie. That was about a year after I met both of them, by now its too deep of a friendship to fuck over in any capacity. Unless I hit them both with a box of Cosmic Brownies.

The one that hurt me worst was Jen, after her I went through a year and a half dark period in which I really wanted harm to come to her. Now however I rub my head at the memories of what I wanted done. Its laughable since I was the one that hurt myself with that but I put the blame all on her.

At this point, if she wanted to be with me again I would have to refuse because now I am a very different person. Hardly the timid shy boy I was. Yet I do not anticipate anything happening.

No real idea why I wrote this journal... hmmm.

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/14865310/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/14865310/ Mon, 01 Oct 2007 03:24:08 PDT
So... well I had some direction for this one but I lost it, C'est la vie, ne pas?

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/13681302/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/13681302/ Tue, 10 Jul 2007 08:04:23 PDT
To sum it all up, I just don't fucking care about this bullshit anymore. Adios!

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/13615749/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/13615749/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 02:48:56 PDT ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/12939343/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/12939343/ Sun, 13 May 2007 08:41:32 PDT
If you want to know why I said this, email me - beanload@yahoo.com -

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/12357131/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/12357131/ Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:35:31 PDT
I was thinking about buying something to add to my small collection of a 9mm handgun, a 12 gauge shotgun, and a Scoped .308 Winchester hunting rifle. I saw some surplus Czech ammo at a gunshop here in Saint George for 4 bucks a box of 20. I decided to look online for info on the ammo and the rifle that fired it.

I went to [link] and found all the info I could ever dream of. It sold me on purchasing a Mosin Nagant rifle. They are Russian and have been around for a hundred years. I found a good deal at a local sporting goods store on an M38 Carbine. When I bought it, the stock was alittle beat up but everything looked like it was in good order. I did a massive cleaning on it and took it to the range the next day.

It was stamped 1943, meaning it had the possibility of being used in WWII, I am sure it was issued at some point and all the serial numbers are matching so its original. Well after a few rounds I encountered what is known as Sticky Bolt Syndrome. Its common with Nagants that have been packed with cosmoline and stored for years.

Today I'm going to go get a kit of stuff to clean out the firing chamber so the bolt no longer sticks. But that having been said I am entirely impressed by the bloody accuracy of the thing.

It has a rear site which is marked in 100's of meters. I took a few shots at about 90 yards and hit every target I aimed at. There was a gong out at about 400 yards so I decided to up the site to 400 meters. I aimed underneith the gong, not expecting anything to happen. When I fired the gong diddn't move and I was wondering why. I knew I was on target, but the thing diddn't flintch. So I walked up there and then I remember I had been firing Steel Core Copper Jacketed Armor Piercing rounds. The Gong had a nice .30 caliber hole through it where I shot. I decided I would switch to some Full Metal Jacket Non Armor Piercing rounds instead. The next five shots struck the gong each time.

So now I have a big project on my hands, its a non scoped gun and I don't think I ever will scope it. I am going to clean it as best as I can then take a few more range trips. When I am finished with that I am going to go find a nice isolated spot to go hunt rabbits in and see what this thing does. The rounds themselves are active upto five miles, so I better make damn sure no houses are around.

I bought the gun for a meager $70 US and it came with nifty accessories like a cleaning kit, Oil and solvent bottle, Ammo pouch, and sling. If you are considering buying a new weapon and live in the US, I urge you to get this one. The ammo is abit hard to find sometimes but it is always available at gun shows or online.

Well I am off to the range to have more fun shooting.

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/12036127/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/12036127/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 06:25:58 PST
And they are 100% true according to my memory and the second hand accounts I have heard from friends.

- Tales of the Paranormal -

1 - The first (and only) time i've ever used a Ouija board, I was with one of my closest friends . I was bored and there just wasen't much to do that night at her place because her husband was sleeping and everyone else was pretty much off by themselves. So she suggested we break out her Ouija board. I was very skeptical that we'd get anything from it. This was back when my experience with the paranormal was quite limited. We were sitting in her kitchen and I got a kick out of how the lense would move over letters. We talked to a kid that kept saying that he liked ducks and ducks said "Quack!" He apparently wanted us to know this. There was another spirit that I don't remember. Talking to them for a couple minutes a Spirit known to my friend shut off the contact and took over. I figured it was still her at this moment playing with me so I decided to ask this spirit questions.

I should let you know that the spirit I talked to last had been following her for a long time and pretty much keeping an eye on her since she was a kid. All the answers were things that my friend knew about me so I still remained unconvinced until I asked what was the thing I was most afraid of. It took a few seconds but the lense moved to the numbers 4 and 2. I was shocked, but I asked again thinking it was just a mishap. It moved again to 4 and 2. The Number 42 (if you know Hitchickers, you will know about this number) was at the time the thing I was most afraid of since I couldn't stand not knowing about everything that I found interesting. Needless to say after that time I started believing in the Paranormal.

2 - A few years ago I would wonder what could cause lense flares on a 35mm and a digital camera when I kept going over to the before mentioned friend's house. She would just smile knowingly and say "Its Ghosts." My other friend Dustin and I wouldn't believe her and kept searching for the sources of these blasted flares (or spheres, orbs of light... they look like one of the glass balls from Labrynth floating in the frame if you don't know about them. And yes, they are quite common.) We couldn't quite understand how it would affect both types of cameras the same. And when we would take several pics from the same position without moving, the orbs would always be different in sizes, numbers, and locations.

After the Ouija board I started believing her that it was Ghosts. There was one time out at a graveyard in Havensville Kansas that made my jaw drop later. The entire area was blanketed with about a foot of snow and it was around the witching hour in the morning when the same friend wanted to go and walk in the graveyard. Her huband, she, and I were walking around and looking at the headstones, taking some photos with her digital camera and so on. There were no lights out there and it was nearly pitch black. The only way we could see was the soft diffused light that always accompanies a nightime snowfall where a couple light sources from hundreds of yards away would illuminate everything just enough that you diddn't break your leg walking around. When we got back to her house, we downloaded the pics onto her computer and took a look at them.

There were a couple that were strange to say the least. At first it looked like bright blue, red, and orange points of light somwehere in the background of the pics. Knowing there was nothing of the kind out there we zoomed in and I tell you truthfully that the light was in the shape of a fairy. Now I am not talking about Tinkerbell from Peter Pan. I mean some of the fairies you see that are misformed compared to a human body. Really long legs and arms, elongated faces and very skinny waists. It wasen't clear enough to see much detail beyond subtle shading of the light. The blue one you could clearly see the body, head, and the wings. She had said that she felt something like that was out there when we were in the graveyard, but she diddn't know exactly what it was at the time until we looked at the photos later.

3 - Its not really Paranormal, but it is a good tale that at the time I thought I had hallucinated. Kansas yet again. I went there in early December of 2002, to live with the same friend. I am keeping her name secret because she may kick my ass if the world knows who she is. I still love you hun... don't hurt me! Back to the story. I was smoking outside and deicided I would wander around. I love to wander around places I am staying at in the night to get a feel for the place that... ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/11953268/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/11953268/ Sat, 24 Feb 2007 20:50:38 PST
I've always been the Saint even when I was a little kid. Back then I couldn't really understand what it was that I had and why people were attracted to telling me their problems. And how many problems can a kid of ten have? Quite a lot. Think back to when you were that age, I am sure that most of you have things that happened in your life that you couldn't understand and really couldn't cope with. Things that your parents probably thought you wouldn't understand at the time so they diddn't explain it to you.

The Ability or rather the Title really came into play when I was in Junior High. I would find that girls would confide in me about this or that, some boyfriend that had broken up with them and what not. I had a very very very hard time with this and somewhat to this day I still do because in order to understand the person some small part of me had to fall inlove with them. And I found myself crushed more often then not when they would say something along the lines of "I really should date someone like you, but not you."

After Highschool I started recognising what it was that I had that was different from the typical male that women seemed to gravitate to. I listened, not just the head nod and thinking about basketball or whatever... I truely listened to what was said and what was not said. That and I could identify with any issue they had since I was pretty much raised by my mother with my two sisters. Sure my father was around physically, but mentally he never really was.

Kansas was an opening point for me that I truely cherish and wish I had done more with, but I wouldn't trade it for anything. It was my first time away from my parents and out in the world to see how it functioned and what I could do within it. And for once, everyone I met seemed to generally enjoy my company. I was fun at parties... just ask Li.

After Kansas I decided to try for a relationship and my first was a seven month joke. My second was with a girl that I still care for, and I did my Saint bit for her and her boyfriend at the time. When we finally got together I was exhilarated and happy. But then she went back to him and I must confess I found myself dark and bitter for the next year or so. I understand now that what we had she diddn't quite see it the way I did, but I still care for her and wish her the best... and yes you know who you are hun.

Anyone seeking this path in life I have a few things to tell you about it. The first is that it is so fucking lonely and your heart will be crushed and your soul feels like it will bleed and your entire world will be shattered. Sometimes the pain will be so great that you just want to go crawl into a hole and die. But take heart since it is not always so. There will be moments of such joy that your heart feels like its going to burst. Granted they are few and far between, but they make it all worthwhile.

I've given up on love for now since its just not in the cards for me and the people I choose don't want me, and the people that want me I'd never choose. Yet I smile and I laugh and I am happy because I am the kind of person that in the darkest hour can always find the light at the end of the tunnel.

So don't become a Saint unless you are prepared to die a thousand times, and pick up the pieces always. You simply can't ever give up. Yet there are some people you help along the way that you can give up on because they won't change. You can only show someone the path and be there for them to cry on, you can't change them.

No idea why I thought I would say this, but there you go.

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/11582398/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/11582398/ Fri, 26 Jan 2007 23:41:29 PST
I've been watching the Labirynth alot lately and have the song from the ballroom scene in my head constantly, "as the world falls down." So I think I am going to do a work about it, No commitment right now but I will be starting on it sometime soon.

Oh yes and I love you Li, in that really good friend kinda way that lets me play with your chest and put my cold hands down your pants, har har.

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/11500000/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/11500000/ Fri, 19 Jan 2007 22:32:32 PST
Ahh well, No worries there, perhaps I will and perhaps I won't do more art anytime soon.

I am still on dialup, Lament! Heh, I will post comments on my watched artist when I can.

]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/8884780/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/8884780/ Fri, 26 May 2006 15:10:59 PDT
But Alas I am back, since I am on dialup it will take awhile to post comments and get through my backlog of stuff that I have to do, but I am finally back after near a year out of commission, I hope to comment on shit soon. ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/8571351/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/8571351/ Mon, 24 Apr 2006 13:16:48 PDT
Anyways, to sum up a rather long and boring two months, I am around yet I am lurking because of Work. I haven't really had the time to be online lately and It will continue this way, so expect sporradic updates and comments.

Ja ne mina san! ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/8016908/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/8016908/ Mon, 27 Feb 2006 10:36:33 PST ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7989469/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7989469/ Fri, 24 Feb 2006 11:44:44 PST [link]

Its quite like a record player and how it works. When a record is recorded, a needle carved grooves into the plastic and depending on where these grooves are, when its played in a record player the hardware decodes them and produces audio. The same thing is happening with these pots. When they are made they have grooves which oddly enough seem to contain enough on them that when played with a needle or other such device one can hear human laughter. Some Archaeologist are now looking at other pots. Its quite concievable that when they were created the audio got recorded as grooves. Imagine if one was found and a person was actually talking... wow ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7971138/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7971138/ Wed, 22 Feb 2006 12:00:36 PST
Bien, la plupart d'entre eux est les personnes vives occupées et faibles faibles

D'altra parte gradisco gli italiani. L'alimento, il vino, la letteratura. Le loro figure da storia come Leonardo ed alcuni dei loro pittori migliori. Inoltre sto imparando l'italiano in modo da non dovrò utilizzare un traduttore per aiutare più. Naturalmente è lavoro duro per imparare l'italiano quando la mia mente di più è orientata verso Russo o qualche giapponese. L'Oh bene, manterrò esso e forse durante due anni che avrò più parole al mio vocabolario allora come ordinare la pasta in un bistro.

Und jetzt für meine Lieblingssprache. Ich bin nur über beinahe fließendes auf Deutsch. Wirklich nicht glätten Sie daß viel. Mein Deutsch ist schlecht. Ich pflegte, viel zu wissen, bis ich Russen dann Meiste gerade link mein Verstand nahm. Sowieso... Ich hoffe, daß aller Sie eine gute Zeit haben, möglicherweise mit dem folgenden Journal ich über etwas besser zu sprechen habe. Auf Wiedersehen für jetzt! ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7926299/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7926299/ Fri, 17 Feb 2006 14:24:59 PST
Morning Thunder
Sleeping in until noon
waking up to the clawing from my cat
Big Crunchy Candy bars from Canada
Good Liquor and Beer
Night long conversations on the trampoline
walking down railroads for no particular reason
fishing in a secluded pond
swimming in a secluded pond
doing drugs at said secluded pond
getting drunk at same secluded pond
the feeling of a warm gun barrel after shooting
having to climb three flights of stairs just to open a door
sex... the first year of being celebate is the hardest
reading for hours and not learning anything or getting anywhere
driving for hours and not getting anywhere
being Saint, even thou I hate it
haunted playgrounds
Ghosts, Faries, Gnomes, and the hodgpodg like
Boonjocky's anger
drinking parties
long bus rides into obilivion
free range marajuana

and Lastly... I miss waking up beside someone the most.

So that's a small list of some of the things I miss, there are more but meh. I'm soooooo bored here! someone come kill me, atleast then I will be doing something! ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7894835/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7894835/ Tue, 14 Feb 2006 12:17:01 PST
Francis was useless, he kept walking off to the woods to heal rabbits and the like, so he was never really around to contribute to the conversation. Patrick was... well... Lets just say that when he's drunk don't mention Pagans around him. Infact, don't mention Pagans around him when he's sober either.

Swiggen and Valentine got into a heated conversation about how commercial Valentine's day has become. It all started out as a way for people to express their love of eachother (not just couple to couple, but neighbor to neighbor) and it turned into a Red and Pink Chocolate and Rose Nightmare. Valentine considered suicide to end the idiotcy until I told him that at that point he would just become a Martyr and that his holiday would cememnt itself in the world mind.

Swiggen has a day, but its only celebrated in England and Canada as far as I know, and its nothing special (not like my day which is alot like Patrick's but with more guns.) and he's jealous over the attention that Valentine gets.

To make a long story short, Valentine is depressed because he hates what his day has become. So celebrate Valentine's day... just keep in mind that this is not what he originally intended! Although he said the sexual favors was a very welcome side effect... ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7857058/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7857058/ Fri, 10 Feb 2006 15:03:23 PST
I asked him why he thought this, and he said it was because like me he'd moved away from his friends and they never called, never sent him an e-mail, or the like. He said there was a new friend that would call every month and see how he was doing, and he thought that was nice. But for the others... it seemed that they just couldn't be bothered with him anymore.

I've known William for a long time, longer than I want too it seems sometimes. He's always had to be the strong one, and he's always had to be the one to comfort others. Where do the strong go in their time of need? Not to those they have helped it seems.

William constantly reminds me of how fragile we all really are. All He wants and All I want are to be Loved, yet for the both of us that seems unattainable. Of course he's had more experience and women than I've had, but in the end its all the same. The women we choose are sometimes just... trying to use us.

It takes alot for a strong man to cry (or in my case very little), but its hard to see him break down because no matter how hard he tries, it never works out. Atleast he brushes away the tears and goes on, but I see him each time standing a little shorter under the weight of what he has been through. I just hope the breaking point is a few years off. ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7685745/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7685745/ Mon, 23 Jan 2006 13:52:02 PST
1 - PEOPLE AND THEIR GOD DAMNED CELL PHONES! I thought a Library was suppose to be nice and quiet, yet since I started writing this journal no fewer then eight people have answered their cellphones and had full conversations (more than two minutes long) I just wish they would hang up!

2 - The printer attacked a guy who was waiting for his page to print. The page jammed and he opened the front case only to get wet ink smeared all over his fingers and shirt... it was pretty funny.

3 - An Anime club is meeting here in Backwater Utah, That sounds interesting. They will be meeting on the 4th of Feburary, so I think I will check it out since it is so god damned boring here

4 - A kid brought earphones to listen to internet streamcasts. He saw his friend and stood up to wave, the earphones became unplugged and from the Computer speakers we hear "Bitch get down on your knees and suck it! Now shake that ass like you want it!" That... was well worth the time at the Library. Espically since there were little kids around.

Well thats about it really, so yeah... ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7638783/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7638783/ Wed, 18 Jan 2006 11:56:59 PST
March 26, 2004 - I start out on DA, my Friend told me to come on here for lack of something better to do. Sometimes I wonder why I listened... other times I am glad, heh.

April - May 2004 - I start doing my Sprite Comic called Reloaded (In retrospect I went back and looked at some of the old ones, What the fuck was I thinking?). It gets some followers, and I meet this great guy from Europe that I had a month long love trist with, we went and saw all the sights in Greece and Sicily... of course he dosen't know about it, but I can dream, ne?

Begining of may to the end of June 2004 - BANNED FROM DA - Yeah... that was fun. They had told me that I could no longer do my Reloaded comics because it used copywrited sprite characters, so I told them I would keep doing it. Then they started taking away the comics from my page, I told them to piss off... lastly I was banned for two months. Woot! I don't know anyone else that was banned from DA for awhile because of their account's content... muahahahah (its not that great of a thing, but let me have my moment of fame)

June 2004 - I was going to do an Art version of Reloaded, never got past the design stage and I am not too sure why, something came up but I have no idea what it actually was. Also I confess the true origions of my name Saint Alvus and my reaaaaaaaaaally bad obsession with Anime Catgirls (not to be mistaken with full furries).

July - August 2004 - For some reason I think I moved, I can't remember where, why, or with who... But I moved. What the Fuck? Where is my memory of this (I rediscovered it going through old journals and stuff)

September 2004 - I gave up on someone, not much said about this month.

October - December 2004 - Well this time was a fun one. The person I gave up on wanted to be around me, then diddn't, then did, and now she hates me so meh. My Internet died several times and came back several times. I confessed to a list of Nicknames (most of which I hate), and lastly I think this was the last time I had sex. Yep, it was. So I have been Celibate for awhile now.

Janurary - Feburary 2005 - This was my "What the Fuck is the total sum when you add an ounce of Mint Jelly and subtract the Thiol Compounds?" Period. Basically it is what it exactly sounds like, My mind was so fucked up that the only thing that kept it regulated was work. That and Beer.

March - May 2005 - I have no fucking clue what happened here, Anyone remember?

June - November 2005 - Well I moved to Southern Utah, Told off the person I last had sex with, Got mad at another friend, Told her off in a not becoming way I did not mean at the time but *shrug* its understood now. My grandfather died and I basically shut myself away from everyone. Oh yeah and I was a Bus Driver also... how fucked up is that?

December - Now - And here we are... so those were fun times eh?

Oh yes, Lastly from Janurary 2004 to now, there has been a Woman that I've been meaning to call, yet I keep putting it off. Her name is Sarah and by god she is one of the most Gorgeous people I have ever met, of course she is one of the most Fucked up also. At first I diddn't call her because I wanted her so badly that one night when she was sleeping on the couch at a friend's house, I just watched her for a couple hours... Dosen't sound like much but I couldn't take my eyes away. So I decided to distance myself from her and not call until I could see her as a person, not a Beautiful Woman that was the center of my desire... Still hasen't fucking happened. I don't have her number anymore, yet I couldn't talk to her face to face without breaking down and sounding like an idiot teenager. Mabey soon I could call her... mabey. ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7638615/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7638615/ Wed, 18 Jan 2006 11:34:55 PST
It was needless to say an interesting story, but I wonder how much this follows life. Someone gains friends and they love them, then the friends forget about them for years. Someone breaks them into pieces and eventually (if the person hasen't killed themselves yet) someone else mends them.

I am sure that you all have been there, for the longest time I was in the Broken stage, but now I am gone from that. I wasen't really mended, I just passed to a different area where now I don't know weither I want to involve myself with anyone or not (mainly because all the good ones are taken, and I'm not exactly the cat's meow if you get my drift)

I just thought I would share a basic description of the story with you. I don't remember what Magazine it was in, but if you look on the internet for "Broken Doll by Pogue Mahone" you might find it, of course knowing how hard it is to search for something like that, you might not also. ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7593818/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7593818/ Fri, 13 Jan 2006 15:17:29 PST ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7563210/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7563210/ Tue, 10 Jan 2006 10:40:11 PST
That is part of the dictionary definition for the title of the story that I have been working on for the past thirteen years. I won't tell the title because I don't want people using it or copying my work... heheh, I am very paranoid about that only because I have invested so much time and energy into it.

The story of its creation begins back when I was Eleven. My friends Paul, Matt, and I grew bored of playing board games like Risk and Stratego. So we created our own using Micromachines, Hotwheels, and Matchbox Military toys. There were three races, Humans... Some Zerg Like race I don't remember the name for (this was before starcraft, I say zerg because they were organic like that) and the Alien Invaders. It was centered around a mythical planet named Boden. The Humans wanted the minerals on the planet, the Zerg thinggies inhabited it, and the Aliens were trying to take it for themselves. The game of course was called Strato-Boden.

We played it for a year until we grew tired of it. Using dice for movement and attack and so on. Out of that the concept of an Invading Alien force against Humanity took hold. To make a long story short, Now I am at the point in the Series where I am starting to actually write it.

Several Elements of the Story now include the Avendesora (Yggdrassil for you non WoT fans and Non Elfish Speakers), Angels, Cain, Alexander the Great, Lilith, Plato, Pythagoreas, Socrates, Aristotle, Hitler (to some extent), The Norse Gods, The Greek Gods, Some of the Roman Gods, Some of the Middle Eastern Gods before Islam caught on, Psychic Power, Military Domination, Super Future Robotic Space Fighting Technology, String Theory, Japanese Traditions and Bushido, God, The Bible, The Torah, Space Nazis (I could write a seventeen page report on these guys), and various other elements.

Its a story about Everything pretty much, How the Past influences the Future and how the Future dictates the past.

A select few friends know alot of this project, but about 75% of it is unknown to any but me... muahahahah!

I am expecting to be able to write six books to the series, I may do more or less. The information that will go into it however will cover about six books. I wanted to take the epic fantasy concept and apply it to Science Fiction. Only a few examples of this have really worked. Chiefly amoung them are Star Wars and Dune.

Why am I Writing about this? I wanted to do something in my journal, and so here it is. ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7438743/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7438743/ Wed, 28 Dec 2005 10:06:22 PST
Saint Alvus was born sometime back during the height of the Roman Empire. It is unknown which day exactly but He was somewhere around 200 A.D. Very little is known about his early life as a Child and then as an emmotional teenager. It was known that he joined the Roman Leigon at age 17 and served in the Leigon for six years. During that time he helped put down Germanic Uprisings and Saxon Bandits.

When he retired from the Leigon, he decided to try and spread some of the Culture of Rome abroad. This is when he met Lucius the Cursed. Lucius was infact Lucifer, who is in turn Satan. He offered Saint Alvus a choice, to become a Saint that is responsible for filling hell with souls or to become an eternally tortured soul in hell. Not seeing much of a real choice her, Saint Alvus opted for the third option which was for Lucifer to sod off and he went on his merry way.

Lucifer was furious and so he cursed Saint Alvus with immortality at the expense that he had to drink his weight in alcohol yearly or he would perish. At first Saint thought of it as a laugh, but as he grew weaker and weaker with no discernable explination available, he turned to drinking. And thus the first miracle happened. For after years of Hard Liquor, Saint Alvus managed to turn Wine into Wiskey, and he will always be remembered to the people of Erin for this feat.

Around this time Saint Alvus dissappeared from History for awhile and did not re-emmerge until the 1600's in France. There he occupied his time by dressing up as a horse and running over French Nobility when he was not heavily into drinking. His second miracle was brought about by the use of Firearms. By this time the Flintlock was starting to appear on the scene. Saint Alvus was the first man to create a rapid fire, clip loaded Flintlock musket. Unfortunately the thing blew up in his face when he first tried to use it, but the concept never quite went away. Builders improved upon his design and by the late 1800's, Browning had made his first machine gun. Saint's second miracle was to give Automatic Weapons to the world.

His last Miracle took place in Berlin in 1945. Alvus had been masquerading as a Nazi Officer mainly because he liked the way the Grey offset his eyes. Because of his Efforts, Berlin fell to the invading Armies and he was able to put and end to the Nazi Empire. Not singlehandedly, but he was a player in it. So his third miracle was handing east Berlin to the Soviets... Which in retrospect ia not much of a Miracle considering the Berlin Wall and so on. But His third Miracle is herald as his Revenge against the Nazis for not allowing him take all the weapons he wanted.

Thus because of these three Miracles we Celebrate Saint Alvus Day on his birthday, December 28th. ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7301536/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/7301536/ Tue, 13 Dec 2005 14:00:32 PST
Anyways I am in Limbo with limited internet access, I haven't dissappeared completely yet... thou sometimes I feel myself phasing out of existance as I know it. Perhaps I should drink some Clammato, then again with how horried the stuff tastes... better just leave it alone and die.

I love you all... well most of you... ok so only a select few get my love because my bread is not really buttered that side anymore.

I hope to be back by the turn of the year, but right now it looks like March is a better projection. Adios and Merry Christmas, Happy Hau... Hu... Happy Jew Days. Oh, wait... My assistant tells me its spelled Haunnakh. So happy that also.

Adios! ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/5188184/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/5188184/ Mon, 25 Apr 2005 20:12:55 PDT
I'm back doing Sprite Comics, ain't it fun? Well I will have a Journal Link for my comics since DA dosen't like me and I don't want to be banned again like most of you know I was.

I would just post war is hell, but a couple of my Comics have Capcom Characters in them so I would be screwed again.

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War is Hell: Sprite Comic

[link] 001
[link] 002
[link] 003
[link] 004
[link] 005
[link] 006
[link] 007
[link] 008
[link] 009
[link] 010
[link] 011
[link] 012
[link] 013 - Special
[link] 014
[link] 015
[link] 016
[link] 017
[link] 018
[link] 019 - Special
[link] 020
[link] 021
[link] 022
[link] 023
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Current Friends/People I am Stalking with a Vengence are as Follows

~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/4790170/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/4790170/ Fri, 11 Mar 2005 22:59:56 PST
Because of that she calls me and we get to talking. I could tell within the first couple minutes that she had alot on her mind and needed to vent to someone, anyone really. But it did take alot of guts to call a total stranger so I decided to give her as much of my Time as she needed.

Like I said we got to talking and she kept avoiding saying what she wanted to say, thou I diddn't ask her anything specific for abit, you know trying to get to know her abit more to see if she really does need my help.

About half an hour into the conversation she just spills pretty much her entire life story at me and thank god I was blessed with the gift of listening and understanding a Woman's side more than a Man's.

The conversation strayed to other things and we talked about ourselves until her cell phone battery died. I am going to call her tomorrow if she dosen't call me by the time I get to work. She still needs to talk and she still needs help with her problems.

My only issue here is that I freaking HATE being the Saint! All through Highschool and after I was always the guy that Mostly Women came to and talked about their problems with. It never got me laid or even a girlfriend and that I was really pissed off about. Well at the time I was.

Now I have consided to the fact that I am for some god forsaken unknown reason to me here to help people and listen to their problems. I do feel good when I do it, yet I protest it because I want to be an ass like some of my friends who get the chicks. I can't be an ass thou and it really ticks me off.

So now I live upto my nickname's sake and I am the Saint, Helping people wherever I can and making sure that the help others in turn. God my life sucks... Not really but I have to complain about something so it might aswell be that.

And no Li, she dosen't speak French.

So if any of you have issues you need a "therapist" for yet can't afford one, I guess let me know about then and I can help you work through them. I am alost cheaper and I won't limit you to an hour. Plus I won't make you sit on a leather couch. I can do the German Accent thou!

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http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/4684914/ Sun, 27 Feb 2005 14:01:57 PST
Character's Name:
Character's Sex:
Character's Description (Physical):
Character's Personality:
What would your character do in this situation; A Crazed man runs at them with a bloody combat knife:

Not saying that it will happen, but I need to know how your character would work under that kinda stress. The Book is about the Dream World and one man's journey through it, I want him to meet as many different people as he can, so submit your character data to me as a reply here or as a Note to me.

The First Chapter is done mostly, I am writing Chapter Four right now, I just have to get the first chapter into a postable version.

Also here is an update of what happens in my life -

I wake up, shower, goto work, Come home, Sleep.

Thats really about it these days, I try to get online every night and look at the new things from people but I don't always make it. Sorry if I have been abit snippy lately, Work has been hell, Li can fill you in if you really want to know. I call Li every night for about two hours when I am working. She usually has to tell me to hang up because I am a Lonely guy and she is the only one I can call that late to talk too.

That and she is and has been one of my closest friends for years.

Well thats it for now, see you all later if I don't die of exhaustion first.

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Current Friends/People I am Stalking with a Vengence are as Follows

http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/4651446/ Wed, 23 Feb 2005 06:53:04 PST
I cried:
I committed suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I died:
I was afraid:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I were hospitalized:
I ran away:
I got in a fight and you were there:



Would You?...

Be my friend:
Tell me the truth, No matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash If i needed it:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Love me for who I am:



[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Are we close?
[13] Emotionally, what stands out?
[14] Do you wish I was cooler?
[15] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[16] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[17] Am I loveable?
[18] How long have you known me?
[19] Describe me in one word:
[20] What was your first impression?
[21] Do you still think that way about me now?
[22] What do you think my weakness is?
[23] Do you think I'll get married?
[24] What about me makes you happy?
[25] What about me makes you sad?
[26] What reminds you of me?
[27] What's something you would change about me?
[28] How well do you know me?
[29] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[30] Do you think I would kill someone? < _<;
[31] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?


I don't usually do these, but I snagged this one from who snagged it from someone else who told two friends, and they told two friends, and they told two friends, and so on and so on, you know how these things get started.

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http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/4651096/ Wed, 23 Feb 2005 05:47:28 PST
I think there fore I am... but what of the people we all know that do not think, are they not in existance but products of our mind?

We know so little about anything that we try to convince ourselves that we know everything... It is a ongoing battle to truely know one's self and know one's limitations, but as I have found... the only Limitations we have are ones that we set for ourselves.

We consider ourselves as a species at this point to be Enlightened thinkers, yet we are far from such. True we have pondered greater mysteries now than ever before, yet we can never truely understand the nature of anything. Because there is no nature that we could understand... because we choose not to understand it and instead think about the causality in a way that we could understand ourselves which is not the way the nature of anything works.

How does it work? I don't profess to know. Infact the more I know, the less I understand. Yet I am confident in my ability to know more and more and understand less and less because it is something I have come to terms with. It is as unchangeable as the Tax System.

The source of my anxiety is nothing more than a dream in which I find I can wake from, yet never remember. I think I know this dream which seems to familure yet I never quite remember anything about it. When I am on the brink of a coherant memory, my mind denies it. Thus I have a great sense of being alone for if one's memories fail them, what else can one rely on?

My memory is very circumspect. I can remember the exact hour that the atomic bomb on Hiroshima was dropped, yet I cannot remember if I even tied my shoes, or for that matter put on my shoes at all. Is it selective or have I endured some condition to which I am unaware that causes my memory to be nothing more than evaporating mist in the jungle of thought? I suffered no tradigy that I am aware of, nothing grand or lasting happened in my Childhood... so why is it I cannot remember it even when I look at photographs? Why have my memories failed to remain... This is most disturbing to me. Was it not important? I am unsure...

Sorry to go all philosophic upon everyone in this journal post, but this is my mood right now... Well that and Horny, Lonley, and kinda hungry with a slight craving for a cigarette.

heh... I don't know why I did this, but it seemed like a good idea at the time.

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Current Friends/People I am Stalking with a Vengence are as Follows

~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/4388051/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/4388051/ Sat, 22 Jan 2005 18:57:13 PST [link]

Thats where I am shooting to go to now. I have to save up alot of cash between now and the end of April, but I will definately do it. Everywhere I look things keep pointing me to go to Hawaii and I think I really should. I might even get my friend Dustin to go with me, I might not you never know what he'll do.

Anyways, I have been working a shitload recently thats why I haven't been on much, but I will get to your Deviations and Journals as I can.

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Current Friends/People I am Stalking with a Vengence are as Follows

http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/4261344/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 10:59:31 PST
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Requests

Rainbird - Evil Rainbird Cartoon - Complete, Scanner is broke! Mon Dieu!

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Current Projects I am working on

Jafar and Trix - 2%
More Yohko - 5%

I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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Current Friends/People I am Stalking with a Vengence are as Follows

~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/4007591/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/4007591/ Mon, 06 Dec 2004 23:12:30 PST
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Requests

Rainbird - Evil Rainbird Cartoon - Complete, Scanner is broke! Mon Dieu!

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Current Projects I am working on

Jafar and Trix - 2%
More Yohko - 5%

I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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Current Friends/People I am Stalking with a Vengence are as Follows

~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/3651704/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/3651704/ Fri, 22 Oct 2004 20:43:21 PDT
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Requests

Rainbird - Evil Rainbird Cartoon - 8%

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Current Projects I am working on

Jafar and Trix - 2%
More Yohko - 5%

I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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Current Friends/People I am Stalking with a Vengence are as Follows

http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/3523666/ Wed, 06 Oct 2004 20:25:31 PDT Sitting in his nowhere land,
Making all his nowhere plans
For nobody.

Doesn’t have a point of view,
Knows not where he’s going to,
Isn’t he a bit like you and me?
Nowhere man, please listen,
You don’t know what you’re missing,
Nowhere man, the world is at your command.

He’s as blind as he can be,
Just sees what he wants to see,
Nowhere man can you see me at all?
Doesn’t kave a point of view,
Knows not where he’s going to,
Isn’t he a bit like you and me?
Nowhere man, don’t worry,
Take your time, don’t hurry,
Leave it all till somebody else
Lend you a hand.

He’s a real nowhere man,
Sitting in his nowhere land,
Making all his nowhere plans
For nobody.

, She says this is exactly like me, and I have to agree. I have no abition, I have no direction, and damned if I care. I just do jobs for money but in the end I don't care much about any of it really. I have passions but those flare and die quickly. So until someone gives me a reason to care again, I will continue being a Nowhere man. I love you Li!

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Requests

Rainbird - Evil Rainbird Cartoon - 8%

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Current Projects I am working on

Jafar and Trix - 2%
More Yohko - 5%

I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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Current Friends/People I am Stalking with a Vengence are as Follows

http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/3521344/ Tue, 05 Oct 2004 18:08:32 PDT
Ok so anyways to the point of this journal post, I have come to the conclusion that no matter how despretly lonely I am, I am actually far better off being by myself for the time being. It sucks and at night I really miss having my arm around a woman but its for the best ne pas?

Rainbird, I have started going over several ideas for that pic I am doing for you and I can't seem to come up with something that shouts at me to be done. But I will think of something. I still have 25 days to get it done in.

Li should be back any day now and I am going to kiss her and throttle her for staying away so damn long. She is the Focal point of our group in Utah and with her gone yeah we had some fun but its just not the same without her being there. But Her Mom and Ollie are in Utah now so it was a worthy trip, still I miss her, not as much as I am sure Jen does, but I missed her alot.

Hearing from Johnny through Dustin, I heard that he might pay off the debt he has to me. If he does then I will be his friend again, I do want to be friends but something has to happen first.

Well thats about it, This journal post just rambles on. I have some deviations to look at so I will do so and comment on them. I love all you guys with the exception of Gokage, I just admire him. Ja ne mina san!

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Requests

Rainbird - Evil Rainbird Cartoon - 3%

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Current Projects I am working on

Jafar and Trix - 2%
More Yohko - 5%

I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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Current Friends/People I am Stalking with a Vengence are as Follows

http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/3512857/ Mon, 04 Oct 2004 17:09:24 PDT
Captain (don't ask)
Keebler
Uncle Beanbag
Saint Alvus
Saint
Beanbag
Nothing
Dumbass
Stealth Ninja
Sexual Ninja
Wood Bitch 2
SyntaxError (this I gave myself, if your a geek you can understand it.)
Old Blue Eyes (I think they meant I am an ass like Sinatra, I don't know)
Kansas
Ike

Thats a short list of ones I remember.

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Requests

Rainbird - Evil Rainbird Cartoon - 3%

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Current Projects I am working on

Jafar and Trix - 2%
More Yohko - 5%

I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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Current Friends/People I am Stalking with a Vengence are as Follows

~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/3480906/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/3480906/ Thu, 30 Sep 2004 14:08:56 PDT
So I have been going through my Wheel of Time Books again for no reason, it seems every couple years I pull them out of my closet and start reading, I am only two weeks along and already I am on the fifth book. For those of you that know the series, the books are big.... very big. Generally 700-1000 pages. And for those of you that don't know the series, here is just a quick list of my favorite characters... Not all of them mind, there are too many to list here.

Rand Al'Thor - The Dragon Reborn, Lews Therin Telamon Reborn. Destined to stop the dark one and destroy the world yet again. He does not fight against his destiny, however he does not let it control him either.

Matrim Cauthon - The Trickster, The Gambler. Childhood friend of Rand, he has a great dislike of Aes Sedai and anything to do with the Power. From his meeting with the Aelfin and the Eelfin he knows some sort of path he must take. He is a Master Tactician and Warrior... most of which he would love to forget.

Perrin Aybarra t'Bashere - A Blacksmith apprentice and childhood friend of Rand and Mat. Perrin left Emond's Field with them and became seperated. He learned he could speak with Wolves and his eyes changed to Yellow. He fights against his destiny until he married the woman of his dreams, Faile.

Zarine "Faile" Bashere t'Aybarra - She left her home and her family to join the great hunt for the Horn of Valere, the horn that when blown would bring back the dead heros of legends to fight. She met Perrin and attached herself to him to try and find the Horn. She fell inlove with him. They were Married in Emond's Field before a massive battle. She loves him with all her heart and would do anything for him.

Elayne Trakand - Daughter heir (princess) to Andor, Daughter of Queen Morgase. She met Rand when she was but a young woman, from the moment she saw him she fell inlove with him. She trained in the White Tower to become Aes Sedai. She wants to be with Rand more than anything, however her duty to the Tower holds her away.

Min - A girl when she first met Rand, She knew from the moment she saw him that she would fall inlove with him. She fought against it for a long time before finally giving up. She has the ability to see auras and images around certain people that speak of things to come. That is how she knew she would fall inlove with rand.

Aviendha - Formerly a Far Daries Mai or Maiden of the Spear. This Aiel woman is training to become a Wise One. She was set to watch Rand by the Wise One's of the Aiel clans that follow him. She fought against her feelings for the longest time until Rand Saved her from death. Her heart gave in for one moment, She was Rand's First.

Well thats it for brief character descriptions. Rand is.... well in the words of Mat Cauthon, Rand is "Either the Luckiest man or the Unluckiest man in the entire world" for having Elayne, Min, and Aviendha inlove with him. And instead of having to choose one of them he gets all three. Personally I like Min the best, but Aviendha and Elayne are very very very close. Well actually I like Faile the best but she is Perrin's.

I reccommend the Wheel of Time series by Robert Jordan to anyone, be warned however it is very long. There are Ten books out now not including a prequil and there are plans upto Twelve, however Jordan may continue the series beyond that. Anyways.... Yeah thats what I am doing, reading the series through for a third time. Fun eh?

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I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/3404987/ Tue, 21 Sep 2004 18:52:19 PDT
Anyways its a story about a city set in our time where there is a man that has been charged with killing the scum of that city, kinda like a superhero but he is one that is weighted down by his fate because before he was given this charge, he was part of that scum.

I know the main lines I want to take on it, yet I have not figured out how to incorporate a couple characters... That is the most difficult part since I want Alvus (yes I am kinda the main character and at the same time not) aswell as Nickolas Falcon (the other main character) to take a certain path. Yet the other characters I want in are going to have to be side characters.... getting them to fit into the story so it runs like Swiss Clockwork is the problem I am having right now. I don't want to leave anyone out yet I fear that having this many people in it will complicate the storyline beyond what is needed.

So as far as things go the CoLA project is about five percent done. Oh and Rainbird, I promise I will attempt to finish your request by or before halloween, I just need to get drawing again but I have been so asorbed with reading and writing.

I still hold that the best song by Rammstein is Klavier. If you ever want to know why, find the translated lyrics and download the german version of the song. You will love it if you have any darkess residing within your soul.

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Current Projects I am working on

Jafar and Trix - 2%
More Yohko - 5%

I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/3311547/ Tue, 07 Sep 2004 19:39:16 PDT
So basically I am her friend, but I am moving on. If she decides in the future that she wants me I will be there, but as things stand now, that decision will never come.

on a lighter note, I am back at a computer, so I will get to deviant submissions sooner.

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Rainbird - Evil Rainbird Cartoon - 3%

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Current Projects I am working on

Jafar and Trix - 2%
More Yohko - 5%
Reloaded - 2%

I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/3060590/ Fri, 06 Aug 2004 19:55:41 PDT
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Requests

Rainbird - Evil Rainbird Cartoon - 3%

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Current Projects I am working on

Jafar and Trix - 2%
More Yohko - 5%
Reloaded - 2%

I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2957266/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2957266/ Sat, 24 Jul 2004 13:14:20 PDT

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Alright, so for the past two weeks I have been stressing out about something, but I was really concerned. There is this woman... wait there is always a woman isin't there? Anyways there is this woman that I want very badly. Now not obsessive wanting but I am inlove with her. More to the point I found out that she has the same feelings for me, however current situation as it is neither of us can act upon them. So I bide my time till I can. I'm not worries, she is more than worth the wait.

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Requests

Rainbird - Evil Rainbird Cartoon - 3%

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Current Projects I am working on

Jafar and Trix - 2%
More Yohko - 5%
Reloaded - 2%

I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2864972/ Fri, 23 Jul 2004 15:12:06 PDT

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= Li
= Jen

Over the weekend I was back down at Li's house... which was fun to say the least... well fun if you consider putting your hand in a blender with a coconut smoothie fun, Actually that is quite fun. Anyways I was down at Li's house and we got to talking as usual. Li, Jen, Annie, and I went next door to the neighbor's house to talk for awhile and Annie made me go take her to get a slurpee... which I of course did, She is like the little sister I always wanted but never got. After a couple hours Jen wanted to go outside for a smoke so I followed her and we talked for awhile about various things.

After we nearly got eaten to pieces by insects, we moved to the porch with the Citronella Torches. Then Li wanted to go get Pancakes as happens. So once again Li, Jen and I all went to the International House of Pancakes and diddn't end up getting Pancakes. Apparently I am a pain in the ass because I don't want anything... Li offered to pay but I Diddn't want anything, so all I got was a Coke under protest. Kinda...

Well after we got back, I was playing with a kitten and it tore my finger. Jen likes blood so she sucked it off my finger which just wasen't right I tells ya... well yeah I liked it but anyways. So thats basically all thats happened in my life of importance lately.

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Current Projects I am working on

Jafar and Trix - 2%
More Yohko - 5%
Reloaded - 2%

I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2838353/ Fri, 09 Jul 2004 13:35:35 PDT

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Well I was browsing around on some art pages here at DA and I don't know how the hell I ended up onto two of these people's pages, but somehow I did... It confuses me to no end really. Anyways The five places you should really check out are listed below.



Angelics does alot of good artwork and her Stock Photos are full of Nudity
Dizzz does alot of interesting photographic work and she is just full of Nudity, But I can't hold that against her, not that I would mind you, But she is a Polish Housewife that cooks Poison food... Que? She has some really good stock Photos aswell
And Finally FairyDanceintheHaze is a Fantastic Photographer and well... she is just damned cute aswell. She is a very lovely, sweet, and cute Asian

And thats it for the pimpin section right now

Basically my mood is so-so, I can't get over the fact that every woman I have ever known with the exception of my Mother, and Johnny's Mother and Grandmother pretty much want Johnny. Its hard to go places with him and see women stare at him. That and the fact that he gloates about it too really pisses me off. I have to work to get anywhere and they just fall into his fucking lap. Its just not right I tell ya... Ahh well Li got him back for it one time, but thats another story.

So as I go on I try to present myself as a wonderfull Lover if not a good friend, which I am both. The only woman I have ever had was always satisified and I never needed any instruction. I tell you Three hours in the bedroom just for her and ten minutes for me isin't right either. But I am not complaining anymore since I am rid of her and single again.

I've seem to of lost the point of this entry, so I will just end it here.

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Current Projects I am working on

Jafar and Trix - 2%
More Yohko - 5%
Reloaded - 2%

I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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... ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2808781/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2808781/ Fri, 09 Jul 2004 02:05:42 PDT
I am a sad dimented man, no?

Well in my life what has happened recently... hmmm... Johnny and I went down to Place over the Third and Fourth of July. We set off tons of fireworks on the Third. There was a shell which diddn't launch and exploded fifteen feet from me. I was showered with burning sparkly brightness. It was fun. Then with a Roman Candle, A mini firework in it diddn't explode and landed within a half a foot of me. So basically Fireworks have it out for me.
Anyways Johnny wanted to get back home so I dropped him off and went back down to Li's. When I got there Her and made me take them to IHOP. Now I am not complaing because its a good day when a Guy is forced to take two of his favorite women out to get something to eat.
After we got back we enjoyed a few hours on Li's trampoline and watched the clouds and the trees. I miss going down there and I think I will be continuing it more often. They are all good people with the exception of because she does to me what I do to Johnny. I am very random and I make Johnny's brain stop alot. Well She has that exact same effect upon me and it hurts. Johnny gloated that it was time for payback and that I was a bitch for doing that to him for years. Well I guess it is time for payback but it would of been better if it was something else... mabey...

Ever get the feeling that no woman wants you because they all want your best friend? I don't know what it is but there are few women alive that can resist Johnny. He just has that certain something that all women want, he's more of a night of hot passionate sex then a relationship. TC I think he was Italian in a past life, but hell if I know what is going on now. Even my Sister and her Friends want to jump him. It really messes with my brain because I have to work my ass off just to get one woman interested in me. And the one that Screwed me over... well less said about her the better...

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Current Projects I am working on

Jafar and Trix - 2%
More Yohko - 5%
Reloaded - 2%

I will take a couple requests just so I can draw something because I need more pratice to get better. If you have a request you wish me to draw let me know either by note or via here.

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~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2691973/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2691973/ Fri, 25 Jun 2004 21:31:11 PDT
Well as some of you know I decided to stop doing Reloaded the Sprite Comic in favor of an Art Comic and things are going... Well, They are just going. I am trying to develop my own art style so I can do the Comic. I have based a couple sketches off Penny Arcade and Megatokyo, The Megatokyo one I won't post because its crap. If anyone knows how to edit the colors on a pic through Adobe Photoshop 7.0 Please tell me, I want to color in my Troll and learn that way so I can color in my Comics when I do them.

I was bored earlier today so I wrote the Prologue to a Story Idea I have had since 1994. Its been mulling around my mind ever since, Surfacing and then dissappearing. I finally decided to just write it when I feel like writing. The Chapters that will follow are test Chapters, They have all the necessary Action without overly describing it. If I ever decide to release it as a book I will fill it in so it fits 250 or more pages.

I'm in a Meloncolly mood right now, Some people Piss me off while others don't. I am always here to Help YOU GUYS if you need it. Just let me know, Hell you don't even have to tell me who you are, just send me an E-mail to saintalvus@msn.com from an anyonomous E-mail Address. I have been there, I have done it all, I have bleed from a thousand wounds and fought a thousand wars and died a thousand deaths. I have loved, lived, and been betrayed. I will always tell you the truth and if you want me to be serious I will be. You can Trust your Fellow Saint.

The Story of how I got my Sainthood is really odd, kinda. Well I am not actually a Saint, but that is the name I go by Online. My best friend Johnny was watching Sea Lab one day and they talked about Saint Alvus day. Well I haven't seen it yet and I REALLY want too. Anyways so Saint Alvus was just... I don't know if I can say this here but here goes, Saint Alvus was just Fucking Cracked enough that Johnny said it was exactly like me. So I adopted the name thanks to him. I wanted to get away from my other Nickname which Li had given me that stuck for years. Uncle... I'm not gonna tell you the other part because I really don't want people calling me by it anymore. So I started out as the Patron Saint of Liquor and Firearms. After some advice I gave to someone I was given the title of Patron Saint of Liquor, Firearms, and Revenge. Well then Rainbird gave me my Current Title.

I am Saint Alvus, Patron Saint of Liquor, Firearms, Revenge, and Perverts.... Since I am about as Big of a Pervert as you will ever find. My Obsession with Catgirls is reaaaaaaaaly bad.

Lets see what else can I put in here, oh yeah... If your still reading this journal by this point, I now own the next Pear Flavored Jelly Belly you will eat. Pear is the best flavor, it is exactly like a Pear. If I could I would by a Thousand Kilo Bag of nothing but Pear. Now granted Pears are not my favorite fruit, Cherries and Limes are. But Pears come in Second. Well thats basically all for now.

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http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2671294/ Wed, 16 Jun 2004 01:27:44 PDT
Anyways, I keep sketching every day, its hard work... ne?

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Clubs... ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2607701/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2607701/ Tue, 15 Jun 2004 05:55:10 PDT
Anyways, I will keep my artwork up and I will keep commenting and offering advice as always (lucky you guys, muahahahah!) And I really need to get to see some of Treechan's new work!

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~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2357314/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2357314/ Tue, 04 May 2004 15:18:39 PDT
I WILL KILL EVERYONE IN THE WORLD!

Ok so now I reupload them, this only causes the same Admin to go and search through my stuff and delete anything that has characters he thinks exist. Now if they are recolored Megaman Sprites then I can pass them off but NOOOO, I am using the original Blue Sprite so that can't be right, We must take action against this Tax Payer because he hasen't been Screwed over enough in his life.

Needless to say the Megaman Reloaded Comics I will upload somewhere else and link to them, So I am going to go back and Redo the Old Reloaded Comics in the new Comic Form, Just because I am too pissed off to do anything else at this point...

Oh yeah and I hope you diddn't break anything Important Gustov!

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The Rating is 1-5 Peng... ]]> ~SaintAlvus http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2343226/ http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2343226/ Mon, 03 May 2004 14:44:49 PDT
In a Note sent by the Admin who was only listed as Devart, They Stressed these two points below in Bold, Here is my response below in italics.

1. Deviants are responsible for securing the necessary third-party arrangements which allow the submissions to deviantART that are derivative works based on that artists works. Without that arrangement made prior to submission then the deviation is not legally allowed to be submitted.

2. deviantART does not allow the submission of copywritten material without the securing of the necessary third-part arrangements. This means that if a deviant submits the work of another artist, without first obtaining permission, and displaying that permission on deviantART, then the submission is considered a rip.

Unfortunately there is no third party, so the artwork is legally mine. They are free Sprites that anyone can get and thay have no copywright to them, Sure they are based off Megaman from the Games, but they are still free use and if by the logic of your policy, then I should have the rest of my Reloaded Sprite Comic Pages Deleted because they are not truely my original artwork as you so put it. I have not used anything that has been copywrighted so technically they are mine.

This just pisses me the hell off, I am gonna upload the comic pages again just to spite the admin, espically since I had non friend comments on them telling me how they liked it.

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http://SaintAlvus.deviantart.com/journal/2334484/ Fri, 30 Apr 2004 22:59:42 PDT
There was this one Chic there I met named Elizabeth who was cute as hell, she was one of my sister's friends from North Carolina. God her Body made me hot.... Yeah anyways

So then I get home, and have a lack of something to do... what the hell was the point of this journal again?

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The Rating is 1-5 Penguins, Kinda like 1-5 Star Hotels. So here is how it would look if the Pic is FANTASTIC



Thats a Five Penguin Pic!

So here is how the rating goes

- Average