http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:SanguineAngel&section=today deviantART RSS for by:SanguineAngel en-us Copyright 2010, deviantART.com Thu, 29 Jul 2010 09:15:05 PDT deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/28777936/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/28777936/ Sun, 06 Dec 2009 00:38:17 PST
I'm currently looking for a permanent job. I injured my back at my last job and I've been on worker's comp for a while. It's all a bunch of bullshit and I'd rather be making a steady paycheck but I'm currently making a third of what I usually would on the clock. It's sad and it's actually hurting me a lot. So yeah...I'd love a new job and I may actually receive one first so...keep your fingers crossed.

Jedi Order is doing amazing and a new plot is starting! Come on in and see.

I started a Chaos Space Marine Army that's running extremely well so far. It's the Alpha Legion. I read the book Legion by Dan Abnett and found out that they're the only chaos army I could ever do, being as deep down they're still totally loyal to the Emperor, just in a different way than the rest of the Imperium. So far so good.

I'm living in a new house with new roommates, and my girlfriend. we got out of the last shithole because of a lot of drama and retards for roommates. The new roommates are friends though so it makes things a lot better. So far, so good as well.

BEST NEWS: I've got a job that isn't steady but will help. I've secured a job painting Warhammer, Flames of War, and Warmachine armies for a gentleman to sell in his store. He liked how I painted so he hired me on the spot. When he sells the army I get 70% of the take, which really really excites me. We'll se how it goes! wish me luck...I'll be posting the armies here!

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/24687524/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/24687524/ Sun, 10 May 2009 13:43:58 PDT
As evidenced by my actually writing this, I am not, in fact, dead. I'm alive and well here in Mesa, Arizona, with my ever loving girlfriend We're doing a lot of things that are awesome and stuff. IN fact last night I took her to her prom, which was very interesting. In fact, on the dance floor, I almost melted into a puddle. No, nothing really romantic happened, it was just that goddamn hot.

So yeah, out here I also found the Gamer store for me. Gamers' Inn. if you live in the Mesa/Gilbert/Chandler area, seriously come down and check it out. It's on Southern and Stapely, and it's awesome.

Aaaaand I saw Star Trek, and I must say HOLY FUCKING SHIT ON WHEAT TOAST DOING THE MACARINA! I haven't seen that good of a movie since The Dark Knight, seriously. It was amazing. The special effects, the allusions to the series ("God dammit Jim I'm a doctor not a physicist!" lol) and the goddamn acting. The actors were frigging perfect, and the crown seriously goes to the man playing James T. Kirk. He pulled it off perfectly, PERFECTLY. And second but extremely close goes to the man playing Spock. Once again, perfect, and the only reason the guy playing Kirk is ahead of him is that the guy playing Kirk just...meshed with it so well, like he was born there on that ship (much like his character was born on one). Anyway, enough of my rant, SEE IT.

Anyway, gonna go now. Things to do. Ciao.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/22657766/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/22657766/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 16:59:11 PST
So...life is pretty much hell. I'm trapped like a God Forsaken prisoner in a land of stupid people. I'm pretty much alone out here in my thinking and my aspirations, as apparently my parents are under the impression that I'm still just a stupid kid. It's coming to a head where I am so close to throwing punches at my step father that it's ridiculous. Work is actually somewhere I enjoy going to everyday, and I hate coming home at night. It's backwards, I know, but what am I going to do?

I'm moving in March, one way or another, and they're not going to stop me. No one is.

Anyway, in other news, A group of friends and I started a nice little roleplaying game called Dark Heresy, which takes place in the Warhammer 40,000 universe. You take the part of an Acolyte of the God Emperor's Inquisition....and the rest goes from there. It's an epic game, and we've had several epic moments, and several hilarious moments...but we rped for over 10 hours and didn't get bored once. Also...we drained two containers of Mountain Dew. It was epic...and when we went to dinner at Chili's last night we were all sugar high.
I crashed almost as soon as I got home.

Also, with Inauguration Tuesday coming up, I am closer and closer and closer to just throwing my hands up in utter despair. PEOPLE ARE SO STUPID! I swear to God, this whole election wouldn't fucking BOTHER me so badly if the people who are following Obama (And that's not everyone by the way, just a large majority) Seem to be just fawning over every word that comes out of that man's mouth! Barely, BARELY any of those people know what the man even stands for, let alone what his POLICIES are going to be! He's a Cultural Icon, and that's fine and dandy for them! Following someone BLINDLY and STUPIDLY is NOT the American dream people! It's frustrating in the nicest words I can say, and it outright bugs me to no end.

Speaking of nicest words...I'm so DONE with them. I will speak HOW and WHEN I choose. I will use WHATEVER words I choose and use them in whatever manner I see FIT to use them in. I'm done CENSORING myself because people don't want to hear those words, be they racial slurs or just outright cruel words. I'm tired of softening my speech when the favor is not returned, our outright just softening my speech because someone doesn't want to hear it. If I WANT to say it or feel the URGE to say it, I'm GOING to. This is the United States of America, and the First Amendment hasn't been taken from us yet, so God damn it all I'm going to say what the FUCK I want to.

You don't like what I have to say? You don't like the WORDS I use? You think the words I use are offensive and you hate them?

Deal with it. That's not my problem.

Nuff said.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21349975/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21349975/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 22:24:16 PST So this is how liberty dies; With thunderous applause....

So America has made its choice. They've chosen their president.

Notice how I say "Their" And "America."
I'm not associating myself with any of it. I'm done.

All of the morals I was raised on as a child are being thrown out the window by a culture I don't even recognize anymore. Our borders are being opened up when we can't afford it and a man who offered sandwiches to bums if they would vote for him has been elected president. Children are being murdered before they even exit the womb and people are voting for a president because of the color of his skin.

Fucking retarded or just morally wrong? Probably both.

I'm not saying Barack Obama is a bad man. Personally I think he has a lot of good ideas and a lot of good intentions for this country. Then again we all know what those pave the road to. However, the man has the tongue of the devil. He could convince the Pope to commit murder if he really wanted to, and it seems America fell for it.

I also find it funny that voting for Obama became a thing of so called "Black pride." Why should voting for a president have anything to do with race or ethnicity or culture? It's for the good of the entire nation,not just one group of people. On that note, why is it that yelling Black Pride or Brown Bride or what the fuck ever is considered honorable...

...but when I say I'm proud to be a white man? I'm racist. White Pride conjures images of the KKK and Aryan Brotherhood and all that shit, things I have no connection to whatsoever. It's racist to be proud of being white? What bullshit is that.

I'm so done with all of the hypocrisy associated with this country, so done with everyone pointing the finger at me for being Republican, because obviously I supported Bush (not). Oh fuck that.

I just want to know...why is it I must respect everyone else opinion, but the favor is not returned?

To round this off from my political rant, I want to say congratulations to the Black community on this significant event. Despite my misgivings about the man and many of the people voting for him, this is indeed a great historic event. We are moving forward...

And Prop 8 went through...it seems something I voted yes on actually won.

Cool.

And now, America, i turn this on you...and remember, I won't read any flaming comments to this. Respect my opinion and my right to speak it, or it will not be returned.

God guide us in the next four years.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21071489/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/21071489/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 21:39:46 PDT
Anyway, The week I spent was, of course, with my ever loving love Emilie. Eight days went by so fast that it's impossible to even think that it was indeed eight days. It didn't seem like it, then again it never does.

This time was greater than any of the ones that came before it. We did things together and took such huge steps forward that I never expected, one of which I will mention in a little while. The fun we had was amazing, going to the Zoo, the State Fair, Tombstone, and the like.

Starting the statements in a nutshell, my love is learning Warhammer 40,000, and she's playing the enigmatic Eldar. We found some great deals on models at an amazing hobby store in Gilbert, and got her a large sized Eldar army for cheap, not to mention the models I'd already purchased for her and painted. Ladies and gentlemen, I fear this girl when she finally has all the rules down and becomes experienced. I have played this game coming up on seven years and Miss George pulled me to a tie HER FIRST GAME, almost kicked my ass the second game (had I not charged I would have lost horribly but managed another tie) And the last game we played together she tied me as well. Out of four games I got one victory. She's scary good.

Also, on a personal note, something has come up. The Bishop side of my family, who I share the name with, live in Arizona, right near my love. We hadn't spoken in years because I always assumed they were on my Dad's side of the falling out he and I had, due to him claiming exactly that. On a whim I called them all up...and we met up. Turns out they've always, ALWAYS been on my side about the whole incident and have continuously given him HELL about it. We all met up for dinner, and we had a great time, and they absolutely love Emilie. My cousin has offered me a job in his company, a job that pays 11.50 an hour to START with no experience required. Also, to help this, Emilie's dad has offered me a room to rent at half what I'm paying now, with none of the restrictions I'm suffering now. To compound the greatness of this, a school I want to go to is very much nearby....and to make it all so good...Emilie is there in Arizona. If I do this, I never, ever have to say goodbye again.

Speaking of which, neither one of us cried today saying goodbye. For me it's because I am most likely going to say yes to this job opportunity, and because I know I'll be LIVING with her soon. There's no reason to cry when, inevitably we're going to be together again very soon. As Meat Loaf said "I know this loves' forever, I know no matter what."

And, to top this greatness all off...I had the single most important day of my life when I was out there.

On Sunday, October 12 in the year of our Lord 2008, I took Emilie to the Phoenix Zoo...
And there I proposed to her.
Emilie George said the two words that mean everything to me, the two words that are the greatest I've ever heard: "I will"

I am now engaged to the woman I love. We're going to be married. I can't describe how happy I am...

Anyway, I think I best wrap this up, I don't know what else to really say, and I'm really tired. Anyway, God bless.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20815989/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20815989/ Fri, 03 Oct 2008 20:56:53 PDT one year, one love...


Today, October 3rd, 2008 marks the one year anniversary of Emilie and mine's love relationship. Dear god above...it's been a year. I don't honestly know how it went by this fast; it seems like just yesterday I was shyly telling her I loved her. It seems like, just yesterday, she was telling me she loved me too.

This year has been full of ups and downs, sideways and longways and let's not forget the diagonal ways. I have had so many downers this year, so many times where I've just wanted to curl up and die or cry my eyes out...and then like a beacon of light shining and strong she's picked me back up again, with a word of loving encouragement or comfort. With a smile, or a kiss, she can take every fear or every insecurity and banish it like a flame to a cold room. Every time I've felt like falling, this girl had caught me and prevented me from hitting the ground face first. I can't imagine what this year would have been like without her...I can't think of anything without her now. If I ever lost her, if she ever left for any reason, I would cease to exist. I am that much devoted to her.

People ask me how I can stand a long distance relationship. How I can go through the pain and the misery of not being able to hold her. How I can fight the suspicions that she may be with someone else while I'm not there. Simple...I think of the times we have together. Yes, sometimes when I'm alone I want to hold her so bad I come close to crying, but I think of the future, when we won't have to leave each other ever again, and I smile. Some things are far worth waiting. It makes the time you have with them so much more sweet.

And as for her cheating on me? Anyone who knows this girl, and knows how we are together knows that it's sheerly preposterous.

Anyway...I will be gone the week of October 11 through the 19th. I will be with her, holding her, cuddling and doing other like things. I may pop in to say hi, but it will only be for a minute. Sorry guys...but that's how it has to be.

And honey...when you're reading this...know that to me you are everything and all I ever need. You are the reason my heart beats, the reason I wake up every morning and smile. You are my future and my life, always, and that will never change. I love you, my angel, and thank you for loving me.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20415957/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/20415957/ Tue, 09 Sep 2008 23:50:14 PDT
Not much to really update on. Life is going really great...work is good, I got a raise, which is very nice.

Omg...I was driving on Las Posas road, towards my friend's house on the Naval Base out here...mind you I've been driving for a year and a half, have a clean record and have been in no accidents whatsoever...and a California Highway Patrol car goes the other way on the two lane highway. I'm looking in my rearview when he flips a U-turn and comes barreling after me, sirens blazing. So I pull over, being a good citizen...and await. he walks up to me...and I'm slapped with a fix-it Ticket for...MY FUCKING WINDOW TINTING! It was ridiculous! I've had said tinting for a year and no one has said anything, not even the one cop before that I'd been pulled over by! I was forced to remove my tinting...get the ticket signed off...and pay 10 dollars to the government...I hate bored cops.

Anyway....A milestone doth approach. On October 3rd it will be Emilie and mine's first year together....the anniversary of it all. I am stoked...and it all felt like it went by so fast. it's been so nice...she's the apple in my eye...she's everything to me...I love her ^^. And now I stop rambling...

As it pertains to that...the week of October 11-19th I will be gone...I'm driving to Arizona once more to be with her for her fall break. so...don't expect me on as I won't be...I will be cuddling and lovvling and stuff.

Also...everyone wish me luck. I have entered a World Wide War...that is, a Warhammer 40,000 tournament that is being entered Globally...held in different places in different cities, and my friend happens to be the one holding it in this area. I'm sorry to say I can't pull out my best army, the Blood Angels III company...though I wish I could...because they are in a state of disrepair and the entire army must be rebuilt...so instead I've built a themed army. The Last Stand of Commander Madrix. yes, it's Codex: Space Marines. It's basically a group of Iron Snakes Space Marines who have been outnumbered and outgunned, fighting for months....and making thier final charge...when an unnatural fog covers the field...and the Legion of the Damned comes to aid them. Suffice to say this army has some tricks up its sleeve...;D

Anyway...can't think of anything else right now...so...toodles!

AND OMG GIVE ME MY DAMN PANCAKE

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/19581812/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/19581812/ Thu, 24 Jul 2008 22:51:59 PDT
Emilie's visit here went amazing...She and I are still very much in love, and will be for eternity. We're coming up on ten months now and there are no problems and no forseeable ones...yeah so I'm a romantic. Slap me, sue me, whatever...I still win. I love you hon.

As for my Warhammer life, I started Dark Eldar, supposedly one of the hardest armies to pull of correctly and win as....and in my first game I killed 46 Chaos Space marines and only lost Nine Dark Eldar...I think I must be playing them right...

As for work, we're starting our huge annual tent clearance sale tomorrow, which is essentially pulling everything that's not selling off the shelves, flooding the parking lot with a giant tent, and putting it out there on sale. That means yay, I'm working late hours and early hours, and I'll be exhausted every night because of dumb people and lots of work...did I mention I have to park three blocks away?

Anyway...the rest of my life is going great...I love eet...

Oh...and if you haven't seen The Dark Knight? Do so. You won't regret it. It's....it's like an orgasm: impossible to describe with words, but oh so nice.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18671906/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18671906/ Thu, 05 Jun 2008 00:05:18 PDT Doing it because...I'm...really...bored.



1) Single, Taken, or Crushing
Absolutely taken

2) Are you happy with that?
That's like asking if mooses live in Canada


3) Would you kiss your ex?
No. Never. At all.



4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes. Twice.


5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
Absolutely not, and burn in hell if you do.



6) Do you believe in love at first sight?
I believe in love at first spoken word.



7)Do you want kids?
Yes I do. I really do.


8) How Many?
It depends on how many she wants, but I think we're planning on 3.



9) If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?
Yes, so I can help them find someone else.


10) How do you feel about being with the same sex?
Absolutely not. I am totally against it. Totally, completely, against that.



11) Do you want someone you can't have?
Only if she's in the showerz and I cant get to herz because we is not ready for nakey times yet.


12) Have you fallen in love before?
I've never felt anything like this, so I don't know if what I was feeling was love or not



13) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Very much so, it's a symbol you cherish what you have


14) Do you believe you can change for someone?
I do, but I don't have to, and neither does she.


15) Have you ever broken a heart before?
...I have...and it's not something...I ever want to do again.

16) Does your ex still have feelings for you?
I have no clue.


17) Do you believe in long distance relationships?
In one. If anything, it's stronger.


18) Do you think any one of your friends will repost this?
I has no clue.


Anyway. In other news, things are going great. Me and Emilie just had our eight month demi-anniversary...yesterday. Eight months is a long time, and they say if you can last past six you've got it. So...here we are...and I can't see me going anywhere. Love you baby.

Speaking of which, and I am SO stoked for this, my babylove is coming out here June 14th through the 21st, so folks, I love you all but I will be GONE that week. I will return when she has gone home, and most likely not before then as I will be holding her, cuddling with her, disneylanding with her and the like. Anyway...I can't think of anything else to say so, ciao!

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18079629/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/18079629/ Mon, 28 Apr 2008 23:42:09 PDT >.

Anyway, Emilie and mine's seven is coming up, big day. And then, my wittle cuddlebutt has a birfdae this coming month. Yes, I'm getting her something. No you can't know what it is. Let's just say I only BOUGHT half of it....well....a quarter of it...counting work hours.

AAAANYYWAAAY.

She's coming out here soon. I is excited...my financial abilities right now are kind of crippled but I'll make due. Job is paying, I just went on a bit of a spending spree about....a month ago. Whoops. I'll survive.

Anyway, I think I've found what i really want to be in life. It's down to Pastor and this.

A Child Therapist. No. I'm not a Pedophile. I just...I love kids, and I love helping people...

A lot of times when I help someone I notice that the scars are too deep...that sometimes even though they can ignore them, they're still noticeable, and most of those scars started in childhood. If I can help those children that need it...give them love where they need it...perhaps I can help thier lives by giving them the strength to live happy lives without worrying about the pain hurting them from so long ago. If I can dry thier tears...I consider my mission done. Pastor or this...honestly give me your opinion.


Anyway, I think I'll go now. I don't really have much to do, baby isn't on and I'm kind of tired. I'll see you all laters.

And Em, I love you more than anything.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17804418/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17804418/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 23:22:58 PDT
]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17722231/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17722231/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 20:04:05 PDT
In other news not much is going on with me. Jedi Order has taken off like mad, and it's now a club on DA and is one of the largest privately owned chat rooms on Deviantart. So yeah...thanks to all people who've made that room what it is now, Lord-Fsan high on that list for all of the dedication he's put into it.

In other news I'm writing still, a new fanfiction I'm doing, details are sketchy right now.

Anyway, I can't think of anything else at this moment, so god bless you all, and Emilie: I love you.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17309437/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/17309437/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 22:42:30 PDT
My love's father said no to her coming out here to see me, which is purely understandable. He doesn't know me, and I can see where he's coming from...so I'm going to take the first step.

I'm going out there to see her.

I can't fly. I have a phobia of flying, I would be miserable and too scared to do so...so instead I'm taking a leap...I am driving out there this Saturday. A seven hour drive, the longest ever I've driven.

Needless to say I'm terrified...but it's a different sort of terror than the flying one, this one I can deal with...but still. I can get over this fear, because I promised her I would see her this Spring Break, and God above help me I will.

This event has somewhat caused friction in my family, as for the first time Ever I stood up to my Stepfather. He was bound and determined to talk me out of going and I shot him down, I wouldn't back down, I wouldn't be the puppet anymore, no giving in. I kept her face in my mind and kept at it...so I'm doing it.

I'm scared, but I'll do it for her, I'd do anything for her. So, I won't be on this coming week Saturday-Thursday. Please, everyone, say a prayer for me, and if something does happen to me, know I love you all, and that will never change.

Godspeed.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16778700/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16778700/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 01:02:40 PST
Anyway...my love tagged me...so here we go

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Robert
2. Batman
3. Jedi Bob

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. Sanguineangel
2. MalcadorSigilite
3. Achilleron

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
1. talked to Doggirlinu
2. talked to Doggirlinu
3. Talked to Doggirlinu

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Personality
2. Witty sense of humor (and downright smexyness )
3. Ability to mingle with anyone and everyone

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I'm sort of eccentric
2. Procrastination
3. It takes a lot to piss me off, but when you do...I go postal

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. German
2. English
3. Irish

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. Losing Emilie
2. Never getting married
3. Spiders

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. camo jammy pants
2. Amazing army arctic unit medic longsleeve jammy shirt
3. Not underwear (Yes I'm in army fatigue jammies and I'm going Commando XD]

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Emilie George
2. Carls' Junior
3. Emilie George

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. My promise ring.
2. Keys, definitely keys.
3. My computer.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Scorpions
2. The Eagles
3. Nightwish

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. Emilie George
2. Never fall in a Porta potty
3. Eat like a King, Dance like a fool

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Into The Night - Santana feat. Chad Kroeger
2. Music of the Night-Phantom of the Opera
3. You - Evanescence

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. See Emilie
2. Publish Whispers! Gaah!.
3. Kissing Em. No. I've never had my first kiss.

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
1. My last relationship
2. My relationship with my father.
3. My churches' intolerance of how I feel for my love.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Cheesecake.. Lots of it.
2. Plenty of rrrromance
3. Emilie George

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'VE GIVING TO THE WORLD:
1. Hope to some
2. Love
3. Understanding

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
1. I've never had my first kiss and I'm a virgin
2. I wanna be the best and coolest dad in my neighborhood.
3. I absolutely hate the Phantom of the Opera (big lie).

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. Everything Em has.
2. Good breast size, but not "OH MAH GOD I CANT WRAP MY ARMS AROUND YOU".
3. Her eyes. You can look into a woman's eyes and see how she feels...and that's truly a miracle.

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. Compassionate
2. Sense of humor
3. Will make a good mommy.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Ride a skateboard. Don't even get me to try again.
2. Draw. I phail.
3. Hula hoop.

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. Not working
2. Recess.
3. Those carefree days of Elementary School.

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. Emilie George. :3
2. An actual digital camera. Too damn expensive
3. Chillenz. <3

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
1. Hard-knock life~
2. Influential friends.
3. DNA

THREE OF YOU YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. Writing
2. Singing
3. Emilie George

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Get my ass to AZ
2. Emilie George*grintwocanplayatthatgameandit'strue*
3. PUBLISH WHISPERS.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Pastor
2. Psychologist
3. Combine the two above with Daddy

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
1. Japan
2. Romania
3. London

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
1. Alucard
2. Goku
3. Batman

THREE BOY’S NAMES:
1. Arthur
2. Hunter
3. Joshua

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
1. Aurora
2. Jessie
3. Autmn

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Marry Emilie George
2. Have children with Emilie George
3. Actually make myself known as a writer

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16710294/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16710294/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 16:07:57 PST
Let me tell you, I've never felt more alive. I feel so damn complete and so happy. I know I keep ranting about this, and most of you are probably tired of it, but I can't help it. I can't keep this feeling so internal, because I'm just fit to explode from how much I love her. She is everything to me, the star in my skies and the gentle caress of the wind on my cheek. I've gone past the point of being able to live without her, I love her too much.

I don't know what could have ever sent an angel like her my way, can't fathom why God should smile upon me so much as to send one of His miracles my way...but I won't look a gift horse in the eye. All I am will be given to her, is given to her, and will always be hers.

Emilie...I will spend forever showing you just how much I love you, and just how much I need you.

Happy 4th, my Angel

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16559576/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16559576/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 23:08:18 PST
Southern California is being hit by a freak storm. I live on the East End of town in Ventura and about 14 miles away from work at the Wharf, which is right next to the Ocean. Literally right there. This storm is amazing, thunder and lightning...rain to a degree that only people who live in Monsoon areas would understand the magnitude of it...

And ice. Ice storms. Yes, by the fucking ocean we had an ice storm. There was ice and slush COVERING the roads. Here in Ventura there's a two lane highway called Foothill Road that curls around in the hills behind the city, and you can see the entire valley. At night it gets ridiculously dark, as there are no streetlamps and very little houses...just hills...and drops. Tonight it was covered in ice.

I was driving along, enjoying the rain...as I love rain...and then it happened...I hit a patch of ice.

My car did a full 360 after I lost control, I don't know how many times I turned...all I know is I had no way to get it back. The only damn thing I thought about while I was turning like that...was the woman I love. One thought just flashed in my mind "Emilie...I'm sorry..." Then...something grabbed the wheel and straightened me...I know it sounds unbelievable, but something tore the wheel out of my hands and put me back straight on the path. Nobody had been coming the other way...and I was inches from the cliff into the hills. I believe God saved me...and trust me...he saved me.

I kept driving...just wanting to get home...but all the way home I thought about you baby...I wanted to call you and just cry, tell you how much I love you, tell you that even if something happens to me, that will never change...but I didn't want to scare you. Just know that baby...as I have to go out again tomorrow...and this storm is lasting seven days. I love you more than anything, and nothing is ever, ever going to change that.

To everyone else...to my sisters, Kanda, nizzie, dragon, solar, shona, kari, and all of you...just know I love you sisses...and even if something happens to me I'll be there with you.

To my friends, I know I can be an asshole sometimes...but I truly love you all...and I want you all to know that...

Emilie...even if something happens...I'll be with you...

But...I'm alive...and so I'll be thankful...

And baby...I love you...and we'll be together soon.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16215507/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/16215507/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 22:25:58 PST
It's so odd really...this year has been a very very painful one...but also...one of the happiest of my life. It also flew...I remember last year very clearly, I even remember taking down the Christmas tree last year...the times are speeding up...which is a good thing in many ways...less time to wait for the most signifigant question I'm ever going to ask in my life...

I've done a lot this past year that I'm ashamed of, things that I won't forgive myself for, for the longest time. I've hurt people deeply, rather directly or indirectly, and I hate doing that.

I've also become somewhat...stiff...and that's not my intention. It's not necessarily an angry stiff...just a tired worked-to-the-bone stiff. I'm very tired lately ladies and gentlemen, very sore...and i can get irritable. I'm so sorry. One of my resolutions is to change that.

However...to get off of the Emo topic there...this year has also been a miracle. I've met people I never want to stop knowing, and I've been helped through the most horrid times of my life by people I know truly care...my friends...and my beautiful love...

And to copy her journal here...speaking of her...we're going steady. We're coming up on our 3 month...a long time that's just flown by very quickly. I'm extremely happy with her...for the first time in my life I truly feel like a man...complete...I've had relationships before, where the romantic in me has gone stellar high...but this one is different...this time the rest of me has caught up with the romantic...all of me is dedicated and happy...and I want to spend eternity with her. 2008 is going to be the first of billions. I love you honey.

To the rest of you...happy new years my friends...and let's make it spectacular...we are the ones who can change this earth...

Let's all make the resolution now, that through love we can make it a place where our children will grow, holding each other's hands regardless of race, religion, or sex. God bless you all iin the coming year.

And Emilie...very....very soon...you'll be walking towards me.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15971486/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15971486/ Mon, 17 Dec 2007 10:48:17 PST
But for me we'll just say "Christmas". I swear to God above people get WAY to defensive and insulted about this stuff. Just the other day I said "Merry Christmas!" To a lady, and she turned her nose up at me, growled and said "I'm Jewish."
To this rather rude, in my opinion, statement, I replied "Jesus loves you anyway." And continued on my merry little way. Honestly people, if she had said "Happy Chaunnakah" I would have smiled and nodded, but for her to essentially say "Because I have another religion I'm going to completely scoff at your statement of goodwill."
Rather angers me, but oh well! Christmas spirit now returning.

At this time of the year more than any other time...even though Jesus was born sometime in mid july...but MOVING ON...

Anyway...it's time to reflect on the gifts we have, before we recieve. I am happy to announce I am in health, everything is going great and my girlfriend loves me. Everything is exactly where it should be...except that picture...it's kind of leaning *fixes*.

Speaking of my love, things are going great with us. We're really maturing with one another I think. At times it's so odd that at times we can be so kiddish and playful with each other, and then at other times so darn tender...loving. I am happy ladies and gentlemen. She deserves far more credit than I can give her, and far more than me. I love you honey, and Merry Christmas, you are what I want most, lots more than the stuff I am about to mention.

So now moving on to what the big fat guy in red is getting me; Warhammer stuff. Goodie.

...aaaand a brand new 2000 dollar laptop that's one of the best on the market currently...but I don't think about that one often.... I want it so baaad.

As for everything else, I love you all, and God bless you and yours on this very merry time of year.

And ...yes...Jedi are freaking amazing...

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15897120/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15897120/ Tue, 11 Dec 2007 22:34:30 PST
This is part one of the Batman film I'm doing...I"m Batman of course


[link]

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15828330/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15828330/ Thu, 06 Dec 2007 22:57:40 PST
I'm still head over heels madly in love with we're going steady and it's amazing...


Not much else to really report...lots and lots of emotional turmoil going on...but my friends and my baby are helping me through it...

OH

Whoever gets my 3000 pageview and posts a screenshot of it gets a poem.

Good hunting...only 4 pageviews left


...yeah I accidentally got my own 3000 so whoever gets 3010...gets a poem...

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15384477/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15384477/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 21:41:44 PST
Pausing to look back...

Lots of pain, things I would care never to remember...pain that almost ripped me asunder...and lights that brought me out of that darkness...

This year I met the girl I love......at first we were friends...and closeness grew until we became what we are now...and everyone saw it but us. Most freaky of all my MOM saw it...lol babe you remember that.

This year I met the man I want to be my Best Man at my wedding...the man who has never given up on me, even when I have. He and Em dragged me through the darkness, and I want the three of us to take on the odds forever. So, my brother and my best friend thank you. Moose.

I also met my sisters...the girls who I depend on as much as they depend on me...and I love each and every one of you with all of my heart

To my friends I have met here...you have made this year spectacular...thank you so much...Let's make this one even better...

And to my fellow Marauders, Padfoot and Prongs omg be on when I am! Graaagh.

To celebrate my one year...I am holding a contest. Everyone who can draw or write must draw a picture or write a poem about me...the person who wins I will write a poem about how I feel about them...

And hell everybody who participates I'll give something...

GLORY TO THE GOD EMPEROR OF MANKIND!

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15339177/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15339177/ Fri, 02 Nov 2007 23:05:50 PDT

We are so alike, so close, and I'm happy with her, happier than I've been in a long time. She completes me, and I can only hope that one day I'll be able to repay her for this. I love her, and if anybody should judge our love because of what we believe or how we believe, then they are fools.

I would be Excommunicated for this woman, because God is love...and in her I see Him, not in the church.

I love you honey.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15236207/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15236207/ Fri, 26 Oct 2007 22:14:00 PDT
Imagine a different world than what we grew up with...where instead of landing on a farm in Kansas, a space ship fell in the property of a billionaire and his wife, both of them infertile...imagine a world where this last son of Krypton wasn't Clark Kent...

But Bruce Wayne.

Imagine a world where this boy watched those he knew as his parents killed before him...in an alleyway known as Crime Alley...

Imagine the world's two greatest superheroes...

As one.

Look for "Batman: Unbreakable" Coming soon...

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15036065/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/15036065/ Fri, 12 Oct 2007 21:38:56 PDT Just close your eyes and describe it to me...
The heavens are sparkling with starlight tonight...
That's what I see through your eyes.
That's what I see through your eyes.
I see the heavens each time that you smile
I hear your heartbeat just go on for miles.
And suddenly I know just why life is worthwhile.
That's what I see through your eyes.
That's what I see through your eyes.

*both

Here in the night, I see the sun.
Here in the dark our two hearts are one.
It's out of our hands, we can't stop what we have begun.
And love just took me by surprise,
Looking through your eyes.

*both*

I see a night I wish could last forever.
I see a world we're meant to see together...
And it's so much more than I remember,
More than I remember
More than I have known.

*both*

Here in the night, I see the sun.
Here in the dark our two hearts are one.
It's out of our hands, we can't stop what we have begun.
And love just took me by surprise,
Looking through your eyes.

Looking through your eyes....


Yeah...my girlfriend said something about this song one night...and we both realized that it is DEAD on us...we were both like OO. Anyway...I just wanted to post this...so I can look at it every time I'm on DA

Love you sweetheart

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/14963863/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/14963863/ Sun, 07 Oct 2007 23:41:22 PDT [link]

I'm the guy on the right apparently ^^, girl I love is the one next to me.

Vi undrar r ni redo att vara med
Armarna upp nu ska ni f se
Kom igen
Vem som helst kan vara med

S rr p era ftter
Oa-a-a
Och vicka era hfter
O-la-la-la
Gr som vi
Till denna melodi

Dansa med oss
Klappa era hnder
Gr som vi gr
Ta ngra steg t vnster
Lyssna och lr
Missa inte chansen
Nu r vi hr med
Caramelldansen
O-o-oa-oa...

Det blir en sensation verallt frsts
P fester kommer alla att slppa loss
Kom igen
Nu tar vi stegen om igen

S rr p era ftter
Oa-a-a
Och vicka era hfter
O-la-la-la
Gr som vi
Till denna melodi

S kom och
Dansa med oss
Klappa era hnder
Gr som vi gr
Ta ngra steg t vnster
Lyssna och lr
Missa inte chansen
Nu r vi hr med
Caramelldansen

So...damn...amazing...I'm...in love...with...this song....

WHENEVER YOU FEEL SAD LISTEN TO IT

Oh yeah, and I got Halo 3, and I just want to say *ORGASM*

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/14924699/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/14924699/ Fri, 05 Oct 2007 09:54:36 PDT Let me be your freedom, let daylight dry your tears. I'm here,with you beside you, to guard you and to guide you.

say you'll love me every waking moment. Turn my head with talk of summertime. Say you'll need me with you now and always, promise me that all you say is true. That's all I ask of you

Let me be your shelter, let me be your light. You're safe, no one will find you. Your fears are far behind you...

All I want is freedom, a world with no more night, and you always beside me, to hold me and to hide me...

Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime. Let me lead you from your solitude. Share each day with me, each night, each morning, anywhere you go let me go too...Christine, that's all I ask of you.

Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime. Say the word and I will follow you.

(both) Share each day with me, each night, each morning...

say you love me...

You know I do...

(both) Love me, that's all I ask of you.


(both) Anywhere you go let me go too! Love me, that's all I ask of you...


Yeah...this is our song. *point* NO MAKE FUN OF! It's a beautiful love song okay! It's even more beautiful when written in Elvish! I AM A NERD LEAVE ME ALONE! *pout* It's like the only thing about Raoul I like. Yes I'm the Phantom, but I love her so HA.

Anyway...yeah...I just felt like posting it >>....aaaanyway...

AMAZING: GO TO THIS NOW! [link]

And as for the people who keep asking who she is...if she wants to let you know she will...so plz stop asking *headdesk*

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/14893154/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/14893154/ Wed, 03 Oct 2007 00:07:11 PDT
However...life has moved on. I love a girl now, pretty, intelligent, funny, all of the things that make a woman beautiful. Yes, here I go being a sentimental screw up again but I SHALL LIVE so what if I'm a freaking romantic?! I likes it. Feeling this way is to say the least, spectacular.

For some odd reasons my rooms are really filling up. DraculaLODRP is popular(shout out to all my friends there, you guys make the rp), the popularity rate of JediOrder has gone through the freaking roof (likewise).

As for Whispers in the Night, I am still looking for a publisher...havent found one yet because I haven't gotten off my lazy ass and tried...

And now the state of the union....we are all happy to find ou... OOO lookit a kitty

The Batman: The Line story is coming out great...if I could find the time to do more stuff ><.

Anyway...yeah...that's the news: I'm in love with an amazing girl, I'm a lazy son of a bitch, and yeah...

Oh btw, if anybody wants to see a vid of me in full Phantom Costume singing "The Phantom of the Opera" and "Music of the Night" in the next two months...well...it's gonna be on Youtube...omg somebody shoot me now.


AMAZING: GO TO THIS NOW! [link]

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/14698910/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/14698910/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 09:31:04 PDT
Tale as old as time...true as it can be...barely even friends; then somebody bends unexpectedly...

Just a little change, small to say the least! Both a little scared, neither one prepared, Beauty and the Beast.

Ever just the same....Ever a surprise, Ever as before, and Ever just as sure as the sun will rise.

Ever just the same....Ever a surprise, Ever as before, and Ever just as sure as the sun will rise.

Tale as old as time. Tune as old as song. Bittersweet and strange, finding you can change, learning you were wrong.

Certain as the sun rising in the east; tale as old as time, song as old as rhyme, Beauty and the Beast

Yeaaaaah. I think I know why it's bugging me so much.

Anyway: life is good right now, and I'm writing a damn story now. Batman: the Death of Joker.

It's going to be about the Dark Knight finally killing that sadistic SOB. Problem is, to everybody else, Batman has crossed the line. The Dark Knight will be alone and hunted...by the Police...by his friends in arms, like Robin, Nightwing, Batgirl....and, if there's enough interest, maybe even the JLA, and a Man of Steel...will get involved.

Stay tuned!

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/14078852/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/14078852/ Wed, 08 Aug 2007 17:37:03 PDT
I got an idea for a story because of it...only I've invented some things and moved it to Maine. I'm writing a Ghost story you see...and I'm really getting into it.

I beg everyone to read this story. I'm putting a lot into it and so far I think its good. It's a multipart story as usual...and I think you'll like it.


...Welcome home...they're waiting.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13990918/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13990918/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 18:38:14 PDT
The 1st player of this “game” starts with the topic “6 weird habits/facts/dislikes about yourself”
and people who get tagged must write in their journals about their 6 weird habits/facts/dislikes as well as state
this rule clearly.

I was tagged by NOOOOOO


In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list to their names. Don't forget to leave a
comment that says “you're tagged” in their deviant page comments and tell them to read yours.

1. I am completely in love with my girlfriend and would die for her in a fraction of a second

2. I liove writing and roleplaying and I am a nerd about thousands of things. I am a Jedi High Master

3. If I had a starship I would name it the Misericorde

4.I love anything pertaining to vampires. I am completely obsessed with them and study them openly and fully. I know uber amounts about them and the Historical Vlad the Impaler is my "idol"

5. "I am a completely and utterly hopeless romantic, who loves to watch and read sappy things and listen to love songs galore." This pertains to me...no i didn't quote from nizzie..it's mine...mine I tell you.

6. I hate getting my picture taking out of costume...it's just so annoying to have ME taken.

I tag








]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13877015/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13877015/ Wed, 25 Jul 2007 16:51:22 PDT so stay tuned for that one.

After that I'm going to be doing a multipart story based on The Phantom of the Opera, in which the Phantom is actually a vampire. It will be called Music of the Night. Think about it, and you know it makes sense.

Also, as before, I am still taking story requests, so if anybody wants me to write a story for them, give me your idea. Remember, based on video games, comics, the works. Please...no Naruto or Inuyasha: I am unfamiliar with those Animes purely because they disgust me, no offense to fans of them.

Also, not necessarily appropriate to this journal but relevant to modern times, I will be forming a Christian chat room here on DA, so if anybody wishes to join they can, just to chat, hang out, stuff like that.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13813527/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13813527/ Fri, 20 Jul 2007 20:11:55 PDT
"This above all: Love. Love each other as I have loved you."

Keep the faith, show the way, and be safe always. Amen.

Gloriam

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13735728/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13735728/ Sat, 14 Jul 2007 18:05:07 PDT ! OMG!

Now I'm supposed to tell who my characters love and why! OMG!

Now being as I usually rp with Vlad Dracula, and I have a billion seperate rp's with him [they're in seperate universes and so are seperate Dracula's lol] I'll list who I'm doing the rp with and who he loves in that one.

Vlad [rp with ] He's in love with Mary. He really has no idea why he has fallen for her, only that she makes him feel whole. She's redeeming him slowly from evil to good, and he loves her for it. Whenever she's around he just feels happy, and he wants to make her happy.

Vlad {rp with ] He's in love with Evael, his wife and a girl he took off the streets. he fell in love with her because she was like he was, alone, with nobody. He sensed a kindred spirit and took her in, and without meaning to he turned her. Ever since they have fallen deeply in love, and will go anywhere together, at all.

Vlad [rp with ] Vlad is in love with Lita, and fell for her because she fell in love with him first. She found HIM, and promised her friendship and support to him, and companionship. He fell in love with her, and they are happily in love.

Achilleron [rp with ] He's in love with Jade, and they are very soon to be married. He fell in love with her purely by mistake, and now that they are in love, he wants nothing more than to be hers forever. They've been through a lot together.


Now most embarrasing moments, and Vlad Dracula has one:

Vlad Dracula: [for all rp's] His defeat at the hands of Abraham Van Helsing.


Achilleron: His is not so much a embarrassing moment as much as one he will never forgive himself for. He was infected by the plague of vampirism, and turned Jade into one as well. They hunted down a cure and she took it, becoming an angel. He wasn't able to take the cure, and in a fit of rage brought on by a group of zealots, he attacked her and hurt her. She kissed him and he came to his senses, but he will always hate himself for nearly killing the woman he loves.


wooot done!

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13637484/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13637484/ Fri, 06 Jul 2007 17:43:47 PDT
For all of my loyal fans *crickets chirping* I am going to be writing multi part stories all summer, and most are Star Wars, involving my characters, the Jedi Knight Jaiden Firestrider, and his soon to be wife, Emilie Unilriggod, also a Jedi Knight.

The current story, The Nightmare of Kelas Kair, is coming to an end, and there are only a few parts left. Therefore I thought I'd give a preview of the up and coming story afterwards.

BTW if anybody wants to see what Jaiden looks like, look here :thumb58655807:. This image is by doggirlinu. take a look at her work, take a commission, and I promise you won't be dissapointed. It's worth every penny.

Aaaanyway, The next story in line is actually the wedding of Jaiden and Emilie, which will be a one part story. However, after that a new evil, born of ancient darkness, shall stalk the young jedi and his new bride, and he will be forced to fight an enemy that never should have been...and one that will crush him completely inside...and possibly out. This story shall be called *drum roll*...

Star Wars: Blood begets Blood. Coming soon.

That is...if I decide to let Jaiden survive the Aliens on Kelas Kair...



]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13555391/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13555391/ Sat, 30 Jun 2007 18:48:39 PDT
It's called Overlord, and it just came out. It's for the Xbox 360. if you ever had a Gamecube and played the game Pikmin, it's sort of like that, only you are the Overlord: A Dark Lord bent on world domination over a very twisted fantasy world. The Seven Heros who defeated the previous Dark Lord have become corrupt and are ruling with terror over the populace, and its your duty to free them...or slaughter everything. Your choice either way. To help you do this, you have Minions: Wicked little goblin bastards that kill whatever you tell them to. It's funny, because they are cute at the same time, in a twisted way. They scamper to bring treasure back to your character, each holding it up and saying "For you!' Or "For the Overlord!" or "For Master!" They will also pick up weapons for them, making them stronger, or armor. I had one little bugger pick up a pumpkin, carve it into a jack o lantern and then prop it up on his head.

Also, you get to customize your Dark Tower...and yes you do have a mistress *wink*. I'm not that far, but I highly recommend it to everyone.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13491346/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13491346/ Mon, 25 Jun 2007 21:55:05 PDT
I always believed that friends forgave you despite what you have done, what you hate yourself for and that they let go what you yourself can't. I am sorry to say that's not true. In fact, the person I care for like a brother refuses to let this die, and he refuses to let my heart try to heal. All he seems content with doing is smashing my nose into it and not letting it go. He cant even fathom the pain I'M in, all he cares about is his own hurt.

People, dont have an online relationship. I don't care how damn sure you are that it will function and that you two will live forever happily. You wont'. I don't care who you are, it won't work. Oh it will feel like you are in love online, and you will say "appearances don't matter'

But the sad truth is that they do. They matter far more than you think. If you aren't attracted to somebody physically you can't love them, I'm sorry but that is the cold hard facts. You don't love each other, you're only friends, however close.

You can't be in love with somebody unless you truly know them, and unless you see them often, you don't know them. So do all yourselves a favor and knock off the shit now. Don't let it turn into what my life did: where you do something bad and nobody will let you crawl above it ever again.

And another thing: Yes, I did use her. Yes, I did pretend she was someone else, and yes i know that is horrible. However, don't tell me I don't know what love is. How dare anyone even imply that? I know what love is, I know what this feeling inside of me is. I love someone, she's here, she cares for me, and damn it I know what I am feeling. I just had to go through hell to get here.

Now for you people who wont let it go, and I dont care who you are, family, friends, my damn youth group, if you won't let this go then you can go to hell. I'm done.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13476145/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13476145/ Sun, 24 Jun 2007 19:09:32 PDT
Also if you have a particular type of character you would like me to write about (Aka pirates, ninjas, that kind of stuff) That would be fine too. Stories will be free, lol I'm not going to charge: I'm just bored and need something to do.

My first story will be a request of my own: It will be based on the game F.E.A.R. for the Xbox 360. just reply to this message with what story you would like.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13464429/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13464429/ Sat, 23 Jun 2007 20:22:14 PDT Breaking my heart into a million pieces,
Like you always do.
And you, don't mean to be cruel,
You never even knew about the heartache I've been going through.
Well I try and try to forget you girl, but it's just so hard to do
Everytime you do That Thing You Do.

Well I know all the games you play
And I'm gonna find a way to let you know that, you'll be mine someday,
Cause we can be happy can't you see
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you, keep you here with me.
Cause I try and try to forget you girl, but it's just so hard to do
Everytime you do That Thing You Do.

Well I don't ask for much girl,
But I know one thing's for sure
It's your love I haven't got girl
And I just can't take it anymore.

Cause we can be happy can't you see
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you, keep you here with me
Cause it hurts me so just to see you go around with someone new
And if I know you you're doing that thing
Every day just doing that thing
I can't take you
Doing That Thing You Do!


Woot,
anyway I got an Xbox 360 today and HOLY SHIT it rocks

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13458004/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13458004/ Sat, 23 Jun 2007 09:49:03 PDT Now listen to me very closely. I did what was right by me, for once in my life I've done something that's made ME happy. Don't for one second think that I did this without feeling guilty or horrible about myself, but I'm getting past that now. I finally have the ability, the CHANCE to be happy for once and I'm not letting that slip by, and anybody who disagrees with me can quite frankly take thier opinion and send it on a one way trip right up thier ass.
IF you are my friends you will accept what I have done and leave it be, I don't want to hear your bloody bleeding heart concerns about my life or how I'm leading it.

Not that anybody cares but yesterday was my birthday. I'm 18.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13411723/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13411723/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 20:19:12 PDT
"I know the sound of each rock and stone
And I embrace what others fear.
You are not to roam in this forgotten place...
Just the likes of me are welcome here.
Everything breathes, and I know each breath.
For me it means life
For others, it's death.
It's perfectly balanced, perfectly planned.
It's more than enough for this man.

Like every tree stands on its own
Reaching for the sky I stand alone.
I share my world, with no one else,
All by myself, I stand alone.

I've seen your world, with these very eyes,
Don't come any closer, don't even try.
I've felt all the pain, heard all the lies,
But in my world there's no compromise.

Like every tree stands on its own
Reaching for the sky I stand alone.
I share my world, with no one else,
All by myself, I stand alone."

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13270526/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/13270526/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 20:45:47 PDT Here's Drac (I may post my others later)

Name: Vlad Dracula III
Age: 500 some odd years
Birthday: 1431 (I'm gonna say June 6th)
Race: White, Romanian
Gender: Male, duh.
Weight: 180ish
Height: 6 feet
Hair Color: ebony black
Eye color: Blood red
Hair Style: long
Abilities: Vampiric powers on crack. He's the Lord of All Vampires. Very sensual
Weapons of choice: A single broadsword
Voice pitch: deep, luscious, seductive voice
Strength: Very strong, able to at LEAST lift two Metric tons
Personality strengths: very loving and kind to those who show him loyalty and affection.
Personality Weaknesses: very vengeful, and merciless to those who break the law and hurt the innocent.
Personality when drunk: Never drinks....wine...
Past History: Prince of Romania, then after his "Death" became King of Vampires
What actions would be taken if a friend was mortally wounded or killed: Hunt down and kill those who killed his friend in a suitably evil way, most likely flaying them alive and then impaling them slowly.
Clothes: Regal, usually wearing a nicely made summer suit
Phobias: losing those he loves
Favorite Food/Drinks: Blood blood and more blood
Least favorite food/drinks: anything other than blood
Love interest: His wife (who differs from Rp to Rp)
Friendships: differs from RP to RP
Enemies: Anybody trying to take over the world, those who hurt the innocent (yes my Dracula is usualy good)
Relationships with other people: good as long as they are honorable
Attractiveness: Gorgeous beyond all belief. Very sensual and with an allure that most men would kill to have.
Most used quotes: "Please tell me you aren't trying. All you are doing is boring me"
Most underused quotes: "I am the Dragon"

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/11280088/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/11280088/ Mon, 01 Jan 2007 19:35:41 PST
Anyway....I'm extremely happy. My book is coming along great, I'm feeling good, and my Christmas kicked ass. So pretty much everything is much good. ^^

I beat The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess and it is quite simply the best game I have ever played. If you don't have it, get it NOW.
And I bought a PS2, and Final Fantasy XII, and it is a close second for best game I have ever played.
Wow...just wow.

]]> ~SanguineAngel http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/11089482/ http://SanguineAngel.deviantart.com/journal/11089482/ Sat, 16 Dec 2006 23:42:34 PST I don't know how else to describe it, or what the point is in the first place. I think with the Christmas season coming up, I feel somewhat content with life, although longing for what I love and want. I have recently been almost obsessed with the Phantom of the Opera, because it seems to just...move me. It's difficult to explain, but I feel it. I cry every time I see the ending, and obviously that makes me moosy, but I could care less. I'm a man, yes, and I am heterosexual, but why should I not cry? It bleeds out all the pain and sorrow, and there has been no shortage of that.
But, I recently began reading the book, the original story. I was somewhat disturbed by it. It is much the same as the broadway, or the movie, with the notable exception the Raoul actually BEATS Christine. That shocked me, as she still goes with him at the end.
But nontheless, I have been in an EXTREMELY romantic, sentimental mood.
It might be the season, it most likely is the realization that I have lots of people who love me, and the realization that there are people out there that I would willingly give my life for. And the knowledge that I am not alone.
Also, I think I may have found my calling in life....
All my life, but with increasing frequency this year, people have been coming to me with thier tears, and I've always helped them. I have come to the conclusion that maybe this is what I was born to do. To help others, to show those who believe they have nothing love. I will do my best to bring happiness to all who need me. So, if anybody needs to talk to me about a problem they need help with, feel free to send me a note.
God Bless.

]]> ~SanguineAngel