http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Sakura-no-Tamashii&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Sakura-no-Tamashii en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 10 Dec 2009 14:58:03 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/26264529/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/26264529/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 21:18:43 PDT And to think I've been meaning to upload a few things for the longest time. Oi..."||

I hope everyone's doing well though.

Minor tidbits that have practically no importance whatsoever:
- Anime Expo was a blast. Seriously. But then, you'd think I would've learned not to procrastinate on cosplays by now. *shot*
- Speaking of cosplays, I really need to keep my props ambition level in check."||
- Fall semester's coming up. I'll finally be able to take a Japanese course.
- I hate my absolute-100%-must-get persona when I play games..."||
- Why on earth are Facebook games so addicting? D:
- My sleeping schedule's way out of whack. Got to correct that soon...

Progress on art's been at a standstill for the longest time.
Not sure when that will be remedied.

Isn't it pathetic that I stayed away for longer than necessary because I didn't want to deal with all the updates?
Regardless, I will get through everything.
... eventually...

So... yeah...
I'm still alive guys.
Just extremely lazy."||
--KuraiSakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/22404441/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/22404441/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 21:59:10 PST Apologies for not saying anything before I left.

During my trip and upon my return, I feel as though my theory is more correct than ever.
"Everything happens when I'm not present."
And the fact that I'm the sort of person who hates to miss out on anything doesn't help me feel any better.

I'll start with my reason for leaving for Taiwan.
The problem first arose way back in May when we found out my grandpa on my mom's side was diagnosed with lymphoma, the same cancer that took one of my dogs back in 2006. Over summer, he went under chemotherapy and definitely seemed like he was on the path of recovery when we visited him over summer.
In October, we received calls from family that he wasn't doing well, so my mom flew back for a few weeks before coming back. She flew back a few weeks before Winter Break again.
My mom called back morning of the 8th.

I'm never present when anything happens.

And due to this trip, I couldn't do anything with my friends over Break.

This will sound selfish, and I know I'll be reprimanded in some way, but... I still can't help but feel this way...
Was it worth attending one major ceremony across the ocean at the cost of missing the several opportunities to hang out with friends?

Distractions. Momentary happiness. Ignorance. Bliss.


]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/21738036/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/21738036/ Sat, 29 Nov 2008 20:18:32 PST I've been in Las Vegas since Wednesday.
And last night, I was able to watch the newest Cirque du Soleil starring Criss Angel.
CRISS ANGEL Believe.

Before the Show
We decided to take a little trip inside the souvenir store. I thought it was a little freaky since the first thing I saw were two giant pictures of Criss Angel..."||
But the merchandise there was nice. I wish everything wasn't so expensive though. There were several shirts I liked and the jewelry, admittedly, was nice. Mugs, caps, keychains, posters, pins, magnets, stuffed animal white rabbits... in the end, I settled for one T-shirt and two keychains, and those themselves totalled to a little over $50.."||

The Theatre
The walk towards the main theatre was interesting. The walls were lined with shifting images. A dead landscape for a creepy background, Criss and a white rabbit in the foreground. Criss as a puppet broken into seperate parts, Criss' rotting head, levitating legs, a demonic white rabbit; haunting images foreshadowing what is to be expected in the show?
The theatre itself was breathtakingly beautiful. The upper half of a gold frame extrudes from the stage, the sides lined with roses in circular frames. A clock is centered on top of the frame, its hands always stopping at 9 o'clock, despite being able to move, with a rabbit leaning above it. Two rabbits lie in hammocks to both sides of the clock, with two more rabbits at the corners of the frame bearing Criss Angel's insignia on gears. Further down the two sides of the frame are two rabbits who alternatively pull out a head (assumed to be Criss' head) out of top hats.
Behind the frame, it's almost as though the wall was broken down to reveal the stage. Ragged edges overrun with thorned vines.
The stage itself appears fairly traditional. Nice and wide, the back hidden with large, red velvet curtains.
For me, the entire theatre strongly reminded me of Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and the first chapter of Godchild. A murderous and vicious White Rabbit.
Over the stage hung dimly-lit oil lanterns, their visible rays barely reaching the audience below. Across the theatre, differnt colored lights are aimed at various angles, drowning the stage in an eerie lighting.
Studying the design of the theatre was enough to keep me occupied the whole time before the time the performance began. I wish I could've taken pictures of the stage...

The Performance
This is probably the darkest Cirque du Soleil I have ever seen.
Shifting settings through the use of various digital screens. A combination of magic and technology. Complicated costumes combined with hip-hop routines, something I haven't seen in previous Cirque du Soleil shows. Pyrotechnics and plenty of sparks.
I loved the costumes, especially for the Dolls: colorful, yet tattered. Their movements were very much like a puppet's.
And there were carnivorous rabbits... heheh...
Criss had several costume changes, but I don't have much to say on those. Well, some were actually kind of amusing.
I could've done well without the more, uh... sensual bits in the show thought..."||
Ah, I wish I had more to say about the actual show, but... everything kind of mixed together in my mind.

After the Show
I felt an entire mix of emotions.
On one hand, it was a wonderful performance. The dancing was interesting, the costumes as beautiful and elaborate as ever, as expected from Cirque du Soleil. Criss' acts and illusions were wonderful as well; it was certainly different to watch those in-person rather than on TV.
But on the other hand... maybe I'm just naïve, but I thought the show would be a perfect collaboration between the well known company and illusionist. However, I have to admit that I was a little disappointed; the show was more centered on Criss Angel, and the essence of Cirque du Soleil was often overshadowed when the illusionist was on stage.
I have to agree with some of the comments I heard from other people while walking out of the theatre. "All he does is disappear and reappear. I mean, it's cool and all, but show us something new already." There weren't too many of the dangerous illusions that I thought Criss was known for, but I suppose that was to be expected.

All in all, I think it was a great performance. I wish I can see it again~
I admit, I did yell a lot along with the crowd.
I think it was scarier to hear moms in the audience screaming though..."||
Criss even said in the beginning of the show after running through the aisles and being stopped by a woman and kissed on the cheek: "I'm getting molested by the audience!" What the hell man. XD
It's nice that he curses openly though. I lost count of how many times he said "Sh*t". XD
~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/21556060/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/21556060/ Tue, 18 Nov 2008 18:29:59 PST
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THREE QUESTIONS MEME

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
• Serena
• KuraiSakura
• Kurai

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
• Washed rice
• Ate chocolate
• Catch up on stuff on forums

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
• Height
• ...
• ...

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
• Figure
• Appearance in general
• Myself.

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
• Spiders
• Snakes
• Horror

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
• Navy blue sweatpants
• Black pajama top
• Grey hairband

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
• Cellphone
• Computer/Internet access
• Food

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
• Laptop
• Games
• Food

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/ARTISTS:
• I'm
• not
• sure.

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
• Play games
• Spend time alone
• Cosplay (in a group)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
• "I'm Alive!" -- BECCA
• "still doll" -- Wakeshima Kanon
• "Monochrome no Kiss" -- SID

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
• Karaoke
• Wear a wig
• Finish playing The World Ends With You (must.get.100%.)

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
• Not listening to the orthodontist
• Binging on pasta
• Wasting away in front of the computer

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
• Similar interests.
• Trust/Honesty
• Humor
[I'm assuming this is just about a relationship between friends.]

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'RE GIVING TO THE WORLD:
• Another person to hate.
• ...
• ...

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
• I saw a crane pick out a fish straight from my koi pond.
• There is actually a skirt I would be willing to wear.
• I work better when I'm under stress.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
• I don't pay much attention to this.
• ||
• ||

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
• I
• don't
• care.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
• Stay motivated for more than 2 hours
• Pull an all-nighter without blacking out for a few minutes
• Start on homework/projects early

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
• My dogs..."||
• Less responsibility
• More motivation

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
• The World Ends With You soundtracks
• Games~
• That one coat I saw on the h.NAOTO site. : D

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
• Family
• Friends
• ... anime..."||

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
• Puzzle games
• Piano
• Cosplay

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
• Play a Sherlock Holmes or the Dracula: Origins game
• Learn to play "Futatsu no Kodou to Akai Tsumi" or "still doll" on the piano
• Eat a hotdog... (I had a sudden craving when classes ended today)

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
• I've
• no
• idea. D:

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
• Japan
• Europe
• Egypt

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
• Death the Kid
• Sebastian Michaels
• Peta

THREE BOY’S NAMES:
• Acheron
• Criss
• Ceril

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
• Marie
• Sakura
• Isis

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
• Learn to cook/sew
• Follow through with my current manga idea (to some extent)
• Cosplay more~

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ OR DIE PAINFULLY:
•
•
•
Constance makes a good point here: retagging = less spam to go through~

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It was such a stressful weekend...
Darn the southern California fires..."||



]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/21393319/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/21393319/ Sat, 08 Nov 2008 18:28:56 PST
Anyway.
Tagged by both and .

Rules:
1. Post the rules
2. Answer each question truthfully
3. Tag 3-5 people at the end

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1. What was your first cosplay? (Think hard on this)
Haku from Naruto.

2. Did someone get you into cosplay? Or on your own?
A bit of both. I was joking that I could probably pull off just Haku's hair, then got behind me and pulled my hair up into a bun. Everything just kind of rolled from there...

3. What is your favourite cosplay?
Yuu Kanda (1st unifrom) from D.Gray-Man. I love having a (prop) sword in hand, and running in the exorcist coat is simply EPIC. XD

4. Which is your least favourite?
None?

5. At conventions, do people compliment you on your cosplays?
Urgh, the fangirls... orz"||
But yes~

6. How many have you done?
As previously mentioned, only two so far. Haku and Kanda.

7. What are the top 5 on your list of "Want to Cosplay"?
- Yuu Kanda (3rd uniform)
- Superbi Squalo
- Adult Viper
I don't know about the rest, since all my cosplays were suggested. D:

8. (Girls only) What female cosplay do you want to do most?
So far, none. No skirts/dresses please. D:

9. What male cosplay do you want to do most?
... not entirely sure about that...

10. What do you prefer to do, make or buy your costumes?
All I've done so far is buy costumes, since I can't sew for my life. But hopefully, I'll learn how to make my costumes...
Props are all I can handle right now. ^^"

11. Your most memorable experience? What makes it so memorable?
The D.Gray-Man group, hands down. Wonderful experience. : D
Could've done without getting attacked by that mob of fangirls though..."||

12. Your dream cosplay?
See answer to 9.

13. Is there a pattern in your cosplays? If so, what? (Things like they have a certain personality, or hair colour)
From the two I've done?! XD
Ergh... as much as I hate to say it... pretty boys... orz"||

14. Your most recent cosplay?
Yuu Kanda (1st uniform)

15. What do you prefer? Cosplaying in a group or on your own?
Both are alright. But it's more amusing to get stuck in a group.

NOW TAG SOME PEOPLE!
Whoever wants to do this...

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I found moths in the rice bin today. D:"||

Also, I think my mom's trying to get me into a relationship. She keeps asking if I've made any new male friends -- yes, she was being very specific. Then she asks if there were any that I'm particularly close with.

No. Not going to happen. +



]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/21342158/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/21342158/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 14:43:22 PST
[link]

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In other news, the elections are finally over.
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't at least content that Obama won.
But I honestly don't care in the end.

On the other hand. Prop 8.
I've lost what little faith I've had in Californians.
Though, the Exit Poll results were a little amusing...

I apologize for posting such a short journal.

Doom and gloom~


]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/21272794/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/21272794/ Sat, 01 Nov 2008 21:00:57 PDT
When and I first arrived, there was barely anyone there, but soon, poeple started showing up. I met a few aquaintances from the internet, and met the club members from the other college. and eventually showed up too. What's funny was I spotted their wigs while they were crossing the street (the bushes hid the rest of their bodies) and immediately thought it was them.

Events began with Mafia, followed by Whose Line Is It Anime and then a Scavenger Hunt. A lot of people played Mafia at once, so it was really amusing. Surprisingly, I remained until the second-to-last round after all my friends were killed or executed. The stories the narrators told were amusing too, and sometimes surprisingly ironic. Whose Line Was It Anime was great though. A lot of people are great with improv and all the responses were funny, though I could've done without most of the more disturing ones. My personal favorite was the Scavenger Hunt though, since as soon as the event started, all participating groups suddenly scattered throughout the park. What we found a little frustrating was the fact that some things we needed to find were present either before the event started or after the event ended. Example: we saw plenty of bicycles and dogs before and after the event, but there weren't any to be seen during the event. In the end, our group didn't win, but oh well.

The final hour was left open for photo ops. It felt a little like AX all over again, but it was fun nonetheless. Lots of crack pictures. Plenty of crack pictures.

The park rangers and other park visitors were surprisingly nice.

The weather was very strange though. There were times when there were several drops of rain, but the skies would be very bright. And even when the skies clouded over (which happened often), nothing would happen. Well, not until everyone started to leave. It started pouring suddenly as we left the park, so we had to run back to the car.
Ah, wonderful rain~
I saw a very long lightning strike on the way home. It was amazing~

All in all, I had a really great time, despite burning in the exorcist coat and getting hit by rain.
Now, I'm simply half-dead and sore; it's a little difficult to walk without my legs deciding to give out halfway. I'd like to sleep, but I don't really want to now either...

I don't know if I will upload any pictures (especially considering I didn't take any). I've been a lazy bum lately... orz"||

Oh, right. Happy Belated Halloween. I hope everyone had a good time yesterday.

I'm sorry that I'm only capable of typing in short, simple sentences right now..."||



]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/21133172/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/21133172/ Thu, 23 Oct 2008 22:06:17 PDT
Today, during geology, the teacher was lecturing about how plates move and form faults and the different kind of faults. He gave an example of how one type of volcanic rock is seperated along a fault line after millions of years. Then someone asked how fast the plate moved. Here's where the math began.

So the volcanic rock is seperated by a total of 350 kilometers over a period of 5 million years.
The teacher went on to explain how to convert 350 kilometers to meters then to millimeters because, surprisingly (to me), some people in the class didn't know or forgot how. The teacher drew this weird diagram, emphasized several times that 1,000 meters equals 1 kilometer, and then came to the conclusion that 350 km = 3,500 m = 3,500,000 mm. And he used that calculation for the entire problem.
My OCD kicked in.

Ivy and I were snickering in the back the whole time, but as much as I wanted to say something about it to the teacher (no one else seemed to notice ._."), I didn't do anything except bite my thumb. I got a little restless, but the whole thing was amusing.
[Conclusion]: My will to remain unnoticed in class is greater than my will to correct a math problem.

No one else in the class seemed to notice the error. Or, if they did, they didn't say anything about it. Which is also possible. I heard quite a bit of laughing from the other side of the back too.

At the end of the lecture, the teacher told us about an earthquake along a fault where no human died. The only casualty was a lizard that got hit by a rock thrown into the air. XD
No, Leon! *shot*

Let's see...
Tomorrow, I'm going on a pseudo-field trip to the Getty Museum with the rest of the people in the freshmen-only program at school, along with and .
Looking forward to it~

I had my bangs trimmed the other day.
I'm not happy with the results.

And now, I'll leave you all with a random phrase that will hopefully make more sense in the future:
Puppet Chess.



]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/20979124/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/20979124/ Tue, 14 Oct 2008 00:06:18 PDT Seriously.
...

Ahaha, anywho, sorry for my absence. I've done absolutely nothing productive since... I forget.
So... here's a few updates on my life. *shot*

School's started. College is... not has hard as I first imagined... at least when there's no work to be done.
Midterms are this week though. So I'm screwed. : D

I've been practicing the piano again~ I bought a piano book that has a transcribed version of the Canon in D Major, so I'm slowly learning that.
On top of that, I also got the Dream Chronicles game and its sequel. Inspiration for art~

Speaking of games, I also bought The World Ends With You, my second DS game. So addicting, and the music is wonderful. I want the OSTs now. D:

I got a laptop. : D
My parents took away its internet access. D:

Cosplay, cosplay~ several plans for cosplaying, but I'll be sticking to Kanda for a while.
I started, binged, and caught up to the Katekyo Hitman Reborn! manga~ But now I don't know what to read.
Squalo... do I really want to cosplay as him? His "VOOOIIIIII!!!!" is just too epic for me...

----ON TO THE CRACK AND EPIC FAIL----

Would you believe and I are just working on our geology term paper that's due tomorrow? Something about volcanoes... grawr...
All this because we didn't want to go on a field trip.

But.
Here's a bit of our conversation at the height of our... er... "hyper phase"? I swear, we're not on any drugs...

sugoi (11:36:53 PM): O YEA ESSAY
sugoi (11:36:55 PM): OTLlll
sakura (11:37:26 PM): XD
sugoi (11:39:01 PM): SO CLOSE TO THIRD PAGE
sugoi (11:39:04 PM): OFF BY ONE LINE
sugoi (11:39:05 PM): OTLlll
sakura (11:39:08 PM): SAME
sugoi (11:39:11 PM): ROFL
sugoi (11:39:15 PM): WHY ARE WE SO DOOMED
sakura (11:39:28 PM): BECAUSE ESSAYS ABOUT ROCKS ARE BORING
sakura (11:39:30 PM): *WALLED*
sugoi (11:39:37 PM): AGREED (MOUNTAINED)
sugoi (11:39:42 PM): PUN NO INTENDED
sakura (11:39:42 PM): oh god XD
sugoi (11:39:44 PM): (SHOT)
sugoi (11:39:48 PM): NOT*
sakura (11:39:52 PM): that's what I was hoping XD
sugoi (11:39:56 PM): hahha Xd
sugoi (11:39:57 PM): XD (
sakura (11:40:05 PM): we might as well add "VOLCANOED" now XD
sakura (11:40:10 PM): *machine gunned*
sugoi (11:40:13 PM): I WAS ABOUT TO XDDDDDD
sakura (11:40:16 PM): XD
sakura (11:40:21 PM): oh god
sakura (11:40:27 PM): next time we stay up late to write an essay
sakura (11:40:39 PM): I'mgoing to try to count how many times we died XD
sugoi (11:40:45 PM): OK XDDD
sugoi (11:40:50 PM): death meter XD
sakura (11:42:03 PM): REACHED 3RD PAGE
sugoi (11:42:06 PM): SAME
sugoi (11:42:09 PM): ROFL WHAT THE HELL
sugoi (11:42:16 PM): WE EVEN REACH A GOAL AT THE SAME TIME
sakura (11:42:18 PM): 2 lines XD
sakura (11:42:20 PM): ahaha XD
sugoi (11:42:22 PM): ROFLROFL SAME
sakura (11:42:25 PM): WHAT XD
sakura (11:42:27 PM): WTF
sugoi (11:42:28 PM): I SWEAR
sugoi (11:42:29 PM): XDDDD
sakura (11:42:34 PM): WHAT IS THIS?! XD
sugoi (11:42:40 PM): THIS IS MADNESS
sakura (11:42:45 PM): I WAS GOING TO SAY THAT XD
sugoi (11:42:47 PM): (SLAUGHTERED)
sugoi (11:42:48 PM): WHAT
sugoi (11:42:49 PM): A;DSHFA;URGFAW
sugoi (11:42:54 PM): ROFLROFLROFLROFL
sakura (11:43:48 PM): study: the two idiots think and act alike when they both are pressed to finish a term paper last minute and when it's close to midnight
sakura (11:43:53 PM): *machine gunned*
sugoi (11:44:03 PM): YES
sugoi (11:44:04 PM): XDD
sakura (11:44:28 PM): aww man, this needs to be journaled XD
sugoi (11:44:37 PM): agreed XD
sugoi (11:44:48 PM): there's something going on here XD
sakura (11:45:00 PM): it's going to break soon though XD
sakura (11:45:01 PM): ah well
sakura (11:45:07 PM): wow, this is pitiful
sakura (11:45:11 PM): my first journal in forever
sakura (11:45:22 PM): and it's about our crack-filled moments of EPIC FAIL
sakura (11:45:24 PM): *shot*
sugoi (11:45:43 PM): ROFL REALLY!? XD
sugoi (11:45:47 PM): YAY XD

The pseudo-excitement kind of died down by now.
I don't care about the essay anymore.

I might eventually upload the random little doodles on my notes to scraps when I'm not lazy enough to do so.

Please expect an announement regarding the 100 Themes Collab between me and Ivy in the future.

I opened up Photoshop and realized I forgot how to do a lot of stuff...

Cold weather is lovely~

I can't think straight anym... ]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/19715039/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/19715039/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 09:03:36 PDT Written by
Please read and pass the news around.

"I am begging you to read this, it will explain the last journal and also warn so this won't happen to YOU.

!jere1234 IS !Caeruleum IS !kyakuchuu.

This man is most likely a serial killer or sexual predator of some sort. Deviant art staff is handling this for me right now. The man originally added me as Jere1234 and then he notified me that he would be switching to Caeruleum. He asked that I add him. Thinking he was just some nice man who liked my artwork I said "Sure, why not?" On this account he began writing some poems about and TO my girlfriend Kayla, and I. I began to find this odd but being an overly naive and trusting person I was polite about it, commented the poems, thanked him, so on. He wrote a poem about a lifestyle choice that I thought he spent alot of time critisizing for being different than his own and I believe I posted a comment as simple as "Gosh, what have you got against that, anyhow?" The man literally flipped out. He not only wrote two journal entries condemning me and calling me things between immature and evil, but he also sent me notes telling me how "disappointed" he was with me. A man that I don't know in real life, have only talked to online for a few days, is "disappointed with me." He blocked me, and I blocked him back.

Not long after I began to get several favorites and then a watch from the account !kyakuchuu. I noticed the similar style of poetry and similar interests but I hate people who make assumptions and I'd rather not be one of them, so I just figured it was another poet with similar interests. "Kyakuchuu" soon after began calling Kayla and I "muses" and writing poems about us as well. 2KL he called them-- and informed me that this meant "To Kayla and Ellie" There is a numerous list of them in his gallery. He favorited absolutely every work of mine with Kayla in it along side of me and also any of my pictures that showed my feet. (foot fetishist, obsessive personality: bad sign) He wrote me notes telling of his extensive admiration for Kayla and I, his plans for other poems about us, thanking me for being his "inspiration". All of this seemed very creepy, but I was always thinking, what if this is really just some eccentric old man minding his own business, and he just hasn't got anything better to do. I would hate to just hurt some innocent old man by lashing out at him for no reason. HOWEVER upon talking to Kayla about this, she has taken criminal justice classes. She said that many of these traits sounded like BAD traits and BAD signs. She told me about a type of serial killer called "collecters" Who will collect information, pictures, anything about their subjects, and obsess over them, for a long time before they make any move. She told me that alot of the time these men will be too smart for their own good and seem kind of innocent but mostly very mysterious. I have never let on in this site where I live as far as I know, all of my friends sites that are nearbye me say they live in different places (Luxembourg, Canada, UK, anywhere...) and I was afraid that the longer I spoke to him and tried to be polite because I wasn't sure, the longer I had to slip up somehow and for him to figure out where I live if this was truly his intent.

Well hopefully DA will do something about this, no more little girls need to be preyed upon from the comfort of their own homes. I am not a stupid girl, just too naive. Now that I started investigating it further I have found that this is DEFINITELY the same man, seeing as his first site has some of the same poems that are placed on the second site, and the second site has NUMEROUS poems that are placed on the site he is using now, !kyakuchuu. Some under a different name, but nonetheless, the same poems. That in itself should be grounds enough for being banned from the website. That's more than harassment, that's online stalking.

IF THIS MAN CONTACTS YOU DO NOT SPEAK TO HIM
please I am begging you, complain to DA so they will do something

Pass this around please."

According to another friend, this guy has two more accounts: ~OnlyStockings and ~sama555

I wish for everyone's well-being...



]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/19242460/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/19242460/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 20:18:16 PDT So now I guess it's time for my break down of events. Apologies in advance for the long journal..."|| And I've decided to make reading this journal more excruciating by typing a single "paragraph" for each day. Am I considerate or what? *shot*

Preparations

came over to my house on July 1st to help me with my prop Mugen for the Kanda cosplay. We managed to saw off most of the excess wood and, after an entire afternoon of carving out the middle of the handle, glued the three planks together. Surprisingly, all-purpose wood works very well (I thought it would be weaker..."). The plank with the blade did accidentally snap once, so that was a pain to glue back together..."|| We didn't dare try to use the nasty jig saw on the glued-together "sword" so we left it alone. It had a whole lot of excess wood left over. We weren't able to carve out the blade when all the planks were glued together. The handles had some excess wood on the sides, and there was a sort of an extra handle at the bottom (to make up for the blade-plank's shortness) that made me feel like I was carrying a condensed version of Cloud's sword whenever I held the incomplete Mugen up by there. There was also some (frustrating) confusion regarding where my ordered Exorcist cloak would wind up.

Day 0

My mom took me in the morning to get my hair chemically straightened. Then I got a call from Linda saying she managed to pick up my Exorcist cloak so I knew what else I needed to bring. After some last-minute packing, Ivy came over in the afternoon and my mom took us over to the hotel where we were staying at. Everyone else had already gone down to the convention center to pick up their badges, and we couldn't get into the hotel room because neither of us was registered with the hotel, so we practically acted like hobos outside of the room and waited for the others to come back to let us in. I got a look at the Exorcist cloak, and was pleased to find that it fit very well. Ivy and I then left to pick up our badges (a wonderfully fast process this year, I'm happy to say). Ivy and I then headed back to the hotel to pick up my incomplete Mugen and head over to a nearby Home Depot. I heard that they would saw wood for you, but apparently they didn't do precision cuts, so the walk to and back basically killed... around an hour of our time. I wound up buying to small hand "sanders" that I used as saws. No sleep that night for me. I kept sawing away the excess wood on Mugen (with some help, of course), and Linda worked on her blouse for her Road Camelot cosplay while everyone else fell asleep. I'm very surprised the sawing didn't keep them up all night.

Day 1

The big day. Everyone else left for the convention early, but Linda, Ivy and I stayed behind to finish our cosplays. Ivy and I managed to sand and paint Mugen while Linda finished up her blouse. We didn't leave for the convention until some time after 1 in the afternoon. After briefly running into , we met up with the two other people (Allen and Lenalee) in our D.Gray-Man cosplay group in the Exhibition Hall. Ivy, as Komui, was freakishly in character the entire time she cosplayed. There was also a time when a group of people suddenly attack-glomped Linda. I tried to get away, but they caught me and everyone else in the group as well; they also shouted out something that was very awkward to hear, so I'm not writing about that..."|| Later, Sonia (Allen), Caroline (Lenalee), and Linda wandered over to a Yaoi booth. Upon their return, Ivy (in character) shouted "Lenallee, why~?!" It was really loud, but so amusing. XD We also met up with "dot" () and went to eat some lunch at the café ourside of the Hall. We headed over to the D.Gray-Man Gathering that was located across a street. To get there, we didn't notice the stairs leading over the road, so we ran across the street. Then we saw a General Cross cosplayer on the other side of the road, and Sonia shouted at him to "pay off your debts!" There were a lot of cosplayers at the gathering and a lot of picture ideas as well. I tried my best to avoid the pairing shots, but somehow I got forced into one of them. It was funny because all of th... ]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/19156828/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/19156828/ Tue, 01 Jul 2008 23:42:30 PDT OFF THE ROAD!!

I just added to the population of female Asian drivers..."||

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See you in... I'm not sure..."||

It's Tuesday night right now. Tomorrow morning, my mom's taking me to get my hair chemically straightened; I already have bangs for my Kanda cosplay~

Eh... will be leaving in the afternoon for Los Angeles to get to the hotel with friends before picking up our badges. Then we'll head out to Little Tokyo at night for some last-minute cosplay adjustments/shopping. Then maybe we'll wreak some havoc... how fun...

It's final. I will be cosplaying as Kanda Yuu on Days 1, 2, and 4. Then I'll briefly cosplay as Haku on Day 3 (with my old mask, I decided).

came by today to help me make a Mugen. We have everything together, but I need to saw off the excess wood... I hope Home Depot can do that for me..."|| Then I need to sharpen the blade a bit and paint it. ^^

A recent conversation with regarding the D.Gray-Man cosplay group's lack of a Lavi kind of led to this:
-Heartless- If people ask your group where Lavi is, tell them you locked in him a closet.
-Me- D: Can't I just say I shoved him off a cliff instead? Trust me, I know how these fangirls think... stupid Linda..."||
-Heartless- D: Oh, yeah, say that. DX

I know I'll be meeting several internet friends there (like and ), so I'm excited (just keep the handcuffs away from me, Kyo-san D: ). Can't wait~

After returning home from AX on the 6th, I will be packing my bags for a trip back to Taiwan and a short visit to Japan starting on the 7th. I don't know the exact date of my return, but I know it's before August.

_{My dad just drank the last of the mango juice... D:}



]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/19057394/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/19057394/ Thu, 26 Jun 2008 12:54:04 PDT
Ah, I can't wait! Even though Anime Expo's in Los Angeles this year, but I'm excited/anxious all the same. Hopefully I'll run into some of you there~ Just look for a Kanda Yuu cosplayer walking around with a Komui Lee cosplayer (that'll be ). Unless it's Day 3. Then just look for a Haku cosplayer (maybe).

Ah speaking of cosplaying... I'm still missing some stuff..."||
For Kanda:
- Mugen (ergh.."||)
- Hair tie?
- Hair Extensions?
- Exorcist coat (ordered a long time ago... I'm worried that it'll get here the day before I leave...)
For Haku:
- Anbu mask (yes, I'm making it again)

Hopefully I'll get these things together soon~

I couldn't sleep last night. When I tried to sleep one time, I suddenly bolted up and jotted down an idea for making Mugen. Hopefully I can pull it off in less than a week... oh dear..."||

Went to the mall yesterday with my idiot little sister () and Ivy to find stuff for our cosplays. We took up most of the time painting Komui's mug. Stupid Yoshi...

I originally planned on buying another bokuto and sanding that down to katana size for Mugen. When we found the store that sold bokutos, we found two of them, except one of them turned out to be a real katana (with a really awesome dragon design on the sheath, I might add). I started handling the bokuto to get a feel of its weight, and the lady behind the counter kept staring at me. It was... very awkward. XD

In the end, I didn't buy anything as opposed to Ivy's giant bag of stuff. Who knew Komui's outfit would be so pricy? D:

Oh yeah, I was bored at some point, so I ran up a down escalator. Ivy and my sister got in on video so I'll try to get a hold of it. XD



]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/18633730/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/18633730/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 19:02:43 PDT
That's all I have to say.

-- KuraiSakura

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On another note... I got tagged...

Tagged by

End of School Year Survey!
(1) answer questions
(2) Tag 5 people

1) Well first of all - did you enjoy yourself, or would you rather this year not have happened?
... it could've been better if people would stop pestering me about the school dances.

2) When is/was your actual last day of school?
June... 10th is my last day in school, but the 12th is Graduation.

3) Exams - when are they, and do you think you're going to do well?
All done. XD
Did I do well? Pfft...

4) Did you have a crush on anyone of the opposite sex this year?
Nope.

5) How many detentions did you get, total? Lunch/cafeteria duties?
This year? None.

6) Did you fail any classes?
... does a 'D' in Physics count...?

7) Do you feel like you've become less close with a good friend?
... I refuse to speak on that matter.

8) Gotten closer with any friends?
I hang out with the same people everyday. Well... do new underclassmen friends count?

9) About how many times do you think you've been grounded?
None.

10) Most embarrassing time of the whole year?
Uh... when everyone saw the Senior Pictures or something... I hate pictures... -_-

11) Do you think next year will be able to top this year?
...

12) How old were you at this point last year?
Let's see, I'm 17 now so... 16.

13) Which one of your teachers disliked you the most?
The French teacher, probably. I slacked off a lot in the class.

14) Which one do you dislike the most?
See above.

15) Any cool vacations during the year?
Not really. Well, besides the "Winter Retreat" thing with , not really.

16) Did you change your hair color at all?
Nope.

17) Gotten any surgeries?
Nope.

18) Did you get into any fights?
I don't think so... then again, my memory's kind of shot at the moment.

19) Did you do anything you regret now?
*cough*

20) Did you go to any fairs/carnivals? One at your own school?
Uh... I don't think they would could as "fairs" or "carnivals"...

21) Are you going to go to the same school next year?
Super Senior! Ahaha- no.

22) Did you meet someone that you actually cannot stand?
Don't even get me started on that. -_-

23) Hugged someone at least once a week?
Nope.

24) Lost feelings for a person?
... in what sense?

25) Favorite class?
ROP Animation: slack off everyday and still get away with an 'A'. XD

26) Least favorite class?
French... why the hell did I even continue it this year?!

27) Was there that one senior that all the underclassmen girls seemed to don't know?
"All"? That's... hard to say...

28) Did you loooove him too?
1. Don't love.
2. No.

29) How much do you think you spent on clothes this year? Did you really need them?
Pfft... if you're asking how much of my money I spent, none. I hate clothes shopping...

30) Did you do something this year that you've never done before?
Uh... senior activities... and the Tech Fair... ugh..."||

Feel free to do the tag. I'm to lazy to tag people...

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/18418034/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/18418034/ Tue, 20 May 2008 15:57:03 PDT
To add to that:

You know someone's going to the Expo when...

you see a car stalking the bus.

Which I was very tempted to do when I was driving yesterday. XD *bricked*

That aside, how is everyone? I'm starting to feel a little happier... er... to some extent anyway.

In other news, I think my French class thinks I'm heartless or something. ^^"
The whole conversation was kind of amusing though...



Teacher: Serena, what did you think?
Me: Eh? ...

Teacher: Did you like the film?
Me: Uh... no...
Teacher: Why not?
Me: Oh... well, in general, I don't really like romance films.
Teacher: And why not?
Me: Because I don't really like romances...?

Teacher: Really?!
Me: Yeah.

Classmate: Wait, so... do you dislike romances or romance films?
Me: Both.


*rereading what I typed* ... it was a lot more amusing in person... oh well.
Oh, and all that was a rough translation since everyone was speaking in French..."|| (translation: we had to speak in French)
I originally wanted to say "no comment" when asked for my opinion, but I didn't know how to say that. XD

My friends are trying to get me to go the school's Prom. I honestly don't see what the big deal is; I mean, isn't it just another dance...? Oh no, wait, it's not just another dance. To me, it looks like a big, overpriced dance. -_-"||
"But it's a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity!" Bullsh*t. There are students who go both their Junior and Senior years, and others who go to their school's Prom and another school's Prom. No, it's not "once-in-a-lifetime."

I'll happily rot away in front of the computer screen this Saturday night, thank you. ^^+
-- KuraiSakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/18280995/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/18280995/ Sun, 11 May 2008 21:08:07 PDT idiot person joined deviantART months ago but didn't do anything until today. And I know that last sentence sounded mean, but I can't help it; it's a habit. ^^"

Anywho, please stop by and say a short "Hello" to my puny younger sister.


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... I got tagged... again... this time by .

* 1. Post these rules.
* 2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
* 3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
* 4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
* 5. No tag-backs.

1. I was finally stumped by a puzzle game trial (darn you, Sherlock Holmes).
2. I've been very sleepy lately...
3. I'm beginning to dislike these "8 Facts" tags...
4. My room's been untidy since it got painted back in August.
5. I want to continue playing MMORPGS...
6. I've currently lost the motivation to play the piano.
7. Looking forward to Anime Expo~
8. Senioritis + Expo Anticipation = doubly screwed for the rest of school

Tags... go ahead and do this if you want to. Then again, I don't think many people will bother doing this again.

Have a nice life.
-- KuraiSakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/18202450/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/18202450/ Tue, 06 May 2008 19:15:48 PDT
9th Card of the Major Arcana, Haegl: Destruction. Transformation.

How... ironic? But wait.

Two zodiac signs associated with this card: Leo. Leo.

... I'm a Leo... should I be worried?

Cards that have fallen out of place will have an important effect on the overall reading.

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Tagged by:

Your Mission; you should accept it, and you better follow these rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person should post 8 facts of themselves.
3. Tagged people should write a journal\blog about these facts.
4. In the end tag and name 8 people.
5. Go to their dA pages and comment saying that they are tagged. (You can't tag the one who tagged you)

{1} I find it very tempting to start up and play an MMORPG right now...
{2} My chocolate cravings have been replaced by sashimi cravings.
{3} I've "big" plans for the future... too bad I don't know what to do.
{4} The first YouTube video I show up in has me flipping off the camera. XD
{5} I'm still a little unsure about the Kanda cosplay...
{6} I've done absolutely nothing in my ROP Animation class and I somehow still have an A. ._."
{7} I should be studying for my AP Calculus exam tomorrow...
{8} ... I have no idea what to say...

Tagged:
[1]
[2]
[3]
[4]
[5]
[6]
[7]
[8]

Were those even facts?! *shot*
8 is too many people... it took me a while to choose. XD

Anywho, how've you all been?
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17996815/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17996815/ Wed, 23 Apr 2008 18:37:55 PDT
Other than that...

College
My parents finally agreed to let me go to the same college as . ^^ Of course, that also means I'll be going with . And then we can take trips across the street to my high school to visit the no-longer-underclassmen there. *cough~dotluvrcough*

Anime Expo
Plans are being finalized. A hotel room's been secured; now all that's left is the cosplay issue.
I've decided that if I can get the outfit together in time, then I will cosplay as Kanda. Of course, I'll still be Haku for the Naruto gathering, but I guess I'll alternate costumes everyday or something...
Also: and another friend (who ditched her dA account years ago...) have a table at the Artist's Alley this year. I told them if they sold a hat, I'll wear it around the convention as advertisement, but... no guarantees though, my friends. ^^" (I'm still wary about you two strapping me to the table...)

Summer
Apart from Anime Expo...
Again, my parents thought it would be brilliant to plan a trip without my knowing. The plans?
Making another trip to Japan with my currently-learning-Japanese parents and meeting up with my sister who will be on a student trip there. Then we'll fly back to Taiwan for a bit and, supposedly, one of my dad's friends will be able to implant some sort of chip into my Japanese Wii. If that happens, then I'll finally be able to play the games my grandma bought, maybe more. Will probably be back sometime in August..."||

... I think my parents already decided on what car they're getting me when if I drive... They were talking about it this morning, but I understood nothing. XD

I think people hate me today or something... I was surprise-/tackle-glomped four times today..."||
Okay, that's not really being "mean," but I... don't really like hugs, so it was mean to me. XD *bricked*

So how is everyone? Looking forward to summer?
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17840875/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17840875/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 22:54:53 PDT
Oh, and to top it all off: it's fairly cool in Utah (call me crazy, but even with the snow, I didn't think it was that cold), but it's friggin' burning here in California. It's almost like Nature decided to attempt to kill me with two weather extremes. Yeah, that didn't make much sense, so let me put it this way:
Over the last few days, the temperatures of the places I stayed at were very different. I went from a 44-degree area back to my currently-over-100-degree home. That's almost 7 degrees to over 37 degrees for you Celsius users.

Aside from that... I'm kind of getting back into anime. ^^" My sister made me watch the first episode of Tokyo Mew Mew the other day, just to "see how much better it is than the dub." I think part of my mind rotted from the shoujo-ness..."||
After that, I was like: "Must counter cuteness with gunshots..." *watches Trigun*
Gun fights are fun to watch; the blood was an extra. I'm back to my normal, usually-apathetic self now. ^^

Ugh, school starts tomorrow..."||

Ah, I visited the campuses of two prospective colleges I have to choose between for next semester. I can't say I actually want to go to one more than the other because of personal interest, but currently, I'm leaning more towards the larger school since was finally accepted there. Congrats, my friend; I'm very happy for you. ^^
My mom was making a big deal out of it though: "Smaller class sizes are good! It's a smaller community so people know everyone better! Oh, but this one offers more majors too!"
... How do you tell someone you don't really care...?

Oh, and to make my return all the more "lovelier"... I come home with the *belated* news that someone stole one of 's pics. Seriously, what's the point of stealing art?!
The Stolen Work: Lacus Clyne of Gundam Seed
The Original Work: Lacus Clyne: Guardian Angel

And to top everything off: I got tagged! ... Twice! *shot*

Tagged by

Rules:
1) To each letter of an alphabet write a word connected to you
2) Tag 6 People

A= Apathy
B= Bitterness
C= Confusion
D= Dreams
E= "Emo"
F= Fantasy
G= Games
H= Hatred
I= Imaginary
J= Jest
K= Knives (Ivy chose this one XD)
L= Laziness
M= Masks
N= Nuisances
O= Opposition
P= Pessimism
Q= Quiet
R= Rants
S= Slacker
T= Travels
U= Unheard
V= Violence
W= Wishes
X= X-ray
Y= Yelling
Z= Zero

Wow, am I positive or what? *bricked* Anywho...

Tagged by

Three favorite video game characters: (That's not fair! I don't play a lot of games!)
1. --
2. --
3. --

Three nicks you use:
1. Sakura
2. (more recently) Kurai
3.

Two true facts and a lie:
1. I have a hard time keeping promises.
2. I'm perfectly content with my life.
3. I have no idea what I want to do in the future.

Three things essential in your daily schedule:
1. Computer time
2. Food
3. Sleep

Three things you're wearing:
1. Pajama T-shirt
2. Sweatpants
3. ... A hair tie?

Three favorite bands: (... I don't pay attention to bands...)
1. --
2. --
3. --

Three favorite songs:
1. "Innocent Sorrow" - abingdon boys school
2. "D-technoLife" - UVERworld
3. "Alumina" - Nightmare

Three things you search for in a relationship:
1. Trust
2. Honesty
3. Understanding ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17500696/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17500696/ Mon, 24 Mar 2008 21:23:56 PDT
Okay, so my school recently had our International Culture Week. The Anime Club managed to sell out of Pocky and Calpico. ^^ During those 30-40 minutes in the sun, I also made a very strange discovery...

My skin got paler as I stood in the sun. ._."

Which is basically when two of my friends ran over to me and asked me to be their Kanda cosplayer for their D.Grey-Man cosplay group for AX this summer. I don't know if I should go for it~ XD

I still want to cosplay as Haku for one last time, and I also want to cosplay as Kanda... but the problem is the bangs..."||
Not to mention my hair isn't as long as Kanda's... and my hair isn't blue... and I don't think I'm tall enough to be Kanda (I heard the Allen cosplayer is only one or two inches shorter than me?) and... *continues to list excuses aspects of the cosplay*
*head-desk*

Okay, I'm going to go back to... uh... not doing homework. XD
_{Kidding, kidding... maybe...}

I had something else to say, but... I can't think about it now. XD

So... that's about it for now~
-- Sakura

Who plans on going to AX this year?!

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17401505/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17401505/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 19:47:43 PDT
Er, I finished the avatar I mentioned two journals or so ago. Didn't turn out quite the way I wanted it to, but it'll have to do. I'll upload the larger version some other time (maybe).

My mom's going back to Taiwan for a few days to vote in the presidential elections there. A very important election, I've heard, especially considering how corrupt the current president it...

*head-desk*

Okay, and now for a mini rant.

I'm starting to get back into roleplaying on Gaia. But... is it just me, or is the quality of the roleplays there rapidly decreasing? I'm not saying that because I'm such a wonderful roleplayer. Believe me, I could still use a lot of improvement.
But... everytime I find a roleplay with an interesting storyline and whatnot, I find that it's overrun with people who can't seem to write consistently (i.e. character personality, for two sentences. Oh, and the Mary Sues... yeah, I'll leave it at that.
Another pet peeve of mine... character pictures.
"Appearance: (pics or descriptions)"
Okay, that's fine, I suppose.
Well, that kind of bugs me too, especially when people are given the option of describing their characters. I understand laziness. I also understand that not everyone can and/or is willing to draw.
What I don't understand is why people always take a random anime pic they find online and say "This is what my character looks like" (it's worse when people use well known anime character [i.e. InuYasha, Allen Walker, any Naruto or Bleach character, etc.] and say that is how their characters look like). I can't help but think of how the original artist might feel towards this: after spending who-knows-how-long working on a picture of a character he/she took time to create, then, in less than five minutes, someone else takes that picture and states that is how the latter's character looks like.
I felt more annoyed when I found one of *shilin's wonderful works taken and the character profile changed.
I've also seen the same pic used over twenty times. So what? There are clones of some characters wandering around an imaginary world? If they try to describe their characters (or attempt to draw their own pics), then at least they'll be one step closer to being original, right? I just don't see why people can't write a simple description of what their characters look like...

Feel free to call me a hypocrite or whatever. I know I'm being a b*tch right now.

*shot*
-- KuraiSakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17229347/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17229347/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 18:25:14 PST
I can't wait until tomorrow... *head-desk*
First time meeting an internet friend...
~Misaki-no-inu, ~Kima-san, and Kyo-san's friends... Let's have an enjoyable time tomorrow~ ^^

Ah... regarding the tag from yesterday:
I remembered what else I wanted to say, so here are two more facts... things...
- I wish I had a more boysih figure. It would certainly make cosplaying a lot easier...
- I've been told countless times that I could be a Las Vegas card dealer.

Just thought that last one was a little funny... an alumni friend even said he saw some machines that deal slower than me, but I'm hoping that's an exaggeration... I don't deal cards that fast..."||

Okay, back to working on that new avatar... trying to figure out how to color the hair...

Oh yeah! This chocolate hype is getting worse...
Let's see... I had chocolate mint frozen yogurt with M&M's today... followed by two helpings of chocolate mousse..."|| *head-desk*

*pounding fists on table repeatedly*
Ahaha, yeah, sorry about this pointless journal. ^^"
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17214581/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17214581/ Thu, 06 Mar 2008 18:15:48 PST
So! What's been going on? The same sh*t as usual.

Actually, I've gotten several strange comments lately..."||
Like... I was called "adorably morbid" by one of my friend's friends.

*getting excited* Okay, so, finally... I'll be able to go to Disneyland with and finally meet and her friends. I remember when the first meeting was planned about two montsh ago... stupid lying weather reports..."||

Hmm... oh yes, the tag. Tagged by . (Didn't I do this one already?! ._.")

Rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person should post 8 personal facts of themselves.
3. Tagged people should write a Journal\Blog about these facts.
4. In the end, tag and name 8 more people.
5. Go to their dA pages and comment saying that they are tagged and hugged.

1. My mom forced me into getting a haircut on Sunday. It will never be this straight ever again... and I'm worried it won't grow back come AX 08..."||
2. If you didn't notice, I don't have a very steady hand when it comes to taking pictures. XD
3. On the topic of AX... I've decided this will be the last time I cosplay as Haku. Redundancy = not good.
4. I've been on a chocolate hype since early February..."||
5. Almost done with my internship!
6. Looking up what other characters a voice actor was casted as can ruin my image of certain characters. XD
7. Apparently some people pick on my in RPs because they like seeing me/my character get angry or freak out..."||
8. It's strange that I thought of so many things to say when I wasn't tagged, but now that it's come to it, I'm sorry you had to read all this sh*t. XD

And I tag... no one. Because that would mean more updates for me, and I'm a lazy bum. ^^

Have a nice life.
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17150424/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17150424/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 14:08:06 PST
Anywho, I've practically lost a lot of, if not all, motivation to do anything lately. I don't know why, but that's just what I've felt like recently...

Also...
I've gotten interested in another shoujo series... Kin Iro no Koruda or La Corda d'Oro.
It's strange how anime can make anything seem more interesting. I've a renewed interest in classical music now and want to continue playing the piano now, with real classical music. The violin and flute seem interesting too... but then this is a stupid otaku talking here.
It's weird... I honestly have no idea why I like this series so much... to the point where I want to try the original game it was based off of...

*sighs* And just when I was starting to break away from the anime addiction... I suppose this current interest can only be matched by the one I had towards Yu-Gi-Oh!...
Now I'm not sure if anime makes me feel happier or more depressed than usual... reality sucks, doesn't it?

How often do you dream of a universe where everything is like an anime...? Even more, how often do you wish you could live in such a universe...?
Ah, what an unhealthy obsession this is...
-- KuraiSakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17063229/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/17063229/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 18:37:59 PST
Taken from: , , , and

→ Pick your birth month.
→ Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
→ Bold the best that apply to you.
→ Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months
→ Tag 5 people from your friends list.
(Strike out HTML: < strike > )


AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.


MONTHS:
JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teachand be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy.Quiet unless excited or tensed.Rather reserved.Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy.Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic . Loves to dream Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Sexy. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand cons... ]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16889194/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16889194/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 19:37:44 PST
I was actually in an okay mood in the morning until my French teacher decided to play several "romantic" songs on repeat..."||

Ahaha, well, did you all get flowers and chocolate and other candies? As far as I remember, all I got this year was a Fun Dip from ~dotluvr. XD

I think my friends knew not to give me a flower this year because I accidentally killed the only flower I got last year. Well... wait, was it an accident? I remember saying I wanted to kill it, but I decided to keep it until the end of the school day. But then I wound up using it to whack people with and then it snapped at the area where the stem meets the flower. It was one of those "Oh sh*t... oh well" moments. ^^"

Yeah, sorry about that. Didn't mean to put a damper on your spirits.

Back to homework.

-- KuraiSakura

For the record, I've completely given up on drawing a Valentine's picture considering my Chinese New Year one isn't finished either...
That's another resolution broken. ^^

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16776560/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16776560/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 20:19:27 PST
Hmm... I've only just realized that a majority of the sayings during Chinese New Year is comprised of, well... puns...

Ah, this is possibly another bad start for a new year. I wore read today for good luck, but kept with a black long-sleeve so I guess the luck just cancelled out.

Something bad happened at my internship today. There were only two workers there today: my counselor and the receptionist. My mentor wasn't there because she's on a trip, so there were only three people in the office today. And since the counselor had no other appointments until sometime in late afternoon. So the three of us were pretty spread out. I'm working on something my mentor had assigned me before she left, when suddenly I hear a "SH*T!" from the other side of the office.

Turns out the receptionist dude had accidentally cut himself. When the counselor and I ran over, I saw him clutching his hand, the blood trickling all over his hands and dripping on the carpet. The counselor and I ran around the office looking for a rag, and I found out that the office didn't even have a first-aid kit so the counselor ran next door to get help.

Someone came back with the counselor to help out a little while she called 911. Paramedics came over quickly and handled everything. And I, being a lowly intern, had no idea what to do so I wound up helping the receptionist grab his belongings. The paramedic wrapped his hand up, and I suppose everything was okay. From what I heard, he accidentally cut himself with a knife in the area between the thumb and index finger on his left hand.

Quite a few firsts for me there: first time being present during a "serious" accident, first time seeing how the whole "emergency" situation plays out, first time seeing that much blood in person. Strangely, that amount of blood doesn't bug me as much as I thought it would... then again, I did move enough to not see the gash in his hand when the paramedic helped him.

Got to leave early because the counselor offered to take him to a hospital, and no one would be in the office. Hmm... I should probably a little more worried for him, but as cold as this sounds, the whole accident doesn't bug me very much... the blood was strangely bright though...

----

Er, on another note that will hopefully not make you hurt me...

To make things a little more depressing, my mom told me this would probably be a bad year for me because the Rat is the Horse's "direct cross" in the Eastern Zodiac.

So, my fellow Horse-aligned friends... brace for more bad luck this year.

So... is it okay if I be pessimistic now?

-- KuraiSakura

* Still working on the picture... I can't draw rats..."||

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16697900/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16697900/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 21:39:49 PST
Ah, I apologize for the previous journal. I should stop posting all these "emo" journals, but if they somehow inspire a certain someone *stares at ------------* to write, then I'll just complain to her. XD

Feeling better now, though. ^^ Strange how a day of silence and 12+ hours of sleep can help relieve, er... can help someone feel better.

Hm... I should... probably start on all those pictures in the To-Do List soon... *head-desk*

Ahaha, what is this? I'm getting back into Yu-Gi-Oh! again. ._."||

... This morning, my mom called me "cold-blooded"...
-- KuraiSakura

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Weekly Update: 2 February 2008

Deadlines
- 7 February 2008
- 14 February 2008
- 1 April 2008

To-Do
* Chinese New Year picture --> 10%
* Valentine's Day picture --> 0%
* Contest Entry --> 0%
- Theme Collab 1--> 75%
- Theme Collab 2 --> 0%
- Theme Collab 3 --> 0%
- Theme Collab 4 --> 0%
- Ivy's picture 1 --> 50%
- Ivy's picture 2 --> 75%
- Kyo-san's picture --> 15%

Coming Soon
- New Year's picture
- random sketch(es)

Random Quote
(In the middle of a conversation about... I forget, but this was completely irrelevant) "I want cookies!" -- Sara

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16666161/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16666161/ Thu, 31 Jan 2008 21:21:24 PST
Hmm, perhaps I will simply shut my eyes and let these freezing fingertips tap across the keyboard. Here is a simple warning to you all: it is possible that I might have reached a breaking point. You do not have to read this, and, even more so, you do not have to comment. The only reason why I've written a journal is because I've no other output. Any journals I've ever owned are sitting in a drawer somewhere, most likely covered with dust. And my hands shake whenever I write... the scribbles the unsteady pencil produces are rather unsightly... but how is it that I can see when my own eyes are submerged in water?

Where did that beginning I thought of so long ago go? Why will it not ring in my ears now? How did it begin...? Ah, I think I know...

So... who am I, really?

Something let slip today. Its mouth opened and others joined in, their sharp words targetted at me. I remained silent, but I slowly came to realize a part of my current personality. "Why do you strike? You may not think much of it, but it leaves an imprint on others. Are you not aware of that? Why would you do such a thing?" I refuse to speak, but my mind was active, and it produced a reason.

Because I am sadistic. Yes, that's it... and if others will not suffer naturally, then I will act. Let some of that dark liquid in the sealed bottle flow out, let that strange sensation guide my actions. But what is happiness and enjoyment? Do I really laugh at others' suffering because I find it amusing? Do I simply laugh because I know others do so. Or is some demon trying to live its life through my body?

Apathy. Such a familiar acquaintance, almost bordering on companion. It offers such a comfortable mask to wear on a daily basis. A simple mask that takes a while to create, and yet, it lasts a long time and is nearly indestructable. Just a few layers of indifference with a touch of boredom. Fit it to a face, and wait several days. There, something to wear, to last a lifetime...

What is this? These are not the words I had thought of. Ah, and there they go, those fleeting words. These fingers twitch, anxious to create more words with a few taps. Well, here, type away... this may be the only purpose you ever serve... to turn these jumbled thoughts into legible words...

I do not hate the others, no... not hate... I dislike them. That's it. I merely dislike them. "Hate" is too strong of a word, yes...
And no. "Hate" may be too strong for them... but... I hate myself. If I repelled everything I've ever thought "weak," then let me see how strong this one is with such a strong word... "hate"... yes, that's it...

What was that saying? "Beware the green-eyed monster"? Yes, that's the one... Well... too late for that now. I already feel these irises changing, the poisonous aura seeping in. The fangs and claws? I do not recall when they started growing...

Have you ever imagined a perfect world? Have you felt that wonderful feeling, the one you get when something goes your way? But life is never like that. Everything's always against you. But then that feeling returns when something finally goes your way, and... and you're happy... Then you start changing, bit by bit. This is a bit of your perfect world. And intruders are not allowed. Never.

I've always been the possessive type, I admit. And there lies a tragic fault.

It feels nice to receive a title, especially if you consider the title above your own status. You try to live up to it as best you can. But... by working your way up, something must be destroyed. Equal exchange. Destruction to balance creation... Here is the creation of a new person, but... but what lies in the debris?

Remember that perfect world? That supposedly "perfect" aspect that finally came true? No intruders... none... too bad, because one came. I was given a title, and that made me happy. I tried to live up to it, as best I could. Then something else came, and quickly rose through and received the same title. And thus the monster was born. Possessiveness... a steady growth of negativity. Here those violent actions targetted themselves towards this intruder.

Jealousy and envy certainly go hand in hand... I am jealous that the title-giver and the intruder get along. I envy them for having similar interests... for having dreams...

... Maybe that's why I've refrained from using the phrase "best friend" for all these years... I am happy to be considered one by a long-time friend, and I happily call her one as well... but...... ]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16650335/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16650335/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 20:05:09 PST
We went to a frequently-visited-and-not-as-crowded-anymore-because-of-a-new-market Korean market. Nothing unusual at first; mom walked around looking for stuff while I slouched behind the cart. Then we hear some man's voice over the intercom, rambling away about something in Korean. I just dismissed it as nothing at first since I couldn't even understand what he was saying. Then when we walked to the front, we found the dude talking into a mic and standing in front of the oranges, with several people standing around him. Then he said something and everyone around the area suddenly lunged towards the oranges and started picking like crazy, my mom included. Turns out it was a limited-time sale thing. "One orange for one cent!" is what I think I heard. Anway, he kept talking while the people busied themselves, then he started to walk away. Everyone followed.

So, what happened was... the man continued the sale, walking around the market and choosing random items to put up for a limited-time sale. Where ever he went, at least ten people (all moms with the exception of one dad) followed. It was a little strange, but I just watched everyone scramble around. Let's see... I think he put mushrooms, tomatoes, apples, potatoes, fish, some sort of vegetable, and other things on sale. ... Never have I ever seen so many people buy so many onions at once..."||

Afterwards, he stopped in the middle area and started talking endlessly. I got the gist after a while. He was basically asking riddles or something to the people and whoever answered correctly first would get a free something or another. My mom was complaining that it wasn't fair because he only spoke in Korean so the non-Korean-speaking people in the area had absolutely zero chance of "winning" anything. Oh well.

I drank hot boba milk tea during the whole event and choked several times... Having my sides hurt everytime I cough isn't a very good sign, is it...?

Mood swings... my mood swings are getting a little worse... but I think I've found the trigger. Too bad I can't get rid of it...

Second semester's off to a bad start.

D*mmit...
-- KuraiSakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16587672/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16587672/ Sat, 26 Jan 2008 20:44:42 PST Second semester begins soon, but I'm not ready.

Started using the Tarot deck that ~dotluvr gave me on Christmas, but, apart from the Single Card Draw regarding my last day of finals, I've had nothing positive.

In a bit of a depression right now. I was originally going to write this long... thing, just to get everything out of my system, but I think I'll spare you all my, as a friend puts it... "emo-ness"... Besides, I might write it anyway in a few days, if I can't stand keeping it in.

Ah, I found out an uncle of mine in Taiwan had a chest tumor dangerously close to his heart, but it's been removed and he's recovering in the hospital now. Also found out that my dad has spinal disk hernia... kind of bad when I don't even know what's happening in my family..."||

I had a dream last night that I met an elementary/middle school friend. Losing contact with someone who opened your eyes to another world always sucks... but I feel so pathetic. In the dream... I couldn't even picture her face... just a blur...

Doesn't it just suck when you enter a period of paranoia; when you feel as though everyone and everything is out to get you? You start imagining that people think the worst of you... that no one really cares...
-- KuraiSakura

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Weekly Update: 26 January 2008

Deadlines
- 1 April 2008

To-Do
* Contest Entry --> 0%
- Theme Collab 1--> 75%
- Theme Collab 2 --> 0%
- Ivy's picture 1 --> 50%
- Ivy's picture 2 --> 75%
- Kyo-san's picture --> 15%

Coming Soon
- New Year's picture
- random sketch(es)

Random Quote
(Regarding my habit of over-using "*head-desk*" in chatrooms) "If you keep doing that, you'll get a crack in your head!XD" -- ~Misaki-no-inu / Ivy

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16449070/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16449070/ Thu, 17 Jan 2008 17:04:43 PST
My dog smashed her head into my mouth the other day. I bit into the inside of my lip so now there are four holes/blisters there... It hurts whenever I even talk..."||

Finals are coming up next week, so I might be inactive for that time. I seriously need to raise my grade in Calculus... my brain just won't take in any more information...

... I had something more meaningful to say, but it slipped my mind...

I have taken off the School and Home sections of my Weekly Update. A Deadlines section has been added and the To-Do list has been prioritized. Works-in-progress with an asterisk in front have been assigned deadlines.

In other words, if I don't meet the deadlines, you can forget I ever started them because I will most likely never finish. XD

That is all.
-- Sakura

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Weekly Update: 17 January 2008

Deadlines
- 20 January 2008
- 1 April 2008

To-Do
* Tutorial --> 25%
* Contest Entry --> 0%
- Theme Collab 1--> 75%
- Theme Collab 2 --> 0%
- Ivy's picture 1 --> 50%
- Ivy's picture 2 --> 75%

Coming Soon
- New Year's picture
- random sketch

Random Quote
(Subtitle)(Regarding mochi shaped like Taiyaki) "It's the ghost of the Taiyaki we just ate!" -- Matsumoto, Downtown no Gaki no Tsukai ya Arahende!!!

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16348116/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16348116/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 18:09:45 PST
Okay, regarding the "strange coincidence" thing: whenever I listen to my iPod now, I put it on Shuffle since I pretty much know the order off all the playlists and I don't like that for some reason. But sometimes, after I listen to a song early in the playlist, just as it's ending, I start thinking of another song and start playing that in my head. And wouldn't you know it, that's the exact next song on the shuffled playlist... This has happened around 10 times already. I don't know, it just seemed weird to me...

I apologize for taking up your inbox space with this worthless journal. XD
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16293533/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16293533/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 21:12:36 PST
The trip to Disneyland on the 5th didn't happen because ~Kima-san and her friends had a few problems during planning I think and my parents refused to take me and ~Misaki-no-inu because it was supposed to rain. And guess what? It didn't f*cking rain all day until nightfall... friggin' pissed me off...

I've been fooling around on Photoshop more than usual this last week though, so I guess that's okay...

Apologies. My extrememly negative mood is preventingme from thinking clearly... maybe I should just retreat to my room now...

I awoke from slumber one day and found rain outside... how fitting...
-- KuraiSakura

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Weekly Update: 6 January 2008

School
Nothing yet... oh boy..."||

Home
Nothing of much interest... except my sister just got in a lot of trouble... common sense issue, go figure. -_-
And... I'm a little pissed...

Plans
- 7 January 2008: Back to School... oh the joy...

To-Do
- Ivy's picture 1 --> 50%
- Ivy's picture 2 --> 75%
- Theme Collab 1--> 75%
- Theme Collab 2 --> 0%

Coming Soon
- New Year's picture
- random sketch

Random Quote
(Say "100" in English) "Ten, ten... ten ten ten ten ten ten ten ten." -- ... I forget his name..., Downtown no Gaki no Tsukai ya Arahende!!!

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16209949/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16209949/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 15:56:18 PST
I'm back from my trip. Uh, actually I was back two nights ago, but I got so caught up in a computer game and college apps yesterday. ^^" But I've already caught up to everything.

New Year's Resolutions
- Practice drawing
- Actually draw something when I say I will
- To be a little bit more optimistic
- Start a weekly or biweekly To-Do List

I'll write a journal about the Winter Retreat later (or just link to Ivy's if she posts one). The trip was... interesting... to say the least, but I still think Ivy and I didn't belong there.

My mom rented Fuurin Kazan yesterday, so there's 50 eps to watch. I've heard it was good (primarily from Gackt fangirls *coughHaku-sancough*) but I'll give it a shot. And if I don't watch the DVDs, then I'll just watch it when it's on TV. Then maybe I can watch some show with Tanaka and Endo next. XD

I'm happy with how the year's beginning. Wait... good beginning only means it'll get worse... so much for being more optimistic.

That's all for now. I'm working on a New Year's pic, so it might be up some time today.
-- Sakura

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Weekly Update: 1 January 2008

School
Ahaha, yeah right. Yay for vacation.

Home
Everything's... okay so far, surprisingly. I think my family'll be watching Fuurin Kazan for a while, so I don't have to worry about much.

Plans
... Make Saturday come sooner... I can't wait to go to Disneyland with and meet and her friends...

To-Do
- Ivy's picture 1 --> 50%
- Ivy's picture 2 --> 50%
- Theme Collab 1 --> 25%
- Theme Collab 2 --> 0%
- New Year's picture --> 25%

Random Quote
(Subtitle) "Tell me why-shy-thy." -- Matsumoto, Downtown no Gaki no Tsukai ya Arahende!!!

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16129596/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16129596/ Thu, 27 Dec 2007 20:06:34 PST Misaki-no-inu. I agree with her; packing sucks. -_-

Hoping there will be wireless internet up there so I can leech off of her laptop. XD
Not looking forward to skiing/snowboarding...

Why do people who arrange these events automatically assume everyone who's participating is excited?

So much stuff to do... I seriously have mixed feelings about this whole thing now...

See you all in three days~ *probably*
-- Sakura

Ahaha, I must be crazy for thinking this, but I'm bringing my Haku costume up there. If it isn't too cold (haha, funny... ¬_¬"||), then I might dress up and take a few pics in the snow. Maybe.

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16100619/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16100619/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 20:37:14 PST I hope everyone had a great day. So what'd you all get?

DeviantART Thank Yous
: a DeathNote T-shirt sized 'L' (I'm laughing on the inside XD)
: a traditional Tarot deck and Gaia game card
: a cookie and candy cane
: a Borders gift card
: an Advanced Photoshop Techniques magazine
: a cookie and meringues

Other Thank Yous
Sister: a T-shirt
Mom: Totoro puzzle clock
Hanna: Card Tricks and Games with Dice kit
Sara: chocolate
Elizabeth: cookies and chocolate
*I know I'm forgetting someone...*

Other Gifts
- Two Visa debit cards
- Starbucks gift card
- Handbag

... hmm... I'm wondering if I can scare little kids with the giant Ryuk on the DeathNote T-shirt Ivy gave me... ^^

I've done nothing but be a couch potato since school let out. Then I got dragged out on a 2-hour walk today. Wow, I'm unaccustomed to exercise..."||

Maybe I should start packing for the Winter Retreat with Ivy. Just three days left before we leave. I have mixed feelings about the whole experience...

I feel very inspired to start drawing like crazy again. There are so many ideas swimming around in my mind somewhere, but I just need to find the motivation... huh...

Will be finishing private college apps before Friday. Then all I'll have to do is wait to be rejected.

Ivy came over last night for dinner. I think we laughed off all the calories we consumed durng dinner by watching Gaki no Tsukai eps. I just love those Batsu games. XD

Ah, that's about it... back to Photoshopping and roleplaying on Gaia.

"Shikoku! Shikoku! Shikoku!"
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16045752/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/16045752/ Sat, 22 Dec 2007 14:58:22 PST
Plans:
- Calculus extra credit
- Get and read English project book
- Finish playing the games a friend lent to me

Places to Go:
- 28-30 December: Winter Retreat with ~Misaki-no-inu and a bunch of people I don't know
- 5 January: Go to Disneyland with ~Misaki-no-inu and meet ~Kima-san and her friends ^^

To-Do's:
~Practice~
- Sketching hands, feet, clothing and poses
- Painting
~Drawing~
-none-
~Coloring~
- Picture by Ivy 1
- Picture by Ivy 2
- Theme Collab with Ivy 1
- Theme Collab with Ivy 2

I desperately need the Calc extra credit... but it's two logic puzzles, so I'll have fun with those. ^^

I hope everyone will enjoy their break.
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15992955/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15992955/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 20:38:10 PST As my English teacher said: "Just because the universe knows there's only one week left of school, it decides to make time pass by slower."

But, Winter Break means more time to return to Photoshopping! I've been dying to get back... oh, and I can play more games! And... and... uh... sleep in... and... oh god, I can't think straight right now. *head-desk*

I'm practicing drawing hands right now... yeah, I know, super late... I like reading about drawing more than actually doing it half the time. -.-" Got to practice clothes and other stuff too. Vacation, vacation, vacation, vacation...

Friggin' A...

I'm looking forward to other stuff during vacation too. Possibly spending more time hanging out with ~Misaki-no-inu and I might get a chance to meet an internet friend too. ^^ *drumming fingers impatiently on desk*

I guess that's it for now. Sorry for wasting your time.

-- Sakura

My dad says I can order anything I want online for Christmas... at least that's how I interpretted it... hmm...

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15924761/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15924761/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 22:54:48 PST
And this will double as something to replace that long multi-tag post..."||

Something I remember I wanted to say last time: My awesome and sarcastic ROP teacher wound up quitting because the administration and two other period were pissing him off. November 30 was his last day so everyone in the class brought food and we had a little party. He found a job at some place that designs stuff for the military, so I hope he'll be successful and happier there. Naturally, everyone in the class spend the weekend a little worried since we had no idea who the new teacher would be. We go back on Monday, and theres some skinny dude with long red hair pulled back in a ponytail. He has us write a one page paper about why we took the class and who we are, to get to know us a little. Then everything goes back to normal for a few days. He finishes reading everyone's papers last week and starts to tell us about himself. We find out that he's only been with the ROP program for 6 months, and that this is his first full-time employment as a teacher (for now). When he asked if we wanted to know what he does for a living, no one responded, so he continued.

I think this is one of the few times you will ever hear a student say that s/he has a professional skateboarder who also plays in a band for a teacher. I was skeptical at first, but he showed us several pictures and some of the other students recognized him. And I think that's just f*cking awesome. XD

Moving on. Photoshop still doesn't like me, unfortunately. I need to fill out the private college applications. School's being a b*tch as usual. Went to watch the school play (Romeo and Juliet... eww...) with my friends last Friday. We hung out at the college across the street during the afternoon while waiting for the play. We planned on bowling at the alley there, but it was booked for a birthday party, so we played billiards instead. I learned how to play something new. XD

I saw Cyril Takayama on TV the other night! He was doing a short performance at, I guess you can say it was the Taiwan version of the Oscar Awards. But anyway, he did a really cool card trick and cracked a few jokes here and there too.

Been watching more Gaki no Tsukai lately. I absolutely love the punishment games. Matsumoto seems to be the most sadistic out of all five cast members, but I think he also gets the worst punishments. Pure amusement. I cheer for those sadistic Japanese minds. XD

Okay, got to get back to homework... but my hands are kind of frozen...
-- Sakura
24-Hour Tag! XD

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15924552/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15924552/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 22:26:19 PST
Tagged 27 November 2007
By

1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.
4. Feel free to go ahead and add some questions yourself!!

Characters I choose:
- Sakura
Okay, who saw that coming?

How old are you?
Sakura: ... I... am not sure.
I've only been using Sakura in Gaia Online RPs lately, so this, as well as the other answers, will relate to this fact. Her age varies depending on the age limits there and I like her to be one of the youngest characters. The most recent ages for her were somewhere between 15-17.

What's your height?
Sakura: 5'4".

Do you have any bad habits?
Sakura: Wandering where I should not be, fooling around with a dagger... my memory fails me at this point...
She's been a klutz, recently..."||

Are you a virgin?
Sakura: Yes.

Who's your mate/spouse?
Sakura: No one... the very thought disgusts me.

Do you have any kids?
Sakura: ... I despise children...

What's your favourite food?
Sakura: No preference.

What's your favourite ice cream flavor?
Sakura: No preference.

Have you killed anyone?
Sakura: ... No comment...
This also depends on the RP....

Do you hate anyone?
Sakura: I cannot say.
You know what? I'm just going to use a "*" to mean the response depends on the RP.

Have any secrets?
Sakura: ...
*

Do you love anyone?
Sakura: No. Never have, never will.

What is your job?
Sakura: ...
*

Boy or girl?
Sakura: Girl.

What do you do to relax?
Sakura: Read a long novel, sketch, paint, sharpen my abilities, wander around aimlessly...
This also depends on the RP...

What's the weirdest thing that happened to you?
Sakura: ...
* I can't pick out a single one weird event that's happened to her throughout all the RPs she's been in, but I can say that one particular GM really likes to pick on her, no matter which RP she's in. *shudders* -_-"||

Have you kissed anyone?
Sakura: No. Never will.

Ahaha, wasn't that pathetic? ^^" You can do this if you want...


Tagged 28 November 2007
By:

THE RULES:
1. Must answer all questions.
2. Be honest.
3. Tag 6 other people.

NAME: Serena

BIRTHPLACE: California

CURRENT LOCATION: In front of the computer, downstairs

EYE COLOR: Dark brown (black eyes don't exist...)

HAIR COLOR: I want to say black, but I've heard it has a blueish or brownish tint sometimes..."||

HEIGHT: 5'5"-5'6"

L/R HANDED: Right

THE SHOES YOU WORE TODAY: Tennis shoes

YOUR WEAKNESS: Low self-esteem?

YOUR PERFECT PIZZA: I don't eat pizza that much, but I like sausage and pineapple ^^"

GOAL TO ACHIEVE THIS YEAR: To get my head out of the gutter and start practicing with drawing (year's almost over though, so why bother? XD)

MOST OVERUSED PHRASE ON AN INSTANT MESSENGER: "..."

YOUR BEDTIME: 23:00 - 1:00

YOUR MOST MISSED MEMORY: It's hard to choose...

PEPSI OR COKE: Neither

McDONALDS OR BURGER KING: Neither

SINGLE OR GROUP DATES: Neither (and never)

LIPTON ICE TEA OR NESTEA: ... I don't really drink tea, but they're both okay...

CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: Depends on my mood

CAPPUCCINO OR COFFEE: I dislike them both

DO YOU SMOKE: Never

DO YOU SWEAR: Hell yeah

DO YOU SING: Yes, and very horribly too XD

DO YOU SHOWER DAILY: Of course

HAVE YOU BEEN IN LOVE: Never

DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED: No

DO YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF: Ahaha, absolutely not

DO YOU GET MOTION SICKNESS: Unfortunately... actually, it's kind of funny...

ARE YOU A HEALTH FREAK: Not really

DO YOU LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: Yes ^^

DO YOU PLAY AN INSTRUMENT: The piano (ooh, so original) but I might learn... ]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15883381/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15883381/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 20:29:42 PST Miss me? Of course not. ^^"

Uh, first of all... regarding the computer that crashed: there was absolutely no way of repairing it. Thankfully, my dad got it running for a few hours so I was able to save all of my files onto my USB flash drive. So yeah, for the past couple of months, the said flash drive was practically my life. So, in the mean time, I managed to get a really really really old computer (the one I type all my homework assignments on) to cooperate, and that was what I used to sign online to just chat with people.

Plus side: my parents went to Best Buy last weekend to "just look around for stuff" and scared the sh*t out of me when they came back with a brand spanking new computer, monitor, and speakers. I'm pretty happy with it. It's the the wide screen that I need to get used to now... but yeah... now I just need to upload everything from my flash drive and catch up on the stuff here (oh dear..."||) and then everything'll be okay... I think...

Uh, school... nothing much... same crap as usual... Halloween was really fun though. Christmas is coming up and I can't wait to see my friends make fools of themselves in the Elf Dance (no offense to said friends reading this).

What else, what else... jeez, I keep shivering now. I don't know if it's because I'm happy to be back or if I'm just cold... and my face has been unusually warm these past few days... it's bugging me.

Okay, well, I'll start going through everything here. I won't be commenting this time, just faving pieces that stand out to me, but I will read absolutely every description and journal you all have written. And I'll start working on those two 100 Themes pics as soon as I get Photoshop up and running again.

Ja-su for now.
-- Sakura

*My condolences, Haku-san. I'm so sorry about what happened... ;_;"||

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15245177/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15245177/ Sat, 27 Oct 2007 14:52:10 PDT
So yeah, all the stuff I worked on is now gone... It'll take a while before I get half the stuff that was originally on it.

I'm very sorry I haven't been active.

-- KuraiSakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15177627/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15177627/ Mon, 22 Oct 2007 17:49:19 PDT Then the warm wind blew from the southern horizon,
Bringing, with it, dark looming clouds of,
Neither cool droplets of heavenly water nor welcome shade from a scorching sun,
But suffocating ashes and a sickening stench of charred flora...
And all the while, the sun continued its path,
Reddening with each step, shining with a dull glow, almost triumphantly,
Burning red, reflecting the smooth movements of the deadly flames...

Way too many f*cking fires today... I can't stop coughing because of all the ashes in the air. I swear, California's ash is like Everest's snow... I just hope this dies down soon.

I'm actually getting pretty worried. First I heard there were only a few fires, then 13 or something. I really hope the fires will begin to die down soon. I'm not sure how long I can put up with all this sickening air. I heard someone at school fainted from it too.

Malibu got hit again, so that sucks... Lake Arrowhead's pretty much gone... makes me a little sad since I really liked that place even though I've never been there (the scenery's really beautiful). I think the news just reported that around 400 acres in Arrowhead were burned down, so, yeah...

Anywho, I'm sorry I wasn't active over the past few days. Ivy finally came to sleep over and, well, let's just say chaos ensued...
CHOC Walk was okay too, by the way. I think I scared a few people though... ^^"

Unfortunately, I won't be checking anything today. I'm actually going to crack down on my work tonight, because my quarter grade desperately needs it (whoo, failed my second Calc test).

Hope you all can breathe a lot better than I can...
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15122284/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/15122284/ Thu, 18 Oct 2007 22:03:37 PDT I swear I failed my Calc and Physics tests, and my progress report came in a few days ago, so I'm anxiously waiting for my parents to start ranting about how I "could do so much better" and "won't get accepted into colleges" and stuff..."||
Added to that, I'm taking the ACT soon and SAT IIs the week after... so I should probably be studying instead...

On the other hand, I really don't mind my internship so far... just basic office work, filing, creating spreadsheets... not that bad. ._."

Okay, so as for what I've been working on lately, and in order of progress (though final order has yet to be determined):
1. Moon picture
2. 100 Themes Challenge: Theme 1
3. Halloween picture
4. 100 Themes Challenge: Theme 2
Ahaha, and wouldn't you know it, they're all drawn by XD
I'll try to sneek some Photoshop time into my "study" time though, so I hope to finish these soon...

Yay, Ivy's sleeping over on Saturday since we're going to the CHOC Walk in Disneyland this Sunday. We'll spend all night playing online games, looking up random stuff, and watching sadistic Japanese game shows studying for the ACT, then pass out in the middle of the walk.

That's all for now, I suppose. I should get back to my Physics homework..."||

Ja-su
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14906280/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14906280/ Wed, 03 Oct 2007 22:29:56 PDT
2. New ID - ... I'm working on it...

3. Other colored pictures - like the one I showed you all before

4. Halloween picture - okay, okay, so it's just another drawn-by-someone-else-colored-by-me picture, but I thought it would fit

5. 100 THEMES CHALLENGE

Ahaha, to elaborate on that last one...
Remember how I planned on starting it way back in April or something? I have ideas for stuff, it's just that I've some trouble getting my thoughts down on paper. Also, I've been super lazy when it comes to my own pictures and I like coloring other people's works, so...

and I are doing a collab on the 100 themes. She'll be drawing the picture while I color. This way, we only have to do half the work. XD *lazy bum*
Don't worry, I'll attempt my own pics... eventually...

Introduction has been drawn. I will get to coloring it as soon as possible.

That's all for now~
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14877220/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14877220/ Mon, 01 Oct 2007 20:23:55 PDT [link]

Just a few notes to add to her account:
1. When we left Splash Mountain, I came out looking like the girl from The Ring and scared the crap out of the next few people in line. XD
2. Doing a Runic Tarot reading for others is fun, but it's so freakishly accurate sometimes, it's scary. ._."
3. If I ever get a chance, I will film Ivy's expression while she watched Cirque du Soleil; it's f*cking hilarious. XD

D*mmit, I missed my chance at eating the delicious pasta! ;_;"||
And, once again, another chance at meeting an internet friend has eluded me...

Happy October everyone. There's another picture I've been waiting to color that might serve to be a Halloween picture, so look forward to that.

I started my fall internship today. It wasn't too bad... just putting together binders and filing so far... if the times keep up, I should finish the internship at the end of February... yeesh, that's so far away...

I'm so screwed for life..."||
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14815360/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14815360/ Fri, 28 Sep 2007 19:18:19 PDT
I got to cosplay yesterday, but I'm not sure if I want to do it again... nah... besides, I already washed off the nail polish (even though my fingers are still a bit green...).

Remember that Axel cosplayer I talked about some time ago? Well she cosplayed as Vincent today. And it looked really cool. We asked her why she chose to cosplay and she just said she felt like it. Ahaha, she should live in Akihabara. XD
Oh, and one of her friends is the one with the Roxas jacket. And another of her friends is the other Haku cosplayer that I "met" over summer school. ^^

... They make me feel old... they're all freshmen..."||

I got accused of "not being a real ninja" too. XD That was funny...

Ah, upcoming news...

1. I got a fall internship, so I'll be on a little later every day now.

2. Don't kill me, I'm still working on that picture, but club stuff and homework and a club site to maintain get in the way...

3. I will be going to Disneyland on Sunday with . ^^ Actually, it's for my sister's birthday, but I'll just pretend it's my "well-deserved" break from school work. XD

Oh, and for those that were wondering about my last journal... I apologize, I was just being moody over college applications and the whole "finishing high school and moving on to college" thing..."||

-- Sakura

[EDIT]

Was the last day of Club Rush today, and guess what? It was raining! Well, sprinkling to be more exact, but stuff got wet nonetheless. XD

Hmm, let's see... I chose not to cosplay today after all... ~UchihaSae wore her Naruto sleeping cap and Konohagakure headband, ~Apocali cosplayed as Tobi, and Chase (I think he has a dA, but I don't know what it is) was Shino... minus the hair anyway. And I wore Chase's Uruhara Kisuke hat, so yeah, out of place much? ^^"

But it was fun. The other club that shared our table didn't come so we had the whole table to ourselves. Tobi actually went in front of the sign and danced the Macarena, which scared off our president. XD Poor Linda...

And being the idiot that I was, I used the umbrella my dad had me bring to, not keep myself or others dry, but to keep our bags on the ground dry. Ooh, so smart..."||

Oh! Remember that Vincent cosplay? She stopped by again and today, I think she was cosplaying as... Squall? I don't know, someone from Final Fantasy... *forgot*

Discovery! Shino does not have bugs living inside of him! In fact, he keeps them in his back pocket! And they're not bugs! They're plastic spiders from China! XD

I stole a spider and brought it Calculus and set it on the corner of my desk. Then the room was quiet as we worked on a sample problem and the teacher stalked up and down the aisles... I swear, he scares me..."||
But anyway, he saw the "spider" and ran to my desk and pounded it, scaring the sh*t out of me and several others in the process. Then he walks away and stares at it going "Oh no... it didn't die, oh no..."
... was kind of funny though... XD

But yeah. Final count for people who signed up for Anime Club: 140. ._."||
Ahaha, we'll just see how many actually show up...

Someone make Sunday come faster!
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14792989/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14792989/ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 21:11:32 PDT
I thank a friend for waking me up, pulling me, though indirectly, from a nonexistent state of mind. I thank the friend for indirectly slapping me, waking me up, helping me see everything that I've almost run out of time to do, showing me that I have to move, because if I don't, I will fall behind, and wind up walking the dusty worn-out trail that others have walked before me, leaving me far behind, lost with no signs.

And yet, I admit, I've felt jealous of something from time to time. Jealous of something that does not include, and may possibly never includ me. A small pang of annoyance pricking the back of my mind, sort of haunting me during a time of day, like a phantom behind me, looming, whispering...

But again, I feel lost... Time is of the essence, yet the bud of diligence has yet to bloom, cut off from motivation and inspiration by the laziness that binds me so, like a vine. It nails me to the present moment, minute, and second, weaving welcome illusions of a perfect paradise within my mind, making me believe everything will turn out well when I know it won't.

I need to stop, I really do... I need to breath fresh air, start anew, stand up and walk the straight path again. I need to move on, cut the strings tying me to what had happened, continue on and create each day with my own determination. But still the vine holds, tightens even, stubbornness and ignorance setting in, feeding it, helping it grow.

I need to stop, I really do... I need to get moving and working quickly, make haste, catch up. And yet... I cannot... and as the road slowly fades away before me, everything will disperse, vanish, and leave me in an empty abyss as a will slowly disappears. I should move on, forget, and move on more... and yet... I cannot...

-- KuraiSakura

And after months passed, rain finally came. But the ponds that so often dulled the bright reflections of the light could not hold the overflowing water, and thick streams ran down the hillside, emptying into an endless sea...

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14743729/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14743729/ Sat, 22 Sep 2007 12:56:30 PDT it's f*cking pouring! XD

Ahaha, alright, I'll get back to coloring a pic later.

Sorry I took up your inbox space with my mini celebration. ^^"

-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14706353/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14706353/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 19:12:18 PDT And it frickin' sucks...

But it does bring up some rather amusing conversations.

I'm chatting with at the moment.

>>Kurai Sakura<< says:
ARGH
>>Kurai Sakura<< says:
I hate colds -_-
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
haha
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
me too
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
you're sick right now?
>>Kurai Sakura<< says:
yeah
>>Kurai Sakura<< says:
stuffy nose and soar throat
>>Kurai Sakura<< says:
with a piercing headache in the morning
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
ouch
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
drink that chinese root beer with salt
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
it really workds
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
works*
>>Kurai Sakura<< says:
ahaha
>>Kurai Sakura<< says:
oh yeah, forgot about that
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
haha
>>Kurai Sakura<< says:
ah, well
>>Kurai Sakura<< says:
I need to get better by next week
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
how come?
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
club rush?
>>Kurai Sakura<< says:
yeah
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
ah
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
well, a sick Haku is pretty fun too XD
>>Kurai Sakura<< says:
XD
>>Kurai Sakura<< says:
"JOIN *cough* ANIME *hack* CLUB! *chokes*"
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
XD
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
"o my god! poor haku! i'll join!"
>>Kurai Sakura<< says:
ahaha
「#*-@☆ピポパポテレパシー☆@-*#」 says:
XD

Wow, we sound even more on crack when diseased...

-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14705150/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14705150/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 17:51:04 PDT
Anywho! I'm a little ticked off right now because I got a call yesterday and today from my school saying that I was absent from "more than one class" each day. I swear, I do drag myself to every class, despite how much I loathe it, and I do pay attention to crap. I don't even know which classes I was "absent" from, so I'm going to go clear off all the sh*t tomorrow.

As for the "sweet" part of my mood... these was from my ROP class. When you have a teacher and 15 students with nothing to do for one period in a room full of computers, random discussions tend to pop up rather often.

Example: The other day, a discussion went from a debate about superheroes to dramas to anime. I guess this one guy was annoyed by all the Naruto fillers so he's all "Naruto sucks" then he turns to me.
Him: "Don't you think Naruto sucks?"
Me: "... I cosplay as Haku..."
Him: "... Nevermind!"

Example: I forgot how this popped up, but the teacher started talking about bad jokes and came to this one he uses to describe marriage. Well, first he said his wife hated his example, so everyone wanted to know what it was. Basically, what he said was:
"Imagine you have a giant hand saw and are standing in the middle of the ocean. Now imagine you slowly hacking away at your legs; and this isn't even the worse part. You're standing in the ocean, in salt water, so how do you think that feels?! That's what marriage is like: a neverending pain!"
Everyone laughed... we're so naive. ^^"

Example: Okay, everyone completely burst out laughing at this one. So we were talking about a family room today because we'll be designing one tomorrow. So the teacher goes "So what's the purpose of a family room?" Random ideas, then someone says "To play games!" Then the teacher says "Alright, what kind of gaming console?" More random shouts: "Xbox 360," "PS2," "Game Cube," "Wii," "PS3," etc. The teacher chose one and says "Okay, the Wii. So you have your little Wii in there and--" At that point, everyone, including the teacher, burst out laughing.

If you don't get it, say it out loud and think like a Kindergartenner or small Elementary School student.

Ah well... that's about it for now...

Back to RolePlaying and homework...
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14609724/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14609724/ Wed, 12 Sep 2007 20:46:36 PDT ... with the exception of cosplaying of course. (Speaking of cosplaying, scroll down to the end.)

But yeah... mom dragged me to get my senior picture taken at some place. I kept telling her that we only need to pay $35 for the yearbook pic with no extras and that's it; I already hated the fact that I head to dress somewhat formally and crap and my dislike of photos didn't help either. But no, she was all "But I want to keep some pictures too!" and paid $135 for a package.

Package meaning submiting me to a half hour torture session. Eight to twelve f*cking poses, huge flashes blinding the hell out of me, and an obnoxious camera man who keeps telling me to "smile" and "tilt" my head to one side or "rotate" my body to another side. And all the while, my mom was standing there watching with some smug expression or something. I was this close to destroying the entire set. Mom was pretty upset at the end, but I'd think she'd realize by now that I can't exactly smile on cue, if ever... -_-"||

So, after the torture session, we went to Borders so I could get a few books. The fourth book of The Wheel of Time, a small journal I need for French, and The Iliad and The Odyssey. I'm supposed to read The Odyssey for English, but being the idiot I am, I decided to get both books in translated epic version. So yeah, three extremely thick books to add to my collection. And with The Lord of the Rings, I should have enough "light" reading every night to last... oh, I don't know, a few months to a year, maybe? Doesn't matter; I'm content. ^^ *curse my summer reading fest*

Oh, did I mention my mom was evil? I think she saw me eye the manga - excuse me, "Graphic Novel" -_- - section a lot, and she told me that there was a stand up front with something along the lines of "Buy 4, get 1 free" I think. Yes, it was there, I saw it, but I didn't go. Mom thought that was strange so she asks why I wasn't going to look and I told her I suspected she wouldn't let me buy any manga. After an awkward silence, she responded with a "Yeah..."

Okay, now for the cosplaying bit. I think there are quite a few cosplayers at my school now, and I'm happy. There was a girl dressed like a Japanese school girl, one with a Roxas shirt, and a girl who was kind of like Axel... without the hair, anyway. Whoo, can't wait until Halloween. ^^

That's about all... I'm in the process of coloring a pic and might scan a few of my classroom doodles, so look forward to those?

Ja-su~
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14563422/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14563422/ Sun, 09 Sep 2007 16:45:01 PDT
So yeah, I'm back from the forced trip to the mountains and will write about my experience there right after I get through all the messages. ^^

[Edit]

Okay, caught with everything, so here's what happened during the trip.

Brief notes: We went to Idyllwild; my dad said I went there for Astrocamp or something back in sixth grade. I thought we would only be there with my mom's friends' families, but no. It was an arranged get-together thing by the Buddhist temple she attends, so there were tons of people I did not know... totalling at around... 100 or more people?

Friday

I spent an hour or two after school to pack everything I thought I would need. In other words, I brought enough stuff to keep me locked inside the cabin for as long as possible, meaning homework, games, sketchbook, mom's laptop, etc.

It was supposed to be a two hour drive but traffic wouldn't allow that, so we arrived at around 19-20:00. My mom's friends' families were already eating dinner so we arrived a little late and ate while everyone else played with our dog. Went back to the cabin. Thankfully, there was a TV there, so I had something to do. Parents came back at around midnight and I discovered that the moths there were 2-3 times larger than those back here. End day.

Saturday

Forced awake early. Had breakfast with mom's friends' and company before our group went out on a two-hour or so hike. That, I didn't mind as much, but whatever. It was dusty, the insects were huge, we almost got lost... yeah... got back to the cabin, ate lunch with the others at a bigger cabin, returned to our cabin, did my math homework, then pulled out the laptop to play a few games for a couple of hours while Vincent (fellow TA from Chinese School) watched.

Let's see... oh. Everyone who attended this thing gathered to eat dinner together, some sang Karaoke, but I ran back to the cabin to watch TV and play more games... I hate social gatherings. -_-

Sunday

Woke up, packed up, ate breakfast with the others, returned to the cabin to play on the laptop more while everyone else had a water balloon toss thing; according to Vincent, "some old guys" won... huh... "Checked out," drove off with the others, stopped somewhere in town. All the moms went shopping while everyone else just waited in some area nearby.

Said good-bye to everyone (at least my parents did), left the Idyllwild with them before seperating, ate pre-made sandwiches at a rest stop, continued, and now I'm back... whoo...

So it wasn't completely bad... the TV helped me keep my sanity (sort of) and I didn't have to work as much. But now I've returned so it's back to the normal work-filled life...

... Now where's my homework...?
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14522053/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14522053/ Thu, 06 Sep 2007 19:19:35 PDT
First, the bathrooms in my house are being tiled, so there's dust everywhere and crap... again... -_-
These house slippers that my mom's making me wear hurt... even my Haku sandals are more comfortable than these..."||

On to main reason for this journal.

I'm being forced out on this huge "camping" trip thing my mom and her friends arranged. So three days out in the mountain, away from TV and internet... I think I'm going to die. At least we're taking the dog with us.

I'll be leaving tomorrow afternoon right after school and returning some time during or after Sunday afternoon, so I'll see you guys again at that time.

... I should do my homework...
-- Sakura

Note: Anyone have any line arts I can color?! ^^"||

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14518990/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14518990/ Sun, 09 Sep 2007 16:28:03 PDT MizunoMirai. ^^

Rules:
~Have three Deviations in your gallery.
~Do the feature in your own journal
~Feature me as one of the features please. (you don't have to)

First ten people to comment will be featured, so comment away! XD
(Okay, that sounded stupid...)

1. A great friend that I met on a roleplay site a few years ago. She uses mainly markers in her pics, a medium I myself am not too fond of, but she does a great job with them.
[link] The wings look amazing in this one, and the strokes of the markers flow well in the picture.
[link] My favorite character so far from her manga; I look forward to seeing the manga when she uploads it.
[link] Oh, did I mention that her cooking looks wonderfully delicious? XD
2. A real-life friend of mine; we've known each other for eleven years and counting.
[link] She may not think so, but her still life drawings (painting, in this case) are amazing. It almost looks like a professional artist's work.
[link] Despite the fact that she aspires to be a musician, I still say she can be a photographer one day.
[link] ... Oh come on, you can't say this isn't hilarious. Got to love her chibis' expressions. XD
3. An awesome artist and friend. It was especially difficult for me to single out only a few of her deviations, and I still hate the person who deleted her gallery.
[link] A nice perspective and an awesome character; I have to say the skeletal areas are my favorite parts. ^^
[link] Creativity with a scanner. Insert applause here.
[link] Back in the days of Yuugiou fandom, random stuff like this is bound to pop up and put a smile on everyone's faces... or in this case, make me double over in laughter until I fall off my chair. XD
4. A wonderful friend of mine here, as well as a great artist and writer, and I wish I can meet her at an AX sometime in the future.
[link] Her story, Inner Demons is a great read, but I've only put up the prologue so everyone can have a continuous read for several minutes or hours. She says there's a sequel and another story, so look forward to those as well.
[link] This is Kume, from Haku-san's story. To me, his expression is priceless, and the coloring looks great, especially for his hair.
[link] Her new hair style looks cool, but I still say she's ready to throw her pencil and eraser at some unsuspecting passer-by. XD
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The actual features will be posted a few days from now because
1. I'm sure it'll take quite a while for me to single out three deviations from you awesome people.
2. I will be posting another journal regarding the second reason.

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0. AP French IV: Ah fack... I effing hate the teacher, and I'm not really looking forward to speaking French for one whole hour every day, but I'll find some way to deal with it...

1. World Literature: I can't believe I'm saying this, but I think I'm actually looking forward to this semester. ._." We're doing the Illiad and Odyssey (spelling?) and Greek Mythology, and all this other crap I'm interested in. ^^

2. American Government: F*ck politics... that's all I have to say...

3. Physics: Ahaha, failed last year, kind of bothered by the grade, so being the idiot that I am, I decided to retake the first semester. Yay?

4. ROP - Architectural Desktop: I'm looking forward to this class actually. CAD was fun last year so I thought I'd give this a shot. The only thing that bugs me is that I'm the only girl in the entire class... seriously... wtf...

5. AP Calculus AB: Ah math... I have nothing to say about this, really. Oh, no, wait! For some unknown reason, I walk into the room and the first thing I see is a poster of Kaiba and two Blue Eyes White Dragons. XD I suppose it's good to see that the Yu-Gi-Oh! fandom has yet to die...? Don't know, but that made me happy. ^^"

No 6th period, so that's good for me; I get to come home early again. ^^

Jeez, I seriously swear that Freshmen get smaller and smaller every year... even the teachers say so.

Wow, homework already..."||
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14401752/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14401752/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 20:28:14 PDT <"||

Okay, on to what I really wanted to say.

My school year starts tomorrow. My room is fairly empty and, for now, organized, so that means I should start spending less time in front of the computer and online.

Should... yes...

We'll see how long that lasts. XD

Have a nice life...
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14340328/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14340328/ Sat, 25 Aug 2007 20:58:53 PDT
Tagged by ~kristinerose.

The rules:

1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more people are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged.

1. I wear my bed hair almost everywhere, mainly school.
2. My most recent dreams are formatted like an Anime. ._."
3. I don't know how, but Ivy managed to get me to watch HG videos. ;_;"||
4. I am completely addicted to computer games at the moment (puzzles, hidden objects, RPGs, simulation, you name it... sort of).
5. I plan on cosplaying as the Naruto Haku for as long as it takes for that bottle of nail polish to run out.
6. I was recently overwhelmed by the number of manga I bought.
7. I just got rid of about half the number of clothes I own... packing and unpacking sucks. -_-
8. I am a loser, so there really is no Fact #8. XD

And I tag... no one. ^^

Ack, got to go now. Ja-su~
-- Sakura

]]> ~Sakura-no-Tamashii http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14326237/ http://Sakura-no-Tamashii.deviantart.com/journal/14326237/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 21:55:50 PDT
The food there is f*cking delicious. XD
And it's not the typical Japanese cuisine either, more like a... Japanese twist to modern foods? ... Bad way to word it, but the food's pretty good, nonetheless. ^^
Looks like a pretty nice place to just hang out or something too.

To Ivy and all my other friends in real life, we are so going to UCC together sometime. XD

Okay, so my home's gone under some changes in the last few days.
MY ROOM HAS FINALLY BEEN PAINTED ANOTHER COLOR.

Which required me to clear all of my junk out of there, so it's like Moving Day all over again. Well, the packing and unpacking aspect of it anyway...

I'll get pics up of my room as soon as I'm done getting everything in order again. Then you can see how different it is from my old room... *shudders*

Good luck to my friends who have already started school/ will be starting school soon. Hope your year turns out better than mine.

... I swear I'm forgetting something..."||
-- Sakura

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