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I am however afraid of uncertainty, which is a disease that has such prominent presence in my quiet life that I can no longer simply ignore.

In direct correlation with the recently mentioned narcosis, my mind has been more active then ever. I've started to ask all those questions that people always have to ask.

I owe all my inspiration to an anime (as usual) entitled "Code Geass". At first I was not impressed by as I continue to watch it gets better and better. Something you should look into if you have the time.

All other things aside maybe one of these days I'll put some "art" up, but only time will tell.

Until next time, sayanora!

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Eh, I'm to stuck up to ever give in - I always argue and convince myself that I'm right; hell maybe I am.

But as much as I like fair play and no matter how much I tell myself I understand, I really probably don't. Maybe my Mom is right.

In either case it comes to no real ends and it's just another thing I wipe away without a care. Pretty gutsy, but pretty cowardly.

]]> ~SaintStrufenha http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/18188334/ http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/18188334/ Mon, 05 May 2008 20:57:14 PDT
My writing is a reflection of this.

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Money?

No, something less tangible, but what?

Trust?

Friendship?

Love?

Even greater than love itself; to gain another's unfaltering loyalty is a precious gift indeed....

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Lately I've been loathing my own writing, so it's kinda set me off from doing anything more. But anyway, if I'm lucky, I'll get in the right mindset to write a little something.

Besides, I've been quite busy brawling...

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I do appreciate the comments though!

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Don't stop your life just cause you're afraid.



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I suppose I'll post some stuff, for real this time though like I said I would waaaay back when.

Or maybe I'm lying again

But I'm sure my absence will go unnoticed anyway, so I'll just be over in nowhere land for a moment

O.o I like the a little too much, just so ya know...

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I'll get right on that, so give me just a few days...

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Edit: if you want to see an excerpt, go here:

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I blame Chemistry.

And school in general.

But anyways, I haven't really put anything up...and I havn't really looked at anyones stuff...

But I'll get to it this weekend, so don't worry.

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]]> ~SaintStrufenha http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14991443/ http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14991443/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 20:14:42 PDT
In poetry, as in all of writing, I find it important to title your work (althout a certain Miss Dickenson may disagree with me). The title, to me, needs a lot of substance, due to the fact that writing has no visuals. What better way to grab attention than with an interesting title?

This may be contradictory to my own poetry, as often I use short, single word titles, but I do this to create eloquence. Because I do this, I have a hard time using important words as titles; if I use the word once, I can never use it again.

Therefore I'm very picky about the title. This one in particular has been causing me trouble. One of the following poems needs to be given the title "Epitaph", but in my mind, I can't decide.

1. I lay a rose, by the grave of truth;
An iris, by beauties instead.
May the dead know of the flowers
Placed kindly, at their bed.

2. Pay no heed to the dead man here.
Do not wallow in his death.
But if a solemn gift be given
Lay a rose at grounds, hollow, heaven.

3. A tear is shed, and the crowd fades away.
To a life, a solemn-address
The silent, last, and willowing ephemera
Lay a rose, before she left.

I think # 1 is winning for me, but I almost want to call that one "Iris"

]]> ~SaintStrufenha http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14960320/ http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14960320/ Sun, 07 Oct 2007 18:18:32 PDT
My apologies to all.

Anyway, this journal I would have to dedicated to a certain anime called "Eureka Seven". I won't lie to you, I think it's the best anime I've ever seen trumping Cowboy Bebop, Evangelion (which never scored to high in my book anyway), Wolfs Rain, FLCL (barely), and even the infamous FMA.

I won't go into detail, but I'll suffice to say it's in essence, simply a love story. E7 is a mecha, and personally I don't care for mecha but this is definatly different. The plot and the characters are very well done, and their is a lot of develpment. I will also say that the villain is a friggen genius, and is by far one of the evilest I have ever seen.

The show touches on many issues I find fascinating; political propoganda, what value a belief has, the importance of religion vs science, the military, human behavior, selfless and selfishness and of course, the importance of love.

But I could ramble on all day about how much I enjoy E7, but its something I can't explain. So here is simply a list of some quotes from the show, maybe to entise you just a bit.

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"Don't beg for things, do it yourself or else you won't get anything" - Adrock Thurston

"Freedom is something that you need to actively acquire. It's not something that's given with no strings attached. To be free means to take responsibility, and prepare yourself for what's to come. Understand, Renton?" -Charles Beams

"The tension one feels before death is the feeling of being alive." - Ray Beams

"A woman, robbed of her future, and a man, protecting the future. What awaits them, beyond their battles?" - Talho

"The only way to truely get rid of that which you hate is to kill that which you most love"

"If believing can cause that much pain, then all you have to do is stop"

"Look, when you're in love, it's like they're a part of you. And if they start to hurt, that means you hurt to. Someone more important to you than you. I mean, how could anyone stand it?" - Talho

"Attatching yourself to a history and religion only invented in the first place to suit the needs of immigrants from Earth...To imagine a lifeform complete in and of itself...such a thing does not exist. And yet we would call ourselves Gods, we humans, flawed as we are...fools as we cannot help but be. Why can we not accept that the only true inhabitant of a truely just, completed, perfect world... is nothingness?" - Dewey Novak

"Did you know? During one part of its life cycle, a butterfly dies? Inside its cacoon, until it's reborn, it turns into liquids, rebuilding its body. Thus, in doing so, it is reborn." - Adrock Thurston

"If the world is not to your lilking,you've two choices...either close your eyes and kill yourself...or kill everyone else around you. - Dewey Novak

"The self-destruct program can't be stopped...and the people's faith in whatever it was they believed in will dissolve. What is there in this world worthy of their beliefs when nothing is of value, and all is but imposters and fakes!? - Dewey Novak

"Tell me-what is it maggots see, as they're about to die?" - Dewey Novak

"Science and religion are merely two roads that lead to the same end" - Norbu

There are many more, but this is good for now. (a lot of good ones I'm forgetting(and some we're taken from the manga))

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On of these essays details poetry as the main subject matter, and reminds me of myself. She makes a point of how bad her poetry is looking back. I ofthen wonder to myself what my poetry will be like when I look back.

Currently, some of it looks genious. Others look very poor. Perhaps in the future, they will all seem damp with mediocrity. Or perhaps I truely am a genius.

Either way, what I find most interesting is the difference in my own workings. Poems I think are particularily good nobody seems to notice, while others I can't stand and people things its simply brilliant. But at the moment, I can see a steady decline in it all, that is, the quality.

Truth be told I don't know the first rules about poetry. I never attempt to write with any sort of metre or rhythm; it just comes out that way naturaly. I've only actually "studied" two poets on my own: Poe and Dickenson. As I read Dickenson, I wonder if she too felt this nagging sense of ritiousness that came with her work, as well as the shamful embarrassment that would follow.

I also wonder too if she wrote with rhythm in mind or if for her as I it merely came. It's odd really, and she seems to have the same habbit in writing in four line stanzas. I find it very hard not too.

Anyway, I should probably get to sleep now, lest I catch a cold like everyone else.

]]> ~SaintStrufenha http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14775014/ http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14775014/ Mon, 24 Sep 2007 16:03:45 PDT
Rain > Marching Band

You win again, nature

*shakes fist in anger*

Anyway, I see a lot of writers and artists in general on deviantart who really do things with their heart, however sappy that may sound. What I mean is, everyone is using their deepest and sincerist emotions to create art.

That's good.

However, most people are still neglecting another part of them that is perhaps just as usefull as the philisophical "heart"; nobody wants to use their mind. Now of course all this is speaking metaphorically, but if your a teenager, you should have some idea what I mean here.

The point I'm gonna make here though is to use all your resources, and while you "heart" is a valuble piece, your mind can create art that is well...

The word that comes to mind is "cold" but really that's not a good way to say it. Use your mind to create art that makes people think and wonder, without neccasarily drooping into the melodrama's found only whithin the teen psyche.

I don't really feel like being deeper then I need to be, but I'm sure I lost somebody. In anycase, those are my current thoughts.

]]> ~SaintStrufenha http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14707393/ http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14707393/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 20:35:19 PDT
I really do like writing short stories, and I only do it when I have thought in mind. Poetry for me, is a lot different. Often times I just start writing without thinking about the content.

However, on my better poems I do put in a concious effort to make it sound good and be meaningful, but the majority really is just coming off the top of my head.

I'm pretty bad at rating other peoples poetry/writing though. I don't know why I just can't bring myself to read other people's stuff. It's the deep, egotistical side of me speaking out.

There is three reasons I can't stand a lot of poetry:

1. Grammer >.< When people don't capatalize or spell words correctly or misuse words (although I'm quite guilty of the last 2) it sends me this messge that you don't care. If you can't take the time to correct simple grammer, well...it just bugs the crap outta me.

2. Cliches/sterotypical teenage romance poems. I'm sorry but I can't deal with this either. Cliches are okay but I see way to many poems about "lost love" and "bleeding empty hearts" etc. Sure it's a hot topic and will always be good but don't write every single poem about love for God sake. There's other things out there.

3. Titles. To me, the title has to be good. With a picture or a painting, a person can just glance at it and decide whether it's good or not. With writing and poetry however, when people actually have to put in the minimal effort of reading, it turns them off quite a bit. That's why I believe in having striking titles, that in the are meaningful and often times not obvious to understand on surface level. Once again there are way too many love poems with similiar titles, all about broken hearts and all that nonsense. Whenever I see those, most of the time I just skip right over them

So perhaps I'm just being a bit harsh but that's mostly how I feel about poetry. I'm sure I'm being hypocritical to some extent and pretty soon somebodies gonna call me on it.

That's all for now.

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He's pretty good, but he doesn't go on much...

Oh and while I'm at it:



Look at her stuff too, or she'll yell at me.

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Hell if I know any of that. I probably should care more, but truth is, I think people, especially kids nowadays worry too much about the future. And those of them who don't take any heed to the future just seem to waste their lives to me.

Sometimes life can be so black and white, despite what people tell you. Truth of the matter is though, when people ask me what I want to do, I don't tell them the truth. In truth, I really would like to be a writer, but I would love to be a poet.

But thats the thing though, poetry is such a useless art it seems. Poets are so underapreciated nowadays, and carry such a negative connotation it seems. That added to the fact that I don't think I'm good enough to be either writer or poet.

So all in all, I can only make this confession to people who won't even notice I've confessed in the first place

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Disgusting.

]]> ~SaintStrufenha http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14608810/ http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14608810/ Wed, 12 Sep 2007 19:29:01 PDT
Somebody give me inspiration! Just throw me one line and I'll make a poem out of it.

*Edit: I'm so bad right now I can't even spell "throw"

]]> ~SaintStrufenha http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14581208/ http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14581208/ Mon, 10 Sep 2007 19:49:44 PDT
That is to say, I'm looking around for people who are either new or have yet to be noticed. Yes I know, it's a tough job but somebody's got to do it and I'm definatly bored.

Besides, what other way is a useless poet such as myself going to gain attention? It's a mutualistic relation really.

Although I must say I'm being quite picky about who I'm watching, which is perhaps why this is taking so long. If by chance I do happen to add you and you see this, well that's good new for you (not that I'm some sort of master artist or something crazy like that, you just happen to...well have good taste in my eyes.)

Join me if you wish!

P.S. I wonder if there's any nerd out there who get the referance that is the title of this entry...

*Edit: I feel like sort of lecherous old man as I do this. Just an F.Y.I., I'm not.

**Edit: perhaps the word it's not unknown artitst but merely underapreciated ones.

]]> ~SaintStrufenha http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14567148/ http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14567148/ Sun, 09 Sep 2007 19:43:13 PDT 2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

1. I'm asian.
2. I'm also Jewish (well not really.)
3. I'm adopted (this is where #2 stems from)
4. I have a total love hate relation with all forms of art.
5. I absolutly LOVE a certain anime called "Eureka Seven" and is probably the only thing in life I will ever gush about.
6. I'm a nintendo fanboy.
7. As far as the whole ninja vs pirate thing goes, I'm definatly a ninja...or am I...
8. I'm pretty dang easy going and really hyper. The two things really conflict.

As for tagging other people, well if by some odd chance you read this, your it.

]]> ~SaintStrufenha http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14508927/ http://SaintStrufenha.deviantart.com/journal/14508927/ Wed, 05 Sep 2007 20:16:52 PDT sophmore year.

I must mention that although I may be quite active on my own profile, I have not been very active on others. For that I must apoligize, and admit it's on my more...selfish sides of me that keep things the way they are. I find myself having quite a bit of difficulty rating and watching fellow artists, despite the amount of respect I may have for them.

In the future I do hope I manage to get a good look at the place, but for now, I feel a bit on my own.

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